#in such a devastating way and ugh
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it’s the way i just can’t stop randomly bursting into tears like what the actual hell
#i feel so crazy but honestly seeing ppl who also grew up with them and were/are as obsessed as me… there’s kinship and connection there and#it helps#there’s so many posts of ppl feeling the same things i am and really talking through why this is so hard for so many and#it’s such an important conversation to have#call it parasocial all you want but Liam truly had such a huge impact on so many of our lives our youth and now he’s gone and one direction#is really gone and our youth is gone and for so many - what was once our safe haven and what got us through some of the hardest years of our#lives is just…gone#in such a devastating way and ugh#idk what i’m saying I’ve never been very articulate#i’m just sad#for so many reasons bc this loss isn’t /just/ about Liam it’s about like… everything#anyway#i have two root canals today so might not be on for a minute bc pain but i will be writing all weekend so hopefully I’ll have something#to post soon#hope you’re all doing okay and have a good weekend 🩵#bella talks
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sasuke: i’m still glad we made up and all but….
naruto: …..but?
sasuke: us killing each other would have been SO romantic
naruto: i was JUST thinking about that—
#naruto#naruto shippuden#naruto incorrect quotes#sasunaru#sns#uchiha sasuke#uzumaki naruto#the way their brains work is The Same™️#also i think they frequently think about the homoeroticism of their attempts to murder each other#i CERTAINLY do#it’s one of those things i try to sneak in whenever i write fics for them but i dont think it EVER comes across#i want to write a full fic dedicated to it one day cause#UGH#the joy that you get to keep living together versus the regret that you couldn’t die together#the knowledge that the life you were so determined to claim#that you alone wanted to take#will likely be taken by something else#and you’re happy you don’t have to do it but you’re devastated something else will#UGH a favorite theme of mine#i want to explore it narratively i want to explore it narratively SO bad#sorry if this sounds off my meds wore off like three hours ago#and im going insane thinking about their dynamic to distract myself ig
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tease tidbit tuesday/wip wednesday
tagged by @theotherbuckley 💖
and tagged for tease tidbit tuesday by @nmcggg @daffi-990 @jesuisici33 @disasterbuckdiaz @exhuastedpigeon @rogerzsteven @honestlydarkprincess - tagging y'all back for wip wednesday 💖💖
it's barely 1am so let's count this still as tuesday as well lol haven't written much lately (or at all tbh) but here's a tiny bit of the coffee shop au I managed to finally make some progress a few days ago after months of not touching it lol
prev snippet | snippet from a wip game
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Huh. An order for two people. So maybe he has someone. It’s an early morning on a Saturday, he’s probably going home to his person, and here Buck is with a crush on a man already in a relationship. He tries not to feel too disappointed, after all, they only talked a handful of times, it’s not like he’s that delusional, he knew it wouldn’t ever lead anywhere – he’s too chicken to make a move, anyway, which is unusual for him. There’s just something about Eddie. Clearly he’s not available, though.
“Alright, coming right up.” he smiles, it feels a little tight. Eddie frowns a little, but then Buck turns around and gets started.
“So, your sister is pretty cool.” Eddie remarks, breaking the silence between them. Buck instantly smiles, and turns his head towards Eddie.
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#tease tidbit tuesday#wip wednesday#buddie coffee shop au#buddie wip#buddie fic#buddie#wikiangela writes#my writing#fic snippet#my wips#eddie: orders smth for chris too on his way home#buck: instantly jealous and devastated over his crush dating someone lol#don't worry buck will meet chris soon haha#i can't wait to write the madney part of this fic too 😍#i haven't written in like 3 days and it's killing me but like no words want to come ugh#im jumping between fics so much omg istg im gonna focus on just one soon lol
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Anyway saw a post about how Sam was only into hunting to look after Dean in the same way that children feel obligated to look after their elderly parents and I blacked out. Did anyone on the site actually watch the show?
The first three seasons are like. Peak Sam and Dean Winchester studies. The first episode(s) sets up who you think these characters are and then the show goes "here's how we completely deconstruct everything you thought about them" for the next forty something episodes.
Dean is the good faithful son, following in his dad's footsteps. You're led to believe that he's a john parallel but then guess what!! he's NOT!! he's Mary Winchester actually and for all that he says he hates the apple pie life. Well guess what Dean's favorite food is ever.
Sam is the normal one, the guy who wants the normal life and hates hunting and is nothing like John, but then guess what!! He and John narratively parallel each other!! THEY ARE THE SAME PERSON!!
And then you get s4-s5 which just continues over and over again to reinforce the idea that Sam and Dean want two completely opposite lives and the only reason Dean is still there is bc the other option is to not care about ppl dying which is something that goes against Dean winchester's hardware.
I think the only time we see Sam post s1 every touting the "I want out" line is during his suicidal era in s8-9 and the weird shit with Amelia that half of us have blocked out bc it was so goddamn boring. And the show even goes out of its way after these arcs to have Sam repeatedly tell ppl that he loves hunting and only wants to hunt if Dean is there so like?? Tell me again how Sam is this poor child being pressured into hunting bc his older brother/parent apparently won't let go.
LET SAM BE A BADASS HUNTER WHO LIKES HUNTING.
#SCREAMING#this is just another way the final absolutely ruins everyone#bc yeah we talk a lot about how dean wanted out and then fucking died on a random hunt#which is absolutely devastating#but we don't talk enough about how sam who LOVES hunting settles down and has kids#he would fucking NOT do that#people do NOT understand sam winchester#also its so so so fucking weird to me that half of the analysis on sam that i see from the perspective of his fans always devolve into#how sam is being pressured by his parentified older brother#but with zero acknowledgement that parentification is actual abuse while dean having a fight with sam is just...not abuse#ugh#sam winchester#dean winchester#sam studies#dean studies#supernatural
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the last chuck e. cheese location in my state that had animatronics just got rid of them so i made an oc to ship myself with helen henny to cope
anyways rip cec animatronics in milwaukee 1983-2024
#that’s right#posting cringe on main time#mutuals don’t look#chuck e cheese#self ship#oc x canon#i’m not adding anymore tags i’m scared#i’m genuinely so devastated that they’re getting rid of the animatronics#i’m going to the volo auto museum in april so i’ll probs be able to see them then#does volo even have cec animatronics??#ugh idk#it’s almost midnight#and i have school tomorrow#BY THE WAY I HC THE KING AS A BUTCH#OOPS FORGOT TO MENTION
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Genuinely not looking forward to the onslaught of brain dead gender takes the new wave of fans are gonna make over the Ranma 1/2 remake.
#and its like I get it. bc yeah he does literally transform into a girl and back again.#but he's not 'genderfluid' in the way gender fans think of genderfluid bc he doesn't ever consider himself a woman#he's literally just a guy who's cursed to transform into a woman sometimes#like please. please be normal#there are no words to articulate my devastation that they're remaking ranma 1/2#bc i appreciated it being relatively niche and kinda forgotten about#and now i gotta see people clowning over it bc of the mew netflix show#its like the same shit people did over Camilo from encanto#like yeah sure he's '''genderfluid''' in that he can literally transform into a woman at will#but he's not '''genderfluid''' in terms of ideology or mentality. the guy knows hes a man and will always be a man#big ugh
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i've been seeing a lot of posts about the way children don't get treated as human beings deserving of respect but i want to talk about the way so many of these negative experiences children have with adults come at the hands of people whose literal job is to deal with children (parents, teachers, healthcare workers etc.)
#i've seen a lot of people talking about the childfree child haters which is valid#as someone who doesn't want kids i can agree that the way some of those people talk is absolutely wild#i saw a reddit post a while ago where someone was asking if they could call the cops on a 7 yr old who hit them. yes seriously#but really i think the more pressing issue is the number of adults who are around children often by choice and yet-#still don't know how to treat them properly#it feels like a lot of people who take up these jobs have kind of an idealized version of the way the children around them should act#and if the child in question doesn't meet those expectations the adult can be downright cruel towards them#and if that kid is neurodivergent and/or disabled hooo boy that cruelty ramps up tenfold !!#keep in mind that these expectations would be unrealistic for a grown adult let alone a developing human being who's still figuring out-#the world#it will never make sense to me how many people will either have kids/choose to work with kids and then be surprised when said kid-#acts like *gasp* a child#and the effect that it has on a child to be constantly put down and reprimanded for doing normal human things is devastating#it reminds me of the quote 'the axe forgets but the tree remembers'#the vast majority of the time these adults won't give their actions a second thought#but the kids have to tend to their emotional wounds for the rest of their lives#ugh it's just so frustrating
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#Doodles#SCII#Damned#ZEX#Blood#I knew going into this and it was still so distressing :'0#Who needs plot twists when you can create such an intense sense of Dread#Probably doesn't help that I read this At Night In the Dark lol - actual shivers#Gods this was a hard scene to read - there have been several instances of my face hurting from furrowing my brow so hard haha#The way that ''Doctor'' is written is So skillful - I'm so impressed by everyone's prose and quirks and syntax!#Not to mention when he breaks character in a later scene to apologize for taking a bit to move the scene along haha <3 Play!!#It really does speak to just how much skill and effort is put into everything <3 It's so well done all the way around!!#Anyway to the actual scene at hand lol ow :') Drawing blood is always fun but I wish it wasn't his ;u;#Ugh the way he takes the surgeries is so well written - fear of course but a kind of stoic suffering as much as he's able to -#Until it comes to his eye#Ugh the /break/ of it all he goes from so eloquent - almost snarky and silly! Still trying to find an out make peace do /something/#It all goes completely out the window he's so /reduced/ and nothing hurts worse than that ughughugh#For all his intelligence and wit and prior successes and charm and just - everything that makes him /him/ to be dissolved into abject fear#It's so sad ;; And so well done <3#And he still holds enough of himself to know what he'd be losing wegh it's so sad!! He's so defined by his vision as most VUX are it's fjdsl#Zelnick is already gone by this point but I wanted to throw him in for extra sad flavour :')#Plus - I've mentioned his post-Op was one of the ones from the gallery that Actively kills me every time I look at it#Can you imagine my heartbreak to find out that he didn't have his Captain to comfort him after this in actuality? That he was fully alone?#''Are we home? Is it over?'' ''N...not yet'' - The Absolute Devastation of realizing that Never Was not really#Just tear my heart out why don't you ugh I'm fully bleeding out 💔#That last one is actually meant to be Max but it's open to interpretation :)#I think it's such a waste that his eye was just disposed of! Someone else could've used that (lol)#I do think there's something to the idea of seeing what used to be a part of your body elsewhere - like the Leftovers!#Even just keeping as a memento tho - a trophy - insult to injury but literally#Just points to no one being special and nothing being sacred I suppose
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Between watching Rebel Assault and episode 5 of X Men 97 on the same day I'm like. Steps away from a full fledged ✨breakdown✨
#star wars rebels#swr#x men 97#THE FORESHADOWING#UGH okay see here's the problem with rebel assault#it did need to happen. without his sacrifice the factory would still be up and running#he couldn't have saved hera then it had to go the way it did#BUT I HATE IT SO MUCH BITING GNASHING TEETH WEEPING#so yeah the horrors are horroring#rip to me#because we ALL KNOW WHAT'S GONNA GO DOWN NEXT DON'T WE#AND HOW THE KARK AM I SUPPOSED TO HANDLE WATCHING THAT AGAIN HUH?#plus tomorrow is another episode of the wingfeather saga and with my luck it's gonna be hecking devastating#oh no WAIT I JUST MADE ANOTHER CONNECTION THAT IS ONLY KIND OF RELATED#i'm gonna go have a mental breakdown and then possibly make another post
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Porfiry telling Raskolnikov that at least he was honest and in one bound took the furthest leap to put his theory to the test of actual action——
#Taylor believing a man who is obviously lying to her#like. it’s fascinating to me how they’ll say anything to her and she’ll be like ‘okay let’s go’#she’s never read Jane Austen and it shows. but that’s okay because she’s the character in an Austen novel#she has no sense of self-preservation she has no common sense when it comes to love#and the reason I have endless patience for that is because she IS different. she is extraordinary. she is WEIRD. she’s so needy#so angry so fragile so stupid so brilliant so completely helpless#like the bolter———I can’t even LOOK at it right now#because you know she was like this since she was 5 and SHE knows it#just so. Different. so strange. I mean she ruled her family with an iron fist from the age of 11#and her packaging is so basic and she she had so much access to everything anyone could want#so there are none of the usual marks of someone being so Different#but like. people HATED her from day one. you know her own strength of personality was drawing out many people’s hatred or envy#and she’s so helpless in her own personality because she can never change#like thank you aimee? or whatever? heck yeah there was some girl who bullied her and brutalized her on the playground#and you know it devastated Taylor from day one and still does#and it’s just. I don’t know how people can’t see that someone with that extraordinary set of gifts#wouldn’t also suffer in such an extraordinary way#and ways that elicit so much scorn and non-sympathy because people are unsettled and jealous and annoyed by her#because she WILL find a way to win#but isn’t that proof enough that she is the very OPPOSITE OF NORMAL#it’s why people have to be like ‘oh she sold her soul to the devil for this success.’ or whatever the psy-op spy thing is#because there’s no human way to explain her success if she really were as basic/talentless as people say#ugh this is all so incoherent and irritating and I’m so sorry but I just. I cannot explain how protective my heart is of her#and all the many many mistakes she’s made and the prisons she’s made for herself because she’s LIVING the tragedy#of never having denied herself one time/getting everything she wants#and discovering the poison at the bottom of everything she reached for with desperate hands#like. I love her so much and I am so protective of her because she is so helpless and she is getting shot in the face every time#and she feels every blow!#whew I need to turn off reblogs and will probably delete but I just#this album is all of her spilled out and people DO hate to see it because a lot of people hate her!!!!
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Just read an utterly emotionally devastating entry in the "One or both of teen!Skk gets sent to the future and adult!Skk has to deal with it" kind of ficsUGH
I've read very few, but I want to read more it's such a good trope I need more
The way people use that trope either to get teen!Skk or (imo the better choice) Adult!Skk to reflect on their dynamic LIKE A H it's genius
#Everyone needs to read Narrow Staircase by rutu14 on Ao3#I AM DEVASTATED#Started tearing up a fourth of the way through#Kept crying until the end honestly#Like#Chuuya says “Maybe once I'm dead I'll finally be something other than just a weapon!”#AND IM SUPPOSED TO WHAT?#NOT BURST INYO TEARS OVER THAT?#Dazai at the end oh God#He both hurt and mended my heart at the same time#Another day another few hours spent crying over skk#This fic also just reminded me of that post talking about how Teen!Chuuya would hate his adult self and who he became like UGH#I'm in pain#skk#soukoku#chuuya nakahara#dazai osamu#bungou stray dogs#bungo stray dogs#bsd
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OUOUOOYOUOOUOUOOO the way Evan is cruel the most to the two characters who only ever cared about Evan for Evan. Heidi was his mom, she loved him so much and just wanted to help her kid and Jared was never there for the Connor project or the popularity, the only thing Jared wanted out of the lies was Evan. it was all an excuse to be closer to Evan and THOSE are the two characters Evan is intentionally awful to. Something about self hate. and resenting those who love you. Something about believing you're the worst thing to ever happen to someone.
#keep in mind I said intentionally because I would argue he is way more cruel to the Murphys#but he's not TRYING to hurt them#when he intentionally blocks Jared out of a conversation or repeatedly lies to his mom however he is trying to hurt them#even if he isn't thinking of it like that.#like the delivery in the line 'its not my fault other people can' is so devastating#because he HESITATES before he says it he considers his words and chooses them before he says it#he's not speaking in a panic#like Evan. be nice to ur momma :[#Ugh I just love how all human these characters I can't hate any of them#dear evan hansen#jared kleinman#evan hansen
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mad that i don’t just ult nugu groups the way i used to cause why are pcs $10 at the lowest 😭 at least i bias yeri really heavily though because she’s not very popular so hers are usually $5 or so… on principle, that makes me really sad. but for myself, IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY
#what’s sad is the fact a lot of people don’t like her enough for her to be similarly priced the way the others are#maybe it’s just me but i feel like hers are always cheaper…?#my other bias is seulgi and. well. her pcs are. expensive#and yeri’s that i’ve seen aren’t really so… umm#but it also makes her easier to collect…?#and less likely for people to buy them#that being said one of the chiki sets of hers i was gonna try and get got sold this morning#i was devastated#🧸#nobody luvs her like i do… ugh.#[<- that’s a fan ofc. i don’t know her]
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MICHAEL SHEEN YOU ARE THE KING OF SUBTLE ACTING
#good omens#HIS EXPRESSIONS#THE SLIGHT DOUBLE TAKES HE DOES THAT YOU CAN ONLY SEE IF YOURE REALLY PAYING ATTENTION#THE WAY HE CAN SLIGHTLY DOWNTURN HIS LIPS AND YOU KNOW. YOU KNOW HIS CHARACTER IS DEVASTATED.#UGH MR SHEEN WHAT THE FUCK
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if u saw my earlier post no u did not but anyways read this mykr fic to permanently alter ur brain chem
#the way this stuck with me for so long#the writing is sooo#actually this author just kills me i wish i remember their user#they also wrote White memories#ugh the vibe is so good#also this fic made me sob a bit#actually devastating
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do you take requests? if u don't, ignore this haha but i wanted to request kenbig au where ken is running away and big wants to stop him but can't shoot him, and ken is like if u kill me, then i'll accept it (vegaspete coded lol)
I don't take requests, sorry :(
Unless it's for a commission, but they're still closed until this god damn summer is finally over 😩
#unfortunately I barely have enough time to draw all the ideas I already have on my own ugh#I did try to play that scene through in my head though haha#like yeah big would definitely hesitate to shoot him. he's pathetic that way and too emotional for his own good#but of course ken would see that as an opportunity to exploit it#if he did say that line it'd be to catch big off guard and stall him long enough to escape#he's not a romantic and he doesn't want anyone to kill him. not even big. he's just an opportunist and a little shit#but I think instead of devastating him like pete it'd just piss big off lmao#so he'd ABSOLUTELY shoot him then. not kill him obviously just shoot him to incapacitate him#like wHO DOES THAT FUCKER THINK HE IS!!!#cue ken complaining about big shooting him for the next 70 years#(or until big finally strangles him whichever comes first)#replies#kenbig#anon#thank you for providing me with these mental images!!#I do love thinking about them. and putting them in situations
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