#it couldve gotten lost so many times

[two-calicos-in-a-trenchcoat]

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I may have checked on the rocks again

0 days without checking the rocks

Anyway 2 of them are super shiny so I took them out early

I cant find any before pictures of the black and grey rock even though I'm positive I took one but whatever

Eeeeeeee so shinyyyyyy

I think the black one is a conglomerate of some sort and thats why the light grey part didn't get shiny. Still turned out good tho

[loopnoid]

No more star trek?

i still love star trek dearly! i wish i could be one of those artists who are just pumping out art all the time like it's nothing, but unfortunately i am quite slow and my drawing energy is limited so i tend to focus my efforts on my newest ideas, which are usually for my latest interests. i haven't necessarily given up on star trek—i still plan on participating in the yearly swimsuit zine however long it runs (i skipped this year's because of burnout and college but i'm doing better now), and i'd love to do some art for lower decks before it ends... but i can't promise anything :( i can barely keep up with new ideas for new interests, so going back to older ones is a little difficult for me, much as i try. i don't like it anymore than you do but it is what it is

[deus-ex-mona]

sometimes i still think about how honeypre (rip) took a hiyori mv and somehow made it aiyuu

[immamapletreekid]

one of my favourites from the hq movie? kuroos laugh and the way u see how hes laughing with his entire body his entire being his entire soul

[popppyfur]

...Im having thoughts and i need a 2nd opinion.

How long ago do we reckon trolls were caught/eaten/found by bergens? (relative to the great escape for simplicity)

lemme walk you through my thoughts...

we dont know how the tunnels got there, did the trolls dig them? or something else? or were they always there?

When did Peppy decide to use the tunnels? when were they discovered?

How many trolls did the bergens eat. surely at first they must have bean eating HEAPS of trolls daily before realised that they would run out. how long was it until then?

It had to have been long enough that they would have then decided to make trollstice (help cant spell) a yearly tradtion. could it at first have been monthly?

We dont know how many pop trolls there were at first. have their number gone down? by how much? since more being eaten means less babies.

How many queens/kings were at the troll tree? Just peppy? his parents? But that raises the question of wether or not any of the escaped trolls remember a time before the bergens.

-- A brand new, different anon.

GOD you reminded me of when i eventually realized how massively fucked the pop trolls were pre 1st movie. i remember trying to read everything i could that talked about it and staying up til 4 am to do it because holy hell they were being eaten on a yearly basis. IM HOLDING UR HAND AND SHAKING IT REALLY HARD. and im gonna answer this as jumbled as i can bc. its me. the professional yapper.

on that note ! all under read more to spare everyones dashboards

also, i havent really gone through actual specific numbers, my brains just settled on some vague decision that the pop trolls dont pass the hundreds, or five hundreds. that is to say, poppy would probably still try to know everyone by name just bc she would lol. so i hope you guys can just make up imaginary numbers of years too !!

we dont know how the tunnels got there, did the trolls dig them? or something else? or were they always there? When did Peppy decide to use the tunnels? when were they discovered?

ive always kinda assumed that the pop trolls dug it themselves! they knew about it long enough that they bothered to leave behind decoys of themselves after all. im assuming its a part of a long, long long list of attempts to escape, and they finished digging just a bit before the last trollstice. peppy wasnt gonna risk losing any more, especially since poppy herself was gonna be given to gristle

How many trolls did the bergens eat. surely at first they must have bean eating HEAPS of trolls daily before realised that they would run out. how long was it until then? It had to have been long enough that they would have then decided to make trollstice (help cant spell) a yearly tradtion. could it at first have been monthly? We dont know how many pop trolls there were at first. have their number gone down? by how much? since more being eaten means less babies.

i lost the damn reddit post so im gonna make my own screenshot instead LOL

from left to right, classical, techno, pop, funk, country, and the red blob under them; rock with a mix of other trolls

so like. THIS FUCKING DEVASTATED MEEEEEEEEEEEE. assuming theres more classical trolls just off screen, the visible sheer difference in numbers from the pop trolls in comparison to the other tribes (FUNK IS AN OUTLIER HUMOR ME) just. genuinely left me a bit speechless.

and if you go back to the first movie and remember that the entirety of their village fit in branch's bunker not to mention the DAMN POT? it just. really puts itself into perspective. bc that stage was still relatively big, but the pot. the fucking pot. the entirety of pop village

ALL of them. in THERE? isnt that crazy? we can say that some escaped, sure. but just the fact that they couldve gotten wiped out just like that is so. messed up to me man ToT

i dont remember which fic i read it from anymore, but there was a line going how the pops initially outnumbered the other tribes and thats how they were ever able to threaten actually overtaking everyone. and like. YEAH SURE. fuck me up even more like that why dont ya!!!!!

so suffice to say, pop troll population not doing so hot! and all your thoughts is just one domino falling after another. you piece together the pieces and ultimately just ending up with one undeniable answer. they got eaten. simple as that.

How many queens/kings were at the troll tree? Just peppy? his parents? But that raises the question of wether or not any of the escaped trolls remember a time before the bergens.

and ur first question, putting them together for one last godawfully long ramble :]

How long ago do we reckon trolls were caught/eaten/found by bergens? (relative to the great escape for simplicity)

the fact that world tour makes it a point to say that only peppy ever knew of the other tribes makes me lean more onto the assumption that its been... a while? but also like. no one's ever mentioned viva? no one remembers the princess who was old enough to fight bergens and mention that to poppy??? whos to say these guys arent just repressing everything as they always do????????? [ITS HARD TO ARGUE SPECULATIONS HERE BC they had to make plot for the movies to make sense!!! its why it feels so mean to me to just blame everything on peppy LMAO. even if that is the easiest way to make sense of it. I WANT NUANCE DAMMIT]

so for the sake of it. i like to think that theyve been under the bergens' capture long enough that everyone outside of the royal family forgot about the time that they were even free from the bergens. long enough that the royal family could rewrite the scrapbooks to make it seem like it wasnt their fault. that it never was. whether to spare themselves the blame, selfish deniability, or just. give up the hope that there was a single minuscule possibility to have help from the outside.

i said before that i headcanonned peppy holding resentment for them in the belief that no one could ever bother to just check. and thats part of the reason why he doesnt even want to attempt getting to know them, since it probably felt like no one EVER cared except for themselves.

again. im sorry that i dont have a specific number for you though ToT the most i can say is that: its long enough that they forgot.

POST ANSWER ASK RAMBLEEEE

heres a fic that made me ugly cry about this! i think it gives really good answers to your questions!!!!!!! and though it doesnt completely fit with whats 'canon' (when has anything ever) its such a horrifying and deliciously good outlook on how the bergens affected the pop trolls as a whole! cant recommend it enough!! please leave the author kudos and love especially if this is your type of jam!!!

more than anything. the realization of how hard the pop trolls' lives mustve even been prior to the first movie made me have so much fucking love for them even more?? T_T even if it is unhealthy to an outside perspective, they tried to stay positive, and they got through all those yearly eatings thanks to it, no wonder they try to stay within that mindset even after everything. sometimes i wonder if they felt like its all they had

[aprilmayverse]

i think february march, despite not knowing any of these people, felt so deeply guilty about everyone june killed and everyone june left to pick up the pieces

inherent tragedy of feeling like you failed your sister, but feeling like you failed her so badly that now all these other people are hurt. she thinks that maybe if she had supported june better, if she knew, if she asked her where she was going that night, if she just did a little bit better then no one wouldve died. no one wouldve felt the pain of losing a loved one that february knew far too well. she doesn't know them, she's never met them, the most she knows is how they died, their names, and maybe a picture of their faces on the news. her mind is a constant echo chamber of "you did this, if you were a better sister, if you raised her better, if you weren't so caught up in your grief, if you didnt keep secrets, then maybe your sister would be alive and maybe that girl wouldntve had to deal with the trauma of being used in a murder without her knowledge and maybe that mother wouldntve lost her children and maybe those people wouldntve lose their sister and maybe all of those kids would still be alive. not one of these people has ever met or even heard of february march but she will spend the rest of her life guilty and apologising and mourning people she did not know. she knows she couldve prevented this and she wishes so badly that she could turn back the clock, do anything, save somebody for once in her life

in february marches mind she has killed so many people she carries a thousand unsaid apologies and everything and everyone haunts her

she wants so badly to just. profusely apologise to everyone she's ever known and after her little sister who she couldve saved who she couldve helped who she couldve supported through her grief brutally ends four lives (two of them being high-school aged kids), after she and her girlfriend (dysnomia was always so kind and february wouldve really wanted to get to know her. she's so sorry. dysnomia will never hear her but she's so sorry.) get shot by the police (she shouldve known what june and dysnomia were doing out there) and then hearing about the child june's age who ended her life at thirteen years old (a child who did something tragic in a moment of grief over an older sibling, a child who shouldve gotten support, that sounds familiar, doesn't it?) as well as parents, teachers, friends, aunts, uncles, sisters, cousins, grandparents, whole communities that are now going to be filled with the same horrific, unbearable pain february constantly drags around. she wishes she could do something, anything. go back in time and save april. go back in time and pour more effort into giving june the support she needs. she just wants to save someone, anyone. the people she fails to save, the people she mourns aren't just people she loved, but also strangers she'll never know

[ffsg0jo]

I ABSOLUTELY AGREE WITH EVERYTHING HERE!

I remember getting to the last chapter and being extremely cringed up by the behavior of everybody, especially of jean and reiner, because they were two of my favorite characters and I felt like they went through so much growth just to be used as comic relief, as if the original creator wanted to ease up the tragedy of the whole finale with those skits, which I... do get could have happened still but ugh... I think that there should have been a better way.

also ahead after this spoilers of the ending of aot!

I stg the whole skit with reiner I was like 'is this the same traumatized man who's constantly trying to quit it?' because like I get that maybe it's to show that it's an 'happy' ending but it doesn't erase simply everything they have gone through. especially I feel like this way of portraying him just deleted any chance of healing.

also for ever annoyed about jean ending with mikasa, not just because of him but also because it ruined the relationship that they had been having which I felt like was very much based on a lot of respect. like I don't think that the mikasa that we saw through the story would have married jean and kept on being stuck on even, like it made 0 sense for me for them to end up together. like I don't get why they couldn't keep the two of them as single.

AND PLS THE HISTORIA ENDING WITH A MAN? when it's implied the whole pregnancy and being used against her own will? I... was like... ma'am... pls blink two times if you are in danger.

I low key remember getting to the final chapter and being all happy because my faves survived but after a bit I was like 'is... is that all we got?'. there were, indeed, so many fan theories which had a WHOLE lot more potential ugh.

(also I agree, levi was the sole one whose ending I enjoyed because it felt fitting; it was a good way to portray the effects of everything he had gone through with having still an happy tone to it, which I think should have been a treatment all the other characters deserved)

alright sorry for the ted talk, I'll see myself out!

have a lovely day!

yes !! i feel like he wanted to create a lighthearted ending but he ended up sacrificing the character development of certain characters and it was just sad to see. they regressed entirely imo. i reread the the last couple of chapters/arc and ik there's a timeskip but they'd been through war and lost so many of their friends and family. wdym they came out unscathed. i agree with what you said it couldve been done in a better way where you can see the progression and healing more.

reiner will forever hurt my heart though like when i saw him sniffing the letter i wanted to bawl. he completely changed, he was a literal shell of a person and i wanted to see his healing more. he was suicidal and had ptsd and it takes time to recover and heal from that, and even then some people never do!

YESSS THANK YOUUU !!! mikasa and jean were very much good friends and had a lot of trust and mutual respect for each other. the only way i can see them getting married is if it's a marriage of convenience for tax benefits or something. i truly don't think mikasa wouldve done that to jean knowing he was a place holder for eren.

i actually wouldnt have minded pieck and jean if i'm being honest. i feel like they would've vibed together and would've gotten along if it wasnt for the whole titan shenanigans.

I WAS SO DISAPPOINTED WHEN HISTORIA ACTUALLY HAD A CHILD WITH A MANN BECAUSE AS YOU SAID EVERYTHING POINTED TO HER BEING FORCED TO CONCIEVE A CHILD. LIKE WITH EREN VISITING HER, THAT WHOLE DISCUSSION, I TRULY THOUGHT HISTORIA GOT PREGNANT AS A PLOT POINT. her being pregnant was just so inconsequential, a useless detail at the end. and all those panels with her and eren ended up being somewhat useless. i read fan theories with better direction, i remember the whole eren is the father thing and wholeheartedly believed that was going to happen, even though i did NOT want it to.

yesss, levi was the only thing done well about the ending and i firmly stand by that. it's exactly as you said i was so happy they all survived and then i thought about it more and thought ...... that was a bit shit.

he is releasing chapter 140 though soo hopefully that clears some things up??? or helps fixes things?? idekkk

[electionfraudking]

Plot twist We Are Teenagers

@electionfraudking

[eggthew]

talking about that one scene in the flash im pissed about

I don't want to explain the whole plot of the flash. and also I haven't finished it yet. but basically barry goes back in time and gets stuck there with his 18 year old self. yikes! a lot of things have changed and he has to work with his past self to fix it (I will be calling his past self PB from now on - for Past Barry). and also barry made sure to recreate the accident that gave him his powers with PB, so PB is newly super human. ALSO barry had lost his powers but in the scene im talking about has just regained them

almost every serious scene is quickly followed up with some sorta joke or gag, but I'm mad specifically at this one

the first part, where PB is altering the batman suit, and also when the two barrys are talking

like. PB is 18, freshman in college, has had an easy life and so far hasnt been taking being a super human seriously. understandable!! I dont blame him! He's been borrowing Barry's suit. and now that barry has his powers back and so needs his suit back, PB is designing himself a new one, and like. They really couldve made this into a more significant moment. The two barrys had not discussed this. This is PB stepping up and being proactive and taking it SERIOUSLY and all that, something he has not done yet.

Ugh I had many points in my head that were so clear but theyve all gotten muddy. about how they couldve done this scene better. whatever. this scene couldve been good but theyre so scared to take themselves seriously. keep in mind that PB just found out that the reason why barry travelled back in time was to try and save his (their) mum from dying and also that he just watch barry basically die

like idk. you can tell this was supposed to be more than PB wanting a new superhero suit and him saying "our colours" was meant to mean something but instead of showing that and how he wants barrys approval and Understands barry now, they gotta make it silly n goofy

[hyunsvngs]

Hey juno I’m just testing if this is reaching you cause I’ve sent soo many different asks and you’ve never answered a single one so I was wondering if something is wrong from my side

i did clear my inbox a while ago bc of having a lot of old asf asks in there that i didn’t really feel up to answering

if ur ask hasnt been answered here’s 3 reasons why this could be:

1. ive said a few times that if an ask doesnt inspire creativity i won’t reply to it bc i can’t exactly force a response so that could be the case with some of urs if u havent seen them answered

2. another situation that couldve happened is i have answered them and then they’ve gotten lost in my blog as i’ve answered others and you may have missed it

3. tumblr couldve eaten them

if you let me know what asks you’ve sent, i can check if i’ve had them

[all-l-wanna-do]

hiii agaainnnn lets ignore the time i sent this <333 gycfdtyfugh

huyguh the secrets part is so fun

YES YES GET BEES

the task abt the gray glass would kill me like thats so mych dye and glass omgg

oh while shes doing the portal, i built this reallyyy pretty portal in one of my hardcore worlds but like its the one that im not rlly playing on rn bc im bad at building so im procrastinating (im trying to turn the village into this cute little city situation and huiuvtfygih)

BHGYU LLAMA HE GOT CAUGHT he rlly shouldve done that when oh idk maybe she wasnt RIGHT IN FRONT OF HER HOUSE

I LOVE CHERRY BLOSSOMS SOO MUCH LIKE THE WAY THOSE PETAL THINGYS FALL UHYGUIHUIUGTFYIUH

AND I WOULD HAVE GOTTEN AWAY WITH IT TOO IF IT WERENT FOR YOU MEDDLING KIDS sorry he said he couldve got away with it i had to

HBVGTY YES MORE MINING OBSIDIAN

omg i hate blaze sm they r mean and they hurt me :(

nono dont go to the nether yall dont have bows and ur in iron hgihu

ggyctfug "if youre feeling passionate abt that" I LOVE HER SM

THEY ARE IN THE NETHER AND I AM SCARED

llamaa jimmy showing up and going through Everyones chests

omg what did she do it????

TGE PIG

yayyyy prizes!!!

CREEPERS

OMG NOT ANOTHER ONE

"a chaos server" chaos goose coven minecraft server

OMG SOMEONE DIED

vghfyugih it Sounded kinda menacing when they said it was 3 against 2 so they should be fine llama

LLAMA THINKING THEY WANTED TO TAKE CLEO

etho kinda seems like trouble lol

"your besties an idiot" 😭

WHY IS EVERYONE TRYONG TO HURT EACH OUTHER WHAT

gbhvuyftgy gems lost so many hearts so fast omg

LLAMA HE JUST REALIZED SHE PUT GLASS IN HIS INVENTORY

MURDER IS BAD

LLAMA THE ENDING 😭

btw im sorry abt my spelling i wanted to do this but forgit abt how i cant rlly type good ewhn im tired/hyper rip

" a chaos goose coven minecraft server" that would be interesting to say the least

I LOVE READING THESE BTW ITS SO FUN

[faunsoda]

sbi ib au w wilbur as mary is a concept i cannot stop thinking abt, like i haven’t touched ib in years and i was more into smaller dynamics in sbi than sbi as a whole, but it makes me so insane. you’re a genius and i adore that au concept. techno as gary is also so much fun, i rlly liked the whole thing. also the art was SO nice, your style is very neat. if you have any more thoughts abt the au as a whole i’d love to hear them, but if not, just know i love the concept so much

WOOO i hear u, my favorite dynamics within sbi are crimeboys and bedrock bros (it really shows in this au) because i am a huge sucker for sibling dynamics. the remake for ib came out for switch recently so the childhood hyperfixation reawakened like a beast

i have so many thoughts in my brain let me drop these bad boys. infodump time.

my idea of a first meeting between techno and tommy! rather than having his rose stolen like garrys, its tommy stumbling in on techno getting cornered by one of the lady paintings. techno probably wouldve gotten out just fine eventually, maybe lost a few petals but tommy distracts the painting so he can escape unharmed! then theyre like 🤝 team up time

please ignore the shitty ooc dialogue everywhere ive just been getting ideas jotted down in my free time hehe. i imagine the dynamic between techno and wilbur in this au being pretty tense! techno is IMMEDIATELY suspicious/wary of wilbur & wilbur wants to leave with tommy, taking technos place. techno doesnt wanna be too protective of tommy because a) this is some kid he just met what does he care b) he doesnt really have any reason to be suspicious about wilbur because hes done literally nothing wrong so far hes just off so techno doesnt trust him

also philza as guertena means he doesnt show up like at all BUT i really liked the theory from a few years ago that part of marys dislike for garry stemmed from garry resembling guertena and her feeling like she’d been abandoned since i cant really imagine she can grasp the complete concept and weight of death. so i did have techno resemble philza a bit here (eg. emerald and stubble that i keep forgetting to draw-) which will probably be unmentioned in stuff i draw for this au because again philza wont show up much. so yeah ooh possible idea that wilbur might resent techno for that a little bit or just be like kind of annoyed by it. idk man im just sitting here.

i also did the three main endings! promise of reunion and together forever were kinda quick because i did not have time to properly draw and color them :,] but i found a neat brush and wanted to draw the forgotten portrait painting because ow. in my original drawings of this au tommy didnt have a green bandana but i decided to give him one as a stand in for the hankerchief ib carries! after all this ill probably do some redraws of moments from the game or try to reimagine the toy box since wilbur is notably not a child like mary is!

yeah hey that was probably like way more information about this au than anyone couldve wanted but B] if you have any thoughts about this au that differ from mine or if you just have thoughts in general id love to hear em! my brain is rotting. thanks for coming to my ted talk (and thank you for the ask, i am new to tumblr so this is my first ask yippee!!)

[miulore]

post the full ranttttt all the ikonics on twitter are acting like he was looking out for hanbin which i get from some of his replies but the one where he’s like he abandoned us and i hated him like was that necessary?? lost all respect for him especially like why are u saying all this when YOU don’t know what a condom is

pointless rant under the cut!

Like YES in terms of hurting ikons reputation in kr hanbin does come no1 but bobby is a close 2nd so idk why he's running his mouth because when it comes to ikons success hanbin is also no1 and bobby no2 so...

I had such a chill California dude image of him on my mind and it was shattered turns out he has such traditional Korean values.... "bad example for future gen" over some weed like ok mr out of wedlock pregnancy.... like ive been defending him since the news broke out clearly idgaf but why are u acting like a puritarian now?!?!?

and to say he felt HATRED and follow it with "STOP THE WAR" now whta did he expect?!?! "i love him” but the way he was talking about him doesn’t sound like that at all

"he abandoned us" lets put our thinking caps on.... if hanbin hadnt been kicked out then what?? ikn 2 yr hiatus?? feel like their relationship wouldve gotten worse than now.... would he have been able to promote w them in kr?? also im still like 60% he was kicked out/ forced to leave

I think they’re still bitter about the whole situation and honestly I get it I feel that there were/is so many things against ikon and that they couldn’t reach their full potential like the fact that yg literally did the bare minimum for them and then as soon as they were getting the spotlight the drug scandal hit. I get it. But like he didn’t have to bring it up again at least for old times sake like they spent so much time together. Is true that this is all going to bring negative light on hanbin yet again like the drug scandal discourse comes up every 6 months

and like yes they also went through a lot when it all went down and honestly i understand why he just broke down or w.e cause apparently ikonics were fighting on his comment section and sending hate to hanbin and apparently there were team b banners at their latest concert for some damn reason and it hurt chanwoos feelings but then he just kept going like dude YOU CANT WRITE STFU he couldve just idk commented "hey dont spread hate were two separate entities now but still care for each other" or some bs like that like hes been a public figure for a decade now.....

also ids are being RABID on twt rn like wtf did he expect like he's never been good w words to begin with

[red-woods]

i was a child when i saw it happen , i was walking down a street i didnt usually , feeling a little scared , a little lost , a little excited be the idea of not doing what i was supposed to , and quickly squashing it down with guilt . i wasnt supposed to do what i wasnt supposed to and if i did i wasnt supposed to like it .

and then i saw something strange , sorry , someone strange . i saw a fly on a wall , call me crazy but id seen them before , their wing was torn up and they had to walk .

i searched in my pockets for something to give them but , was caught in an odd feeling . it was anger . whatever i could give them wouldnt be enough to keep them fed forever , or protect them from the winter , or keep them safe . they were so small and vulnerable , and to so many people inconsequencial , and it made me angry at something deep , and fundamental that i couldnt place , or maybe just the society we lived in . i chalked it up to being angry that my parents would never let me bring a bug inside to take care of them but - it ran deeper than that . it was - cosmic . and it hurt . it hurt really bad .

my pockets were empty , and i felt a sense of guilt , and , i couldve sworn : hunger , and all at the same time : forgiveness ? i wasnt sure what i had to forgive so it confused me .

i saw them fall from the wall , and i rushed over to try and help , in whatever way i thought was possible but : bugs dont have doctors .

but i swear , i saw something come out of them . it was still them , im not sure how i knew but : it , sorry , they : grew , with long spindly , shadowy limbs , they grew hands , they tried growing a face but couldnt really so their face was sort of just blank . they were a child , and they held my hand .

i felt sad .

i said : hey , lets get you some food . and had a twinge of recognition that beforehand , i wouldnt have gotten it for them . i hoped it was because i felt like theyd have moved had i left , but i knew that wasnt it . i couldve carried them with me , and hidden them , and gotten them all the food they had needed . and i felt angry at myself .

we walked to my house , and i felt the need to hide them , because , they werent entirely human . i asked them to wait in the garden , and id get a cloak from a ren fair that could hide them . they didnt know any of those words , none if them were in the bible . i ran inside , tried to ignore the start of one of my mom's infamous hour long rants about some bullshit unrelated to literally anything , found a cloak , and brought it out excitedly along with pants , a shirt , the works .

i stopped .

someone saw them , and was starting to target them with the distinct cadence of someone who had found someone who isnt human , and who they know they can hurt .

i walked over calmly as if i was seeing an old friend , made up a convincing enough name , and said " hey i heard you were trying out your new halloween costume ! i got mine ready , i think your dad is right around the block over there with his costume !

i felt fear deeper than i ever had , i felt small , and weak , and i knew what was going to happen . i could feel it , not entirely , but i winced noticably , i passed it off as a sneeze .

they werent hiding their fear as well as i was because they scrambled to get away from the person , but werent sure where to go . i felt distrustful and scared , especially of the person who had been coming at me , but also of the person who didnt see me as - human ? what was a human - where did the lines blur , if i wasnt human , and humans were the only life they seemed to feel like was worth going out of your way to protect : what was i , did i matter ?

i was shocked at the thoughts id just had and felt very sad and apologetic but understood - the thing id been mad at , the cosmic , unfair thing i couldnt name : wasnt just the way the universe functioned was ingrained inside of me . and i suddenly felt it was something i had to destroy completely , at all costs .

the person with no face fled . i dont blame them honestly , because , i dont want to get into it . and i didnt see them again until later , when it happened .

i saw a circle of people i knew , most of them assholes to be honest , not surprising giving the circumstances . and then i felt it . i doubled over from the pain and screamed , loud . i tried to stand up and crashed into people nearby , some people there tried to help me , but quickly dropped it when others closer to the inside of the circle started regarding me as if i were something , or someone - to poke with a stick .

i felt horror , a fear of the cold dark nothingness , of a universe that genuinely didnt care about me , about flies , about some strange and horrific structure that should mean i would go home safe while someone else didnt . god , there was no way i was going home safe was there . haha oh god ,

i blacked out . when i woke up no one was around me , i think theyd scattered - which , was fair i thought - it looked like the scene of a crime . but - i started to remember that it was . i was lying in a puddle of blood , i coughed , tried to pull myself up from where i was lying , and fell back down but i knew it wasnt my blood , i was going - was i going to be okay ? it - was my blood , oh god i had bruises and cuts all over me - who was myself , who was them , were they with me now ? was one of us going to vanish ? i didnt think so , i wouldnt let that happen . i felt something around my neck , it was a chain . i held it gently , and - it said both of our names , with a symbol .

it looked like the symbol for yen almost , like this ¥ , but not quite . it was more rounded , and had one more line .

we lay there for quite some time . after a while the world stopped spinning , our heads stopped throbbing , we felt good enough to get up , although extremely slowly and gingerly . we limped back to my house clutching our injuries , we had both agreed to go their home and eat a metric fuck ton of every food we werent supposed to , and pass the fuck out in a comfy bed . and we did . we looked at our hands , there was a shadowy one there only we could see , and a body to hide them , we laughed about it , and dumped rotting garbage on the lawns of all who crossed us .

the end ^ w ^

The beast was dead. It took every adventurer in town and many a casualty, but the beast was finally dead. The town was saved - until someone noticed the creature was wearing a collar and a nametag.

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

OHMKYGOSH YES i j read ur sashisu ramble… and i love love love hearing ab other people’s hyperfixations so don’t worry :33

mainly the fact that none of them could be open or vulnerable with each other …. to be honest i havent looked at sashisu very closely before but this hit me bc. I FEEL LIKE I RELATE SM :; like. i have a best friend who i’ve known since i was a baby but we’ve never ever had a serious conversation once… maybe this is unrelated but that is so tragic because to me friendships really struggle to be strong and stable against one another if you can’t ever show the side of you that’s struggling … being vulnerable w one another is key to bonding :’3

i have some thoughts about them— mainly shoko…. to me it kinda seems like she kept them at an arms length away this entire time on purpose and she still does…. maybe i’m spitballing idk i’m just basing it off the fact that satoru and suguru called her shoko but she still referred to them by surname even ‘til where we currently r in the manga (which. i will also ignore but i cant lie the memes were so funny…) but my thinking is that she did so because. even though we never really saw her much i think that’s it since she was a reversed ct user n probably didn’t have much experience fighting… maybe. hear me out just MAYBE she knew what might become of satoru and suguru since they were so enveloped in fighting and being the strongest, and both of them were so headstrong and arrogant for lack of a better term that she might’ve just… tried to keep herself from getting attached n being hurt even more than she already might’ve been simultaneously 😞😞

that still just makes me so so sad though….. they always looked so happy when they were together… maybe if they could’ve gotten suguru to talk and really listened to him for once…. alas ;; gege is an evil thing

U GET IT RIKO…

i feel exactly the same, i have two childhood friends who im very close to but none of us have ever been the type to really be vulnerable like that w each other and !! i absolutely think that strong connections need that, u need to be able to show even ur weaker side… n i guess the tragedy of suguru’s character is that he never felt comfortable showing his ”weak self” to shoko and satoru. T_T he will always make me cry like no other ….

BUT YES SHOKO !!! ur so valid riko. i love this woman so much n i think shes so interesting to talk abt !! ive been thinking abt the name thing too, i feel like its very telling of the sashisu dynamic; the fact that satoru and suguru ONLY (and i mean only) ever referred to each other w their given names, even after suguru’s defection… and how shoko refers to them as ”gojo” and ”geto” even though gojo still calls her shoko…,

i think its super interesting !! i rly rly wish i was able to read the og japanese manga, bc i feel like so many little language details like that get lost in translation (esp since the official jjk translation is kinda bad lol)… i wish we knew if shoko called them by their given names in high school, i want to think so but we just dont know </3

(i could be wrong but there was a translation on a recent chapter i read where shoko switched between ”satoru” and ”gojo”…… obv i dunno how accurate it is but i think itd be cool if we saw her start calling him satoru :’3 im delusional i still think my baby’s coming back)

but !! regardless i def think ur onto smth. i 100% see her as the type to get very detached to the ppl around her. thats why she seems so unbothered !! even tho she obv cares very much…. i think she loved both of them but she wasnt able to broach that gap between them, and after suguru’s defection i absolutely think she repressed herself even more…..

but its obvious that she still cares for them. like how she started smoking again after gojo got sealed / she found out abt kenjaku using geto’s body :((….

and yes i rly do think sugu couldve been saved if they had managed to open up like that <///3 thats what fanfic is for ig :’3… sob…..

[strawberryezpls]

Oh god has my life been a Rollercoaster

I really didnt mean for any of this to happen tbh

Oh its November 5th its 2am. Im here to rant and update on what my lige has been since july 31st. (I can't believe its been that long). Also im doing this on a phone instead of my school laptop so bare with me.

Lets do by month

AUGUST

"august slipped away into a moment of time, cuz it was never mine"

August was starting off great. I dont have covid, im moving and my work besties moved away. But dont worry(one comes back later). Anyways i only remember like 3 specfic days in august tbh(oops) but the first is tge day of the seventeen concert. It was magical i had the time of my life 10/10 would go again. However i cane home at like 11:50, which is a big yikes but didnt get caught. Then theres the day where this guy at my work asked me to cover his shift and then we started talking like all the time. And ppl were suspecting something was going on with us. And there was not in august tho. So it was a cute 2 weeks of flirting acting like we were gonna date. But we didnt :(

September

"You know its not the same as it was"

September, this is the month where we moved to our new place. I share a room only with my sister exciting right? Im pretty sure prince and i had our first kiss in sept or it couldve been august idk. But after the first kiss he told me that were gonna stay friends but i wanted more and that was the first of many times where ill be sad or crying over him(lame ik) but then one day he was like can we hnag after work and i was like ok sure, so i thought he wanted to talk for some odd reason. But we started kissing(and when i tell u my face was like huhhhhhhhhh so this is what its like) and then i lost my v card less than a week later. And hung out with friends a day later :) then we started doing it again afterwe said we wouldnt(well him more than me)

October

"Theres things i want to say to you, but ill just let you live"

I start finding dignity in myself and trying to get over him. I went to a haunted house tho which was fun. Also didn't get caught either. I went to the movies by myself too. I also started to lose a lot of interest in peanut butter. I also missed my period which is crazy bc I still haven't gotten it(we're in November). OOh, and I went to dave busters for the first time which was fun. I also met a new guy his nickname will be bill

Okay now we're in November and I saw him on the first day of November and I'm about to see him again tomorrow.

22.3.23

Things went left SO FAST. 0/10 WOULDNT RECCOMMEND ON GEORGE EASHINGTN GRAVE