#is that the sort of lie bea wants........

[whoslaurapalmer]

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[cricketnationrise]

Dearest Cricket! Congratulations on 500 followers!! I would like to request Alex Claremont-Diaz, in Kensington Palace, at 11:11pm (this feels a bit like playing clue!)

Vibes/rating completely up to you!

❤️lizzie_bennetdarcy

omg it IS like clue, that's such a fun way to think about it. i'm feeling a bit wistful this afternoon, so have some post-canon, insomniatic, yearning Alex 💜🦗

read the rest of the ficlets here!

❤️🤍💙❤️🤍💙

11:11pm, kensington

11:03pm

With one eye on the clock and the other—

Oh, who is he kidding? Alex has both eyes on the clock as he paces anxiously.

Only, it’s after eleven already, and Henry was scheduled to be back at Kensington at ten-thirty, and Alex flew across the ocean today just to surprise his boyfriend. And he’s tired. The worst part of insomnia is that he still gets sleepy. Still gets lethargic, his eyes stingy and droopy, his body feeling like a stretched out rubber band. It would be one thing if his inability to sleep manifested in such a way that he didn’t feel like he had to sleep. But instead he gets the worst of both worlds: exhausted and unable to just fucking rest.

It’s a small comfort that Henry deals with the exact same thing.

11:06pm

Alex wasn’t even going to be in London this weekend, originally. He had exams scheduled for Monday and Henry was… informed he’d be attending three back to back events as a representative for the Crown while Philip and Martha cooed and fawned over their newborn daughter and Bea was already confirmed elsewhere. Alex doesn’t mind the crazy schedule, is excited to meet Henry’s first nibling — but he hates that Henry was pulled away from their home without so much as a cursory check to see if his schedule would allow it. And Alex especially hates that he wouldn’t have been able to attend these events if his schoolwork allowed, that he wouldn’t be able to be a calm moment in the midst of the storm for Henry.

It was that, ultimately, that had him asking his professors to take his exams early, citing a family obligation — he didn’t lie, he just… didn’t correct his teachers’ assumptions that it was a Claremont-Diaz obligation — and flying into Heathrow this evening, a good-humored Cash in tow.

Alex’s head whips around at the creak of the floor from the hallway, but he slumps down again when the noise moves on. Just the night shift patrolling the hall.

11:08pm

The thing is, Alex doesn’t ever want Henry to have to be alone. Not if he can help it. That’s what being together means for Alex — that neither of them have to be on their own if they don’t want to be. And every time Henry gets called back to London for something like this, it’s like a little more of him gets washed away, eroded by the Crown’s expectations.

So if Alex can be there, next to Henry, holding his hand, being a bulwark for him against all of the royal bullshit— 

Alex will move heaven and earth to be by his side without a second thought.

11:11pm

Alex sees the time and stops pacing. 

June had been the one to tell Alex about the eleven-eleven tradition, back in Austin, before their parents had split. June used to yell out the time and make a wish, Alex! whenever they were in the same room. And Alex had closed his eyes and wished for all sorts of things: a bike with no training wheels, extra dessert that night, no homework on Friday.

It’s been years since he made a wish, since he pushed his desires out into the universe and hoped for it to return.

But Alex is right at the ‘not-giving-a-fuck’ level of tired, the point of the night where all he wants is to coil himself around Henry. So he closes his eyes tight, and wishes.

A simple wish, but earnest.

I wish Henry were here.

And like magic, like the universe heard Alex and decided to answer, he hears Henry’s voice, bidding Shaan goodnight, on the other side of the door.

[kiwiana-writes]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

Thanks @cha-melodius and @stereopticons for the tags! I know I’ve done this in the past, but it’s been a hot minute…

How many works do you have on ao3?

239!

What's your total ao3 word count?

822,937—but that’s a collaboration-boosted lie. Per my writing tracker, words that I have personally written and published on AO3 is 693,613

What fandoms do you write for?

Mostly RWRB these days, but the majority of my back catalogue is Schitt’s Creek, with a few others sprinkled in for fun. The Pairing definitely made my brain whirr… we’ll see.

Top five fics by kudos:

With so much of my heart (that none is left to protest), RWRB, 65.5k, the Much Ado About Nothing stage actor AU

Kinda think that I might be his type, RWRB, 12.8k, Alex and Bea fake date and Alex gets a little distracted by Bea’s brother

We were supposed to find this, RWRB, 3.3k, soulmate AU

We always walked a very thin line, Happiest Season, 2.7k, Riley character study/alternate ending

All the Lonely Starbucks Lovers, RWRB, 5.8k, barista Henry repeatedly putting his foot in his mouth in front of his coworker crush

(This is how I learned Puck It has been knocked out of my top five 😭)

Do you respond to comments?

Yes! And absent a Schitt’s Creek resurgence of some kind that sees me absolutely inundated I don’t see that changing.

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Five ways it could have ended (and one way it still could), Schitt’s Creek, 1.2k, for the love of god read the tags

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Like… most of them? I love to end on a good HEA haha. For sheer joy, though, it’s probably With so much of my heart (that none is left to protest)

Do you get hate on fics?

From time to time. I’m very free with the delete button. Weirdly, it occasionally pops up in the AO3 comments but mostly seems to come to me via anons on tumblr??? I have no idea why.

Do you write smut?

It’s been known to happen, I guess 👀

Craziest crossover:

I haven’t written any AO3-era crossovers! A few fusions/media AUs, but no crossovers.

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not to my knowledge.

Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope. I’ve only been asked once, and they wanted to post off AO3 which is a big heck nope for me (and my permissions statement has now been updated to reflect that)

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Heck yeah I have. I’ve done several anthology-type collaborations where we each wrote a chapter in a fic, and I’ve fully cowritten fics with @ships-to-sail several times. We have another collab coming up for @aroyallybigbangrwrb and I’m also cowriting The Big Secret AU with @indestructibleheart which is essentially us one-upping each other on emotionally devastating ideas until someone writes them down. Good system 😂

All time favorite ship?

Stop making pansexuals choose things.

What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Look, the chances of kinktober 2021 being finished at this point are slim 😂

Schitt’s Creek kinkverse… I don’t know. I have little snippets written of future fics and they’re great but… idk. Maybe I’ll write one vignette-y wrap up fic one day.

What are your writing strengths?

Narrative POV, dialogue that feels like the characters, epistolary bullshit, smut apparently.

What are your writing weaknesses?

Coming up with actual plot lmao. Visual descriptors — I’m not even remotely a visual person so I really really struggle with writing the sorts of things people can visualise. Also like… the passage of time? A scam.

Thoughts on dialogue in another language?

Love it. I’ll shoulder tap a fluent speaker if I need an actual sentence/anything Google isn’t super reliable for. Forever heartbroken that there are no fics in my second language in AO3 and no reason for me to be able to sprinkle it into my own writing (though one of the subscriber shindig prompts might be about to change that 👀)

First fandom you wrote in?

HP

Favorite fic you've written?

Stop! Asking! Pansexuals! To! Choose! Things!

I don’t know there are 239 of the bloody things 😂 I’m far more interested in what other people’s favourites are than what my own is!

I have no sense of who’s done this already so apologies if this is a double up but tagging @agame-writes @affectionatelyrs @anincompletelist @cricketnationrise @getmehighonmagic

@happiness-of-the-pursuit @hgejfmw-hgejhsf @indestructibleheart @inexplicablymine @nontoxic-writes

@read-and-write- @rmd-writes @sparklepocalypse @welcometololaland @whimsymanaged and, as always, anyone who wants to play!

[bratshaws]

through the hourglass 295. brb x oc

a/n: no rooster but,hey, don't you fuck with the bradshaws man. (comments and reblogs are super welcome and encouraged!)

pairing: plus size!oc x rooster

warnings: none uwu

goodness gracious (pls read this one to know more what this fic is about!!)

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Three days since the sudden video call and Beatrice was back at her routine, sort of, now she added yoga back in her life. She had no time with Nikki, but apparently, now that she had three kids she could do it?

True, she had to wake up much earlier but she didn’t mind, she loved how silent her neighborhood was this early. She checked on the kids - and the dogs - from the door. Eleanor and Jack were taking turns staying with Nicole and the twins, while Jolene preferred to lie in the hallway between the two doors in case she hears any of the kids cry.

She also loved joining Beatrice early because that meant that momma time was happening. “Come on Jojo.” Bea whispers to the pittie “I’m gonna get ready for yoga.”

Jojo, sensing the excitement in Beatrice's voice, wagged her tail vigorously. She followed Beatrice into the living room, her paws tapping lightly on the floor. The serenity of the early morning enveloped them as Beatrice prepared for her yoga session.

The room was bathed in the soft glow of dawn filtering through the curtains. Beatrice unrolled her yoga mat, a vibrant splash of purple against the neutral tones of the floor. Jojo settled on the couch nearby, her eyes fixed on Beatrice as if ready to participate in the yoga routine.

Beatrice took a deep breath, grounding herself before starting. The quietude of the early morning allowed her to center her thoughts and embrace the calm that yoga offered. 

God she missed it.

She moved through a series of gentle stretches, each movement deliberate and intentional.

As Beatrice flowed through her practice, Jojo observed with keen interest. Beatrice occasionally reached down to stroke Jojo's fur, a comforting touch that mirrored the soothing rhythm of her yoga routine…and a subtle crack on her joints from lack of practice. “Ow.” 

In the midst of her routine, Beatrice's mind wandered to Rooster. The recent video call had brought a mix of emotions, from the warmth of connection to the underlying concerns about the security of their communications. But she pushed those thoughts aside, focusing on the present moment and the grounding practice of yoga.

And the fact that he was okay.

“It’ll be,” another grunt, “His last mission before his promotion.” and as her knee went down she had to hold back another wince, “Fuck I’m so rusty.”

Jojo, lowered her head on her paws, watching the scene with those big honey eyes of hers. “I mean,I’m happy, you know Jojo? Rooster wanted this for a long time…I just hope it doesn’t take too much of a toll on him.” she frowns “Almost feels like…they are testing him for the worst outcomes almost, but that’s impossible they can’t do that.”

“I mean, it's not like we haven’t been through deployments before, but...” Beatrice's voice trailed off as she shifted into a more challenging pose, her muscles protesting once again at the lack of regular practice. “Ffffuck–This one feels different. Maybe because it's the last one before his promotion. It’s a significant step forward, but it comes with its own set of worries.”

She paused, taking a moment to collect her thoughts. As her body stretched and flexed, Beatrice continued, “I'm proud of him, you know? He's worked so hard for this promotion. But it's bittersweet. The higher up you go, the higher the stakes. I can't help but worry about the toll it might take on him, physically and mentally.”

Jojo, attentive to Beatrice's words, let out a soft whine, as if expressing empathy. Beatrice chuckled, “You get it, huh? You've been my yoga buddy for years. You've seen me through deployments and you know how I get.”

The morning sunlight painted a gentle tapestry on the walls, it was small but it was there and Beatrice's movements flowed seamlessly, albeit with a few joints popping. “But we've got our routine, don't we, Jojo?”

She transitioned into a seated pose, her hands resting on her knees. Jojo, then got up and walked over to nuzzle Beatrice, offering a silent reassurance. “You're right, girl. Rooster's a strong one, and we're a team. We've weathered storms before, and we'll weather this one too.”

As she closed her eyes, Beatrice let the calming energy of her practice envelop her,inhaling and exhaling repeatedly.“I just wish he didn't have to go through this alone. That's the hardest part, you know? The distance.” she opens her mouth to continue but stops when she hears sounds coming from down the street.

In the direction of Miranda’s house.

Now, both of them were looking at the window, outside was slowly getting brighter because of the sun but it was still dark enough that no one would see anything. Beatrice scoffs “I’m not going to look outside.” with her eyes still locked on the window. “...but it is very early,too early for so much noise.”

Beatrice's curiosity got the better of her, and she couldn't resist stealing a quick glance out the window. Jojo, sensing her owner's curiosity - and being curious herself-, stood by her side, ears perked up. The sounds from Miranda's house were growing louder, and Beatrice couldn't help but wonder what could be happening at such an early hour.

She shook her head, scolding herself for getting distracted during her yoga session. "Focus, Bea. Don't let the neighbors become a morning show." She chuckled, redirecting her attention to the yoga routine. However, the distant noises persisted, drawing her thoughts away once again.

"What do you think, Jojo? Should we investigate or pretend we're blissfully unaware?" Beatrice joked, but her eyes lingered on the window. Jojo responded with an enthusiastic wag of her tail, as if signaling her readiness for anything.

Also, every neighborhood has good gossip.

Beatrice sighed, conceding to her curiosity. She stood up, rolling her yoga mat as she headed towards the window, a bit annoyed to be sticking with sweat but ignoring it for right now. Jojo followed closely, standing behind Beatrice as the woman peeked through the curtains, her eyes blinking around in hopes she could see what was happening.

As Beatrice cautiously parted the curtains, the early morning light revealed a quiet street, bathed in the soft hues of dawn. The distant sounds had subsided, leaving only the rustling leaves and the occasional chirping of birds. Everything seemed normal, but a peculiar sense of unease lingered in the air.

Jojo stood at attention, her ears alert as she scanned the surroundings. Beatrice squinted, trying to discern any unusual activity. The neighbor's houses stood silent and still, giving no indication of the disturbance she had briefly heard.

"I must be imagining things," Beatrice mumbled to herself, shaking her head. She turned away from the window, determined to resume her yoga routine and not let the morning mystery distract her.

As she unrolled her yoga mat once again, preparing to resume her practice, another sound caught her attention. It was a distant hum, a low murmur that seemed to grow louder with each passing moment. Beatrice furrowed her brows, the curiosity intensifying.

“Is that…a fan?” she frowns, then  ignores her mat completely to rush back to the window and her eyes widened “....she’s not decorating for Halloween now,right?” As someone who loved Halloween, she’s not against early decorations…but this was very odd.

There was a giant skeleton that was amazingly facing right at her house.

It couldn’t be on purpose,right?

Right?

“...no time for paranoia,Bea.” she tells herself, “Some people just like decorating early.”

Beatrice leaned in closer to the window, her eyes narrowing as she tried to make sense of the peculiar sight. The giant skeleton, adorned with eerie details, indeed seemed to be facing directly at her house. A shiver ran down her spine, and she instinctively glanced around, half-expecting someone to pop out and reveal it was all a prank.

Jojo joined her at the window, her tail swishing with confused excitement. 

As Beatrice scanned the surroundings, she noticed more details that added to the surreal nature of the scene. The houses were eerily quiet, and the usual signs of a waking neighborhood were absent. No early joggers, no neighbors fetching newspapers, just an unsettling silence broken only by the faint hum and occasional creaking of the giant skeleton's joints as it swayed in the morning breeze.

A realization dawned on Beatrice. "This is too strange for just early Halloween decorations," she muttered to herself. "Did I miss a neighborhood memo or something?"

Unless.

Miranda wanted to compete.

“...by putting Halloween decorations early? No–” but Miranda looks back and her house and both Beatrice and Jolene disappear from the window.

As Beatrice pondered her next move, the hum from outside grew louder, almost drowning out the rhythmic creaking of the giant skeleton. The eerie silence in the neighborhood heightened the surreal atmosphere, making Beatrice's surroundings feel like a scene from a mysterious thriller.

Well,she did peek back outside.

The sight that greeted her intensified her confusion. The giant skeleton, now fully illuminated by the morning light, appeared even more elaborate than she initially thought. Its bones were intricately detailed, and a subtle glow emanated from its eye sockets. It was as if the skeleton had a life of its own, a sentience that unnerved Beatrice.

Recording the scene in her brain, Beatrice squinted her gaze on the skeleton's face, capturing the eerie details. As she did, a sudden realization hit her – the skeleton wasn't just facing her house; it seemed to be making deliberate eye contact. It was as though its hollow eye sockets were fixed directly on her.

A chill ran down Beatrice's spine, and a shiver coursed through her body.

Jojo, sensing her owner's unease, let out a low growl, her fur bristling. Beatrice patted Jojo's head, trying to reassure herself as much as her loyal canine companion. “It’s fine,Jojo.”

Miranda has proven to be a very strange woman that clearly has issues with Beatrice. Beatrice…felt…a fire she never did before. It was strange, started from her heart and went all the way up to her throat.

The lioness has her cubs to protect.

And her eyes snapped back up before she stepped back from the window. She didn’t like how Miranda was making this personal, she also didn’t like how every time Rooster talked to her, there was something off about Mark.

Beatrice remembers that her nonna always defended her dad and her uncles and aunts even when they were older. A mother’s job is never done,she’d say…and Beatrice,now a mother of three, understood that.

Miranda wanted to be petty. She wanted to elicit a reaction.

It was barely five in the morning, and the neighborhood should be peacefully asleep. Yet, here she was, drawn into an unexpected rivalry with Miranda over Halloween decorations. The situation seemed absurd, but there was an undeniable challenge in Miranda's arrogance that struck a nerve.

Jojo, still alert to Beatrice's mood, paced around the living room. The low growl persisted, echoing the tension in the air. Beatrice took a deep breath, gathering her thoughts. She wasn't about to let Miranda's pettiness disrupt her peace.

It’s July, she should worry about her kids, her husband,her dogs, her house. Not Miranda.

Why was she so annoyed?

Beatrice glanced at the clock, realizing how early it was for such peculiar activities. She shook her head, trying to brush off the weirdness of the situation. "This is ridiculous," she mumbled to herself, deciding to focus on the more pressing matters of the day.

However, as she attempted to move away from the window, her eyes were once again drawn to the bizarre spectacle outside. The giant skeleton, now bathed in the soft morning light, seemed to have taken on an otherworldly quality. Its intricate details were highlighted, and the glow from its eye sockets intensified.

It was an impressive display, and Beatrice couldn't deny that Miranda had gone to great lengths to create an attention-grabbing Halloween decoration in July. Yet, the intention behind it felt off, especially considering the early hour and the fact that no one else in the neighborhood seemed to be stirring.

Beatrice's irritation grew as she considered Miranda's arrogance in turning a simple Halloween decoration into a bizarre competition. Why did it feel so personal? Was it just the early morning exhaustion, or was there something more to Miranda's actions?

With a determined exhale, Beatrice decided to focus on her own priorities. She had a family to take care of, and petty neighborhood rivalries weren't worth her time and energy. Still, a lingering fire simmered within her, a fierce protectiveness that extended beyond her own household.

As she moved away from the window and into the kitchen, the scent of fresh coffee beans caught her attention. She decided a strong cup of coffee might be the perfect remedy to shake off the strange events of the morning. The rhythmic hum of the coffee maker soon filled the kitchen, providing a comforting backdrop to her thoughts.

Jojo followed her into the kitchen. The loyal canine companion settled near Beatrice, her watchful eyes reflecting a readiness to defend her owner from any perceived threat.

While the coffee brewed, Beatrice couldn't help but replay the peculiar moment with Miranda in her mind. She questioned why Miranda, who seemed to revel in pettiness, would choose such an unusual time to initiate a rivalry like that. She frowns, rubbing her fingers and then licking her lips.

“...they’ve always made it personal,I think.” she mutters, “From the second they arrived to this neighborhood…they were on mine and Rooster’s throats.”

From the moment they had moved into the neighborhood, it seemed like Miranda and her family had targeted Beatrice and Rooster. The reasons were unclear, but the tension had persisted.

Her eyes narrowed. “...I need an extra opinion on this.” she mutters, “And I hope Ev doesn’t think I’m going crazy.”

[foulbearobservation]

I'm so deeply intrigued by the family dynamics of the slasher au. At any point does Suzanne have the "be careful with my daughter or they'll never stop finding you" talk with Camila? Does Michael remember Lilith from his childhood, and if he does, how does he react to his big sister being an internationally wanted killer? Does Lilith have a relationship with Jillian, or did she cling to Suzanne? Please feel free to ignore this if it's too spoilery (or you don't want to answer). I just adore this au and want to know all of the things.

Parts of this are theoretically "spoilery" but who knows when the fuck slasher au will actually come out so like. who cares lmaoo

michael does sort of vaguely remember lilith from his childhood, he's abt 8-10-ish years younger than lilith so she's around for part of his late childhood but she disappears when he's like 14 (a few years before his mothers "die" in the car crash) then it's like a big time skip for like a decade and change until he's an interpol agent and actual slasher au happens

he's. well. I don't think he's shocked when he discovers she's a killer and the one he's looking for, but he doesn't tell anyone that he knows her, so bea and ava are out of the loop on that one!! ooh drama!!

lilith does have a relationship with jillian! it's not as close as she is with suzanne. jillian is like. she's trying not to overwhelm lilith when she initially escapes from adriel.

I think it's smthn like one night while lilith is up stalking the house late cause she can't sleep she comes across jillian making coffee at like 3 am and she's like "shouldn't you be... not doing that at 3 am. suzanne told me I shouldn't."

and jillian is trying to be a cool mom to this very traumatized teenager who lives in her house like a shadow. "I won't tell her if you won't"

lilith shifts uncomfortably. "I don't like to lie to suzanne." she doesn't like to lie in general, really, if she can avoid it. she's very good at choosing her words very carefully.

"then you don't have to." jillian gestures with her mug "I'll take the blame on this one, she knows about it. do you want some?"

and anyway I think jillian and lilith bond over weird medical history and being awake at like 3 am. nd sometimes suzanne wakes up at like 6 am for her morning yoga on the balcony and lilith joins her and lilith obviously hasn't slept, but she has a small smile on her face and excitedly explains how people used to drill holes in their heads so that's something like progress.

[conquerthenight]

Platonic or romantic Ich, Maxim and Frank. You choose! I just want them all to be happy, so make it as fluffy as you like.

The second half is slightly NSFW, you have been warned.

The sound of yet another knock on Ileana’s door caused her to jump out of her skin. She had told Bea that she’d join the others downstairs in a few moments, but for some reason the wig for her costume absolutely refused to stay pinned to her head, try as Clarice might to keep it still, and she couldn’t have it falling off in front of the guests. What sort of impression would that make? And she so wanted to make a success of the first costume ball she was to host. “I think we’d best go without it” She said to Clarice, deciding she couldn’t keep everyone waiting. Maxim would no doubt understand that she had copied the portrait of Caroline de Winter without the wig. Ileana couldn’t wait to reveal the surprise to him.

“Yes, madam. It’s proving more trouble than it’s worth” Clarice said, gingerly placing the wig onto the bed before putting the white hat onto her head to complete the ensemble.

There was another knock. “Ileana, is everything alright in there? The first people are pulling in” Frank called through the door.

Oh, Frank. Ileana loved him dearly, but she couldn’t have him seeing her costume, for she hoped to surprise him just as much as Maxim. It wasn’t exactly the done thing to love two men at once, but then again, it also wasn’t the done thing for two men to openly love another, and Maxim and Frank had welcomed her into their relationship with open arms back in Monte Carlo. She wouldn’t change that for all the riches in the world. “Just a moment, love. I don’t want to spoil the surprise” She giggled to herself.

Oh, to see the look on their faces. Ileana knew they’d be so pleased.

Frank opened the door and entered anyway, wearing a sailor’s getup, complete with an eyepatch and pirate hat. Ileana could see his eyes widen, and she could tell that his reaction was not the kind of shock she’d hoped for in the least. “You can’t go downstairs in that, dear” He said after gathering his bearings.

Ileana just looked at him with confusion. “Why not? Do you not like it?” She asked. If that was the case, at least Frank was being honest about it. They were quite similar in the fact that they wore their hearts on their sleeves, unlike Maxim who tended towards keeping his distance.

“No, it’s not that. It just that…well, Rebecca copied the Caroline de Winter portrait for last year’s ball” Frank explained, mortifying Ileana.

Everything seemed to come crashing down in that moment, and she told Frank everything. Mrs. Danvers had said that portrait was Maxim’s favorite. She had taken the suggestion at face value without even stopping to think that the housekeeper’s behavior had been suspicious. She had been so cold to Ileana ever since her arrival at Manderley. How on earth could she have been so stupid?

Frank just smiled and tapped her shoulder. “Well, there was no harm done. At least you found out before anyone else saw it” He said, chuckling a little.

Ileana had to admit, it was a bit funny, even if Mrs. Danvers’ intentions had been to humiliate her. She laughed a little as well after a moment. “You’re right, I should change out of this. Could you step out for a bit?”

Frank obliged, but not before giving her a quick peck on her lips. “I’ll tell them the dress didn’t fit. They’ll never know. Maxim will probably thank you, he won’t be the only one in normal evening wear this year” The door shut behind him.

As Clarice helped her out of the white gown and into a blue evening dress, Ileana let out a long, relieved sigh. She had come so close to causing a terrible crisis. Luckily Frank had been there to prevent it.

As Frank had predicted, Maxim wasn’t at all disappointed by the turn of events. He had merely asked what had happened to the costume she ordered, and the white lie slipped out with no further questions asked. “Next year, you ought to tell me what you’ll wear in case the shops screw it up again” His comment was only half joking, but Ileana was glad he seemed in a good mood.

“Don’t worry, darling. When that time comes, you’ll be the first to know” She was not joking at all, having learned from her close call earlier.

She spent the night dancing, mostly with Maxim and Frank, acquainting herself with the guests, and even had a glass of wine or two. For just a few hours, the shy girl Ileana had been seemed to vanish, replaced by someone livelier, though she did still find herself struggling for words a few times.

By the time the guests had all departed for the night, Ileana was very pleased with how the night had gone. Her beloveds seemed of the same mind, and the three of them adjourned to Maxim’s room to do a little celebrating of their own.

“I have to say, darling, I hadn’t expected you to pull this off as well as you did” Ileana wasn’t sure if Maxim’s words were meant as a compliment or condescension. She decided to take it as the former when her husband kissed her with a passion that she hadn’t seen from him since their honeymoon.

Frank ran his hand through Maxim’s hair, giving him a playfully scolding look. “Maxim de Winter, I hope you were talking about the ball” He said.

Maxim then kissed Frank in a similar manner to how he had kissed Ileana. “Does that answer your question, my beloved?” He teased.

“Very much so” Frank smirked, lightly slapping Maxim’s ass.

Maxim grimaced. “You’d best be on your guard. I just might take my revenge for that” He rolled his eyes. “But in all seriousness, I hardly recognized our shy little wife tonight”

Ileana couldn’t hold back a deep crimson blush, though it really didn’t signify because the room was completely dark. “I’m just glad I managed to get through it, what with the mishap with the dress and all” She immediately covered her mouth when the words slipped out.

“Something wrong, darling?” Maxim asked.

Ileana shrugged her shoulders, figuring she may as well let Maxim in on what happened. “I was planning on copying the portrait of Caroline de Winter. Mrs. Danvers mentioned you loved that painting so I thought it would be a fun surprise, but a certain someone told me that Rebecca did it first” She turned to kiss Frank on the cheek, partly to thank him, and partly to put off seeing Maxim’s reaction in case he didn’t take the story well.

Her moment of worry was for naught, as Maxim laughed at what Ileana had told him. “That’s our Frank for you, darling. Saving us all from disaster” He said. “By the way, I wouldn’t trust a word Danvers says” Maxim was most definitely mocking her naivety in taken the housekeeper’s suggestion, but Ileana was in such good spirits that she didn’t care.

Ileana could feel the two men each wrap an arm around her, and she felt that this was absolute heaven. It occurred to her then that telling Maxim the rather amusing story was the only time she had thought of Rebecca since it happened. Maybe that’s how it should have always been, and she vowed it would stay that way from here on out.

“So much for taking revenge” Frank said with a triumphant smile.

Ileana grinned, shaking her head. “Don’t worry, I’ll protect you from Maxim’s wrath” She laughed once more.

Maxim looked at them both with mock offense. “As if I would ever unleash my wrath on you, Ileana” He placed his hand on his chest.

“You have done and you know it” Frank retorted.

Ileana knew he was right. She hadn’t forgotten the cupid incident, or the boathouse a few weeks ago, but Maxim had yet to snap since then, and she felt he was more than forgiven, especially after how he had just pleased her and Frank. “Water under the bridge, darling” She assured.

“You’re far too sweet for your own good, Ileana” Maxim brushed his hand against her cheek. “But if you like, I could always beg you two for forgiveness”

“Well when you put it that way…” Frank began, his impish tone clearly giving away his desires.

Ileana hardly slept that night, and she wouldn’t have had it any other way.

[mp3minded]

I really didn't want to make this post, but I just couldn't sit with my thoughts here.

@loveislandthegame I apologize for the awkward context I'm tagging you for, but I want this to be an actual open dialogue where anyone can feel free to share their perspective (and that invite extends to anon too), because that's what I want this to be, and it was this post that made me want to have my say too;

Before I get to anything else, I want to list off everything I agree with you and anon on;

I'm a firm believer in the player having a breadth of choices for LIs to endgame, so I wish Sienna and Hazel were in-game options for anon too, especially considering..

I also agree that there only being 2 sapphic options for this season tops is a serious lack of options for wlw players.

Whether or not the player is strictly sapphic, or fiercely loyal to who they coupled up with last before the reunion, I do agree that being forced to kiss another man for the "kessing" game was horribly handled, because it takes an important choice away from the player.

There was a definite lack of well-written women this season, that lose facets of themselves that lie outside their interests in men.

Considering the layoffs Fusebox had awhile ago, I think there being at-least one incel writer on the Fusebox team is a very likely case.

I'm not sure if we got the same anon, but my first and second points are stances I've elaborated on before here;

Now, I can confirm that Liam's three-way after the show was with Sienna and Hazel, not Bea.

Liam also apologized to Bea after the show, and probably didn't even know if he was forgiven or not until this moment, because realistically she probably didn't want to text him back, understandably so;

Now, the bit from anon's ask that, as a black stan of Liam, did bother me;

"It'd have made just as much sense as Bea and Hazel fulfilling all of Liam's white boy fantasies. Because women of color are once again written to be toys for the sexist white man to entertain himself with before he confesses his feelings for the main character."

Even though I've confirmed Bea was nowhere in his three-way, and it was Sienna instead, there's still more I want to respond to here.

I don't like talking about race on this sort of topic because there's no pathway that would "win" here.

There's canon, where he doesn't limit his grafting pool to white women, which lends way for him to then be insinuated as a race fetisher. It's also insulting to Liam stans of color such as myself, and Hazel (though I wouldn't call her a literal Liam stan, she's just involved here too), because it implies that we lack the capabilities to make our own judgement calls on whether or not someone is only interested in us, as black women, because of our race.

And if it was only white women he pursued outside of MC instead, he could then be given side-eye for a coincidental trend like that.

Hazel has expressed that it went beyond physical attraction for her and Liam, for at-least some point in time, and it appeared that the sentiment was mutual from his end as well;

If it was just a laugh for Liam the whole time, he wouldn't of done any of that.

And again, I don't like talking about race here. But anon has expressed interest in Sienna (besides Hazel), and;

Both Liam and Sienna are blonde, green-eyed white people, whom would've had interesting enemies-to-lovers arcs, if Fusebox had let it be an option with Sienna too.

I guess the other main thing I was upset about, besides the race stuff, was that the last thing I want is for the fandom to be any more divided on this stuff than needed, in my opinion.

I don't expect most people to understand my interest in Liam, because I know that he's farrrrrr from perfect. But, the same can be said for Sienna, and really, it just comes down to not yucking other people's yum.

[daisychainsandbowties]

going through your recent posts and am now thinking about Luminous Beings again (thats a lie. LB is always on my mind, it never stops. Thank you for the brainrot)

LB3 gave us a look at Ava's relationship with touch in regards to her psychometry, but now I'm wondering about Bea's relationship with touch (both via skin contact and the force) in regards to her shatter point ability. What are your thoughts?

i definitely think that luminous beings is a little bit about touch. certainly for beatrice she’s living in a world where most people are afraid to touch her, and then there’s crimson, and then there’s lilith.

getting absolutely hate-crimed by chapter 2 again but i had to look at the moment where lilith & beatrice first make contact - how crimson touches her through gloves and lilith peels hers off and touches with bare hands, & of course there’s an intimate bealil scene in chapter 4 that i think epitomises what touch means between them, specifically.

lilith with her healing powers and how her body - the skin-to-skin of their wild and tender and violent love - acts as a sort of anesthetic. how beatrice seeks her out each night because the pain always wants to keep her from sleep, & she only ever dreams when she’s tangled around lilith because the pain can’t reach her.

she’s very tactile, but only with lilith, & the fact that they are perpetually wrapped around each other in bed is a kind of metaphor for how they are surviving out in the world as inquisitors. doing vile things together, smearing each other’s hands with blood so the violence is shared, at least, so they can fail to forgive each other instead of looking at everything they cannot forgive themselves for.

& i think that beatrice at this point doesn’t know that she’s capable of shatterpoint - or, in fact, she isn’t yet capable of it because she’s still looking away from everything. eyes fixed on the only point of brightness she has, which is itself a small dark star. lilith is what she clings to, but what they have is harsh and when they’re not touching they’re doing terrible things.

but touch sort of lies at the center of everything with beatrice in luminous beings (in general, i think, beatrice is, in every iteration of herself, someone who is desperately trying not to reach out. she’s tactile and trapped in her own skin, and ava guides her out).

her elbow is definitely at the heart of shatterpoint’s iteration in luminous beings. it’s this fault-line that runs through her whole body; a foci that forces her every movement to orbit around the potential for pain. & i think growing to understand how she is shattered lends her this insight into other things.

the tavern fight in ch 2 showed how she thinks; always seeking out a single point that will unravel everything around it. there is a scene a few chapters away i have planned where shatterpoint becomes suddenly and catastrophically apparent to beatrice, & i think, strangely, the process of learning how the world is, itself, infinitesimally broken in infinitesimal ways (and how the propagation of these cracks unravels things, people, democracies) THAT is what pulls beatrice back towards herself, towards hope & the light

[hrh-henrywales]

About Henry:

There is no fate but the one you make for yourself.

And then there is also the fate you are born into.

There was no mistake on what Henry’s role would be in his life. Every since he was born, he knew. Hell, millions of people knew before he did. The third child of the Crowned Prince of Wales. Fourth in line to the throne, so far. Even if he knew he didn’t have half the commitments his older brother Phillip, or his older sister Bea had, that didn’t exactly spare him of the duties that came along with belong to a Royal family. And not just any Royal family. The British Royal Family.

Whether or not people believed in monarchies any more, there was always a sort of invisible pull that managed to get the world’s attention on the British Royal family, no matter how many other monarchies there were in Europe, they were the ones always in the public eye, always prawn to news, gossip, scandals, paparazzi following every move they made. And whereas his brother, and younger sister Bea more or less devoured every bit, Henry never did. Not when he was young, and much less now that he’s an adult young man.

He never lacked of anything he needed to be happy, and it would be a lie to say that he lacked the love of his family because of that. He had that too, even if most times he felt like an outsider, and like everyone thought of him being an oddball because he didn’t like to draw people’s attention. Ever since he was a child, he loved to hide in the horse’s barn, to take care the horse his grandfather had given him for his fifth birthday. He also hid at the barn to practice with his guitar and violin, the one true time he felt like he was being himself. That, and also writing. He loved to write, and not something in specific, but whatever came to his mind.

The barn was his safe place, right until Shaan, his personal aid ever since he could remember came along and reminded him of his engagements for the day. There, and the music room where the piano was. His mother’s piano, and he was good at playing it too.

More than anything, it was a safe place where he could be at peace with himself, with the knowledge he didn’t have to pretend for everyone else, not only the fact that he didn’t like being in the public eye, but also that he was gay, something only his sister Bea knew, and who he had sworn in secrecy about it.

After finishing high school at Eton Academy, like all males in the British family did, he took a gap year while he decided what to do, or where he wanted to go next. Most of that year he dedicated himself to master his skills at polo, and swimming, and was also relishing on the fact that he got to live alone for the first time, making Kensington Palace his home; or at least, as alone as a royal Prince could be.

In the end, he decided to move away from the hectic life of London, and he enrolled at St. Andrews School, in Scotland, and there he had a glimpse of what a normal, almost regular college life was. He was always grateful for that sense of normality Scotland provided for him during those years, and it is now a place he held dear to his heart. 

After 4 years, and with a degree on International Affairs, he enrolled in the Royal Air Force, where he spent a whole year learning his way around aircrafts and helicopters, and also enjoying the fact that to the men on his squad he was simply another one of them, and not a royal person.

Once his time on the Royal Air Force was done, he took a year to travel, going to Greece, Egypt and Italy. He was always obsessed with what are considered the three cradles of civilization, but more than that, he got to see a whole new aspect of the world in itself to which he didn’t have any access growing up, behind the guarded walls of Buckingham Palace. Ideas started to stir in his mind, but he has yet to put them all down and think what can it be done, how could he actively help some of the major concerns in the world, with something more than just a nobility title.

So, you can now find him at Oxford University, when he is about to start a Masters in Economy and Global Politics. One step at the time, in the hope for a better world.

[apaise]

❝you don’t have to do this, you know.❞ mai @ robin

she doesn’t have to look up from her buttoning to know nothing in mai’s expression suggests a lie. not because her sister couldn’t hide one -- no, she could utter the most ridiculous fiction with a smooth brow -- but because she means it. if robin wants to withdraw from the plan, her sister would allow her. bea or dru would take up the role instead. but robin knows that would weaken the plan; the ruse calls for someone experienced in the classical arts.

❝ i’ll be fine, ❞ robin glances up when she’s certain her smile is believable, her fingers still trained on the line of pewter buttons. distantly, she wonders who bea stole this garment from, when she even had the time. ❝ it’s no different from a thursday back at the manor, ❞ she tries to joke. except those had merely been art lessons with their tutor, and this would be infiltrating the private orchestra of the barbaric baron.

but she has to do this. they need leverage to keep the crew safe. to keep her sister from chains. mai had kept her from these sort of escapades for the longest time, with robin always working on plots and papers back in the hideout. she used to wish she knew if it was because mai wanted to keep her from harm’s way, or because she didn’t believe robin could handle it.

yet now as robin stands before mai, stomach twisting and turning, she realizes those thoughts were only distracting her from her own cowardice. and she feels ashamed, for having left the burden to her sister for so long. just because mai never looks afraid, it doesn’t mean that���s how she feels. robin should support her just the same.

she manages to still the shaking in her hands by the time she dons the cloak; the wool is whisper-soft but the clasp scratches her throat. ❝ we protect each other, right? ❞ robin reaches out to mai but doesn’t know where to touch, settling for brushing a stray petal from her sister's lapel. 

[amandamelodramablog]

Imitation of life: Familial and Identity Struggles

The film, “Imitation of Life,” was one that I found very interesting from start to finish. It follows two widows, Beatrice and Delilah, one that is white and one that is black who develop a very strong friendship with one another and decide to open a business together. Their business is brought about by Delilah’s secret family pancake recipe which they used to make this pancake business. Throughout the film, we see the trials and tribulations that both women have to go through as Beatrice is put at odds with her beautiful daughter who she seems to now have some sort of competition with and Delilah’s daughter Peola who refuses to be black. Peola is a fair-skinned girl and is white passing which creates this conflict among not only her and her mother but Peola’s own mind. In the reading, “The American Melodramatic Mode,” by Linda Williams, she states, “It is the primary thesis of this chapter that melodrama is neither archaic nor excessive but a perpetually modernizing form that can neither be clearly opposed to the norms of the “classical” nor to the norms of realism.” One major detail at I noticed within this melodrama was the fact that these are two unmarried, independent, working women which for 1934 was very rare to see on screen. By being able to exude a more realistic lifestyle that some women may be able to relate to, the film was able to capture a more emotional and authentic tone that lingers throughout the ups and downs of the movie.

While watching the film, I found Bea and Peola’s relationship much more captivating as it is a struggle that is very serious. The audience sees Peola go through this identity crisis as racial issues are the topic of what Peola is dealing with. The kids at her school are white and she is able to be amongst them and does not want to accept the fact that she has a black mother. We even see a scene where she shouts that she “does not want to be black,” making it apparent that she is ashamed of not fitting in and that she truly is black. The text also states, “Melodrama offers the hope, then, that it may jot be too late, that there may still be an original locus of virtue, and that this virtue and truth can lie achieved in private individuals and individual heroic acts rather than, as wanted, in revolution and change.” I feel as if this ties into discuss the change of emotion when Peola is taking her mom out of the church after she has passed away and falls over her coffin, letting the audile feel the pain of the lost time that she missed with her mother which she can never regain. 

[joytraveler]

55. Kaveman

A side-scroller featuring a caveman (naturally) who swings a club. At first it's very simplistic and repetitive, just walking to the right and smashing small enemies. Then you recover a stone knife, and new pathways start to open up; it's a prehistoric Metroidvania!

"Not a lot to say about this one except FEATHERED DINOS?" Indeed, looks like the designers did their research! Sort of. Feathers on the therapods, sauropods too. Feathered bugs? Feathered plant creatures?!

HNV: They looked up whether to put feathers on the dinosaurs, but not whether to put dinosaurs in the game!

"I'm just so used to dinosaurs in caveman games I don't even bat an eye anymore. Look there's a smilodon, are you happy now, Mr. Science-Face?"

"A feathered smilodon. I want one. You do too, don't lie!"

HNV: Yes... *grouse* Pink punk feathered mohawk on a saber cat is rad, I admit it.

"It can throw its mohawk like a boomerang! You can't prove they didn't!" It's a boss and the hardest yet, especially when it starts leaping around and shooting its own teeth out as well! "It's easiest to just crouch in the corner and spam the Torch, that does the most damage.”

Every boss you defeat yields a new weapon (this one provides a powerful atlatl) and something else, a piece of metal or wood, that gets lumped onto your subscreen somewhere. The Kaveman appears to be building something!

It's hard to tell what it is, until Bea defeats the next boss (a giant Terror Bird) and wins a sling and... what is very clearly, with no allowances made for copyright, the Flux Capacitor.

"GREAT SCOTT!" she exclaims upon realization. "Not even a major BTTF fan but I will absolutely say that if I have the opportunity."

The final stage is a tower-like mountain where she has to deal with pterosaurs, spiky rocks, howling wind, and the last boss, of course- a made cave-scientist who holds the last part she needs!

Once she defeats him and his robotic feathered T. Rex, the scientist jumps back down the mountain with a cry of: YOU'LL BE SORRY! But there's the power source she needs: finally, Kaveman's time machine is complete!

DueyDecimal: Makes me wonder if the main character is himself a caveman, or a time traveler lost in prehistoric times?

"Perhaps they're two rivals, each trying to return to the present to claim they discovered time travel first? Former friends? Former lovers? The world may never know.. or maybe the ending will explain everything"

Kaveman (for lack of any other name) locks himself into his completed machine, lightning crackles... and suddenly he's in the pyramids of Egypt.

Crack! He's in ancient Greece. Crack! He's in Camelot. CRACK! He's in Hollywood!

"Hollywoo- Oh man he IS gonna be sorry, they're gonna make a movie out of him!"

CRACK! He's... floating in space in the shattered remains of Earth. "....Oh." He looks rather confused... and then an ominous, serpentine, five-headed silhouette rears up behind him.

-THE END?-

"I... I think you forgot to make that left turn at Albuquerq- fFFAAAAA!!"

Klickitat_Street: GREGREGREGREGREG

"GREG GO TO YOUR ROOM! Or go to your game! Scarin’ the royal jelly outta me.." She calms herself with a handful of trail mix. "If you're looking for your dad you just missed him, I believe."

Baconnaise: Kaveman confirmed for canon w/ POP, official prequel

"Like Syrup said, they're probably reusing sprites.. but that one was definitely our old metal friend, no mistake."

aroseahorseboy: did Glem's mom just live on a big piece of world while they waited? berg_snurglar: bea he's crushin on you lol. good luck w/ that HNV: End bosses are probably huge sugar daddies

"Not much planet left was there." She sighs and shrugs. "I dunno, maybe this is a different earth, or another timeline, who knows. I really doubt they thought all this through beyond a few games anyway. But I DO want to hear your headcanon, so fire me a message if you have a theory!"

DueyDecimal: You sorta blew through that, it didn't even take 40 minutes... maybe that's the 'bad end'

[bratshaws]

through the hourglass 275. brb x oc

a/n: im not the happiest with this chapter but my day is a bit off 8) (comments and reblogs are super welcome and encouraged!)

pairing: plus size!oc x rooster

warnings: none uwu

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As Beatrice got up from the bed, the dull throb of a headache pounding behind her temples, she knew without a doubt who was at the door. It was her brothers. They had an uncanny way of showing up when she needed them most, and today was no exception.

The migraine that had been plaguing her since morning had only grown worse, and she had been unable to shake it despite her best efforts.

With slow, measured steps, Beatrice made her way to the front door. Each footfall sent a sharp lance of pain through her head, but she couldn't help but feel a glimmer of gratitude for her brothers. 

As chaotic as they could be.

As she opened the door, the trio of Michael, Guillermo, and Leonardo stood there, each sporting expressions of concern. Michael held a bag of groceries, Guillermo had a concerned furrow between his brows, and Leonardo, offered a sympathetic smile and a wave.

"Hey, sis," Michael greeted her, his voice warm and reassuring. "We heard you weren't feeling too well, so we thought we'd come by and check on you."

Beatrice managed a small smile despite the throbbing pain in her head. "Thanks, guys. I've had this headache all day, and it just won't go away. I appreciate you coming over."

Guillermo immediately stepped forward, his larger hand resting on Beatrice's forehead as he felt for signs of a fever. "You do feel a little warm," he noted. "How's your headache? On a scale of one to ten, with ten being the worst?"

Beatrice winced as she considered the pain. "I'd say it's around an eight. It's been pretty relentless."

Leonardo gently took the bag of groceries from Michael and stepped inside the house. "Let's get you something to eat, sis. And we'll find you a quiet place to lie down and rest."

“Is your bed made?’ Michael asks, “And is Nikki asleep? Should we check on her?”

Beatrice nodded, her relief evident in her expression. "Yes, Nikki's down for her nap. made the bed this morning, so it should be ready." She pointed up to the stairs and watched as the dogs surrounded Leonardo as he carried the food. "Feel free to put the groceries in the kitchen. I'll join you in a moment."

Guillermo’s huge hand touches her forehead once more and he tsks, “You are really warm, Bea.” his voice is one of concern, like often is, but his gaze is soft, “Do you want me to carry you up to bed?”

“I’m not five anymore,Gui.” she pauses, “...but it’d be kinda nice.”

She leaned into her older brother, allowing him to scoop her up effortlessly. But Guillermo was so much bigger than Rooster so she still felt like a child in his hold.

As Guillermo carried Beatrice upstairs, Michael followed close behind, ready to help with any other tasks. "Leonardo, go ahead and put the groceries away. We'll take care of Beatrice," Michael directed.

Leonardo nodded and began to sort through the bags, putting perishables in the refrigerator and non-perishables in the pantry. 

Once they reached Beatrice's bedroom, Guillermo gently placed her on the bed, her head resting on the soft pillows.

"Thanks, Gui," Beatrice murmured, giving her brother a grateful smile. "I know I should be more independent, but it's nice to have my big brother look after me sometimes." and he covers her up with the blankets.

Guillermo chuckled, his hand resting on her forehead again to check her temperature. "You can always count on us, Bea. Do you need anything else?Some tea?"

Beatrice's eyes fluttered closed for a moment, and she considered the offer. "Tea does sound good," she replied with a soft smile. "I'll take some chamomile tea if that's okay."

Michael, who had been watching from the doorway, chimed in. "Chamomile it is, then. I'll get that brewing for you." With that, he turned and headed downstairs to prepare a soothing cup of tea, almost bumping into Leonardo, who had finished putting away the groceries, "You know, Bea, it's perfectly okay to ask for help when you're not feeling well. You don't have to be superwoman all the time."

Beatrice chuckled, although it quickly turned into a groan as the pain in her head flared. "I know, Leo. It's just hard sometimes. I have so much to do…” she whispers “And with Roos, and Nikki and the twins and the bar and–”

Leonardo sat down on the edge of Beatrice's bed, a warm and expression on his face. "You're a mom, a wife, and a hardworking employee. It's only natural that you'd have moments where it feels overwhelming.” he smiles more, “Hell, even before having the kids you were doing a lot, you were always there for me when me or Cyn couldn’t have Bianca.”

Beatrice appreciated the words, her brows however furrow and her lips turn down as a jolt of pain shoots through her head, “I know.” she says softly, ‘I know,I know I should stop…but it’s hard sometimes. I want to help.”

"It's your strength and kindness that make you want to help others, Bea.” he arches his brow with a smile “ But it's also important to remember that taking care of yourself is a way of ensuring you can continue being there for your loved ones."

Beatrice sighed and nodded, closing her eyes briefly. "You're right, Leo. I need to take better care of myself. It's just hard when there's always something to do, and I don't want to let anyone down." She gently touched her temple, feeling a throbbing pain once more.

Leonardo placed a comforting hand on her shoulder, then another on her forehead "There's no shame in asking for help or taking a break when you need it. Your well-being is important to all of us." he tilts his head, “Especially Rooster.”

Beatrice opened her eyes and met Leonardo's gaze, " He called you didn’t he?"

“Messaged.” Guillermo corrects, ‘Early in the morning, said you weren’t feeling well. He was like a madman letting us know everything you should have or not…” and Bea could see the corner of her brother’s lip turn into a smirk only to disappear again. For someone who didn’t know what to make of Rooster when he first met him…she was glad to see Guillermo being more open about her husband like that.

Beatrice was grateful for the concern of her brothers, even though she sometimes wished they wouldn't make such a fuss.

Which was like asking a cat not to meow.

 But as she looked at Guillermo, she couldn't help but smile. "Roos has a way of making sure everyone knows when I'm not feeling well. He's been a bit overprotective lately."

Leonardo chuckled, patting her shoulder reassuringly. "Well, you're married to a Navy pilot, after all. It comes with the territory."

Beatrice nodded and rubbed her temples again, trying to soothe her throbbing headache. "Yeah, he does have a way of worrying like no other. And with his upcoming deployment, I think he's feeling extra protective."

Guillermo, whose massive body was close to the window, spoke in a calm "It's natural, Bea. He's about to go on another mission, and with Nicole and the twins to look after, he wants to make sure you're well and supported."

Beatrice frowned and leaned back into her pillows, feeling a bit overwhelmed. "I know he's just looking out for us, but I don't want to be a burden to him or to you all. I want him to focus on his mission and not worry too much about us."

Leonardo gave her a warm smile, his green eyes rolling with amusement. "You're not a burden, Bea.He just wants to make sure you're not alone in it. You know that."

Beatrice chews her lower lip but then smiles a little bit, hands dropping to her lap “Thank you, Leo. You're right, and I'll remember that."

As they continued to chat, Michael returned with a steaming cup of chamomile tea, handing it to Beatrice with a flourish "Here you go, sis. This should help with the headache." He flashed her a kind smile.

Beatrice took the tea and sipped it slowly, the warmth soothing her tense muscles. "Thanks, Michael. You guys are too good to me."

“I’m better,right?”

“Michael.”

Beatrice giggled, then sipped more of her tea,”You all are great. Truly.” her headache, while still present, did disappear a little as she swallowed her tea.

Leonardo patted her hand gently, then stands up from the bed with a grunt. "Alright, we better leave you to sleep a bit, you need the rest.”

Beatrice's smile grew, handing the mug out to Guillermo as she got comfortable on the bed. "Okay…where will you guys stay?”

Guillermo accepted the empty tea mug from Beatrice and handed it to Michael. "Downstairs. Watching tv. We just want to make sure you are alright."

Beatrice’s eyes were heavy but she smiled, “Okay…you can…feel at home,alright?”

They exited the room once they were almost sure she’s fast asleep but they left the door slightly ajar, allowing Beatrice to hear their hushed conversation in the hallway. 

"Leo, did you see the way she winced when she touched her head? She's still in pain," Guillermo said, concern evident in his deep voice.

Leonardo nodded, his brow furrowed. "I noticed, Gui. Bradis right – she's not one to complain, and if she's admitting to having a headache, it must be pretty bad."

Inside the room, Beatrice listened to their conversation and smiled to herself,the sleep now being too hard to ignore. She adjusted the covers and settled in to rest, knowing that her brothers were just a shout away if she needed anything.

-

Rooster wasn’t going to worry because she had her brothers with her at the house…but he was still going to get her something once he left to go home. Everything was pretty much in order for the upcoming deployment and Rooster was just giving a quick rundown - with what he knew - to the recruits.

His fanboys?

Yes.

“Alright,” he taps the file, ‘You have all been told what you are going to do…” he leans on his hands as he stands up in front of his desk, “This is the info we got, this is what we’ll work with..McAllister, it’s you and me again once we leave, you okay with that?”

McAllister, sat up straight in his chair, his chest puffing out slightly with pride and he cannot contain his smile . "Absolutely, sir. I'm ready to follow your lead and make this deployment a success."

Rooster nodded in approval, a hint of a smile playing on his lips. "Just remember, this isn't a solo mission. We work as a team, and you can rely on your fellow recruits here to have your back." he clears his throat, “Not like last time.”

The other recruits nodded in agreement, waaay too excited to say anything else, smiling from ear to ear.

As the briefing continued, Rooster couldn't help but feel a sense of pride in guiding the recruits. He remembered his own days as a wide-eyed, inexperienced trainee and appreciated the opportunity to help shape the next generation of pilots. And not to mention, he knew these kids were good.

Very good.

During a brief break in the briefing, Rooster received a text from Beatrice. He felt his phone vibrate in his pocket and even without seeing he knew it was his wife. He clears his throat, then nods once, “Dismissed.”

After the recruits had left, Rooster took a moment to review the text message from Beatrice. Only it wasn’t Bea, it was Michael…using Bea’s phone. He just told him that Beatrice was still asleep, her headache as very strong and she was running a fever,so they let her sleep in their bedroom for a little while longer…and were now taking care of Nicole.

Rooster's heart sank as he read the message from Michael. He hadn't anticipated that Beatrice would be feeling so unwell, especially with Nicole to take care of. He quickly typed out a response:

"Thanks for letting me know, Michael. Keep Bea and Nicole comfortable, and tell her I'll be there as soon as I can."

His brother in law’s reply was only a thumb up.

With a heavy sigh, Rooster looked down at the phone screen, their wedding picture as the background and his heart just hurt. He couldn’t go home yet, there were still things to be done…so he just shook his head and pocketed the phone again, arranging the files on his desk.

Until a voice interrupted him.

“Rooster?” he stops fixing the papers “Hey, it’s Mark. Can we talk for a bit, are you busy?”

He almost lied and said that he was busy, but he chose not to. He just clenched his eyes and then inhaled deeply, mentally preparing himself for whatever this conversation would be about, “No.” he says, “Come on in.”

Mark walked into the room, a smile on his face. He shut the door behind him and took a deep breath before speaking. "Thanks for making time to talk, Rooster."

Rooster gestured for Mark to take a seat, his features carefully neutral. "Of course, Mark. What's on your mind? Is this about the deployment?"

“Yes,well,” he smiles more, “We’ll be sharing this mission together.”

“Hmhm.” Rooster wasn’t impressed, “What do you want to talk about then?”

Mark took a seat across from Rooster, and he could sense the tension in the room. He cleared his throat and started to speak. "Look, I know our history hasn't been all sunshine and rainbows. But I also know that we're both professionals, and this mission is important."

Rooster listened intently but kept his expression neutral. 

Mark continued, "I just wanted to say that I'm willing to put our past issues aside and work together as a team on this deployment.”

Rooster raised an eyebrow, studying Mark closely. He appreciated the sentiment but wasn't sure if he should fully trust Mark's words. "I appreciate the offer, Mark. I’d like to do that." did he believe it? Not really.

"That's all I wanted to hear, Rooster. Let's make this deployment a success."

Rooster gave a curt nod in agreement. "Absolutely.”

The one word answers were clearly going over Mark’s head, since he smiled bright and clapped his hands together, “Good!Good! Hey, we should have another double date again. It was fun last time,wasn’t it?”

Rooster’s head coiled back in surprise. It was a disaster. Mark and Miranda made both of them feel terrible, not to mention how they made his wife feel about working at the bar, “...what?”

Mark's smile faltered slightly at the mention of the previous double date. He glanced down at his hands for a moment before meeting Rooster's gaze again. "I know things got a little awkward last time, but I thought maybe we could try again. We're all adults here, and I think it would be good to socialize outside of work."

Rooster couldn't deny the logic in Mark's words, but he still had reservations. Big ones "It's not just about being adults, Mark. I need to make sure it's an enjoyable and comfortable experience for everyone involved, especially Beatrice." he lowers his brows, “My wife’s wellbeing is my main focus.”

Mark nodded but Rooster didn’t think he was listening. "Of course, I want it to be enjoyable for everyone too. I'll make sure Miranda knows to be...more considerate this time."

“Uh-huh.”

“She said that the Hard Deck, while not her favorite space, is really fun!”

Rooster stares at him and he wonders if he’s going crazy and Mark things those words are in any way supportive. He strains a smile, “...sure.”

"I'll consider it, Mark," Rooster said cautiously, not committing to anything. "Is that all?”

Mark nodded again, his expression earnest. "Yeah! That was all man! Thanks for listening to me."

“Mhm.” he smirks, strained still, “Sure.”

[scmethingsweet]

Logan will quickly be the first to admit that if he could go back in time and charge how things had began between the two of him he would. In the beginning he had been a selfish man that only had one thing on his mind , but as time went on he started to get to know Maggie. He himself had started opening up to her about personal things in his life. Than the foolish , selfish man tried to pull his usual trick of pushing someone away completely. Maggie had been different though , she fought him on it and everyday he is grateful that she hadn't allowed him to win that battle , because he has never been happier in his life. His happiness of being her husband and the fact they're going to have a child outshines the negativity coming from everyone else. ❝ Of course it is going to be your father that is going to go hard on me. Truthfully I didn't expect anything different. ❞ Logan didn't need to have a daughter to understand just how overprotective fathers can be. He watched how protective Clayton is over Nora , and he'd like to say the same for his father with his sister Celia , but that would be a lie. Celia had been a pawn to their father. At least that had been Logan opinion after the whole Atlas , marriage situation. Logan knows he will do everything he can to prove to Maggie's parents that he loves their daughter and plans to do everything in his power to make her the happiest woman alive for the rest of his days. ❝ If he wants to act how he is truly feeling , I am not going to take it to heart , Maggie. ❞ He also doesn't want to have her worrying about how Logan may possibly act back if her father is to make the choice to act cold with him during his stay. ❝ Maggie ... please don't ask me that. ❞ She has only seen glimpse of the type of man that his old man is , and it had been the nice side of him. Logan doesn't want to tell her what had been said for the sake of sparing her any sort of pain.

❝ I am more than willing to give up my childhood bedroom. ❞ Truthfully he avoided going into his old bedroom since returning home , but he knew with a new makeover of the room into a nursery he'd feel different about going into the room. Logan is more than aware of the fact that Maggie herself is hurting by the behaviour of his sister. Part of him had been shocked that she agreed to come home for a visit , but even with her anger towards him. He is still happy she will be there is a short couple of days. ❝ I don't have that answer for you. Celia and I have never been on rocky terms like this before. Right now in her eyes I am just known as the lying older brother. ❞ It hadn't helped that even Clayton tried to back Logan up with Celia about the pregnancy not being the cause for their rushed wedding. Celia is one of those people that once her mind is made up it isn't changing. You could say it is kind of a Rowland trait they get from their old man. ❝ Oh shit , I probably should have ran that by you before. ❞ Than again part of him had just assumed she'd have already known that his siblings wouldn't be coming alone. ❝ Of course she is bringing him. ❞ Logan doesn't hide his dislike in the idea of seeing the male again. ❝ I am sure he won't live up to the standard of a man he wants for my sister. Which I did make clear to him when we spoke at the party. ❞ He said a lot more than just that to the other male which he was sure didn't leave him happy. ❝ Well , our niece Nora is coming and I think he mentioned bringing Beatriz too ... ❞ When Clay mentioned bringing Bea with him Logan had been pretty taken off guard , since last he heard they were just friends.

Her husband's words felt heavy between them, part of them being true. The only mistake the pair ever did was pretending that what they had meant nothing, not everything else. But she knew that for everyone else, it could look different. "I think my dad might be the hardest to convince. My mom is still under the shock of it but once she gets here, she'll soften up." Maggie wasn't certain if her father would be convinced quickly or not. In her mind, she felt like it would take the birth of his first grandchild to understand and she was ready to put it with it, as long as her mother was in their corner. "Meeting you will help. Seeing how happy we are also." The life she was living right now was far from the one she had being moving here. While she had never really been a big city kind of person, she was a somewhat successful beauty influencer before she dropped it all for love. Now she was a ranch owner wife, trying to learn what she could about it to help at her best. And she was loving every seconds of it, even if she was mostly exhausted at the end of the day, both from the work and the pregnancy. She was falling asleep everywhere during the evening and would always wake up with Logan next to her. This was the perfect life and it made her worried to have others enter their bubble. "I don't think my dad will give you too much of a hard time but he'll probably be a little closed-off. But I know that he won't say anything bad or act too cold." He wouldn't be mean to Logan, if only for his daughter's sake. "You never told me what your parents really said when you told them." She knew it hadn't gone well and that he was trying to protect her, but they were in this together and she wanted to be there for him.

"It would make more sense to have your old bedroom as the nursery for now," she said with a smile. She knew Celia wasn't taking any of it in the best way and it hurt Maggie, maybe the most. It was hard for the woman to wrap her head around Celia's anger. From their parents, it felt normal, it was expected. But from Logan's sister, his closest family member, it had been puzzling and hurting. She knew not getting to be there for her brother's wedding had been a blow but it had been their decision and perfect for them. "What can I do to have Celia soften about this? I know she's deceived by how things went down but I really thought she'd change her mind by now." They were happy and she wanted others to see that, to understand it and be happy for them too. "They're bringing guests?" God, why didn't she think of that sooner. Her pregnancy brain was really not helping and now she was stressed about the amount of guests. "Is Celia bringing Adrian? That's a huge step, your father will want to met him. Who is Clay bringing?" He wasn't seeing anyone, or so she thought but maybe Logan told her and it went into that now foggy part of her brain.

[leet911]

Rooms

Beatrice lies awake in bed and stares at the ceiling. Doctor Salvius had been very generous, letting them all stay in her villa, letting them pick from any of the available rooms. But Mother Superion had taken charge right away, commandeering one wing and assigning rooms. She had called names and pointed to doors. And Beatrice’s heart fell when her name was called, because Ava wasn’t placed in the same room.

Ava had looked at her, questioning but not crestfallen. Beatrice gave a small nod, almost imperceptible. Ava had seemed accepting, nonchalant, and somehow that crushed Beatrice more than anything else.

So Beatrice lies in bed and tells herself that this — this is not a love story. No matter how much she may want it to be. This is saving the world. But the bed beside her is empty, the now familiar warmth missing, and Beatrice knows she doesn’t get to expect more, that Ava doesn’t owe her anything, even if they did spend the last two months sleeping next to each other.

And Beatrice would never say anything, never do more than lie next to Ava and yearn — watch Ava breathe, roll around in her sleep, get tangled in the sheets. Watching Ava sleep always made her smile. There was something peaceful about it. Ava didn’t like to sleep. It was almost childlike. She would fight to stay up longer, do more things, go see the world. It was endearing, even if she did need her rest. Beatrice would give anything to be able to let Ava go live her life.

She sighs, looks over to the wall that stands between her and Ava. For a moment, she imagines Ava phasing through the wall, a smile on her face, and the image is so stark Beatrice sits upright to clutch a pillow to her chest.

This is not a love story. But Beatrice is standing, even as she repeats the mantra in her head. Because she remembers Camila’s words too. She remembers Shannon and Mary and Melanie and all the Sister Warriors that came before.

When Beatrice opens the door though, Ava is standing right there, pillow in hand and she seems just as surprised.

“Ava?” Beatrice glances up and down the darkened hall.

“Hi.” A sheepish smile. It’s just like Ava always is, and part of Beatrice wants nothing more than to pull Ava into her room, close the door, and press her up against it.

“What are you doing?”

Ava holds up her pillow. “Trying to decide whether to knock or just phase through the door.”

And Beatrice melts. She wants to tell Ava that she misses it, the feeling of Ava nearby, the reassuring warmth, the sound of her breathing. She wants to say that she misses Ava, even if she’s just down the hall, because they’re used to being together now, and sleeping apart feels too much like losing. But they don't talk about those sorts of things.

Instead, she takes Ava's hand and leads her into the room. They crawl into bed without a word, and it's just like every other night, even if the surroundings are different. Beatrice lays on her side of the bed and Ava curls up next her, so they are touching the length of their bodies.

"Goodnight, Bea." Ava whispers, and Beatrice shivers in the dark. Because even if this can’t be a love story, it’s still her and Ava’s story.

[28whitepeonies]

Hi Bea, hope it's okay for me to ask this, being part of the spectrum it's quite hard for me to understand things and evaluate them. Been IA for a past few months and I finally got to hear the new Louis' Zach Sang interview!! and I'm quite confused on why some people here said that Louis confirmed that he indeed have a choking kink but I've replayed it several times and I never heard him said yes about that? Am I just stupid or ? All I've understand that he's an andrenaline junkie. Help me out?

Hi friend

You are welcome in my inbox any time.

You are not stupid. If I think anyone is stupid, it is the people listening to that interview and coming away saying that Louis confirmed anything of the sort. I went back and listened again to remind myself exactly how that part of the convo went and because I want to be really clear about what Louis said, and for ease of reference, I've transcribed that section and put it under the cut.

I think it is reasonably clear what Louis is telling us here, and I think anything fans are saying about how this proves he has a choking kink is them justifying their behaviour. He talks a lot in general about how much he loves the energy of live shows, and the way that he almost feeds off that. What he described in Zach Sang was why he loves going down to barricade so much - that feeling he gets stepping out on stage is amplified, it's ten times stronger and better when he's down there with fans. He describes that as being the best part of the performance by far. I think it is clear this is a part of the show that Louis really loves.

None of what he loves does he describe as being related to the way fans behave and he does talk about it getting too much when a fan put their hands on his genitals. To suggest that anything Louis said in that interview, or elsewhere until now, means he consents to it, never mind that it signifies his enjoyment of it, shows a blatant disregard for what consent actually means and is genuinely quite terrifying. And every time a fan says something like "oh but look at hime he loves it" or "omg he's got a choking kink" they contribute to the environment where someone feels they can put their hands on his genitals without his permission.

I want to also take a second to focus on what he said about that Burberry shirt which was ripped and he said that wearing a button up was his 'first mistake'. I think it's quite likely Louis won't wear a shirt like that again, and that's an example of him being faced with a choice over changing what he wears to avoid fan's being able to pull his clothes off or wearing what he likes and being faced by that behaviour and I think that's representative of the bigger issue here.

Louis clearly loves the experience of being in the pit but being in the pit means fans touching him without his consent in a manner that could be quite harmful (whether that's a hand round his throat or a hand on his genitals). But I want to be really, really clear about this - Louis going back to barricade does not equal consent. I’d also like to be clear that whatever kinks Louis might have aren’t relevant - that wouldn’t make this a consensual interaction.

[The transcript is below.]

Zach: I see photos of you on the barricade... you allow people to touch you

Louis: Yeah, oh yeah man sometimes it gets pretty crazy

Zach: Oh you've been choked

Louis: Yeah do you know what that happened at like one show and then I swear like every other show now someone's got their hand on my neck. It got a little bit weird when someone grabbed my dick one show and that was a little bit extra, that was a bit too much.

Zach: A little bit?

Louis: Yeah, yeah, but I'm not going to lie, and without going into specifics about whatever they do when I'm down there, the feeling that I get when I walk out for the first song and I see the crowd for the first time, that's like one-tenth of the feeling when I go down into the pit. It's like that feeling kind of bottled up and thrown over you, and there's so much energy and so much intensity in those moments that it is by far my favourite part of the show.

Zach: It is gross, seeing people stick their fingers in your mouth

Louis: That was weird!! Did you see that yeah?! I watched the video and I think I thought that was the mic or something, I looked a little bit confused in that video. I don't even remember it, that's the other thing, once you're down there it all happens so quick and it's so chaotic. Like I remember watching that video back and I don't even remember it happening.

Zach: That energy does make you think, it changes perspective, as it relates to music and impact and really understanding who you are performing to

Louis: Definitely, definitely, not quite got round to fully immersing myself in the crowd. Maybe next tour.

Zach: To be honest, they're getting very personal and handsy. [To the camera] Like watch your hands.

Louis: It gets intense I will say that. Across South America, different gravy that. It was amazing/scary at the same time. Incredible. I had a shirt ripped off me, a nice Burberry shirt, a button up that was my first mistake, I went with a button up shirt. I went down and they literally just pulled it from me and just completely ripped it to shreds.

Dan: That must be a weird experience though? Because with One Direction you guys never got to get that close to the crowd did you?

Louis: No, I feel like there might have been in the earlier days, I personally did do a bit of that. I don't know on what song, you're hardly going to go down to WMYB and immerse yourself in the pit, but yeah it is. I can probably count on one hand the amount of times I had an experience even remotely similar to that. It is by far the best part of the show and I've seen some of my fans speculate like 'Why does he like that? It looks scary and intense or whatever' but that's kind of why it's exciting. There is an element of danger to it that makes it feel really amazing. Like I said before, if you understand what a feeling of adrenaline is, it is like times ten in that moment. It's unavoidable, it is on top of you almost.