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Chapters: 8/25 Fandom: Glee Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Blaine Anderson/Sebastian Smythe Characters: Blaine Anderson, Sebastian Smythe Additional Tags: Christmas Compilation, The Great Seblaine Christmas Extravaganza, Fluff and Sweetness, Occasional hurt/comfort, probably, But mostly fluff Summary:

A collection of Christmas-themed oneshots about Seblaine.

[bumblebeeanderson]

Shall We Start Over? || Kurtbastian

The infamous Klaine had risen all the way to the highs of marriage and fallen to the struggles of divorce. It was something that nobody had expected, but everyone involved was taking pretty well. Another thing that nobody expected was Sebastian reaching out to Kurt to make sure he was okay, and the two of them being able to get along. More than that. Sebastian had reached out well before the marriage ended and though it had been touch and go after the divorce, they were friends again. So much so that Sebastian had asked Kurt to come over and had offered him a place to put his things. What Kurt didn’t know was that he was about to walk into an offer to move in as well. There was a knock on the door and Sebastian opened the door and the scent of dinner wafted out and greeted Kurt with the French man’s smile. “Hey here, stranger.”

Even if it wasn’t an easy pill to swallow, in the end it had been the right thing to do. Even if between them deciding to separate, and the actual divorce there was some amount of time, both Kurt and Blaine realized it was best not to continue to postpone the inevitable, and go on their own separate ways, if anything for the sake of saving enough that would keep them friendly-ish for their daughter’s benefit. On the other hand, there was the unexpected fact that none other that Sebastian Smythe was the one reaching out to him, not only before their divorce was final, but after, making sure that Kurt was okay. And even if it could had been easy to blame him about what was happening in his life, Kurt knew in his heart he couldn’t blame him. Besides, there was this odd, and somehow warm feeling of what was slowly becoming a truly unexpected friendship. When Kurt was looking for a smaller, cheaper place to move, Sebastian offered a spare empty room at his studio as storage for his things, and with him still looking, he now found himself knocking at the door of Sebastian’s apartment that evening, after leaving Ann Marie with Mercedes for the night. “Hey there yourself, sir” he said with a soft chuckle when the door was opened, the delicious smell immediately filling his nose. “Oh wow, something smells good. May I come in?” he asked, while still standing at the doorway.

There was no way to deny to himself how guilty he felt about the Klaine breakup. He was Sebastian Smythe, after all. The very same man that had tried to break them up before, and the very same man that reappeared only days before the marriage started to deteriorate. Whether or not it was already going in that direction, he didn’t know because he hadn’t been there, so the way things looked… this might be his fault. But reaching out to Kurt was more than guilt, he’d found before the crumbling that he really did enjoy the other man’s company. When he opened the door, it felt more like he was welcoming a fellow Warbler than a previous rival in love. An enemy. Or worse, someone he felt bad for. He was greeted and feigned getting comfortable, leaning up against the door frame nonchalantly. “No, I thought I’d host this little meeting right here at my super comfy front door.” He let the joke sit for just one second then shook his head, chuckling at himself as he stepped back and gestured towards the inside of his home. “Come on in, that scent you’re smelling would be dinner, so I hope you’re hungry.” No mention that dinner wasn’t required for the scheduled meeting, since they had only planned to do things that involved Kurt storing his stuff.

Kurt narrowed his eyes at him, but it was all in playful banter. “As quint as your neighbors may find that as they walk along the hallway, I think we’ll be more comfortable inside.” He watched Sebastian laughing and stepping back and Kurt put his chin up just a bit. “You never know- I may be a vampire, and I was asking for your permission to go in. Now-” He walked past him, making a soft wave of his hand. “- it’s too late.” He turned around and smiled playfully at him, then looked to where the delicious smell was coming from. “Actuall, I am. I… skipped lunch, so basically I haven’t eaten anything all day. Lots of coffee, that’s for sure!” He giggled, then took his jacket off, and placed it neatly on a chair nearby. “How was your day?” he begun to ask, then put his hands behind his back. “To be honest, I was surprised that you invited me to your place. I thought you had… other people to meet.” He gave his shoulder a small shrug and looked at him pointedly. It was no secret for Kurt that Blaine and Sebastian were already an item in the making, already trying to make up for the time they had lost, and no, that wasn’t Kurt’s business anymore. It just made him curious that he would invite him over, of all people.

@seblaine-rps

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i was thinking about what it would be like if the glee club had a week dedicated to the academy is… & i would like to know your thoughts on who would sing what (and the plotline/headcanonit correlates with) 👀

Ana I love you with my whole entire heart

I didn't do a single week, I kind of just... picked songs and put them with pre-existing plotlines, so it's a little all over the place, although pretty much everything ended up being seasons 4/5 so at least some of them could be in the same episode maybe? Anyway, I hope you still like this!

1. Attention/Everything We Had mashup as a Klaine duet. This is post season 4 breakup.

Kurt sings the Attention lines, tries to act like it's not a big deal when it's really killing him. Just look at this whole verse! It's so good for soon after the breakup, he's trying to get over Blaine but still has feeling, wants to hook up with him at the wedding, etc.

This balance has weighed out our heart's desire I'm trying to make it alone Well it's not like it hurts that much anyway Upside down and inside out When I leave here I'm going alone But I'm dying I'm dying to touch And it's not like it Not like it hurts much anyway

And then Blaine would sing the lines from Everything We Had. Regretful, sad about losing what they had, feeling very lost because Kurt made him feel safe and Kurt felt like home but he doesn't have that anymore. Again, some lyrics to prove my point:

It was the only place I'd never known Turned off the light on my way out the door I will be watching wherever you go, Through the eyes of a fly on the wall You have been followed back to the same place I sat with you drink for drink Take the pain out of love and then love won't exist

Everything we had, everything we had, Everything we had, everything we had is no longer there

2. Sticking with the season 4 theme, I feel like a very bitter Rachel would sing Checkmarks about Brody after she found out he's a sex worker. Is it deserved? Is it entirely sensical? Maybe not. But she feels very justified and she sings it regardless. I can especially hear her being righteously angry as she sings these lines:

So don't explain cause I know exactly what your going to say Big words, recycled phrases, and the bittersweet taste of other boys girls on your lips So now just sit here and talk about how you wanted it all

3. Skipping ahead to season 5, I'm envisioning We've Got a Big Mess on Our Hands as a Jake solo after he fucks things up with Marley. After she doesn't take him back, he kind of just... self-destructs and feels like it was inevitable because that's just Who He Is, like he's never going to be able to get it right. I don't have specific lyrics for this one, it's just an overall Vibe imo.

4. Bulls In Brooklyn is a Santana song. It just. It is.

Well I been crossing some lines That most folks won't yeah

That's Santana.

Don't say you're more than this, or above e all this With your blah blah blah and all your friends Don't Say you think you know when you know you don't

I can hear Santana saying this to Rachel.

This is a Santana in New York song. Maybe around auditioning for Rachel's understudy? Or some other rivalry where Santana is pissed and Rachel is acting like she's better than everyone because she goes to NYADA/has all these people admiring her/is being successful in some way.

5. So I could see a Samcedes duet for Summer Hair = Forever Young. This is so so so reminiscent of Samcedes breakups, gives me big they-both-have-feelings-but-Mercedes-says-it-won't-work vibes, and I can just hear this section in my head:

(Sam is yellow, Mercedes is purple)

Don't come any closer Don't tell me it's over Don't kiss me goodbye Here we are, am I taking this too hard? Don't say it's easy The hardest part is leavin' Don't you wonder why Suddenly, we're all running out of time

It would be so good!!!!!

6. Now I almost said that Paper Chase should be a Hummelberry duet in a version of the show where Kurt rightfully get into NYADA, but actually I think this would be great as a Blaine/Sam/Tina/Artie number when they graduate. Literally, just... all of this. All of it.

(Blaine is red, Sam is yellow, Tina is blue, Artie is green, and all of them together is pink)

Please stand by, we've come so far These years, we survived the ride that turned us inside out Repeat after me, just scream and shout "It was the best of times from broken homes and battle scars to where we are"

Graduate, paper chase We'll get out of this place Don't turn around. Hit the highway Pour some liquor out for this town Now that's all for us, it's last call to drink up

Roll it out, it's over now We're the cast outs with messed up friends who never did fit in Don't know where it ends It doesn't matter now As long as we're as one, we'll take the next bus Destination: setting sun

[kurtstinypurse]

blaine in s6: a journey thru plaid

While digging into season 6 as I so often do, I couldn’t help but notice how much plaid Blaine wears. Typically known for his bright colors, bowties, and the occasional hat, Blaine's sudden affinity for plaid - as well as darker and more muted colors - got me thinking. As I dug deeper, I realized that Blaine wears plaid in all but one scene with/about Kurt leading up to their reunion kiss, and then his wardrobe changes again. What could this symbolize? 

Warning: this could be totally reaching (okay, it absolutely is). I fully believe RIB did not do most things intentionally, but filling in the gaps of Blaine is one of my favorite things to do. At the same time, the wardrobe department kicks ass, so I wouldn’t put it past them to have done it on purpose. 

Thanks to a meta post exchange with @spaceorphan18​ for getting me to finally finish this post off after sitting in my drafts for the better part of the summer!

This is pretty long, but the screencaps should be worth taking a gander at, at the very least.

My general thought is that plaid symbolizes Blaine’s desperate attempt at a new life - a new life without Kurt. Moving back to Ohio, working at Dalton, dating Dave (the big whopper here). Blaine is in a dark place after his breakup with Kurt - it had to have been bad for him to drop out of NYADA and move back to Ohio, and it was bad enough for him to need therapy (the therapy he already so badly needed, but that’s for another time). Bowties come in and out throughout season 6 - sometimes a bowtie is the only plaid, and sometimes there is no bowtie at all - but regardless, the plaid is oddly consistent.

Dave wears a lot of plaid. He’s a simple flannel guy, we all know that. History aside, we find out that Dave is pretty damn understanding of Blaine’s situation with Kurt in the end. While he and Blaine are together, he seems happy, agreeable, and easy. Blaine craved something easy after the struggle of breaking up with Kurt and everything that led up to it, too. Dave was really different from Kurt, too, yet somehow he was intrinsically connected to Kurt, which was an odd transitional state that likely helped and harmed - either way, he didn’t quite fit Blaine. Dave wore plaid, so then Blaine wore plaid. The plaid/color pallette were really different from his usual choices, and they didn’t quite fit him, either, but there Blaine was, trying to make it work in an attempt to move on. You can read more about my general Blainofsky meta here.

Here are most of the outfits (with some notes):

Pre-Season 6: The Breakup

The breakup finds Blaine in a plaid button down, bowtie-free, and a dark maroon cardigan. Though it’s pre-Dave and pre-season 6, this can foreshadow what’s to come, at least the loss that’s about to occur. The general color scheme and lighting of this entire scene is very dark, too. The breakup wasn’t out of nowhere - their relationship had been in a dark place for some time (and you can read more about my analysis of their breakup & reunion here).

Blaine & Rachel at the Lima Bean

Our actual first look at Blaine in season 6 is when he updates Rachel about what she’d missed and tells her about the breakup. Plaid bowtie.

Blaine meets Kurt at Scandals

This is a tough scene for Blaine, and it’s one where I would’ve liked to see more of his perspective. Like I’ve said before, I don’t think he ended up dating Dave out of spite or “revenge” towards Kurt. He had no reason to think Kurt wanted anything to do with him, let alone he’d be coming back to Ohio. It’s more likely that things with Dave took off and snowballed, and it wasn’t until Kurt wanted to meet up with him at Scandals that Blaine had an “oh shit, this might hurt” moment.

Outfit-wise, this is his first deep-dive into muted plaid, and of course, Dave is right there with him. 

Blaine yells about Jane 

Alright, look. I’m not trying to say this theory is perfect, and it’s a bit of a shame it takes a hit right off the bat. But this is the only time Blaine doesn’t wear a lick of plaid between 6x01 and 6x08. There may be a reason, and there may not be. He’s definitely projecting here, and he’s making an unfair stab at Kurt by accusing him of poaching Jane on purpose after seeing Blaine with Dave. Regardless of wardrobe, it’s a bold indicator that Blaine’s not as over Kurt as he might think he is.

More plaid along the way...

Klaine in the Elevator

It’s interesting how not Blaine-like Blaine looks in this scene. Shirt unbuttoned, bowtie off, all frazzled and muted colors. Visually, he looks nothing like himself, and he’s never been more in denial of his feelings for Kurt than in this moment - and like it or not, healthy or not, a huge part of who Blaine is is his love for Kurt. 

“This doesn’t mean anything.”

Yeah, okay.

More plaid in between...

Blaine breaks up with Karofsky/runs to Kurt

Not only do we have a plaid shirt in these scenes, we have the bowtie from the proposal. It’s a great connection here between what Blaine’s holding onto in his present - Karofsky - and what he’s finally learning to accept and hopes to grab onto for his future - Kurt. This is a pivotal moment for Blaine, but it’s not quite time yet for him and Kurt.

(Also, can I just say, his face here hurts my heart)

Kurt runs to Blaine/Klaine reunion kiss

Finally, finally, the moment has arrived, and “everything’s fine now” (yeah, okay, I’ll let you have that for now, Kurt), and they’ve gotten their acts together. Aside from “Somebody Loves You,” this is the most colorful Klaine scene we have, and finally, too, Blaine is sans-plaid. We’ve got bursts of color from the wildly decorated apartment, echoed in his stripes, we’ve got the blues and the yellows that carry over from their long-ago proposal outfits, and it’s all happy and beautiful and birds chirping and the rest of it! (Hmm, birds.)

Post-marriage outfits

Something interesting here is that Blaine’s wardrobe has definitely evolved from his McKinley days in particular. Gone are the crazy bold color combinations and flashiness, and though the color- and pattern-mixing and color-blocking remains, he tends to wear darker tones. I’d like to think part of this is him accepting himself - although he didn’t spend a lot of time single after the breakup with Kurt, removing himself so far from Kurt in many ways did give Blaine the opportunity to grow without him for the first time in ages, and there are definitely indicators of that, though I would’ve loved to see more of it on the show.

I’ll admit, I first thought that the plaid rarely reappeared after the wedding, but upon closer inspection, it’s definitely still there - but there’s something to be said for the fact that I missed it. Apart from his outfit when Sue gives them a honeymoon, plaid is no longer the mega-standout and focal point of his clothing. His wardrobe evolves again, and though he retains the plaid, his style once again looks more like him. It’s a matured amalgamation of who he once was, who he tried to be with Dave, and who he is now and will continue to become. 

But if Blaine’s growing, and if Blaine’s learning to accept himself, he no longer has such a need for flashiness and to stand out. He’s growing up, and he’s maturing, and you can see that in his clothes, though he still retains his own quirky flair. 

As an aside, I’m a huge proponent of Kurt and Blaine continuing therapy, both separately and together after the wedding. A girl can dream that they learned from their mistakes that a ring or two isn’t a quick fix. At the end of the day, though, season 6 offered an important journey that Kurt and Blaine so desperately needed in order to come together again in a healthy, compatible way, and I do think they learned a lot from their time apart.

Blaine is a tough nut to crack in a lot of ways - there is so much under the surface, and there are so many gaps to be filled in. It’s the unfortunately inevitability of Blaine being characterized in retrospect, considering he was never meant to be such a permanent fixture to the cast and to the show. It’s difficult finding ways to anchor a character that lacks a foundation, especially a character as dependent on another as Blaine is to Kurt in so many ways. However, I find it really interesting to weave the thread between everything Blaine offers and make it make sense - and his wardrobe in season 6 is an interesting parallel in this part of his journey.

[kt-cant-focus]

How the Klaine breakup in Season 4 should have gone

Okay, so at work I was listening to Spotify and the Sleeping At Last cover of Already Gone came on the shuffle and it hit me.

This is how the breakup between Kurt and Blaine in S4 should have gone. Not the idiotic cheating storyline.

Whether through a conversation or on his own, Kurt realizes how his neglect is hurting Blaine and their relationship. That trying to solve things would just delay the inevitable and cause more hurt on both sides. He still loves Blaine, but right now isn’t their time. Kurt knows that Blaine will never break it off first no matter how much pain he’s in. (Personally believe Blaine has abandonment issues and/or separation anxiety.)

When Blaine comes to New York the two of them sit down and talk about everything. Maybe at the karaoke bar Kurt sings Already Gone instead of Blaine performing Teenage Dream. They break up after a tough yet brutally honest conversation.

This could have been such a great moment of maturity and growth for Kurt. Blaine doesn’t obsess so much over Kurt and matures a little as well as he accepts the end of their relationship. The emotions would have been just as high and neither character would have been out of character. There still would have been the “maybe in the future” vibes the writers obviously wanted. The song came out in 2009 and was a big hit. As far as I could find, Glee never did it. This was totally doable.

I personally think Kurt is meh and that Klaine is such a toxic relationship. How the breakup in S4 happened is one of the big reasons for that. I’d definitely dislike both less if everything went down the way I described. And I know people hate Blaine for being “whiny” in the aftermath of them splitting up, and since he wouldn’t be doing that as much, people would like Blaine more. People would applaud the writers for showing such a mature separation and that first loves don’t always work out(in a much better way than things with Finn and Rachael ended in S3) This is such a win-win-win scenario.

[darriness]

Klaine Fic - Care Part 5

Author: darriness

Word Count: 2954

Summary: The first time Kurt feeds from Blaine

Author’s Note: Happy Halloween! This part is longer, and darker, than the four parts before it so potentially read with some caution! There is nothing super graphic but if you are interested in more specific warnings before you read please message me (I don’t want to put them here because I don’t want to ‘spoil’ anything). Just keep in mind that Kurt and Blaine are a vampire and werewolf respectively in this verse so if anything that comes with that is not your thing or bothers you, then maybe this story isn’t for you <3 

As of now, I have no immediate plans to continue this story beyond this BUT I won't say I'll never come back to it. It was fun to explore this trope myself (I've always been fascinated with vampires and werewolves) and who knows what the future will bring. Enjoy and be safe in whatever you plan to do this Halloween :)

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The first time Kurt kills someone, he and Blaine break up for a month.

“You don’t understand! I can’t trust myself!” Kurt had yelled the night it happened, “We’re done!” He’d screamed at a bewildered (and blindsided) Blaine.

Blaine had blinked and picked his jaw up from where it hung like a broken glove compartment, “What...what are you talking about?” He’d stuttered, “What are you saying?”

“I’m saying we’re over!” Kurt had screamed. It wasn’t the first time he’d said it that night but Blaine still hadn’t really understood.

“But why?” Blaine had asked, desperation creeping into his voice, “Because you accidentally killed someone?” Kurt had flinched at the words. Blaine had moved closer, reaching out to grab Kurt’s hand, but Kurt had pulled away.

“You have to go. I could hurt you next...or worse.” Kurt had pulled his arms around his body and Blaine ached to wrap him in his own arms instead.

“You won’t hurt me.” Blaine had whispered.

Kurt had shook his head, “You don’t know that. We have to end this. I can’t stay with you if it means I’ll hurt you.”

Nothing Blaine said had changed Kurt’s mind. He’d been through an entire catalog of emotions since Kurt had called him over in a frenzy and he had finally settled on...nothingness. An empty void was opening up inside and Blaine didn’t know what to do about it.

“Please don’t do this.” Blaine had whispered, tears forming in his eyes.

Kurt had put his head in his hands, “Go.” He’d whispered. When Blaine didn’t move, Kurt looked up with a face Blaine had never seen. His pupils had completely taken over his irises and the whites of his eyes were bloodshot - the red veins around his pupils seemed to pulse - and he bared pointed canine teeth as he growled, “Go!”

Blaine had stumbled backwards, not out of fear of what Kurt might do to him but out of astonishment that Kurt so clearly didn’t want him there...or at all. Nothing he could say was going to change Kurt’s mind and their relationship was over.

Blaine spends most of the month after as a wolf. He thinks less as a wolf. Well, maybe not less, but differently. As a wolf he doesn’t have to remember the feeling of emptiness that had settled in after he’d left Kurt’s house that night. He doesn’t have to deal with people’s reactions and inevitable pity about their breakup. He doesn’t have to think about the fact that their two year relationship, admittedly a tiny blip in the supernatural world, will stay with him for as long as he lives.

Which promises to be a very, very long time.

Sometimes, he hates being supernatural. He’s been a werewolf since his eighteenth birthday three years ago (a ‘fun’ genetic surprise none of his family felt he needed to know about earlier) and while he celebrated his twenty-first birthday a few months ago, he hasn’t actually physically aged much beyond eighteen. He’s not entirely sure why, reliable information on werewolves is hard to come by, but he knows that while he won’t live for eternity like a vampire, his life span is significantly longer than a humans. The prevailing theory is werewolves age physically one year for every ten human years. Blaine will be twenty-eight before his body makes it to nineteen. And he’ll be much, much older than that before his heart gets over Kurt.

But as a wolf, he doesn’t have to think about any of that. He can think about hunting, and finding warm sun to sleep in, and how to get his tail in his mouth (human Blaine would be horrified by that specific behavior, wolf Blaine is simply determined to make it happen).

There’s a general melancholy to his time in the woods but his wolf brain isn’t able to figure out why, so it continually tries to shake it off. It’s got no time for melancholy when there is a whole world (or at least a whole forest) to explore. 

Blaine trots back to his clothes one night, intent on curling up by them to sleep, when a strange buzzing sound fills the forest around him. Blaine’s head tilts and he quiets his pants (a product of his bunny hunt a few minutes ago) to listen. It’s not a usual forest sound and his wolf brain tries to place it.

He narrows his search down to his pile of clothes and uses his snout to curiously push the fabric aside. On the ground under his jeans is his phone, buzzing and lighting up the immediate area as it glows. Blaine’s head tilts once again as he watches it buzz. His wolf brain doesn’t know what it is or what to do about it but is curious enough to watch it happen.

Eventually, his phone goes dark and silent and Blaine snorts at the strange contraption. He’s about to turn to lie down when his phone lights up again. This time Blaine’s snort is of irritation. What is this thing and why is it disrupting his peaceful evening?

When his phone goes silent again and then begins to light up again immediately afterwards, Blaine barks at it before figuring, in order to make it stop, he’ll have to transform back to human. He doesn’t want to, but he also doesn’t particularly want to deal with this thing buzzing all night.

The process of transformation leaves him panting on the ground for a while as it always does. He takes deep breaths as his body settles and he tries to remember why he did this in the first place. The connection between his wolf and human self is always a little jumbled immediately after transformation.

The buzzing, his brain supplies after a few minutes. Blaine shakes his head. Not buzzing, his phone.

He pulls himself up and makes his way slowly toward his phone on the ground. His body hurts but it’s nothing compared to the ache in his chest. Now that he’s human all the feelings he’s been hiding from are rearing their ugly head.

The ache only intensifies when he sees who has been calling.

Burt Hummel - Missed Call x3

Blaine’s brow furrows. Why would Kurt’s dad be calling him?

He doesn’t have time to think about it too hard when his phone starts to buzz in his hand. Caller ID says it’s Burt calling again. Blaine, cautiously, answers the call, “Hello?” He asks.

“Christ Blaine - took ya long enough!” Burt hollers over the phone. Blaine’s not sure if he’s yelling because he’s mad at Blaine for missing his calls or because he has to yell over the noise on his end of the line. It sounds like Burt is at a demolition site - crashing, banging, shattering. Those are the words Blaine would use to describe it anyway.

“Burt?” Blaine asks, “What’s going…”

He doesn’t get to finish his question when a scream echoes from Burt’s end of the line. There’s a pause in the demolition noise for it to happen and Blaine’s heart immediately leaps into his throat.

Kurt.

“Blaine, you’ve gotta come.” Burt says over the line. He sounds out of breath.

“What’s going on?” Blaine asks.

“It’s Kurt.” Burt offers, needlessly, “Just...come. Please.”

Blaine doesn’t even have to think about it, “I’ll be right there.”

-- -- --

He makes it to Kurt’s in record time. Over their two years together he had made the trek from the forest to Kurt’s many times after he transformed. This feels different from all those times.

Burt opens the door before Blaine can even knock. The house behind him is quiet but Blaine isn’t sure that’s a good thing considering the sounds he’d heard over the phone.

“Come in.” Burt says, gesturing the younger man inside.

When they’re in the front hallway, Burt puts a hand on Blaine’s shoulder with a heavy sigh. Blaine holds back the wince the action tries to pull from him. Not only has it been a while since he’s felt human contact, his body is still aching after his transformation.

“Thank you for coming.” Burt says.

Blaine looks up at him in confusion, “What’s going on?” He feels like he’s asked that a lot tonight, “Is Kurt hurt?”

Burt sighs again and looks off toward the stairs to the second floor, briefly, before looking back at Blaine, “He’s not doing well.” Is all Burt says.

Blaine’s about to say something along the lines of ‘No shit’ or ‘That makes two of us’ but Kurt screams from the second floor. Both Burt and Blaine turn, sharply, toward the sound and Blaine goes toward it without thinking. It’s only Burt’s hand on his shoulder that keeps him in place.

Blaine turns to Burt with an incredulous look and Burt grimaces, “He’s...hungry.” Burt says. Blaine’s brows furrow, “He hasn’t fed since the night you two broke up.” Burt explains.

Blaine’s eyes widen. Apart from actually BEING a vampire, Blaine knows more than most about how vampires work. He knows that Kurt stopped aging permanently when he was bitten just after his eighteenth birthday. He knows that as long as Kurt keeps a healthy diet of blood, his body functions very similarly to that of a human’s.

He knows that without a healthy diet of blood Kurt’s body will start to shut down.

“How could you let this happen?” Blaine asks Burt, dumbfounded.

Burt’s eyes narrow, briefly, at the accusation. If Blaine hadn’t been fresh from a transformation and a floor away from a hurting Kurt, he would NEVER have spoken to Burt in such a manner. But Blaine is both of those things and he feels like Burt is to blame for at least the latter.

“You don’t think I’ve tried?” Burt asks, “I have tried everything. I’ve even offered my own blood. Nothing has worked.”

Blaine knows that, apart from right after becoming a vampire and that night a month ago when he took the man’s life, Kurt subsists exclusively on animal blood. The vegetarian diet, as Kurt had coined it, is enough to get the job done but the draw of human blood is always there. It tempts him like some sort of juicy steak. Refusing Burt’s blood must have been a Herculean effort.

“I was hoping you could help.” Burt says.

Blaine’s not sure what help he could possibly be but he nods. He goes to head up the stairs again but Burt’s hand on his shoulder stops him once more.

“Just,” Burt starts, “remember, he’s not himself right now.”

Blaine’s sure Burt would like to continue explaining, but Blaine just nods and a beat later Burt’s hand drops from his shoulder, allowing Blaine to finally make his way up the stairs.

When he gets to the second floor he can hear sounds he didn’t notice downstairs. He hears scrambling from behind Kurt’s closed bedroom door and a high pitched whine. He makes his way to the door and knocks.

“Go away, Dad!”

Kurt doesn’t even sound like himself - his voice scratchy and weak even as he yells. It sounds like he hasn’t spoken in months.

“Kurt.” Blaine says and all movement behind the closed door stops. Blaine sighs and leans his forehead and palms against the door, “Can I come in?”

He’s greeted with more silence and he actually wonders if Kurt passed out before he hears, “Blaine.” 

His name sounds like it’s being strangled from Kurt’s throat and Blaine’s fingers flex on the wood door.

“Kurt, open the door, baby.” The endearment slips out before Blaine can realize he probably shouldn’t use it.

There’s silence again before the door slowly creeps open. When Kurt comes into view, Blaine sucks in a breath. He’s never seen Kurt look like this. He’s never seen anyone look like this.

Kurt’s skin is grey. His lips are the same colour as his face and are dry and cracking. The veins and arteries on his necks are purple and a stark contrast to the ashen skin around them. And his eyes. Blaine thinks Kurt’s eyes right now will be burned into his brain for the rest of his life. His irises are completely black, like they were the night he and Kurt broke up, but unlike that night the whites of his eyes are laced with purple and black veins. The purple bruises under his eyes are the only other colour on Kurt’s face. He looks positively terrifying.

Blaine blinks and shakes his head. This is still Kurt, his Kurt (even if Kurt doesn’t want him), and he’s here to help.

“Kurt.” He says again in a pained exhalation.

“What are you doing he…” Kurt cuts himself off before he can finish with a groan as he clenches a hand to his stomach.

Blaine’s muscles twitch as he shifts forward, trying to keep himself from going to Kurt. He’s fairly certain Kurt wouldn’t appreciate the gesture.

“Kurt, you need to feed.” Blaine says, needlessly.

Kurt groans again and turns away from the door, “Go away.” He moans.

“You’re killing yourself.” Blaine tries, “You need to feed.”

Kurt shakes his head as he grips his head in his hands, “Can’t.” 

“Why not?” Blaine asks.

“Can’t.” Kurt says, again.

Blaine bites his lip as he watches Kurt pace his room. He notices for the first time that Kurt’s room is destroyed. The ‘demolition’ he heard over the phone was, in fact, Kurt tearing his room apart.

Blaine feels useless. He’s not sure why Burt thought he could help or why he agreed. Kurt doesn’t want him for anything. He’s of no help here.

Unless…

“Feed off me.” He blurts and suddenly Kurt’s terrifying eyes whip in his direction.

“Go. Away.” Kurt snarls.

Blaine shakes his head. He won’t leave this time. This time it’s Kurt’s life on the line, “No. You need to feed and I’m not leaving until you do. Either go hunting or feed from me.”

Blaine’s fairly certain Kurt couldn’t go hunting in his current state even if he wanted to. He’s too far gone, too weak, too hungry. There’s really only one way this is going to end.

Kurt growls in Blaine’s direction, his hands clenching and unclenching at his sides, “Leave me alone. I’m a monster. I shouldn’t be alive. Just let me die.”

Blaine feels a grip on his heart at Kurt’s broken words. He knows Kurt can’t actually die the way he currently seems to be trying to (his body will shut down but he won’t actually ‘die’), but knowing he wants to is enough to make Blaine want to cry.

Suddenly, Kurt lets out another scream as he doubles over in pain. Blaine is shaken from the emotional pain of hearing Kurt’s desires and into action.

He bangs a hand against Kurt doorframe, hearing it groan under the strain, “God damnit, Kurt!” He shouts, suddenly angry with desperation, “Stop it! Feed. From. Me!”

“No!” Kurt shouts.

Blaine’s frantic eyes flit around the room around Kurt as the other man lets out another scream that turns into a pained moan. Blaine’s eyes land on the twisted remains of the lamp that used to sit in the corner of the room. It’s bent and broken now but the light in the room almost seems to blink off the sharp point of metal Blaine’s eyes fixate on.

He moves toward it at lightning speed and, without thinking, drags his forearm along the metal. He groans at the sting of pain but as he looks down at his arm he can see the blood start to bubble up from the cut. When he looks back at Kurt, the other man’s eyes are locked on Blaine’s arm.

“Do it.” Blaine says.

Kurt’s lip twitches but he holds his ground. Blaine can see all of his muscles tense and he actually sways forward slightly, but he doesn’t advance. 

“I want you to. I’m begging you to.” Blaine implores, holding out his arm, “You won’t hurt me.” He says even though he’s not entirely sure if that’s true. He’s never had a vampire feed from him. He’s not sure if it will physically hurt or even if he might actually die from it, but in this moment his only thought is saving Kurt. His own life seems almost insignificant in comparison.

“Please.” He begs again, his voice cracking.

Kurt’s lips shift around his teeth as he continues to stare at Blaine’s bloody arm before he slowly makes his way across the room. Blaine finds it amazing, considering how desperate and hungry Kurt must be, that he’s able to show such restraint but when he’s finally within reach of Blaine he takes Blaine’s arm almost reverently into his hands.

He hesitates then, looking up at Blaine’s face for the first time since Blaine cut himself. Blaine nods, “Do it. You won’t hurt me.”

It doesn’t hurt. Maybe that’s because Blaine had already been cut but instead of pain there is simply a tugging feeling. He alternates between watching his arm and watching Kurt’s face. It only takes a moment before Kurt’s skin starts to return to a more normal colour and Blaine feels the fist around his heart loosen at the sight.

He’s not sure how long Kurt feeds but eventually the tugging sensation disappears and he’s got an armful of Kurt. Kurt collapses against him, sobbing into his neck and clutching at his back.

Blaine brings his arms up and wraps them around Kurt’s neck. He’s forearm is still bleeding slightly but he doesn’t even notice as he holds on to Kurt for all he’s worth.

He’s not sure what tomorrow will bring but he’s here with Kurt right now and that’s what he’s going to focus on.

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Hey! Fics that are canon divergent takes on either of Klaine’s breakups?

The Awakening by LauGS

Kurt Hummel has put his perfect life together carefully, making sure all the pieces fit exactly how he wanted them to. But all it takes is one name from his past to make all his hard work go to waste - Blaine Anderson.

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The Journeying by @flowerfan2

Freshly graduated from music school, Blaine is thrilled when he is chosen to stay in the cast when the production of Into the Woods he was lucky enough to be part of in Boston moves to Broadway. He knows it’s going to be hard returning to New York City – the scene of his epic breakup with his fiancé and the emotional meltdown which cost him his place at NYADA. But he’s determined that this time, everything will be different. Little does Blaine know that out of thousands of potential castmates, his director has chosen none other than Kurt Hummel to play the part of Jack. Blaine has worked hard to recover from their breakup three years ago, and struggles to find a new way to relate to Kurt and simultaneously protect himself, especially when tragedy strikes.

This story looks at what would have happened if Kurt and Blaine had reacted differently to the break up in 6x01 than they did in canon; if events hadn’t brought them back together as soon, and if forgiveness hadn’t come so easily.

Canon compliant through the end of season 5 (and the breakup as described in 6x01).

Note: Part 1 of Woods series

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All I ever need is everything series by @damnpene

After years apart Kurt and Blaine have moved on from one another and built separate lives. Kurt is developing a quiet reputation off-Broadway. Blaine is a fledgling musical theatre writer and producer on the West Coast.

Then they reconnect - because of the music, because of the theater. Because of course they do.

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What I Call Life by warblerslushie

Kurt broke off the engagement and left Blaine. Three years later, Kurt’s at a strip club for his bachelor party and sees Blaine working. Blaine’s been working there and enduring uncomfortable glances and touches for a year to make sure that his son was properly cared for. MPREG. Based on a tumblr prompt from blangstpromptoftheday. MPREG

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Inevitable by mmerainbows

Canon to S4, but filler for what I would have liked to see actually happen regarding Blaine’s cheating.

Kurt thought he had reached the point where he could forgive Blaine, and move on with his own life, keeping Blaine as his best friend and nothing more. However, when the truth comes out about what happened, Kurt returns to Blaine to help him.

Happy Reading with a box of tissues! - HKVoyage

[genderless-consul]

Top 5 glee ships?

Straight to the live wire, huh?

Ok, so: 

1): Brittana - The fact that I really struggle to write them doesn’t change the fact that this is the one they got right, and I can still barely believe it to this day. The original joke in Season 1 was so obviously a throwaway lazy gag from a writing staff that consistently wrote women with absolute contempt, but Naya pushing them to take it seriously changed the course of the entire show. Their arc in Season Two is Glee at its absolute best (they even made Gwyneth Paltrow tolerable!), they have some really beautiful moments in Season 3 even if that whole season and Santana’s coming out arc in particular is kind of a disaster, and as much as we love to make fun of Santana’s gay panic in Season 4 (don’t act like it’s not highly relatable) even their break-up is legitimately beautiful - Naya turning Mine into a breakup song with nothing but her voice is the moment that cemented her as the GOAT Glee vocalist in my book (also Hand in My Pocket/I Feel the Earth Move is my second ranked mash-up of all time and I’m so angry the awful Santana/Kurt scene right after overshadowed it). And I have....complicated feelings about A Wedding as an episode (and we’ll get to that) but their part of it is absolutely everything it needed to be. “I would have suffered it all, just for the tiny chance to be standing up here marrying you.”

2): Faberry - No surprises here, except maybe that it’s not number one (canonicity was the tiebreaker, sadly). My favorite thing about Faberry is that there’s a million ways to ship them and all of them are great - obviously I’m more than onboard for an alt-version of Glee where theirs is the slow burn unlikely love story, but I also really love the tragedy you can read into them just from the canon, especially spinning out from the Quinntana one-night stand: that Quinn probably does have feelings for Rachel but either realizes it too late or just buries it out of self-loathing, and by the time she’s comfortable with herself the chance for storybook romance has already passed her by. Like seriously - if they had made that characterization explicit instead of retreating to the laziness of the Biff/Quick disasters in the anniversary episodes, I would have been just as happy with that as a Faberry endgame, both because the latter was always probably impossible given the centrality of Finchel to the show’s core structure and because Sad Flameout Lesbians deserve representation too, goddammit! And of course they’re a gold mine for fanworks, because there are so many “could have been” moments where their story has the chance the take a different direction, the best being their confrontation in Original Song: “you can’t hate me for helping to send you on your way” is the best use of Glee’s existential sadness since the Pilot. Oh, and their one and only duet is a fucking Red/Blue sequence and also one of the best songs on the entire show - enough said.

3): Finchel - My ultimate hot take, at least as someone from the Faberry side of the fandom, is that Finchel is Good, Actually. Keep in mind, I never watched Glee as it was airing, so I never experienced the frustration of Finchel’s inevitability; I knew from the very beginning that they weren’t going to get their happy ending. And as irritating as some of the on-again/off-again drama could be and as choppy as the pacing was at times, it really was one of the few relationships on Glee to be developed with consistent care and effort. I love that they have a genuine friendship and push each other to be the best versions of themselves (however inelegantly) even when they aren’t together, and the dynamic where the guy is the willing sidekick to the female protagonist and knows what they have might only be temporary was really refreshing to see, especially in a high school show. I’ll always be heartbroken that they couldn’t end it the way they were supposed to even if I wouldn’t have liked it, and they’re the reason the final scene of Season 3 makes me sob every time. 

4): Tike - The ultimate “THEY DESERVED BETTER” ship. And yes, I know it’s off-brand for me to put two m/f ships on the list, and yes, I know RBI basically had to make Tartie endgame as a courtesy to Kevin and Jenna for sticking it out until the absolute bitter end, but I’m still mad. Tina was always used as a joke, and Mike was never used at all, but when they were together they got the briefest taste of actual storylines, and they were so. goddamn. cute together. Sing! and L O V E aren’t the first Glee duets that most people think of, but they captured the magic of just being straight up in love with someone better than a lot of the more over-the-top numbers from other characters. And look, I don’t actually need my ships to stay together forever on a high school show (or any show), but given that they had the longest run as a continuous couple on the entire show I will never forgive RBI for using them as the one “no”in A Wedding in a disingenuous attempt to pretend they were at all interested in realism and weren’t just throwing bones to the fanbase. Like, I don’t know how to explain this to you, Ryan Murphy, but it’s not subverting expectations to kick the shit out of Tina one more time because THAT’S LITERALLY ALL YOU’VE EVER DONE WITH HER (Sorry, what was I talking about?)

5): Klaine - my ultimate love/hate ship, and the ultimate victim of Glee being consumed by its own hype machine. The initial arc - the staircase, Teenage Dream, Blackbird - was magical even at its corniest, and beats like the GAP Attack and Blame it on the Alcohol were desperately necessary moments of complication that kept Blaine’s character more interesting than “Kurt’s perfect boyfriend” (also, real quick, fuck Ryan Murphy’s biphobia). But the second Blaine transferred in Season 3 it became clear that they didn’t really have a plan for Klaine in the same way they did for Finchel - Blaine gets a different personality every single season, Kurt gets to a completely different place in his life that makes his inability to move on from Blaine really hard to buy, and Blaine as the New Rachel in 4/5 is every bit as insufferable as that conceit implies.  Even with all that, though, they kept winning me back, because Darren can sell the hell out of over the top cheese and Chris Colfer is the world’s greatest exasperated Straight Man (thinking especially of Teenage Dream Reprise and that absolutely batshit Beatles proposal, both of which worked for me way more than they should have).  I also weirdly like the messiness of late Season 5 Klaine - the episodes aren’t good, but I appreciate their willingness to confront how much of a terrible idea them living together at that stage of their life actually is, and they even managed to win me over to the idea that they would find a way to make it work anyway. But the Karofsky thing in Season 6 was just one reversal too far, and to get them back together again after that in the most contemptuous, smug, “nothing matters so just give the shippers what they want I guess” insincere way possible (I really hate The Hurt Locker, can you tell?) was the last straw for me, to say nothing of how disrespectful it was to Brittana and Klaine to have one couple’s  wedding coopted at the last moment by another so that it was no longer about them as characters but about how much Ryan Murphy has done for The Gays. So yeah, Klaine: My favorite canon ship that I wish didn’t actually end up together, at least not the way they did. But they were at their best when Glee was actually relevant and changed a lot of lives as a result, and that timing alone earns them a Top 5 spot. 

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Do you think the writers knew what they were doing with Klaine's second breakup? There's a lot of stuff that makes me think so. First we have the Breadstix scene with the lesbians who talk about breaking up and reuniting twice. Then all throughout S5, Klaine is supposedly engaged, but they don't do ANYTHING wedding-related. April also jokes about them being headed for an inevitable divorce. The more I think about it, the more it seems like the writers had planned this from the start.

Yes(-ish) 

This question is a little tricky because Cory going to rehab and then passing away was (obviously) not in the cards.  

At some point in the middle of season four, the show was renewed for a final two seasons.  Ryan Murphy, I believe, originally wanted a season 4 and season 5 of the show -- each with 30 episodes each (for the life of me, I don’t remember where I heard/read this).  He didn’t get that, because network TV doesn’t work like that, so he got his season 4, and then the 5/6 renewel.  

(As an aside - I think the larger seasons thing makes a lot of sense as to why we got season 4 the way it was -- it was being stretched out long before Cory went to rehab. And if you look at Season 4 being all the way to 5x13 - that’s 35 episodes.  And if you seasons five and six had been completely that’d be 31, so it’s an interesting thing to think about.  It is a terrible structure for TV, though.) 

At that point - the probably did map out some of the larger stories.  They definitely knew how Finchel was going to play out.  And probably knew some of the larger beats - like going to New York, and coming back home for a while. 

I do think the Jan and Liz scene was purposeful.  They were an older couple who had gone through a lot, and ended up happily ever after.  I think the break up twice/get back together twice was definitely a nod to where the show was headed.  They didn’t resolve all the issues of the season 4 break up with the proposal.  You’re right in that they laid little crumbs in season 5 -- just in the way that they actually did in season 3 that things would get rocky in the next season. 

I’d also like to point out that the Burt scene in Wonderful was prophetic as well -- about how you shouldn’t marry an idea but an actual person.  And I think that’s something Blaine learns through the second half of the series.  

It’s hard to say what the actual original plan was, though I’d be curious to know, though.  Interesting to think about! :) 

[todaydreambelieversfic]

Author Spotlight: Black John Lennon day 4

Day 4: Recs!

Please recommend 3 - 5 fics written by someone else.

The Luckiest by Wordplay

I think everyone in fandom has probably read this. One of the biggest signs for me that it is well written is how well it holds up despite being jossed. It still holds up now that we have the whole store. I have reread this fic so many times it’s not even funny. I love the use of the characters, Tina is amazing in this. It’s really a great look at how a Klaine breakup could have happened and really explores Kurt and Blaine’s canon flaws. It’s amazing and anyone who’s new to fandom really should check it out.

The characters are older, and more experienced and they’ve lived separately, they feel different from the characters we know, but still feel so much like themselves.

My favorite part, because I can’t write sexual tension this thick, which is why I write fluff. LOL

He’s watching them singing “Candles” to each other on the screen when Kurt feels Blaine’s hand come to rest over where his are folded. Blaine’s fingers are warm and calloused and gentle, and the tips of his fingers are sliding over the back of his hand, gliding down to follow the length of his fingers one-by-one and trace back up, and Kurt doesn’t know what this is but he follows the advice of the warm liquid of his belly and moves his hand closer to Blaine, letting it rest in the small space between them on the couch so that the backs of his fingers are curled against the side of Blaine’s thigh. He can’t bring himself to look at Blaine yet, but it’s okay because Blaine follows him back, turning his hand so that he can stroke lazy, drifting circles into Kurt’s palm, starting at the pads beneath his fingers and running down to trace over the bones of his wrist before spiraling back up, and god, his hands, and it’s a sweet reminder of Blaine drawing those same circles down his back so long ago, lazy in the afterglow the few times they’d been able to share a bed. Kurt’s whole hand feels sensitive, like every pore is trying to absorb Blaine and every hair is reaching out to understand, every square centimeter of his skin so aware of Blaine and the mystery of his thoughts. Every movement feels significant, laden and slow, and he sinks into the sofa so that when Blaine slides his fingers between Kurt’s own and rubs heavy and deliberate against the juncture of his fingers before looping their fingers together and sliding down until they are fingertip to fingertip, Kurt feels it in his dick and he can’t help it, he has to turn his head to look.

Blaine is staring at him, one cheek resting on the back of the sofa and the other lit by the TV, but his eyes are dark and his mouth is soft as their hands slot together palm to palm with fingers interlaced, Blaine’s thumb rubbing soft and steady over the side of his hand. There was a time after their breakup when they’d been so careful not to touch each other and that time has been over for a while, but Kurt’s still very aware of where the lines are, of what’s a friendly touch and what’s something else and this… this isn’t a hug or a pat on the shoulder or even perching on somebody’s lap when there aren’t enough chairs. This is deliberate, a statement of intent, and the look on Blaine’s face makes him want to brace for it.

Kurt can’t take it, it’s too intense, so he turns back to the television to watch without seeing and concentrate on the feeling of their hands. He’s almost 23 years old and the first boy who ever took his hand has taken it again, so sweetly, and it doesn’t seem to matter how much sex he’s had in the interim, how many ways he’s opened his body or seen others do the same for him, because he’s suddenly right back to 16, when hand-holding had seemed the most intimate thing two people could do, and he’s simultaneously terrified and desperate to feel and remember every moment of contact. It seems like such a chaste thing to him now, holding hands, and he hasn’t done all that much of it in the last couple years. But this is Blaine, and everything about the way he’s touching him feels intimate, sexual and exploratory, like when Blaine touches his hands, he’s thinking about touching him everywhere.

He looks back to see Blaine facing forward again. It’s funny – they’ve known each other for so long, they still know so much about each other, but right now all that means is that he can see the trouble etched across Blaine’s brow and at the corners of his eyes and mouth, but he can only guess at the cause. He squeezes Blaine’s hand and rubs his thumb across his knuckles just once, and Blaine turns back to face him.

He hears the music change just as their eyes meet again in the low light and the moment feels pregnant with possibility. Kurt feels heavy with it, his body boneless and pressed into the cushions with the relief of inevitability and the promise of this man’s body on his. Blaine holds his eyes, and Kurt can see his lips purse lazily into a soundless whisper of his name and his mouth is still so beautiful. He’s thinking about leaning over to taste it, just to see, when everybody bursts out laughing and he hears David say, “oh, man, I can’t believe Blaine is missing this,” and the moment is shattered.

Nothing’s So Loud - Glassparade

Not only is this 90s!Klaine, but it’s an AU of one of my all time favorite movies, Say Anything. Blaine is Lloyd Dobler, Kurt is Diane Court, I am a happy camper. But this fic is also what brought my to tumblr. It was posted on the Kurt_Blaine community on Livejournal, and I was just coming out of my shell and starting to talk to more people. I struck up a friendship with Lissa, the author of the fic, and she’s the person who convinced me to give tumblr a try. She was also very encouraging of me writing fic myself.

If you haven’t seen Say Anything, I highly recommend it, it’s a classic for a reason. There are liberties taken, to fit the characters. I’ve never been a huge fan of Quinn, but her character here is beautiful. And her friendship with Blaine really makes me wish we’d had that in canon.

Choosing a favorite part is tough, but I’m going to go with one that is very similar to the movie, but still so Blaine.

Before he could reach his destination, though, they were both intercepted – Kurt by Rachel Berry, who smiled and whisked him off, and Blaine by a guy with shaggy blond hair falling into his eyes. “Hey. Sam Evans,” the newcomer introduced himself, sticking his hand out to be shaken. “Great party, right?”

“Uh, yeah…” Blaine replied, mystified.

“So, listen, I know we don’t really know each other, but I had to know.” Sam’s eyes were earnest in his curiosity. “You’re here with Kurt Hummel? Like, with him?”

Blaine frowned, hoping there wasn’t about to be a problem. “Yeah…”

But Sam only leaned in to whisper, licking his lips. “So how’d you do it? How’d you get the elusive Kurt Hummel to go out with you?”

“I called him up and asked him, like everyone does,” Blaine answered with a shrug. Sam’s eyes grew wider, and he shook his bangs away to gawk a bit more.

“Yeah, but, like, how? What are you, dude?”

“I…” Blaine wasn’t sure how to respond. “I’m Blaine Anderson, man.”

Angel in a Red Vest by dontbefancy

Fireman!Blaine became a huge trope at one point and while I enjoy all of them, this one is my favorite. I think Blaine’s little boy has something to do with it. Kids in fic can often be written as too smart, too good, too wise for their age, very rarely are they age appropriate. But this little boy is written so well. He’s a fully fledged character who tantrums and misbehaves and is adorable. And the relationship between Kurt and Blaine and the idea of Kurt trying to decide if kids are a deal breaker for him or not, despite how much he feels for Blaine is so real.

My favorite part is Kurt really experiencing what it’s like to have a young child and in the realest way possible.

Kurt got up and slipped on the other pair of underwear on the floor, grateful it was his because Blaine’s would never fit over his ass, and went to the hall until it hit him.

The smell.

The sound of the whining, sniveling mess of a boy in the room being carried, face out into the bathroom.

The sight. The vomit covering Adrian’s bed when he peeked in to avoid seeing the volcano erupt again as Blaine barely got him into the bathroom.

“I’ll…shit. I’ll get the sheets.”

“Thank you…oh, honey. It’s okay. It’s okay.”

Kurt ignored the disgusting noises coming from the bathroom and gulped, piling everything from Adrian’s bed into the middle and pulling up the corners of the sheets, heading to the basement. “Quick, toss his nightshirt up here.” Somehow he caught the soiled shirt on the sheet pile and got everything downstairs, throwing it all into the laundry as if it were nuclear waste. “Dear god, I hate kids.”

Until he went upstairs. Until he saw Adrian, ragged and dark eyed and stumbling back to his bed, now haphazardly covered with a blanket that looked well-loved and over-worn. Adrian’s horrible behavior became clear and all Kurt wanted to do was make it better for the little man. “You okay?”

“I frewed up.”

“I noticed. What can I get you?”

“Daddy’s getting ice chips. Maybe a hug?”

“How about another nightshirt, too?”

“Oh my goodness.” Kurt dug in Adrian’s drawer and jumped when Adrian coughed, afraid another eruption might happen. “Kurt? Can you get…there’s an orange one with a flower on it?”

“This one?” Kurt pulled out a faded t-shirt, complete with a few holes and barely-there flower, smiling sympathetically when Adrian’s smile wasn’t capable of reaching his eyes.

“It’s Mommy’s.”

“The perfect hug for when you’re sick.” Kurt wiggled it onto Adrian’s head, guiding his arms through the over-sized holes and holding him close for a few moments before helping him get settled into his pillows. “Need another blanket for on top?”

“Yes. I’m cold. And I’m sorry.”

“For what?”

“For being a big old meanie head.”

“Well, now I know you didn’t feel good, buddy. It’s okay.” He kissed Adrian’s hot temple and rubbed his hair, smiling when Adrian moaned into the touch.

“You’re not my mommy, but Kurt?”

“Yes?”

“You make me feel good like she did.” He sighed as though the weight of the world rested on his shoulders. “You hug like her.”

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Stuck In Second Gear

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/2Uhg7ep

by Imogen_LeFay

“Just because your wedding was a mistake, doesn’t mean your marriage has to be.”

For four years, Blaine tries. Through good times and bad, sickness and health, he tries. And for four years, a piece of paper with a number he knows by heart, is burning a metaphorical hole into his pocket, reminding him of options and safety and chances. It takes four years until what was inevitable from the beginning.

“Sebastian… I’d like to make my phone call.”

Words: 3663, Chapters: 1/6, Language: English

Series: Part 2 of I'll Be There For You

Fandoms: Glee

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Blaine Anderson, Kurt Hummel, Sebastian Smythe, Cooper Anderson, Rachel Berry

Relationships: Blaine Anderson/Sebastian Smythe, Blaine Anderson/Kurt Hummel

Additional Tags: Future Fic, Cooper Anderson & Sebastian Smythe Friendship, Eventual Klaine Breakup

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Finding Kurt Hummel: Goodbye

Masterpost

3x22: Goodbye

On the flip side of things - we have an episode that a lot of people really don’t like, and I kind of enjoy, actually.  Sure the last ten minutes are super frustrating, and yet, like five minutes are spent with Finchel discussing chair choices for their wedding, but I think it’s nice, and far more entertaining than a lot of what’s been coming before it recently.  It gives all the seniors a moment to shine, and closes up the first half of the show in a way that really does seem adequate for the first half of the show.  

Forever Young

It seems a little weird for a show that’s only been on the air for three years to be this nostalgic about itself.  But the sentimentality, which I realize is only found on TV - as most people are more than happy to leave their high school years behind, seems appropriate for this episode.  It’s not just about the seniors leaving, it’s the fact that the show is really a different show after this, as we move on to what is essentially a mash-up of Glee: The Next Generation and Glee: The College Years.  So, bring on the flash backs of the pilot.  

There’s really no reason for them to be singing this again -- but it’s adorable, and if anything, we get to see how much taller Kurt has grown! And to think, this really is only the half way point of the series. 

So -- even though this episode feels and functions a lot like a series finale (Glee had a handful of episodes that do this from here until the actual series finale), there are some plot lines that don’t have a steadfast resolution -- and one of them is Klaine.  There’s a dangling thread of worry placed over this episode, mostly coming from Blaine’s direction, as every time the word senior is mentioned, he freaks out.  

And dear Kurt, look at him, he just adores Blaine to pieces, and really isn’t worried about their upcoming separation as well.  Which are the seeds, that have been really planted all year when you look for them, of the upcoming breakup we’re gonna get in season 4.  Cause here’s me overly simplifying the situation.  Blaine, at this point, has too little faith that his relationship is going to work out.  Kurt, on the other hand, has too much faith.  They have so, so much growing from this point, so much to learn about love and relationships and growing up, but we’re on the edge here of a lot of messiness that makes their relationship all the more meaningful once we get on the other side of it.  

As for this particular scene itself -- I think Will has some letting go issues he might need to work on as he over romanticizes this particular group, lol.  But no -- it’s a nice moment, and it’s interesting that this kind of set up is going to come back in the actual series finale.  Everyone is wistful because yes, things are going to change, and you never do go back to what you once were. 

Kurt’s Vignette

Kurt:  When I first got to McKinley, I was afraid to make eye contact. I didn't talk about my politics, I didn't share what was in my heart I oh, let's just call the Cadillac pink and be done with it. I was in the closet. And most days, I was also in the Dumpster. But McKinley has made me a stronger, more socially conscious, fashion-forward person. And perhaps I played some small part in making it possible for tadpole gays all over Lima to be themselves in public. Not a bad legacy for someone who once pretended to be in lust with Rachel Berry so I wouldn't have to date Mercedes Jones. Now if can just get through the next few days without turning into a hot mess teary train wreck.

Something that I think is neat about this episode is that each of the seniors get their own little segment and Kurt gets to kick the whole thing off.  As he glides down the hallway (literally -- they have him on a moving track or something), we get his inner monologue about how far he’s coming from when he started high school: he was getting thrown in dumpsters, he was really in the closet, and he was pretending to have a crush on Rachel to get out of dating Mercedes.  And look how far this bb has come.  

I mean, he waves at a basketball player as he walks by, a neat little touch, that Kurt’s much more accepted than he ever was at McKinley.  He’s even grateful for all his luck because he can even inspire those McKinley tadpole gays.  (And how cute that they actually show the tadpoles.) 

Kurt’s sentimentality is interesting to me.  Because right in the moment, I can see where he’s feeling it -- reflective that high school sucked for most of the time he’s been there, but his senior was actually really good.  And I mean, think about it as someone who does not know what’s coming up -- during Kurt’s senior year he’s not getting beaten up, he has a good relationship with his dad, he has a boyfriend, whom he spends a majority of his time with, whom he loves, and whom he has sex with, he has a great group of friends (especially Mercedes and Rachel), and a brother whom he adores, his show choir just won nationals, and he feels he has good future prospects ahead.  In a way -- he’s in a better place then the end of season 2 (but why did that feel more hopeful?).  

Interesting, though, that I think the sentimentality is in the moment.  There’s an interview done by Chris Colfer where when asked about Kurt and future high school reunions Chris stated explicitly that Kurt would be no where to found.  And I do feel that to be generally true.  He’s feeling love for this place because change and growth and optimism, but down the line, I think the moment passes. 

So -- Burt is waiting for Kurt in the auditorium.  And I love the little exchange at the beginning about what Burt can give Kurt as gifts -- because it shows that Burt still doesn’t get his son a lot of the time, but they’re different people than they were, and love each other despite those differences.  

And we get this nice little moment of reflection -- where Burt talks about raising Kurt as a kid, and how it can be hard for a parent when that kid stops being generic kid and starts being themselves.  But the cool thing is they were able to figure it out.  (And how adoring Kurt is -- he loves his dad so much.  I’m not usually one for family stories, but I love this one.) 

So Burt has a unique way of gift giving as we’ll see....  

Oh, the looks on Kurt’s face as he realizes what his dad is doing -- a recreation of the Single Ladies dance, completely with Tina and Brittany.  And it is pretty priceless.  I’m guess they didn’t tell (or show) Chris before filming -- because this seems like pretty genuine laughter from Kurt throughout this whole thing.  

We also get lots of flashbacks to the original Single Ladies dance, as a fun reminder, and a way to show just how much Kurt has come.  But it’s interesting, this is only the half way mark.  We still have a lot more Kurt story, and a lot more growing up for him to do.  

Looking to the Future while Missing the Present

So, next we get our only real Klaine scene in the episode.  And I remember at the time that it felt a little frustrating that we didn’t get, well, more.  And -- I mean after a season of looks and glances and not a whole lot of promise, it’s hard to take.  But -- as I look back at the whole picture, I do understand more of what the writers were going with here.  Because this particular episode is about endings, and changes.  And while Klaine is definitely going to get it’s own change (and more Klaine thoughts in a second), their story isn’t ending - not by a long shot.  In fact, I’d argue we’re right in the middle of it, where the fairy tale is going to turn into a story about growing up and becoming a real couple.  

So -- First of all, we get Kurt talking about how awesome his dad’s gift was -- and Blaine’s reminds him that he, too, got Kurt a gift, which Kurt dismisses.  So, there’s a clue... Blaine wants to then talk about the future, because they haven’t been talking about /that/.  And Kurt’s pretty dismissive about that, too.  But here’s where Kurt’s just not paying attention -- because Blaine is pretty much bracing himself for the fact that his relationship is over.  He’s been incredibly insecure, arguably, since the beginning of the second semester, and considers the end of the relationship inevitable.  (Hence my earlier comment that Blaine doesn’t have enough faith in his own relationship.  There are other Blainey elements in this, too, but that’s for another discussion.) 

Meanwhile, Kurt just doesn’t really get it.  He doesn’t even want to get it.  To him, he’s got his entire future planned out -- they’ll eventually both be in New York, they’ll have careers and eventual marriage (at age 30) and grow old together and live in a home where they’ll bicker like the old married couple that they are.  He has no worries about the state of their relationship.  And /that/ is the problem.  He is kind of blind to the fact that Blaine’s kinda downward spiraling (or I may argue, intentionally ignoring the signs).  

And all those promises he keeps making -- that they’ll be fine, that they’ll be together forever, that Kurt’s always going to love him -- may be a band-aide for the moment, but aren’t going to stop the bad things from happening to his relationship.  Because relationships are hard work, yo, and Kurt’s not putting in the time right now.  And in a way that is understandable.  There are things in life going on that take his attention away like college and moving and it’s nice to cling onto something supposedly stable.  But you know, talk to your boyfriend, Kurt! 

Meanwhile -- something I’d like to address going into season 4.  Both Kurt and Blaine, being characters who are coming from this fairy tale romance stage, throughout the next few seasons have an issue of idealizing the other one.  Blaine holds onto Kurt as this kid whom he saved, and as someone who in turn saved him.  Kurt holds on to Blaine as this picture perfect boyfriend, the white knight he met at the foot of the stairs.  The problem is, despite being fictional characters, Kurt and Blaine are real people and not living in a fairy tale, (though they are in a happily ever after musical, lol, I’m digressing.)  The neat thing is that I think by the time we get to season 6, and get through most of this mess, the two of them like each other for their faults and all -- and I think that’s pretty cool. 

And that’s not to discredit the foundation they have at this point (something that gets them through all those hard times).  They are two kids who genuinely like each other as well as love each other.  They do understand each other, even if they have the worst communication problems.  And their love is very much real, even if some times relying on just love to get them through is a pratfall that befalls on them.  

I also want to give a shout-out to the ‘Never Say Goodbye’ moment.  It’s the one promise Kurt never breaks, and while it is an intentional throwback to another iconic Klaine moment (a Klaine moment about change, interestingly), I kind of love this one.  Glee v.1 might be nearing it’s end, but Klaine is never over. 

All of this reminds me -- I always wanted to write an Old Man Klaine fanfic about Kurt chattering away to some caretaker about Blaine, as Blaine yells about J-Lo in the background, lol. 

I��ll Remember

So. Okay.  We get into what may be my least favorite Kurt solo.  And, it’s partly because I’m just not a fan of the Madonna song (though, ha Madonna seems such a good Kurt choice).  But the context here bugs me a little. 

Kurt dedicates this song to all the men in this room.  And you know what -- seriously? This feels like just another moment for the writers to throw in their commentary on masculinity instead of giving Kurt a real character moment.  Yes, the part of the line that says: it doesn’t matter that we’re gay or straight, it matters that you saw me as the same -- is a poignant piece of writer, especially as Chris cries those pretty tears.  

But the whole thing seems incredibly hollow.  Sure, Finn has made an impact, and that is important.  I’ll even give minor credit to Sam for not being an asshole, and even lesser credit to Mike, even though they have no relationship.  But Artie? Joe? Rory? Really? And then Puck?  Kurt’s never had a good relationship with Puck.  Not to mention the last few episode Puck has bonding with Blaine, and still making vaguely homophobic comments.  So, I don’t buy this moment Glee, I don’t.  

Wait -- does Will count in this? God I hope not. 

Meanwhile -- those in that room who’ve supported him a lot? (Blaine seems really excluded during this) Those are the girls -- Mercedes, Rachel, Tina, Brittany, eventually Santana.  I mean, even he and Quinn have shared some nice background moments.  I can go for giving the whole Glee club a sentimental speech, but singling out the guys? Ug, whatever Glee. 

Okay -- for the song itself.  I may not be a fan of the aesthetics of the actual song, I do think it’s an appropriate choice for Kurt here -- and Chris sounds lovely as he always does on it. 

And I'll remember the love that you gave me Now that I'm standing on my own I'll remember the way that you changed me I'll remember

I like this -- I like the acknowledgement of growing up, and how Kurt’s changed, but he knows he’s a better person because he’s had this group of friends.  It’s a really nice thought.  

Inside I was a child That could not mend a broken wing Outside I looked for a way To teach my heart to sing

OMG! I never knew there was bird analogy in this! What’s our Klaine-bird score now? Lol.  But, yeah, wow Kurt -- feeling broken inside, and how long did it take Kurt to let people in, to let other people help heal him?

No I've never been afraid to cry Now I finally have a reason why I'll remember (I'll remember)

Ha! How very Kurt.  But also -- this is very much Kurt saying goodbye, too (as insinuated by the earlier Klaine scene).  And while it’s sad -- Kurt’s going to look back fondly, and dare I say, pretty okay with moving forward in his life. 

The Pact

Hey Kurt and Finn are talking to each other by the lockers.  I don’t think they’ve had any kind of conversation since The Spanish Teacher.  It’s a little bit a shame they didn’t do more with the brotherly aspect of their relationship. 

So, Rachel bops along to let them know their college letters will be there soon.  (I’m going to skip over the fact that this is not how college acceptance letters work, since most people have replies by January, but whatever, Glee.)  They make a pact to go open them in the choirvroom.  They even pinky swear!

Now that I think about it, this scene is kind of unnecessary narratively, but I’ll take it over the cut yearbook scene where Rachel claims Kurt as her soul mate.  (Ug, don’t get me started.) 

FWIW -- there’s a deleted scene featuring Mike Chang, too - cause he doesn’t really get a vignette in this.  Check it out on youtube, it’s nice. 

And Other Stories

So -- the seniors all take a moment and sing You Give What You Get to the underclassmen.  And, it’s kind of a bittersweet moment as each of them take a moment to say goodbye to their friends.  Like -- all of the friendships/relationships between senior and non-senior are non-verbally touched upon here, and it’s kind of neat. 

Klaine is very much a background entity at this point.  I mean, there’s the cute moment where Kurt mimes reeling in Blaine like a fish, and they dance together a little bit, and kind of half hug and whatnot.  

But then there’s this moment -- and it’s so blink and you’ll miss but I think it’s a little fascinating.  By the end of the song, the seniors have all traded places with the underclassmen, and Kurt and Blaine exchange this look.  It’s this kind of wistful, okay here we go, we have to do this now look.  It’s a little heartbreaking, cause now it’s not just Blaine who’s sad, Kurt’s feeling it a little, too. 

Aaaand then we get Finchel arguing about chairs, lol.  Oh this episode....

I completely forgot that In My Life was a dedication to Finn.  C’mon, writers, stop, it’s a little gratuitous at this point. 

Meanwhile, my god, there are a lot of shared looks between Kurt and Blaine this episode.  I mean, I’ll take them all, but this might be the episode with most shared across the room looks.  And, oh Blaine, he’s just about to lose it.  Kurt’s all smiling and loving at him, though. 

And note, it’s a nice touch that they do the whole Klaine thing when they’re singing this line: 

But of all these friends and lovers There is no one compares with you

So -- this is Quinn’s sequence, which I won’t be talking much about -- just that she considers this group of people friends! And that includes Kurt, who pleasantly waves at her as she passes.  Man, there’s a whole lot of untapped Kurt/Quinn friendship stories to be told. 

Also, things that strike me as kinda weird -- during the Quinn/Puck hook up scene, the Klaine scene plays in the background.  Weird - did they not have other music to put there? Because that’s most definitely Klaine’s theme -- you played it earlier in the episode.  Give it back!

It’s a little weird to me, but not to Glee because Glee logic says it makes sense, that all the seniors are waiting for Puck’s test to see if he passed.  And he did.  And Kurt goes and hugs the teacher, lol.  I wonder if that was a Chris idea.  That feels like a Chris idea. 

Graduation

It’s now time for that graduation photo op! 

So the graduation pecking order is from least important to most important according to Glee logic.  Sorry Mike Chang :/ 

Oh Kurt, and your glorious high kick entrance.  <3 

So this is, like, a spouse moment.  I mean, c’mon, it so is.  Kurt’s a mess, and Blaine hands him a handkerchief, and has him dry his eyes before his moment.  I mean -- yeah.  I love it so much.  

Aww, I love Kurt and his little bow once he graduates.  And Burt’s in the audience being a proud papa.  What a sweet little moment. 

Coda

So -- you know how all throughout season 3 I’ve been whining about the NYADA story line? It’s because of this moment right here -- the moment that Kurt does NOT get into NYADA.  

The thing that really infuriates me about it, the reason they kept giving Kurt all of those highs, that moment with dad when he gets his acceptance letter, that awesome audition sequence, was because knew they were doing this.  And they did this so that Rachel could go to New York by herself. KURT’S ENTIRE COLLEGE STORY LINE WAS SET UP SO THAT RACHEL COULD WIN!!! And that is why I have issues with the writing of Hummelberry during this season (and next).  

Cause I mean yeah, while it’s shody a bit, Kurt is going to get the /better/ story line overall, where he gets to be a complete character and not have everything handed to him.  But yeah - I remember how pissed everyone was at this moment.  And I can still feel it.  Because it’s not just the sting of not getting in.  It’s the sting of feeling like we were set up.  And it is infuriating.  Sorry bb, you’re a sidekick in someone else’s show.  At least the next three seasons do untangle this knot a little. 

So, Rachel gets into NYADA -- and Finn can at least feign his happiness.  Kurt’s a little: well fuck this shit.  Yup, I’m with ya, kiddo. 

The Rachel vignette though is seriously the worst.  Oh no, all my dreams have come true but I shall martyr myself because my boyfriend and my best friend aren’t as wonderful as I am. God, shut up Rachel. 

(I don’t hate Rachel -- but I’m not going to like her for a while.) 

The Unbearable Heaviness of Finchel. 

I am going to take a quick second and talk about Finchel.  Yes, I know this car scene is problematic -- and yes, Finn should not be making choices for Rachel.  I’m totally agreed with that criticism.  But man, there is something vindicating to seeing her actually have to confront an issue she has no control over.  It’s frustrating that Rachel’s good things often times are handed to her by the writers -- so I’m kind of welcoming of this little scene, tbh. 

You know what, now that I think of it, I’m guessing the original ending of the series was the inverse of this scene, where they finally get back together for good.  Huh.  Anyway -- despite the fact that the ten minute Finchel end of this episode is irritating, and kind of dismissive of all the rest of the characters, it is pretty well acted. 

Anyway -- here we are at the end -- and while I’m totally on team group song, I can see why the writers went this way.  Rachel’s saying goodbye and going off to New York, and this chapter of the show has ended.  So, it’s one last goodbye at the train station as everything spins in, well pardon my expression, new directions. 

Idk -- it seemed like a good shot, tbh.  So yeah, while there’s nothing else for Kurt here, except trying his best to be a good friend to Rachel, we leave Kurt here in Lima for, what is probably, a kind of hard summer.  

And so ends season 3, and the show as we know it - for better and worse I suppose.  Because yeah, everything after this is different as the series really won’t be the same one after this.  

So -- goodbye season 3. It’s been fun.  I would say I’m going to miss you, but no.  I really won’t.