#but i managed to find six people so... i call this a win
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Music Tag Game!
I was tagged by @m34gs (in this post). Also doing this in a new post because I don't like it when posts get cluttered. I love doing these, but bold to assume I have ten mutuals/followers to tag.
Also, time to out myself for majority of my songs are not mainstream music...
Rules: When you see this, post 5 songs you actually listen to and tag 10 of your followers/mutuals!
MWTWB by Amalee
The entire album by Amalee relates to her Vtuber character, The Monarch and the backstory to her. While I like all the songs on the album, MWTWB (Messing with the Wrong Bitch) is my favourite because it has strong Vil from Twisted Wonderland vibes. That's honestly a big reason why I love the song so much. However, besides that I love the entire theme of the song is "Fuck Around and Find Out". My favourite lyric to the song is, "Uh-oh! Keep making me mad and it will be off with your head." because I love a good Alice in Wonderland reference.
2. The Rumbling/Under the Tree by SiM
I know this is cheating, but I believe these two songs need to be listened in conjunction. These are the two openings to the final season of Attack on Titan. The Rumbling is written in Eren's perspective and Under the Tree is written in Mikasa's. What I love about these two songs is how they capture the essence of the two characters. Both have changed significantly since season one and this change has caused a lot of heart ache (and death).
Eren is focused on what he feels is his "duty" with lyrics such as, "If I lose it all, slip and fall, I will never look away." At this point in the series, Eren feels there is no other path he can take, no matter the cost.
Meanwhile, Mikasa's song has heartbreaking lyrics like "Where are you at? / Where have you been?" and "Why oh why, why oh why/Don't you want to stay with me?"
This truly feels like the two are in conversation with one another, with Under the Tree Mikasa's response to Eren's song. That kind of duality always gets to me in songs. I love when songs connect to one another and these two do it perfectly.
3. homura by LiSA
Oh look, another anime song. How predictable of me. Anyways, while most people cite Gurenge as their favourite Kimetsu no Yaiba song, I think homura is my favourite.
Even if this song wasn't from an anime, the lyrics to this farewell song are heartbreaking. Right at the beginning, the "Sayonara, arigatou koe no kagiri" ("Goodbye" and "thank you" at the top of my voice") pulls at my heartstrings. The next part, "Kanashimi yori motto daiji na koto" or, "What is more important than grief?" really hits me hard.
Also, my link is to LiSA's performance on The First Take and her voice is breathtaking. Absolutely stunning.
4. Avid by Hiroyuki Sawano
From the anime Eighty-Six, this soft, but powerful song always makes me want to cry. The repetition of "Don't you get there?/ It calls, it calls" makes this song feel haunting, like someone long gone talking to you. Which, given Eighty-Six's plot, makes sense.
5. Love From The Other Side by Fall Out Boy
Oh, look, a mainstream song that I could play at work and not be accused of only listening to anime songs. Finally, right? (Not that anyone accuses me of that, but they definitely could and get away with it.)
Uh, I know I've talked about this song in a prior ask somewhere on my blog, but to repeat myself: I like Fall Out Boy. I'm not a huge fan, but I have a smattering of songs from them that I really like. This is one of their newest songs and I was immediately hooked as soon as I heard the lyric, "What would you trade the pain for? Not sure". I'm just always here for songs that have questions to the listener that make you pause and think for a second. I also love the reference in, "We were a hammer to the Statue of David". My minimal two years of art history jumped in glee.
Time to tag. If this isn't your cup of tea, no pressure! Also if you dislike being tagged in things like this, let me know!
Tagging: @someobscurereference @a-little-harmed-shinra @shreedle @serenescribe @zeldabard and @lonery-w
#personal#replies#ask meme#i asked the people i'm most curious to hear from... but no pressure once again#super nervous tagging people for the first or second time ahaha...#but i managed to find six people so... i call this a win
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OKAY GUYSSS, Nika's post on instagram has made me feel so much better about her. I'm sure it's still gonna be tough and all but she's resilient and will just get better than before the injury. And with that being said...
IIT GAVE ME MOTIVATION TO WRITE. So...anon who suggested this....i finally have it written. ENJOY!!
"NOTRE DAMN" - N.M.
words: 823
Warnings: none i can
Summary: Reader gets hurt while playing against Notre Dame. Nika helps her.
JANUARY 27, 2024
NOTRE DAME VS UCONN
GAMPEL
2nd quarter, 20 seconds left on the clock. We were down by three, one shot is all it took to tie it before half time. I ran up the court, finding a place to shoot if the ball was passed to me. I watched as the opposing team switched to their defense, the rest of the huskies running down the court.
Nika ran down the court, ball in hand, calling out plays. Her eyes met mine, nodding throwing me the ball. Wide open, easy shot, that’s what you’d think.
As I’m going up, a player, number 5, Olivia Miles, comes up to guard me. She jumps to block, not really slowing down. As I’m up in the air, I feel her body collide with mine. I lose hold of the ball, I fall back, my feet not able to hit the floor. My back hits the ground, my head bouncing off the court, pain shooting through my body.
I roll around trying to find a position that doesn’t cause pain, but anyway that I move it hurts. My head throbbing, back aching, I felt nothing but pain. I felt someone place they’re hand on my head, I opened my eyes. Nika.
“Hey, baby, you alright?” She was worried, I couldn’t even put together the words to make her feel better.
“My head…it hurts,” I manage out, Nika nodding. She helps me up, giving me a look. I couldn’t tell what she was getting at.
“You want me to carry you over to the bench?” I nod, my body felt like I was going to drop with just standing. She picks me, holding me bridal style, walking me over to the bench.
“It’s gonna be okay, baby, okay?” Nika’s voice soft, I nodded in response. She was weirdly calm, but I wasn’t paying attention to that.
She placed a kiss on my forehead, “They have no shot at winning this, we’ll win this for you,” her smile blinding yet comforting. I nodded.
“I know you will, niks.”
And the team did just that, Nika especially. She locked down on Miles, causing her to become frustrated, fouling out. As it was announced that she had fouled out, Nika sent me a look, a smile plastered on her face. I just laughed. She sent me a thumbs up, a look of concern on her face. I sent her one back, she nods. The rest of the game, flawless from UConn side. Shots falling in, defense never backing down, and everything was being done by everyone. This game had to have been the best game ever played by this team ever.
Paige hitting six threes, a total of 27 points, a couple blocks. The freshman totaling 30 points together. Then, there was Nika. 18 points, four threes and 5 steals. Her adding up on her assists with 11 in this game. A double-double, to say the least, I was proud of her.
“Best game ever! You played so well, Niks!” I walked over to her, bringing her into a hug. She nuzzled her head into my neck.
“Mhmm, all for you, y/n,” I blushed, melting into the hug more. She lifts her head up, her hand finding it’s place on my cheek, “You feel alright?”
I nod, “Better, but they think I have a concussion.” Her face dropped slightly; I wouldn’t be able to play a couple games with her.
“Hey, it’s alright,” I said, her eyes never leaving mine, “It’s the better outcome then what it could’ve been.”
“You not having a concussion?”
I swat at her arm, “No, Nika,” I laugh, “I was scared I did something to my back or my neck. They said that it might just be some bruising.”
She nods, her smile returning, “That’s good news.”
“Why are you so smiley?”
“I’m here with you.”
I blush, “I would kiss you right now.”
“Do it.”
“Nika…people would find ou-“
“I don’t care about other people; I care about you. I want you to kiss me,” I hesitated, she took that as her sign to kiss me. In the room full of people, she kissed me. After hiding for months, she’s finally kissed me in public where people could see.
“Why? Why’d you do that?”
“I love you more than my reputation,” she paused, “Which reminds me…I said a lot of things to get under Olivia’s skin so.”
I tilt my head, “And what exactly did you say?”
“Too much to say now, we should go with the team,” She begins to pull me towards the team, her hand interlocked with mine.
Paige sees us, a smile big on her face, “Y’all’s kiss made it on TV!”
I look over at Nika, a smile resting on her face, “Good, then everyone will know not to screw around with my girl,” She looks at me, “How do you feel about that, the kiss on TV?”
“Everyone will know I’m the luckiest person ever.”
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A/N: if this happens to be trash....i'm sorry
#nika muhl#wbb#wnba basketball#wcbb#wnba#wnba players#uconn wbb#womens basketball#nika muhl x reader#wbb x reader
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PJO Steddie Eight
One | Two | Three | Four | Five | Six | Seven
This series was line-jumped on ko-fi! Thank you for the ko-fis <3
To learn more about line-jumping, please refer to this post
Anyway, another series was also line-jumped and I'm hoping to have that one posted by this time next week as long as life doesn't take me out lmao
as always, if you see any typos, no you didn't :^)
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Steve is an awful, horrible, terrible person. Not only did he kiss Eddie without making sure it was okay, but he even spent the entire fight before that wrapping lightning around Eddie. He even let his control slip enough to shock Eddie when he was too distracted by lips and teeth and tongue. Worst of all, he can't stop thinking about it, his fingers twitching every so often with the urge to find Eddie and kiss him until they're both stupid.
What's he supposed to do in this situation? Talk to Eddie like he's an emotionally mature person capable of communicating his thoughts and feelings? Steve would laugh at the thought if he weren't so busy sulking by the lake.
It's a nice night for a sulk. The moon is full, its reflection wavering in the water that gently laps against the shore. He can barely hear the victory celebration around the bonfire, singing and laughter and joyful white noise drifting through the trees behind him. Steve lets it wash over him, his chin on his knees as he stares blankly at the water and tries to figure out what he's doing with his life.
“I gotta admit, that is some impressive sulking.”
Steve jolts, twisting around to see a man in cut-off shorts and a crop top lounging on a boulder next to him. The man looks chiseled, but not overly buff, with his arms being the most defined. His skin is a deep brown, and his smile is blinding. He appeared out of nowhere, and if that didn't give away his godliness, the bow and heart-tipped arrows would have.
“Eros,” Steve says, forcing his shoulders to relax. “What are you doing here?”
“Not even a hello? Am I not pretty enough for you right now?” Eros asks.
“Hello, Eros. What are you doing here?”
That earns him a laugh, the sound lingering in Steve's ears and trying to worm its way into his brain. “Fair enough,” Eros says, idly twirling one of his arrows between his fingers. “I’m here on my mother’s behalf, actually.”
Steve tenses, studying Eros with renewed suspicion. “What does Aphrodite want?” he asks.
“You know Mother and her wagers,” Eros replies, shrugging when he meets Steve’s gaze. “She’s sent me to make sure she wins it. Her wager, that is. The one about you and a certain son of Hermes.”
That does absolutely nothing to assuage Steve’s worries. In fact, it makes them stronger. He pushes himself up, brushing pebbles and dirt off his jeans. “I hope you’re not planning to use your arrows.”
Eros blinks, looking from Steve to the arrow he’s been twirling. And then he laughs again, nearly doubling over. “No, no, I wouldn’t waste an arrow on you two. Puh-lease, Sparky, give me a little more credit than that.”
“Sparky?”
“Isn’t it fitting?” Eros asks, flashing a shit-eating grin that still manages to come off as charming. Steve would call it impish and mischievous, if someone asked him. Thankfully, nobody is. “Anyway, no, consider this more of a friendly nudge so Mother doesn’t throw a fit.”
“What are you even trying to nudge me about?” Steve asks. He thinks he’s lost the plot somewhere between Eros showing up and getting called Sparky.
Eros sighs and looks up at the sky like the stars will help him. “I usually enjoy watching people dance around each other, but I’d greatly appreciate it if you and Eddie could start dancing with each other now. Preferably starting tonight. Selene has given you a particularly beautiful moon to work with, you know.”
Steve looks up at the moon for less than a second, but that’s more than enough for Eros to be gone by the time he looks back. He sighs, frowning at the vacant boulder.
He isn’t stupid. He knows what Eros was getting at. The thought is just terrifying, is all. He doesn’t trust himself to not hurt Eddie. Just being around Eddie makes his fingertips buzz with energy, and his control has slipped more in the past few weeks than ever before. Eddie might say he doesn’t mind or that he trusts Steve, but the problem is that Steve doesn’t trust himself.
That fact just frustrates him more. He frowns, runs a hand through his hair, and sits down on the boulder. Steve would love to just throw caution to the wind. He’d love to just hope for the best and hold Eddie’s hand and not worry about things. But that’s not the kind of person he is. Steve does what’s best for those around him, he works himself into a frenzy thinking about their safety, and doesn’t hesitate to sacrifice himself in the process.
It’s probably not healthy, but it’s kept him and the kids alive and mostly happy, and that’s what really matters.
Right?
Right.
But gods is that tiring. Maybe...maybe he can be a tiny bit selfish. He won't throw caution to the wind, but maybe he can test the waters. And if nothing explodes on him, he can see where it goes.
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Eddie is almost impressed by how well Steve can avoid a person when he puts his mind to it. He hasn’t seen a glimpse of the other boy since he ran off. And it’s not for lack of trying, either. Eddie has practically scoured the camp from top to bottom as everyone else helped set up the Victory Bonfire.
He ultimately decides that searching like this is pointless, so he finds a scrap of paper in his tent and folds it into an airplane. He writes Steve’s name on one wing and doodles a guitar and bat on the other before sending it flying. It’s not the flashiest power a demigod can receive from their parent, but Eddie has never been happier to have it as he follows.
The paper airplane leads him past the huge bonfire, skirts around the woods, and really starts to pick up speed as it gets closer to the lake. A wave of relief surges through Eddie when he sees a familiar figure past the tree line. Before the plane can zoom onto the rocky beach, Eddie snatches it from the air and shoves it into his pocket.
Steve is sitting on a boulder by the lake, knees pulled up to his chest as he stares out at the water. For a moment, Eddie gets the feeling he’d like to just sink into the water and disappear for a while. Maybe it wouldn’t be a bad idea if Steve was a Poseidon kid, but he’s more likely to drown than find peace as a son of Zeus.
Eddie hesitates, wondering if he should interrupt, when Steve looks over his shoulder at him and says, “Hey.”
That’s all the invitation Eddie needs for tension to drain from his shoulders as he walks over. “Hey,” he says, climbing the rock to sit next to Steve. They’re not close enough for their shoulders to brush, but a small lean is all it would take. “You’re missing out on some legendary s’mores at the bonfire.”
Steve snorts, propping his chin on his knees. He’s silent for a few seconds before whispering, “Are you okay?”
“Yeah, Stevie, I’m fine,” Eddie promises, leaning forward so he can get a better look at Steve’s expression. His eyebrows are pulled together, and Eddie has to suppress the urge to rub his thumb over the wrinkle that forms between them. “You didn’t actually hurt me, you know.”
“You were surrounded by lightning, Eddie,” Steve says, frowning at him. “You probably have a burn somewhere you can’t see. It couldn’t have been good for your heart, either.”
No, it probably wasn’t good for Eddie’s heart, but not for the reason Steve is worrying about. Eddie got too excited fighting with Steve; the lightning that crackled and arched between them made his adrenaline surge. For the first time, he actually enjoyed combat instead of dreading it.
“Well, let’s check,” he says, sliding off the boulder. Before Steve can question him, he shrugs off his vest and yanks his shirt over his head. He holds his arms out to the side and looks at Steve expectantly. “Go ahead.”
A few seconds pass before Steve gets off the rock and moves to stand behind him. Eddie can feel Steve’s eyes passing over every inch of his back, searching meticulously for any signs of lightning-related injury. When a few silent minutes pass without finding anything, Steve stands in front of him to continue his search.
Eddie gets to watch him in return this time. Steve’s lips press together when he’s concentrating, his eyebrows twitching and shifting with whatever thoughts are passing through his head. He stands with one hand on his hip, the other hovering as though he wants to brush his fingers across any suspected bruises.
“See?” Eddie says, “All good. You didn’t hurt me, Stevie.”
A few seconds pass before Steve slowly exhales and nods, tension draining from his shoulders. “What about your heart?” he asks, glancing at Eddie’s chest.
It’s such a perfect invitation, isn’t it? Eddie would be a fool to not take advantage, right? He’s not always the smoothest demigod in camp, but even he can see the perfect moment in front of him.
He grins and takes Steve’s hand, bringing it to his chest. He places Steve’s palm over his heart. “What do you think?” he asks.
Steve frowns, tilting his head slightly. “Your heart is beating faster,” he says, looking up with concern clear in his eyes.
“That’s not because of lightning, sweetheart.”
Eddie feels the exact moment Steve understands what he means. It’s the moment his control slips just enough for a tiny spark to pass from palm to chest. It makes Eddie’s skin prickle as he grins.
“Sorry,” Steve whispers, trying to pull his hand away.
Eddie holds tighter, stepping closer until Steve is leaning against the boulder with nowhere to go. “I like when you shock me. It doesn’t hurt. It tingles, but it doesn’t hurt. In fact, it felt good when you kissed me,” he says.
“I’m sorry about that, too,” Steve says, grimacing as he looks at the lake over Eddie’s shoulder. “I didn’t…I should’ve asked.”
“That’s okay,” Eddie tells him, leaning in until their noses are almost brushing.
“Seriously?”
“Yeah, Stevie. In case you couldn’t tell by now, I like like you. Since the moment I saw you, really.”
Steve blinks, and then he starts laughing. “Really? Like like? What, are we in middle school?” he asks.
“You can’t knock the simplicity of the middle school confession, sweetheart. It’s got no room for misunderstanding.”
With an amused eye roll, Steve says, “Sure, if you say so.” He’s still smiling, his gaze focused on Eddie now instead of the lake. A faint blush has colored his cheeks. “In that case, I like like you, too.”
Eddie grins. “Does that mean I can kiss you now?”
In answer, Steve places his free hand on Eddie’s shoulder and tugs him the last few inches closer. Their lips connect, a tiny static shock passing between them and making Eddie shudder. He pushes closer before Steve can pull away, trapping Steve’s hand between them and bracing himself on the boulder.
The kiss starts and stays slow, a gentle push and pull. Eddie would be happy if it never ended, but Steve pulls away after a few seconds. "You're sure?" he asks.
"Yeah, Stevie, I'm sure," Eddie promises, studying him for a moment before pulling back and leading Steve away from the boulder. "Wanna dance?"
"There's no music," Steve says.
"Who cares?" Eddie asks, tugging Steve closer. He watches Steve glance up at the moon, hesitating for a few seconds before nodding. "Just follow my lead."
Steve smiles, letting Eddie lead him along the beach, dancing to music he can't hear.
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hello! as a seungkwan bias, PLSSS LET ME IN THE STORY SO I CAN SAY YES TO FOR REAL DATING KWANNIE PLSSSSSS. i loved this one especially!! amazing work yet again!!!
USER SEUNGKWANSFLOWER I AM SO GLAD YOU ASKED ! because of course the company would look toward seungkwan for a fake dating scheme. he's sweet, and personable, and the last person in the group that you'd expect to ever get involved in something like this. that's a pro, not a con; they need people to believe it, after all. to be 100% convinced that what the idol has is real. seungkwan's heard of some of his seniors being roped in to these sort of stuff. but him? him? he almost laughs in his manager's face, the first time it's brought up. seungkwan is constantly one step away from qualifying as 'loverboy'. he adores the group, the boys, but he's not about to risk his emotional and mental stability for a couple more streams. but then he finds out who his supposed partner is. you and seungkwan have history. not a romantic one, no. it's a kind of casual friendship, one that never really had the chance to become all that much because... well, the industry. it's vicious, and cutthroat, and both of your careers hinge on keeping up appearances. seungkwan has always thought it was a shame. he's thought about how nice it would be to get to know you more, to have you around without worrying about repercussions or rumors— — and now, the opportunity is being presented to him on a silver platter. if he had it his way, seungkwan would have wanted to progress your friendship on different circumstances. but, as it is: his only chance seems to be in the form of being in a manufactured relationship with you. he'll be damned if he doesn't take it.
easy, that's what you call it at one point. it's easy to be with seungkwan, to go about this whole charade with him. but you don't see— at least not at first— all the lengths he goes through to make it easy for you. he knows how much more you need this, knows the pressure and the stakes that come with you pulling this off. it's just six months, he tells himself on days when he feels tired, when he feels frustrated. he just has to see this through for six months. the group will get its publicity, you'll get your traction, and he'll finally be better friends with you. it will be win, after win, after win. that is, until seungkwan goes from would-be-loverboy to down-horrendously-bad. it's a good thing that he's supposed to be a simp for you, because then he can pass it all off as part of the contract. the food trucks he sends to your drama shoots? the arm he keeps around your waist at his sponsorship events? the early morning texts telling you to have a good day; the evening facetime calls where you both binge watch something mindless? he signed up for this, he'll try to justify. you signed up for this! as your 'relationship' nears its inevitable end, seungkwan can only laugh at how things have turned out. he's this 🤏 close to begging for some sort of extension, for whatever scraps of you that he can still have. he feels like a fool— thinking he could run away from his feelings, thinking he could fake a single thing. because from the very start, it's been real for him.
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Enhypen reaction to their gf's solo debut
The New Kard part 2, part 1 can be found ~ here ~
Pairing: Enhypen OT7 x idol! (Y/n)
Wordcount ≈ 1.1k
Warnings: People sending some hate to (Y/n), a tiny bit of angst but mostly fluff
Summary: In a world where the Kard we know today doesn’t exist, a new Kard is created. “The new Kard” = (Y/n) - 02 liner dating Enhypen, Keeho (P1harmony), Ricky (ZB1), & Yunjin (Lesserafim). After The New Kard made their debut with Cake, the promotions for the song were over. However, (Y/n) still had much to do as she prepared for her solo debut.
Authors note: Thank you for the request! I hope you enjoy it even if I couldn’t fulfill everything in your request.
Request by 🍮 - anon
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Third Person POV
The New Kard’s debut was quite a success. Everyone was talking about it. The MV received a lot of views and the rookie group even got a win on one of the music shows. Thousands of videos went viral of moments where the group hung out, performed, or joked around on variety shows. (Y/n) became particularly popular, netizens loving her stage presence and personality. Her group and her boyfriends were all so happy about their successful debut.
Once promotions were over for Cake, the company booked a meeting with (Y/n), telling her that she would be making her solo debut after they saw how popular she was. (Y/n) was incredibly happy, she decided that it should come as a surprise for everyone, they wouldn’t find out until the info was posted. (Y/n)’s groupmates Keeho, Yunjin, and Ricky were all busy working as MCs or acting in a drama. Enhypen was busy preparing and then promoting their newest album, Dark Blood with the title track Bite Me.
(Y/n) was working hard and tried her best to hide the fact that she was preparing for her solo debut. Her title track was just her style, she loved it. The styling was top-tier, the MV shooting had been a lot of fun, and she truly hoped the song would be a hit. Her friends and boyfriends were so busy with their own work that they missed the post announcing that (Y/n) would be debuting as a soloist in 3 weeks. Her debut album became one of the most-bought debut albums of all time. The fans seemed super excited for (Y/n).
The day of her debut was finally here, (Y/n)’s MV was just posted, and thousands of views rolled in within seconds. It wasn’t until that day when the MV was released, that Enhypen found out that their girlfriend was debuting as a soloist, or well she now was a soloist as well. They watched the MV, mesmerized by her dance moves and her beautiful voice. The second it was over they called (Y/n), who answered, expecting them to have found out by now. “(Y/n)! You’re a soloist now!?! Why didn’t you tell us?” Jake along with Sunoo exclaimed loudly. “Surprise!” (Y/n) chuckled, nervous to hear their opinions. “Can you come over or should we come to you?” Heesung asked, wanting to congratulate her in person and not just over the phone. “Uh, hold on,” They heard a low mumble in the background, probably (Y/n) asking her manager when she could meet with her boyfriends. “I can head over to your place in 2 hours,” “See you then, miss you, love you” Sunghoon began saying goodbye, and as he came to the last part all the boys joined in.
2 hours later, (Y/n) was knocking on Enhypen’s door. Jungwon opened the door, a silly smile on his face as he basically threw himself on the girl, hugging her tightly. “(Y/n)!” Jay shouted happily from the living room. Jungwon released her from his hug after a minute, allowing her to step inside and close the door, they walked over to the living room. The other six boys stood there, with a cake and a banner that read “Congratulations honey,” Which they all also said once (Y/n) had noticed the banner behind them. “Thank you,” Everyone was smiling as love-sick teenagers as they sat down together, eating some of the cake and talking about everything. The boys told (Y/n) about everything they loved about the song, the MV, and the dance.
A little later, (Y/n) opened up her Instagram, checking some of the comments people were posting under her latest post, the one with the announcement of the MV’s release. Many comments complimented her and congratulated her for her fast solo debut. However, her happy feelings and smile soon disappeared as she found hundreds of people writing their dismay and dislike of the song and the choreography, saying that (Y/n) should have done better. Her heart fell as she found people writing that they regretted buying her album. Niki noticed the way (Y/n)’s smile disappeared, he scooted closer to her, throwing an arm around her shoulders to comfort her. He glanced down at her phone, finding her reading comments. “Hey, what’s wrong?” The others noticed the scene once they heard the maknae’s voice.
“People are disappointed, I should have done better,” “Oh darling, no, you were amazing, they’re just being haters for the hell of it,” Jay said, also coming over to comfort (Y/n). “They hate the song and/or the choreo, saying it’s not my style and it was just a waste of money for the company,” “Do you like the song?” Jungwon asked, “Of course, I love it,” “Do you like the choreo?” He then asked, “Yes, it’s something I’ve dreamt of doing,” “That’s all that matters then. It wasn’t a waste of money or a disappointment if you love it, then it was a success,” “Wonnie,” “Hey, look, we’re so proud of you, your members are so proud too! And real fans will love it too!” Sunoo said, giving (Y/n) a bright smile, his eyes crinkling up along with it, something (Y/n) loved about Sunoo, his true smile was cute and sweet.
“Please teach me the dance? I want to be prepared for the dance challenges for tiktok,” Niki said, Sunghoon and Jake immediately stood up to learn the dance too. No matter what happens, as long as (Y/n) has Enhypen, she will continue to smile and be strong. Within seconds of standing up and trying to teach the boys her choreo, she was smiling and laughing. Completely forgetting about the hate she had received.
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To the end and back | Daryl Dixon x reader
Chapter twenty six | I love you, I’m sorry
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Warnings - ANGST! Guns, and shooting, Death, mentions of sex, cursing, usual twd warnings
Summary - after the world ended you were sure you’d never find love again but a certain archer catches your eyes and changes the entire trajectory of your life.
(A/N) - it’s finally here! Yay I’ve been working on this chapter since may and I’m so happy I’ve finally finished it. I know progress with my fics have been moving a little slower that they usually do but I’m hoping fingers crossed 🤞that I am able to speed the process up a little in the coming months 🫶🏻 also finally introducing the governor as the readers father in this chapter, I kind of hinted at it last chapter, to play around with the idea of it being canon. And I really like the ideas and situations I’ve came up in my head to put them in.
‘The suicide king’
S3 ep 9
Daryl is unbagged and pushed forward towards the middle of the arena. Merle and Daryl stand frozen, their eyes scanning the crowd in utter disbelief. The deafening sound of boos and heckles echoes throughout the arena, drowning out any other noise. Daryl's chest is heaving, faster and faster with each shout made from the audience of people. A blonde woman is attempting to force her way through a group of people, most likely the Governor's personal bodyguards, to get closer to him.
She manages to get through the first set before a surprise second set grabs her up before she can even get to his side. The governor - or maybe I should just start calling him Philip - because I finally know who the man behind the oh-so-mysterious name 'the governor' is. It's funny, I've been looking for this man for the last, what? 20 years of my life and I'm able to find him not even a year into the apocalypse so easily. How could he avoid his kids for 20 years in the old world, but he couldn't even last a year without me finding him now?
I really want to know how my father, Philip Blake, ended up being some dictator for a survivor's refugee camp. I almost want to laugh at how 'badass' he looks right now. makeshift eyepatch over one eye, as he looked over all his people so proud to be an asshole. My father was never much of a threat, but god he tried to be, though he really tried. I didn't hear much about my dad growing up, my maternal grandpa always muttered about how he was "such an asshole of a man", but the one thing I did hear from my paternal grandmother was that he ended up skipping town got some stupid office job and started a new family. it was all some bullshit about needing to start over, without my 'slut of a mother'.
His arm raises, so it's pointing towards Merle. The people of Woodbury immediately quiet down as their leader begins to speak. "I asked where your loyalties lie. You said here." Daryl was finally let out of whatever shackles that were placed around his arms, letting them fall to his sides freely. "Well, prove it. Prove it to us all." My blood runs cold.
"Brother against brother," he says with a dry chuckle. The crowd copies their leader, letting out a small chuckle that's paired with a quiet "yeah."
"Winner goes free" the crowd cheers at that, probably hoping and praying that Merle is able to win. Even though Merle was now deemed possibly 'unloyal' in the governor's eyes, it was still the better option for them. If Daryl died, Merle would have absolutely no reason to want to help us. Merle would go back to being Philip's loyal righthand man, and we, the 'terrorists' would be dead. Glenn had already told them our location and they would be marching up to our door with pitchforks in no time. Philip walks towards Merle shouting "Fight to the death!" as he does so. The crowd cheers once again. This was a scene taken straight out of one of those shitty medieval times shows.
The blonde woman finally turns, revealing her whole face to me. Andrea, the woman I thought I had accidentally left for dead, was here? Of all places, how did she end up here? Well, she had already shown us she didn't care about being led by an asshole, and if she was as close with Philip as she seems, she should already know how much of an asshole he was. "Philip, please. Don't do this," Andrea pleads, as one of Philips's men holds her back. "Don't do this!" He doesn't even glance at her, choosing instead to keep his eye on his prey. He glares at the two men standing in front of him, a smirk on his face that shows he truly enjoys this. The torture. He doesn't even have to do it himself, he just has to sit back and watch.
Merle raises his hand in the air before shouting "Y'all know me!" the crowd cheers, and I can see the absolute look of betrayal on Daryl's face. "I'm gonna do whatever I got to do to prove..." He hesitates for a moment before swinging his arm back and delivering a forceful punch to Daryl's stomach. With a loud grunt, Daryl collapses to the ground, and the crowd erupts in excitement. I stand frozen, unable to believe what I'm witnessing. how could he do that? Do that to his brother? "Holy shit," Jack gasps as Daryl begins to push himself up off of the ground. "That's my loyalty to this town!" just as Daryl has gotten his head off of the ground, Merle kicks him, sending him right back onto the ground.
Daryl lies motionless on his back, his chest heaving up and down with a faint rhythm. My eyes are fixed on him, hesitant to glance away, as if by doing so I might miss the final moments of his life. Merle continues throwing blow after blow as Philip watches on the sidelines with a sick look on his face. The crowd cheers as they lead out a walker. It's practically on a leash as some man, probably another one of Philips's men, leads him toward Daryl and Merle.
Finally, Daryl throws a punch. It's towards Merle's ankles but it gets him somewhere. It gets Daryl back onto his feet. Daryl launches himself toward Merle, tackling him, or at least trying to, but Merle has a leg up in this competition. merle gets Daryl down to the ground first. Both men have their hands around each other's necks as three of Philips's men lead three walkers towards them.
I don't even know what to do to help Daryl out. I could cause some type of distraction. If something more dangerous happens, it could give Daryl the freedom to escape. My eyes fall to my bag. I open it up and grab my gun right as Daryl and Merle get back to their feet. The two are working together to defeat the walkers.
My ammunition is running dangerously low, but my determination to save Daryl is unwavering. I'm willing to take the risk and use my last bullet to help him escape. My breaths come in quick and shallow as I raise my gun, my hands trembling with apprehension. I take aim at a man standing near Philip. I let out one more shaky breath before pressing the trigger and letting the bullet fly out of the gun and toward the man. Luckily for me, my aim was amazing today. The bullet tears right through his skull. Everyone around him screams as he falls to the ground with a thud.
Suddenly, someone behind Jack and I start shooting rounds into the arena, which makes even more of a ruckus. As I turned around to glance behind me, my eyes fell on Maggie, who was casually leaning against the top of the cold metal dumpster that was situated behind us. She shoots round after round into the arena. I let out a sigh of relief and began running back towards her. rick throws one of his smoke bombs, and Maggie continues to shoot. All I can hear is the sound of the automatic rifle and screams. Everyone's scattering like flies. Rick looks up at me, his mouth is open as if he's about to ask me something before his eyes flick to Jack who's stood behind me. "Who's that?"
"Old friend... he helped me," I reply. Rick continues to stare at Jack, scrutinizing him from head to toe as if he's trying to find a reason not to like him. I already know what he's going to ask. "Is he one of the governor's men?" I quickly respond, "He was just a resident and didn't know anything about what was going on, right Jack?" Jack nods, muttering a quiet "mhm."
Daryl and Merle sprint towards us while Rick urges, "Daryl, let's go!" Without wasting any time, we all take off at full speed, our hearts pounding with fear of being spotted by Philip or his men. The only sound that can be heard is our pounding footsteps on the ground as we race towards safety.
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We manage to escape the arena and run back into the main town area. We were cautious as we walked around, hoping everyone was in the arena, but there was no actual way to know, so we were as careful as we could.
"they're all at the arena, this way!!" Merle instructs, attempting to lead us toward an exit. Rick was quick to shoot down the idea of Merle going with us. "you're not going anywhere with us!" he growls. "You really want to do this now?!" Merle asks as he runs towards the fence, attempting to pry apart the metal, as Rick and Daryl stand guard. I pray to God Rick won't say anything about Jack going with us. I don't want him to stay here, knowing the possible doomed future of Woodbury.
Finally, Merle manages to pull apart the metal, leaving a nicely sized hole in its wake. We all slipped through without a problem, but we're only met with walkers on the opposite side. "A LITTLE HELP WOULD BE NICE!" Merle shouts as he beats a walker to death with his prosthetic arm. Daryl was quick to pitch in, shooting a walker with his bow. I pull my gun out, shooting off my last bullet into a walker's head, "We ain't got time for this!" before beginning to sprint off.
I stand motionless next to Jack, anticipation building as we await instructions from Rick. "let's go!" Daryl shouts once it's been more than a few seconds, Rick, Maggie, and I not moving. I'm glad Daryl hasn't asked about Jack yet. Maybe it's just because he's too busy to realize. But I hope he never mentions it. I'm scared he'll get mad, or jealous. He's just a friend now, hell we were tiptoeing around a breakup when the outbreak started. But I don't know how Daryl is with exes. I know he can get jealous; he has many times before. Normally, I can predict what he'll do in certain situations, but with Jack, I just don't know how Daryl will react. rick folds, deciding to follow after Merle rather than die.
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The walk back to the car is long. My hands are in my pockets as I trail behind a bit, with everyone else at least a few feet ahead of me. I don't mean to eavesdrop, but I can't help but overhear Merle and Daryl's conversation. "sooo, wha's up with you'n tha' bitch?" Merle asks, his head tilting back, so it points towards me. My heart stops, wondering what Daryl would say. Would he refer to me as his girlfriend? Even though we already had discussed what our relationship was, and I was confident in my role as Daryl's girlfriend, I was scared that he'd be embarrassed to admit that we were in a relationship with his older brother.
Daryl's quiet for a few seconds, giving his brother enough time to throw in another comment. "You to fuckin' around or something?" Daryl chuckles left hand rubbing the back of his neck nervously. "Um...I guess me'n her are together," he says with a shrug. Merle almost immediately bursts out in a booming fit of laughter, which makes Rick turn around and glare. I don't understand what's so funny. Was it so farfetched that Daryl and I were dating? I can see the back of Daryl's ears turn a bright red as his hands nervously play with the hem of his shirt. "yer datin' her! ain't she fuckin' that Chinese boy?" I almost scoff at Merle's assumption. I can almost hear Daryl's eyes roll as he says, "Nah... they're just friends."
"ya sure? I remem-" Daryl's quick to shut Merle down once again "I'm sure"
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It's about 20 minutes later when we end up back at the other side of the large acre of woods where we parked the car. As we approach the car, Rick whisper yells out Glenn's name, which makes both Glenn and Michonne get up and run to us. "Oh, thank god," Glenn sighs out as he approaches us. Rick was quick to squash the inkling of relief that Glenn had by revealing our newfound problems. "Now we got a problem here. I need you to back up." the moment Merle's face comes into Glenn's sigh, his face instantly contorted into anger "What the hell is he doing here!" Michonne pulls out her Katana in an effort to protect herself, and Daryl, he's quick to begin yelling in an effort to protect his older brother. There is a gun pointed at almost everyone in the group. "are you guys always like this?" Jack mutters quietly, "Always," I reply with an eye roll.
Everyone is yelling over each other; I can barely understand one word that's coming out of anyone's mouth. "Yeah, right after he beat the shit out of you," Rick scoffs, while I cross my arms over my chest, feeling absolute annoyance simmering inside me. "Hey, we both took our licks, man," Merle chuckles as his back presses against the tree behind him. "Jackass" Daryl scoffs with an eye roll. merle pushes himself off the tree. "Hey shut up!" Merle shouts back at his brother, his voice filled with pure annoyance. The brotherly squabble is quickly shut down by Rick with a loud "Enough!" but that just turns into another fight. "Hey! hey! Relax! Put that down!" Rick shouts at Michonne, who's got her Katana pointed at him. "Get that thing out of my face!" Daryl shouts, swatting at Glenn's gun.
Merle laughs. "Man, look like you've gone native, brother." Daryl turns around, his anger now fully directed at his brother. "NO more than you hangin' out with that psycho back there." Merle just has a smirk on his face, mainly just to piss Daryl off even more. "oh, yeah, man. He is a charmer, I got to tell you that. been puttin' the wood to your girlfriend Andrea big time, baby." Merle said eye's making direct contact with Michonne. my eyebrows furrow with confusion, not because of Andrea fucking my father, that was predictable, Andrea liked a man with power, but I'm confused because Andrea and Michonne had known each other. Glenn's just as confused brows furrowed as he asks "What? Andreas in Woodbury?"
"Right next to the governor," Daryl replies. Michonne takes a few steps forward, pointing her Katana in front of her once again, with the intention of hurting someone. "I told you to drop that!" Rick shouts, lunging forward, making Michonne lower it once again. Michonne has a blank expression on her face as Rick asks, "You know Andrea?" her eyes don't make contact with Rick, instead settling for somewhere right behind him.
Rick doesn't take her silence for an answer, so he gets closer, and his voice drops to a low, sinister whisper, "Hey, do you know Andrea?" he asks once again. She doesn't answer, letting Merle answer for her. "Yep, she does," he says, a smirk displayed on his lips. "Her and blondie spent all winter cuddlin' up in the forest. Mm-mmm-mmm." Rick has a look of betrayal on his face as Merle continues to reveal more and more of Michonne's secrets. "Yeah. My Nubian queen here had two pet walkers. No arms, cut off the jaws, kept them in chains."
What. The. fuck? two pet walkers! "kinda ironic now that I think about it." Daryl is done with Merle's mouth. Daryl quickly spins around shouting "Shut up, bro!" Merle laughs, obviously finding Daryl's anger hilarious "Hey, man, we snagged them out of the woods. Andrea was close to dyin'."
"Is that why she's with him?"
Merle nods. "Yeah. Snug as two little bugs. So, what ya gonna do now, sheriff, huh? Surrounded by a bunch of liars, thugs, and cowards." Merle says, just poking and prodding at Rick, trying to get a reaction out of him. And a reaction is what he got; Rick turns his head, commanding Merle to "shut up!" Merle, being Merle, doesn't comply and continues his antics. Merle chuckles. "Oh, man, look at this. Pathetic!" he shakes his head in faux shame. "All these guns and no bullets in them."
Merles once again got on his brother's last nerve. "Merle! shut up!" Daryl growls, leaning forward a bit, trying to intimidate his older brother. Merle doesn't take that and begins to shout, "Shut up yourself! Bunch of pussies you roll-" Merle isn't even able to finish his last sentence before Rick quickly strikes him in the back of the head with his gun, causing him to fall to the ground unconscious with a thud. "Asshole."
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We're all gathered around in the middle of the road, leaving Jack sat on the side of the road, feeling he had no place in the conversation, and Merle still in the woods. Daryl's trying to propose that Merle comes with us, but Rick's not so sure, feeling it will just cause trouble. "It won't work," Rick sighs. Daryl still tries his best to convince Rick, though "it's gotta" I'm not on either side. I know Merle is nothing but trouble. I've known that since the moment I met him. But I also know that Daryl has beaten himself up over losing his brother for the past year. I know having his brother with our group again would make him happy. I want Daryl to be happy, I really do, but Merle has already caused so much trouble for our group. Hell, he kidnapped and almost killed Glenn and Maggie.
"it'll stir things up," Rick argues. I know he's right. Having Glenn and Merle under the same roof probably won't end up well. Glenn was already so pissed off; it wouldn't be right to make Glenn and Maggie feel more unsafe than they already did. "Look, the governor is probably on the way to the prison right now. merle knows how he thinks, and we could use the muscle," Merle did already know a bunch about Phillip, but who says he's even gonna help up, all he did back at the quarry was fuck around and start unnecessary fights with Shane.
"I'm not havin' him at the prison,"
"Do you really want him sleeping in the same cell block as Carol, Beth, or hell, Casey?" Glenn asks. thinking about it, I don't want Merle Dixon anywhere near Casey. I know Merle is Daryl's brother and all, but he should really think about this. I was barely comfortable being within 5 feet of Merle myself let alone my 5-year-old. he has to start thinking about the bigger picture, he has to start thinking about how this could affect Casey, Carl, and the baby. Daryl grunts before muttering, "he ain't a rapist." He wasn't a rapist, but he sure did make me more than uncomfortable on multiple occasions. Look at him, the way he talked, the men he hung out with; would he really want that kind of person around the children?
"Well, his buddy is." Daryl was still trying to plead Merle's case. "They ain't buddies no more. Not after last night," I sigh, arms crossing over my chest "C'mon D you know how Merle is, do you really want that around case?" he huffs, trying not to make eye contact as a look of betrayal spreads across his face.
"There's no way Merles gonna live there without putting everyone at each other's throats," Rick says. I know Rick doesn't want to piss Daryl off, but he also wants everyone in our group to feel safe. "So, yer gonna cut Merle loose and bring the last samurai home with us?" Rick shakes his head, saying "She's not coming back. "
"she's not in a state to be on her own" Maggie argues. Maggie and Glenn continue to try and plead Michonne's case. "She did bring you guys to us" Glenn whispers, in a way he's right. Michonne had helped us, but she's already practically gone rogue pointing that damn katana at people. we just don't know what she's capable of yet. "And then ditched us" rick argues, head turning towards Glenn. "at least let my dad stitch her up" Maggie begs, we can't just leave her out for dead, we should at least let Hershel check her out, so she's has the best chance of survival out there, it just the right thing to do. "She's too unpredictable." She's a loose cannon, that's for sure. On one hand, she has proven herself to be beneficial to our group, but on the other hand, she has also shown us that she could be harmful to our group. She's helping us, but also going missing for a long period of time and pointing her damn Katana at us like we're the bad guys.
We're staring at Michonne. She is leaning against the side-view mirror, staring back at us, almost as if she knows we're talking about her. Scratch that, she probably does know because Rick is not trying to whisper at all. He wants her to know she's unwanted, hoping she'll take a hint and scurry off before Rick can boot her out. Daryl nods agreeing with Rick, "That's right, we don't know who she is" he mutters, but he's only agreeing with Rick right now to try to slip in a word about Merle staying with us.
"But merle, merles blood." Daryl says almost acting like we're all some big family. Deep down, I have a feeling he'd run if Merle asked him. We're not blood, I'm not his wife, Casey's not his daughter. I'm his girlfriend, barely even that sometimes, and Casey, she's a little girl who has accidentally grown too attached. The 'D' around my neck means nothing if Merle is asking for something, and I know that. I wouldn't expect him to choose me over his brother, and I know he wouldn't expect me to pick him over mine, even if it would be a difficult decision for me.
Glenn shakes his head in disgust. "No, merles your blood, my blood, my family is standing right here, and waiting for us back at the prison." We had no ties to Merle, no need to keep him. The only one who did was Daryl. we all know the line we're tittering on, we all know the thoughts and decisions racing through his mind. We all know he's thinking about leaving and going with Merle. that's why my eyes are burning into his with a stare begging him not to. Begging him not to make me go back without him, begging him not to make me explain why he didn't come back. "And you're part of that family, but he's not. He's not"
I can see the anger boiling in his chest, the words he's trying to fight back. "Man, ya'll don't know" We all stare at him waiting for him to say it because we know he is "Fine. we'll fend for ourselves." he finally says it, which almost sends me over the edge. I just want to scream at him. How could he just leave, leave after promising he'd come back? "that's not what I was saying," Glenn says, trying to make Daryl think about his decision. "no, him, no me." It's as simple as that. He didn't think about Casey, Carol, Beth, or hell fucking me. "Daryl, you don't have to do that"
"It was always merle an' I before this" Then he makes eye contact with me, and he sees it, the tears pooling in my eyes that I desperately try to blink back, the begging the pleading, but he doesn't care. "So, you're just gonna leave?" I ask finally breaking my silence. His eyes meet mine. "you'd do the same thing," he mutters. My brother, he wasn't like Merle. He wouldn't be booted out of the group because my brother was a good man. "What do you want me to tell Casey? you promised her you'd come back." he shrugs, almost like he doesn't care. "y/n ya gotta understand this is my brother, my blood. You'd do the same if you found yer's. I know ya would"
"My brother's dead," I say, my voice comes out bitter and harsh. Because how could he bring up my brother, who's dead? Who died trying to help me? How could he compare his racist, misogynistic, absolute scumbag brother to mine? "Then ya should understand. "my arms cross over my chest, and my face twists into a disgusted expression. I can't believe he'd just leave us like that. After everything we've been through. He said he loved me. I thought he thought more of me. I thought this was it. I thought he was going to be my husband.
Daryl starts walking, pushing past Maggie and me, muttering, "Say goodbye to yer pops for me." I spin around on my heels, facing him now rather than Glenn and Rick. I'm practically chasing after him shouting "You're seriously leaving?! After everything we've been through?!" he ignores me and just continues to walk until he gets to the trunk of the car. He opens it and begins to gather his items.
"So, this is it?" I whisper, my hands shoved in my pockets, "guess so" he mutters, my heart drops and tears begin to pool in my eyes once again. "Seriously? What about Casey?" he shrugs, not answering because he knows whatever he's going to say is just going to piss me off. "What about me D? What about us?" a tear falls down my cheek, and my hand reaches up to wipe it away. "you'll get over it," he mutters, slinging his bag over his shoulder. That hurt me. It felt like a stab to the gut. Did he really think I just get over him like that? He shakes his head, almost as if he was trying to ignore the tears that lined my waterline. he's trying not to care.
I've watched Daryl grow so much as a person in the last year. The man I knew yesterday was a scrap of the man I had met at that quarry. But somehow, with Merle's reappearance, he went back to the Douch bag he was. He no longer cared for Casey, Beth, or Carol. He no longer cared for me. He no longer cared about us. All the late-night conversation meant nothing, the necklace meant nothing, Casey meant nothing. "I-I love you," I whisper, hoping it would change his decision. Hoping the quiet admission of love would snap him back into reality.
"Then stop..." he mutters. His words are so bitter, so calloused they slice right through my heart, breaking it into a million pieces. "ya got whoever that guy is over there, ya got Glenn. know you'll be fuckin' one of them by the end of the week," he mutters. Hot, angry tears begin to fall down my cheeks. How could he say that? Was that really all he thought of me? A slut? Did he think I was only with him for the sex? The sex that was so far in between that I can't recall the last time we had it. Did he not notice how in love I was?
I rip the necklace from my neck and throw it at him. It hits his torso before falling to the ground with a soft thud. The silver metal glimmers in the sun staring up a simple reminder of what we were, and what we could have been. "Fuck you" is the last thing I mutter before wiping my tears and turning to walk back towards the group.
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The ride back to the prison is a blur. I sit in the back, middle seat, with a shell-shocked look on my face. I don't want to cry, but my body wants me to cry. There's a lump in my throat and I'm desperately trying to hold back tears. The whole ride Glenn muttering quietly to me, "I'm so sorry" "I didn't think he was really going to leave" I don't pay attention to him. I can't listen, I can't pay attention. I just want to be in my head right now. I feel the car stop and feel people leave, but I don't pay it any mind. I don't even pay any mind when I hear the shouting outside. I just want this all to be over.
I'm zoned out until I feel the car park, and everyone gets out. I get out, hands shoved in my pockets. The only thing that knocks me out of my head is the feeling of two little arms wrapping around my leg. "you're back," Casey squeaks as I bend down and pick her up. Her arms wrap around my neck and her head buries itself into my shoulder. I know the inevitable question awaits us, and I still don't know what I'm going to say. When I feel her head leave my shoulder and begin looking around, my heart begins to slam against my chest. "where's Daryl?" she asks eyes still searching, "he...Daryl left"
"Did he die?" she asks, brows furrowing up as I shake my head. I'd rather he had died. It's easier to explain to her that he died rather than he decided to leave us. "No, baby. He found his brother and decided he needed to be with his family." Her brows furrow up even farther, if that's even possible. "I thought we were his family?"
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When I get back inside, I tell Casey to stay with Carl and go up and find an empty cell. This is when I finally let myself break down. Sitting on the bed with my head in my hand, I just let go. I'm full-on ugly crying, with tears streaming down my face, and snot bubbling out of my nose. I just hate him so much for leaving. Broken sobs escape my lips as I try to keep myself as quiet as possible. I don't want anyone else to know how badly this hurt me.
My chest rises and falls fast with each gasp I take. The only thought that is racing through my mind is why would he do this? How could he do this? Did he really think that I was a slut all this time, or was it Merle's comments about Glenn, and I that suddenly had changed his opinion of Glenn and I's relationship? Did he seriously think I didn't love him?
"You, okay?" a knock on the wall pulls me from my thoughts. I look up to see Carol. My bottom lip wobbles as I shake my head 'no'. she lets out a sigh as she nods and slowly walks towards me. She takes a seat next to me on the bottom bunk. "You want to talk?" she asks, her arm coming to wrap around my body and pull mine close to hers. I shake my head 'no' once again. I could barely think about him without a blubbering mess, let alone talk about him to someone else.
My head buries into her chest as her left hand rubs small circles into my back. "I know, I know," she mutters as broken sobs erupt from my throat. I just hate him so much for leaving with Merle, but at the same time I want him here, and I want him to hold me. I want to hear him tell me he loves me.
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I sat in that cell for the rest of the night, not bothering about dinner because I had already felt sick to my stomach. The only human interaction I have is with Casey at bedtime when she cuddles up next to me in the bottom bunk. I can't bring myself to touch the stuff Daryl had left behind, because I know I'll either break it or throw it at a wall.
Casey's eyes were heavy with sleep, and yawns erupted from her every few seconds. She didn't want to sleep on the top bunk. For the past few months, she only knew what it felt like to sleep between Daryl and me. There was always a warm body next to her, no matter what. I can't bring myself to think how last night was for her. Through a yawn, she whispers, "I miss Daryl" I let out a heavy sigh. In a way I miss him, I wish he hadn't made the choice he had made, I wish he would have considered how'd those decisioned would affect us. I wish I didn't have the burden of living the rest of my life wondering if he's alright, so I guess in a way I miss him.
Casey eventually drifted off to sleep, and I quietly slipped out of bed, hoping that everyone else had retired for the night. As I tiptoed down the stairs and into the dimly lit rec room, I noticed Glenn sitting at a table in the far-left corner. He was shrouded in almost complete darkness, with only his hoodie standing out in the dim light. His head faced down; one elbow propped up on the table to hold it up. "How you holdin' up?" I ask, breaking him from his thoughts. I can see him just and let out a tiny gasp. "shit" he mutters under his breath as his head snaps up to see me.
I laugh, a small smile breaking across my face. "sorry" I whisper, walking across the room to meet him at his table. "watcha doin' up so late?" I ask, sliding into the seat beside him. "can't sleep you?" he asks. I shrug, not knowing why I was still up. I felt like I could sleep for a good week if I really tried. "So...did Jack get booted out with the rest...or..." I ask referring to the commotion I had heard earlier that day involving rick. Glenn shakes his head "Nah, didn't wanna upset you anymore than you already were," he says, tiptoeing around the subject of Daryl.
I can't help but feel bad about Glenn and Maggie. Every time I see the black and blue bruises that decorated his face, I can't help but be reminded of who caused it. I hadn't thought about him in years. The only times I was reminded of the faded remembrance of his face were in old family portraits that were in boxes up in my mom's attic.
1992 or 3 maybe, I was three years old in the picture, mom was heavily pregnant, and dad looked so young. I never realized how young both my parents were when they had me until I looked at those photos. Mom looks maybe 19, dad had to be at least 21. He's got me on his hip, we're all pushed in close, one arm around a waist, Dad's face and I's squished together. We looked so happy.
When I saw his face out in the crowd, I was 12 years old again up in the attic, sorting through boxes, finding the dusty portraits. Wondering how he could leave us. I wasn't stupid. I remembered those last few months, the last year. I remembered the drinking, the fighting, the bruises. I remembered the broken potted plants I remembered my brother's broken arm. I just couldn't believe the man who wore such a bright smile could be so evil.
How could he hurt me, hurt my brother, hurt my mom? I feel like I'm sitting in my paternal grandmother's kitchen this time, maybe 15, listening to her blab on and on about his family. His wife, his daughter. His daughter he loved so dearly, the daughter who had replaced me. 'He just loves her so much,' she said 'No one can take away a father's love for their daughter'. I hadn't thought of him since that moment. After that, I gave up on having a dad. I gave up on waiting. I finally realized he just didn't love me, and I couldn't change that.
But yesterday, seeing him again was like a punch to the gut, and finding out that he was the one who hurt my friends that made me furious. I wanted to be the one to hunt him down. I wanted to be the one to kill him. I couldn't wait to see his face when he realized who I was and what I was going to do.
"Glenn, can I tell you something? But you can't get mad" his brows furrow, a sliver of a smile displaying on his lips as his mouth opens to say something. I'm quick to cut him off, finally revealing the hardest secret I've ever had to keep. "the governor is my dad" his eyes widen, and fear sets in quickly, terrified he'll hate me. "What?" he asks, it coming out as a half laugh as he stares at me. His eyes fall up and down my body, examining every single one of my facial features, finding everyone that even slightly resembled Philips. "Are you joking?" he asks, head cocking to the side in disbelief. I shake my head slowly, and he lets out a quiet "oh my god."
"I didn't even know this governor guy was him until I saw him. You're not mad, are you?" he shakes his head, letting my anxieties settle. "No..not mad, just...shocked, yo-you...wow."
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Idk why this popped into my brain but it occurred to me that Eddie was probably on those celebrity editions of game shows. Celebrity Jeopardy, Celebrity Who Wants to be a Millionaire, etc…
And it just made me laugh so hard. The idea of Eddie Munson with Regis. Of calling Steve as a phone a friend for a basketball question and Steve being like Eddie I don’t know everything about basketball. But the answer is Larry Bird.
Just TikTok finding clips of Eddie yelling “suck it, Dan Cortese!” after obliterating them all at final jeopardy.
This fills me with so much joy! I love it so much.
Eddie does not go on Celebrity Who Wants to be a Millionaire by choice. He pissed off the band’s manager just enough that they signed him up for it without his knowledge, and he’s not doing it. He got the letter in the mail and it’s not happening.
Eddie ‘Six Years of High School’ Munson is not going on national television and making himself look like an idiot when he doesn’t even get to be in on the joke. No way.
“Dick move, man,” Gareth shrugs after Eddie put his foot down. “Even if you fuck the first question, they’re still gonna donate to your charity of choice. And like, maybe this is just the amount of money needed to cure cancer. Or epilepsy.”
“…You fucking suck, Gareth.”
“Yeah, I do!”
Eddie begrudgingly shows up and goes through the whole rigmarole to get mic’ed up, just ready to make a fool out of himself and call it a day. It turns out that he knows a lot more than he thought he did because he breezes through the first round of questions.
He knows enough about history, music, and the arts just from planning his D&D campaigns and reading about things he likes. He’s surprised by how much surface knowledge he’s gained from listening to the kids logic their way through their science and math homework, but sports are a bust.
He gets lucky on a few questions, but ends up using his Phone a Friend to call his partner, Steve. Steve and Eddie spend the first fifteen seconds arguing about how Eddie shouldn’t have wasted his phone a friend on Steve because he doesn’t know anything. And then once he hears the question, he’s like, “Larry Bird” and hangs up.
Eddie doesn’t win a millionaire dollars for his charity, but he wins quite a bit.
Afterwards when he’s still so hyped up about not being dumb, Steve’s just like ???? “Ed, you were never dumb. You just had trouble taking tests and none of your teachers accommodated your very obvious ADHD. You’ve always been brilliant.”
“Now everybody knows it.”
“Yeah,” Steve agreed. “Yeah, they do.”
Eddie signs up for Celebrity Jeopardy himself.
One of the first things that Steve and Wayne bonded over was a love for Jeopardy. Wayne has watched Jeopardy before he left for work for as long as Eddie has known him, and Steve was more than happy to sit with him when it was on. They both continued to watched even after Steve and Eddie moved to Chicago and sometimes they’d call each other if Final Jeopardy was “crazy.”
The band wasn’t touring as much as they used too and they’re all pretty much working on their own projects at this point. Steve’s finishing up his master’s degree while teaching full time and doesn’t really have a lot of time for him. Eddie is in between projects and creatively tapped out, and worst of all, he’s bored.
So when his manager passively mentions Celebrity Jeopardy, Eddie tells him to sign him up for it. When they accept his application, the only people he tells about it are Dustin and Nancy.
He only tells them because he wants their help studying for it because he wants to win this time. So, they study and it sucks. If Eddie ever sees another world famous Nancy Wheeler flashcard again, he’ll tear off his arm. He hates every second of their study sessions.
Eddie makes it through the quarterfinals and then he makes it to the semi-finals (knocking out Dan Cortese). He doesn’t win the tournament because he bets big on a Daily Double and gets it wrong, but he’s fairly close to the lead after Final Jeopardy.
It’s not bad for a guy that failed his senior year three times.
The fun part comes when it airs. He painstakingly sets up their camcorder so Steve won’t notice it before the show starts. The video he gets has a good five minutes of Steve fussing with a blanket up until they say ‘Eddie Munson.’
Steve looks up and then looks at Eddie, and then back at the tv, “Wha- what? Is that – that’s you! You’re on Jeopardy! Eddie, you’re on – oh my god, we’ve got to call Wayne.”
Before Steve can even do that, their phone is ringing and Steve answers it like, “HE DIDN’T TELL ME EITHER!” while Eddie is laughing his ass off.
When Eddie posts a TikTok about it like, ‘LOL remember when I was on Jeopardy?’ it includes this moment. It also includes footage from the semi-finales where Steve is just pacing the living room and repeatedly telling Eddie to just tell him if he won or not. Steve cheers like he’s at a football game when Eddie wins.
It’s just as tense when the video cuts to Steve watching the finale. Steve knows the answer to the daily double that Eddie gets wrong and is like, ‘This is why they should do Jeopardy Couples, we’d win so hard.’ Steve’s not even disappointed that Eddie lost, keeping the same enthusiasm through the show and then is like, “I’m married to a Jeopardy contestant. I’m so telling Janet about this at the staff meeting tomorrow.”
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008. Kindness
♡ Pairing - Vash x Reader
♡ Word count - 1.1k
♡ Warnings - none
♡ Description - You continue to send Vash letters.
Part of the 150 Bullets drabble series on AO3
Part 1 ---- Part 2 ---- Part 3 (you are here!) ---- Part 4 ---- Part 5
The next letter comes a week later on a Tuesday. The one after that, two weeks and two days. And the one after that, just four days later.
You’ve made a habit of writing at nearly every post office and leaving it to be picked up by Vash if he chooses. He tries to resist and leave the letters there, but loneliness and the want to know how you’re doing always wins. He’s returned to a town more than once just to get a letter.
This week’s letter comes from a little town called Bangs. The mailwoman hands him the letter from the top of her tomas, and he gives her the twenty-six C-cents for handling it.
The paper inside is pink this time and smells a bit like almond lotion. Your curving and slanted writing greets him:
Birdie,
I’ve managed to add three new towns this week to the roster. There’re only a few people in each who are willing to join in on the book exchange, but a win’s a win. HQ says I’m doing great, and they’ve already gotten a few applications from some teenagers in the towns to apply for college in the bigger cities.
In fact, they’re moving me to a new route soon. One that’s a bit more challenging due to it being so far out and away from most other places. I’m getting my own tomas for it since the towns are so spread out. I’ve drawn the map they sent me on the back…in case you ever want to visit.
I hope you’re doing well. I wish I could see you. I know you’re getting my letters. Write to me, please. Even if you don’t think we should travel together anymore, we can at least be friends, right?
Forever yours,
______
P.S. What do evil toma lay? Deviled eggs.
He’s surprised to find two blank pages nestled into the envelope. You really want him to write you? After abandoning and dodging you for nearly two months? But he shouldn’t be surprised. You’re always adjusting to his boundaries, always making sure he’s comfortable, even if you disagree. You’re too kind for your own good. The least he could do is tell you he’s okay.
So, he writes back.
______,
I’m doing fine. I’ve got a few jobs lined up in the town I’m in right now. I was able to help nurse someone’s grandma back to health here too. I’m doing my best, just like you are.
He taps at the paper. What else should he say?
I’m sorry I I’m glad to hear you’re doing well. You’re making a huge difference by helping build up people’s education. It will help so many people in the future.
What do you know about the region you’re getting assigned to? I’ve only been around there a few times, and I’m sure it’s changed since then.
Best,
Vash
P.S. Why can’t you ever trust stairs? They’re always up to something.
He’s left with an extra page to write with, but just stuffs it in his pocket. He doesn’t have much of worth to say right now; he still feels bad about…everything. He finds the postwoman again, who takes the new envelope and trots off on her tomas, and that’s that.
The next letter comes on the road as a courier passes by on her own walk back toward a town called Ferret’s Claw. She hails him, and hands it to him. “Already paid for,” her gravelly voice says, then continues trotting down the path of dunes.
Vash watches her leave before he opens and scans it over.
Birdie,
I’ve heard about you helping the Plants in the region. You’re not as sneaky as you used to be. That, or people are a lot more talkative about the talented, young, handsome man going around fixing Plants.
Sure sounds like you.
I’ve had to deal with some bandits on the road. Been chased a few times. Luckily they either aren’t great shots or don’t have their own toma to chase me on. They seem to be young kids with nothing better to do. I hope the more we spread education, that will lessen.
Be careful around here, birdie.
Forever yours,
______
A blush rises to his cheeks when he reads over the “talented, young, handsome” line again. Leave it to you to still get his stomach fluttering with butterflies, even at a distance. Vash lets a breath go through his nose, then folds the letter, putting it in his “letters pocket,” so dubbed now after receiving them. He brings out the spare piece of paper from the previous letter and begins to write, using his knee as a ‘desk.’
Mayfl______,
Don’t worry about me; I know how to run handle bandits. You should be more careful, though. Do you still have that knife you got from the pawn shop?
I won’t be staying in the region long. There’s a call coming from somewhere else, and I need to go to it.
He taps the paper, looking up and around as he thinks. Should he tell you where he’ll be? He’d like more letters…
It’s coming from a town in the east, I know that much. Hopefully I can get there in time.
Be safe.
Vash
P.S. There are three types of people in the world: those who can count, and those who can’t.
There. That ought to be enough.
And when he’s in the east, he isn’t as surprised to find a letter waiting for him at one of the towns.
Birdie,
I’ll keep writing to you if that’s alright. It gets lonely on the road, and I don’t doubt you feel it too. I love getting your letters.
HQ says I’ll stay in this region for at least a few months. Please let me know where to send my letters; I promise I won’t follow – I’ve got too many people relying on me and the books now. But I’d still love to hear from you. Tell me about what you’re up to, any adventures, even the shoot-outs you’re in. I’ll worry, but I’ll know you’re okay with each letter.
I hope you’re well. I hope you find happiness wherever you go.
Forever yours,
______
P.S. What do you call a can opener that doesn’t work? A can’t opener.
And Vash does write back. Even if it’s so much less than what you write, he keeps you updated.
Vash wonders, when he’s writing his next letter, if this should stop. He’s leading you on; he hasn’t stopped contact like he promised he would. He looks down at the paper and crumples it in his hand, then opens and smooths it out again. Your kindness is like a drug he can’t quit. It’s selfish, but he wants to keep you, like the letters he keeps in his pocket. Is it so bad to want one friend in the world?
Maybe. Perhaps not.
And so he writes.
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Rewrite The Stars
Chapter Six
Summary: One photo changes your whole life, when you accidentally bump into a celebrity and the world starts to believe that you are a couple.
chapter five chapter seven
You spent the week after your encounter with Pascal being inundated with news about you. Very positive rumors circulated about who you were. People calling you the real-life Julia Roberts in Pretty Woman, claiming they knew you from school. A good number of folks fabricating stories about how you used to be. They even managed to dig up my high school lab partner. Your phone nearly exploded with notifications. Pedro reached out a couple of times, telling you to stay calm, assuring you that you weren't alone in this.
"I won't be wearing that dress, and I actually find it excessive that you bought an entirely new wardrobe with clothes that are too expensive for me to accompany you to any awards show. Are you nominated for every existing award on Earth?" You talk on the phone with Pedro, who is on his way at the moment. By the way, you no longer live in your apartment. Pedro's business manager, always a visionary, rented an apartment in a more private and secure location for you to live in temporarily until this situation blows over. Gradually, your life is turning into a big facade, even your address is not your real address anymore.
"Would it help if I said I personally chose this dress?" Pedro asks over the phone in a playful tone. You scoff, thinking that even if he said Beyoncé had worn this dress, you still wouldn't want to wear it. Okay, you're being a bit dramatic now.
"You coming with the dress by any chance?" You quip, thinking nothing is worth all this discomfort. This dress is so tight that you might need to split yourself in half to get into it.
"Darling, I'm already yours. Obviously, I come included in the package with the dress." When you hear that, you almost let yourself be charmed.
"Why don't you wear this dress in my place, love?" You're clearly losing patience and air as you struggle with this horrible dress. You can hear Pedro laughing on the other end of the line. That should be considered the eighth wonder of the world.
"You win, I give up. Wear something you feel comfortable in, and be ready because I'll be there in a few minutes,Y/N." He says calmly, and you do a mini victory dance. In life, everything becomes bearable if you're at least feeling comfortable.
"You deserve the world, Pascal, the whole world. I'll be ready in time to accompany my boyfriend to the awards show. I swear." You say with a smile as you struggle to take off the dress, almost tripping over it. Pedro says he's going to hang up but that he wants to see the dress you'll choose soon. You choose a beautiful black dress that you personally bought with your first paycheck. This dress was so well kept that even those who revamped your entire wardrobe didn't know of its existence. You quickly put it on, trying to beat Mr. Pedro Pascal, but you fail. He knocks on your apartment door before you can finish putting on the dress.
"Need a hand?" He smiles seeing you have trouble holding the dress in place, damn strapless dress.
"How did you enter the building without authorization?" You ask confused, even without looking at Pedro's face because you were embarrassed. One mistake on your part and he would see you half naked.
"Your priorities are incredible. You'd rather stay naked than let me in and help you. But of course, the building security knowing I'm Pedro Pascal, your boyfriend, is the real concern on your mind." He doesn't even hide that he's teasing you. You step aside to let him into your fake apartment. You almost let the dress fall, but he immediately helps you after entering the apartment.
"Thanks for the help. You're officially a hero." You add with a smile.
"And I'll be accompanied by a princess, apparently. You look stunning." He says sincerely. You feel a bit shy, as if only feeling the burning sensation on your cheeks, Pedro sure knows how to be charming.
"I know this isn't the dress you wanted me to wear, but I promise I'll be a much better fake girlfriend." You say, smiling and twirling the dress as if you were a real princess.
"Your happiness is my happiness, darling." That's all he says before holding you firmly by the waist. In a moment, you find yourself kissing him. Blame it on the obvious reflection. The kiss itself is tender, as if it were the first kiss you two were sharing. One thing you notice is that he didn't rush to end the kiss; in fact, he even prolonged the moment of closeness between you two.
"I believe we have to go to your award show. I heard that a very handsome actor is going to win a award tonight." You say kissing Pedro Pascal's cheek. He's still holding your waist.
"Keep that mood of yours up. It's going to be hours of photos, awkward questions and conversations. Lots of conversations." He says it like a warning, you laugh. He seems to forget that you were a waitress, he's already used to a lot of things. And you will be able to meet famous people.
"No need to glamourize, I'll be your escort anyway." You say holding Pedro's arm leading him out of the apartment. You then go to the awards show together.
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cw: implied sex, alcohol, vomit
It’s been a while since 5WIRL had a tour. Now that Scaramouche joined the team, they’ve been gaining popularity again.
First day starts tomorrow and to celebrate, Venti throws a grand party. It took a lot of convincing and, for some reason, their manager has a soft spot for Scaramouche, the party was approved.
It was just the six of them having fun. Well, some of them. Scaramouche stands at a corner with his cup of alcohol. He doesn’t really drink and he kind of doesn’t want to. If you were there, you’d tell him that he shouldn’t be drinking at this time. He sighs and takes a sip regardless. Aether walks up to him with his own cup. “Missing yn still?” Scaramouche blushes but that gives Aether the hint. “I know that what happened isn’t okay and I think right now, yn just wants you to focus.”
Scaramouche frowns. “But isn’t really okay for me to ignore it? Yn-“ “You didn’t ignore it, Scaramouche. Sometimes it’s best if you step aside.” Scaramouche wanted to ask more but remained silent. Aether smiles softly. “They’ll be okay. It’s Yn after all.” Scaramouche nods then Aether smacks his back. “Enough moping around! Let’s have fun!” Scaramouche stutters as Aether links his arm around his and drags him to the rest.
Almost everyone gets drunk and tell jokes. Aether seemed to be able to handle his alcohol well since he really wasn’t drunk yet. Everyone else on the other hand was a bit tipsy. The most was Venti of course. After many drinks, Scaramouche was out of it. He took out his phone and walks out the room, swaying side to side. He close the door behind him and calls your number.
You pick up, “Scara?” “Yn! You’re awake!” He hiccups and your suspicions rise. “I am. I’m working on my project.” “Oh yeahhhhh!” He giggled. “You’re so talented. I can’t wait to see you-“ another hiccup. “Win.” “Scara, are you drunk?” He shakes his head with a laugh. “I’d never do thaaaat!” That made you giggle. “Be careful, Scara.” “Mmm you don’t have to worry about me! I’m soooo strong and brave!” “Oh my! My Prince Charming!” Scaramouche beams. “Yes! I’ll make you happy.” You blush. “Thank you.”
“I miss you.” He says, “I miss you everyday. I want to hold you so bad. I want to kiss you.” Suddenly, his voice deepens. “I even fantasize about pleasuring you.” You gasp, face burning. “Scaramouche! People can hear!” “There is no people!” You sigh a bit nervous. “I love you.” Suddenly, time stops. You blink before asking, “What did you just say?” “Umm I think I said I love you.” He hiccups and giggles. “I loveeee you! I love you! I love you! I loveeeeee you!” You stutter and cover your mouth. “I-“ “I love you so much, yn. My wonderful partner that I want to grow old with. Someday, I hope we get married and have those ten kids Venti mentioned.”
You laugh a little. “Scara, that’s a bit too much.” “But it’s true!” You smile but still think about what he said. “Scara,” “Yes baby?” Your heart jumps. “Do you really love me? After everything that’s happened? You’re not embarrassed of me?” Scaramouche goes quiet for a moment and you’re starting to think you just asked a stupid question. “Why would I be embarrassed of you again?”
You blink, “Um, well, that video-“ “What video?” ‘You’re kidding.’ “That video of me. You know, the one where you asked me about?” “Ohhhhhhhhh!” He laughs, “Yn, I don’t care about all that! I love you! Isn’t that enough?” You smile and laugh. “I’m sorry. That was silly of me.” “Mhm! Very silly.” “Hey, you’re not supposed to agree.” “I just did!” You both laugh. “I do love you, yn. A lot. I’m glad stupid Childe convinced me to join.” “Good. I’m glad you joined too.” You let out a breath before saying, “Scara, I love-“ Out of nowhere, you hear your boyfriend gag and vomit over the phone.
You jump off your bed. “Oh my god! Scara!? Are you okay?!” “Uhhhh I feel funny.” “Scara, find Aether. Find anyone!” “I’m tired. Yn, kiss me good-“ He throws up again and you scream. “Scara!” Somehow, over all the music, Aether sensed something was wrong. Xiao, who was knocked out drunk, slept on Aether shoulder as he snores and drools. Aether pulls Xiao away from him slowly and gets up from his chair for Xiao to rest his head on. He would tell the others to look after him but they were busy doing karaoke. Aether glances at Xiao then at them. ‘He’ll be fine.’
Aether opens the door, gasps, and backs away at the sight of vomit. “Scaramouche?!” Scaramouche turns to him and hands Aether his phone. “It’s broken. Fix it!” “Wha-?!” “Aether?!” “Yn?!” Aether steals his phone. “Aether, is he okay?!” “He’s fine.” He says as he wraps an arm around his waist. “Don’t worry, Yn. I’ll handle this.” “Okay…” Scaramouche groans, “Yn, I’m dying.” “You’re not dying.” Aether rolls his eyes. “Please take care of him.” “I will.” With that, you hang up and Aether goes to clean up a dizzy Scaramouche.
When the party was over, Scaramouche woke up with a headache. So did Venti and Xiao. Aether, not so much. He was just exhausted about having to take care of everyone. That leaves off with the other two.
Heizou yawns and stretches as he wakes up. He blinks a couple of times until he looks next to him. No one was there until he turned to his other side and Kazuha was putting on his pants. Heizou sits up and hugs him from behind. Kazuha was shirtless so Heizou admired his build. Heizou plants a kiss on his shoulder and Kazuha sighs.
“Heizou.” “What?” Kazuha doesn’t look at him but shakes him off. “You know the drill.” “Not my fault you’re sexy.” Kazuha rolls his eyes and puts on his shirt. Heizou lays back down and watches Kazuha look at himself on his phone camera. “I’m not that much of an idiot to give you hickeys at this moment.” Kazuha still doesn’t face him. “You get out of hand sometimes.” “Yeah and you like it.” Silence and Kazuha puts his phone away. He looks around, “Have you see my hair tie?” “No.” Kazuha gets up and looks around. He finds it under the bed and goes to put his hair in its classic ponytail.
Heizou finally sits up and continues to watch him. “Arent you going to get ready?” Kazuha asks him. “Yeah.” Theres silence and Kazuha was ready to leave. “I’m heading out.” “Wait.” Kazuha turns to him. “What is it?” Heizou quickly puts on his shirt and pants before getting off his bed. “We need to talk about this.” “Talk about what?” “You know what.” Heizou motions at the two of them. “I want to stop doing this.” Kazuha let’s out a sigh and scratches his head. “Fine. If that’s what you want.” He starts to walk again but Heizou stops him.
“That’s it? So what? I’m just used for your satisfaction?” Kazuha sighs, “Don’t start this again.” “But I am! Kazuha, I like you! I seriously like you! I don’t want to keep doing this.” Kazuha bit his lip. “I like you too, Heizou, but-“ “But what?! Is it about the media? Who gives two shits about what they think!” Kazuha shakes his head. “No, no, it’s not that.” “Then what?” Heizou walks towards him slowly and grabs his hand. “Please, Kazuha.”
Kazuha finally looks at him and his eyes water. “I can’t do this, Heizou. Im scared.” Heizou places his other hand on his cheek. “Why are you scared?” Kazuha shakes his head. “It’s stupid.” “I can listen.” Kazuha wipes his eyes and sniffles. “I…” He takes a deep breath in. “I had someone and…” Heizous eyes widen and moves his hand away. “Oh. You’re not over them..” Kazuha stays quiet. “I’m sorry.” “No, it’s okay.” Heizou let’s go of him and the two stand, avoiding each others gaze.
“I do like you, Heizou. I just… i just need time.” “How much time? I dont think i can keep waiting.” “I don’t know.” Suddenly, there’s a knock on the door. “Heizou.” It’s Venti. “Time to get up. We’re about to head out. Oh, and tell Kazuha too. I checked his room and he’s not there.” “Okay.” Heizou replies and the boy listen to Ventis footsteps fade away.
Kazuha looks back at him but Heizou turns away. “We need to get ready.” “Yeah..” Kazuha walks out and heads to his room. Once entering, he slides down his door and tears escape him. He covers his face in distraught. “Why am I such an idiot?”
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Hi!
I was wondering how do you elevate or better flesh out a very vague premise (e.g. A man falls in love with his boss). But there are many ways to take vague ideas like this and it’s hard to make it more.
there are really only two paths: the easy, long road; and the hard, fast road. on extremely rare occasion you may hit the jackpot and find an easy, fast road, but in my experience that is like winning the lottery.
the easy, long road:
you write the idea down somewhere. you let it incubate for a really long time. you have faith in the universe that all the pieces will begin to click into place until you go, "i've got it," and start writing.
i call that moment "ignition." when your vague "what am i even trying to write" idea clicks into "wait wait wait, i'm onto something here" and your brain starts churning out ideas for scenes and plot points.
there can be a lot of false starts, where you try to shoehorn your vague idea into another vague idea and see if they make a less vague idea, but sometimes that doesn't work. you may also start working on something else and realize you're unconsciously writing that vague idea you had 3 years ago. but overall it's a passive process. you have to wait for specificity to find you.
the hard, short road:
you write the idea down somewhere. you stare at it until you get a headache, and then you take some ibuprofen and stare at it some more. using the "ignition" metaphor, this is like your car not starting so you just keep turning the engine until it either starts or you flood it.
if you brute force your vague idea, you can potentially ruin it for yourself, but if you're motivated to take this path, i think your first step is to get out a notebook and start brainstorming. if the premise is "a man falls in love with his boss," write a list of industries where they might work. then circle a few of them and start researching those industries to see if you can find a nugget of information that clicks with your idea until you get some kind of conflict churning.
if you can't find anything, you make more lists. list out potential endings, plot points, inciting incidences. character traits and arcs. countries, cities. for every item of every list, make a list of possibilities. if this, then this and this. if that, then that and that. and you go on and on and on until you maybe have enough to get some words down.
an example:
my sister, a copywriter, started doing social media for a welding school. she told me she was learning a lot about welding and that i should write a story about a welding teacher. this school specifically is one of the best in the country, and my sister said something to the effect of, "people come from all over the country to live in this shithole town for six months. that seems like an interesting story."
in my A4 rhodia, on december 19, 2023, i wrote,
story of welding teacher at best welding school in the country
lonely ISTP casey affleck kinda guy (that was my sister's idea; she meant it in a derogatory way)
being taken care of by his grandmother?
all i had was "welder" kind of in the back of my head. fast forward to earlier this month, watching season 3 of the Bad Batch and having a lot of feelings about Crosshair's shakey hands (i've also developed a tremor in my hands).
and then i thought, a welder whose hands begin shaking. that's a conflict, that's an inciting incident. his whole career might be in jeopardy.
i wrote this paragraph:
He'd never admitted to his wife that he wanted kids. They didn’t have any, though, for the same reason he never became a farmer—he didn’t want to raise something just to see it slaughtered. Who knew what kind of war the country would cook up in eighteen years? Turn of the century, sending kids out to god knows where, just the right number of years from Vietnam that everyone would’ve forgotten it, the way that by Vietnam they’d forgotten Korea.
i managed to weave this general idea into the bigger plot of a novel i started a long time ago, and it reignited my interest in that project, and now i'm feeling really good that this 200k monstrosity i thought i would just throw away now might have some potential, more importantly some focus, all because of a vague idea i wrote down months ago.
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ee @ rough trade nottingham
finally getting to my little roundup several days later, hello. i must say going to nottingham was a real Choice for @shallowtboy and i, because it is not actually that convenient and close like liverpool is, and i mostly justified it with “well i went there to see dutch uncles in december so it’d be rude not to”. but we woke up and got on our stupid early train regardless.
went to an art gallery beforehand, found a copy of mark fisher’s capitalist realism in the gift shop — alex niven first read capitalist realism in january 2010, following a “head-on collision with the music industry”, did you know. saw a very cute pin of kraftwerk-style cats and nearly cried also.
when we queued up outside the venue (venue! it was Just A Shop) there were a good few people there already and we were glad we got down there when we did. doors were meant to be at 12, but they ended up letting us in half an hour later for some reason, which meant by the time we got in we had descended into some cold-induced madness that manifested in us humming the mad stone and bobbing up and down oompa loompa-style to keep warm for just. SO long. this bit would not cease.
we got in, and we weren’t Right at the front but we were close enough, and there was no barrier aside from the flightcases dumped on the ground, and i had to prepare myself for being waaay too close to jonathan higgs. which i WAS. i believe it was albie on here who said that if you’re in the first two rows at any of these shows you will end up making eye contact with this man, and yeah, that only gets truer if he already sorta knows who you are. EMBARRASSING.
it was a good show — not as rowdy and sweaty as liverpool, but what can you expect from a show at midday on a weekday, really. they played teletype at this one(!!! it’s not on my Playlist for nothing), and pizza boy, and i had a bottle of pepsi in my bag and turned to shallowtboy and took a big swig of it at the right moment because really i come to these gigs to have my own incomprehensible kind of fun with my best friend, and it was Funny. only then in the next chorus jon sang “you are afraid / that you’re a pepsi boy” which i did not really register until After, when shallowtboy pointed it out, and i had to contend with the fact jonathan higgs may well have seen me drinking my pepsi (i was about six feet away from him, he probably did,) and decided to make a thing of it. good god. gender win 🤷♂️
after the show it was signing time and we all verrry slowly shuffled out into a sort of queue. i took a photo of alex’s pedalboard on the way out, and said “i don’t know why i’m doing this, it’s not as if i know what any of these do”, and their guitar tech (who i have been mentally referring to as Clayton for various reasons, but i believe is actually called joe) overheard and went “neither do i, hah” and then i started chatting to him about what a shame it was that alex didn’t bring his little modular setup on tour this time round, and he told me all about pete’s ableton routing, and it was VERY FUN thank you claytonjoe for engaging with me. pls don’t find out i’m a massive gear poser.
SPEAKING OF— actual signing time. my rubiks cube was in my bag and i was NOT going to leave without it being signed. i managed to somehow barely interact with jon (cursing myself forever that i did not get to ask about the pepsi incident) but they all seemed fairly unsurprised by being asked to sign a rubiks cube, and all wrote their signatures very neatly in one of the little squares, minus jeremy for some reason. and Then.
i was wearing this shirt with the names of two modular synth brands smushed together, based on ONE decade-old post from this one forum that i had decided was the funniest thing in the world, yet another incomprehensible bit i am doing with myself, really, only turns out it’s the modular synth brands alex robertshaw uses the most. it came up on that podcast he did the other day. it was a real “oh for fucks sake” moment. so i showed him my shirt, and told him as much, and i expected there to be QUESTIONS about why the hell this shirt would exist, but he just thought it was great. (jeremy also approved, and said he saw me wearing it in liverpool. i did not interact with jeremy in liverpool. i was not even standing NEAR jeremy in liverpool.) alex then asked if he could take a photo to send to the guy he did the podcast with. YEAH OKAY SURE WHY WOULDN’T THIS NONSENSE BE HAPPENING TO ME. but he didn’t have his phone with him, i guess?? so he had to borrow mike’s phone???? so there’s a picture of me on mike spearman’s phone, i guess. hope the synth podcast guy did see it in the end.
writing this all out really does make it sound about twenty times more bizarre than it felt at the time. i love this ridiculous weirdo band. /\
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Ciel's Past Bring Trouble
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Request: how about.. ciel and luke bond? idk if they will bond but- i just imagine ciel and luke small talking and it went awkward thats all i can think of lol AND I have been loving the obey me x black butler crossover, and I propose bringing in Undertaker (not because I love him or anything) but perhaps also Claude and Alois? Maybe the reader could have an interesting history with the demon. Maybe the reader managed to hide a pact mark they had when they first got there? But the pact mark looks messed up like they managed to sever it? So now everyone knows MC has had experience with this but ALSO that they know how to sever a pact. Just an idea!
Black Butler/Obey Me Crossover <- Masterlist
You had expected a little more of a disruption when Ciel joined the school but it seemed like the demons had learned their lesson from the antics that ensued when you and Solomon joined. Ciel had been seen around Devildom before he joined the school and saw the power that the demon he called his butler possessed, Sebastian was not nearly as strong as the demon brothers but he was much stronger than any of the other lower demons that you shared the school with.
You hadn’t really been paying attention so you didn’t see Luke walk up to your table, you smiled at him when you realised that he was there “Hey.” You smiled as he put a tupperware box on your table “you made these?” “Mmhm.” He hummed a bright smile on his face as you opened the box to find six cupcakes in there. “For me?” You asked. “Of course.” He grinned and you reached in taking one out, you took a bite and hummed in satisfaction. “These are great.” You complimented him, your eyes catching Ciel across the room, he was sitting alone, like he did most of the time almost like he was accustomed to doing so, as if being disconnected was where he was most comfortable. That being said it seemed like he was missing people, like he was looking for them for a second before he realised that they weren’t there anymore so you called out “Ciel!” He turned to look at you before you gestured for him to come over, he frowned for a moment before standing and walking over, the fact that he had even answered you in first place you would later realised was proof that he considered you equal to him and worth his time (after all he acted as if half the brother’s don’t even exist). “Yes?” He asked when he was close enough. “Here, try one of these.” You offered him one of the cupcakes, he took it before looking at Luke, he took a bite and he seemed to be thinking about something before his gaze turned back to Luke again. “You made this?” Ciel asked. “Yes.” He answered with a firm nod and just as firm a frown, you smiled at how cute he actually looked, not that you were allowed to actually say that lest you want to start an argument that you would never win. “Shame that we never had someone like you around when I was alive.” Ciel said and though it was hard to see there was a compliment in there. “You liked it?” You asked. “You have a sweet tooth?” “I liked sweets when I was alive, I haven’t had anyone around that could make them for a long time.” Ciel explained. “What about Sebastian, he seemed very good at making cakes back at the contest.” Luke frowned. “Mmm well as capable as Sebastian is, he is just as cunning, he is no friend to me, he’s here because I owe him something.” Ciel answered off handedly and you frowned. “I thought he was your butler.” Luke said. “He is but only by contract, a deal made while I was still alive, it stopped him from getting the soul that he wanted so he connected to me forever now.” Ciel explained. “You made a contract with a demon?” You asked. “You say that as if you haven’t.” He said as he looked at you and you shook your head. “You did it for a different reason, your relationship is different then mine and the brothers.” You explained. “Mm.” He hummed sensing that he didn’t want to talk about it anymore, you looked at Luke. “Well what about some friends down here, it can get lonely down here, being away from home.” You explained, Luke nodded but he didn’t say anything more. “And you two will be my friends?” He asked. “No need to be rude.” Luke frowned. “I’m not, there was a time where I thought all I needed was Sebastian and some disposable bodies, I later learned that I needed far more than that but it was too late to get that from the people I would trust to.” Ciel explained “so if you are offering friendship I would be inclined to take it.” “Really?” You both asked at the same time, Luke scratching the back of his head as he realised the surprised look on Ciel’s face. “You expected that I won’t accept?” Ciel asked. “Well you’ve not really given us much reason to believe that you’d want to be our friend.” You shrugged “but we’re glad that you do.” “Maybe the brothers will leave me alone for once.” Luke mumbled. “We-”
“Ciel!” The way that his name was drawn out seemed to disturb him but the shrill nature caused you to flinch. “What in Devildom is that?” You asked as you looked at the door leading into the classroom, where a boy with blonde hair stood, he smirked as his eyes connected with yours “no seriously what is that?” “Alois.” Ciel glared at the male. “You remember me so we were friends!” He cheered, clapping his hands together, you looked at him, Alois jogged across the room budging Luke out of the way, you easily caught the boy before any damage could be done before pulling him behind you. “Hey asshole!” You yelled, Alois turned to you with a smirk on his face. “That’s not my name.” He said as if giving you the chance to change your attitude. “I don’t know your name, so I go with that based on current evidence.” You grumbled, if you hadn’t been around the brothers so long you might not have been able to dodge the strike from the boy but you did, using it to put yourself closer to Ciel moving Luke with you. “Are you going to introduce yourself or just keep trying to hit me?” “Alois Trancy, take her Claude!” Alois called, the hand that latched around your throat as you pressed up against the wall on the other side of the room. “You were promised to me a long time ago.” The voice of the demon Claude made it to your ear “you remember me don’t you?” Before you could answer he was knocked away from you rather roughly, catching sight of the black wings that belonged to the oldest of the fallen angels. “Are you okay?” Lucifer asked. “I… Am.” You answered after taking a breath. “Mammon.” Lucifer called, someone wrapped their arms around you pulling you back away from the oldest brother. “I told ya to stay outta trouble.” Mammon mumbled before passing you behind him to Beel where he and Belphie protected you, Ciel and Luke. The surge or power must have called the others because only seconds later was Solomon and Simeon at the door of the classroom. “Hey Lucifer, who's this squirt?” Mammon asked, holding Alois by his collar. “A spoiled brat.” Lucifer answered. “Get rid of him.”
“Now now, I think everyone needs to calm down.” The voice sounded almost as if it’s owner was trying to hold in a laugh. “Undertaker.” Ciel muttered. “What business do you have here?” “The Seven Demon Lords, The Strongest Sorcerer, The Angels and The Greatest Demon Deal Makers all in the same place at the same time, how could anyone miss this?” The Undertakers answered. “Who is this?” You asked, pointing at the man dressing in black with bangs covering his eyes completely. “He’s another Reaper, one who was forced to leave the fold.” Ciel answered. “Why?” You asked. “He has a problem with rules.” Ciel answered. “They’re no fun.” The Undertaker waved off Ciel’s statement “but you’ll be glad to know that in my adventures bending the rules I can end this feud before anyone gets killed.” “Speak Reaper, quickly.” You jumped at the sound of Diavolo’s voice, you hadn’t noticed him come in but his presence was commanding even without the demon form that all of the brothers had taken, he was taking with his seven generals all ready to go to war for a human that offers them nothing but love and friendship. “The deal that the spider demon made with the girl’s ancestors is one that corrodes over time, he’s taken the first child over centuries, seven centuries one for each brother that left the heavens but the deal was made between him and the big man upstairs as punishment for the deal that you made to save your sister.” The Undertaker knocked his head towards the oldest brother. “The birthmark on you (B/P) is proof of this deal.” “How does that stop me from allowing the brothers to wipe him and his spoiled brat from this realm?” Diavolo asked. “Patiences young lord, the pacts that they’ve made with the brothers, have weakened the deal. You see the demon brothers are far stronger than the spider demon, essentially they do not belong to him anymore, the deal is broken as he will never be able to claim they’re soul, well unless he can kill every one of The Demon Lords or you order them to hand her over.” “I see.” Diavolo said as he looked over at the spider demon. “Leave.” He ordered “and take the human soul with you.” “Human soul?” You asked. “That one died a long time ago, he’s persistent it would seem and while he was the master once, I believe the roles have reversed and now he is bound to this demon until he dies.” Diavolo explained. “He was not pleasant while he was alive. I believe this is the punishment for his actions.” “Alois.” Claude ordered. “Coming!” Alois said cheerfully as he followed after him once Mammon dropped him. “You can’t make him let him go?” You asked. “Unfortunately there are things that even I can’t change, that human needs to have a purpose even if that means being used and that demon is spiteful, he always has been.” Diavolo explained. “For now we will concentrate on keeping the lot of you safe, I doubt that they will go after Luke but you and Ciel will be targets should they come back.” “They will come back.” Sebastian spoke. “How do you know that?” Diavolo asked. “It’s what I would do.” Sebastian answered as he watched the direction that Claude had left in, he had no loyalty to you or the brothers that protected you and yet somehow felt that he should help you, much like Ciel he had been wondering for a long time, maybe it was time to become a part of something again, live somewhere they could both be safe.
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Anyone who tells a queer person "Just Move to a Better State" doesn't get it.
So, as some of you know I've got an account on Bluesky, one of the social media websites that arose from the ashes after Elon Musk completely fucked up Twitter beyond how fucked it was even on it's worst day.
Recently I shared this article, hoping to spread some good news to my fellow members of the LGBTQA+ community:
And some smarmy jackass replied with this:
Yeah... anyone who says this is an asshole who doesn't get the realities of these situations.
I grew up in Kentucky. Yes, the state where Mitch "the Lich" McConnell was spawned (we're trying to get rid of him but that asshole hid his phylactery really good okay?) As some of you might guess, my own home state has issues with people who try to push these sorts of laws.
I've been told by others, in the past, to just move to a better state.
I tried it once infact, I moved from the Cincinnati Metropolitan Area (I lived right on the border between Ohio and Kentucky at the time) to another city where I was going to live with a gay couple I met online who were friends with my, at the time, partner.
... you probably see where this is going already, but I'll continue.
The city definitely had a good LGBTQA+ presence, but here's the thing. I stayed there only six months before all but fleeing back to Kentucky.
Why?
Several reasons.
NOBODY wanted to hire "the new kid in town." I had a horrible time finding a job that would satisfy my roommate. They knew I had only worked retail in the past and, at the time, had no college under my belt at all. I tried getting jobs in multiple places. I tried getting hired on as a 911 operator, at several higher end stores, and such. You know where I wound up working? A shitty little Circle K station. It was the ONLY place that would hire me and paid a pittance. I could barely help with bills at all.
My roommate was a judgemental asshole. To quote Sir Terry Pratchett, "Just because someone is part of a minority doesn't mean they can't also be a small minded prick." One of my roommates judged me for EVERYTHING. Nothing I did was good enough, and if he found out something he didn't like he would hang it over my head and never stop giving me shit for it. I hated it. I hated it within weeks of arriving but I didn't want to leave because that would be 'admitting defeat' or some bullshit (it was ten years ago, I forget exactly how I justified it.)
I had to give up all the friends and family I had in the move. The part of the country I moved to was a place that I had never been before. I had no friends there, I had no family there. All I had to rely on was my two roommates. One of them clearly didn't want an extra roommate but went along with it because his boyfriend wanted it (I feel bad for him these days,) the other one... see item 2. This also leads into item four...
Because I had no friends and family there, I had no safety net. Asshole roommate constantly reminded me if I didn't get a 'better job' (and good luck to me on that given the circumstances) I'd be out on my ass, in a totally unfamiliar city. I had no help there besides them and he knew it, and he held that over me every chance he got.
Finally, after six months, I managed to move back in with my mother in Kentucky. This story does have a happy ending though. I wound up splitting up with my at the time partner (who in hindsight really wasn't a good match for me, though I hear they're doing much better these days,) and it was the wake up call I needed to get some college education. That didn't go great, but having even partial college on a resume helped me get a job that was far FAR better than retail work which I've held for over five years now.
I realized too that while Kentucky isn't great on progressiveness as a whole... the part of the state I'm from actually is. We're part of the Cincinnati Metropolitan Area (which basically means "if it wasn't for state lines we'd just be part of Cincinnati") and there's actually a really big LGBTQA+ community around here. These days I see Pride bumper stickers everywhere, and there's several houses nearby with Pride flags as well.
In Kentucky. Yes, that Kentucky.
But my point is... even assuming a person CAN move, it doesn't mean that it'll fix everything. In my case those six months were absolutely hellish despite living with a queer couple in a major city. My life only improved AFTER I moved back to Deep-in-the-Red-State Kentucky. Because the part I'm in has a good community, I have friends and family who support me, I have a good job here, and I have a good life here in spite of what some idiot in the state capitol is up to.
In closing, I have this to say: If you hear someone talking about queer issues in their home state and your first instinct is to tell them to just move to California or New York or some other state... just shut the hell up.
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HI KORY !! omg i was so ready to write you & atsumu n then i saw you asked for oliver instead ?😭 i fear you have a type. ANYWAY you and oliver ? friends w benefits. sexual or non sexual it doesn’t matter because the two of you refuse to put a label on ANYTHING. we all know oliver is a fuck boy so it only makes sense he’d prefer to keep his options open. don’t worry though kory because you whipped this man into shape; i feel like you were more than fine with being fwb. in fact you were a little too fine, seeing other guys (like atsumu) just as oliver did with other girls. often times you’d turn down link ups with oliver in order to meet up w someone else. he felt insulted; he was so used to having options but being one ?? hell no. it was when he realized he didn’t like you flirting with other men the way you did with him that he came to the conclusion he had to put a ring on it & make you his immediately.
Q1 — HOW DID YOU FIRST MEET ?
(highschool au) at a soccer match ! oliver plays for your school team and one of you girl friends had managed to secure front row tickets & made it their mission to drag you along. you weren’t really into soccer, you knew nothing about the sport and yet your friends were surprised to find you watching the game with razor sharp focus. thing is, the whole time your eyes weren’t actually on the match, they were focused on a certain no. 2 playing defense. you two had locked eyes at the beginning when the players were just walking out, and it was then you took notice of his different colored eyes. you thought they were cool, and kept your eyes on him, trying to get a better glimpse of them. eventually you two locked eyes again, but this time the soccer player flashed you a smug grin, the kind that said ‘you like what you see ?’. you made a foul face in return but the player only seemed to laughed in response, jogging to his position on the field.
when the match is over, your school’s team wins so the players are hyped up by the crowd. students, as well as the players, begin to leave the stadium, chanting praises and the school’s motto. as you’re leaving, you bump into the familiar number 2 who greets you with that same smug grin. “so ? how’d i do ?”
“terrible, you didn’t score a single goal.” you say with bitten lips, doing your best to suppress a giggle.
“aw cmon, cut me some slack. i’m a defender after all.”
“six point five out of ten. take it or leave it.”
“you wound me,” he says with a grin, his arm brushing against yours as you walk out. you’re about to speak again but another player calls out his name. oliver. you didn’t think it was fitting, but a part of you thought the contrast was charming.
“so your name’s oliver.” it’s a question but you say it more like a statement.
“the one and only. and you’re kory, right ?”
you frown. “how did you—?”
“see you later kory !” when you turn to look at him he’s already jogging away to the rest of the team. a part of you is still slightly confused, but you’d be lying if you said your cheeks didn’t heat up when he said your name.
(between you & me, he knew your name because he’d seen you in the halls & thought you were fine as hell, and basically asked around till he got an answer. this man has been plotting on you since day one but you didn’t hear that from me 🤞)
Q5 — WHAT DO OTHERS THINK OF YOUR RELATIONSHIP?
• your girl friends probably hate his guts 🧍♂️ when you and aiku were just fwbs they stayed pretty out of it (even after you let them in on the secret) but now that you two are dating ? yeah you don’t get to rest. you know how people say relationships don’t work when third parties are involved ? it’s the case here. aiku could be a changed man and be the most loyal boyfriend ever and your friends would still be on his case. they think he’s not good for you and you could do better, even though you’ve told them many a time that every thing is fine. it’s annoying sometimes but you remind yourself that it’s all from a place of love; at the end of the day, they just don’t want you getting cheated on.
• karasu and otoya bet on how long your relationship would last 😭 not because they think aiku’s gonna cheat this time, no. it’s because they’re convinced that for some reason, you’re gonna be the first girl to ever break his heart. it’s something karasu mentions one day in passing, and otoya doubles down on it because for some reason it just makes sense. every new school week karasu is convinced that week is ‘the week’ and the bet money is increased by a 1000yen. the stakes are 11000 yen now and you two still haven’t broken up💯
Q3 — WHAT DO THEY LOVE MOST ABOUT YOU ?
how bold you are. aiku is used to having to make the first move in terms of physical affection but he’d be lying if he said he’s never wanted to be on the receiving end. you’re flirty and straight to the point : you want a kiss ? you tug his face down to your level and press his lips against yours. feel like sitting on his lap ? you go ahead and do so, regardless of who’s around. he thinks it’s so attractive ; he’s tired of shy girls who turn into a blushing mess just from him saying their names. he loves how stubborn you are as well. you always make what you want very clear to him, and you have absolutely no problem putting him in his place if he acts up. with you, oliver is on his best behavior. he knows that if he so much as disrespects you by liking another girl’s instagram posts or anything of that sort, you’ll leave him without looking back. you love aiku but your love for him will never beat your self respect, and frankly he thinks that makes you infinitely more attractive <3
#KORIVER CORE !
>> 𝐌𝐀𝐈𝐍 𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐓 <<
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Rating Hermits by their Skins of Undress
My judgement is based on the following:
1 - the subject's enthusiasm 2 - the level of undress, and 3 - my own personal bias. A lot of Bias. Do not take this as any form of an official ranking.
I also am very sure that I haven't seen all the skins that might apply to this criteria, and... maybe if there's a lot of people interested, I'd run a formal tournament. Maybe. But for now, here's a ranking that's sat in my notes app for over a year!
7 - WormMan
Viscerally unpleasant. It may be a skin-tight suit with the ass missing, but- well actually, that's the entire sentence. That's all I have to say on this.
6 - RenTheDog
While, browsing NameMc, I have found multiple instances of Ren wearing less-than-clothed skins. They mostly seem to be plastered to the comical extremes, with bulging muscles and colorful garb, almost akin to a blow-up-muscle suit. While I commend the enthusiasm (... and haven't seen the context) it feels a bit comical. It may be delightful, but it is playing up the state of undress for humor.
Ren has committed to a bit, but unfortunately, it is not just the bit I'm looking for right now.
5 - Mumbo
While Mumbo was adventurous, his state of undress was less a matter of will and more of a matter of poverty. He sold his suit for 64 diamonds, and therefore isn't in this competition for the right reasons. His general disposition seemed slightly more embarrassed during this, the state of undress only transactional.
Mumbo simply looks uncomfortable like this. It invokes the feeling of needing to give him a spare robe, and a warm cup of coca. Have all my diamonds, little man, your heart's not into this.
4 - Bdubs
An old classic. Bdubs is IN the zone. His shirt is off and he is living life to the fullest. It's not the most skin shown, but he makes up for it with wearing it well, and confidence.
3 - Scar
While Scar is enthusiastic with his states of undress, often taking off his chestplate to show off, it is not the most extreme example. He manages to strike the balance of enthusiasm and undress in a way that is winning my heart, but not my top spot.
(side note: I tried to find the original creator of the pro-scitties meme, but due to time and it being reposted so often, I could not. My apologies.)
2 - Docm77
Doc has been baring his chest for years, and has no plans of stopping. His state of undress is almost never brought to light, and is instead in an admirable state of casualty that warms the heart. He's worn more scantily clad skins - but I've chosen this one for its classic nature, and also the labcoat that is parted tastefully. It says, "I could show more, but why should I?" Keep on, Doc. Keep on.
1 - ImpulseSV
Impulse literally co-hosts a game called Naked and Scared that has run for twenty-six seasons. Not only is he seemingly enthusiastic about his state of undress, but he's extreme in it, wearing only a pair of tighty-whities. His undress is a special event, but it is also a frequent and common one. I believe with my entire heart he has earned his top place.
Bonus: Skizzleman
While Skizz isn't an official Hermit, I feel he deserves to share the top spot with his homiebuddeh. He is In the zone. There is no shame in his eyes. He hasn't showered in 5 years by self-attestation and he owns it perhaps too proudly.
#milo's rambles#hermitcraft#suggestive#<- not really but to be safe LMAO#i've had this brewing for so long and i finally went “okay okay fine i'll do it”
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