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You said something about Azul's darling having children healing his childhood trauma. ANGST WARNING!! AND BULLYING!
This gave me an idea, he was bullied for being slow and different from other kids from the original plot. In this yandere au, that can be twisted into how he's such a loser, he'll probably never be good enough for a darling to accept him. He's so fat, not even a kind and pitiful darling, would want him. How the other mers think he's so stupid that he'd fumble trying to catch his darling and that they'll just be claimed by another, cooler, yandere. Laughing at him all the while so and flexing how their wonderful talents and skills would be enough to steal away a darling's heart, unlike him.
I can imagine how much this'll break his self esteem and brand him as a "weak yandere" to the other fishies. Azul would strive to be the opposite of all this, he would plan to take away their special abilities to "win a darling over" and make it his own, as his unique magic forms through sheer spite. He's so jaded and the thoughts of not being good enough to have a darling still ingrained in him. He probably won't fall in love with MC until after his overblot. Having the internal belief that, no darling would want a loser like him.. He probably won't care that MC is a darling at first and is just planning to use her as leverage against the other yanderes. Hence, taking over her only place to live. It benefits him as well since he'll be able to open another branch of the Mostro lounge and attract the other yanderes.
But then something changes. MC does something while they are inside the blot space. He realizes that.. she sees more in him than anyone ever had. Even if MC says so only in passing cause she's reasonably pissed- He can't help but focus on those specific words, ignoring the rest of her rant. Suddenly, he feels whole, and he knows she doesn't want to share this feeling with anyone. Suddenly...
He's already drafting a contract after their visit in the coral sea museum, giggling to himself as he marks that day their first date....
I hope you find this idea as interesting as I did!! I love Azul đ
I really love asks for the yandereverse, because there are so many ways that the charasâ backstories can change. Azulâs bullying making him insecure when it comes to his darling is perfect, and it kind of works with how the Coral Sea sees yanderes and darlings. I also love Azul, I love me an evil mafia man.
The Coral Sea is an anti-darling rights area, so yanderes have more freedom to do what they want in order to take their darlings for themselves. And yanderes are supposed to be strong and tough, how else do they keep their darlings safe and with them? The kids of the Coral Sea know that well.Â
And Azul wasnât that. He was slow, and weak and a scaredy-catfish crybaby who hid inside a pot. HE was supposed to be a yandere? That was genuinely surprising to nearly all his former classmates. And they made sure he knew that. Their teasing was relentlessâŚ.
âAre you sure they werenât wrong? Youâre not supposed to be slow and stupid if youâre like us.â
âHeâll probably lose his darling.â
âIâd hate to be them, heâs so fat and icky.â
âŚ.And at the same time they rub salt into the wound. After all, theyâre fast and strong and smart and talented and good looking. Theyâll get their darlings no problem, while he will be left alone and broken hearted watching his darling being with someone else. All the bullying broke him down over a while, he started to think it was right.Â
But despite all the bullying, Azul still tries his hardest to stop being the weak yandere his peers deemed him as. And in a form of vengeance, heâll take away the special abilities they shoved in his face to remind him how inferior he was, After all, the yanderes that bullied him have their own insecurities that they want to hide from their darlings, so heâll take their very best away to make himself better for his future darling. Heâll make himself better so that whoever he falls for wonât have to be disgusted by him. (While making his bullies as disgusting to their darlings as they said heâd be .)
But⌠He just canât forget the years of bullying ingrained into him. What darling would want him? What darling would love him when heâs just a dim-witted octopus? That denial blinds him up till when he finally meets you.Â
Once heâs aware of you being a darling he sees the opportunity, not love. (Because he doesnât deserve you, so why bother?). After all, what would all your yanderes do or pay to have you for themselves? No price is too high when it comes to a darling, and so, getting you under his thumb is his first priority. Getting you out of Ramshackle and under his control/ownership will make this so much easier. But thereâs one big problem.Â
You wonât sign his contracts. You told him youâd rather never go home than sign one. I imagine after that point, he starts trying to find loopholes to get you to sign. And your friends are his best bet. So he tricks Ace, Deuce and Grim into being indebted to him, so that youâll feel obligated to help them. But that didnât work, because (to be honest, youâre grateful for the alone time) you just let them be stuck in a contract with him. Fortunately, Crowley got involved and you had to go into a contract with him.Â
But unfortunately, instead of accepting his offer to stay at Octavinelle till the time limit was up, you proceeded to stay over in Savanaclaw. Heâd never been more angry before in his life. The idea of you sleeping with and doing seven-only-knows with those beasts never made him more jealous. The smell of Leona Kingscholar on your skin made him want to add onto the debt the prince owed in vengeance.Â
But not wanting to spoil anything more, in the blot space your attempts to pull him out of his self-loathing, change him. He sees that you care about him, that you donât think heâs a not a stupid, ugly octopus and that instead you see him as something more. Someone whoâs hardworking, intelligent, and even cute. And that moment, he truly realizes his love for you. Youâre not like the others, you see something in him that no one ever had before. He doesnât get that youâre saying it only for the sake of your, and maybe a little of his, life. Those words echo in his head. You love him, all his bullies were wrong, his darling isnât disgusted by him. He feels wholeâŚ.
âŚ..And he doesnât want to share this feeling. This complete joy.
He needs you to be his. Heâll draft another contract, one intended to make sure no one else will ever be able to steal you from him and ensure youâll be by his side, on the land and in the sea. The museum will be like a date to him, hearing your kind words about his childhood appearance makes that younger self cry with joy.
You, quite literally, became the center of his world. And he intends to hold that same place as he becomes a part of your world. Whether you like it or not.
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more homicipher human au hcs for the other characters (the ones in the hospital w human! mr. crawling)
mr. silvair
heâs a research assistant at a very low-key, borderline abandoned hospital. he likes doing crazy experiments during his downtime, so he didnât want to study at a top-class hospital with high demands.
he wears a lab coat and tinted safety goggles at all times, hiding and protecting his eyes.
heâs not a paranormal enthusiast like mr. scarletella, but he does keep up with the news. heâs personally very fascinated at the increase of dead bodies around the area. helps with his research.
heâd love to get a hold of a real monster one day. not for any noble reason like handing them over to authorities, but to experiment on them.
lo and behold, one of the patients in the hospital, mr. crawling, brings in someone who looks suspiciously like the serial killer wanted by the police at the moment. how exciting.
mr. chopped
a cheerful patient from the hospital. heâs paralyzed from the neck down due to a series of incidents. heâs only alive due to the results of mr. silvairâs unethical medical technology.
while heâs a little insecure about needing help from mr. silvair and other medical staff, he remains pretty positive about his situation.
since he canât move much, heâs very particular with the things he can do to himself, like getting a haircut. it makes him feel a lot better.
enthusiastic about the mcâs arrival. if you help assist him, like feeding him or even combing his hair. heâll be eternally grateful.
he especially enjoys it when heâs being wheeled around on his special wheelchair. heâs also pretty well versed around the area, so he can tell you where things are if mr. crawling isnât already helping.
mr. stitch
he actually works at the hospital. but because that hospital literally has no standards, he gets away with doing stupid stuff like pranking the patients and sneaking in funny toys to kill his boredom.
he looks like a patient despite actually being a staff member bc heâs gotten several skin grafts through the years. what can i say? heâs a reckless guy.
he often bothers mr. crawling, but mr. stitch thinks theyâre friends.
heâs actually quite lonely. a lot of his old friends in school shunned him because his pranks went too far. he just wants to make people laughâŚ
so when the monster!mc enjoys his pranks, he tries his best to come up with crazier ones to get her to laugh some more.
he thinks sheâs really fun and believes he found a like-minded spirit in her.
but when he does pull the crazy bus prank on her, mr. crawling goes ballistic. mr. crawling wasnât all that bothered by mr. stitch up until he decided to mess with the mc.
the incident leaves him with the need for another skin graft. this time, courtesy of mr. silvair.
other human au hcs for more context:
#no drawings this time#got lazy#share your own hcs as well! i love hearing them#homicipher#homicipher au#mr silvair#mr chopped#mr stitch#homicipher mc#mr. stitch#mr crawling#mr. crawling#mr. silvair#mr. chopped#mr scarletella#mr. scarletella
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The ending was so disappointing for me.
It didnât feel completed, which I guess is the point because they want to make additional series but it still doesnât do anything for the current show.
With the end of season one there was a big even and large character interaction that felt integral to the characters themselves. It had a cliff hanger but I had a sense of loss, excitement, I felt satisfied.
I donât here. What did we get?
Jinx is suicidal now and teamed up with Ekko to help save the city. Then she decided to sacrifice herself to try and kill the Beast.
Victor became a bit of a villain for about an episode and a half before being okay. Now heâs just fucking gone.
Jayce was annoying to be for half of this season because the man doesnât think. Didnât come up with a good plan to get rid of the gates. He has a sweet heart-to-heart with Victor to get him to stop and now heâs also just fucking gone.
Caitlyn feels like she didnât really grow at all. She went from being spoiled in season one to being a dirty cop, to still not really learning the shit the underprivileged deal with. She was honestly my least favorite this entire show. I didnât enjoy her one bit. Most of the time she was on screen, I was yelling about her being stupid, classist, a dictator, or just annoying.
I actually donât have much to say about Vi. Her characterization has been pretty stable the entire show and her fuck ups come from her insecurities and inability to be alone. The only thing that bothers me is how at the end of the finale she doesnât seem to show any depression over completely losing Vander and now her sister, her only remaining family members. Sheâs just âitâs all okay as long as I have my cop girlfriendâ. It just doesnât sit with me well.
Ekko doesnât really have anyone now. His family unit has been completely broken now. He lost his mentor, he lost Jinx, it doesnât show him reconnecting with Vi, because heâs all alone during the vigil. A good amount of Zaunites were killed in the attack against Ambessa. Heâs just there.
Mel doesnât have an arc either. We donât get to see how shit affects her, even though the major part of this episode is about her mother Ambessa and her death. After she dies, we see her cradling her body before Viktor starts making things get fucky. Then we see her in one of her motherâs boats holding her mask in different clothes. Iâm sure that means that she has taken place of her mother in their command. But again we donât have a satisfying end.
The entirety of the end of this series is open ended and not in a satisfying way at all. I want more, but this series is over and we arenât getting more. Now we have to wait for an entire new series. I would have been happy with this ended with a âletâs see what happens nextâ, but instead it ends with âyou HAVE to watch the next one if you want to feel satisfied about any of these charactersâ. I donât like that. I donât want to wait at least another three years to feel satisfied. That was your job to put it in your goddamn finale.
#sarma speaks#sarma rambles#arcane#jinx arcane#league of legends#vi arcane#caitlyn arcane#ekko arcane#mel arcane#arcane ambessa#viktor arcane#arcane jayce#caitvi
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how to write vent post title that does not come off as self-pitying and or accusatory (because it's NOT !)
#sorry tumblr is like a diary to me idk what i'll do w this blog after i (sigh) inevitably move on#either way#im convinced everyone hates me again :3 but realistically no one cares about me even enough to hate me im just stupid and self centred đ#if anything me TYPING these posts is actuvely turning people against me#again with the assumptions that people care enough to read these đ fhskfbhsjfkg#i hate that i care so much what people online think of me cuz irl it's like. whatever#but here there are so many cool people who i admire and would love to be friends with im always hyperparanoid of everything i do#and still i manage to overstep and come off as annoying#like obvs you're allowed to hate me even if you're someone i look up to like that's your perogative#but i hate worrying about IF anyone hates me#oughgh this is easier irl because usually people send off pretty clear signals if they dont like you#but online (esp with how prickly this fandom is) i don't know whether im being insecure and reading into things or whether people just don't#like me (which again is fine i would just rather know if anyone gets it)#i figure art is the one way i can get people to like me đ which sounds kinda pathetic because irl i KNOW im liked and capable!#fandom has just become such a big part of my personality that i cant detach my self worth from it#and i do love art and drawing and such i hate that even if i know people my stuff EYE dont and it doesnt mean anything or act as a signifier#of my friendships#wow .... i really am my own therapist ..... i should shut up#the industrial revolution and its consequences (jofandom)#i think these posts are half self exploration half ... almost self harm? because sometimes im so derogatory about myself on purpose in a#'you're worthless' way. but at the same time it's cathartic and i always feel better having probed at my feelings and gotten them in order#not to do a complete 180 but it's MY post and JO LONDON IN *12* DAYS!!!!!!!! AHH i'm sooo excited if it doesnt live up to my expectations i#may cry a little. and there will be another vent post from me !#sometimes i wonder if anyone actually reads these đ#vee rambles
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ughh why do i have to have njghtmares about them
#in it i was fighting w him over text and then hetm gangsd uep on me#sorry uemin so tired#i have been having a hard time being labelled a quote unquote cheater when i very strongly feel like thats not what happened#and it bothers me knowing that they get to justify their side and avoid responsibility by calling me that#when again. we were literally broken up when i sent that text to the wrong chat#and to be even more fair to me it was the lightest thing of all time it was playful kissies and lovings#like all of this is so wack. like to be labelled that while doing something so small while we werent even together#the drawing stuff is literally normal . ive done that with my kther friends before i even met sable. you are ridiculous#like it just aggrivates me because thats such a sticky smear to put on somebody especially when thats not even what happened#its so overblown and i think thats on purpose to have one last thing to justify your side#and ignore the fact that he was not the best partner to me and stressed me tf out all the time#like how am i a cheater when i played by your rules the whole time we were together#because of how insecure you are. uou let your insecurity become your reality#and i realized how much more taken care of i was with angelo and how naturally we flow together#its so natural to talk to him he is what i have needed. i would be foolish not to pick prince charming#over someone who i felt only fed me stress and anxiety and worry about everything including potential addiction issues#knowing theyre bipolar. knowing they have bpd. participating in dangerous behavior all the time#i feel like calling me a cheater when thats not what fuckin happened is just to handwave away wtf you did wrong the entire time#if i actually cheated id have been slobbering on angels meat the whole time like im sorry#id have been doing spins on it and gagging on it every night but the thing is i didnt#i stayed loyal to you while with you and confided in them as friends while you continuously demanded time from me#that wasnt organic and it was forced half of the time . god i hated playing shit with your stupid ass#so fucking monotone always wanting to do the same shit no variety and always getting upset and throwing tantrums over the smallest things#n then when that behavior once again gets put on me and i get more fucking stressed yeah i turn to my other friends#that arent anything like the other friendgroup because they dont do shit about anything and dont really gaf about snything#except for their own problems#and i confide in the other group because they actually show that they care about me. they relieve stress for me like friends are supposed 2
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#im to embarassed to talk abt him but omg im gonna EXPLODE#cutest boy EVER in the world EVER EVER EVER#his cute glasses and his pretty eyes and his smile lines and crows feet and the way the hairs at the front curl into a heart shape#the way he sits and the way he stands and the way he talks to his family and the way the big t shirts he wears sits on his waistband and#hes insecure about his body and his acne but hes literally so gorgeous I have no idea why he is#goddddd cutest boy in the worldddd i like him so much it makes me feel sick#at prom (26th june) he tied some loose fabric around my wrist and its still there now#his jeans i see him wear all the time cus theyre his favourite like he has favourite jeans im Ă aaaaaaaaaa#the way he throws his head back when he laughs and the specific âha-HAAâ laugh he does when he isnt expecting it#his stupid chai latte that he really likes#how he always has to say goodnight 3 times before he stops talking#how he uses the purple heart emoji rather than the regular ones#i had a dream once that we were laying in my bed when everyone was asleep just whispering and giggling and he left in a hurry back to-#wherever he was staying and we were laughing and when the door clicked behind him i just felt so light#UGH HES SO CUTE#his big dramatic expressions and how everything becomes a story#the stupid facial expression he pulls where his tongue goes out and hos eye brows arch when he makes any kind of dance move#the way he giggles when hes about to make a joke#(richie tozier voice) CUTE CUTE CUTE#omg his VOICE. oh my god. oh my god. oh my god man. oh god. help me. god be with me. please.#hes playing troy bolton rn so he keeps singing HSM and im just AAAAAAA I CANT. I CANTICANTICANT#the way his instinct is to grab my wrist/lower arm/hand whenever anything happens#OAIAHAUAGAH GUYS. GUYS I WILL NOT SURVIVEEEEE#his eyes are like. slanted? idk how to describe it but theyre lower on the outside and theyre soooooo gorgeous#ughhh both his eyes and hair are like so-dark brown theyre nearly black and its so fucking pretty i cant do this#at prom i had to lean in to talk to him & vice versa and at some point we were sat towards eachother with his legs kinda like barricading-#mine yk. ugh. he was so sweet and so cute the whole time. like helping me walk in the heels and opening doors for me and following me around#UGHHHH I CANT. GUYS. HELP.#â#beverly says stuff
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the thing about me is that having a crush is fun for the first little while and then I just slowly become more and more overcome with insecurity about it
#like yeah he's friendly and nice to me but I know there's no chance. NONE. that it means anything at all.#no way. like there's no way he'd ever see me that way. We Just Work Together#and it sucks because I genuinely do enjoy just being friends with him! like there aren't many people I've met#who I genuinely click with and we get along well like that. and we definitely clicked as friends yknow??#and I'm super glad for that. I just feel so stupid for being in love with him when I'm too loud and too awkward and i fidget too much#and I'm just. not an attractive person on ANY level#so like even having a crush is so unrealistic and I hate that. he's the only guy I've ever genuinely wanted to be with#(beyond a brief infatuation that I knew wouldn't work out i was just kinda caught up in the theater stuff yknow)#like.... UGGGHHHH this is bringing up SO many insecurities bc I genuinely want more than a friendship#and gurt called me out the other day by asking how important it is to me that this particular guy likes me back#and I had to play it down bc it's SO important to me like. WHAT am I supposed to do with this??? he's the only guy#I've ever been able to envision a life with and I KNOW daydreaming like that is probably bad and dumb and I just feel#SO stupid for how I'm feeling about this whole thing and yet. I go to church and work with him and it's just really easy and nice#and we work well together and get along and it's just GOOD#and I want that forever#and idk what God is trying to do here but it's making me feel SO STUPID all the time!!!!!! girl help!!!!!!#Lu rambles
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oh also shes straight
#and the part of me thats empty hopeless and constantly passively suicidal scores a goal!#a win for the agony within!#a loss for whimsy hope and serenity and the part of the me that is trying to heal and move forward without the weight of it all defining me.#it's like. im not surprised. why did i have expectations#why did i hope. i shouldnt hope. im so stupid. i shouldnt hope i should know better than that. im scarily lacking substance. im a shell#im a puppet. i cant form lasting relationships im an actor im a liar it would've never worked anyway#-> me going insane in real time#-> i sound so dramatic like go watch txt to do and chill out maybe âď¸#idk lol đ#im not giving up bc she said we should hang out again and friendship is always an option and she already#knows too much about me at this point so it's too late to back out#here is to befriending her for the sake of allowing myself to exist imperfectly and for the sake of hanging out with someone every week for#funsies and nothing else. we dont need to have some grand connection. she doesn't need to have a crush on me. we can just be#on campus buddies#we can meet during the summer at some points too maybe#idk. idk i want to disappear i think bc i really feel like i embarrassed myself by being so open about my insecurities#i should've put on the mask i usually wear#but i didnt#and everything thats pathetic about me was on full display#i don't know. god. i dont know#what matters is i made her smile a few times. my unnecessary commentary got a laugh out of her a few times too#the world is still spinning#the air was refreshingly chilly on my way home today#i got rained on and came to class looking beautiful despite my carefully slicked back hair falling into my eyes#my spanish professor agreed with my thoughts on the text we were analysing#z.post
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every day of my life i wish i was cis mainly so i could've been repressed about being gay in a simpler way
#it feels stupid but i really do feel insecure so much of the time about not having been able#to be ''properly'' repressed about being gay in a cis way#like i literally WAS still ashamed of it for while and tried to deny it#but i don't feel like it's enough#but at the same time i don't think anything would've been *enough* other than like#making it to age 40 without accepting that i'm gay#lowkey wish that i could just re-repress it for the sake of having a satisfying re-coming out#but i'm too self aware for that to be possible#man is this relatable to anyone at all or am i just fucking insane#like i really feel so much of the time like my homosexuality is only valid via my time spent not being aware of it#like it's a rite of passage specifically to have felt obligated to like girls#WHICH I LITERALLY DID!!!!!#i just still cannot help but feel like it's not enough#i want to feel the satisfaction of learning who i am all over again#so badly#like i remember the specific catharsis of realizing that i was plain gay and i miss it every day#like i hate being aware of being gay#it deprives me of the ultimate catharsis of coming to terms with it in my middle age#but it's of course impossible to just stop being aware of it#and i truly do view it as the superior way to be#i'm just. yeah idk it's a lose lose#i was born to be some tumblrina's blorbo but i'm stuck in the body of a#modern 20something#personal
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LMAO QUICK. WIPE YOUR TEARS BEFORE SOMEONE SEEEESSS YOUUU
#vent#:) !! dammit!!!!!!!!!!!!!#I am in my feelings and I am feeling so many feelings like my heart being torn from my chest and pounded into the floor#and a rage so sickening that I can only get rid of by mutilating someoneâs flesh with my teeth and nails#fuck fuck fuck man fucking shit everytime I start to open myself up to someone and share whatâs at the core of my being#I let my guard down and shit happens!! why canât I be normal!! why do I get so attached!!! so fucking needy!!!!!! why do I CARE so deeply#when Iâm so easy to be ignored? honestly what am I doing here!! Iâm forgettable!!! honestly!!#why talk to me??? what am I contributing AT ALL to the conversation?? Iâm not interesting. I have no ideas. YOU have a hard time under me?#how do you think *I* feel?? do you think I know who I am?? what I believe?? what I desire??#why even BOTHER wanting for anything!! I dream of the absolute bare minimum life for myself!! I want to not die and live with my friend!!#maybe even MULTIPLE friends if Iâm so lucky!!! do you know how much Iâve thought about it? how stupid of a fucking dream really truly#what are the chances of that coming true? who would want to spend more than a few hours. with me?#and so what?? if I canât even achieve the bare fucking minimum dream ever then??? whatâs the point??? what am I then??? if you think I have#ANY skills. you are mistaken!! I donât know how to do anything!!! except cry over no response to my messages for TWO FUCKING WEEKS#Iâm fine and cool. absolutely fucking DANDY#Iâm totally not insecure about my place in the world and my place in peoples lives!!! noooooooo#I donât need the bare minimum level of attention. I made it 13 fucking years having never truly connected to another human being.#I can handle. whatever the fuck this is. haha how pathetic. shitty shitty bang bang#nooo Iâm a grizzled fucking soldier I donât reread positive words directed at me like I have an addiction#Iâm not replaying the top happiest moments from my life over and over again trying to ride a high from something that expired LOOONGG ago#Iâm not fucking!! crying!! what do I have to cry for?? aww little piss baby DIDNT get a reply :( aww shh shh#your feelings are sooo valid donât you worry!! itâs not like youâve gone most of your life with the ability to get things you want!! GASP.NO#you didnât have to struggle with food or money or housing!! nobodyâs even HIT you before!! but even so your cries are valid!!!!#SIKE. NO. IM AT THE ABSOLUTE BOTTOM. MY PROBLEMS DONT MATTER#so WHAT if youâre longing?? doesnât matter how hard you THINK or DREAM or WISH. NO ONE. NOT ONE SINGLE. FUCKING. PERSON#will EVER. see you as more than the fucking checker piece on the chess board!!#you want to be someoneâs muse huh? donât even CARE about their interpretations. or how they see you. all that matters is that in this moment#theyâre stuck with you. theyâre watching you. for at least a moment you can pretend they are yours.#god.... if only I could get myself to write my actual essays with this much passion haha#haha...a hh h..
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too many thoughts head full :( sorry for the big huge rant in tags btw i just have too much going on rn
#i want my friends to like me and im sorta sure they already do but like i can never be sure#what if they only keep hanging out with me because they feel bad for me or somehting#im the worst person in any group im in no matter what#and i dont know how to tell people my boundaries without risking hurting thier feelings so ive just never voiced my concerns to my friends#because i just want to be well-liked by everybody and let them think im someone whos good enough to have friends#i feel like if i cant be entertaining and funny to them all the time then otherwise no one would like me#my friends are all great people just to be clear. they havent done anything to hurt me ever and i mostly feel safe around them#this is NOT their fault its just my stupid insecure monkey brain dont worry theyre really nice to me#more nice to me than i deserve#so why am i so sad all the time no matter what happens to me?#vent#im so sorry if you have read all this. i feel bad about ranting about all this im sorry thank you so much
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Class 1A boys random headcanons âââ*:ăťďž
MHA
Summary: random thing they do or say as your boyfriend*.â˘
Characters: Izuku, katsuki, Shoto, Tenya, Eijirou, Denki, Sero, Tokoyami, Aoyama, Ojiro, Sato, Shoji, Koji!
IZUKU~
He tries making you food just to be nice, but he doesnât really know how so he just brings you something easy like instant noodles and say âitâs the thought that counts!â
He use to be insecure of his freckles and the only reason he isnât now is because you kiss them all the time!
he draws you all the time, he hangs them all up in his room so when you hang out with him you tease him about being so obsessed with you which he blushes too
He lets you put his fluffy hair in pigtails sometimes!
He does a stupid dance everytime he beats you in something, a game, a training exercise or something like that. You say itâs cute which makes him flustered~
KATSUKI~
Claims he doesnât cry at all but in reality he cries in front of you all the time, and ONLY you
He has some hearing loss from his quirk so sometimes he doesnât hear you walking up to him so you have to kiss him to get his attention
He kisses the back of your hand, not to be a âgentlemanâ or anything he is just too timid to kiss your face sometimes
His face is always so stern but when you two are alone his face soften SO MUCH. It relaxes into a small smile when he is alone with you
He lights candles for you with tiny explosions, sometimes it doesnât work and he gets embarrassed for failing so he will just melt it instead! (You donât really care but if you did he would get you a new one)
SHOTO~
he also lights candles for you, and it actually works. So he gets a bunch of candles for you just so he can light them all for you. He threw away your lighter so you have to ask him
He heats up his hands ever so slightly when he touches you to warm you up. You call him your heating pad LOL. He also gives you massages after training with warm hands as to not hurt you
He normally doesnât want to even mention his scar but with you he literally asks to kiss it when he feels down about it~ which you always do!
He lets you paint his nails, he also does not care what colors. He just likes spending the time it takes to paint them with you, he normally gossips with you while you paint them~
TENYA~
whenever he is talking to you he sometimes gets so comfortable to the point he will speak incredibly fast! You have to put your hands on his cheeks and tell him to slow down
He reads to you, even if you say no he does it anyways. He says itâs for learning purposes but in reality he just wants to spend time with you
He tries showing off his intelligence with you. âGive me any equation and I am confident I will know how to solve it!â
He sometimes forgets he wears glasses, he falls asleep with them on sometimes so you have to take them off for him. Sometimes he puts his head in your neck but his glasses get in the way which makes him whine and tearďżź them off so he could actually cuddle into you~
Heâs so proud of you sometimes he brags about you at random times. âHave you seen y/n? Yeah we are DATING!â
EIJIROU~
He wants to give you love bites sometimes but he knows his teeth are sharp so heâs scared too
His quirk sometimes makes his hands and arms dry from overuse so he asks you what to do about it and you told him to just try moisturizer. he made you put it on him because he likes your warm touch! (Not in a weird way!?)
He lets you draw on him, it doesnât matter if your bad at drawing or not he likes being your âcanvasâ he says. As long as you let him draw on you too. Itâs normally just dumb faces like Ęâ˘á´Ľâ˘Ę or something like that LOL
He is SO WHINY, like extremely whiny! Even in front of his friends, if he wants something from you heâs gunna whine till he gets it. âY/NNNNNNNNNNN GIVE ME A KITHHHHHâ âdude lower your voice people are gunna thing your weird *kiss*â
Whenever he is yapping to you about god knows what he sometimes stutters unintentionally which makes him stop talking for like 5 minutes due to embarrassment. âSo t..th.ThenâŚ..â âUhm you ok?â ââŚâ âYour not gunna talk anymore huh?â â*Shakes head*â
DENKI~
he pulls the dumbest faces and then asks you if you still think heâs cute- like âhey y/n am I still cute?(o_O)â âno you look dumb stop itâ âfineâŚâ
He shocks you but not on purpose, in general he has so much static electricity coming off of him that he canât control so sometimes if you reach to play with his hair youâll get shocked. He apologizes over and over and âkisses it betterâ
He lets you put make up on him, you donât even have to wear make up yourself and heâs down. You make him look like a princess and he loves it- âIâm beautiful!!!â
Heâs very needy which is obvious. He gets so needy for attention that sometimes he will just follow you around school waiting for you to atleast hug him~
SERO~
He loves arts and crafts (LOL) he likes making home made cards for you instead of buying them from a store. He also likes building things with you like bird houses n such. Heâs a great tape dispenser so heâs good at itâşď¸
Heâs really good at puzzles so if your doing something like a rubix cube or just a normal puzzle and you get stuck he always helps you!
He leaves love notes for you everywhere, in your bag, on your desk, in your locker or even in your books. He isnât the best with words but itâs still cute that he tries
TOKOYAMI~
He gets jealous of dark shadow, he always makes you laugh. So in return he banishes dark shadows for a while so he can have alone time with you (aka to cuddle)
He drags his beak through your hair instead of playing with it with his hands, he basically preens you but refuses to admit thatâs what heâs doing-
Heâs insecure, it is kinda weird that he has a bird head but you donât let that get in the way. You cover his beak with kisses hoping itâll make him feel better
He made you a necklace out of one of his feathers, now you wear it everywhere and people either think itâs adorable or cringy
Iâve said it before he is really fluffy so whenever you cuddle you start playing with his feather. He says he doesnât care but if you donât he begs you to. âCan you? You know?â âWhatâ âYou always play with my feathers?â âAww you want me to play with your feathers!?â âYeah.â
AOYAMA~
Behind closed doors he ditches the whole self centered thing and is fixed onto you. While you guys cuddle in privet you could hear him saying âyou are so very dazzling! Just as much as me~â or âyou are like a shining star! So prettyâŚâ (out of character again but IDC I headcanon him to be a sweetheart!)
Whenever he gets a stomach ache from overusing his power he MAKES you give him a tummy rub, he will force your hand above his stomach and wait for you to sooth him
He wears make up so he lets you do looks on him. If you do good enough he will wear it for the day but most of the time it doesnât meet his standards LOL
Similar with nails, he lets you paint them whatever color you want and he will keep them on. He doesnât care as much abt his nails then he does his face-
He loves when you play with his hair, like really loves it. Whenever you play with his hair or give him a scalp massage he just sits there like ^0^. Seriously his mouth will hang open without him realizing. You have to close his mouth manually with your finger
OJIRO~
He lets you play with his tail, you just pet it whenever you want but you have to be careful because his tail is a little ticklish. He will swat you away if it starts to tickle
He Carries your bags for you, heâs a gentleman like that! he does it just to be nice but if you insist on carrying them yourself he wonât stop you!
He sometimes jumps into your arms, as a âjokeâ which is a lie. Sometimes he just wants to be in your arms! He also finds it hot that you are strong enough to hold him~
He likes when you guys match! Clothes or shoes n such! He thinks itâs cute and we wants everyone to know that yâall r dating!
SATO~
He finds it hot when you call him âbig boyâ he understands that you donât do it to shame him but itâs more to flatter him. Like youâll be having a light breakfast and after he finished he was still hungry so you tease âoh we gotta get more food in you big boy~ wait here Iâll get more!â He blushes so hard over it
He crams his head under your shirt when cuddling, he just likes laying on your stomach ok!
He is a little insecure about his looks, and he is very honest with insecurity so he will just confront you like ây/n I donât think I look that good todayâŚhelp?â And youâll do everything you can to help
Whenever he is injured he milks it so harddd, he will ask you to get him a blanket, or help him eat. âY/n could you feed this to me? Iâm too hurtâŚâ âyour arms are fine?â âI knowâ
Heâs the kinda guy to peak over your shoulder while your doing something because he really wants to be apart of it but heâs to scared to askđ
SHOJI~
The first time you saw his face he was soooo insecure it was really sad, everytime you asked he when like âI donât think you want to seeâŚthisâ or âwell y/n itâs obvious it isnât going to look good, itâs probably gunna freak you outâ. When he finally did show you he was shocked when you pulled him closer claiming you wanted to âadmire his beautyâ closer~
Cuddling with him is the best!! He makes a little cocoon ďżźaround you with his arms! Unless you want to hold him which he also loves!
He insists on holding things for you, everytime you say âI wish I had more handsâ he goes âluckily I do!â And takes everything out of your hands
He gets cold easily so sometimes when yâall cuddle he gets freakishly cold and you have to bundle him up like a burrito. You cry over how cute his looks with his mask off in a burrito blanket <3
KOJI~
He talks to you on a regular basis but he almost always leans into your ear, cup it with his hands and whisper instead since he is still very shy, unless you guys are completely alone. Even for the simplest thing; ây/nâŚdo you want water?â âSpeak up babe-â â*squealing noise*â
Compliments kill him, like actually last time you called him cute he fainted
He asks you to deal with spiders in his dorm or anywhere. You capture them and release them tho because he feels bad if you just kill them
He leaves you flower petals in random places, you could be looking through your books and notice a flower petal in between two pages~
He back hugs you to cuddle, heâs to scared to be face to face and heâs scared heâs gunna hurt you somehow? You assured him he will never hurt you which makes him feel a little better
Wsg yall!!!! Anywayyyys Next post prob gunna be class 1B cuz again they need more attention đ
Not proof readdddd!!
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undone lace | s.r.
A/N: user reidrum back with another softdom and munch!spencer fic but with insecure reader this time please act surprised
summary: in which you buy lingerie to impress spencer
cw: smut 18+ minors dni, afab!reader, reader wears lingerie, pet names, praise kink, slight breeding kink if you squint hard, fingering, oral (f receiving), unprotected p in v, insecure!reader, munch!spencer, softdom!spencer
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Youâre standing in the middle of the bedroom fiddling with the garter straps hanging on your upper thighs when you hear the lock click followed by the front door opening.
Fuck.
You have to admit, it really did seem like a good idea when you were at the store.
The clerk in the lingerie store saw you staring for just a second too long before pouncing on you, feeding you off anecdotes that embarrassingly enough sent you home with a tiny pink bag not even ten minutes later.
But now thatâs left you standing in the middle of your bedroom, dressed up in a way you know Spencer hasnât been privy to seeing you in yet. And the anxiety of seeing his reaction is quite literally eating you alive.
Spencer calls out for you letting you know heâs home early, something about finishing his reports early. Youâre not entirely sure, all you can focus on is your eyes widening as you take a paralytic stance, unmoving even when you hear his footsteps inch closer to the door.
âHey, I knew you were home, probably didnât hear me come in,â he says opening the door, âDid you want to get Thai food forââ
The rest of the words donât make it out. And thatâs when Spencer finally looks up at you, and he really gets a good look at you.
His eyes slowly rake down your figure and you canât help but feel a bit like a spectacle, awaiting the rousing approval and applause from the audience with bated breath. He doesnât speak for another minute, and it makes you squirm in your skin even more.
âThis is stupid,â you mutter, âIâm gonna go changeââ
Spencer doesnât even let you move an inch before jumping into action, reaching out to grab your hand and pull you into his chest. âDonât change.â he whispers hoarsely, eyes wandering and taking in all of you.
The self doubt within you only rises as you meekly say, âDâDo you like it?â
His eyes snap to yours finally, âDo I like it?â his hands take purchase on your hips, thumbs hooking onto the garter strap connecting the fabric on your midriff to your panties and pulling you closer, âSweetheartâŚdid you think I wouldnât?â
âI donât know,â you mumble, âI was nervous about this all day, wasnât sure if it was too much.â
âYou could never be too much. â He blinks at you while his voice comes out strained, âNervous? WâWhy would you be nervous?â his hands smooth over your skin in all the places that needed placating, a soothing reminder that you could calm down, that you were safe.
You shrug slightly, âDidnât know if I liked myself in itâŚand then I didnât know ifâŚyou would like me in it.â you deflate a little more, âItâs stupid I know, Iâm sorry Iâm just gonna go chanââ
Spencer shakes his head mindlessly, his hands gripping your hips harder on instinct, âOh, baby,â his voice strained and coming out as a mumble, âI am not doing a good job showing you how beautiful you are,â his hands slowly turn you around and pull you back into him so your back is flush with his chest, leaning down to your ear to whisper, âWe should fix that, shouldnât we?â
A shiver runs down your spine as you straighten your back against him, his hands inching dangerously lower and lower. âCan I do that? Let me make it up to you?â
The words are knocked out of you and all you can manage is a small nod, âYou donât have to.â
âNo, actually I think I need to,â his hands ghost the lace frill edges of your panties, âWent through all this troubleâŚfor me?â The length of his finger presses firmly to your entrance, you let out a soft gasp when he gently rubs, âThink you deserve a reward, sweet girl.â
Your eyes flutter shut as his hands move to cup your lace covered breasts, thumbs intentionally rubbing over your nipples and letting them harden under his touch. Spencer guides you to the edge of the bed as the warmth of his breath ghosts the crook of your neck, gently pressing kisses that trail up to your ear. You let him sit you down and watch with wide eyes as he sinks to his knees before you.
His hands part your legs open, bending his head down to press chaste kisses up your inner thigh stopping at the apex before repeating his motions to the other side.
âYou okay?â he glances up at you, âI can stop if you want.â
ââNo! No, Iâm okay I justâŚâ
He presses another kiss just shy of where you need him, âJust what, baby?â
A soft whimper escapes you, ââŚDidnât think this would workâ
Spencer pauses and looks at you confused, letting his mouth wander back up to your face, âYou thought,â Kiss. âSeeing my insanely hot and sexy and intelligent girlfriend,â Kiss. âAll dressed up in lingerie,â Kiss. âJust for me,â Kiss. Kiss. âWouldnât work?â
You knew it would work. Of course, it worked. You knew that, he knew that. Itâs why you planned to do this in the first place, because you wanted to do something nice for him. And if doing something nice for Spencer came at the cost of your confidence, you would gladly make the fruitless trade.
It made you feel silly, to be frank. Spencer never, ever, gave you a reason to feel insecure about yourself. In fact he made every humane effort possible to always remind you of how highly he thought of you. Yet here you were, with the audacity to self efface in front of the human embodiment of unconditional love.
âAngelâŚâ he murmurs into your neck, bringing you back to the moment, âWhereâd you go?â
It was just easier to let Spencer believe the fallacy of your plan than admit that despite his earnest efforts you, unfortunately, were incapable of receiving his love and affection.
You clear your throat to remove any tremors before you speak, â âm okay, promise.â
Spencer was unconvinced, âYouâre in your head againâŚâ his thumbs kneed the flesh of your thighs as he kisses down your shoulder, âIâm really slacking, huh baby?â
âSpenceââ
He shushes you gently, âItâs okay, baby. I know. Iâm gonna make up for it.â he rises to his full height, standing in between your legs before working on the buttons of his shirt. His thumb and pointer pinch your chin and angle your face upwards, âWill you go sit pretty and lay down on the bed for me?â
You nod wordlessly and scoot backwards until youâre able to lie down and rest your head on the satin pillowcase. The mattress dips near your feet and you watch Spencer crawl back over you in only his boxers, his eyes raking over your outstretched body beneath him.
âGod, you are perfect.â he murmurs, holding the words close like a sacred prayer. He gingerly pushes the hair from your face to behind your ear and lowers himself to press a kiss to your lips. You watch his mouth kiss and trace the outline of your lace bralette, following the path of dips and curves before he resumes his journey further down.
His finger toys with the edge of your panties again, finally hooking below the fabric and pushing it to the side exposing you to the brisk air. Spencer swore he could never get sick of the sight of you glistening, knowing he was the one to get you like that. He prods at your entrance, collecting the arousal to spread all over you, grinning when he hears a breathless moan.
âFeels good?â he whispers, you nod quickly watching him continue, âGood, pretty girls deserve to feel good.â
You preen under the praise as his finger pushes past your entrance, setting an agonizingly slow pace. The drag of his finger is so deliberate you can feel the notch of his knuckle as it leaves you, and it drives you insane.
âNmphâSpenceâŚplease,â you plead. What youâre pleading for, youâre not even sure. But Spencer clearly knew as he adds one more finger, the stretch opening you up in a way that ascends you that much closer to the heavens.
You lift your head slightly to watch Spencer and find that heâs not even looking at you. Heâs entirely more enticed by watching his fingers enter and leave you so captivatingly, your slick coating and entrapping him willfully. He must feel your eyes on him because he finally looks up and meets your gaze. His fingers quicken their pace, watching your face contort with pleasure as he undoes you piece by piece with a delicacy he knows how to use on you only.
His lips kiss up your inner thigh again, this time reaching your center and attaching his lips. At this point you realize youâre a goner, left for nothing and everything as Spencer pushes through to bring you to your peak. The tandem effort of his mouth and fingers is hypnotizing, so much so that youâd call witchcraft with how easily heâs able to disarm you completely.
âYouâre close, angel girl.â he mumbles as more of a statement than a question, since clearly he knew your body better than you. All you can do is pathetically moan as youâre left entirely to his mercy and ministrations. The peak builds in your stomach, coiling and building tension while barreling towards that sweet release before he removes his presence from between your legs wholly, leaving you a panting mess above him.
âSpencer!â you whine loudly, âWhâwhyâd you stop?â you breath out desperately.
He sits up and back onto his legs while he maneuvers his boxers off, âI told you pretty girls deserve to feel good, right?â
âYeah well, this pretty girl doesnât feel very good right now.â you tut.
He softly chuckles, moving closer while giving himself a few pumps, âI know,â he hooks his fingers onto your thigh garter straps and pulls you closer to him so his center is only mere centimeters from yours, âBut, you deserve to feel the best.â
âSo this pretty girl,â he rubs the tip of himself on your clit through the lace of your panties, âgets to come on my cock.â
You barely have time to be shocked by his crude words before heâs hooking your panties to the side again and slowly pushing himself inside you. A languished cry leaves you as youâre feeling him deep inside, reaching places only he knew about.
Youâre reduced to blabbering syllables and cries of his name at the expense of his unrelenting pace, meeting his eyes and gaping at his smugly satisfied grin. He plays with the lace bow situated in the valley of your breasts before moving his hands to lift your legs and placing them on his shoulder, deepening his angle within you.
âIâd stay here for hours, for days, if you let me, sweet girl. If you asked for it, Iâd give you everything.â
Your eyes nearly roll back feeling yourself enter another dimension with the combination of his words and the way heâs absolutely fucking you dumb. Another soft whine bubbles out of your throat, âFuckâSpeâAahhâ.â
He coos softly, âI know, honey. Gonna get you there, promise.â he continues his thrusts unceremoniously, adding a thumb to your clit to push just over the edge hurling towards your climax. It hits you like a bucket of cold water dumped on you, a shivering chill reverberating up and down your spine while simultaneously setting your nerve endings aflame.
Itâs overwhelming, itâs everything, itâs him.
Spencer isnât trailing too far behind you with only a few more thrusts before heâs spilling into you with a low groan. He buries his head into the crook of your neck as he lets the last of himself pour into you before gingerly slipping out and placing your panty back in its holding place. He collapses at your side, the only sound left in the air is your alternating heavy pants.
âGuess I canât return this now.â you lightly chuckle after a few minutes.
âYou were going to return it?â he rolls over to drape an arm over your torso, âDid I not prove my point?â
He did. Very well.
âYâYou did, I justâŚstill remember how I didnât feel great in it before you came home.â you blush sheepishly.
Spencer sighs and pulls your body to rest in the you shaped crevice in the side of his body, hand smoothing up and down your back while the other rests on your thigh heâs hooked over his hips. âIâm so proud of you, you know that?â
âI didnât do anything, in factââ
âNo, sweet girl. I am proud of you, because I know how hard it must have been for you to go out of your comfort zone for me. You shouldnât feel obligated to do things like that, you know Iâll always love you until the end of time,â he moves his hand to cup your cheek, âBut, I feel so grateful that you want to venture out for someone like me. I just want you to know that every and any effort, no matter how big or small, is always deeply appreciated and I am lucky to be the recipient every time.â
Tears well up in your eyes. For as much as you felt vulnerable and bared your heart to Spencer, there he was with open arms and a basket to cradle it from danger. Even if you couldnât feel safe in your own mind, you could trust that Spencer would find a way to keep you from harm, even if it was self made.
âThank you.â you whisper softly.
He presses a long kiss to your forehead, âLoving you is my favorite thing to do in this world, no need to thank me.â
You smile into his chest, voice all giddy, âReally? I thought reading untranslated and original classics had me beat there.â
âItâs a close second, pretty girl.â he nuzzles you closer to him and sighs in content.
It isnât that close at all, Spencer thinks.
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tw: pregnancy. overall, just some domestic dad-to-be gojo trying to show how much he loves you even with how your body changes and all <3 based on a request!
a part of gojo's love entries
donât think that satoru hasnât noticed how you linger in front of the mirror these days, touching your body all overâparticularly your baby bump. seeing your face twist into a sad frown dampens his spirits too.
on the other hand, you understand that itâs a natural process, but you have never gained this much weight before, and despite already having your husband reassure you before, you still feel somewhat meh about yourself.
âhowâs my favorite girl and little rascal doing today?â he flopped down on the bed beside you as soon as he returned from school, caressing your belly. âready to come out yet?â
you throw him an unamused look. âno, satoru. and donât make it sound so effortless. iâm the one pushing him out.â
âahh, but i canât wait though~â
his palpable excitement actually made you smile as you placed your hand over his. but then your smile fell a bit and he was quick to notice it.
âwhatâs on your mind?â he asked then. âtalk to me, hmm?â
âno⌠itâs nothing.â you looked away, a bit ashamed. if satoru says heâs not bothered by your figure, you really shouldnât be thinking about this any longer. you didn't want to make him worry⌠but it really wasn't easy to let it go.
âhmm, my baby mama canât be sad,â your husband pouted, and suddenly he pulled you closer, wrapping an arm around your shoulder. âsheâs the cutest when she smiles.â
you looked up to him, feeling the security in his arms and yet still a hint of uncertainty in your voice. âam i just cute⌠to you?â
you wanted to be beautiful too. like how he used to sing you praises during your school days.
satoru grinned. and itâs the kind of toothy grin that makes your heart soar.
âno. youâre also pretty.â he tucked a strand of your hair behind your ear. âand youâre smart, kind, nags a lot, gets pouty easily⌠and you're sweet like a dango, makes me want to gobble you up.â
âso now iâm a dango?â you nestled your head against his broad chest, feeling your face start to heat up, and a smile beginning to curve your lips. stupid satoru. he said all of them so easily it was making you giddy and felt silly for doubting him at all.
âjust because our baby is going to be a mochi. and look, youâre so close to carrying him to full-term,â he rubbed your swollen tummy again, this time with a more sincere smile. âi love you the most for it.â
your eyes took a shine, processing his words, and you couldâve sworn that right now, nothing couldâve shaken your feelings for your silly husband.
suddenly your baby kicked you hard as if to reprimand you too for your insecurities, and you winced.
âhurts?â satoru questioned, slightly concerned when you nodded. âwait iâll tell him off.â
he cleared his throat and began making circular motions on your abdomen, as if to summon him.
âyo, brat. you canât kick your mama like that too often these days. youâre accumulating karma and she counts it. when you come out, sheâll forbid you from eating our favorite mochis andââ
âsatoru!!â
and then the two of you just burst into giggles, and once again, you utterly and thoroughly fell in love with him. for always making you feel safe... and loved.
âyou know, satoru...â this time it was you who hugged him, breathing in his scent for comfort. now you were totally worry-free, the softest of smile on your face. âiâm really grateful that... we found each other.â
at your heartfelt confession, satoru felt his chest tighten with warmth and his cheeks flush. he is so blushing and he tries covering it with a chuckle. and the words lingering at the tip of his tongue wereâ
âheh, arenât you glad you married me?â
yeah... iâm so glad that itâs you too.
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chase and attract
summary: your best friend decides to fulfil yet another one of your freaky shared fantasies... pairing: chan x reader genre: smut, best friends to ??? warnings: cnc/primal play, chasing in a forest, public indecency but there are no witnesses, fingering, finger-sucking, doggystyle, unprotected sex, praise, degradation, reader wants to use the safeword but doesn't, reader experiences subdrop, insecurities, crying, aftercare, pet names, the word daddy is mentioned but after they're done having sex, discussion of future scenario đ author's note: hello hello, this is the second part of my wolf & bunny series, i think i'll write one more to tie up the loose ends đ¤ part one & part three word count: 1.7k
After a number of discussions and precautions, you and Chan are finally ready to embark on your next sexscapade. He's reassured you multiple times that he knows the forest well enough that you won't get lost and as a safety measure, he brought a compass and his phone. You purposefully leave yours in his car to further heighten the feeling of danger you two had in mind.
âAre you ready?â Chan asks you gently.
âKinda. I'm really nervous, Chris,â you confess, your hands shaking in your lap as you are still sitting in the passenger seat.
âRemember that you can stop this at any moment, right?â he reminds you sweetly.
âI know that,â you sigh. âBut I want this, I really do.â
âOkay, then, there's nothing to be nervous about. You know I'll keep you safe. Always, yeah?â
You nod, trusting him completely, despite how insane this whole thing might sound to a stranger. You are fully aware that Chan has your best interest at heart.
âI'll give you a five-minute headstart this time,â he sets the timer on his phone. âReady, set...go!â
You dash out of his car faster than ever and speed through the forest. You've got this. Last time your stupid legs gave out due to being in a box for too long but now you've trained for this moment for a week and you feel confident enough that you'll have a blast. Sure, you know that the point of this game is for Chan to eventually catch you. And boy, do you look forward to that moment. But the more you run, the more your heart will jump out, the more thrilled you feel.
You begin to lose track of time as you go deeper and deeper into the forest. Have five minutes already passed? You don't hear Chan's footsteps so either he hasn't started chasing you yet or he's going in another direction. Whatever the explanation, you keep running even though you're beginning to lose your breath. How much longer? You still don't hear him and you are in desperate need of a break. You should have brought a bottle of water. But carrying something like that would only slow you down. You're thinking too much again. You just want him to catch you already and fuck you until you can no longer think. Truly the best feeling in the world.
Finally, you hear leaves rustling. You don't hear his voice but you know he's getting near. Shit, what if it's someone else? No, that can't be it. Chan made sure that people rarely walk this path and it would only be the two of you. Still, you're terrified at the thought of someone other than Chan catching you. The mere suggestion of that is enough to send speed to your muscles and make you faster.
But all good things must come to an end (or maybe the good things are just about to begin...) and you are engulfed by a pair of strong arms. Before you can react or try to fight your attacker off, he's pressing his hand against your mouth.
âShhh, don't scream,â Chan's voice is both a comfort and a threat, sending mixed signals to your core.
âMmpf,â you struggle to make some kind of noise but it comes out muffled against his rough hand.
âThis will all be easier if you donât fight it,â Chan says soothingly and you shake your head in disagreement.
He momentarily removes his hand from your lip.
âPlease, somebody help me!â you scream loud enough to paint the scene more vividly but not loud enough to actually attract attention in case a stranger passes by some forest. Which honestly seems impossible at this point. Chan really picked a very secluded trail.
âNo oneâs gonna hear you, sweetheart. And even if they did, do you think theyâd help you? Silly little bun, you brought this on yourself walking in the forest all alone, wearing this dressâŚâ
Fuck, why is he so good at this? You try not to wonder if heâs had prior experience with such a scenario or he simply just has great imagination to come up with such lines.
âPlease, donât do this,â you pretend to be afraid as your best friend pushes you on your knees and situates himself behind you. âI wonât tell anyone.â
âWhy not? Iâll fuck you so good youâll want to brag about it,â Chan chuckles coldly and sticks his thick fingers inside your pussy unexpectedly.
âNnghh,â you cry out and are beginning to lose energy of all the running and no longer feel like faking it, letting out moans and whimpers of pleasure.
âSee? Youâre all wet for me, so obviously youâre enjoying it,â Chan gathers the evidence of your satisfaction with his fingers and pushes them into your mouth.
You donât need an order to know what to do as you lick them clean of your arousal.
âFuuuck, good girl,â Chan praises you and briefly breaks character, stroking your hair gently.
Oh, shit. You think youâre falling for your best friend. But such thoughts will only bring complications, especially in the current context, so you push them down as much as you can.
Chan makes sure youâre wet enough by mercilessly stroking your pussy and finally, fuck, sweet finally, enters you from behind with his cock.
âN-no, d-donât do this,â you scream and try to escape his strong grasp but of course, itâs no use.
âSuch a useless slut, only good for fucking and nothing more.â
The degrading words sting but youâre trying not to dwell on it too much.
âSo fucking wet for a stranger. Disgusting,â he says.
Fuck, this hurts. Not the cock stretching you out to the fullest but what heâs saying. Is it really true?
You want to say the safeword. But you also donât. By the time you make up your mind, Chan has already painted your walls white and you are also coming with a shudder, loudly and devastatingly.
You feel broken. Bad broken. You want to go home and cry and sleep and eat ice cream. What went wrong? You were having such a great time. So why are you suddenly having such dark thoughts? And not dark in the sexy wayâŚ
Chan picks you up gently and checks up on you.
âAre you okay?â
âIâm okay, I just want to go home,â you respond briefly.
He nods, quietly wondering if he did something wrong or if heâs just imagining the sad, empty look in your pretty eyes.
Chan helps you walk back to his car and makes sure you drink water and cleans you up to the best of his abilities with some tissues he prepared in advance.
âAre you sure youâre okay?â he asks again as he parks the car in front of you place. âYou havenât said a word during the whole ride. Usually you have funny stories to share andâŚâ
âGee, sorry for not always being the class clown, I guess,â you snap at him angrily with an eyeroll.
âOkay, donât give me that attitude,â Chan scolds you gently but firmly. âIf we want to do this healthily, you gotta communicate with me. If I did something wrong or if you felt uncomfortable at any point.â
You shake your head, still in denial.
âIf you donât wanna talk, I wonât force you. But you gotta remember that you mean the world to me, yeah? Even if these games end, I need to have my best friend in my life, am I clear?â
You blink and finally gather the courage to look at him.
âIâm sorry, Chris,â you admit and burst into tears.
He pulls you into a hug and pats your back.
âYou have nothing to be sorry about.â
âWell, the truth is I wasnât all that into it when you said that thing about me being useless, only good for fucking and disgusting,â you confess.
âOh, babygirl, you know I donât mean these things. I only said them âcause you mentioned youâre into degradation.â
âI was, I mean, I am, but for some reason, it really hurt me this time, sorry. I should have said. I just donât want you to think poorly of me.â
âAlright, first of all, stop saying sorry, itâs completely normal to get caught up in it and feel insecure sometimes. As a dom, I should have been more careful and checked up on you more frequently. And second of all, please, remember that you are very smart, sweet, funny and not to mention incredibly beautiful so there is no way in hell I think lowly of you. Now, did you put that down in your pretty brain of yours?â
âYes, sir,â you answer enthusiastically and your tears have dried up, instead a bright smile appears on your face. âThanks for saying that. I guess I really needed to hear it.â
âYou donât have to thank me. Just next time if you happen feel like that, say the safeword and talk to me. About anything, I mean it.â
âYou too, Chris. I know thatâs particularly hard for you to open up but whatever you tell me, I would never judge you.â
âI know, babygirl,â Chan chuckles softly and does something that further confuses the already blurred lines of your friendship. He kisses you on the lips, deeply and sweetly. Not like how you kiss your best friend but how you kiss a lover.
âDo you wantâŚto come inside?â you offer, not knowing what exactly, considering you just ended a very overwhelming scene.
Actually, you know what you want. You want him to hold you, to watch a dumb movie and eat popcorn together. You wantâŚmore than you can have.
âI gotta get some work done,â Chan says with a wince. âIâm really behind on stuff.â
âIs itâŚmy fault?â
âNo way. I just canât stop thinking ofâŚour games even when Iâm supposed to be working,â he admits.
Phew. Youâre glad he didnât say he canât stop thinking of you. If he had, you wouldnât be able to let him go to work.
âRight. Same here,â you reply dumbly.
âIf you need anything and I mean, anything, just give me a call or a text. Iâll keep my phone nearby.â
âYou really shouldnât, Iâll keep annoying you,â you mumble self-consciously.
Chan grips your hand and squeezes it comfortingly.
âYou could never annoy me, okay?â
âOkay, daddy,â you say it playfully, eliciting a giggle out of his beautiful mouth.
âDo you have any particular wishes forâŚyou know, next time?â
âI do, but itâs kinda mild compared to what weâve done already,â you shrug. âDunno if youâd be into it.â
âName it and itâs yours,â Chan assures you.
âHow do you feel aboutâŚfucking me while Iâm asleep?â
To be continuedâŚ
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call it quits or call it destiny | h. umemiya.
⎠tags ; afab + fem!reader(she/her pronouns, referred to as a girl, gets dressed up by tsubaki and kotoha), reader gets their hair braided (no desc of texture) and puts on makeup, lore heavy reader backstory + personality, deliquent!reader, gap moe, best friends to lovers, idiots to lovers, themes of insecurity, mutual pining,the use of she/her for tsubaki, jealousy, confessions, loss of virginity, creampies / unprotected sex, oral (f!recieving), fingering, 18+
⎠wc ; 13.9k (dont. don't say anything)
⎠a/n ; me when i completely lose my mind because i have a weekend off. whats wrong with me.
anyways. there's no major triggers for this but be forewarned reader is meant to be very rag-tag deliquent type. she has a strong personality and generally is not feminine. she is like a mangy street cat a bit. also if u want u should listen to easily by bruno major while reading.
⎠synopsis ; you've been quietly pining for umemiya for a little over ten years with no plans of confessing.
you did not have a plan for what you would do if umemiya confessed to you first.
Once a day, everyday - Umemiya will come into your store, pause, smile, and confess his love to you before going off on his own. Â
And once a day, everyday, you reject this confession with a soft huff telling him to quit being stupid before shooing him away. Â
It's become a ritual. A fixture in your daily routine that you're not allowed to ignore despite how hard you're trying. Â
He's been doing it for three months, more or less.Â
His reason for confessing everyday? Because heâs waiting on the day you confess back, of course. Which you've refused to do for the last few months and will continue to refuse for as long as youâve got. Â
It's not because you don't like him, alright?Â
You've known Umemiya since middle school and you've liked him for about the same time. One of the core memories of your childhood is the day you met him, crying while sitting on a swing-set, after what felt like the worst day of your life.Â
( On the day you run away from home, you seriously consider not going back. Â
You donât really know how long you sit there. People walk by but most of them move on quickly. Itâs mid-day before anyone bothers to stop and ask you something. Â
 "I've never seen you around before.â A strange looking boy approaches, friendly and unassuming but not entirely cheerful âDid you just move here?" Â
You keep quiet, closing your eyes and hoping your lack of response is enough to push him away. Your hope fizzles out when you hear the swing creak as he sits besides you.Â
"I'm Umemiya Hajime. I live close by." His voice is airy and causal. "I'm sorry you're having a bad day.â Â
"Fuck off," You reply bluntly, frowning. âI donât need sympathy. Leave me the hell alone.â Â
He pauses before pushing himself slightly forward to barely swing. Â
âI couldnât leave you alone while youâre sad,â He voices willfully. "It might make you feel better to talk about it."Â
In disbelief at his response, you finally look up and asses him properly. It doesnât do much to change your initial unfavorable impression. White hair, blue eyes and a little taller than you. Youâre definitely about the same age. All of that to say, thereâs something weird about him that you canât quite place. Â
Despite his manner and way of speaking though, you donât actually think heâs that weak which makes his whole aura even more unnerving to you. His attempt at being non-threatening doesnât work for him. Heâs being a real try-hard about trying to make you comfortableâŚÂ
Either way, heâs got an air about him that puts you on the defensive. Â
 Talking to someone about it had never been much of any option, and somehow it pisses you off that heâs being so brazen about it. Â
Maybe if you tell him about, heâll stop prying into your business. Or maybe youâre just looking for excuses to let off steam.Â
You don't care anymore. You wipe your nose with the back of your sleeve. Â
"I don't live here and I didnât move. I ran away." You reply. Â
He keeps looking at you, curious, inquisitive and sympathetic. Â
"Why?"Â Â Â
"I broke a girls nose." You scowl. The words rise up in your throat like bile. Make you feel cornered. The wounds too fresh. "Itâshe bullied me for years for one. And I never fought back, it was all petty bullshit anyway and I didn't like getting calls home. I didn't care about that but sheâit wasn't for nothing. She was causing trouble for Sensei."Â Â
Umemiya keeps to himself, humming in response to your troubles. Your voice breaks on your next sentence, chest tightening. Â
"It doesn't matter what she does to me butâ" Your hands ball up at your first. Your throat feels thick, eyes suddenly watering as your chest throbs . "Anyway, I couldnât let it go like normal."Â Â
He hums. "So you hit her?"Â
You shake your head, sniffling. "Not at first. Just told her to shut up. Said that she didn't know what she was talking about. She hit me first..." You screw your eyes shut, sighing. "...said she was gonna spread rumors about him just trying to get under my skin and be malicious,â You lean back slightly and look up towards the gray sky. âI punched her after that."Â Â
You realize he's looking at your bloodied knuckles, but he isn't making an expression that you can read easily. You donât remember the last time you spoke to someone like this who wasnât Tsukimori-sensei. Â
"Are you crying because you got in trouble?"Â Â
âWho cares about that?â You sigh âSensei had to put his job on the line and take responsibility for me,â Your brow furrows in frustration. âHeâs the one person I donât want to cause trouble for,â You grip the iron chains of the swing set with a closed fist and finally admit what youâve been avoiding to say out loud. âI donât want him to hate meâŚâ Â
The kid besides you smiles absently at your words. Half-way between listening and recalling something else, it seems like. You canât help but wonder what the hell his deal is. You barely know him but youâre spilling your guts.Â
He speaks after a long while. "I don't think he sees it that way. I think you should try to talk to him about it."Â Â
You make a face, rejecting the idea. "What? No way."Â
Umemiya shrugs, smiling - though it doesn't quite meet his eyes. Â
"He sounds like he cares about you. If he knew your reasons, there's no way he would hold it against you. And itâs important to share your burdens with people who care for you." You look over and see him smiling somberly at the mulch beneath his shoes before returning back to what youâve grown to know as his usual self. "Anyways, I think we should be friends. Tell me your name."Â Â
You sniffle again. What a weird guy. Well you say that butÂ
You still give him your name.Â
"What a pretty name,"Â
When you tell him to shut up again, your new friend Umemiya just laughs. Â
And you find you feel just a little bit lighter.)Â Â
That night, Umemiya walked with you to take the last train and told you to come see him again with good news.Â
You aren't sure what compelled you to follow his advice. Maybe because he was the first person who sat down and listened to you about it other than Sensei himself.Â
Tsukimori-sensei was your school counselor and the only adult in your entire life that seemed to worry about. You didn't have any friends in middle school and you were a scary looking delinquent girl without a mother and a mostly absent father. Â
But Sensei was always incredible gentle to you and incredibly kind. And despite what rumors that girl tried to spread - he was never anything more than an important mentor. Â
It was fucking embarrassing crying in front of him but because you were honest - you got to keep in touch with him. He attended your middle school and high school graduation - supporting you as you started to sort your life out. Became the closest thing you ever really got to a parental figure. Â
Over time, you got close with Umemiya and developed strong loyalty to him. You attended an all-girls middle and high school the next town over - totaling one other friend in all six years of your remaining education. Lack of socialization meant that Umemiya somewhat became the very center of your existence.Â
It was easy to visit him thanks to parental neglect. You sort of melted into his life. Tsubaki once called you his guard dog as a half-joke, but there's some truth to the sentiment. Quick to defend, quick to heel, and always happy to see him. Â
You, like many people, owe Umemiya a lot. His meddling over the course of ten years gave you reason to push forward. He even encouraged you to try and attend school and not give up on living a half-decent life.Â
You've got a never-ending list of short-comings but being with him didn't make you hate yourself. It made you want to be better because you knew Umemiya would accept you for whoever you decided to be. Â
So despite your delinquency, you managed to graduate high school. Post-graduation, you attended a vocational culinary school and became a patisserie before moving to Furin for permanent residency. You opened a bakery and supply bread to Kotoha-chans diner. Â
You made something of your life mostly 'cause of Umemiya. He's not your only friend anymore but he's still your best. Even though you never really pictured things like dating or romance - in some way it only makes sense that it'd be that meddling, kind-hearted idiot that you end up falling for it. Â
Lovesickness aside, you respect Umemiya more than anyone in your personal life. Â
Heâs stuck around with someone like you this long after all. That means a lot to you. Â
Somehow the two of you mesh well despite being totally opposite. Â
You decided as soon as you realized it sometime in high school that you'd keep your feelings a secret for the rest of your life. You had a strong resolve in your beliefs about the whole thing which made it easy. You hid 'em so well even Sakura's stupid accurate romance detector didn't uncover them. Â
When you picture Umemiya's future - it was easy to picture the kind of woman he would end up with. Another kind-hearted idiot like him, a social butterfly. Someone a little softer. Â
In any case it definitely was not you. You didn't need it to be. You've received so much from him already, you never entertained the idea. Plus, Umemiya has dated other people over the years, so in your head there was never any hope to cling onto. Â
For all reasons listed above, a requited romance is at the very bottom of your expectations. Â
That's why you've been in this fucking conundrum. Â
To say it was a complete shock to you when Umemiya openly confessed to you many months ago would be understatement of the goddamn century. Â
He confessed right on the last day of Spring, totally out of the blue.Â
(Itâs a little unusual for Umemiya to call you at this hour. If it were anyone else, youâd be a little upset since youâve gotta be up around four-am to get prepared for the day. Â
Itâs him though so youâre particularly tolerant, yawning as you find Umemiya on a familiar swing-set, still wearing your PJâs. Â
"Why am I out here in the middle of the night with you?"Â Â
Your words lack any real malice as you sit down. Umemiya remains totally quiet. It's unusual for him to not immediately go on a tangent upon seeing you. Â
"Oi. Earth to Hajime." You frown at him. "Did ya get beat up before coming here and scramble your brain? Give me the popsicle before it melts."Â Â
He looks over at you and chuckles as he hands you the bag from the convenience store. You ignore his odd behavior and open up said popsicle before it melts - carefully splitting it down the middle and giving him the bigger side before going to town on your own. He takes it from you but doesn't even bring it up to his mouth. Â
Weird. Â
"Did something... happen? Like seriously happen?" You take a long lick of your iced treat. It's melon flavored, your favorite. "Seeing you frown doesn't feel right. Gives me the heebie-jeebies."Â Â
He cracks a little smile at that. It makes you feel better. He shakes his head. Â
"Mm, nothing happened. I just have something I want to tell you."Â Â
You nod in understanding. "'kay. Take your time."Â Â
He blinks, surprised. Â
"Hm? Aren't you gonna scold me for wasting your time?"Â Â
"Nah. Whatever it is must be serious if it's making you all introspective or whatever. 's fine. Bring me coffee tomorrow and I'll forgive ya."Â Â
His lip twitches up. "I l really like that about you."Â Â
You feel yourself flush and wave a hand at him. "Ahh, shut up."Â Â
He pauses for a second then shakes his head. "Mm. It's more like I like everything about you, actually."Â Â
You twist your face in confusion. "What are you on about now?"Â Â
"That's what I came here to tell you." Umemiya says after a deep breath. He says it so casually you wonder if you're mishearing him - leaning back to look up at the stars. "I really, really like you. I just felt like I had to tell you that"Â Â
You stare at him in disbelief. Â
"Whaâhuh?"Â Â
He doesn't even flinch as he repeats it. Â
"I like you."Â Â
"No the hell you don't."Â Â
He furrows his brow with a light laugh. "I just told you that I do, silly."Â Â
"But that'sâ" You don't say the word impossible. You really want too, but you know exactly how he would react if you did. You simply shake your head. "No, you don't."Â
"I thought you might respond like this so don't worry but how about you?" He shrugs then looks at you intently. "I thought you might like me too."Â Â
Your eyes go wide. Oh fuck. Â
You feel like a deer caught in headlights. You know you should be happy about this, deep down. That'd be the normal response. Â
But you just feel complicated as shit instead. Fuck does he mean? Umemiya.... likes you? There's just no way that's true. Not after all of this time. And how the fuck does he know you like him back when you've been keeping it in?Â
You can't bring yourself to look him in the face and lie. Your heart rises to your throat as you shakily stand to your feet. Â
"Stop...thinking whatever you've been thinking. I'm going home." You reply in complete panic.Â
 The minute you say it, you turn on your heel so you don't have to look at his face. You donât even want to know. Â
And before Umemiya can catch you and try to talk it out, you bolt.Â
What the fuck was that?)Â Â
For the last few months, you've been avoiding the topic of conversation as much as you humanly can. Â
The possibility of Umemiya even just accepting your feelings was already far beyond your imagination, but him returning them? Confessing first? That wasn't even in your realm of possibility. Â
Ever since then, you've been losing your mind trying to force your life and train of thought to go back to normal. Youâve done all of the math on it. Â
Realistically, you can't ignore him. Your lives are so mixed together it'd be impossible unless you went under protection and changed your name which you briefly considered. You thought of turning him down but youâre pretty sure you wouldnât be able to actually do it despite how good you are at keeping it in. Either way, your best option logistically is feigning ignorance and trying to keep the whole thing out of your mind entirely which should've been easy. Â
Tricking yourself into believing the whole thing was a dream? Lightwork. Â
Except. Except. Â
Umemiya just won't give up. Â
He confesses to you again every single day. Worse, he doesn't care whose around to hear him. No one in your friend group seems even the tiniest bit shocked by it which doesn't help the situation. You can't get used to it, can't get used to him being so fucking cheeky as he stops you midway through normal conversation to tell you he loves you. Â
He's persistent to a fault and while you've done well feigning immunity - you can't survive like this. Â
You've graduated to tell him to go away and treating the whole thing like some big joke. Â
But honestly?Â
You're avoiding having a proper conversation about it. Umemiya is especially keen in not letting you forget that. And determined to make you confess. Â
But you're not going to to let him sway you. Â
You've got principles, after all. Â
__Â Â
After you close up shop on Friday, you get dressed to attend a kickback with all of your friends. Â
It's a barbecue technically - commemorating the end of summer. Togame is really into grilling and in their weird domestic partnership, Chouji really enjoys hosting. They've done this once or twice a year ever since they started living together. Â
Once you've finished cleaning up the store, you take the train to Kotoha's place - mistakenly assuming you'd leave as soon as you got there. However you failed to realize that Tsubaki and Kotoha would be getting ready together. Â
You got jumped as soon as you walked through the door - so now you're wearing a different pair of clothes that Tsuabki got for you and waiting for them to finish getting you dressed up so you can leave. Â
Tsuabkino is inches from your face while Kotoha braids your hair. You feel itchy and exposed but with both of them here there's no way you're going to get out of wearing it.Â
"Can we just go?" You grumble, not enjoying the feeling of being poked and prodded. Â
"No," Tsubaki insists, frown making her expression pinch. "You have half an eyelash on. Sit still."Â
"He'll be happy to see you dressed up," Kotoha adds, trying to encourage you. You frown and look down. Â
"Whatever. I don't care about makin' him happy."Â Â
The both of them pause and stare at you until you fold under the pressure - screwing your eyes shut and making you flush. Â
âSuch a blatant lie.â Â
Tsubaki giggles. âRight?â Â
Your face feels hot. "Ahhh, alright already. Shut up."Â Â
"Honest girls are much cuter," Tsubaki coos. You give her a half-assed glare. Â
"Don't you like Hajime? Why're you trying to set me up with him still?" You mumble. You always think theyâd make a perfect pair. Â
"Of course I like him. He's my prince." She smiles at you. âBut itâs a little different to how a certain someone loves him. And well, if you knew the way he looked at youâŚ" Â
You frown, feeling hot all the way up to your ears as you ball your fists up and look down at your lap. "Whatever."Â
"You should stop trying to worm your way out of it," Kotoha adds, much less sweetly. "You know how he is. He couldn't give up on you for ten years like some idiot."Â Â
You blink. "Huh? But ten years would mean -"Â Â
Kotoha braids your hair even tighter making you wince. "I know. You're both stupid like that."Â Â
"Don't be mean, Kotoha-chan. And you, be a little more honest, okay?"Â Â
You sigh deeply.Â
"Ain't like anything is gonna happen either way. I already told you both I'm not accepting his confession,"Â
"Cause you're a huge wuss, yeah we know."Â Â
You elbow Kotoha lightly. Â
"Maybe nothing will," Tsubaki hums mischievously. "But it feels nice to dress up for him, right?" Â
You pretend the thought doesn't make your hear flutter. Â
Tsubaki does you the kindness of laughing lightly before moving on.Â
__Â Â
You arrive to the function an hour later than planned and stick mostly with Kotoha and Tsubaki until half way through the evening. Â
Loosening up with a few drinks, the three of you part ways to catch-up with different people. It's not rare you see them, but it's not often everyones schedules allow them to be in the same place. Â
Lucky for you, Umemiya does you the courtesy of not confessing during the first half of the night before food comes out. Â
(Though you do spit beer in his face after he calls you pretty, which he takes on the chin after cleaning up.)Â Â
After dinner, the function simmers down significantly. People quietly break off into groups and chat to each other into the late night. About that time people split whatever desserts they brought among guests. Â
You brought cookies and something specifically for Chouji and Togame as thanks for hosting. Â
Towards the end of the night, you find yourself sticking sort of close to Umemiya. Though he's having his own one-on-one conversation with Hiragi while sitting next to you , turned the other way. Â
You busy yourself catching up to Suo, Sakura and Nirei - all of whom you consider yourself close to. Â
Of them, you're the closest to Nirei which always surprises people.Â
The kids a total wimp but he helped you years ago study to graduate so you're a little closer to him than everyone else. He's a great guy though and you hang out alone sometimes too. Â
The conversations gone far left at this point in the evening. Â
Suo leans back against his chair and looks toward Sakura besides him with a lazy smile. Â
"Sakura-chan would make a great wife."Â
You snort listening to them bicker. Sakura grows beet red, throwing an empty beer can at Suo's head that he catches gracefully. Â
"Go die."Â Â
"What? You're good at domestic work and you have a cute side, Isn't that all you need?"Â Â
"Shut up. I'll kill you."Â Â
As Suo breaks out into laughs, Sugishita comes down from the kitchen just in time to catch the argument. He crinkles his nose up. Â
"Oh, Sugishita-kun. 'Sup."Â Â
He nods to your greeting as he leans against the wood railing of the outdoor deck. Â
"What the hell are you two talking about?"Â
'What? You mean about Sakura being a good wife?" Suo asks. Sugishita crinkles his nose.Â
"Don't phrase it so repugnantly but yeah I guess."Â
"We were talking about marriage 'cause I was complaining at work."Â Â
"What's happening at work?"Â
Nirei sighs as he lays it out again to Sugishita after having given the spiel to the three of you once. Â
"One of my superiors at work is a lot older than me and keeps bringing up marriage," Nirei explains woefully. "It's all he talks about. He thinks I'm seeing someone."Â Â
Sugishita frowns. "Eh? What gave him that impression?"Â Â
A good question you hadn't considered asking. Â
You raise your brow at Nirei who laughs awkwardly while he holds your gaze. Â
"You know that picture of us from highschool? When he came to the cafe at your school festival?"Â Â
You smile spitefully, crinkling your nose in faux distaste. "The one wear we wearing those stupid maid costumes?"Â Â
"Yup. That's the one. It's a good picture of us so I keep it on my desk and he saw it so..."Â Â
"You keep a picture of just the two of you on your desk? No wonder he got that impression.â Suo adds. Â
You sense Umemiya suddenly tense which you find weird. He's still talking to Hiragi though when you glance from the corner of your eye. You brush it off. Â
Nirei blushes, elbowing him. Â
"Shut up. I've got group pictures and stuff too. But he just singled out that one cause you know,"Â Â
You nod in understanding before it dawns on you. Your eyes widen. "Oh, shit? Does that old man think you're dating me?"Â Â
Nirei closes his eyes and sighs. "He won't even let me correct him."Â
You pause before breaking out into genuine laughter. Â
"Pfft, that's terrible." You reply sympathetically, taking a sip of your beer before giving a mischievous grin. "Maybe you can make it work for you though, eh? Tell 'em we got hitched forreal and then I'll call you on the phone and nag you to get home for dinner so you can leave earlier."Â Â
Nirei acts like he's touched making you laugh even harder. "You'd do that for me?"Â Â
You give him another toothy grin. "I'll even help you fake some wedding photos. We'll be accomplices." You lean back with a shrug. "You gotta wear the dress though."Â
Sugishita laughs at that. "You being a blushing bride is a little..."Â Â
You snort, shooting him a dirty look "Shut up."Â Â
"Deal. Not a bad plan honestly." Nirei says with a sigh. "Whatever gets me out of the office early."Â Â
"Even if that means being married to me?" You joke. Â
He smiles at you. "Aw, what do you mean? That's the best part."Â Â
You chuckle at him good-natuedly and the conversation quickly moves on. Â
The alcohol is starting to make you dizzy so you eventually tune out as the four of them talk, glancing at Umemiya from the corner of your eye. Â
You swear you catch a glimpse of his jaw ticking. Â
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For the rest of the night, Umemiya is off. Â
No one else can tell. You know that because the atmosphere remains light until everyone leaves around two-am. There's no blips or tension, no awkward pauses.Â
But you know Umemiya. He's been real weird all night and it's bugging the shit out of you. Â
It's a well past two now, and you've just left the late night cab you took with him. Umemiya lives close so he's walking you home. Â
He's usually energetic after a get-together like that so his dead silence is weirding you out. You're pretty good at figuring his feelings out but for once you feel totally clueless. Â
It feels as if even the cicadas and crickets have gone to sleep. There's nothing bu the streetlights overhead and soft glow of the moon, coupled with the soft click of your shoes on the pavement. Occasionally, a car will pass by. Â
At one point, it becomes too much. There's still a few minutes until you're home. Â
You stop in the middle of the sidewalk and turn around to look at him. Umemiya pauses, startled as he stops with you, and doesn't smile which only makes your concern worsen. Â
"Oi. What's up with you?"Â Â
"Hm?"Â Â
You cross your arms over your chest. Â
"Don't 'hm' me. You've been in a bad mood few for the last few hours. It's gonna bug me all night if I don't ask, so what's up?"Â Â
He stares at you. Â
"You noticed?"Â Â
"How could I not notice?"Â Â
"I was hiding it pretty well, I thought." He states more than asks, half-smile on his face. Â
"Yeah. But well," You shrug. "I'm always looking at you for better or for worse. So. What's wrong?"Â Â
He stares at you a long time before sighing, running his fingers through his hair. You've never seen him like this. You've seen him pissed off before, seen him mildly irritated - but never this... pouty? It's not like he's pissed. Â
He's quiet, taking a deep breath of cool night air before sliding his hands into his pockets and taking a good look at your face.Â
"Do you know that I like you?"Â Â
Your eyes widen as you blink wildly. Â
This is what he wants to talk about?Â
He pins you down with his stare, hands in his pockets and intense as ever. Â
"Don't even think about bolting this time, okay? I'm asking you seriously. Do you?"Â
Your eyes flicker down the concrete - feeling extremely uncomfortable and suddenly sweaty. You shrug, unsure of what else you could say or do. Â
"Hard not to know." You mumble. "You tell me everyday."Â
"But do you get it?"Â Â
Your frown deepens. Â
"Of course not. How could I possibly get something like that, stupid?"Â Â
He takes a deep breath. "But you like me, don't you?"Â Â
Panic sets in. If you could sink straight into the Earth you would. Â
"...Never said that."Â
He calls your name quietly. "Look at me, at least. Stop running away from me and just look."Â
You know you're being stubborn but you can't help it. You've kept it a secret for ten years and all of a sudden he wants you to tell him you like him? You've held it in for so long already and he's telling you not to run away.What other choice is there? Â
One wrong move move and everything will come crashing down inside of you. You can't even lie about it either. Â
Damn it. Â
"I won't look." Your voice is warbly and it makes you feel so pathetic you could die, tucking your chin petulantly "Don't wanna,"Â Â
Umemiya frowns at you. Â
"If you say you don't like me I'll let it go."Â Â
You remain very quiet and close your eyes tighter. He sighs softly, making your chest hurt. Â
After a minute, you muster up the courage to be dishonest - determined to drop it at all costs. You're slow as you pick your head up. Â
"I don't like you," You repeat slowly, carefully - trying not to stumble the words. "So quit it, alright?"Â Â
He laughs humorlessly and holds your gaze. Â
"That's the first time you've ever actually lied to me. You're terrible at it,"Â
"I'm not lying." You snap. Umemiya smiles somberly when he sees tears on the corners of your eyes. He steps closer to you. You freeze. When his hand reaches cups your cheek, you feel your legs lose all their strength and close your eyes. You're terrified to even look at him, not wanting him to see what you know is obvious on your face. Â
He wipes them as he tilts your face towards him slowly.Â
"Tell me, at least. If you're going to refuse me, don't I deserve to know why? Do you hate the idea of dating me that much?"Â Â
You shake your head. "Stupid. How would anyone hate that?"Â Â
"So I deserve to know why you're turning me down."Â Â
A long moment of silence draws you out of your feelings. You guess that's fair enough. Maybe this way he'll leave you alone - as long you're clear about your reasons. Heâs the earnest type after all. Â
You manage to suck up all your tears and clear your throat enough to give him an explanation.Â
You step back a little from him, putting some distance between you as you stare down at the sidewalk.Â
"You know... I respect ya more than anyone else. You've always been someone I admire. And I uh, owe you a lot. So I only want the very best for you and all." You scratch your neck, taking a deep sigh. "For me... regardless of my feelings, I want you to be with someone who really fits, you know? Well put-together and everything. Someone that suits you better"Â Â
He pauses before frowning.  Â
"Regardless of your feelings? Does that mean you were willingly pushing them aside?" He says distraught. "For how long?"Â Â
You shrug, trying to lighten the conversation. Itâs too devastating otherwise. "About ten years, give or take."Â
The sheer distress in his face makes you want to keep talking, just he doesnât look so disheartened. Like some explanation will clear things up. Â
"It ain't a bad thing, Hajime. You've given me a lot and I'm serious when I say I want the best for you. I love you, if that's what you wanna hear. I'm content just being besides you as your friend." You say with a shrug. "I can be kinda selfish but there's a limit to my greed,yknow."Â Â
He looks like he's in shock.Â
"Wanting someone to love you back isn't greedy or selfish."Â Â
You find you don't have anything to say with that, but hope he drops it for the time being.Â
Umemiya stares at you seriously. It makes your breath hitch meeting his eyes, blue with all the depth in the world. You feel like you can't pull yourself from his gaze. Â
"And there was never a possibility? Not once that I could've liked you? That I wanted to be with you?"Â Â
"It doesn't matter." You say. "And no, it never crossed my mind.."Â Â
"Stop saying it doesn't matter. Of course it matters. Your feelings matter the most so don't toss them aside so easily. Do you really believe that you're not right for me?"Â Â
You arenât sure how to answer him. Â
"You think you're not good enough for me." He says with some realization more than asks. Â
It's the first time you see his face change. When you look up, he looks well and truly angry. The whole thing is confusing. Â
"I'm sorry," You say. Itâs such a timid thing to say but you donât know how else to fix. Â
"It's notâI just don't like hearing you talk about yourself like that. I don't like hearing someone I love get spoken about like that.âÂ
You ignore the sentiment again and wait in the quiet. You always thought this would be an easier conversation to have but it hurts. Â
He sighs a bit, getting closer to you again. Heâs less upset than before but thereâs something else in his expression. Â
"You wanted to know why I was upset earlier right? It's because of you and Nirei-kun." He admits. Â
"What about him?"Â Â
"You talked about marrying him so casually. I overheard and it bothered me all night."Â Â
Your eyes go wide. Â
"Iâit wasn't serious."Â Â
"I know that. I never thought I was that childish either but you being married to someone else as a joke." He laughs humorlessly. "I really hated it. Thatâs why I asked if you know how much I like you."Â Â
You feel frozen in place by his admission.Â
Umemiya steps towards you faster than you can muster up a counter for why he shouldnât bother. Â
His arms around you feel sudden. His grip on you is so tight, like you could slip through his arms all at once if he loosens it. He smells like cologne and beer and summer but it's not unpleasant. He rests his chin on your head and lets out a deep breath. Â
Your chest is throbbing for different reasons now. Shit. Shit, shit, shit. Â
"If you won't be greedy, then you should at least let me be." He lets out a long, tense breath "At least let me have what I want."Â
You're stuck. Your mouth moves faster than your brain. Â
"Why me? And why now?"Â Â
Umemiya pulls away to stare down at you. You can't bring yourself to turn away from him.Â
"It was always you. I felt guilty... for wanting to you that way when you were a precious friend. Wanting to treat you delicately when you were strong and proud." He admits. Hearing him say that out loud embarrasses you to no end, âBut it was those things that made me love you. Strong yet clumsy. Prideful yet honest. Awkward yet trying to be gentle. Loyal. And always considerate of everyone. Of me, when I was taking care of everyone else."Â Â
Your stomach feels like it's going to erupt. You're losing your resolve faster than you know how to mend it. Â
"Stop saying stuff like that."Â Â
Umemiya holds you tighter and shakes his head. "No. How else will I get you to change your mind?"Â Â
"I won't change my mind." You say stubbornly. Â
"I love you." He repeats. Â
You squirm. Â
"Stop it,"Â Â
"I want to be with you. I want to kiss you. I want to hold you. I want to stay by your side forever. I want to do things with you and make you feel good. I want to make you smile. I want to grow old with you."Â
Your hearts fluttering. Fuck. Â
"Idiot. What are you saying? Let me go."Â Â
"It has to be you for me. I won't have anyone else no matter what you think. The person I love is you. I love you."Â Â
"Hajime." Your voice is shaking.Â
His drops down to a whisper. Â
âI canât change how you think of yourself overnight but I can tell you that thereâs no point in trying to push me away. Whether or not you accept me, weâll never stop being side by side - so please stop fighting it.â Â
You put your hands on his chest, trying to push him away. âStop it,âÂ
"Please tell me it's okay to love you how I want too," He says, soft and doting while he crushes you in his arms. "And please love me in return."Â Â
You put your hands up to your misty eyes wanting to wipe them away as he melts through the rest of your resolve like it's nothing. It's hard not to be moved. You've been pretending for ten long years that you don't love him at all and he's declaring his love for you like it's the easiest, most sensible and sane thing in the world. Â
A kind-hearted, willful, meddling idiot. How you are you supposed to push him away when he's holding you this tight? Â
"Shit," You voice, huffing as your voice shakes. "Donât be stupid, alright? If youâre so insistent, I wont let you back out if you meet someone else."Â Â
He laughs wetly. Â
"I already tried meeting other people, but it's still you. Always was."Â Â
He smiles above you. 6'2 with watery eyes with the look of pure relief like it's the best news he's ever heard in his life. It's too much for you. Your heart is racing so fast you wonder if you're gonna die. Â
"Can I kiss you?" He asks. Â
Your eyes go wide as you look away, not wanting to look too eager. "That's..."Â Â
He makes another puppy-dog kinda face. "Please?"Â Â
You're embarrassed by how easy it makes you give in. "...Do whatever you want."Â Â
He laughs bright and warm as his hands slide up to cup your cheeks and kiss you with all the passion he can muster. It's intense, almost suffocating the way he slots his lips against yours and breathes you in. He doesn't let you up from it, doesn't part from you for a second even when he pulls away - noses brushing and stealing the air from your lungs. Â
It's your stupid first kiss and it's perfect - so perfect you wonder if you're going to wake up in a dream. He kisses you hard and makes you stand on your toes to chase his lips when he pulls back. Elated. Ecstatic when you grasp the front of his shirt and keep kissing him when he stops.Â
He pauses before littering your whole face with pecks even as you weakly protest, unable to stop frowning but feeling the happiest you've ever been. Â
There's so much longing in between you, you feel like you could die. You feel helpless.  Â
"Can I come home with you?" He asks, once he stops - only holding your hand a short distance away. "I want more time together."Â
You feel your skin burn hot as you nod, all while trying not to read too much into it.Â
"Yeah."Â Â
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You barely get to lock your door behind you before Umemiya crowds you in the door way. Â
His arms circle around your waist, chin resting against your shoulder.. Broad chest against your back, you try not to flounder as his warm voice caresses your ear. Â
You're going to die young if he keeps this up.  Â
"I love you,"Â Â
You flush. "Enough already. And let me go so I can wash up."Â Â
"Do you need to sleep early? Thought you were closed tomorrow. Wanted to talk a little longer."Â Â
You pause. Â
"...Sleep?"Â
"Hm?"Â Â
You both freeze as the miscommunication dawns at the same time. You try to pull away from him as soon as you realize, skin burning hot. You're quick but Umemiya is quicker. Â
"Hajime." You say gravely. "If you don't let me go, I'm gonna kill you."Â Â
"No way," He laughs as you attempt to wriggle out of his grasp. "Is that why you let me in? Were you expecting something?" Â
"Shut up! Don't say anything, I swear I'll â"Â Â
"Don't be like that, baby. I'm not making fun of you. Hey, turn around. Look at me."Â Â
You're upset but you think the reason is more embarrassing then the feeling. Â
"Don't wanna,"Â Â
Umemiya laughs as he gently turns you around to face him. In your utter mortification, you can barely bring yourself to meet his gaze. Â
"Stop staring."Â Â
He doesn't. Â
"Do you normally invite guys in just 'cause they ask?"Â Â
"Whaâno! It's because it's you, stupid!"Â Â
He smiles in satisfaction. Â
"You shouldn't say yes so easily even if it is me. What if I took advantage of you?"Â Â
You think he's just being smug for the sake of it, which is pissing you off. You grab him by the front of his shirt. Â
"Fuck off. Maybe there's a reason I said yes."Â Â
He pauses before his eyes widen. You push your hand against his mouth before he blurt anything else out but he's quick to pry your hand away. Â
"Don't say it." You hiss. Â
"I was planning on taking my time. I cherish you and I want to make sure you know that. I'm just a little surprised youâre moving so quick when you were telling me not too long ago."Â Â
You can feel the tips of your ears growing hot, feeling even more self-conscious. "Whatever. If we're just going to sleep I still need to wash up."Â Â
He keeps his arms behind your back so you canât move. Â
"Hey. Didn't say that. It's not like I don't want to do it with you. Just don't want you to regret anything."Â Â
You give him an flat look. "I was prepared to give you my virginity and you're worrying about that. Unless you're planning on backing out, there's no way I would."Â Â
"Yourâ" His jaw drops a little. Â
You drop your voice down just a little close as you grab his collar. Â
"If you get it, then hurry up and fuck me. Stupid Hajime."Â Â
He gives you the dopiest smile you've ever seen while your face grows increasingly hot, leaning to in to press a kiss to your lips. He brushes his nose with yours. Laughter from deep in his chest. Â
"Yes, ma'am."Â Â
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Once you give Umemiya permission to have you, you get the feeling that there really is no going back from here. Â
You both know it. The tension in your bedroom is so thick you can barely breathe around it. Â
Umemiya lands gently onto your bed - sitting up as he holds you by your waist and pulls you over to him. You're so aware of his touch it makes your nerves feel they're on fire. You're not a total virgin - at least not enough to be feeling this worked up over someones hands lingering on your waist. Â
But they're Umemiya's handsâHajime's hands, so you can't rationalize your thoughts of out it. His hands are strong and big, a little calloused and rough from the gardening and fighting. You can feel how much he adores you in a gesture so small it makes you concerned for your own heart thinking about how the rest of the night will go. Â
He invites you into his lap gently, so pleased by the way you go to him so willingly. You spread yourself over him with your knees on either side of his thighs. He's big - wide and broad. Â
Your barely hovering over his bulge as you lean your weight onto him. His hand barely brushes underneath your top, just barely touching the skin. Â
You shiver. Â
"Are you really sure this is what you want?" He asks. "I don't mind waiting as long as you need,"Â Â
You give him an bored look. "Not very convincing when you're makin' a face like that,"Â Â
He chuckles nervously. "That bad?"Â Â
You nod before adding a little bashfully. "Dunno if I mind, though."Â Â
He buries his fact against your chest all of a sudden making you jump. Â
"The hell?"Â Â
"You're so cute when you're honest like that," He mumbles into your chest, cheek pressed against your tits. Â
"Jeez, shut up. What're you talking about?"Â Â
Umemiya pulls back and leans forward - enough to breach the inches of space between you. Nose to nose, your eyes meet. A bated breath, you put your hand on his shoulders and work up the nerve to kiss him. Â
It's chaste. Mostly for you to break the ice otherwise you're sure you're gonna pussy out. Â
He smiles at you when you pull away. Â
"See what I mean? So cute," He hums, and leans in again. "Come on. Kiss me again."Â Â
Something about him is different when he tells you to kiss him. It's not smug or cheeky. But it's not casual either. Softness tinges his words, his touch - his whole demeanor screams like he loves you absolutely. It makes your heart rate pick up again, hands shaky as you try not to lose your nerve. Â
He's restraining himself though. How he intense he could be vs how soft and calm he is being. You know Umemiya like the back of your hand so you want him to do what he wants. It's hard to find your voice. Â
"You don't have to.." You cast your eyes down in embarrassment. "âŚhold back with me, either. I'm not some maiden." Â
He smiles at you a little. "You really do know me better than anyone, huh? I was keeping it together pretty well."Â Â
"Look I know Iâm kinda difficultâŚI'm not real good with stuff like this either," You fidget with the collar of his shirt with your free hand. "But once I say yes I donât back out. So don't worry about scaring me off or putting too much pressure on me or whatever. ...'s fine to just do what you feel like. Iâm scared out of my mind but I wouldnât do that to you," Â
âDonât know how long itâll take but Iâll do my best to make you feel secure. Might take some time but weâve got our whole lives.â You flush at the implication. He smiles a little. "Whatever I want seems like a lot to give, though."Â Â
"Well...depending on what, I'm might not be good at it,"Â Â Â
He shakes his head. "I don't want anything like that."Â Â
"What do you want then?"Â Â
"You." He says easily. Your stomach flips. "All of you. I just want to make you feel so good you can't stand it. Want to worship you top to bottom. There's not a single part of you I don't want."Â Â
You flush. "The hell... I meant like a blowjob or some shit."Â Â
He laughs. "I know. And I want that too, another time." He hums, taking a deep breath. "Right now I just want you to feel so good for me. Is that okay?"Â Â
You can't look at him. You can barely stand how bashful you're being, but you can't even play coy. Something in you is bursting at the seams. Â
You love him so much you don't recognize yourself, or your voice, or how you're acting. It makes you sick but you canât do anything but go with it. "Yeah. 's okay, if it's what you want."Â Â
"It is," He says, leaning in. "All I've ever wanted."Â Â
You ignore the latter half of his comment as he finally goes to kiss you again. Â
He pulls your body close to him as you do. Until your chest to chest, arms wrapped around the span of his shoulders as you press your lips together soft and slow. Â
He slides a hand underneath your top, undoing the clasp of your bra. He lets his palm stay on the center of your back while you keep kissing - straps of your bra falling down your shoulder as he splays his fingers to feel more of your skin and hold you. Hugging you close to him, his other arm wraps around your torso. His forearms feels especially strong they way they hold you by the waist. Â
You're so close to him. Kissing him so deep, his tongue sliding against your lips. Something about the kiss is languid but the touch is so hot it makes your skin burn. You feel wrapped up in him, can't even tell whose heartbeat you're hearing.Â
More of your weight ends up in his lap as you feel your knees go weak. Something hard presses against your clothed cunt and you gasp a little into his mouth. Â
"Oh, shit." You mumble in surprise. Umemiya laughs. Â
"You're making me feel good." He hums. Â
Your face heats up. "I barely did anything."Â
"You just being on my lap is more than enough."Â Â
You make a face at him before rubbing yourself over the zipper of his jeans, slow and deliberate trying to get a feel for it. You hear him moan, nearly jumping out of your skin in surprise. Â
The way Umemiya moans is a lot for you to process. Breathy and a little low. It resonates through your whole body like a caress. Â
You make a few more tentative passes over his bulge, just to hear him do it again. Driven by your instinct more than anything, you lean into kiss at his jaw - making use of the limited experience you do have to try and draw more sounds from him. Â
"What're you thinking about?" He asks, still breathless. Maybe amused. Â
"Like the way you sound." You mumble in reply. Â
"I thought I told you I wanted to take care of you, hm?"Â Â
You frown. "So what? I can't touch you at all?"Â Â
He thinks on it. "You can touch me everywhere else and you can have your way with me later, if you want it. I don't wanna cum too fast."Â Â
"I'm just..."Â Â
He shakes his head. "You're underestimating me. I'm still a guy, you know? With a woman I love at that. There's no way I would make it through our first time if I didn't focus on you. Don't pout,"Â Â
Hearing him describe you in such an embarrassing way makes you flush. You roll your eyes half-heartedly. "Fine, whatever."Â Â
He smiles. Â
"Good girl. C'mere. Lay down."Â Â
You decide not to think about how effected the praise makes you as you comply. Â
Umemiya lays you down carefully, making sure you're comfortable before hovering over you. He looks a lot more imposing from this view - the dim lights of your room making his face seem more well-defined. Your nipples harden in arousal, peeking from underneath your shirt as he stares long and hard. Â
"You're so beautiful to me."Â Â
He leans down and presses a hot kiss to your jaw, just underneath your ear before slowly kissing down your neck. Open-mouthed kisses along delicate skin, tongue sliding over every patch he scrapes lightly with his teeth. You fidget underneath him, a dull throbbing between your legs. You try to figure out what to do with your hands but youâre too nervous. Â
He kisses your throat where it's extra sensitive and you bite back and involuntary noise.Â
"Don't hold your voice, please?"Â Â
"It's embarrassing,"Â Â
"It's not," He assures, bumping his forehead to your shoulder lightly. "I want to know what makes you feel good. Let me pay attention to you."Â Â
You frown but nod ultimately. Â
Umemiya isn't the first sexual encounter you've had in your life. You've done other things, but you've never really gone all the way with anyone. All of your other partners were mostly strangers - people mutually interested in using someone else to try and get off. Â
This is the first time anyone has taken this much time with you. A little kissing and groping, sometimes touching your chest. Â
No one's ever touched you like this, though. Â
His hands feel like they're all over your body no matter where they actually end up being. Makes your heartbeat rain drumming on a tin roof. Makes your stomach tingle, a heat in your calves and a prickly feeling on your back. Your whole being drowning with pure anticipation. Â
"Take this off for me." Umemiya mumbles. You nod, feeling absent as you wiggle yourself out of your tight little tee and toss it somewhere. Â
The air shifts again when you're naked. His eyes drink you in, tracing the soft lines and edges of your body. Looking over scars and stretchmarks with pure, blown out wanting that shoots lust straight into your veins. Â
You want him to fuck you so bad it's killing you but the very thought makes you feel so shy you could die. Â
"You're beautiful," Sounds dirty the way he says, makes it spill from his lips like wine tipping over a glasses edge. "Perfect. Every inch of you is so perfect."Â Â
He proves this to you by kissing you again. Running his hands over your skin. Up against curved sides and down against your arms, brushing the back of your biceps and forearms. Â
Infatuation in his touch ruins you. Makes your voice let out. You can't think of anyone whose treated you so preciously in your entire life and you find you don't resent it as much as you should. Â
(You find it feels so good to let someone touch you so kindly. A touch like you're being loved.)Â Â
Nonetheless it's embarrassing. Of course it is. Â
But it's so hard not to feel pulled in when you feel the way he kisses you. Draws a trail with his lips and tongue from jaw to shoulder blade - kissing down your biceps with his hands on your body, taking gentle inhales of your scent. Â
Anticipation makes your stomach tie in knots but finally he relents. Both hands squeeze the soft weight of your chest, palms brushing your hardened nipples. Â
"Fuck."Â Â
He laughs a little, heavy with want. "Yeah? Do you like being touched here?"Â Â
"Mm." Is the best reply you can get out. Â
He brushes against the tips with his fingers in a feather-light gesture, testing the waters before rubbing with a little more pressure. Your body jolts from the stimulation, wetness pooling and dampening your underwear. He leans in and takes one of your nipples into his mouth making another dull wave of lust wash through you. Â
And he makes sure to pay attention to both. It's just like him to be so attentive to some shit like that. Your spine arches as he sucks on your sensitive nipples, letting his tongue flick across them and giving into a sweet friction. You buck your hips up against instinctively, gripping onto the sheets as your sense of restlessness grows. Â
Your voice is whiny to your own ears but you can't calm down to save your life. Â
"You're taking too long," You huff. He laughs lightly, looking up at you from underneath his lashes. Â
"Don't be impatient." He tsks. Â
"It's enough already,"Â
He shakes his head. "Nope. Still got a long ways to go. Promise you'll have me when you're ready for it, so just try and focus on feeling good."Â Â
You make a frustrated sound. "It's embarrassing being the only one feeling good,"Â Â
He pauses before standing up on his knees. He takes his black t-shirt off in one swift go until his torso is bare, and undoes the top button of his pants. He gives you a little glance. "Better?"Â Â
There are too many layers of that to process in the moment it happens. You mumble. "A little,"Â Â
He beams. "Good. Now let me take good care of you,"Â Â
Sliding down lower, he kisses you from sternum to navel. Hands gripping at the softness of your sides, smoothing over the bare skin as he his thumb finds the waistband of your skirt. He glances up at you, silently seeking your permission. You nod back at him, watching him slide the short skirt away from your waist. Â
The sudden air feels cool against your skin. He presses his cheek against your belly, both hands on your hips.. Â
"You're gorgeous. Even more gorgeous than I thought. I feel so lucky being able to touch you when you're this perfect.â He praises endlessly. Â
You cover your face with your arm. Â
"Ugh. Quit it. You're sayin' too much."Â Â
"Seeing you get so shy when I praise you a little is so cute." He trails his lips down further and further - just above your sex before stopping. "You're so cute."Â Â
He sits back, standing up and bending your legs slightly at the knee. You hold the position as you feel him massage your calve. Thumb drawing hard circles in the muscle, slowly working his way up to your knee. He kisses you afterwards trailing the same spot his hands were touching seconds ago before moving onto the other side. Â
There's nothing you can call it short of worship. The nagging feeling that it's undeserved is washed away each time Umemiya holds your gaze. Â
Devotion colors every touch no matter how small. And itâs so obvious, so prominent - it feels outright wrong to deny the fact itâs there.  Â
You think the closest thing you can compare it too is the way Umemiya gardens. A patience as his fingers root through earth and soil, a kindness towards delicate things that makes even hours of work under the sun look beautiful and easy. His expression is what's most uncanny - what makes you you feel so hot.Â
An expression that says he loves doing it from the very bottom of his heart - not even a hint of apathy or complaint. Â
A face that says he loves every long, drawn out motion and actions of repetition all fro the very core of him. Â
Having it directed at making love to you so blatantly makes you more aroused than you know what to do with. You don't know how to let yourself be treated like the most cherished flower in Umemiya's garden - and you aren't so sure how you're meant to get used to it no matter how much it makes you feel...nice. You donât have any other experience. Â
Which is why you're trying to be patient. Trying to be at least temporarily secure in whatever he sees in you that makes him worship every inch of you, memorizing all your ins and outs. Â
Umemiya places hot, wet kisses on your inner thigh before laying himself between your spread legs - breath barely hovering over your sex. Â
By the time he gets there, you feel utterly melted into your sheets. Your mind is hazy, impatient and wanting as strong hands secure your thighs. He's so close. Â
"I wanna eat you out. Is that okay?"Â Â
"If you don't do something soon I'm gonna kill you."Â Â
He laughs warmly. "I'll take that as a yes."Â Â
You pause. Umemiya waits. Â
"I didn't uh," You clear your throat. "Wasn't planning on getting laid so y'know. Haven't shaved in a while."Â Â
"Were you worried that I'd change my mind? I like it for the record. Feels natural." Umemiya says. "It's your body so there's nothing I would dislike about it."Â Â
"You're too much." You reply back in earnest. You cover your face with your arms. "So cheesy."Â Â
"I'm being serious." He says suddenly solemn with how sincere he is.Â
The sudden change is amusing. You pause before breaking into genuine giggles, unable to help yourself. Â
"You're really somethin', yknow that?"Â Â
He's quiet for a long time. Long enough for it to catch your attention, turning your gaze more clearly towards his face. Swiftly, he pushes himself up to catch your mouth in another kiss. It stuns you a bit, very different to all the rest. More teeth and tongue than lip. Â
"I like you," He murmurs, forehead to yours. "How can someone be so cute?"Â Â
"Would you quit embarrassing me and get on with it?"Â
He smiles. "As you wish,"Â Â
Umemiya settles back down between your legs after easing your panties off and putting your feet flat on the bed to give himself more access. You can barely look down at him doing it. His fingers brush the slick hairs back gentle as he uses his thumbs to spread your pussy apart and look at you more intimately. Â
You can feel him. Feel his every breath and movement. He stares at you awestruck. "How is all of you so pretty? Even here it's such a beautiful color."Â Â
"Stop looking so much,"Â Â
He takes a breath, taking in your scent one more time before pressing a kiss to your clit. You make an attempt to squirm away from his grip as his finger dig into your thighs and hold you down. The strength of it knocks the wind out of you, forcing you into place. Umemiya pushes his tongue and gives you a long, tentative lick through the seam of your cunt. Â
Your whole body breaks out into shivers at the sensation. The warm weight of his tongue on your sex makes feels like an electric current through water - your toes curling as he makes the same few passes over and over. He collects your pooling arousal on the tip as he drags upwards and flicks your clit tentatively. You grind against his face instinctually, hips chasing the pleasure. Amused laughter vibrates against your core as you do, mumbling at you to be patient while he's still face deep in it. Â
You let out another pitchy whine before he finally stops teasing. He lays his tongue flat against your clit, cupping it lightly before drawing it around experimentally. He watches carefully as he plays around with pressure and angles - trying to see what makes you react the most. You can feel how closely he's watching you.Â
You cover your mouth with your hand when he does find it, your voice breaking off as he licks carefully right where you need. He smiles into your cunt as he toys with your with the sensitive bundle of nerves, pleased by the change in your reactions. The obvious pleasure he's making you feel. Â
Something blooms into your chest. You've neverâÂ
"You'reâ" You close your eyes, hands tangling in the sheets as you break out into a fever. "Ngh, never had someone l-lick me,"Â Â
He must've heard you because he seems to laser in his focus the minute you say it. He's lapping at your clit so deep, licking precisely and holding you with nose against your bush. Â
You reach down tentatively, pushing back the hair falling in his face and he gives you a look so lovesick you want to run away. The pressure changes gradually, more intensely. Â
It feels better somehow. Makes you feel restless. Your whole body curls in tight with want at the sensation of it, the lower expanse of your belly tensed. You're shaking as you drift closer to the edge, arousal upped by the wet sound of him sucking your clit. Â
"Hajime," You warn, spine starting to arch as you helplessly try to pull away from the intense sensation. It's not familiar to your body, so much so your mind can barely make sense of what's happening to it, "Cummingâc-cumming!"Â Â
Something in you goes undone as Umemiya keeps pace during your orgasm. All the tension inside of you suddenly comes loose - specks of white matter behind closed lids as you screw your eyes shut. Your back curves up into arch, your hips trembling, your insides pulsing. It comes running into you, crashing into your body as waves of pleasure drown out the noise in your head. He eats you out until you feel borderline hysterical. Â
You feel melted and reshaped by him - yanking him off when he continues to be insistent after you're too oversensitive. He laughs when you pull him away, resting against your thigh as you take worn out heaving breaths. Â
He kisses the inside of your knee as you calm down, bright smile on his features - painted pink with a slight flush. "You came. I'm so happy."Â Â
You look at him in shock. "You're a scary guy."Â Â
He pushes up to kiss your temple, voice soft. "Did I scare you?"Â Â
Your stomach flutters, tucking your chin. "You were intense, but I didn't... hate it or anything."Â Â
"Yeah?" He grins, pressing a few kisses to your cheek and face before whispering against your ear. "Then, is it okay to go farther?"Â Â
You nod silently. Umemiya smiles. Â
He stands up on his knees, pushing his hair back as your eyes are drawn to his pants. You reach out for the waistband of his pants unthinkingly, hooking your finger into it. "Isn't it stuffy?"Â Â
He blinks, frozen before rubbing a hand across his face. "Ah a bit, but it's fine."Â Â
"Take 'em off. Please?"Â Â
Umemiya looks unusually distressed by the request, but follows through without another word. You watch him undress - revealing the tight black fabric of his boxer briefs snug against his waist. Your eyes go wide as you see the outline of his cock - head still half hazy. You voice your unfiltered reaction. Â
"Your dick is so big,"Â Â
He laughs breathlessly. "Are you trying to stir me up? What's with you?" He pauses to lay down besides you. You turn to lay on your side and face him a little better. "You're being cute. I'm not used to seeing you so docile."Â Â
"Shaddup," You reply half-heartedly. Your body is still on fire but it knocked the wind of you to cum once already. "Your fault."Â Â
He grins, a hint of smugness as he laughs. "That's true."Â Â
"You gonna fuck me?"Â Â
"Mm, yeah. Gotta open you up first or it'll hurt."Â Â
"I've put stuff in before. Toys. Should be fine."Â Â Â
"Still wanna play it safe. It's your precious first time after all."Â Â
You make a face before pulling him into you, hugging him tight as your whole body breaks out in a shameful flush. "Then hurry up and do it already."Â Â
His arms slide underneath where your laying, holding you to him as he hikes one of your legs up. He slides his free hand in over your leg - his forearm holding your thigh. You press your face to his neck and shoulder - hiding your expression. "Guess I should huh? You were always impatient,"Â Â
You can barely tell him to shut up, the way your body waits for it. A warbled little noise leaves your mouth as he slides his middle finger through the sticky folds of your cunt - careful as it catches on your hole. Wet and so aroused, the first finger he puts in goes in completely smoothly with no real effortÂ
Umemiya speaks low and soft as he holds you. "I don't know if I can get used to seeing you like this. I'm glad no one else but me ever wil Youâre really all I think about lately," He catches the lobe of your ear between his teeth gently. Your head spins. "People misunderstand you because you're prickly, you know? For a long time, only I knew what it felt like to be liked by you. I liked that,"Â Â
"Why are youâmmgh,"Â
He slides another finger in carefully after the first one slides inside of you with no resistance. His voice is so hot against your skin, the low bass of it in your skull as he speaks so close to your ear. Â
"Don't get me wrong I'm happy seeing you with so many people surrounding you. But I was a little sad too. And it kept getting worse over the years until I couldnât ignore it. I couldnât figure out why for a long time and then it clicked,â Umemiya explains. You realize half way delirious this is his real confession. God, youâre gonna kill him. âSuddenly it was all I thought about. I wanted to be special to you. I wanted to monopolize you. It was my first time having thoughts like that,â Â
Another finger slides into you easily. Umemiyas fingers are so much bigger than yours. Thicker than they are long. The stretch is enough to make you gasp. Â
âHajimeââÂ
He curls them up, careful until he finds the spot heâs looking for. Your body reacts, another sensation of pressure as his middle finger rubs tenderly against your gspot. You weakly try to wiggle away as he holds you firm. Â
âI felt a little guilty, too. Youâre my very best friend. Youâre independent and diligent. Tough. But you know, when I saw you for those few months - all I could think about was how much I wanted to spoil you,â He whispers. Something in your body shifts the way touches you. Pushes in further and further - stretching until itâs easy for him to be inside. âSomehow everything I liked about you became so cute I couldnât stand it. I couldnât help but want to dote on you over every little thing even though I knew better than anyone you didnât need something like that.â Â
Your eyes well up but not necessarily from emotion. Totally overwhelmed. You donât feel like youâre gonna cum but thereâs something else thatâs waiting and each time he thrusts his fingers into you it comes a little closer. Your voice is shaking. Â
âItâfuck, quit talking. Somethings gonnaââ Â
His smile grows a little. Itâs the first time it looks so hungry. Â
âI was happy in general when I realized you liked me too. Even when you were being stubborn, I liked the way you couldnât turn me away. I liked how happy you looked talking to me as usual as if that alone was something so precious,â He hums, so focused and precise as he stretches you open on a third finger but never once losing his train of thought. Like saying all of these comes to him so easily it doesnât matter. âI didnât want to corner you. But it felt like I couldnât rest until you were mine completely. Which is why Iâm being so unfair to you. Why Iâm so persistent. âÂ
Your voice breaks on a whine. âItâs gonna come outââ Â
âYou make a pretty face when your heads filled with nothing but me. I donât think itâs bad to wanna stay that way,â He hums, almost conversational as he presses a kiss to your skin. âGo on. Let go,â Â
Something hot sprays between your legs as Umemiya fucks you open on all three of his fingers. Â
A rush of warm liquid squirts onto your sheets as your legs shake wearily. Umemiya marvels at the mess. Your hands curl into fists, nails digging in your palms as he finally pulls them out - leaving you stretched, almost gaping. Â
You lay limp in soaked sheets as you pull away from Umemiya with a very weak glare. Â
Heâs smiling at you, dopey and lovesick. Â
âToo much?â Â
Angrily, you smack at his bare chest over and over, trying to recover your pride. Â
âYouâre insane. Whatâs,â You swallow thickly. âWhatâs with you.â Â
He shrugs. Wordless, he flips you onto your back again before hovering over top of you. Pressing his forehead to yours, he brushes your noses together and plants a tentative peck on your lips as if trying to gauge whether or not youâre upset. He melts when you kiss him back, smiling happily. Â
âWere you like this with your other girlfriends? No wonder they broke up with you,â Â
He laughs. âMm, no? I was more of a gentleman.â Â
You break out into another exhausted fit of laughter. Â
âPfft, yeah? Guess Iâm pretty special,âÂ
âYeah. You are.â He kisses you again. âWanna keep going or are you too tired? I donât mind if we sleep.â Â
âStupid. I said it already didnât I? Hurry up and fuck me.â Â
âOkay, okay. Let me go get the condom from my wallet,â Â
You wrap your legs around his waist and stare up at him plainly as he tries to move, keeping him pinned in place. Youâre frowning, brows furrowed with a hard glare. He stares at you. Â
âDid you want something else? Water?â Â
âWant you to fuck me,â You restate, arms reaching up to circle around his neck. âJust do it already.âÂ
He pulls back to look at you seriously. Â
âDo you know what youâre asking?â Â
You flush. âOf course I do. Stupid. Are you trying to get me to say it out loud?â Â
âI might think Iâm deluding myself otherwise.â Â
You sigh, looking at him flatly as you try to tamp down the part of you thatâs screaming to be more tactful. Â
âDonât bother with the condom, a-alright? Or pulling out,â Â
He looks like heâs experiencing the shock of his life. âButâŚâÂ
âStop being dumb or Iâm never gonna have sex with you again.â Â
He nods suddenly solemn. âFine. But,â Â
You give him another look that silences him. He sighs again, getting the message before kissing your cheek and pull back to sit up on his knees between your legs. Pulling his briefs down, his cock springs free. It looks a lot bigger than you saw underneath the fabric, weighed down from itâs own weight even though it stands up stiff. He opened you up with three but you wonder if itâll be enough not to stretch you open. Â
You reach your hand out to touch it tentatively, feeling itâs weight and heft. He clears his throat but seems content to let you. The palms of your hands cup the shaft, feeling all the veins pulse. The tip is sticky with precum. You pull your hand away, another sudden wave of self consciousness overwhelming you. Â
Umemiya hovers over you again, placing he length of his cock against your pussy. You shift a little feeling it slide against you, hard and hot. Â
âGonna put it in now, okay?â Â
Nodding, you put your legs up. You take a deep breath when the head pushes in, letting out an involuntary noise. You feel well-stretched but the thickness of his cock is still enough to make you feel it in your legs. Umemiya is focused above you, barely sliding the tip through your folds as you open up around him. The air feels punched out of your lungs on just the first inch. Â
His face is strained is he holds his hips steady, leaning down to tap your foreheads together. âFeeling okay?â Â
âMm,â You nod, wrapping your arms around his neck. âFine. Feels different.â Â
âDifferent?â Â
âYours is bigger than all the stuff I own,â You explain. âFeels hotter. Harder, too.â Â
You feel his cock twitch inside of you suddenly, shocking you. He smiles sheepishly. Â
âGonna push in a little more, okay?â Â
You nod, watching as Umemiya so slowly presses his cock into you further. Enough that it doesnât hurt when you take him, as much as it just feels like something is inside of you. You feel a warm sense of satisfaction at how full you feel. You feel like him like heâs in your stomach, taking up so much space. After a while of pushing, stopping, and going again - he finally bottoms out. Â
âYou feel incredible,â He murmurs, half-smile on his face. Your stomach flutters. âItâs hard not to cum right away. Feels so good inside of you. I love you.â Â
You feel yourself twitch, frowning at the expression of delight Umemiya has. You put your hand against his fact to keep him away but he kisses your palm and moves it. Bottomed out, he grasps both hands and holds them - pinning them to the bed as you watch him wide-eyed. Â
âThink youâre used to it?â He hums, clasping your fingers together. âIs it okay if I move?â Â
You feel so damn bashful. âItâs okay.âÂ
He kisses your forehead. âIâll go slow.âÂ
As promised, Umemiya pulls out carefully before pushing back into you. Youâre so wet that it slides in without any real friction. It takes a few thrusts of him going slowly for your body to get adjusted to the sensation. After a few motions, though - it starts to feel different. Â
Starts to feel good. Really, really good. Â
âOh,â Your eyes flutter open. âShit. You c-can go faster.â  Â
âYeah?â Â
You nod, trying not to seem too eager.Â
When Umemiya picks up pace, you feel your the whole lower half of your body weaken all over again. Something in your legs, your spine go soft against the bed underneath, a sudden unusual arousal swelling. Somewhere in deeper as he cocks thrusts against your gspot, knocking against it with more force than before. The change in pace coupled with the visual of Umemiya over you, face drawn together in focus as he fucks you is too much. Split open on his cock, you can hear how wet you are each time he moves. Â
âFeelsâŚâ Your words come up empty. ââs so much.âÂ
âYeah? Is it too much for you, baby?â Â
You shake your head as your thoughts get increasingly cloudy. Itâs like thereâs nothing else your body can focus on. The way his cock drags against your sensitive, silken walls. The feeling of being full to empty and then full all over again. The way your pussy gets so much wetter each time he moves, sloppy and sucking him in so tight. You can feel your body want for him. Â
Umemiya lets go of your hands, sliding one between your bodies. Palm resting on your sex, he lets his brush against your clit. The difference it makes is significant, makes your eyes go wide. He smiles a little, hair falling in his face as he pushes it up with his free hand. Â
âThatâs it,â He hums, contented to keep at it like this. âFeels good, right? Your holding onto me so tightly itâs hard for me to pull out even though youâre so wet.â Â
You make a whiny noise and wonder if other peoples first times feel this good or if youâre just outrageously lucky. You decide on the latter he fucks you faster and matches his thrusts with the movement of his fingers. Youâre warm all over - skin scorching as your hands find his biceps and shoulders to cling onto. Â
Your voice is so whiny when you call out for him âYouâre so deep, ngh.â Â
He laughs, deep and raspy. âYeah? Tell me what youâre feeling,â Â
âIt feels good when youâre in me.â You reply drunkenly. âWant it faster. Please,â Â
He complies with your request almost immediately. You cry out loud, physically incapable of holding the sound in as he gets to fucking you faster and harder. Your pussy is throbbing. Senselessly horny, you pull Umemiya closer to you as he fucks you and smash your lips together. You feel so good, so thoroughly fucked and completely out of it. Heâs in you but you want him even closer, want the scent of his skin to mark you. Â
A second time your body builds up to that familiar feeling but itâs so much farther inside. An orgasm pulled right from your core. Stomach tied in knots as Umemiya fucks you hard, you wrap your legs around his waist and take him.Â
âThatâs it. Youâre so good. Cum on my cock, sweet girl. Let me feel itâ He murmurs against your skin, holding you close. âYouâre making me feel so good. So cute. Go ahead, itâs okay. Let me see how good Iâm making you feel.â Â
Pliant to his request, you hold onto Umemiya for dear life as your body gives into second orgasm. Your nails dig into his biceps as the built up arousal gives way pleasure - and you cum hard with his cock sheathed all the way inside of you. All the wind gets stolen from your lungs as you press forward with another kiss, your whole body trembling violently as you let go. Â
Umemiya sweet talks you through without letting go once, only stopping to take a pause when youâve fully ridden out your high. Â
You stare up at him in a daze as he takes a breather to kiss you, still hard as heâs bottomed out inside of you. Â
âYou gonna cum soon?â Â
âMm,â He nods. âYeah Iâm close. If I move, I will.â Â
ââs okay to cum in me,â Â
Umemiya laughs warmly. âIâm already about too. Youâre not helping,â Â
You smile a bit as you hug him close to you and tell him again that itâs fine. Before long, he holds you too, whispering the same three words into your neck as he finally lets it out. Itâs a weird feeling, thick white ropes of seed spilling into the deepest parts of you. Â
You donât really hate it, though. Â
âI love you,â Umemiya repeats. Tired you donât try to fight yourself. Â
âLove you too,â Â
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The next morning, youâre stirred away by the sound of your front door unlocking and the sound of Kotohaâs voice echoing through your apartment. Â
Youâre still half-way asleep, so it barely dawns on you that anything is off. Not cognizant enough to think twice, your body tries to go back to sleep. Â
Or it does until you hear a very loud shout coming from your kitchen that wakes you up with a start. Â
âNo fucking way,â Â
You sit up suddenly, hearing faint conversation before the sound of steps barreling towards your door. You just barely manage to pull the sheets up over your chest before she comes storming through the door of your bedroom. Â
You watch her eyes scan your entire room, mentally collecting data before she finally lands on you. As your brain starts to load back in, your eyes go wide with horror at the look of pure scandal on her face. Â
Fuck. You were supposed to be having dinner with her and Tsubaki tonight. Usually you confirm with them in the mornings since your up. Itâs not uncommon for her to drop in when you donât reply to check in since you live close by.Â
Fuck. Â
âYouâOh, I have to text Tsubaki-chan, I canât believeââ Â
Before she gets to finish her sentence, Umemiya appears behind her in your door way. The sight of him only adds fuel to the flame of your embarrassment. You went another round or two before bed last night and it looks like it too. Shirtless in sweats he left over a while ago, his biceps are covered in scratch and with a few hickies, heâs wearing his hair down with a cup of tea and a very apologetic smile. Â
You cover your face with your hands unsure of how to deal with the feeling of pure mortification. Â
Kotoha snaps a picture of your room that causes even more distress. Â
âIf you donât delete that right now, Iâm gonna kill us both.â Â
âIn your dreams.â Â
Umemiya laughs warmly. âPlease donât kill each other.â Â
He slides past Kotoha coming over to you. Bending down to kiss your forehead, he pulls the blanket up over you so youâre more well-covered. You give him an incredulous but Umemiya is unfazed - smiling as bright as ever.Â
âGood morning,â Â
âI canât believe my eyes,â Kotoha says. She points at Umemiya. âYou, go put on a shirt.â Â
âFine, fine. Stay for breakfast,â Umemiya says with a smile. âItâll be nice having it with my two favorite people.â Â
You make another face as Umemiya gives you a long, affectionate look before disappearing. She sighs as she looks at you, pinching the bridge of her nose. Â
âI would ask if youâre gonna meet us for dinner but you donât have a choice anymore so show up at seven. Iâm gonna leave before that tactless idiot comes back. Weâll talk later.â Â
You nod in understanding. She turns to leave but then turns back with a genuine smile. Â
âAnd, well - congrats. Heâs a tactless idiot but he does love you or whatever. Cherish each other,â Â
You flush, nodding your head. âYeahâŚthanks.â Â
With that Kotoha leaves quickly. Umemiya returns still shirtless, pouting a little when he notices sheâs gone. Â
âShe left already?â Â
âOf course she did. I canât believe you would invite her for breakfast.â  Â
Umemiya shrugs. âNo point being coy about it. I thought itâd be nice. I was looking for a shirt but I guess I donât need one now,â He sits besides you on the bed, turning to face with a goofy smile. âAnyways, good morning.â Â
âYou already said that.â Â
âYou didnât say it back,â Â
You frown. âGâmorning,â Â
He smiles suddenly before grabbing you from underneath the blankets and sheets - pulling your naked body ontop of him as he grins. Sunlight pours through the window as he holds you to his chest, kissing the crown of your head before pressing his cheek into your hair. Â
âMm, yeah. Itâs a really good morning after all.â Â
âYouâre stupid.â Â
âAnd you love me,â Â
You fail trying not to smile.  Damn him. You're so happy it hurts. You roll your eyes.
âI guess so.â Â
#windbreaker x reader#umemiya x reader#windbreaker smut#umemiya smut#writing tag#umemiya hajime x reader#umemiya hajime smut#bro#im sorry if there are still typos i edited this so much
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