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Dear Wally,
We didn't really understand when you said all of you existed because of us, but we hope we loving you mean something and can make you as happy as you made us. You're a sort of comfort for us, and the hope the best for you. We really love you, even when we may not know much about you, but your gentle manner, your pretty face, your adorable and charming personality was more than enough to make us adore you a whole lot. We're sorry if our presence cause some disruption, you Don have to dedicate your life around a friend like us, even when it means a lot when you care so much about us. Please remember we love you for you, not just because of what you can give us or can do for us. We just want you to be happy and safe, all of us do, all of us share the sentiment, so it's okay if you see all of us as 1 Neighbor, 1 You.
We love you a lot, sorry for if it sound repetitive, but we really mean it. We tried to draw you, we hope you like it?
#in this case i guess i can re-use the little drawings i was requested to do :)#i hope you don't mind!#but as an artist himself I think he'd love it#especially from you :)#welcome home dreamscape au
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BakaPandyâs FAQ
Hi, Iâm Pandy, welcome to my tumblr! I thought Iâd make a little post about me and some frequently asked questions I get. Please read this before sending me an ask!
ABOUT ME
Who are you?
Iâm BakaPandy, but you can call me Pandy! Pronouns are she/her/hers. Iâm 27 years old and I draw for fun or whatever catches my fancy.
Where are you from?
USA
Do you draw professionally?
No, I draw as a hobby. I work in the medical field.
(While Iâm glad people are interested in what I do, Iâd rather if you donât ask me questions about it as I would like to keep my professional life private and separate from fandom)
How did you come up with your username?
I was a 11 yo weeb in the 2000s - early 2010s where everything had âbakaâ or âkawaiiâ or âsugoiâ, etc. The name bakapandy stuck from way back then and has become a bit of a brand and changing it is just too much effort.Â
How can I support you as an artist?
I have a Ko-Fi!
Reblogs are always the best. And feel free to comment! I love reading comments, replies, and tags. They always make my day.
Unfortunately, I donât have the time to take commissions, but I do appreciate any sort of support!
ABOUT MY ART
Do you take commissions or requests?
Currently, no. Since I have limited time to draw because of school, Iâd prefer to spend it drawing something that I want to draw. I do read suggestions and ideas if they end up in my inbox but I can not promise that I will draw it.Â
Where did you learn to draw?
Iâm self-taught. Lots and lots of admiring other peopleâs work and practicing a ton.
When did you start drawing/How long have you been drawing?
Iâve loved to draw all my life, but I got invested when I was about 10 when I truly dedicated time and effort into improving. So I guess itâs going on 17 years now.
What do you use to draw?
I use an 11in iPad pro, apple pencil, and Clip Studio Paint iOS
Iâve previously used a Wacom intuos, but switched over to the ipad pretty much exclusively a couple years ago
Can I use your art for my profile pic?
You can use my art for icons, phone and desktop wallpapers for YOUR OWN USE ONLY without asking me, though Iâd really appreciate if youâd credit me if you use it in a public domain.Â
Can I share your artwork on other sites?
No, please donât repost my artwork anywhere else. You can always link to my blog or the page of the drawing (if thereâs a thumbnail involved that automatically generated, then thatâs fine), BUT PLEASE DONâT RE-UPLOAD ANYTHING. Share my work with whatever function is given to you on the site (reblogs for Tumblr, retweets for Twitter, etc.) so that it comes DIRECTLY FROM ME. I really appreciate your cooperation for this.
Can I translate your work?
The ONLY exception I make for reposting my artwork is for translation purposes. I donât require you to ask me, but I would you appreciate it if you did. Iâd also love to see it!Â
PLEASE DO NOT REMOVE MY SIGNATURE AND PLEASE CREDIT ME AS THE ARTIST AND AUTHOR IF YOU DO.Â
Where else can I find your art?
I have a Twitter and Instagram
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Will you ever draw Free!/sourin again?
Honestly, I donât know. I loved Free! and SouRin for so long but my creative energy for them fizzled out and I just donât have anymore ideas...maybe when I finally see Final Stroke, Iâll make something?
Who are your favorite Naruto characters?
In case you couldnât tell from my art content, I love the Sand-Nara family. Gaara has always been my favorite since I was in middle school.
Who do you ship with Gaara?
No one. I headcanon him as aro/ace.
What do you think about Gaara ships?
Theyâre not my cup of tea but people can ship what they want. Go live your best lives.
What about Boruto ships?
I donât ship the kids. I just like them all being cute and friends.Â
Recently, though, I got into Konohamaru X Log lmao.
Please note that Log is an adult and I consider him separate person to Mitsuki. I do not ship or endorse KonoM*itsu in any way, shape, or form. They are not the same people and have entirely different personalities.Â
Do you have ANY ships in Naruto?
Pretty much only ShikaTema is the one Iâm the most invested in. I follow along with the canon ships (e.g. NaruHina, SasuSaku, ChoKarui) but I have no particularly strong feelings for or against them.
Other ships I enjoy in passing: KakaGai, NejiTen, SaiIno, NejiLee
Do you have a Naruto OC?
I have one OC and her name is Kotori, and sheâs Shinkiâs daughter haha. Sheâs a joint OC with my friend @bichobolitagaarashusband
Usually though, I prefer to stick to canon characters, relationships, and dynamics
Do you not like Naruto OCs?
They typically donât really interest me so I donât really engage with them. But people can do what they want and Iâm not going to criticize them for it. I have Kotori and tbh I really only interact with one OC mostly bc he belongs to my friend haha
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Hi, hope youre well. Can I please request a scenario for shu, ayato, subaru, ruki, kou, yuma and shin when they see their S/O being pecked on the cheek by a boy. Its her brother but they don't know. And then they get super mad and when she comes home they confront her. She wants to tease them so she says 'yeah, I cheated on you' and then they explode. Like maybe ayato would force a kiss or two and ruki would start to punish her. And then she says 'I cheated on u with my brother.'
Marisol: I only do scenarios for up to six characters at a time, and these turned out to be super long, so I randomly picked 3 characters (Shu, Kou and Shin). If you want to see some others you can re-request!
Also your friendly reminder that forcing a kiss on someone is sexual assault and I donât condone that.
SHU
You didnât have to make much effort to see that Shu was absolutely fuming. As soon as your brother had pecked you on your cheek, heâd tensed up and immediately retreated back to the car, eyes closed and body turned away from you. As stupid as you were, though, you couldnât resist teasing him a little.
âWho was that man.â Shu said monotonously. His tone screamed danger at you, but the words came out of your mouth before you could help yourself.
âMy secret lover.â You replied casually, unable to stop yourself from smirking.
Shuâs eyes open, and in that moment, he snapped. You went from sitting on the plush car seating to being pushed down on top of it, Shu hovering menacingly over you.
âIs that so?â He breathed, blue eyes boring into your soul. âI can tell when youâre lying. Do you want me to draw the truth out of you, you pervert?â
Your pulse skyrocketed when you felt his fingers stroke down the column of your neck, pushing at the buttons of your school uniform, steadily popping them open, all the while resolutely maintaining eye contact. Heat rushing to your cheeks, you gripped Shuâs wrist, stopping him in his tracks.
âItâs my brother,â you gasped out. âIâm not cheating on you.â
In a flash, Shu vanished from atop you, returning to his seat in the corner of the car. He smirked, looking unusually smug. You sat up, hoping you didnât look as dishevelled as you felt.
âKnew it. You smell the same.â He grinned, before his gaze flickered down to your chest then back up again. âNice bra, by the way.â
You flushed and kicked him. Guess thatâs what you got for trying to tease a vampire.
KOU
Thanks to Kouâs lifestyle as a globally famous idol, you had long become accustomed to women fawning over him. All sorts of inane gifts turned up backstage addressed to him - cat ears, heartfelt declarations of love, heck, even used panties. You rarely ever complained, but when a package with your name on it and a bunch of pink roses turned up at the Mukami mansion, you were pleasantly surprised.
âWhatâs this, M-Neko-chan?â Your boyfriend suddenly hugged you from behind, lips brushing your ear as you picked up the bouquet.
You knew better than to take it as a simple display of affection, however - he way he clung to you was harsh, almost restrictive, and his tone of voice had a perceptibly territorial edge. When you peeled off the packaging to reveal a picture frame of you and another man in black robes, his lips pressed to your cheek, his nails dug into your skin.
âWow, whoâs this?â He practically growled into your ear, fangs brushing the side of your neck dangerously. âIs there someone that my pet wants to introduce me to?â
âYes, actually.â You hummed, trying not to shiver at the press of those two sharp points into your skin. âMy younger brother. This was his college graduation. Heâs a fan of yours, actually.â
Kou paused. You couldnât help but grin, twisting in his arms to press your lips to his, albeit at an awkward angle. âWere you jealous, baby?â
âWatch it, M-Neko-chan, unless you want to be punished.â Kou nipped at your ear, but the tension in his arms had faded. âYouâd better come and give me a proper kiss, right now!!â
Laughing, you grabbed his face in your hands. âThereâs no one else I love but you, Kou.â
âOf course. Who wouldnât love someone as great as me?â Kou replied as he grabbed at your hips, but the way you smiled at his pink cheeks only made him more embarrassed.
SHIN
Shin didnât take even his own beloved brother approaching you very well, so when he saw you leaving an unfamiliar apartment block and being pecked on the cheek by a man he didnât know, his blood was instantly boiling. As soon as the other human went back inside, his fingers closed around your bicep in a bruising grip and dragged you, yelping, into an alleyway.
âShin,â you said angrily, trying to jerk your arm away from him, âwhat the hell are you doing?â
You were cut off as soon as your boyfriend pressed you hard against the wall, wincing when the brick scraped roughly against the back of your head. When you made eye contact the pure rage in his gaze had you taken aback; Shin might not always be rational, but he didnât flip out on you for no reason.
âYou really have the guts to betray a Founder, human?â He snarled, wolflike, through gritted teeth. âAnd with a mortal? He is nothing compared to me. If he has so much as touched you Iâll tear him limb from limb-â
âShin!â You interrupt, palms coming to press against his chest. His threats did spark concern in you, but his jealous expression - well, it was new, and you were trying your hardest not to laugh in case it further stoked his rage. âShin, calm down. Thatâs my brother. Heâs just moved here with his wife. I came here to meet them.â
As if some kind of spell had broken, the tension in Shinâs face immediately deflated, his jaw dropping slack. A pink flush began to spread across his chest, not quite reaching his cheeks (maybe he hadnât had enough blood recently?), but his grip on you sagged all the same.
âI knew that, human.â He mumbled. âDefinitely knew that.â
You ruffled his hair, grinning cheekily. âLetâs go home. Iâll give you a treat to make up for not telling you.â
âDonât touch me, human.â He scowled, but when your boyfriend turned, your smile only widened when you saw how hard his tail was wagging.
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RNM After Dark, Day 2!
Today's story is... different. Medical kink, lab sex, milking machines, barebacking, comeplay... it's a real mixed bag. Definitely rated Explicit. 6883 Words.
Here's a link to the story on AO3!
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"Compromised by a Foreign Body"
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Alex knew the way they were going about it was wrong. No matter how many times his father told him the aliens were nothing more than violent, seditious predators from another world, it never sat right. But, when it was time to do his duty, Alex had stepped into line. Heâd even managed to pull his best friend, Liz Ortecho, into working in the biomedical lab for Project Shepherd. Being a Manes meant that even in what should be a strict, military hierarchy, Alex was a prince. So he made his own job, helped out where he wanted, and tried to not think about the things heâd done or seen when he went home at night.
âAlex, can you help me with the specimen extraction this week? Iâm really behind on some notations from last weekâs experiments. It would be a great help to me,â Liz said one afternoon. Heâd been aimless all day, simply walking around the base to look busy but without an actual task. His stomach clenched, however, at the request. Specimen extraction brought him into very close contact with aliens, and there was one whose eyes never seemed to stay on the ground where they belonged. There was one whose eyes followed him, seeming to see through his fatigues and tracing every line of his body underneath.
âThe females and males?â Alex asked, clearing his throat to get rid of his nerves. Liz gave him a curious look at the show of anxiety. She knew him well. She could tell this wasnât something he wanted to do.
âJust the males. I just need a semen specimen. Weâre seeing what happens if we crossbreed them with human female eggs and how that effects the DNA and RNA structures of any resulting hybrids. Just grab the three youngest and put them in the collection rooms. One sample from each should be plenty,â Liz went on, already returning to her microscope slides and file notations. Alex made sure to keep his face neutral as she glanced up to studied him while giving her instructions. He nodded shortly and left the lab, already mentally listing the tasks heâd need to perform in order to do a collection.
Alex had been given basic medical training when heâd been taken on at Project Shepherd. It was explained that at any point, one of their captives might have to be taken down with an injection if brute force was inadvisable. Heâd also received extensive hand-to-hand combat training. Alex had found it interesting that de-escalation techniques hadnât been taught as part of his training before coming onto the base. So far heâd only had to use the bare minimum of force to get his job done. Heâd turned into something of a Jack-of-all-trades, however, when it came to medical or scientific technical procedures.
First, he stopped by the captive holding area and signaled his brother Flint over from the guard station. Flint gave him an annoyed scowl, but came over to where Alex was waiting.
âWhatâs up?â Flint asked, always informal to Alex by way of blood. If their father had seen, Flint wouldâve been disciplined. Alex, though younger, outranked Flint and therefore should always be treated with the respect of a superior officer. Alex didnât care as much. Flint was a stooge and would never be more than a glorified prison guard. His pantomimed respect wasnât needed for Alex to know he was above him. But Alex knew if their father saw Flint being too familiar at work, heâd chastise him with a fist.
âI need male captives Max, Michael, and Noah to specimen collection,â Alex informed Flint formally. Flint gave him a speculative grin, but didnât say anything. He nodded and went back to the guard desk to inform the other two soldiers on duty. Alex saw them share a glance and chuckle as Alex started towards the pharmacy. His next task was to pick up some Tri-Mix injection and then to make sure a few rooms were set up with the correct equipment for the procedure.
Alex tried to keep his mind on the business at hand. The laughing of the other soldiers needled at him in the back of his mind. Heâd done this job a few times, but he didnât take any pleasure from it. If the other guys could see what was involved in the process, maybe theyâd realize that it wasnât as sexy a scenario as they imagined. Maybe if Alex wasnât gay, it wouldnât have been an issue at all. Maybe if the aliens looked more⊠well⊠alien and not just like humans, it couldâve just been an abstract curiosity, a shitty work detail. They wouldâve just commiserated with him for drawing the short straw. But he was gay, and they didnât understand what happened behind the closed doors of the extraction rooms and these three aliens in particular were very attractive by human standards. He shuddered to imagine what deprived fantasies theyâd built around him and the aliens. This only happened, of course, when he had to work with the males.
He made his way to the long hallway of rooms they used for technical procedures. Alex looked through the monitors over the techâs shoulder at the monitoring station. Only one room was in use currently, and it looked like an autopsy was taking place. Alex grimaced inwardly to think theyâd lost another alien to the ravages of time.
âAnything scheduled in rooms 5, 7, or 9 for the next hour?â Alex asked the monitor tech quietly. The soldier blinked up at him, as if just now aware someone else was in the small room with him. He cleared his throat and picked up the scheduling clipboard from the corner of his desk. Alexâs eyes strayed back to the occupied room, and he watched with sick fascination as things were taken out of the alienâs abdomen and loaded into bowls.
âUh, looks like theyâre free. Need to book âem, sir?â the young soldier asked, remembering protocol at the last moment.
âYeah. Captain Alex Manes. Max, Michael, and Noah are being brought in for specimen extraction,â Alex told the soldier for his notes. He nodded and wrote down the details on his paper copy of the schedule. Heâd type it into the online schedule later as well as any observational notes. With a last glance towards the wall of screens, Alex left the room and went to get the equipment cases out of storage.
Each case held a milking machine which included a cylinder with a latex liner, a connector hose, and a suction machine. Alex placed one in each room and plugged in the power supply to the suction machine so it could start warming up. He rifled through the cabinets that lined each roomâs walls and found the lubricant, prostate stimulation equipment, and massage wands. Heâd never needed to use the extras, but something about their presence made him feel like he was actually there to do a job. The machines would do most of the work. He was really just there to monitor and make sure the samples were collected and labeled correctly for Liz.
As he was just double-checking all his equipment, Dr. Valenti walked into the room he was in. Alex turned and eyed his ex-best friend warily. Kyle had been making strides towards repairing their friendship, but Alex was still skeptical.
âHey man. Liz said you were doing a collection. I brought you the Tri-Mix injections. Mind if I help out?â Kyle asked, showing him the preloaded injection pens.
âSure, I guess. Thereâs not much to do. Just inject them, sleeve them, turn on the milkers, and go get a cup of coffee until the sensors go off,â Alex said flippantly.
âYou donât do any manual or electrical stimulation before you sleeve them?â Kyle asked, sounding a bit shocked. Alex tried to shrug nonchalantly. He didnât want to admit that manual and electrical stimulation felt like he was crossing a line somehow. He logically knew these were not humans with human feelings or cultural constructs about consent, but in his own mind it was a step too far. The injection made it medical, but if he actually started probing and touching⊠then it might just be what those soldiers at the containment area thought it was. Kyle mustâve read his thoughts, because he clapped Alex on the shoulder and gave him a patronizing grin.
âYou get better samples if you stim them. I can show you on one if you like? Just so you can see itâs not what you think it is,â Kyle offered, squeezing Alexâs shoulder affectionately. Alex absolutely did not want to see⊠except that he did. He was going to hell for it, but he was curious. In fact, he was fucking fascinated, and he hated himself for it.
âI mean, if youâve got the time?â Alex said, trying to give Kyle an out.
âHey, whatâs the joke about doctors and always being busy except theyâre really golfing? Think of this as my golf break. Iâm getting out of the clinic and getting to do something fun for a little while,â Kyle said with a laugh.
As if on cue, the sound of wheels in the hallway alerted them that the captives had arrived. Alex turned to see two men rolling in Max, the largest physically of their aliens, already naked and strapped to a gurney, gag in his mouth (to protect him from biting his tongue while coming off any medications used during the procedure). Alex felt a quick flash of rage that they hadnât left him clothed or thrown a blanket over him. The guards placed his gurney in the middle of the room, locked the wheels, saluted to Alex and Kyle before they left. Alex watched Kyleâs eyes rove up and down Maxâs body covetously. Max had been gagged and given a mild, but quickly dissipating sedative. Alex could tell that he was relatively aware of where he was, but couldnât fight the bonds. He hardly did, even when the sedative wore off.
âHere, letâs reposition him a little. If weâre going to stim him, I need to have better access to his body. Did the guards flush their systems before they brought them up?â Kyle asked, already unstrapping one of Maxâs legs. He reached under the gurney and pulled out a heel stirrup that he gently placed Maxâs foot in before re-securing him for safety. He did the same with Maxâs other leg, spreading him wide.
âUhâŠ.,â Alex started, completely out of his depth. He looked up at Max who met his eyes and nodded, color infusing his cheeks like a blush. Kyle was finishing with the other foot when Alex finally answered. âYeah. They did.â
âGood. That means I donât have to,â Kyle replied with a laugh. He was transforming the gurney from a long bed into practically a chair in front of Alexâs eyes. Alex had no idea the gurneys had so many bells and whistles on them. With his legs spread wide, hips strapped down to the table, and naked, Max looked utterly exposed to them. Kyle was leaning over Maxâs upper body, using a pen light to check his responses. âGod, the meds they have now are remarkable. Heâs already becoming cognizant again!â
âYeah, they come to pretty quick,â Alex remarked dryly while he watched Kyle do a quick examination, checking reflexes.
"Let's get some gloves on and I'll show you what I mean about the manual stimulation. If he doesn't react, we can always give him the Tri-Mix, but this can sometimes remove the need to even use it," Kyle explained, moving over to the instrument cart and pulling out two pairs of non-latex gloves. He and Alex snapped them on and Kyle rolled the instrument cart over to beside the table. He grabbed a rolling stool that had been left in the corner of the room from another procedure and sat himself down between Max's spread legs. Alex could see Max's confusion as he lifted his head to try and see what Kyle was doing.
"Okay so," Kyle started, drawing Alex's attention back from Max's dark eyes to where he was covering two fingers in a copious amount of lubricant. Alex watched as he used the non-lubricated hand to spread Max's ass cheeks and expose his dusky, puckered hole. Max's leg muscles flexed against their restraints at the feeling. "Just like with human males, these guys have got something like a prostate. You'd stim it the same way you would for a human."
"I usually like my partners to be hard before I go sticking things into their asses," Alex mumbled, trying for a joking tone. Kyle beamed up at him.
"That would be preferable. But if that's the problem, you can stimulate the prostate first and the penis should start getting erect after. Have you worked with these captives before? Do you know if this one is able to get hard without the injection?" Kyle asked. He still held Max's cheeks open, exposing him as he carried on his conversation with Alex. Alex risked a glance up to see that Max was staring resolutely at the ceiling, flushed but stoic to his treatment. Alex wished they were allowed to speak with the captives and that they didn't have to stay gagged when out of confinement. He'd just ask Max if getting hard was an issue, or if it was just the degradation of being used as a lab rat that kept him flaccid.
"I don't know. Like I said, I've never tried to stim them before suctioning. Max has never come in already hard, but his body responds well to the Tri-Fix," Alex replied, trying to ignore the fine tremors he could see in Max's stomach muscles. Kyle was rubbing a thumb in contemplative circles over Maxâs hole, spreading the lube from his fingers and almost seeming unaware of what he was doing as he and Alex talked.
"I bet he can! He's a hell of a specimen. Before we try the prostate, let's see if he responds to some other stimulation," Kyle said with an excited clap. He stood up abruptly and walked to the side of the table. Alex stood on the other side, promising himself he would be polite and watch but wouldn't participate. Kyle took his time looking over Max's physique. In a familiar gesture, he set his hands high on Max's chest.
"Hey handsome," Kyle crooned. He slowly rubbed his hands up and down Max's chest, trailing his fingers lightly over the skin. Max darted his eyes to Alex in obvious confusion and alarm. Kyle followed his gaze. "Ignore him. I'm going to take care of you today."
Alex let his eyes slip away and back down to Kyle's hands. They smoothed over Max's skin, down over his ribs and stomach, then back up so his thumbs could tease lightly over Max's dark pink nipples. Max shifted under Kyle's attention.
"You've got to convince the blood to come up to the surface of the skin," Kyle murmured to Alex while he kept eye contact with Max. Kyle started to rub over Max's nipples more firmly, stroking over the tightening nubs. Pleased with their erectness, he hummed thoughtfully before trailing his hands down to rest on Maxâs hipbones. Alex noticed the uptick in Kyleâs breathing and dilation in his eyes as he moved one hand to cup Maxâs cock. He rocked the heel of his hand gently before circling his thumb and first finger around the shaft and stroking. Maxâs body started to respond to the attention, his cock plumping up in Kyleâs grip as he kept stroking over him smoothly.
âThatâs it,â Kyle cooed encouragingly. Max shifted under him as much as he could, head pressed back against the gurney and staring resolutely towards the ceiling. His face was flushed and the red stain seemed to be moving down towards his chest the harder he got. Alex jumped when a hand came into his view suddenly. âPut some more lube on my fingers.â
Alex obeyed Kyleâs order and watched him push one slick finger into Maxâs hole, making the alien jump in surprise. Expertly, Kyle crooked his finger and within a few searching thrusts was able to locate Maxâs prostate. Alex glanced up to check Maxâs cock and was surprised to find him almost painfully engorged. Kyle followed his line of sight and smiled, turning to look at Alex triumphantly.
âTold you man, nothing to it. Hand me the suction canister and weâll get him hooked up and pumping.â Alex shuddered at the excitement in Kyleâs voice, the eagerness, but he did was he was asked. As soon as the canister was lowered over Maxâs cock, cool plastic resting against his belly, Kyle flipped a switch to began low suction. Maxâs cock jerked in response to the tight pressure build and release of the machine, and Alex heard a low groan escape from behind his gag. Kyle had managed to work two fingers into his hole while Alex had watched the machine begin its work and was thrusting them in time with the machine. A glance further down and Alex could see the solid outline of Kyleâs own cock straining against his scrub pants.
âUh, Iâm going to go get started on one of the other captives,â Alex spoke up, feeling awkward at continuing to stand by the scene in front of him. Kyle gave him a friendly smile, fingers and wrist still working away.
âSure, go do Michael. Noah, from what I understand, is a tougher case and Iâd like to commit my full attention to him. After this, we can go do lunch if you want?â Kyle offered easily. Alex nodded and made a non-committal sound before turning and quickly exiting the room. He wasnât fast enough to not hear Kyle murmuring softly to Max before he left. âYouâre doing so good, Max. Look at these balls, man. Youâre going to give up a big load for us today, huh?â
Alex wished he could bleach his brain.
He quickly closed the door behind him and moved towards the room he knew Michael to be in. Heâd seen Michael around the compound. He was hard to miss with his curls, sharp smile, and sad eyes. Alex had tried to ignore him, but he found himself more and more aware of him each time they crossed paths. When he entered the exam room to find him naked and conscious, strapped and gagged the same as Max on the gurney, he flushed hot with a mix of embarrassment and want. He shut the door quietly behind him.
âHey Michael,â Alex greeted him quietly. Michaelâs eyes roved up and down his body, undressing him, challenging him despite his position. Feeling exposed, Alex moved towards the gurney slowly. The closer he got, the more of Michaelâs body he could see. His cock was nestled serenely against his balls, a short, dark thatch of hair surrounding his groin and leading up his stomach and over his chest. Alex wanted to run his fingers through the hair, tangle himself in it, bury his face against it⊠but he knew that was inappropriate. No matter how attractive he found him, the alien was not in any position to consent to anything, and Alex knew it. He was still tempted, however.
To try to hide the awkwardness he was feeling, Alex busied himself with positioning the cart next to the gurney. He gloved up and reached for the lube, immediately dropping it when Michael cleared his throat next to him. The bottle clattered loudly on the metal cart, knocking the milking canister onto the ground. Alex fumbled to try to catch it before it rolled too far away. A knock sounded at the door and one of the guardâs voices came through.
âYou okay, sir?â
âIâm fine!â Alex called back, face flaming in embarrassment. He looked at Michael who gave him a smug and superior grin around the obstruction in his mouth. Alex set the canister back on the table and bent over Michael to hiss at him. âDonât be a dick!â
Michael gave him a raised eyebrow in response as if to say âwho, me?â
âYes, you,â Alex snapped. He moved back over to the table and picked up the lube again. Again, Michael pointedly cleared his throat. Alex abruptly turned to look at him, eyes narrowed suspiciously. âWhat?!â
Michael just looked at him for a moment, waiting for him to catch up. With a huff, Alex moved to block the view of the camera and loosened the gag enough to slide it out of Michaelâs mouth. He watched Michael moved his jaw around and swallow convulsively a few times, resisting the urge to get him some water, while he waited for Michael to speak.
âWhat do you want, Michael?â Alex asked, trying to put steel into his voice to cow Michaelâs nonchalant, almost playful attitude.
âI was going to say, you could at least buy me dinner before you start sticking probes into me,â Michael replied, his voice rough but steady. Alex stared at him incredulously.
âAre you trying to flirt with me?â he asked, unable to stop himself. Shock was an adequate description for how he was feeling about this turn of events.
âNo. I am flirting with you, private,â Michael replied, giving Alex another once over before continuing. âHow am I doing?â
âThis is the least sexy situation I could possibly imagine being flirted with in,â Alex answered flatly.
âWell, you refuse to come visit me in my cell, so this is what Iâve got to work with. Besides, youâre about to have to get me hard enough to spurt for science. Maybe you should work on your bedside manner.â Alex stared down at Michael on the table. His eyes moved down to his exposed cock, still flaccid, and then over to the milking machine on the table. His ears felt warm and he was sure he was blushing.
âI donât think thatâll be a problem. After all, I could always just inject you with Tri-Fix if you donât want to get hard naturally,â Alex countered, trying not to let how flustered he was feeling show through in his voice. Michael gave him a frankly filthy grin in response.
âWith the right stimulation, Iâve never had a problem getting hard naturally. Besides, have you ever had one of those tubes on your dick before?â Michael whistled low in apparent appreciation. âScience is wonderful. Iâm all for science.â
âNo, Iâve never--â Alex started, affronted at the mere idea that he would use government property for his own pleasure that way.
âMaybe you should climb up here and give it a tryâŠ.â Michael suggested in a conspiratorial tone.
âThereâs no way. There are cameras in here,â Alex protested, wondering why he wasnât shoving the gag back in Michaelâs mouth and getting on with the sample collection.
âI can fix that, ya know. These drugs they have us on dull my powers quite a bit, but Iâm still pretty good at shorting out electronics when I need to,â Michael countered. He rushed on as Alex opened his mouth to respond. âYou can keep me tied down. You can, uh⊠manually⊠collect your sample for the lab from me and take a spin on the suck tube at the same time.â
âI could neverâŠâ Alex protested weakly. He hated that he was even considering it. He didnât know what Michaelâs plan was, but he was pretty sure getting his dick sucked by a robot was not acceptable protocol under any circumstances.
âYou can gag me again if you want to keep me quiet,â Michael said, voice almost a purr. Alex contemplated the idea, eyes straying from Michael to the milking canister and then surreptitiously up towards where the cameras were. Curiosity was getting the best of him. Curiosity and hormones. This close he could smell the petrichor and salt scent of Michaelâs skin and make out the green flecks hidden amongst the amber of his eyes.
âIf you can take out the camerasâŠâ Alex started, but before he could finish he heard a faint cry of dismay from the observation room. Panicking, Alex shoved the gag back into Michaelâs mouth and hoped to God it hadnât been visibly out on the video. A second later, one of the monitor techs came into the room looking thunderous.
âEverything okay?â Alex asked the tech who had grabbed a chair and angrily shoved it into a corner. He started to climb up onto the seat, his eyes trained on the small dome on the ceiling that held the camera.
âThis fucking piece of shit. Always shorts out on me. Goddamnit,â he cursed, removing the protective dome to look at the wiring beneath. He cursed again and hopped down, coming over to stand in front of Alex. âIâm going to have to replace the whole thing. Something major burned up. Do you want to postpone this procedure or--â
âNo!â Alex cut in, his voice sharply cutting off the tech. The tech gave him a wide-eyed look. âI just⊠Iâm not going to have time later. Look, heâs secured down. There are guards outside the door. Iâll be fine. Heâs not going to cause me any trouble, will you?â
Alex directed the last question at Guerin who looked between him and the tech and lolled his head as if he were still slightly dopey. The tech squinted at him, but seemed to take the act at face value.
âFine. Just give me a heads-up when youâre done so I can get in here. And donât fucking undo any of those straps, got it? Theyâre there for your protection!â Alex gave him a grave nod and the tech turned and strode out of the room. As soon as the door snicked shut behind him, Alex turned and stared wide-eyed at an obviously unrepentant Michael. Alex removed his gag again, bending close to his ear before speaking.
"If you tell anyone about this, I will have you thrown into solitary for a week," Alex threatened in a low voice. It felt empty because he knew if Michael told anyone, his father would find him and put him in a hole in the ground. There was something about Michael's offer though⊠a feeling between them that made Alex sure the risk would pay out.
"I won't tell," Michael replied quietly. There was a sadness in his voice that pierced Alex's heart and he moved to be able to see Michael's eyes. They stared at each other for a long moment, each searching for something needed but fragile and better left silent between them. Alex ended their silent back and forth by bending down and pressing their lips together. It was sweet and chaste, a seal for their understanding, and when he pulled back he felt like their bargain was solidly struck. Quietly, Alex moved the extra chair from the corner under the broken camera and wedged it under the doorknob. When he turned back to face Michael, he immediately began to unbutton his shirt enough to pull it and his undershirt off over his head. He leaned against the table to tackle his boots, pants, and prosthesis. With an embarrassing lack of grace, Alex proceeded to climb onto the gurney and straddle Michael's thighs.
Michael's eyes were wide and darkened with lust as they scanned over Alexâs naked body. He looked hungry in a way Alex was all too familiar with. Alex noted to his smug relief that Michaelâs cock had gotten half hard at his striptease and was growing firmer beneath him. Without a word, Alex reached over and grabbed the lube bottle, squeezing some into his palm before slicking Michael's cock with it. The friction made Michael groan quietly, his eyes fluttering shut as Alex stroked him with a firm hand and brought him to full hardness. Alexâs own cock was beginning to throb and ache with neglect, but he didn't want to touch himself too soon. The risk of the situation was turning him on almost as much as Michael beneath him, his hips flexing into Alexâs grip in aborted thrusts.
Alex let go of Michael and lifted onto his knees. Keeping eye contact with Michael, he took his still slick hand and reached behind himself to push two fingers into his hole. It was almost too much too soon, but Alex liked the burn and needed this part to go quick. He didnât realize his eyes had slipped shut, unable to concentrate on anything but the stretch and pressure of his digits as he rocked his hips back and twisted his fingers to make the stretch go faster.
"Oh shit," Michael breathes out beneath him. Alex opened his eyes and pinned Michael with a hard stare before swooping down to kiss him again. This kiss wasn't sweet. It wasn't chaste or simple. Alex licked at the seam of Michael's mouth once and barely gaves the other man time to accept him before he was pushing his way in. If Michael was hungry, Alex was fucking starving. Not that heâd gotten a taste, he wasnât sure heâd be able to stop.
Michael moaned into their kisses, his body shifting restlessly, claiming as much movement as he could against the restraints.
"Shhhh," Alex warned, breaking their kiss. He shuffled forward enough to be able to reach behind himself and grasp Michael's cock. Goosebumps broke out over his skin as he pressed the blunt tip to his wet hole. Biting his lip, Alex forced his body to relax and accept Michael's generous girth. It was almost too much and after a few slow drags where he only managed to shove a few inches at a time into himself, Alex pulled off and added more lube. The next time he pushed down, it was like his body just accepted Michael and made room accordingly. Both he and Michael let out harsh, gutted breathes when Alex managed to fully sheath Michael inside him.
"Fucking christ," Alex groaned, trying to stay quiet but already feeling his body scream for him to start fucking himself stupid on the perfect cock stuffed in him. Beneath him, eyes squeezed shut, Michael nodded and Alex watched as his hands and fingers flexed in an echo of Alex's own need to move. Slowly, Alex began to rock his hips and get his first exquisite taste of the pull and push of Michael's cock lighting up his insides. Wrapping a hand around his cock, Alex noted how wet and messy his shaft was from the leaking precum drooling out of the tip. He used that wetness to ease the way as he stroked himself lightly in time with the undulations of his hips.
"Please," Michael gasped out beneath him. "Oh fuck, please."
Alex knew what he wanted, wanted it himself, but also knew they made a plan. Carefully, he reached over to the instrument table and picked up the plastic cylinder end of the milking machine. Inside it was a PVC sleeve that molded itself around the recipient's penis once the suction was started. Then, according to the dials on the machine, the sleeve would go taut and relax with a rhythmic click and hiss, effectually sucking off the wearer until he blew his load and the sample collection sensor went off. The load would then be scraped from the inside of the sleeve and collected into a tube to be given to the lab. Alex knew all of that, had the technical knowledge down pat in his brain, but was unprepared for the foreign feeling of sliding his own cock into the smooth, cool fabric of the milker cylinder. With a barely trembling hand, he pressed the âonâ switch and waited for the first pull.
He didn't know what heâd been led to expect, but it wasn't the vice-like, fluid pressure that made his hips hitch forward instinctively to get more of that tight clutching feeling. Alex felt a moan get dragged past his lips, echoed by Michael as he began to fuck forward against the milker and then back onto Michael's cock.
"Oh god," Alex moaned brokenly, curling forward over the cylinder in helpless abandon. The angle pressed Michael's cock hard against his prostate, and Alex indulged himself in a few shallow thrusts that brushed the head of Michael's cock against that spot over and over. His body felt like it was getting expertly rung out, and he now understood why there wasn't more of a revolt against the collection process by the alien captives. They were getting an expert blow job by a robot on the government's dime.
When Alex could drag his eyes open, he looked down and saw his own helpless pleasure echoed on Michael's face. His lips were parted in an "oh" of surprise, eyebrows drawn together like he wasn't sure if he was in pain or in ecstasy, and sweat beaded his hairline and neck. He looked like a ravaged Greek demigod laid bare at Alex's whim. The sight made Alexâs body shudder with a wave of lust for the alien beneath him. He didnât know if it was because he was alien or because Alex was in the midst of intense pleasure, but he wanted to never leave in that instant.
"Fuck, look at you," Alex couldn't help saying. He pushed back, arching and reaching until he could brace his hands on Michael's legs to grind back down in his prick. The cylinder jut from his groin obscenely between them, position change not effecting its mechanical precision. Michael opened his eyes and stared up at Alex, a look if wonder on his face.
"I wanna touch you," he said, voice quiet enough to almost get lost under the hum of the machine. Alex smirked down at him, feeling fuck drunk and bold at his naked worship.
"Where do you wanna touch me? Tell me," Alex demanded, voice breathy.
"I want to touch your neck. I want to twist my hands in your hair and put you where I want you," Michael said, voice serious like he was in a confessional booth telling his sins. Alex hummed in response, sitting up straight and moving his hands up his chest to his neck and then into his hair.
"Like this?" Alex asked, smiling at the covetous, feral look on Michael's face as Alex acted out his words. He let his eyes slip shut so he could imagine that instead of restrained, Michael was simply dictating his desires to him.
"Yeah. Like that," he agreed. His eyes trailed lower and he began talking again. "I want to rake my nails down your chest. I want to pinch and suck your nipples, abuse your tits until you're begging for me to stop."
Alex let his hands fall from his hair down to his chest. He raked his fingers down the front of his pecs and stomach, not stopping until he was almost at his pubes. He slid his fingers back up to his nipples and plucked at them with savage, twisting, pinching fingers. The zings of pain shot down to his groin, where his balls were drawing up tight to his body, the finish line in sight for him. The rhythm of the machine picked up and Alex opened his eyes in time to see Michael looking intently at the knots that controlled speed and intensity.
"Where else?" Alex gasped, the increased setting of the machine making him tip forward to brace himself with his hands on Michaelâs chest, so he could fuck himself harder onto Michael's cock in time. He could see in Michael's face he was getting close too, trying to hold out until Alex busted.
"After I come in your ass, I want you to sit on my face and let me eat you out. I want to taste you and me on my tongue. I wanna watch you squirm, oversensitive and mewling as I tongue fuck you into a second orgasm," Michael managed to say through a gasping, pained groan. His hips were flexing minutely under Alex, trying impotently to reciprocate the harsh pounding he was getting as Alex rode him.
"Fuck!" Alex almost yelled, his body starting to seize at the thought, thrusts going erratic as he rode through his orgasm on with his body on automatic pilot. A beeping sensor on the machine went off and the machine automatically shut itself off. Gingerly, he broke the suction around the base of his cock and slid the cylinder from his body. Feeling wrecked and still impossible full of cock, Alex looked down at Michael who was breathing hard and looking pained at the full stop of their activities. Alex gave him an evil smile when their eyes met.
"Your turn, cowboy," he said. Michael looked at him in momentarily confusion until Alex pulled off his cock with groan. He felt so empty without Michael inside him. He felt like his ass was gaping where his legs were still spread on either side of Michaelâs hips. He twisted around and slid the used cylinder over Michael's hard-as-nails prick. Machine in place, Alex reached over and flipped on the machine again, overriding the collection sensor and making sure to turn up the speed to bring Michael off swiftly. He turned back to Michael's face, watching him go from shock to stricken within seconds. Alex bent low, resting some of his body weight on top of Michaelâs chest, and mouthing at his jaw and neck. He felt the vibrations of whimpers and quiet moans against his cheek as he nibbled at Michael's ear.
"Once you cum in the cylinder, I'm going to make sure you get a taste of us before I dump the sample due to compromise by a foreign body. That means we'll have to do this again tomorrow. And tomorrow? I'm going to fuck your throat while the machine gets a clean sample from you," Alex whispered into his ear. Michael made an unmistakable noise of release, a tight, gasping sob as his cock was milked dry. The selection alarm chimed again and Alex turned off the machine with an easy flick of his wrist.
Good to his word, Alex twisted and broke the suction of the cylinder. Because of the double load, when he moved it off Michael's cock, he could see their combined spunk coating Michael's length in a pearlescent sheen. Inspired, Alex bent down and dragged his tongue down the length of Michael's softening cock. He turned back to Michael, dumping the cylinder haphazardly onto the instrument cart before sealing his lips over Michael's. Michael opened his mouth hungrily, tongue tangling against Alex's and greedily stealing all traces of their combined flavor for himself. When they broke apart, Alex smiled down at Michael for a moment, giving him one last kiss, before moving off of him and the gurney.
He once again leaned against the side of the gurney and put himself back together. By the time he was completely re-outfitted in his fatigues, his mind was once again on business. He turned and pushed the gag back into Michael's mouth before he could say anything. Michael stared at him in confusion until Alex grabbed a hand towel and laid it over Michael's lap to cover his nudity. He gave Michael a sad smile before he went and removed the chair from in front of the door and stuck his head out into the corridor.
"Captive is ready for transport back to the pen," he called to the guards on duty. He backed away when they came back in the room and unlocked the wheels of Michael's gurney. Michael stared at him in something like betrayal as he was wheeled away. After he was gone, Alex washed out the cylinders sleeve and wrote a note on Michael's chart to schedule him for a second collection the following day.
Alex wasn't sure how he felt about what had just happened. Now, in the quiet of the empty collection room, he wondered if it had been an elaborate dream. He wondered if he'd wake up soon in his own bed, tired and disoriented and dreading another day of work at Caulfield. He also couldn't deny that what had just happened definitely wasn't a dream if the ache in his muscles and the slick feeling between his ass cheeks were to be trusted. He felt guilty for judging Kyleâs lasciviousness when he couldnât stop himself from riding his captive like a rodeo bull. Was he as bad as the other guards thought, or was it just Michael? Alex couldnât imagine doing anything that had just happened to another captive or man that he knew.
One thing was for certain, he was already in too deep to want to stop. He hadnât come that hard since heâd learned where his prostate was. He just didnât know how he was going to schedule in more time for him and Michael to see each other after tomorrow. With a sigh, he left the room and went back to his office to think through his actions. A flask of bourbon waited in his desk drawer to help him find the answers.
#rnmafterdark2021#rnmafterdark#malex fic#malex#michael guerin#alex manes#blink and you miss it valevans#medical kink
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Furies (Mermay OT4)
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The jagged edge of the harpoon slices into his tail.Â
Barclay knows heâs doomed but he thrashes and tries to dive all the same. He doesnât know what the boar above wants, doesnât care, he just wants to go home, he has to make it back to them, please, all he wants is to see them again.Â
A second barb pierces his side, blood clouds his vision.Â
In the darkness below, he thinks he sees two red lights racing closer. Then the harpooners tug, and the world snaps to black.
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âIs he stable?â Duck whispers as Aubrey swims out of Barclayâs bedroom, shutting the door behind her.Â
âYeah. Iâm glad Indrid warned us when he did; if heâd lost much more blood, Iâm not sure even my powers coulda helped.â
âAnd Joe and âDrid?â
âTheyâre gonna stay with him. I think theyâre okay but, wellâ she sighs, shakes her head, âif thatâd happened to Dani, I donât think anything could make me leave her side.â She loops their arms together as they swim to the door, âdo you wanna come stay with us? I know this is hard on them, but you had to, like, break a harpoon in half while one of your friends almost died.â
âNah, oughta stay in case any of âem need somethin.â
âYou want to keep Dr. Harris Bonkers for extra support?â She holds out her sea bunny.
Duck rubs itâs back, âIâll be okay, but thanks for the offer Lady Flame. You get home safe now.â
âI will. Ohâ She turns, swimming backwards as she adds, âif he needs any more healing between now and tomorrow, come get me right away!â
He promises he will, locks the house up for the night and floats into the kitchen to put it back in some kind of order. Indridâs sketch pad and enchanted pen are still on the floor where he dropped them, Josephâs book and Duckâs half-built model ship knocked sideways from the seer pushing away from the table in a flurry of silver and panic. And on the counter are the ingredients Barclayâd set out for dinner, the ones he was checking off when he realized he needed scallops and swam off with a promise to be right back.Â
Duck sighs, jumps when something whaps at the green-glass window.Â
âJesus Winnie, thought you were in the bedroom.â He cracks the window enough to lift the octopus inside. See slowly slides off his arm, swimming across the floor to the pile of salvaged ship instruments Duck and Indrid found for her.Â
âMaybe this will keep her from stealing the silverware.â Barclay plucks a knife from the cephalopods tentacle.Â
Suddenly, heâs too heavy to swim. They almost lost him.Â
Itâs simple, really. Duck is in love with Joe and Indrid. Joe and Indrid are in love with Barclay. But that doesnât mean Duck doesnât love the other mer; Barclay is one of his best friends, a sympathetic ear when things go south and the only one of the four of them capable of beating Joe at Ten Shells. Barclay also understands something about Duck that escapes many of their kind; that he can love Joe, curious and meticulous from his black hair to his dapper monochrome tail, and Indrid, strange and aloof until you gave him the right kind of stroke on his silver scales, with the same intensity. It just manifests in different ways.Â
Duck cracks the bedroom door open, finds the wounded mer on his back in their large, seaweed colored bed. Indrid and Joe are nestled on either side of him. Normally, theyâd be an undignified, loving pile, but the bandages on his stomach and tail prevent it.Â
Indrid stirs, trilling in distress. His nightmares come and go, are most often the echos of horrible futures he was forced to watch over and over. Duck has a pretty good guess as the which one is playing in his mind tonight.Â
He wiggles down onto the bed, draping his arm over Indridâs side and guiding his bony back and red fin against his chest. When Indrid registers his weight, the nervous twitches of his tail stop. Duck glances up, watches Barclayâs hand glide down the bed to hold Indridâs own.Â
Someone almost took this from them. Almost ripped away pieces of the hearts of the mers he loves most in the world.Â
And he wants to know who.Â
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âDearest, how are you feeling?â
âFine, totally fine.â Barclay tries to sit up as a demonstration, only for his whole body to convulse. He falls back against the bed, whimpering pathetically.Â
âHmmm, I was afraid that would be the case. There were some timelines where you healed quickly, but it seems the monsters who attacked you did a great deal of damage.â
âNo, no, it was just a twinge, if you give me a sec I can-â
â-You will stay in bed.â Indridâs red gaze sharpens, âno mate of mine is going to re-open his wounds trying to make me breakfast.â
âBesidesâ Joseph looks up from setting all the med supplies they need in tidy stacks and lines, âitâs not like Duck or I canât cook. You need to rest, big guy.â He swims over, strokes Barclays hair. Barclay leans into the feelings, trying to ignore the fear gnawing a new hole in his side.Â
In the three days since the attack, he hasnât been alone. His boyfriends and friend take turns sitting with him, talking when he wants to and letting him sleep when he needs, bringing him food and changing his bandages without complaint.Â
Itâs all wrong. Thatâs not their job. It shouldnât be, thatâs what they have him for. Some part of him wishes theyâd been too late. Because he doesnât want to face whatâs coming.Â
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âAny luck?âÂ
âSome. Juno says she saw an unfamiliar hull pass by about an hour before Barclay got attacked, but she wasnât close enough to see any details.â
âDamn it.â Joseph slams the book one human weapons in frustration, then cringes at his outburst.Â
Duck swims to him, pulling him up from the chair into an embrace, âWeâll figure it out, slick. Nothin else, happen to know we got a real smart mer workin the case.â He winks, kisses Joseph on the cheek.Â
He snorts, then looks at the floor, âSome part of me is worried about what will happen if we do figure out who hurt him. I...I donât believe in violence outside of dire circumstances, but they, they nearly killed him. Iâd like to say my motive in seeking them out is to make sure they canât hurt anyone else but, well, thatâs secondary at best. What I want is to make them pay.â
âThat makes two of usâ Indrid slithers in the door, âheâs sound asleep, not to worry. I have narrowed down our potential culprits with my visions, but I too am afraid of what I may do if I locate the humans who dared harm him.â
âI get the feelin, but right now weâre mostly borrowin trouble. Letâs wait until we know a little more before decidin whether to track âem down.â
Joseph nods, opens his mouth to suggest one of them retrieve dinner from the fishmonger down the block, when thereâs a crash from the kitchen.Â
âDamn, Winnie mustâve gotten into the cabinets again.â
Indrid blinks, then frowns, âNo, that is not her doing.â
Rushing into the kitchen reveals Barclay trying to arrange food on the counter. His upper body can barely move, and his tail is unable to maintain direction due to the bandages.Â
âDonât worry about, ow, meâ Barclay smiles at them, but Joseph spots panic in his eyes, âth-thought Iâd do some meal prep since youâre all gonna be busy this week.â
Heâs about to point out that a)theyâre all capable of feeding themselves even when busy and b)Barclayâs only been recovering for a week and a half and Aubrey explicitly told him it would be at least a month before he could move around without help.
Before he can make any points at all, Indrid draws himself up to his full height, frills of his ears fanned out and gestures to the bedroom, âYou will do no such thing. You need your rest, dearest.â
âBut-â
âThat was an order, not a request.â Itâs a tone that never fails to make Josephâs spine turn to mush, and by the flash of pink in Barclayâs tail, he feels the same way. Then his whole tail drains of color and he nods.Â
âRight. Sorry. I, I didnât mean to upset you guys.â
Indridâs frills flatten and he swims swiftly towards the other mer, âBarclay, Iâm not-â
âItâs okay. I caused enough trouble already.â He catches Indrid by the chin to kiss him, blows a second kiss Josephâs way, then disappears into the bedroom.Â
As Indrid flicks his tail nervously, Duck clears his throat, âKnow I joke about him not havin a selfish bone in his body, but this is startin to get ridiculous.â
The silver-scaled mer sighs, coiling his tail around Josephâs own and opening his arms so Duck will come give him a hug. When the three of them are close together he murmurs, â I saw this timeline, but I had so hoped it would not be the one we ended up in. I have mentioned before that the culture Barclay and I grew up in as deep water mers is very different than what you have on the reef. One component of that was the belief that a mer who could not carry his weight in his home would not be in said home for much longer. His mate or mates not only could, but were encouraged to, throw him out to make room for a more useful partner.â
The entirety of Josephâs stomach crawls up his throat, âHe really thinks weâd do that to him?â
âI suspect so.â Indrid rests his head on Duckâs shoulder, âBarclay is already prone to such fears, in that he prides himself on taking care of others. And it is a deeply ingrained message and practice, so much so that there are times I still fear you three may turn me away should my powers disappear.â
ââDrid-â
The mer purrs reassuringly, âBut then I remind myself that I am not down there. I am up here, with you who love me regardless of my strength. Seeing the future helps a great deal as well; I can peek and see there are no timelines where you turn me away. Hmmâ his tail taps Sterns lower back, âI wonder, is there a way we can mimic that experience for Barclay? Help him see his future here?â
Joseph gets an idea and, for the first time all day, the sense that heâs getting somewhere, âI have a plan.â
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Barclay isnât sure if this is some cruel joke, or if his boyfriends genuinely believe they wonât grow tired of him needing to be cared for all the time. Regardless, he doesnât know what to do when Joseph lays beside him, kissing his cheek and shoulder as he talks about how they should go see the Kelpie migration this fall, and how heâs heard about a human beach where they serve a swim-up meal to mers and humans alike, and wouldnât it be nice for all four of them to visit and try the food?
He doesnât know what to do when Indrid gently sits him upright and combs his hair, jumping from topic to topic between kisses to the back of his neck but always returning to what they should do for Josephâs birthday, or Dani and Aubreyâs anniversary, or their own anniversary.
He doesnât know what to do right now, Indrid sitting and drawing while Joseph finishes changing the bandages on his tail. The one on his side came off a few days ago, scar tissue forming a jagged tooth of pink and white in his skin.Â
Duck swims in, greeting them all at once, his usually friendly expression somber.Â
âJoe, âDrid, could I talk to you in the kitchen? Itâll only be a minute.â
His boyfriends nod, assuring him theyâll be back even as they swim away. He wishes he could believe it, but he can think of only one reason Duck would need to talk to them alone. With a sad little groan, he rolls onto his uninjured side and pities himself to sleep.Â
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âYouâre sure thatâs the one?â
âPositive. Minerva had a near miss with it this mornin, described the exact same thing Barclay did. Speakin of which, we know theyâre down a few harpoons because the ones they sent after her she threw right back at them.â
âA fair response if ever there was one. Do we all agree on the plan?â
âYepâ
âYes.â
âGoodâ A smile that could make a sea monster afraid, âthen let us begin.â
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Winthrop lounges on the deck of the Nemo as his guests and the hired guides mill around the edges of the boat. After that run-in with the mermaid earlier today, theyâre on pins and needles, hoping to see and (finally) catch another.Â
Is poaching in a protected cove illegal? Only if you donât have the money to pay the fine. Is it wrong to hunt the rare creatures that call this stretch of ocean home? Wrong is a deeply subjective concept.Â
Warmth leaves the deck as clouds swirl above the sun.Â
âI say, wasnât it sunny a moment ago?â
âYep. Could be again, provided yâall head to shore and never come back here.â A voice calls from the bow.Â
Everyone races forward, shouting in excitement when they discover the merman addressing them with an oddly calm expression.
âDonât even think about tryin to spear me. You ainât the only ones with weapons.â
A second mer surfaces, armed with a spear gun he clearly knows how to use.Â
âJoeâs a damn good shot.â
The other mer fixes them with a steely gaze, âThis is your last warning. Leave this cove and never try to hunt here again.â
âOr what?â
The whole boar rocks as something massive bumps the underside. Screams draw his attention to the silver, serpentine shape gliding through the water. A red fin breaks the surface and then itâs gone.Â
Then the boat nearly capsizes as it rams the port side. In the darkening waves, the monster turns itâs head to look up at them. Itâs red eye is the size of a steering wheel, but he forgets all about that when the creature rears up, jaws snapping, and narrowly misses dragging his wife off the boat between butcher-knife teeth.Â
âOur friend here is mighty angry with youâ the first merman rubs the monster's fin as it swims by him, âin fact, heâs downright furious.â
âAnd it looks like heâs decided to build up some speed before hitting you this time. I donât think your boat will survive that amount of force.â
âAlright, alright weâll leave, weâll go and never come back.â
A hissing screech from the monster.Â
âWe swear!â He says, really meaning it this time.Â
The first merman points towards shore, âthen get goinâ.â
The boat speeds away, and Winthrop decides to never, ever look back.Â
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âThat was fuckin incredible darlinââ
âThank youâ Indrid returns to his usual form, groggy but pleased, âyou were both wonderful as well.â
âNever been happier that youâre so into workin out how human machines operateâ Duck kisses Joseph hard, one of Indridâs favorite sights in the whole of the sea.
 âIf you like how I handle a spear gun, you should see how I handle, um, other things.â
âI amâ Indrid yawns, âin favor of that idea. But first, I believe I am due for a nap, and Barclay is due for an update.â
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âYou did all that for me?â Barclay twists his fingers in the blanket beneath him, trying to sound pleasantly surprised instead of confused. From the look Joseph and Duck trade, heâs doing a shit job.Â
âWell, technically we also did it to keep the reef safe from hunters, and hopefully start a legend that will keep any like-minded poachers from coming within fifty miles of our home. Or our family. And yes, dearest, that includes you.â In the darkened bedroom, deep purple shimmers up Indridâs tail. A signal to obey.
âI, I never said it didnât.â
âYes, but it has been on your mind for weeks.â
âIâŠâ
âBarclayâ Joseph settles beside him, taking his hand, âIndrid told us about what you two were taught about needing care or being helpless. I, we, none of us want you thinking thatâs what will happen here. I promise.â
He doesnât realize heâs crying, not until Indrid whispers âhush now, dear oneâ and carefully rests their tails together so that the wound is left untouched.
âI, I thought saying it would make it worse. Make you think I needed reassurance, which would just make it clear how useless I am. I, I know that sounds ridiculous.â
âItâs not ridiculous to feel vulnerable or scared after something traumatic.â Joseph traces his fingers up and down his arm and his scales ripple in reply.Â
âNor to feel off-balance when you are unable to do what you usually do.â
âBut you gotta tell us next time.â Duck rests next to Joseph, âwe care about you, all three of us, but we canât help if we donât know whatâs wrong.â
He flashes apologetic yellow, âYouâre right. Iâll, Iâm gonna try to be better about that. Itâs just hard for me to let other mers take care of me sometimes.â
The purple returns to Indridâs tail, and when he turns to look at Barclay his smile is no longer gentle and ethereal. Itâs almost tangible enough to slice his chest and send everything he wants pouring onto the bed.Â
âIt seems to me, my dear one, that you could use some practice in that area.â
âYesâ he murmurs, then yips when Indrid bites his throat, âI mean yes, sir.â
âMuch better. After all, your convalescence has made such things difficult until now. And yes, Joseph, I will keep an eye on the futures to be certain no one is hurt. Speaking of which: Duck, please adjust so Barclayâs head is in your lap. Youâll need to hold his shoulders down should he try and disobey me.â
A shift of the bed and then his head rests on mottled green scales.Â
âHeyâ He smiles up and Duck sends a crooked grin his way, setting more pink off in his tail. He may not want to fuck him, but Barclayâs not about to deny how handsome Duck can be.
This rumination distracts him from Indrid and Josephâs conversation, so heâs pleasantly surprised when the black-tailed mer catches his lips in a kiss. Itâs precise, down with calculated care that always makes him feel like the most interesting, important thing in the world.Â
âThatâs it big guy, relax for us.â
âIâ, Iâm tryINGfuck, itâs, itâs kinda hard when Indrid is doing that.â
Indrid chuckles, continues teasing the scales in his upper tail, âShall I stop?â
âNo, please no-â
âPlease what?â His slit opens at the steel in Indridâs voice.Â
âPlease sir.â
âGood boy. Ah, and hereâs that lovely cock of yours. What shall I do with it, hmmm?â
âAnything you want sir.â He tries not to giggle as Joseph nibbles his ear.
âI was not asking you.â Indrid cocks his head at Duck.
âHuhâ Duck toys with Barclays hair, âthink I wanna see you suck it. Been too damn long since you had a dick in your mouth that wasnât mine.â
Indrid licks his lips and then Barclayâs moans fill the bedroom as his boyfriend lovingly sucks the head of his cock.Â
âIs now the time to mention he sucked me off yesterday while you were at work?â Joseph smiles up at Duck, though his hand is busy teasing Barclayâs nipples.Â
Duck growls, âand you didnât even give an encore where I could watch. Mighty rude of you. Both of you.â
âDonât blame meâ Indrid jerks Barclay off with one hand and fingers his slit with the other, âyou know how needy our pet gets.â
âTrue. Guess Iâll have to put him in his place.â Duck looks down at Barclay, gaze soft in spite of his tone, ânot tonight though. Tonight his job is to take care of you.â
âSpeaking of whichâ Joseph turns his face into another kiss just as Indridâs mouth envelopes his cock once again. He moans and whimpers between those perfect lips, a month of not even being able to touch himself meaning his body is already being dragged towards orgasm. His hand finds Josephâs tail, petting it enticingly.Â
âIf you AHnnnfuck, lay perpendicular babe, I can suck you off without hurting myself.â
Joseph glances at Indrid, who pulls off of Barclayâs cock and shakes his head, âNot tonight, dearest.â
He whimpers, tries to lift his head, use his tongue to tease Josephâs retreating tail, only or Duck to hold him firmly in place.Â
âI know, sweet one, you do so love being inside our pet, whether with that talented tongue, those skillful hands, or this sinful thing.â He gives a final jerk, then uses his tail to guide Joseph into his former position, âAnd I would never deny you that pleasure. Heâs such a good little pet after all.â He kisses Joseph posessively, then glides behind him and sets his hands on his waist, âwhich is why I am going to fuck him on you. I will control his movements, so as to avoid aggravating your injury.â
âAnd because you get off on it.â Duck adds.
âThat too.â
âAHfuck!â Barclayâs whole tail lights up purple for an instant as Indrid shoves Joseph down onto his cock. He might submit to Indrid, but Joseph is the mer in the sea he most wants to claim, to fuck until heâs begging for more.
âNghnshit, shit thatâs so good big guy, fuck I missed this.â
âAhem.âÂ
âThank you Indridoh, ohohohohfuck.â Josephâs hands scrabble on Barclayâs tail as Indrid bounces him up and down. He looks so handsome like this, cock hard and slit swallowing Barclay to the hilt, dark hair loose and framing his head like a crown.Â
Barclay reaches for him, desperate for a touch, but Duck holds him down.
âThank you, love, if he had moved just then he would have hurt himself.â
âDonât careâ Barclay growlwhines, âJoseph, babe, wanna touch you so bad.â
âYouâll get to, big guy, thereâll be plenty of chances after this.â
He growls, teeth clenched as the riptide of his orgasm pulls at him.Â
âItâs okay big fella, you can let go. Weâve got you.â Duckâs voice, as soothing as the hand he scritches down his scalp.Â
âFuckâ is all he gets out before Indrid pushes Joseph down and Barclay spurts up into him with moan.Â
âBetter, big guy?â Josephâs smile is as dazzling as ever.Â
âUh huh.â His bones are mud, his eyes heavy, and he feels better than he has all month.Â
âGood. Come, let me look you over and hold you. Duck and Joseph will join us shortly.â
âBut I thoughtAHfuckâ is all he hears before the sound of Duck frantically fucking Joseph fills one half of the room, his boyfriends moan switching from charming to mouthwatering as Duck keeps fucking him after heâs cum.Â
Indrid builds them a nest on the other side of the bed, guides him into it to comb his hair and rub his aching shoulders, humming as he does. Eventually, Duck swims over to join them, Joseph more floating than swimming in his embrace.Â
âHow do you feel, big guy?â
âGood. Really, really good.â He closes his eyes, safe in the knowledge that his home and family will still be his when he wakes up.
Then he opens them again.
âWait, so what the fuck did you actually do to the guy who harpooned me?â
#OT4: Government Men and Their Cryptid Boyfriends#mermay fills#indruck#sternclay#inclay#agent stern/barclay/indrid cold/Duck newton#agent stern/duck newton
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If it's not to much trouble may i have a (male) host club matchup please. Im a Capricorn, my mbti type is infj-a/infj-a. I tend to be shy around new people but I can be somewhat loud around people who Im close to. My pronouns are she/her. I have long-ish length brown hair, green eyes, wear round glasses and have pale skin. I have a lot of freckles. My height is 5'0 I like to read books and also cook and bake food. Im not very athletic and im not a big fan if sports but I love to go roller/ice skating. I also have been playing the violin for 6 years. And I like to garden. I also like to watch nature/animal documentaries. I love animals and in planning on becoming a wildlife veterinarian. Some things I dislike are people who bend/ruin my books and people who talk over me when I try to speak. I hope this is ok, sorry if I spelt anything wrong. I hope im not bothering you :) also I hope the information I sent in is ok :)
[đ @armin-ocean-eyesâ requested one (1) regular Ouran High School Host Club matchup. I have just the ingredients for that! Sit tight while I get to work.đ]
Taurus INTJ-t here đâïžSo,,,,hi I guess! Also, since you are two (2) inches shorter than me, I am legally obligated to adopt and protect you. I apologize if I use gender neutral pronouns for you. Thatâs just my default!
Anyways, I have just the guy for you:
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đKaoru Hitachiinđ
(Please tell me this is Kaoru, gifs are stupid đđđ)
đ±Humble Beginningsđ±
You are the daughter of the C.E.O. of a successful publishing agency
You were no stranger to the wealthy lifestyle. But, your parents made it a point to not let you become vain, lazy, or unsympathetic to the human condition
Iâm not too sure if thereâs an actual term for this, but a thing I like to call âright-brained intellectualism" was emphasized in your household. Basically, the ability to classify complex human emotions and not only understand them. But, view them through the lenses of objectivity and abstract concepts (Hence, the âright-brainedâ part)
The goal was to instill curiosity in you to explore how different personalities act in different situations and why. This could ultimately help you guide your social interactions in the future
(Forgive me if I'm speaking over your head! This information serves a purpose I promise!)
So, essentially super-charged EQ
But, here's where it comes in handy:
Due to your reserved tendencies, you weren't that high on Ouran's social ladder. Especially in middle school. You tried your best not to pay that fact any mind, reminding yourself to always pack an extra novel in case you finished your current one during the day
But, the (sort of) benefit to having so much time on your own, was that you had plenty of time to observe the students around you. Their actions, quirks, and relationships
Two particular oddballs caught your eye
Brothers. Identical twins that seemed to want no company than that of each other
You knew they had names. You knew what they were. But, not being able to pin a name to an identical face made that fact lose meaning
They didn't have any friends (Which wasn't a hyperbole). But, neither of them seemed shy, like you were
Rather, they were the asocial types. And you saw secondhand that they went out of their way to keep their little world for only them
You had accidentally seen one day what they did to girls that dared to confess their feelings for one twin. And that only reaffirmed that trying to figure out why the Hitachiins acted the way they did was too much pressure for your meek little heart
But...still.
There weren't any surface level answers to reach for that could calm your curiosities (Other than just passing the Hitachiins off as jerks and moving on). You could tell their reasoning was much more complex
And that. Frustrated you
To ease your mind, you wanted to start off small: Learn which is Hikaru, and which is Kaoru
One day, just before the lunch period started, you had finished your current novel. But, when you reached for the extra book in your bag, it had âšvanishedâš
You panicked a bit. You knew you packed the book. You re-checked earlier in the day!
The teacher unfortunately noticed you looking around like a lost puppy, asking what was wrong
"Mm?? Oh- uh...I just lost my book. It's, y'know, it's fine! I'll just...look for it later..."
The teacher didn't pick up on how embarrassed you were, asking the class if someone wanted to help you look
You were surprised when someone actually raised their hand
And just your luck, it was one of the twins, who turned to his brother and reassured him that they'd see each other at lunch
You (lowkey paralyzed by fear) followed the Hitachiin's lead, waiting until the rest of the class had left the room to begin your search
But, as you started to sift through the shelves in the back, you felt the boy tap your shoulder
And there it was in his hand, the first edition book on botany you had gotten for your birthday not too long ago
"You...you found it already??"
He rubbed the back of his neck, more bashful than you would've pegged him for
"Kind of� I took it during class. I thought your reaction would be funny, but it was sort of just hard to look at. It would've just been cruel to embarrass you more in front of everyone."
"Oh...well, thanks for telling me at least."
The boy raised an eyebrow, your reactions catching him off guard once more
"You're not mad?"
"Not really. You realized your mistake and that's more than some can say. So, I can forgive that."
"Hm...well, I should get going. I can't keep him waiting!"
Before he left, you called out to him, asking for his name
"Hm? Kaoru."
đłFlourishing Loveđł
The start of you and Kaoru's romantic relationship actually began in high school
The (in)famously idealistic Tamaki Suoh had approached you, Hikaru, and Kaoru to be a part of his new "host club". The twins as a part of the service, you as the manager (To garner male financial support, of course :D)
Since you weren't involved in a club anyway, you agreed to join next semester for your first year of high school
Once Haruhi came into the picture, you became fast friends. Seeing as you were both practical souls, if not intellectual
Through your friendship with Haruhi, you got closer to the twins you were so afraid of all that time ago
Especially Kaoru, the twin you had spoken to first
Both of your crushes formed rather fast as you got to know each other personally (And since Hikaru was already starting to take interest in Haruhi)
Kaoru had fallen for the way you never made face-value judgements of people. Like how you were so understanding about his dumb prank on you just last year
He learned to love the bright rays of passion that shone through your timid exterior. The way you talked about the things you loved like they were the greatest things in the world. You always made your case with such conviction, and Kaoru couldn't help but believe you all the way
You, Haruhi, Hikaru, and Kaoru were hanging out in the courtyard one day, and Kaoru had managed to get you to talk about the flora and fauna in the area (Which quickly segwayed into how you loved gardening and caring for animals)
All the while, Kaoru intently listened, staring at you like you were the only person in the world
During a pause in your avid canine classification spree, Kaoru picked up a few cornflowers that had fallen from a bush, putting them in your hair and behind your ear
While you were blushing up a storm, Kaoru bluntly, but sweetly, confessed
Hikaru and Haruhi looked on, endeared that the two sweetest souls in their little group had finally gotten together
In your relationship, you manage to draw out the more relaxed and mature side of Kaoru's personality
(Though, you always get a good laugh out of his more cunning and mischievous side)
You always affirm to him that he can enjoy both sides of being a twin, and being his own unique person. He doesn't necessarily have to choose
Kaoru definitely takes advantage of your height difference, using you as an armrest at the most inopportune times
He loves to kiss each and every one of your freckles (At least, on your face and neck). No matter what you think of them, he sees them as little targets to go for when he wants to shower you with love
But, like a respectful boy, he always lets you take off your glasses first if you need to
You guys went ice skating for your first date! Since it was your hobby, you paid for skating, and Kaoru paid for food afterwards. Kaoru knew how to skate, but pretended not to so he could have an excuse to hold your hands
Kaoru found out about your violin training later in the relationship, immediately teasing you about playing for one of the host club's sessions at some point
He has undoubtedly picked up a disturbing amount of animal facts from you and the documentaries you watch. He shares them with the host club to get disgusted reactions from them, and flattered smiles from you đ
Y'all are just so freaking cute together, I need to chug salt to get the sweetness out of my mouth â€ïž
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[đ There you go bud! Thatâs one matchup for the road. Hopefully it lasts for a while, but if it doesnât, feel free to come back! Iâd be thrilled to see you again.đ] âReagan
#caravan commodities#special bindles#matchup#armin-ocean-eyes.traveler#armin-ocean-eyes.request#ouran high school host club#ohshc matchup#ohshc matchups#kaoru x reader#kaoru hitachiin x reader#this one got away from me a bit đ
#not me never ending up using pronouns or gendered terms đ#except for daughter but still#hope you like it!!!
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Xu Mo and Loneliness [Character Study]
Surprise! It's essay time again á( á )á! Disclaimer: I use CN translations because Elex...
One (of the many) things I love about Xu Mo's character is his juxtapositions [Character Study]. He is one of the loneliest men in the world due to his archetype and nature [Into Your World] but also the most susceptible to loneliness.
Throughout the game, he's dropped hints about his fear of being left behind:
"... But the sensitive artist was also afraid the butterfly would one day grow tired of being beside him, and so he thought about catching the butterfly and putting it in a glass jar. Like this, the butterfly would never be able to leave him." [Drowning in Love SSR - Artist and Butterfly Call]
"... But if I really did encounter the one and only color in my life, then I certainly wouldn't let them go." [Drowning in Love SSR - The Only Color Call]
"... No matter what the truth may be, I'll always be with you. Until the very moment it arrives... I just hope that, at that time, you won't want to push me away." [CH12 - Truth and False Call]
MC: Don't worry, I'll be alright on my own. Xu Mo: But I'm not alright alone. [CH13.4]
But, at the same time, he's accepted the adage that "'tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all":
"The grain, which is also golden, will bring me back the thought of you. And I shall love to listen to the wind in the wheat." [CH9.14]
Just to expand on this for those who are unfamiliar with The Little Prince story, when the Little Prince is going to leave the fox, the fox says that it is going to cry. The Little Prince feels that his taming of the fox has done it no good at all, because now it's hurt, but the fox denies this because now it has the color of the wheat fields.
"Since she was willing to gently embrace all that he was, then why not accept this pain in his heart that was caused by her alone." [Overseas Date]
"Forget it, he'll just be foolish once more with this foolish girl." [True Love Date]
One other aspect of his juxtapositions is how his wants and needs are in conflict and I think people are naturally picking up on this, which is why he's viewed as having a really intense relationship with the MC.
I'm just going to define my words in this context to make things clearer but a "want" is your desire in life, while a "need" is your raison d'etre, essentially your reason for living and your goal in life. It's not necessary for all stories or characters to have this, but they're certainly more captivating with this. (As an aside, Zhou Qiluo has this going for him too while Li Zeyan and Bai Qi do not... and maybe why Bai Qi keeps getting hit with the vanilla and boring label LOL).
So, what does Xu Mo want? To love the MC and, as a byproduct, never be alone again. What does he need? The continuing survival (and evolution) of humankind, even if that means walking a path that will leave people behind him and end with him being alone.
This internal conflict is something we see again and again in the game:
[CH13] He reveals his identity to her as Ares, but lets her go. He even sacrifices his eye and the ability to see her color.
[CH16] They're "enemies" and they draw a clear line between them at the news conference, but he then saves her and returns her home. He sacrifices their experience together in the dream world and his answer to her question about whether or not he'd even offer up the person important to him for his goals.
âBefore I met you, I would be annoyed at the pace of the people with me. Everyone has their own destination and a person walking by themselves would be quicker. Mm, this isn't a good custom. But on my path, whenever I turn my head back, I would always find that you had already caught up to my side. This time as well. Perhaps, in this world, you're the only person who can make me unable to resist looking back. Or perhaps you're the only person who can reach my side again and again. So, in the future, I won't let go anymore. On this day, next year, you'll be at my side too.â [2019 (2nd) Birthday Call]
Now, the entire reason I wrote up this postâLOL. I'm actually half-serious because his [Endless Path Date] is amazing in how they distilled his character to one of his core themes and represented that facet entirely in this AU date.
I'm going to be jumping around chronologically in the date to show how he was in the past, to the present before MC regained her memories, to after she regained her memories.
PAST
Xu Mo: I hope you don't regret the choice you made this day.
MC: ... I admit I hate them, but I don't wish to be the same as them because of this.
MC: I don't want to become a murderous demon.
Xu Mo seemed to be a bit surprised and then, after a few seconds, the crimson in his eyes faded and became a calm purple, scrutinizing me.
Xu Mo: A murderous demon... Do you believe that I am one as well?
His voice carried a smile, but I felt a formless pressure and sense of terror surround me and I shuddered.
MC: You aren't. You saved me.
Although the way was to turn me into a vampire... in a sense, he gave me a "new life".
Xu Mo: Save? It appears that, in your understanding, when vampires are hunting for food they are saving people.
MC: I'm just being factual. Also, the word "hunting"...
The corner of Xu Mo's lips pulled up.
Xu Mo: There's no rush. In the future, you will experience for yourself whether or not the word I used is accurate.
I was stunned and suddenly remembered the thirst towards fresh blood in that hut earlier which had dominated me.
Xu Mo seemed to have no intention of bothering himself with me again and turned around, preparing to leave.
MC: Um... please wait a moment.
He silently looked back, his expression indifferent and cold under the moonlight.
I summoned up my courage and looked straight at Xu Mo.
MC: Can... can you give me your blood?
MC: I heard that this was the only way to become a true vampire; they won't have to drink blood and they won't lose their reasoning, so...
Xu Mo: So I have to answer your request?
Xu Mo interrupted me, as if he heard something laughable.
Xu Mo: Vampires are not gods who never refuse a request. Or is it that all humans are such selfish creatures?
MC: N-not at all! In exchange, I can...
The wind blew through, rustling the leaves of the trees. Xu Mo calmly listened to my words and was silent for a long while before he lightly sighed, but it also seemed like a laugh.
Xu Mo: Alright, I agree.
Under the moonlight, the hand that was held out to me was pale and slender. I took a step forward and also stretched out my handâ
PRESENT
Xu Mo blinked, slowly without hurry, and swept his eyes over in my direction.
He saw me and didn't appear to be surprised at all; instead, it was like he knew I was there all along, witnessing everything.
His smile wasn't anything different from usual and even the way he set down his glass and held out his hand to me was like that day, two years ago.
Xu Mo: [MC], you came.
The color of crimson blurred my vision and the smell of blood was like a wave threatening to engulf me.
I felt like breathing was difficult and my legs were unsteady; I could only lean against the wall.
Xu Mo saw that I didn't move and walked directly over to me. It was as if everything around him had no effect on him and those two crimson eyes reflected only my figure.
He came to me like this, step by step, and the strange thing was... that I actually didn't feel any fear.
He raised a hand to support me and this let me see his eyes clearly. There seemed to be a faint worry in them.
FUTURE
Xu Mo: Do you remember everything?
A gentle voice landed beside my ear and, as I recalled the scenes of that night, I looked at Xu Mo and mumbled.
MC: I promised you that, no matter how long, I would always...
He blinked and those crimson eyes crumbled into purple, a faint smile appearing in them.
Xu Mo: Mm, you said you would be at my side forever.
The reason I transcribed these three scenes is because they're so good at showing his assumed indifference, to how fast he caved into the temptation of not being alone, to how he continues to hold this hope despite MC having "broken their promise", to the future where they get to walk in an endless night together forever.
IT'S SO GOOD. I'm a sucker for immortality concepts and PG nailed this vampire version so well; his ancientness in the past, the longing for companionship, and then the sharing of a life.
Anyway, I was actually going to post this essay after I read his newest Halloween card because, after seeing he was an exiled prince with Snow White themes, my guess was that it was going to have a heavy and explicit theme about loneliness again.
But I got impatient seeing as how I have to wait until the end of the event to redeem him. So, I guess I'm throwing it out there that this is my prediction??? For those who have read that date, you can tell me if I'm hot or cold LOL. I'm going to look like a fool yelling about loneliness themes if that isn't the case this time though.
MIMICRY
Semi-switching gears and bringing back my [Into Your World] post, I just want to add that in addition to being so intensely curious about the MC's world and trying to understand her, I've noticed that MC and Xu Mo share something pretty unique to them that's less obvious with the others.
This is the mimicry that they do to each other.
There's been psychological studies that looked into the social aspects of mimicry (Baaren et al 2009) and mimicry and attraction in romantic relationships (Nicolas Gueguen 2009). In short, mimicking someone appears to promote social harmony, comfort, and trust in the other person; it can also make you more attractive to them LOL.
I really don't think Xu Mo is doing this intentionally and that, instead, this supports his (alienated) scholar archetype, his hobby of people watching, and trying to understand the MC's world. The same goes for MC, she wants to understand his world and a part of that is experiencing things in his way.
The reason I believe this is less obvious (if at all apparent) with the others is because, when I compare Xu Mo's dates to Bai Qi dates, all of Bai Qiâs dates are more like experiencing activities together, which Xu Mo has as well, ex. [Winery Date], [Sunrise Date], [Hot Spring Date], etc.
But Xu Mo has dates where they specifically mimic each other, such as:
[Blossom Date] He covers her eyes, she then covers his eyes.
[Archery Date] Technically, he teaches her but after he gets bull's-eye, she copies the form he taught her and also gets bull's-eye.
[New Year's Eve] He gets taught and mimics the way she makes dumplings.
[Qixi 2018 Mini Story] He and the kids ended up copying the MC's flying fish.
[Rainy Night Date] The flashback about how she folded origami cranes and then taught him and they make strings of them.
They alsoâand this I swear is unique solely to Xu Moâmimic each other's words or sentence structures and phrases:
[Blossom Date] Tao Yao poem and how they quoted it back at each other, essentially finishing each other's stanza.
[Endless Path Date] The beginning of the dates shows an inside joke between them where MC tries to ask Xu Mo difficult questions to stump him, because he can see through her. But he guesses the herbs she bought by the smell on her fingers. Later on, she guesses that he's going to a party based on his use of the cologne she made him and which he only uses for parties. She explicitly brings up the beginning and how she can deduce things about him too via scent.
[CH13.15] Xu Mo quotes 1 Corinthians 13:12 at MC and [CH16.12] MC quotes 1 Corinthians 13:2 at him.
[CH16.12] During the conference, MC literally quotes the words he said to her [CH13.17] back at him to go against him.
[Dumbstruck Date] Heck, this whole date was MC repeating words that the original Xu Mo said to her and making Winter!Xu Mo jealous as heck LOL.
Throughout the story, where MC draws her strength from how the other men are as people (Li Zeyan's stability and permanence, Bai Qiâs core of justice, etc.), she seems to draw extensively on the words Xu Mo has said to her, or references to the same body of literature.
EDIT: Forgot to mention, but IMO this is why he reacts the worst out of all the men to MCâs disappearance in Chapter 25+.
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The Miys, Ch. 107
Happy Tuesday, time for a new chapter!
Writing authorâs notes three weeks in advance is hard, I am realizing. However I am reasonably sure if I wait to write this note, I will forget, because Tuesdays are insane at work.
So, quickly: shout out to @baelpenroseâ for being my beta, as always. Also, thank you to @charlylimph-blogâ and @zommbiebroâ, for the characters in this chapter.
I hope you all enjoy!!
I had to admit, as I laughed at Charlyâs face when she stole a bite of my food, that Huynh - and therefore Jokul - had a point about eating in the cafeteria/mess regularly. Today, I had taken a page out of his book, and decided on my lunch based on what someone else was eating that looked good when I walked in. No matter how the dish ended up being, the smile on the face of a random stranger when I stopped and told them their food looked good, along with asking if I could get some from the console, made my day.
Which was good, because it was the oddest fish pie I had ever eaten. In general, I neither hated nor loved fish pie - I needed to either have a request or a craving to make it, usually. However, when I originally saw it as I entered the mess, I saw flaky crust, meat, veggies, and a creamy sauce and called it a winner. I donât think Charly was expecting seafood in general when she took a bite, and I certainly hadnât been expecting scallops, even knowing I had gotten fish pie.
âThatâs⊠thatâs fish!â she sputtered, glaring at me in betrayal.
âItâs actually scallops,â I corrected, no less perplexed for that fact. âI was expecting mackerel and cod, or haddock. Thatâs what Conor always asks me to make, anyway.â
âBut itâs fish,â she insisted. âI thought it would be chicken.â
âItâs not bad,â I admitted, taking another bite. âJust caught me off guard.â
Shaking her head and scowling, she got up to get her own food, returning with an actual chicken pot pie. Just as she was hooking her arm around it protectively - either protecting it from me or from my lunch, who knew - a pillar of grey and silver stalked up to the table before plopping down miserably.Â
Now holding her pie over her head - to avoid being flanked? - Charly stared down, eyes wide. âMr. Bjornson?â she asked, bewildered.
Craning my neck, I realized she had a point, although the hair was somewhat dishevelled and the robes were wrinkled beyond anything I had seen him wearing previously. Not even Conor or I would wear clothes that creased, honestly. Hesitantly, I poked at him. âDid you just decide to die in front of my food?â I asked, skeptical. âLast time you interrupted my lunch, you were being kidnapped.â
Alarmingly, Jokul sat up, eyes red, sniffling back tears. âHe wonât talk to meâŠâ
Both Charly and I jerked back, surprised. Recovering faster, I carefully ventured a question. âYou mean Ivan?â
Rather than answer out loud, Jokul gave a bigger sniff and nodded emphatically.
I was so not prepared to have this conversation, but I tried anyway. âIs everything⊠I guess, okay, for lack of a better term?â
âHe works so much,â came the plaintive response. âHeâs so tired all the time, and Iâm trying to adjust to everyone looking at me funny andâŠâ He stopped, tears rolling again, biting his lip in what looked like an effort to gain control.
âAnd?â Charly asked, setting her lunch down and carefully reaching to put a hand on his forearm.
âAndIdonthaveanyoneelsetotalktonowbecauseIrealizedIdontactuallyhaveany friennnnnnnds,â he blurted out quietly, the last part on a barely-constrained sob. I had to give him credit for trying to draw as little attention as possible while talking about something that was clearly a difficult subject.
âOh, thatâs bullshit,â Charly sighed softly, shaking her head. âRight, Sophia?â
I rocked my head a bit, thinking about it. âI meanâŠ. I donât know about friends, per se - â Charly glared and kicked me hard enough to drive the breath out of me. âHey! Cut me some slack?â
âIâm the one who got the punch,â she scolded, stroking his hair and carefully detangling it.
Fair. âEarning friendships may take some time,â I admitted. âBut that doesnât mean you canât talk to anyone about whatâs going on, you know.â
âWho, Councillor?â he demanded sadly. âWho do I have to talk to?â
âWell, you clearly thought I was a good idea - Ow, Charly!â Rubbing my shin, I continued. âLike I was saying, though. It kind of depends on what it is you want to talk about. If itâs struggling to come back from a negative public image⊠Simon, hands down, is the best person for that.â
Thankfully, Jokul went from looking despondent to confused. âSimon Rodriguez?â
Charly and I both nodded hard enough to pop our necks. âHe was a complete ass when I boarded. I actually tried to kill him, and so did Tyche. He can tell you the details, but in the end, he made the effort to be a better neighbor, and now heâs an amazing educator whose students adore him.â
âArthur Farro was a warlord, however,â Jokul tried to object. âWould he not be a better source of insight?â
âAbsolutely not,â Charly responded before I could draw a breath, shooting the idea down instantly. âMr. Farro doesnât care what other people think of him, beyond making sure they arenât trying to kill him too actively. He adheres to social etiquette in most cases, but itâs not for his own sake, more for the sake of those associated with him. Does he care if heâs trustworthy? Absolutely. LikeableâŠ...â She winced as she trailed off, hand tipping in an âehâ gesture.
âWhich is why he wasnât bothered in the least when you wanted a fight,â I pointed out, trying to draw the points together. âWhereas Simon didnât realize how poorly people thought of him, and as soon as he did, he took steps to change it, even when it was hard. So definitely start there if you need guidance.â
âI will endeavor to do so,â Jokul nodded before his expression dropped again. âBut what about Ivan?â
âThere is nothing about him being tired that makes his ears malfunction,â I heard myself say. What? Why? Why was I doing this? âNo matter how tired I am, my ear still works, and I can still listen to Conor and Maverick about their days. And sometimes thatâs all thatâs needed. Mutual bitching about a bad day is⊠pretty normal, actual.â
He sat up, paling, with a horrified expression on his face. âOh dear gods, how do you manage two?!â
Charly and I traded glances of confusion before looking back at the distraught man who was slowly inching fingers toward my fish pie. I nodded to Charly, who wrinkled her nose and got up to grab him some food, while I addressed the former cult leader. âItâs usually easier than just one,â I confessed. âIf one of us is too tired or sick, thereâs always someone who can pinch hit.â I wasnât about to admit that it was also made easier by the massive family I had acquired during my time on the Ark. That was the last thing he needed to hear. Softening slightly, I tilted my head and placed my hand on his arm. âJokul, do you really not have any friends, anymore? What about⊠the ginger kid. I never got his name.â
âWilliam,â Jokul spat with more force than I had seen since the day we met, catching me completely off guard. âA sycophant. He almost immediately asked what my plans were to continue forward with âour plansâ.â The air quotes were a nice touch, but his face was nothing but sour. âI had to report him to Councillor Kalloe,â he confessed, face falling into a frown.
âOh, wow,â I murmured. âOkay then. We need to figure out how you can meet other people, I think.â I was barely able to resist the urge to hit myself in the face. We? Why was this a we thing all of a sudden?
Thankfully, Charly came back, nose wrinkled at a second portion of fish pie. As Jokul dug into it, she perked up slightly. âThe Undine! They have cultural events all the time! And! Andandandandand,â she started bouncing in her seat with each syllable. âIvan loves those events. Not only does he drum up a lot of work, but he also loves meeting new people! You can do a date thing!â
That was, by far, the most harmless suggestion Charly could have made, and I made a mental note to send her a candy-basket at some point. âPlus, if Ivan is there, Zach and Hannah should be, too. You met them, right?â
âDid I?â
I managed not to roll my eyes as I reminded him. âThe couple that were talking to Ivan the day you, um⊠met him?â
âOh!â he exclaimed, sitting up straighter. âHe mentioned they were friends of his!â
âLord bless it,â I laughed. âThose two are probably his closest friends, honestly. So, something like that would be both a chance to make friends and something you can do with Ivan!â And something that does not require me to adopt someone who recently did his best to be a pain in my ass.Â
âAnd you said I can still just⊠talk, to Ivan, when heâs too tired to do anything else?â
âYes?â I confirmed, slightly bewildered. âHe still cares, I would think. Keep in mind, he does manual labor for a living, by choice. If heâs too tired to move, he is probably physically incapable of moving. It would be like Conor coming home, showering, and flopping on the couch. Good luck moving him, just grab him a pillow and blanket.â
Jokul arched an eyebrow at me, recovering something resembling his former ego. âI am quite capable of carrying Ivan to a proper bed, thank you.â His face abruptly softened. âIâm just new at⊠thisâŠâ he waved his hand vaguely. âRelationships, during a time of peace, I suppose.â
Huh. That never occurred to me, actually. âHang on,â I thought out loud. âHave you had any portion of this conversation,â I frantically pointed between the three of us, âwith Ivan?â
âNot.. yet?â came the sheepish response.
âSir!â I sputtered. âIf you do not go home right now - take your pie with you! - and talk to your poorâŠ. Partner, boyfriend, whatever. If you donât talk to Ivan, I will give Arthur permission to re-administer the ass-whooping and deal with Ivan later over it!â
Rather than being offended, Jokul seemed to take the admonishment for what it was, and dashed off. Charly, breathless with laughter, managed to recover just enough to give me the stink eye. âDid you just give solid advice to your adversary?â
âI won! Sort of,â I argued. âBesides, anyone that upset about a romantic relationship deserves some kind of slack, right?â
âWere you really going to sic Mr. Farro on him?â
I groaned, burying my head in my hands. âThe less he knows about this entire interaction, the better. Iâll never hear the end of it.â And then, just as if my day could not possibly get any better, I heard a familiar, dry voice snark from behind me.Â
âThe less I know about what the better?â
Oh, hell.
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Restless and worried in the wee hours of the morning, Tony leaves home to clear his head and finds himself in a synagogue for the second time this week. {missing scene from 10x12 "Shiva" shortly after the death of Ziva's father}
Friend drabble project, this one for my babe @benditlikepress, who is a fantastic supporter and a wonderful friend. <3
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âA fine glass vase goes from treasure to trash, the moment it is broken. Fortunately, something else happens to you and me. Pick up your pieces. Then, help me gather mine.â
â Vera Nazarian, The Perpetual Calendar of InspirationÂ
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Tony closes the bedroom door behind him and returns to his makeshift bed on the floor outside the kitchen, tired and feeling heavy with borrowed grief. It comes as no surprise that Ziva dismissed him rather than choosing to talk about her feelings, but something about the way she looked before that, right when she woke upâŠÂ
Well, it has Tony feeling unsettled.Â
He doesnât go to sleep once he settles back onto the loaned inflatable mattress; his mind is too busy to relax, instead repeatedly mulling over possibilities and worries, stressing over solutions to problems that havenât yet been made entirely clear.Â
He needs to empty his head, get some clarity.Â
He texts Abby after another fifteen minutes of tossing and turning, and despite the late hour, he gets a quick reply⊠clearly, Tony is not the only team member still awake and worrying, and Abby agrees to his request without question.Â
He rises from the blow-up mattress and pulls on a coat over the sweats he wore to bed, then tugs on his running shoes. By the time Abby arrives, Tony is sitting on the stoop outside his apartment waiting for her.
âThanks for this,â he tells his friend, standing and clapping Abbyâs shoulder fondly.
âOf course. Has sheâŠ?â
âShe woke up with a nightmare, but as far as I know, she went back to sleep. Didnât tell her I was leaving.â
âHm. Iâm guessing you didnât tell her you called a babysitter, either, did you?â
âNope, and Iâm hoping she wonât wake up again to find out.â
âAlright. Well, Iâll keep an eye out.â
âThanks, Abbs. Iâm sure Ziva would be fine aloneâI mean, sheâs not even actually alone, Shmeilâs asleep on the couchâbut Gibbs would have my head if I just abandoned my post.â
âYou didnât call me âcause Gibbs was worried, Tony.â
Tony doesnât dignify that with a response. âIâll be back in an hour, two tops,â he says instead.
âBe careful.â
âYou, too.â Tony pauses, and then adds: âIf anything happens, if anyone shows up, Ziva can obviously hold her own, but⊠just in case you need it, thereâs a gun taped to the back of the toilet.â
They nod at each otherâthe heaviness of the weekâs events keeps even smartass Tony from making any jokesâand Abby slips into the apartment while Tony heads out of the building.Â
His feet tread a familiar path as he automatically settles into following his jogging route; itâs a good thing, too, because heâs not very focused on where heâs going. Instead, he lets his chaotic thoughts start to whir again, nudged toward organization by the mild distraction of exercise.Â
The urgency of the teamâs quiet investigation into Eliâs death has kept Tony from thinking too deeply about whatâs really concerning him here: Ziva, and everything that she must be feeling. Oh, he knows theyâll get to the bottom of the shooting at the Vance houseâthey always do, in the end. And heâs certain that theyâll get whoever is responsible for it. But for Ziva⊠None of this will ever be neatly tied up and boxed away for her, no matter how the investigation ends.Â
Tony has known for a long time that his partnerâs relationship with Eli isâwasâcomplicated at best. Until tonight, however, he had been focusing on what she told him when he found her after pinging her phone: she wants revenge. Of course, Ziva hadnât been lying then, and her words are undoubtedly still trueâbut her nightmare tells Tony that sheâs also just grieving. Sheâs hurting deeply, even if she wonât admit it to anyone other than herself. Maybe sheâs not admitting it to herself, either, though, and maybe thatâs part of the problem.Â
Tony can feel her slipping away. Rage and mourning are slowly eating away at her rationality, leaving behind someone whose behavior he canât predict. Heâs afraid of what sheâll do next.Â
That concerning thought is interrupted when something unexpectedly catches Tonyâs eye, drawing him back to where he is.
A few meters back from the sidewalk, tucked away in a large, darkened building, thereâs a single brightened window. Light passes through thick, translucent panes to spill onto the ground below, leaving on the grass a thin column of luminescence broken by only one thing: the shadow of an unlit menorah resting just on the other side of the glass.Â
The familiar shape makes something clear: whether by fate, coincidence, or simple subconscious choice, Tonyâs restless wandering has led him to a synagogue.
Heâs not sure why, but something about the place draws him inâmaybe itâs just a stronger-than-ever desire to understand Ziva. Whatever it is, though, it makes Tony leave the sidewalk, his feet passing noiselessly over a manicured lawn as he drifts closer to the window.
Inside, past the menorah, someone is visible. A man sits in profile, staring studiously down at an open book as he turns a page. Though itâs going on four in the morning and the rest of this particular sleepy neighborhood has been at rest for hours, something about this man seems⊠unhurried. Relaxed. Peaceful, even.
I could really use some peace right about now, Tony thinks.Â
Without letting himself consider all the reasons that he shouldnât, Tony turns to his left and bounds up the steps leading to the synagogueâs entrance. Then he knocks on one of its large doors.Â
For a moment, nothing happens. Then a face appears in the lit window that Tony can still partially see from where heâs standingâitâs the man who had been reading, and he looks at Tony in confusion.Â
Tony waves awkwardly, trying to look as non-threatening as possible, and after a pause of clear deliberation, the man in the window gestures something along the lines of âhold on a second.â He disappears from view, and shortly after, Tony can hear footsteps behind the door directly in front of him. Then thereâs the sound of a lock sliding free.Â
The door opens just a little. âGood evening. Can I help you?â
Tony isnât sure what to say without sounding insane, but he tries. âI, um, I was out walking, andâŠâ He sighs. âAre you a rabbi?â
âI am, yes.â
âAny chance we could talk? Like, now?â
Tony can dimly see the other man evaluating him and considering, and he finds himself really second guessing his impulsive decision to knock. To his surprise, though, the rabbi only pauses temporarily before opening the door further to admit him.Â
Tony sticks his hands awkwardly into his pockets and walks in, glancing around. This is not the same synagogue he found Ziva at recently, but even in the low lighting, he can tell that this one has a similar setup.Â
The rabbi interrupts Tonyâs musings by brushing past him after re-locking the thick door. âThis way,â the man requests softly. Then he leads Tony down a hall and into a large, almost cavernous room where Tony thinks services must take place. After motioning Tony into a pew, the rabbi sits down himself and looks at the restless agent expectantly. âOkay, we can talk here. Iâm Rabbi Aviyah Silvermanâyou can just call me Rabbi Avi. And you are?â
âTony DiNozzo.â
The rabbi nods. âAlright, Tony⊠whatâs on your mind?â
Tony shakes his head. âI donât even know,â he says, feeling displaced and wrong-footed. âI donât know what Iâm doing here. Iâm not even Jewish.â
âI could tell that the moment I saw you.â
âHow?â
Rabbi Avi smiles with a touch of humor at Tonyâs expense. âFor starters, youâre not wearing a kippah, but maybe more to the point, you look⊠very uncertain about being here.â
Tony laughs ruefullyâhe really canât argue with that astute observationâand he finds that the other manâs straightforwardness relaxes him a little. âYouâre not entirely off-base, I guess,â he admits. âBefore this, Iâve set foot in a synagogue maybe a handful of times in total.â
The rabbi dips his head again, looking thoughtful. âWell, something led you here. What were you thinking about when you decided to knock?â
âA friend.â
âWhat about them?â
âShe, ahâŠâ Tony hesitates and then sighs. âSheâs just going through something difficult. Iâm worried about her, and I donât know how to help.â
âHas she asked for your help?â
Tony snorts, trying to imagine that impossibility. âNo. Thatâs not really in her nature.â
Rabbi Avi lets out a quiet half-laugh. âWithout knowing exactly whatâs going on, thereâs a limit to how much advice I can give, but⊠let me say something general that I think you may need to hear.â
âAlright, shoot.â
âThere are things in this life that a person must face for themselvesâand by themselves. That isnât to say you should abandon your friends, but some demons live inside the mind, and sometimes, theyâre too personal to fight while someone else is watching.â
âSo you think I should just... leave her to it?â Tony asks, trying to work out the implications of the metaphor. âLet her deal with it alone?â
âNot at all. What Iâm suggesting is quite the opposite, actually.â
Tony frowns. âThen whatââ
âRemind her that youâre there for her! Even the battles we fight by ourselves leave us drained, right? If youâre up pacing the streets of Washington in the middle of the night because youâre so concerned, you must care about your friend. Feeling supported might give her the strength she needs to do what she has to do without you⊠so, tell her that when she finishes with whatever that is, she has you to fall back on.â
âShe knows.â
âMaybe she does, maybe she doesnât, but a reminder couldnât hurt.â
Tony finds all of this to be surprisingly logical, and he nods in agreement, staring up at a large Magen David hanging in a place of honor on the far wall and thinking of the one Ziva wears around her neck. âSurprised youâre not telling me to pray about it or something,â he jokes softly, his gaze and his thoughts still far away.
Rabbi Avi chuckles. âProselytizing isnât a very Jewish thing to do. Besides, no one ever walks in here looking to be told to pray.â
Tony smiles a little. âI wouldnât know how to, anyway. Zivaâmy friendâwould probably be able to teach me⊠She is Jewish.â
âI see why you ended up here, then.â Rabbi Avi reaches under his seat and pulls out a siddur, offering it to Tony. âIf you decide you want to try your hand at praying, this is full of prayers and blessings to choose from. What I think you really need, though, is some time alone in a quiet place to think.â He rises from his seat, and Tony pulls his eyes away from the unfamiliar text in his hands to look up at the other man. âMy office is down the hall on the right,â the rabbi continues. âIâll be in there if you need me, but if you donât, stay as long as youâd like.â
âThanks, Rabbi.â Tony offers a hand to shake, and Rabbi Avi accepts it.
âAny time. Youâre a good friend, Tony. Donât let yourself worry so much that you forget that.â
Tony isnât sure what to say to that, so he offers a small smile of appreciation. As the rabbi walks away and Tony glances back at the thick book in his hands, though, the sight of English text and Hebrew text lined up together offers sudden inspiration. âHey, Rabbi Avi?â
âYes?â The rabbi pauses just shy of the door they walked in through.Â
âHow do you say âyou are not aloneâ in Hebrew?â
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The sound of airplane engines fills Tonyâs ears as he walks slowly toward the tarmac; somewhere under those bright fluorescent lights, one of those planes is waiting to carry Ziva away.Â
Ziva herself stands back toward the gate, something making her linger even as she sends Shmeil on, and Tony, catching the tail end of the conversation, wonders what it is. Maybe itâs just dread for the tasks ahead of her, something Tony can understand.Â
âGo with him, Shmeil,â Ziva is saying as Tony walks up behind her. âI will be there in a moment.â
Shmeil, kind and good-natured as ever, brushes that off. âTake your time. Itâs a long flight. Besides,â he adds, making eye contact with a half-smiling Tony over Zivaâs shoulder, âI think someoneâs come to see you off.â
As Ziva turns, following her elderly friendâs gaze, Shmeil departs. Tony only has eyes for Ziva, though, noticing that sheâs entirely unsurprised to see that itâs him. âYou did not have to come,â she tells him quietly.
âWell, you always forget your gum and magazines when you fly, soâŠâ Tonyâs weak joke gets no more than the distant hint of a smile in return, so he stops trying for levity. âTheyâll find Bodnar, Ziva. Mossadâs looking, CIA, Navy Intel, Interpol... us.â He hopes that Ziva understands just how much support and care and promise is hidden in that last word.
Us.Â
Whether his intent is clear to her or not, though, Ziva doesnât say anything back.
âShmeilâs got your back,â Tony tries againâanything to engage her. He gives her a smile. âShmeil, the man of steel.âÂ
Still, Ziva doesnât speak. Her expression, carefully neutral, doesnât shift, either. That more than anything else worries Tony... Ziva hasnât always been overly impressed by his often childish sense of humor over the years, but rarely has she failed to react at all. This time, she doesnât laugh; she doesnât huff; she doesnât even roll her eyes. Itâs almost like something is weighing on her so heavily now that the effort of rising to his bait is beyond her capabilities.
Itâs like something inside her has broken under the heaviness of grief and of expectation.Â
Swallowing back a deep, bone-aching worry for his friend, Tony sighs, unable to stop himself. âDonât do this,â he begs, his voice dropping to a whisper, and he finally gets a response out of Ziva.Â
âI am going to a funeral, Tony,â she informs him with a slight nod, as if he doesnât already know. âI am delivering my fatherâs eulogy.âÂ
Thatâs as clear an answer as any, and itâs probably all that Tony is going to getâsheâs shutting him out again, and no matter how she felt about her father while he was alive, she will do what she must. Itâs time to give it up, to stop fighting her or trying to help her.Â
Itâs time to follow Rabbi Aviâs advice and just⊠be whatever Ziva needs him to be.Â
He can do that. âHowâs this for a⊠an opening line: âHe did it his way,ââ he suggests wryly.
Ziva studies Tonyâs face, and a small amount of the tension in her body seems to release. Thatâs enough to tell Tony that heâs doing the right thing. âMy father was, um⊠not an easy man to understand, and yetâŠâ Finally, she smiles a little.
âComplicated runs in the family,â Tony concludes.
Ziva hesitates, looking away for a few beats. âTony, IâŠâ She trails off rather than finishing, but she meets his eye again.
âWhat?â
He has rarely seen Ziva as vulnerable as she is then⊠Her lips twitch briefly, forming words that remain unspoken, and her eyes are a little too bright to be empty of tears; a smile emerges and then fades above her trembling chin as she fights for something intangible. In the end, though, her obvious struggle draws to a close when she reaches up to hug her partner tightly.Â
Tonyâs arms raise automatically to hold her back; her face presses so securely against his neck that he can feel it in her cheek when she smiles. This embrace alone, secure and trusting and intimate, might be nearly enough to knock his breath out, but then an unanticipated thought pops into his head and threatens to steal his breath entirelyâŠ
He loves her.Â
The realization, though unexpected, doesnât come as a shock. Of course he loves Ziva, even if he has never stopped to think about it. Sheâs his best friend and has been for a very long time.Â
Tony wonât do her the disservice of telling her now, though. She has enough on her plate without having to field any heartfelt confessions tonight.
Instead, Tony tells her something that means the same thing.
âAt lo levad.â
You are not alone.
Ziva tightens her embrace for a fleeting moment before releasing Tony and stepping back. Thereâs a smile on her face and tears in her eyes, and when she answers in a whisper, Tony thinks she might understand what he meant by it.Â
âI know.â
Not waiting for Tony to say anything else, Ziva turns away, heading purposefully toward the plane carrying her fatherâs body; then sheâs gone.Â
Still and quiet, Tony stares after her, worrying about her and missing her already.
He doesnât turn back until her plane has disappeared into the dark sky, long out of sight.
#ncis fanfiction#ncis#tiva#tony dinozzo#ziva david#cynthia writes stuff too#it's not as long or as beautiful as what you've written for me jess#but soft and bittersweet tiva feels always make me think of you!#also i originally thought this was gonna be under 1k words#what a clown i am lmao#friend drabble project#love u jess <3
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Arthurâs Angels Chapter 1: Meet the Angels
Pairings: Dean x Jayna Brandon (OFC), Sam x Maggie Parker (OFC). Other Characters: Gabriel, Arthur Ketch
Warnings: show-level violence
Word Count: 4900+
Authors Note: This started out as a birthday gift of sorts to my good friend, @MissyIsSassy1. Jayna is her character, so anything about her is Missy, while Maggie is my character, and anything about her is me. Donât look at me, I just write stuff.
Summary: Jayna and Maggie are employed by the mysterious Arthur Ketch to hunt the supernatural. They have never met Mr. Ketch in person, and receive their assignments via speakerphone briefings. Still, they do their job, and theyâre damn good at it. See what happens when their path crosses with the Winchesters.....
Authorâs Note 2: Iâm not sure how many parts this will have, I guess as many as people are willing to read. If you want to be tagged in this series or have any requests, please let me know. Thank you for reading, enjoy!
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"Okay, weapons check?" Jayna said to her partner, Maggie. The two of them were on assignment, going up against a nest of vampires. No way that either of them wanted to be caught in a fight without adequate weapons support.
"Machete, freshly sharpened," Maggie said, patting her thigh holster. "Also have my .380, with a full clip of the ceramic rounds filled with dead man's blood," she confirmed. "You?" she asked.
Jayna gestured towards her back holster where she kept her always-sharpened machete. She tucked her 9mm pistol, also with the ceramic rounds, in the back waistband of her jeans. "So, how many did Gabriel say would be in this nest, anyway?" Jayna asked.
Maggie looked at the ramshackle house before them. "No more than ten, if I remember correctly. I figure we get in a few good swings and take out the first four or five vamps, which makes the rest of our job a bit more manageable," she explained.
Jayna shrugged. "Sounds like a plan to me," she replied as they approached the front door of the run-down shack.
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Jayna Brandon and Maggie Parker were experts, recruited by the reclusive billionaire, Arthur Ketch, to hunt the supernatural. Each woman had her own reasons for becoming involved in hunting. Whether their motivation was a deep sense of duty or a desire to continue the family legacy, regardless, they trained relentlessly. For that reason alone, they were considered to be two of the best female hunters in the world.
Rumors had circulated that Mr. Ketch once had ties to the former British Men of Letters, a secret organization from the 1950's. Their purpose was to investigate and hunt the supernatural, like vampires, werewolves and shapeshifters.
About three years ago, the weapons locker was raided and cleared out, then the organization was mysteriously disbanded. All of their technically superior weaponry was said to now be under the control of an unknown entity. Some even suggested that Mr. Ketch himself may have been the one to take possession of this futuristic firepower.
Working alongside Jayna and Maggie was Gabriel. He mostly worked behind the scenes, researching cases and providing tech support and even transportation if necessary. Sometimes he went out in the field, if the case involved posing as a couple to complete the mission. Gabriel could be a bit mischievous at times, but he was always there for Jayna and Maggie when they needed him.
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Jayna slowly and carefully eased the front door open. She didn't want any squeaks or whines from the aging hinges to ruin the element of surprise. As they approached the living room area, a vamp was entering the room from Jayna's left. She swung her machete and sliced the head clean off the body, both hitting the floor with a thump. Another one came in from Maggie's right, but she was ready. Her machete sliced through the vamp's neck like a hot knife through butter.
After they cleared the top floor of all five vampires, that only left the remaining five, most likely in the basement. The ladies knew they had to be careful, because there may also be potential victims to rescue. Jayna signaled to Maggie that the door in front of her led to the basement. Maggie nodded and drew open the door, which fortunately opened without a creak.
The women slowly descended the stairs, pausing every so often to make sure nothing had disturbed the vampires. They appeared to be sleeping in some sort of sling or hammock, with the ends secured around an exposed beam in the ceiling.
Jayna counted and signaled to Maggie that there were only four more to clear out the nest. Maggie nodded and motioned that she was going to go check for victims. Jayna nodded her assent as she continued to survey their environment, always keeping an eye out for an exit.
Maggie found six victims, only three of whom were still alive. She disconnected the IV that was drawing the blood out of the first two and tied a piece of her shirt over it like a bandage. The couple looked like they were high school sweethearts, a quarterback and his cheerleader. Must have been in the wrong place at the wrong time, is all. They didn't look like they'd lost too much blood, so she told them to go and wait for her and Jayna under the stairs.
Something seemed to be a little off with the third captive, though. Maggie looked her over for injuries, but didn't find any. She started walking towards the stairs, thinking the other captive would follow her. Maggie caught the horrified look in the eyes of the cheerleader as she gestured to the last captive. Maggie turned around in time to see the last victim charging at her, knocking her over. She had been turned, and she had decided that Maggie was to be her first kill.
Jayna ran over and knocked the girl to the ground, only to have her quickly get back up. Jayna gripped her machete with both hands and made a clean slice, taking off her head. Maggie breathed a sigh of relief. "Thanks, Jay," she whispered.
"Anytime," Jayna said, then turned her attention to the remaining cluster of vamps, who were starting to stir in their bunks. "Uh-oh, looks like that was just the wake-up call," Jayna quipped. "Time to take care of business," she remarked.
Two vamps went after Maggie, while the other two went after Jayna. They each took the first one out easily, but the last two were starting to get the upper hand. The one attacking Jayna had her pinned to the ground and kept trying to take a bite at her neck.
The impact of hitting the floor caused her machete to drop from her hand. Jayna brought her leg up and shoved the vamp away from her, then drew her pistol. She shot a couple of ceramic rounds into its upper chest, and the vamp went down, paralyzed for the moment. Jayna completed the kill as she cleaved its head from the body.
Maggie's vamp seemed a lot more determined, most likely the leader of his nest. He had her pinned to the wall to where she couldn't raise her arms to swing the blade. "Do you think you two hunters can just waltz in here, kill my family and take what's mine?!?" he thundered. His forearm was pressed up against Maggie's neck. He pressed hard, holding her against the wall and threatening her air supply.
Just before Maggie nearly blacked out from lack of oxygen, she heard Jayna shout to get the vamp's attention. He turned his head towards Jayna, which was his last and fatal mistake. Her machete quickly and cleanly separated his head from his body and the fight was over.
"Thanks again, Jay. Really saved my ass this time," Maggie huffed, still trying to catch her breath.
"You can save my ass next time," Jayna chuckled. "Let's get these survivors topside and out of this house. You okay to lead us out of here?" she asked.
Maggie nodded, then paused as she heard footsteps approaching their position. Maggie pointed upward, and motioned to Jayna and the couple to keep quiet. When the intruders hit the last step, Jayna and Maggie stepped out of the shadows, weapons drawn, and yelled "Freeze!"
The newcomers also had weapons that they trained on Jayna and Maggie, at least until they saw the collection of headless bodies on the floor. The man closest to Jayna had piercing green eyes, spiky hair and slightly bowed legs. He re-engaged the safety on his weapon, but still felt the need to keep it pointed in Jayna's direction.
"One question. Who are you and what the hell are you doing on our hunt?" he demanded.
"Your hunt? Excuse me, but this is our case, bud," Jayna retorted. "We should be asking 'who are you and what the hell are you doing on our hunt'," she sassed.
"Name's Dean Winchester, sweetheart," he smirked. Gesturing to the tall, shaggy haired man to his right, "And this one here is my brother, Sam Winchester," he explained.
Jayna and Maggie looked at each other and realized that the newcomers were not a threat. They reengaged the safety on their weapons and tucked them in the back waistband of their jeans. Sam and Dean, having decided that Jayna and Maggie weren't a threat either, did the same.
"Well, boys, now that we've made our introductions, we must be going. Got to get the survivors some medical attention, so they can go back home to their families," Maggie said. She started to climb the stairs and motioned for the survivors to come out of hiding and follow her to the car.
Jayna turned to leave as well, but before she did, she caught Dean's eye. "You guys will clean up, right? Been a slice," she said as she winked and gave him a mock salute. She followed Maggie up the stairs, grinning to herself all the way.
Sam and Dean both looked at each other. "What the hell just happened?" Dean thundered. "How did we get stuck with the clean-up?" he growled.
Shaking his head, Sam chuckled. "Come on, Dean. Let's get to work," he grinned.
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Jayna and Maggie dropped off the survivors at a local hospital to receive medical attention, then provided Gabriel with their final report. Gabe was impressed that the girls had finished the job in record time and managed to save two civilians. He said they had earned some time off, so they decided to find a diner to get something to eat.
On the way to the diner, they talked about meeting the infamous Winchesters.
"So what did you think of them?" Maggie asked.
"Well, Dean is certainly the one in charge," Jayna observed. "Talks a lot, and if I'm being honest...." she trailed off.
"Yeah?" Maggie prompted, dying to hear how Jayna was going to finish her thought.
"It's not so much his words, Mags. I swear, though, his voice is just the right frequency to set off my internal tuning fork. And I mean in the best way," she remarked as they busted out laughing. "What about you?" she asked.
"I dunno. Sam seemed content to let Dean run the show, but I think that only means one thing. The man is a tiger that isn't going to want to be caged forever by his big brother. And when he gets loose, whoo boy! Someone's in for a wild night," Maggie finished.
When Jayna pulled into the parking lot, they couldn't help but notice the gorgeous, black 1967 Chevy Impala parked outside.
"Is that--" Maggie started.
"Couldn't be. Then again--" Jayna mused. "Let's just go in, we don't have to sit with them if they're in there," she replied.
Maggie shrugged and held the door open for Jayna, then followed her into the diner. They scanned the area for the Winchesters, knowing it had to be their car outside. Jayna spotted Sam and Dean sitting in a corner booth off to her right. She elbowed Maggie to get her attention and directed it towards where the Winchesters were sitting, bringing a smile to Maggie's face.
The girls looked at each other as if to ask, "Should we join them or ignore them?". One look between them had them thinking back to the conversation they had in the car. They nearly broke out into laughter again at the memory, but managed to hold it together.
Jayna and Maggie sauntered over to the boys' table, each swaying their hips a little in case Sam and Dean were watching. Maggie reached them first and cleared her throat a little to get their attention.
"Excuse us, gents, but are these seats taken?" Maggie asked, locking eyes with Sam.
Before his brother could answer, Sam jumped in and said, "No, not at all, please join us," he grinned. He scooted over to make room, while Dean rolled his eyes but made room for Jayna to slide in.
"You ladies hungry? Here, take a look, if you'd like to choose something," Dean remarked, handing over his menu.
The waitress came back to their table and noticed that two more guests had joined the table. Jayna and Maggie ordered their drinks, then everyone gave their food order. Dean ordered his classic bacon cheeseburger with fries, Sam requested a salad. Jayna went for the pot roast dinner, while Maggie ordered a Reuben sandwich with chips.
Jayna fidgeted with her napkin before speaking. "So, I think maybe we might have gotten off on the wrong foot with you guys," she started. "Comes from years of having to work twice as hard as female hunters to prove ourselves in a male-dominated profession," she explained.
"Nah, don't worry about it," Dean replied. "I'm rather impressed, just the two of you taking out a nest of ten vamps. That's not easy, even for a couple of guys like us," Dean said. "I just hope we didn't come across as macho jerks."
"Nope, nothing to fear there, Dean. And thanks for cleaning up, by the way," Jayna added. "I can tell, though, that you're used to being the one in charge, the leader. Hope it's not too intimidating that I'm a bit like that as well," Jayna said as she locked eyes with Dean.
Dean slowly shook his head. "Just so you know, though," he added, leaning towards Jayna's ear. "I like a woman who knows what she wants and goes after it," he added huskily as he ran his index finger along her jawline.
Jayna internally shivered, not only at the closeness of his lips to her ear, but at that damn sexy voice of his. She felt her cheeks grow warm at the thought of his plump lips. She wondered if she'd ever find out if they were as soft as they appeared to be. Jayna looked over at Maggie, who was too deep in conversation with Sam to notice any distress her friend may be under.
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Across the table....
"So, what kinds of things are you into, Sam? You know, what do you like to do when you're not hunting?" Maggie asked a little nervously.
"Mostly, I do the research for the two of us. Dean's the 'action guy', I'm the 'book nerd'," Sam replied. "I'm a big fan of sci-fi, especially Star Wars and I've read all of the 'Harry Potter' books. Also, I have what some people would call a weird obsession with reading about serial killers," he chuckled. "What about you?" he inquired.
"Well, first of all, nothing wrong with being into books. I, too, have read all of the 'Harry Potter' books, but I like a good spy thriller once in awhile. I don't mind Star Wars, but I'm more into Star Trek. It's kind of a requirement, since I'm from Iowa," she grinned. "My weird thing has to do with how easily I can learn a foreign language. Mostly reading, not necessarily speaking them, though," she finished.
Sam's hazel eyes locked on to Maggie's as he spoke. "Star Trek, hmm? I can just hear the kind of heated sci-fi debates we'd get into. And I can't stop wondering about the sexy things you might say in another language. 'Specially when you get all riled up," he gently teased.
Sam reached over and tucked a wayward lock of hair behind Maggie's ear and grinned when he heard the slight hitch in her breathing. Fortunately for Maggie, the waitress arrived with their meals, saving her from doing anything embarrassing about her growing attraction to Sam.
After dinner was finished, the four went out to their respective cars, but neither driver seemed to be in a hurry to leave. Conversations were had about what to do with the rest of the evening, and whether that would include any members of the opposite sex.
Dean broke the stalemate by inviting Jayna and Maggie back to their room for a drink and possibly a movie. He mentioned the name of the motel, which prompted the girls to invite Sam and Dean back to their room instead. When Jayna explained that their employer was able to provide a bit nicer and separate accommodations, the boys instantly agreed.
Jayna and Maggie followed the boys back to their motel so they could grab a change of clothes for the night. While they waited, Maggie took the opportunity to voice her doubts to Jayna.
"Are you sure we should be doing this, Jay? I mean, inviting them back to our hotel? We hardly know anything about them, other than what we've heard from other hunters," Maggie pointed out.
"That's the point, Mags," Jayna answered. "We spend time with them, get to know them better. Besides, I saw you and Sam 'sparking' over in your corner of the booth," she teased.
Maggie scoffed. "Yeah? Well, I saw plenty of 'sparks' going between you and Dean on your side of the booth, Jay," she retorted.
Jayna shrugged. "If you're waiting for me to deny everything, you're going to have a long wait, dearie. It's that voice of his, like it has a tractor beam and it's pulling me in! Not that I'm complaining, mind you," she laughed.
Maggie joined in on the laughter. "I think I was right about Sam, too. You know, about him being a tiger and to be careful if he ever gets unleashed from his cage," she remarked. "He mentioned how fun it would be to debate me on sci-fi topics. And, about riling me up so I say naughty things in other languages," Maggie giggled.
At that moment, Sam and Dean emerged from their motel room, each carrying a bag. They turned to look at Jayna and Maggie in their car, smiled, waved then got into the Impala. Around 15 minutes later, they had arrived at the RedStar Hotel, where the girls were staying.
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Sam and Dean exited the Impala and examined their surroundings. This hotel was much nicer than anything they'd ever stayed in, except when on the werewolf case with Mick Davies. "Well, ladies, I have to say, these are some fancy digs," Dean remarked. "Not your usual hunters' accommodations," he added.
"Courtesy of our employer, whose name shall remain anonymous," Jayna quipped. "This is just the lobby. Shall we head up to my room first, then decide how best to spend the rest of the evening?" she asked.
Maggie and the boys nodded their assent as they made their way over to the bank of elevators. "Room 516 is mine, 519 is Maggie's room," Jayna explained. She pulled her key card out of her pocket and opened the door.
The room was equipped with a king sized bed, a recliner in the corner, a 55-inch flat screen TV and a desk where Jayna's laptop rested. "Come on in everyone," Jayna said as she threw her car keys on the desk. From her bag, she produced a bottle of whiskey and proceeded to pour two fingers for everyone.
When everyone had a drink in hand, Maggie raised hers a little. "I propose a toast: to a successful hunt and to new friends," she declared. Everyone repeated the toast and clinked their glasses together. Maggie made eye contact with Sam when their glasses connected, trying to determine what kind of mood he was in. She also wanted to see when may be a good time for them to make a break for her room to be alone.
Someone produced a deck of cards and from that, several rounds of Truth or Dare Go-Fish were played. The whiskey continued to flow, and as a consequence, the participants got a little sillier with each round. After about the seventh round, Jayna looked at Maggie. From all their years hunting together, Maggie knew from the look on Jayna's face that it was time for her and Sam to go.
"Hey, Sam, I heard there's a Star Wars marathon on TV. I know these two are probably not interested, so how about we head over to my room so we won't bother them?" Maggie suggested.
A knowing smirk crossed Sam's face. "Fine by me, as long as you don't mind that I quote the dialogue as the movie plays," he grinned.
"So much the better, I'll even play along," Maggie replied. She held out her hand, which Sam took in his and intertwined their fingers.
"Have fun, kids," Dean called after them. Upon hearing the door latch engage, a hungry look settled in Dean's eyes. He walked over to the table where Jayna was putting the deck of cards back in the box.
Dean approached Jayna while her back was to him. He reached for her hand to make her turn around and face him. He reached up with his right hand to cup her face. "So," he remarked softly, his thumb caressing her cheek.
"So," Jayna whispered. She placed her palms on his chest and slid them upwards until her hands were clasped behind his neck.
As her fingertips grazed the hairs at the base of his neck, Dean dove in and captured Jayna's lips with his own. His free hand roamed up and down Jayna's back, causing a small moan to escape from her mouth. When the need to breathe became too great, the kiss was broken, leaving Dean and Jayna panting.
"Whoa," Dean whispered. "That was amazing," he remarked.
"Agreed. I've been wanting to do that since the diner," Jayna gushed. "How's about we try that again?" she suggested.
"As you wish, sweetheart," Dean replied as his mouth slammed back to Jayna's with a need that he knew only she could satisfy. "So beautiful," Dean murmured against her lips.
Jayna brought her hands down so that they were inside his flannel shirt. Within seconds, she was pushing his outer shirt off of his shoulders and was reaching for the hem of his T-shirt. Dean gently pried it from her fingertips and eased it up and over his head. The sight of his bare chest caused a hitch in her breathing, which did not escape Dean's notice.
Dean toyed with the hem of Jayna's T-shirt, causing her to look down at his hands. He hooked one finger under her chin and tilted it upwards to meet her eyes. "Are you sure, sweetheart?" he asked softly.
Jayna nodded. "I'm sure, Dean," she answered. That was all the permission Dean needed to relieve Jayna of her shirt, leaving her in a lacy pink bra. A look of admiration crossed Dean's Greek god-like features and Jayna had never felt more treasured.
One by one, pieces of clothing disappeared until there was nothing left between them. Dean and Jayna found themselves under the blankets of the expansive king-sized bed. They took turns giving and receiving pleasure in the form of hot kisses and exploratory touches. As the two of them moved together, layer upon layer of passion was built. Each one higher than the last, until they both found their release.
As Dean and Jayna's heart rates slowly returned to normal, Jayna scooted towards Dean. He snaked his right arm around her to hold her close to his side. She rested her head on his shoulder and her right hand flat on his chest. "Mmm, Dean that was incredible," she murmured, her eyelids feeling heavy.
Dean leaned over and pressed his lips to Jayna's forehead. "It really was, sweetheart. Incredible," he mumbled against her skin. He felt his own eyelids fighting to stay open as well. "Sweet dreams, baby girl," Dean whispered before completely giving in to his need for sleep.
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The next morning, the couples met in the hotel's dining facility for the breakfast buffet. Jayna noticed that Maggie and Sam looked pretty cozy going through the line. Always finding a reason to touch each other, or for one to grab the other's hand. Hmm, her night must have gone as well as mine did, Jayna thought with a smile. We should have lots to talk about on the drive back to HQ, she silently added.
"Morning, beautiful," Dean rumbled huskily in Jayna's ear. His stubbled cheek tickled her ear, causing her to giggle, which also brought a smile to Dean's face.
"Morning, handsome," she replied as soon as she had regained her composure.
Back at the table, everyone exchanged phone numbers. If either team needed help or wanted to talk to someone, they now had a way of contacting each other.
All too soon, it was time for the hunter teams to go their separate ways. Dean and Jayna were standing by her car, exchanging good-bye hugs and slow, luxurious kisses.
Over by the Impala, Maggie and Sam were saying their good-byes. "I had a wonderful time with you, Sam. You're smart, caring and a bit of a romantic if I may say. But you also have a very sexy wild side to you that I love just as much," Maggie remarked.
"And you, ma chérie, are sweet, kind and maybe a bit too sassy for your own good," Sam grinned. He tapped the end of Maggie's nose as she pouted. "But I would love to see you again sometime, ma belle fleur," he said softly.
A shy smile returned to Maggie's face. "I would like that as well, mon chéri," Maggie replied. She slid her hands up the length of Sam's chest and rested them on his shoulders. Without much encouragement needed, she pulled him down until their lips met in a fiery, passionate kiss.
When they broke apart, Sam brushed the back of his knuckles gently against her cheek. "See you soon, darlin'," he said softly.
"Bye, Sam. Call if you need anything, or want to talk," Maggie responded.
"I will," he promised as Maggie walked away to where Jayna was waiting. Maggie wished Dean a safe trip home as he passed her on the way to his car. She heard the Impala roar to life and just like that, Sam and Dean were gone.
Before Maggie opened the passenger door of the car, Jayna asked, "So, how did it go with you and Sam last night?"
Maggie paused before looking Jayna directly in the eye. "Rawr," she said, then both women burst into laughter.
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Back at headquarters, Gabriel expressed how happy he was to see them. Although he didn't press for details, he could tell that both women had had an enjoyable past 24 hours. "Briefing in 15 minutes, ladies!" Gabriel called out.
They didn't have time to do much of anything before the meeting, except freshen up their hair and splash some water on their faces. Unpacking, laundry and a shower would have to wait until after the meeting.
About ten minutes later, Jayna and Maggie entered the conference room and took their usual places. A conference call-style phone with a large speaker was in the middle of the table. The meeting started precisely at 11:00 am, with a call from their employer, Arthur Ketch.
"Good morning, Angels. I understand the vampire hunt went as planned, even saved two of the victims," Ketch remarked.
"Yes, sir," Jayna and Maggie responded in unison.
"Well done. Your next assignment will be for the recovery of a cursed object. The setting is a high-society party to which only couples have been invited. This will therefore be an undercover assignment," Ketch explained.
Jayna and Maggie looked at each other in silent communication. Winchesters? they asked each other. Jayna pointed out that while Gabriel usually fills in on these "undercover couple" assignments, that leaves Maggie without a partner.
"Sir, we need both myself and Maggie for this mission. We met a pair of hunters on our last case that would be perfect for this assignment. That would enable us full use of the team, and Gabriel could still act in a support capacity," Jayna finished.
Silence reigned on the other end of the line while the idea was considered. "How easy would it be to contact this 'pair of hunters' you met?" Ketch asked.
"We exchanged contact information before we left them, sir. Only a matter of picking up the phone and calling them," Maggie answered.
"Very well, make contact and inform Gabriel of their decision. I have confidence in you, Angels," Ketch concluded before the call disconnected.
"I never get to do anything fun," Gabriel grumbled. "Always a bridesmaid, never a bride."
"Aw, come on, Gabriel. You know we wouldn't be anywhere without you," Jayna teased, tapping the end of Gabe's nose.
"You bet your sweet asses you wouldn't," he grumbled. "Go on, make your 'booty call' so I can let Arthur know whether this is a go or no-go situation," he muttered.
"It's not a 'booty call', Gabe," Jayna retorted as she scrolled through her contacts, then pressed the one she wanted.
"Hey, Dean? It's Jayna. Got a question for you: Can you and Sam get your hands on a couple of tuxedos? We have a little undercover mission, and it would really help us out if you could join Maggie and me," she finished.
A broad smile spread across her face. "Fabulous. I'll email you the details. And Dean? Can't wait to see you again. Over and out," Jayna concluded softly then disconnected the call. "Hey, Maggie? How would you like to see Sam again?" she called out as she walked down the hall to her room. She giggled as she heard a shriek of happiness from Maggie's room.
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Established Relationships
So you want fics without any of the awkwardness of a weird build up or painful pining? Then here are some established relationship fics for you.
Crazy Diamonds by pantheon_of_discord on AO3. (24,872 words).
Tags: Time Travel, Episode s04e02 Are You There God? Itâs Me, Dean Winchester, Future Fic, Human Castiel, Castiel in the Bunker, Established Relationship, Impala Sex, Angel of the Lord!Cas.
My Rating: 5 stars.
Description: A week ago, Dean was pulled out of Hell. Now, heâs apparently woken up in 2018, and the angel that a mere twenty-four hours beforehand had threatened to chuck him back into the pit is sleepily pouring himself coffee and wearing Deanâs second-favourite Zeppelin shirt. It all seems like a perfect happy ending, but with Hellâs scars still so fresh, Dean canât imagine how he could have possibly gotten there. At the same time, the Dean who went to sleep in the bunker, right next to Cas, wakes up on Bobbyâs couch in 2008. Heâs instantly bombarded with questions by a Lilith-obsessed brother and a man whoâs been dead for years, and must decide between keeping his finally-perfect life intact, and the lives he could save by re-writing history. Regardless of these choices, both Deans are trapped in the wrong decade, and their only way back lies with a Castiel still very much under Heavenâs thumb â one who might find the future Dean describes difficult to believe.
Notes: I do love a good time travel fic, and frankly, Dean still being pissy about Ruby made me laugh out loud.
Just Like You by imherecauseimnotallthere98 on AO3. (35,717 words).
Tags: Homophobia, Homophobic John, Hurt Dean Winchester, Protective Dean Winchester, Established Relationship, Protective Castiel, BAMF Castiel, Protective Sam Winchester, Angry John, Angry Dean Winchester, Angry Sam Winchester, Protective Bobby Singer, Awesome Bobby, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Scared Dean, John Being an Asshole, Swearing, Bisexual Dean, Pansexual Castiel, Past Child Abuse, Accidental Outing, Death Threats, Fluff and Angst, Implied Sexual Content, Sharing a Bed.
My Rating: 5 stars.
Description: When John shows up at their door in the middle of the night, the Winchesters and Cas start looking into who or what could have brought him back. Meanwhile, Dean struggles to keep his relationship with Cas a secret from his father, with some help from Sam. The tension rises between the Winchesters as Dean shows John that he is no longer the obedient little soldier he once was, and tries to establish himself as an equal with his dad.
Notes: I am fully aware I recced this really recently, but I did really enjoy it and there is an established relationship! I am starting a new rule where I will only rec things more than once if I rate them either 4 or 5 stars, but if I read a fic worse than that while specifically looking at a tag, then it will be in that post. Does that make sense? I think it does.
Take You To The Country by almaasi on AO3. (18,987 words).
Tags: Historical AU, Propositions, Eloping, Newspapers, Fluff, Romance, Forbidden Love, Misunderstandings, Pining, First Kiss, Established Relationship, Running Away Together, Moving In Together, Childhood Friends, Marriage Proposal, Farmer Dean, Bisexual Dean, Domestic Dean Winchester, Clock maker Castiel, Autistic Castiel, Frustrated Sam.
My Rating: 5 stars.
Description: A Dean/Cas 1950s AU. Dean reads an elopement proposal in the town's local newspaper, written by some old soul in love with their best friend. He's mid-way through expressing to his brother how beautiful he finds it when Dean realises the proposal is for him.
Notes: So cute! I love the letter Sam writes to the newspaper at the end, it was just so beautifully written and he seemed simultaneously so happy for them and so done. Iâm not really sure it counts as an established relationship, but it is tagged that, so Iâll include it.
Cuckoo And Nest by komodobits on AO3. (10,190 words).
Tags: Generically canonverse, Established Relationship, Miscommunication.
My Rating: 4 stars.
Description: For a long time, Castiel thought that every earthly possession other than the immediately necessary was excess to requirement. But Dean â Dean who named his car, who keeps a photograph of his mother in his wallet, some thirty-plus years after her death, who still has the crumpled âDo Not Disturbâ sign with a sleeping pelican emblazoned on it from the Microtel outside of Roanoke where he first kissed Castiel, clumsy and unsure, under the unsteady fluorescence of an exhausted bathroom bulb â is sentimental. It puzzles Castiel, where Dean draws the line between what is meaningful and what it is worthless.
Notes: Beautifully written, and I genuinely donât know how they managed to make such a short fic that angsty. Maybe itâs just âcause Cas leaving the bunker almost made me cry. Hmm.
The Tea Is Decaf by mnwood on AO3. (3,673 words).
Tags: POV Castiel, Fluff, Sign Language, Castiel in the Bunker, Bunker Fluff, Canon Compliant, Sharing Clothes, Asexual Castiel, Gentle Dean, Non-Explicit Sex, Domestic, Established Relationship.
My Rating: 4 stars.
Description: Based on this text post from thebloggerbloggerfun: "Listen, imagine Eileen sneaking out of Samâs room at night to go to the bathroom or something and steps out into the hallway in one of Samâs shirts only to see Cas trying to quietly leave Deanâs room while wearing one of Deanâs shirts and they both just stare at each other awkwardly for a few seconds before trying to muffle quiet laughter and now they have a late night club where they talk about life and gossip about the Winchesters in sign language" And this anon I received: "what if Eileen and Cas discover there are some things Sam and Dean both do in bed because Dean jokingly gave Sam pointers when they were younger and Sam took the advice"
Notes: Does it matter that Eileen has only been in one episode I have seen? No. I will rec this fic until the day I die. Iâm not even 100% why. I will tell you that it is pretty much the reason I screamed when I realised I finally met Eileen, though.
Say Yes by MaggieMaybe160 on AO3. (7,996 words).
Tags: Episode s05e04 The End, Established Relationship, Secret Relationship, Cheating, Drug Use, Angst, Fluff and Angst, Canon Compliant, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Nearly Human Castiel, Dreams vs Reality, POV Dean Winchester, POV Castiel, True Love, Love Triangles, Idiots in Love, Marriage Proposal, Wedding Rings, Chronic Pain.
My Rating: 4 stars.
Description: Endverse!Dean's life is going pretty well with Endverse!Cas until Dean's past self shows up. A look at the episode "The End" from Season 5 from Endverse!Dean's point of view.
Notes: Quite cute, mostly canon compliant, and the ending gives me the serious chills. To be honest, the episode did as well.
What Holds Us Up by frecklesarechocolate on AO3. (39,708 words).
Tags: Established Relationship, Kissing, Case Fic, Angst, Minor Character Death, Implied Homophobia, Post Season 9.
My Rating: 4 stars.
Description: Â What happens when John Winchester suddenly comes back to life, and meets the boys as they are today?
Notes: Very cute, an excellent case, and so nice to see some characters we havenât seen in a long while! The Sam and Jody ship did freak me out a little bit though: I guess I just never even thought of them that way so I donât exactly ship it. (Apparently it freaked me out so much I deleted it from my bookmarks?!)
Whatâs A Hickey? by almaasi on AO3. (1,101 words).Â
Tags: Hickeys, Marking, Castiel & Sam Winchester Friendship, Fluff, Ficlet, Human Castiel, Established Castiel/Dean Winchester, Relationship Reveal.
My Rating: 3 stars.
Description: Sam and Cas have a conversation about hickeys. Specifically, about the one on Castiel's neck.
Notes: Sam and Casâs friendship has such a specific vibe that I live for but canât put into words... luckily this talented author can, and we got this.
So there we are! I hope you enjoy them, and if you have any requests for fic lists or any fics you think I should read, please tell me! Otherwise, enjoy the last few episodes (or if you are like me, pray you avoid spoilers until you can catch up 3 seasons).
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SJW Handbook and Advice - CHICAGO-CENTRIC
Hello everyone Iâve been compiling info for protesters and non-protesters for Chicago and I thought Iâd share it here. Itâs copy and pasted from a few different posts but itâs somewhat comprehensive and draws on a lot of ideas Iâve seen circulating. Not all of this info is Chicago-specific, but I do talk about local laws in Chicago and bail funds in Chicago.Â
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SAFETY AND GOOD CONDUCT AT A PROTEST
-Tear gas: the agent in tear gas that's painful, lachrymator, binds to water molecules. It's so effective because it gets into your throat/lungs/eyes and also binds to the moisture on your skin. If you suspect tear gas might be used at a protest [which honestly you should just guess now], you should try to make sure as much of your body is covered as possible- wear long sleeves and pants and try to cover your hair. If possible, have gloves and goggles or sunglasses handy. When you are exposed to tear gas, try to get a wet cloth against your face ASAP- the moisture on the cloth will bind to the lachrymator and prevent it from getting inside of you. Pour water on a bandana or mask and try to keep it as close to your body as possible. Walk away from the cloud of gas ASAP- and before you go inside your home, try to stuff your clothes into a bag [wash them in 4-5 days when the lachrymator isn't as reactive anymore]. Take a shower as soon as possible and try to wash your hair 2-3 times- some people have told me that you should take a cold shower. If you are directly exposed to lachrymator and it gets in your eyes/mouth/nose, rinse with milk or a water/baking soda solution ASAP. Lachrymator is a very unstable molecule and either of those is pretty effective at neutralizing it.
-IF you're in a position to try and take care of a tear gas canister [if you've come prepared with a traffic cone, water, a mask, and goggles- or you're reckless as shit] cover it with a traffic cone. That will trap the fumes. Then pour as much water as you can into the traffic cone, hopefully it will put out the fuse inside the canister. PLEASE BE CAREFUL WHEN ATTEMPTING TO DO THIS- and do some more research on how to do it properly. I have not personally had a chance to use this tactic.
-The cops may have vans with IMSI catchers and/or cell phone jammers: IMSI catchers gather information about you and cell phone jammers prevent you from being able to use your phone. Carry a watch, make an exit plan with a vehicle/public transit OUTSIDE of the area where the protest is happening, and sharpie the phone number of an emergency contact on your body. There may come a time where you want to shut off your phone- even if you don't get detained, knowing there is a friendly phone number you can access will make you feel better. Be careful about taking pictures of fellow protestersâ faces- the police are using pictures on social media to target protesters after the fact. UPDATE: I just saw another post about IMSI catchers/stingray stuff. They suggest leaving your phone at home because turning your phone off is a break in your normal patterns and can be used in a prosecution. They suggest using a burner phone- this might be the way to go if you live in a city where IMSI stuff is confirmed. SECOND UPDATE: Imperfect protection measures STILL DO SOME GOOD. There are plenty of reasons you can be in a position where you need your cell phone on you and turning off your location services and/or putting on airplane mode for a time may still do you some good!!! IMSI catchers rely upon being the strongest signal in an area [cells automatically connect to whatever seems to be the strongest signal carrier]. From what I understand IMSI catchers have a limited range and basically a max capacity of how many phones they can support while still being the strongest signal in a given area. So for large protests, they'd need to deploy a lot of trucks with IMSI catchers to collect lots of data about crowds. IN MY PERSONAL PREVIOUS EXPERIENCE, which is not universal and may be out dated information, the Chicago police tend to use cell phone jammers [which prevent you from getting a signal at all]. This way they can try to stop protesters from calling/texting each other- make an out strategy with the people accompanying you about where to rendezvous if you're separated. Here is a little information regarding IMSI catcher use in Illinois."The law permits law enforcement agencies to use CSS devices only to locate, track the location of, or identify a communications deviceâin other words, they cannot configure them to capture the content of any communications. [...] Is CPD abiding by state law rules? It is impossible to say without any record-keeping or audits. CPD has not responded to our most recent FOIA request for information about any new policies, procedures, or records on its use of this technology, so we can only assume that it has not developed any."
-That being said: many capabilities of your phone rely upon knowing where you are to work. So IMSI catchers aren't the only thing you need to worry about.
-If you're able, bring water and some first aid supplies [such as gauze, tape, antibacterial cream, saline solutions, gloves, wipes etc] for fellow protesters [and maybe snacks]. Even at past tepid protests, I've seen fellow protesters fall into glass or hurt themselves trying to climb into higher ground just to see. If you don't know how to administer first aid for things like lacerations, ASK FOR HELP. Many protests have people trained to help and we're all in this together. You might want to read this thread on gunshot wounds, it's better to loosely know what you're supposed to do, just in case. Learn to apply a tourniquet- hint, itâs not just putting a belt around someoneâs leg. The snacks are to keep everyoneâs spirits up and remind us that weâre in this TOGETHER.
-Running is easier with a backpack than a messenger bag, wear comfortable shoes, and have something to write with. The mood might strike you to change your sign a bit,Â
-If youâre protesting in an area that isnât close to where you live, try and reach out to someone that lives in the area. You may need to get out quickly and no way to get home and need a safe house- in Chicago, the mayor instituted a curfew from 9pm-6am at 9:04 tonight after the city had blocked every bridge and shut down public transit. Protesters are now basically locked into our downtown area with no way to get home and the police are allowed to detain anyone outdoors.
-Check in with other protesters. Do your best to maintain social distancing, but try to make sure that your fellow protesters are not lagging behind due to injury or something else. Solidarity is the goal above all else.
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Lori Lightfoot has kept the curfew in place and Chicagoans are expected off the streets between 9pm-6am until further notice unless they have an "essential job". Public transit has been stopped altogether in many areas- so if you have to go out, book enough time for you to walk there and back.
Here are some important reminders of your rights- if your are arrested, stopped in you car, and what to do with your phone. PLEASE READ THEM FOR YOUR SAFETY. KNOW YOUR RIGHTS.
IF YOU ARE STOPPED:
-In Chicago, the police are permitted to ask your name and address and other questions (to determine if you are involved in a past/present crime). I believe you only NEED to give them your name, regardless of how many questions they ask you.
-You should refresh yourself on how to properly invoke your right to remain silent. Remember to ask âAm I under arrest/being detained?â If they say yes, you HAVE to say âIâm invoking my right to a publicly provided lawyer, and my right to remain silent.â SAY EXACTLY THAT- variations of that phrase are NOT always effective and the cops will use any opportunity they can to undermine your rights and not give you a lawyer. YOU MUST STAY SILENT- otherwise youâre technically waiving your right to remain silent and MUST EXPLICITLY re-invoke your right when youâre done talking for it to apply.Â
IF YOU ARE STOPPED FOR QUESTIONING:
-Police may âpat-downâ your clothing if they suspect a concealed weapon. The ACLU says do not physically resist, but make it clear that you donât consent to any further search.
IF YOU ARE STOPPED IN YOUR CAR:
-Upon request, show them your driverâs license, registration, and proof of insurance. In certain cases, your car can be searched without a warrant as long as the police have probable cause. To protect yourself later, you should make it clear that you do not consent to a search. It is not lawful for police to arrest you simply for refusing to consent to a search.
ON THE TOPIC OF UNLOCKING YOUR PHONE:
I haven't found any hard and fast rules about whether or not you have to unlock your phone if you are held by the police. A Vox article from February 2020 says "If your phone is protected by a passcode or biometric unlocking features, thereâs a chance cops canât gain access to your personal data. But thatâs not guaranteed. [...] But if your phone is locked with a passcode and law enforcement canât hack into it, the Fifth Amendment may be your friend. Essentially, the Fifth Amendment says you canât be compelled to give self-incriminating testimony. [...] Testimony, in this case, is defined as revealing the contents of your own mind. Therefore, civil rights advocates say, the government canât force you to tell them your phoneâs password." But this is still being played out in the courts- there's tons of pending cases and no real precedence for this on either side.
Freedom.press in an April 2020 article says "If you are arrested or taken into police custody, you should verbally state that you do not consent to a search of your devices. A law enforcement agency is only permitted to conduct a warrantless search of your device if a compelling case for an emergency can be made." There's a lot of potentially useful information in their article, which I will link in the comments.
REMEMBER- cops are easily protected most of the time for infringing on our rights regarding being searched if it could be considered "reasonably" legal for them to do so [even if it isn't]. Saying "I want a lawyer, dog" does not invoke your right to an attorney, being silent does not invoke your right to remain silent, if you do not verbally refuse to be searched your silence is taken as consent to be searched. The limited dissemination of information on the legality of searching a phone could protect them if they coerced/forced you to unlocking your phone.
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If you are in Chicago and see a post/event about protesting today or tomorrow [June 1st]. DO RIGHT BY YOURSELF AND MAKE SURE IT'S A REAL PROTEST.
I've heard that some VERY suspicious people are putting together a BLM protest in Chicago tomorrow. These people are NOT experienced organizers, NOT affiliated with BLM Chicago, and NOT known to anyone in the Chicago organizing/protesting communities.
We KNOW that a lot of the rioting and looting in other cities were begun and propagated by the police and white supremacist groups [not by protesters or ordinary citizens]. We do not know if these people are cops, white supremacists, or just irresponsible folx, but it could very well be a trap to escalate violence, incarcerate allies, and justify the Mayor granting more restrictions on the city.Â
The source I saw was for the purpose of organizing medics to deal with the inevitable fall out, but protect yourself and your fellow protestors by not going to this sham event.
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Hello everyone- protesting not your cup of tea? That's okay! Protesting is the showiest part of being an active citizen and activist, but it's by no means the most important part.
Below, I'll be posting links for people that need your money AND non-monetary ways you can help.
-If you know people protesting in your area, offer them a place to clean up afterwards and possibly crash if public transit is closed off. If you can safely offer them a shower and a place to change clothes- that can make a huge difference. It could help them evade being targeted by the police on the way home, buy them time to get home without being part of a crowd, and they may need a place to wash off residual tear gas or pepper spray [or the blood of a comrade]
-If there are protests in your area and you have extra supplies [water, pre-packaged snacks, materials for signs, gloves, first aid kits, masks, etc], you can hand them off to a protester OR leave them in a place they'll find them with a note.
-Be wary showing the faces of protesters on your social media or having them saved online. Be mindful about who you're sharing details of a protest or protesters with and try to do your best about sharing accurate information about donations. One of the bail funds in another city recently had someone set up a fake venmo account under the name of the bail fund and many people donated to it, believing they were helping bail people out.
-Your friends with small businesses may want help or need supplies boarding up their windows- most protesters are avoiding small businesses when things turn sour [and in fact, most looting and rioting appears to trace back to undercover cops and white supremacists right now] but it's still a good idea to close up shop if you can. See if anyone needs help securing their business. .-Make fliers about properly administering first aid, basic rights regarding being detained/questioned/arrested, and phone numbers of local communal bail funds.Â
-Many people who were on the fence about BLM, police brutality, and protesting are beginning to see the truth of it all now that the pandemic has forced us to confront racial/ethnic and class inequality. We have more allies than we did before- make sure to give them the toolkit necessary to enacting change.Â
Protesters need funds in so many places right now:Â
-Chicago Communal Bail https://chicagobond.org/
-ACLU Illinoishttps://www.aclu-il.org/en/donate
-BLM Chicago https://www.blacklivesmatterchicago.com/donate/
-The Family of George Floyd https://www.gofundme.com/f/georgefloyd
-Minnesota Freedom Fund https://minnesotafreedomfund.org/
-ACLU Minnesota https://www.aclu-mn.org/en/donate
-The Bail Project https://bailproject.org/
#BLM#BLM Chicago#Chicago#Protest#Protests#Protesting Advice#advice#just advice from your local Nikkeijin thats been protesting since they could walk
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Granite That Mesmerize your home
Each and every year, stone and tile trends change constantly in the architectural and design communities and can be difficult to keep up with. We at Contemporary Stone & Tile Design magazine wanted to get opinions from different architects and designers around the country to find out what they are seeing, and what they expect to see. Before getting into the trends they are seeing, letâs spend a little time getting to know those who are about to answer:
Lori Wilesâ âIâm a true Midwesterner, born and raised in Missouri, now living in Iowa. Growing up, I spent lots of time in the working barns and classic farm houses in my rural area. My capable and creative mom gave me ample opportunity to draw, paint, sew and build things for fun. That led to a degree in interior design and a long career in the field. Iâve always been especially interested in interior architecture and how it impacts the people who use the spaces. My interior design firm specializes in planning new construction and re-modelling with the end user experience in mind.â
Ryan Thewesâ âI grew up in Southern Indiana and graduated from Ball State University. After graduation, I was fortunate to get a job in Chicago, IL, working for a former Frank Lloyd Wright apprentice â
Don Erickson. The incredible experience of working for Don introduced me to the theories of Wrightâs organic architecture which, amon
g many other things, focused on the use of natural materials and the creation of space. I expanded on my education of organic
architecture by also working for Robert Green, a former Frank Lloyd Wright apprentice in Atlanta, GA, and eventually an apprenticeship with Bart Prince in Albuquerque, NM. I am currently practicing out of Nashville, TN.â
Maxim Nasabâ âI am the principal and founder of Apexx Architecture, a firm specializing in bridge architecture and recreational piers. Our firm is located in Tallahassee, FL. I am originally from MontrĂ©al, Canada. I got into architecture because it allowed me to pursue my love of science and technology, but also allowed my creativity to flourish. Architecture has the power to change cities for the better for generations. It is a profession that can truly make the world a better place and architects have the responsibility to ensure this through their designs.
I believe in designing for the people and the greater good rather than fame or recognition. I believe that great architecture is derived from honesty and transparency. Using local natural materials and allowing the structural system to express itself by integrating it within the design. Whenever I walked in buildings, and even today, I always tried to guess the materials that buildings were structurally supported by. It always made me a little sad when materials were not honest or true, or the structure was not evident. This is one reason why I went into bridge architecture. It is very hard to hide the structure of a bridge, and instead I always try to enhance its visibility, express its beauty and make it clear to the user as to how it is supported. Anyone should be able to walk in.â
Charmaine Wynterâ âI am Jamaican Canadian, and an international multi-awarded interior designer with projects spanning the residential and hospitality sector. My natural design talent began to make its emergence in 1981, surprising family and friends, but it wasnât until the late 1980s that I took it seriously and enrolled in an interior design program at a recognized college. I founded my design firm in Toronto, Canada in 1996; and later transitioned to the Dallas, TX, location in 2016, where it is now headquartered. Now many decades post-graduation, as principle designer, I jet back and forth to work projects of interest on both sides of the Canadian and U.S. boarders â infusing each with my signature distinctive luxurious living design aesthetics.â
Dawn D. Tottyâ âI started 25 years ago and it was fast and furious in New York. When I transitioned from there to the south, I was 1,000 miles away. I had to start from scratch. I had to reinvent myself. That was challenging.â
Trends with stone
One of the first things I discussed with each of our participants were the trends they were seeing with stone in particular. Over the years, the popularity of engineered stone has fluctuated, while natural stone seems to be extremely popular with some people rather than others. According to Wiles, she is seeing more people interested in using stone in their homes and offices than even a few years ago. âFrom my perspective, itâs become easier than ever to find the perfect material for any project with all of the stones available,â she said. âI particularly like the uniformly colored stones at the extremes of light and dark palettes. These make a great statement and give some confidence that a color palette can change through the years without having to change the large areas of stone.â
Wiles isnât the only one that sees the popularity in natural stone. Thewes, Nasab and Wynter all agree with her. âWhat I have been seeing is a lot of natural materials, natural colors and natural tones,â said Nasab. âLimestone is really popular along with granites that have that limestone look. Minimalism and honesty in materials is coming back strong and will be here to stay for a while. Clients and users are craving that real feeling when they touch materials, which is why a lot of the companies are working hard to mimic that look and feel. Some of them are getting really close, too.â
Thewes is seeing a lot more requests for stone as the popularity of âMid-Century Modernâ design continues to rise. âI think part of this is because people still want modern design, but are turned off by the cold sterile nature of some of it,â he said. âThe use of natural materials like wood and stone help soften the design yet allow us to keep a strong modern aesthetic. Linear stacked stone complements these types of projects perfectly by emphasizing the horizontal line and providing a defined texture that works well in opposition to smooth surfaces like wood, glass and drywall. Depending on the budget, we have had some pretty good success with engineered stone. However, for the more discerning client, it is tough to beat natural stone. While the wide range of colors are still often used and will never go out of style, we are seeing more of a request for darker colors. Almost black in some cases.â
Wynter is seeing popularity with quartz surfacing because of its look and durability. âQuartz is extremely popular with clients seeking a marble look, but the durability only provided by engineered stones,â said Wynter. âStone is such a luxe material with its many faceted sheens and textures that there are trends within a trend. However, in general, Iâm using more cool-toned hues with larger veining and fissure movement within the stone than a few years ago.â
Totty sees it not only with natural stone but also with quartz, because of how they look. âPatterns, movement and more color is making its way into the realm of interior design with the usage of quartz and marble being the forerunners,â said Totty. âStone pigments that are currently trending are soft greens, grays and neutrals that are a wonderful complement to todayâs interior design trends.â
When it comes to application of stone, according to Wynter, it is being more of the norm with her clients. âWhatâs great is that as the use of luxury stones are becoming more the norm, my clients are relaxing and spaces are more often taking on a casual luxe style,â said Wynter. âIâm using stone on the flooring, countertops and backsplashes, fireplace facades, accent walls and in outdoor living rooms.â
âWhile fireplaces continue to be the place that people think of using stone first, I like to incorporate stone in lots of areas in a home like kitchens and bathroom,â said Wiles. âIn commercial settings, a stone wall or columns are a fairly easily constructed feature that suggests stability and permanence. Â Iâll consider using it in any area that I think needs a great visual weight to help balance out the space.â
For Thewes, he is seeing the most common use for stone is in accent walls for both residential and commercial projects. âThe ability to light the walls really accentuates the texture and draws attention to the feature,â said Thewes. âThis is very effective in commercial projects where traditionally, more sterile and simple materials are used. The stone offers a good break from these materials while also providing a durable and maintenance-free surface.â
For Nasab, he is seeing stone used primarily for exterior paving, stairs and plazas. âIt really enhances the site and gives it that extra touch of beauty, especially when itâs a natural stone,â he said.
Totty is utilizing marble and granite in big ways, such as installing it onto kitchen walls for a bold and elegant statement. âKitchen larders, countertops, backsplashes and even floors are some of my favorite uses for granite, quartz and marble,â said Totty. âBoth commercial and residential projects are now implementing stone surfaces to create a regal look with the benefit of durability.â
Tile Design Trends
When it comes to designing with tile, it seems that the material is a lot like stone, especially for Totty. âFloor-to-ceiling tiled walls in kitchens and bathrooms, and even laundry rooms, are very popular,â she said. âIn many cases, the tile is the dominating focal point to a roomâs decor.â
According to Nasab, whose area of expertise is not tile, he has noticed that tiles have continued to evolve and currently they are still hitting strong with mimicking the look of natural stone.
One thing that stands out to Thewes with tiles are the extremes they go to with size. âTile size trends have continued to swing away from the standard 12- x 12-inch tile to either extreme,â said Thewes. âEither very small or very large, depending on the application. For our projects, we still focus on the more earthy and muted colors that are more simple and less busy. Black and white are timeless and can be adapted to any style or aesthetic so they are always popular.
âThere has been a pretty significant rise in the popularly of the wood plank tiles that gives the look of a wood floor, but the durability of tile,â Thewes went onto say. âI tend to shy away from materials that pretend to be something they are not, but I have seen a quite a few of these fake wood products that are very well done.â
Wiles has also noticed the different types and feels of tile that are currently on the market. âI continue to be amazed at how many tile designs there are and excited about the tactile finishes they have now,â said Wiles. âWeâre seeing our clientâs willingness to use a variety of shapes like hexagons, octagons and circles increase. Theyâre now open to shapes that would have been unheard of just a few years ago. It also seems that tile manufacturers have become really in tune with current color palettes and color palette projections, which helps designers use their products more easily.â
âTiles are dimensional and showing up in large formats,â said Wynter. âPattern is back after a long rest so we are embracing lace, ethnic and graphic print on wall and floor tile. Keep your eyes peeled for hues of green and coral â especially this year.â
As far as applications go, according to Wiles, âBeautifully tiled bathrooms are the number one request from homeowners so weâre designing fully tiled showers, tub surrounds and backsplashes. The development of the really large-scaled and textural tiles that mimic other materials makes feature walls a big hit as well.â
Wynter said that tile will always be the strongest in commercial applications due to its durability and resilient nature, but it is making strong headway into the residential arena as the popularity for outdoor backyard oasisâ increase. Totty agrees with Wynter in the outdoor use of tile. âOutdoor kitchens are now showcasing tiled areas for durability, as well as aesthetics,â said Totty. âTile is still the first choice for most home and commercial installations, in particular, shower walls and floors, laundry and mud rooms, as well as entryways for low maintenance and easy clean-up.â
âFor tile, floors are still the main use,â said Thewes. âOccasionally, we will see an accent wall or something similar executed, but mainly floors and shower surrounds are most popular.â
Trends moving forward
Finally, we asked these architects and designers about the trends moving forward for both stone and tile.
Tottyâ âTile with graphic, bold patterns and colors are quite favorable and are being used as statement makers in powder rooms, kitchen floors and laundry rooms to create that âwowâ factor in interior design. Granite and marble with movement are now used as art. Matching up patterned seams and placed vertically on walls in high-end hotel lobbies creates an amazing show stopping affect to any wall.â
Wynterâ âGreen is coming on strong as a trend color that has made it to classic status, so I predict we will see green marbles, green granites in all hues from glass to jade, as of green slates.â
Nasabâ âI believe that natural colors will stay for a while, especially in stone. It is hard to beat natural stone, especially now that it has become much more affordable. What I am seeing in tile is black and whites coming back. That modern minimalistic design is coming back strong. There is no better material than stone in terms of natural beauty and bang for the buck. I would encourage designers and clients to find local quarries and start from there rather than hit the foreign stones right off the bat. It really is a beautiful thing to use materials that are locally sourced and they truly make the projects feel as if they belong in the site they are built on.â
Thewesâ âLooking into the future, I donât really see much of a change for tile other than possibly an increase in use due to its durability. Itâs a battle between what the client desires more, warmth or durability. However, I do think that the use of stone will continue to rise as it provides both warmth and durability. As the quality of engineered stone improves, costs should go down and using stone in projects will no longer be a major drain on budgets. Durability and low maintenance are always important client requests and this material fits right in with that while also providing a major increase in quality and design. The addition of stone to any project increases its value and the perception of cost.â
Wilesâ âI think we will continue to see natural and natural-looking hard surface materials in demand. These will be used in larger areas and combined with other materials that have more of an artisan vibe to create really durable, tactile and friendly environments. Tile and stone are really designerâs friend. Once you know how to best use them and have great craftspeople to install them, they can transform any space.â
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4. Slay Dalaran City Clinic
((Part four of the craziest Kaelâthas fangirl story I intend to write! Get ready for the ultimate Trixany-Gaga parody... 10 min read, 18+ for sexual themes.))
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When I look back on my life in Outland, itâs not that I donât want to see things with Kaelâthas exactly as they happened. Itâs just that I prefer to see them in a happier way. And you know, the way that the new me, the carefree Kaja-Cola Girl I had to become might experience these things is more honest because my better self invented it.
Clinical psylosophy, if you ask that Forsaken guy near Durnholde Keep, tells us that trauma is the ultimate killer. My people faced extinction. We lost our king, our way of life was nearly obliterated. And in a mad attempt to recover it all on his own, we ultimately lost our beloved Prince Kaelâthas.
And then the Void Elves⊠To me, it still feels we might lose ourselves forever.
Itâs like my life in Quelâthalas, today, is this broken mirror. And as the owner of that mirror, Iâve tried to fit the pieces back together. Make it perfect, clear again. But I can still see the crack in that mother fuckerâs reflection.
Itâs not that, âTrixany, by becoming a Kaja-Cola Girl, and a parody singerâwhich sounds so spectacularly weird in a wayâand then getting high in Pandaria with a succubus to re-live moments with Kaelâthas, when youâre supposed to be a righteous Blood Knight and follower of the Light⊠youâve been so dishonest.â
No. Itâs just that Blood Knight Trixany Cuomo loathes her reality.
For example, the Dalaran nurses here at the clinic? To me, they all have these super short, fashionable skirts on, with their tops open to the navel. And every one of them looks like Kaelâthas Sunstrider.
And Kaelâs shoes?
Iâve always wanted him to show off those legs, so heâs in white platform stilettoes.
I know what kind of world this is, I donât care. Iâm not talkinâ bout the weapon.
I tipped all the Kaelâthas nursesâ hats to the side, because I need this to feel like another delicious, dirty dream. Like the one in back PandariaâŠ
And also because thatâs more romantic, better than being admitted to the Dalaran City Clinic by a Night Elf stranger who found me hallucinating alone in the woods.
I also think people making cute meme fanart of Kaelâthas will be very big in the next expansion.
Check out that Kaelâthas nurse on the right, the one opening the door for my stretcher to go through. Heâs got a great ass.
âŠBam.
The truth is, back in the Ghostlands, when I mistook that Night Elf Dannox for Kaelâthas because Dannox was standing in a sunbeam, and then he groped me? I came out of it, at least I think that I did, then I mauled Dannox like a she-bear. Bit right into his arm with my teeth, like the civilized, highly-trained fighter for the Light that I am.
Oh, there Dannox is now. Heâs following the team of Kael nurses as they wheel me into the intensive care ward. Poor baby, whatever I did to his arm, heâs got it in a sling now.
And that Kelâthas nurse on the left? I asked him to order me some fel crystals mixed into a tall, icy glass of Kaja-Cola a couple of hours ago.
They only gave me the Kaja-Cola.
I wish that, back at Tempest Keep, theyâd only given Kaelâthas the Kaja-Cola.
Oh, hereâs the head nurse. Looks like I know him pretty well already.
âHi again, Kaelâthas. You look lovely in that. The gold phoenix stethoscope was a nice touch.â
âI know. Iâm a little scared, but then again I do look damned good, donât I?â I watched him look down over the hot little outfit, âIâm such a clotheshorse too, Trix. I canât believe slutty womenâs fashion is a new thing for me.â
âMhrm. You should let me dress you in my hallucinations more often.â
âWell, in any case,â He very deliberately and professionally removed my hand from his leg, âGood morning, Bloodthistle princess. How are you feeling?â
âPretty horny.â Well, that was far more deadpan and threatening than I intended.
âUh-huh. And anything other than the obvious?â Nurse-daddy Kaelâthas did let me reach up and play at twining his long blonde hair in my weakling fingers. He smiled pleasantly at my devoted effort to flirt, even now. Then he went on checking the equipment, magical meters and tubing by my bed. I enjoyed watching him bend over to do all this for me, âEverything went really well, Trixany. You survived the Ghostlands with that Night Elf. Then, you survived Tempest Keep with me.â
âIsnât that⊠somehow out of order?â
âLook at you. I remember back when they first assigned you to be my body guard at Tempest Keep. And you saluted me.â
I suddenly felt like screaming at him. Small miracle that I didnât. I felt like I was out of my body already, with rage, with pain. I was losing control of even sweet thisâŠ
âAnd do you remember what you said to me back then? Trixany?â
âMy life for my prince⊠Except my prince was supposed to be a great man. Back then, I thought my zealotry was warranted.â
âI did what I had to do. You were a Sunfury, you knew that.â
âKaelâthas, you lied to all of us.â Then, in a spark of anger, I donât know how, I finally found the strength to lunge at him. But two more duplicates of Nurse Kaelâthas held me, slammed me down. He then gestured, and a fourth blonde princely nurse strutted up with a syringe. All sharing his wicked, wonderful crooked grin. I kicked out, kicked over a silver tray by my cot. Dannox staggered back, cradling his arm. Twisted silver implements Iâd never seen in Silvermoon, nor in all my life fell to the floor, scattered.
But Nurse Kaelâthas came in and injected something clear blue into my arm. I slowed. I eased off.
I heard Kaelâthas speak with Dannox, while the fifth clone of this crazed, resurrected Bloodmage had a clipboard, taking notes. A dull magical hum swelled in the room.
âHer heart rate is a little low. But thatâs Miss Cuomo coming off the BloodthistleâŠâ Dannox nodded as if this was totally usual, for Kaelâthas in heels, a slinky miniskirt, buff chest exposed and accented by a hanging gold stethoscope to be providing medical advice. âSheâs just dehydrated now. A few more hours of rest here in the clinic should help.â
Dannox seemed sincerely worried. I assumed heâd dragged me way out to Dalaran out of guilt, or for fear of a bunch of angry Farstriders hunting him down. At least then, he could say he tried and heâd be in neutral territory. âThank you, nurse. And thank Elune that Trixany didnâtââ
I spoke over them both, âIâm⊠Iâm going to make it?â
Kaelâthas smiled handsomely, and he had a dimple just there on his cheek, âPlenty of fluids. And no more Bloodthistle.â
Dannox asked Kaelâthas more questions. A part of my brain waited for Dannox to reach around and grope Kaelâthas too, while the Blood Elf prince was distracted. I mean, thatâs what Dannox did to me, itâs what started this damn mess. But Dannox was trying to negotiate getting me out of there sooner, something about me being a big name, and discretion.
I couldnât stand it. A part of me had dwindled away, I think. My voice raised like a little kid, who doesnât know how loud theyâre being, because theyâre so panicked, because whatâs in their imagination is far more important than what the big adults think. âIâm going to be a star, Kaelâthas. Do you know why?â
He gave me a tender, patient look. As if heâd never slaughtered thousands and turned to the Burning Legion, or had ever ordered me to collude with him and other Sunfury soldiers to do the same.
ââŠBecause after what they did to our people, Kaelâthas. I have nothing left.â
âAww, Punkin. Thatâs so nice.â Hair flip there, that put him back to being as callous as I remembered, âDo you need anything else?â
My breathing slowed against my will. Whatever they gave me was kicking in, surely. âI⊠I want my real life back? I want you back, Kaelâthas.â
As always, in nearly everything, which was tragicâKaelâthas proved astute. âIs that why you sing?â
No. I think it was Dannox who asked, this time. Suddenly, it was just the big Night Elf standing by my cot. The nurses had departed to assist other patients in the large ward.
I confided, voice gravelly, âEither that or Iâd be crying all the time.â My head lolled to the side, so that I could only see the wall, not him, not anyone else in the gray, gray clinic, âBut I see tears as so last season.â
Dannox sat down in the metal chair beside my bed. He was heavy and strong. The metal screeched on the floor when his athletic body budged it. I peeked back his way. Dannox spread his feet on the floor and leaned elbows on his knees. I watched Dannox feel his hurt arm in the sling. Then he weaved his fingers together and squeezed his hands anxiously. He was wiped out. Me and my antics had done all this to him.
I have some goofy instincts, I guess. I presumed getting him to crack a smile might make up for all he endured on my behalf. âEveryone in here looks like Kaelâthas in a miniskirt, Dannox.â
His abrupt laugh stirred a few people in the beds around us. âWell, thatâs alright. Coming to the Dal City Clinic is always pretty fun for me too, in an um... similar way.â
I think we were both checking out the nurses before I drifted back to sleep.
-fin-
((Please. I please have a request for the Kaelâthas stans and the art community on Tumblr here please. Please! Someone draw me a sexy Kaelâthas in a female nurseâs outfit. I wanted one for this post but could not find please.
And when you do, please tag it with #slay trixany so we can all bask in its glory. Thx!))
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Art on top of a full time schedule
This is a messy little list of stuff I thought might be useful for anyone who works/goes to school full time who is also trying to learn how to draw or coming back from a long period of inactivity (and in essence, having to re-learn.)Â Â
* Everyone has different methods of learning and different thresholds for how long they can draw. Find what keeps you motivated the longest and draw what makes you motivated, too! Obviously focus on challenging aspects as well, but donât let frustration keep you from drawing. Itâs okay to take breaks and just illustrate what you like; even if all you make are portraits or one particular pose for a while, guess what? Itâs better than not drawing and is still progress. <3
* Learning any new technique or structural/perspective knowledge, even supposedly âsimple stuffâ can sometimes take days or weeks (or longer!)Â You may understand it in theory, but donât expect your fine motor skills to cooperate automatically. These things just take time and practice and repetition. There is always a disconnect between your mindâs eye and the hand. Your eye almost always levels up first.
* If you donât have a situation where you can devote time every single day to draw or sketch - it doesnât mean you wonât improve. Iâve seen a lot of articles out there saying you need to practice x amount of hours every day to achieve a certain level of skill, but please take those with a grain of salt?? Do as much as you can, when you can, and just keep at it. Improvement will come. The road might be harder and will be infinitely slower when you donât have a lot of time to devote to the arts, true, but you can either arrive at your destination someday or find some great spots to stop along the way. Never let someone tell you that your creative goals are unrealistic; even if you donât necessarily meet them, you may find yourself in an equally satisfying place. I.e., I didnât have time to make that comic series, but I was able to create all these illustrations that I can now make into an art book or poster series!!
* Donât focus on perfection and endless refinement. (Man, this is one I personally have struggled with a lot recently!) Itâs better to just finish imperfect things and move on to new drawings. Repeatedly tweaking stuff is a super easy trap to fall into with digital work so set clear limits for yourself and just find a good place to STOP if you find yourself in a loop of endless edits. (If youâre doing this, youâre basically just redrawing parts of the same piece over and over rather than getting more mileage in with different pieces. Itâs also easy to get lost or confused when youâre doing this and âmuddyâ the intended look of the image.) The 80/20 rule is a good one to uphold!
* If you have an awesome idea for a piece but donât feel youâre ready to draw it, just attempt it anyway. The idea will remain bouncing around in your head for a while anyways, so you might as well sketch it out so you can get the true âessenceâ of what you want to portray. Sometimes you wont have the initial excitement for said idea anymore if you wait until after youâve leveled up (especially with a busy schedule,) so use that excitement and draw on your potential. It might just push you to practice longer and harder than before! And best case scenario? You surprise yourself and actually pull it off. ^^
* You will make some really awesome pieces ... and you will also make complete and utter duds. Sometimes the duds can happen repeatedly as youâre adapting to new knowledge or about to level up (these are especially frustrating moments in an artistâs journey.) Sometimes you get people who will comment that a piece isnât âup to your usual level of quality.â IGNORE THESE ENTIRELY AND KEEP DRAWING/POSTING. Remember: No one draws masterpieces every time, and social media only shows you the barest glimpse at the full volume of an artistâs work. Youâre not required to post stuff youâre embarrassed about, obviously, but also donât be embarrassed to post something that isnât âgood.â
* You are not required to take requests/commissions - even from friends/family who say they are perfectly content with waiting until youâre less busy. If you donât have much time to draw, and you want to use that time specifically for you and what you want to make/learn, thatâs perfectly okay and you shouldnât feel guilt about saying no.
* Rest > Burning the midnight oil. Working yourself into exhaustion on art after a full day of work/school may result in burn-out - infinitely worse for your productivity than giving yourself a few extra hours sleep every night.
Iâll probably add more to this later. These are just top of mind!
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Frank Castle Relationship Alphabet
A- Activity (What is their favorite activity to do with you.)
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B- Beginnings (How do they act in the beginning of a relationship)
Heâs a pretty cool guy. Heâs super chill at the beginning of a relationship especially because most of the time he stumbles his way into relationships. Any relationship he getâs into always starts very casually. Maybe he needs your help with something or maybe you two keep bumping into each other and having short conversations. Regardless you start off as his friend and gradually progress to something more. Or maybe you really start as a one night fling that turns into something more.
His number one goal at the start of any relationship is to get to know the person he is with. He is always taking in information. Even small tidbits of information that seem insignificant he stores it away to better shape his opinion and his overall picture of you. He doesnât shy away from conversations other people would be scared to bring up at the beginning. His philosophy is learning the hard stuff early is the best. Itâs waste of time if people skip around the hard questions only to eventually realize they donât want to be together because of the answers to the hard questions. Heâll talk about politics, sexuality, bad history, past or present addictions. It doesnât really matter to him. He just wants to know. And heâll be pretty upfront about his own history besides keeping some of his more âviolentâ actions hidden. At least for a little while. So you canât be afraid to confront difficult aspects of your personality or history. Otherwise you and Frank will not work out.
C- Communication (Are they good communicators? How do they normally talk about their problems or solve issues)
Is he a good communicator? You could say that. Heâs extremely upfront about his opinions so if he thinks something is stupid heâs going to say it. However this really only applies to things that have nothing to do with emotions. If something is bothering him about your relationship he probably isnât going to say anything and because he doesnât know how to express his emotions into actual words. He knows heâs irritated, but he doesnât know how to verbally tell you what is irritating him. Heâs not good at expressing his emotions unless that emotion is anger.
And if you try to confront him he gets very defensive and his first reaction is to be guarded and deny anything that youâre saying. He doesnât like feeling that heâs insufficient. He can actually get very angry any time you repeatedly push him to talk about what is bothering him. Youâll have to let him cool down for a day and try again next time. Eventually if youâre persistent but not overly pushy, you can get him to sit down and work through whatâs bothering him.
Number one way to quickly get him to talk about things is to mention that his silence is bothering you. He hates feeling like heâs hurting you in any way. This method is slightly manipulative so you definitely cannot do it a lot, but in extreme cases where something is really bothering him to a point where itâs a danger to himself it is necessary.
D- Drunk (What are they like when theyâre drunk)
Frank is no stranger to drinking a lot and his tolerance level is very high. He doesnât normally go for the harder drinks like vodka and rum, but he can absolutely drain a beer, or two, or three. When he starts getting drunk he just starts talking really slow, which isnât a huge difference from how he normally talks. Thatâs why it can be really difficult to tell if heâs getting drunk in the first place. Heâs surprisingly not the type of person to get aggressive when he getâs drunk. heâs aggressive enough on a day to day basis. Lots of alcohol just makes him slow and sleepy. He will never let himself get drunk in public, but if he decides to really get going at home itâs entertaining to say the least. He goes through long periods of silence and suddenly heâs going on a really slow low energy rant about something that might have happened to him five days ago thatâs still on his mind. And when he starts in on something you might as well just nod and go along with it, because heâs not going to stop until he thinks you agree with him.
Another thing he does when heâs drunk is keep you very very close to him. And itâs definitely not something on purpose. Heâll be continually talking to you while keeping an arm cinched tightly around your waist while the two of you sit on thr couch. He needs to do something that requires two arms? Well that sucks because one of his arms is currently occupied and the other is holding a beer so I guess heâs just not gonna do that. Itâs just not possible to extract the arm that is currently curled around you. It is stuck. Also another drunk Frank will do is fall asleep wherever he is currently sitting. At this point you just need to be prepared to spend the night on the couch with him still holding on to you or youâll have to fight him off after he falls asleep.
E- Emergency (How are they in emergency situations? You get hurt, they get hurt, someone is dying etc..)
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F- Free Spot (Iâll give you any headcanon I come up with)
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G- Gifts (What kind of gifts do they give? What kind of gifts do they get?)
Frank is actually trash at giving and getting gifts. He has such a hard time figuring something out because he wants the gift to be sincere but he canât come up with any good ideas. And heâs not very creative so he keeps getting stuck on the normal gifts like jewelry or giftcards. So if you really like jewelry and giftwards youâre set but otherwise you might have to give him a very explicit list of stuff that you would be interested in. If Frank tries to get you a piece of clothing as a gift it will always be one size too big because in his words âI didnât know youâre size and I didnât want you to feel bad if it was too small.â Which is really sweet, but right now you have an entire section of your closet dedicated to items of clothing that you canât properly wear because itâs too big. Heâs much better at showing his appreciation through actions. Like his favorite âgiftâ to give is cleaning the entire house or fixing something thatâs been sitting around broken for a while. Or maybe just taking you out for a date that you can both enjoy.
Heâs also not a graceful gift receiver. Frank Castle does not blush very often but when he receives a very heartfelt gift his face getâs just a little bit redder. Heâs not an easy person to shop for because he tends to live very minimally, but that makes the gifts that you do get him all the better. He likes the classic clothes gifts especially when you notice that heâs running low on nice shirts of clean decent pairs of jeans. And itâs really easy to get his size right because itâs on all his clothes and menâs clothes tend to be pretty consistent. The only âexpensiveâ gift that he likes to receive are watches and he really only wants those like once every five years. He doesnât need a new watch clogging up his closet.
But the best kind of gift that Frank could ever receive is a gift from a little kid. Oh my gosh he loves getting really horrible drawings from kids. It just means so much to him. And he knows that theyâre pretty useless, but pieces of paper with little scribbles of color all over them tend to stick around in his car and apartment. Itâs just another reminder that heâs not the horrible monster that a lot of adults see him as.
H- Hugs (How do they show affection/cuddle)
It really depends on the situation and how he is feeling/where he is in his life. If heâs in a high intensity situation where heâs in danger or you are in danger, he does not show affection. Heâs not going to kiss you goodbye or hold your hand to comfort you. Heâs going to get the job done and get you and him into a safe situation as quickly as possible. He can be a very tough love kind of guy if something really dangerous is happening.
However it can be completely different situation if heâs in a stable situation with you. He is definitely not over the top especially not out in public, so letâs start with how he acts in public!
In public heâll keep an arm around your waist or shoulder while you walk or sitting next to each other. Itâs a very casual thing. Heâs not trying to prove anything or show you off in any way. He just likes to have you close and feeling like heâs protecting you even in a small way. Heâs probably not going to reach for your hand to hold it, but if you grab his hand first he will absolutely not tell you no. If heâs feeling especially affectionate heâll press soft kisses to the crown or your head or your forehead, making sure that you know he loves you.
In private he is much more affectionate, but he has to be in the mood for it. And by that I mean if heâs not busy trying to get something done heâs down for sitting on the couch with you in his arms. Heâs definitely the âbig spoonâ in any cuddling situation. He really loves to feel your body on top of his. For example heâll sit with his back against the arm of the couch with you laying against his chest. At night heâll tuck you under his arm so that you can rest your head against his chest. And if heâs feeling particularly âcuddlyâ heâll wrap his arms around your middle and almost wrap himself around you.
He feels the most cuddly after he has sex. He absolutely is the kind of person that wants to stay in bed with you and hold you close. He runs his fingers up and down your arms, playing with your hair and just overall paying a lot of attention to you.
I- Irritation (What is something that irritates them? How do they show their irritation?)
The biggest thing that annoys Frank is people who talk way too much. He is a man of few words and to him there is a very clear definition between useful conversation and conversation for the sake of noise. He hates the later. He thinks itâs obvious that when one participant in the conversation stops responding with more than one word that the conversation is over. But there are some people who cannot stop talking and they just keep making the same comments over and over again. Frank has no time for it. He will happily get up and leave or very simply tell them to shut up.
He getâs even more annoyed when people who talk too much talk about things that are not their business. Gossiping is a huge no for Frank. Everyoneâs got their issues and he doesnât take kindly to people that try to make themselves feel better by judging other people. He will shut gossipers down in a second with a simple âItâs not your business so shut your mouth.â And it works every single time. No one wants to disobey Frank Castle. Especially when he feels so strongly about something.
J- Jackpot (How would they spend their winnings if they won the lottery?)
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K- Kryptonite (What is their ultimate weakness?)
Franks two biggest weaknesses are animals and kids. He barely gives a shit about grown women and men because theyâre grown and they can make their own decisions. But kids and animals are vulnerable and they need protection. They donât have the power to control their own lives and Frank takes that responsibility on himself. Itâs the dad gene that is ingrained in his very being.
Itâs easy to see that he loves animals. Dogs, cats, birds, whatever it is Frank has a respect for it. His favorites are dogs obviously and he canât stand to see dogs suffering. He thinks the worst kind of people are the people who abuse dogs. (Though he thinks anyone who abuses anything is a piece of shit that needs to be taught a lesson.) In a more peaceful life Frank would have probably rescued and fostered dogs as much as possible. And he finds himself detouring missions for the sake of an animalâs safety.
Frank is also very weak to children. He had his own children taken away from him so that plays a part in it, but even before he had his own kids he loved kids. Thereâs something about the fact that they have so much life ahead of them and inside of them that he loves. He feels the intense need to make sure that kids can live the full life that they deserve. The perfect human shield from Frank is a child, because he would rather shoot himself in the foot than harm a child. However, once he getâs the child out of harms way (which he will) heâs going to destroy whoever decided it was a good idea to force a child into a world of crime.
L- Laughter (What makes them laugh?)
The number one thing that will make Frank laugh is you laughing. He loves your laugh so much because it means that youâre happy and enjoying yourself. He loves the meaning behind it and he just loves the sound. He thinks it is one of the most beautiful sounds and he will absolutely not let you make fun of your own laugh. If youâre laughing at something chances are heâs going to start laughing with you even if he doesnât find anything actually funny.
He also laughs ironically at things a lot. Like someone tries to threaten him and heâll give them a small chuckle. He uses laughter as a challenge. If he gives a short laugh at anything that you say, heâs challenging you to actually go through with it. âIâm gonna destroy your entire life, Punisher.â And all heâll do is laugh. Good luck bud.
M- Morning ( How do they wake up in the morning? Are they a morning person or a morning grouch?)
I wouldnât say that Frank is a morning person but heâs not horrible in the morning. He wakes up slowly during peaceful times. It takes him about half an hour to fully wake up and before that heâs just not very responsive or fun to be around. Just generally very groggy and only speaks in mumbles and grumbles. But normally once heâs awake heâs awake for the rest of the day so he doesnât sleep in a lot. At the very most heâll sleep an hour later than usual and at that point he just has to get up and get out of bed. If he needs to wake up quickly he can drink a warm drink, most likely coffee, and get himself going.
His favorite way to wake up in the morning is with you in the same bed as him. He doesnât need to be wrapped around you or you crowding up in his space, itâs enough that youâre just nearby. Heâs very likely to trace the features of your face gently or play with your hair while he lays there and admires you. If he wakes you up all the better because now he can see youâre beautiful eyes and he thinks you look gorgeous when you wake up in the morning.
N- Needy (When do they feel particularly needy? How do they show it?)
Frank is a very straight forward person in general. If he wants something heâs going to ask you for it or he will give you very heavy hints that are unmissable. he getâs needy when heâs been away from you for a long time or the two of you have been busy in your own lives. Heâs also a self proclaimed âold-fashioned tough guyâ so he can handle a cold or the flue without being whiny, but his need for affection/attention increases by about 200%.
As far as how he shows that heâs being needy, like I said before heâs very straight forward. If he wants to be near you, heâll sneak up to you while you cook and wrap his arms around your middle and refuse to let go. If he wants you to stop moving around the house and spend time with him, heâll grab you as you walk by and move the two of you to the couch or the bed.
O- Oasis (Where is their happy place? Where would they go if they didnât have anything holding them back?)
Heâs a pretty simple man. He doesnât want to go to some foreign country or some over the top beach. He just wants to be left alone. Preferably heâd want to be somewhere with a little bit of isolation but isnât too far from civilization. Think a nice farm house with a lot of land and few neighbors, but the nearest grocery store is only like 20 minutes away. After moving from place to place so long heâd like to have a place where he can settle in and make an actual home.
He also likes to take trips up to the mountains where he live with the trees and just enjoy nature. The mountains are really nice because thereâs a lot of peaceful sounds, like the birds and bugs and any bodies of water that are nearby. Heâs not concerned with spending time on the water, but he likes to take hikes.
Ultimately though his happy place is anywhere with you that he feels secure. And if that place happens to be in the middle of a big city in a small apartment so be it. He can be happy anywhere as long as he has you by his side and he doesnât feel like heâs being hunted.
P- Pain (How do they handle pain? How do they handle when you are in pain?)
I think itâs pretty clear that Frank handles pain extraordinarily well. Especially when heâs in the moment. Weâve seen Frank get shot in the middle of the fight and keep going so his adrenaline really overrides all of his sense of pain. He getâs more sensitive once the adrenaline wears off. Heâs not Superman so if he is injured he feels it and it definitely hurts. He isnât going to recklessly reopen wounds or do anything to further or worsen his pain. However, if itâs necessary he can push through a lot of pain to continue moving and get to somewhere safe. And he doesnât do this by somehow âdullingâ or getting rid of his pain. He basically just clenches his teeth and deals with it. Heâs also very good at patching himself up which often involves pulling shrapnel from injuries and giving himself stitches.
Everything changes when youâre in pain. He hates it. He hates it more than anything else in the entire world. Your pain is just a constant reminder that he failed to keep you safe and protected. And now he might have inflict even more pain on you to fix the problem that he created. He is very good at responding to your pain. He doesnât freak out or turn frantic, his mind becomes very focused. He knows exactly what he has to do to get you out of the dangerous situation and minimize your pain as much as possible. He normally stays as far away from doctorâs and hospitals as possible, but he will break that rule for you. Could he give you stitches, pull out pieces of metal and bandage your wounds? Yes he could. But he doesnât know if he can handle seeing you suffering from pain that he is inflicting. He also doesnât want you to have permanent damage and scars just because he was afraid of going to the hospital and being found out.
Q- Quote (Whatâs a quote that fits them and your relationship)
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R- Reunion (How do they celebrate seeing you after a long time of being apart)
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S- Stress (What stresses them out? How do deal with stress and how do they relieve it?)
Everything stresses Frank out letâs be real. Heâs a big tough guy with a majorly soft heart so heâs worried for everyone 24/7 even if he will never show or admit it. Plus add in the fact that he is a dad and now heâs worried about all the kids he sees.
Though on a more serious note he can be really good at hiding away his stress and packing it away until he can properly deal with it. If he is set on a mission and he has an end goal in sight and the process of getting to that goal is what stresses him out, he getâs all the more determined to reach his goal. If his goal is to take down an enemy, he getâs more ruthless in his fights and he doesnât properly take breaks even if heâs running on zero sleep and coffee. In a more mundane life where his goals are less high stakes he still runs himself ragged, but he can be pretty easily convinced to take a break and rest a bit.
Sometimes heâll drink to relieve stress, but he tries not to make it a habit. Instead he likes to watch sports games like football or hockey to take the edge off a stressful day.
But by far the most stressful thing that exists in his life is you. He heavily prescribes to the âHappy wife (or husband) happy lifeâ motto. He wants you to be happy and safe. Sometimes that means doing stuff that he doesnât like such as cooking food or folding laundry. And other times that means pursuing a huge crime syndicate and destroying it from the inside out in order to keep you safe. Whatever it is he has to do itâs worth it if he can eventually make it back to your home and settle himself into a nice comfortable couch with you tucked against his chest and the TV droning uselessly in the background.
T- Terror (What are they afraid of?)
Frank Castleâs biggest fear is having more people ripped away from him. Heâs not afraid of guns, heights, snakes, sharks or even death it self. But he is terrified of losing people close to him. He struggles with this to such a large degree that he tries to distance himself from people or even convince himself that he doesnât actually care about people. But letâs be honest, Frank getâs attached to people extremely quickly. Heâs a family oriented guy and because he doesnât have a blood family anymore he continually collects people in his own sort of family. But if you ever asked him about it, he would deny it for years. Because as soon as his enemies know he cares about people they will try and kill them. He cannot deal with any more people being taken from him.
He worries about this to the point that he has regular night terrors about people dying. It started out as just his family and that particular version of the nightmare still happens, but the more people he cares for the more people appear in his dreams.
U- Unique (What is a quirk that is unique to them?)
Frank has a couple ticks that you can see in the show that he expresses when heâs nervous. For one he rubs his hands together a lot, especially when heâs talking at a table or sitting down in some way with nothing in his hands. He also rubs his nose a lot and just generally moves his head around a lot.
But outside of what we can see in the show I am a firm believer in the fact that he makes dad noises every single time he getâs up or sits down. It is honestly a compulsion, if you tell him to get up without making a noise it is impossible. He is going to make some kind of noise. Also makes the exact same noise if heâs lifting anything remotely heavy. Itâs cute and funny the first couple of times, but I can imagine if heâs doing it repeatedly it could get annoying.
V- Violence (Do they fight a lot? Are they a good fighter? What is their fighting style?)
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W- Wow (What do you do that really surprises them? What do you do that they really like?)
Frank Castle could ascend into heaven every single time you wake up and make breakfast for him. Normally heâs the first person to wake up because his body is just used to waking up super early in the morning. So when you wake up earlier than him and also manage to have breakfast ready itâs really special. The first time he wakes up to the smell of warm food it immediately brings him back to his life with his wife and family. For a few seconds itâs like heâs traveled back in time, but he quickly remembers himself. His wife and kids are gone and theyâre not coming back. But now he has you and heâs moving forward in his life once again. His bed feels 10 times more comfortable than normal and he has to work really hard to get himself out of bed.
He wanders out of the room without putting any proper clothes on and makes his way over to the kitchen. He attaches himself to your back and wraps his arms around your waist. He mumbles a good morning into your ear in that rumble early morning voice you love so much. You have to force him to let you go so that you can finish the meal.
Another thing that always really surprises him is when you get assertive or defensive when someone is being rude or too pushy. He loves being able to protect you, but he loves it even more when he knows that you can take care of yourself. He doesnât have to worry about anyone harassing you because you are always prepared to defend yourself. Of course if anything becomes too much Frank is always prepared to step in and keep you say.
X- (Explicit headcanon. For all you degenerates)
Frank is definitely dominant in many aspects of his life and it definitely translates to his sex life as well. However, that doesnât mean that he has to be on top all the time. In fact he really likes when his partner is on top. What can I say heâs a very hardworking man and he likes to be able to have a good time and do minimal effort. Heâll make it a good time though donât worry.
He prefers to have as much skin on skin contact as possible. His hands are on you the entire time and he loves pressing kisses to any stretch of skin that he has access to. Also because he loves skin contact he is not a fan of having sex with any amount of clothes on. If you have long hair he definitely uses it as a handle to move your head around as he pleases. You better make sure he doesnât have any rings on because they will be tangled. His handling gives sex hair a whole new meaning. Donât plan on going anywhere for a while. Â
Y- Yucky (Is there something that grosses them out so badly that they canât deal with it?)
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Z- ZZZâs (What are their sleeping habits? Both with and without you)
He likes having a normal sleeping schedule. He getâs tired at the same time every night and he wakes up at the same time every morning. On nights when he has to stay up late he tends to suffer a lot for the next couple of days regardless of how much sleep he catches up on. He sees sleep as a necessity rather than something to enjoy so it will always annoy him just how much he needs sleep. He will never tell anyone, but sometimes he feels jealous of people that regularly pull all-nighters and use the time to be productive.
When he sleeps he can have good nights and he can have bad nights. He suffers from PTSD so he has some nights where he tosses and turns and just canât seem to have a calm moment and other nights his head hits the pillow and heâs out cold with his limbs splayed across the entire bed. When you start spending nights in the same bed as him things calm down a little bit but not entirely. He still has nights where heâs yanked out of sleep only to find out that heâs essentially run you out of the bed and youâve moved to the couch. But then there are also nights where he cuddles right up to you and wraps himself around you for a long night of sleep. Every night is a toss up so you might want to have a second set of sheets lying around and a really comfy couch to crash on.
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