#imma have a chat with sam

[noellefan101]

Yo I would like more streamer AU with Firefly and Jing Yuan and however you deem worthy, please and thank you.

Love your work.🥰

omg thank youuu imma go cry in my corner now

anyway... heh....

Characters: Firefly, Jing Yuan, Welt, March 7th x reader

Warnings: yes

Summary: your princess(or partner if you wanna be boring) is a streamer, a popular one at that. this is a fic about: how their chat finds out that you are dating, how they treat you off-stream and on-stream/do they treat you differently

Note: i cant set my mind to anything so this is delivered really late and im so sorry if its also shit. that previous sentence was written about a month ago, maybe even more, so sorry. and yes i know some of it seems rushed and out of character so for that i apologize, love you tho

thank you @ogstarlight for sending the request

Firefly

How chat found out: She blushes at the mention of your name, doesnt even matter if its actually about you or not, i'd imagine even when she is SAM you can see the blush. Could even be an npc that has the same name as you, and she just started blushing because she thought of you. So its very obvious that she has some sort of crush on a person with that name, or has a lover maybe, the chat would be supportive nonetheless.

But it definitely wasn't her that got you introduced to her viewers, Kafka is to blame, but Silver Wolf was dragged into it a little much bit. so long story short, Kafka had gotten your number and called you saying Firefly needed to tell you something, and dont worry she isnt streaming(liar). So you had walked into her room confused not knowing that she was actually live and everyone now knew you. She blushed so hard i think she may have exploded.

"awww, what a cute little sweetie pie" -Kafka "honestly, shes more like a simp" -Silver Wolf 🧍🏻-Blade

On-Stream: Blushes even more when you're actually there with her, and being watched by so many people. If you kissed her on camera she cant show her face for another five days or she'll immediately go into tomato mode, absolute cutie. She doesnt treat you much different other than maybe a little less affectionate

Off-Stream: More affectionate with you, even around the other stelleron hunters. She's definitely less nervous when you're not both being viewed by hundreds of people, and she can kiss you without worrying about anything so thats nice. Also likes for you to just cuddle while she is SAM because she likes to hold you.

Jing Yuan

How chat found out: He would tell them all about you if they asked. Though they have to ask the correct questions since he would still like to keep you to himself, and would hate sharing you. And definitely hates sharing things about you when you arent there to say it yourself. So his usual responses to questions like 'who's your partner?' and 'you're just lying as to not seem as single' will be very vague descriptions of you and your relationship.

However, if you give him permission to share an achievement of yours, whether new or old, he will be talking about you non-stop for an hour or two given the chance. So safe to say his chat knew of you from the start and only waited to put a face to Jing Yuan's "amazing, lovely, beautiful, strong, sweet, and loving" partner.

On-Stream: Has fallen fully asleep on you before, his whole body on yours while you tried your best to either wake him up or stop the stream. He basically doesnt care what they think, he will be affectionate with you, to the point Yanqing told him to get off you just a little. Poor boy said the wrong thing because he just got even more touchy. Will kiss you whenever to the point his viewers get tired of his affectionate nature more than you could ever be.

Off-Stream: Literally no difference except maybe less jealous and a tiny but more suggestive. He'll kiss you a little deeper when its just you two, get a little closer, and touch you in a little more private places. It's barely a difference if you look at it over all, but it feels a little more personal compared to when he's live in front of a few thousand people.

Welt

How chat found out: actually just yaps about animation stuff and shows he likes, maybe plays games with March and Stelle if they really get him interested. But I'd imagine he also talks about some of the astral express, like how Stelle needs to stop digging in every trash can in her eyesight. Or how Dan Heng needs to sleep more because his eyebags are darker than his past. Random stuff that happens in his life but also a lot of history.

But of course he would talk about you as well, it can't be helped, though he would hold back more if you expressed that you weren't ok with that. He talks about you a lot safe to say, and he likes talking about all your interests and stuff you do, dates you go on ext. He would never share everything dont worry, just quite a lot since after he starts he finds it hard to stop. A case of they already know you to the point they could know things about you that you don't.

On-Stream: Very sweet as usual, but not very affectionate. A kiss to the cheek here and there, or maybe even sitting quietly on his lap on occasion. Nothing much other than talking with you and a tiny bit of physical affection, mostly loving you in quality time and showing interest in things you like.

Off-Stream: Way more affectionate, even around the crew, he just feels more safe around them overall since anyone could watch him. He can surprisingly talk even more when he isnt live, just the two of you laying in bed listening to each other talk about the little things and some very random things. I'm very sure you've had a 6 hour phone call multiple times just talking to each other with no break

March 7th

How chat found out: She shows them so many photos that she's taken and probably takes some during stream if shes doing IRL content. So safe to say you've been seen more than you think you have, whether she intended to show you or not. But of course you could be seen as a good friend who she likes taking photos with and of, but it is clear that you appear more than her other friends like Dan Heng, Caleus and her masters . She has more photos of you than you would even believe, and you have barely seen 15% of them and she has more than one folder just for pictures of you. (there will be less of you fully in them with your knowledge if you are camera shy, just know she takes a lot of photos anyway)

But this all made it very unsurprising when you one day walked in on her streaming, asking for something and curiously adding "love" to the sentence. Safe to say she was teased by her viewers for a few months, for both taking so many pictures of you and blushing every time you were present.

On-Stream: Loves to hug you a lot, also cracks even more dumb jokes when you're around. Kisses you, but retreats and goes out of view so no one can see how much shes blushing. The kisses shown on camera are more of a peck than anything, a nice big kiss on the cheek if she tries to be teasing or cheeky.

Off-Stream: Way better at actually kissing you properly on the mouth for once, maybe due to her being a bit shy(not that she will admit to it, without a bit of gentle pushing). Cuddles.. Lots of cuddles, no matter what. As long as its just the two of you, there will be lots of affection, much more than if it was for others to see.

thx for reading, and yes i know i have been neglecting the genshin streamer au but my mind just isnt there idk ToT, luv ya- Masterlist

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[whimsyfinny]

Pairing: Dean Winchester x Reader

Summary: Charlie discovers the Winchester boys to be struggling with keeping the bunker tidy, looking after themselves and being able to do their job simultaneously. Luckily she has a friend who’s from a Hunter family that is in need of work and can help them with research. Or so she thought that’s what her job would be. When Dean sees your more domesticated side, his head won’t stop swimming with all the wrong ideas.

Slow burn, enemies to lovers, smut

Warnings: None (Yet) in chapters to come there will be smut (and lots of it) and possible violence/blood/gore

Chapter Word Count: 1566

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A/N: My first Supernatural fic so I hope it doesn’t suck ass. Only proof read by myself, so pls let me know of any errors so I can correct! Also I know at this point in the series Dean is more serious, however I love pre-Hell Dean so imma bring some of those vibes in here. This is also posted on my AO3.

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Please Read the below first:

Prologue

Chapter 1

I’m Not Your F*cking Maid

Chapter 2

The journey to the bunker was pretty uneventful, with Sam and Charlie chatting amongst themselves in the front of the car whilst both myself and Dean sat miserably next to each other in the back like a couple of criminals who’d been arrested. The chains on my handcuffs jangled as I rubbed my sore knuckles; the skin raw, bruised and red from either my own blood or - most likely - Deans. As I did, I could feel a red hot glare burning into the side of my face from the older Winchester, as though he was in disbelief that I even had the audacity to feel any pain or discomfort right now as dark red scabs formed on his nose and cheek. We pulled up next to the bunker, and I didn’t get much chance to look at the surrounding scenery as the moment we were parked, the golden retriever duo up front hopped out, slammed their doors shut and threw ours open, Sam gently yet firmly grasping my elbow and pulling me to my feet whilst Charlie did the same for Dean. We were marched into the building and we soon arrived in what I assumed to be the kitchen. Sam pushed gently on my shoulder, urging me to take a seat at the table to which I obliged with Dean following suit and taking a seat opposite me. We stared each other down from across the table for a few moments, the atmosphere growing thicker by the second as his brilliant green eyes pierced mine.

“Enough the pair of you!” Charlie exclaimed, throwing her hands up. “Look, I’ve got some things to say before we release you both back into the wild. It won’t take long,” she sighed and rubbed her temples. “I wanted to introduce you guys to (Y/n) because I thought you would get along! With your shared interest in hunting, bootcut jeans, rock music and most importantly - pie.”

Dean and I shot each other a quick glance before looking away again. Charlie continued.

“You’ve had one disagreement, and even though I was impressed by the performance it definitely didn’t warrant the carnage. You’re both adults, so act like it and stop bickering like children. You’re going to be living and working together now so you’re both just going to have to suck it up and move on.”

Sam stepped forward; “I agree with Charlie. (Y/n) you have no idea how much of a help you being here is going to be. We’ve been going around in circles for months and we really need a fresh pair of eyes. Plus you get free food and board, if that helps,” he grinned slightly trying to lighten the mood. I humoured him and softened my eyes, raising my eyebrows in acknowledgment to the pros of staying here.

“Right,” he clapped his hands together, “we’re going to remove the tape and you’re both going to be civilised. You promise?”

I gave Dean one final long, hard stare before nodding.

”Good,” Sams soft cool fingers grazed my cheek as he pulled up the corner of the tape, gently peeling it back until it was removed and I could finally take a deep breath. Meanwhile, Charlie approached Dean and in one swift movement ripped the tape from his mouth in under a second.

“FUCK!” He cried out as he tenderly touched his now extra sore swollen lips. I couldn’t help but smirk.

“Right, I’m going to go and get (Y/n)s belongings from the motel room she’s staying in and check her out then I’ll be right back with all her stuff. I’ll see you guys later!” And before I could even protest for her to take me with her, she’d turned on her heel and hightailed it out of the bunker, leaving Sam to undo our cuffs and set us free.

“That bitch,” I sighed, huffing a strand of hair out of my face. Sam knelt before me, that kind look in his eye ever twinkling.

“(Y/n) I promise you that you're safe here. It’s warded to the teeth and full of everything we need to survive. We’ve got you,” he patted my knee before taking my hands in his, using a small key to finally undo the cuffs right before they clattered to the floor. I leant down to pick them up, and by the time I’d sat back up to place them on the kitchen table, he was already beside Dean doing the same for him. His own cuffs removed and rubbing his wrists, he stood, looking from me to Sam a few times before speaking.

“Well I’ve already suffered enough today so I’m going to spend time coming up with a better excuse as to why I look like this,” he gestured to his beaten face and turned to leave, mumbling a quick ‘see ya later’ to Sam before leaving the kitchen. Sam stood awkwardly for a second, before declaring that he was going to get some lunch for everyone and also scurried away, leaving me completely alone in alien territory. I was still sat at the table as I began to look around.

This place was a dump.

How did these grown ass men live in conditions like this? The dirty dishes were piled so high that it was a surprise they hadn’t toppled over yet. Empty beer bottles cluttered the table and countertops, the bin was overflowing with bulging bin bags dumped right next to it without being taken outside and the smell was starting to make me feel a little nauseous. How does Sam expect us all to eat and live together in conditions like this? It was like living with a couple of wild animals. After a few silent moments to myself I released a breath I’d been holding whilst I pondered. I ran my hands through my hair and laughed at myself in disbelief. I’m gonna have to clean the fucking kitchen. Without giving it a second thought and running the risk that I’d change my mind, I scooped my hair into a high ponytail using the bobble on my wrist and pushed up my sleeves, finding a pair of rubber gloves under the sink. Let’s clean this bitch.

*

In the space of about an hour and a half (a gruelling hour and a half), I’d washed and dried the dishes, putting them away in their respective places, taken out all the trash and lined the bin with a fresh bag, scrubbed and disinfected every surface and had even mopped the floors. The smell of rotting trash was dissipating and the urge to claw off my own skin had gone. I’d propped the mop against the wall and stepped back to admire my hard labour when I heard a door open and close, the entering footsteps heading my way. Sam emerged into the kitchen, a stunned look on his face as he walked to the table slowly, placing about 6 bags of ‘groceries’ on its surface. His mouth opened and closed a few times like he was searching for the right things to say.

“You’re welcome,” I cut in, hoping to help him find his words.

“Yeah, thank you! I’m sorry, I didn't know what to say - you really didn’t have to do this. It’s embarrassing that you were even put in a situation where you felt you had to,” he grimaced a little, only now realising what a horror show it was that they were living in. “But seriously thank you, I really appreciate it,” he smiled and I couldn't help but smile back. Sam was sweet and easy to like - unlike his Neanderthal brother. I felt like I could trust him.

I peeled my gloves off, threw them in the bin and approached the kitchen table where Sam was pulling out a case of beer.

“Here, you deserve one of these,” he said, handing me one. The bottle was nice and cool on my hot fingertips, my warm skin instantly relishing the coldness.

“Thank you,” I smiled before popping the cap and taking a long, well deserved drink. I savoured the moment, genuinely appreciating Sam’s gesture. Although all nice moments comes to an end, and soon Dean was striding into the room bold as brass, seating himself at the table and helping himself to a beer without so much as a hello. It wasn’t until he’d drained half the bottle in one gulp that he realised the kitchen was clean. He grinned and looked at his brother.

“Hey, nice job Sammy! It looks great in here, I owe you one,” he raised his bottle as if making a small toast whilst Sam’s eyes flicked to mine.

“Uh, Dean… this wasn’t me. You need to thank (Y/n) for that,” Deans grin faulted slightly as he looked between the two of us before it returned. I couldn’t help but raise my eyebrows in suspicion. His forest green eyes pierced into mine as he almost purred his next sentence.

“Well, Sammy, it looks like we’ve bagged ourselves a maid. Does she cook too?”

I slammed my bottle on the table, much like I did earlier. Only Sam flinched.

“I’m not your fucking maid,” I snarled, resenting that shit-eating grin on the older Winchesters lips. He chuckled, the sound coming deep from within his chest as he rose to his feet.

“Sure thing sweetheart.”

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Taglist: @creative-writing92 @suckitands33

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Up Next:

Chapter 3

[belovedwhore]

pretty boy pt 3

ethan landry x reader

warnings: smut, little bit of plot, oral (m!receiving), lowkey sub ethan

notes: hey y’all here’s pt3, i hope this is better than pt2 and ik it seem like the reader not getting much but trust she gon get hers soon, i already have an idea for it so just stay tuned! also i will be writing other smut for ethan that is separate from this series so stay tuned for that too. thanks for all the love and welcome new followers!!! anyways enough chit chat hope you enjoy!

pt 1 , pt 2 , pt 3 , pt 4 , pt 5 , pt 6

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the morning after. you woke up before ethan just admiring the sleeping boy laid next to you, thinking about last night. something about him got you and he’s all you want. couple minutes after you woke up he began to stir, looking over at you as if you were a dream.

“good morning pretty boy,” you greeted.

“good morning,” he rasped in his morning voice. god if he was gonna sound like that in the mornings we’d be doing something different right now.

“what’d you think of last night,” you asked.

“it was great,” he blushed clearly reliving the events of last night.

“good, would you wanna do it more?”

“oh right now,-” he perked starting to sit up on the bed.

“easy there pretty boy,” you laughed, “i meant generally but i’ll just be taking that as a yes.”

“ohhh ok yea, definitely a yes,” he added, “imma go grab a shower, i’ll be right back.

he got up from the bed and walked around to your side, kissing you briefly before leaving the bedroom. you laid looking at the ceiling for a bit, thinking about last night once again. your thoughts were interrupted by a knock at the door,

“back already?” you called out.

“it’s me sex demon,” you heard tara say as she opened the door, “making sure you’re decent, god knows if you have clothes on after last night.”

“oh no were we loud?” you asked.

“no just the occasional ‘oh my god ethan’ ,” she faked moaned, “and can’t forget about the ‘oh oh oh my god,” in her best ethan voice.

“oh god, i can’t,” you covered your face with your hands, peeking through you started, “wait what about you and chad, anything happen?”

“nada, kinda a turn off when you and ethan are over here fucking like it’s your last day on earth.”

“ok we didn’t fuck yet just some… other stuff.”

“mmhmm, well you might wanna get out of sam’s room before she gets up here because she definitely thought you were in my room.”

“oh shit you’re right,” you said getting up off the bed and heading over to tara’s room.

as you walked to tara’s room you heard the shower running and knew ethan was in there.

“i have to get something from the bathroom.”

“ethan’s in there,” she stated.

you didn’t answer, just smiled as you walked backwards to the bathroom. tara flicked you off jokingly as you entered quickly and shut the door.

“hello,” you heard ethan call out from behind the curtain, “chad i swear to god if you’re trying to scare me right now-“

“not chad.”

poking his head out of the shower he saw you sitting there on the bathroom counter, “oh hey, i’m almost done in here so you should be good.”

“it’s hot as fuck in here,” you told him as you drew shapes on the mirror.

you heard him turn the faucet off and saw him reach out to grab his towel, “yea i usually take hot showers.”

he stepped out of the shower with the towel wrapped low on his waist, revealing his v-line. his hair was still curly, resting on his head like a mop. you beckoned him closer with your hand. as he came more within your reach you grab his hand and pulled him closer to you, kissing him passionately. he melted into the kiss, allowing you to take control. as he moaned you slipped your tongue into his mouth, tasting him completely unable to get enough. your hands drifted to his wet hair while his went to your waist drawing you forward, closer to him. you tangled your hands in his curls, pulling at them making him groan into the kiss. as he pulled you closer you felt his growing length against your core, he grinded against you, giving you both some kind of release. suddenly you had a thought. pushing him back slightly you hopped off the counter onto the ground without disconnecting your lips. ethan’s back was now against the counter while you stood in front of him. you kissed him harder, now palming his cock hidden under the towel.

you separated your lips, moving to kiss down his body instead. you kissed down the middle of his chest, swiping across his nipples with your tongue. ethan groaned continuously as you worked your way down, head rolling back in pleasure. next you got to his abs, tracing the ridges with your tongue all the way to his v-line. as you were kneeling in front of him now, you dropped his towel, freeing his now fully hard cock. ethan hissed as the air hit his exposed tip already leaking precum. you looked up at him as you began stroking his shaft,

“guessing you’ve never had a blowjob.”

he nodded his head as he couldn’t get any words out. you saw his jaw clench as you worked his cock, sliding your finger over his slit he bucked his hips into your hand, chasing a relief. finally you wrapped your mouth around the tip of his cock, swirling your tongue around it. his steps faltered as he gripped the counter, groaning at the unfamiliar feeling. you took him deeper into your throat, looking up at him struggling to contain himself. pulling your mouth off it, you pumped it more as your saliva covered the length. he squirmed beneath your touch, moaning as you stroked his shaft tightly. again you went in with your mouth, this time taking him deeper. as his tip hit the back of your throat he bucked his hips forward, causing you to gag around his cock,

“shit, i-i’m sorry i didn’t mean t-,” he rambled.

“it’s fine,” you assured him as you licked up the side of his cock, “i like it.”

as you palmed him in your hand you moved your mouth to his balls. as you sucked on one of them, ethan hit the counter with his palm, overcome with pleasure.

“is everything okay in there,” you heard someone call out from the hallway.

“yea, just uh dropped my shampoo,” he croaked.

“y-you’re gonna kill me,” he whispered, unable to raise his voice any higher due to his current state.

after you moved to the other, you resumed sucking his dick, lowering your mouth down until your nose tickled his pelvis then back up again. each time you lowered back down he came closer and closer to cumming, at this point basically whimpering under your touch, jaw clenched and eyes screwed shut.

“fuck,” he said breathlessly as his tip hit the back of your throat again.

and the next time you came down on his cock, he came hard. you felt his legs shaking as he emptied his load in your throat, jaw clenched, eyes screwed shut, and gripping the counter for dear life. you swallowed his load, milking him through his orgasm until you felt him trembling, overstimulated with his release.

you then stood up in front of him with the towel, hanging it to him you said, “you might wanna put this back on.”

quickly he grabbed your face, kissing you roughly, grabbing the curves of your ass as you moaned. it left you breathless.

“you uh- had something right there,” he joked as he wrapped his towel around his waist again.

“mm hmm, yea,” you played into it as you slipped out of the bathroom carefully, having to remain unseen.

[woso-lover234]

Matildas x platonic reader- sleep

"No caity I don't wanna sleepppp" you groaned as Caitlin all but dragged you back to you guys' shared room at the tillies camp

"too bad you woke up early this morning we had long training and we have early training tomorrow you need to go to bed now" she said as you pouted knowing she was right but you didn't wanna miss out on the fun

"But everyone is gonna have fun without me" you said sadly which made Caitlin feel bad for you. She knew in the under 16's camp you came from to join the senior team everyone always left you out because you were too outgoing for them to handle but that's how everyone here loved you.

"I promise they're not" she said rubbing her thumb over your hand "cmon we'll quickly stop past and see them all, they're in the main room" she said changing direction to head to the new destination.

"Ayeeee it's our baby" macca called as soon as you and caity entered the chill room where the whole team was sat

"M not a baby" everyone heard you grumbled while you attempted to glare at her but it didn't give that effect and everyone tried not to laugh at you knowing that you were tired and your emotions would be all over the place right now.

"Course your not" Caitlin said rubbing your hand again "what are you guys gonna do tonight?" she asked the group of girls who all shrugged

"Probably nothing, why?" Steph asked from the couch where she was on her phone though she looked up when asking her question.

"Coz this one" she looked down at you "needs to go to bed but she didn't wanna miss out on the "fun" you guys would have" she said adding bunny ears around fun knowing the rest of the group would probably do nothing of the sort.

"Your the life of the party little one nothing fun is gonna happen while your gone" Sam assured coming over to you and ruffling your hair with a huge grin on her face.

"Hey we're fun!" Macca exclaimed while everyone looked at them with 'really?' looks on their faces.

“Sort of” macca said quieter and everyone nodded.

“Can we come?” Kyra and Charli asked now looking to Caitlin in hopes of joining the pair for a sleepover.

“Ask mini” Caitlin replied sort of hoping the two excitable tillies wouldn’t be allowed to come but was let down when mini caved once she had been given puppy dog eyes and promises of going to bed at the same time as you.

“Kay then cmon children we’re going to bed” Caitlin said ushering the other two girls in front of the two of you and up to your room.

“get changed then it’s time for bed” she said as soon as the four of you made it back to your room and all of you nodded while you went to the bathroom to get changed first.

“early night tonight girls and please don’t wake her up earlier then needed in the morning” Caitlin said to Charli and Kyra desperately who nodded in understanding

“Of course not we’re here to help” Charli said and Kyra nodded eagerly

“yeah when she sees we’re going to bed she’ll go to bed too!” Kyra explained the plan that the both of them had come up with

“Ok thanks girls” Caitlin said as you came out the bathroom and Charli went in to get changed

once everyone had changed and were laying in bed, you with Caitlin in her bed and Charli and Kyra together in yours you were chatting for a little while before Charli spoke up

“I’m tired imma head to bed now goodnight guys” she said while fake yawning which Kyra gave her a thumbs up to

“same” Kyra said as there was a ruffle of blankets indicating she was finding a more comfortable sleeping position

“I know what you guys are doing” you mumbled fighting to keep your eyes open as the others sighed “but I’m tired. but don’t think this means you won!” you insisted which made the other three laugh

“just go to sleep” Caitlin said running her fingers through your hair as you snuggled further into her “night everyone” You said as it got repeated “i love you guys” you mumbled drifting off to sleep now as the two in the other bed cooed at you while Caitlin just shushed them and kissed your head

“we love you too now go to sleep” she said as you fully slipped off to slee

[youling-the-ghost]

sfth as things that me and my friends have said in group chats (I made this because I'm bored and doing my summer homework sounds lame)

Luke: then again the only people who take blood against your will are vampires. and when they do it it’s considered unethical Tom: vampire x human romance books would probably disagree Luke: I said it’s unethical I didn’t say it’s unsexy Tom: if someone asks you for help again after they get an exasperated “fuck off” the first time, whatever happens is on them Sam: every time a teacher says “manage your time” I want to strangle a bitch Sam: y’all tell me to manage my time again and imma make you manage your oxygen

Luke: I'm a very masculine manly man. I'm an alpha, a sigma, even. you could never comprehend how masculine I am. AJ: you all deserve to commit stop breath Luke: aww thx you too <3 Sam: the only thing I’m committing to is a long term sexual relationship with your mother Tom: I’ll pin your corpse to an alleyway

AJ: what's the name of that one animal that's like a fish but big Tom: shark?? whale?? dolphin?? AJ: whale thank you Sam: your fat fucking mother Tom: is lab-grown meat vegan? Sam, searching it up on Bing: our lord and savior Microsoft Bing says no Tom: bro what is wrong with you Tom: bing user Tom: what the fuck Sam: all the fucked up things about me and you choose to criticize the fact that I use bing Tom: yeah it’s the worst one Luke: tag yourself guys. I'm perfume. Tom: glycerin Tom: if you pee on me, I become a hazardous explosive

AJ: qw EW RHW AM AJ: this was meant to be "we are the same" AJ: how did it become that

Luke: fuck you Tom: I'd rather not Luke: agreed AJ: this is the only thing that we can collectively agree on Sam: we are all unfuckable Tom, sleep deprived, trying to spell Roblox: Bob lox Tom: Bobolxis Tom: Boblix Tom: Boblox AJ: ??????????????? Sam: seeing you make this many typos is hilarious cuz you're usually like the one who makes the least typos Tom: yeah I care about being legible Tom: now I'm two tired Tom: ... Luke: TWO TIRED Luke: LMAO

[thebearme]

OH WAIT MY DUMBASS FORGOT TO ALSO ASK BTW IF YOU HAVE ANY HEADCANONS ON CAMERON OR GWEN

Imma just gonna start with Cam first, and let me just tell you Cameron I projected the most on because even after my "ihatehim no ilovehim" phase so idk maybe some of this could be out of character srry.

I imagine Cameron is south African, particularly Zimbabwean.

His a walking nerd emoji.

The only pass time Cam had was to draw bugs. So he's REALLY GOOD at drawing bugs. Only bugs. Everything else looks like it's from the diary of a wimpy kid.

Cam not that keen of physical touch but slowly getting used to it cuz of Mike. Mike also trying to remember that everyone is open on surprise hugs.

Idk why but with Zoey and Cam's relationship I just think of Carly and Freddie but without the crush.

Gwen and Cam would have art trades together.

Cam got the dryess hands in existence because of the amount of hand sanitizer he uses. OCD GAND RISE UP!

Im saying this now but Cam and B would TOTALLY VIBE TOGETHER!! i just don't know their intentions are yet so dont ask..

Lightning and Cam would have hangout if not for the cheating thing.

Duncan once asked Cam if he can draw a mural of his pet spider Scruffy.

Sam would take it as his personal duty to teach Cam in the way of being a gamer. By teaching him the Zelda timeline and the lore of FNAF. May god rest Cam soul after that.

Cam doesn't not do well with the more active people in Mike's system like Svetlana and Manitoba. They try to be gentle with him but they just don't know their strengths and Manitoba canonically eats dirt so there's only so much they can hangout.

Vito doesn't vibe with nerds but he does occasional try to back him up if he's getting bullied. ONLY if Vito himself isn't bullying Cam.

Cameron actually has the best relationship with Chester. He loves hearing history and old facts and Chester loves the excuse to chat someone's ears off.

Mal and Cam have more of a neutral relationship with each other but I can definitely see Mal thinking his just some weakling nerd until Cam shows him he knows how to make the Demon core.

Cam and Mike started a hate Scott club. Although Cam feels alil bad about, he tends to be reminded of why they started this club every time they go back to their cabin.

Cam once witnessed Scott use the bathroom without washing his hands. And never liked him since.

There was one time between season, Mike, Cam and Zoey were going on a little road trip. Z & M both ask what song should they play next? Cam said he doesn't know any songs so maybe just play the Ice cream truck theme. And that's when they find out HOW sheltered this boy is.

I would get into the nitty gritty but Cam's mom is NOT a good mom. Zoey and Mike have beef with her (Zoey trys to have the benefit of the doubt and said she just too over protective while Mike legit DONT like her.)

They both make sure that Cam gets as much outside time as possible and learn to have a life outside of his house.

When Cam goes to college is going aboard as an entomologist.

When Cameron first came on TD he didn't know what to wear because obviously he's never been outside so it a mixture of hot and cold clothes. Bro don't know fashion but it's his outfit changes in All Stars.

He's wearing a puffer jacket because it reminds him of a sleeping bag and makes him cozy + it has a cooling system inside thanks to B.

[tiredmaskkara]

"Earth's therapy session with...Lunar? In VR CHAT"

Idk I just wanna draw this lol

Just Earth having a therapy session with one of my SAMS AUs, Lunar seems to not be interested in sharing though

Also this is inspired by @ayyy-imma-ninja! I tried copying how they draw Earth-

[prettypinkporkchop]

Leah x Fem Reader, where the reader tries to resist the bond but find herself obsessed with Leah - because reader saw Leah before Leah saw reader, so only reader has the bond but nothing to tell her what's happening so she thinks she's gone insane.

Que refusing to make wye contact for months even as reader slowly tear herself apart from staying away and trying to get rid of it. The fear and self hate of thinking there's something wrong with her for becoming this obsessed with a woman who just lost her father and obviously want nothing to do with love after Sam.

If I may, maybe even include some 'I was totally straight, nevermind me only having crushes on girls' dumbass energy?

A/N: WAIT CHAT THIS IS ACTUALLY AN AMAZING IDEAR! IMMA TRY MY HARDEST TO LIVE UP TO YOUR EXPECTATIONS. PLZ LEMME KNOW IF I DID THIS RIGHT? LOVE YA LOVE YA LOVE YA!

You saw her. Some beautiful native woman. It's pouring light into your heart. You physically feel this pull towards her. Her beautiful tan skin, perfect brown eyes, and hair. You have to talk to her. Your mind is taunting you.

She moves to walk towards some guys. You jump and hide behind Kim.

Kim is your best friend. She begged her boyfriend to let you join a party here. It's not for outsiders so you really feel like you're intruding. But everyone has been so welcoming and nice. You barely met anyone. Really just Sam, Billy, Emily, Jacob, and Jared. You see many others here but you're so overstimulated.

Now, this weird overbearing emotion is hitting you. What is this? Who is this girl? Nah. I'm straight. I'm straight. I'm straight. I'm str-

"Y/n? What are you doing?" Kim giggles and turns to you. You look at her and smile awkwardly. "I'm just super overwhelmed. I'm not sure." You chuckle and look around anywhere but to her.

--- couple weeks later---

"Y/n, hey, there's a bonfire! You should come!" Kim looks up from her phone. You sit up on your bed and look at her. Do you want to see the girl again?

Why do I like her? I don't even know her? I can't stop thinking about her. I can't stop. Thinking. Shut the fuck up.

"Kim, I have a question."

"Yes?"

"So, who's that girl?" You ask. She raises an eyebrow. "There's a lot of us." She laughs. You roll your eyes and smile, feeling embarrassed. "God, the only one I didn't meet. I only saw her." You point out. "You've met Rachel, Emily, Renesmee, Sue... oh! That's Leah! She's really cool if you get to know her. She's got a lot of problems." She side eyes and goes back to her phone.

Leah...

"Uhm, what kind of issues?" Curiosity is getting the best of you. Hopefully, it's nothing really bad. Maybe it should be! Maybe it would keep you away from her. "Sam left her for Emily. But, it's not like that. It's uhm, not my place to say. But basically, Leah wasn't meant for Sam. Leah has come to terms with it, but love is not her thing." She sets her phone down and sits up, looking at you.

Sam. She's straight. Okay, perfect.

"Her father also passed a couple of years ago. She hasn't been the same since."

At the bonfire, you decide to spread out and meet the rest of the people.

"Seth! That's my sister, Leah." He points to the girl next to her.

Damn it. Don't look.

You can feel her presence pushing its way into your energy. All of it is too much. You're getting freaked out. What is this??? Like, actually.

"Nice to meet you." You smile and then turn to walk away. You feel so rude, but there's no way she'd feel the same.

---- a few weeks later---

Renesmee and Jacob moved into their own house. All of the girls are there, helping decorate. You were invited but you turned down the invite.

Sitting in your kitchen, you hear a knock on the door. "It's me." You hear Kim's voice. You walk to the door and open it. She's standing there with her arms crossed. "We could've used your help, ya know." She giggles. "I'm sorry, I just really didn't feel good." You frown, trying to convince her. "Oh, stop. You've been acting off for a hot minute now."

Oh no, she's catching on. Stay calm.

"What do you mean?" You sit back down. She sits next to you and stares at you blankly. "I don't know." She sighs.

"Look, I'll go to the next party, okay?" You tell her.

--that weekend--

I'm not looking. I'm not looking.

Your eyes turn to her. Her blue jeans, her brown jacket, oh god. You can't take this anymore. It's actually starting to hurt. Your head hurts. You walk towards her but staying away from her view.

What? Your headache fades the closer you get to her. "Aye!" Embry wraps an arm around your shoulder. "You might as well be a part of our family at this point." He laughs. "Yeah, I know." You giggle. "Oop! We've got company!" He let's you go. You turn and are face to face with Leah.

Her eyes meet yours.

She stops in her steps, and her eyebrows furrow. She looks emotional.

Your feelings intensify. A whole wave crashes down on you. "Shit." Embry laughs behind you.

The whole night, she'd be glancing at you. You can feel her eyes. You still keep your eyes away.

Don't fucking look.

Kim nudges your knee. "Hey. Embry told me you and Leah have some tension."

You keep your eyes on the ground. "That's totally insane, Kim. She's straight, and so am I. Plus, she has been hurt. She doesn't want to love." You say monotonous. You want to cry. Every time you walk away, your head hurts. But, being across from each other at this fire, the distance doesn't hurt.

You're starting to actually feel insane. "Y/n, you and I both know.'' Kim pushes. Paul shushes her and then taps your shoulder. "Take your time." He says.

At home, your head is pounding. You actually feel like you're going to vomit. "Damn it." You run to your car and drive back to the rez. Once you drive to the beach, your headache stops.

You sigh of relief and lay your head on your steering wheel. But then, it hits you. Her presence. She's here. You get out of the car and walk to the sand. You sit down, not caring about getting sandy.

"You okay, y/n?" God, her name rolling off of her tongue, sends butterflies to your stomach. "I can't be away from you." You mumble. She sits next to you. Her warmth is seeping through your clothes into your side. "I have felt this way for a while now. I saw you before you noticed me. Being away from you hurts." You gulp, hoping she doesn't run from you.

Instead, her hand meets your back. "I know." She says. "Honestly, I never thought I'd end up imprinting on a woman, but that explains why I never connect with men." She laughs.

You laugh too but then stop. Imprinting?

"Wait? What?" You look at her. The moon barely lights up the side of her face. "I have to tell you important things."

--a few days later--

You lay back on the grass, reading your book. Leah is sitting up, picking flowers off the ground and making a crown. "You're prettier than a flower." Leah smiles. You set your book to the side and look up at her. "Prove it." You smirk. "What? Want me to howl it to the moon tonight?" She jokes. "Isthe moon homophobic?" You ask. "Nah, don't think so."

"Then it doesn't count. Try something else." You prop yourself up with your elbows.she finishes the crown and places it on your head.

Unexpectedly, she hovers over you and kisses you. Her soft and warm lips shock you. Your face heats up, and you kiss her back slowly. She pulls away and looks down at you. "Did I prove a point?" She asked quietly before planting kisses over your cheeks.

[messenger-of-stupidity]

However, Your Mother

Welcome back to another Shaw Mates Group Chat Post that totally hasn't been sitting completed in my drafts for over a month because I forgot to post it nope not at all that would be utterly ridiculous ahahaha

This is pretty short though because my brain has been filled with angst for the past several months and crack isn't really doing much for me atm.

CW: Angel is back on their crack shit but keeps getting rejected, Baabe is living for the gossip, Sweetheart is a bit more active, Sam just wants some normality but he should know better by now fr fr

Actual CW: Crack, Cursing, Shenanigans, GN Listeners, Any gendered terms are purely for the memes and should not be taken seriously in any kind of way.

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Sweetheart: My supervisor is literally dog turds

Angel: i dont know whether to be happy i wasnt first or upset that u didnt say cat litterbox droppings

Baabe: what happened invisi?

Sweetheart: Were circling back to that nickname later. Whats wrong is that theyre making me stay late

Angel: but but 2nites mate nioght

Sweetheart: I know it is thats why Im upset

Baabe: theres only one thing left to do. we cause a error in the computer system and hold their information hostage so that way invisi can sneak out. get it? sneak? cause theyre a stealth? im so funny.

Sam: I knew it was too much to hope that for once this was a normal and legal conversation, and yet I did so regardless. Good lord.

Angel: vamp daddy

Angel: welcome to another episode of davey is gonna kill me

Baabe: whatd you do?

Angel: hol up a sec i need to wait for invisi and vamp daddy to be here

Baabe: if this was discord we could @ them.

Angel: omg it would be so fun to have a mates disc call

Baabe: IT WOULD

Sam: This is the highest level of my tolerance. I don't think I could handle a group call with all of you. Especially without David to monitor.

Angel: davey do be a sexy supervisor vroom vroom

Sam: I'm never going to be able to look at David the same now. Thank you for that.

Angel: yw now where is my invisible hoe

Baabe: imma call them.

Angel: that just leaves vamp daddy and me (っ˘ڡ˘ς)

Sam: Oh dear lord.

Angel: nope just me

Sweetheart: Whatd I miss

Baabe: angel fucked up again.

Sweetheart: Oh good

Angel: cool now that everyones here

Angel: how does one get dough off high ceilings and back into the kitchen

Sam: Do I even want to know how you managed that?

Baabe: by asking you have become complicit. congrats!

Sam: Shit.

Sweetheart: Before I tell you I wanna know how tf you managed to do that

Angel: so i was making pizza rite

Baabe: its gonna be a multi text situation. neat.

Angel: and the impulsive urge to yeet that motherfucker at the ceiling with the force of a thousands suns came upon this bitch

Sam: And that should be a lesson in control, kiddos.

Angel: but i couldnt do it in the kitchen because i wasnt in the kitchen

Sweetheart: Then where tf were you

Angel: in davey and me bedroom

Baabe: omg this keeps getting better. i cant wait to tell Ash.

Angel: we have hella high ceilings so i got on the bed and threw the dough at the ceiling

Angel: now its stuck and davey is gonna come home any minute

Sweetheart: I lied I have no idea how to get pizza dough off high ceilings I just wanted to hear the story hehehehe

Angel: ((유∀유|||))

Baabe: all mates are wonderful. all werewolves are awesome (except chrissy all my homies hate chrissy) but Ash is by far the best. <3

Angel: omg i literally luv my house husband

Sweetheart: Disagree what evidence do you have

Baabe: three words invisi.

Angel: i love you

Baabe: no

Angel: rejected by my waifu im never gonna financially recover alexa play the wheels on the bus

Baabe: breakfast. in. bed.

Sweetheart: Three words for you

Angel: i love you

Sweetheart: No

Angel: rejected twice in one day by my waifus alexa play arabian nights

Sweetheart: Crumbs. In. Bed.

Sam: Why was this what I had to come in to?

Angel: sam wont reject me will u vamp daddy

Sam: Without hesitation I absolutely will.

Angel: im literally gonna kms ༼ ༎ຶ ෴ ༎ຶ༽

[actualbird]

Hi Zak!! This is a pretty random ask but i was just wondering if you have any tips for starting a fanfic/story? I just keep getting stuck on how to start one (I really love your work/blog 🙏 feeds my tot brain rot fr!!)

hi anon, im glad you like the stuff i make ;w; !!! and ohhh, sure i got tons of tips for that!.....so many that i actually wish i cld get u back here to ask what specifically about starting a story u'd want tips on but for now, i'll go for a general overview :D!!

cuz....to me (i.e. based on my writing process, which i'll be drawing heavily from for these tips), the act of Starting comes in three distinct steps, one after the other:

Idea Generation (what is the story gonna be about and how do i get ideas for that?)

Concept Organization/Outlining (how is the story going to be about this idea and how will i be executing it?)

Creation (GAH, HOW PUT WORDS ON PAGE!?!?!?)

so i'll give general tips for all three!!!

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Idea Generation Tips

(this is the step that i personally have the least trouble with because my brain makes 5 new ideas every day. it's kinda a curse now because it leads to me having too many wips and concepts and only 1% of them gets to the Creation period jhvjhVJKSHFVHJS BUT ANYHOO, TIPS-)

Check Out Prompt Lists (super fun and easy way to get an idea! theres tons of story and fic prompts out there that you can search up here on tumblr, some of them being lists of lines of dialog or lists of AUs or scenarios. even if you dont follow a prompt exactly, they can be great at kickstarting ur brain into thinking of something related that you Do wanna pursue)

Open/Ask For Prompt Requests (if ur brain doesnt have any ideas, u can ask around and see if anyone ELSE has ideas theyre alright with you writing! my tot fics "reviews for Time's Antiquities, South Stellis | Average Rating: 4.8 Stars" and "but little do we know, the stars welcome him with open arms" were both inspired by anon asks i got!! to those anons who sent those asks, i owe u my life....but yea, maybe other people can give ideas to you! or, again, give Something that can inspire another thing in ur brain to take shape)

Just Ramble With A Friend (SO MANY OF MY FIC IDEAS started because i was just goofing off and playing idea volleyball with fandom buddies in our DMs (shoutout to sam samsspambox, z lukevonhagen, and beck beckthebeetle for being the main culprits of this). like, what started out as a joke conversation eventually makes go "oh no wait i actually wanna see that as a fic" and then boom, Idea Has Been Acquired. but fr, talking with another person makes your brain create things u never thought about before. it's both tons of fun to chat with a buddy as a sounding board, and it yields awesome concepts for stories!)

For Fanfic Specifically, Think About What You Want To See In Canon But Hasn't Happened And You Want It So Bad It's Driving You NUTS (this can be anything from missing scenes you wish were expanded on, scenes you wish went a different way, character relationships you wish you could see more of in canon, go nuts! the fun thing with fanfic is that it's a fertile playground for all the what-ifs, and a lot of my fics' ideas were simply found because i thought "man i know tears of themis is never gonna show me deep found fam moments/artem ptsd consequences after main story 6.2/mariluke, so imma make it myself" JHVSJDHF. ideas are hard to make sometimes, but brains are so good at desiring things. and all those desires? those can also be Ideas for a fic!)

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Concept Organization/Outlining

(very much skippable if your writing style/personality is more receptive to free-wheeling!! im just the type of writer who always needs an outline to begin something. it helps me structure a raw idea with no shape into something clearer that i can envision a story for)

Outline A Rough Chain Of Events Chronologically (this can be as simple as three bullet points, what happens at the Start of the story, the Middle, and the End. or maybe you can go list down the portions of your fic according to the Freytag's Pyramid Plot Structure: Exposition, Inciting Incident, Rising Action, etc etc.)

Outline A Rough List Of Stuff You Just Want To Happen In The Fic (if your brain is like mine and isnt too great at chronological thinking, make a list of just all the plot points and events or even dialog exchanges u Want to see in the fic. you can organize it in the order u want later once uve put everything down)

Outline The Themes (moving away from plot, many stories are more focused on feelings or characterization or themes. so make a list of the Concepts you want to tackle. this is something i do for my fics that are more introspective, so i outline shit like "EVENT THAT MAKES LUKE INTERNALIZE SELF-LOATHING followed by EVENT THAT MAKES LUKE'S VIEW BE NOTICED BY ANOTHER CHARACTER")

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Creation

(the worst part of writing....is the writing JAVFJVSDKHFDJHJ but nah fr this is the part i have the hardest time with, so here are tips that help me kickstart the word engine)

You Dont Have To Start Writing The Fic From The Beginning Of Its Story, Start Writing Wherever (confession: a good 75% of my fics are ones where the first scene i actually wrote down was not the start. instead, i just wrote the scene i was most excited to write. and usually thats somewhere in the middle! i do this cuz it makes my brain happy, and a happy brain is much easier to pull words from than a sad brain. plus, when i see the scene I Like Best already written, it gives me motivation to do the rest of the fic because oh my god i want everybody to sEE THIS ONE DANG SCENE!!! start writing the fic at whatever point you want, in whatever order comes most naturally to you, is my point. you can fill the rest in later, but hey, starting to write where you Want has gotten you Started. now you just gotta finish, and finishing when you already have something down is much easier than starting from 0)

Set Tiny Wordcount Goals. And When I Say Tiny, I MEAN TINY!!! (writing is intimidating but if you set a goal of say, 100 words written for a wip per day, at the end of one week, you'll have 700 words. at the end of two, you'll have 1400 words. at the end of a month, 3000. small goals help since it makes you do Something, and that Something will inevitably compound, no matter what goal uve set. and let urself be proud of the goals uve achieved!!! writer brain gets happy when you tell it it's done a good job at reaching a wordcount goal, and like i said earlier, happy brain is much easier to work with than sad brain)

Give Yourself All The Time You Need (i know this sounds counterproductive but sometimes....the best thing you can do for the part of your brain that wants to start creating....is waiting til it's ready. dont pressure yourself, cuz brain will get sad. dont be too hard on yourself, cuz brain will get sad. start when you want to start in the way that works best with your brain and see where things go, but be patient with yourself. sometims Starting is actually the longest part of writing a story and thats fine. it will happen. trust)

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thats all the tips ive got! and of course, what will work for me wont always work for other people, so please feel free to take what you think applies to you and discard what doesnt resonate.

i hope some part of this can help! happy writing :D

[sunfloralchaos]

Okay imma be a bit real here, this year has been fucking awful. Both as part of the creative side of the Internet and personally.

I'm not going to harp on about the troubles being a creative online at the moment, everyone feels it. And I'm lucky to feel it only minimally right now.

Personally, though? I've had a rough time, I burnt out hard over summer whilst struggling with my mental health. My physical health has continued its decline much to my frustration. Which affects how much I'm able to create, and do, I feel like I can do so little these days.

Work became shit and my social life (including all my D&D games) fell apart all at once. Its been an incredibly lonely year from beginning to end that has me feeling like very few people give a shit. Everything also kept breaking and I've struggled financially at many points this year because of SO MANY things.

It felt pointless to try and I stopped enjoying creating for a bit, one of the few things I've stuck with throughout my life. Quite frankly I'm sick of how this year has gone. I really really struggled to get through day to day for a bit. I'm sick of being me.

I'm trying to get things set up and started  so things can start going better but it's feeling slow and I'm yet to feel truly better.

BUT I did a lot of great stuff this year,

I had my first nice holiday of over a decade, got to chat with people at mcm October properly for the first time, and Sam and I will be starting next year in a new place that hopefully sets us up for a better time. I'm dm'ing again for a new group, I'm trying to make new friends again. I'm incredibly grateful to my lil online circles that I have 💕

All hope isn't lost. I know that it won't be shit forever but I would like to be there sooner rather than later.

It's weird though, that going into 2023 I was feeling triumphant from 2022 and hopeful. But I'm going into 2024 kind of ? Desperate for things to get better, for things to go right, feeling less like I'm going to achieve great things and more like I just hope to survive.

It's a strange place to be, but I hope to find joy again, properly at least. This year has felt incredibly bittersweet.

I hope 2024 is kinder to us all.

[visionthefox]

ok a lot of things happened in the episodes of sams and laes shows: Earth was attacked by the Bloodmoon and had to have a new body, Lunar has cosmic powers, the cosmic beings that the original eclipse said would come after Lunar are on Earth, Ruin was apparently cured of the virus that drove him crazy at the end of October

I lot of things happened, how are you catching up??

oh yea! I follow ayyy-imma-ninja! and someone complemented on the desing they did- I didnt see it as I have the tag blocked- but im sure the new desing is a beauty! they are soo good with desings! )just look at their fairies!) a friend told me of Ruin- I was actually sad to read that- like dude was such a cool villain.. but well- it had to be -sigh- ~ Ruined~ as for the Lunar thing.. im not even suprised- ever since he could talk to cosmic childs I knew the whole "robot" part was missing - that or my brain that connect how a robot can relate to magic so hard.. aaand for the last questions- I been avoiding anything Sams related! I have the tags blocked- so I dont have to see it- I been more happy that way! but again- is yall wanna chat about it! Im super ok with it I blocked the tags so I dont know whats up- but sometimes the block fails or someone around me comment on it- and despite my attempt- the show is now forever stuck in my head.. :P

[rainagaintomorrow]

I HAVE FOUND MY PEOPLE!!! DARLIN KINNIES WHO WANT TO GIVE DARLIN A B R E A K

BUT YES I WANT YOU TO GO ON ABOUT A SAM/DARLIN PROPOSAL/WEDDING BECAUSE LET ME BE HAPPY DAMN ITTTTT

don't enable me omg. I had to gather my thoughts.

One I think darlin proposes because WHO WILL STOP THEM?! Idk while I think Sam is thinking about it I just feel like Darlin is balls to the wall in love with Sam and is like "I'm going to marry this man."

My friend just texted me imma marry this man as I am writing this and that's exactly what the pack chat looks like

I'm not sure how..... I think I have to many ideas like I wouldn't put it past them to propose while they're just at home watching TV snuggling. Or just blurting it out in the middle of a conversation like Sam says something, waits for them to respond and Darlin is like "marry me Sam."

[iszzyb]

I just need a place to rant

ahahhahahahhaha guess who need $691 to get her wisdom teeth removed 🙃

I finally worked up the courage to go to the dentist , and no insurance but found one that had discounts and a free consultation. I've been trying to save for a trip to see friends so i been working more ( i do uber eats n have applied to others but no ones hiring mee imma go through my resume tomorrow and redo it again) , but shit keeps popping up and i only have like $60 towards that. ( its in Oct so i still have some time but i was trying to at least get the flight tickets by next month )

I might just have to take a train or drive??? up there idk both would be like a 24-48 travel time.

back to the dentist i need wisdom teeth removed ( one has a hole both are impacted ) there's 2 cleanings which are some what affordable to me and than filling last . ovb not all at once but the wisdom teeth need to come out asp. The total price is like $4,491 ( with a 30% discount what ever it could be applied to ) I signed up for a credit plan that will help cover$3000 ( with me paying $149 a month to pay it off after the op ) but that covers most the extraction and leaves $691 for me to pay towards it ( the wisdom teeth extraction is $3691 in total)

I been on the phone and chatting with dental insurance all this morning and the main things I would need cover I wouldn't have acess to untill 6 months ; which is too far for what i need done asp . My mum has helps a bit by telling me and getting me a meeting with a possible free option ( they will be calling me Friday , so hopefully i qualify for that)

Mentally I been doing ok , not too deep of depression mostly lonelyness here n there cuz well everyone is busy or depressed them self right now .

I Still have the goal of moving out ( well getting a car 1st) but that would come after getting a more stable job( dentist stuff and trip). I appiled to about 7 diff jobs so far and got a " not selected by employer " on 4 of them ( come on sam's club or lib job!!!) (as for the bakery position I'm pretty sure i just don't have it cuz they have just left me hanging )

Good things :

Ive gotten better at setting boundaries & taking up space. I'm still working on it but i am not minimizing myself as much

( although they are not helping) I'm able to call insurance company sand job search with out getting to overwhelmed. I've been pacing myself pretty well lately and am able to get a lot more thing done on a day to day basis.

I haven't been streaming/gamming as much but i have been consistant with content creating ( mostly been uploading shorts on youtube & tiktok) , not to become n influencer but just to create / show others that its ok to have multi hobbied and be weird, ect . just having fun online . I feel like its helping me out with my anxiety.

& at home me and my mum have come up with a non verbal day , where we don't really speak to each other . If its an emergency or warning each other then yes we do speak but no causal convo. This helps me not feel so overwhelmed by her and this gives mum some time alone(kinda). Honestly it helps slowdown the weird co-dependency we have going on here; its just been super nice having a quiet day once a week ( still plan on moving out when i can)

[golbrocklovely]

When people state in their leaving xplrclub post that there's 'not enough fan interaction' but you know for a fact that both boys have been responding to members feed posts regularly and have been leaping into the chat semi-regularly. Just because it's not happening when you are online does not mean it's not happening.

I do not understand what these people want, do they want them to come on every single day and spend hours chatting and responding? Do they not realise they have work/editing to do and lives to live? This fandom is so unbelievably clingy, my word. Some fans are literally dogs with separation anxiety I swear to god.

If you're leaving xplrclub that's fine, goodbye and have a good life but at least be accurate in your leaving post

idk if this is the same anon five times asking me the same thing, just slightly different. or five different ppl needing my opinion on a fan leaving xplrclub bc snc don't interact with us anymore sksksk

imma be honest with yall, idc. i'm not personally on xplrclub to interact with snc, that's just an added bonus. not to mention there is 2000+ ppl on there, it would take them HOURS to notice all of us. i don't expect that from them. if you feel like you weren't getting your money's worth, then leaving is the best option.

that being said, snc seem to try to interact at least weekly from what i can tell; either in chat or in the member's feed. and i think that's fine enough for me, bc again, i don't use xplrclub to talk to snc (or really anyone for that matter lol).

but outside of xplrclub….. a lot of fans are complaining about snc not interacting with us more. and my thing is, what else are they supposed to be doing? bc according to the twitter heads, they aren't doing enough.

lemme try to lay out what i've read and seen them say:

snc repost fans constantly on their xplr insta account, and also on their personal, but that's not enough. bc a, they only notice fans for merch which just feels like they only care about fans that spend money and b, they only repost hot, skinny, pretty fans.

for YEARS fans wanted snc to repost fans more in merch, and now that they're doing that, it's not good bc it's only fans that spend money that get noticed?????? okay. and the pretty fans only get reposted comment… i've explained how i feel about that. it's horseshit, and you're just insecure. sorry.

also let's be clear here, it isn't "oh snc don't notice fans enough" it's really just colby. bc none of yall bitch about sam. everything colby does is the worst and he's the worst, but sam's allowed to do whatever he wants as long as it's not involving kat or katelyn or a combo of the two, right?

yall wanted colby to like edits/artwork from fans more. he starts liking edits of him and malia. that's not good enough. but when he was noticing fans' work, it wasn't the "real" fans or the ones that "deserve" to be noticed that got likes from him.

you want snc to talk to yall on twitter yet… every day you guys flip flop between being nice to them or shitting on them. it just depends on whether or not they seem online or if you direly need them to wish you happy birthday, or say they love you, or just some other random words of notice.

you want snc to post weekly… which they basically are doing on their react channel…….. and yet again, not good enough. you somehow want hour long vids posted weekly….. when colby's really the only one editing anymore. okay.

why is there a caveat to everything you demand from snc? i'm just genuinely curious. if it's not one thing, it's another. at this point, it would just be better in the long run to admit you're unsatisfied and will never be, and just leave. as i've stated about a million times at this point.

bc for the few 100s that are feeling this way, there are millions of fans (me included) that don't feel like snc need to do more. sure, there are certain things i would love for them to tack onto their business schedule, if they COULD do it. but i'm also not constantly threatening to either leave or off myself if they don't meet my demands.

they aren't going to. so…… LEAVE.

[sarah-dipitous]

Hellsite Nostalgia Tour 2023 Day 133

Vampires of Venice/The Man Who Would Be King

I’m switching the order today because the spn episode is so much more to me than the dw one

“Vampires of Venice”

Plot Description: desiccated corpses, terror in the canal, and the sinister House of Calvierri! The Doctor takes Amy and Rory on a short romantic holiday, but 16th century Venice is not as it should be

This is actually the first five minutes of a Supernatural episode. I HAVE BEEN TRICKED

Oh!! Oh, Roryyyyy. You can’t help but feel bad for him when you know Amy’s currently trying to seduce the Doctor and he’s saying it’s a crime that he hasn’t told her he loves her in seven hours…

How did that sound at ALL fine in your head, Doctor??

No no. You don’t deserve an “it’s bigger on the inside” from Rory. Not after he was made out to be a fool by his employer during Prisoner Zero incident, and not after you crashed his stag party to tell him AND EVERYONE ELSE THERE that Amy tried to kiss you AND that she’s a good kisser. He doesn’t have to give you that (I did not know/remember that I had this many strong feelings about Rory). He gets to say that it’s like another dimension

See. Even THAT. The Doctor gets to be someone high up in the church, Amy’s a viscountess, and Rory’s their eunuch…why do they treat him so horribly when this is supposed to be the Doctor’s WEDDING PRESENT???

You know…being one of the Calvierri Girls seems at least KIND OF glamorous

I would be so resentful too, Rory. Don’t worry

I like the vampire test they use here more than on spn (though I know it’s not REAL vampires)

I know this is everything that the show is about, and y’all have been on several trips before, but maaaaaaaan give Rory adjustment time. He’s dealing with a LOT right now

Godddddd…I wanna sneak around a castle at night by nothing but candlelight in a long white dress (can’t tell if it’s a dress or nightgown. It does look too structured for the latter)

Imagine if Rory and Martha could have a chat. Like…I know Martha’s come to terms and worked through all her stuff with the Doctor but Rory could use having someone like her around. Or Donna maybe, but the “you make people a danger to themselves because they want to impress you” line is hitting hard

The still not great cgi is still not great cgi-ing. But unlike most not great cgi, it’s still endearing

This poor gondolier just wanted to see his daughter again. He thought he was giving her a better life, and when she saved the TARDIS trio, she doomed herself

From a “I need to make the survival of my people my priority” standpoint, I get it, but turning human girls into “suitable wives” for your fish sons is not the move. Also sinking Venice. Doing that isn’t the move either

Did the Doctor call their fish alien form foxy? Has he seen The Shape of Water? I think he might enjoy it

THE CRUCIFIX THING WONT WORK. THEYRE NOT ACTUALLY VAMPIRES. YOU KNOW THIS. Apparently “your mom” jokes work though

I just don’t understand why they thought they had to sink Venice for the species to survive. Did they not know that this planet is like 70% water?? You could have gone anywhere…sorry about a few human girls getting turned to keep the species going

“The Man Who Would Be King”

Plot Description: Cas tells Sam, Dean, and Bobby about the war in heaven and how he and Raphael became enemies

Would I Survive the First Five Minutes??: besties, imma be honest. I don’t know if I’m gonna survive just WATCHING this episode. No one died in the first five minutes, just my soul

I truly don’t know if I’m going to have more or fewer thoughts (other than screaming in agony) while watching this

He has such an intense desire to do what is right and good, but he’s also spent MILLENNIA just being TOLD what is right and good, and now he has to decide for himself and it’s terrifying (so. For anyone reading who doesn’t know, this episode is told from Cas’s point of view and he has many a monologue. Basically every time I just say “he” and don’t have a different name preceding it, it’s probably safe to assume I’m talking about Castiel)

Dean wants to believe this so badly…

I just…I really don’t know how the boys think they can really help the heavenly civil war effort. You can say you want to help all you want but…every time he tells you about it, you brush it off as unimportant (I AM a cas apologist through and through)

Don’t mind me. I just…when the someone CALLS an actual angel “angel” but in any level of derogatory way? As in “the stench of that Impala is all over your overcoat, angel.” It’s a little hot. Cas and Crowley bickering. Crowley saying “I thought we agreed, no more nights out with the boys.” The illicit nature of their partnership is JUICY AF

Babyyyy it’s a miracle you were able to get ANY of Sam out. Sure, Dean was in hell, but Sam was in the Cage!!

On one hand, maybe Sam walking away from seeing Dean with Lisa and Ben should have been a warning that things were off, but…it’s literally what Sam said he wanted for Dean post-getting-in-the-Cage

If there’s one thing about Crowley (there are many things about Crowley), he at least can see the entire chess board. He knows that more powerful pieces than him have been taken out by the Winchesters

(I’m gonna have to watch this twice, once for thoughts and once just to cry)

THE BETRAYAL AND LYING FROM BOTH SIDES OF THISSSS. THEY’RE lying to Cas about hunting down Crowley and how close they’re getting, just playing it like everything’s normal. CAS is lying to them about working with Crowley, and now spying on them having a conversation about how they don’t trust him, no matter how much they want to. And DEAN. Oh Dean is resisting and getting very defensive. It IS tragic

And even though all of this betrayal, he’s still trying to protect the boys. I mean, yeah, not letting them get to Crowley also protects himself but…I did say I was an apologist, right?

I can’t even imagine what it would be like to rip up the universe’s script, to choose freedom and free will, and then to come back home and have everyone expect you to start handing out orders.

“If I knew then what I know now, I might have said ‘it’s simple. Freedom is a length of rope. God wants you to hang yourself with it,’” IS too raw of a line to come from the CW’s Supernatural. And yet…

Raphael’s voice though………it makes me get a little hair twirly. Sure he’s threatening babygirl and telling him to pledge allegiance to him and then get the apocalypse going again, but damn

But the line “for a brief moment, I was me again” always hits me like a sack of bricks. He’s just revealed that he’s actually there after not doing so when the boys originally called and saved their asses from some of Crowley’s best demons. And for that time, he was the Cas they all knew and trusted and were friends with, who was part of Team Free Will with them. And like….damn if that isn’t everyone who has had to hide a part of themselves (sure, you’re probably not hiding working with the king of hell while you’re fighting a war over control of heaven) but gets that one scrap of validation from those who’ve mattered to you even though it’s all wrong. And for a moment, that validation feels better than anything, but you’re gonna hate it later because it’s not true

Fuck. The hurt on Dean’s face once he realizes all his faith and loyalty, all the times he defended Castiel to Sam and Bobby…and Cas was lying the whole time

“You don’t think I know what this is about? The big lie. The Winchesters still buy it. The good Cas. The righteous Cas. As long as they still believe it, you get to believe it” also punches me in the gut.

Cas threatening to tear down his entire arrangement with Crowley if any harm comes to the Winchesters thoooooooough “I’m still and angel, and I will bury you”

Castiel watching Dean rake leaves and deciding against asking him to sacrifice more after he’d already done so much. 😭😭😭😭

Honestly, Crowley’s version of hell IS effective. It’s just one long line you have to wait in, and the moment you get to the front, you find yourself all the way at the back again. THAT’s torture

Crowley really knows how to stroke egos…Cas went from being disgusted by being asked to basically be the next Lucifer to agreeing to this arrangement in one 5 minute conversation. And all he had to do was hit on a few topics: Cas not wanting to reverse everything Team Free Will worked so hard for, saying god chose Castiel for this (which really isn’t helped by the fact that he was inexplicably brought back and then a whole bunch of angels looking to him to lead, too).

The next scene where they trap Cas in the ring of fire is so tense but then Dean breaks it (at least from an audience perspective) by saying “you know who spies on people, Cas? Spies.” Boy, bye.

Bestie, like you weren’t working FOR Crowley just earlier this season. Oh? You had reasons? You think Castiel doesn’t??

Babes, that’s all you do, make deals with devils. Don’t lie, Dean. Literally why is it only a problem when Castiel does it??

BUT LITERALLY WHAT WOULD THEY HAVE DONE TO HELP??? I know I know Crowley said to not underestimate the Winchesters, that that was a mistake Lucifer, Michael, Lilith, and Azazel made, but so many of those were when the boys were extra special. They’re not meant to be vessels for two extremely powerful angels now.

And even in this moment when it all unravels and no one trusts him and he can’t move more than two feet in any direction, he still tells them to run to save them

That scene’s so heartbreaking. Cas and Dean standing in front of an (incorrectly) angel-proofed window at Bobby’s having to come to terms with their irreconcilable differences, wishing the other would just listen

The number of times he’s called himself a fallen angel and yet ends this episode crying and pleading his father to just give one sign that he’s doing the right thing. Just one word would either give him the courage to do what he needs to do or back down from what he’s doing. And he gets nothing.

“Been On My Mind…”: none. Also…I went back and I skipped 5 in the countdown? So we’re gonna hold steady at 2

(Now I’m gonna watch it again for funsies)