#in my defense !!!
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alright team. i'm back at a truly blank page for the first time in a almost two years. what's that sound? oh, it's the looming existential dread that i've completely forgotten how to write. which, to be fair, i really may have. but we shall persevere etc., etc.
editing to add: also, a girl needs to refill her creative well so gimme all the best books you've read lately (or in the last two years; it's been rough y'all)
#in my defense#i wrote a book#revised that book#got an agent#revised that book a bunch more#had a baby#shattered the ever living shit out of my ankle#and am now (re)learning how to walk at the same time my baby is#circumstances have not been ideal! (for writing)#the ankle part has also not been ideal#baby part is great though#but also time consuming hence the lack of writing#all of which is to say:#hi#i'm not exactly around but i'm also a little bit around#and i'm trying to get back into the swing of things#currently working on original fiction#but tbh i'm desperate for a fic idea to grab me by the throat and squeeze
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#yes im posting a screenshot of my own post#BUT#in my defense#my husband told me to do it#so i had no choice
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I'm back on my bullshit. Aeorian wizard kisses!
#a propos aeor. i am so excited for Downfall!!#i can't believe that it's the first time i draw them *actually* kissing#in my defense#it's difficult to draw#caleb widogast#essek thelyss#shadowgast#the mighty nein#critical role#critical role campaign 2#cr2 fanart#cr2#also something something something this one post that said#that essek has to constantly hide from BH that he made out with his partner against every wall in aeor#id in alt text#my art
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I really like all the theories here and mostly agree, but I'd like to raise you another one to add.
Throughout Alien Stage, we've seen the ones in love speak of the one they love as their god or a celestial body. It's pure poetry to speak of how loving someone makes them become so dear and high to you that you, in a way, worship them and would do anything for their happiness and provision, how the greatness of a distant star/sun or planet in space is so grand and admirable.
"Ruler of My Heart" was a song dedicated to Hyun-A. He wants Hyun-A to love him like that. He wants to be her #1 everything because the only form of love/care/protection he knows is control. Multiple times he claims her as his or asks her to be his. That is the society/mentality he grew up with.
Hyun-A means everything to Luka (that or she's second to his perfectionism, which I believe stems from having her slip out of his hands as well as the things she's said to him concerning the love she has of singing, so ultimately she is the everything). Eternally beautiful she is to him. No matter how many years pass, she is the one he holds dearest (and he's been possessive of her for decades). In the song, he speaks of that and more. When he looks into her eyes, he sees the whole world because she is his entire world. He tells her to let him take it all away. He wants to hold her fears and pains and worries, and it comes out as wanting to control it/take it away because that's a very core thing with him. So why, if he wants to be the god and have all the control, does he call her the ruler of his heart? Because everything him revolves around anything he can get of her. (Side note: the second lyrics I can make many theories on, but that's not the point of this reply/the original post so I won't.)
To the aliens he sings before, the song may seem like an elegant proposal that is sure to make a fan base go wild. He is trying to be a god, larger than life as you say, and is confirmed to mask heavily on an almost 24/7 basis. Religious/otherworldly symbolism and he are not lost on me. He's an angel, a "Prince" among humans and loved for the glow he excludes, nobody meant to ever suspect it is all an act.
But Luka is also a blank slate and the tinted glass you speak of. Idols are often used as a projection of someone's desires. You're not far off for pointing it out, and it's a point I don't see very often in the fandom. He is like a filter to see what you want or need to see (which further connects to the savior/god symbolism I've been slavering over for weeks). So pretty and superficial and pleasing...but the tinted glass didn't ask to be this way or choose it's colors. It's like this because that's how the ones around it created it to be said it needed to be. It breaks and becomes nothing more than a splinter hazard when they chose to have it so. Of course it will do its best to glitter and shine bright. Of course it will be the most beautiful glass around. The moment something a prettier color appears, it may be broken/removed and replaced.
A few Luka thoughts because I'm insane
The reason so many characters see their lovers and those they miss in Luka is for two reasons. 1. He tries to be the idol, someone's god, something larger than life outside of the cage for his illusion of freedom. It's all a desperate attempt to conceal the fact he has a god himself and is just as vulnerable as any mortal, as any human who has the potential to feel. (Part of my thoughts on how Ruler of My Heart reflects Luka, which I'll probably reflect on later, albeit it's primarily because of the infamous line "Make me your god--I can give you everything!") The divinity he manifests reminds those of who they worshipped in their tumultuous mind and brings them a feigned promise of salvation.
OR, MORE LIKELY;
2. Luka is a blank slate. He is whatever they tell him to be, he is what he is required to be and nothing more. That's why his aesthetic is merely the picture of elegance and nothing more, just pure white and gold. Blank. Nothing, no emotion, only what you want to see. Just what you wish you see. It's all a game, he does what is needed to survive. While I'm not a believer in the idea that Luka did that weird hallucinations thing in Round 5 on purpose, I'm mostly definitely a believer in the idea that that's just the effect Luka has on people. He's PERFECTION. Perfection how you want it, when you want it.
Luka is like iridescent or tinted glass. The light he projects changes from your perspective, as to what it needs to be to abide by the laws of light and physics. However, it's distinctively a bit different from the light that enters, namely a bit shinier and prettier. But you don't care because it's pretty, after all. But at the end of the day, i's thin glass with only a little change to it. It can be shattered at any moment and can only shine with light. But it's pretty, right?
#Alnst#Alien stage#Alnst Luka#Luka alnst#Alien stage theory#Alnst theory#mirr rambles#yapping about Luka part five#I can't believe my lack of self-control when it comes to this man#IN MY DEFENSE#i finally found someone who isn't blindly and emptionally judging him#civil conversation is much appreciated#gods I'm so happy i found this blog#i will scream about his perfectionist complex and control issues and emotional repression for days bro I'm just getting started
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My disappointment was immeasurable when i realized there was a canon humanformers TF:Animated episode, and the human designs were just this:
THIS WAS SUCH A MISSED OPPORTUNITY! THEY ARE SO BORING! So i took it upon myself to redraw it. 😌
I know Prowl wasn���t in this scene, but i wanted an excuse to draw him anyway. He’s silly and i love him.
I tried to push the scale a little bit too, because i imagine the team would be feeling pretty small in a medbay built for cybertronians. Imagine Ratchet is standing on something out of the shot.
#transformers#transformers animated#tfa ratchet#tfa bumblebee#tfa optimus prime#tfa bulkhead#tfa prowl#maccadam#rae art#screenshot redraw#humanformers#will i ever stop drawing them as humans? no#its fun#i love how i drew on first responders for everyone except bee#firefighter! emt! swat officer! motorcop! and the skater boy!#in my defense#bee’s alt mode stands out from the rest#the others have a very clear role while bee’s alt is just the police chief’s personal car
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Bruh
#i know#it's late#in my defense#i was too lazy to posts there#thats a lie btw#i just forgot#infinity train#infinity train fanart#infinity train book 4#ryan akagi#min gi park#rymin#infinity train book 4 fanart#infinity train ryan#infinity train min gi#ryan infinity train#min gi infinity train#my art#fan art
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I truly am out here asking myself "wow, why am I getting so fat all of a sudden?" when this is how I look 90% of the time
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LOSER!!!
Everyone let’s thank @theelmoarchive for showing me this series
#and also for making me stop calling the operator slenderman#in my defense#uhh#yeah#jay marble hornets#jay merrick#marble hornets fanart#marble hornets#he’s such a loser#pointing and laughing#my art
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me when fated soulmates
#get ready for so many tags#zolu#kagehina#bokuaka#shuggy#asanoya#lestappen#galex#literally so many others#i just love narrative foils#doomed by the narrative is OUT#gently crafted together for each other by the narrative is IN#ineffable husbands#THE NARRATIVE#I FORGOT SATOSUGU#satosugu#in my defense#i havent slept
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Le génie du mal by Guillaume Geefs, 1848.
Max Verstappen in Melbourne, 2024.
#in my defense#going thru a lot#max verstappen#the devil from the Bible#red bull racing#australia gp 2024#f1 edit#kit posts#religious imagery#🥀#check pinned if u enjoy these I make them out of love and not much else . help is rlly appreciated rn🌷#🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
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Hey! So, it's been a while, but I finally remembered to come back to this! But, it's not gonna go the way you'd think.
If Danny had it his way, he'd be at his Aunt Alicia's house for the summer instead of New Jersey. This place is gloomy, grimy, and soaked through with so much crime that it's a Problem(TM). Like, seriously? New Jersey hasn't allowed the death penalty since he was seven, but can't they make, like, one exception? Get rid of The Joker and half of Gotham's problems are solved.
Unfortunately, he's only here as a guest, so he can't really do anything. Which, for the record, is a shit rule. Call a goose and goose, and that's exactly what Gotham City, New Jersey is.
It isn't all that bad, he supposes. Sure, the pollution blocks out the entire sky at all times, the buildings that aren't condemned are only feeding the rich while stealing from the poor, an entire twenty-four block are has been given up on by mostly everyone, the local vigilantes won't kill the recurring problems like the cockroaches they are- There was a good point to all this.
Oh! He has family here. That's it. That's the only silver lining, and it's bronze.
But, hey, it can't be that bad. From what he understands, his half-brother and company don't actually live in Gotham. Bristol, according to Talia is technically outside of Gotham City Limits, but is still considered as part of the city. Makes sense, aside from the fact that there's no bridge between Bristol and Gotham. Weird design, but he's not rich so he's not really inclined to care or understand.
Half brother, right.
Danny doesn't like Damian much, but that's because he's a clone...of Damian. Danny's a clone of Damian, not the other way around. Ra's makes that very clear
The only reason Talia wants him with Damian is because she's upset with Bruce Wayne. What is it with divorced parents and putting their kids on the middle of their fights? Or maybe that's just Talia?
Anyway.
Gotham, New Jersey is a dismal place. Danny's not germophobic by any means, he can't really afford to be, but even he's having a hard time being in the city.
It was so much easier hiding out with the Fentons.
Well, 'hiding' is a subjective term. Ra's and Talia knew where he was, so did Deathstroke, probably, but that was it.
Essentially, everyone he should be hiding from knows where he's been hiding, which means he's just been on some kind of twisted, extended vacation.
As far as Danny knew, Bruce Wayne had no idea he was coming. Damian knew because Talia had wanted him to pick Danny up from the airport. Weird because while Damian is technically older, Danny is still legally two years older.
Well, 'legally' is a stretch. He doesn't technically exist, outside of the LoA and Amity Park.
The point is that Damian is waiting for him at the end of the terminal, looking as much like an excited puppy as he can, with an older gentleman. Talia had given him nothing to work with, but Danny didn't really care who this guy was as long as he didn't try to make him do anything he didn't want to.
...living in the Midwest was doing wonders for his mental stability, but Ancients was it making him soft!
"'Danny', I presume?" the old man asked, his accent heavy.
Good, so Talia did give Damian his actual name. "Yep. You are?" He may not want to be here, but he still knows his manners. Even if he's only going to use the bare minimum of them. Malicious Compliance and all that.
"Alfred Pennyworth, the family butler." He didn't extend his hand to shake. Danny didn't mind. In fact, he actually preferred that.
Okay, so maybe he's a little bit haphephobic. Leave him alone!
"Danny," Damian greeted, a smile of excitement in his voice but not his face, "It's good to have you here. How did Mother convince you to come?"
"Bribery." Mostly.
Damian seemed to deflate a bit. "Father and the others don't know you're here."
"Do they even know about me at all?"
"No."
"Perfect! Then I can stay at a hotel-"
"For the entire summer?" Alfred raised his eyebrow, "I must insist that you stay at Wayne Manor while in Gotham. Master Bruce will most pleased to meet you."
"Why?" Danny scoffed, "I'm not his kid, nor do I want to be."
Damian slouched a little bit more. "Come, we must get back before the others send out a search party for us."
"Dramatic much?" Danny scoffed.
"Not at all," Alfred took both of Danny's bags before leading the way out to the car, "It' happened before in less time."
"I don't doubt it for a second. I'm calling Bruce a dramatic bitch."
Alfred smirked ever so slightly. "Quite right, Master Danny."
"Don't call me that."
"Alright then, what should I call you?"
"'Danny'. No honorifics, no add ons, no trying to fullname me, nothing else."
"And when you go out with the rest of the family?"
He scoffed again. "You really think they'd let me go out with them? I'm an assassin. In fact, the first thing I'll do the second I'm let out of the house is kill the clown bastard."
Damian rested his hand on Danny's arm. "They let me out with them and I tried to kill Drake. As long as you uphold a promise not to kill anyone, you'll be allowed to patrol with us."
They reached the car, Damian sat behind the driver while Danny sat behind the passenger. Alfred put the bags in the trunk. "So? What will you be called on patrol?"
Danny rolled his eyes, popping his headphones in and not looking away from the window. "Respawn."
Storyboard
#Stuck Here With Him#part 1#dc x dp#danny phantom#dcu#batman#robin#gotham#no ships#new story alert!#in my defense#this one's been sitting in my drafts for a while#don't ask specifics#just trust the process#this one is also not being added to my WIP counter#i only know Respawn as a footnote from several months ago#hang on while i write him completely wrong#i'm gonna write damian wrong as well#probably#let me cook#danny is respawn#damian wayne#danny fenton#demon twins#but they're not actually twins#demon half brothers just doesn't have the same ring to it#hi alfred!
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Just saying your art changed my brain chemistry
Also for a request…. Sailer moon loop?(if you’ve done that then knight loop)
Awe!! Thats so sweet! Thank you!! Awwe!!!
Here’s sailor moop <33
Textless version and spoilers down here! Watch out! Scary!!
This is a lot funnier if you’ve done the loop hangout
#OPeachii#isat loop#in stars and time#sailor moon#i may have. gotten a bit carried away.#in my defense#i needed a banner
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more lady ragatha x maid pomni au !!! pomni is staring and of course ragatha notices ...how silly
#pomni x ragatha#buttonblossom#jesterdoll#ragapom#tadc fanart#tadc pomni#pomni#the amazing digital circus#pomni fanart#tadc ragatha#ragatha tadc#ragatha x pomni#ragatha#the amazing digital circus ragatha#pomatha#the amazing digital circus pomni#lady ragatha x maid pomni au#more au stuff#in my defense#i like aus
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really excited abt the prospect of putting him in a tube for further study
this was a freeform prompt for @ rinrintheblob on twt via @hkvthm-action !!
#kaveh#progenitor kaveh#genshin kaveh#kaveh genshin#im kinda late on the craze tbh#in my defense#i am busy. and slow also#i needed to take my time en-tubing him#my art
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@lgbtqcreators creator bingo ㅡ black & white
do you picture me like I picture you? am i in the frame from your point of view?
#gifs*#gfx*#wlwgif#wlwedit#thasmin#doctor who#dwedit#usergif#timelordgifs#dwgif#filmtvtoday#userkimchi#jemmablossom#useraurore#alielook#userraffa#usertreena#userhella#userriel#userpegs#userdanahscott#userbuckleys#useraljoscha#usermagic#userrainbow#usergiu#usersen#tw flashing#in my defense#this looked a lot better in my head lmaoo
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me, forgetting the word "yolk": the egg yellows
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