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spacebell · 7 months ago

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Two weeks ago I had a lot a lot of anxiety, now I have come down from that high and feel with very low energy

#it first started a week before my period #and it was the mix of a lot of things #now my period is gone I feel tired #I know that I have to do any kind of excersice to get more feel good hormones #but the last time I was going to go out for a walk it rained #so now I will try it again #and to make it easier I will not change into workout clothes bc in my brain that means having to do an actual workout class or go to the gym #instead I will go out in my sweatpants and some comfy clothes and try to be outside for 30 mins to an hour #just put my headphones on and go for a walk #then hopefully that will make me want to go for a jog or something #I haven’t had that feeling in a while and I’m not a fan #mariana.txt

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phagodyke · 25 days ago

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the masculine urge to take a saucepan off thr draining board and bash myself repeatedly over the head with it until I pass out and no longer have to experience feeling Bad 😍

#struggling to tolerate this one ngl its fucking dire this weekend. i just cant do this man #thr things i would fucking do for attention please. just one person to notice and care in the slighest i feel like im losing my fucking #mind out here how does every single person who has ever mattered to me in my lifr see me in distress and choose to ignore it or maybe they #dont even recognise im ij distress in the first place i dont know whats worse i dont think i hide it well at all im just so done #listen like ultimately its fucking fine. i will get myself through it like ive gotten myself through everything else in my fuckijg life #i dont even feel bad that often these days im doing so so so much better and its so much more tolerable to only have to deal with this #once or twice a week instead of it being a struggle every single day like i dont think i could go back to feeling like that again ever i #dont know how i managed to get througyh it before jesus fucking christ. but i can deal with it i can deal with this #ik ill feel fine tomorrow. its just thr fact im so desperately fucking alone with it that makes it so much worse than it has to be #i fucking hate repression i hate being so incapable of expressing myself that its easier for me to injure myself than it is to talk about #how i feel to anyone i hate being trapped in this stupif fucking torture labyrinth and not knowing how to get out of it and never being #given a single avenue anything to hold onto i hate having to do it alone every single fucking time and when i do try i just freeze out #entirely i cant form a coherent thought my brain enters total fucking shutdown pure static white noise fuzz and i dont know why please #its so unfair i dont think its that much to want a little comfort. just once just for someone to stay with me while i cry it doesnt have #to be more than that i just dont want to be alone like this i just want to feel safe around someone just close to someone just once #and well ill survive without it bc i always have i guess. so far at least. and there are many things im grateful for and i do in general #feel pretty okay my life is pretty good at times even. i feel so pathetic and stupid and ashamed for even feeling like this #but do i have to go my entire life without ever experiencing any kind of real intimacy with another person emotionally that is #i mean physical is nice too and they go hand in hand in some ways but i just want to feel seen and safe over anything.im tired #i feel like i try.but not hard enough i know its all my fault really but i dont know how to try any harder but nothing will ever change if #i dont i cant expect anyone to do anything if i cant rven communicate in thr first place. oh i dont want to think about it anymore #i have a headache from crhing and its not even 8pm ugh. okay. well it is what it is.#ill breathe until i calm down and then tidy up whatever i left in the kitchen and get my work stuff ready for tmr #and polish my boots maybe. and read and go to bed at 9:30 i think. and ill feel fine in the morning #my fault for thinking about it earlier i know i shouldve nipped it earlier on its such an easy spiral to fall into i need to get better #it happens. okay anyway. no cause for concern im good guys. weakly thumbs up at the camera all covered in blood #my period is late actually thats probably all this is lmao. makes sense thinking abt it #cant wait for it to finally start and all earthly desire to leave my body so i never experience pain again amen #.vent #ignore this sorry for being mentally ill im not even that mentally ill anymore so no excuse rly ummmm. bit embarrassing innit.

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sxnctxxry · 2 months ago

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#you know i used to be so anxious before starting this school year #none of my friends would be in the same section as me. and i didnt know why i chose STEM in the first place and i was starting to regret it #i was so scared to start school again and i just wanted it to constantly suspend #but now i feel the exact opposite #ive been looking forward to going to school now because my section is filled with so many awesome people #i feel like im being surrounded with so many great people and they inspire me so much!#i've only been with them for a few weeks but everyone is so kind and so smart and so passionate too #and they're so fun too that at least once every day i laugh so hard my face turns red and my tummy hurts #like dude i love my classmates so much 😭😭😭 maybe its because im on my period but i feel so strongly about this right now #like i love my section so much and i like going to school because of who i attend my classes with its so !!!!!!#im so happy im so grateful #a while ago i read a poem i wrote a few months ago about how i feel like im stagnant and not moving #ive only been in this section for a few weeks but i feel like ive already grown so much being here #i think maybe thats what was intended all along #oh im so :( happy

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scatteredcloud · 4 months ago

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Can’t afford my gender affirming beers so I guess I have to start smoking the eight I bought like 6 months ago before I promptly stopped smoking

#joking #mostly #unless …?#eaii #fuck I’m so #I can’t afford anything because I had to pay off my credit with what I was able to save from my last pay check #I asked my ‘gf’ to pay groceries this week (for the first time literally ever) and it turned into a fight #I’m back as a wage slave which is good because yay income #but I haven’t worked a job where the 30 min break is enforced in. well actually ever #it was definitely supposed to be at my first job but my manager regularly took hour+ long breaks and so he let the rest of us do the same #and god fucking damn #I cannot believe that by law a 6hr shift only warrants a 30 min unpaid break #it took me 10 min to get out to get food 10 min to get food and eat and then 10 min to get back #what the hell!!#like I already didn’t want to kms because I didn’t have time to make food to bring before my shift so I had to spend my last dollars on food #I took as many hours as possible this week but we’re at the beginning of a pay period so I don’t actually get paid for another two weeks #idk what I’m going to do #I feel fucking terrible begging my dad for money #maybe I should start doing sex for hire again #any money I put away to save is always used up to pay for bills #which isn’t a unique problem but is a vicious cycle to escape

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sleepinglionhearts · 1 year ago

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I can just see it now, I'll get asked by my manager what I mean by saying my period started "unexpectedly" when I come in tomorrow and she'll probably also say, again, that many people just deal with it when it hurts, you know, why not just push through it??

Ma'am they stOPPED REFILLING MY BIRTH CONTROL PRESCRIPTION THAT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE CONSISTENTLY TAKEN UNTIL SOME TIME NEXT SUMMER, IT WAS UNE X PEC TE D

#[screaming into the void]#yeah idk what happened with this one the auto refill thing was supposed to go thru today but now it's like #oh u don't have ANY refills left!! contact ur doctor!!!#and I'm sitting here like my doctor told me to take this continuously FOR THE NEXT 6 MONTHS #DOES THIS NOT MEAN I HAVE ADEQUATE REFILLS FOR THE PRESCRIBED TREATMENT PLAN???!#anyway everything hurts and i didn't even get to like.. properly prepare myself for it #didn't they have a study recently about the covid vaccines and menstrual issues bc I'm pretty sure it fucked me up #like. the covid vaccines are very necessary things. given the choice I'd still choose to be vaccinated.#but also my insane period issues started after the first round of vaccines ;;w;;#not that my menstrual cycles have ever been particularly normal or bearable but yknow when it gets worse it gets worse #anyway. just. dealing w what will inevitably be questioning hell and the guilt to follow after #this is all right before evaluations week too so that's a good look

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pallases · 8 months ago

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#i am feeling so ill rn for no reason and i need to shower and wash my hair so bad but i can tell if i do it rn it’ll make the #lightheadedness ten times worse and there is a nonzero chance i will just pass out in there 😭#best guess is bc my period started today and yeah the first two days suck but they’re not usually This bad #personal #also this is the last thing i need rn it’s tech week and all rehearsals lately have been going/are going to go till 10 pm and i have no tim #to do all my assignments and my probability prof assigned a lab today that’s due TMRW AT MIDNIGHT? <- we usually get a class period btwn #it being assigned and the deadline and he’s not even giving us until the next class period to do it now like why is it due at midnight #instead of noon the next day… also i have not one but two exams immediately following this weekend and i really want to see my family for #easter but that sounds like such a bad idea im so unproductive at home and i’ll be busier than usual when i go home on top of that bc easte #and one of the exams is circuits for which exams are worth 90% of our grade and im averaging a 74% at the moment which is NOT #promising and. AAAAA #also have an exam this thursday which imnot nearly as worried abt but still. and i have to meet w someone abt a scholarship tmrw during my #free period so i Still can’t work on that stupid lab due tmrw night like. this sucks okay ‼️#the engineering chronicles #the music chronicles #i know it was only a matter of time before musical started stressing me out but 😭 please give me back the joys of saturday’s rehearsal…#oh also there’s ANOTHER probability lab due day after easter and same day as circuits exam and the prof is the same so he knows full well #what he’s doing like. why are you not giving us the usual period in btwn for these anymore fuck you <3 #OH ALSO soldering qualification i need to do for like 3 hours wednesday the night before my thursday exam. nearly forgot abt that one i hat #it hereeee #soldering i could reschedule tho which i might do. but ive already pushed it back once so im like :/ do i really wanna do that #idk. still feel sick as fuck and still need to do physics prelab tonight 😭 it shouldn’t take long but i really don’t want to get up and #stare at my computer even more ifeel so awful rn #ANYWAY. sorry that was oversharing even for me i am just 😐 you know.

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piedoesnotequalpi · 6 months ago

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Man my body really just wants to make me suffer whenever I have important stuff going on huh

#isabel.vent #first i got absolutely nerfed by allergies when i was seeing alex + my best friend a few weeks ago #and now I'm moving tomorrow and my period is wreaking havoc on my legs and my stomach #oof ouch :(#time to lie down for a bit before i start packing

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cacaitos · 1 year ago

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yeah sorry the incest on dextah is making me a little nauseous

#txt #hm ig i just let it pass last week to say that's mostly the i didnt see it coming factor thats getting on my nerves like im not #kidding i started sweating from annoyance that doesnt happen often lol #ik i posted the utena-oniisamae drawing like that same week ik im reading rn KS ik was reading shounen no abyss but you may #have noticed those are neither +60 hours of investment and slow torture of ooh ahh perhaps 😳 like quite pointedly not like that.#and before anyone comes aah is it too problematic for ppl now? he kills ppl bla bla when did i say i signed up for that.#i signed up for the murder period and first i dont want dexter wanting nobody second for whatever miracle this time #i very much prefer the p more normal options of rita or idk. lumen was okay i liked her story enough i think

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todayisafridaynight · 1 year ago

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Nooo the trans allegory is also a Big one for me in that song, but I know not everybody is about Trans Aoki so I figured it went well with his disabilities regardless. And like yeah blah blah basic whatever, idc y'know, I'm here to enjoy life so imma listen to music people don't like 😂🤣

But you're so real for the trans Aoki thoughts okay.... I love both cis and trans interpretations of the Boy bc he's fits very well in both categories. It's all just spice y'know!! You sprinkle some of this... Some of that... And tomorrow you make a new dish! Love moving head canons around for funsies

Anyway ty for validating my music choices 🫡 good luck charging your phone

i dont really hc charas any particular sexuality or gender since i always feel weird about it its called being BORING its what I AM but its the way i was playin y7 and just kept jokin bout it every time the game gave me a chance until the very last scene then i was just like.. hm... feels less like a joke to me now... its just what my eyes perceive at this point.. sorry...

but i got you covered with music choices man !!!! i like most music even if it can be considered 'overplayed' or 'generic' like idk man... if it makea me feel ima listen to it..

#snap chats #love how i forgot the Eyes lyrics to Body when it's deadass the first line.. STUPID ASS !!!!!!!#but anyways. yeah it been a hot year since i talked bout trans aoki LMAO #honestly if it wasnt for the fact i saw korean artists draw aoki with top scars (and specifying they were TS scars) then id prob just like #be quiet about it. cause most of the time i was just jokin like the whole injections bit and his voice being hoarse in eng #and nasally in jp... lol.... the jokes were being lined up for me... and then he went and changed his name #and got surgery that made him feel more at home in his body... LIKE THEY PROVIDE NON-TRANS REASONS WHY HE DOES THIS #I KNOW but thats why i just kept /jokin/ bout it cause i was like 'lmao' yk. Lmao congrats your accidental trans rep is republican #AND THAT'S WHY IT'S FUNNY TO HC HIM AS TRANS CAUSE HE SUCKS !!!!! i want more shitty people as trans rep #im p sure im the only one who 'openly' hcs him trans but not even. like i remember twitter was Allegedly mad at me for drawing aoki a lot #and they made a point bout me makin him trans but like... i never even 'publicly' made him trans..#when i'd draw aoki without a shirt i'd give him scars but those were from his lung surgery.. lmao...#not my fault the scars look Like That... cause i like drawing scars leave me alone...#my DB followers know i was obsessed with drawing yamcha's leg scar from when his leg was broken #Truly just a coincidence but also not cause it Was lowkey intentional but anyways.. lol...#i remember the period where people were askin me bout the hc.. hehe...#My Apologies for going on the Trans Aoki rant i still do very much like to joke bout it with myself.... it was too real to me...#every time i think of The Specifics i start to get like 👁️👁️ because then it gets too real so i gotta stop before i start crying....#it's not that the HC is personal or deep to me or anything it's just funny <- in denial for the bit #anyway.. i havent been able to be productive all day so !! time to start i have a really hectic week and its only getting worse (╯▽╰ )#thanks for letting me ramble... and feel validated for being delulu...#lowkey funny that While True you said not everyone's about the HC Which Is True it's why i dont talk about it a lot #but like... Not To Be Presumptuous And Self-Important but i do remember being one o the first people to bring it up with other aoki fans..#imagine me not being abot my own hc.. or at least one i stand heavily by... lmao..

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milo-is-rambling · 2 years ago

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Was high and sleepy but remembered I hadn’t taken my pill yet so I got out of bed and ate even tho I didn’t want to and then took my meds and also remembered that my sheets were in the drier and then put them on my bed everyone be proud of me

#forgot a couple days ago now my streak is like three days but its been pretty much two weeks #also putting a fitted sheet on ur bed when u have two peeling itchy tattoos on the backs of ur legs. hell on earth. but moisturizing ur legs #and knowing ur set up for ur period to start in a few days without worrying about the sheets u like getting ick on them. heaven.#except all the grease spots from the moisturizer my tattoo artist gave me for the first few days #but my legs are peeling and itchy and I am just staring so hard at my legs at every moment I remember I have tattoos bc I want to pick so #bad but I can’t and I WONT. but like oughhhhh skin flakes except they’re colored now and it’s a perfect shape all peeling and I just want it #even and flat and oughhh but I won’t pick I’m not going to pick they were expensive and I don’t want to ruin them I want to love them foreve #it’s like a month of healing time vs the whole time I’m alive and a corpse I will have cool ink like hello of course I can’t pick but fuck #I want to peel it all off so bad #okay anyways. going to sleep now. going to get high as fuck again and pass out before my mom gets home

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fingertipsmp3 · 2 years ago

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Dear God please don’t let my period coincide with my first day at my new job…..

#new cycle begins like.. end of this week probably? and idk when i’m starting work #i found out on monday that i got the job and they said it’d probably take ‘five working days’ for HR to clear everything #my line manager said that her best estimate was 2 weeks #which would mean HOPEFULLY i wouldn’t have to experience the two things at once #like my god. obviously i’ve Had my period at work before. it happens. but like. on the FIRST DAY??#i need to establish a level of competence before i start passing out in the stockroom #also if i know the job a little better it’ll be easier to do it while my uterus is trying to murder me. so there’s that #i just don’t want to be tossed into a completely new experience headfirst while feeling like i am dying #can i at least not be there on my absolute worst pain day. that would be nice #personal

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massyworld · 1 month ago

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Magnesium can help with restless leg syndrome symptoms too. My dad uses a cream version on his calves.

I will also say, make sure you're getting at least 20% of your daily calories as (ideally healthy) fats, because those influence your estrogen levels, and especially make sure to have a decent caloric intake (I did not, for the better part of this past year, due to reflux/PPI related issues making me drastically restrict my diet, and my period straight up stopped. until my calories increased again)

Also, something that reduces your pain tolerance is buildup of arachidonic acid which happens from consuming too much omega 6 fats in proportion with omega 3 fats. Ideally the max is a 4:1 ratio of omega 6 to 3, but the more omega 3 the better. Because flaxseed has more omega 3's than 6s (fairly uncommon IMO), if you sprinkle it on stuff, it'll improve the ratio for that food. So you can eat something like 2 avocados if you have the right amount of flaxseed with it, and your skin won't break into any inflammatory state (like mine did when I ate peanuts everyday (they have no omega 3's and like a crapton of omega 6, so it's just a recipe for BAD bodily inflammation) or increased my avocados to 2 daily without adding any flaxseed. Here is a link to a chart, and in the top comment is a link on how much flaxseed to add to some of the nuts on the chart to balance out.

I got rather off topic, but basically stan flaxseed ✨

Pre-menstrual depression is always depicted as like "He He! I had a box of icecream bars and cried while watching the Titanic!" But in reality, it's more like, "I'm standing the edge of an abyss. There is nothing good inside of me, I'm filled with rage and desperation."

It's crazy that being told how to deal with that is never a part of anyone's menstrual sex education.

#i dont tend to notice symptoms the week before my period. i do have to take 2 tylenol and 2 advil as soon as i notice my period has started #and if i dont in time then i get debilitating pain despite the meds.#i tend to only get pain for the first 24-36 hours #and then very light flow on days 4-7

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hauntedhappenings · 3 months ago

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save me 91 day birth control please please please

#of course i have to wait the rest of the week until i can start taking it but like im dying here #trying to skip a period on month 3 of birth control is stupid it turns out! dont do this it was a bad idea #because now im on day 14 of bleeding (though it was was just spotting for the first 3 of those) and im going to wait until fucking sunday #so that will at least 20 days until my body will know it should be stopping much less fucking do it #but its all going to be great im in so much pain rn but then!! then 91 day cycle <333 #seasonal periods save me #it will be 4 a year i will be cured (begging)#anyway this is tmi but you chose to read this so thats on you lol #also if you are someone with wild periods/starting birth control like me please talk to your doctor or at least do some curory googling #before fucking around with taking your pills #turns out you are supposed to wait 6-8 months before even CONSIDERING skipping a period. not less than 4 ahem i make bad choices #but also if you like me and having fucking awful period while on birth control: talk to your doctor!! it is not supposed to be this bad #on birth control they are supposed to be short and light and not particularly painful and not completely ruining your quality of life #if they are your birth control is not working for you!! things you learn i guess #i have certainly learned my lesson ill tell you that #dont be like me 👍

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that-one-poison-trainer · 3 months ago

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hey sorry I was pretty quiet all day yesterday I was figuring out how to download Mario The Music Box, might live blog myself playing it honestly

#pokemon irl #pokeblogging #rotomblr #Long ooc rant coming up #So first I wanna apologize for not being super active on Tumblr last Muse Mixup I was unexpectedly busy that day #Also about this whole Mario and the Music Box thing #my original plan was for Viper to do a live blog of her playing the game for the first time #but the thing is that I haven't even ever played the game before I'm honestly just as blind as her #so I thought I would be free to download and start playing today #but nope because I'm also unexpectedly busy today as well and I will be for a long time #I also have a two day period of being free to play this damn game before I have to go on a vacation for a week and there for won't be able #to access the game at all #So mark my words this will be a thing that Viper does one day #but truth be told idk when