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thewingedwolf · 20 days ago

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listen i’m fully expecting the manifesto to be full of stuff about how we gotta get back to traditional gender roles or something, and he’s been missing for six months online so we don’t know what he REALLY thinks yet, because clearly the physical, emotional, and probabky financial trauma from whatever happened to his back was a radicalizing moment that caused a pretty major breakdown, but his review of the unabomber’s manifesto on goodreads (😭) basically has him saying that the main issue with the unabomber was that the unabomber killed innocent people (imo the implication here being that whatever point he was trying to make, however valid, is muddled) and well, he certainly made sure he only got The guy responsible and that his point was VERY clear. also online footprints are insane because it’s kinda crazy to be able to just go online & see that right before he disappeared, probabky in the middle of his breakdown, he was rereading the lorax & liking sad snippets of it on goodreads, which is a thing i also do with frequency.

#i’m sorry is anyone else like me really fixated on this.#i feel like this is a sign my mental health truly is in the dumps but also like u get it right.#rani makes text posts no one will read #i guess tbf to me i got kinda fixated on the ever given AND the titan.#i read books about deep sea exploration & went on wiki and online article spirals #is this one that should be in the diary instead

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puppyeared · 7 months ago

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i feel like im not making any sense but does anyone else feel like there are stories that let u run with them and ones that spell everything out for you

#im reading that post that says artists are directors of audience reaction and not its dictator:#'you cannot guarantee that everyone viewing your work will react as you are trying t make them react. a good artist knows that this is what #allows work to breath. by definition you cannot have art where the viewer brings nothing to the table ... this is why you have to let go of #the urge to plainly state in text exactly how you think the work should be interpreted ... its better to be misinterpreted sometimes than #to talk down to your audience. you wont even gain any control that way; people will still develop their opinions no matter what you do #im thinking abt this again cuz i was thinking maybe the thing that lets adventure time work so well the way it does is cuz it doesnt #take itself too seriously that it gives the audience enough room to fuck with subtext and then fuck with them back yknow. i think it was #mentioned somewhere that they werent even planning to run with the postapocalyptic elements that are hinted in the show but changed their #mind after the one off with the frozen businessmen and dominoed into marcy and simons backstory. on the other side there are stories that #explain too much to let the story speak for itself and i think it ends up having to do more with the crew trying to lead ppl in a certain #direction than expand on what they have and i see a lot of this with miraculous. like when interviews and tweets are used as word of god in #arguments and it becomes a little stifling to play around with it knowing the creator can just interject. u can say its the crews effort to #engage with its audience but it feels more like micromanaging. and none of this is to say there ISNT room for stories that spell things out #theyre just suited for different things. if sesame street tried abstract approaches to themes and nuance itd be counterproductive #a lot of things fly over my head so i need help picking things apart to get it- but it doesnt have to be from the story itself. ive picked #picked up or built on my own interpretations listening to other ppl share their thoughts which creates conversation around the same thing #sometimes stories will spell things out for you without being so obvious abt it that it feels like its woven into the text. my fav example #for this might be ATLA using younger characters as its main cast but instead of feeling like its dumbed down for kids to understand why war #is bad its framed from a childs point of view so younger audiences can pick up on it by relating to the characters. maybe an 8 year old #wont get how geopolitics works but at least they get 'hey the world is a little more complicated than everyone vs. fire nation'. same for #steven universe bc its like theyre trying to describe and put feelings into words that kids might not have so they have smth to start with #especially with the metaphors around relationships bc even if it looks unfamiliar as a kid now maybe the hope is for it to be smth you can #look back to. thats why it feels like these shows grew up with me.. instead of saving difficult topics for 'when im ready for it'#as if its preparing me for high school it gave me smth to turn in my hands and revisit again and again as i grow. stories that never #treated u as dumb all along. just someone who could learn and come back to it as many times as u need to. i loved SU for the longest time #but i felt guilty for enjoying it hearing the way ppl bash it. bc i was a kid and thought other ppl understood it better than me and made #feel bad for leaning into the message of paying forward kindness and not questioning why steven didnt punish the diamonds or hold them #accountable. but im rewatching it now and going oh. i still love this show and what it was trying to teach me #yapping #diary

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atsushis-fangs · 2 months ago

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Scotland: get in the halloween spirit and make a ghost!!

Ireland: that’s called murder and I heard somewhere that it’s illegal

@winterwrites23 I’ll have you know that I am NOT dead, SoT is STILL my all time favourite fic, and I MISSED making these. Happy Halloween! :D

#hetalia #sot #incorrect quotes #outlander au #sot incorrect quotes #hws scotland #hws ireland #who would have thought that a higher education would be more difficult than the previous one?#not me that’s for sure #I’m sorry once again for my absence #I was originally planning on posting on sep 1st #yk like sot anniversary date or whatever #but then I FORGOT #anyway I pulled up sot the second life got difficult #it’s such a comfort to close many tabs at once after doing research or something but specifically leaving the sot tab #anyway. genuinely shaking because I NEED to boop winterwrites23 #didn’t get to do it on April 1st #it’s so important to me you don’t understand #I remember the sinking feeling from half a year ago so clearly like #WDYM I FORGOT #haha my bad memory aside #I hope to actually get around to posting more #because I miss it so much #I should get a diary or smth instead of abusing tags like this #end of rant :)) love this fic and all its fans good to be back fr fr

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phagodyke · 2 months ago

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2nd hearing test today and it looks normal thank FUCKKK. well ofc I'm still deaf, normal For Me

#actually idr if i mentioned it on here before i think i typed a rant and then closed the app before i hit post #but basically just a jumpscare my last audio tone graph came out Bad and they were like aw fuck youve lost a lot more hearing #which is WORRYING bc my deafness is sensorineural ie. from auditory nerve/brain damage not physical damage #so if it was suddenly getting worse well nothing they can rly do to figure out WHY its getting worse let alone try to fix it #but nah second test came out pretty much the same as usual. i think maybe bc i did the other one at the end of the day instead of early #morning maybe my auditory processing was just worse or smth it happens lol #well anyway they took fresh moulds so should be able to replace my 3 year old ones in a few weeks yayy #and im on the waiting list for new hearing aids with them too...and once i get them i can get an accessory to hook em to bluetooth #altho the nhs prolly wont cover it. but access to work should do if it comes to that 👍#my life is gonna get so much fucking easier when i can tune them into shit instead of switching them for super loud earphones #anyway gotta get my ass to work now blegh. always feels weird having my workday routine broken up #.diaries

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beastsovrevelation · 8 months ago

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In all the Good Omens stories I'm currently working on, the child Crowley eventually ends up with (having it, not romantically involved with a child) is a girl. He strikes me as a girl dad (and mom), really. Yes, imagining Crowley as a parent at all is wild, but that's a different can of worms.

Thing is, I have to come up with a story where Crowley has a son named Aleister. You... Understand why, don't you?.. Right.

It could be Fem!Crowley x Hastur (I feel it would be Hastur's idea), or Crowley x Fem!Reader (definitely Reader's idea).

I think, this may open some doors for comedy? Reader (or Fem!Crowley) could have a mental breakdown, fearing a snake may slither out of her when time comes. Though, admittedly, a snake would likely cause less discomfort than a human.

...If the previous paragraph made you think of a certain song, I like you.

Hell, even if the child is born in human form, it might shapeshift, no? I guess, you could pretend you're taking your pet snake out in a stroller (I bet there are reptile owners that insane in reality). Only, when the "pet snake" starts crying or babbling, you'd have a real problem, because... Reptiles don't do that. There wouldn't be any religious people around, hopefully.

Damn, this made me laugh. I'm sitting at my desk, drinking my coffee, laughing like a maniac. Let's be serious, I'm probably incapable of writing comedy, just angst, gore... Romance, but not comedy.

Just some thoughts while I ✨procastrinate✨.

#diary pages #writing journal #i should be writing what do i do instead?#talk to myself about snakes slithering out of folks' uteruses in writing and posting it... like a normal person of sound mind #tbh making up ocs is one of my favorite aspects of writing fanfiction... just creating characters in general #that's the reason of why I like making characters have kids so much... that and I just want to put them through bad situation #good omens #fanfiction writer #good omens fanfiction #ao3 writer #crowley x hastur #crowley x reader #aleister crowley (oc)#good omens fandom #pestilence you have better things to do what the fuck is this #and you already have a MYRIAD of wips #no crowley x hastur is marked as a must and i said i'll write x readers #you know... short and easy little stories that let me fake productivity

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the-void-has-questions · 4 months ago

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Hey I just remembered something actually. As a small child, I (like many queer kids) chose a socially acceptable person to have a crush on. We were first graders. It was never dramatic, I thought we were just Advanced Friends.

However we got paired up on one project, a slide presentation about a topic of our choice. And the gist was that we would present to each other and get feedback. And upon sitting through this kids presentation, I noticed all of his “egregious”spelling errors (literally they were not that bad, it was all typical stuff for a regular 6y/o, I was just addicted to reading and knew all the big words)

And I just remember being too polite to correct every one, so I just sat there thinking “I cannot have a crush on him. I cannot love a guy who can’t use the right ‘you’re’” which is an insane thing to think as a first grader

#anyways I’ve been laughing at myself like yeah. that’s my standards #even now I’m like. not necessarily unattracted to ignorance #but it’s a factor. probably a bigger one than it should be #also I feel so bad now like he never figured it out but I do remember he wrote ‘have’ instead of ‘half’ and that’s what (un)did it for me #baby Remy what the fuck #remy rambles #life story I suppose #oh also I do need to stress that ALL of his spelling mistakes were age appropriate I was just a freak 💕💕#I had to share because otherwise I would explode #on this episode of: Remy using tumblr like a diary

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treeshrine · 10 months ago

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gonna be real bud if your fic relies so heavily on intense triggering themes and shock value that you're averse to putting warnings on it to "maintain surprise" and "avoid spoilers", then you act like you did nothing wrong when people are upset that you didn't make any effort to turn them away and allow them to protect themselves, while also telling them it's their fault that they read something that upset them when they could have never known it contained specific things that will upset them, i think you are a tar pit

#'warnings are a courtesy!!' yes so why are you apparently averse to being courteous #saying omg fanfiction never used to warn people and print books never warn people so it's not a bad thing if i don't warn you!#that's some 'no one protected me so why should i protect you' type shit #sorry i got recommended this dumb ass post and i had to say something so i'm saying it here #why are you telling people to curate their own experiences while actively making it more difficult to curate their experiences LMFAO #if i read a scene with intensely triggering content without knowing it was there before. 'just closing the book' or 'hitting the back butto #is not protecting myself. how do i protect myself from something I've already read???#diary #like dude it's possible to protect people from spoilers while also protecting people from seeing things that will distress them #i also honestly take issue with people who do a content warning but just say “this gets into some shit” or something of the like.#you might as well have just not said anything because now i'm confused and on edge #instead of able to protect myself properly i have to try and gauge my personal sensitivity against the unknowable factor of #what your idea of “some shit” is #also telling someone to 'just close the book lol' is an incredibly dismissive approach to people being affected by something triggering #you know these things do happen to people in real life. right. but of course who would have empathy for someone who doesn't want to be #reminded of trauma

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imeminemp3 · 7 months ago

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i have 2 speeding fines from when my car was stolen even tho i reported it stolen so now i have to call the police and ask them to please tell fines vic that my car was fucking stolen at that time. ffs

#and i just am sick of being on the telephone.#and i am sick of thinking about how my car was stolen #and im SICK to my STOMACHBHH because they're due in like 5 days and i didn't even know i had these fines until yesterday #which means i really have to sort it out soon!!!!#and im SIIIIIIICK of having to do things and sort things out like it's killing me i wish i could just hire an assistant to book my window to #be fixed and to talk to the police for me about these 2 fucking fines #im absolutely just SICK!!!!!!!!!#and one of the fines was in a tunnel so now im like. should i see if that's a toll road?? should i see if i can get a refund for any toll #roads from when it was stolen??? will someone PLEASE be my underpaid assistant to do all this for me #it's so sucks that I'm not rich and already have a well paid assistant to help me out #bc i just can't deal with ant of this anymore!#and id like someone to book therapy for me instead of me having to do it ughhhb #cause i need to go to therapy but i just don't want to call them on my break at work #diary

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indigogirled · 8 months ago

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le epic sigh

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lesbianaglaya · 2 years ago

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revoking people’s right to talk about the tolstoy marriage until they write and turn in to me a ten page essay on complex relationships

#‘tolstoy STOLE from sophia’s diary’ almost certainly not true.#at least not in the usual vein - sophia was (and should be credited as!) at the very least his editor and collaborator #with w&p at times i want to say co author but i also dont think we should diminish the importance of editing #they worked as a team! and in the later years when thier relationship was increasingly frought they were BOTH reading each others diaries.#the problem is there is genuinely an avenue to talk about how tolstoy drew from real life in less than ethical ways #tanya bhers/natasha rostova for instance. THE KREUTZER SONATA! FOR INSTANCE!#but diminishing it down to oh he stole from her is. a disservice to both of them.#sophia confessed her love by writing a story that blatantly copied real life and lev’s personal insecurities confessed in confidence #and honestly that isnt even BAD like there is a reason they were happily married for 25 years! they’re work is similar they were a team!#we dint need to flatten it out to sophia-wife-victim lev-husband-abuser.#nor do we need to ignore the many ways sophia suffered!#it’s just theyve been reduced to a famous literary disaster marriage when they really… werent that.#gabby.txt #genuinely tanya as the inspiration for natasha is far more upsetting to me than giving his diary to sophia before the wedding.#idk. idk! its like on one hand im so fully on sophia's side and im so happy that her diaries and writing are being translated #and. not even on the other hand these ideas arent in opposition to each other. reducing her marriage to a flat picture of suffering is. bad #actually i think in many ways the problem is solved by looking at sophia as an author instead of a wife.#which like. she was very much both. but if we afford her the agency afforded to an author i think the conversation immediately gains nuance #and that also comes with the caveat of female authors being far less respected - look at nadezhda khvoshchinskaya - but still #anyway GOOOOD morning

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icewindandboringhorror · 9 months ago

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Misc daily life images

#image commentary in tags once again since they don't allow captions anymore and I feel weird using the alt text for that --#1. COLUMBINEEEE... (I think..???) one of my favorite flowers... I managed to grow a small one in a pot last year. huzzah #2. spicy soup for lunch (another very rare lunch since I usually eat literally the same exact thing every day for my stomach #issues and stuff lol).. also made a fruit smoothie but put tapioca boba in it out of curiosity.. which was weird #3. woven cucumber shavings.. one of the many little meticulous tasks that I find oddly fun and could probably do for hours #4. A RED FOUR LEAF CLOVER!!!! There are some patches of clover in the yard that have weird red coloring and red spots on them #almost like it's some sort of damage or something but it seems natural (and I wonder if it has to do with plants that grow around them at #all since these 'green clovers but where some of them are variously spotted in red' patches happen to be next to patches of weeds/#grouncover that also have red stems and stuff.) but so in the yard it is rare to find a red clover #and also rare to find a four leaf clover. so a RED four leaf clover is the most rare... special child..#5. bapy son on the heating pad (featuring my stinky little toast shaped 2ds lol... i wonder if theyve been obsolete so long that maybe #3ds are actually affordable now (under $100).. hrmm...)#6. Another wii fit mingame score. I'm not sure if this is even lower than the other ones or anything. I never go back to compare them lol #if a score seems good enough to possibly be my best I just take apicture of it anyway. I should probably at some point check what #the 'best' even actually is. I wish the wii always told you ur Best score instead of just your Last score on those games. It does on every #other game but seemingly not the daily fitness check in minigame ones. hrmm..#7. little clovery things covered in beautiful water droplets #8. sky again. of course #photo diary

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ltcommanderkathrynjaneway · 1 year ago

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Inspired by @hondagirll, @dollsome-does-tumblr, and @cowherderess - here is my top 9 books!

If you are also inspired, please join in! I can always use more book recommendations.

#Y’all this was really hard #I love books #like that’s 75% of my personality #I had to leave so many good things off this list #all of these authors also have so many other books that I love too #honorable mention:#series where I couldn’t pick only one favorite #murderbot diaries #lost fleet by jack Campbell #the Enders game series #everything by Tamora pierce #and Mercedes lackey #apparently I should do a favorite series post #but I’m going to sleep now instead #because I have to be up in 5.5 hours to go to the airport and hope Ophelia hasn’t canceled my flight

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mothram · 1 year ago

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#diana's music diary #good afternoon hii #yesterday was just me playing more picayune dreams...#I should maybe slow down with it a bit I'm getting a little too obsessed with it n.n;;#otherwise though not much has been going on #I watched the grinch with some friends I suppose #and never ended up doing the thing I was supposed to do before it was too late... maybe today?#I don't like putting things off so hopefully #today's probably just going to be more chilling...#will maybe focus on playing ultrakill if I play anything but I'd like to maybe draw or write today instead -:3 #maybe start this one thing I've been meaning to get around to?#let's just try to do something today no matter what it ends up being n.n;;#Youtube

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phagodyke · 6 months ago

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looking up info on keloid scarring is so helpful. thanks man I didn't think of trying that one

#well actually that kind of is relevant bc ive been trying to find more info abt tattooing keloid prone skin #which is effectively opting to wound urself. but everywhere is just like if ur keloid prone ummm. Don't do it 👍#theres not enough known abt keloids to predict if theyll be triggered or not by the healing process like it depends on so many things #i mostly get them from acne scars. but they dont always immediately appear sometimes its weeks or months after #n once u get them theyre permanent. treatments for them have a 100% rate of recurrence n will grow back bigger if u try to excise them #and they cant be tattooed over like other scars bc they dont hold ink n the irritation can cause them to get bigger too #it depends a lot on the tattoo artists skill/experience ig like u have to know Exactly how deep ur tattooing + how the wound will heal #bc if healing triggers keloids. well ill just end up with permanent scarring instead theres nothing i can do if it happens #which honestly might still look cool but its unpredictable bc they tend to extend past the original wound. n it wouldnt scar uniformly #urgh. i should probably talk to a gp n an actual tattooist abt it. i could ask to get like a rly small tattoo to test how my skin reacts #pointless thinking abt rn anyway cuz im not gonna get one any time soon i have some other shit to sort before that #but it would be so frustrating if i cant i have so many tattoo ideas i do rly want them.... :-(#ah well whatever.. im just procrastinating doing shit i need to crack on bc i cant spend another entire weekend doing nothing #after a month n a half of being on meds i feel like theyre becoming less effective. my task paralysis n focus is getting worse again :(#like its taking more and more effort its been rly noticeable at work. hoping its just bc of general mental health or poor sleep or smth #and not that im building tolerance or smth bc man. what else can i even do if that happens #this is gonna make me miserable to think abt so lets go do smth else!#at least i woke up feeling tons better today 💪💪💪 storm passed baby #.diaries

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beastsovrevelation · 1 year ago

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I think, I must quit feeling in the wrong about writing a thousand fanfictions at once. And, possibly uploading chapter one after chapter one before ever finishing a chapter 2. Fanfiction is a hobby. I do it for myself. I suspect, I may be more productive should I jump among the WIPs freely. Because, when I force myself to focus on a couple, I get frustrated, and frustration leads to burnout. Writing becomes a chore, while writing fanfiction should always be a pleasure.

#diary pages #writing journal #fanfiction author #fanfiction writing #fanfiction writer #ao3 writer #writer problems #no i do not need speculation what possible head conditions make me this way I'm more aware than you'd imagine #i'm trying to focus almost solely on hellfire and i think it's a mistake #i have many wips and they bite when i deny them attention... well i bite myself #fanfiction is a different beast than original fiction i believe one should be loose with it not in terms of skill but possibly discipline #again i keep telling myself to use the stephen king method but then don't do it #i guess... i'm anxious people will get upset i keep uploading instead of updating #i can't help my head being a cluster of infinite timelines #writing fanfiction should never be a chore #and burnout fucking sucks #may also be the sprint i did for exams and... other things #tho i did to well in latin #also sometimes i just want to talk about my works on here but i'm afraid of spoiling them

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fallingbyjuleecruise · 2 years ago

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genuinely feel that the drama happening in the amc iwtv fandom is what happens when fans promote a show bc it’s gay first and do not mention the plot/genre at all

#like a bunch of twitter kids who only watch cw shows or bridgerton tuned in expecting the vampire diaries or twilight but gay #and instead got a heavy gothic narrative about the cyclical nature of abuse and interpersonal violence #and it’s fine if it’s not your bag but it’s not racist to have black ppl at the center of a fucked up complex narrative #especially when blackness and race play a huge role and add a lot of fantastic nuance to the story #one of the big points in the early vampire chronicles books are that all vampires are evil; that is the nature of being a vampire #louis is evil! claudia is evil! and of course lestat is evil!#and while louis and claudia do not deserve the abuse they suffer at lestat’s hands do not expect moral purity from them #that’s simply not going to happen #why would want to flatten their characters to be caricatures of what you think a perfect victim should be #instead of allowing their intricacies and messiness to shine through and create a really powerful and tragic story about love and grief?#this is literally the lightest book; these twitter fans will not survive the winter (s2 and 3)#i once again reiterate that i always said that i would be so annoying when this show came out and i'm nothing if not honest #amc interview with the vampire #my posts #.txt

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