#BUT IM SICKA THIS SHIT!!!!!!

[crybaby-bkg]

the fuck are they putting in these flu shots????? I’ve been feeling like doodoo for the past 24 hours and like I can’t function and I HATE IT!!!!!!!

[todayisafridaynight]

What do you mean "say thank you for not posting" I will NOT! I wanna see the secret hidden masadai and or objectified Daigo tyvm! Teehee

PLEAASSE BRO ITS FILTHLCKALJ

[jeansplaytoy]

Complaining - Ony. 6

<<part five part seven>>

arguing , angst (?) , ony being the “worst” , language , mentions of cheating / lying .

the waits are killing me too . NOT PROOF READ forgive me .

“so you sayin… this nigga told you he wasn’t going to the party, at the same time he was taking me.” you crossed your arms.

ony sat on the same couch as you, different distances because your hits hurt. even though he apparently didn’t have anything to lie about.

“yeah.” his ex girlfriend said, glancing at him across from you. ony looked at you and smacked his lips. “ian gon lie. y/n you gotta be the dumbest person i know if you believe that.”

“boy shut the hell up.” you rolled your eyes at him. you looked back at the girl. “you got message proof?”

when she turned the phone around after a few seconds, you didn’t even bother looking fully at the messages. the only thing you saw was “ian goin to that par-“ and that’s all you read before you closed your eyes and took a deep breath in.

ony frowned and looked at the messages. “man hol’ up-“

“shut up. you, you do know he literally just wanted me to start taking to him again, right? like before that party?”

“he ain’t tell me that.” she crossed her arms.

“yep. you can go.” you muttered before getting up and going upstairs. as you heard his ex girlfriend get up and leave, ony followed you to his room.

“bruh-“

“i’m good man. ion even wanna hear it.” you pursed your lips together.

“ma, im being dead ass serious when i say she lyin.” ony said with his hands in his pockets by the doorway. “right then what did them messages say?” you squinted. “ony sighed inaudibly and longingly. “that ain’t me. on some real shit.”

“yknow… ion even know why i bothered tryna restart wit’ you. cause i really thought we could have something and i thought we was gon make it this time without fucking up, but it’s always you, onyankopon.” you stared at him while getting your things from around his room.

ony started to open his mouth and say something, but suddenly he closed his mouth and stared at you with now, blank eyes. “okay.”

you frowned a little and paused what you were doing. “okay?”

“if you ain’t gon believe what i’m telling you, even though i’m not fuckin lyin, then what else can i say? ‘y/n forgive me for telling the truth. i love you.’ i’m sicka that shit.” he said, still leaning on the doorway.

you blinked for a couple seconds. “you.. make me so fuckin’ sick. honestly, i wish i never met yo ass. like everything you do just hurts.” you threw your things on the bed.

ony just walked over to his bed and sat down. “right. cus you can’t seem to believe one fuckin’ thing that be comin outta my mouth and you so fuckin gullible, you believe everything another bitch tell you.” he scoffed and laid back, putting his arms behind his head.

“alright.” you raised your eyebrows, grabbing your things and starting to walk towards the door. “don’t… worry…” you said, picking up the things you were dropping on the way out. “bout me.”

you thought everything was finally gathered until one thing from the middle of the stack dropped, then everything dropped.

yep. that’s it.

you let out a deep, agonizing groan and looked back at ony, who just stared at you. “you done?” he raised his eyebrows. you furrowed your eyebrows and inhaled, your breath shaky as you did so. “i like you for real ony…” you scratched your head and looked at the ground. “you just don’t know.”

“y/n, i promise you i know, but i’m tryna tell you.”

“i’m not bouda sit here and listen to no lies ony. she showed me the messages, i’m done wit this whole thing.” you shook your head. ony sat up and rested his elbows on his knees. “what the fuck i gotta do to prove to you that ion want nothing to do wit her nomo? you can look at my messages from when we started talkin again, you can ask around, ion know what else to say to you.”

“why the fuck would you wanna show me the same messages she showed me?” you frowned. “you know what, this is why-“

ony dragged his hands over his face. as you went on and on about how stupid he was, he stared at the floor, covering his mouth with his hands and slowly shaking his head.

he should’ve never cheated.

he should’ve never lied.

your whole personality wouldn’t have changed. that’s the only reason you’re acting like this, and he knew that.

“i’m sorry.”

you stopped your rant and looked at him. “what?”

“i’m sorry, it ain’t gon happen again. is that what you wanna hear?” he looked at you with bored eyes. you pursed your lips together. “so it did happen.”

“naw. no. hell no. but if you want a sorry, or whatever you want, you got it. i’m just tryna be happy witchu bruh.”

you stayed silent, picking up your things, feelings tears swell in your eyes. never in your life have you cried over a nigga but here you are, doing just that.

“is you cryin?”

“i’m calling mikasa so she can take me home. don’t call me, text me, ion wanna hear yo voice. just delete my contact or some shit because…” you shook your head, leaving out of onys room.

going downstairs, you took out your phone to call mikasa.

“hello?”

“come pick me up. you got my location.”

before she could say anything back, you hung up.

so much for talking things out.

[tmbg-tournie]

PRI👏VA👏CY👏 GLASS👏

actually speaking of which, any other specific moments in tmbg songs that scratch your brain? for me i love the melody of “now let’s toast the sad cold fact/ our love’s never coming back” in narrow your eyes. (mod lain doesn’t have to answer since they already kinda did but if they have another example go ahead! ☺️)

Both of us like talking too much to pass up an ask so

Goober: In Sapphire Bullets of Pure Love when they’re all like “John I’ve been bad, and there coming after me/ Done someone wrong and I fear that it was me” LIKE HELLO? The entirety of Three Might Be Duende, the entirety of I’ll Sink Manhattan but specifically “Burn your forget-me-nots/ Admit that true love can die/ No, I won't apologize, my love, just kiss me goodbye” HELP I LOVE TMBG

Lain: oh my god YES okay so there's:

- the PRI VA CY GLASS (and the PLANES IN THE SKY) from dark and metric as previously mentioned

- the part in Wearing A Raincoat where he does the chorus but instead of being the same as the other times it goes into 3/4 for a few measures and then back to 4/4 the little switchup idk if im explaining it good but AUGH that shit is so cool

- "HE WON'T EVEN TALK TO ME NOOOOW BUT THAT'S OKAAAAY CUZ I'M SICKA THAT GUY" from Rest Awhile

- "i must be siiilent MUST cooontain my secret smile" and "in the allegooory of the PEO PLE IN THE-CAVE BY THE-GREEK GUY" from no one knows my plan

- the way he goes "HELLOO!! EXCUSSE MEE HEYYYYY" in the live version of They Got Lost

[this-should-do]

absolutely o7

so jill is a character i made based on 2 guards gordon meets during the rescas so that she takes the place of them voth, the first being the guard he meets in the black mesa interpretation of on a rail that ends up dying on the ascent of the silo and becuz i decided that that guard is a turning point in my gordons arc of not feeling like he can rely on others to survive, i also had her be the guard that you see in blast pit, so that gordon has time to bond with her and really feel reliant on her as a co panion so that when the rug pull happens it really off sets him.

her personality is based on the cop lady that runs the hospital tbat beth is at in the walking dead if you know that show, very no nonsense, has to play up her masculineness in order to keep control of her dpace within the very man dominated populace of black mesa secutiry, even tho shes not really masc, which is part of her internal conflict pre rescas, during the rescas she goes thru a bit of a derangement arc, where she gets more and more fucked up when its time for foghting, going off the rails during combat at her own detriment and then completely reverting to her kinda rough but personable personality when the fighting stops, in a very a/b fashion so that its jarring to see it happen

and then theres richie, my dearest richie, ive talked quite a bit about him :3 he is a mycologist that works in the advanced biolabs, hes very anxious and struggles socially and he tends to slend a lot of time alone working on his model toys that he builds hes also roommates with gordon (cuz i llayed the decay pc port mod and thought it was canon that gordon dorms witha guy clled montague but alas nkt canon but its too late and i dont want to lose that bit of lore)

he also struggles with his weight alot and has so much guilt and pain over it, and its prevented him from being able to join the excursion teams in xen, over his life (as he does make it out of the rescas alive at the cost of like all his friends) he does end up losing weight cuz of malnourishment inder the ckmbine both in the cities and outside them (he lives out side the cities eventually cuz he ran away on a train stop to "ask for his ticket" cuz he didnt wanna die and hes soso scared all the time, tha kfully hes not alone otherwise he very much wouldve died) and feels "better" but not really he just feels sicka nd hungry, eventually after the fall of the ckmbine he gains bakc a healthy amount of weight for him and hes still fat in the end but hes made peace with that becuz its just how his body works and being fat means that hes eatimg well and is safe which is more jmportant than thinness

the person he relies on post combine is val, an oc of my buddy @thatforestprince and u cna absolutely go ask him about val :3, and the two of them end up getti g u healthily dependent on the other cuz essentually theyre all the other has cuz all the places they try to settle down in keep getting destroyed, their relationship is completely platonic but to others it appears very ambiguous amd its v fun i think

richie funfact is also the guy who let a chumtoad get loose, which ends up being the one that barney has :) its a fun piece of lore that shows up in the fic im working on about richie, one day ill get it done lol

he also has a lot of catholic guilt and internalized shit going on, but if he were free of that, hed very much dress gender nonconforming, but as of the present, bro is concerned with appearing like a man becuz hes a man,

[themichaelvan]

kind of sicka nd i tried to play minecraft and failed miserably (reaction time is shot as shit) but i want to do SOMETHING. so im going to make a playlist (or get wildly distracted. one of the two.)

[the-firebird69]

Trump Dumpster Diver Commercial

and i h ave been hit and did htis prior. and tons say it is due to the receipt and he had thought it..said it. and back again so i see it. but heck he says so. but ohters will.  and i fall. and yeh it is not good but i feel ok.  good actually.  and ok ahah low on spaceshps cordoned. and i look for it then the lucky strike and still was am lowly

trump

so we see yo do it again take over again wreck people no good

macs

we see it too your ugly inside andout mean. and dont care for you own oranyone so what eans your out

fired ok

mac daddy

we take you down for your words you gooof

fn faggot too  you are shit we discredit you now ad do ti we hear him im sicka gain andhim

mcihael tew

we do ittoo help him needs it badly

bill will

used him to expose us and he ists laughing too andturump is angry no not at all so we se

macs

Olympus

[midwestqueer]

bro i feel like adhd meds dont work for me. ritalin worked when i first started it years ago and eventually had no affect. tried adderall and it not only didnt help me with focus but it made my life kinda miserable (if i wasnt on it, i was so lethargic id sleep forEVER and it made my anxiety thru the roof). im on vyvnase now and i dont feel anything from it, even doubled the dose one day and couldnt tell a difference. the only noticable change ive had is that it helps with my anxiety. idk where to go from here and i dont really know how to talk to my psych about it bc she thinks ive been doing really well on it, when its the case that im doing better bc of the rexulti shes had me on since feb (except that hasnt stopped me from having manic episodes). idk if there even ARE any other meds for adhd. sicka dis shit mans

[baekhvuns]

https://www.instagram.com/reel/CmRLAGCpn8w/?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=

Amen to tht 🙏🙌

https://www.instagram.com/reel/CmashKUvuEh/?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=

https://www.instagram.com/reel/CmgW0MfPdng/?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=

I'm crying AHHHH the amount of stuff I've been finding is insane like

Also, dude I'm sick and tired of the people in my class LIKE HOW MANY TIMES ARE THEY GNNA ASK ME IF I LISTEN TO KPOP AND SAY THT THEY LOOK LIKE GIRLS AND DO GIRLY DANCES!?!?! The basic knowledge and literacy had been lost

U won't believe they made a separate account and posted shit about BTS , im sicka dn tired like so bad. I honestly don't know what they think of themselves. Dude like i reported the acc and i rlly want to give the name of the acc so y'all cn block it too but idk if it'll be the right decision or not but this is why id want to borrow death note please 🧍.

2/2 Omg i was so induced in the anger i forgot to tell why i sent this one here:- https://www.instagram.com/reel/CmgW0MfPdng/?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=

BCZ IT REMINDS ME OF KHRONOS! Or like si it just me? Like the whole aura kind of give me the Khronos hwa vibes

at that point, u just gotta be like yes they do girly dances, can u do repeat what they do but every day, non-stop, at tours, practices and shows? <3 literally do not pay attention, they're irking u, their small acc won't even be acknowledged by the artist themselves, no point in wasting ur anger dnfk

[mwagneto]

Not to start clowning again but did you see that RDJ addressed SH3 in a recent podcast he was on? He said they are still raring to do it! …but Jude is busy right now. My clown wig is on I guess with the slightest indication of them potentially making the movie

NO I DIDN'T SEE IT OMG AND NNGGHGHH WHAT. FUCK

[iheartliquor]

A SUNDAY IN HELL

[wolftattoo]

waking up and its humid and theres cat litter everywhere and dishes arent done and i dont even get to be home alone and

[mega-taiga]

LIGHTNING STRUCK MY LIBRARY/INN FRAME AND BURNED DOWN LIKE 3/4 OF IT HA HA

[strawbrains]

[neotrances]

[saidtostaine]

me looking at expensive nendoroids at online shops unable to click the buy now button because i know how much i CANNOT afford them....

"so this is love....."