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Sometimes someone says something and you just feel it with your whole ass.
#a streamperson I watch just said the phrase ‚i constantly felt parasocial; even with my friends‘#and I know it was about twitch con and meeting the friends you got close with over the whole pandemic thing online#but fuck if this isn‘t just relatable as fuck#i DO constantly feel aware of me claiming someone to be my friend; but feeling like I am ‚claiming‘ too much by that#it distances me from everyone#even the friends at uni who i saw twice a week for 4 years now#just because I think I can‘t take up more space#i need to work on this asap#it makes me feel singled out and lonely all the fucking time#and i can‘t handle this anymore#i can‘t even ask my friends for an interview gor my Bachelors project#like I feel like I am asking for too much of them
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I added some colours to her :)
#digital art#character art#character design#marcia#discworld#discworld fanart#angua von uberwald#bro i need to get weirder i need my art to be weirder i need the shapes i need the colurs i need to not play safe i need to be a freak#2025 goal become an even bigger freak i can never stop#i really like how she turned out#i never used such muted colours before i kinda like how murky she looks#a true ankhmorporkian#still making my way through men at arms they just found the clown#i am fascinated with the river that is running through that city#it makes me think of Bristol uk <3#going back to angua i like to think the armour they gave her was already all beaten up#hello and welcome to the nightwatch. have the nastiest underfunded gear we could find this side of the city#also i like to think that the official colours of ankh morpork are greenred#two colours on the opposing sides of the colour wheel but they are forced together to coexist#ankh would be green morpork would be red#and now everyone and their patrician just gotta cope#worldbuilding through colour would be fun : )#ohhh the inside of the palace could look quite cool because it would have to utilize both to celebrate the union#but then you go into the city and across the river you can sorta see the divide#not that all the houses would be one colour or whatever thats a bit predictable#but through fashion statements or exported goods or family insignia#and then you could incorporate it further for example vimes the guy of the city would want to take on the whooole thang. thats his city#some criss cross apple sauce checkers quilted mismatched mumbo jumbo#and then in contrast to that you would have his wife-elected suit and tie getup that distances him from his duty and kills him#so many options i tell you
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Bonus 13: Beware the Grapes of Wrath.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#wen qing#wen ning#WWX's main weapon as the Yiling patriarch is considered to be 'Wen Ning' - which makes sense as far as the whole necromancer thing goes.#However...That *is* Wen Qing's beloved baby brother!#In her perspective WWX skipped town for a few days (or so) and took WN with him#only for them both to show up bloodied and in a state of disarray.#There's no way he told her he was going out to duel Jiang Cheng. For several reasons.#He doesn't want to involve her in his messes anymore than he already has.#It's less that she would try and stop him and more so that he honestly wouldn't even think to say something about it to her.#WQ and him aren't partners in this situation. He actually openly disregards her opinions several times.#Wei Wuxian's emotional distance from everyone around him is a big part of this arc.#Like all good tragedies...his biggest flaw is his hubris. He doesn't *need* anyone when he's so capable on his own.#He doesn't need to ask permission when obviously this is the only way forwards.#He has to do it all on his own! No one else needs to be involved!#And if you've been in the position of realizing you have a problem of toxic self-reliance - you know how harmful this mindset is.#It's why it's so satisfying to see WWX in his 'new' life start to let other's share his burdens.#I will die on the hill of 'love means carrying each other's weight. All a burden means is that I can give you support and you support me.'#YLLZ is less 'competent and sexy' and more 'depressed and can't see it'.#Another lovely nod to the main theme here is how he starts leaning more and more into the rumours about him.#Though we are also still confronted with how these rumours fail to actually live up to reality.#Rumour has it the Yiling Patriarch is undefeatable. What a shame if that rumour turned out to be untrue!
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To me, [High and Dry] feels indifferent and lonesome but it's also got nice details in the sound. It has a good balance, which is why I chose this song. It's desperate and lonely and I thought the lyrics were speaking to myself. Sometimes I think "Should I follow other people's standards?" but if I went on like that I'd be missing my own standards.
SONG By - Episode 02 - High and Dry (orig. Radiohead)
#stray kids#kim seungmin#bystay#staysource#createskz#seungminsource#staydaily#kpopccc#vocalrachasource#melontrack#staytay#userbeepls#usertsu#usersemily#thestephtag#bitsforkitts#*mine#idk this part really hit me#it's hard when you feel like you're drifting apart and its only in your head the feeling like everyone is distancing from you#i really loved this episode
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bee's protective nature over anyone persists even as a ghost & i think he sometimes forgets or doesn't care that only star can see him (sadly no touch tho) & will start shouting & angrily try standing between people who are mad at starscream even tho he can't be seen, he just wants to try & help anyways bcs STOP IT >:(!! BE NICE !!!! cried the ghost no one can hear or see except for the poor guy getting yelled at & trying to overhear the conversation over bee's frantic rebuttals while trying to discreetly let bee know it's ok while ALSO trying not to look Insane .
continued attempt at a 4am drawn doodle comic below


i might draw detailed later but yeah i just wanted to give yall this headcanon bcs i love starbee so much... the nagging wives finally finding their true loves... another nagging wife.
' you .. do know only i can hear and see you, unfortunately, right? or are you starting to go loopy, because i don't need another insane figure haunting me. I have enough already, as you can try and fail to imagine, little bee . '
' trust me, im Well aware .. of everything you just said . .. but i just. i couldn't just Stand there and do Nothing while someone talked to you like You were Nothing . that's not the autobot way. that's not- my way . '
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#starbee#transformers#maccadam#tf idw#transformers idw#bumblebee#starscream#bee posting paragraphs of opinions no one cares abt to his new twitter after his old one got sniped#for telling megatron to offline himself#except no one gets notifs when he follows them except for starscream for some reason so#starscream is bee's only follower but bee keeps posting paragraphs abt anything anyways#' atp just dm me bee.' ' OPTIMUS. CaN YOU BELiEVE HE SAID THIS TO ME????? I CANNOT BE- ' optimus has never touched twitter in his life#jazz made and controls his twitter for him but no one knows bcs jazz uses it to roleplay as optimus and mourns bee being dead#bee keeps commenting hes not dead but jazzOptimus never gets the notification & hes rlly popular so rip bee#i love starbee bcs starbee is when theyre both cringe but free#when the foils meet and have fun the world burns but i am at peace bcs i love them so fking much#anyways um hiii if u guys see this and wanna be moots hiiiiii id love to be moots pls just comment hi or smthing#i need tf friends sobad#sorry for drawing bee like hes princess peach but im not bcs he is indeed my princess#he is my beautiful princess disorder#starscream social distancing from ppl & making ppl think hes an even bigger awkward jerk (he is) but rlly it's to give bee#space to stand between the conversators with his hands on his hips to exchange glares between the two#or just so starscream can see his opinions on the guy hes talking to better#'i think' 😾 that's a'😾 ' it's a gorgeous' 😾 i dont Like that Guy starscre'PLAN'#( um.. why are you shouting..) ' ...... NO.REASON. ' bee in a corner whistling somewhere#starscream grinding his fucking teeth#hes so fking annoyed at his ego being hampered by this hauntful creature but also it's so worth it to see bee be brought out of that#smiley ' lets go autobots!! yes sir optimus sir! ' shell he always puts on for everyone else so it brings starscream away from his#egotistical shell as well and they just both encourage growth from each other by being silly and cute and WAGHH TOGETHER#WAGHHH WAGHHH I LOVE STARBEE WRAGHHH!!!!!!!
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Ok so it's like.
The motorcycle scene: Touga is obviously imitating Akio and failing miserably. Represents an attempt at achieving maturity and adulthood through adopting empty symbols of power. Gives the impression of movement and progress, but in reality is going in circles. It gets faster and faster, there's a sense of danger and agitation. Touga is driving and Saionji sits in the sidecar, they're not on the same level and Saionji disapproves. Seems like they're heading towards some destination, but they're going nowhere.
The bike scene: A reference to their shared memories. Represents clinging to the past and trying to return to the time of childhood. The wheels may be turning, but the bike stands in place. It get slower and slower as Touga gets more tired until he finally stops completely. There's a sense of nostalgia and emotional fatigue. Touga is the only one pedaling, but Saionji doesn't comment on it (meaning that perhaps Touga being in control wasn't the problem in the first place. Maybe it was always about wanting to restore their lost connection and equal footing). They're facing opposite directions, but at the same time leaning on each other.
#sorry for posting about toxic lettuce x toxic ketchup it will probably happen again#their relationship is fascinating to me. they are both pathetic loser boys convinced that Masculinity is the key to winning at life#but it only pushes them further and further away from graduating#and because this neverending persuit of being the Perfect Man caused them to distance themselves from everyone#they have no one to turn to except each other. but even that doesn't really work cause at this point neither of them knows the other anymore#and the only things that keep them together are the memories of boyhood.#a time when they didn't have to be this way yet. when a certain degree of vulnerability and kindness was still allowed#and they're trying to make sense of it all#rgu#revolutionary girl utena#touga kiryuu#saionji kyouichi#moje
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HOW HAVE I NEVER NOTICED THIS


LAYTON USES TU FOR FUTURE LUKE BUT SWITCHES TO VOUS THE SECOND CLIVE'S IDENTITY IS REVEALED.
Tu and vous both mean you but Tu implies closeness : in the entirety of Unwound Future, Layton only ever uses Tu with Flora, the Lukes and Claire
#I'm shaking crying throwing up#WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME.#He immediately uses tu for Future Luke which is A LOT#In real life we often stumble trying to know which one to use because vous is distance but also respect like for a boss or teacher#(Everyone except Claire uses vous for Layton because he's a highly educated adult and a gentleman)#Layton must really appreciate and trust Luke. He immediately went 'Oh that's a Luke of course he's a close one'#And it makes sense that he would discard the tu when he finds out that nope this is a total stranger manipulating us all#But also normal people would go from tu (affectionate) to tu (derogatory). Of course Layton doesn't as a gentleman but. Ouch#And he never goes back to tu not even after finding out Clive is the orphan he saved#I'm crying why are you doing that to me. It's so subtle I had NEVER noticed but it's there#Maybe the vous will go back to respect or pleasant distance one day but Clive isn't deserving of a tu. He's not Luke. He's a stranger#I HAVE to do a complete pronoun analysis one day. I've talked about it here and there but I need to do a big analysis#Professeur layton et le destin perdu#Professeur layton#hershel layton#clive dove#Been posting a lot of angst lately oops#Professor layton and the unwound Future#Professor layton and the lost future#Unwound Future spoilers#Lost Future spoilers
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I've been seeing a bunch of people adding disclaimers to their billford posts clarifying that they have critical thinking skills about abuse and abusive relationships, and I 100% understand that impulse. When I first made this blog I added disclaimers like that onto nearly everything. But, if it makes the folks adding those disclaimers feel any better: after I stopped writing essays trying to prevent people from taking my billford posts in bad faith, absolutely no one got mad at me in my inbox or on any of my posts, and I've been posting about billford for years now. In my experience the majority of people who are uncomfy with this ship nowadays will simply block and move on. Some folks will disagree no matter how many disclaimers you add, and that's ok
#godsrambles#another thing i realized once i started engaging with this ship is that literally everyone who was still posting in the tag-#-DOES have an extremely nuanced understanding of their relationship and has plenty of critical thinking skills#i feel shitty for ever needing to have a realization about that in the first place tbh!#but i get that when youre surrounded by people saying 'ugh how can people not realize how awful it was in canon' you can get worried about-#-people assuming the same of you unless you loudly announce 'i have critical thinking skills i prommy:(' on every post#just wanted to say. hey. listen. its ok. its ok to join in wholeheartedly#the hypothetical no reading comprehension billford shippers youre worried about? practically nonexistent#youre also kinda shitting on the very people who would love to talk about their dynamic with you when you try to distance yourself from them#which i very much dont mean in a 'how dare you' kind of way#i just mean it in a 'ive been there and believe me youll be so much less stressed if you let yourself post for the audience-#-who will already assume good faith on your posts instead of posting for the audience who will most likely just block you anyway
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Happy Year of the Dragon!
#non mdzs#lunar new year#digital art#Still struggling with figuring out digital art stuff but I’m getting there#The year of the rabbit really was a special and lucky one for me. Maybe because sometimes it is also the year of the cat.#The energy of the rabbit might not be with me but I hope to have the wisdom of the dragon leading my days#This week is going to be filled with a lot of sappiness so I won't go into yet.#But thank you to everyone for making me feel less anxious and afraid with all the kindness you have shown me.#I have become somewhat domesticated now. I will sniff your hand if there is a treat in it. Maybe blink slowly at you from a distance.#HAVE A WONDERFUL LUNAR NEW YEAR EVERONE! We are all gonna do great B*)
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almost forgot to post this on here after tweeting about it BUT i wanted to share what my twitchcon badge looks like because i am so in love with it!!! i met some qsmp members and asked them if they could draw their eggies and guys.. i am OBSESSED. they're so cute 🥺🫶 i really wish i got to meet pac as well so i could've had a little richas but i sadly didn't meet him.. MAYBE NEXT TIME!! didn't even expect to meet baghera until she did an impromptu m&g at the twitch rivals arena lmao
#i wanted to go to pac's m&g but i wasn't sure if i would make it and the person i was with wanted to go to the opening ceremony#but now i'm like man i should've just gone to the m&g#i saw him from a distance though when i stood in line for fit so at least i got to see him irl?#anyways let me tag everyone#qsmp#twitchcon#fitmc#baghera jones#tubbo#sunmin#qsmp chayanne#qsmp pomme#qsmp ramon#qsmp sunny
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So many Novel Athy lovers complain about how people hate on Novel Athy because she’s selfish, meanwhile I hate Lee Jihye because she dehumanizes people around her and that skews her perception of others and the situations she’s in, all while inheriting Claude’s tendency of preferring her image of [other people] rather than trying to acknowledge the real [them].
It took her eighteen years to realize she generalizes the people around her as one-dimensional characters instead of human beings (seen passively through how she treats the original cast of LP, and people she sees as mob characters like nameless and faceless nobles and girls she invites to her OWN parties), but she doesn’t dwell on or try to change that part of her, or how she treats them.
#this is why I will always prefer manhwa Athy#because she sees her flaws#acknowledges them#sees how acting on her flaws affects people#and tries to amend that and change for the better#meanwhile novel Athy after this realization encourages Ijekiel to do the princely thing of protecting Jennette#right after realizing Ijekiel wasn’t a pure and perfect prince btw#and then has a birthday party and goes gambling with her dad#Lee Jihye after Ijekiel tells her he’s jealous of Jennette and everyone who has her love:#‘Let’s write to Ijekiel and constantly ask about Jennette!’#‘and then after they’re done with exile I’ll hire him so he’ll constantly be around me’#like hey you are NOT giving this guy a chance to move on and distance from you#especially by sentencing him to do the one thing he’s hated since he was a kid (protecting and being a guardian for Jen)#Lee Jihye put yourself in their POVs for ONCE please#and then Manhwa Athy went to Jennette immediately right when she realized she hadn’t been truthful at all#meets with Jennette and clears and opens up about everything#while also acknowledging it finally within herself all her doubts and insecurities giving herself peace#who made me a princess#wmmap#suddenly became a princess one day#sbapod#wmmap athy#novel Athy#sbapod athy#wmmap novel#lee jihye#syl tea
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[Tuvok & Janeway: Control, Distance, Duty & Connection.] Sources: St Voyager Transcripts / Mitski 'First Love Late Spring' / Disco Elysium
#web weaving#star trek web weaving#st voyager#Kathryn Janeway#Tuvok#be the change you want to see in the world - make a long post about Tuvok & Janeway's similarities <- angel on my shoulder#I feel like a lot of people see them as 'opposites attract' sort of friends where Janeway is unhinged & Tuvok reigns her in#but in reality I think that while there is that element in there (exacerbated HEAVILY by their delta quad circumstances)#what I see most in their relationship is how they both value loyalty and duty above all and are extremely rigid with themselves#and the people around them. How they both have to maintain distance from others bc of their positions as captain & vulcan#I hate when people dismiss Tuvok as not being remotely interested in Maryana or Noss - it erases an interesting struggle that he and Janewa#both share - their desire to stay loyal to their spouses vs the 70 years of loneliness that that loyalty demands of them#But they BOTH triumph and they BOTH remain loyal (Tuvok until he returns to T'Pel and Janeway until Mark informs her that it's over)#and for both of them it's a little bit insane for them to do that.#Isn't it more interesting that Janeway and Tuvok both have feelings for people other than their spouses but don't give in#to that temptation?#They're both people who live very fastidiously by codes. Either written codes or moral codes - they very rarely if ever do things because#it's what THEY want to do. I'd say they're the least emotion-driven members of the crew and yes I'm including Seven because Seven#has a very...how to describe? It's a blunt and insular selfishness. She does what SHE wants to do and doesn't really care about others.#To me that's emotion-driven. Or...personal desire-driven? Not a bad thing at all but very different from Janeway & Tuvok who#are always more 'this is logical' or 'this is for the crew' rarely do they think 'this is what I want' bc they can't afford to#for different reasons (captain & vulcan)#they both also are in the most 'caretaking' positions on the ship from my POV. Security and Captain - both are directly in charge of#ship and crew safety.#Janeway & Tuvok#star trek voyager#st voy#when I say caretaking I'm NOT saying they're everyone's mom and dad or whatever - I'm saying they're in positions where they always#have to think about the greater good and the crew as a whole and how much danger is acceptable etc etc.#Janeway is always killing herself for the crew but Tuvok is right there beside her
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Are you in your 20s? Do you like hxh??
omg hiii can we be mutuals 🥺🫶
#so glad The Teens™️ still love hxh but I am engaging with their content from a respectful distance!!#haven’t been active in this fandom since I was 17 & felt like everyone around me was 23#now I’m 23 and I feel like everyone is 17#obv no shade to 17 year olds!! u guys r doing awesome im just too old to interact w y’all#hunter x hunter#hxh
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Hey, sorry if this was asked before, I was unable to find clarification by just browsing the posts you tagged with Heavy, or looking the word up (great search system, Tumblr, thank you). Could you elaborate on your opinions about Heavy? And, by extension, HeavyMedic, since it's clearly only really a platonic thing in your work.
Which isn't a complaint, to be clear, your work is honestly rather refreshing, considering how often Those Two are just "the couple" in so many fanworks.
i like heavy, we are good friends and im rather fond of him! in addition to being a a valued asset on the battlefield and a good test subject, hes a quite an agreeable and interesting person as well!
i just dont feel anything more than platonic towards him, and i fail to see why this is such a problem! i understand heavymedic is rather popular and it seems some people care about shipping characters more than anything else when it comes to fan interactions. originally when i first saw it i had no problem with it, and even found some of it amusing or endearing in some cases. but over time, well. it stops being endearing very quickly, especially when you can never get a break from it. its a shame too, because heavy is quite fun to draw and id love to draw more interactions between us, but at this point i tend to avoid drawing him or even talking about him altogether because some people sadly do not know how to behave
#to reiterate though#i will not stop or complain about other people from shipping it#i do not care#but do not bring it here.#imagine you have a good friend and everyone likes to ship you with said friend to a religious and obsessive degree#despite the fact that you are not only already in a committed relationship with someone else#but also do not have any sort of romantic feelings towards that friend#eventually it starts to taint even the friendship itself. you may start wanting to distance from that friend so people will leave it alone#unsurprisingly i have received anon hate over something as simple as 'do what you want i just dont want it here'#i digress#there is your answer#now i would prefer if everyone leave me alone about it <3#the doc is in#and no i will not put this in the main tags#teammate mention#theres more but. i dare not say the rest aheh
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I just know some fucked up shit happened to Zach in Iraq
#he’s my best friend he told me himself#it also motivates his s3 arc more#especially with him distancing himself from everyone#zach addy#bones tv#bones 2005
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I am getting sick of all the influencing of booktube, bookstagram, etc.
#and ive been watching some video essays on booktok's influence and its crazy#im trying to distance myself a little from it#maybe I need to start following different people on booktube#the constant push of the same books is starting to make me feel fomo#or that something's wrong with me if not interested in the same authors or books as everyone else#and I hate it#lola's ramblings
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