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for someone that finds it so difficult to connect with peers, its a cruel circumstance to be deprived of any productive familial relationship
#no father a broken mother grandparents who despise us mentally unwell uncles estranged cousins abusive aunts#a lifetime of hurtfully ended friendships#and im crying today after wasting a whole day just because i have nothing that can end this pain because#my mother will always prioritise abusive men and her abusive parents over me and i cant fix her#and i hate her for it. i have so much anger inside me#but she is the only one who has ever claimed to love me#and i will never get another family. ill never have more parents. ill never get my childhood back#i will never know so much love that i only discovered in my adulthood to be something almost everyone else has#and sure i can have a meaningful life of kindness and compassion and responsibility but i will never have unconditional love#this. and now i am free falling through the world#i have to escape and yet anywhere i go i will only be more alone#pacified with feats and impressions and ego. people bragging and trying to attain me. using me. misunderstanding me.#what can i really say to the world? what do i even have to give when im empty?#if one more person says im cool and never makes an effort to know me instead of make them and myself feel ?good? about being ?individualist?#in a way they approve or look up to#they can never understand the pain and separation it takes to be an individual by nature. not choice. not for sport or hobby#for every man I've understood and every friend that ive reassured and validated. ive never once been held myself#ive never been understood and im going to tear concrete apart with my fingernails if i have to feel like this any longer#loneliness so strong i have to build myself a home inside it to survive
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blink and you'll miss it moments around skyhold....
#solavellan#solas#gotta put out some tender stuff to balance the chaos target team leader solas has caused.#look i just need to go feral in the tags for a moment#okay the fucking. what's he call himself? the great adversary of her people's mythology....falls in love w a woman being forced into a role#not unlike his own#i t makes me c r a z y#like at one point he's all ooooh we're elves need to make sure the humans trust us to ensure safety. gives them a castle......#then he's all ''ooh you cant change the way your legend is getting out of hand. might as well accept it''#but he disapproves if you lean into it/call yourself the herald.#he approves of you fighting against the status quo. encourages sera to sow chaos and has a VERY interesting convo w her about power#''what lop of the top?'' ''yes.'' ''well what's that do except make room for a new top to come and fuck it all up?''#at which point he fuckin STUTTERS and is like. oh fuck. you're right. my bad. and then he shuts up in quiet contemplation#he's clearly wrestling w himself. and Ohmygod the felassanstuff.#like the Guilt. the Regret.#haunting that fucking rotunda.#and yet he's so in love w lavellan if they go that route.#like clearly some stuff was missing/fumbled in game. but like#how he fuckin screams for the inquisitor at the well?????!?! OK BOI?!#im just. the dread wolf. great adversary of the dalish pantheon.#turns out to be some somber grim guy with a fatalistic sense of humor who hates tea and greatly values free will#pina art
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Instead of writing a fanfic like a normal person this oneshot turned into two separate, contextless things,
#sorry it’s how my brain works (sometimes can only see things in terms of tv scene-)#tumblr exclusive video fancy…#dcmk#my art#(quietly coughing and spluttering) OK alright I can feel the creative brain explosion slowing down. geez#coughs.#nyways. weird that there hasn’t really been a main case where poison is involved in a certain way#If I watch my own scribbled boards for too long im gonna get too embarrassed to post. Send post#Subarus hair is still infuriating by the way like take that off your normal hair is easier. The beanie is easier#you like Have to have the side corners on this haircut or it doesn’t look right#anyways. shiho ptsd moments I think she kind of gets irritated that shinichi doesn’t react the same so when he does she gets like#weirded out and vindicated and a little protective. Like woah wait. Love that you understand me rn don’t like that you feel bad I am going…#to…………. ssssssssssit here about it…………………………….. uhhhh. do you want. a rubix cube to get your mind off it#I don’t want to talk about my feelings I just want you to get it. you don’t wanna talk about your feelings either which is……………. Hmmmmmm#I like her. love of my life miyano shiho#masumi sera#conan edogawa#ai haibara#akai shuichi#let conan swear. HE SWEARS A LOT BUT LET HIM SWEAR IN ENGLISH I KNOW HE KNOWS THEM#man needs his emotional support akai family they like him#rigorous trials to being approved by the akai matriarch but everyone else likes him already and have already picked him up multiple times#and shuichi would let him swear
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#asoiaf#a song of ice and fire#valyrianscrolls#i feel like i see people bring up this line all tje time to criticize theon and call him awful but its like.#the most blatant obvious line where he looks in the camera and says Haha My Dad Would Beat Me and Call Me Names. Fathers Do That!#and its like. oh my fucking god i knowww . I KNOW people think hes annoying or a piece of shit and he is atrocious dont get me wrong but#hes literally the most blatant metaphor of how abuse can affect a person into who they are#like no shit sherlock he desperately wants the starks to accept him. his actual dad would fucking beat him and he got taken outta that home#and placed in a new one where like one guy liked him as a friend but everyone else was kinda cold#<- WOAH! a metaphor about the foster care system and the way it affects a person.#like fucking obviously he bends over backward to try to get the approval of his peers or have fatherly approval#What else did you expect. Why do you think he makes all those choices ramsay suggests to him about trying to#get the respect of all of his men. he doesnt want to lose the respect. like.#Okay. Done now thank you#grace post
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always thinking about this….,,., they make me extremely mentally unstable… look how happy shadow is.. he’s having so much fun,,..,. i don’t think anyone else can make him this excited,,,….,,,.. b bbesties
#notice how shadows looking at sonic for approval#wait is he actually smiling it looks like it but i could be wrong#whatever he is no convincing me otherwise#sonadow#team sonic racing#kinda gay to have competition be one of your favorite activities and have a rival who feels the exact same way and has fun with you and and#earlier in the comic shadow was like “focus on your opponent—me.“ like?? okay?!#alright shut up
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Lan Xichen and Qin Su had quite a bit in common when it came to Jin Guangyao:
- First met JGY when they were in peril and he came to the rescue,
- Notably kind, beautiful, and good-natured,
- Did not place value on his origin or look down on him for his mother's profession,
- Were vocal in their support of him socially.
Which makes me think that we were robbed of maybe the greatest potential JGY partnership: Wen Ning.
Wen Ning: so ride-or-die that actually dying did not stop him from continuing to be ride-or-die. Wen Ning, presumably in quite the tenuous situation in Nightless City after the Jiang heir disappeared under suspicious circumstances, right when Meng Yao was working is way into Wen Ruohan's inner circle. Wen Ning, the sweetest cinnamon roll.
Slight canon divergence where Wen Qing missed one single opportunity to send Wen Ning out of Nightless City for a while, Wen Ning gets into juuust enough trouble, Meng Yao has the keys to the cell... one flash of Wen Ning's bambi eyes and he would have been a goner.
#Wen Ning would have got him away from WRH before he went all-in on the torture#“You want to win your family's approval?” *pointed look at WRH* “Have you considered that they suck?”#“Sometimes your family asks you to do bad things and instead you drug all of them and release their prisoners.”#Wen Ning's sheer Power of Belief™ makes Meng Yao level up six times in a hour#Is it a romance? A bromance? Meng Yao doesn't care#his skin is moisturised his crops are flourishing#they burn the palace down on the way out#(after releasing the prisoners)#wen ning#meng yao#jin guangyao#mdzs#the untamed#mo dao zu shi#grandmaster of demonic cultivation#headcanon that sweet baby Wen Ning is also built like a brick house#so you get Er-Ge's sweetness in Da-ge's chassis#Is Meng Yao supposed to just be chill about that?
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For how much Machete is described by others as off-putting, he really is a beautiful dog. Does Vasco ever tell him so? That his eyes make him look earnest, his fur the most comforting shade of white like cream, the way his ears catch light like stained glass? If someone doesn't tell him so, he'd forever think he was ugliest duckling
I think Vasco definitely tries, sincerely and often, but Machete is very reluctant to accept compliments and positive feedback. Especially if it's about something as personal and innate as his looks.
#he quietly spends a lot of time and effort trying to make himself look his best so appearances aren't a trivial thing for him#he's always very clean and neat and presentable#except on those occasions when he's soaked in blood but that's totally besides the point#white fur is kind of high maintenance any tiny bit of dirt or staining becomes an eyesore and if it dries it may be hard to remove#he bathes very frequently way more than average considering the time period#some of the outfits he wears are worth more than the combined lifetime earnings of like six generations of his family#silk was outrageously expensive and the brightest red dye came from pulverized cochineal insects that had to be imported from America#which had been colonized less than a century ago so those tiny little cactus bugs were really troublesome to get and the demand was huge#he doesn't quite have the nerve to wear perfume despite it's widespread popularity at the time#but he makes sure the smell of frankincense burned during church services sticks to his fur and clothes#in general when you spend your entire life around strict emotionally congested highly religious men#you might not end up developing a very healthy self-esteem or body image#once you've internalized that sense of inferiority it's hard to unlearn it#he's so thirsty for approval and praise but when he receives some he immediately gets uncomfortable and distrustful and vaguely angry#he absolutely struggles to compliment people back as well at least on any meaningful and personal level so there's that#answered#anonymous#Machete
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Max trying to be a good boy for the nice man asking him about Minecraft.
#max verstappen#formula 1#f1#the way Max is looking at him#Max get up#your gay and need for approval is showing#the way he is gazing at the interviewer#gamer max
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ATTN GALE GIRLIES!
I am bending down to look you in the eyes so you know that I speak truth.
There are three things you must do when you get to the Emerald Grove if you are looking to romance the rizzard.
1. Use persuasion to stop Aradin and Zevlor from fighting. (Intimidation may work too but currently unconfirmed) +8 approval from Gale
2. Rescue Arabella from the druids. +8 approval from Gale, plus if you get his little convo after, you can ask him if he wants to confess something and he’ll get a little flirty 😉
3. This one is easy to miss. Go to the back of the tiefling area, there’s a wooden door and past that is a prison area. You’ll find a grieving tiefling holding a crossbow on a goblin prisoner. Step in front of the crossbow. Another +8 approval from Gale, and possibly he’ll tell you a story about how he diffused a similar situation in a bar once.
(Bonus: rescue Mirkon from the harpies. I have no idea what the approval numbers are here, but sometimes you get another little Gale convo after where he talks about how glad he is that you saved a kid and how he got into shenanigans as a child and summoned Tara.)
Do those things, be a generally kind and practical leader and cheerfully give him magic items to eat, and you’ll be sitting at exceptional approval before you can say “One with the Weave.”
#I had to look up the numbers becuase I kept getting the weave scene way early#but those are the top three approval getters in act 1#besides feeding him boots of course#bg3 tips#bg3 romance#bg3#bg3 gale#gale dekarios#gale of waterdeep#Miriam plays bg3
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Force Jiratchapong and Book Kasidet on Force's Twitter Update (16.02.2023) [X]
#forcebook#force jiratchapong#book kasidet#my gifs#Daddy Force - Babe Book coded#I can't stop looking at Force's hands on Book#And their smiles and the way they look at each other#forcebook's chemistry is unmatched#Forcebook: social media#Second gif: Book looking at Force up and down#I approve those trousers Force#rumtumtag#mjtag
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sometimes i remember they gave riku a purse in the first supergroupies collab and i just
wow. beautiful. truly the gay-coded of all time.
#kingdom hearts#riku#riku kh#kh riku#yes i know straight men can use purses im just SAYING#it fucking kills me that like. kairi is the only other one with a purse#sora and roxas have backpacks#and axel has like a. sling. crossbody. thing.#i used the vague 'they' bc im not sure if nomura drew the art and then they made the products based on them#or if they made the products and then nomura drew them#either way they have his approval lol#ETA: from someone on reddit:#'The products were designed first. Super Groupies and SE collaborated to come up with the designs together.'#'And once it was finalised Nomura did some artwork of them.'#'Based on the image of them collaborating it looks like SE gave them designs of some characters in their KH3 outfits with details about-'#'-their clothes and Super Groupies used that to come up with the designs for their lineup.'#which is kinda what i figured after i found info saying they released images of the illustrations AFTER images of the products lol#riku riku ni shite ageru
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Getting an adorable, brightly coloured sunshine child to run around with him was probably the best (and worst) PR move Batman ever made.
#on the one hand he doesn't seem so scary/psychotic anymore#overnight approval ratings shot up#mostly because robin cute#on the other hand he looks way more psychotic and scary now#but responsible adults in Gotham and child protective services probably had a stroke#batman#batfamily#dc robin#Dick Grayson
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Going down the rabbit hole of mercury poisoning and archaeological toxicology in South America has me losing my mind. I'm overwhelmed and out of my league but it feels like all the pieces are fitting into place and they're all bad and I can't stop now.
#TLDR there's been an ongoing discussion for 500 years about this disease that caused epidemics in Mexico Colonial era and fingers have#been pointed at just about everything. And I went and looked up the toxicology on acute and chronic Hg poisoning and most of the symptoms#line up and now I'm looking at the climate and comparing the symptoms to syphilis and also salmonella because that's the current#academically approved consensus. But I don't know how to compare this graphically in a way I would be convinced by and I need more#Hg data because NOBODY DOES HG BONE STUDIES?! and I'm so curious about the climate but trying to define quantities over time is so hard.#/screams quietly#Occasionally I would like my insatiable desire to KNOW and to PROVE to sit under the rug for a few days.#Also FUCKING hell I want to shake Mesoamerica so badly. DO NOT USE THE RED ROCK. USE THE OTHER RED ROCK.#IT'S RIGHT FUCKING THERE. IRON WASN'T GOOD ENOUGH? YOU NEEDED MORE? YOU HAD TO MINE THE SHINY RED ROCK?#YOU HAD TO USE IT TO PRODUCE YOUR GOLD? FFFFFFFFFFF#anyway.#ptxt
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Pls enjoy Matthew knies getting frustrated over a tiktok filter 😹
#Silly lil dude#Itd be funnier with mints and cowboy there lol#Who said that ❓#matthew knies#toronto maple leafs#He's just like the rest of us chat#His frustrated yt guy face is so funny to me#Like the way his lips just fold in on themselves 😭#The way he looks up for approval when he finishes 😹#That's our sapling
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wyatt johnston talks his sleep schedule — practice — 04.02.24
[what’s it like getting back at six am? i mean, is it like — a day or two, or how do you adjust to that?] i mean, for me, i think it’s … um, i know i can kind of get through it a little easier, i know some guys, you know, have kids and some other responsibilities where they don’t have the luxury of being able to sleep all day, but, um … yeah, i mean, i had — i was able to sleep in as long as i wanted and get as much sleep as i needed, which, um … you know, i think helps a lot for sure. um, obviously, it’s not easy though. uh — so definitely kinda took a little bit, but, yeah, i mean, for me it’s pretty easy just to — i mean, sleep ‘til i don’t need to anymore. [so how long was that? what time d’you get up then?] um … i think it was around one or so? when i got up? it wasn’t — it wasn’t too bad. you know, obviously you wanna try to sleep at night too. um … so, yeah, i think it worked out, you know, worked out pretty well.
#hockey#stars#dallas stars#wyatt johnston#soooo much to discuss here.#he's so!!! i don't even have the right comparison here. he got the media members to laugh when he said other guys have kids#and their laughter made him light up and look around for approval. babydoll shall we unpack that or no.#also worthy of being unpacked is the way his shirt has several holes in the?? wrist??? what the fuck wyatt. who gnawed on that.#why are you still wearing it. etc etc etc.#the thing is despite being a dork he IS cute and charming and he is also aware that he is cute and charming. and that doesnt diminish it#i think if tyler could train him to be sluttier he'd be a worthy successor to tyler's whole Vibe. have we considered that yet gang#last couple quickfire things. why are his hands so fucking massive w the veins and everything#someone w their finger on the pulse of the part of hockey fandom that got really into jhughes lmk if they've discovered wyjo#also delighted to know that he seems to be the only guy besides robo who calls otter jakey as much as robo does ......... fascinating#z:edit
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girlhood
#i have to fly out to capetown to see mother and im literally debating if i could land in the morning and leave at night on the same day#like. anything longer than that is going to ruin my year.#when she called and did her “katherine. you have to be here on the 10th” i literally sobbed in my bed for the rest of the day 😍😍😍#not dyeing my hair black for a year and its getting lighter and lighter everyday and i look like her again#and my therapist telling me “you need to do things for yourself.” but like can i? sorry that woman traumatised me and i actually cant :)#like everything i do is informed by her#I'm going to go and just like everytime the only way to keep my sanity is to mirror her. talk and sit and speak and read and eat like her#and its such a terrifying experience bc i remember that im capable of emulating her viciousness and maybe i am my mother's daugher 🤢🤢🤢#and im going to come back and its going to take fucking months for me to feel like myself again#“oh you look so beautiful just like your mother” i hope you DIE lol !!! the fact that my conception of beauty was shaped by her#growing up with this cruel beautiful detached woman and realising that at the intersection of beauty and wickness is a lifetime of pain#and still being so desperate for her approval- for any metaphysical proximity to her that i felt elated when#people would tell me i look like her. that it meant i was also beautiful like her and maybe she'll love me a little for it#but now i know for a fact that i do look like her and it makes saliva swell under my tongue - that moment right before you throw up-#when people mention it 😍#last time i was in capetown my optic neuritis flared up (and i know for a fact it was that it was ms-stress related from having to see her)#and i thought i hid it so well even though i had near constant headaches & lethargy until she said “katherine give me the red notebook”#and i knew that she knew all along. it was so acutely humiliating standing there and knowing she knows i cant see which one is the red one#and she tilted her head and said “whats the matter? do you not know what red looks like?”#im never going to have kids. my mother and i read eachother so well it can only mean im never too far removed from becoming her#lol!!!!!!!!!
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