#it doesn’t help I’m PMSing
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What color? What kind?
I need to draw Cas in lingerie, already drew Dean.
Is Dean watching him?
guys. hear me out.
castiel
#thank you zeph#lol I have no idea why I’m doing this.#I’m sorry if this gets weird#I like the idea of a tiny cowboy hat for his dick#it’s been a long day#it doesn’t help I’m PMSing#ovulation is stupid
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the fuck are they putting in these flu shots????? I’ve been feeling like doodoo for the past 24 hours and like I can’t function and I HATE IT!!!!!!!
#I’ve done nothing but lay around#and every time I try to do SOMETHING#I immediately get sick and lightheaded and hot and have to lay down#I’m also pmsing which doesn’t help#BUT IM SICKA THIS SHIT!!!!!!#I haven’t even finished chap 7 and it’s supposed to be posted Monday 😭#and I wanna write two Halloween fics and they haven’t even been STARTED#stressed. good bye.#and my fucking tags worked for an HOUR before disappearing again#I’m at my wits end#—in store chit chat! 🍫
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I’m addicted to the grind (I doordashed for three hours this morning after only sleeping for four hours and now I’m contemplating abandoning my nap to go doordash for like. Twelve hours.)
#if I follow the dinner rush into the midnight rush into the early morning I already have scheduled into the breakfast rush. I could make#like. at least fifty bucks tonight#definitely more than zero which is what I’ll make if I nap thru the dinner rush 😭😭😭#girl help I like money and I like having it and getting things I’m sorry!!! I like it!!!! I want things and stuff and food!!! 😭😭😭😭😭#I’m pmsing so bad I want to cry over everything but I also just want to make money and feel like my mom is proud of me#that she sees I’m trying and working and I’m not a piece of shit and I’m worth something good (she has said nothing negative at all to me in#months why am I so scared that I’m a failure by her imaginary standards she doesn’t even force on me anymore)#anyways. haha. gonna take another hit and then nap fuck money I’ll wake up at nine or then take a shower get dressed put away my clean#laundry eat a bowl of cereal then doordash from midnight to as long as I have orders to fill
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this game is sucking my soul dry i think 😭
#computer shut off in the middle of checking over the files before launching the game again#ugh#i think i figured out how to make the portal last long enough for halsin to come back#but still!!!! ach!!!!!#and it doesn’t help that i’m pmsing so all of my frustrations are being multplied by like 10#rambling
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so much despair and horror in me rn. the housing market is so bad my part of town that my family legit cannot afford to move out of our shitty apartment even tho it would realistically be the best decision of our fucking lives to move out
#also doesn’t help that we need to move into a bigger place w 3 separate bedrooms and perhaps a 4th due to family reasons#but we legit cannot afford it. we did the math. the highest we can go is 1.3k#1.3k gets you NOTHING in nola and surrounding areas#i’m so tired i’m so tired#I don’t want to share a room anymore I want privacy I want peaceful sleep I want a real space I can call my own#but I also can’t move out on my own and my bf and I are nowhere near stable enough to move in together#I’m so tired. I’m so tired#bird babbles#apologies. lots of things are very bleak rn and im so depressed abt everything rn#im also pmsing that probably doesn’t help
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ok so I’m anxious because the end of the year work lunch/party is in two weeks, and then we have another lunch and then another lunch (I think) and then my boss is coming to visit for a couple of days
#my workload is not bad#but it’s the sheer amount of socializing I’ll have in like two weeks staright#I was spiraling last week bc of the first lunch thingy#and I know my anxiety is primarily about getting to the restaurant alone#but I have a plan#one of my coworkers (who I feel comfortable enough) lives like 3 block away from me#so I need to talk to her and convince her to go together that way neither of us gets lost and at least we are seated together#also that lunch is on a Monday so I hope it doesn’t get to crazy and it’s until 6 pm#the other lunch is at the office so that’s cool#the third one I have no idea if it’s happening or not#then my boss is visiting#and she seems to be a sweetheart and just overall nice#but we do have to propose some activities outside of work to do with her to get to know each other better#and that’s nice too but still I feel kind of anxious#my parents come to visit the weekend before that so that’s good#and I go home in like 4 weeks so yay#also I’m pretty sure I am pmsing so that’s why my anxiety is acting up#and also I’m not a fan of Christmas time bc I feel bad that I’m not all happy and merry like everyone else#so I start overthinking and get anxious and/or depressed#but this time I will see my cat for two weeks straight#and he really helps me#mariana.txt
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you’d think after having grandpas hit on me since i was in elementary school i’d be more able to say “fuck off” whenever it happens nowadays but i still can’t and i hate myself for it
#like i just revert back to that little girl that doesn’t know how to defend herself when the eyes of older men were on her#just ‘cause of my stupid nervous personality#and i’ve written about it so many times in my journal but#it sucks that i just simply attract that demographic the most#i mean a know a lot of girls go through that#and i can’t even use this to my advantage and actually make money off these men like some people do without problems#‘cause again of my stupid bitch ass personality#i can’t even be that stereotypical spicy latina new yorker that would help me in most social situations#i just suck#then again i’m pmsing so i’m just an emotional mess rn#i hate hormones#michi yaps
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Idk what I’m feeling tbh
#personal#I’m pmsing so my moods are all over the place#lowkey kinda really want to self harm but if I make it to a month I can buy myself something expensive#what if I just don’t tell anyone if I do it then I guess that’s an option#I know I’m supposed to tell myself that it doesn’t help me or make me feel better but I feel like I deserve it#I feel like I want to rip off my skin bc it feels so gross ever since I ate dinner#fuck this dude I’m so fucking sick of this shit#when is it my turn for my life to stop fucking sucking
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Obey Me! Brothers When Your On Your Period
Gonna keep the gn for the most part so anyone who gets this can feel included!! We’re all suffering together and I just want comfort 😭✌️p.s this is very me coded and I’m very much a crybaby and overreact to everything when I’m on my period so bare with me. My asks are open so if you want me to delve deeper on certain characters let me know!
Lucifer
Is informed of the menstrual cycle reading up on humans before you came to the devildom… well at least some of them
Makes sure you have the proper supplies you need already stocked in your room
Does NOT understand the emotional part
When Lucifers giving you one of his famous lectures, the pain begins and your just trying to stare at the floor
Lucifer: “are you even listening to me?”
You: “yes”
Lucifer: “I expect more from you as our human exchange student you know?”
At that moment you just put your face in your hands and start sobbing, too overwhelmed with the emotions and the pain
He’s taken aback for sure. He’s always expecting you to get mad at him, talk back, get angry, something other than this
He’s immediately by your side apologizing and making sure your okay
When you explain to him the situation he understands and lets you lay down with no other words
In the future when your on your cycle, he’s very gentle with you
The second he finds out your hurting, he immediately try’s to help in any way he can
Weather it’s getting you painkillers, a heating pad, anything you need
If you need a quiet place to be while your meds kick in he will let you lay down on the couch in his office while he rubs your back
Mammon
Has NO IDEA what a period is
But being your first man he notices the changes in you during that time
In a moment of pain you tell him what’s going on and have to explain to him about it
“Yer bleeding.. and ya do that ONCE A MONTH??? WHY???”
After a while he’s in tune of when it happens (mostly) and what you need
Always keeps pads/tampons on him in case you ask
If your cramping, all bets are off. No one is aloud to bother you or ask you for anything. Your going straight to his room or yours so he can take care of you.
“Leave MC alone! Cant ya see they’re in pain?!?”
If your craving snacks he will raid beels snack stash to get you what you need
Doesn’t mean it but when your upset and not on your period asks “what ya pmsing??”
he just wants to know
He can’t handle it if your emotional tho it gets him worked up too (even tho he tries to hide it)
“Don’t cry ya baby, you’re fine. The great mammons here ya know? It’s okay”
Leviathan
Figured it out through anime (what else is new)
If you tell him he might get a little wiggy and not know what to do
He’s trying his best let him live
Tell him what you need and he will do it for you literally anything
If your in pain he thinks your dying and panics a bit tell him you’ll be okay and you just need comfort
If you come to him teary eyed asking him to hang out he will put on a slice of life anime or something fun and cuddle with you in his bathtub bed
All the plushies and pillows are there so your warm and cozy
Keeps medication in his room on the off chance you need it
Satan
Oh this boy KNOWS about the pms
Read up on every book imaginable
If you get angry or frustrated during this time he completely understands
Your in pain! Who wouldn’t be upset
Definitely wants to fix the situation immediately but that can get overwhelming at times
“What do you need? Medicine? Heating pad? Water? You know you should stay hydrated.”
He’s just trying to help!
But sometimes you just need comfort
When you come to him, you just have to explain that you just need someone to be with you and to relax and it clicks
He will bring you to his room while he lays down and reads with you
If the pain gets to bad he will rub your head or back until you relax more
DEF yells at his brothers if they even think of bothering you
Asmo
I have a HC that asmo knows when your on your cycle before even you do so imma run with that
You don’t understand why he’s being so overly nice to you all of the sudden
He drags you into your room and you don’t get anything until the pain starts
“I just thought you could could use some extra asmo loving right now!”
It seems like he can read your mind on how your feeling
If your aggravated or frustrated he will let you rant and rave
If your sad and crying he will hold you while you let it all out
If your feeling self conscious he will tell you your gorgeous and amazing while he massages your scalp
Self care is in order, even if it’s just a warm bath he prepares for you with all the salts and oils to make you feel so relaxed, you can’t help but feel so cared for
Beel
We love this man but he doesn’t know anything about humans 😭 but he’s so willing to learn if it’s for you
Your pmsing all day at RAD and your very excited to have your snack that you have in the kitchen
After school, you immediately walk into the kitchen to find beel.
You open the cabinet for your snack, finding it gone
“Oh that? Sorry I was hungry”
You immediately start sobbing
He legit doesn’t know what to do
He normally promises to buy you snacks later and you are okay with it
He’s so guilty and so sorry
When you come to your senses and calm down you explain to him what’s going on
Your in pain?? Where does it hurt? How can he help??
Once he gets a grasp on it, every month he’s got you set
All your favorite snacks and sweets are bought for you to enjoy
If you don’t come down for dinner cause your ‘not hungry’ he’s worried
Will figure out your favorite meals you like for this time and make them for you
If you need a cuddle while your in pain he’s so warm and so cozy
Belphegor
He knows about humans and knows about periods but doesn’t know everything
And he’s a little late to the game with you
The other boys have gotten used to how you are during this time of the month and he’s new to it
You two are walking home and he’s upset with you
What could you do? You NEEDED him for a project you were working on for class so you woke him up from his hiding spot to pitch in
And he was upset and ranting
Not knowing the pain and emotional state you were in
You try to hold your tongue for as long as you can as you walk in front of him
Bel: “this is so so stupid, why do I have to do this project anyways?”
You: “I have to do this project too you know? Stop complaining so we can get this over with” you say with an irritated tone, just trying to get home.
Bel: “what, you on your period or something human? Lighten up”
Maybe it was the cramps irritated your body, making your back ache and your head hurt. Or maybe it was the hormones making your emotions run rampant. But you stop in your tracks, making Belphegor stop too
He can’t see your face, but he hears you let a sob out, wiping your eyes before you made a sprint to the house of lamentation 
Belphie doesn’t normally run, but he runs after you, missing you before you run to your room and shut the door behind you
Mammon sees the commotion, and stops him before he can reach your room to ask what happened
When Belphegor tells him, he’s pissed and lets him have it and explains the situation
When he realizes he’s so upset with himself
He shouldn’t have let his frustrations out on you during such a hard time
After a bit in your room, you hear a soft knock at your door
“I’m sorry, I didn’t know you were hurting”
You spent the rest of the evening cuddling
Finishes his and your part of the project to get some stress off of you
If he felt you twinge with the slightest bit of pain he would hold you that much tighter
After that, if he found out how you were feeling it was immediate nap time, he hates to see you hurting
Will massage your back to get you to fall asleep
Gets a bit too worried when your pain gets too bad and will ask Satan for help if needed
Welp here ya go! Belphegor isn’t even my favorite character and I got SO deep with him so you belphie Stans EAT UP
#obey me shall we date#obey me asmodeus#obey me beelzebub#obey me belphegor#obey me headcanons#obey me leviathan#obey me lucifer#obey me mammon#obey me satan#obey me belphie#obey me hcs#obey me scenarios#obey me x mc#obey me
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sakusa is the number one guy to have an eye on you. If you so much as sniffle, he's pulling out he emergency scarf...
So he absolutely knows when you go on your period, but he tries to phrase it in a way that makes it kess obvious that he knows.
"is it that time already?"
how fitting is it that when I started writing this, my period did too? 🥲 sorry this took so long dira, I’ve been busier with school than I thought I’d be 😭 your other requests are in the works!!
gn!reader that menstruates, no physical descriptions. fluff fluff fluff. FLUFF. cuddly reader that's somewhat shy about affection. attentive kiyoomi. making this part of my MSBY!manager!reader mini-series as a little add-on :3
sakusa swears he can pinpoint the exact moment the switch flips in your brain and you succumb to the PMS feels.
you’re cuddling with him on the couch as a movie plays in the background when you shift a little. he glances down at his chest to see you resting your chin on his sternum, eyes wide as saucers and showcasing the familiar look of affection.
he sighs fondly and rests his hand on the back of your head. "someone feeling a bit needy?"
of course you are. he's been keeping track of your cycle since the beginning of your relationship, he has everything down to a T by now. he knows your symptoms, your usual cravings, how many days in advance he'll need to stock up on supplies... and it's never brought up, because you know he'd get a bit embarrassed if he were to be called out on it, but there's an unspoken understanding that he's tuned in to you and your body.
so obviously he knows that you're PMSing. even if he hadn't been tracking things, he'd know just by the way you had to keep yourself from clinging to him at practice earlier.
for whatever reason, you seem to become almost touch-starved just before your period, despite the constant stream of physical affection he gives you everyday.
so when you nod, he just smiles down at you softly and traces a heart on the apple of your cheek. “you did so well at practice today, manager.”
he thinks back to how you made it through the day despite waking up with a bad back and some sore thighs. another clue that tipped him off about your oncoming period.
you look up at him curiously, making his heart thump a little faster at how cute you look with your cheek smushed in his palm. “shouldn’t I be the one praising you for your performance today, actual athlete?”
he snorts, something he only ever finds himself doing around you. “I hear it enough everyday. How often do you get to?”
you nuzzle into his chest and he pretends that he doesn’t notice the shy smile you’re sporting. normally he would tease you, but he finds himself feeling much, much softer for you when you’re like this.
he rubs your lower back a bit and you whine at the relief it provides. “can I get you anything, my love?”
“kiyo, if you even think of getting up right now there will be hell to pay.”
he grins and scratches your scalp with his free hand. “of course, I wouldn’t dream of it.”
you lean up for a kiss and he happily obliges.
and so you stay like that for another ten minutes, the serene silence only broken by your stomach growling. “I’m not letting you go hungry. Let’s get you something to eat, come on.”
he picks you up and helps you wrap your legs around his waist before making way to the kitchen so he can fix you a snack. he works one handed, the occupied one settled under your thighs to support you, and listens to whatever you have to say.
needy as you may be, he wouldn’t trade getting to care for you for the world.
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hope you enjoyed!
some tags: @emmyrosee @luvring @aayo-whatt
#sakusa x reader#sakusa x reader fluff#sakusa x gn!reader#sakusa kiyoomi x reader#hq x reader fluff#hq x reader#haikyuu x reader
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Most of the time I think life is so so good and then I have one minuscule moment of pain again and it’s like nvm I need to die
#you ever have a good pain week and then you can feel your body getting tense again even when you’re trying to be proactive and it doesn’t#help anymore and you feel like a child again I feel like when I first started hurting when I first realized this was forever I feel like#when I would spend nights crying and thinking about how this was my body and this was my life and how it’ll be like this forever#I almost hate feeling good bc I forget how shitty it is when I hurt#like I truly forget that pain is forever when I have a good couple days and then it always comes back and even when it’s not brutal#immediately I know it will get there again.#I’m pmsing and I’m nervous bc I am stressed and I’ll be starting a new job next week and my shoulders are set more forward then they normal#are and ik it’s from driving and stress and sleeping in so many different places but like god how do I stop being afraid of my body#falling apart while im still using it.#I’m preparing myself for the inevitable endo flare. if it isn’t this month it’ll be some other month. how do I explain to a new boss that I#might have to call out a couple days in a row every month bc I’ll be busy curled up in a ball crying or sleeping for two days#how do I explain that I have to lie about how much I can carry and how long I can stay on my feet because if I didn’t I wouldn’t be able to#get a job anywhere#ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh I feel incredibly young and small and my life is short and just beginning and it feels like it’s racing me to the end#I will hurt in some capacity forever. I just have to deal with that. between emotional and physical pain I am hurting constantly but this#last week has been so fucking good and I have to go back to my regular life tomorrow and try to be good and fix myself and still remember to#stretch even when I’m not driving ten hours and it’s just so hard#I hope I take care of myself. I hope I stop hurting I hope I can be happy soon
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Listen, I’m all about positivity in the BuckTommy fandom, and I’ve been doing well.
Until a TikTok video on my FYP showed up today while I’m PMSing, which prompted me to make a video saying “don’t touch grass, go touch the sun because you are as stupid and worthless as those OceanGate billionaires who were at the bottom of the ocean” to toxic delusional B*ddie shippers.
I even called my dad to vent and explained it like this: Blue is spelled “b-l-u-e”, but they’re saying blue is spelled “s-o-y-a” and other delusional people are agreeing with them.
I also may have mentioned “this is why the reason why Tim Minear doesn’t like you”.
Also something about my wallpaper being blue and they are the folks that would look at it and say it’s red. I may have also said Tr*mp supporters are smarter than them and Tr*mp himself would look at the toxic shippers in amazement.
Maybe some other things were said like “go seek help because your reality is vastly different from the real world”. “Do you not know what a shovel talk is?” “Do you know what flirting is?” “Do you have any friends?” “Do you know how the real world works?” “Is this your first time interacting with fiction or entertainment?” “How are you mad that Tommy is letting Buck set the pace? Do you not know what consent is?” And many more.
I do feel slightly better.
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I’m on my period and I’m just picturing what thatd be like with Gojo as a bf. He definitely believes in PMSing. The whole shebang. He’s def annoying about it too so if you do end up snappin at him (cuz ur bleedin out ur coochie and maybe crampin so his usual teasing just feels sm more grating than normal) it doesn’t do much to refute his belief in PMS and the women being emotional and downright erratic during that time of the month (stupid man moment). he definitely picks up based on behavior when his girl is on her period too (or even before it comes if there’s a sudden mood change a week before). because even if he’d be a shit bf in terms of presence, he definitely studies his girl and notices all her little mannerisms and behaviors. he’s a highly observant individual and the six eyes just heightens everything too. notices the little twitch in ur finger or the way ur wrist flexes when your nervous type shit, but he never really says anything to allude to it or brags about it v much (unless he’s deliberately being an asshole and you think you could hide smth from him and he just feels like not giving it to you this one time so he throws it in ur face in a humorous but still very blunt and harsh way). and he doesn’t always help out with his s/o���s anxieties or just things she’s not willing to mention first neither. I think most of the time he’ll give his s/o their space to figure out things themselves and tends to mind his business unless they ask for help. That’s mostly a testament to how bad he is at comforting though. Unlike someone like Yuji, who I picture is probably just as confused on how to comfort his girl (specifically), he’d still try and it’s in his earnest sincerity at wanting to alleviate whatever she’s dealing with (and probably shoulder the weight entirely if he was allowed that opportunity), that he usually puts a smile on his girls face. Yuji is just a sweetheart, but he’s clumsy and he probably fucks up all the time. However it’s in the intention and his honest heart that a s/o could overlook any mishaps (most of the time).
GOJO on the other hand is not nearly that honest or earnest. He’s calm cool and collected. And he’s naturally a little mean too. Like he probably thinks at first his s/o could suck it up. Like shouldn’t you be used to this already? Just seems like a woman thing he doesn’t particularly understand so maybe he should stay away if he irks her nerves more than usual. But when it’s actually weighing on her or if she’s particularly uncomfortable and it’s out of her realm of control, Gojo does take pity. And he is still protective, even tho he’s detached. If he could take away her pain or switch roles he would without a second thought. But he can’t. And asking if she needs anything might feel a little embarrassing because that means he doesn’t already know what to do. (That and he doesn’t really have that nurturing of a personality so it feels a lil odd comin from his mouth). But Satoru Gojo failing at something??? Unthinkable. Unheard of. Fake news. He ends up googling how to help period pains and ends up finding some forum or subreddit of equally confused husbands and boyfriends. He ends up reading everything he could find and educating himself on the horrors and facts of menstruation and ends up learning more than he bargains for. But now he’s excelling most of the male population again and it’s just another notch in his belt, proof of not only being the strongest but the most knowledgeable 😎✨. (ends up braggin to some of his male students or colleagues like WOW how can YOU NOT know the strength of a period cramp could crush a can cmon megumi ur lackin). He also half thinks he should get some points for being so considerate and sweet. So he’s half expecting a big fat kiss and some praise when he suddenly strolls in with a bunch of bags of supplies and chocolate since he read somewhere more than half of women crave chocolate on their first days of menstruation. Snacking out on that is smth he can definitely help you with if you feel guilty for piggin out. When he finds out occasionally rubbing your back, watching movies, eatin junk and cuddles on your really bad days is all you really need to be satiated, he thinks it’s a pretty sweet deal. It might even become a frequent enough occurrence for him to call it something egregious like period parties. He’s ur pms partner ❤️ (you can smack him)
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Breaking and Entering (5) - Lovern
Status: Ongoing Series
Chapter number: 5 of unknown
Word count for Chapter: 1,577
Word count for Story: 11,111
Genre: Werewolf
There are no chapter titles, but each chapter will have a name listed that indicates which POV the chapter is from. Mindlinks are in italics. Conversations with their inner wolf are in bold italics.
A little about the author: I am a mother of two beautiful children. One of which is special needs, and on 3/28, they lost 75% of their vision. I started a Patreon if you feel the heart to donate towards helping with the medical costs of appointments, medication, and modifications to the house, which insurance doesn't cover.
Warnings: (I am not good at this, but I will try. Let me know if I missed anything!!) NOT BETA READ!! This story will have a bit of angst, fluff, smut, f/m, and m/m. This chapter doesn't have any warnings... unless I missed some.
BREAKING AND ENTERING MASTER LIST
LDYSMFRST MASTER LIST
Great way to start, right?
Getting attacked, visiting the health office, and missing an entire class period—oy!
If this is how everything starts, this will be a tricky school year. Part of me wants to go home because my face is killing me. What kind of nails does she have to cut me like that? As far as I know, she doesn’t have acrylics with razor blades.
It's focus time. The desire to do well in school and graduate, maybe from here, on a good note, is more essential and will always win. Since there is time left for the third period and I have a free fourth period, it is time to go to my safe place and be invisible again.
Making my way to the library and entering the administration building, I notice Mitch is still here with whatever his name is and now another lackey.
Wait, they are all coming from the private elevator?
Who are three high school jocky-looking goons to have access to a key card VIP elevator?
I get Mitch having one since he is now glued to Selena, and her parents work on the top floor, but the other two? Oh well, it's not something to care about with the short time I will be here.
Oh shit!
Mitch is walking this way with a concerned look on his face and the lackeys in tow. He is in no way coming to check on me, right?
Glancing around… yep, it is me, not another soul in sight. Why not? Everyone is supposed to be in class right now.
*Ring*
The bell for the end of the third period goes off, stopping the boys in their tracks. He glances at the new lackey behind him, and my eyes follow.
Oh, wow.
My brain short circuits when my eyes connect with these pale, jade-green eyes filled with power and confusion.
“Hey, Lovren! What happened to your face?” Mitch calls out, moving towards me again, looking more irritated now than concerned.
The other two boys are seemingly shocked at what he said, glancing over at me like I was not 100% there just a second ago. Concern and irritation echoed on their faces.
Oh, great, that's just what I need now “a pity party” because Selena went Freddy Kruger on my face. All I can think of is how mad Mitchell will be at me for pissing off his girlfriend enough for her to do this to me.
Boys will be boys and back the bitches no matter what.
And with how close Mitch and Selena are now, I am pretty sure that video evidence still wouldn't convince him that I was in the wrong place at the wrong time or Selena was PMSing again.
Rolling my shoulders, I feel this prickling sensation roll across my skin like small waves, which only makes me want to get away faster.
“It’s nothing. I’m good.” I quickly mumble as I turn and bolt for the stairs, not waiting for the elevator to reach the lobby level.
I repeatedly chanted, “Don’t make trouble. Don’t cause a mess. Don’t lose this house, too,” making it my mantra until I graduate.
I keep going up the stairs to the third floor, ignoring the calls after me from Mitch and his lackeys.
When I reached the third floor, I leaned against the wall and listened to see if they were following me up the stairs.
No footsteps on the stairs.
Taking a chance, I peek around the corner, looking down to the lobby. The three are still there, looking puzzled and pointing to the stairs where I just escaped.
Well, there is no way this is not going to get back to Jon and Rachel. Mitch will say something to Jon, and then Selena will spin a story to her parents.
When I get home, who knows what Jonathan will say, but Rachel will have a million questions for me, like 1—why did you run from Mitch or 2—why did you make Selena mad, but never are you okay?
I may have to live in the library from open to closed daily and take the long way back to avoid everyone.
*Ring*
Ah, the fourth period has started, meaning I have about 55 minutes to myself. Sitting in my favorite chair, I scoot it closer to the window and watch the schoolyard. Some students are running late to class, others are milling about with no apparent direction, and PE for today will be soccer.
I am not a fan of rough-and-tumble sports, but that is not to say that I am not relatively strong, flexible, and quick to recover for a heavier-set person. If I am going to participate in a sport, it will be either swimming, volleyball, or horseback riding.
Watching the intense game outside, something strange happened. The students all kneeled and looked at something under the awning.
That was odd. Is that some safety drill out here in the mountains of nowhere?
Was there a sound that signaled to do the drill that was only played outside?
It's another quirk to add to small-town living. Deciding to ignore that, I focus on my homework until the bell rings at the end of the fourth period.
With my face still sore, the thought of chewing anything makes it hurt worse. Skipping lunch, I return to third-period class to apologize for my absence, turn in my health slip, and collect the syllabus plus any class or homework.
So far, the rest of my school day involves a one-sided hide-and-seek game with Mitch, Selena, and their collection of lackeys.
Praise anything and everything that I do not end up having classes with any of them! There IS a higher power out there. Amen!
My ability to stay in the clique of Invisibles is intact.
Math, Science, and English are a piece of cake.
Economics and government are a nightmare.
My bird course this year is choir because I can fly right through it and pass with technicolor. Singing is the one thing that connects me to my mom the most.
I remember bits and pieces of her singing while cleaning, cooking, and showering, and, well, if she could sing while doing the activity she did, no one ever stopped her. She never sang professionally, even though she could have made it big, because she always said, ‘The Goddess does not give gifts for money and fame.’”
She was a soprano and sounded like chimes in the wind, picking up the spirits of those around her and easing their worries. I was not so lucky. I am an alto with a strong, commanding voice that is warm but soothes the soul.
Choir was my last class for the day. I was practically skipping with joy to class. Excited to end the day on a high note, pun intended, I walk into the choir room only to hear someone yell, “It’s Ren! You sing too?”
Oh no.
Searching for the voice owner, I find my “new friend,” Erik, surrounded by other students with all their eyes locked on me and my bandaged face.
Kill me now.
Shooing people away, he patted the seat beside him and waved me over. I swear he knew everyone in the room, and everyone had to say hi to him, which means they also said hi to me; so much for being Invisible in this class.
Luckily, the conductor started the class with basic orientation, competition information, important dates, and uniform discussion. Then came the warm-ups, which included lots of looks and smiles at me from Erik and the other students close by, making me glad my face was already red from the injury.
Next, the only part of the choir I hate is the placement showcase.
It happens every year: each student stands in front of the class, singing variations of scales, melodies, and sight reading. I can do everything, but I hate that it is in front of everyone. Erik has no problem with this; he has a fantastic baritone-like tenor voice. It made me smile for the first time today.
Lucky for me, I kept an eye on the clock and was blessed with two things: running out of time, so I didn't have to try to sing in pain, and having never unpacked my bag, I was able to melt into the shadows and leave right away while everyone else chatted and packed up.
I hoped Erik did not want to talk to me afterward; I was done with people.
The choir room is near the band, theater, and main gym. It is the central gathering point for the Clackers and their minions. I take a deep breath and walk along the buildings without bumping into anyone, focusing only on getting to the library rather than drawing attention to myself.
Typically, it works.
Dad used to joke about my ninja skills and ability to enter a room filled with people without anyone knowing I was there. It was rare when I would get caught. Most of the time, it was by my dad or mom, someone who always oozed presence or power.
Which is what I am feeling now: power and eyes.
Someone is watching me, and it's drilling a hole into my head. Trying not to be obvious, I glance around at the students in my general area only to be drawn to someone across the quad.
Pale Jade green eyes.
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“guilty as charged.” loving the sound of her laugh, billy doesn’t even try to deny the obvious — he does spend a little too much time scrolling through tiktok. he can’t help it. it’s addictive. “mhm, you kind of did just that. you played it off as a joke, but i’ve known you for… what? thirteen years? fourteen? i can tell when you’re genuinely uncomfortable or annoyed with me.” she can be a mystery, but there are also times when her feelings seem to radiate off her in waves. and although he might not understand why she’d be bothered by his backhanded compliment directed at the waitress, he’s certain there is a reason. has he ever done anything to make her think he’s capable of betraying her? “maybe i’m doin’ both. a virgin boy has to entertain himself somehow,” he plays along, but for once doesn’t feel like laughing. he’s too irritated and frustrated.
“first of all, you’re not a man or so i hope ‘cause that would be an awkward surprise… and second of all, what’s so insulting about being called a woman?” he’s genuinely oblivious to how rude it can sound, thinking he was just being playful and joking around. “don’t you think there’s a difference between wanting to know who slept in your girl’s bed while you were gone and getting jealous just because your boyfriend breathes the same oxygen as other women?” he rolls his eyes, suddenly no longer hungry. he’s torn between being concerned for her and so incredibly annoyed that he’d like to stand up and walk out. “lord, are you pmsing? is that what this is about?” maybe he shouldn’t be asking such questions, but they’ve crossed quite a few boundaries tonight so what’s one more? “well, it’s hard to forget when your girlfriend gets all tense and annoyed with you for simply sitting next to someone in class.” what’s happened to her? brows furrowing, deep lines appearing on his otherwise smooth forehead. something clearly isn’t right. this isn’t like her, he thinks. “nothing,” the cowboy admits truthfully, although a hint of embarrassment can be heard in his voice when he understands his mistake. a quick explanation follows, “it’s not like i even had the chance to follow up. i was tryin’ to protect you from that, but you just… you always need to get your way. you talk about trust, but you trust no one.”
"okay, you've been on tiktok way too much." the brunette can't help but laugh, hating the way she finds it adorable. "i don't get annoyed when your nice." well... she doesn't mean to. she just doesn't want to admit it was giving her ptsd to billy taupe, which wasn't fair to accuse him of. because him and billy taupe were two completely different people, she knew that. but something in her mind didn't want to let her know that. "hm, i don't know about that. i think you might be watchin' those movies or readin' those books." she accuses, thinking that's hilarious. if she wasn't feeling so rocky with her mood.
watching him sit that sandwich down, leaning back like she was daring him to say something to annoy her even more as she watched the sincerity storm over his features. then he certainly didn't disappoint. "says you? you're the one bein' ridiculous all because i said 'BELIEVE me' earlier. you'd gotten a real bad of an attitude all cause i said that. so you ain't the one to talk about behavior. oh and callin' me woman," maybe she was about to start her period and things like that were annoying her or maybe she was being paranoid he was copying off his dumb misogynistic friends.
or maybe it was to do with billy taupe, again. who could fit right in with billy's stupid guy group. all of the above? "maybe you're weird for still thinkin' about that and rememberin' that." the thing about blair. before billy taupe, she would've agreed with him that waitress had a sweet smile, but now she's thinking every male was after something else. that they were never satisfied. that it wasn't just one male, it was ALL of them. and yes, billy taupe was notorious for taking any woman to his bedroom. the word fucking spilling from his lips is so lewd and burns her even more with anger knowing how it'd been attached to her and billy in the same sentence. oh, so THAT'S what olinger was saying? the one even worse than jesse. and what... his entire group is just making fun of her? "what did you say back to it?" that would decide if she's satisfied or not. really, lucy gray did wonder how billy responded to these things when she wasn't around.
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Boston Marathon length meme
This is another rant. I’m PMSing but it aggravates me even when I’m not.
I hate the “Not to sound really stupid, but is the Boston Marathon longer than the LA Marathon?” meme.
Firstly because of the obnoxious way the two people speak, but also: not everyone lives in places that have marathons so they wouldn’t necessarily know how long marathons are.
I don’t care about sports really at all. Like, very few fucks given by me about sports. Pretty much zero. Why would I know how long marathons are? How would I know how long they are?
The end bit where the woman tells the guy “That’s like common sense, I fear” is just…nnngh…
When I was typing it, my phone autocorrected the “I fear” to “I feel”, so there’s that point.
I fear that people think it should be common sense to know how long all marathons are when not everyone needs to know that info. It’s not a life skill to know that. Common sense is in short supply already! Why does it have to involve marathon length knowledge?
I used to hear that audio in pretty much every other Instagram video a few months ago and it drove me nuts so I was happy when it tapered off but now it’s popped up in my algorithm again and I’m cranky from the PMS, so I decided to rant. I know I sound way more angry than I should (I’m not this angry usually, honest!) but I just hate that audio/meme. Yes, I know I can keep scrolling but it shows up again.
I get why people use it to make fun of the absence of common sense in the world these days but I really don’t want to hear it ever again.
Plus, the kids at the playground near my apartment are screaming (they’re fine, but I don’t get why they have to scream when happy) which doesn’t help my mood.
I’m going to stop talking/typing now and find a video to watch that makes me happy and not feel like an angry nutcase.
Hopefully my next post will be about something normal.
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