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i knew a fujoshi in high school who was straight up incapable of being normal abt trans men. it's was the most uncomfortable woobification and sexualización ever. (why did my phone auto correct that to spanish i'm on my english keyboard)
theres this part of me thats convinced women who act like that are men who are in denial bc why else do you give a shit lmao
#i get woobified way more by other queer people than cishet people#like cishet people treat me like im a fragile girl but they dont infantilize me and baby talk me and shit like other queers do#it drives me insane and also kind of seconds my point i guess#but then ive never had to deal w any unicorn hunters so maybe its just not an experience i have to understand it
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Okay have read “tides of fate” now.
First: obligatory fave quote: “No sooner had he breathed the air into his new lungs than he had claimed your mouth, fell with you to the ground on the very spot where his new feet had first touched it, and begged to have his wife.”
Like yes, babe, and it was hot as fuck.
Second: that it was evil!reader that persuaded Sauron back on track instead of maybe considering going home with his tail between his legs makes “Defied” so much spicier. Now it has an undercurrent of “you wouldn’t even be here without me, why won’t you listen? Why won’t you yield just a little?” It calls attention to the fact that Sauron thinks of her as a part of him, not just in the cutesy way but also (subconsciously and probably buried deep in his mind) as a part of him to serve his purposes. A beloved vital organ, barred from going against him in anyway.
My longstanding conspiracy theory is that Sauron (esp as you write him but generally) has a need to be Adored, (in canon in the sense of being worshipped, in fanfic land in both worship and the romantic relationship sense). I think your evil reader series couples really well with that, in the sense that your Sauron both needs to be adored and to adore. That he has a SO so intertwined with his story, his plots and schemes satisfies both needs.
I think he feeds on evil!reader’s desire of him in a very real way. I do wonder how he’d fare given the “it’s me or the rings” ultimatum but for real. I also lowkey wonder if his proposal to form The Two, by mixing their blood together, might have something to do with potentially binding her to him even more permanently, so no matter how angry or disappointed or abandoned she felt she would never be able to forsake him. He’d have to be banking on his maiar blood overpowering hers and keeping her from having a similar impact on him, I guess.
Anyways, these are the ramblings I have to offer today. Thanks for the great fic 💜
Oh they are excellent ramblings👀 I perfectly agree that Sauron wants to be admired, and I think that’s also why when someone tries to call him Sauron aka “the Abhorred” he kind of deflects with his go-to line ‘I’ve had many names’.
As for their relationship, in my mind, the more involved they get with the Rings, the more things spiral out of control. I did have the fight in Defied on my mind while I was writing this, cause in that one reader is the one backtracking a little while Sauron just goes full-speed ahead and that’s partially because at that point he especially is more and more blinded by his greed for the Rings, since they are literally made of him. There is a hope on both their parts that The Two will help put them back on the same track and make their union even stronger, but tbh at the moment I don’t see it going that well😅 Like, there might be such a thing as ‘too close’. I was listening to Over each other by Linkin Park, and it made me think of a potential period of decline between them where their thoughts are so intertwined by the influence of The Two that it feels like ‘all they are is talking over each other’:
Reaching for satellites, but all along/Under your breath, you're sayin' that I was wrong, oh/The skyscrapers we created are comin' down/And free-fallin' to the pavement/Cause you won't let me breathe/And I'm not ever right/All we are is talkin'/Over each other
And that drives them insane and brings out the worst in them, making them blame each other for the mess as the peoples of Middle-Earth keep fighting back and their goal seems forever out of reach and ugh. It’s messy af and idk how (if) that’s gonna be fixed.
But I like to go hand in hand with canon so you guys don’t have to worry about that kind of angst any time soon. Good thing season 3 isn’t here yet😅
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An unbearable fan (Rúben Dias x Reader)
**So I was requested this the other day and it's kind of funny huh? Me writing from the POV of a Madrid fan. Just in case you didn't know it was fiction, this is the definitive proof 😅 anyways, it’s just banter and a bit of angst and fluff for all of you to hopefully enjoy! ❤️**
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There were downsides to any relationship and that included a relationship with a football player. All the travelling, all the emotions that went up and down depending on the result of that specific day…it could be a lot. But when the player didn't play for the team you loved with all your heart, things could get a bit messier.
Luckily for you, Rúben played in England. Your team played in the Spanish League. So the chances of him playing against Madrid were so small…but there still was a chance.
And so when Madrid beat Chelsea and City beat Bayern, it was time for a second semifinal in a row between your team and your boyfriend's. And you hated it.
For the first leg, the teams played at the Bernabéu. Being back there was special for you. And it helped you daydream about Rúben playing there in the future…but for the home team. A girl can dream.
The match ended in a draw and Rúben should have been given MOTM because he drove your attacking players insane. They don't call him "the wall" for nothing.
"Just 1-0 at home, and we're in the final".
"Yeah, good luck with that", you said, rolling your eyes. "My boys were just warming up yesterday. They saved all the magic for the Etihad".
"You lot are really into saving the magic for the last minute. It gets annoying, you know?"
"Not to us!", you shrugged.
The banter continued during the next week but what changed was the nerves you felt. Rúben being in the final was great but you couldn't just root against your team. They had already been in a similar position the previous season and it broke your heart. But also, you were happy he lost and that made you feel like a horrible person. You tried not to show it in front of him but he wasn't dumb.
"Are you wearing that?", he asked, pointing at your outfit.
"Yes. What's wrong with it?"
"You always wear my shirt to matches. But I guess you're just making it clear again you want me to lose".
"It's not that but, it's my team…imagine Madrid and Benfica played each other! You'd want Benfica to win and I wouldn't blame you".
"You don't play for any of the teams. That makes the difference. I get you want them to always win but you should make an exception when they play against me!"
"I'd be happy if you win…".
"I doubt it".
You didn't want to say more because it'd only make things harder to fix later. But driving in silence was going to make you go insane.
"Good luck".
"It almost sounded like you meant it".
"Rúben, I do mean it".
"You mean you want me to do well while my team is destroyed. But it's a team sport. What I do means nothing".
"Tell that to Benzema".
He ignored your comment and left to join the rest of the team without saying goodbye.
Why couldn't they draw another team instead of yours???
Rúben wasn't completely wrong. Whatever happened, you wanted him to be the best player on the pitch. It could be someone else who messed up when your team scored.
And he was one of the best…but then again, so was Bernardo who scored a brace. And Julián only needed a few minutes on the pitch to seal their pass to the final. 4-0, how did that happen?
Apart from Rúben doing well, you wanted just a simple 0-1. No team needed to be humiliated this time. But yours was and it was against one of your biggest enemies. Pep.
When you saw Rúben waiting for you by the car, you noticed his smile and that pissed you off. So you couldn't want your team to win but he could laugh after humiliating you? Bit unfair, that.
"You feeling ok after that?"
Your response was to look inside his trousers' pockets, which confused him. "Did you take Karim out already? Nice, he needs the fresh air".
"You're joking?"
"It's that or telling you to go to hell. I'm trying to be diplomatic".
The day after the match, you were off work so sleeping in sounded like the best way to start your day. By the time you woke up, Rúben was long gone and so you made it to the kitchen expecting it to be empty.
And there was no Rúben there but it looks like he had time to buy, and print, all the newspaper articles about the match before leaving to train. He even checked the Barcelona press to find the most insulting headlines.
But two could play that game.
"Did you read the news today?", he asked when he got back home.
"I've never been a newspaper person. I prefer to get my news from Twitter".
"From Madrid fan accounts? I bet they are real objective".
"Are you a comedian now?"
"Come on…", he said, hugging you. "Forgive me for annihilating your team".
"Should we talk about last season, Dias? Stop it!"
"Such a sore loser", he laughed.
"Well, I'm not used to losing unlike others".
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The weeks that passed between the semifinals and the final had helped you two forget your little fight. But you were still petty and had a surprise saved for Rúben.
"It's so tiring to pack for just a couple of days. I've checked the weather so many times to bring the right clothes".
"You can always use that as an excuse to go shopping there".
"You're right. But…can you help me? I don't know if this outfit is right for the match?"
When he got there, his smile disappeared.
"I can't stand you".
"Is it good or not?"
"When did you buy an Inter shirt?"
"When I saw the newspapers you left for me".
"It was a joke", he said, annoyed.
"This is a joke too".
"A joke is supposed to be funny".
"Really, Rúben? So you thought I would laugh at what you did to me?"
And it was back to square one. But at least this time you travelled separately. And, even if he pissed you off so much since he beat Madrid, you still wore his shirt to the match. You didn't even wear a Madrid one to the semis and he really thought you'd wear an Inter one now? Silly boy.
But all the jokes and digs meant nothing when you saw him lifting the trophy. Your eyes watered immediately and you couldn't wait to hug him.
"You…you won", you said, sobbing and hiding your face in his neck.
"Yeah, sorry about that".
You both laughed and he held you tighter while you cried.
"I'm really proud of you, you know?"
"Even if I beat your team to win the trophies?"
"Yeah", you said, looking up at him. "Even then. Seeing you after you won just…I didn't expect it to mean so much".
"It means a lot to me that it means a lot to you".
You hugged in the middle of the pitch, forgetting about everyone else.
"Besides, you still have a long way to go to catch us so…we like doing charity work and letting others win every once in a while".
Rúben laughed and shook his head. "You are the most unbearable fanbase in the world, you know?"
"I know. But at least you managed to get one of us to be happy you won today".
#ruben dias#ruben dias imagine#ruben dias one shot#ruben dias angst#ruben dias fluff#footballer imagine#footballer one shot#footballer angst#footballer fluff
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I was gonna try to keep my mouth shut, but I can't. I just can't. I have to go on another Aki rant because I feel like I'm going to explode. It's about this scene:
This drives me insane and I'm putting this under a readmore. Expect incoherent screaming, all ye who enter here.
Ok. Ok. I have so many issues with this scene. Specifically, with the way it develops later, when Aki's busy trying to figure out how to save a child from being swept up by a storm:
And I just. Look, I think the fact that I already wrote a fic that basically completely turns Aki's reaction here on its head should basically tell you everything. But! But. Allow me to defend why I think this whole scene is one big heap of horseshit, with a bit of analysis of canon and actual evidence to back up my claims and shit.
The thing is, I have seen people give this scene a charitable read. I've seen people be happy for Aki to enjoy freedom from the psychic powers that have given her so much trouble in her life. And the thing is, if this were season one or season two Aki, I would be completely on board with that take. Unfortunately, this scene is preceded by the pre-WRGP arc. But more on that below.
Moreover, I can make an educated guess about what they were going for here (in terms of messaging, because this is a kids' show at the end of the day and messaging is something you have to be properly concerned with when it comes to these). I can imagine it running somewhere along the lines of "you don't need special powers to be a hero". Or even "you can grow past the hurt and/or the mistakes in your life and still become a good person or even a hero". And really, I wish I could believe that take. It's just. The writing simply doesn't add up. I wish it did, but it doesn't.
This is where we get back to the pre-WRGP arc. And not just that, actually, but the timeskip between the dark signers and pre-WRGP arc, too. Because the thing is, the last time we have seen Aki in anguish about her powers on-screen by the time the episodes above (108-109) arrive was during the DS arc, during the duel with her father, which happened during episodes 40-41. 40. to. 41. This was over sixty episodes ago at this point. And after that, that's it. As far as the DS arc is concerned, Aki's conflict about her powers is resolved the second she controls them for the first time when her father tries to interfere in her second duel against Yusei.
(Yeah, remember this moment? That was literally the last time we saw Aki in conflict with her powers.)
And I know some people would argue "but what about the dark signer duel with Misty?". And yes, I get it. Misty does accuse her of having murdered her brother with her powers and Aki gets incredibly (understandably) upset about it. But the thing is, we know that's fake, and during the duel, Aki knows that, too. She goes as far as insisting that there were no casualties at the duel where Misty thinks Toby died.
(Yes, I have screenshot proof for literally every dumb little thing in this show, why do you ask?)
It's only after Misty keeps pushing and backing her into a corner during their duel (and literally gaslighting her) that she begins to believe Misty's version of the events. Which is why this doesn't "count" as Aki being in conflict with her powers the way her second duel with Yusei does. At least not to me, feel free to debate me over this if you wanna.
Okay, but what am I driving at here? Fair question. Let me hop back to after the dark signers' defeat.
So, we know there's a half-year timeskip between the DS and the pre-WRGP arc (which was allegedly enough for NDC to connect the city and Satellite, deal with all the social issues that entailed, and also build a giant duel network, which I will never believe but I digress). Unfortunately, what exactly our main characters did during that timeskip is never addressed, it's just kind of there to segway immediately into the WRGP setup. So the only thing we can do is guess at what they got up to based on where they are as people by the time we get back to them during the start of the pre-WRGP arc. So where's Aki at when we see her again after the dark signers' defeat then?
Oh, she's attending duel academy again now! That's nice. So that probably means the student body isn't scared shitless of her anymore and she's not being ostracised anymore.
Wow, she's an exceptional student! That means she must be a really good duellist. So she got the hang of her powers, then?
...Ah.
Do you start to see my problem? Past the DS arc, we are not being given any indication that Aki is still struggling with her powers or still resents them or herself like she used to. You could be forgiven for thinking that she's healed in the meantime. She's fine. She has accepted herself and can now use her powers safely. Which makes her later claiming "she no longer needs that cursed power" a bit... hmmm. And another thing. The fact that she refers to it as "cursed" rubs me the wrong way. After the defeat of the dark signers, she literally never does that even a single time before the moment in the hospital during the storm. (I'd post all the screenshots to prove it here but for one, tumblr doesn't allow it, and for two, I hope you'll believe I did my due diligence without it.)
And it just irks me. If the powers are still a "curse" to Aki by episodes 108-109, why give us the moment above?
And why give us this moment, where she saves Sherry, Yusei, and herself with those powers?
And why give us this moment, where she literally uses her powers at a public event to protect people, and is evidently not cussed out as a witch for it? Neither of these moments do anything to indicate that Aki still hates her powers. They don't indicate that she sees them as a "beast of burden" or necessary evil of a sort, either. On the contrary, I don't think it would be too out there to claim all these moments make her look rather badass. Like a small celebration of "hey, now she can finally use these powers for cool and not evil things!".
Yet, somehow, we still end up with episodes 108-109, where the writers expect the audience to buy that Aki was secretly still hoping she might eventually be rid of these powers after all. And maybe this would be easier to swallow if there weren't also the fact that they later literally go back on it to add to this confusing mess. Because the thing is, we all know the finale scene after the three-way duel with Sherry where Aki protects them with her powers (which have suddenly reappeared, aha!) again and also finds out she can use these powers to heal. So not only is the framing of Aki suddenly being glad to have lost her powers extremely weird, it's also temporary anyway!
So my question is. What was the point. What was the point of all this if the writers ended up going back on it anyway? Because I want to believe there's a reasonable, charitable explanation that also makes sense with what they show us in terms of Aki's characterisation past the DS arc, but if there is, I cannot for the life of me find it. If anything, this whole thing feels like it completely contradicts itself.
First, they tie up Aki's conflict with her powers with a neat bow after she manages not to hurt her father anymore. Then, they launch into the pre-WRGP arc and blatantly tell us that she can now control them. No questions asked. Indisputable fact, and we get nothing that contradicts that, either. Then, we get a bunch of setup showing her using her powers, too, and what's more, we get other significant players in the cast taking notice of it, too, as though it might become relevant. Because Sherry isn't the only one who gets curious about Aki's powers.
(I will never understand how Placido's hood works together with his horn-thingies and have stopped trying at this point.)
The literal, central antagonists of season 3-4 also take notice of it. Like that means something. Like it'll come up again later. But, well. We know it doesn't.
Instead, she suddenly loses her powers out of nowhere (and we are never given a reason for it, either, which does nothing to make this writing decision seem anymore understandable). And, look. The thing that upsets me most about this isn't even the fact that it feels a little inconsistent with Aki's character post DS arc. If that were the only problem, I could still suspend my disbelief far enough to go along with the idea that she secretly still hated her powers quietly in the background and wanted them gone anyway. What really pisses me off is that it reeks of zero setup and knee-jerk decisions in the writing room ten miles against the wind. If they wanted us to believe Aki's glad to be rid of her powers, why give absolutely no indication that she's at odds with them past episode 41 anymore? Why let her state outright that she can now control them? Why show her on several occasions using them to her own and other people's benefit, the way a hero would? And if her powers are supposed to vanish and it's supposed to make sense, why is there no reason for it? They already used cyborg timetravel at that point, they could have literally come up with any nonsense related to that and it would have probably made at least more sense than just letting her powers vanish for no reason at all. Also, if the message behind all this is supposed to be either of the things I mentioned way above—if the idea the audience is supposed to be getting is either "you don't need special powers to be a hero" or "your past and/or your mistakes don't define you and you can heal and grow past them"—why reintroduce the powers, which, in this reading, would be a symbol of Aki's pain, of her mistakes and her dreaded past, at the very end, during the finale, then? It just doesn't add up, and it frustrates me to no end.
The writers wanted to make the moment Aki realises she can help people (well, one person, a child) without her powers seem triumphant so bad, but every time I watch it, it just completely falls flat for me. This isn't a triumph, this is a hot mess of bad writing decisions. All I'm saying is, if they wanted me to buy that Aki would be happy about losing her powers here, they were missing a hefty amount of setup and also shouldn't actually have given them back to her during the finale (no, not even as healing powers).
Moreover... I'll freely admit I also have a personal problem with this scene. I've seen this show and these episodes several times by now, and during my last rewatch and my current one, something about this scene has been creeping up on me, and I think I've figured out what that is now. So I talked about the possible message behind this scene already, and the reading I've given so far was fairly forgiving. But the thing is, there is another reading that has occurred to me that I can't unsee anymore. As much as you could make a valid case that this scene is trying to say that people don't need to be special to be heroes and save others, that past mistakes don't define us, and yadda yadda, there's also a much, much less pleasant way to interpret this scene: "You're better off if you don't stand out." And I'll freely admit, this interpretation probably occurs to me specifically because I was considered a "weird kid" at school, singled out by bullies, and avoided by "popular" kids (take a wild guess why I relate to Aki so much!). And over the years, you learn to downplay that "weirdness" because you become desperate to be accepted by someone, anyone. And given everything the show gives us about Aki's relationship with her powers, it'd make sense that this idea would be buried somewhere in her head, too. It's better not to stand out. Don't be weird. Sand down your edges so there's no chance people could get upset about them. You're better off being whatever everyone else considers "normal" than being whoever you are. It doesn't matter if this is a part of who you are, just become someone else. Someone who's easier to accept. Who's easier to love. You don't need your "weirdness".
You don't need this cursed power.
You know, the "cursed power" that Aki had from the beginning of the show, that was a part of her for years, and that the show didn't give any indication could vanish. The power that we were led to believe would just be there forever, because it was simply a part of Aki, not a conscious thing she (or the narrative) could choose. The power that we were, for all intents and purposes, led to believe she had mastered and maybe even accepted along the way. But sure, let's get rid of that. It's better if she's """normal""". And more convenient for the writers, too! After all, if she doesn't have powers anymore, they can't cause plotholes (of which the WRGP already has enough) and can't possibly give Aki any more badass moments, which makes it that much easier to sideline her. And let's package this weird, shittily set-up moment in a message about how she's better off without her powers anyway. She's happy! It makes complete sense that she's happy. She's finally normal like everyone else. Ignore the way people who might relate to the character could possibly interpret this moment differently. And ignore how none of the writing surrounding this moment makes sense.
...Sigh.
Okay, I think I've let off enough steam. I just. Yeah. I'm sorry, but I cannot for the life of me view this scene in a favourable way and watching it today made me want to chew glass tbh. My only solace is that they went back on this trainwreck writing decision in the finale. Which, really, just makes this whole mess really, really pointless, doesn't it?
For anyone who stuck around this long, thanks for reading. Sorry if this got extra-rant-y. Idk man, I just think “it’s worth the effort to accept yourself as you are, even with all the bits you might not like at first” would have been a better message than whatever this turned out to be.
#yugioh 5ds#aki izayoi#akiza izinski#ygo 5ds#5ds#character analysis#orchid watches 5ds (again)#episode 108#episode 109#orchid rambles
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Random ramble about how often I see Bellringer in-game because I don't think people truly understand how crazy it's driven me for the past YEAR. YES A YEAR THIS HAS BEEN GOING ON FOR-
So it all started when I started the Daffodil Gardens taskline a bit after 1.3 released. I didn't know who the street manager even was, but I wasn't too bothered because I wanted to discover the game at my own pace. Pretty early into the tasks, though, I finally got to see him... Bellringer. I wondered what his fight mechanics might be and then went back to my tasks.
While I did my tasks, I'd see him more and more often. Then I left for Mezzo Melodyland, but sometimes I'd come back to do buildings and it started to feel like every time I went back to Daffodil Gardens, he was there. By some chance. A little weird, but okay whatever...
When I did the Daffodil Gardens kudos tasks, there were so many times that I'd not only see him on the streets, but when I went to a new street in the SAME DISTRICT for a task HE'D BE THERE ON THE NEW STREET EVEN THOUGH I SAW HIM LIKE 5 SECONDS AGO SOMEWHERE ELSE! Sometimes I'd even swap districts because the building I needed was taken by Cogs AND HE'D BE ON THAT STREET IN THE NEW DISTRICT TOO. But, alas, I finally finished Daffodil Gardens kudos tasks and just never went back to the streets.
The moment I started the Daffodil Gardens taskline and kudos tasks on my alt, guess who I saw everywhere on the streets? Yeah, Bellringer. Constantly changing streets that just so happened to be the ones I needed next. "Following" me through districts. Once, I didn't even know he was on the street and suddenly when I finished a fight he was right behind me AND THE GAME AUTOMATICALLY STARTED A FIGHT WITH HIM.
I know it's all coincidence and RNG but also it's driving me to the point of insanity. Like. This has happened for a year somehow?? All this RNG??? I'm unironically kind of creeped out every time I go on the Daffodil Gardens streets and make an effort to find districts where Bellringer is NOT on the street I need, and like 70% of the time I leave the building/finish the fight and he's gone and plopped himself down on the street anyways.
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Thess vs Combat Styles
Well, I've now officially met Emmrich. And Manfred. And I've discovered that I'm way better at some of the bits of combat than I thought I was going to be - at least on Storyteller mode.
Look, I've been largely trying to keep to the back and nuke things from afar. I figured that was my best bet when it came to stuff like ... dodging. But then there I was with foes I knew damn well were weak to fire and my fire staff wasn't up to much so I went dagger and orb. Apparently it's a lot harder for foes to throw anything ranged at you when you're charging right up in their face with a big fuck-off knife and a ball of fire. I've even done takedowns. More than five of them, if the achievement I got not too long ago is any indication. And yeah, I kind of yeeted a demon off a cliff and he died, so that achievement too. I didn't think I'd get anywhere near combat achievements, and didn't care so long as I was enjoying the story. Now I'm ... okay, not insanely good, but given my condition, a lot better than I expected to be.
.........Still hurts like a bitch, mind. But it's in a good cause. Plus it means I might be able to play rogue after all!
Honestly, for all of everything, this one's a good hyperfocus game. I couldn't do that level of hyperfocus on most of the other games. Probably Origins I could, but DA2 was a little too self-contained and Inquisition was too sprawling. This one, there's always the "Ooh, hey, one more quest!" factor, and it's a good way to be! Though I guess probably not so much when you should have been in bed hours ago. But I have this week off; it's fine. Plus while I did get to sleep very late last night, I also slept in a lot, which I reckon I need right now because I have been desperately underslept lately. I can re-establish my sleeping patterns later in the week if I need to. The important thing, I think, is that I actually am having fun, and getting rest, and if anything can drive away the pain for awhile, it's worth a little extra ache later. I mean, it's never going to go away entirely, after all. The last thing I need is constant pain and the depression that comes with never having any fun.
So I went through the Necropolis and did a whole bunch of quests to help the survivors in Dock Town, plus this whole thing where I have to hunt demons in order to be able to kill this one big demon in the Necropolis and it's a thing. Plus there's that second big-ass thing in the Crossroads that I should probably eradicate at some point. Honestly, I think I timed this pretty well - I got the game and got into the game just at the point where I have enough time off to appreciate it. And, probably because I read so many spoilers and so many people disliking it, I'm enjoying it way more than I expected to. Maybe it'll disappoint me later, but I know all the places where it might, so maybe it won't be so frustrating. Either way, I'm honestly looking forward to other playthroughs where it's not a practice character I'm running.
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Finished Veilguard the other day and I need you to see my Rook. xD idk I tried to create something similar to my face, but then it hit me I had Tallis on my hands. 😂
In case someone's interested in my thoughts (no spoilers): it was kind of a mixed bag experience for me. I couldn't agree more with the sentiment that the game's too sanitized, but I did have some fun with it and I did grow to like the companions after all. ALSO MANFRED NEEDS TO BE PROTECTED AT ALL COSTS! And Lucanis reminds me of Gale so much, guess that's my new type. xD Men cooking is the hottest trait ever, legit a dealbreaker no griffon or sentient skeleton can beat.
More rambling under the cut & adding all the critical tags I could think of.
I do think they sort of shot themselves in the foot by calling it Dragon Age, because I kept thinking it reminds me of Guardians of the Galaxy A LOT which was a good & imho underrated game!!! but it's not the best comparison for a DA game. I didn't like Bellara at first, but then it hit me she reminds me of Mantis. SO. MUCH. And I loved Mantis! So Bellara just felt so out of place in DA. I have a lot of thoughts, yet my main takeaway is that it should have been a new IP. Literally had it been called anything else 70% of my beef with this game wouldn't exist, and I think it's true for most people who are critical about it. Like, I played as a Crow, and literally all the Crows in the game are good(TM). My Rook told Harding she did some bad things, but nothing too bad! Literally no Crow in this game is willing to kill anyone. The banter about Grey Warden contracts... Was wild. What's the point of even having assassins who are so uwu goody two-shoes. :( Legit had they made a game in the vein of DA, but not DA, with new not preestablished factions, I wouldn't have this critique. And you can't say or do anything too bad in this game which is wild for DA. I think I was only allowed to be mean about Solas, but even tho I always chose the dialogs akin to 'he can go F himself', the game kept telling me 'he's just a poor sad little meow meow' by legit every character around me. WHICH GIVEN THE FINAL TWIST OF WHAT HE DID. FUCKING FUCK. There are not nearly enough mean things this game lets you say about him, and it's mind-blowing why half the characters would toot his horn so much. Sorry, I hate Solas' guts, I didn't think it was possible to hate him even more, but holy shit was I not prepared...
But like, had it been a new IP, my only critique would be all the handholding, especially the constant 'pointing out the obvious' at the start of the game. The first hours were driving me insane with it. Like guys, I'm not stupid, I don't need to be told the same thing 3 or 4 times. Or how to proceed in a linear location if I stop for one second. Yeah, it gets better with the obvious part, but not with repeating the same info, which made me wonder what age were they targeting with it. Because I don't think kids like to be talked down to, either.
BUT I expected way worse. It was overall not a bad game. Not a super great 10/10 one, but it had its moments. For me, it was a solid 6/10, maybe even a 7 in some parts. idk why, but I especially loved Evka and Antoine. And the cooking party banters. Super pretty, too, once I got used to the style.
Oh, and I also called my Rook Anthea, and since the Crows had a character called Teia, I got an added bonus of Lucanis actually saying that name a few times. xD
#dragon age#dragon age the veilguard#da: the veilguard#veilguard critical#solas critical#datv critical
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watching grey’s anatomy for the first time after only watching private practice: another long and obnoxious stream of my thoughts while watching (season TEN, bc i’m gonna keep doing these until someone tells me to stop)
-i guess we’re all just getting electrocuted now
-okay i never really got the mcdreamy thing to be honest but watching that man juggle…. yeah i get it
-changed my mind again he’s a stupid idiot
-cristina was really harsh but i think meredith is very much misunderstanding her point
-super random but is it weird that i kind of hate derek and meredith’s house? don’t get me wrong it’s objectively very nice but the vibes upset me. too many windows
-i adore halloween episodes. this is so fun. the musical score is insane.
-lots and lots of guest actors on this show have also been in mad men. maybe i’ll make a spreadsheet.
-a fork!!!!
-i like the OCD storyline it seems like they’re trying to do with bailey. at least so far. it’s the most interesting storyline she’s had in a while.
-arizona is kind of treating that resident girl horribly imo
-okay now meredith is just being purposefully obstinate with this whole christina situation
-so i guess we’re all just mouth kissing residents on the mouth now, huh?
-oh no i sense murphy might start to go a little off the rails
-there’s too much happening all at once! first of all, idk that i buy the chemistry between april and jackson enough for all the hoopla to make sense. second of all, i thought murphy would’ve been the one to go off the deep end. i totally should’ve foreseen ross having a breakdown. they’ve been sprinkling seeds. third of all, regarding obama just calling up derek…… okay i guess.
-NOW human resources chooses to actually involve themselves in this tomfoolery??
-the way that everyone in this show treats getting married like it’s just a fun thing to do on the weekend is driving me nuts. bc duh, jackson and april!!!!! duh you should have talked about how you want to raise your kids before you jumped into this!!
-“it’s not as if i’m insensitive to deaf culture or anything. i just think [something that is completely insensitive to deaf culture]”- jackson avery
-amelia!!! (side note i never noticed this but the shepherd sibling casting is so good. they have like the exact same eyes)
-BURKE?????
-i forgot how much this man pisses me off bc he’s comparatively much better than owen
-this scene is so interesting and part of me really wants cristina to take burke’s offer but i’m so distracted by the slow dad rock cover of “like a virgin” that they’re playing in the background. wild choice
-i will miss yang terribly but i think this is the right choice for her character
-“don’t let what he wants eclipse what you need. he is very dreamy but he is not the sun. you are.” !!!!!!!!!!!! sobbing
#guys tell me at which season it’s not worth it to keep watching#my interest is kind of renewed just to see what happens to the newer characters but idk#most of the relationships bore me rn. or i want them to break up#greys anatomy#meredith grey#cristina yang#derek shepherd#miranda bailey#april kepner#jackson avery#alex karev#jo wilson#greys reactions
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BSD S5 EP 9
I have not finished the episode yet but I've just gotten to the Fukufuku backstory (specifically the part where they just met and its night and they're lying on the floor together) and, these two are fucking dark timeline Renga from sk8! 'The way of the sword is enjoyable!' and 'I'm going to master the sword alongside you' vs 'skating is fun!' and 'I want to skate with you infinitely' I swear Fukuchi even did the same hand movement that Reki did at some point. Energetic sunshine (at least at the moment) x calm and collected. I am getting such strong Renga vibes from that scene and it's driving me insane.
OK I JUST WATCHED TWO (2) SECONDS FURTHER AND NOW WE'RE IN A FUCKING SHOJO ANIME! BONES LOVES OLD MAN YAOI SO MUCH! THIS IS SO GAY! WHY ARE THERE SO MANY CHERRY BLOSSOMS!!? A CHERRY BLOSSOM PETAL IN THE SHAPE OF A HEART JUST FELL INTO FUKUZAWAS SAKE(?) AND THEN BROKE INTO TWO. THEY'RE NOT EVEN BEING SUBTLE WITH THE 'THIS (ROMANTIC) RELATIONSHIP IS ABOUT TO GO O SHIT' -NESS
DONT DO SYMBOLISM WITH THE FUCKING BIRDS YOU DUMB SHOW! I SEE WHAT YOU'RE FUCKING DOING! For context, they were having a conversation but the focus was on these two egrets? herons? anyways, and then one of them just flew off when Fukuchi said that he was gonna be promoted and sent to the battlefield , which is what separated these two. I'm going to die, I'm not entirely sure why but I am. /pos
Fuck it, I'm committing to the live blog. enjoy seeing my live uncut reactions folks!
The animation is so pretty bro, bones adores their old man yaoi.
Ok, old man yaoi backstory is over , and before I move on to the next thing I just wanna say, young Fukuzawa was so fucking cute! He was an old man even when he was a baby! he was adorable! and honestly so was Fukuchi! I'm very sad that he became the way he is now, war really does stuff to people, huh?
Ok I'm a little bit confused, I didn't realize that he had told that United Nations guy the half-truth. But whatever, that's on me I guess.
OK! JESUS FUCK THE MORE I HERE ABOUT THE WAR THE WORSE IT GETS. WHAT DO YOU MEAN THE SOLDIERS HAD TO EAT EACHOTHER AND WERE SHOT FOR TRYING TO DESERT! MAYBE I SHOUD HAVE EXPECTED THAT IT IS WAR BUT JESUS CHRIST!
God, Fukufuku are so gay. I know that stabbing someone isn't exactly romantic but he Fukuzawa did the thing where you grab onto the other persons clothes and after Fukuchi stabbed him his head ended up resting on his chest. This is PEAK romantic tradgedy.
Teruko, I love you. She looks so pretty and she is so hecking smart and I just adore her. She let Atsushi go! Woohoo!! Also, Atsushi's hallucinations are really coming in full force, huh? He is seeing so many people.
Dazai and Sigma are so silly, I love them, Dazai stop flirting for two fucking seconds challenge. Also, it's fun to hear that Dazai is screwing around with Sigma while thinking of Kunikida! Truly every ship is being fed this season! Except sskk, but we did get Aku in Atsushi's hallucinations doing a thing so that's kinda a win for the gays!
Wow! What a nice elevator! I'm sure nothing bad will happen here!
Oh catgirl, you left us too soon.
I must say, I don't really have much to say on the Meursault section. It was good! The animation was great as it usually is for the Meursault sections, Sigma was so pretty I love him and! Dazai did the thing where he played with Sigma's hair! Woo! Fyodor was his usual level of kinda ugly in anime form, Dazai is showing emotions! more of the sillies, Dazai fucking stood on Sigma, which is delightful, aaaaaaand it's started to flood! Fuck!
Anyways, back to the very start of this episode before I was overcome by the homosexual-ness of Fukufuku, Aya Bram Kunikida and Tanizaki got yoinked! Fuck! I still have a theory that Tanizaki could be doing an illusion and I will make a post about it one day. And also, please excuse me for saying this because while I am still upset about Ranpo being hurt... watching Fukuchi pick him up by the scruff of his neck like a cat was kinda hilarious. Also, Teruko I love you. You're the only hunting dog that heard about Fukuchi's real identity and didn't immediately die. Girlboss fr. Also also, where are Lucy Kyouka and Yosano :D? W-where did they go? Asagiri please I need to see my girls.
And to once again revisit the old gays, Holy Shit that was so gay. Nobody told me that the Fukufuku backstory was a Sports Anime tm that turned into a war drama in the second season! I knew we said they were divorced but I never realized just how married they were before the separation! Wow! Fukuzawa smiled so softly at Fukuchi! They were such sweet kids! Aagh!
This was a good episode! I liked this! Excited for next Wungo Wednesday!
#bungou stray dogs#bsd season 5#bsd fukuzawa#bsd fukuchi#bsd fukufuku#sk8 renga#bsd teruko#bsd dazai#bsd sigma#bsd fyodor#good episode! :D
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𝓝𝔂𝔁 𝓝𝓸𝓬𝓽𝓾𝓻𝓷𝓮 - 𝓟𝓮𝓻𝓼𝓸𝓷𝓪𝓵 𝓢𝓽𝓸𝓻𝔂
(SSR) Birthday Union Jacket (Part 3): “Happy Birthday!”
(Scarabia Dorm: Birthday Party Venue)
Lee: Alright, one last question. Lee: “If you had to enter a different dorm other than your own, which one would you choose?” Lee: …Yeah, this one’s kinda a no-brainer for you too.
Nyx: Wha- Oh c’mon, am I really that predictable?
Lee: Kinda. But also I just know you. You’re gonna pick Ignihyde.
Nyx: …Yeah maybe I was, what of it.
Lee: Hehehe~ Like I said, I know you~ But I’ll give you this one only if you pick a second choice too.
Nyx: Alright, fine, fair enough.
Nyx: Well yeah, of course my first pick is gonna be Ignihyde. The atmosphere is chill, everyone keeps to themselves, it doesn’t get super-mega-hot like it does here in Scarabia… and the WiFi down there is INSANELY fast. Nyx: I’m not some kind of dork programmer, but I’m good with computers so I feel like I’d be right at home. Oh, and me and Idia get along well, too, so that’s a bonus. Nyx: If I had to pick something different other than Ignihyde… That’s just tough.
Lee: Well, what’re your thoughts?
Nyx: My first thought was Diasomnia, since it also has a similar atmosphere so that’s kinda nice… although, I think I’d go insane if I had to deal with your roommates. No offense.
Lee: What’s wrong with my roommates?
Nyx: Sebek. Also Vantablack.
Lee: Okay, yeah that’s fair. They both do get to be a little much sometimes.
Nyx: Savanaclaw’s too hot so that’s a no-go, Heartslabyul’s rules would drive me up the wall, and Pomefiore’s too prissy and also I am NOT spending any more time with Vil than I have to. Nyx: …I guess that means my second pick is Octavinelle.
Lee: Another shocker. Wanna be all close and chummy with your boyfriends~? Maybe share a room together~? Maybe even kiiiiiiiss~?
Nyx: S-Shut up! That’s not on my mind at all! Nyx: Look, like, even if they weren’t there I’m not gonna deny that Octavinelle has style. Their uniforms are a little stuffy, but classy. The atmosphere is great over there too. Nyx: Like, I already like going to Mostro Lounge to study sometimes just because all the windows looking out to the water and seeing the fish outside is just nice. I could get used to living somewhere like that. Nyx: I used to be on a swim team when I was in middle school, and if I wasn’t so ass at it I’d totally be into playing Blitzball competitively. Water just kinda calls to me.
Lee: You’ve got a reason at least for liking it, at least. I’ll give ya points for that.
Nyx: So, that’s it right? We’re done here?
Lee: Almost. You know what time it is~
Nyx: …I was kinda hoping you forgot, honestly.
Lee: Yeah right, like hell I’d forget! I’ve been looking forward to the “Gift of Good Fortune” all day~
Nyx: What, you want to see me looking all soggy and miserable?
Lee: I mean yeah, it’ll be funny.
Nyx: Mean to me. Cruel to me. Want to laugh at my suffering, cruelest brother.
Lee: Ye. Today I’m eeeevil, and I’m gonna get you!
Nyx: He admits it! Cruel to me!! …Just try not to get any in my hair, okay?
Lee: I make absolutely no promises about that. Lee: Haaaappy birthday, Nyx~!
(Nyx gets splattered! by a tinful of cream)
/ End
#ツイステッドワンダーランド#Twisted Wonderland#TWST#scarabia#oc#original character#twst oc#nyx nocturne#ニクス • ノクターン#soul writes#personal story
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I’ve thought about this as if I was planning it to write a fanfic, but I’m not going to, so I might as well share it here.
I’ve been pretty firm on my “no way they did that shit more than once” regarding Simon and Agatha having sex whenever I talk about it (after all, the books mention it like it’s more of a concept: it’s not “it was always just going through the motions” it’s simply “it was just going through the motions”, it doesn’t ever give you quantity) (arguments of them doing it multiple times make me feel a bit insane – how would that even work with two teens with no attraction at all and with barely any time to be alone together? When time alone together would have taken work?) (Ideas of Simon specifically being the one asking for it while Agatha has to bear it and do it like a favor can’t possibly be rooted in anything the actual books say.) But I guess I can be convinced that they could have tried twice, maybe 3 times at most just to see if things going wrong was just “first-time nerves” and if it would improve... I can envision two scenarios:
Simon's reaction to "Does Wellbelove [appreciate a job well done]?" as if this was a sore spot already makes me suspect "performance issues" ... (also, the way Simon's magic worked implies he can't get worked up, ever – had he wanted or "enjoyed" it in any way, we would have heard about this being a problem in some way, and it would have prevented them from going far anyway because his magic actually hurts Agatha)
1. Who’s to say they could actually get to penetration without issue. Maybe Agatha's discomfort and pain were too much, so it stopped at when they were still attempting it. A following attempt* (attempt at "making it work" – we know it never did) would be about trying to “succeed” at penetration.
2. In any scenario, I don’t think it was pleasurable or good for either party (hence "not working"). Agatha’s wording evokes discomfort and responsibility (perhaps even duty). Before Baz, Simon shows he can only understand pleasure by using food, shows he doesn’t understand the point of sex, and part of why he struggles with it is because he has no experience feeling. Supposing they could fully get to penetration in the first attempt, I don’t think it got to any form of release (if it did, negative orgasms that can result from “going through the motions” don’t feel good; they can even feel painful) (this would also apply to scenario 1, supposing they "succeed" at penetration in a second attempt etc). At any rate, I think it’s likely Simon struggled with keeping an erection (arousal non concordance explains how he could even get it in the first place, despite not being into it; the body responds to touch even if the mind would rather be somewhere else) maybe going flaccid even while inside. This is something that could be brushed off as “just nerves” or as something that can just happen during first times (it can) (not being into it can already result in this, added pressure and stress can make this outcome even more likely) (the last two apply even among heterosexual people who are really into the person they’re with). Either way, a following attempt would add more nerves and pressure after a bad precedent (also pretty effective to kill an erection) so it would be harder to get further or to “improve” the previous attempt. Simon mentioning the UTI when Baz is trying to get away could be an association that goes back to Agatha using it to end “the encounter” and avoid cuddling or whatever afterward (i remember someone noting this too, but to say it stayed with Simon because it happened a lot and to that I say… that kind of shit doesn’t need to happen more than once to stay, especially if it’s happening when they’re attempting something new and it doesn't go well).
The thing with them is that they would not be willing to work through this. They would not have the drive, passion, or motivation. Their relationship wasn’t like that anyway; they were all about brushing it aside, about not wanting to talk about the hard parts. You can see that with Simon’s reaction, whenever Agatha tries to talk about what happened with Baz (nothing happened) (one could argue this is not at all about Agatha wanting to “work through” shit, but perhaps wanting to alleviate potential guilt she might have felt… no, she didn’t cheat, but wasn’t part of her contemplating it when she followed Baz, hoping for a kiss when she was trying to find a spark? Herself?).
You can see through lines like “candle in the wind” how pressure would have led to this, because “everyone else is doing it” and maybe even talking about “how great it is” (and how Simon might have been in a position to consider needing “help” but being uninterested in it – he's not interested in making it work with her, not really...). In “we were together for a long time” as an explanation, meaning it only happened after they have already been together for a long time (otherwise how long they have been together wouldn’t be relevant, if it was happening a couple of months into the relationship for instance). In Agatha indicating, in context, something that could be (besides curiosity) a distraction or a way to delay doing more (counting every mole) (she’s describing physical closeness to Simon in a very unappealing way in this scene) while at the same time, Simon’s reaction is to cover the very thing that's making Agatha remember, to adopt a posture where he’s closing himself off, where he’s “protecting himself”, where he’s indicating he doesn’t want her to see him, all in the context of a clinical setting when Simon is in distress. Also: Simon not wanting to be left alone with her then, etc etc. (There’s more on Simon’s part, but all this already paints quite the picture, perfectly explaining why they would behave like they’ve never done shit. Why Simon thinks and behaves like he has never done this before) (In a lot of ways, he hasn't, but that's another conversation)
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Ahhh you watch hotd? I would love to hear a little Betts Review™ favorite characters/ships any thoughts like that!!
i like hotd the way i think non-fanpeople interact with media. i enjoy it a lot, i watch it every week, i don't think about it at all when it's not directly in front of me. that's not a bad thing. it's just that hotd is almost too smooth for me to grasp onto. there's a kind of technical acuity to it that i admire a lot but that doesn't engender any feelings beyond being entertained.
if there were maybe an ounce more affection between any two characters i might be inspired to have a ship, but otherwise there's just no love anywhere. like Alicent and Criston would usually be catnip for me, but there's just too much angst, and Criston's internal turmoil of loyalty is just a step to the left of my interests. he has loyalty devoid of devotion, if that makes sense. to me it seems like he only fucks Alicent, he doesn't love her. but i guess that's up to interpretation. if he's ever put in a position where he has to choose between Alicent and his Hand duties, and he chooses Alicent, i'll become way more invested. i need less Hand, more breadcrumbs of femdom/guard dog.
i remember i liked him a lot more last season but i can't remember why. i had a fic idea at some point for an Alicent/Criston modern AU. surely i have notes about it somewhere. but this season hasn't inspired me to revisit that idea.
Aemond is really growing on me, particularly his relationship with uh, that one lady whose name i don't remember. if he starts showing evidence of goodness or redemption, or if his relationship with the lady starts driving his actions rather than spite and ambition, i could see myself really vibing with him. but a lot of this show is wrapped up in spite and ambition and greed and power, and those things are fun to watch but don't really make me feel anything.
i also like Aegon a lot, but mostly because he's being meow meow'd in the plot and i recently rewatched Dunkirk where i like that actor's character far more, and can kind of plant the latter onto the former to trick myself into caring more about him. (and that little "mummy." there's promise there.)
i used to like Daemon and Rhaenyra but the second a character chooses themselves and their individual desires over someone they love, i completely lose interest. Daemon wants the throne. i can't empathize with that kind of drive for power and so i just can't make myself care.
but! i do like Rhaenyra. her desire for the throne is a little more interesting to me because she's seeking peace and not power. it's a real shame that they divided Rhaenyra and Alicent because theirs is the most interesting relationship to me and they also have great chemistry. (spoilers ahead) i think the most engaged i've been all season is their scene together. if Rhaenyra and Alicent ever start working together against a common enemy, and they do it willingly, without a mass of angst, or at least move toward repairing their relationship, i'll be insane about that.
honest to god my favorite thing about the show is that 10-minute breakdown at the end of every episode. i'm very fascinated by the behind-the-scenes stuff because a lot of very smart and talented people are making it and i think there's a lot to be learned there. also i almost always prefer the story about the story than the story itself. i'm saving the behind the scenes series for after the season is over.
tl;dr there's a lot of potential for me to become fannishly interested if some of the things that are being set up come to fruition. if someone has a really juicy modern AU rec for me with any of my go-to relationship dynamics (submissive guard dogs, mommy issues, i'm trying to think of a third thing but that pretty much covers it), i'm all ears.
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MURDERKITTY STUFF NO ONE ASKED FOR BUT I DON’T CARE💯💯🔥🔥
uhm yeah lol this is all nsfw or suggestive stuff, sorry😔 it can go a bit extreme or graphic, so beware. don't read stuff you're uncomfortable with, stay safe, mwuah😘
not proofread cus it's almost midnight and my fingers are just mashing random buttons at this point while i'm hoping to sound at least half coherent
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Azrael likes to call Dani an icy heaven during sex.
Another pet name for them is kitty or kitten or pet.
Dani cries easily, especially during sex. It's not because they're uncomfortable, their body is just very sensitive and easily overstimulated.
Up to a certain amount of pain it still can be quite comfortable for them though.
Azrael tries his best to be as gentle as possible, despite his urges to wreck Dani's whole body.
When Dani's in a very good mood (or it's Azrael's birthday) they allow their boyfriend to destroy them. They tell him that no matter how much they might cry and beg for him to stop, he should keep going if he so pleases. they have a safeword for if they really really can't take it.
Azrael loves to turn Dani into a crying and blushing mess, bruises, scratches and bitemarks all over their body, messed up hair, cloudy and unfocused eyes, cheeks wet from tears, drool dripping onto the mattress, panting, their cum mixed with Azrael's on their chest and belly, maybe even some on their face, maybe mixed with drool dripping onto the matress, trembling legs, and cum seeping out of their asshole. Maybe they're tied up.
Azrael cannot stop fantasising about Dani just because of their height. He loves how tiny they are compared to him and tells them so many times, especially, as you probably guessed, during sex. He loves how tight they feel around him. He loves how much power he has over them just because of their height difference.
No matter what kind of freaky stuff Dani wants to try, Azrael is definitely loving every second of it.
also, i am not above putting in a snippet of the canon things Azrael thinks. 1st draft because i don't even have one chapter finished.
Do they realise what they're doing to me every time they touch me? How every little movement makes me hunger more? Thirst more? Lust more?
Do they know how much they drive me to insanity? How much I want to ruin their tiny body, making them tremble and cry beneath me? How much I want to abuse their cute little mouth until it hurts to speak, their throat hoarse and aching?
Do they know how much I have to refrain from ripping off their clothes and fucking them dry right now? How much I want them to scream my name and my name only, how much I want them to mindlessly moan for me alone.
Do they know how much I want them to sob and beg under me? How much I want them to beg and cum because of me?
Do they know how much I want to consume all of them? Their spit, their flesh, their blood, their cum, their piss--- simply everything. How much I want to feel their delicate flesh between my teeth, their wonderful blood on my tongue.
and this was literally after Dani only hugged him.
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Worst Reads of 2022
time for some negativity! I’m just going to list the books I absolutely hated this year and give a short explanation of why I hated them.
1- Disfigured by Amanda Leduc
Literally the best part of this book is the description. The contents never get deeper than that and the book utterly failed to really investigate or explore what Leduc claimed to be writing about. Much of the text is taken up by autobiographical details and biographical details about other writers.
2 - Namesake (Fable, #2) by Adrienne Young
This was especially disappointing because I’d quite enjoyed Fable - in-so-far as I can enjoy most YA adventure fantasy-romance, and Fable was very typical of its genre. But Namesake? What the hell was the point of this duology. I have to ask. What was the point Ms. Young? More importantly, you do understand that in your chosen genre of YA fantasy adventure the protagonist needs to do something.
But wait a second I need to go over another detail before I get back to the insanely weak plot and characters. The worldbuilding. It sucked. In Fable I put up with it, there was some nice imagery. But with all the other issues in Namesake I couldn’t ignore it. Young uses the same tired costuming tropes where, in one scene, the MC is forced - forced I say! - to wear a pretty dress to a party which involves a horribly uncomfortable corset. (What undergarments was she wearing before?) But that’s barely even an issue compared to, for example, that there is exactly one alcoholic drink in the entirety of this fictional world and it is called rye. That’s it. Rye rye rye. He was drinking rye, she was drinking rye, they were drinking rye. I wouldn’t be surprised if it had originally been rum and the editor made Young come up with something else to call it because rum would be too stereotypical or whatever. The rye thing is a pretty good example of the weak worldbuilding without getting too far into the plot. But I would also note that there is no clarity in what the climate is like, or the various cultures. Oh yeah. I guess there’s some magic in this story and some people have the ability to read or sense gems somehow, and it is only used for tension in a couple scenes and doesn’t matter to the main plot.
And back to the plot, which sucked. As a general rule, the main character of a story needs to do something. There are other important things about plots and characters, such as that a main character should want something, and that this drives the plot. The MC here does, at least, want something: her father’s love. What she does do over the course of two books is all about gaining her father’s approval or love, or it’s about helping her love interest. Just typing that makes me realize that somehow this duology failed the sexy lamp test with its main character. Fortunately it’s been almost a year so I won’t write more but seriously. This book is so bad. It’s soooooooooo bad.
3 - The Count of Monte Cristo by Alexandre Dumas
I love the 90s adaptation of this book and so was excited to read listen to it, at last. That was a mistake. The first section of the book, up until Edmond escapes prison is good. It’s tense and you can really feel and understand why he’s so angry and set on revenge. The rest of the book.... his revenge is too intricate, there’s too much moralizing and talking. The revenge isn’t even satisfying. There’s a time gap between the escape and Edmond’s return to Marseille and he picks up this Greek slave girl who is kind of his adopted daughter but then becomes his love interest. He screws Mercedes over. The movie changed almost everything from the point of the escape and that was the right decision. There’s no satisfaction or great romance in the novel.
4 - Upright Women Wanted by Sarah Gailey
So, I wasn’t a fan of American Hippo because it turned out that the novellas were not, in fact, fun and were instead gritty westerns. I figure that’s more an issue of my not reading the description carefully enough. This, I was unsure about and I just wish I hadn’t picked it up. It might have been good, but it’s missing so much worldbuilding/ information. I cannot buy into a story where somehow, at the time of the real american civil war, there’s instead this very fascist government over all the white people and there’s a secret society of people ferrying folks from the east to the free, rebel-held west. And that the headquarters of this rebel stronghold are in Utah. And the place names are the same. You cannot actually expect me to believe that there is a Provo, Utah not twenty years after initial colonization that is a glorious safe haven for free speech and being gay and nonbinary. I also don’t recall there being much about race or colonization in this story despite it being set, again, at the time of the real american civil war and with the group the audience is supposed to be rooting for heading for safety in a very recently colonized place.
*addendum, apparently this story is actually supposed to be “near-future.” But the worldbuilding issue remains the same. There’s nothing in this novella to 1) make it clear when this is supposed to be set, 2) make it clear or even possible to guess what has happened to bring about this “near-future” dystopia. I’ve read other, similar stories that also involve a near-future dystopia set in the US that give enough detail for that described future to be plausible. (Ex, The Handmaid’s Tale, or Civilwarland In Bad Decline.) This novella does not give enough information for me to even visualize the story, much less understand the essential question of “how did we get here?”
5 - How to Write a Mystery, edited by Lee Child
There were a lot of bad essays
6 - Leave the World Behind by Rumaan Alam
I wrote a review of it which you can read here.
7 - The Once and Future King by T.H. White
So yeah. I would like to stuff a sock in Merlyn’s mouth and duct-tape it shut and shoot him out of a cannon. That’s a bit extreme, but so much of this text was taken up by his patronizing, philosophizing, when he wasn’t going on racist rants and making up colonial manifestos. Such speeches rang especially hollow with the hindsight provided from the last several decades since the books were being published. There were other issues I had with the book, such as abrupt time skips and glossing over important details or constantly referencing other authors so that in order to understand this excessively long book, one must already be familiar with the preceding major works of arthuriana.
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The other day I was driving through Marblehead and saw a lot of fun Halloween decorations. As I was driving home I thought it would be a cool if I took a bunch of pictures and rated them.
So that’s what I did today. My Nana came along and she talked the whole time lol. Which isn’t bad, I sort of kept zoning out and I’d catch the end of a story and have no idea what it was about.
It was kind of fun driving around, constantly putting my hazards on and pulling over. It did spike my anxiety a little cause I was worried someone was going to yell at me for taking a picture of their house but that never happened thankfully!
I did however, make a 3-point turn on a One Way street not realizing that until someone went to turn and kind of yelled at me but it happened so fast and it was a wide enough street so it was fine.
When I get home I’m going to make a Tik Tok of my drive through Marblehead with the rated Halloween decor. A nice little project to keep me busy.
We’re on our way home now and she just ran in to the store to get a couple things. I can feel myself crashing. Or rather I’ve already crashed. I don’t know if it’s the warm sun on my face or the soothing music in the background but I just feel very flat now. I just want to go home, go back under the covers and drift away into unconsciousness.
The store we stopped at is the Stop & Shop I first started working at when I first got hired. This store holds so many memories it’s insane. The florist manager here trained me and she’s like a mother figure to a lot of the younger girls who work in the store. She’s honestly the best and I love her so much.
We talked this past summer when I was still at the hospital and I told her about everything. Even before, she knew of my past. I remember one day I went into work wearing short sleeves with my scars showing and she started tearing up and gave me the biggest hug and said how proud she was of me.
Honestly I was low key hoping she’d be working today (I just missed her, she left at 4) and I started tearing up just thinking of one of her hugs. She called me a week ago but I never answered nor called back. Back in the summer during our phone call she said she’d talk to the store manager and that she was positive I could get a part time job working short shifts a few times a week.
That’s my safety net I guess. Especially working for the company for 12 years, I know I can easily get a job, probably at any of my old locations too.
Right now sitting in the parking lot I’m seeing so many people coming out with wrapped bouquets of flowers and it makes me miss it. That was my job. When I left the company I had worked my way to a florist manager. I loved the department, loved working with flowers and plants and my favorite- balloons! I always had the best sales in the district for balloon sales!
But work is the last thing on my mind right now.
Anyways she should be out any second now and then home is only a few minutes away. That was another great thing about this location. On my lunch hour I’d go home and take a nap lol.
Ughhh the longer I sit here the more I miss working here. There was an Era where I did overnight shifts. You didn’t have to wear a uniform overnight, got to have drinks on the sales floor and listen to music. Those were the best nights! But I was also severely depressed back then. During my days off I’d stay up til sunrise and then sleep all during the day (black out curtains were my savior). There’s always good and bad mixed together. So while I remember the fun times of working overnights I also associate that time with lots of self harm and depression.
Okay end post.
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At the outset of the year, district decided to do their big welcome back presentations for staff, which uh. It went bad. It went really bad. Some of it for good reason. Some of it for the dumbest reasons.
The good reasons are the new head of district seems like a lunatic. Both because he's up there bragging about balancing the budget (cutting a ton of jobs, closing entire buildings, basically refusing to pay for anything), and partially because he's talking about how teaching can't be rote we have to teach deeper thinking (a sentiment that sounds very good, but is in fact not how some learning works and also results in kids not knowing multiplication facts, phonics, or spelling, which are all pretty damned rote). Honestly I am not optimistic about this guy's reign.
But the real reason many people are mad is the other presenter. To be up front, I kinda liked the guy a lot! I think his perspective was interesting. There are aspects I strongly disagree with, but I think he generally knows what he's talking about. He had a good sense of a lot of the issues in education, like a tendency to over-correct and fixate on small behaviors that are easily managed. He made a lot of comparisons to pentecostal preaching, which was neat, but his style was solid.
The problem arose when he got a little too real. He talked about how our population is very majority black students, and how education has uh. Let's say not been particularly kind. To this demographic. Citing issues of underfunding and that schools are literally built by the same contacting companies that build prisons, etc etc. As part of this, though, he talks about white culture as it applies to teaching, the very "sit still, do as your told" approach to showing respect, that sort of thing. And, in a perhaps ill-advised move, talks about race in two contexts.
First: about how white teachers really cannot effectively teach black students without confronting racial biases, specifically stating that you cannot claim to be doing all you do for black youth and hanging out with friends that proudly fly a confederate flag on the weekends. Those mentalities do not mesh.
Second: about black teachers who have internalized the aforementioned white power structure approach to teaching so much that they're sometimes harsher than the white teachers about it. Which is real. I have seen it many times at this school alone.
Needless to say, many people got offended. The fun is guessing which group is actually offended.
It's the white teachers, let's not pretend. Every single white staff member I've talked to barring one has been pissed at this guy, complaining that he's saying they're not doing their jobs well and that white people shouldn't teach black students. Which is. Just so wildly out of touch with what was said it drives me insane. I have had more conversations this week about racial power structures than I have in my entire life. It's good conversations, but it is wild to see how far people will go to just refuse understanding a point once this topic is brought up. I always worry about my own sensibilities on the topic but honestly maybe I'm doing okay.
It's just...staggering. At some level. Dealing with the realization of how much internalized biases and beliefs refuse to be challenged. That even if someone makes an obvious, if exaggerated, point, people will go out of their way to misinterpret and be mad about it to avoid thinking about what it all means. I'm very tired this week.
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