#is this one that should be in the diary instead

[girl-lostconnection]

Concept of a concept time:

Reader who goes through the whole relationship with Ghoap or the whole 141 believing that they would always come second place, because of course Simon would burn the world down if Soap was taken out of it. Of course, Price would do everything and anything to save Simon. Of course, Simon would turn into monster if it meant keeping his family safe, keeping his TaskForce safe.

Of course, Kyle would go mad with grief if he was to lose Johnny. Of course, Kyle would become a shell of himself if he lost Price.

Of course they would all shatter without each other alive and well. It was obvious. It was a fact.

Reader who sees it and places themselves on the outside of it, because these men were already something before they came along. These men were already tight knit and close to each other.

These men were already family when Reader got dropped into their laps. It’s only natural they don’t really slot fully. There’s just no more space.

Reader who takes every bit and crumb of an affection they are given. Reader who gives away everything. All of them. Every kiss and confession, every hug, every bit of love and care they have. They give it all, because yeah, maybe they will never be a part of these 4. But they can be near and maybe…maybe that’s enough?

Reader, who dies. Not instead of Soap, not instead of anyone. They just don’t come back from the job one day, their foot locker was supposed to be shipped out to the family. But there is no family.

So 141 takes it. Who, if not them, right?

Reader, who dies and haunts the narrative from that point on. Reader who leaves a hole the size of a person and no one can fill it. It’s impossible.

Reader, whose warmth was seeping through them all for so long, the absence of it feels like a whiplash. The absence of it feels in their bones and it’s cold-cold-cold now. Their hearth dies and there is nothing to do about it but keep going.

Soldiers die every day, this one shouldn’t have been special. But they were.

Kyle who takes their personal things before someone else can come and toss them out, sleeping with their T-shirts and hoodies. Part of him dies with Reader. Part of him is getting buried with them. He’s sitting at their funeral until Price leads him away.

Simon who takes their photos and books, hiding them, keeping them safe. He needs to have it, because memory is traitorous and one day he might not be able to put a face to the name and he’s terrified of it to the point of feeling sick.

Soap who takes mementoes — keychains and magnets from all of the deployments, he takes every knick knack they found in the foot locker and Reader’s room, he stores them next to his. There are new keychains on every set of his keys. He’s fumbling with them every time he feels like there’s knot in his throat and he can’t speak.

Price gets the notebooks. Just a few of those were in a footlocker, filled with scribbles and meal plans and random quotes and games Reader played with Kyle during boring briefings. But it feels like them. It smells like them. Reader never wrote a consistent diary, too little time and too much going on, but they notated the places and times and that Soap coughs like a sick Victorian child and that Kyle has the most perfect beauty marks on his thighs and that Price sneezes like dad and that Simon sleeps with lamp on.

It is everything there was of them. Everything there’s left of their love and John isn’t sure he’d be able to part with it. It isn’t fair that it happened like that. It isn’t fair that he feels like destroying his whole office when he reads the “im not sure i fit in. on the bright side I reckon if something was to happen to me, no one would mourn too long. they have each other, I should be happy it is like that. I should be grateful” because it’s not fair-not fair-not fair-not fair.

John doesn’t show these diaries to anyone. John guards them like his most prized possession, reading it over and over because you, silly perfect thing, why haven’t you said anything. Why haven’t they noticed anything.

John doesn’t show it to anyone because he’s not sure if they won’t crumble under the notion. He’s not sure they won’t shatter when the rest find out that Reader died thinking they weren’t part of the family.

John sobs so hard, bile rises to his throat, world swimming in his eyes and it hurts, and he’s so fucking angry and it’s so unfair. Because it’s not true, because of course you were part of them, of course you matter, of course they mourn.

Because you die never finding out how much you were loved. Because there’s nothing he can do.

And it’s not fair.

[rosabell14]

I see where you're coming from but I feel like the problem of the way the Jason siblings don't really affect each other is that everything Jason does for Thalia's character is retroactive.

I'm of the belief that Jason wasn't really set up in pjo. The first hints we get of his existence is in the diary of Luke castellan. You'd think if he was planned to be a part of Thalia's backstory we would have had some hints of him in sword of hades when Thalia is talking to beryl's(perhaps fake) shade. The problem with Jason and Thalia in comparison to say Nico and Bianca is that you can take Jason away from Thalia and her story in pjo would still make sense. Sure it retroactively gives Thalia more depth but almost nothing is done with them afterwards. Thalia and Jason have ONE major conversation and it's not even that emotionally charged. Like seriously whenever I go back to the scene of their reunion all I can think is: this is not the reunion between Thalia and her long lost sibling.

Perhaps it's my distaste for the hunters but I feel like every time a character joins them their character ends the worst for it. After some point characters lose their unique personalities and become this hivemind with the rest of the hunters where their only personality traits are "ewww boys have cooties" and "lady Artemis 4EVA"

Thalia simply cannot be a part of Jason's story more than a few chapters because being a hunter means that she has to be divorced from the main plot most of the time.

And the same thing applies to Jason because his story and character arc feels divorced from his own backstory especially when it comes to new Rome but the same thing applies to Thalia and beryl. If you change Jason and Thalia into half siblings instead of full siblings not much about his arc would change because thalia is mostly there to drop exposition about Jason being abandoned and honestly Jason's abandonment issues aren't utilized the way they should be anyway so what's the point?

I hate to say it but I feel like nothing would’ve really changed had Thalia and Jason not been related.

And that sucks because you can’t do that with any other siblings in this series.

Nico would’ve been an entirely different person had he not been Bianca’s little brother. Reyna would’ve been an entirely different person had Hylla not been her big sister.

I’m not saying Jason and Thalia don’t care about each other. But there is nothing that ties them to each other.

Jason has more of a connection to the corrupted form of his mother’s ghost. And from what I’ve heard Thalia doesn’t even mourn him.

Both of them have so much potential but they are little more strangers.

[thewingedwolf]

listen i’m fully expecting the manifesto to be full of stuff about how we gotta get back to traditional gender roles or something, and he’s been missing for six months online so we don’t know what he REALLY thinks yet, because clearly the physical, emotional, and probabky financial trauma from whatever happened to his back was a radicalizing moment that caused a pretty major breakdown, but his review of the unabomber’s manifesto on goodreads (😭) basically has him saying that the main issue with the unabomber was that the unabomber killed innocent people (imo the implication here being that whatever point he was trying to make, however valid, is muddled) and well, he certainly made sure he only got The guy responsible and that his point was VERY clear. also online footprints are insane because it’s kinda crazy to be able to just go online & see that right before he disappeared, probabky in the middle of his breakdown, he was rereading the lorax & liking sad snippets of it on goodreads, which is a thing i also do with frequency.

[puppppppppy]

i feel like im not making any sense but does anyone else feel like there are stories that let u run with them and ones that spell everything out for you

[atsushis-fangs]

Scotland: get in the halloween spirit and make a ghost!!

Ireland: that’s called murder and I heard somewhere that it’s illegal

@winterwrites23 I’ll have you know that I am NOT dead, SoT is STILL my all time favourite fic, and I MISSED making these. Happy Halloween! :D

[vegaseatsass]

(SMYM spoilers)

RIP Director Somsak, your first love begged Doctor Kan to kill him and you spent the next decade grieving and grudgy, your last love killed you. for Doctor Kan.

[miusmusings]

Maybe, instead of writing so much discourse, we should all start drawing stick figures and writings lil sentences about how we wanna see characters of our favourite media. cause idk. it's fun? it's doesn't make ppl wanna block you? it's an outlet for words in a more fun way?

but idk you do you.

i'm gonna stay in my lil pit babe corner keep liking my silly characters without being outraged at what a media didn't focus on and send fun tumblr things to my qpr slash gf

fandom is supposed to be fun what are some of y'all doing

[phagodyke]

2nd hearing test today and it looks normal thank FUCKKK. well ofc I'm still deaf, normal For Me

[beastsovrevelation]

In all the Good Omens stories I'm currently working on, the child Crowley eventually ends up with (having it, not romantically involved with a child) is a girl. He strikes me as a girl dad (and mom), really. Yes, imagining Crowley as a parent at all is wild, but that's a different can of worms.

Thing is, I have to come up with a story where Crowley has a son named Aleister. You... Understand why, don't you?.. Right.

It could be Fem!Crowley x Hastur (I feel it would be Hastur's idea), or Crowley x Fem!Reader (definitely Reader's idea).

I think, this may open some doors for comedy? Reader (or Fem!Crowley) could have a mental breakdown, fearing a snake may slither out of her when time comes. Though, admittedly, a snake would likely cause less discomfort than a human.

...If the previous paragraph made you think of a certain song, I like you.

Hell, even if the child is born in human form, it might shapeshift, no? I guess, you could pretend you're taking your pet snake out in a stroller (I bet there are reptile owners that insane in reality). Only, when the "pet snake" starts crying or babbling, you'd have a real problem, because... Reptiles don't do that. There wouldn't be any religious people around, hopefully.

Damn, this made me laugh. I'm sitting at my desk, drinking my coffee, laughing like a maniac. Let's be serious, I'm probably incapable of writing comedy, just angst, gore... Romance, but not comedy.

Just some thoughts while I ✨procastrinate✨.

[the-void-has-questions]

Hey I just remembered something actually. As a small child, I (like many queer kids) chose a socially acceptable person to have a crush on. We were first graders. It was never dramatic, I thought we were just Advanced Friends.

However we got paired up on one project, a slide presentation about a topic of our choice. And the gist was that we would present to each other and get feedback. And upon sitting through this kids presentation, I noticed all of his “egregious”spelling errors (literally they were not that bad, it was all typical stuff for a regular 6y/o, I was just addicted to reading and knew all the big words)

And I just remember being too polite to correct every one, so I just sat there thinking “I cannot have a crush on him. I cannot love a guy who can’t use the right ‘you’re’” which is an insane thing to think as a first grader

[inactiveshrine]

gonna be real bud if your fic relies so heavily on intense triggering themes and shock value that you're averse to putting warnings on it to "maintain surprise" and "avoid spoilers", then you act like you did nothing wrong when people are upset that you didn't make any effort to turn them away and allow them to protect themselves, while also telling them it's their fault that they read something that upset them when they could have never known it contained specific things that will upset them, i think you are a tar pit

[thewingedwolf]

the constant “it’s okay to still love x work” whenever someone gets outed for particularly nasty behavior is so self centered it makes me want to puke genuinely. u read about all the horrific things he did and ur first instinct is to go “but what about my coraline merch” who the fuck cares about your coraline merch right now oh my god. burn your good omens book or don’t but if you’re looking for someone to absolve you here maybe like wait a fucjing week before making it about yourself!!

[imeminemp3]

i have 2 speeding fines from when my car was stolen even tho i reported it stolen so now i have to call the police and ask them to please tell fines vic that my car was fucking stolen at that time. ffs

[zaynsclitoris]

le epic sigh

[icewindandboringhorror]

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[ltcommanderkathrynjaneway]

Inspired by @hondagirll, @dollsome-does-tumblr, and @cowherderess - here is my top 9 books!

If you are also inspired, please join in! I can always use more book recommendations.