#ish kinda I dunno just missed tumblr

[starlit-supposedly]

Anyways, back to being on hiatus until irl stuff is no longer a detriment to simply existing and these projects are done-

These projects are very not done!

Aight peace out-

[danieyells]

It's kinda sad that we don't get a yandere character. Like, I mean, some would make great yanderes (or almost all of them), but for now it feels like barely a tease. Like, I expected subaru to be the yandere-ish one (like kylar from dol), but it ended up being bait and switch.

Yes, I know Towa is right there, but his is more like being the big boss around, there's no stalking and unhealthy obsession.

(IT SENT THE FIRST ONE ANON DON'T WORRY 👍🏾 not spammy at all, I've been on tumblr long enough to know how it is.)

It is but since it's a joseimuke it's not really like. . .a romance focused game/story? So a character who's romantically obsessed with the player might be too idk derailing? So I understand why they wouldn't have one--on the other hand, A3! has Masumi who's kinda yandere afair(may have been toned down? It's been years since i was into a3 and my memory isn't good so) so it's not like it's impossible.

(and obvs it works for DoL because 1. Kylar is dismissable and heavily ignorable and doesn't have a ton of impact as far as main story goes atm, 2. There's a ton of other stuff going on in DoL that a character who's obsessed with you is kind of the least of your worries and wouldn't necessarily do much to impact the plot or setting or the character's mission of survival. The story in TDB is linear, so to actually give a yandere any impact they'd have to be present a fair amount more, at least from my perspective. Then again they could be like. A background yandere, obsessing and collecting information from the shadows and it only comes up the rare times they show up at all, but. . .I dunno.)

I definitely agree a yandere would be nice if only because it's one of my favorite character tropes haha but maybe later on in the story? It's still really early, everyone and the dynamics and the worldbuilding and the relationships and such are still getting introduced, so there's still time for things to develop--and for additional characters to be introduced! (The previously missing Dionysia students are still alive for example! We'll probably meet them at some point.) Never hurts to have a little buildup!

I will note that one of Subaru's expressions is labeled "yandere".

(none of his homescreen dialogues use this expression and the way the actual scenes are coded is different so I can't view expressions in scenes to try and remember if this expression was used anywhere in game haha) it doesn't feel very yandere but it's important to consider that yandere characters are characters whose love is unhealthy and obsessive, not necessarily characters who are stalkerish or violent in their behavior. He actually looks a little regretful to me, as if his unhealthy attachment is something he's aware is bad and he feels stressed out by it--which fits his character, if he does turn out to be yandere in some way, that it'd bother him. It'd also fit with his affinity line about not trying to seem like he's testing you and worrying he's being weird. . .because he knows his internal feelings are quite weird. He's always bottling things up, so he restrains all the yandere lol.

And Towa has some yandere energy, but it's more directed towards Haru than the player lol. He does straight up try and poison Ren with flowers after all. As far as we know he's not obsessive towards him though, so it's just a vibe. You're right in that he is, by his own admission, the boss from his own perspective, especially when it comes to anomalies. He's kind of like if the ~domineering ceo~ type was full of whimsy and silliness lolol.

[kozykricket]

havent been very active on tumblr, for no reason in particular. anyways, as a risk of rain fan, i must clarify my opinions on the SOTS release

i think we can all agree on "the dlc is great content"

but anyways, its clear to me that the devs are people who care and are passionate about ROR as a series and about keeping ror2 going as well. i mean, hopoo and ghor have said as much! and their community manager seems nice i really dont blame the actual DLC team, because like. its always rude to just point fingers at the people who are just doin' darn good work. point fingers at the executive decision makers i think uh, the unification of console and pc code is... well, ill miss the old codebase, but honestly? the fact they've rewritten the games code from the ground up basically... tells me that they're in it for the long-ish haul. that they dont want to just drop ror2. they want to make their own basis that they can cleanly work on and continue this game into its second life of sorts i guess its like a soft reset of development - everythings jank like early access now. but itll get better is the current ror team the best at making decisions for the game? maybe not, but i really dont think they're malicious

its funny though, because the 2 things i was worried about was "oh gearbox is totally gonna mess up the lore with weird inconsistencies and it wont feel right, and they'll add powercreep" but honestly. imma be real, knowing some stuff ghor has said about his intentions behind the lore (shoutouts to Ghor btw, hes done so much for both the lore and the... well, the creation and foundation of risk of rain 2s codebase as a whole. the more i look into ghor, the more i realize he truly is mr ror2) anyways knowing his intentions with certain things, i can say... the Anniversary Update and SOTV actually messed up lore more than SOTS has, lol. the lores well done in SOTV. the non-lore-important logs kinda suck though, they're clearly unfinished. but i think... what they lacked was Time. Time, to complete the clean unification of code ... and for general polish. so i say we give them what randy pitchfork didnt. lets give them time, aight? im not super happy with the idea of a ror2: bedrock edition future, but... i think if the right balancing tweaks are done, then things can look pretty bright. and they do seem to want to listen to the community (though i doubt randy pitchfork wants them to. heck CEOs)

and as for powercreep? lmao we got the opposite, the items are almost too underpowered.

AS for the dlc content, i think seeker is goated. really fun character to play. chef is... undercooked tbh, jank m1. still havent gotten the third survivor, though i know who it is, and seems pretty well done minus the lack of visual and audio feedback / game-feel i think the stages are fantastic, the music is as always banger, and honestly the items are like. really CLOSE to being interesting. like noxious thorn? a green item that plays with debuffs? very cool. but why is it "on taking damage" and. i dunno, instead of adding more stacks of debuffs, i'd make it spread those debuffs to more enemies! knockback fin should be turned into a void of stun grenade if you have both DLCs on, tbh. so yeah, im. cautiously optimistic for the future. dont fall for all of the doomerisms that the youtubers are trying to spread - they're doing that to apply pressure to gearbox, mostly. which is fair, but its also fearmongering kinda. and like actual devs dont seem too concerned for the games future im just hoping that everyone who has been involved with ror2... has a good future. i dont want gearbox to just cut off the ror2 team, and i hope ghor can find whatever he needs

[hollowsart]

I know what you mean by missing the notes boom after getting kind of popular in a fandom. I had a similar experience recently-ish where I switched from one fandom to another and saw a big drop in notes and realized I was kind of idk, bitter about it? And I had to kinda pause, cause it was kind of a wakeup call to how much I'd stopped focusing on making art for my own sake, if that makes sense. Cause like, for me, art was always something I tried to do for my own enjoyment, and I realized that perceived popularity or lack thereof was starting to negatively affect my own enjoyment of my art. I dunno where I'm going with this just I get what you mean. For me taking a step back and just wholesale focusing on stuff I drew for my own sake for a while, even if it wasn't something I posted, really helped! Also side note Acedia and her boyfriends rule, your Beck design is everything to me

thank you, anon.

This was really nice to see when I made that post days ago sdfkjsdhfdfs sorry it took me so long to get to this, but oouugghh.. I'm glad I'm not the only one.

I'm not worrying about numbers and stuff tho, but I do still miss when people would reblog and especially when they'd leave comments or reblog with comments in the tags.. I miss those days on tumblr a lot.

even if the tags were incoherent "kjsdhfkjshd" keysmashing, it still meant a lot to get any reaction <3

times change tho, I suppose.

[ne0nlightzz]

Callin all the writers and readerz on here [cuz im desperate and really need some help/pointers with my story/where to go with the next chapter of my story-]

[also calling all the slenderverse/creepypasta n horror fanz- cuz any help/pointers i can get from ANYONE is really appreciated -]

Mk so ive been writing a Creepypasta X ftm/masc/male!reader story that is meant to be more of a thriller/horror style fic rather than a basic Creepypasta X Reader story and I've been building up suspense and such and have had it paced kinda slow to slow-ish medium [if that makes sense] and i have alot of ideas for it but im not really sure what to do with it for chapter six. Ive been debating if  i want to start working in and introducing more creepypasta characters, make it a bit more quick paced, touch more on the mcs zoning out/dissociation, dreams/visions and paranoia , work in more of the y/n/mcs backstory[including flashback scenes] and so on but im just not really sure where exactly to go with it next- i know im not giving alot to work with but i honestly dunno what i actually have to work with if that makes sense-

any help and/or pointers and such is really appreciated since im not to sure what the hell i should do next or work in first- also it doesn't matter on whether or not ur familiar with 'Xreader' fics or creepypasta as any help from anyone is greatly appreciated n sometimes help from ppl who aren't familiar with the thing ur working on can be pretty helpful as it's an opinion n help that can be less bias if that makes sense!:D

also for those who might want 2 read or check out my mediocre shot at a less cliché n stereotypical creepypasta x ftm/masc!reader here ya gooooo!:DD

Qoutev   ||   Ao3  ||   Wattpad   ||   Tumblr

[[i personally suggest reading on qoutev/ao3 or even tumblr be4 wattpad as wattpad always gets posted to first and i always end up read over and catching mistakes then fixing mistakes before posting to qoutev and ao3 gets the qoutev ver posted rather then the wp. i also dont have all 5 current parts posted to tumblr yet ]

[ i originally wrote this for a qoutev writing group im in and had posted it there like a month or two ago n didn't rly get any help or pointers from any1 n i already missed my November update cuz aside from personal shitz i just never started writing chapter six of this story- [also if at any point it seems like im referring to tumblr, im not, im most likely referin to qoutev lolz]

[isa-ghost]

Isa! Don’t know if you remember me (or if we ever interacted before, memory’s a little fuzzy)

But I miss seeing you on my dash! Hope life is treating you well, and I’m happy to see you still here

Lots of love

/tposes

Life is okay. I have work and stuff but not anything consuming of my every waking minute xD

I took a break from Tumblr for roughly a year-ish because the toxicity was killing me mentally and then I got dragged into Hell by the ankles by like 3 other hyperfixations that I'm still in.

I dunno if I have to clarify that I didn't lose interest in Sean or the community to anyone. And I feel like I kinda have done that without saying it word for word. But in case anyone was unsure or hadn't seen anything suggesting that wasn't the case, I'll just mention it here now. I never left the community and I don't plan to. I still watch every Sean upload that grabs my attention and I still absolutely love everything I'm "known" for on here. xD Egos, being a feral little yelling moron about them and theories, shitposting about them and Sean. All of it. I haven't changed, I've just obtained new interests and new ways to be an absolute shitgoblin during my break.

As long as my dash and my mutuals are alive, so am I >:)

[hollowisthyname]

Hello, Icarus! Please infodump to me about Danganronpa?

okay so! I had written out a whole thing but then tumblr deleted it! so that was fun! /s but now that I know what I'm going to write it's much easier, so that's good 😌

n e ways, I'm gonna do like a basic timeline w explanations and some other stuff that hopefully I'll remember once I start writing!! so let's go :D

a list of everything danganronpa in chronological order (not the order that you should play/watch the stuff in, I'll put that in the explanations)

Danganronpa 3: The End of Hope's Peak High School - Despair Arc (DR3) - second anime, watch along with the Future and Hope arcs after playing the first two games (and UDG if you want to). backstory for the cast of the second game.

Danganronpa: Trigger Happy Havoc (THH) - first main game, play first. also has an anime that's basically the same as the game, but since there's not enough time to put everything from the game into the anime I definitely recommend playing the game. high school students from a prestigious school trapped in said school are forced to play a killing game, hijinks ensue.

Danganronpa Another Episode: Ultra Despair Girls (UDG) - third game, not main. play after playing the first two games. very different game mechanics from the main three, and widely considered not cannon by the fandom. I like it though, and it introduces a lot of really interesting characters along with giving a v underdeveloped character from the first game a lot more character development. it's not necessary to play it (though one of the characters plays a pretty big part in the third anime, so that would make more sense if you already knew her), but I think it's interesting and fun. there are also robot fights.

Danganronpa 2: Goodbye Despair (DR2 or SDR2) - second main game, play after playing the first game. same basic premise as the first game, except it's a different class (same school though) and this time they're on an island. even more hijinks and plot twists than the first game.

Super Danganronpa 2.5: Komaeda Nagito to Sekai no Hakaimono - (I could only find the Japanese title for this one, sorry 😔) kinda also part of the second anime? watch after playing the first two games (and UDG if you want) and watching DR3. character is woken up from a coma via overdramatic and overpowered other character.

Danganronpa 3: The End of Hope's Peak High School - Future and Hope Arcs (DR3) - second anime, watch along with the Despair arc after playing the first two games (and UDG if you want to). aftermath of the first two games.

Danganronpa V3: Killing Harmony (DRV3) - third main game, fourth game in total. I don't actually know when it happens bc they're v secretive about everything, so I'm just putting it last. play last. same premise as the first two, the class is trapped in a school with a courtyard and a huge sort of dome around everything. peak hijinks, too many plot twists to count.

woo!! that's the timeline as I know it, hopefully I didn't miss anything. and I have managed to remember what else I was going to say, so let's move on to section two:

the mechanics of the games

danganronpa is, at its core, a glorified visual novel. every character has a certain amount of sprites for when they talk, as well as voice lines that aren't usually the exact text on the screen but fit the vibe of whatever they're saying. and as I've said before, there's quite a lot of talking. these games have more plot than should really be possible and most or all of it is done through dialogue. cutscenes and class trials are the only parts that are reliably fully voice acted, but there are a lot of those.

as for the parts that are less visual novel-y: you can walk around, and the settings are pretty much as 3d as the 2d-ish style of the game allows. you can also click on things, and sometimes clicking on stuff will get you monocoins, the currency of the game, which means you'll be able to buy presents for the characters!!

"now why do I need presents for the characters?" you ask. well, that's because you're given a certain amount of free time each game to hang out with characters you want to get to know better! the game's ending is fixed, so you won't change the course of the game by who you do or don't hang out with, but you can learn more about characters and become closer to them! giving them presents they like makes them like you more :D

and the most exciting part of danganronpa, what a lot of people play the games for, the true lure of the game.... the class trials!!

so these characters are in a killing game, right? basically, they're faced with a sort of lose-lose predicament: stay trapped in the school forever, or kill one of your classmates to "graduate". but it's not as simple as that, because in order to graduate, you can't be caught. and how do you determine whether or not a criminal has been found out? well, a trial of course!

enter the class trials. every student (barring dead or severely wounded ones) is required to participate in a kind of mock trial- except someone's really dead, and they need to find the murderer or they'll all die too.

(right, did I forget to mention that? only one person can graduate. getting out alive insures that none of your classmates get the luxury of doing the same.)

so, yeah. the class trials are a true fight for life on both sides, because who ever loses will be executed.

and they're really, really fun.

entirely voice acted! enough minigames that the list of them is probably longer than this entire post! the joy of solving the mystery! the... execution, right in front of everyone.

hey, it's a dark game. not like they're trying to hide that. and the executions aren't actually all that gory most of the time, but they're still very much there and onscreen. also as close to fully animated as the games ever get, which is pretty cool.

so how the class trials work is this:

there's a murder. dun dun duuuun. you investigate everywhere related to the murder to get "truth bullets", which are the reason you don't immediately fail at the trials. you don't have to remember all of them, they're all written down in your e-handbook. plus, the protagonists all seem to have really good memories.

time for the actual class trial!! Monokuma (asshole bear running the killing game) introduces everything, explains the rules. and everyone starts talking.

there are a lot of different parts to the class trial, but most of it is "nonstop debates". everyone talks one after the other, and you have to find inconsistencies and shoot the right "weak spot" with the right truth bullet. you refute the lie or mistake and everyone goes back to arguing normally.

there's also hangman's gambit (weird hangman to find a key word), multiple choice things (self-explanatory), and plenty of others.

near the end of the trial (or sometimes only a little over halfway in, it varies), the killer will.... kind of become obvious. there's a specific kind of change in behavior that's the mark of the murderer in these games, but I'm not sure how to describe it exactly. a lot of times there's an accent change, and in general they start acting much more erratic. since it's a trial, though, even after this presents itself you still have to prove your case beyond reasonable doubt.

and once it's become clear to the killer that they're backed into a corner, you have to do the "bullet time battle". it goes by different names in different games, but the basic mechanics are the same: you battle against a student (usually the killer, but not always) in a rhythm-based battle where you have to click to the rhythm to refute your opponent's statements. once you've dealt enough damage, you shoot the final piece of evidence, and that's the end of it.

the murderers react differently different times. sometimes they break down and confess. sometimes they keep denying it. sometimes, they're just calm. however they act, though, the end is the same. they are caught and punished accordingly.

but before that, there's one more thing to do. the closing argument.

your final task is to explain how the murder was committed, from idea to execution (look, a pun! see I can be funny too 😌). and you have to do it... as a manga.

you don't have to draw the whole thing yourself ofc- you just have to fill in the missing panels and then watch as the protagonist narrates it to the rest of the class.

and that's all for the class trial, not counting the long talks after every execution while still in the courtroom.

wow, this is getting...... really, really long. there's only one more thing I'm gonna add, and I promise it will be much shorter than the other two bc it is late and I am officially Incredibly Fucking Tired.

with no further ado, a very short part three:

my general impression of the game. its vibes or smth, I dunno this is just what i think about it

when I first heard of danganronpa, I thought it was a horror game. I can now assure you that it is not. thriller? maybe. debatable. but definitely not horror.

and despite its extremely dark premise, this game is not all doom and gloom. there's so much stuff about hope, and overcoming despair even when it seems impossible... it's not exactly a happy game, but there's a lot more of that in there than you'd probably expect.

all in all, I love this game. so much. it means a lot to me, and I think it's a really good game. thanks for letting me talk about it so much asdhfd :D

[ashdoestheartthing]

jinkies gang, it's an introduction post !!!

hey everyone !!! i'm gonna do a bit of an intro post to this account, cause mainly i'm gonna be posting whatever and i think it needs a little coherence probably!!!

about me

i'm currently in highschool, studying math psychology and english a-levels (brit school thing) !!! i hate it here!

i'm 17, still figuring stuff out, and i go by they/them pronouns but also she/her !!! gender is wack, y'all.

i'm a gemini sun, aquarius moon, ENFP-T, type 7 enneagram, gryffinpuff, chaotic good... and i just really think personality quizzes and stuff are neat.

i'm desi, based in the middle east !!!

i say i'm gay a lot for someone who's bi (pan?? i dunno man) and almost exclusively likes fictional characters that fit the leo valdez™ trope.

i'm 5'8" , which is not relevant information at all but i'm really proud of that fact given desi people are short as heck, so you have to know too.

i'm missing that serotonin juice boyz,,,, hit me up w some of that dopamine,,,, pleas,,,,

i like playing videogames, roleplaying, doing both of those with my friends, my friends in general, my very neat girlfriend and also dogs are pretty funky!!!!! also the color red!!!!!

what i'll be posting about

mainly oc stuff and art challenges honestly !!! i'm in love with all 32 of my ocs and would honestly die for them.

i'm also likely to post art from whatever my current hyperfixation is,,, which changes,,,, a lot.

some constant fandoms i'm likely to post will be pjo/hoo, she-ra, dnd, bojack horseman, butterfly soup... etc.

what mediums i'll be using

tradigital artist babeyyyy!!!!

i honestly like doing traditional art more, more specifically pen lineart and pencil sketches, but digital art looks prettier on post usually so that'll be there too.

i'm not great using layers in digital art so pardon me.

why make a blog?

mainly. because instagram's shadowban fricked me over for absolutely no reason. my instagram is the exact same url as my tumblr, but now i'm here as well cause frick instagram rights man!!!!!! why am i making an art blog in general? man i freaking love art, and heck, even though i kinda wanna do something psych related in the future, i love love love making and creating art and fictional universes and i wanna make sure i keep drawing, even as a side job. this is kinda my headstart at that.

main goals for this blog?

i'd... really really like to hit 1k honestly. i got up to 900 ish on my Instagram but that's deadweight now and i've just always wanted a tiny following man 👉👈 i feel like that'd motivate me to draw instead of lie around all day

i also want to finally get started on my webcomic that has not done much for the past year!!!!

draw and post something at leassst weekly come on brain you can do this.

participate in art challenges man!!!!!

That's all, folks

[purplesurveys]

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Tumblr makes the spacing kinda weird by the end, idk why but I hope it gets better for everyone else who wants to take this haha.

ONE - HI THERE! It’s an intro!

What do most people call you? Robyn. In what month is your birthday? April. What country were you born in? The beautiful but politically miserable Philippines. Do you have siblings? How many, if you do? I do; I have two. I’m the eldest, but they aren’t that far off from me. Who do you live with? I’m still studying so I’m living with family for now – mom and dad, a sister and a brother, and a dog. I really want to move out in the next couple of years though.

Are you in a relationship? Yes. Do you go to school? As I said, yes. I’m in university but I’m supposed to graduate next year. What mood are you in right now? Well, I wrapped up my internship last week and my entire weekend was booked with stuff I did, so now I’m just super glad to be home and bum around after all that hectic-ness. I just had 8 hours of sleep and am feeling pretty well-rested right now. What does your shirt look like? I’m wearing a big-ass gray Knicks sweater that’s like 3 sizes bigger for me. What’s your zodiac sign? Taurus.

TWO - Your Appearance

If you could have plastic surgery on any one body part, what would it be?Boobs. They’re so abnormally small that I’m tired of having to waste what would have been completely bomb outfits just because of my chest.

Are you satisfied with your hair? It could have less baby hair, honestly. But I’m fine with it for the most part.

Do you have a hitchhikers or a straight thumb? It’s a straight thumb. My left pinky is quite crooked though.

What colour are your eyes? Dark brown.

Do you have any tan lines? No, I haven’t gone to the beach in a while.

How old do people usually think you are? I just asked this question to Gabie last week and she said that I look 15.

What about your appearance do you get complimented on the most? Face and my overall figure.

Are you comfortable with your weight? Sure, but it’s always worrisome when I get to the lower 90s.

Do you have any piercings or tattoos? Where? Yeah, just the basic earlobes piercings that my parents got for me when I was a couple of months old.

How tall are you? I am 5′1″ and a half. I’m shorter than 5′2″, that’s for sure.

THREE - True or False

I love winter. Neither true or false as I have never experienced snow. I think I’d love it though.

I have eaten meat in the past five days. True. Filipinos eat meat a lot.

I have painted a room in a house. False. My mom is so controlling over adult things like that so she hired people to do it to all our rooms.

I can whistle. True. I learned pretty early.

My keyboard is black. True-ish? The buttons are black, but the spaces between them are silver.

I have never bought something off an infomercial. True. My mom would be so furious because it would be her money anyway.

I own a snuggie / would like to own a snuggie. False.

I bite my pens / pencils. False. I do bite my straws though.

I wear glasses / contacts. True.

My nails are painted right now. False.

FOUR - Childhood Memories!

What was your all time favourite movie as a kid? THE GAME PLAN, without a shadow of a doubt. Watched that shit everyday through third and fourth grade. My runner-up would be High School Musical.

Do you still have your first pair of shoes somewhere? Doubt it. My mom isn’t big on memories like me.

Did you have anything you always dragged around the house, like a blanket?Nope. I did use my parents’ blanket as a cape some days, and other days it would be a gown train and I’d pretend I was the Queen, but I wouldn’t drag it because it would get dirty.

What toy did you play with the most? I was always into grownup stuff so I always got kitchen appliances, dollhouses, etc. I once had toys that mimicked a pizza restaurant and it had a pizza roller and it was super fun for me haha. Once I got a pretend cash register though it was game over for all these bitches.

Did you ever bring your favourite toys in the bathtub? We didn’t have a bathtub, but yeah we would bring in our toys when we would shower.

Did you used to take baths with siblings/cousins? ^ Ooh, barely missed it. Yes, we did.

Are you still friends with your best friends from long ago? A handful are still my best friends. I keep in touch with most of my batchmates from my high school because we’re all close and we’re family and there was generally very little drama – and if there was, it was easy to let go.

Do your parents ever tell you stories about how cute/silly you were? They have several stories, but I was mostly a quiet kid who didn’t like getting in trouble.

Did you go to the park often? What was a typical outfit for the 5-year-old you?Blouses with a girly pattern, denim jeans, and Nike rubber shoes. The top always has to be tucked in.

FIVE - FAVOURITES

Actor/Actress: Kate Winslet

Singer/Band/Both: Beyonce / Paramore

Chocolate: Reese’s

Toothpaste: ??? Whatever we have at home I guess?

Picture of yourself: Nah man, not doing that here.

Pair of sunglasses: I don’t have a favorite.

Vegetable: Broccoli!

Sandwich: Monte Cristo

Aspect of nature: Waterfalls

Word to say: “Literally”

SIX - Love Life ;)

Who was the first person to ever ask you out? No one’s ever asked me out before. Although I think that dude from one of my classes in sophomore year intended to…but I dunno. We were paired up together for this class and he wanted to spend time with me in a coffee shop after our work was done; I didn’t feel comfortable just being by myself so I told him in advance that I was gonna be bringing Gabie…never heard from him ever again :/

What does your ideal date consist of? Dinner somewhere nice (Italian or Japanese) should be enough for me.

What’s one thing your partner must be able to accept about you? I get sad and I’ll need loooooooong stretches of time alone some days.

Does your ideal person have any special talents? She can paint and draw. She doesn’t really share these with other people but she does with me.

Do your parents like the person you’re with? (Or the last person) My parents liked Mike and were convinced something was happening between us lmao. They don’t know about my relationship with Gabie yet.

Do you like pet names? Yes when it’s just the two of us. Publicly, I control myself, cos I know it annoys me when other people are too showy/vocal. Like I don’t call Gab pet names when we’re out with friends; and when we’re out at the mall or whatever, I’m not very physical other than holding her hand.

What is your age range? Same age. I can’t imagine dating someone younger or older, but then again this is because I haven’t had any other experience.

What is one attribute that your ideal partner must have? Sincerity.

When was the last time someone seriously said “I love you.” to you? This morning.

Have you ever been in more than one relationship at a time? No.

SEVEN - The wonderful world of the Internet!

What is your most used website? Probably Twitter. It’s the first thing I check everyday.

Do you play any online games? Other than playing on Y8 when I was younger, no.

Which chat program do you use most often? Messenger.

Facebook vs Myspace- which is better? I haven’t used Myspace in a hot minute, so I’ll go with Facebook.

Is there someone you met online that you’d like to meet in person? Yes, I’m still waiting to meet Aliyah. Girl is in BGC every single day but I can’t seem to grab lunch or dinner with her!

Have you ever sold something on Ebay or Craigslist? No.

Have you ever gone on Chatroulette? Or Omegle video? Yeah, when I was like 12 and curious about the Internet haha.

Are there any videos of yourself on Youtube? I don’t think so.

Mac or PC? Mac.

Have you ever Googled your name? I’ve Googled my username before, but not my name.

EIGHT - This or That?

Twilight or Harry Potter?

French fries or potato wedges?

Liquid ortape white out?

Digital or film camera?

Nail clippersor nail scissors?

Rock, paper, or scissors?

Beard or mustache?

Knee high or ankle socks?

Hockey or basketball?

Mr Clean or sponge and ‘the other leading cleaning product’?

NINE - Be cool, stay in school!

What subject are/were you best at? It’s always history, or social studies in general.

How old will you be when you graduate high school / how old were you? I was 18 when I graduated.

Isn’t there that point in the year when you stop caring so much? Yep, it’s usually when you’re a senior.

Do/did you have any really cool teachers? In UP? Absolutely. There’s a lot of shitty profs, but the cool ones are way too hardcore.

Who is/was your most strict teacher? Sir Ruel in my old school. Old man was and is such a fucking loser. Once had a comment about my breasts and I never forgot about it. Also kicked me and a bunch of other kids out of his class in fifth grade because we didn’t have crayons. He actually got booted by the school for a year because a parent complained about him, but he came back after.

Where do/did you sit at lunch? In high school, the cafeteria was too crowded so my friend group would hang out in our classroom, since most of us were classmates. Right now, lunch just depends on my schedule and where I happen to be by noon.

What do/did you do at recess? Catch up on homework I skipped the night before.

There’s always that one kid who no one really knows, right? LOL, yes.

Is/was your cafeterias food actually any good? It used to be good. Then they kind of hired this company to start making the meals starting junior year and the food was never as good again.

Do/did you have a stereotypical school, with all those cliques and such? You can say that. We had popular party kids, smart but still cool kids, soccer players, the basketball players who all turned out gay, kids who kinda just hovered in the middle, and those who were kinda brushed to the side were the theatre and anime kids.

TEN - Randomly Platypus.

Do you like your toothbrush really wet when you’re brushing your teeth? Not really wet. I just make sure I’ve put it under the running water before applying the toothpaste.

What song are you currently obsessed with? Not into anything at the moment.

What was the stupidest dare you’ve ever done? I hate dares, so I don’t do them haha.

Do you enjoy playing with tape? No?

What’s one word/phrase you say too much? LITERALLY. Which is a problem because most of the time, the things I associate the word with aren’t literal.

When was the last time you went trick-or-treating? 2017.

What did you last use a knife for? Haha, my orgmates were cooking up lunch and I volunteered to chop up the onions. Fun fact: First time to use a knife, ever.

When you open a pack of gum, why is everyone your best friend? Because gum is always a good idea.

What has been on your mind way too much? Completing my requirements for internship so I can submit them as early as possible.

Did you actually enjoy my survey? Sure. Categories are always fun.

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #163

i’m too tired to think of song lyrics rn.

Do you have a little sister? Yes. The last person you kissed, how many times have you cried in front of them?  In her actual presence, I think once? Over a phone or Skype, like... two or three times. Do you know anyone who has been arrested? Yes. Think a lot before you fall asleep? SO MUCH. It's part of why I struggle to fall asleep. Brain doesn't stop. Ever been the only one trying to fix a relationship? That's the story of my fucking life. Romantically, just once. Are you guilty of flirting too much? Definitely not. Did you ever set up a lemonade stand when you were a kid? No. Does virginity matter to you? Not really anymore, no. So long you gave it up to someone you sincerely loved and were smart about it. Do you know anybody who was abused? A few emotionally. Have you ever bought or sold something on Facebook Marketplace? No. Do you feel uncomfortable sharing drinks with other people? YEAH. The only case in which it does't bother me too much is when I've been a *truly* s/o with you for a while. Like if I'd go beyond just kissing you, it shouldn't be a bit deal to just drink after you. Is there something that happened in your past you hate talking about? Does anyone not, really? Is there a difference between just love and in love? YEAH. Are you good at admitting your problems? Pretty easy for me. How many times have you dated the person you’re with now? Once. Has your cell phone ever rung in class? No. Do you ever feel like just laying down and giving up? Not really anymore!! I get down, but I never have the urge to just give up entirely. Have you ever lied about your age? When I was younger signing up for websites lmao. Lied about your name? No. Do you sit on the mattresses in furniture stores? Sometimes. Are there some topics that you aren’t very open about? Maybe? It depends on the person. Have you ever had an encounter with a very dangerous animal? No. Have you ever fed a wild animal people food? I mean I fed ducks bread as a kid/before I knew it was bad. Would you rather die or eat another human being? Die. Some things aren't worth living after you've done them. Do you wish that animals could talk? Why or why not? YES!!!!!! BOTH SIDES COULD LEARN SO MUCH!!!!!!! AND PEOPLE WOULD CARE ABOUT THEM MORE!!!!!!!!!!!! Who did you last fall asleep with? Sara. Now your cell phone, what color is it? Dark blue. Who were you last in a car with? Nicole. What color was the last vehicle you were in? White. Have you had “the best night of your life”? Eh. Probably not. Toilet papered someones house? I'm an adult. Who was the last person you high-fived? Probably Aubree or Ryder. Or the girl Colleen watches. Do you own a romper? Noooo, not my thing. What does your computer’s slow-loading cursor look like? Blue circle. Would you rather have a trampoline or swimming pool? Pool. What was the name of the first porcelain doll you got? Oh fuck that shit, I was afraid of porcelain dolls and still am. Do you sell any products? If so, what? No. If not, do you want to start a business? Well I wanna be a freelance photographer. Have your parents ever crushed your dreams? No. Do you own anything cheetah print? No. Have you ever made a collage for your bedroom wall? No. Do you make DIY projects and gifts? No. Don't have the motivation. Owls or peacocks? Owls. Lions or horses? Lions. Is your kitchen floor black and white checkered? No. What do you make wishes on? Nothing. What’s the best natural pain reliever? Sleep. Do you like trees? Yeah! What’s your favorite Paramore song? "That's What You Get." What is your favorite color for bridesmaid dresses? LIGHT PINK. Happy and soft colors! Do you think you are pregnant? That's impossible. Do you like the ocean? Yeah. You wouldn't see me deep it there, but I mean, it's cool. Are you too shy to ask someone out? Apparently not. I guess. I asked Juan, Tyler, and Sara, BUT only because I knew they liked me. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute? YES I FEEL SAFE AND LOVED AND IT'S JUST CUTE!!!!!! Is there a high chance of you going out to the movies soon? Dad and I may go see another soon-ish, but I doubt it. We both think The Meg looks good. What are you listening to? I swear I go back to binge "Cool Patrol" by NSP like every other month. Have you ever dated someone longer than a year? Once, and I can pretty much guarantee this one's gonna hit that mark. Would you be able to climb out your bedroom window to sneak out? If I could open the damn thing. Can you taste the difference between brand name food and store brand food? Sometimes. Would you be embarrassed to buy pads/tampons/condoms? Which one more? No. Do you still own a VCR? No. Have you ever purchased Girl Scout cookies? Yeah. Do you own a nightgown? No. Who is one rapper that just always tends to get on your nerves? Why? I can't stand Kanye, because y'know, he's a god-complexed dick. Has anyone ever made you breakfast in bed? Were they trying to suck up? No. When will be the next time you’ll get a shot? What is this shot anyway? I'unno. When will you next eat tacos? Do you even like tacos, or not so much? I hate tacos. Do you know anyone who is pregnant? One of my very best high school friends recently revealed she is and I am soooo fucking excited for her. Would you or have you ever engaged in casual sex? If we were both single there is one (1) person I probably would fuck I hate myself like a lot and I am a hypocrite. What’s your favorite thing about spring? Just the flowers. And that's it. Have you ever tried belly dancing? If so, did you like it? No, & that would be a blinding display. Were you a part of any clique in high school? Kinda? The goths, emos, metalheads, and scenes all kinda. Naturally came together. Most knew everyone's names and we kinda had this unspoken bond with all the others. We always sat together at lunch. Have you ever given blood? Yeah. I'd actually like to do it again, I think, with me drinking a good amount of water now. Do you like the way you grew up? The only thing I'd change is I wish chores were more firmly enforced. I don't do them enough, and I'm approaching 23. Would you prefer to read or write poetry? Write. If you were to have a child, what would the last name be? Well, mine? But once married I'd definitely get it changed to Sara's. I will not doom her with mine lmao. Are you currently working? And if so do you like your job? No. Have you ever walked out on a job or just not showed up? No. Have you told your parents all of your secrets from when you were a teen? No. Would you rather be able to fly or walk on water? Fly. What’s the best club you’ve ever been to? Never been to one. Which sport are you the best at playing? I wasn't bad at basketball last I played. Do you know anyone who has gotten pregnant despite using contraception? Probably. Are you planning on buying a house in the near future? Not the very recent future. A house/apartment will probably be rented first. What was your favorite family vacation you went on as a kid? Disney World. What's something about you that others might find unpleasant or off-putting? I'm hard to get to know due to me fearing judgment. I can be very defensive if you push me to talk about some things. Have you ever kissed someone with a beard? Jason had more of a goatee sometimes. When you were younger, did you believe in Santa?  Yeah. Are you going to make your kids believe in Santa? I don't want kids. If I did however, I probably would. Have you ever made your own calendar? No. What foreign language did you take in high school? One semester of Latin, German for four semesters. Do your parents have gray hair? Yeah. What's your favorite Katy Perry song? Uhhhhh I guess "E.T." What was the last thing you did that made you feel proud of yourself? I haven't acted on it yet, but I made the decision that I would make a sincere effort to fight AvPD and be way more open about myself. What was the last significant and great thing that happened in your life? Met Sara. What is your favorite Starbucks' drink? I don't go there. Who are your last 3 missed calls from? Vocational rehab, Mom, Colleen. Do you like Skittles? Yesssss. Do you blow dry your hair? No. How do you like your eggs? Fertilized by Mark Fischfuck goddammit What song is the catchiest song you know? Hmmm. I suppose maybe "Bad Romance," because I can enjoy like, ANY cover, as well as the original. What is your greatest life accomplishment? Healing. Who is the last person you left a voicemail for? VR. Which is better: the Twilight book, or the Twilight movie? I haven't read any, never watched any. Do you enjoy crossword puzzles? Yes. Do you own any records? No. I wish. Something I'd love to collect. Who was the last guy you called? Dad, probably. You can only listen to THREE CDs for the rest of your life. What are they? "Black Rain" by Ozzy Osbourne, "Black Album" by Metallica, and "The Ascension" by Otep. What is the most unique or uncommon thing about you? Uh I dunno. I guess having blue eyes??? Idk. What happened the last time you were in a fight with someone? I cut her ass out and ignored her. Have you ever been in a physical fight? Who started it? No. What is your favorite type of kiss/way of kissing? Hardcore making out. Favorite form of affection in general/not sexual/etc? Hand holding. Or tight hugs. What do you think about anime? They have some of the most interesting stories, tbh. Who is the last person you unfollowed on Tumblr, and why did you do this? Someone whose posting content changed and I didn't enjoy, probably. What are some upcoming concerts in your town/city? The only one I know of and care about is Metallica in January. Is there any type of medicine you can’t take? For what reason? Not that I know of. Would you rather have potato or chicken noodle soup if you had to? Never had potato, but I don't think I'd like it, so. I don't really like chicken noodle, either. If something on your body hurts, which part is it most likely to be? My damn knees. Is Russian or Native American history more interesting to you? Native American. Have you ever put gum on the bottom of your desk/chair? I'm not an animal. Would you rather go to the movies, drive-in, or stay at home and watch a movie? Go to the movies. Would you ever be a race-car driver? No. What kind of deodorant do you use? Secret. Have you ever wished you were born the opposite sex? No. What was the last thing you spent a lot of time thinking about? I'm not sure. What do you think about astrology/the zodiac? If you used to believe/not believe in it, what changed your mind? It's absolute bullshit. What is one conspiracy you believe in? Or one you think is total crap? You literally cannot convince me 9/11 wasn't orchestrated by the government. Stupid one, lizard people. Where was the last place you didn’t want to go but had to anyway? Urgent care. When was the last time you yelled/screamed and why? I dunno. What was the last big decision you made? Do you think you made the right choice? Permanently, absolutely, kick Colleen out of my life. I know it was the right choice. What Hogwarts house are you in? What do you think about the “stereotypes” regarding your house? I took a quiz out of boredom before, and I got Hufflepuff, very closely followed by Gryffindor. However, some questions were hard for me, as I know pretty much nothing about the series. So, don't know stereotypes either. What is something you want to do, but you don’t think you’ll ever be able to? Skydive. Don't have the guts. When was the last time you left somewhere for forever (or at least don’t plan on returning)? Ha, mental hospital. What was the last thing you quit? Meat. Do you like to help people? How about animals? Which would you rather help, if it applies? Duh!! And I dunno, really. I see us as equal. I don't really know which I'd go to first if both were in a crisis or something. As an adult, what is the most and least you’ve weighed? I don't even want to say what I weighed at the end of '16. The least was ~120, what I'm desperately trying to get back to. @_@ What is something you like that no one else you know likes too? *shrugs* What is something you don’t like that everyone seems to like? Mexican food came to mind. Do you follow a particular diet/meal-plan/ethic? Currently I do a 16-hour fast every day and then I'm also a vegetarian. What is a subject you tend to avoid with other people, for whatever reason? Politics. What is the longest (or most involved) thing you’ve ever written? Well, RP. You put all the shit I've written together, and it'd probably be longer than the Bible lmao. Do you prefer to live with others or by yourself? Why is this? OTHERS. I GET LONELY. What scares you about getting older? Feeling the physical effects. What about something you’ve done that sounds too wild to believe? I don't think anything, really. What was the last thing someone made fun of you for? I don't know. Do you have a member of the opposite sex you’ve told everything to? Jason knew everything at the time we were together. What color hair do you find sexiest on the opposite gender? I like unnaturally colored hair most, so... but for "normal" colors, black. Who last slept in your bed besides you? Sara. If the last person you had sex with asked you to date them, would you? I would *actually* kick him in the dick if he had the audacity. If you could see any musician live, front row, who would you choose? Metallica with Mom. What is your favorite social networking site? Facebook for the sake of keeping up with people, Tumblr for entertainment purposes. Has anyone in your family fought in any of the wars? No. Has a stray dog ever tried to bite you? No. Are you normally a person to tell people off? Deeefinitely not. Do you even wear any jeans other than skinny anymore? I don't wear jeans anymore period. What did you talk about at lunch today with your friends? I'm not in school. Are you sensitive to caffeine? Nope. How do you usually get around? Mom drives me. Have you ever been accused of being too clingy? No, even though I know I'm very clingy. Do you like vitamin water? I've never tried it. Do you think too little or too much? Waaaay too much. Would you rather vacation by a beach or a lake? Lake. Do you ever keep arguing when you know you’re wrong? It can make me feel embarrassed, but in most cases, I'm quick to drop it. Would your mom care if she found condoms in your room? She'd be confused as fuck considering she knows I'm not with a guy. Are you ticklish? Ugh yes. What do you think of dating websites? They work for some people, but, in general, I don't think they're the greatest idea when you consider how many desperate people there are. Now yes, there's most certainly sincere ones, but. I think you'd have to do some fishing to find the right person. Which show is better: SpongeBob Squarepants or The Fairly Odd Parents? Duuuude the latter. Show was dope my dude. Think you could cut off your own foot if it meant saving your leg? To save my leg, I think so. Well... I dunno, I guess it depends on the situation. I'd be concerned about blood loss. What is the worst thing about having a pet? Knowing they'll die. Have you ever actually seen someone fall on a banana peel? No. Do moths freak you out? They're absolutely beautiful to me, but at the same time, the size of their eyes are a liiittle bit creepy. Did you ever cut your own hair when you were little? No. What is your favorite fruit? Strawberries. Who last messaged you on Facebook? Bethany to let me know when the new wedding date was. Have you ever had surgery or stitches? Both twice. Do you own any clothing that has animal print? No. Does your family eat dinner together? Almost always. What was the last video game you played? Silent Hill 3. Have you ever touched a shark? No. Do you prefer writing in print or cursive? I write mostly in cursive. Do you have any family traditions? Like what? Not that we still do. What is the best time you’ve ever had with your family? I'm not positive. Maybe some summer days when we'd all be swimming and cooking out together. What’s the scariest experience you’ve ever had? The night of the breakup. No overdose or panic attack or anything was scarier than when I realized he was leaving. What’s your favorite computer game? World Of Warcraft kms. What’s the biggest mistake people make on the first date? Just my personal opinion, but some people get sexual way too fast. If you're looking for an actual, long-lasting relationship, you have to connect more emotionally. Do you get turned on easily? It depends on who you are, definitely. Some people can't do anything, yet another person can do the same thing and I'm turned on in an instant. Do you still like to color? Not especially. What’s your favorite children’s show? Pokemon. Would you ever get band artwork tattooed on you? Metallica has some badass designs, but I don't know. Eh, actually, that may be something I'd get whenever my mom passes away considering her quote, "All I need in life are my babies and Metallica," and I think she means it lmao. No one loves them more than this woman. Is there someone you liked so much and nothing ever happened? The biggest crush I had that didn't go anywhere was on Sebastian in high school, but I don't know about "so much?" Like I wasn't desperate to be together. Has the last person you kissed met your family? My mom, Dad, and Nicole. Hopefully Ashley and the kids if her husband doesn't wanna be a homophobic shit. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? Just my dad. What is the one thing you remember most about January of last year? I was in the worst state of my life. Approaching my suicide attempt, so I was having the thoughts badly by that point. How do you think you will look 3 years from now? I better be a skinny legend with bomb-ass hair and more tats, boo. What would be number one on your bucket list? Touch a wild meerkat. Probably a pup above all. How old do you think you’ll be when you make your will? I dunno. Do you get any of your songs from Limewire? Lol how old is this??? I used to. Do you call anybody ‘baby’? Literally all my pets and Sara. Where is the fanciest place you have ever visited? Uhhhh I guess somewhere in Disney World??? Are your parents night owls or morning birds? I guess the latter is more accurate. Where did you buy the shirt you’re wearing now? Somewhere online. I found it on Facebook, don't recall the site it led to. Are you easy to get along with? I think and hope so. I'm very accepting. What do you usually do right when you wake up? Check the time. What’s your biggest passion? SPREADING POSITIVITY!!!!! Have you ever thrown your phone in anger? I believe I might have once when Jason and I were arguing?? If I did, it definitely wasn't that hard. I have a vague memory of throwing in onto the carpeted floor.

[pindaleng]

All of the 70 asks thanks :-)

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

It’s dece! 

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to?

With all three words? And not “lurv” or “luv”? And in person and not text? Yikes idk maybe my mum

03: Do you regret anything?

Regret is a strong word for all the little things that haunt my mind example responding to someone’s “nice to meet you” with “oh haha… um you too” with a slowly fading voice

04: Are you insecure?

aRe YOu INsEcurE¿ No what gave you that idea

05: What is your relationship status?

Single and ready to be alone forever

06: How do you want to die?

Preferably shot while shielding someone with my body and then bleeding out in their arms while they tearfully say wow ur heavier than u look.

07: What did you last eat?

Yummy Lindt truffle cappuccino flavored *heart eyes*

08: Played any sports?

Ooo dabbled in lots! Basketball, swimming, tennis, karate (is that a sport?), volleyball, and football

09: Do you bite your nails?

Nah but once I tried to before my piano lesson to trim them by biting right before my piano lesson so my teacher wouldn’t admonish me for my long nails

10: When was your last physical fight?

I punched a kid in the arm for beating me in Mario Kart once but she didn’t punch back so don’t think it counts as a fight but like literally my closest thing

11: Do you like someone?

Like a million celebrities

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours?

Lmao no I can barely stay up like five before needing a nap

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment?

Stable genius

14: Do you miss someone?

My frandssssss

15: Have any pets?

No :

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?

Shleepy and stressed

17: Ever made out in the bathroom?

Shucks no but all the fics make it sound amazing

18: Are you scared of spiders?

Irrationally yes but like calmly I can respect their space if they don’t crawl on me or touch my food

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

I’d go back and tell past self to watch vine while it’s happening so you’re not left out of all the references in the future

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone?

Their house haha lmao lol

21: What are your plans for this weekend?

Move back to school and mebbe go to a sports game

22: Do you want to have kids? How many?

Idk cuz like it’d be cool to raise a tiny human but also RAISING A TINY HUMAN ASDJFKL; But if I do, at least two cuz sibs I think sibs r gr8

23: Do you have piercings? How many?

7 ;) jk only two, one on each ear

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)?

Math on my good days! Physics in high school but then college happened and that flew away like a sparrowhawk

25: Do you miss anyone from your past?

Many! Talking to the master of holding on to things here

26: What are you craving right now?

Affection. But will take pizza as consolation prize

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

Definitely

28: Have you ever been cheated on?

Don’t think so!

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?

Um probably not but who rly knows

30: What’s irritating you right now?

@Michael what do you want from me

31: Does somebody love you?

What really is love

32: What is your favourite color?

Red. Like blood

33: Do you have trust issues?

Answered in previous ask but if you need a reminder the answer is woohoo yes! :)

34: Who/what was your last dream about?

Sophie Cookson don’t wanna talk bout it

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of?

@blackdowning Yikes that was embarrassing sorry

36: Do you give out second chances too easily?

Nope most of the time people deserve second chances and third and fourth and fifth and

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget?

Definitely forgive I can remember stuff for five centuries for every single transgression made towards me don’t wrong me I’ll bring it up on your deathbed 

38: Is this year the best year of your life?

It’s only been like eight days calm down don’t pressure me

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss?

Big ol two - oh

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked?

Yikes nope

51: Favourite food?

Sushi! Could eat that ish foreverrrr

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

Maybe some things but not everything? Like was there a reason I dropped my phone trying to take something off the shelf? Yes and that reason was clumsiness.

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?

Go on tumblr

54: Is cheating ever okay?

Idk I have a daydream/headcannon that there’s this one spy that has to for the sake of national security so good for the country but kinda messes up the family yikes

55: Are you mean?

I think I’m pretty average yeah

56: How many people have you fist fought?

None :(

57: Do you believe in true love?

Yessssss

58: Favourite weather?

Sweater weather! Or non-sweaty tshirt/shorts weather

59: Do you like the snow?

Fresh snow omg yes sign me up

60: Do you wanna get married?

I think so? Tax benefits pls

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?

Um dunno since it hasn’t happened. I do like pet names tho so idk.

62: What makes you happy?

Other people being happy!

63: Would you change your name?

Umm maybe if it’s super cool but I’m also v attached to my name

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?

Yikes yes

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

Stab them and yell what’s wrong with you. But actually probably just pretend I don’t know until I can’t and then get real stressed and maybe cry. Wait, do I like them back? Cuz that would change things. Also wait is this current bff of op sex cuz hahahahahhahahahahahahah refer to first statement.

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?

Pretty close I’d say! But like what really is my complete self yk

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?

In person? My dad

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Um my friend Alex!

69: Do you believe in soulmates?

Yep

70: Is there anyone you would die for?

Lotz of people! Not a huge selection barrier

Asky me thingys

[bookofmirth]

Questions tag

I was tagged by @its-perfectly-abnormal thanks! (Also I’m sure I’ve missed completing other things I’m tagged in, I suck sometimes, sorry.) I think I’ve done this before but it’s been ages.

Rules: Tag 10 of your followers you’d like to get to know better.

Name: Leslie (or Lesile, as the barista wrote my name on my coffee today???)

Nickname(s): I don’t think I really have any.

Gender: Female

Star Sign: Scorpio

Height: 5′8″

Sexuality: Bisexual/pansexual (IE not-strictly-into-masculine-dudes-sexual) (I thought for a hot minute I might be a lesbian til these two guys came to a meeting I was in a couple of weeks ago and I was like oh... nvm.) (I like to overshare.)

Hogwarts House: Ravenclaw! (And also kinda Slytherin)

Favorite animal: Red pandas. Normal pandas. All pandas.

Average hours of sleep: Probably 8-ish. I have to get more than 7 or I’m an asshole.

Current Time: 7:50pm

Dog or cat person: Kitty cats

Blankets you sleep with: 3, sometimes less. I just like the weight of them on me, feeling like I am all cozy and snuggly.

Dream Trip: I dunno. I want to go to Ireland or la France. I’m going to London next month. :D

Dream Job: Tenured professor, aka the velvet handcuffs as my boss recently called it.

When I made my blog: I think it was in 2016, but I didn’t start posting til January-ish of this year (2017).

Followers: Around 1,900

Why I made my Tumblr account: So I could post book reviews, and then I actually started participating so I could cry with people about Empire of Storms.

I’m going to tag @my-name-is-fireheart @rayonfrozenwings @aqueentorattlestars @ashryverblue @study-read-repeat @squaddreamcourt @escapingtheconstrictingboxes @illyrianrhys and @birdiethebibliophile (if you’ve done this recently, feel free to ignore)

[darhwolf]

All the nerd asks

1. selfieWill post this afterwards

2. what would you name your future kids?Do not know at all

3. do you miss anyone?Yeah

4. what are you looking forward to?Markiplier visiting Seattle

5. is there anyone who can always make you smile?Markiplier

6. is it hard for you to get over someone?Depends

7. what was your life like last year?Great-ish. Still fucking hated myself, but I wasn’t trying to die

8. have you ever cried because you were so annoyed?Yup

9. who did you last see in person?My dad

10. are you good at hiding your feelings?Sometimes

11. are you listening to music right now?Yup

12. what is something you want right now?A god damn hour long hug

13. how do you feel right now?Sick, tired, and like shit

14. when was the last time someone of the opposite sex hugged you?A long ads time ago. I don’t remember

15. personality descriptionCaring, mom friend

16. have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you didn’t?Yes, yes, a hundred fucking times yes.

17. opinion on insecurities.I have a lot of them

18. do you miss how thing were a year ago?Kinda?

19. have you ever been to New York?Yes

20. what is your favourite song at the moment?Nope

21. age and birthday?17, March 30th

22. description of crush.I don’t have one

23. fear(s)Losing people I care about

24. height6'1

25. role modelMarkimoo

26. idol(s)Markmimoo

27. things i hateFeeling like shit :P

28. i’ll love you if…I guess just being a friend? Also making the first move cuz I can’t for the life of me

29. favourite film(s)Deadpool, Finding Nemo, Spirited away, Princess Mononoke

30. favourite tv show(s)Game of Thrones, Walking Dead, RWBY (although it’s technically not a TV show cuz it’s not on TV)

31. 3 random factsAbout anything?1. The Indian Women national cricket team is also known as “Women in Blue”2. Seagulls can drink salt water; the salt is absorbed by glands above their eyes3. The US postal service delivers 20 billion packages and envelopes during the holidays

32. are your friends mainly girls or guys?Girls

33. something you want to learnHow to not hate myself

34. most embarrassing momentNearly getting caught masturbating by my brother. Hasn’t happened since because I’ve been smarter about it

35. favourite subjectPsychology

36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill?Hopefully meeting markimoo and getting something signed by him at his tour in Seattle in January

37. favourite actor/actressKit Harington or Maisie Williams

38. favourite comedian(s)Jim Gaffigan

39. favourite sport(s)Baseball

40. favourite memoryI don’t have one really?

41. relationship statusSingle

42. favourite book(s)Everything by Rick Riordan except the Kane chronicles, and the Harry Potter series

43. favourite song everWhat a Wonderful World

44. age you get mistaken forNone? I dunno

45. how you found out about your idolI watched Youtube

46. what my last text message says“Anyways, I’m heading to bed. I probably won’t see you tomorrow so see you on Wednesday. G'night Kylie, don’t die” ( @lev-5)

47. turn onsCheesy as shit, but: genuinely caring about me, the feeling of s/o “wanting it” and passion~

48. turn offsCrying, forcing somebody to do something, not enjoying it

49. where i want to be right nowAnywhere but school lol

50. favourite picture of your idolWill post afterwards

51. starsignAquarius

52. something i’m talented atVideo games, being the mom friend

53. 5 things that make me happy1. Markimoo2. Chica3. Being the mom friend4. Tyler Schied5. Ethan Nestor-Darling6 (bonus). Every single other person from Team Markiplier

54. something thats worrying me at the momentThe fact that i kinda hate myself

55. tumblr friendsThat are ONLY on Tumblr? Well, I don’t talk to them a whole lot but they are friends @annoyinglyoptimisticbread@queereindeer6667@gerards-slutty-jacket

56. favourite food(s)Pizza and chocolate

57. favourite animal(s)Dogs, dogs, cats, and probably dogs

58. description of my best friendShe’s really fucking pretty, understanding, kind, and I know that whatever shit I come to her with she’ll help me. She has a Tumblr and her url is @annoyinglyoptimisticbread

59. why i joined tumblrOriginally to anonymously with a person

60. ask me anything you wantOk

[the-dreamers-boy]

I was tagged by @smallsapphling !! Rules: Answer these statements and tag 20 people

Tagging: @dubbedsirens and @awesomegayurl (Y'all don’t have to do this if you don’t want to! Any of my mutuals are free to do this, just put me as the person who tagged you!!)

THE LAST:

1. Drink: Milk

2. Phone call: My dad

3. Text message: “I may have lost my glasses” to Michael I found them

4. Song you listened to: “Burn” I love Phillipa

5. Time you cried: finding out one of the “Dream Daddys” is trans

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: nope

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: never kissed anyone 😅

8. Been cheated on: Nope (:

9. Lost someone special: Kinda-ish

10. Been depressed: Atleast since 5th grade

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: No way

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12. Pink

13. Dark Blue

14. Green

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: Yeah!!

16. Fallen out of love: Does friend love count bc hooo boy

17. Laughed until you cried: Any conversation I’ve ever had with Kat and Sophia that’s gotten funny

18. Found out someone was talking about you: Sadly yes

19. Met someone who changed you: i’ve changed a lot over the years, and i find it difficult to attribute that change to a single person or even a group of people

20. Found out who your friends are: I think so yeah

21. Kissed a mutual? Nada

GENERAL

22. How many mutuals do you know in real life: @for-the-life-ofme (my best friend!) @smallsapphling (my qpp!) @morriha (a super nifty kiddo)

23. Do you have any pets: yep! Two cats: Boots, an orange tabby, Mittens, a a shy creature that has recently decided she liked me and a dog Lance, a hyper active husky/yellow lab mix

24. Do you want to change your name: Adam 😜

25. What did you do for your last birthday: I had Kat and Sophia over for dinner/sleep over and watched the fuckin anime with the nb character and all the dudes which name escapes me atm

26. What time did you wake up: 11:22 bc I finally found proper sleep for like the first time in months??

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: Watching YouTube

28. Name something you can’t wait to get: Long term- an apartment w my qpp @smallsapphling , legal name change, and top surgery/testosterone

29. When was the last time you saw your Mom: like two minutes ago

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: besides the obvious (gender and money), i want a drive. I want something to look forward to, something to research, something to fall in love with (Kat’s answer again really speaks to me)

31. What are you listening to right now: As of this second nothing (surprisingly(

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: I dunno, probably??

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: not feelin this whole societal concept of gender (Kat’s answer is again perfect)

34. Most visited website: youtube an’ Tumblr bc why not depression blog

35. Mole/s: occasional spots but not a whole lot

36. Mark/s: faint thin scars on my arms/thighs/calves, scraped knees, a small scar on my mouth, a rubber burn on my calf bc a kid hit me with a bike, and a huge surgery scar on my hip

37. Childhood dream: I wanted to be a vet

38. Hair color: light brown/blonde, Lowkey platinum highlights???? Redish part from previous dyeing

39. Long or short hair: Short (:

40. Do you have a crush on someone?: besides celebrities, unattainable characters, and my Boyfriend? Nope

41. What do you like about yourself: there’s something probably

42. Piercings: I have pierced ears, four in each

43. Blood type: *shrug*

44. Nicknames: technically Adam is a nickname I guess

45. Relationship status: @deathdippedinroses and my qpp @smallsapphling

46. Zodiac: Aquarius

47. Pronouns: he/him

48. Favorite TV show(s): vld, atla, CM, and possibly htawm

49. Tattoos: none right now

50. Right or left hand: Right handed

51. Surgery: I’ve had atleast 6/7

52. Hair dyed a different color: Rebellion I dyed it red and soon pink

53. Sports: I don’t play anymore

54. Vacation: Mexico, Australia, Bahamas, various states and other Spanish speaking countries

55. Shoes: Summer I prefer to go without. When I have to wear shoes I have converse, vans, and various sandals (and sketchers as my work shoes)

56. Eating: The last thing I ate was bad homemade ravioli

57. Drinking: I hope to God I never drink heavily

58. I’m about to: Pack for Arizona!!!!

59. Waiting for: *Repunzel voice* my life beginnnnnnn

60. Want: To escape my mother

61. Get married: Possibly?? Like who knows man

62. Career: Tbh I just wanna live through highschool rn, that’s as far as I’ve looked as to a future

WHICH IS BETTER:

63. Hugs or kisses: Hugs!!

64. Lips or eyes: Both are good

65. Shorter or taller: I’m tall in comparison to average but also the shortest in my family (5 foot 10ish)

66. Older or younger: what does this mean though, like dating wise? Friendship wise? How I act? How I look?

67. Nice arms or nice stomach: Man I love people

68. Sensitive or loud: I range from never stop yelling to haven’t spoken ever depending on anxiety levels

69. Hook up or relationship: Relationship baby

70. Troublemaker or hesitant: @smallsapphling is my impuls control @for-the-life-ofme is also pretty good at keeping me grounded but without them I pierce my ears and probably would shave my head and call my mother’s husband a racist homophobic douch canoe

HAVE YOU EVER:

71. Kissed a stranger: Nope!!

72. Drank hard liquor: No.

73. Lost glasses/contact lenses: I miss place them a lot but never lose

74. Turned someone down: Nope

75. Sex on first date: probably not

76. Broken someone’s heart: i’m unsure if i have, but possibly

77. Had your heart broken: yeah

78. Been arrested: No

79. Cried when someone died: Yeah

80. Fallen for a friend: I thought I did, but like nooooo

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

81. Yourself: sonetimes

82. Miracles: define miracle

83. Love at first sight: define love

84. Santa claus: Sadly I do not

85. Kiss on the first date: maybe?? Define date and kiss

OTHER:

86. Current best friend: Jane (Blue)!! (Her name’s actually Sophia) @for-the-life-ofme

87. Eye color: Blue/greenish

88. Favorite movie: howl’s moving castle, coraline, and I really like Moana

[mangleschmidt]

Alternative Magic (Fnaf Fanfiction)

This will be a little bit rusty beause I'm still learning in writing stories. Key word, writing. (Fking hell, I accidentally pressed cancel and all the damn progress are fking gone and now I have copy paste this shit to the notes then to tumblr, kill me, I'm tried) I can make stories and aus (if you ask me, there are probably hundreds of it, both old and new) but not best at writing. Okey, here we go. Have a short story. I made this at the night in my place. And btw, Mike is pretty chill here because magic. It's about the world where magic exist like you see in televisions and movies because there are already some magic shit, scientific or not, happen in Freddy's. But magic can only be obtain by highest and responsible officials, the president and some few very special people. There are most likely few but well known people with it in the world. Mike is one of the special but it's unknown how and why. At the very young age, after that fateful day, he suddenly has one. He never had one before. Was it someone else who is also gifted or was it God himself? The answer is probably here. ---------- "Okay. *breaths out* All I need is to relax. We need to get this magic going. I don't know what will happen but hope this would work." Mike held out his hand and point it at a dummy on the wall. Faith watch as a ball of fire starts to form from the end Mike. Suddenly, the fire starts to get a little bit off the hook and Mike starts tossing around, making the objects the fire touch start to burn in flames. Faith facepalm. "This is worse than I thought," she bluntly say. She flew through the walls to get a fire extinguisher, leaving Mike running around, screaming at the top of his lungs and crying for help as the flames grew even more bigger. From the bottom of the floor he's in, Doll heard Mike screaming. She widen her eyes and was about to aid but was stop by Faith. "Miss Doll, I got this," she spoke, holding the fire extinguisher like a shotgun. She just arrive in time to witness the ball of fire exploding on Mike's face. It's hilarious to watch. She start extinguishing the whole room, which is on fire. She look at Mike, unamused. Mike sheepishly smile with white foam covering all over him. -Moments later- Doll start curing Mike's burns with hearing silent screams and pain and kissing. "Ow" Mike groan. "Hold still Mikey," Doll commanded. Faith look at dork-ish couple making weet moments and lightly sigh. "I wish this will like be our relationship if we were alive," she silently whispers, carrying the empty bucket and put in a proper place. Mike, having some inner fox/bunny ears, heard Faith and silently approaches after Doll's done with his burns. "Who is this, special someone hmm?" He appeared out of nowhere with a lenny face causing Faith to scream and slap him with the bucket. He fell down with a thud and rub his cheek, because he deserve it anyways. "What happen?" Doll ask, peeking out. "Nothing, I just... Slipped," Mike lied. "Okaaaaayyyyyy," Doll squinted at Mike and slowly slid off from the two people/human and ghost's view. Faith look at Mike and shake her head. "I'm not healing that, and no, I don't have a ghost boyfriend,"she lightly growl. Mike look at her and sigh. "Yeah, I deserve that and I believe you,"Mike said, rubbing his hand behind his back neck. They both sigh and sit next to each other against the wall. After a few minutes, Faith started up a conversation. "You have a shift, you know," Faith reminded. "Yeah I know. But... Something seems a little bit too odd last night" Mike said, looking at the kitchen window above them. "Why is that?" "Like, I suddenly see auras around the animtronics of Fuckboy's. The strongest ones are in the old ones and that rag doll. Dunno why but I also think my magic is developing the more I go there. And it's reaching beyond my limit and knowledge. That's all I can notice, don't fucking judge me if there's something wrong what I just said." Faith touched her lip with her finger and start tapping it. "I know but I think everything will be just fine and normal like any other night." -Few hours later- "I was actually wrong,"Faith look at a massive monster in Freddy's who look like a combination of Rotten Golden Freddy suit, zombies and Springtrap. Jeremy start trembling on his knee caps while Mike looked horrified and about to puke by its disgusting look. Faith cringe at it as it start devouring... Animals. And this made Mike pissed but was hold back by Faith and Jeremy. The massive monster look at the trio on its huge eyeball and start bashing its head on the protective shield of Freddy's "WHY THE FUCK IS THAT THING HERE IN THE FIRST PLACE?" Mike yelled. The bashing made the earth beneath Freddy's start like an earthquake which made the two adults collapsed. "That thing is a Glu. It's a magic and a hunger monster. Which means you can't kill it without magic. It's made by the gluttonous wizard, more like from, the stomach of the wizard. Its appetite is animals and sometimes people, but its favorite course are people with magic, like Mike. So yeah, kill it with the magic of its opposing virtue," Faith said. "You're not helping with the animal part and me being its main course," Mike said. It roared and broke the roof and ceilng. "D-do you think b-boss will fire us?"Jeremy ask, ready to run. "No. It's obviously not our damn faults in the first place, so why the fuck would he do that without getting us payed? Run." The chase began. The pizzeria seem to more bigger after its renovation, combining the two restaurants, both old new, which give Mike, Jeremy and Faith enough to run/fly. It seems like the stupid pizzeria didn't remove the protection for the trio to get out. They accidentally bumped into the older animatronics and ask them for help, well mostly Jeremy. They seem to accept the help and then... They, except Foxy, suddenly show their inner magic and start casting curses and spell which made Mike ask how... While Jeremy look at them in awe and thinking about naruto and Jojo's adventure thing. But it seems it didn't work. Freddy silently growl and huff. "Why? And how?" he question the fact that the Glu hasn't fallen down. "Use the magic of gluttony's opposing virtue, idiot," Foxy said and walk at the monster with a serious face and when the Glu look at the animatronic, he got the feeling of being punch in the guts. And it just made a massive crater on the stomach and Glu flew through the buildings but it still didn't gave up. It takes it time to stand up. But how did he do that, Mike thought. If Foxy has great power and he sense it, why is his aura... Always dark, sad, small and gloomy. So Mike asked but Foxy cut him off. "Are you going to ask why my aura is small? It's because of my grief and depression. The magic in ours can only hold anger and happiness due to anger of the spirits and the happiness when we sing our songs. The magic will not disappear *Roar from the Glu* but it will find a host that is capable. And it found you," Foxy said and playfully pinches Mike's cheek. "My Dearest Little Sunshine" (Violet's 'Dearest Little Angel' (Vengeful Demon Child) yeah) Everyone awed. Mike slapped Foxy's hand and blush which caused Foxy to laugh. "You almost had half of mine," Foxy said, showing fainter aura around. Mike closed the hand and shake his head. "Stop. You had enough and did you said 'half of your power'? What's with the other half?," Mike ask. "Okay," Foxy said and was interrupted by the Glu roaring. "Faith isn't the only one who help you live on. I did my part. And in order to at least, s-save yo-you from th-the hands of death-" "Coyote, you're hurting yourself inside by remembering and using very powerful words. You're crying. Please don't continue-" "-I had to at-at least, give up half of my magic that was actua-ally meant for me... But I don't care, you need it more than me-" "You're gonna make me cry like a baby, stop-" "-and it's my fault-" "No, it's actually mine." "-so I have to pay the price." Roar from the Glu has alarmed the gang that it's coming. Mike put his hand on Foxy's shoulder. "I kinda give the price to you back because I really need an instructor. After all, it was yours, not mine. What do ya say, savvy?" Foxy look at Mike, disbelief. He smile and nod. "Of course I will teach ye, me first mate," he chuckle. "Why? It's the worst," Violet complained. "Won't you spend time with me???" Faith ask, doing the lenny face which made Violet blush, ghost blush. "Hey, dorkies. You comin' or what?" Chica ask. "To kick this thick ass." "I don't know what spell!!!" Freddy scream. "I fking told you, use the damn spell of chastity. Do you know how to read a fking book, FAZFUCK?!" Foxy growl. "I hate to break it to you, he doesn't know. Right Fazshit?" "Okey, you both are mean."

[bubbakanoosh]

rant ramble

I haven’t rambled in a while, mostly because I turned off the “anon” feature on my tumblr.   People don’t want to send me a note and call me an asshole anymore now they can’t hide their identities from the world.  Anywho, I don’t even know where to start with this, I just have so much shit on my mind, I don’t know where to begin.   I have had the shittiest few weeks and I am walking that fine line of losing my shit on someone.   I am stuck on a fucking train once more, and I swear to fuck there is a women clipping her nails on this train.   HER FUCKING NAILS!!  I already told her to stop, because no one else has to balls to do it.   I asked her if she was homeless, because that could be the only possible reason she is clipping her nails on the fucking train.   My stupid rental car wouldn’t start this morning.   Yeah, I am driving a rental….I got rear ended on Easter weekend, so yeah Jesus and I have something in common: our easters kinda sucked.  But yeah, I got rear ended by this Mad Max looking motherfucker truck.   Fun time.   And because it was the holiday, my insurance and the renal car agency had a failure in communication, by that I mean my insurance company never told them I was coming.   So after a few hours of playing it cool I finally got a rental while my car is getting fixed.   A fucking honda civic, like fuck me.  As I told a few others I feel like a white teenage girl driving this piece of shit, I can’t even.  But I am waiting to get my car fixed, and for whatever reason the part is on back order so I am stuck driving this piece of shit for who knows how long.   Civic Nation is a horrible place, and I hate it here and yeah. I am sore.  I am working on my basement, turning it into a finished display of awesomeness and I am doing this all by myself.   I am pretty handy, I like you to know.   I am not just a pretty-ish face, I know what the fuck I am doing.   And between that and the accident, I am sore which makes me, well, more “charming” than usual. Oh, when I say “charming” I mean “smartass”. For the record, little miss nail salon is still clipping her nails.  I swear to god, if she takes off her socks and shoes and starts clipping her toenails I will go ballistic   No question, I will go ballistic on her and possibly beat her with her own shoe..

So, my threshold for stupidity is at an all time low… I can’t really deal with it.  And when I say stupidity i mean people, family, work, drama, people, the fucking works.  Speaking of work, it has been stupidly busy.  Like really really really busy.  I have been dealing with lawyers all week, and you know what? Lawyers are assholes.  Some of you may laugh at the irony of that statement, but seriously they are.   I wonder what those fellows are saying about my chaming self.   Also speaking of work, I had this more fucktarded conversation yesterday.  So we have an in-house courier to take shit around to other offices and whatnot so we don’t have to pay for a service.   I had a cheque that needed delivered and I called the courier guy to my office to pick it up and take it a few blocks away.   I said to the guy “better watch it, it’s pretty torrential out there” and he looks at me with a blank stare then said “what?”.  I replied with “it’s storming out there, we are haveing torrential rain outside”, whch he comes back at me with “Oooh, gotcha… I just never heard torrential used in that way before”.   Its at that point in time I do a double face palm and rub my face letting out a long ass sigh.  Maybe I have lived with my head up my ass for most of my life, but I want to know what other use of “torrential” he has heard.   Torrential level cheese on my nachos, please? Fuck, can you imagine? I could use that right now.

Anyways,  usually I hide it pretty well most days, my prickish nature/anger for stupidity, but as you see I am having a little trouble with it. Or maybe I am not, I dunno.  I have been called sweet, or a sweetie, once or twice in my life… and you know what? I am.  I’m so sweet like a nice bon bon.   But I am also a fucking prick. I am quite the sarcastic bastard.   I guess is its the Hyde to the sweetie Jekyll, maybe it;s a gemini thing… I dunno.  I hide it on here for the most part, I think there are times it slips through.   Do you know how many posts a day I like and write a comment on to reblog but instead of hitting sent I just cancel?  A lot. Why do I delete them? Well, I fear I may get some stupid PM or whatever wishing cancer on me (yeah, that happened).   I think people take this shit way to seriously, and fine do that.   But you need to chill the fuck out at the same time, you know? And while we are on the stuff that annoys me on tumblr, inspirational quotes bug me.   There I said it, and please don’t get offended because I don’t like them..  Don’t get me wrong, there are some I like, they aren’t all fucking poppycock or anything, but yeah… they bug me.   Maybe it’s because I think people post them to get likes rather than actually believe what the quote is saying. We all post shit for the likes, so don’t tell me you don’t It’s like on facebook, someone makes a post bout thee most lovingest spouse and how they are lucky they are to have him or her.   You know they are just typing that shit either a) convince others they are the happinest couple in the world or b) convince themself they are that happy.   When I was with my ex, back when we actually spoke hahah fuck, anyways, back when we actually spoke I asked her if we are weird because we say Happy BDay and Valentines to each other face to face and not facebook to facebook.   I honestly started to think maybe I am the odd one, then I deleted facebook and all was right in the world once more.   Those posts on facebook, I dunno, they didn’t feel genuine.   And that’s the vibe I get from some of the shit people post,  It just leaves a bad taste in my mouth and I am like ugh.   And then I write comment or something and stare at it and then cancel.   Maybe there are posts out there that I just don’t cancel? Maybe there are posts out there where I really am an asshole and the anons were right? I think some of you take your blog way too seriously, and yeah.  I dunno, maybe I am the weird one, maybe I don’t take my blog seriously enough? Maybe my “How I Tumblr” jokes are spot on? As in, I have no clue what i’m doing. Things that make you go hmmmm.  Oh, while we are talking about the inspirational stuff, if you see one that is a quote from “anonymous” well, that’s me.   I said all of those.   I am not one to seek fame and glory, because I don’t need it, but I need to bring it up.  Why? Well, some of you are throwing around my wisdom all willy nilly and shit.   

So the other day someone was ranting to me about tumblr and I was like YES!! Okay, that is a lie, there were two separate people ranting to me about tumblr and I was like YES!! EXACTLY!!  And I brought up my scenario about something and what pissed me off.   Then I explain what pissed me off more, and that was the fact I noticed the thing that pissed me off in the first place..   I hated myself for noticing this little, I dunno what to call it, quirk? This little quirk that I see.  Noticing the quirk pissed me off more than the quirk itself.   In fact, the fact I was pissed off at the quirk pisses me off now.  It’s stupid and I hate myself for hating it so much..   I am not going to get into what the quirk is but I noticed the same thing on twitter when I was on there and it just got stupid and I quit that.   By the way, everything that happens here with cliques and crushes and Doms and subs, that’s all on twitter.  I think cliques and shit like that is worse over there.   They have theme days over on twitter, where someone will come up with a start of a joke like, I dunno let;s just use “yo momma”.  So one person will send a message, or a group of people will send a message and say at 7pm EST you will start using the “yo mama” joke format and tweet shit.   Me being me I was like “yeah no” and shit just went down hill from there.   I got blackballed for not being a fucking lemming.  My twitter was HungoverLawyer.  Oh, you may have seen me reblogging a tumblr called HungoverLawyer, that’s me in case you haven’t figured it out.   Follow it, you can be one of the 10 who are, it’s an elite club.   I actually have another blog I created but I never ever used yet called Bubba-Answers-Stuff.   Basically that blog I answer others peoples questions they get asked them.   One day I was browsing my feed and I saw someone answer an anon and, well, I personally felt I could answer it better.   That answer was mediocre at best, imo.   But, it was around the time I got the cancer remarks in my inbox so I just put it on the backburner.  Maybe I will start it up, why not right? Anyways, I quit twitter over the stupidity that was over there.   The stupidity outweighed the fun.  Tumblr is pretty fucking dumb, but not nearly as dumb as twitter was. I am not going to quit tumblr, not that any of you are worried or anything, if you are well… that is pretty sweet actually.  If you are not worried, well, that’s okay… I will just cross you off my Christmas card list, so fuck you.  I kid, I kid.  You are still on the list, fuck.   I am an asshole with a heart of gold.  Did I mention I am really sweet? So, yeah, I ain’t leaving tumblr.   You’re kinda stuck with me, at least for the time being. I just dislike when a distraction is no longer a fun distraction. I don’t know why shit bugs me but it does. Maybe it is me taking this way too seriously. Maybe I’m the fucking problem? Holy shit. I just had a fucking ephiphany, wow.  I am not bitching about you, I am bitching about myself? whoa, fuck.  Nah, am fine.  You are all good.  Cept the fucktard who used to send me rude anons, you can choke on a bag of dicks.    Maybe I just need a stiff drink.   I have pizza waiting for me when I get home, and a couch.   Seriously, I am going to get undressed and eat pizza on my couch in my underwear.    Soak that in, ladies.   I know, my nipples are hard at the thought also. Anywho, I am at my station.