#in my head it makes so much sense to listen to all 3 albums cause they are connected

[fabioquartararhoe]

i finally have time to listen to after hours, dawn fw and hurry up tomorrow in order

[beautifulpersonpeach]

BPP, sorry if you've answered this question before but what is your best song from Face?

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Hi @tabbypuppykitty

I’ve had a rethink. I think Face-off is now my favourite song on the album.

Set Me Free Pt 2 is still top 3, but Jimin’s enunciation on Face-off brings a smile to my face every time I hear it because that man is too damn sassy for his own good lool.

In the latest Suchwita episode, Hobi revealed that Jimin practiced live singing six hours everyday before and during FACE promotions.

Six hours. Every day.

That made me pause. I started thinking about everything that happened during FACE. I don't talk about this at all here because I won't ever share personal pictures and I know I was incredibly lucky and many other people here likely deserved to see him before I did, but I saw Jimin live during his very first shows for FACE.

He was so happy. The joy on his face and the way he worked the crowd... like a fish in water. He gave some of the best performances of the year during FACE promotions. The whole project and the thoughtful way he went about promoting the album, is noteworthy.

(You should watch this if you haven't already)

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But then I remembered the BS, the way k-pop stans reacted to the album, to the MVs, to the encore stage, the way BTS akgaes indulged in their sociopathy on his account, how BigHit failed (the anger Jimin biases feel is justified but some of y'all are wallowing in it). I remembered a few of Jimin's Wlives, how so much has been going on for him this year, and then tried to fit 6 hours daily practicing into it...

I have to stop myself when I think about Jimin. He has such latent intensity, like a glamour, a force field around him... it's like a black hole that sucks everything, including you, into him and his world. It scares me.

I know I whine about Jimin biases but y'all amaze me ngl. It takes a special fortitude of heart to bias Jimin. This post already sounds incredibly effusive, but I don't believe I'm exaggerating when I say he's a truly beautiful person. It's almost as though the world does not deserve him. It's impossible to not love him, desire him, care for him... want more sooner for him. I see all that, but I also see that man is stubborn as fuck.

He took his time to start work on his solo album. The middle of the Vegas concerts is when he said he suddenly came to his senses, shook himself out of that trance, and earnestly started putting together the FACE project. He'd written songs before, but FACE was its own thing. The personal stories he chose to communicate, the care in lyricism and production, the quality... Jimin created art in FACE and trusted that those who care for nothing but the best, will love it.

That's sexy, but the way he went about it also betrays a conservatism in him. It's a shadow of the edge in him, that thing about him that causes a tinge of anxiety when you watch him too closely.

I'm not sure if I'm making sense, but what I mean to say is you need a special kind of courage to bias and love Jimin. I recognize that. When I write what I do here, I always remember that. I also have very little respect for solos. And those two sentiments aren't mutually exclusive.

But taking it back to Face-off, my favourite thing about it is Jimin's sense of humour and skill coming through in the song, as well as how he enunciates his words. To really hear the switch in his tone, you need to stream in this order:

Like Crazy > Alone > Set Me Free Pt 2 > Face-off

By the time you get to Face-off, Jimin's voice has already gone through every variation possible, but then he brings out a tone I've heard only one other artist do well (Rihanna), and that tone is disgust.

Pure, refined sass. And he's already got the sauciest voice in k-pop.

The melodic and tonal choices Jimin makes at these timestamps fucks with my head:

1:53 - 2:08;

2:16 - 2:25;

2:41 - 2:56....

(lol, at this rate you might as well just listen to the whole song again.) Jimin is fantastic in the whole thing.

Europe is where Jimin belongs, but America would eat Jimin up too. The country already does if we're being real, America already loves Jimin. But given the right concept, Jimin would devour because he always does, and the world should get to see it. I hope I get to see more of it. As I've said before, if you feel inclined to communicate that to BigHit, I strongly suggest you do.

During Suchwita, Hobi showed how he's planned content for fans almost years in advance. It's possible Jimin does this too, planning music and content for fans to see months later... (So we might not learn why he went to London, for months...)

Yeah... I don't have the strength of heart to bias Jimin. Good luck to y'all.

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...that was kind of a lot lool. So to calm down, Jimin:

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Anyway, sorry I rambled. Face-off is a really good song and Jimin did an excellent job on it. The whole project is very good so I can't wait for the next songs we get from him. Shit can't get worse than BB deleting D2C sales so on the bright side, we can only go up from here, and for Jimin who already owns the record as the first soloist in history to debut #1 on the Billboard Hot 100, up will be a good spot to be.

Stream Like Crazy, Seven, All Day, and HUH?!

[kimium]

Music Tag Game!

I was tagged by @m34gs (in this post). Also doing this in a new post because I don't like it when posts get cluttered. I love doing these, but bold to assume I have ten mutuals/followers to tag.

Also, time to out myself for majority of my songs are not mainstream music...

Rules: When you see this, post 5 songs you actually listen to and tag 10 of your followers/mutuals!

MWTWB by Amalee

The entire album by Amalee relates to her Vtuber character, The Monarch and the backstory to her. While I like all the songs on the album, MWTWB (Messing with the Wrong Bitch) is my favourite because it has strong Vil from Twisted Wonderland vibes. That's honestly a big reason why I love the song so much. However, besides that I love the entire theme of the song is "Fuck Around and Find Out". My favourite lyric to the song is, "Uh-oh! Keep making me mad and it will be off with your head." because I love a good Alice in Wonderland reference.

2. The Rumbling/Under the Tree by SiM

I know this is cheating, but I believe these two songs need to be listened in conjunction. These are the two openings to the final season of Attack on Titan. The Rumbling is written in Eren's perspective and Under the Tree is written in Mikasa's. What I love about these two songs is how they capture the essence of the two characters. Both have changed significantly since season one and this change has caused a lot of heart ache (and death).

Eren is focused on what he feels is his "duty" with lyrics such as, "If I lose it all, slip and fall, I will never look away." At this point in the series, Eren feels there is no other path he can take, no matter the cost.

Meanwhile, Mikasa's song has heartbreaking lyrics like "Where are you at? / Where have you been?" and "Why oh why, why oh why/Don't you want to stay with me?"

This truly feels like the two are in conversation with one another, with Under the Tree Mikasa's response to Eren's song. That kind of duality always gets to me in songs. I love when songs connect to one another and these two do it perfectly.

3. homura by LiSA

Oh look, another anime song. How predictable of me. Anyways, while most people cite Gurenge as their favourite Kimetsu no Yaiba song, I think homura is my favourite.

Even if this song wasn't from an anime, the lyrics to this farewell song are heartbreaking. Right at the beginning, the "Sayonara, arigatou koe no kagiri" ("Goodbye" and "thank you" at the top of my voice") pulls at my heartstrings. The next part, "Kanashimi yori motto daiji na koto" or, "What is more important than grief?" really hits me hard.

Also, my link is to LiSA's performance on The First Take and her voice is breathtaking. Absolutely stunning.

4. Avid by Hiroyuki Sawano

From the anime Eighty-Six, this soft, but powerful song always makes me want to cry. The repetition of "Don't you get there?/ It calls, it calls" makes this song feel haunting, like someone long gone talking to you. Which, given Eighty-Six's plot, makes sense.

5. Love From The Other Side by Fall Out Boy

Oh, look, a mainstream song that I could play at work and not be accused of only listening to anime songs. Finally, right? (Not that anyone accuses me of that, but they definitely could and get away with it.)

Uh, I know I've talked about this song in a prior ask somewhere on my blog, but to repeat myself: I like Fall Out Boy. I'm not a huge fan, but I have a smattering of songs from them that I really like. This is one of their newest songs and I was immediately hooked as soon as I heard the lyric, "What would you trade the pain for? Not sure". I'm just always here for songs that have questions to the listener that make you pause and think for a second. I also love the reference in, "We were a hammer to the Statue of David". My minimal two years of art history jumped in glee.

Time to tag. If this isn't your cup of tea, no pressure! Also if you dislike being tagged in things like this, let me know!

Tagging: @someobscurereference @a-little-harmed-shinra @shreedle @serenescribe @zeldabard and @lonery-w

[the1975attheirverybest]

Hi!! Just want to share a hard time i've gone through this last month and I think only another the 1975 fan can understand (maybe).

I have to explain that I'm really really into music since as a little child, been through my emo fase and all hahaha. So I'm always that friend that people see as kind of a reference about music, you know? And the thing I like the most is going to shows. It always seemed to me the most wonderful experiece. I have severe FOMO when I can't go to a show of some artist I like.

I had to give this context cause I became a 1975 fan after the whole TS thing on tiktok. It felt very weird that I didnt listen to them before, because they are the kind of artist I tend to like.

The fact that I didn't know them before this made me feel so bad, like I was some kind of fraud? How could I miss this?? And so I found out they had come to my country several times, actuallly they came here this year!! And it gets worse! They played at Lollapalooza in my country several times and on days I was there and I didn't know them, so I didn't watch their show.

It made me so, so sad and anxious, I had to talk tô my psychiayrist about this hahaha I know It sounds soo silly but the FOMO is so real to me. Plus I was on vacation, so I didn't have much to do and my days were basicly listening to them, watching interviews and being here on Tumblr talking to you and another fan accounts.

My husband is the only one I can talk to about this but since he isn't into music he doesn't understand me haha. And I am ashamed to talk to my friends about it and they say something like "you just heard about this band, how can you feel like this?".

Sorry about the long text, I just wanted to get this out of my chest and I wonder If anyone been through something similar, so I don't feel like a crazy 12yo even though I'm 30yo hahaha.

no no no I can TOOOTTTAAALLLYYY understand. and as bad as you feel, its completely normal. But i have 3 things( maybe 4, idk, lets see where i go with this) to tell you:

When I first found the band my first reaction was THIS IS THE BEST THING I'VE EVER HEARD. immediately followed by "im so sad I missed two album drops with this band. all that time i felt weird and out of place and like i had no way of expressing myself, this shit has been under my nose all along and i missed it???" I was so upset. Cuz, like you, I love music. And im not afraid of mixing it up either. Like I listen to Hank Williams, Bob Dylan, Beyonce, The Beatles, Miley Cyrus, Talking Heads, AM, 1975, you name it. and im pretty snobby about it. like its "my thing" that keeps me sane. AND my academic specialties being philosophy and literature, its basically the crossover of my dreams, this band.

When I first got into them, I kept asking around to see if any of my friends had already been fans. Nope. Then I remembered Matty's "we're the biggest band that you've never heard of." which is sooo true. they have such a strong following, but it's mostly fans. no casual listeners who sort of know them and know his but couldn't name the drummer or couldn't name an album. you know what I mean? they're a very specific case.

MATTY TIMOTHY HEALY. THEEEE MATTY HEALY! who's knowledge of music rivals my own didn't know The Mountain Goats existed until Feb. 2023. that SHOCKED ME TO MY VERY CORE. They're very much up his alley too like how come????? these things happen! the 1975 are your mountain goats. and thats okay!

Rob Sheffield (terrific music journalist who writes for rolling stone) once said "the music will find you when the time is right" like sometimes if you force yourself to sit down and really listen to Leonard Cohen, you might just be like "meh. i dont see the appeal. not for me," But one random day, years later, after you've gone through some experiences or expanded your musical palette or whatever, you might encounter him again, totally accidentally, and it'll allllll make sense. It'll find you when you need it. The 1975 found you at the right time. And now you have them in your life. if you'd been forced to listen to them years ago maybe you would've been like "nope. not for me," and then kept that impression of them so that any time you encountered them you'd have brush it off like "ooh yeah. tried them. not that great. no thanks." so its better that you waited.

WELCOME TO THE FANDOM. SOO SOOOO GLAD YOU'RE HERE. AT LEAST SOMETHING GOOD CAME OUT OF THE WHOLE TS THING!

[tr4g1c-g1rl-j4m13]

May 16th, 2023

I'm in third period right now. I don't really know what to do cause we're supposed to be studying for the EOC that's on Thursday, but like I suck at studying... and I'm so close to having a breakdown at any second. This school has literally traumatized me, the only reason I stay is because of my friends and because I got into an art program for next year. I'm coping by listening to anything Ryan Ross is in, he's literally the only reason I'm staying alive. My goal in life is to meet him one day, like I'm so determined. Another reason I'm living, besides my friends and Ryan Ross, is because I have three concerts coming up this year. I swear this school makes me want to end it all sometimes, they literally have suicide hotlines on the back of the ID's. Another goal/motivation I have is to stay alive long enough to see MCR live. If someone even looks at me weird today, I will break down. Like I have such a fragile emotional state right now. Literally, I cry a little bit every time a song from 'Pretty. Odd.' comes on like it's so comforting, but it hits me like a ton of bricks. I can't take all these tests and homework right now. Each of my classes has work for me, I'm failing two classes, I have a C in like two other ones, a B in two, and one A. I'm struggling so much, and I know it's because I'm lazy, but I really don't have the motivation to even try anymore. There are so many assignments on top of the tests, and the most important classes are the ones that I'm failing and the ones I have an EOC for. I hate this school with a passion, literally earlier in the year, my counselor told me that I should go back to therapy. I think I'm gonna have to take Biology again because I'm doing so bad. Like, my parents, especially my mom, always say that I'm smart, so it "doesn't make sense why I'm not doing well in my classes and on my tests." I just think that I'm gonna explode any second. Last night, I was doing Biology homework while crying to a Panic! album. This school always says that their top priority is their students.. that's literal bs. I know the simplest answer is to lave the school, but it's all I know, it's like Stockholm Syndrome. I think that if I leave everything will go wrong. And I'm trying to convince myself that I'm not into a certain guy because all my friends say that I deserve better. I guess I do, but he's a nice guy, but I keep trying to put into my head that I deserve better, because I guess I do technically. Like anytime I bring him up to a friend they just make a disgusted face, I only have like 3 supportive friends, and then the other ones who say they support it make contradicting statements. I think it's just easier if I just got over him, it'll just be better for me. Like, I've done it before, lied to myself till I believed it, so how hard could it be to do it again? The last time I did this it took about 2-3 months, and they totally sucked, but I was down bad for the last guy so this one should be easier to get over.

Have a better morning, noon, day or night than I'm having <3

-jamie :((((

[mouldymp3rotations]

0225-018

Virage à 180 degré !

Last week, I decided I was finally getting to listen québécois music, because im from here, and i was still stuck with my outdated idea that our music sucked (well i mean i still generally think that, but we do have a few good songs here and there, just like anywhere else :) ).

As usual : Song titles link to individual mp3 file download

All 5 songs can also be downloaded together in a zip file from the link at the bottom

I wasnt originally gonna post only about women, but here, they're all women :D (J'avais aussi pas planifié de mettre 3/5 tounes de Plamondon, but here we are sljkdaksjhhd)

Céline Dion - Je danse dans ma tête

Cause I, too, am d-d-d-d-dancing in my head :3

Je danse dans ma tête was on Dion Chante Plamondon, from 1991

tw flashing/moving lights for this video

Luce Dufault - Quand on s'en va pour oublier

I listened to this album, recently, and I figured my mom probably listened to this album a lot, as I had forgotten about this until then. It also confirmed me I always liked dramatic music lol.

Quand on s'en va pour oublier was on Luce Dufault's eponymous album, released in 1996

Marie Carmen - Piaf chanterait du rock

This is a new discovery for me ! I didnt know Marie Carmen did rock before doing what she is known for, nowaday :) And, not gonna lie, she's probably right, it would make sense that Piaf would have turned to rock, had she been in the 80's rather than the 40's lol I also want to say that I always, always, always fucking LOVED Marie Carmen's voice (ironically this one song doesn't really show her iconic voice but oh well)

Piaf chanterait du rock is on the Dans la Peau album, from 1988-89 depending on the source... (song is from 86, fwiw)

(there also is a very bad quality video clip on yt , which is delightful, but yeaaah.....)

Marjo - Y'a des matins

The apple didn't fall too far from the tree and I inherited my mother's appreciation for Marjo/Corbeau :) I had like 5 songs i wanted to put here, but I chose this one cause it's stuck in my head lmao

Also appreciating how Marjo never tried to hide her québécois accent, too ♥

Y'a des matins was on the album Tant qu'il y aura des enfants, released in 1990

Nanette Workman - Ce soir on danse à Naziland

So i listened the original studio recording of Starmania for the first time, a couple days ago, and it struck me how much nothing changed. The first thing I noticed is how queer the story is ! It made me wonder how we regressed so much since 1978...

I also thought the subject matter of this song in particular was still very, very relevant. (also just to prove mariah carey isnt the only one with whistling notes lol (also also they cut it when it plays on the radio, here :( ))

Ce soir on danse à Naziland was on Starmania, in 1978. (discogs is wrong on this one... 79 that's when the show opened, not when this was recorded)

trigger warning : FLASHING LIGHTS for this one too *light flashing disco-ly*

i wanna point out that they censored the title, here, for the same reason i think it's very, very relevant...

Download toute ça en .zip icitte ♥

[milkbabysstuff]

Hey, this isn't my usual writing here, but I think it's important. I have a personal writing project where I write a letter to someone who has passed every day. It's inspired by a book called "Love Letters to the Dead," hence, that's what I call the project. Today's letter was hard, and I took multiple breaks. However I think it has important meanings. Below is the letter. Please read, especially if you live in America (like me) or if the recent election heavily affects you! (Tupac quotes are in Red)

Dear Tupac Shakur,

I took a break from writing in this project, however with recent events (Election) I have been listening to some of your songs again. I’ve been thinking about you and the life you lived. You brought so many smiles and so much joy to so many people. You touched people's lives and to this day still do.

I’ve been listening to your song “Keep Ya Head Up” from your 1993 album, “Strictly 4 My N.I.G.G.A.Z.” Sense womens rights are a big topic, and the future is unsteady. There is one part I've seen online a lot, and it's stuck in my head. The Lyrics are as follows:

And since we all came from a woman

Got our name from a woman and our game from a woman (yeah, yeah)

I wonder why we take from our women

Why we rape our women, do we hate our women? (Why? Why?)

I think it's time to kill for our women (why? Why? Why? Why?)

Time to heal our women, be real to our women

And if we don't we'll have a race of babies

That will hate the ladies, that make the babies (oh, yeah, baby)

And since a man can't make one

He has no right to tell a woman when and where to create one

So will the real men get up

I know you're fed up ladies, but keep your head up

I want to say, while this is SO important right now, there's another part I also frequently look at, but I haven't seen anyone discussing the importance of it as of now. This part goes:

But please don't cry, dry your eyes, never let up

Forgive but don't forget, girl, keep your head up

And when he tells you you ain't nuttin' don't believe him

And if he can't learn to love you, you should leave him

'Cause sista you don't need him

And:

Last night my buddy lost his whole family

It's gonna take the man in me to conquer this insanity (no, no, no, no)

It seems the rain'll never let up

I try to keep my head up, and still keep from gettin' wet up

You know, it's funny when it rains it pours

They got money for wars, but can't feed the poor

Said it ain't no hope for the youth and the truth is

It ain't no hope for the future

And then they wonder why we crazy

He also mentions, “We ain't meant to survive, 'cause it's a setup.” I mention these because so many people will just suffer now, not just women. So even if I'm scared, and don’t want to promise false hope, As much as I want to melt into my depression, you've made me realize there's always hope. So as you said, my message to everyone is, “Keep ya head up!!” Hope and strength is how we, everyone, has gotten through tough times in the past. Community is important, and keeping hope is even more important. So please, don’t give up, ever. Our pasts might be shit, our future may go into it, but we will make it out and make a better world for our futures, and the next generations. We fight, not always for our own futures, but for the future of those important to us and that may come after us. The rain may seem like it wont let up, but it will. I promise.

“We ain’t meant to survive, ‘cause it’s a setup.” But, we are meant to fight to make it easier to survive. We may have not been meant to survive but we will fight for it, and keep our heads up.

Thank you Tupac for lightening this dark time in my, and many others, lives. The Man, The Myth, The Legend, The Hero. All ways I will think of you.

-Gee <3<3

[mellow-island7]

Twitter Drafts

was writing down my twitter drafts in a word document cause i'm gonna deactivate my twitter again cause i'm getting overwhelmed again by everything and thought i'd share some of these on tumblr lol

These drafts start from now (8/23/23) and go all the way back to i think like a year ago or something like that, some of the drafts are unfinished but yea anyways heres some of them

(pt 1)

(ps my bad i probably sound like an asshole in some of these, i was really sad and have been stuck in a perpetual shit cycle for the past 3 years)(but also i have to learn to stop apologizing for things that i don't need to be sorry for)

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Stuck in a body that isn’t mine,

Everything is a waste of time

Dumb yuppie mfkrs talking about being “broke” with a car, a house, gear that works and a house that has food everyday :|

Lol :|

We need a show in south florida for the Daniel Johnston fans all 5 to 6 of us

Mfkrs will literally kick you down and be like dude get up already, stop being lazy

Its funny hearing people talking about getting older and gaining weight and running out of breath and I’m like “dude literally all you do is smoke weed and watch shit on Netflix, what the fuck would you expect”

Lol you really not grown till you get sued for the first time

Mad respect and appreciation for anyone that takes the time to try and and understand themselves emotionally

In my head thinking about how it totally not cute to be this sad at my age

In my head counting all the people that hate me

I’m grateful for the people that I’ve been friends with since middle school

The online therapists are exploiting mental illness, places like b*tter help want you to think you are weak and they want you to think you can’t do it yourself so that you can pay them a good amount of money to talk you into fixing your own problems

Yea I’m probably gonna hold off on doing shit seriously till I have money again

I know where I am, I know where I’m going and I know how I’m gonna get there

You should be scared you fucking limp dick weasel, I hope you get everything that you have coming for you

Wtf you could bs nose slide? :o

I just wanna skate and make music with my friends, its not that complicated

This mini ramp is slowly but surely making my brain so much stronger

Don’t understand plus don’t care plus don’t wanna understand plus I gotta st

Do things for genuine reasons

I need to stop apologizing for things I don’t need to be sorry about

(added this in rn, wasn’t originally in our twitter drafts ^^^)

Nick is like the mike Sinclair to my billy marks

One day when I’m older and more stable with money and more in a place of comfort, I look forward to being able to smoke weed while playing playstation 2 games

Lifes moving in such a weird direction and I’m really happy and excited but also a lil sad also goddamn some of the things happening  are so bizarre

Educate the yuppie jits, they don’t know any better

You are exactly like all the people you complain about and if you weren’t busy having your head so far up your own ass maybe you could see that

I love being an internet music nerd, all I wanna do is be on my computer and listen to music and make shit

I’m trying very hard to stay optimistic and keep working hard towards things that I think actually matter and if you are in any way trying to impede on that optimism (no matter how false you think it may be) then FUCK YOUUUUU just SHUT THE FUCK UP

Growing up means literally faking being happy every day

I can’t wait to turn 30

I need a job so fucking bad and I desperately need to leave this house

Steel reserve suicide? 👀

Fuck it lol I think imma finish as much as I can of the ruffans stuff and put it out as a demos album LOL (at this point that makes more sense than having this be an actual album)

Definitely gotta keep our friends humble cause :| some mfkrs are getting so prideful and arrogant :|

I think we need to start roasting our friends a bit more, so many specific people are getting way too prideful and arrogant, like there’s nothing in with feeling a sense of pride in your self but definitely gotta humble people when they’re getting out of pocket

Being in a car with people that drive like shit :| is so fucking annoying :| and then they wanna act like you’re annoying as fuck for being scared :| fried ass mfkrs :|

Too many people down bad rn, get it together

:| talking about these things with the people you love is :| so :| fucking :| hard :| life is moving and changing in so many directions in so many ways :| and

You will only come to realize this when it is way too late and you’ve done an insane amount of irreparable damage and then you will regret so much as we all come to do

Life at 17: I need to kill myself Σ('◉⌓◉’)

Life at 24: yea fuck this dude I’m out :|

Lol its funny to me that theres people that only like me because I’m so sad and that feels soo fucked up for some reason

I don’t care if it’s good enough because it is genuinely the best can do

(rn)

Phone password is **** and my computer password is ******, theres a lot of live video and audio recordings of peoples bands and maybe some photos and logos and art and other random bullshit, if anyone cares to go and try and find that, go for it

I tried, sorry, thanks

(anecdote: lol fucking dumb edgy imbecile thinking anyone would give a fuck to try and find any of that garbage

Thanks

Its fireeee :,| <3

Goddammit ramon just do it already, watching you get up and keep trying is humiliating it feels like watching a one legged dog keep tripping over himself tryna cross the street, its so fucking sadd

No I’m not doing okay why the fuck would you askme some stupid dumbass question like that, tryna be on some hold your head up king bullshit, like I’m glad that you’ve managed to convince yourself that you’re happy, that’s awesome for you I love that for you genuinely but what the fuck I am obviously not happy why the fuck would you ask me that like what the fuck am I actually supposed to say to that

I am not too fond of punk music or shoegaze music or metal music(as genres), theres specific bands and individuals that I like but in general sense most of those genres are so fucking boring

I feel like I haven’t had a real conversation with another human being in so long, I feel so detached from reality like as if I’m not real and I’m watching myself continue on autopilot from outside my body

I’m the kind of stupid where I’ll have no money, get $5 and decide to share it with someone so we could eat together

:3

Sitting thinking about how many days will have to pass before have to sell my fuzzwar and amp and other belongings that mean a lot to me?

(something is wrong/broken)

One brain cell dimwit human being who is not doing anything to fix it or help in any way: “why are you not fixing this? What is wrong with you you useless irresponsible asshole?”

:|

I wish I had what you had

(plural)

I’m getting real close to selling my fuzzwar, at this point in life I have no one I’m close enough that would know what that would mean to me or even care but maya gave me that for my 19th brirthday, it was the nicest thing anyone has ever done for me ever

Jesus christ the way that asia argento looks at rip torn in marie Antoinette and just thinking about times in life when someone looked at you like that while touching your face

[gildeddlily]

talking ab old and new hyperfixations is why I'm here on this earth

so alr I'm always joking around ab how some shows and books and things changed me as a person since I was a kid and I thought why not? so yeah

1- first of all, the animated Robin Hood with the animales my sister always says that it was what made her a communist, and I can't stop myself from feeling the same. no alr if I have to be serious it probably is what made me hate rich people

2-then, the lord of the rings this is where I've become who I am. I used to watch it when I was sick (the fellowship of the ring part 2, always, cause the khazad dum scene was majestic and my favourite) but it was a tradition of my family to watch the whole triology every two or three months a(nd I was one of those annoying kids who learn the dialogues and talks with the characters). and it kind of set off my standards for films in the future (and ppl too, since I grew up having aragorn as an example of what a man should be so yeah kiss another man's head and cry ab his death and kill strange disgusting things the minute after like the alpha male you are)

3-mamma mia there's a reason why I listen to abba today, and it's because of my mother making me watch this film when I was like seven and rewatching it with me more than two times a year. i absolutely loved it even if I didn't understand some things, but singing those songs was my favourite hobby

4-wild child at the start of our mamma mia's dvd there was the advertisement of this film, and i secretly watched it (since my mom always talked bad ab it saying it was stupid) when I got a computer at like ten and and let's not talk ab how emma roberts was my second woman crush and it was awkward BUT I LOVED THAT FILM SO MUCH since my parents were sweet but a little old on this type of things it was refreshing to watch it

5-achilles crying on patroclus' body my parents bought me the Iliad when I was a kid (in Italy we start to study it in sixth grade so reading its general culture), it was prose but I absolutely loved it. there where draws of what it said, but maybe a little bit too realistic for a six years old- but the one page where there was Achilles trashing on the ground and pulling at his hair and hugging Patroclus' body was rude

6-reading harry potter's books my aunt gifted me the whole series (like a book every month) and I absolutely loved it. the reason why still today after years I remember everything is because I probably read every book at least five times. I didn't have a phone and I was like seven, so I didn't get any spoilers, and I straight up cried so many times (sirius's death, remus and dora's death, harry's death, the flashback of lily and james' death, fred's death and so many things) and I loved it. now it's rare for me to watch something without spoilers.

7-david bowie my first real queer representation my father is a little homophobic, the it's-ok-not-in-front-of-me kind but he absolutely loved david bowie. he made me listen to Hunky Dory when I was like five, and I was the kid in school that singed Changes and got bad looks but I really loved his voice. after years, in seventh grade I think, I rediscovered him and as confirmed queer person I quite obsessed on him. still thanking you dad!

8-avril lavigne ok this is alr still my father made me randomly listen to sk8er boy and I kind of obsessed on her? when I was like nine? it lasted a year or so, and I only listened to her but I loved Complicated's music video. I kinda hated Girlfriend since I was on my "i'm different from other girls" period, while I absolutely love it now that I'm a little older (and it shouldn't make sense but it does)

9-Bring Me to Life's music video and everything else still my dad. telling me it was a good one. I obsessed on the song, and the album, and Evanescence. stopped listening to them when my mother told me I was like my cousin (my millenial cousin that I hated and that loved evanescence as a teen) so I had to rediscover them at fourteen as a real angsty teen!! but still I was like ten and singing screaming wake me up inside in my room in my italian-ten-ys-english

10-kill bill still a kid, still traumatized, still loving it after almost ten years. I absolutely loved the first volume cause I liked the yellow outfit and the japanese school-girl and Uma Thurman is still today my love and O-Ren was so pretty. yeah the blood and the missing limbs but the women and the plot was so good. rewatching it after years made me realized how it influenced me and how I saw things and thought ab topics connected to violence

alr I'm done

[xxfangirl365xx]

Okay chat, my thoughts on the paper kingdom "leak"

So I have a few thoughts, I heard this last night b4 I saw anyone else was talking about it, somebody dm'ed me on insta with the file and I listened to it.

First thought was it might be AI just bc Gee's voice sounds so....idk like sad. It's not the way he usually pronounces some words and some parts seemed a little off. But it sounds too put together to be a demo if that makes sense, so it wouldn't make sense why it sounded kinda off if it was a finished product.

HOWEVER

there are some parts when listening I feel like an AI would stumble over and make gibberish or glitch out, and that sounded very real and undeniably Gerard's voice. But I don't wanna get my hopes up too high. (a little add on, Warner is also trying to take the recording down like crazy, which is very very sus lol)

Ik this is like, an old recording from when the band first wrote it so it's not a new recording. But I feel like for an mcr5 type of situation here the band would 100% start a project from scratch. Maybe if they really liked a song or two from scrapped projects put it in there but I don't think they would continue with Paper Kingdoms. Just the dark and depressing nature of it, I feel like they would start something fresh. Frank said in a interview in 2020 somewhere that the guys like starting projects from scratch, that's why foundations wasn't a song that they made a while ago and they just finished, it was brand new.

To reflect the bands comeback/fresh start and just overall different mindsets now of not being pressured and making things at their own leisure I feel like they wouldn't have a reason to remake paper kingdoms, especially since pretty much all of us know about it already, so it's nothing new. I'm def on the side that they would do something relating to swarm tour. Something in that realm feels very on brand and there were so many foreshadowing moments watching the clips from shows feels like watching a movie almost with the different costumes and random little phrases and skits and stuff Gee did. It feels more likely they would build a story and album off of foundations of decay and swarm tour and the stuff written on the drum heads.

Okay almost done my rant sorry

also I've seen people saying it was not right to have this leaked bc the band but specifically Gerard said this was a very bad time for them and paper kingdom didn't like up to what they hoped and they never wanted anybody to see it, so I feel bad by listening to it cause it goes against the bands wishes or not having anybody see it. Which is understandable, towards the end of mcr the guys were not really having fun anymore and just were not vibing with it anymore, so anything at that point wasn't in the vision and prob got them frustrated they couldn't make the record work. Gerard even said b4 that he had all the records worked out in his head before the band even took off , Bullets,Revenge,Black parade. Danger days (at that point) wasn't even in the picture. He said anything after black parade felt like betraying his ideas. However as we know Danger days happened and Conventional weapons happened (weather or not that's counted as an album I'll never know lol but it's still there)

So I feel like Paper kingdoms isn't meant to happen. I understand this is just an old leak but I really don't mind myself believing too much that it's going to become a full album release. MCR is much much more likely to do an album with their newer vibe, and revised sound and visions that work on a old project that supposedly caused so much frustration and pain. But who knows. They r very curious little critters. MCR has done more unexpected things.

anyways thank you for listening to my little rant :3

Quick question,

[missmielyhoran]

Imagine dating Harry during the Fine Line era and then having to listen to Cherry lmao can you write something like that? Pleaseee

I feel like I would have laughed tbh💀

Here you go...it's a short one

Warning- just fluff, bit of sad and insecure Y/N, I feel like I have written many sad shit lmao

*****

You were lying beside Harry on the studio floor. The carpet gave you a rug burn, but you could make sacrifice for your boy.

You were listening to his album with him. Both of you had one of the earphones connected to the phone playing songs, which would be out in 2 weeks. Lights up had just ended, and you were convinced it would be up in your top 3 with golden when soft guitar started playing.

Don't you call him baby...

You knew none of the songs were about you, but somehow, you knew this one might hurt you. Songs were a view inside Harry, how he feels, who he is, those lyrics are him being vulnerable and just like his songs, he's wonderful, a dreamy, a playful melody.

I just miss your accent and your friends...

It was very early in your relationship, and although you were convinced you were about to fall in love with him, you still had your insecurities. All of your friends warned you about him, and sometimes you would get inside your head and overthink his every action.

He never met your friends but he missed hers. She had beautiful french accent you don't, she's a model, beautiful, tall and has a amazing dressing sense which you call see Harry took inspiration from meanwhile you go out anywhere in joggers, most you do it wear jeans.

You were so different than her and you couldn't help but compare. Why would he date someone so...less than her unless you were just a moving part. A rebound from his last relationship, which was very much serious, what if your friends were right and he's still in love with her?

You didn't even realize the song had ended when you heard a woman's laugh, laugh, and then her beautiful accent. You were starting to get irritated cause why does she have to be so perfect?

It was a voicemail obviously left by her for him. The ceiling turned blurry as your eyes watered, you were feeling insecure, and didn't know if you should tell Harry or not. What if he thinks you're a whiny or a cry baby?

"Baby?" Suddenly, the ceiling was replaced by your boyfriend's beautiful face and his mop of curly hair.

"What's wrong?" He asked concerned, his eyes searching all over your face for any hint.

"Nothing it's just sad song" you fake laughed and whiped off your tears but Harry didn't buy it. He gave you a bored look and raised his eyebrows wanting the truth in answer.

You sighed and looked away from him to the space between you and him, "It's stupid" You mumbled.

He lifted your chin with his index finger and gave you a stern look, "Nothing is stupid when it comes to you and you wouldn't be crying if it was. Now chop chop tell me" He asked rolling over with you so now you very laying on his chest.

"Do-" You bit down on your lips and looked away again and started to pick on your cuticle, "Do you still have feelings for her?" You asked and then panicked, "Just- I mean, you started dating me so soon, and your relationship seemed so serious with her-"

"Oh sweetheart," Harry cooed and chuckled. He pulled you into him more, and you digged your nose into the crook of his neck, inhaling his smell and feeling comforted by it.

"Yes, my relationship with her was serious, but that doesn't mean you're anything less or just a rebound." He assured you, removing the hair that was fanned against the side of your face.

"I know it's too early to say this, but I knew the moment I saw you in that park sitting alone reading your book that you were the one." He kissed your head and snuggled more. You smiled against his neck and gave him a kiss, the mark from your lip gloss sitting there.

You had your doubts and thoughts, your anxiety always making worse out of things, but you also had Harry to shoo them away and protect you, give you a good cuddle whenever cold thoughts surrounded you.

*****

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secret santa [eddie munson x reader]

A/n: this is 100% self indulgent. Don't ask me why I wrote this in the middle of summer.

Summary: you have to get Eddie a present for secret santa and Steve helps!! (FLUFF?) 1.9k

Warnings: mentions of shitty Christmases. I think this is it? It's just cute :)

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“Who’d you get?” Steve poked his head over your shoulder and sneaked a peek at the little piece of paper in your hand. “Eddie!?”

“Shhh!” you nudged him, “Keep quiet!”

“What are you gonna get him? A trident?”

Rolling your eyes at Steve, you folded the note and stuffed it in your pocket. 

“You know? Cause he’s a satanist?”

You blinked. “That is so wrong on so many- why am I even trying?”

“For someone with straight C’s, you know an awful lot about satanism.” Steve grinned, awfully close to your face. “Is that because you like him?”

“Don’t think I won’t slap you”

“Ok, ok, but seriously now, what are you gonna get him?”

“I don't know, something badass”

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“A bat plushie, are you serious?” Steve scoffed and threw the toy back in the basket.

“Hey!” Without thinking twice, you picked it back up and petted its little head a few times. “Don’t listen to him, he’s just cranky because Nancy won’t take him back”

“That is absolutely not true-” Steve raised his voice as he pointed to the toy. “Don’t lie to him”

“Admit he’s a cutie” you grinned and brought the bat up to his face. “Say it”

Steve blinked in disbelief a few times and then stared at you as he spoke with not even a hint of a smile on his face. “Adorable”

“Was that so hard?” you giggled and moved along.

Moments later, something shiny caught your eye and you took off in that direction. Steve roamed around for a bit, catching up to you when your hands were almost already full.

“Are all of these for Eddie?” Steve gasped as he offered to help you carry them.

“No, don’t be ridiculous” you scoffed, “The Metallica shirt is for me”

“Yeah, no, of course, and the bunny ears are for Eddie”

“Yes” you nodded and at this point Steve was at a loss for words, confused out of his mind.

“...right”

“Right” you beamed, and started pointing at the stuff you were holding. “Ok, look what I have so far! This one right here is like a whole kit, but to be honest with you, I wanted it for the shampoo mostly. Like our hair textures are quite different, but I’m willing to bet heavy money on the fact that these right here will make his curls shine! And not to mention it’s the peach version which you can’t find anywhere! And also there’s a lipstick in there but its… not his color”

“Ok!” Steve laughed, “Shampoo and and a lipstick that’s not his color”

“... yeah and conditioner, 3 different masks, oil, leave-in cond-”

“Ok! Hair stuff, got it, what’s next?”

“Ok, so since that lipstick is a miss, I got him-”

“You got him one that’s his color?” Steve asked enthusiastically but you just squinted and rolled your eyes in confusion. 

“No, don’t be ridiculous. I got him eye liner”

Steve opened his mouth to speak but then changed his mind. He just… smiled, so you continued.

“Oh, this!” you said, picking up a vinyl. “Young Americans is such a great album, but it's so easily overlooked! People go from Ziggy Stardust straight to the Berlin era which is such a shame”

“I love David Bowie” Steve exclaimed, “But it doesn’t really seem like Eddie’s style”

“You never know,” you shrugged. “This album means a lot to me, maybe it’ll mean something to him too”

“Ok” he nodded, his attitude much calmer than before. “What else?”

You were about to grab the poster you just picked out and roll it out for Steve to see but then stopped. “Listen, I’m not dumb, ok? I know what you’re thinking. You think all of these are stupid, don’t you?”

“No! No! I’m so sorry if I made you believe that, it’s just that I- I don’t know, they don’t seem to be very… Eddie”

“I mean, I only got stuff he can use inside his room without anyone seeing. My ex boyfriend never wore anything I bought for him, like he used to say I had no sense of style whatsoever. It’s not like I believe him or something, but like�� the shampoo? This poster? The plushie? The vinyl? All of these? Are just for him, no one has to see them, you know? And I think they’re really cute, I’d like to receive this… Am I being stupid?”

“No!” Steve jumped to stop you. He was confident, looking you dead in the eye, more honest and serious than before. “No, absolutely not. This is literally the best present in the world. No one could’ve come up with a better gift.”

“You really mean that?” 

“Absolutely!”

“Ok” you smiled weakly and grabbed a little black, shiny envelope. “Guess what’s in here?”

“Bobby pins?”

“Guitar picks!”

“Oh!” Stave laughed, “Ignore me, that was an obvious one”

“Yeah” you giggled along, “And they have little monkeys on them!”

“Of course they do” -

After paying for all the presents, you made your way to the car, stuffed them in the trunk and then returned for round two. It was Steve’s turn, and following your display of enthusiastic gift shopping, he was counting on you to do most of the work. And you happily did.

The next day at school, you were in your seat, leaning back as you watched your teacher call out names for the kids to come to the front and claim their gifts.

“Eddie Munson” she eventually said and the class went silent.

Your heart rate sped up. “Why isn’t he standing up?” you whispered to Steve who was sitting directly behind you.

“Do you want me to look?”

“No! He’ll know!”

“Eddie?” your teacher tried again.

“Yeah, yeah, sorry” Eddie eventually muttered and hurried to his feet. He clumsily rushed to the front of the class and stopped dead in his tracks when his eyes landed on the big, pink, sparkly gift bag. “This one?”

“Well, it says Eddie Munson, doesn’t it? There’s a little heart beside the name, so unless you’re Eddie Munson without a little heart, then yes, Eddie, this one's for you”

“Ok, then” he smiled shyly and grabbed the bag with both hands, “Thank you”

“Merry Christmas, honey” she said and then resumed distributing the gifts.

“Steve?”

“Yeah?”

“I think my ears are melting”

“Aww” he chuckled, “Are you nervous?”

“Yes, I’m fucking nervous!” you snapped back.

“Do you want me to look? See what he’s doing?”

“Yeah” you nodded, “But don’t make it too obvious”

You’d never know how casually Steve turned around, but for whatever reason, you doubted that he had been even the tiniest bit subtle.

“He’s elbow deep inside that bag, Y/n!” Steve said with enthusiasm. “I think he loves it!”

“What if he’s disgusted and is just looking around hoping to find something that he doesn’t hate?”

“You’re being ridiculous!”

“Steve?”

“Yes?”

“As soon as the bell rings, I’m gonna need you to distract him, ok? So I can get out of here”

“How exactly do you want me to do that!?”

“I don’t know,” you shrugged. “Wrestle. Tackle him to the ground, figure something out. You fought demogorgons, Eddie’s not gonna be a problem for you”

Steve sighed loudly, but didn’t argue with you.

When the bell rang, you didn’t linger around to see how Steve chose to distract Eddie. All you knew was that it worked, as you were able to sprint out of that classroom and hide in the girls bathroom before the next class started - a class Eddie wasn’t in.

You didn’t really pay attention to anything that the teacher had said, instead just made up scenarios and thought of all the different things about your present that Eddie could possibly hate.

As soon as that class was over too, you stood up and left the building. Fairly sure there was no chance for Eddie to be already outside, you didn’t bother to hide or look around. You just walked down the main path, lost in thought, when you heard your name being called.

Before getting a chance to turn around you felt a gentle hand grab your elbow, and your breath stopped.

“Hey, Y/n, are you in a hurry?”

“No, yeah, yeah, no, I’m-” you mumbled and shook your head, “No, I’m not in a hurry, why? What’s up?”

“I blinked earlier and you were gone” Eddie chuckled, “I wanted to, I don’t know, it feels kinda weird getting this present. I feel like it’s not even for me”

“Why not?”

“No, no, no!” he jumped to reassure you, “I saw the little bat, he’s adorable, I know it’s for me… I’m just saying… I don’t know what I’m saying. Thank you!” He finally cleared his throat. “Thank you so much”

“You like it?” you asked, eyes open wide.

“Do I like- I love it, Y/n, it’s by far the best present I’ve ever gotten”

“Really, because-”

“Don’t bring up the fact that last year I didn’t get anything for secret santa-”

Your heart broke. “What do you mean? Why didn’t you get anything?”

“I don’t know” Eddie answered and shrugged, “It’s fine, I don’t mind but like that’s why I was so shocked when the teacher called my name”

“I’m sorry” you said softly, and looked into his eyes. “You should’ve gotten something!”

“I did!” Eddie exclaimed and pointed at the gift from you, “This makes up for every failed Christmas-”

“Failed Christmases!?” you whined. Your nose started to itch as tears built up in your eyes. “Do you really wanna make me cry right now?”

“No, no, no, never” he shook his head. “Don’t cry! It was just a joke!”

“I know it wasn’t, but I’m not gonna push you. Just… I’m sorry for all those things, and in case I managed to make this one eve the tiniest bit better, I’m really happy”

“You really did, thank you, sweetheart” Eddie grinned and opened his arms, “Can I hug you?”

“Yes” you laughed.

Eddie brought you against his chest in a sweet but firm embrace and when you pulled away, it seemed like he was about to say something. But he closed his mouth, waved his hand dismissively, and nodded towards his van.

“What?” you questioned, not moving an inch.

“Nothing!”

“It seemed like you were about to ask something. Is it about the hair products? There’s an instruction manual in there, in case-”

Eddie scratched the top of his head and avoided your eyes as a smile peaked at the corner of his lips. “It wasn’t about the hair things”

“Then?”

“I just… wanted to ask if you wanted to… maybe yeah, about the hair products. Like, maybe you wanted to come over? You could show me how to use them?”

“Oh!” you beamed, “Sure, yeah, I can do that”

“And the eyeliner! I always wanted to try it”

“Deal! Yes!”

After that, Eddie offered to drive, and as you made your way to his van, he started waving the bag around and sighed. “You know, this is the best present ever, but I hate that there isn’t something I can just, put on, I don’t know, wave around, like carry with me, so that everyone sees. Oh-” he belted, “The bunny ears!”

“Oh my god” you laughed out loud when you saw him put them on.

“How do I look?”

“Very… metal”

“Good” Eddie nodded and threw his arm around your shoulders. “I absolutely love them”

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[love-strawberry]

met you at the right time

summary : in which they break up but find their way back to each other.

pairing : harry styles x reader

warnings : language

author's note : hiiiiii!! omg i missed on writing here, im so sorry for going mia but im back!! requests are open and so is my inbox, go crazy. i love you all, thank you for sticking around. also, this fic is inspired by feels like by gracie abrams

tagged : @slut4benbarnes @ellora-brekker @0oolookitsme @ateliefloresdaprimavera

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y/n_ 'in the morning i'll be better' out now!! for the past 11 months, i've put my EVERYTHING in this album and to see it releasing is a dream come true. hope you all like this album <3 thank you so much for supporting me, i love you all endlessly!!

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harrystyles 'same group of friends' out now. i hope you all love it as much i did. thank you so much for you support, i love you x

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celebri.tea harry styles and y/n y/l/n broke hearts of millions after announcing their breakup 5 months ago. their publicity team claimed that "it wasn't the right time", "right person, wrong time" and "they weren't seeing a lot of eachother". though, styles and y/l/n have sparked rumours after being spotted together in london, sharing a kiss after styles' show. sources close to them said that "they both sat down and tried to make it work. and it is working, clearly." to read the full article, click here.

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hewwo hope u dont mind if i reblog w some links cause that’s easier :3

this is my top song of 2023, saw them live when they were touring with laura jane grace. incredible

small black fronted (maybe fully black?) band, very much enjoy this song

suuuuuper small band i found from a youtube video that i can no longer find about the bassist’s transition and his voice going from basically an operatic soprano to a baritone. if i find it i’ll reblog with it. they have about 350 monthly listeners on spotify.

this song is about transness, there’s another song on this album about transness too, i’ll link that as well.

this one has lyrics like “i’ll not be confined to a common body, or a language that erases what i feel is true.” “a hungry ghost is pricking the back of my neck, and demanding life to something i declared dead.” which i think are just beautiful analogies for transness.

this is the other song i was talking about. very trans. it’s about the bassist losing his old voice when he transitioned. he hits a note in this song in the chorus, where he sings “i’m gonna give you my voice,” that he recorded when he was early in his transition. as his voice has changed, he can’t hit the note anymore.

this one has lyrics like “and to the god of the angular, i am the which one of these things is not like the others. and i’m gonna give you my voice.” which is him giving his former voice that he once had up to the trans gods as a sacrifice, and a part of him letting go of that part of him. i think it’s beautiful.

this is a song by a band i really love and adore, proper. they’re a small ish band, an all black band. i found them on the against me subreddit in maybe 2018 or so, from a previous album of theirs that i really enjoy. it talks about being a black person, feeling like you aren’t black enough, being queer, being from mississippi, not fitting in, being on a military base, etc. these are all things i can really relate to.

also, this song relates to me in a way of being autistic. the lead singer shared maybe a year ago that he’s autistic, which made a lot of these lyrics, especially in this song, make sense as to why they were so relatable:

“another school where i don’t fit in, another year waiting for summer, so i can trail behind my brother and his friends. but i don’t think they like me, either.”

“did i do something wrong? am i broken? am i an alien? i don’t think there’s anywhere i belong. i don’t talk enough, because i think too much. if i was white, would it be this rough? this can’t be growing up.”

love this song by worriers. very relatable as a person with anxiety and insomnia from said anxiety and ptsd.

“you’ll feel better if you leave the house. it’s too easy to be hard on yourself. miss out on energy you’ll get somewhere else. you’ll feel better if you leave the house, and it’s only the things you don’t do that you’ll regret.”

“set no alarm, cause i am totally guaranteed to wake to my chest being from miles ahead of me. i lie awake as sleep escapes me, breathing through an infinite hum of anxiety.”

oof, this song. i love it.

“i’m sick of faking diary entries. gotta get it in my head, i’ll never be sixteen again.”

i’m currently in a mental health residential. so this is relatable, for… reasons. classic.

hashtag bipolar song lol.

“and your manic depression, it comes and it goes. your parasympathetic system reacts, and you’re in fight or flight mode.”

yet another proper. song.

“never been religious, even when i was a kid, sit in the pews and pretend. but if i’m wrong, i’d like to have one nice long talk with whoever would create an idiosyncrasy like me.”

“fight for more good days than bad, fight for the life you told your younger self you’d have.”

okay. nowwww i think i’m done. there’s a nice music dump for you. my spotify is chaseallxn, i have all of my playlists public. i have a 2021, 2022, 2023, and i’m working on a 2024 “chasecore” playlist for every year, if you want to check those out. i also have “emo starter pack”, “pop punk side quest”, “screamo expansion pack”, and “middle school dlc” in there, u just gotta dig in there.

there’s my big ol dumb of music for u! soz it was so long, but i love sharing music with people :3

whats everyone’s current fav songs ??

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A Blessing, Beautiful And True

pairing: bucky x fem!reader

word count: 3.2k

warnings: use of she/her pronouns; swearing if you squint; mentions of death; mentions of food

a/n: this is a rewrite of one of my old fics that i absolutely hated with my entire being. i hate this a little bit less djaksjsjs also pls ignore how i literally cannot write a good ending to save my life.

dedicated to @xsamsharons for lending me her name. i hope i did it justice mi amor ily <3

Bucky learnt to value things.

Not the great, terribly material things people around him seemed to rush after. Not money, not even when he was barely getting by.

No, for Bucky, it was the small, seemingly insignificant things.

The tiny toy WWII soldier figurine he found at a yard sale one Tuesday afternoon, the one with the missing arm. The near-exact model of the car his father used to drive—rusted around the tiny steel axel, the rubber wheels worn from use. That yellow screwdriver set that sat at the very back of the tool cabinet in the garage, unusable because of the cracked plastic handles and rusted steel, that looked exactly like the kit he had once used to fix up the plumbing in his first apartment.

Bucky was used to valuing the broken little things.

He never truly understood what loving something whole, something complete felt like—not until he met you.

You, in your white sweater and blue jeans, hair tossed up in a braid. You, your eyes that dancing with unbroken light, like the rays of the sun on the ocean on a bright summer’s day. You, with the sort of kindness he never truly thought he would ever be worthy of, not until you showed him that he was.

You, the girl he fell in love with before he could ever truly know what love was.

Steve might’ve been the first to notice. He was with him that day, the day he first saw you. They had been hunting for a Christmas present for Tony, and even though Bucky wasn’t exactly thrilled to have to attend, he wasn’t about to show up empty handed.  

Steve didn’t even realize that the sly-footed assassin wasn’t by his side until he had walked the two blocks from the mall to his car. Hands ghosting over the gun tucked into the holster hooked into his waistband, Steve retraced his steps, his heart thundering in his throat.

Until he heard Bucky’s laugh.

Not the obviously fake chuckles he used to placate those around him. No, this was the laugh he remembered, the laugh he thought Bucky had lost.

This was Bucky’s laugh—his Bucky’s laugh, before the world stole him away. Pure and innocent.

Happy—so undeniably, inexplicably happy.

The tension eased from his shoulders when he saw you. Steve knew who you were, of course. Everyone did—or at least, everyone who had been around after the Battle of New York. Everyone who had seen you walk among the rubble, bleeding through your jeans, helping dig survivors out of the rubble, guiding them to shelters. Everyone who had seen you do everything you could help those who needed it more than you did, until your legs finally gave way and the only reason you didn’t collapse to the floor was because Steve caught you.

But Steve also happened to know why you’d done it. Because you were kind. Because you were selfless. Because you knew what it was like to lose everyone you loved, and to garner the strength to build yourself up anyway.

You’d lost people too—everyone you loved, killed during the Battle. Your family. Your friends. It might’ve seemed cruel to be spared. Might’ve seemed like a cold, dark twist of fate—and for a time, it did.

Steve had never known anyone to be resilient the way you were.

And maybe, just maybe, he thought to himself, as he watched his friend from through the glass, maybe you would teach him to hold on to the tiniest sliver of hope too.

—

Bucky didn’t even like books.

The only book he’d read—aside from the coursework assigned to him in his school days—was The Hobbit. And even that had taken him an ungodly amount of time to finish.

So yeah, Bucky didn’t exactly like books.

But he still visited the tiny bookstore on the corner every day.

He didn’t even buy anything. He just looked around, running his fingertips over the spines of the books that jutted out of the wooden shelves, the sunlight turning his eyes into uncharted waters of the oceans, swimming with undiscovered secrets and untold lies.

You would talk to him. All the time, and with no trace of the usual pity or sympathy that he heard when he spoke to people. You talked to him in a way that made him feel like himself, in a way that made him feel like he just might rediscover the man he used to be.

That first time he’d seen you was burned into the back of his brain, the image of you standing there with a hip braced against a bookshelf, dressed in a white sweater and jeans, your hair pulled into a braid over your shoulder. He had watched as a strand escaped, falling into your face.

And him—he'd stood there, watching you talk to another woman he couldn't recall because really, how could he look at anything else but you? Bucky was certain he looked like a gaping idiot, both wanting your attention to turn to him, and dreading the fact that he would surely make a fool of himself if you so much as looked at him.

Back in the 40s, things would've been so much easier. He would already have said something witty to make you laugh, he would already have been telling you about the carnival down at the beach and asking if you wanted to go with him.

But when your friend left, and you asked him if there was anything you could help him with, his voice sounded strange to his own ears as he croaked, "Books?"

You had laughed—and he found himself laughing along. A true laugh—for the first time in a long time, the sound didn’t sound fake to his own ears. For the first time in a long time, he felt like himself.

Bucky had taught himself to value that which wasn’t whole—because he wasn’t, either. Love was give and take. Love was equal.

If he was to deserve your love, he would have to be whole again. If he was to deserve your love, he would make himself whole again.

—

There was a sudden shift in the way Bucky viewed the world.

It had been three days since he last saw you, but he walked in through those doors anyway. He had no cause, no reason—he just couldn’t go any longer without seeing you.

You were sitting by the bay window at the very back, reading a book. He took a second just to take you in, to get used to the fact that you weren’t just a figment of his imagination.

The second you looked up, your face split into a grin, like you were truly, genuinely happy to see him. He couldn’t remember the last time someone had smiled at him that way. “Hey, you’re back! It’s Bucky, right?”

He nodded. He couldn't trust himself to speak, not when he was sure he would stumble over his words, not when he couldn't bring himself to string together a coherent sentence in your presence. 

"What can I help you with today?" you asked, snapping your book shut and placing it on the table. 

"Uh... What're you reading?"

You glanced down at your book before looking up to meet his eyes again. Blue, you thought, supressing a smile. Icy blue, but warm nonetheless—familiar in the way most things aren’t. "Wuthering Heights. You've never read it?"

He shook his head no. "Never been much of a reader, no. Is it any good?"

"It's one of my favourites," was your answer, watching as he shifted his weight from one foot to the other. The light caught the steel of the chain around his neck—the chain of one of those military-issue dog tags.

And maybe that was how it started—on that dreary cold Wednesday, when you'd stood next to the bookshelf by the window, telling him about your favourite book, but really all he could focus on was the late afternoon sun rendering the hue of your eyes several shades lighter, the soft slope of your nose, the fullness of your mouth. Every little detail about you was etched permanently into his mind—and he wanted to learn more.

He wanted to know everything there was to know about you. 

It was about closing time when he decided he had to go. Not because he wanted to, but because he had promised he would have dinner with Sam and Steve. And as much as Bucky wanted to stay, he was a man of his word.

Which is why when he promised you he would come see you as soon as he finished reading the book, you knew he meant it.

—

And you were right.

Two days later, he was back. 

It was raining that day, early in the morning when you were just about to open up. And there, standing under the awning in the freezing rain, was Bucky, the collar of his coat turned up against the wind, drenched to the bone.

"What're you doing here?" you asked, eyes wide.

"I just... I don't know," he said. Because he didn't. Bucky didn't even like books—but he did like being around you. There was a strange sort of calm about you, a sense of peace he'd only known in Wakanda. Around you, he was just Bucky—not Sargent Barnes, not the Winter Soldier—just Bucky. 

He liked being just Bucky.

You shook your head, but he could've sworn he saw the corner of your mouth tilt upwards as you fished your keys out of your pocket and unlocked the door. "Well, come on inside. I'll turn up the heat and get you something warm to drink. Christ, Buck, you could get pneumonia or something.”

He only nodded once. It didn't matter that he wouldn't get sick—not when the serum in his veins healed his body faster than normal. It didn’t matter that even if he could sick, he wouldn’t have cared, not when you were looking at him like that, with concern in your eyes for something other than your own safety.

You had a coffee machine in the back room, you told him. He followed you, lingering in the doorway as you bustled about, humming a tune under your breath. He recognized it as a song from that one Marvin Gaye album Sam couldn’t stop talking about. He recognized it as a song he wanted to listen to for the rest of his life, if only you were the one singing it.

He recognized that, for better or for worse, you would be his undoing.

—

After that, he came to see you every day.

When the weather got colder still, he brought you steaming cups of hot chocolate from your friend Bella’s café down the street. And on the days when he didn’t, he would head into the back room and make you coffee. You’d never had to tell him how you took it—after that in the rain, he’d somehow remembered what you liked.

You weren’t about to tell him, but you remembered what he liked too.

It started out simple—plum cider that you found on your weekly trip to the farmer’s market. An old vintage copy of The Hobbit from the forties. Rubber silencers for his dog tags that he never used but carried around in his pocket anyway—until eventually, you had something new for him every week, some insignificant thing that he looked at with the kind of childlike awe that made your heart twist into knots in your chest.

He walked you home too. Every evening, with his hands stuffed in his pockets, slowing his stride so that he could walk alongside you. He would stand outside, across the street, hands in his pockets, waiting for you to walk into the apartment you shared with Bella. Only leaving when the lights came on and he knew you were safe.

Bucky wasn’t much of a talker—you learnt that about him. He would spend all day sitting quietly in a corner of your store, reading one of the books he found on the shelf of used copies you kept in the back of the room.

He seemed to love those used books more than the new ones—books someone had already read, books that had already been loved.

He felt a little that way sometimes, too. A little too used for love, not loved enough for use.

But never when he was with you.

And you—you were falling for Bucky Barnes. A little by little, day by day, without even realizing it—not until it all came rushing to you one afternoon, like a dam breaking, like the ocean of his eyes pulling you under, especially when you felt his gaze on you from time to time, watching you as you worked.

That afternoon, a new shipment of books came in. You didn’t even have to ask him for help—he was already on his feet, snapping his copy of Anna Karenina shut, mumbling a soft, “I’ve got it,” as you signed for the order. Hefted the two cartons of books like they weighed nothing at all, and carried them inside.

There was a strange tightness in your stomach as you watched him, standing in the middle of your store—the only thing the Battle of New York hadn’t taken away from you—and you wondered just how it took so damn long to realize that the feeling of familiarity didn’t lie among these books, but rather, in Bucky himself.

—

It was a slow day, so the two of you spent the rest of the afternoon restocking the shelves. He asked you about each of the books, watching your eyes light up as you talked about your favourite ones, until conversation lapsed into a comfortable silence, the two of you basking in each other’s company as you worked.

You didn't even realize how much time had passed until you heard the door open and your friend Bella breezed in. She'd been here the first day Bucky had walked in, had noticed the way your eyes shifted to him mid-conversation like you couldn’t focus on much else when he was around. “Ready for lunch, y/n?”

You looked at Bucky, opening your mouth to ask if he wanted to come along. Not because you didn’t trust him to be alone at the store, but because you wanted his company. Because being around him felt like coming home.

He only waved you off. "Go ahead. I've got plans with Stevie. I'll be here when you're back though."

You believed him. You believed that he would always be around, for as long as you wanted. And you wanted forever.

"Was that the guy from before?" Bella asked, looping an arm through yours as you left the store, walking down the street. She brushed her fiery hair out of her eyes, turning her head slightly to look at you, yellow-green eyes filled with curiosity. “What’s his name?”

"Bucky. He... He's a friend," you said. 

"Well," Bella said. "He sure doesn't feel the same way."

"What do you mean?" you asked, confused.

"Y/n, he looks at you like you put the stars in his sky. Are you sure he's just a friend?"

"I... I don't know, Bella."

Because you didn't know what else to call him. Because you and him weren't friends in the way people usually are—you had always been more.

Bucky was always more.

—

"I've barely seen you," Steve said, picking up his can of Diet Pepsi and taking a sip. "Where have you been?"

"Around," Bucky mumbled. Because how could he explain why he was spending so much time at the bookstore with someone he'd only just met? How could he explain the magnetic pull he felt toward you, the inexplicable desire to just be around you?

How could he explain the way you made him feel like himself again?

But Steve knew. Steve always knew. He saw the growing stack of novels on his friend's bedside table, saw him reading at the kitchen table, book propped up against the jug of milk.

He also knew that all this was because of y/n. Because Bucky mumbled that name when he was too exhausted to even know what he was saying. Because Bucky talked in his sleep—and Steve could hear him calling that name through the thin walls that separated their rooms. "You've been at the bookstore?"

Bucky set his drink down. There was so use denying it—his friend would see right through him. Steve had known him for too damn long to believe in his lies. "She's so... I can't even put it into words. She makes me believe that there's good in this world. That all the things I did wrong don't even matter—not when I'm with her. It’s the way she looks at things, the way she’s capable of finding a little bit of good in everything. Like she found something good in me, Steve."

Steve knew it was true. Because he hadn’t seen Bucky this way for a very long time. Because he hadn’t seen that light in his friend’s eyes in a very long time, and ever since he met you, it hadn’t gone away.

—

Bucky had to leave for a couple of days.

He didn't tell you why—just that it was a work thing. How long would he be gone? He didn't know.

"I'll be back soon," he said. "I promise."

And he was. Five days later.

But Bucky was quiet—quieter than usual. 

It was a Sunday, and you’d somehow managed to drag him along to the farmer’s market with you. He walked alongside you, hands in his pockets, like he was aching to reach out and touch you but desperately holding himself back.

He’d almost gotten himself killed on that mission.

You took up too many thoughts in his head, too much space in his heart. And when the bullet narrowly missed him, grazing his ribs, his only thought was whether or not you’d miss him if he was gone.

You deserved better than someone who’s life was tied to the death of others. Someone who didn’t have so much blood on his hands.

A few paces ahead of you, Bella walked hand-in-hand with Bucky’s friend Sam. You were glad that Bucky had introduced them, glad that Sam made Bella happy in ways you’d never really known or understood before.

“Look at them,” you said, watching with a smile on your face as Sam quietly slipped a couple of oranges into Bella’s bag. “They look real happy.”

Then, turning to look at him, you smiled, and he couldn’t hold himself back anymore. Because you might deserve better, but he was selfish and stubborn, and the only thing he had wanted in so goddamn long was you you you.

“Go out with me,” he blurted, every thread of self-control he had so carefully cultivated to keep his head in your presence snapping. He felt like he was taken back to that December evening he saw you for the first time, when the words refused to leave his mouth, when you’d rendered him tongue-tied and helpless. Only this time, he couldn’t stop the words from coming out, not as he said, “One date, y/n. One date, and if you don’t have a good time, we can just forget it ever happened and move on.”

His heart shuttered when he saw the small frown creasing your brow, your voice soft as you asked, “Are you sure?”

“I’ve never been more sure of anything. I want to do this for the rest of my life with you, y/n,” he said quietly. “But for now, I’ll take that date.”

“Okay,” you said, nodding slowly. “Okay, Bucky, I’ll go out with you.”

He couldn’t help it. Bucky wrapped his arms around your waist, drawing you to him, lifting you off your feet and spinning you around until you were both laughing, childlike and breathless, blissfully unconscious of the knowing look on Sam and Bella’s faces.

Because really, how could he see anything but you? You had been it from the first day he saw, and you were it now—a blessing, beautiful and true.

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Ranking versions of Meant To Be Yours

I’m bored so I’m ranking the JDs based on how they sing Meant To Be Yours. This is only the JDs featured in this video ( https://youtu.be/Ryrt5NWHpFo ) so y’know that’s not all the professional ones and some of the ones featured in it are like university ones. Anyways I did write half of this at 2am so like. A lot of this may just be a mess and me being like “good vibes.” Also, if you ask me some other time maybe this order would have changed. It’s hard to rank 14 different people. Anyways yeah here we go!

1st. Jamie Muscato - Listen. If you didn’t expect this then frankly that’s on you. I will give you the short version for the sake of anyone who reads this (will gladly provide a long version if anyone asks for it). I’m just gonna list the stuff to make this quicker and easier:

“You were MEANT TO BE MINE” with the punch forward

“I am all that you need, you carved open my heart” the way his voice goes slightly softer and he’s walking backward and shaking his head and has his eyes closed and is pulling down his shirt slightly

THE COAT FLIP!!

“Open the, open the door please” He goes a lot quieter then and has that lil smile forming and I LOVE IT

Gonna sound like a tiktok commenter but yeah the pleading and slight whining vibes

The numerous punch downs. There’s like 3 during one section

“I’ve BEEN there” man sounds upset here and I’m :((

THE GUN SPIN!!

The way he walks when saying “Veronica don’t make me come in there” There is a strong chance tho that I don’t love that part cause of how he’s portraying JD, it’s simply because I find Jamie attractive

Man is just so angry and I am here for it (well like. Not really cause y’know what JD is doing is bad, I just mean the angryness is very fitting for the character)

The tone shits tho <33 they are what gets me the most

Anyways I definitely missed stuff but you get the vibe

2nd. Ryan McCartan - If you asked me for my opinion before I put this video on I would say that he's not that great. However, this video seems like it has audio from him actually singing on stage and oh boy do I love it. Man has a really nice voice and I've always liked it so there's that. But dude man has a lot more emotion in this recording?? He sounds like he's about to cry during the "you carved open my heart" line which I absolutely love. And he full on screams "Veronica" and then kinda sounded like he was gonna cry again on the "open the door please" line. I don't like the album version cause he has little emotion in it but nah man is fully going for it here and I love that for him.

3rd. Dan Domenech - Idk what to say about him cause I don't have strong emotions based off just this clip. He has a very nice voice. But idk man it just feels kinda mediocre. I don't love it, I don't hate it. I know I had a lot more thoughts when I watched the full version but I can't be bothered watching it all rn. He doesn't sound angry or upset enough imo. I do like his scream on "Veronica" and "I'm gonna count to three" and how he sounded like he was pleading on the "can we not fight anymore please" line. Also like his lil spin during the "Veronica!" part. Also he doesn’t move too much which like he doesn’t need to but I’d prefer a few more actions.

Joint 4th. Wendell Scherer - Never heard of the man until now but I like his voice. He seems quite frustrated which is a vibe. He's got a good level of nonchalant during some parts. The way he acts when screaming "Veronica, open the, open the door please"? A huge vibe. He's just seems so Done and I love that. I'm pretty sure what I said didn't make much sense there and I just repeated myself. What I'm trying to say is, yknow the part in tl5y in if I didn't believe in you, Jamie says "can we just do that, please? PLEASE?", specifically the Jonathan Bailey version of that song? Yeah those vibes. Anyways I need a full bootleg of this version. Will say that he doesn't have the full chaotic vibes tho. Oh also they “don’t make me come in there” just like. The tad hint of more anger and stuff was good.

Joint 4th. Forest Filiano - First time I watched the video of him singing this song, I loved it, but now I just don’t think it’s anything amazing?? He doesn’t have that good of a voice imo, and most of it is just kinda screaming and not in a good way. That man is going full on chaotic tho so like props to him on that. I like the part where he just aggressively slaps his chest and also like. Throws himself at the door. And the hand through the hair!! Always a big fan of that!! But bestie why put the gun away when you’re gonna kick down the door like there was no need to bring it out then, y’know? But man seems like he’s having a great time so good for him. Also again he’s probably quite young so like I assume he would have a better voice now. Also his singing voice sounds nicer in other songs so like, it’s probably just cause of him going for a more screaming kinda vibe since it fits the song more.

5th. Jordan Luke Gage - He has a good voice and his acting is alright but idk I’m not a big fan tbh?? Man’s hands be going everywhere at the after there. I can’t tell if I love or hate the lil smile he has going on near the start. He seems like he was gonna start giggling. Did kinda sound sad during the “meant to be mine” line but again it did seem like he was on the verge of giggling so. Good yell on the “Veronica!” He be kinda tumbling around the place which is like. Like y’know his movements aren’t all co-ordinated (that’s so not the right word I’m sure but oh well). His voice and lean on the “can we not fight anymore please” part is nice. He sounds kinda stressed and also his voice on “Veronica don’t make me come in there” has the vibes of “I genuinely do not want to have to force myself in but you give me no choice” which is funky in a good way!! The more I watch it, the more it grows on me tbh. Unrelated too but he has good hair.

6th. Mariah Rose Faith - Love her voice, she has such a beautiful voice, definitely is one of the reasons for how I realised I’m bi, but anyways moving on. She’s purely not that high up just cause she can’t really act since it’s just a cover and she’s also doing it on her guitar so she can’t play it or sing it the way she would be able to do if she was actually performing it. But yeah she has just. Such a soft and pretty voice and love it. Also dude he “bleed”? Bestie dragged that out for so long and kept getting higher and it’s just so pretty sounding I’m :(( Also idk how to describe it but the way she sounds during the “Veronica, open the, open the door please” is superior. She just got that lil smile and she sounds so evil and her voice just kinda gains a bit more anger and frustration as it goes. Also, at the begining she kinda sounds upset and heartbroken a bit which is like but it does have the vibes that Veronica is already “dead”

7th. Diego Montez - Always wanted to watch the Brazilian one!! Man is really going for it!! He got the angry vibes down hard. Man got the stomping feet and slapping his chest. I really don’t have much to say. Man is just going for it and I do love it. However, he doesn’t move much, so I’m not a fan of that. He just kinda chills in the same spot. Also what was he doing on the “fuck it!” part?? (I think it was that part) like bestie’s whole body just went down. Anyways yeah it was a vibe. However, it doesn’t really seem like JD to me. Also costume people need to give that man a trenchcoat.

8th. Jacob Fowler - Alright voice, kinda on the softer side, don’t like how he yells “Veronica!” Bestie how are you saying “Can we not fight anymore please?” Like. Sir?? I mean, I don’t think I hate it but just?? Idk it sounded odd. I don’t think he sounds American enough either?? I truly don’t have much to say on him. Don’t hate it, don’t love it. Trying to rank him is so hard too. Like. He is just there. Again, no hate to the man, I do like Jacob, just based on this audio clip I’m not a huge fan.

9th. Jeremy Jordan - Lemme get this clear, mans is my favourite singer and actor ever and if you know me then you know how much I love Jeremy. Also, it pains me so much putting people above him. Anyways, I don't like his JD that much. That's not on him tho, that's on the fact it's a concert and also in a way he is the first musical JD (yeah there's the readings but like I'm not exactly counting them so). But yeah, I like his voice but there's not enough emotion and anger in it. He could 100% do much better now and I could still listen to him sing it all day everyday.

10th. Thomas Sanders - Again I like the man's voice and this is just based on audio but it just sounds mediocre. I genuinely don't have anything to say. Also have a hard time seeing Thomas as JD. Also went and found the tiktok of him singing it (didn’t realise they’d show it later) and it's clear he wasn't very comfortable with singing it in that key(??) (man said so himself even) but he sounds good still!!! Not a huge fan of the acting but I do like some of the angry faces he makes, specifically on the "can't just leave me to bleed" line. He seems like he's going more for the.. I don't wanna say loving side cause clearly the man isn't loving in the song but like.. idk how else to describe it other than loving (it's 2am, I have no braincells okay)

11th. Augusto Castellano - I can’t explain why I don’t like it or why he’s so down below, my gut instinct was just “I don’t like it”. He kinda has the vibes of a spider and a bug with some of those movements. His hands go to his face too often in some weird movements. He seems to be utilising his space tho so that’s good. Once again, he’s got the angry part down fine. Once again, must find the full boot somewhere.

12th. Zachariah Sterner - Pretty sure he's like a teenager so I don't want to judge too harshly. Not a fan of his voice or acting tho, but again pretty sure he's like a teenager (or I'm completely wrong idk) Man is just like the lil standing man emoji tho. He kinda keeps his movements closer to himself which I like. Also the way his voice just kinda went up high during one of the "please"s was fun.

13th. Juanse Diez - I’ve never heard of this man before but anyways! Not a huge fan of his voice. He does look kinda young tho so (do wanna note that I’m aware you can sound good when you’re young, but like, you’re gonna sound better when you’re older cause you’re gonna have more experience and learn more so). He seems to be going more for the softer side in terms of vocals and he doesn’t really sound angry ever. The acting isn’t that good either, mans is mostly just staring at the door. Tbf, this ain’t even done on a stage, it looks like it was from a tiktok so. Anyways no hate to the dude, just don’t like it.

Anyways! No hate to all the JDs! They all do different things well and all have their own interpretation of him, I just enjoy some more than others. If you read this all, I just have to say; why? This was probably a waste of your time tbh. Anyways, have a good day!! I can probably never listen to the ending of this song again after listening to it at least 28 times in a row!!