#insomnia cw

[the-anchorless-moon]

I made @marywhal's plum rosemary pie recipe. It got a little calvinball-y because I fucked up the first attempt at the extract and got like a teaspoons of syrup out of the second, and also because I ended up working on it because I couldn't sleep, and if I'm going to bake at fuck am then I'm going to do what I want. I feel like Taako's going to start manifesting in my house for altering his recipe and I don't care. It's five a m I fear neither God nor death.

I'll let you know how it turned out once it's cooled.

[thefreakandthehair]

treatment resistant chronic insomnia really is the fucking worst because like. I take my sleep meds and sometimes, they work great! and I get like, 5-6 hours of uninterrupted sleep which still isn’t enough but it’s something. and other times, it just makes me loopy enough to misread texts and think that a piece of my hair is a bug, leading me to essentially slap myself in the face at 2am, but not fall asleep?

anywayssss I have to be awake in 7 hours for an appointment and then go to social security for name change shit so fingers crossed 🫡

[antivancoffeelover]

depression and insomnia combined is like you only get two hours of sleep and you want comfort and you also want to cry but at the same time you aggressively don't fucking care, and you know no one else cares and it just doesn't fucking matter anyway

[fictionkinfessionsarchived]

in most of my past lives i rarely slept or had insomnia and here i am now ready to nap 24/7 and i think my lack of sleep just caught up all in one go :/

[liskantope]

This report on a very unique sufferer of Fatal Familial Insomnia is wild, man. (By the way, anything pertaining to FFI should come with a big content warning, especially in my experience right before bedtime.) And to think it came out in 2006, not long after I first developed a morbid interest in FFI. I had such a firm impression of sufferers of FFI becoming completely demented and uncommunicative and in tortuous misery after only a few months.

This guy wrote a book and drove hundreds of miles on almost no sleep, somehow. And people who cared about him let him do the driving, somehow. (And, to be fair, he did get to where he was trying to go and didn't get into an accident.) I recently had a 24-hour travel day after under 2 hours of sleep the night before and really didn't feel safe to drive by the end of it. This guy was made of some extraordinary stuff.

[witchofeindor]

[whispers gently] while transient and acute insomnia are temporal and usually caused by stress and current mental state and thus mostly pass when the mental state of the patient gets better,chronic insomnia is a medical disorder and requires a professional treatment

Please don’t romanticise it

There is nothing romantic with not being able to sleep,having your entire body in constant state of exhaustion and pain, your eyes burning and your head hammering

[kissingcullens]

Speaking of disabled Steve Rogers headcanons, what about Steve with chronic insomnia? I see a trope going through fic where Steve needs less sleep because: serum-- but what if he just can't sleep?   And all he wants is to be able to sleep the whole night through, not lie in bed staring at the ceiling, drinking herbal tea, trying meds and herbal remedies that don't work, excercising all day to try and calm his body and his mind down enough to fucking take a BREAK And sometimes he won't be able to sleep for days on end, weeks without really sleeping beyond a few quick naps, and he's in too hyper-perfect shape to really be "tired" but he feels tired, and he has trouble remembering or keeping track of when things happen.

[lieutenantseivarden-tomove]

speaking of sleep....

well for the past month (i think?) i've slept like 7-8 hours most nights and i'm not dead tired anymore and i feel much better mentally

best.thing.ever

[fictionkinfessionsarchived]

i Love waking up at 2-3 in the morning frm nightmared of my lives and not being able to fall back aseep and usually just trying to avoid sleeping so i dont have to deal with it

[saferincages]

in today's adventures of extreme sleep deprivation I got a case of terrible chills this afternoon and had to lie down, and my mom had to put me in an additional sweater like a child because I was in too much pain to do it myself? I hadn't eaten anything and don't remember falling asleep, but I did. When I woke up, the clock said 8:35 - and somehow I assumed it was morning, threw myself out of bed, heart pounding with adrenaline, because I was convinced something bad had happened or I'd forgotten to do something, ran out of my room to find my mom, and realized it was still dark out. I'd only been sleeping a couple of hours, though I was too disoriented to figure that out before panicking. (I'm not into drugs but I've never wanted sleeping pills more in my life.)

basically all this to say, if you've sent me a message, especially a long one, in the past two weeks, and I haven't answered it, I am so sorry. I've likely read it and haven't had the concentration/focus to reply yet, and now I'm at the point where I don't even know what day/time it is.

[hylian-champion]

Following the Calamity’s defeat, Link had such a bad case of insomnia. He’d fall asleep for a short time only to wake up in a jolt thinking he had to do something. 

While defeating the Calamity has always been the goal, living in a world free of its presence was surreal. This ever-looming threat was always over Link’s head. Everything he did on his journey was with the task in mind “Defeat Ganon.” And without Ganon, what does he do now?

It was hard for him to just wind down and actually accept he did it. Zelda is free. Ganon is sealed away. Hyrule will be safe. It’s what he always wanted, but living that reality was just such a shock to his system.

[peace-love-piper]

{Great Hall - Lockdown}

@loxley-blair

The normally exuberant girl who all but sulks into the Great Hall with the rest of the Ravenclaws is barely recognizable as Piper Oliver. She's been wearing the same faded Weird Sisters sweatshirt since Saturday, three sizes too big, that swallows her alive. A crown of dusty blonde peeks out at the roots of her lusterless lavender hair that she hasn't bothered to fix. She yawns, rubbing at her puffy, sunken eyes; she's been having odd dreams--not quite nightmares, but not quite anything else, either--that have her waking up sweating and disoriented; dreams where Piper is squishing ants underneath heavy boots, watching delicate objects fall from rooftops just to shatter on unyielding rocks below. These violent delights have violent ends. She assumes it's the potions she was given in the Hospital Wing, meant to make her relax. Merlin, Piper has grown to hate potions.

She takes a seat at the farthest end of the Ravenclaw table and immediately puts big clunky headphones over her ears. She closes her eyes, blocking out everything except the heavy percussion and the sharp, wail-like singing of the Yeah Yeah Yeahs: Off off off with your head / Dance dance dance 'til you're dead. She tries to hum along but no sound comes out, none at all--in fact, Piper hasn't been able to utter a single sound for days. Not since...

Piper feels a hand at her back and nearly jumps out of her skin. She whips around in a panic, but her defensiveness crumbles the second she recognizes Loxley. She slides the headphones down around her neck and leaps up, throwing her arms around his neck and burying her face against him. Unwittingly--before a word has even been said (not that she can say a word)--tears of stress are already spilling out before Piper can stop them, dampening the fabric of Loxley's shirt.

[catchmeifyoucreon]

i knew i'd feel shitty as hell for staying up till 9am this morning and only getting two hours' sleep, but naturally instead of sleeping i chose to read fanfic and listen to halestorm and rihanna on a loop for 9 hours

[lieutenantseivarden-tomove]

Tonight I managed to get 6 consecutive hours of sleep. It may not sound like much to you, guys, but it's amazing for me.

[rulesforthedance]

Last night I went to bed at 9:30 (a normal time for me) and then did NOT fall asleep. Eventually looked at the clock, it was 12:30, alarm was set for 6, was not even sleepy, could not come up with an explanation for why this was happening (it happens to me sometimes but usually for some obvious reason). Reset alarm for 8, took drugs to make me sleep, eventually fell asleep, had a nightmare that someone had turned my shower on and I could not find who had done it and was screaming. Woke up in the morning, posted on Teams that I would be late "due to a medical appointment" (fortunately had no meetings until 11 today so it was fine), THEN saw last night's melatonin dose sitting on my placemat 😭 that's why

[bloomingjellies]

I have got to get this resurgence in insomnia under control. I stayed up till 4:30 am reading a book I had already read because I couldn’t fall asleep and I thought that reading something I already knew would lull me to sleep. 4:30 is when I finished the book. I fell asleep probably half an hour after some tossing and turning. 

The punching bag is sitting in a box in my living room; it arrived yesterday. I need to get the husband to help me hang it because even without a post-op ankle (which is still numb and still hurts and I still can’t rotate it outwards very far. Appointment on Monday to see if the boot is still needed and talk about PT) I’d have trouble hoisting a 70lb bag onto the ceiling. I’m hopeful that getting to physically wail on a bag instead of mentally wailing on myself will help with stress. 

This post was intended to be a “haha I stayed up till 4:30 reading! Silly me!” and took a sharp turn into grump and anxiety. Sorry guys!