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Honey, I want you to know, I mean this with love when I say it. We are all going to be fine no matter what happens. Nothing is going to change. If Harris gets elected then Harris gets elected. If Trump gets elected then Trump gets elected. Nothing will change. Your life won't change. If you want to see what will happen if Trump gets elected then look at his last term. He did nothing of importance and if he did, none of it went away while we had Biden. Harris won't do anything of any importance either. Your life won't change. I promise you, you and everyone else will be just fine.
Every time I hear someone say this, I think of this picture:
This is the San Francisco Gay Men's Chorus. The ones in white are the members who survived the AIDS epidemic. The rest did not.
I was a teenager when Trump was elected in 2016. I was 16 years old, just beginning to question my sexuality while also supporting my best friend who had come out as trans. The only adult I could trust to talk to about it was my geography teacher. After Trump was elected, corporations had the greenlight to price gouge every imaginable necessity, including the insulin my teacher relied on. He couldn't afford all the payments even with insurance so he started rationing. The last day of school before winter break, I wished him happy holidays, gave him a Christmas card, and never saw him again.
I know you mean well, but I say this in the nicest way possible: you are speaking from a place of luck. Just because you haven't lost anyone or anything as a result of the past Trump administration does not mean everyone had the same experience. I know my experience is not a unique one. I could cite the widely available statistics about abortion restrictions and maternal mortality, or gender-affirming care bans and trans suicides, or the pandemic, anything else we've been seeing when conservatives take power.
A lot of us are right to be scared, either because we've gone through this before or because we stand a real risk of losing something.
#not dc related#personal#us elections#us politics#2024 presidential election#election 2024#tw politics
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Lando Norris x bsf!reader
She isnât you
Hi, could I request a salami sandwich with tomato on wheat bread, please, and thank you. Request from @itsnotsophiasworld
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MF: SOS, can anyone fly to Spain to check on Lando? From what Iâve gathered, he is staying in an Airbnb by himself and very much in his head. Iâm caught up in some work stuff, or else Iâd make the trip myself.Â
Your heart sank reading Max's text to your friend group. Lando had been having a rough season and was constantly getting ripped apart in the media, no matter what he did. All you could do was make sure that he knew you were there for him and try to be around as much as possible, which was easy as you also lived in Monaco. But after the last race before summer break, none of you had heard from him.Â
Looking at flights, you quickly replied to the group saying that you could go. One of the many perks of working remotely was that you could pick up your computer and go anywhere, so leaving to help Lando was a no-brainer. There was a flight leaving tonight, so you purchased that and started to pack.Â
You wished the world could see him the way that you did. He was a caring, down-to-earth friend who would do anything for the people he loved. It was hard for anyone who knew him not to like him, and it was hard for you not to be in love with him.Â
It hadnât taken you long after meeting him to fall for his charm, but he had been dating someone else then, so you settled for friendship. That was three years ago, and youâd dated guys since, but the feelings still lingered. He could make you feel like you were the only girl in the world, so it was easy to get sucked in.Â
Ultimately, you valued your friendship too much to ever act on it, even when you were both single. Youâd been through too much together to risk losing him. You had a hunch that he felt the same way about you because of how overly affectionate he was with you compared to everyone else and that you were usually his first call. Still, his life was busy, and you understood that a girlfriend didnât fit in that picture right now.Â
Landing in Spain around 10, you grabbed your luggage before jumping in a cab to the address Max had sent you. The Airbnb was a cute little beach cottage right on the ocean, and you inhaled a deep breath of salty air and instantly felt better.Â
The door to the house swung open, and you were greeted by what seemed to be a very irritated Lando.Â
âWhat are you doing here?â He asked, crossing his arms over his chest.Â
âMaking sure you donât do something crazy,â you replied, mirroring him with his arms.Â
âI want to be alone.â
âI donât care.âÂ
You stared at each other for a while, neither one giving in before he finally sighed and moved past you to grab your suitcase, grumbling to himself. The cottage had windows on the backside, allowing a constant view of the ocean, which you could appreciate. Lando put my luggage in the guest room before joining me as you looked at the water.Â
âYou didnât have to come; Iâm fine,â he muttered. You looked over at him with a sad smile, reaching your hand down to grab his.Â
âI wanted to come.â He gave you a small smile, and you took in his exhausted state, noting just how bad it really was.Â
âWhy donât we get some rest? Then youâll be ready for a full day tomorrow,â you suggested, and he looked over at you.Â
âIâm here to relax, y/n,â he said, and you smiled mischievously.Â
âIt will be relaxing, I promise.â
It was not relaxing.Â
You dragged Lando out of bed at 7 a.m. to go on a run, and he was not happy with you, but you were just happy he came along. Jogging through the little town, you could tell that his mood was improving as he kept pace with you.Â
Out of breath, you were hunched over as you two had climbed to the top of a dune.Â
âAre you not relaxed?â Lando teased, and you gave him the finger. âArenât you supposed to be working?âÂ
âYeah, I need to log on when we get back to the place,â you wheezed, and he handed you his water bottle. âWhat are your plans for while I work?âÂ
âOh, I donât know, scroll through social media hate, maybe watch all my old races and critique everything I did; the possibilities are endless.âÂ
Shooting him a look, you sighed, âThat would be funny if I didnât know youâd already been doing that.âÂ
He looked down at his feet, and you moved over to him, wrapping your arms around his torso. His head found your shoulder, he breathed deeply, and you held on tighter.Â
âYouâre going to be okay Lan,â you said, looking up at him.Â
âI know,â he said sadly.Â
Lando spent the rest of the day in the water while you worked, slipping away to get groceries for the night. He hadnât had time to hide all the takeout bags and boxes he had been surviving on, so you figured a homecooked meal would do him well.Â
Having dealt with him being a picky eater for a while, you were finishing up your favorite spaghetti and meatballs recipe when he came back into the house.Â
âSmells great,â he commented and you smiled. âCan we eat outside?â
âYou read my mind,â you replied, plating the food.Â
Eating on the back deck, you felt a sense of serenity as the sound of waves crashing filled your ears.Â
âThis place is amazing; how did you find it?â You asked, turning to Lando.Â
âHonestly, I just opened the app and picked the first place I saw that looked secluded,â he admitted. âI just wanted to be away from everyone.âÂ
âWe are here for you to lean on Lan,â you said softly. âIâm never going to leave you.âÂ
âI know that, but I just donât want to disappoint you,â he confessed, and your heart sank.Â
âLando Norris,â you said, forcing him to look at you. âThere is nothing you could ever do to disappoint me. I am so insanely proud of everything youâve accomplished. Please come back to Monaco with me tomorrow.â
âWhat did I do to deserve you?â He whispered, holding out his arms. You climbed into his lap, wrapping your arms around his shoulders and running your fingers through his hair.Â
âYou buy me so much shit so I have to be nice to you,â you joked and he giggled. He pulled his head back to look at you, and your breath hitched because of the lack of distance between the two of you. Shifting, you tried to move back but his grip on you tightened so you leaned down to bring your lips to his. As you were a millimeter away his phone started to ring and you rested your head briefly against his, groaning internally.Â
Sliding off of him you handed him his phone as it was Max calling. Hearing him tell Max he was coming home the next day made you smile, and you gathered all the dishes to clean up. He joined you a little later, and neither of you brought up the almost kiss; you wrote it off as something that happened in the heat of the moment.Â
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Zandvoort was a dream, and you were so glad you made the trip with your friends. The next race you were going to was Singapore and Lando had invited you, Max, and some others to hang out the week before in Portugal.Â
Your friend group had rented a big house, and you were ready to soak in the sun and relax after taking the week off work. Pietra and you had flown in together and met up with everyone that night at dinner.Â
âHi, Iâm Mary,â a girl you didnât recognize said to you, holding out her hand. You smiled back warmly, introducing yourself.Â
âMary and I met at a shoot early this year,â Pietra explained, and you nodded. You chatted with her for a while over dinner, glad to have another girl on the trip.Â
You were less happy the next day when you watched this girl throw herself at Lando every chance she got. Right now, you were watching as she asked Lando how to show her how to hit the ball off the tee at the golf course where you guys were.Â
âYa know I went golfing with her two weeks ago, and she had a perfect swing,â Pietra muttered and you grimaced, watching Lando wrap his arms around the girl to guide her swing. It seemed like she would find a way to touch him no matter where you went. Up against him at dinner, clinging to him in the pool, leaning on him while you were watching a movie.Â
At this point your jealousy was flaring up and you were trying to keep your composure, especially because this girl had been nothing but nice to you. What made it worse was that Lando entertained it, accepting her advances right in front of you. Your mind replayed that almost kiss back in Spain and the way the two of you had gotten closer since that trip. It had seemed to you that something was changing in your relationship, but clearly not. The whole trip you felt like your heart was being ripped apart and you were starting to wonder if you needed to take a break from being around him until you could get over your crush.Â
Two nights before you were supposed to leave the group ended up at a club downtown as a pre-celebration for what you predicted would be a Lando win in Singapore. Rounds and rounds of shots were taken and you were dancing with Pietra on the dance floor trying to have a good time.Â
You briefly glanced back at the VIP section, and your stomach dropped. Mary was sitting on Landoâs lap, and you watched as she wrapped her arms around his neck, pulling him in for a kiss. Water instantly filled your eyes, and Pietra looked concerned before following your gaze. She looked at you with such sadness that you decided then and there that you were done.Â
Leaving the club you walked back to the Airbnb alone. You werenât sure if it was your drunkenness or just the emotional exhaustion of the situation but you started to get angry. Time after time, you were there for him and this is what you got back. It would be different if he had made it clear from the start that he wasnât interested but he didnât do that. He slept in your bed back in Monaco on nights like these, he spoiled you constantly with gifts, and you knew that he had told other drivers on the grid to back off from you, laying a claim.Â
God, you were so fucking over it.Â
You gathered all your stuff and threw it in your suitcase, calling for a cab to take you to the airport. You made it down the stairs just as Max was coming in. His face fell as he saw your bag.Â
"No y/n donât go,â he pleaded, and you shook your head, already feeling tears start to fill your eyes.Â
âI canât fucking do this anymore Max,â you said, voice cracking. âI have to protect my heart.âÂ
âYou know he loves you,â he said moving towards you to hold you. âEveryone knows that.âÂ
âIf thatâs true, why have I watched him with her this whole weekend? Why did I just watch him sit there when she stuck her tongue down his throat right in front of me,â you yelled and Max stayed silent. âExactly. I need some space to figure out how things can move forward between us.âÂ
Max helped you carry your bag outside and the two of you stood silently waiting for the car. Just as it pulled up, Lando walked up to the house, alone.Â
âY/N!â He called out, not seeing your suitcase yet. âWhereâd you run off too? I was looking for you.âÂ
You turned around and his eyes widened seeing your tear stained face, his gaze flickering down to your bag.Â
âWhatâs going on?â He asked hoarsely and you just shook your head turning back to get into the car before you started to sob.Â
âLet her go mate,â you heard Max tell him and you looked out the window to see him holding Lando back. The sight made you cry harder as the car finally drove off.Â
Landoâs POV
Watching the car disappear down the street, Lando turned to Max, panic and confusion colliding in his mind.
âWhy is she leaving, Max? What the hell happened?â
Max let out a sigh, his eyes searching Landoâs face with a mix of frustration and pity. âMate, sheâs in love with you. And honestly, youâre in love with her too, even if you havenât figured it out yet.â
Lando froze, the weight of Maxâs words hitting him harder than he expected. He thought of all the moments he spent with youâthe late-night talks, the shared laughter, the comforting silence. He thought about how heâd let Mary get close, but each time she reached for him, a nagging feeling crept up inside him.
She isnât you.
The thought was so painfully clear now. It didnât matter how kind or fun Mary wasâshe wasnât you. And suddenly, he realized why none of it felt right.
âI need to go,â Lando said suddenly. âI need to go to the airport.âÂ
He took off down to the main street hailing a cab but when he finally got there, you were gone.Â
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You skipped the Singapore GP. You didnât even watch it on tv so you didnât know why everyone was wondering why despite winning, Lando looked miserable standing on the podium.Â
He had texted you a million times begging you to call him but you declined the call everytime. You were trying to move on. Youâd started running again in the mornings, working out of coffee shops, and hanging out with your girlfriends. Basically you were doing everything in your power to not think of him; and it worked until 10pm each night. Then you were miserable.Â
It was two weeks after Singapore when you heard knocking at your door one evening. You werenât expecting anyone so you were especially surprised to see Oscar standing on the other side of your door. Considering he didnât live in Monaco, you didnât really know what to say, just stared at him silently.Â
âMay I come in?â He asked politely and you nodded, stepping aside to let him through. âNice apartment.â
âThanks,â you replied following him into the living room. âWhat are you doing here?â
He settled down on your couch, motioning for you to join him and you sunk down on the other side.Â
âI need you to tell me what happened when you and Lando were in Portugal,â he said slowly and you immediately looked away.Â
âIt doesnât matter,â you mumbled, playing with your hands.Â
âIt does matter,â Oscar insisted. âItâs okay if you finally rejected him but I need to know how to fix him.â
Your head snapped up, âI didnât reject him Oscar. He basically rejected me.âÂ
âThereâs no way,â Oscar said, shocked and you told him everything that had happened from you flying to Spain for him to him making out with that girl at the club.Â
âTrust me when I say that Iâm not trying to invalidate your feelings, but I feel like this is a big misunderstanding,â Oscar said and you rolled your eyes. âHe is so in love with you y/n. All he does is talk about you.â
âThen why did he never tell me!â You said, voice rising. âIâve been there the whole time Oscar, and he has never said anything. I want to be with someone who isnât afraid to love me.âÂ
Oscarâs heart broke at your words, knowing you were feeling this way.Â
âI came here y/n, because he is a mess without you,â he said. âIâve never seen him like this and itâs starting to affect his racing so Iâm begging you to at least think about talking to him.âÂ
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You would have thought that Lando would stop texting after a while but he didnât. Every morning he texted you âgood morningâ and gave you updates on his day even though you werenât responding. His plan seemed to be to slowly chip away at you until you were ready to come back and unfortunately it was working.Â
Brazil was the next race that your friend group was attending and you went back and forth on what you should do before finally deciding to book a flight. Max must have told Lando because you immediately were notified that your flight had been upgraded and your hotel had been booked.Â
Because of a work event, you werenât going to be able to get there until Saturday night and probably wouldnât see Lando until qualifying or after the race. You joined Max and Pietra on the track, bright and early on Sunday morning and you were wondering how Lando would survive with it being this early in the morning.Â
Oscar gave you a big hug when he saw you and you could tell he was incredibly relieved that you were there. Qualifying was 20 minutes away and you heading towards the Paddock club when you turned a corner and were immediately wrapped up in two arms. Inhaling his familiar scent, you relaxed into his touch.Â
âI missed you so fucking much,â he said into your ear and you hummed in reply. You were still unsure about pretending like nothing ever happened. He pulled back to look at you and his excitement was contagious, pulling a small smile out of you.Â
âWeâll talk later okay?â He asked and you nodded. âI have a lot of things I need to say to you.â
He kissed your forehead before running off and you tried to keep your cool. Qualifying was good for him and you were feeling good about the race but a little nervous about the weather conditions.Â
Sitting with Max and Pietra in the paddock club the mood was very much anxious. Lando had been doing great until a red flag reset everything. He had fallen down because of pitting and you watched as he went off the track on that first turn, your heart sinking. The rest of the race was a blur and he finished in P6 which you knew would not go over well with him.Â
After the race, you felt hesitant heading back to the McLaren hospitality area. You werenât sure if heâd want to see you, especially in his disappointment. But as you lingered by the entrance, you caught sight of him. Lando was drenched, exhausted, and his usual radiant energy seemed dimmed. Still, he locked eyes with you, a faint smile managing to pull at the corner of his lips.
He walked over slowly, stopping right in front of you. âYou waited for me?â
âOf course I did, Lando,â you replied softly, feeling the gravity of the moment settle in. âI always do.â
He nodded, then glanced around at the crowded area. âCan we go somewhere⊠quieter?â
You followed him through the paddock until you found yourselves outside in a secluded spot overlooking the track. For a moment, neither of you spoke. Finally, Lando took a deep breath.
âI was an idiot,â he began, voice raw with honesty. âYou donât know how many times I replayed that trip to Portugal, thinking about what I couldâve done differently. I didnât understand how much it would hurt you⊠I was blind to everything but my own mess.â
You opened your mouth to respond, but he kept going, unable to hold back.
âYouâve been the best part of my life for years, and it took almost losing you to realize how much Iâd taken you for granted. Iâm sorry, y/n. I thought I was protecting you by not⊠admitting how I feel. I thought if I never said it out loud, maybe itâd hurt less. But I canât pretend anymore. I love you.â
Hearing those words, the walls youâd built around yourself began to crack, the anger and disappointment from before softening as you looked into his eyes.
âIâve loved you for so long,â you whispered and he gave you a soft smile.Â
âI know, Iâm sorry I didnât see it before.âÂ
When he kissed you, it was tender and full of all the unspoken words and missed opportunities between you. As you pulled away, you both smiled, feeling the weight of the past couple of weeks finally lift.
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onyankapon had a kink for cute girls thatâs actually fucking dirty that he hadnât think he had until he met you.
when he met you, you were a sweet cute thing. well atleast he thought, being on your side of instagram he saw aesthetic pictures you posted.
when youâre on a picnic date by yourself.
your matcha with strawberry cold foam on top drinks you make every morning in a bunny looking mug.
but when his friends started fucking with your friends, things got around and he sees you acting a complete fool on your friends story.
sees you in that cute little fucking skirt with bows in the back, that you asked him was it cute.
sees you shaking your fuckingâŠridiculously fat ass, pussy almost hanging out.
Liquor bottles on top of your head while you rapped queen key.
Ony almost feels played, you put up this sweet girl persona and maybe that was his fault.
Because the first time he actually has you in his sheets, heâs never been more intrigued in his life.
youâre so fucking nasty and heâs pissed at himself that it took a friend story to discover something new about you.
you suck his dick like youâve sucked millions and you tell himâ
ââoh wellâŠyouâre my first actually.â god he wanted to think you were bluffing but even after you shook your ass you gave innocent, you gave you only flicked your clit and donât finger your self because youâre too scared.
and it has his legs shaking.
âf-fuck, suck that dick baby⊠suck that dick, fuck!â he doesnât think heâs ever been this loud either, eyes crossing and toes curling. heâs never letting you the fuck go thatâs forsure.
after you sucked the nut out of him you turnt around, cute little pink cotton panties that youâve moved to the side and a matching bra. your face right on the mattress and ass up in the air, and it was so fucking fat.
Swaying and jiggling when you tried to position yourself perfectly.
what really topped it off was both your hands grabbing ahold on both cheeks. he can see you pussy, brown hiding the juiciest pink he ever seen, your bedroom set up be damned.
he even swore he saw your wetness dripping down.
âfuck me, please? I need it so bad.â
yea he had a thing for cute sweet girls acting like a slut.
#black reader#smut#black woman#black fem reader#black women#onyankopon x black y/n#ony x black reader#onyankopon x reader#onyankapon#aot onyankopon#onyankopon x black reader smut#onyankopon smut#onyankopon x you
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âȘ©âȘš boyfriend!joshua whose instagram is filled to the brim with pictures of his beautiful girl, sometimes he forgets to tag you but itâs okay because it takes no sherlock holmes to figure out your username since he only follows your account and a naruto fanpage.Â
âȘ©âȘš boyfriend!joshua who wants you to meet his parents in less than a month into the relationship, itâs extremely important to him to make it as clear as possible that he is serious about you, leaves no room for overthinking at all, always a step ahead of you in the âwould you still love me if i was a worm?â department, the best boy indeed.Â
âȘ©âȘš boyfriend!joshua who would rather take a bullet than let you pay for literally anything, because how dare you even suggest paying for your own things? as if you donât know the only reason he works so hard itâs exactly so he can pamper you endlessly? the absolute nerve of you, better get on your knees and start apologizing.
âȘ©âȘš boyfriend!joshua who is the sassiest and most dramatic guy youâve ever been with, but can not for the life of him handle the thought of you doing any work at all, in every aspect, which, ironically, sometimes makes you work even harder to get what you want.
âȘ©âȘš boyfriend!joshua who makes it the worldâs most difficult challenge to accept receiving head from you for the first time, he enjoys being the one doing all of the work to make you feel good, he just couldnât see how blowing him off would please you at all so he keeped denying(while completely ignoring the tent forming rapidly in his grey sweatpants) until you begged too sweetly, so softly, looking at him with so much adoration and love, like you wanted nothing more than to please him, he could have finished right there but instead he shook his head and sat down in the bed, ready to give his princess anything she could ever want, just like he promised he would! even if what she wanted was to kneel in front of him and try to fit his thick cock into her little mouth for a while.
âȘ©âȘš boyfriend!joshua who uses every opportunity that stumbles across his way to show off his huge arms, itâs a win-win scenario, he gets to feel all hot and manly and you get to hold onto your boyfriendâs strong biceps everywhere you go and get carried on bride style after a night out that, honestly, didnât even leave you that drunk, but since he offered to carry you, who would ever say no?
âȘ©âȘš boyfriend!joshua who adores your nails and is always super excited to see the results of your nail appointments, asks for pictures during the whole process, sends you food when itâs taking too long, and finally when the nails are done, heâs there to pick you up in his shiny car, more than ready to do the last step of your nail day, which is putting them to the test, the scratch test.Â
âȘ©âȘš boyfriend!joshua who just canât help but adore when you leave him all marked up, he loves it, and how can you blame him? was he supposed to be normal about having proof straight on his body of just how good he made you feel last night? how could you even consider he'd do such a thing? this man is not normal about you in general.Â
âȘ©âȘš boyfriend!joshua who knows your entire wardrobe like the back of his hand, half of it because he bought it, the other half because of how often heâs watching you, definitely a âi look at you more often than you thinkâ kinda guy. heâs very proud of just how well he knows his baby.
âȘ©âȘš boyfriend!joshua who remembers all of your food preferences and orders, knows all of your allergies, all of your icks and all of your friendâs gossips because heâs just so well behaved! he won't tell anyone, he never would! he's your joshy! you can trust him to keep all of your secrets, forever.
âȘ©âȘš boyfriend!joshua whoâs very open about the fact that he wants to marry you, live the rest of your lives together, maybe with a kid if youâre into that, maybe just dogs if thatâs better for you, he got his own wishes when it comes to creating a family, but at the end of the day; this man has one priority, and she has a name. whatever is best for you, itâs the best for him.
âȘ©âȘš husband!joshua who no matter how long it has passed since you got married, has not lost even a little bit of his obsession with you. his precious flower, his cute little thing, his darling, his sweet girl, thatâs all youâll ever be to him, all his to love and protect, forever.
#seventeen fanfic#seventeen smut#seventeen imagines#seventeen imagine#seventeen scenarios#joshua x reader#joshua hong x reader#joshua smut#hong joshua smut#joshua fluff#seventeen drabbles#seventeen reactions#hong joshua x reader
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I am still in escape-from-reality mode, so have an essay on John being smart, I guess?
I loved this photo of the shuttle interior, though of course I can't view it without sparing a few thoughts for the crew who lost their lives for our quest to be free from being trapped in our one, beautiful, complicated, suffering planet.
But what it made me think about next was Farscape, of course. It's so briefly mentioned, and never referred to again, but the Farscape mission was John's third trip to space, minimum. He'd been on two previous space shuttle missions. And they must have been significant and successful roles because he was commander for the Farscape project. So this overwhelming morass of switches and readouts was familiar to him. He could probably name what every control did, what every blinking button meant.
John's ability to adapt so quickly to alien technology doesn't seem so improbable when you consider how much Earth technology he was used to dealing with. He struggled mostly with the stuff that had no labels or details to guide him, like handles that turn unintuitively back and forth instead of up and down, or doors that open by waving the right way at specific unmarked spots. (I feel like PK techs also found the doors of Leviathans baffling because they engineered specific glowy pads for all of Talyn's doors.)
I'm positive that John knew every subsystem on this shuttle. There's a reason they let a guy go up to space in a ship of his own design, and it's not just because he's the son of a famous astronaut. (Good for publicity at a time when the space program was struggling for mind share and funding.) He might use half his brain for pop culture and Aeryn, but the rest of it was more than enough to make John that rare super genius who can put his math and science into practical use building shit. So of course the vast majority of the time we see John being idle, he's taking something apart or putting it back together.
When he goes back home, John claims not to understand how the hetch drive works, "he just installed it", but his friends know that's bullshit. Of course John knows how most of it works, but he doesn't have full grasp of the math and science because he's had to deduce everything from tinkering and an under-trained Pilot without full grasp of the science himself. John is being coy partly to not bias what other scientists can figure out from their own experiments and partly because he doesn't want to get stuck all day every day being interrogated for his knowledge. Kinda been there, done that.
But anyway, this picture made me think things, about Earth tech, and our wonderful, adaptable human in the wilds of constant space magic and a hundred species worth of tech....
(Okay, just one more rant: I'm convinced Aeryn becomes a tech herself at least partially because she hangs out with John a lot, and she hates being idle, so she started messing with tech too.
I can just see him opening something up and asking a lot of questions that irritate her because she has no idea why any of her equipment works and it has never been necessary to know how to fix it, yet the way he asks questions makes her feel ignorant. But then after he pokes around enough to figure out what the red squiggly button does, he shows her and wants her to understand it too. Which she wouldn't be interested in, except she can shut him up faster if she makes him show her how to put it back together, freeing him up to go play with the next thing that catches her eye.
Or he'll go into this rant about how this particular thing is always breaking and should really be redesigned and she tells him she'll fix it, again, just to shut him up.
Because she quietly loves being in his frittery, high energy presence; there's enough John to fill up a squad's worth of space and he helps her feel less lonely on this giant empty tomb of a ship. But she wishes he talked less because she can't not pay attention to him and three quarters of what he says is nonsense. John earnestly messing around with something too intent to even talk is perfect. She'll happily sit there and clean parts or do the tedious soldering if he just limits himself to occasional mutters and "youreekas!", whatever that means.
John, of course, being a super genius, eventually figures out the pretty girl will sit with him all day--really close to him actually, their knees will bump a lot--if he tells her he really needs help assembling backup circuits or whatever. But only if he shows her how to do it once, provides minimal feedback from there, and limits himself to two Earth pop culture references per arn.)
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summary: ollie wasn't exactly ecstatic after brazil... you change that/
pairing: ollie bearman x fem! reader
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You watched as Ollie left the car, looking dejected and overwhelmed.Â
âYou did good,â you whispered as he wrapped his arms around you, melting into you.Â
âI did-â
âWell. You did well, Ollie. You had no notice, no planning, no training, nothing. You went third fastest in free practice. The only free practice-â
âBut Franco-âÂ
âFranco sent it into the barriers in quali and the race. Were you unlucky with how the weekend ended up? Yeah, but at least you kept it out of the barriers. You are a good driver Ollie, a great driver. You deserve to be here. Your teammate got disqualified, you spun 3 times, and you still kept going. And then you finished p12, right behind Perez, whoâs been in the sport for 13 years. You have more points than Bottas, Zhou, Liam, and Franco. Youâre fucking amazing Ollie. Donât try to tell me that youâre not,â you told him, your voice stern, but loving. You had a hand on his cheek, and softly pressed your lips to his. âAlright?â
He nodded, seeming a little bit less upset. âAlright.â
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He went through the interviews, he went through the debriefs, he posed for all the pictures. He did it all. All of his duties were fulfilled, and by the time he got back to you, he was exhausted. You thanked for past-self for changing your flights to the next day.Â
âYouâre beautiful,â he whispered, wrapping his arms around you. He was showered, changed, and exhausted, so you just let him lean on you.Â
âReady to head back?â you asked.
âI donât want to deal with the airport right now-â
âI changed our flights to tomorrow,â you explained. He stared at you for a moment, then a smile broke out on his lips.Â
âYou always know what I need,â he chuckled. âYou really are the best girlfriend ever.â
You laughed. âProbably not, but I thank you anyway.â
He leant down, catching your lips with his, not really caring whether there was a camera on the two of you. He squeezed your waist as you kissed him back softly, and he involuntarily sighed when you pulled away.Â
âCome on Ollie, letâs get you some rest, yeah?â you offered your hand, and he took it happily.Â
Maybe the race was awful, but you were still there. Your love would never be in question over a race result, and he adored you for that. You celebrated every win just the same, every loss just the same, and every day just the same. He loved you for that.
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tags: park sunghoon x fem!reader, established relationship, size kink, strength kink, bulge kink, d/s dynamics, dom!sunghoon x sub!reader, unprotected sex (plz donât), breeding kink, creampie, dirty talk, degradation (slut, whore), praise kink?, nicknames (baby, princess, angel, hoonie, etc), slight fluff, lowkey pwp, reader is described to be shorter than hoon and is easy to pick up/throw around, reader is also very down bad for him (arenât we all), etc
wc: 2.67k
add. notes: hoon won the poll i put out so i present to u my first ever enha work :3 thank u very much to everyone who voted n this will def not be the last enha fic i put out so do not worry there is much to come for hyung line!!! also icon creds to @/v4mpjay :3
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sunghoon doesnât know how much longer he can take this.Â
it all started when he began going to the gym regularly, slowly bulking his figure up and feeling himself grow out in his clothes. what used to be his lanky frame that greeted him in the mirror gradually turned into a built man with lean muscles and sharper features, adding to what was already there initially. it wasnât like this wasnât what he wanted though, albeit the entire reason why he even started working out in the first place being to improve his health and build better habits for himself, but the outcome wasnât too bad in itself. he got used to feeling stronger, more lighter on his feet or less out of breath when he climbed the stairs, and it was enjoyable to know that he could lift twice his weight and still feel good as new. in some way, things felt like they were going swell.
that is, until you came into the picture.
now, sunghoonâs always known that youâre small compared to him. even when standing side by side, his height next to yours is a little laughable, though he supposes youâre used to that considering youâve always been shorter than most of your peers. heâs well aware of how you have to go on your tippy-toes when you guys kiss, and the soft feel of your little hands in his is something that spins in his mind constantly when your fingers lace together. it doesnât help that you always ask him to fetch your favourite mug from the top cabinet too, his larger physique towering over yours each time he leans over from behind you. he likes to tease you about it, revelling in the way you pout cutely back at him whenever he makes fun of you jokingly despite the small smile playing at your lips, but little do you know about the twisted fantasies breaching his thoughts every moment you spend together. he wonders if you would be disgusted? would you dump him and tell all your friends about what a creepy loser he was? sunghoon canât help but imagine the worst case scenario, and it would be easy to bury these emotions down the hatchet had it not been for the fact that heâs started to think he is going mad too.Â
every time sunghoon comes home from the gym, every time he enters your shared apartment, sweat dripping down his forehead and his water-bottle empty, he swears on his dead grandmother that you start checking him out. it doesnât help that he's always been attentive either, always needlessly easy at picking up the cues of your discomfort when you're outside in a social space for too long, or being able to tell instantly when you're anything other than the happy go lucky girlfriend he usually sees you as. so, when your lingering gaze begins to trail across his arms a little too long whenever he passes your shared bedroom on his way to the shower, or when your mouth opens and closes to swallow before you're pressing your thighs together subtly each time he moves to wipe himself down each time heâs homeâ it all sparks something in him. it told him to finally, finally indulge in the nasty thoughts heâs kept tucked away to himself once and for all.
except he doesnât. because at the end of the day, sunghoon is a gentleman. he pulls open the doors for you with nonchalance written all over him despite his burning ears, and he brings you back your memorised coffee order alongside a few sweet treats when he knows youâre on your period. he holds you close when youâre asleep in bed together, rubbing a gentle thumb against the skin of your cheek because heâs aware thatâs what it takes for you to fall asleep, and makes sure you know heâs always going to be there for you in any time of need, even if heâs a thousand miles away. heâs never once made you doubt him, never once given you any reason to suspect he could be anything beyond the perfect, storybook written boyfriend heâs always been.Â
until today, at least.
it was a day like any other, a day where you wouldnât have expected things to take the turn they took at all. you and sunghoon were tangled up in your lavender sheets with your leg thrown over his, the morning sun streaming through the beige curtains youâd picked out on your ikea date together, and no alarms were intact to disturb you as it was the weekend. thatâs probably why you both found yourselves in your current situation, your mouths meeting sloppily for short kisses and your boyfriendâs cock buried to the hilt inside you, thrusting ever so gently every other second as he whispered sweet praises to you between the meshing of your lips. the only sounds heard beyond the chirping of the birds outside your window were your soft moans and his low grunts, alongside the quiet noises of your slick dragging against his dick.
âfuck, baby. you feel so good.â sunghoon mumbles, pressing gentle smooches along the skin of your chin and jaw. you reply back something unintelligible, too lost in the euphoria heâs providing you to even form a coherent answer, which only makes him chuckle. he pulls back to admire your figure underneath him, a smile spreading across his lip at the sight of you laid out oh so pretty and pliant just for him. for him. all for his use. his use and his use only. the eventual thought makes his cock twitch inside you, and sunghoon momentarily slows down his movements in fear heâll accidentally lose control of himself and fuck you into the sheets. his loss of momentum causes you to whine out loud though, large doe eyes blinking up at him in wonder, almost as if asking what happened, which does not make your boyfriendâs job any easier.
âhoonie, faster.â you beg softly, one hand coming up to grip his shoulder as the other bundles up the duvet underneath you. âplease, wanâ it so bad.â sunghoon feels like his resolve is on the brink of snapping at your words, and he quickly resumes his previous pace (albeit still slower than what you wanted but better nonetheless) with gritted teeth, trying to think of something, anything that would distract him from the realisation of how fucking small you look under him, or how soft your hand feels resting on his skin. it doesnât help that the sounds spewing from your lips are so cute, only spurring him on further to do what he longs to.Â
âyeah, angel? want it faster? want hoonie to fuck you deeper?â he groans out instead, biting his lip at the sight of you nodding almost instantly to his words. your hole clenches even tighter around him as he speaks to you, and he shudders at the sensation. âshit, donât do that, princess. might cum too quickly.â he exhales shakily, confused when you shake your head. âdonât care. cum fâme. wanna feel it, please.â you plead almost instantly without thinking, sunghoonâs eyes darkening as the request leaves your mouth. his pace comes to an immediate halt after that, and you make a noise of complaint at the loss of pleasure in your lower region, legs kicking up slightly in protest as you eye your boyfriend whoâs currently trying to compose himself above you.
âdonât.. donât say stuff like that.â sunghoon sighs, eyes closed shut as you cock your head to the side. youâre about to ask him why when he speaks up again. âi wonât be able to hold myself back if you do.â he professes darkly, opening his orbs back up to look deep into yours, his smouldering gaze making you shiver. you involuntary tighten around him at his confession, and he hisses at the feeling, head snapping to look down at you and the blush spreading across your cheeks.Â
âi-i donât.. donât want you to hold back.â you mutter whilst looking away meekly before he can even comment on your actions. you meet his stare again after a beat of silence, but thereâs something dark and sinister swimming in it now, and by the time you can even process what it is, heâs suddenly sheathing himself back into your warm walls, plowing into you with a heightened pace as if this is the last time heâll ever get to fuck you. your moans tumble out of your mouth before you can even stop them, and you swear you hear sunghoon growl at the way you keen from his movements.Â
âyeah? donât want me to hold back? want me to absolutely destroy this wet cunt with my cock? ruin it for everybody else and mould it to the shape of my dick?â he grunts, a smirk spread across his face as you wildly nod at his words. âwhat, too fucked out to speak now, baby? whereâs that confidence from before, hm?â you whimper at his condescending tone, the noise travelling straight to his core as he curses, continuing to plunge himself deep into you. the tip of his cock brushes against that spongey spot inside you, and you cry out when he angles his thrusts to hit it each time he drives inside your pussy.Â
âwho knew you were such a slut, huh baby? tell me, how long have you wanted me to spread you open and fuck you like i hated you?â sunghoon pants, tongue lolling out to lick at the sweat gathering on your neck. âs-so long, hoonie!â you mewl in response, eyes rolling to the back of your head when he bites down on your skin. âwanted you toâ hnng, wanted you to bend me over and throw me around so bad!â sunghoon laughs breathlessly at your answer.Â
âyeah, pretty? want me to use my big arms and toss you onto the bed? you shouldâve told me sooner that you were such a whore.â you clench at the degrading name, and sunghoon almost stumbles into you at the sudden jolt of shock. âwouldâve done everything you wanted me to. wanted it just as bad as you, did ya know that?â he grits out, pace unrelenting and unforgiving as he proceeds to pound into you. âyouâre so fucking small, baby. makes me so goddamn hard every time i think about it. just want to, oh fuckâ want to hold you down and make you take it.âÂ
âdo it! do it, hoonie, please do it! make me take it, i wanâ take it for you.â you sob, and sunghoon physically feels the last of his self restrain break in half. heâs far too fucked out now to go back to his old ways, far too gone in the dizziness of making you feel good. his only goal now is to make you cum violently around him, and heâll stop at nothing to achieve that. âgonna do it, baby. just wait, gonna fuck you so dumb, youâll be begging me to stop.â he pauses momentarily to grab at the plush of your thigh and tosses your leg over his shoulder, resuming his past actions in the blink of an eye as you cry out at the change. he hits deeper, more harsh this way, and you swear you can feel him battering your cervix with each thrust delivered to your abused cunt.
âfuck, look at that.â sunghoon laughs in disbelief, his eyes fixed on the slightly evident bulge of his cock thrusting in and out of you in your stomach. âtaking my cock so well, princess. you gonna cum for me soon, yeah? gonna cum for hoonie and make a mess of me?â he coos at the way youâre drooling, swiping a thumb up to wipe at the spit leaking out of your mouth before sucking it off, the visual of it only making you whine even more. by now, the bed is stained with your leaking arousal, but neither of you care, especially not when he involuntarily moves his hand to press down on your stomach. his movements only cause you to double over in pleasure, and before either of you know it, youâre shaking through an orgasm, thrashing and wailing as tears stream down your face.
âshit, shit, shit! thatâs so hot, oh fuck.â sunghoon moans. âyou did so well, angel. did so fucking good for me, you deserve a reward, donât you? donât you, my baby?â he rambles, and you whine in overstimulation as his thrusts grow more frantic and misplaced when he begins chasing his own release. âget ready, princess, âm gonna fill you up. gonna breed you so, so good and make you take it, yeah? youâll take it, wonât you? take it so good for me like you always do.â by this point, youâre both trembling and whining out loud, sunghoon pistoning his hips into you as he desperately fixes to cum. he can feel the pressure building up, his balls tightening with each harsh thrust he delivers inside of you, and youâre more than ready to feel him ooze out of you, encouraging words spilling from your lips.
âdo it, hoonie! do it, please! make me full and fuck it back into me. iâll take it so good, so good, please baby, please.â youâre babbling by now, too fucked out to think let alone speak, but your words seem to send sunghoon over the edge because by the time youâre even halfway through your sentence, heâs shooting ropes inside of you, painting your walls white with his seed. thereâs so much of it that it almost leaks out despite his cock keeping you plugged up, and you watch his beautiful face contort in pleasure, eyebrows furrowed and eyes clenched shut as he continues filling you up.Â
âfuck..â sunghoon sighs out once heâs come down from his high, looking down to grip his cock and pull it out slightly only to push it back in when your cunt gushes with his release, causing him to bite his lip at the sinful sight. you whine when he moves back into you, his large arms caging your smaller frame in as he leans down to pepper salty kisses all over your face. âmy good girl.â he whispers, slightly collapsing on top of you to catch his breath. his weight on you feels comforting, almost natural as you wrap your tired arms around his back tightly, pressing your bodies together even more than they already are to feel closer and connected to him.
âi didnât know you were into that.â sunghoon speaks up after a moment of silence, causing you to open your eyes and look at him. he moves so heâs laying on his side, cock still keeping you plugged up despite the awkward position. âinto what?â he deadpans at your reaction, and you giggle. âcâmon, babe. you canât seriously look like that and expect me to not be feral for you.â you smile, and sunghoon huffs out a laugh, spooning an arm around you as he pulls your body closer to his warm one. âstill, who knew my girl was so freaky?â you swat at him, and his chest rumbles with laughter, the sound sending an odd pool of warmth flowing through your chest. you both lay there in silence after that, basking in each otherâs presence and enjoying the serenity and afterglow which comes from what was quite literally the best sex of your lives.Â
âi love you.â you hear sunghoon mumble suddenly, his voice drowsy as he yawns cutely, a large grin spreading on your face at the simple three words which leave him. you reach out for his hand, lacing your small fingers in it before bringing it up to your mouth and pressing a kiss to the back. âlove you more, hoonie.â you sigh out in satisfaction, eyes slipping shut slowly as sleep welcomes your tired senses.
you gradually drift off, thoughts filled with sweet dreams of your boyfriend and his precious laughter.Â
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âș PAIRING: jay park x female reader
âș GENRE: hybrid au, smut
âș SUMMARY: the story of how you end up spending a week alone with your ownerâs hot friend.
âș CW/TW: cat hybrid!reader, heeseung as readerâs owner, (slight) somnophilia, fingering, oral sex (f & m), unprotected sex, squirting, creampies, overstimulation, multiple rounds
âș WC: 5k
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âPlease?â
Once Heeseung looks into your wide, pleading eyes he knows heâs done for. From the moment he adopted you, heâs never been able to deny any of your requests no matter how unreasonable they were. This time is no different. The only difference is that now heâs also going to make your wish his friendâs problem.
âOkay,â he concedes quickly. âBut only if Jay says yes. If not, youâll have to stay with Jake.â
You canât hide your excitement. âThank you, Seungie!â
Your owner laughs joyfully when you throw your arms around him and affectionately nuzzle your cheek against his. As usual, youâve coaxed him into giving you what you want. Thatâs part of the reason you love him so much. There isnât anything he wonât do to make you happy.
âIâll call him now and ask if heâll look after you while Iâm gone,â Heeseung says as he gets up from the couch.
You give him a nod, settling back on the cushions as he gets his hot friend on the phone. Once you hear the door to Heeseungâs room close, you jump off the couch with a squeal. You skip over to your room, heart racing as you think about the fact that youâre going to spend an entire week with Jay, alone. Thereâs no doubt in your mind that heâll say yes since Heeseung is the one asking. You giddily start to pack your bags, knowing your owner will come into your room shortly to tell you the good news.
âShe wants to stay with me?â
Heeseung laughs at his friendâs disbelief. âYeah. Iâve told you before that Y/N really likes you.â
âUh,â Jay swallows nervously. âReally?â
His friend laughs again, but Jay canât see the humor in the situation. Itâs not that he doesnât want to help his friend out, but heâs always thought that you hate him. Almost every time he visited Heeseung, you stayed in your room until he left. On the off chance that you didnât hide away in your room, you were glued to your ownerâs side and shied away from any attention Jay tried to give you.
At first, he thought thatâs all it wasâyou being shy. However, when he spoke to Sunghoon and Jake, he found out that you were an extremely friendly cat. They even showed him cute pictures and videos to prove it.
âYes, bro. She wouldnât ask to stay with you if she didnât.â
Jay licks his lips and scratches his temple. âOkay, yeah. Y/N can stay with me.â
He can picture Heeseungâs bright smile. âThanks! Iâll stop by on Friday to drop her off.â
âSounds good.â
âI really do appreciate it.â
When Heeseung hangs up, Jay flops back on his bed. His heart pounds harshly against his ribcage as he thinks about what heâs agreed to. Maybe this will be an opportunity for you and him to finally get closer. Somehow, he manages to push past the nerves he feels to remind himself that will be a good thing.
On Friday, youâre practically skipping with joy as Heeseung leads you to his friendâs apartment. You swing your intertwined hands back and forth as your nose picks up on all the new scents surrounding you. Heeseung smiles fondly as he goes to knock on his friendâs door. He can tell youâre excited about being in a new place, and it makes him less worried about leaving you for a week.
You suck in a quiet break when the door opens. Jay looks extremely good, and you canât keep your eyes off of him as your owner gives him one of those man-hugs that male humans do.
âHey, Y/N,â Jay gives you a friendly smile after he separates from his friend.
âHi,â you say shyly, barely resisting the urge to hide behind Heeseung.
Youâre led inside a second later, and you canât keep your eyes from examining every inch of the place. Itâs nice and spacious. The more you look around, the more excited you are for your stay.
âI prepared the guest room for you,â Jay says as he leads you down the hall to a nice, spacious room.
You let go of Heeseungâs hand as you venture further into the room. Itâs nice and comfy-looking, but it doesnât really smell like Jay. Like at all. You try not to frown as you thank him sweetly. He seems relieved that you donât dislike it.
Heeseung sets your bags down on the bed, smiling a little sadly at you. âOkay, well I have to leave now if I want to catch my flight.â
You pout slightly but nod and follow the two men to the living room. Although you are excited to be left alone with Jay, part of you feels sad. Youâve never been away from your owner for this long before.
Heeseung stops and gives you a sweet smile that you love so much. âY/N. Be a good girl while Iâm gone.â
You roll your eyes, but nod obediently anyway. âI promise Iâll be good, Hee.â
Your owner gives you a warm hug, whispering promises to be back soon.
After Heeseung leaves, Jay invites you to watch a movie with him. Heâs nervous and shy, but the feelings slowly dissolve when you happily agree and join him on the couch.
âCan we cuddle?â You ask boldly, tail swishing behind you.
Jay swallows thickly. He canât look away from you. The way you asked was so sweet that he knows if you were ever to ask him for anything else, he wouldnât be able to say no.
âWe canât?â Your ears flatten against your head as your lips form a pout.
âW-We can,â Jay rushes out, feeling a blush crawl up his neck. âItâs justâyou donât have to ask.â
You grin and pounce on him. Jay laughs as you crawl on his lap and nuzzle your head under his chin. He holds you close to him as your sleek tail wraps around his waist.
âHeeseung always tells me to ask before I cuddle humans,â you explain as you press yourself closer to him.
Jay licks his lips and closes his eyes when you start to purr. One of his hands gently caresses your hips while the other gently smooths up and down your calf. You grin into his neck, happy that you decided to wear a skirt. All of your plans are slowly coming together, and you know by the end of the week, youâll have Jay exactly where you want him.
When the night rolls around, you put on the cute nightie Heeseung bought you on your birthday. You wait for a bit before you tiptoe to Jayâs bedroom. Luckily the door is open, and heâs standing by his bed. Heâs in nothing but a pair of sweats with his hair still wet from his shower. You bite your lip as your eyes linger on his muscular torso.
âJay,â you call softly, making sure to keep your eyes on his face.
âY/N,â Jayâs face is a little flushed. His eyes soften when he sees the hesitant expression on your face. âWhatâs wrong?â
Your ears twitch as you play with your thumbs. âI-Iâm not really used to sleeping alone anymore. I thought I would be okay, butâŠâ
Jayâs heart clenches. You look so nervous and shy. Heeseung never mentioned that you still had trouble sleeping alone. Maybe itâs because you miss him so much that you canât sleep. So, he ignores the harsh beat of his heart to give you a warm smile.
âYou can sleep with me⊠if you want.â
You nod shyly, mumbling out a quiet okay before slowly entering his room. Jay draws the covers for you, waiting until youâre settling in his bed to get in next to you. His heart is pounding when you cuddle up to his side. You breathe out a sigh of relief when Jay wraps an arm around you to pull you closer.
Itâs easy for you to fall asleep in his warm embrace, and all you can think about is how youâll have Jay wrapped around your finger by the end of the week.
Jay feels like the worst friend ever.
Youâre extremely precious to Heeseung, yet here he is, lusting after you. Itâs not his fault youâre extremely lovable and beautiful. Youâre extremely sweet and cute. Anything you do makes him feel an intense amount of affection. Heâd be made of stone if he didnât feel anything for you at all.
Honestly, he canât feel too bad since itâs obvious that you feel the same way about him. Itâs why heâs woken up to you nuzzling his cock through his underwear for three days straight. Today, he doesnât feel like pretending to be asleep until you stop. When he quietly groans out your name, it only encourages you.
You mewl and whine as you press your face closer to his bulge to rub your cheek against it. Jay coos at you, moving his hand to gently caress one of your soft ears. Thatâs all the encouragement you need to give his thick cock a kitten lick. Your tongue wets his hardening cock through his underwear. Jay canât keep quiet as you grow more eager with your movements, soaking the fabric until itâs sticking to his dick.
By now, Jayâs fully hard. He keeps groaning as he lets you have your way with his cock. Finally, you have enough and decide you want to taste the real thing. You lift your head and bite your lip. Dark eyes stare at you with heat as your sleep tail swishes behind you. Without any hesitation, you pull his underwear down his thighs, moaning when you see his big cock slap against his lower abdomen. Itâs twitching and leaking with precum thatâs ready to be lapped up.
Your eyes gleam as you go to get your treat. Jay moans loudly when you start to suckle his tip. You mewl as your rough tongue laps at his slit repeatedly, eagerly licking up all the precum dripping from his cock.
âFuck, kitten,â Jay groans, voice thick with sleep. âCouldnât wait until I woke up, hm?â
You stare at him as your tongue lolls out to messily lap at his sticky tip. The whine you let out is so cute that Jay canât stop himself from petting your twitching ears.
You pout at him cutely. âJust wanted a taste.â
âYeah?â Jay groans as his hips shift, nudging your mouth with his cock. He curses under his breath when you take his aching dick into your mouth. âPretty kitty just wanted some cream, huh?â
You moan in confirmation, eagerly taking his thick cock down your throat. Saliva drips from the corners of your mouth as you bob your head up and down. Jay moans loudly as your tongue caresses the tip of his dick, slurping up all the precum greedily. His eyes almost cross from how good your hot little mouth feels. Heâs never had anyone else give him head like this, and he knows that nothing else will ever compare.
âGod, baby,â Jay groans when you release his cock with a lewd pop and start to lick your way down to his balls.
He spreads his legs when you take his sac into your mouth. You whine as you suckle and lick at the sensitive skin. The vibrations from the sounds youâre making make him moan loudly. His cock is leaking steadily now. Precum drips down his throbbing length and down to his balls. Your eyes zero in on the shiny trail it leaves behind. You pull away from his balls, leaving them coated in your saliva. Jay tries not to cum when you start to lick back up his cock, lapping up his precum with a wanton mewl.
âYou got my cum all over your lips, kitten,â Jay pants, cock pulsing and leaking with more precum for you to lap up. âSuch a messy girl.â
The way heâs gazing at you fondly makes your cunt clench around nothing. Your tail sways excitedly as you hum against his cock. âYour messy girl.â
With that, you open your mouth to take his cock back into your mouth. You swallow as much of it as you can take. Jay groans again, hips bucking up to sink his cock further down your throat. Heâs petting your ears as his balls start to tighten up.
âIâm close, baby,â Jay groans.
You moan in satisfaction and relax your mouth to sink further down on his cock. His leaking tip hits the back of your throat, which makes Jay let out a guttural groan.
âFuckâY/N!â
You feel his big cock pulse wildly before his orgasm hits. Ropes of hot cum spill into your mouth, and you eagerly swallow it all. Jayâs pretty face contorts into a blissful expression as you pull your mouth up and let him shoot the rest of his load on your tongue. Your tail sways back and forth as your mouth fills with his hot cum. You swallow every last drop before you start to lave your rough tongue across his twitching cock to clean up anything you missed.
âTastes so good,â you moan before kissing the tip of his dick.
Jay sits up and yanks you toward him. You whine when he smashes his lips on yours, kissing you messily. He pulls you closer until youâre practically on his lap. You moan into his mouth when he forces his tongue past your lips to taste you. Jayâs large hands squeeze your hips as his tongue smooths over your own. His mind is swimming, and he canât help but think that you taste so much sweeter when youâre mixed with him.
When Jay finally separates from you, his gaze is dark. Those hungry eyes slowly trail down your body. Jay bites his lips before he goes to pull off your nightie. He lets out a groan when he sees your naked body on display for him. The sultry look on your face is starting to drive him crazy. With your cute tail swishing back and forth excitedly, he knows heâs got you exactly where he wants you.
Large hands trail down your body until one of them is cupping your hot cunt. You mewl and keen into Jayâs hand when his fingers gently trace over your slit. He licks his lips. âYouâll let me play with your little pussy, wonât you, baby?â
You moan with a nod, grinding down into his hand. âYes, fuck. Want you so bad, Jay.â
âI know, kitten,â his voice is full of lust. âDonât worry. Iâm going to stuff your pretty little cunt until itâs the shape of my cock.â
You yowl when he manhandles you onto your hands and knees. He does it so effortlessly that you can feel more slick drip out of you. Jay gets behind you, groaning when he sees your arousal covering your thighs.
âFuck, kitty. Youâre fucking soaked,â Jay growls heatedly as he palms your ass.
He almost loses it when he sees your hole clench in need. Jay spreads your ass and buries his face in your pussy. His hot tongue parts your slit to lap up all your juices before he moves on to your clit. He starts to lap at it like a starved man, moaning into your heat like you did around his cock. His tongue flicks your puffy bud, licking up every last drop of your arousal. You cry out as his hungry mouth devours your cunt.
âSo fucking sweet. Canât wait to fuck your pretty little pussy.â
You whine loudly when he pulls away from your cunt. The empty feeling is quickly soothed when you feel him spit on it before diving back in to fuck his tongue into your hole. Unabashed moans fall from your lips as you buck your pussy back into his mouth. You whimper in pleasure when Jay slips two fingers into your clenching pussy. He angles his wrist to push more juices out of your squelching cunt. Almost immediately, he finds your g-spot. Your legs start to shake when he starts to rub that soft spot inside you.
âOh fuck,â you wail, hips rutting back eagerly. âGod, Jay. Feels so fucking good. Iâm gonnaââ
The way youâre gushing into his mouth and fingers makes Jay grin deviously. âYouâre gonna cum already, baby? Or are you gonna squirt for me?â
You mewl, embarrassed that he can tell. âFuck, Jay. Y-You canât justâŠâ
âCanât what, kitty?â Jay laughs teasingly. âJust do it for me, yeah? I wanna feel you squirt on my tongue.â
With that, his tongue dives back into your pulsing cunt. The mind-numbing rhythm of his fingers and tongue pushes you over the edge quickly. With a loud moan of his name, you clamp down on his fingers and cum. Your cunt gushes slick all over his face and hand, completely drenching him in your juices. You canât even feel embarrassed because pleasure clouds all of your senses and thoughts.
âFuck, kitten. Thatâs it,â Jay moans into your pussy as he greedily laps up everything youâre releasing.
You mewl loudly as he licks you clean. His tongue smooths over your sensitive bundle of nerves until youâre trembling against him. Jay groans into your heat one last time before deciding youâre ready to take his cock. Just before he pulls away, he presses a gentle kiss on your pussy.
Jay kneels behind you, nudging the head of his cock against your slick entrance. His large hands spread your ass so he gets a full view of how your little hole stretches open for his fat cock. The strangled moan he lets out as he sinks into your hot cunt mixes in with your loud cry of pleasure. He bottoms out with one rough thrust. Your ears twitch as his pelvis rests flush against your ass.
You moan loudly when Jay caresses your tail, stroking it from the base until youâre bucking your hips against him and gushing all over his thick cock.
âJay!â You cry out as your claws dig into his sheets.
âSuch a pretty kitty,â Jayâs grunt is deep as he pumps his cock in and out of your sopping cunt. âTight little pussyâs gonna milk me dry.â
He slaps your ass before he yanks on your tail. You cry out wantonly, pussy tightening around him as your eyes roll to the back of your skull. Jay keeps pounding into your dripping cunt mercilessly. Heâs splitting you open just like he promised, and you love every second of it.
âHarder,â you whine, ass bouncing back to meet his rough movements. âFuck. Want more. Please.â
Jay smirks through a pleased groan. He grabs your arms and pulls your body backward into a pretty arch. His cock throbs inside you as your pussy flutters and pulses at the new angle. It feels like heâs fucking his cock deeper into you. You moan about how much you love it since it feels like his leaking tip is practically slamming into your womb.
âDidnât know you were such a cockhungry kitty,â Jayâs deep laugh makes you tighten around his cock again.
You let out a broken whine, eyes rolling back as he splits you open. Slick is dripping down your thighs, filling the air with a wet plap plap plap sound every time Jay rolls his hips against you. His heavy balls slap your aching clit with every rough thrust, and it just pushes you closer to your climax.
âI-Itâs too much, Jay!â You cry out as he keeps drilling his aching cock into you.
His laugh is dark and so damn attractive. âYou can take it, baby. Youâll take everything I give you like a good girl, right?â
A deep affection warms his chest and makes his cock twitch when you obediently nod as your rough tongue lolls out of your mouth. Youâre already so fucked out that he just wants to keep that look on your face for the rest of the day.
âGood kitty,â Jay moans, hand going up to pet your soft ears. âNow squeeze your hot little pussy on my cock so I can cream it like you want.â
You do as he says, moaning loudly as your tight walls clamp down on his cock. Your legs tremble as your second orgasm hits you all full force. Pleasure consumes your entire body as you gush all over Jayâs cock.
âThatâs it, baby. Shit. Good fucking girl,â Jay groans as he fucks his cock into you harder.
His hips stutter slightly, rutting against your ass when he can no longer hold back his own orgasm. Jay spills his thick load inside you. His hot cum paints your walls, and you can only mewl and take it all pliantly.
Just when you think Jayâs done, he slips one hand down to your slippery clit. His fingers rub your sensitive bud as he starts to fuck his cum deeper into you.
âJay!â You cry out as your hips instinctively move to meet his movements.
His fingers rub fast circles on your clit until a second orgasm coats his cock again. You cry out loudly, claws digging into the couch. Jay moans along with you, slamming his dick into your sloppy hole to help you ride out your orgasm.
âGod, baby. Youâre gonna drive me crazy,â Jayâs voice is completely sated as he caresses your ass.
You shiver when Jay slowly pulls out of you with a low hiss. A deep groan spills from his lips when he sees your pretty pussy leaking with his cum. Something primal inside him snaps when he sees your cute little pussy dripping with his seed. His pupils dilate as he goes to spread your puffy lips, making his cum drip down your thighs.
âJay,â you mewl as your cunt throbs with need. âWant more.â
Jay licks his lips as he fingers his cum back into your messy pussy. âYeah? You want me to fuck your little pussy raw until youâre dripping with cum?â
Your moan is like music to his ears. âYes, fuck. Want your cum so bad!â
Jay slaps your ass before he flips you on your back. âDirty kitty. Just so hungry for this cock, huh?â
You mewl cutely and nod. Dark eyes stare at you, and it makes your pussy pulse with anticipation. At that moment, you that Jay is insatiable.
âIâm gonna breed this pussy all day long,â his growl makes you drip with more arousal.
Jay holds your thighs open as he sinks his cock back into your sloppy pussy. Almost instantly, youâre reduced to a fucked out mess. Your lips sloppily capture Jayâs as his fat cock spears you open. Wet squelching sounds fill the room and mix in perfectly with your desperate gasps and filthy moans. Each one of Jayâs crazed thrusts sends you further into a mindless state.
âYou like it when I fuck you here, baby?â Jay rasps as his thick cock drills into you. âLike how Iâm making a mess out of this little pussy?â
You mewl desperately as your hips roll to meet his harsh movements. By now, youâre acting like a desperate animal searching for release. His leaking tip keeps slamming into your g-spot, and you know it wonât be long before youâre creaming on his big cock all over again.
Jay lets out a laugh when your mouth drops open in a silent moan. He can tell youâre so cock drunk that you probably wouldnât be able to tell him your own name if he asks. This only makes him pound into your plushy pussy harder, eager to hear you scream for him.Â
âJ-Jaaay,â you whine wantonly.
Once again, he laughs quietly, and leans in close. âWhat is it?â
You donât immediately answer him and his mouth latches on your neck, nipping patiently. âCâmon, kitty. Use your words.â
But you literally canât, especially when he licks a hot stripe on your neck. It all feels so good that the only thing you can think about is his cock. Eventually, you manage to speak, even if itâs just a fucked out mess of words.
âS-So good,â you mewl, eyes almost crossing. âFu-Fuck! Love your cock!â
âThatâs right, baby,â Jay groans as he starts to thrust into you with renewed urgency. âIâm fucking you real good, huh? Pretty kitty canât get enough of this cock.â
âYes!â You wail loudly. âItâs so good! So so good!â
Your cries get louder when Jay grabs the plush of your thighs and pushes them into your abdomen. The new angle lets him fuck his cock deeper inside you. A loud moan tears from your throat as Jay starts slamming into you at a relentless pace. Itâs not long before a familiar feeling starts to build in the pit of your stomach.Â
You whine and dig your nails into Jayâs forearms. âFuck. Iâm so close. Gonna cum!â
Jay smashes his mouth on yours in a sloppy kiss. He needs to feel you cream on his cock again. Itâs so addictingâjust like you. With one last hard thrust, youâre pushed over the edge and cum on his dick hard. Jay swallows your wanton cries of pleasure as your tight walls spasm around his cock. He keeps slamming his cock into you without mercy, needing to fuck you through it.
âIâm gonna fill you up,â Jay groans the promise against your lips. âFuck. Gonna cream this tight pussy. Get ready to take it all, baby.â
His leaking tip that spongy spot inside you again, and thatâs all he needs to release his seed inside you. Hot ropes of cum fill your pussy until itâs frothing at the base of his cock where you two are connected. The way he keeps fucking into you triggers another orgasm from you, this one more powerful than the last. You squirt all over his throbbing cock, covering his balls and lower abdomen with your juices.
Jay moans delightedly, pressing you into a position heâs dreamed of having you in. Youâre completely overstimulated at this point, but you love the mating press youâve been put in. Heavy balls slap against your ass with every sloppy thrust, and you briefly think that this is what heaven must feel like.
âWant more cum?â Jay grins knowingly, loving how you mewl desperately and clamp down on his cock.
Listening to the fucked out noises you let out makes him pound into you harder. You whimper softly as your eyes roll to the back of your head. It feels so fucking good that all you can do is moan like youâre in heat. Everything is reflected in the state of Jayâs bedsheets. Theyâre soaked with cum and squirt, and the roomâs air is thick with the smell of sex. Itâs all so filthy, but it only turns you on even more.
âPlease,â you beg, needing to be filled again.
You glance down to watch Jay fuck you raw. His big cock is dripping with your mixed cum. Your pussy pulses at the filthy sight, especially when you notice the remnants from the previous rounds sticking to his thighs.
âIâll give it to you,â Jay coos, cock throbbing as his climax steadily approaches. âPretty little kittyâs earned some more cream.â
You moan loudly when you feel him spill into you again.
After that, Jay puts you in every position he wants and fills you with cum to your heartâs content. Finally, you end up on top of him. Heâs mindlessly bouncing you on his cock, fucking you like youâre his personal fucktoy.
âThatâs it, baby,â Jay growls as he kneads your ass, moving you up and down on his cock at an agonizingly slow pace.
Your hot cunt engulfs his cock deliciously. It gets tighter and tighter every time his hips thrust up to meet your movements. Your pussy is already full of his cum, but Jay canât stop fucking you. Heâs completely hooked on your pussy, and every orgasm heâs had so far only makes his cock harder and his balls tighter. Being buried all the way inside you feels too good for him to even think about stopping.
âGod, kitten. You were just made to take cock, huh?â
Jayâs thrusts are slow and deep, still making sure heâs putting your pleasure above his. In all his greed, he makes sure to hit all the right spots so you cream on his cock again.
âJay,â you moan when he lets go of one of your ass cheeks to caress your tail.
The way you moan his name makes him bounce you on his cock faster. You cry out in pleasure as your warm pussy squeezes him. A mix of your cream and his cum coat his dick to form a ring at the base of it. Heâs already pulled so many orgasms from you that itâs hard to keep count, but even though youâre overstimulated you donât think to ask him to stop.Â
Jayâs eyes are focused on your face. Heâs basking in the pretty faces youâre making now that youâre completely fucked out. His eyes roll to the back of his head as he starts to thrust deeper and harder into your sloppy pussy. Jayâs large hands pull your hips all the way down until youâre both cumming.
âFuck, kitty,â Jay groans as his cock head spurts with cum. âSo fucking good.â
You mewl and shove your face into his neck, purring in complete delight. The both of you are breathing heavily as you slowly come down from your highs. Neither of you make a move to separate. Jay presses sweet kisses to your hair and rubs your back soothingly as his cock pulses inside you.
âYou did so good for me, baby,â he coos.
You hum into the underside of his jaw. âLoved it so much.â
Jay grins, ignoring his vibrating phone on the nightstand. Heâs too busy clinging to you to read the message from Heeseung that says heâs going to come back early to surprise you.
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âWhatâre you doing here?â I mumble over my shoulder. Although Iâm not looking, I know without a doubt who it is.
Ray sighs. âLook, for what itâs worth, Iâm sorry.â
âNot worth much,â I say, staring at the picture of my partner, framed and unnatural. She never would have wanted this. Her family didnât know her anymore, why were they allowed to make these choices?
A groan behind me finally makes me turn. Ray stands there with his arms crossed, full disguise. I stare at him so long - not thinking much of anything, just numb - that I startle when he clears his throat.
âHow long are you going to mope like this, Saga?ââ He uses my code name, although Iâm not dressed in my usual clothes. I didnât take much care with my disguise today, just throwing on my mask and hood over dark clothes for the funeral.
I look away. ââIf you came here to fight, letâs just get it over with. Iâm not in the mood today.â
He sighs again. Why does he keep doing that? âIâm not here to fight. Iâm here to pay my respects. I know you and Kya were close.â
âItâs my fault,â I whisper, turning back to the picture. She wasnât just my partner, she was my best friend. I knew she was still a newbie, and I told her to go by herself. I thought she could handle it.Â
By the time I got there, it was too late.
âHey,â Ray says gently, shocking me. âIt wasnât your fault. I was there, remember? No one could have predicted that a normal everyday occurrence would turn so violent.âÂ
It was true. Ray had been there, for the same reason I was. Our fight had traveled several blocks and we happened to chance upon the scene. My fight with Ray had been forgotten as I rushed to Kyaâs aid, and until this moment, I had forgotten he had been there at all.
I start walking toward the door, unable to stay a moment longer.Â
Ray follows me. âItâs okay to be sad, Saga.â
I stubbornly ignore him.
He rolls his eyes behind me and I scoff. âYou know I can see you. Why do you insist on being rude anyway?â
He grins. âItâs what I do best. I just wanted to make sure youâre okay.â
âArgh!â I whip around to face him, face red with anger. Ray actually takes a step back. âI am not okay! My rookie died because of something I told them to do! My best friend is gone because I wasnât there for her! And worst of all, she never got the chance to do anything she wanted to do! She was only 19âŠâ My voice trails off with a sob.
Ray opens his mouth, but I cut him off. âNo, you know whatâs worse? You, coming here, to her funeral to mock me. Follow me, fight me, yell at me to your heart's content, but donât sit here and mock me by pretending you care about Kya or my feelings!â
âFine!â he snaps back, finally losing his temper. âIâll tell you the truth if you want!â
I throw my hands up in frustration. âWhat I really want is for you to leave me alone, but go ahead!â
Rayâs voice drops back down in volume, slightly lower than his regular speaking tone, his voice shaking slightly with anger. âIâm not pretending anything. I may not have known Kya much at all, but I do know that on the few occasions I saw her, she seemed to be a genuinely good and happy person.â
âWhy do you-â
âIâm not finished!â he snaps, before continuing again. âAs for you, I do know you. I knew you would blame yourself, I knew you would be upset and sad, I knew that you would be here, and I knew you would stay long after everyone else left. I know you. Your feelings havenât been a mystery to me for years!Â
âThe truth is, I know who you are.â He doesnât meet my eyes as he says it. âInside, outside, underneath the mask and hood. You arenât a mystery to me. I honestly thought you would recognize me long before now.â
I stare at him, unable to speak, trying to understand what he is telling me. âYou-â
Ray looks up into my eyes, voice soft. âEmma.â
He slowly pulls off the mask, revealing the one face I didnât expect to see.
The one that equal parts of me hated and loved, unable to decide between desire and defense. Part of me never wanted to see him again, had hoped he died.
Part of me was so relieved that I wanted to cry.
I chose the latter.
your a super Villian/super hero who's partner just died. When the funeral was supposed to be attended, nobody came, except for one person, your arch nemesis, who came there to comfort you through these tough times
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Ewan Mitchell x actress!reader
a/n: the elections distracted me! This should have been up ages ago đ Anyhow, look at our boy pout up there. Darling never stood a chance.
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Darling gets closer to making her choice.
The holiday is already shaping up to be your most memorable one yet, and itâs only halfway done.Â
Between all the commotion in the press about Ewanâs film, the lively spin-the-bottle game last night, and your⊠boys being more brazen in their affections, it doesnât matter that youâre still half-limping and that one gorgeous blonde girl is testing the limits of your patienceâMallorca is one for the books.
Half of your vacation crew decided to head out into town for the afternoon, allowing you to see more of the local scene. Bethany, Phia, Luke, and Elliott have ventured off to see some shops moments prior, promising to rejoin the group with loads of goodies. So you walk the cobblestone streets with Tom and Freddie on either side, the lads promising to catch you should your ankle âbetray you and make you faceplant on the streetâ.Â
Because, as Freddie put it, they âcanât have the showâs rising star with a blow to her money-maker,â pertaining to your lovely face.Â
You were able to finally remove your fracture boot that morning, after a long-distance call to your doctor, but you still have to slightly drag your left leg as you walk.
âMate, if you could hurry up a little, maybe we can see more of the town,â Tom remarks with a cheeky smirk. Heâs had an arm looped around yours the whole time, ever on the lookout.Â
âSure, let me just use my incredible powers of self-healing. Maybe we can check one of these souvenir shops if theyâve got a bionic leg on sale,â you deadpan, fighting hard to stifle a laugh.Â
The fledgling weeks of spring bring a steady warmth to Mallorca. The sunlight is bright yet tempered as it casts its glow over the cobblestone streets, illuminating the quaint storefronts and cafes that line that town square. Itâs a picture-perfect afternoon, so long as you donât turn back to Ewan and Louise who are trailing a bit behind.Â
But your curiosity wins over, and you see Ewan smiling politely as Louise gestures animatedly, completely absorbed in her tale. You immediately realise your mistake, a pang of somethingâguilt, longing, confusion⊠and jealousy, because who are you foolingâtightening in your chest. You quickly turn back to Tom and Freddie, who are too busy scheming to notice your reaction.
âSo, do we let Ewan suffer, or do we intervene?â Tom asks, tilting his head toward the pair.
You can only shrug. âI think heâs handling it. Itâs probably better to give them some space.â The truth is, you know Ewan well enough to sense when heâs at his witâs end, and even though he looks like heâs about to throw in the towel, you donât want to complicate things further.Â
Who are you to deny Louise some quality time with your good buddy Ewan Mitchell? He is a stand-up guy, after all, and all of you are friends here. Itâs a casual day out, nothing but a good time.Â
And⊠you do need some time to let his confession sink in. He has given the power to you, and the only thing left to do would be to choose him.
You love him, you love him, you love him.Â
So the choice should be easy, but why isnât it?
Freddie smirks. âSpace, you say? You mean youâre hoping heâll finally snap and make a break for it?â
âMaybe,â you admit with a small smile. âCan you blame him?â
The three of you linger by a cafe, chatting to your heartâs delight. You catch sight of Ewan glancing your way, a genuine smile tugging at his lips. Hey, he mouths, staring you down until Louise nudges him, and he has to shift his focus back to her.Â
âHonestly, though,â Tom continues, âwhatâs the deal with him and Louise? He looks like heâs drowning over there.â
âMaybe sheâs finally wearing him down,â you say, half-joking, but youâre aware of how often Ewan gives too much of himself sometimes, especially to someone like Louise. The boyâs just too sweet and polite to say no.Â
âI give him five minutes before he either leaves or starts shouting for you,â Freddie chimes in, his eyes dancing behind his sunglasses. âItâs a safe bet.â
Before you can respond, Ewanâs voice rises above the clamour of the street. âActually, thatâs not what I meantââ
âI canât believe you thought that!â Louise interrupts, playfully punching Ewanâs arm, her tone a mix of disbelief and enthusiasm. âBut thatâs what makes you so unique! You always see things differently.â
Whatâs unique is the expression Ewan sports as a reaction, akin to a deer about to be hit by a Jeep.
âUnique?â Ewan repeats, a note of incredulity in his voice. He shakes his head, his mouth falling open, like heâs trying to find the words. Louise leans in closer, mentioning something about how cute he looks when confused.Â
Well, sheâs not wrong there. You have to hand it to herâsheâs persistent.
âWhy are we just standing around?â Tom suddenly says. âLetâs get some drinks. We need to fuel up for the gossip you owe us.â
âIâm in,â you say a bit too quickly, desperate for a distraction. You motion toward a quaint nearby bar with a bustling atmosphere. It seems like the perfect refuge, far from the intensity of the current situation. The bartender greets you with a grin, and Tom takes charge, ordering a round of brightly-coloured cocktails that seem to match the vibe of the holiday.Â
Tom gives you a sly look over his glass. âSo here we are, eh?â
âHere we are,â you nod, sensing something coming round the corner.Â
âMy god, this cocktail is amazing!â Freddie gasps dramatically, oblivious to the look you and Tom are sharing. âI must know whatâs in this⊠Is that gin and⊠and what?â
âI myself would rather know,â Tom begins, leaning forward, âabout the truth behind all the drama. The are-they-or-arenât-they of it all. My missus has also been bugging me about it. All she talks about is you and your Ewan.âÂ
Freddieâs grin is huge as he raises his glass. âBloody hell, cheers to that then! I know thereâs something brewing, but no one ever tells me the details. What is this, a fight to the death? May the best Targaryen win? Lucky girl you are.â
Tom snorts. âOr may the right man win. Which, to be honest, is not Matt in this scenario.â
Freddieâs jaw drops in mock horror, clutching his chest. You may take the lad out of classical theatre for a while, but you canât take classical theatre out of the lad. âExcuse me? Matt is a national treasure, heâs mature and reliable, and he throws a fabulous party. Might I mention how highly he speaks of you?â
Tom shoots him a scornful look. âReliable. How riveting. Look, I love the guy, but Ewanâs practically half of her soulââ
You groan. âCan we not turn this into a debate? Iâm actually trying to keep things simple now.â
âSimple,â Tom repeats, one blonde eyebrow arching. âDarling, nothing about this is simple, especially not since Ewan isnât bound to that ridiculous PR setup anymore. Are you going to pretend that it doesn't change things?â
Freddie waves a finger. âIt doesnât have to change things. Mattâs good for her. I mean, theyâre actually happy, and you need someone solid, love. Someone who isnât going to fling you around emotionally, from the very little that Iâve heard.â
Tom rolls his eyes. âOf course, youâd think that. You get all your goss from Liv and she basically adores Matt.â
Freddie clutches his glass defensively. âWell I know for a fact that Matt is fun! And steady! You donât need fireworks all the time to make something work.â
âBut fireworks are the whole point, you know?â Tom insists. âYou canât reduce a relationship to sensible compatibility and call it love.â
âLove can be practical too,â Freddie says, looking at you. âWouldnât it be nice to justâŠbreathe? To not have to worry about how heâs going to handle things every other minute?â
You wince, half-convinced by Freddieâs logic, but then Tomâs voice cuts in, softer, more serious.
âSure, she could breathe,â Tom says, âbut letâs not forget who actually takes her breath away.â
It hits you, the truth youâve been dancing around with both of them.
Freddie gives you a sidelong look. âAlright, love, confession time. Say Ewan was still bound to that PR relationship, do you really think you could have handled not being with him? Watching him essentially be with someone else?â
You swallow, glancing down at your drink. âIt would have hurt, but I would have had to handle it.â
Tom keeps the interrogation going. âAnd now? What would you do if he does end up with someone else? Louise seems to have her claws in him.â
You let out a huff, your next words decisive. âLook, if she can take him that easily, then heâs all hers.â Because that would mean all those heartfelt phrases about being so in love with you arenât true.Â
Thatâs the reasonable part of you. The other, less savoury part wouldnât hesitate to get your own claws in Louise if she swoops in to take your man, petty catfight style.
âBut see! See here,â Freddie exclaims in glee, âWeâre talking about Ewan and sheâs already stressed. She needs a break from the drama, Tom, and Matt is like⊠an oasis.â
Tom rolls his eyes but doesnât let it go. âSure, an oasis that leaves her wishing she were somewhere else half the time.â He sighs, his voice softening. âLook, Mattâs lovely, but heâs not the one. Heâs not the one who can turn your whole world upside down, and I know you two. Iâve seen you together, Iâve seen you apart, and trust me, youâre so much better together. Hell, itâs better for all of us too! I simply cannot deal with Ewan moping around again.â
You feel your cheeks warm as you consider his words. Itâs almost dizzying, trying to compare the two men, as though they represent opposite sides of you, each offering something you desperately need. Theyâre both right, in different ways. With Matt, thereâs a sense of stability that you havenât felt before. Heâs steady, heâs sweet, and he genuinely adores you despite all of the tangled strings that have bound you to Ewan.Â
But with Ewan⊠you want him, love him, with an intensity that is almost all-consuming. Itâs the kind they write songs about, the kind that drives hearts crazy.Â
Freddie drops the dramatics, his voice sincere when he speaks again. âDarling, Tomâs got a point, but just⊠be honest with yourself. What do you really want? Because whatever you decide, itâs your heart on the line. And you know, weâre here for you, no matter who you choose.â And then, as if with the flick of a switch, he turns his flair back on. âGod, you could choose me, just so you donât have to deal with this dilemma of yours anymore!â
You let out a breathy laugh, all the tension youâre feeling dissipating. âI just might!â
Tom mirrors your laughter. âNow thatâs a dangerous idea. But hey, lifeâs short, right? You donât have to have it all figured out right this second.â
Freddie grins, raising a toast. âTo being a beautiful mess.â
You clink your glass with theirs, watching in amusement as they both begin bickering again over whoâs really the better choice. As the debate drifts over to which drink to order next, a quiet but unmistakable presence makes its way to your table. Ewan stands behind you, his hands resting on the back of your chair.Â
âIâve been looking for you guys,â he greets calmly.Â
Freddie doesnât hesitate to take a playful jab. âAh, Ewan! All by your lonesome now? Whereâs your lady?â
Ewan perches on the last empty chair on your table, catching your eyes. âMy ladyâs right here,â he smirks, and he says the words with such ease that your cheeks heat. Everyone would benefit from taking lessons in the Ewan Mitchell School of Charm. âFancy a walk, darling?â
You quickly glance at Tom and Freddie, whose raised brows practically tell you that theyâre going to be chattering about this as soon as youâre out of earshot. âTry not to miss me too much, boys,â you wink at them, letting Ewan help you out of your seat and whisk you away. He offers his arm to you for support, and the two of you fall into stride, allowing the buzz of Mallorcaâs streets to fill the quiet between you.
âSo,â he starts, âI sure hope Tom and Freddie didnât give you any trouble.â
âNothing I canât handle,â you smile, your tone lowering as you decide to tease him a little. âWe would have invited you over, but you seemed to have plenty of⊠entertainment yourself.â You playfully wag your eyebrows at him, and he makes a show of groaning and turning away.
âDonât remind me, my darling,â he groans. âI was so close to faking an illness and making my escape.â
You chuckle at his apparent distress. âPoor Ewan. It must be so hard being adored by a beautiful girl, isnât it? Wait, where is she again? Did you scare her off?â
âPhia came to my rescue. They went walking by the bay or something, I donât know. And about being adored, it only matters to me if itâs by you.â
Youâre about to lean into a joke and call his bluff, when he adds, âWell, you⊠and my mum.â
âI thought so,â you giggle, his eyes holding yours with a familiar sweetness. But then his gaze is snagged by something behind you.Â
âIs it just me, or does that cat look suspiciously like Sansa?â Ewan points to the front display of a rustic souvenir shop, and you immediately see a plush black cat with curious amber eyes.
You gasp softly, your hand tightening around his bicep. âI did leave Sansa back with my neighbour in London, right?â
âAre you sure? Sheâs right there, darling,â he plays along, grinning. âI think Iâd recognise my daughter when I see her.â
âYour daughter, huh? The most you have right now is visitation rights.â
âWait here, baby,â he presses a kiss to your temple, leaving you leaning against the wall across the shop. He disappears inside, emerging just moments later, the little cat plushie already in his hands. His expression is tender as he passes it to you. âHere. Figured you could use a bit of home.â
You take the little black cat, heart swelling at the sweetness of his gesture. âThank you, Ewan. Sheâs perfect.â
Heâs all smiles, his dimples deepening as he nods in response.Â
You hug plush Sansa to your chest. âNow I wish they also had whippet plushies, so I can give you a piece of home tooâŠâÂ
Ewanâs gaze softens, and he shifts slightly, his gaze dropping as he gathers his thoughts. âDarling, I hope you wonât think Iâm just trying to score brownie points here or something, given the current situation, but honestlyâŠâ He hesitates, but makes up his mind as his eyes meet yours. âIf I wanted to feel at home, all I really need is⊠to be with you.â
Your breath catches, and your mind is too focused on what youâve just heard that your hold loosens around plush Sansa, causing it to nearly stumble out of your hands.Â
âEwan,â you say softly, your voice laced with an affection you canât quite dampen. âYou donât play fair, you know that?â
He chuckles, a little self-conscious, his hand reaching for yours. âYou know me, darling, and you know how I feel about you.â His thumb brushes over your knuckles, and the touch is light, almost reverent.
âSo, no Sansa needed, huh?â you tease gently, trying to keep things light even as the weight of his words lingers.Â
His smile returns, a little shy, a little playful. âYou got that right. But maybe we donât have to tell Sansa about this.â
Youâre about to offer a witty rejoinder, when a cheerful shout slices through the air. âEwan!â Itâs Louise, her voice loud and undeniably eager, and you find yourself dropping Ewanâs hand.Â
And either youâre not in her line of sight, or she just didnât bother calling out to you too. What a delightful girl.
âOh,â Louise finally acknowledges you. âThatâs a nice⊠toy youâve got there.â
âItâs a plushie actually,â you mutter dryly, wiggling plush Sansa in the air.
Ewan snorts at your deadpan expression, and much to Louiseâs obvious annoyance, he drapes an arm around your shoulders, pulling you snugly against him. âI got it for her. Itâs almost an exact replica of her cat, isnât it, darling?â
Your eyes widen at his purposeful cheekiness. The lad has finally had enough of another girl trying to get a bite out of him. âWell, yeahâŠâ you stumble on your words, âIt does look like her.â
Louise pouts. âWhat a nice, friendly gesture.â
Ewan chuckles to himself, not letting her mood dampen his spirits. âI think itâs rather romantic.â
âHold on,â Louise responds, appraising you with a raised eyebrow. âArenât you dating Matty?â
âUhhhââ
âThere you kids are!â Phia materialises out of thin air, an angel in disguise.
Oh, you could just kiss the very ground she walks on.
Everyone makes their way to the pool area the next afternoon, the group scattered all around the lush backyard of the villa.
Matt lingers outside your door, waiting for you to finish changing. He leans casually against the railing, his gaze drifting downstairs to Fabien and Elliott, who are hauling crates of beer toward the poolside. He whistles and shouts out a playful, âSave me some, lads!â
âWaiting on your woman, Romeo?â Elliott sings up at him.
Matt waves them away, spinning around to face your door. As he waits, his mind drifts back to a conversation he had with Liv the evening before. Sheâd seen right through him, spotting the quiet insecurities he tried to keep buried and urging him to go all in with you, to show you what he couldnât quite put into words. And so, he decided he would; heâd pour everything into showing you just how much he cared.
He has the advantage in that he hasnât hurt you the way Ewan has in the past, and he has absolutely no intention of doing so, not when being with you feels like the easiest, most natural thing in the world.Â
To him, you are like the human equivalent of a shot of espresso, a musical laugh, a jolt of positive inspiration. Heâs always felt this, but one night, many nights ago, this effect that you have on him became amplified.
And suddenly, you are all he sees.
And he wouldnât have it any other way, especially not after you finally open the door. You don a forest green bikini that leaves little to the imagination, with a sheer white wrap tied loosely around your waist.Â
Matt lets out a low whistle, walking up to you with a slow, playful swagger. You roll your eyes at him when he unapologetically draws his gaze over your bare skin, but he canât help it.
You look so ravishing that he wants to push you back inside the room. As stunning as your bikini is, it would look even better off.
To hell with the pool.
âWhat do you think?âÂ
He has roused from whatever grey temperament he was stuck in, now that heâs had his espresso. âI'm a goner. Absolutely done for.â
âFlatterer.â You shake your head at him, taking in his broad, bare torso. âWell, you donât look so bad yourself.âÂ
He smirks, his large hands kneading your waist. âI'm the luckiest man on the planet, and this is you after an accident, you say? My love, you're a vision in green.â
âYou like the colour?â
âMmm, if I didn't like you in it, I'd cause a fuss about how you're playing for the other team, my Alyna.â He swoops down and kisses the crook of your neck, the spot he is aware would tickle, eliciting a soft giggle out of you.
âI could never,â you say, swatting his arm. âThey were just out of black bikinis at the shop.â
âBlack... green... we both know you look the best without either of them on. I mean, we did establish that six times in one night, rememââ
âMatt!â you squeal, eyes wide and scandalised. He feels smug, because he made sure you would never forget that night. âYou're such a dog. Come on, let's join the others. I canât wait to finally dip my toes in the pool.â
He is one step ahead of you the whole time, paying special attention to your bad ankle. He knows heâs being too careful when you eye him strangely, but he doesnât care. âI got you,â he says.
âI can walk, you know,â you huff. âIâd have been down here ten seconds ago if it wasnât for you going all Mr. Protector.â
As you reach the final landing, Phiaâs voice rings out, âHands off my woman!â
âSheâs got a point.â You tilt your head at Matt, lips pulling at the corners.
âHave I? I was just kidding,â she shakes her head, before mumbling under her breath. âI'm not Ewan.â
Matt huffs out in response, trying not to let it get to him. Phia takes your other arm, deaf to your protests. Itâs silly, because theyâre both aware that you can probably fend for yourself, but not if they have anything to say about it.Â
Fabien, Elliott, and Harry are manning the grill out on the patio. Some of the ladies are cozying on their sun chairs. Ewan, Luke, and Freddie are smoking on a bench under a canopy. And Thom Yorke serenades the whole scene, the speakers emitting ambient music.
Mattâs always loved a good European excursion, but this one might be his favourite yet. Thanks to the girl who lets him fuss over her despite her feigned annoyance.
Your fingers dig tighter into his arm as the two of you lower into the pool. He relishes the moment and allows the ebb of the water to push him closer to his girl.
âHold on to me.â
You roll your eyes, but wrap your arms around his shoulders anyway. âI'm fine, Matthew. My ankleâs almost healed back to normal.â
âAlmost is the keyword there, my love. We can't take any chances. So... hold on to me, beautiful.â The late morning sun is a blanket comfort as you float on together, your laughter ringing out as he flaps an arm on the water and splashes your face.Â
From the sidelines, Freddie lets out a loud, teasing whistle. Matt responds with a triumphant fist pump, turning to give him a cheeky grin.Â
That might have been a mistake because his eyes landed on Ewan, seated comfortably to Freddieâs left, a cigarette burning low between his lips. His eyes are obscured by dark sunglasses, but heâs clearly surveying the scene unfolding in the pool with an air of nonchalance that doesnât sit well with Matt.Â
He would have expected Ewan to jump in the pool as well and make a show of laying a claim on you as he had before. But no. The younger lad just sits, and watches, the makings of a smirk pulling at his lips when Matt makes eye contact.
Since when has he been this self-assured? Perhaps youâre to credit for this renewed sense of confidence?Â
Are you slipping away from him, and back into Ewanâs arms?Â
Too many questions, and not even the pleasant haze of Spain can shake the anxiety out of him.Â
But then, Liv strolls over, positioning herself in front of Ewan, blocking Mattâs view. She bums a cigarette from one of the guys, and as she turns, she gives Matt a subtle nodâa reminder of her advice from last night. Just show her, sheâd said. Show her youâre all in.
Thank the heavens for Olivia.
Turning back to you, Matt softens, brushing a lock of hair from your face. He presses a gentle kiss to your cheek, feeling his doubts fade as you meet his gaze, eyes bright with laughter.
âEnjoying yourself there?â you ask sweetly.
âWhatâs not to enjoy?â he replies, his hand tracing slow, lazy circles on your back.
âI donât know,â you shrug, âI just donât think Iâve ever seen you glare like that before.â
âI was not glaring.â
âYou so were, Matthew.â
âOh, yeah?â he murmurs, a mischievous glint sparking in his eyes. Before you can react, he dips underwater, reemerging just inches from your thigh, where he plants a quick, teasing kiss that makes you yelp.
âWhaâOh! Matt! Get up here!â
He surfaces, grinning, his arms winding around you again as he pulls you close. Your laughter mingles, echoing across the pool as the rest of the group cheers and jeers good-naturedly.
Just as Mattâs about to pull you in for another kiss, a loud shout breaks through the calm.Â
âCannonball!â Tomâs voice echoes from the villa, and before either of you can turn around, he comes barreling out, sprinting at full speed. With a triumphant yell, he launches himself off the edge, arms and legs splayed out like a human starfish.
The massive splash sends water arcing high, soaking you, Matt, and everyone within a ten-foot radius.
âAlways one to ruin the moment, Tom,â Matt jokes.
âHad to make sure you two didnât get too cosy,â Tom shoots back, swimming closer and clapping Matt on the shoulder.Â
Itâs all in good fun, sure, but then Matt catches Tom shoot a quick wink at Ewan, a flash of understanding passing between them.
So thatâs how itâs going to be? Game on.Â
Itâs the penultimate day of the Mallorca trip and the group has rented boats to paddle out along the stunning coastline. Only 2 people are allowed per vessel and some pairs have already formedâPhia and Phoebe, Louise thankfully pulled away from Ewan by Bethany, Harry and FreddieâŠ
And then thereâs Ewan who strides over to you determinedly. Matt is a half-step behind, his expression expectant, but Ewan is quicker. âIâm with you today, darling,â he says, his tone leaving little room for question. His hand finds yours, warm and grounding.
Mattâs eyes flicker with disappointment but heâs never been one to kick up a fuss. He gives you a faint resigned shrug, then turns to Liv. âGuess that means you and I are a team then.â
Liv rolls her eyes playfully, pushing her sunglasses up and swatting his arm. âDonât sound so thrilled. But I promise I wonât make you row the entire time.â
Mattâs smile softens as he looks at her, his earlier disappointment slipping into something more relaxed. âFine, but Iâm claiming the right to judge your rowing skills.â
âIâll have you know Iâm an excellent rower,â Liv insists, taking her spot at the front of the boat and casting a teasing glance at him. âYou, on the other handâŠweâll see.â
As you and Ewan push off into the water, he throws a glance back at the others, and a spark of mischief lights his eyes. âThink theyâll survive?â
You laugh, settling across Ewan on the boat. âI think itâll be a surprise if Tomâs boat doesnât capsize.â
Soon enough, everyoneâs boats are spaced out on the clear, serene waters, and thereâs nothing but the occasional splash of oars, the birds squawking high above, and the warm glow of the horizon. Ewan rows steadily, having doggedly refused your offer to help, and every now and then, his eyes flick to you, a soft smile never leaving his lips. His gaze lingers, like heâs committing your image to memory.
As you watch the world, he watches his world.
âFeels like another reality out here, doesnât it?â he says, his voice barely above a murmur.
You nod, watching the sunlight dance across the water. âIt really does.â You pause, glancing over your shoulder to see Liv and Matt, already in animated conversation. âItâs nice to just⊠forget everything for a while.â
He smiles, tilting his head. âAnything specific you wanna forget?â
You smile back. âEverything, really. The pressures, the expectations⊠wondering what everyone thinks or wants.â
From a few metres away, Mattâs voice carries over the water, cutting through the quiet intimacy of the moment. âIâm just saying, Liv, you donât have to prove anything. You can let me row.â
Liv laughs, her voice filled with playful defiance. âMatt, I am fully capable of handling this. Maybe itâs you who should be taking notes.â
âOh, Iâd hate to step on your expert skills,â Matt teases back, before throwing a glance your way, his gaze lingering a bit too long before he turns back to Liv, who seems blissfully unaware of his momentary distraction.
Ewan notices it too, and his grip on the oar tightens ever so slightly. But he says nothing, keeping his focus on you as he rows further along the shore.
He steers the boat around a small bend, his voice low. âTheyâre good together, donât you think?â
You turn, following his gaze. Itâs a simple, easy dynamic between them, one you know youâve seen before, and for a moment, a pang of something unnameable twists in your chest.
âYeah,â you murmur, a touch distracted.
Ewan catches your gaze, his eyes searching yours. âYou seem⊠surprised. Or maybe⊠jealous?â
You laugh it off, shaking your head. âNot at all. Itâs justââ
But before you can finish, a sudden splash interrupts you. Harryâs boat has tipped over, both he and Freddie flailing in the water, their laughter filling the air as they try to right themselves.
Bethany, a few feet away, doubles over, her laughter carrying over the waves. âOh my god, Freddie, I told you to sit still!â
Harry, sputtering as he surfaces, grins. âGuess I got too excited.â
âSo I was wrong,â you turn to Ewan, smirking. âItâs not Tom who capsized.â
Ewan just laughs, then adds slyly, âHere I was wishing it would have been Matt.â
After the boats return to shore, youâre all tired and exhilarated, the sun higher in the sky as you make your way up the beach. But the peace is short-lived. Fans, seemingly appearing out of nowhere, begin to gather along the shore, their voices excited, cameras ready as they shout greetings and ask for photos. The relaxed energy shifts as each of you is drawn into the swirl of attention, questions flying as you try to keep up.
A fan steps in close, slightly shaking in her nerves. âYou⊠and Ewan?â she asks, the question open-ended but its meaning clear.
You chuckle awkwardly, caught off guard, opting to just wrap an arm around her shoulders as she takes a selfie with you.Â
But the fan is relentless, her attention shifting to Matt, whoâs standing off to the side with Liv, his gaze directed toward you even as he signs another fanâs poster. âWhat about him?â she says, grinning.
Ewanâs arm slips around your waist protectively, pulling you closer. âSheâs with me today,â he says confidently, not minding the possibility of this fan taking to the internet after this encounter, with proof of her ship actually being together.
Ewan doesnât care; he has no reason to hide how much he wants you. Not anymore. If his fans want a crumb, as he often reads online about him, then heâs going to give them a whole feast.Â
With you as the main course in the Ewan banquet.
As the day comes to a close, you find yourself resting all alone in your room, stealing the group introvert mantle right under Ewanâs nose. Everything that has happened during this vacation plays in your mind like a montage, and somehow, it all feels like itâs building up to a grand finale.
But before you can lose yourself completely in your thoughts, thereâs a soft knock at your door.
You groan to yourself as you walk over, but your protest dies as you find Ewan standing there, holding something behind his back.
âHey, you,â he greets you with a smirk thatâs more mischievous than usual. âGot a minute?â
Your heart skips a beat â itâs always been that way with him, that instant flutter, even now after everything. âSure. Whatâs up?âÂ
âIâve got a surprise for you,â he says, his grin widening at your raised brow. He steps into your room, pulling whatever heâs hiding behind his back.
When he finally reveals it, you blink, eyes widening. âYou... bought these?â You canât help but laugh.
Two brightly coloured superhero masks â one Spider-Man, the other Spider-Gwen.
âYep, I saw a costume shop that had Carnaval masks⊠and these too, apparently,â Ewan says, looking pleased with himself. âI thought it would be fun. Weâre getting away from the villa tonight. I figured we could use these. You know, masks for our incognito date night.â
It had taken one quick scroll on the internet for your group to discover that the paparazzi trailed everyone around town today, and Elliott even annoyingly revealed that he might have seen one or two of them lingering outside the villaâs premises.Â
Vultures.
You laugh again, shaking your head. âWait, youâre serious? Weâre wearing these to our⊠date? Wait, why are we going on a date?â
He shrugs with a playful glint in his eye. âWhy not?â
You hesitate for a second. Itâs such a ridiculous idea, but in the best possible way. Heâs always had a way of pulling you out of your own head, making you feel like thereâs no right or wrong way to just live in the moment.Â
Or maybe he could propose anythingâanything at allâand youâd be beside yourself if you refused. Itâs how you and him ended up having copious amounts ofâŠ. casual lovemaking, months after breaking up.
âOkay,â you finally say, âbut only if you promise not to laugh when I look completely ridiculous in it.â
âNever,â he says with mock solemnity, holding out the Spider-Gwen mask for you. âYouâll look amazing. Trust me.â
As you slink past the gates, the masks make you feel more than a little silly, but also oddly liberated. Itâs like youâre in on another secret with him, something just for the two of you.
You look at him, smiling as you adjust the mask. âThis is insane,â you say, your voice muffled behind the fabric.
Ewan smiles back, clearly pleased with himself. âI know. And itâs perfect.â
âAre you sure this isnât just you practicing for an audition for yet another Spiderman reboot?â
He only playfully shoots air webs at you, his adorable pew-pew noises audible under his mask.
You chuckle softly, your heart warming at the sight of him. âSo, what now? Youâre just going to walk me through the streets like this?â
âOf course. You ready to go on the best secret date of your life?â
You laugh, feeling lighter than you have in days. âLead the way, Spiderman.â
The walk isnât long, just enough to enjoy the quiet of the night and the unexpected adventure of it all. When you finally arrive at the restaurant, you stop dead in your tracks, blinking up at the building in front of you. Itâs perched on the edge of a cliff, offering a breathtaking view of the bay below. The warm glow of the restaurant spills out onto the street, and youâre immediately struck by how beautiful its facade is.
You look at Ewan, your surprise written all over your face. âThis... this place looks amazing. How did you find it?â
âI have my ways,â he says, grinning. âCome on.â
He leads you up the stairs, and you both remove your masks as you enter, giggling to each other. Youâre met with a homey, rustic atmosphere. Thereâs a dim light from lamps perched on the posts, the soft murmur of conversations, and the smell of fresh food in the air. Itâs everything you didnât realise you needed tonightâcalm, peaceful, and more than a little romantic.
âI booked a private table for us,â Ewan says softly, glancing around for the waiter.Â
The two of you are escorted to a table on the balcony, overlooking the bay. The moon reflects on the water, casting a silver glimmer over the scene. For a moment, you just sit there, both of you silent, taking it all in.
âEwan, this is incredible,â you say, your voice quiet but full of admiration. âI donât even know what to say.â
Ewan smiles, reaching across the table to take your hand. âYou donât have to say anything. And I promise this isnât some ploy to get you to speed up your decision-making. I just⊠I just wanted you to have a night where you could forget about everything else.â
He leans back slightly, his eyes studying you with that gentle familiarity, like heâs waiting for you to say something more, but he doesnât rush you.
You glance down at the simple sundress youâve been wearing all day. You didnât have time to change when Ewan mentioned the surprise evening out â there was no real thought given to a perfect outfit. And yet, as you sit here now, across from him in the warm candlelight, you donât feel the usual self-consciousness you mightâve once felt.Â
You feel more beautiful than you ever have before, because he sees you as the most beautiful person in the room. In any room.
âI donât know how you do it,â you say, looking at him. âHow you make everything feel soâŠâ You trail off, unable to find anything adequate.Â
His lips curl into a knowing, half-smile. âI feel the same about you.â
And you might not know it yet, but this night is when you choose him.Â
Under the unprecedented rainfall, later on, you will realise that you never truly had to choose.
Itâs always been Ewan, all along.Â
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It's like a dream. You feel like youâre watching the world through a thick layer of vaseline as you float atop your silken sheets. Itâs a haze of white and blue around you; the shadows that hide in every crevice of your room melt away under that bright blue. It rings familiar, and your brain tickles to recall from where, but the softness around you wisps you from that answer.Â
The touch is feather-light on your skin. Bare. Did you fall asleep bare? Your eyes flutter as butterflies kiss down your stomach, and mixtures of eyelashes and hair graze every curve. Thereâs something delicious in the underwater den you look at the world through. Every wall curls inward, and the curtains sway. You reach out to feel it against your skin, only to be caught by a firm grip.Â
Hands. Veiny and decorated with a golden ring and scars along the knuckles. Itâs like an anchor halting your dream state as you deliriously stare at the hand that holds your wrist. So confident in its grip, yet the touch is softer than your pillows. Like you may break, like youâll disappear. Maybe you will. The magical glaze that coats your mind slowly shrinks away as someone kisses just above your belly button with a muffled whimper.Â
How long has it been since you accidentally fell into the dream state? You groan. Shouldnât your control be better than this by now? Youâre far from the ten-year-old still trying to learn why they disappear into someoneâs mind every night. Whoever is on top of you repeats your groan back as if it were one of pleasure, and you let your held hand fall limp to the touch. The weight on top of you, complete with soft, fluffy white hairs that ring that same bell of familiarity in your mind, shifts as the lips trail lower.Â
What could possibly be the intent of this dream? Do you play along or pretend to still be coated in a thick layer of sleep? Your stomach flutters as eyelashes graze down, and a hand squeezes under your thigh as itâs lifted to curl over your hips. The hand still held in the air drops away to stroke at your waist, and you slowly lower your palm until it finds the soft locks. They easily part for your fingers as you comb through, and your nails scratch the scalp as lightly as you can manage, but the person above you whines in bliss. You can feel their erection press to your bare body, thankfully shielded by what feels like their pants.Â
Blue eyes look up at you with a grin like that of a fox, and your body stills. Gojo Satoru has pulled you into his dream â his dream about you if your bedroom setting makes any sense. You glance away from him so he canât catch the jolt your body made, only to notice a picture frame on the bedside table. Your heart thumps as you see the wedding robes you each wear. âFinally awake?â he moves up and leans into your neck, soft hair kissing your face as his lips gently press to the lobe of your ear. The cold of his ring at your waist is all you can think about despite how he slowly presses himself against your slick cunt. âDidnât ya wanna wait for me to get home?â
How to play it⊠you have no clue what little fantasy Gojo must have of you, but it must be domestic. Your own wedding band weighs heavy on your finger, and you canât help but glance at it as you place your hands on the back of his neck, playing with the growing undercut. âTried to stay up,â itâs dark outside, but there's no clock in the room that could help you with whatever answer his subconscious seeks. He smiles into your neck; you can feel his blindfold tickle your chest as his glowing eyes illuminate the room around you. There are more photos â baby photos. You want to scream at the information he is inadvertently giving you, ââs not my fault you got home so late.â
Gojo laughs, and it reverberates into your skin, and the hand on your thigh slides down toward your pussy. How are you going to face him in the morning? Maybe you should become a hermit and live in the woods? You canât help the flutter of your eyes as his finger runs up your slit, dragging slick eagerness to your clit. âI know, baby,â he seems to whine into your neck, just feeling how wet you are, his hips rutting into your thigh for friction. Your hand slides down his curved spine, eliciting a shiver through him that makes you smile, and his face lifts from the crook of your neck. His thumb circles around your clit without properly touching, eyes gazing so lovingly at you that your heart stammers in the repeated beats. âAt least you had my favourite girl all wet and ready for me.â
You cringe at how he refers to your cunt, but it only makes him laugh before leaning in to capture you in a kiss of raw warmth and devotion. You kiss back as best you can, heart still thumping at the revelations of his desires, and ignore how unabashedly nervous you feel. It reminds you of the first time you awoke in someoneâs dream, barely nine, and just trying to survive the nightmare of being hunted by a clown. Thereâs no promise of death in this dream, and youâre far better at your control now that youâve learnt how to use the power, but you canât help that familiar twinge of danger from creeping up your spine. Gojo wonât be able to know you were here, but can you sit with him at breakfast and listen to him talk about whatever bullshit mission he has to go on without remembering this?
Morals aside and over a decade of friendship ignored, you lose yourself in the taste of his mouth. Twinges of strawberry mochi and caramel-flavoured coffee linger on his tongue, yet it feels so right â so purely Gojo Satoru. You pull yourself closer, arms tangling around his neck and your thighs hooking on his hips. The finger that circled your clit falls away in favour of holding you flush against him, squeezing when his lips muffle your moan. Youâve never tasted something so sweet, so intoxicating, as the kiss of your best friend.Â
When he tries to pull back with echoes of laughter, you greedily pull him back and steal another candy kiss from him. Your tongue passes over his as you pull on his hair with urgency, and the pair of you groan into the otherâs kiss. âYou-â kiss, far shorter than the last but just as needy, âreally,â his laughter makes you pull him back for another peck. His taste, his touch, his unabashed love, is a craving you doubt ever getting over. Youâre certain that it would only taste sweeter in reality, âreally,â one last kiss, âmissed me!â
The slightest hint of embarrassment washes you in guilt while Gojo laughs, whispering about how cute youâre being. If only he knows that youâre just newly addicted to him, to the secret he has kept from you for however long. If only you could ask questions, but you know that he would get suspicious of this dream state if you did. âOf course I did! You know I hate when you do missions alone.â
His fox-like smile returns, almost out of place with his pink cheeks. Your Gojo, the real one outside of the dream world, has always been a fiend for any type of praise and care; you shouldnât be surprised that this dream version of him is the same. âBaby, Iâm the strongest! Ya know I can handle it! And it only took me a couple days!â
Shit. You refuse to break even a sweat as you keep your same expression of mock disdain. âNot fast enough. How am I meant to live without my darling husband with me?â
Gojo laughs again, his eyes sparkling as they take over your naked form once again, stopping at your lips for just a brief moment longer. âThis is why Shoko says youâre turning into me,â you glance back over to the baby pictures near the dresser. A son with eyes like his and hair like yours, dressed in his fatherâs blindfold thatâs far too big on his head. You take the knowledge and grumble aloud about being outnumbered in this house, hoping to diffuse any confusion Gojo may have. You canât fail now; if you donât fulfil his dream, then his week is practically ruined by the short dream-induced coma itâll cause. âIf you feel outnumbered, we can always make a mini-you this time.â
One second passes â you take that time to freak out over the insinuation that Gojo barely hides in his smirk. Youâve been aware that youâre naked the entire time, and yet it never felt quite as real until now. His erection twitches in his pants, and you canât help but shiver. The subsequent second passes, and you return to the character you fulfil, running a finger up and down his neck as you lean up to his lips. âLetâs see if you can, Gojo.â
With the shiver that runs through him, he canât help but whine about the use of the family name. You donât retort beyond a few giggles, too busy staring at how he strips himself of his pants and shirt with clumsy haste. He manages to only stumble over his feet once as he rips the pants from his insanely long legs, yet you still stare at him like a hungry wolf hunting prey. Is it wrong how bad you want this? No, you rationalise that this is his dream, so he is the one who wants to have sex with you! Not the other way around!
(though if the offer presents itself in reality, youâre not going to be turning it down by any means)
âCâmere,â when he climbs back on top of you, you force him to come closer with a tantalising curl of your finger. One hand finds its rightful place at your hip again, thumb rolling over a bullet wound scar you got a few years ago. The other knots itself in your open hand, fingers lacing together in a gesture more romantic than you thought Gojo could do, âfinish what you started.â
He leans his body, and you feel the naked cock slap against your cunt. You shouldnât be so wet, even if you joined the dream late and he already spent time playing with you. You just shouldnât be so slick with need that you squelch just when his tip rubs against you. You squeeze his hand with a gasp, already imagining how he would feel snug inside your walls and pounding over and over until you get that little you he promised. âFuck â really did miss me, didnât ya? I barely even used two fingers before and look at this!â He shines as if you were some new discovery he made, and yet you hold no temperament outside of desire and craving for the man on top of you. âMight hafta take longer trips so you get more desperate,â you roll your hips into him, causing his head to press against your clit.Â
The jolt of pleasure makes you moan, and your back arches as though little occurred. It feels like youâve been on the edge of this promised fate for eternity now, the taste on his tongue still haunting your lips as your eyes close to the world around you. âShuddup,â you mumble, though the words feel empty of animosity or threat as soon as they leave your lips. You squeeze your hand in his, the cold of his wedding ring an exhilarating sensation that only makes you wonder how it must have felt when he was fingering you before you were pulled in. âIâll go on the missions, so you get desperate. Youâll last maybe ten minutes?â
The sentence is broken by your heavy breathing as his cock lines up with you. Just the slightest touch of it already has you stretching in anticipation, a thigh coiling over his hips to help with placement. The anticipation already has you keeling in pleasure, eagerly awaiting the pleasurable sting of being stretched out. How far will he get? From how long he felt against you⊠your body shivers at the thought of him entirely inside you. âWhy do you get to go on missions?â he pouts without any sadness or pity, and the glimmer of excitement in his eyes sells out his dramatics with ease.Â
You take the initiative and start pushing your hips down his shaft. Like when you first awoke in the dream, everything feels light and is hidden with a haze of delight. If you didnât already know this is a dream, youâd be convinced it turned into one with how good he feels slowly filling you up. Each vein throbs against your walls, and he hisses with clouded eyes. âCause,â you remind yourself to breathe as he gets deeper, the lull of your tongue feels too big and you try to focus on not mindlessly babbling beneath him, ââm a Gojo, now. Re-Remember?â
It likely turned into some form of gibberish by the final few words, but nonetheless, above you, Gojo pauses. You feel how he twitches inside of you, hear how your pussy pulls him in with a shlick, but nothing tops the way his lips form a pretty âoâ shape as he moans into the room. Everyone and their mothers know that Gojo is a moaner in bed, but it feels so different actually seeing it and hearing how fucking delicious it sounds. You reach up and pull his lips to you for another heated kiss, already swiping your tongue at his lips.Â
He wastes no time and bottoms out, and you gasp into the kiss at how full you feel. Gojo throbs with every noise you utter, and just the tiniest movement of your hips has him moaning even louder. You relish how he reacts to your body, how he sings a cacophony of whimpers and grunts just for you to hear, and the soft way he squeezes your hand with reassurance. Just having his fingers between yours has your heart fluttering even when it feels like youâve been stuffed so full your organs squish.Â
âYes. Yes. Yes,â his kiss turns sloppy as he mutters the word repeatedly as if he is convincing himself that your words are real. Your toes curl when he starts to thrust, pounding himself nice and deep inside of you as he continues his babbling monologue of reassurance. You mewl below him, clawing at the muscles in his back that flex beneath your fingertips. âAll mine. My pretty, pretty wife,â his lips slot at your jaw with a gentle bite, and your eyes roll back when itâs combined with another thrust against you.Â
Tears build in the corner of your eyes as the headboard slams against the wall like a drumming melody. He has to be in your stomach by now; youâre certain he somehow found a way to fill your throat, too. The haze in his eyes only grows foggier when he notices the tears as they fall. âSatoru,â you whimper quietly while pushing yourself to meet every movement of his hips, even when his hand tries to move you faster.Â
His name becomes your chant as he fucks you into the mattress, responding only with reminders of the marriage he dreamed up. You lose yourself in the way his hips bruise you and the way he treats your hand like itâs glass on the verge of shattering. Every instinct in your mind goes haywire as your tongue babbles nonsensical words of pleasure. He returns to your neck, biting and kissing areas you didnât even know were so sensitive. There would be no evidence come morning, when you both wake up from the dream, but you let yourself think that little marks will bless you in the mirror when you have a shower.Â
When he shifts your thigh higher, you donât expect him to hang it over his shoulder, but you donât question his choice â instead revelling in the new angle he takes. Your nails dig into his knuckles as you cry out for more. Tears fall to the pillows beneath your head, slick drools over his cock and under your ass. âMy wife,â he mutters into your ear again, placing your other thigh over his shoulder to match. Only when he leans in and arches you do you realise that he puts you into a mating press. It shouldnât be as hot as it is, but youâre already clawing at his back and screaming yes, âgotta fill you again. Looked so pretty when you were pregnant. Gonna have so many more. Let me fill ya up, please!â
Heâs bordering pathetic with how he begs, and yet you only grow needier. His hair sticks to him from sweat, and his lips are puffy from kisses; those big, beautiful eyes fill with watery tears as he pleads for you. âFuck, yes! Please, Satoru!â Your thighs tremble under his touch. Your hand desperately grips his as you babble your answer over and over again. You need him like never before, crave to be filled with all of him, and still lick at the sweetness left on your lips. âWanâ it!â
His thumb goes under your thigh to play with your clit again. Like before, he doesnât directly touch it, only circling closer and closer until he reverses each action. It leaves you a perfect victim to the strings of your body â apparently, only Gojo can play it like this. He whispers about all the love he has for you, even with the slurred speech of lust, your heart melts at every proclamation he gives to you. âSo glad you chose me. Never gonna have you regrettinâ it.â
Gojo thimbles about how he canât wait to have another child, a daughter, this time so that he can be the perfect girl dad he was made for. You clench around his cock and moan as the throbbing refuses to cease, each vein detailed as they press into your snug walls. Whether the dream has finally reached your own subconscious or it just unlocks the path to old feelings you refuse to acknowledge, you arenât sure, but youâre utterly putty in your hands when he tells you to cum and remind him why he missed you so much. And you arenât one to deny Gojo Satoru what he wants; thatâs how you managed so many years of friendship together in the first place.Â
Your body shudders in his tight hold, eyes shut, and nose hidden in the hair you need to touch one last time. Itâs like a flood of emotions wash over you as you release all over him, slick sliding to pool on the bed. He only moves faster as you meek with sensitivity, chasing that feeling for himself until he finally fulfils his promise and cums. It fills you and leaves a thick ring of white around his cock, though instead of pulling out, he keeps his cock warm inside of you, fingers collecting anything that spills to push back in.Â
When you wake up, Gojo isnât on top of you with his cock in your overfilled pussy. There arenât marks on your neck or bruises on your hips. Your finger is empty of a wedding band, and your lips arenât puffy from being kissed raw. Like nothing happened. You sigh and splash more water on your face, ignoring how the bathroom door peeks open. âWhatâs up, Gojo?â
âYou didnât⊠do anything last night, right?â He looks back and forth while refusing to gaze at you properly; his sunglasses donât work to hide those movements as well as his blindfold. You raise an eyebrow at him and start patting your skin dry, and you keep eye contact with him purely to avoid staring at his chest and how good it felt up against you. âHad a good dream, is all. Won a lifetime supply of mochi.â
The lie makes you smile, not even bothering to tease him over the blush on his cheeks. âSounds like a really good dream.â
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Jason Todd x Single Mom!Reader
I've been plagued for many months now by the idea of jason todd x young single mom!reader. I literally made this blog this morning just to post this
this is so LONG try as i might to shorten it i've been itching to get all this out of me so enjoy this word vomit i might just make a full fic if i'm feeling extra frisky
You got pregnant in college, and now youâre fresh out of grad school moving to a new city with your 3 year old daughter
You got a job at Wayne Enterprises, leading an important new project. You and your colleagues are invited to the latest Wayne Gala, hosted at the billionaireâs own manor. All these years as a young mother and a student, you hadnât any experience with such extravagance-- how could you say no?
the party lowkey sucks because it's all old rich people so you sneak out to a balcony where you find a young man drinking whiskey and texting on his phone.
he introduces himself as jason, and his hand is rough and calloused when you shake it, but it's warm and sends a tingle up your arm. (đ)
You chat about your work, he complains about the stuffiness of a life at Wayne Enterprises and you laugh when he warns you to get out while you can (he's joking, of course. not because he thinks it's worth staying but because if you leave he'd never be able to hear that adorable laugh again)
when you go off on a tangent about how excited you are for your project, he's not even listening anymore. the sheer passion that lights up your face has his mind going fuzzy and a full orchestra playing in the background
you're pulled back in before he can get your number :( he's so mopey all weekend he doesn't even have it in him to retaliate when damian makes fun of him for having pink pony club as his top song for this month :(
when you get home your email is flooded with warnings from other parents at your daughter's daycare about a lice scare?? okay, you think, she's definitely not going on monday, you can just bring her to work with you, right? what's the worst that could happen?
the following monday he just happens to show up at the office (He can't just stop by to say hi to his brother who he loves?) (tim calls security almost immediately)
you're not at your cubicle (in a meeting, your desk neighbor informs him) so he mills about the floor like a lost puppy just waiting for you to show up so he can "accidentally" run into you
the woman at the front desk has a chair pulled up next to hers where this little girl with pigtails is sitting, trying to console her as tears stream down her face
jason springs into action, kneeling in front of her chair to ask what's wrong
she just sniffles and holds up her stuffed animal, an elephant whose button eye has popped out, the woman watching her trying to get her to hand it over so she can sew it back on but she wont let go
he goes full grey's anatomy, fussing over the toy like it's in mortal peril and complimenting her for being so brave before gently asking if he can try to fix it
she lets him take it and he uses the woman's travel sewing kit to stitch it back on
she's ecstatic, leaping forward into his arms to give him a big hug
but now she won't let him leave because no he has to have a conversation with the elephant first and introduce himself and give it post-surgery care instructions and listen to it talk about how much she it wants a puppy and he feels like such an idiot talking to that thing but anything to make this little girl smile
she pulls a little picture book from the backpack hung on the back of her chair and asks him to read with her and he can't just say no!
so he plops down on the tile floor and starts reading out loud and even though she's standing next to him craning her neck to see the pictures he's a head taller than her
when you finish your meeting and head back to the front desk to thank gretchen for watching your kid the sight you see makes your heart absolutely melt
jason and your daughter are sitting criss-cross applesauce on the floor of Wayne Enterprises as he reads to her, and he's pulling out all the stops, he's doing voices, sound effects, and she's giggling so hard she can't sit up straight
but then they both finally notice you
"mommy!" she yells, running to you and wrapping herself around your leg
you're surprised to see him, but definitely not disappointed, and if what you just walked in on indicated anything, it was that you wanted, nay, needed this man
so now you're flushed and hopeful, mind running with possibilities of why he's here; could it be? he couldn't stop thinking about you either? he came all the way to ask you out?
but jason is also surprised, astounded even, by the miniature carbon copy clinging to your leg saying something about scooby snacks
he's freaking out on the inside
through a tight-lipped greeting he excuses himself with what he hopes is a neutral demeanor (spoiler alert: it's not) and goes home to think
and you obviously know exactly what that was about, one doesn't go through pregnancy at 19 without becoming well-acquainted with the whole catalogue of surprised/judgy reactions
of course you're a mess because the early/mid 20s dating scene is hard enough as it is but with a toddler? forget it, might as well just give up now
you go home to call your best friend and get drunk over face time while she assures you that men aint shit and offers to put a curse on him (you consider it, but how are you supposed to get a lock of his hair?)
he's up all night hating himself for being such an asshole and trying to come up with a scenario in which this works, in which he can have you in his life and also a child and be the red hood because he can't stop thinking about you
so then he just says fuck it and the next morning he shows up at your office with flowers and a puppy stuffed animal and finally asks you out
#nightwing#batman#red hood#jason todd#dick grayson#jason todd x reader#jason todd x you#jason todd x y/n#batfamily#dc universe#dc comics#dcu#damian wayne#dc robin#robin#bruce wayne
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Giving up gives him victory. These battles are hard. They wreck you like no other. When so many people look at you and say outloud, to you and to everyone, that you don't deserve to live? To be happy? It hurts. It's terrifying.
Find spaces of solace to heal. Create your own if you have to. Go somewhere peaceful to tend to your wounds so you can come out again and sing with us.
They hate seeing us happy. They hate seeing us living. They don't think we're able to fight back because the thought of us winning is so terrifying, so humiliating, that they pretend we can't. They divide us and warp our desires of thriving without fear into paranoia and distrust against our neighbors.
Just because HE won doesn't mean everyone voted for him. It doesn't mean everyone voted. He hit the majority by a slight margin and then people will remember why he lost the last election. Why he was the laughing stock of the world during his presidency. Why he was so viciously hated.
Yes, things will hurt. I won't fucking sugar coat it. But I want it to stop and I want us to live. So we'll do what we can.
Also, don't doomscroll, everyone. It's autumn right now. Drink some pumpkin spice latte or some hot cocoa. Have some soup. Take a few pictures of your pets. Hug them. Hug a fellow human or pay them a compliment. Hide if it's safer. Be loud when you can.
I'm gonna be fucking loud because being quiet was so tiring and so. God damn. Boring.
*gripping your shoulders and shaking you* you gotta promise me one thing, if nothing else. you have to promise me to live, do you hear me. and if it's for nothing else but spite, LIVE. donald trump wants you to feel defeated and alone. let's show him and all the americans who voted for him that we will not stay quiet, we will not be devided and we will LIVE. we will survive that 78-year old felon, we will OUTLIVE him. so please reach out to friends and family, reach out to each other and STAND TOGETHER.
PLEASE, LIVE!
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birthday cake - rafe cameron
Baby daddy! Rafe x Baby mama! Maybank! Reader
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Summary:
Itâs Irisâ first birthday, and Rafe may have gone a little overboard.
Warnings:
None, just birthday party fluff, some kissing
Word Count: 2,960
A/N:
I love baby daddy Rafe. Let me know if you want to see more!
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âWell donât you look absolutely gorgeous!â
Iris smiled and clapped her hands, giggling at your excited expression. She was dressed in a big poofy pink dress, white Mary Janes on her feet. Her light brown hair had been gathered into two tiny pigtails. She had a party hat you would try to get a picture of her in later, but you knew better than to try to get her to actually wear it.
It was May 26th, exactly one year since the best, most amazing day of your life.
âAlright, letâs get this show on the road,â JJ called as he walked through the living room carrying an armful of gifts. He had been packing the car the entire time youâd been getting Iris ready.
You picked up your daughter and sat her on your hip, grabbing her diaper bag and your purse with your free hand as you followed JJ to the door.
JJ got the last of the party supplies packed in the back of the car while you buckled Iris in her car seat, which turned out to be more difficult than expected with the floofy dress. You briefly wonder if you should have changed her at the country club.
You got it done eventually, and then you and JJ were on the road to Figure 8.
Rafe had insisted you hire a party planner. You argued with him on it at first, because you are perfectly capable of planning a first birthday party yourself, but he wouldnât drop it, saying he didnât want you stressing about planning and setting it up yourself. You had rolled your eyes, but he was paying for it, so you figured, what the hell.
It actually wasnât bad at all. The party planner had involved you every step of the way just like youâd wanted to be. She let you make all the decisions while she made it all come together. It was honestly amazing.
You arrived at the country club just in time to get settled before guests began to arrive. JJ carried the gifts while you carried the baby. You had planned the party for the perfect time, she was freshly up from a nap and would probably stay in a great mood for the whole event.
Your eyes widened as you, JJ, and Iris walked into the event space that had been booked for the party. The theme you had decided on was Berry First Birthday, and it was the most extravagant babyâs birthday party youâd ever seen.
When Rafe had told you he wanted to take care of the party, you didnât know what to think. He told you youâd still have full creative control because he knew youâd been looking forward to it, but he was going to cover it and he wanted to hire a planner. He let you make every decision, mostly staying out of it, his only instruction being âIt has to be the best for my girl.â
There was a big balloon arch made up of red, white, pink, and berry colored balloons, including some actual strawberry balloons, sitting in front of a large pink backdrop with printed strawberries that said Irisâ Berry First Birthday. A vintage looking white high chair sat in front of it, a banner attached to the front that said One with pink and red tassels.
There was a long table filled with food, including some cookies in the shape of strawberries and a large spread of fresh fruit. There was a table that held champagne, which you thought was kind of funny for a one year oldâs party. Another table held a giant 3-tiered white cake decorated with strawberries.
He had really gone all out. You werenât sure why you had expected anything less.
Rafe came walking over the second he noticed you walk through the door, a grin on his face.
âThereâs my birthday girl,â he said, reaching his hands out for Iris. She immediately held her arms out, leaning forward towards him.
You handed her over with a laugh, knowing you were no competition when Rafe was around. She was a complete daddyâs girl.
He placed a big kiss on her cheek as he settled her in his arms, and she giggled.
âYou look so pretty, baby girl,â he complimented her, smoothing down the puffy skirt of her dress. âI love your dress.â
âDadadadada,â she babbled in response, a gummy grin on her face. She still only had about 5 teeth. Rafe wore a pink shirt and khaki colored pants, and it was adorable the way he matched with her.
âYou really went all out,â you said, taking in the extravagance of the event.
âYeah, well,â he said, brushing you off and not taking his eyes off the baby, âshe only turns 1 once.â
Rafe was always a real baby hog. Once he took her when you arrived, you had a hard time getting her back. You busied yourself arranging the gifts on the gift table and setting out the gift bags you had put together for all the guests.
Guests began to arrive not long after. You and Rafe greeted them together with Iris, the star of the show, in his arms. She absolutely ate up all the attention, giving everyone a big smile and tolerating being passed around to friends and family.
âItâs my bestie!â Sarah squealed as she walked up with Wheezie next to her, holding her hands out for her niece. Rafe reluctantly handed her over, mostly because Iris had already been reaching for Sarah anyway.
Sarah and Wheezie cooed at the baby, fussing over her outfit and hair. Rafe watched, looking impatient to get her back.
âI canât believe youâre one already,â Sarah said, looking emotional as she hugged Iris to her chest. Iris tolerated the hold for about 2 seconds before she was wiggling free, and then she was reaching for Rafe again. Rafe took her back with a smug grin on his face.
âMe either,â you said, fighting back tears. You had been emotional all day, you definitely didnât need to be reminded how monumental of a day it was.
You had been satisfied with cell phone pictures, but apparently Rafe had hired a whole photographer. She called you over now, to the backdrop.
There was a whole photo session while the guests helped themselves to the food and refreshments. Photos of you and Iris, Rafe and Iris, you, Rafe, and Iris together. Pictures with Iris, Rafe, Sarah, Wheezie, Ward, and Rose. Some of you and JJ with her. And of course a group photo with the pogues with the birthday girl in the center.
When it was time for cake, you settled Iris into the vintage high chair. JJ brought over her smash cake, which was a smaller version of the big cake - small, round, and white with strawberries painted in icing decorating it. There was a big 1 candle on top.
JJ handed the cake to you, and Rafe pulled out a lighter and lit the candle.
The two of you walked over to the high chair, holding the cake in front of Iris close enough to see but far enough away that she couldnât reach the fire.
The whole party began to sing happy birthday, and it was then that it really hit you.
The past 365 days of your life flashed before your eyes. First smile, first laugh, first tooth, first word, learning to crawl. First night home from the hospital, when Rafe never strayed far from your side, holding newborn Iris every chance he got so you could eat and shower and sleep. The day she was born, when Rafe held your hand the entire time you were in labor, wiping the sweat off your face, feeding you ice chips, and telling you Youâre doing amazing, babe. How it had been a complicated labor, and when she was finally out and you heard her cry, you both looked at each other and breathed out a collectively held breath of relief. Seeing your daughter for the first time, just a tiny little thing, brand new to the world and snuggling into your chest for comfort. Rafe holding her for the first time, looking at her with pure adoration, and the way he cried (but made you promise not to tell anyone about that).
Your eyes moved up to look at him, and like he had the exact same thought at the same time, he turned and his gaze met yours as you continued to sing the song. Tears welled up in your eyes and you saw his become glassy, too. You both smiled at each other, a million unspoken emotions conveyed between them.
When the song was over, you and Rafe blew the candle out together, watching Irisâ delighted face. Rafe removed the candle and you placed the little smash cake in front of Iris.
She examined it first, cautious. Rafe grabbed her little hand, dipping it in the icing and bringing it to her lips. She gladly put her fingers in her mouth, they were usually there anyway, but her face lit up with a smile when she tasted the buttercream icing.
âSee? Mmm, yummy,â Rafe said, beaming at her.
âUmmy,â Iris repeated, and she dipped her hand into the cake willingly this time, grabbing a big handful and bringing it to her mouth.
Rafe laughed, delighted, and clapped his hands together once. Guests were taking pictures and videos on their phones, the photographer getting plenty of shots. Everyone continued to watch as Iris devoured her smash cake, eating until she couldnât anymore.
You and Rafe cleaned all the cake off of her when she was finished, which always made her cranky. She screamed as you wiped her off, but you and Rafe only laughed. You were still feeling emotional.
The big cake was served to all the guests by country club staff, and again it occurred to you that you had never in your life seen such a grand event for a one year old.
Presents were opened after everyone ate, you and Rafe on either side of Iris as she ripped into her gifts. She was more interested in the paper and empty bags than the gifts inside them, but at least she was having a blast. You knew sheâd be excited about the actual gifts later.
The gift table was already overflowing with the amount of guests at the party, but you swore that Rafe himself had brought half the table. It seemed like every other present handed your way had From Daddy written on it in Rafeâs handwriting.
Iris was asleep in Rafeâs arms by the time the guests began to leave. She was absolutely knocked out from all the excitement of the day.
Rafe stroked her hair absentmindedly as you both saw your guests off, thanking everyone for coming.
It was just close family and friends left, JJ and the pogues were loading up the car with Irisâ gifts while you ate another piece of birthday cake.
âTurned out pretty good,â Rafe said, speaking softly as he held your sleeping daughter.
âAre you kidding? It was amazing. You did not have to go all out like this.â You raised your eyebrows at him, icing smeared on your lips.
Rafe reached forward with his free hand, swiping his thumb across your lips and gathering up the icing. He popped his thumb into his own mouth, sucking the icing off as he held eye contact with you. You watched him, stunned for a minute.
âItâs no big deal,â Rafe said as if nothing had happened. âI wanted her to have a good party.â
You just looked at him. He was unbothered as usual.
âWell, it was a great party,â you finally said. âI appreciate it, Rafe.â
He shook his head. âYou donât have to thank me for doing things for our daughter. I want to.â
You knew he was being honest. Rafe went overboard sometimes, this being a perfect example, but he had the best intentions and it wasnât hurting anyone. It was hard not to fall in love with him when you watched him being the worldâs best dad.
When the car was packed full and there were still plenty of gifts left, Rafe told the guys to start loading the rest in his truck.
âIâm worried all this stuff isnât gonna fit in the house,â you said, furrowing your brows as you threw away some trash.
âAnything thereâs not room for she can keep at my place,â Rafe offered. Most of her stuff was at your and JJâs house, because thatâs where she spent most of her time, but she certainly was spoiled at Rafeâs too.
When everything was successfully packed up, Rafe buckled Iris into her car seat. She was so tired she barely stirred, continuing to nap as he snapped the buckles around her body and carried her to your car.
Rafe locked the car seat into the base in your back seat. He turned to you, suddenly standing so close.
âIâll follow you back to the house,â he said quietly. âHelp you unload all this stuff.â
Back at the house, you carried Irisâ seat inside, unbuckling her and bringing her to her bedroom while Rafe and JJ unloaded the cars. You changed her out of her dress and into something comfy and let her hair down.
You rocked her in the glider. She was so worn out from her day she started to drift back off quickly, her eyes fluttering shut and body relaxing in your arms.
When you stood to lay her in her crib, you noticed Rafe standing at the door. You slightly jumped when you saw him, not expecting him to be there, which made him chuckle quietly and you gave him a playful glare.
You stepped out of the room, closing the door behind you and Rafe softly.
âSheâs tired, huh,â Rafe observed, smiling at you. He was in a good mood today - it had been a good day.
âWorn out,â you agreed.
Rafe reached forward, rubbing his large hand down your arm. âYou did really good, by the way.â
âIt was fun,â you said. âBut the planner definitely did most of the work.â
âShe just did the boring part, you made the whole thing come together.â
You smiled back at him. He was being sweet, he was making an effort.
âI know everyoneâs been saying it all day, but I canât believe sheâs actually one,â Rafe laughed, rubbing a hand over his face. âIt feels like she was just born.â
Your smile was tinged with sadness, the emotions from the day sticking with you. âI know. Itâs too fast. All of it,â You shook your head, thinking of how fleeting her baby days had been.
âI just wishâŠâ Rafe began, looking down at his hands instead of at you as he spoke, âThat I didnât have to miss out on any of her life.â
You were silent. You knew what he meant. But you also knew that a relationship didnât work between the two of you. It was toxic, you were both jealous, you fought all the time. When you co-parented as two single parents, things were easy. If only you could ignore the way he made you feel.
Rafe sighed when you didnât respond. He said your name softly. You turned to look at him, finding his deep blue eyes staring into yours. He walked up to you until he was standing right in front of you, hand reaching up to play with your hair.
âRafeâŠâ you breathed, and you knew you should push him away, walk away, anything, but you donât.
Rafe leaned down until his lips met yours, kissing you softly, gently. You felt yourself melt into his kiss, like every bit of common sense in your brain was dying.
His arms wrapped around your hips, pulling your body flush against his. Your arms went around his neck, and he deepened the kiss, his tongue sliding into your mouth, massaging your own.
You moaned against his lips, which only egged him on more as he slid his hands around your body to grab your ass.
You pulled away just enough to speak. âJJ could walk back here at any secondâŠâ you whispered against his mouth.
Rafeâs lips quirked up in a smirk, because he didnât particularly care about that. But he knew you did.
âMaybe we can go to your bedroom, then?â he proposed, his fingers stroking over your body and sending shivers across your skin.
You wanted to say yes. But it was always a bad idea, always such a bad idea - maybe for once youâd make a smart decision.
âI canâtâŠâ you said, sounding like it pained you.
Rafe just held you for a second longer. Finally, he pressed his lips to your forehead, giving it a kiss as he pulled away from you, squeezing your arm as he let you go.
âI better get going then,â he said, and neither of you wanted him to, but you didnât change your mind. You didnât stop him.
Rafe turned and left the house before you could even say anything. You stood in the hallway until you heard the front door closing, his truck starting outside.
You briefly thought about running after him, begging him to come back and spend the night with you. But you donât. You decide to have more respect for yourself than that.
But you spend the whole night in your bed, thinking of him, aching for him. Until you reach for your cell phone, charging on the bedside table. You send him an impulsive text, just seeing if heâs still up.
His response comes immediately.
Rafey
Knew youâd regret letting me leave.
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WARNINGS: jihoon dealing with an extremely horny reader, guided masturbation, smut, fingering, mentions of body fluids (cum/precum), humiliation, crying, overstimulation, lots of dirty talk, mentions of penetrative sex, teasing, clit stimulation, g'spot stimulation, degrading.
@jihootea ALWAYS planting jihoon brainrot on meeee!! now i cant stop picturing how jihoon would deal with his partner when she's drop-head horny⊠he would be a MEANIE, like, no mercy. AND he can almost smell the horniness from you. even though he's turned back with his producing chair.
except you know, know, heâs aware. he can probably feel your eyes drilling into him, can hear the way youâre struggling to sit still, thighs rubbing together just enough to keep your sanity hanging by a thread.
and then, without even looking at you, he says, âyou good over there? squirming like youâve got a problem or something.â his tone is so casual it makes you want to throw something. itâs not even a questionâitâs pure fucking tease, dripping with this smugness that makes you want to melt and scream at the same time.
âjihoonâŠâ you whisper begging, but he just lets out this tiny scoff, like heâs already bored of you. he leans back in his chair, finally giving you his attention, eyebrow cocked like heâs waiting for you to entertain him.
âwhat?â he drawls, eyes sliding down to your legs, then back up to your flushed face. âyou slut canât keep that little thing between your legs under control?â
itâs embarrassing, the way he says it, like heâs talking about some little pet that you canât handle. you bite your lip, trying not to combust as he looks you up and down, arms crossed, manspreading, all arrogant and completely unimpressed.
âif youâre that desperate,â he says, eyes narrowing, âwhy donât you show me? right here...â
your mouth goes dry, heart slamming against your ribcage. but you canât ignore the way his voice gets lower, like heâs waiting, daring you.
your handâs barely down there inside your shorts, fingers brushing against the clit, when you hear him snap, âwho said you could keep those on?â his toneâs rougher than usual. youâre quick to slide them off, hooking your thumbs in the waistband and slipping out of your shorts and panties in one go like they were one piece only. you toss them at him with a grin, watching his eyes light up satisfied as he catches them, raising an eyebrow at you.
he takes the panties from the bundle and brings them up to his face, holding your gaze the whole time. smirking. the way he watches you squirm, vulnerable in a way you never quite do with anyone else. itâs him. âgetting all shy now? didnât think you had it in you.â
you swallow, cheeks burning, but you donât drop his gaze, even as he tilts his head.
âare you waiting for permission or something?â he snaps, that edge back in his voice. âdidnât i tell you to touch yourself? whats the hold-up? are you just that pathetic that you need me to walk you through it?â
you pout, voice coming out soft and whiny, âarenât you going to help me?â
âoh, no, sweetheart. if youâre that desperate, youâll just have to do it yourself. all by yourself, since youâre such a big girl already.â
your hand slides between your legs, finding that slick, that had been bothering you for hours already, you shiver as your fingers spread it over your folds, teasing your clit. his ears twitch up almost like a cat when he hears how wet you are.
âbarely even touching yourself and already making a mess. and here i thought you had some self-control.â he drawls.
you whimper, biting your lip as you roll your fingers over your clit, feeling that ache, that need, building up. but heâs just watching, eyes raking over every inch of you with that judgmental gaze, making you feel ten times more exposed than you are.
âis that the best you can do?â he sneers. âpathetic. thought you wanted this, but youâre just playing around, arenât you? canât even get yourself off without me telling you what to do.â
you let out a frustrated whine, pressing harder, slipping a finger inside, anything to relieve that pressure, but itâs like his voice is right there, mocking you, judging every little movement.
âkeep going,â he says, voice so cold that makes your skin shiver up. âmaybe if you try a little harder, youâll actually be worth watching. spread that pussy fâme.â
your fingers obey trembling as you slide them out to spread yourself for him, he sees the mouthwatering cream being expelled from the tight little hole. âlook at that,â he sneers, tilting his head as he takes in the view. âso messy. youâre really that worked up, babe? got yourself all soaked just sitting here like a needy little slut.â
your breath hitches, a moan slipping out despite yourself as you finally push two fingers in, hips bucking, feeling that burn. his eyes gleam, watching the way you struggle to keep quiet, and he smiles, soooo pleased.
âaw, youâre whining already?â he coos, tone mocking, like heâs talking to some helpless, needy thing. âthat desperate? thought you could handle yourself, but look at youâjust a mess on my couch. tell me⊠wishing it was my fingers instead?â
you canât help the whimper that escapes, hips lifting, and he catches it, eyes sparking.
âoh?â he chuckles, leaning in slightly. âor is it my cock you want, huh? thatâs it, isnât it? poor baby, too worked up to even admit it.â
the moan that slips from your lips is helpless, your back arching as you dig your fingers deeper, feeling the heat coil tighter. his smirk widens.
âthen show me how bad you want it,â he murmurs, voice dropping lower. âcurl those fingers up, just like that⊠think you can even get yourself close to how good iâd make you feel?â
you nod, whimpering as you obey, curling your fingers up to hit that weak spot, feeling the way it makes your toes curl and your thighs tremble.
your warning slips out in a shaky breath, âji⊠wanna cum,â as you meet his gaze, eyes pleading. he watches you, eyes heavy hunger, one hand squeezing his length through his pants, jaw tight as he throws his head back for a second, like heâs savoring the sight of you so worked up.
when he looks at you again. âgo on,â he coos, smirking as he tilts his head. âdidnât last long, did you?â
you feel your body tremble, hips jerking as your hand moves faster, fingers slipping inside as you cry out, not caring anymore how loud you are, a mess being created on his studio's sofa. but just as you start to come down, just as you think itâs over, he speaks again.
âwho said you could stop?â he sneers, eyes narrowing as he watches you with that amused smirk. âyouâre not done yet. keep those fingers moving. keep going for me.â
a whimper escapes your lips as your overstimulated body obeys, fingers shaky but pushing in deeper, pressing against that sensitive spot again. your hips buck up involuntarily, every nerve screaming pleasure giving you a new ache that has you gasping.
âjihoon, butââ you try, voice breaking, but he cuts you off, voice sharp.
âif you donât keep going, thereâs no chance in hell iâll give you what you want.â
you bite your lip, a desperate moan slipping out as you force yourself to keep moving. your fingers finally slip out, drenched and trembling, but instinct pulls you to the sensitive bud, fingers barely brushing over it as you start drawing slow, shaky circles. the touch is too much, making your eyes squeeze shut as your legs shake on either side, instinctively trying to close, but you keep them open, fighting against every urge to stop.
your face frown and you feel a hot prickle at the corners of your eyes, your voice breaking, choked, as you mutter, âji⊠canât⊠i canât take it anymoreâŠâ your lower belly clenches, your body spasming at every soft circle you trace, a tear slips down your cheek, face flushed and damp, as you shudder, fingers shaking as they push you to that razor-thin edge again.
he leans forward, catching every broken sound, every little sob, his smirk widening as he coos, âoh, poor thing⊠already crying?â his words make you shake even harder, your body backstabbing you as you keep going, fingers pressed firmly on that nerve.
your thighs are burning from holding yourself open, your sobs grow louder, broken and dumb, and heâs just sitting back, arms crossed, his forearm muscles popping, veins standing out as he leans forward, eyes fixed on every shaky fingering.
âisnât this what you wanted, slut?â
a whimper escapes you, eyes blurry with tears as you nod, âj-jihoon⊠canâtâŠâ your hips buck up, trying to escape your own hand.
âkeep going thought you were horny. or were you just pretending?â
another whimper, tears spilling down your cheeks as you press down on that sensitive bundle of nerves, every little touch pushing you higher, closer to that edge youâre not sure you can survive again. âplease⊠too muchâŠ,â you cry, voice cracked.
âtoo much? aww poor baby...â he taunts, shaking his head slowly.
your insides twist, so intense youâre not sure where one ends and the other begins. you curl over yourself. each touch making your vision blur. nerves fried until youâre nothing but a quivering, soaked mess on the couch, every last bit of strength melting out of you. you donât stop until he finally murmurs,
âgood girl. thatâs enough.â
you collapse, body going limp, fingers sliding away as you fall back, every limb heavy and useless. your chest heaves, cheeks flushed, face still damp with tears, and hes on you in a second, leaning over, pressing soft kisses to your forehead, cheeks, lips.
âthere yaâ go⊠you did so good, baby...â he whispers, like heâs helping you piece yourself back together. âmy good girl, so perfect.â
you close your eyes, he shifts, wrapping an arm around you, pulling you close against his chest, and you sink into the comfort of him, exhaustion pulling you under as he strokes your hair, fingers gentle, calming.
âget some rest,â he murmurs, pressing a final kiss to your temple. âyouâll need it, sweetheart. when you wake up, iâm going to make sure you really canât move. gonna fuck you so hard...â
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Death Wish 7
Warnings: non/dubcon, mentions of crime, violence/abuse and other dark elements. My username actually says you never asked for any of this.
My warnings are not exhaustive but be aware this is a dark fic and may include potentially triggering topics. Please use your common sense when consuming content. I am not responsible for your decisions.
Character: mob!Bucky Barnes
Part of the mob drabbles au
Summary:Â youâre desperate for a way out of your life and you ask a powerful man for help (plus!reader)
As usual, I would appreciate any and all feedback. Iâm happy to once more go on this adventure with all of you! Thank you in advance for your comments and for reblogging â€ïž
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Thereâs no casket for the funeral. In this neighbourhood, thatâs expected. After the usual affair at the church, all are invited back to the house to pay their respects. You put the only picture you have of your father on the mantel; his wedding photo.Â
You dress in black but not for your father. Youâre mourning your sisters. Yourself. You dress in sombre slate for the uncertainty of it all. The colour is as dark as your guilt. You brought this fear upon them.Â
You didnât think about any of this. Barnes was entirely right in that regard. You didnât think any of it out. You werenât thinking at all. You were angry and tired. Now, itâs done and thereâs no going back to what was. You donât truly want to do that but you donât see a path ahead thatâs much better.Â
The people there are there because itâs expected. They are your fatherâs associates. Not family or friends. Funerals are part of their job description.Â
You walk numbly from room to room. You havenât cried. You havenât had a tear for your father in years. You try to make yourself look distraught but all you feel is empty.Â
Adrienne sways between bouts of bawling and soft sniffles. Kitty is stronger. She busies herself with the flowers and thanks every guest for attending. You accept their condolences but offer little in return.Â
Youâre all just pretending. Youâre acting like youâll miss him. You wonât. Even if your sisters are stunned and just as scared as you, you know they arenât sad. You all wished for this the very night before the envelope showed up. The night that you... killed him.Â
You sit in one of the mismatched chairs set out to accommodate the guests. The neighbours lent some of their own for the event. You are worn through. You havenât slept more than an hour at a time since you pulled that trigger. Â
You wonât tell yourself itâs regret, you were never more certain of anything in your life. No, you know exactly what it is. Dread. You have a debt to pay.Â
A figure appears in the open door. You see him through the archway of the front room. You stand as the new arrival stops just within the frame. A slow hush rolls over each guest. You look at Kitty as she glances over from the tray of cookies she spent all night making. She sees him too.Â
Your older sister goes to Adrienne and touches her shoulder. The youngest lifts her head and peers up as all attention aims at the arched doorway. Barnes fills it easily. He looks around. His suit seems blacker than usual.Â
It isnât a surprise. Heâs the boss. Heâs expected to see his men off. He nods at you, then your sisters. You go to them, standing with Kitty behind the sofa as she keeps her hand on Adrienne.Â
âPlease,â Barnes waves your younger sister from standing. âStay. Iâm sure itâs been a long day. Iâve only come to pay my respects.âÂ
He looks between you all then sidesteps the couch. He goes to the mantle and considers the wedding photo. He bows his head and reaches into his jacket. He sets a silver coin in front of the frame. Itâs an old tradition. Back in the 30s, people would leave pennies on the church altar to help pay for the burial.Â
He takes a deep breath and backs up. He turns to face the room. The people in it might be familiar but they are just as much strangers to you as someone on the street. They donât care about you, they donât even care about your father. Theyâre only there because thatâs what you do.Â
âThank you all for coming. You may go,â Barnes says.Â
Thereâs a moment of hesitation. Then, the men in suits and their wives, shuffle out obediently. Kitty grabs her hand and squeezes Adrienneâs shoulder. You watch the man they call the king.Â
When the room is empty, he goes to shut the front door. He returns and stands just inside the archway. He peers around again.Â
âYour father died as one of mine, that means youâre all under my protection. Consider the casket paid for,â he says.Â
âThank you, Mr. Barnes,â Kitty says. âThatâs very generous.âÂ
âI do it for all my men. I try not to lose too many,â he replies grimly. âI want you girls to tell me if you need anything. Got it?âÂ
Adrienne smothers a sob and nods frantically. Kitty hushes her and leans in to pet her head. You stand staunchly beside them, staring at him. His eyes cling to you.Â
âCatch your breath, doll,â Barnes says. âCalm her down.â He points at Kitty then you, âYour daddy got a gun safe?âÂ
You look at your sisters. You can see the glisten in Kittyâs eyes. Sheâs good at taking care of people. Youâre not. Adrienne needs her. You did this. You gotta deal with it.Â
âYeah, upstairs,â you answer as you step around the couch.Â
Barnes waits until youâre level with him before he turns. He lets you lead him out and follows you to the second floor. You take him to your fatherâs bedroom and push the door open. You canât go inside. You were never allowed. Not unless you wanted a taste of your fatherâs belt.Â
âI donât know the code,â you say.Â
âThatâs fine. Just needa know itâs here. Iâll have my men sort that out,â he rocks on his feet. âWe needa talk.âÂ
You nod.Â
âPrivately,â he glances over at the staircase.Â
You look at your fatherâs door and take a step back, ânot in there.âÂ
âRight, wherever you like,â he shows his palm indifferently.Â
You turn and guide him to your room. You pause before you let him inside. Youâre embarrassed as he enters. Your basket of laundry is overflowing and your makeup is still strewn all over from your erratic morning.Â
He paces around your bed and you shut the door. Heâs quiet. So are you. The tension is enough to make you squirm. You just want him to come out and say it.Â
âItâs me. I owe you. Not my sisters--âÂ
He raises his index finger. âYou do.â He stops and faces you. âAnd so did your daddy. He had his hands in my pockets. Deep. I coulda had him done for that. Coulda done it myself. Then I thought about it. I do that, I brand him a thief, and what does that mean for his girls?âÂ
You stare at him, chest aching as your heart pounds.Â
âThe house and what he actually brought in, it isnât close to even with what he took,â he crosses his arms, setting his feet flat. He lifts his chin. âI really shoulda done it myself but you wanna know why I didnât?âÂ
You canât talk. Heâs toying with you. You look down at the floor as if you might see your sisters through the boards.Â
âAh, eyes up here,â he comes closer until heâs right in front of you. Your eyes flick up and wet with tears. Finally. âI wanted to know if you would do what needs to be done. If when the hammer comes down, that you wonât crack.â His eyes flick up and down and he sucks his teeth. âYou didn't. You didnât fucking flinch either.âÂ
âHe deserved it,â you whisper, voice wobbling.Â
âI know he did, doll. And I know you deserved to do that,â he says. âAnd what I saw that night, I never seen that before. Thatâs a woman with steel in her gut. The kinda woman a man like me needs.âÂ
Your forehead creases in confusion. You donât know what he means.Â
âYou want me to... take over for my dad? I canât--âÂ
âHa, no, no,â he startles you as he brings his hand up. You flinch and he keeps his hand aloft. His eyes spark and he tilts his palm, gently caressing your cheek as if coaxing a street cat. âThis isnât womanâs work. No, doll, all I want, is you.âÂ
Your eyes round and you shiver against his touch. He smirks.Â
âAnd I know, just like in that warehouse, youâre going to do exactly what needs to be done,â his thumb strokes your cheekbone. âFor your sisters.âÂ
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