#imi's wine night

[luvhughes43]

soft launch | quinns gf au

[quinns gf au 📖]

note: sydney & alicia are rosemarys friends the fics just haven't come out yet

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jackhughes HBD old man

_quinnhughes old ? boy...

lhughes_06 happy birthday

rosemary happy birthday!

user35 is that a girl ?

user41 he has friends literally be serious who cares

user50 the aesthetic and cohesion of this post.... ohh he 100% has a gf

user26 don't say this!! i'll cry if it happens😭😭

rosemary

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rosemary lovers lane <3

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_quinnhughes you're gorgeous ❤️

sydney cutie girl

alicia lovee youu

user00 the prettiest! miss u ro

rosemary

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rosemary you could say that renovations are going well

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_quinnhughes my foot is still bruised from the shelf you dropped

rosemary i am soo sorry about that but look how cute it turned out!

rosemary i bought bath bombs and cooked spaghetti as an apology

_quinnhughes im omw

sydney omfg it looks so good! i'm gonna come shopping tomorrow!

user00 Love the new renovations! Your grandparents would be so proud Rosemary!

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months later...

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rosemary sweetheart summers💐📝

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_quinnhughes 💐💐

sydney obsessed with you

alicia cuties !!

trevorzegras 🤐🛸

user57 QUINN?? THE NOTE?? OMFG??

user68 girl what's it like being quinns gf?

user41 this HAS to be his gf omfg likee his comment??

user02 she's so pretty ugh he won

_quinnhughes

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_quinnhughes best summer yet 💐

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rosemary my favourite ily 💘

_quinnhughes i love you❤️

jackhughes sap

lhughes_06 congrats man!

user71 never thought i'd see the day where quinn would post pics of his gf...

user42 im. hyperventilating.

user86 oh..

user53 SHOULDVE BEEN ME...

user90 you guys are so cute!! congrats

user23 HE .. LOVES.. HER..

user19 youre like 15 relax. he was never gonna date u!😭

user21 ohh rough day for the hughes girls (me) 😭😭

rosemary

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rosemary my last few days in michigan have me in my feels

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_quinnhughes already counting down the days till i'm back in van with you

rosemary youre not the only one! my grandpa keeps asking when you can come visit😭🫶

_quinnhughes booking my flight back right now

jackhughes come back any time!

rosemary i don't think i want to leave😭

trevorzegras what are the plans for ur last night?

_quinnhughes you're not invited!

trevorzegras oh 🧍‍♂️

jacksgf pls don't leave me alone with the boys😭🙏

rosemary i'm sorry🫠💘

sydney on the bright side i can't wait for u to come home! imy!

rosemary i miss you too! night in when i get back ?

alicia ohh i'll bring the wine!

user09 THE cutest couple

user61 the last pic🫠 you guys are so damn cute

i'm so sorry this took me so long to post... i hope you guys like it!🫂

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[pepperful-qt]

HEHE I LOVED UR KONOHA AND KOMORI GEN HCS ... SPARE BF HCS 🥺🥺

AHHH IM GLAD YOU LIKED THEY DESERVE THE LOVE I'LL DO MY BEST

Komori:

good morning and good night texts everyday without fail. usually they're accompanied by a little inspirational quote or I love you note

also leaves little sticky notes in random places for you to find (your backpack, car seat, bedside table etc)

knows how to braid hair (i also hc him having a sister, probably younger)

loves taking selfies with you. changes his lockscreen to a new one every week

if you're not photogenic or you get uncomfortable, it'll be a candid one

surprise dates! he loves picnics especially

loves making you smile. whatever it takes.

jokes, gifts, kisses, tickles, he can do it all

probably not the biggest fan of FaceTime but he'll take pictures of wherever he is, what he's eating, blurry photos of sakusa glaring into the camera trying to grab his phone

he's great at snapchat. he could also be an instagrammer or blogger if he wasn't the #1 libero in the nation apprect him cowards

cooking/baking dates!! he's pretty messy to sakusa's displeasure but it's always cute when you get flour all over each other

another cute selfie/new lockscreen 🥺

Konoha:

Target/grocery store dates at 9:30pm before the store closes. lots of irresponsible purchases and decisions

you guys will make popcorn and go down youtube rabbitholes together until your eyes bleed or the sun comes up, it's 50/50

wins vending machine prizes for you and acts all cocky about it (he's good at all the games actually. cut down his ego pls)

enjoys watching you struggle to reach things high up. not so subtly checks out your stretched form before coming up behind you to get it and whisper "need some help shorty?"

elbow him in the ribs

throws things at you to get your attention (harmless things like paper balls) just to tell you he's hungry, or that he loves you

you lounge together in the weirdest positions with your limbs tangled together. like how are you comfortable no one understands

you sit in his lap while you play video games together (or you watch if that's your preference) and sometimes you'll "accidentally" block his view and he'll pull your hair in annoyance

when you're just vibing together to some jams in the kitchen expect a spontaneous dance. he grabs your hand and wrist and pulls you close while you both laugh

[badbihk]

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yourusername omg i can’t believe y’all actually caught this on camera😂 ANYWAYS come see us in Houston tonight @jackharlow #comehomethekidsmissyoutour

alexiademie stunning🤎

⤷ yourusername thank you my love😘 imy

urbanwyatt YALL HEARD THE LADY!!! COME SEE US TONIGHT @ 6

babymommay/n ugh she looks so good😩 I can’t believe tickets sold out so fast

⤷ yourusername I will be on a solo tour this summer👀

jackharlow proud of you. thank you again🖤

⤷ jackharlowspoison idk why he even had her opening for him???? He could’ve had anyone😔

⤷allaboutjack I was thinking the same thing😂😂

⤷ urbanluvr123 she probably fucked him

mariahthescientist love you girl😘

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You put the phone down after reading all of the comments. The fact that people think you fucked Jack just to be able to open a show had you ready to leave the tour all together. You had worked your ass off since 18 producing and making your own music. You didn’t need to open for Jack but you did it as a favor. Neelam had been your manager for about a year when you first got famous. After Jack’s opening act pulled out she called you. As much as you didn’t want to; you knew you owed her. Without her you wouldn’t be as far as you are now. You took a deep breath and left your dressing room. Jack was already waiting at the door.

“Jack what do you want” you muttered as you walked past him.

“ I saw the comments. I know you are here doing a favor for Neelam and that you were on a break from music. I just wanted you to know I appreciate you” he said while following behind you.

“ I appreciate your that but it’s not your problem what people think. I have to go. I’m on in five but thanks” you said while getting your mic put on.

Jack sighed as he started walking away. He felt bad you were getting shit on. Especially after he had kissed you last night.

———————————-Last night———————————

The night air was cool as you sat on the balcony of jacks hotel room. Jack had the blanket tightly wrapped around the both of you. Jack was on his fourth drink while you sipped your wine. “You wanna smoke?” You asked while pulling a preroll out from your bag and looking at him sheepishly. “ you tryna get me fucked up tonight” he chuckled while taking the preroll from your hands and lighting it.

“ thank you for coming out with me. I seriously can’t believe we have sold out every concert so far this tour and I truly believe that’s because you are here with us” Jack said while taking a couple of hits and passing it back to you..

You giggled as the hitting the blunt. That wine was definitely starting to sink in.

“ it’s all good. I’m actually having a lot of fun. I decided to take a break because I feel like this industry is so crazy sometimes. Having all eyes on you at all times. It’s easier to focus on my music when I don’t have to deal with all the bullshit.” You put the blunt down and looked out at the city. It was stunning. You looked over at Jack but his eyes were already locked on you. He looked beautiful as the moonlight shined on his face. It complimented all his features beautifully.

“ don’t look at me like that” Jack says as he chuckles and takes another sip of his drink.

“Like what?” you question looking at him with a smirk.

“ like you want me to kiss you” Jack stated as he planted a kiss on your forehead. He then stood up and reached his hand out to help you up from your seat. You took his hand as he pulled you up into his chest. You both stood there for a minute just enjoying the warmth of each other.

“ i should really go. We have a busy day ahead of us tomorrow” you stated will while squeezing past him and opening the door that led to his hotel room.

“ it’s late but you don’t have to. We could watch some movies and just hangout” he says while following you into the room and plopping on the king sized bed.

“ Jack look you are a sweet guy but we both know if I stayed here tonight it wouldn’t just be movies and hanging out” rolling your as you stood between his legs. He was truly the best man you’ve ever been around. You couldn’t help but just study his face. His cheeks were flushed from the alcohol. His eyes were low and a deep red from the blunt y’all had just killed. His curls were messy from him running his hands through them.

“Look Y/N im not sure if it’s just because I’m fucked up but” he paused and ran his hands through his hair. Jack couldn’t sit here and act like he didn’t want, no need, your lips on his. He slammed his lips on yours. Kissing you like you were his lifeline. He wraps his hands around the back of your thighs and pulls you on top of him. You were now straddling him and you couldn’t help yourself from grinding yourself on his already hard dick. There was a loud knock on the door that caused you to quickly jump off of him and adjust your shorts that has ridden up your thighs. Jack stood up and walked towards the door opening it. Urban strolled in with two bags of McDonald’s

“ Hey Jack…… Y/N” he said while looking between the both of you. “ I didn’t know you were here” he said while placing the food on the small table that was in the room.

“ yeah uh I was just leaving” you said while shuffling to the door. “ goodnight Urban and um Jack. I’ll see y’all tomorrow”

You quickly walked out the door shutting it behind you.

“ was it just me or was she acting weird” urban said while opening the bags of food. “ anyways I got us ice cream too”.

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The show was absolutely amazing. Of course it sold out. You sang your heart out and Jack killed it like always.

Everyone was headed back to the hotel since the next show was only a few hours away. The plan was to leave in the morning. Jack had offered to give you a ride back as soon as he was done meeting a few fans. You were hesitant to agree but decided to say fuck it.

After about an hour and a half of mindlessly scrolling through your phone you received a text.

Jackman🧸

Hey pretty girl. I’m getting the car now meet me out front.

You rolled your eyes; he was such a flirt. You gathered your stuff and headed outside where he was already outside. You hopped in and didn’t say a word to him. Truthfully you didn’t know how to feel. You were already getting shit on for people thinking you fucked him to get where you at. Plus the fact that you WANT him had you second guessing everything. Maybe you shouldn’t have taken the offer in the first place.

“Y/N you’ve been quite the whole ride. You good?” He asked while looking over at you. His hands were gripping the wheel so tight his knuckles were white.

“ yeah I’m good sorry just think I’m still a little hangover” you said while looking out the window.

Jack takes a sharp right turn into a empty grocery store parking lot.

“ Jack what the f—”

“ look if this is about last night I’m sorry. We were both drunk and high as fuck. I shouldn’t have kissed you but I don’t want shit to be awkward between us. We can just forget it even happened if that’s what you want”

You didn’t know what to say. I mean what could you say? You couldn’t deny there was a connection but this just wasn’t the right time to explore this new feeling. You couldn’t feed into the rumors about fucking your way to the top. If anyone even found out y’all kissed it would spread like a wildfire.

“ j-just forget I even said anything” Jack said as he pulled back on the road and headed to the hotel.

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You rolled over and looked at the clock next to your bed.

1:32

Fuck. You had been back at your room for almost 3 hours and couldn’t sleep. What Jack said kept replaying in your head. Why should you have to limit yourself to please the fucking internet? You know what fuck that. You got out of bed and put on some sweatpants and headed out.

*knock*

Jack groaned as he heard the knock on the door. Who the fuck was coming to his room this late. He walked to the door and opened it

“ urban I swear to god it’s too late to deal with your bullshit”

“ hey Jack” you said as you squeezed in the small opening of the door.

“ why are yo-”

“ look Jack I know I didn’t say anything earlier. Truthfully I didn’t know what to say. I don’t want people to think I fucked you to be able to come on this tour. Then again why the fuck would I care? I don’t know what this is or where it’s going but it’s SOMETHING. I like you and I want to see where this go-” Jack cut you off with a rough kiss slamming you against the hotel door. You run your hands through his hair and wrap your legs around his waist.

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Okay y’all not too much on me now…… this is my first try😂😂😂😘

[nyc-cyn-angel]

Some photos from the weekend before my life changed forever. Ignorant bliss upstate 10/02/21-10/03/21. We stayed at the Glenn Falls House. On Saturday night, as I was drinking wine by the fire, Genesis and I chatted through Instagram. Someone had created a fake phishing account using her photos and she was trying to make sure it would be deleted. I reported it. She told me she had finally found a home off the Morgan stop and wanted me to visit. She asked when I was free to have lunch or dinner. I told her that we should do it that week on, Thursday. Her last message to me was IMY (I miss you). She went to a rave with her friends on Sunday, 10/03/21. Her memorial in NY happened that Thursday, 10/07/21. I made sure to help with the arrangements on behalf of my brother. I made sure that the slideshow was as perfect as possible through my tears. I made sure we had the most beautiful flower arrangements we could find given the short notice. I made sure to make all the travel arrangements needed for her to be buried in North Carolina. I made sure to write a speech that celebrated the woman she is and all she meant to me and everyone else. I made sure to not cry while I gave my speech. I made sure we’d have enough flowers in North Carolina for her burial. I barely slept that week, maybe 2-3 hours. I never thought I would be producing my 23 year old niece’s funeral. She was buried on Saturday, October 9, 2021.

[10boys]

MLQC : Oral (receving)

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Gavin:

-Ugh ok so Gavin is 100% a giver

-He loves you more than life literally and theres nothing he wouldn’t do to show you.

-Naturally , hes a super bashful guy and gets a bit embarrassed when its time for he himself to be taken care of. He’s so used to being responsible for others that showing his vulnerability is something that took time, which you gladly gave him. You and Gavin have such a comfortable bond now he could do anything infront of you but ya know only things that make him look cool infront of you

-He came to your house superr late at night since after being on one of his week-long missons, still in uniform and smelling of “outside” to his airborn location

-after quick ilys and imys you offer him a shower to wined him down of his journeys

-The moment he stepped in and left you alone with your thoughts, they went wild

-His thick body fit into his uniform so well, his chest heaving from fatigue of his flight. His masculine smell filled your nose when you first embraced, the same one emanating from his steamy shower. Your thighs twiched as you imagined his body elongated and streached out to wash himself in the shower. His musclier arms reached above to rub the conditioner into his hair, the white bubbles dripping down his muscles coming together in the creases of his back. They’d dip into his V-line , as if showing your eyes where to go. Just as your were getting to the most delicious spot..

-“Babe..what are you looking at?”

-Actions speak louder than words......

-He layed beneath you on the bed as you kissed and sucked at his neck and ears. His fresh wet scent was tantalizing, his skin was soft and delicate beneath your fingertips. He held a tight grip on your waste, seemingly trying to keep you close as possible to him.

-Feeling your breast smothered onto his chest , nipples supply poking into his skin made the heat rush to his dick at an unbelievable speed

-Gavin has a very...active imagination. A small peak at your collar bones or the back of your lower thighs and he already has a saucy full-body image of you in his head. Saying something vaguely suggestive to him is the equivalent of your whimpers in his ear. You’ve ever wondered why those cheeks are always red?

-Plus the boys just super horny in general lol he always wants saucy times when hes with you. You don’t even have to ask and at the blink of an eye he’s shirtless ( he loves being shirtless for you ‘baby pls look at my hot bod pls love me the most’ )

-He poked you from beneath his navy boxers, hips slightly bucking into you as you continued to grope as suck at his neck and chest. His face flushed pink as his head started to cloud in his light waves of pleasure.

-As you began to kiss him lower, golden eyes poured into your own. He watched the way your lips connect and parted with his skin, leaving sheen pelts of spit his torso. Your tongue danced down his happy trail as you sucked light purple circles onto his lower abdomen.

-Gavin is a grunt and groner. He’s still shy, so he’ll be quiet at the beginning, but its hard to keep his cool when your figure is present to use at his leasure. Heavy breaths and pants will escape as he lets himself roam. His hands will never stay in the same spot when you’re around...They’ll start on your thighs, then to your waste, then your chest, then behind your head, then back to your chest, then to your ass, waist and chest, thighs and chest you get the idea

-Actually, most of the moans you hear from him are simply cause he failed at holding them in

-Btw Gavins v gentle with you but his ass grabs are superr hard. He probably just gets carried away at the sensation of it filling his palm but you usually still feel his grip long after he’s let go.

-He just wants to be everywhere, to take and claim all of you.

-You kiss and smell along his length, palming him over his briefs. The smell was so intoxicating you couldn’t help but clench your thighs, trying to create a heat of your own. You quickly disregard of his boxers revealing his beautiful fully erected cock. Pre-cum dribbes down as the cold hair hits his tip, or maybe cause the view of your face so close to his cock is just that hot.

“Mmm Babe stop looking” srry baby ur just so beautiful. Ofc you can’t look for long without him getting bashful.

-He has a large vein ranging from ball to tip and it feels amazing when you run your tongue across it. Like Victor, Gavin loves watching you play with it. Its almost too much for him to watch. Lick him all around with as much spit on your tongue as you can get, kiss his tip with his balls in your hand. And for the sake of our boy make alllll the dick-sucking noises too- They’re his favorite. He even trys to stay quiet to hear them better.

-You don’t tease Gavin as much as you do the others. Although he would take it for you, hes way too impatient. He’s got great stamina from his daily workouts and could fuck for years, but his first nut usually comes rather quickly. Like i said, it doesn’t take much to rile him up.

-A wet mouth and hollow cheeks get the job done for him. His grip in your hair is kinda massage like, he rakes along your scalp in un-rythmic patterns. In other words, he totally fucks up your hair everytime.

-In usual circumstances, your body is usually draped over him in the 69 position while you suck. Gavin absolutely, and i mean absolutely loves the smell of pussy. He is 100% a panty stealer. He loves to have your backside smothering his face as he thrusts up into your mouth. The smell is absolutely engulfing to him, he can’t help to suck at you from over your panties.

-But for sessions created just for catering to him, he likes to sit on the edge of the bed with your naked body quivering below him. He likes watching the liquids from your mouth dribbling off your chin to rest on your bouncing chest. But his favorite part is your legs spread wide for him exposing your opened heat. His tongue often peaks out in in-voluntarily licking motions before he can bite his lips. Your clit is his eye candy as he thrusts himself closer to his release.

-Typically lf hes layed across the bed he uses his forarm to hide his erotic faces from you he must not know how orgasmic you find them

-Gavins orgasims come on strong, erupting a deep growl from his throat as he shoots his loud into your mouth. His tense face softens , eyebrows rising showing his state of complete bliss. He stiffens, holding you down on him until his very last wave.

-Once he’s done, he releases his grip resulting in an erotic view of his white semen spilling out from your mouth, it drips down onto your breast piling up with the rest of your liquids. Your wattering eyes look up into his sending an intense blush across his cheeks

-If Gavin were in an anime he would be the boy with massive nose bleeds when he see’s you

-ooh no he’s horny again

-yes he will clean u up first

Kiro:

- Kiro is also a giver in theory

- Now dont get me wrong- this bright bubbly ball of sunshine loves to give his acts of service to you, but he is , very much so, a boy. He loves when you go down on him, he loves being the center of your attention and all your gestures.

-Kiros definitely a pint up boy- going from show to show and interview to interview, he barley has enough time to sleep let alone relive himself. When you two first got together, he was very modest and a bit shy to show his manly desires for you. He respects you for being such an important person in his life, having ungodly thoughts about you made him feel like a nasty boy. But as time passed and you escalated in your intamacy, he is absolutely shameless in letting you know what he wants or if he’s ‘in the mood~” “babee.. stop working..i wanna play~” “Those shorts look very good on you miss chips...so... short”

-Kiro doesnt talk much to let you know what he wants anyway, in fact, one glance into those ocean blue orbs and you know his intentions. He’ll act super cutesy at first, slowly inching his body closer to yours for ‘innocent cuddles’. Kiro is a very hands-on affectionate, so this part was normal. But soon his hands will start to wonder and grope while a devious smirk spreads across his face he knows you see him as a sweet little angel and he will play that role to his advantage

-He’ll nuzzle his head into your chest demanding you take notice to his actions like a freaking puppy, And once you lower your gaze to find his figure latched around yours, his seemly sensual orbs pour into you, sending you notice of his want for you. When kiro uses his cuteness to fight for dominance he will always win.Always. And you’re okay with that.

-Kiros not necessarily shy about his noises for you , especially after all the praises you’ve whispered to him about how good they sound. He’ll moan and whimper to you as your hands massage his length over his boxers, peppering kisses down his neck and across his chest. Your kisses feel like heaven to him, leaving small waves of heat at every peck and nibble left on him.

-With that said, when you start kissing and sucking at his lower abdomen , his mouth immediately hangs releasing a steady breathy moan for you. The view when you looked up at him was godly..

-Kiros pleasure face is absolutely erotic. His pleasure state in general is mouth watering. His eyes are dark and low, his face twists and contorts, he grabs at everything; His hair, the sheets, the pillows, you, anything that might fall into his grasp is being pulled and scratched at. As much as you would love to spend all your time planting kisses on his skin, you quickly relocate to different spots making sure not to leave any marks. Kiros shirt lifts a considerable amount of times from him jumping around on stage, so its better not to ruin any of his fans’ day by new-found knowledge of his intamacys. This service is for you but that is fan-service for them.

-Kiro loves being teased :)

-Blow your heat onto his head from over his boxers for a easy and quick way to wake up little kiro. Kiss him around the spots he wants you too, and make sure to keep eye contact. He gets super off from you watching him he just loves attention

-Please pay all attention to his balls. Lick them up and down for a while with his legs spread wide, nibble and suck at them. This will make his hips a thrusting mess as he trys to create more friction for himself.

-He’ll use his own hand to push his dick in your mouth, but first, he’ll watch as you lay there mouth wide and tongue hung for him. He’ll press his tip against your face, letting it roll over all your features. He lets out a soft giggle before letting the tip roll over your hot wet tongue. The wave immediately made his cock twich infront of you, a dribble of pre-cum leaking from his tip.

-Kiro is def a hand holder. Pls expect him to want your fingers interlocked to bring a loving gesture to your vile actions. He’s internally lovey-dovey during sex. Even if he’s not verbally spitting soft phrases at you, his mind is filled with fluffy thoughts of you “ahh.. so pretty” “she uses her mouth so good..” “she’s so lovely” “im so lucky” “..m-more there...ah...perfect” “i love her so much”

-Kiro nuts very well <3

- The boys orgasims...are mighty. His hip thrusts might get a little rough as his head fills with waves of pleasure, subconsciously bobbing your head down a little harder than intended. Short moans tumble over eatch other as his breath quickens considerably. He trys his hardest to keep his eyes open, the view of you teary-eyed engulfing his length is enough to finish him and it does .

- A few more deep sucks and his back arches, his body stiffens as waves of hypnotizing pleasure take him over. His moans were as pretty as his singing coming close, but as the shocks of heated kisses reminisce through his nerves , he sits silent, mouth hung open only to release small high-pitched gasps and a maybe dribble of drool.

-As he comes down from his high he’ll wipe your face and spit beautiful praises at you. He’s a fluff after sex so expect lots of mushy gushy cuddles and pillow talk <3

“Wow...that was the best one...”

“you said that the last time...and the time before...”

“Yeah !!! Until next time too~ !!”

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Yayyy the continuation is done! Pls lmk what you think, and my ask is currently open ! Gavins is a bit short cause he’s my fav, so im a perfectionist in representing his image lol. Will add the links once im off work -Myk

[leggypuppy]

An Ascension Incarnassial, Pt.2

Ao3

Which Both Begins And Ends With The Introduction Of A Stranger

July 18th

Appt. P.L. 20/07. 4.15 Long St. Cafe

July 20th

L. St. Caff not at all improved since last and only visit. Still apparently constructing their pastries from cardboard. Would rather have met somewhere more comfortable, but such details decidedly not left in my hands. 

Had consumed two coffees and three abominable pastries by the time the hairs on the back of the neck began to stir. Turn around to find self pinioned by a real harpoon of a gaze. Am not the most observant of fellows, but am certain wielder of said ocular weaponry was not there on own arrival. Clearly, had located P.L. Or rather, she, I.

Introductions exchanged. Quiet woman. Smiled a lot. Very small, very thin teeth. Surprisingly cold for having such a genial air. Seemed to know Papa better than I did. Such a fact much less surprising. Also no great shock to hear it intimated he was seeking pleasures “denied to healthy society.” Well, Father dear, aren’t we all?

That admission is made here in the privacy of shorthand. Didn’t take kindly to P.L.s employment of hated phrase, ‘finish what he started’. Still. She was still. Stillness speaking to a memory of a dream. 

Accepted her proposal. If nothing else, have never regretted hearing the phrase ‘substantial contribution’. Her conditions trouble me a little. Shall be not providing myself for an ending. Can read between the lines there well enough. But, with her gold-and-silver aid, shall be well appointed to set the right tongues wagging. Winter shall give way to the red. 

Besides! Am not so without friends or means. After all, the house shall be the perfect setting for acquiring new acquaintances. Shan’t have any problems providing P.L. with her ending. All shall be well.

July 21st

Horrific news! 

The house is to be taken to pay for debts. Have put down the foot, shouted at those accessible for shouting at, even threatened the deployment of Aunt M. Nothing results. Apparently even the formidable bulwark of matriarchal relatives cannot divert the tide of capital from it’s decided course. Bastards. 

Am left with nothing but the meagre sum in the will. Donation of P.L. shall only stretch so far, and at present am lacking in sufficient sway with Ori’s numismatists to develop it to fullest capacity. Only viable solution is to find employment*. 

Intolerable! Not to mention downright cruel! Can a bereaved man not mourn his lunatic pater in peace???

*[E/N: the underlining in the original document appears to have gone right through the paper]

July 26th

Found work. Start tomorrow. Humiliating. Do not wish to record details. Posterity can gain more satisfaction and insight by reflecting on its own posterior. 

July 26th [evening]

IN GI RUM IMUS NOC TE ET CON SUMI MUR IGNI

Now there is a lump of the roman tongue that hasn't escaped or withered on the vine! Might be the only lump. Answer, naturally, is moths. Shall commiserate my new career in fashion that best befits it. 

[Editors note: The next few pages are densely packed with writing, but unfortunately entirely illegible. Ink appears to have been spilled across one page, and several pages underneath it have been torn out. Text resumes]

July 28th

A mess! Mistakes may reveal themselves a pleasure, but pleasure gained is never mistaken. Excuse handwriting. Not entirely cohesive on page still. Head all full of sights and sounds and sores. Much so that last one. Fuck. 

***

Feeling a little clearer. Less dazzle, more hangover. Shall attempt here to recollect last night. Wouldn’t normally bother, but met someone am keen to remember. 

Am rather put out that Ecd. unknown to me for so long. Stepped over threshold to welcoming embrace of smoke, red velvet, music thrum-thrumming through the feet to the chest. Didn’t know a single soul there. Bought drink, set about fixing that. 

Dancers there superb, of no other persuasion than lithe and rhythmbound. Not unexpected, but beyond welcome. Nothing wrong with the fair and feminine, but variety is the spice etc etc. However. Had this display to enjoy, was enjoying, promising company developing next to me, and yet- 

Begins to get a little blurry here. Remember a face, very clearly. Strong profile, no feature short of striking. Little hollows of shadow. Lips set smiling, almost bored. Eyes all blazed with low lights. Hunger there, I think, well hid. 

Decided to talk to him. No memory if I did. Other images swim together, glasses and lights and someone’s kisses, yes, but lipstick stains suggest not his. Cannot shake the feeling of something missed, or dead, or drowning. 

Cannot sit still. Need a focus to prevent the mind from eating itself. Perhaps employment not such a foul thing after all?

***

Found note pinned to door. Services apparently no longer required. No patience at all, some people. 

***

Tried to exorcise the remembered face by sketching it. Abysmal results. 

Refuse to sit here and mope like a caricature in one of F.’s beloved pulps. IN GI RUM IMIS NOC TE ET CON SUMI MUR IGNI. The night is to be enjoyed as much as wine. May find him again, may not. But no part of my soul do I owe to ghosts.

[tyrantdk]

Per’a’ah and the Small Tailor

This is a lil oneshot of smth I may expand on in some form later. 1001 Nights inspired. 

Yugi tossed the length of lightweight black silk out before him. The palace seamstresses had given him Per’a’ah’s measures, and he was determined to save these women. He was going to use his talents as a tailor to save them. Yugi heard the commotion as someone important entered the main room of the Ipet.

Atem looked around the Ipet, beauties filling the room, and one lone man on the covered patio. He stalked over to him, wondering what he was doing with the black cloth. The flash of a white bone needle and black thread clued him in. “Hello, Small Concubine. What are you doing over here, all by yourself?”

“Making Per’a’ah a cloak. There's nothing else to do in the Ipet, so I thought I'd make a gift,” Yugi said absently as he stitched a sleeve onto the base of the cloak.

“It seems fairly plain.”

“I'm just starting on your cloak, Per’a’ah. I haven't even gotten to embroider any designs into it.”

Atem sat down beside him, reaching over to feel the silk. It was soft and light against his fingers, and cool from the shade, “I have never felt silk this light.”

“The spinning process is a family secret,” Yugi replied, finally turning to look at Per’a’ah.

Atem gasped softly, surprised by this smaller man. He was radiant in the reflecting light from the nearby pond, “How...how did you get into my Ipet?”

“I asked,” Yugi replied, “I thought you might like a change in scenery,” He waved behind them to the many women watching them warily. Yugi turned back to his sewing, using tiny stitches to create strong seams, “Is there any pattern you would like to have embroidered into the fabric?”

“Papyrus flowers,” Atem replied, looking out over to the water, “They are my favorite.”

Yugi nodded, “I should be done at sundown.”

“That is fast!”

“May I ask a boon, if I finish at sundown?”

“What kind of boon?” Atem asked, eyeing Yugi warily.

“One of these women goes home.”

“Deal,” Atem vowed, stunned that Yugi asked for nothing for himself.

“Thank you. Return at sunset and I shall have the cloak ready for you.”

“Thank you, Small Concubine,” Atem rose, sensing a dismissal. He retreated a few steps, turning back to watch Yugi. He nodded to himself.

Atem strode into his Ipet, locating his small tailor quickly. He had only moved into the main room since Atem had last seen him. The cloak was beautiful, hand embroidered papyrus flowers flowing around the edge of the sleeves, and around the bottom. Ibis birds flew around the black silk. “Beautiful, Small Concubine,” He said as he moved over to the other.

“Good eve, Per’a’ah. I'm almost done, just a few more stitches. Then you can try it on, make sure it fits properly,” Yugi said, not looking up as he worked.

Atem placed his goblet of wine down on a nearby table, “Such skilled hands. I wonder what else they can do.”

“You'll have to summon me to your bed to find out,” Yugi replied, finishing the embroidery. He cut the strings, and shook the cloak out, “Here, try it on.”

Atem unclasped the light cape from around his neck, replacing it with the cloak. It was lighter than his cape! He held his arm up to the dying light of Ra. It was sheer without looking like it, or gauzy, “Such craftsmanship needs to be rewarded, separate of our deal.”

“Saving one of the women is good enough.”

Atem held his hand out to Yugi. His palm was warm as it slid into his, soft too. He pulled him up from the divan, into his arms. Atem pressed his face into Yugi's hair; he inhaled his scent, “You smell like earth after the Nile floods.”

“Thank you? I guess?” Yugi said, “Are you drunk?”

“I only have one goblet of wine at night. I like your scent.”

“Ok. Let's get you back to your room. I don't think you’re feeling well,” Yugi moved away from Per’a’ah, who followed eagerly. He snagged the cape along the way; gently he helped Per'a'ah back to his rooms, “I'll take my leave.”

“No. Stay with me, my Small Concubine. I do not want to sleep alone tonight,” Atem said, removing his jewelry, and clothing. He wrapped the cloak around him, and sprawled out on the bed, “Come lay with me.”

Yugi climbed slowly up onto the bed, taking a moment to remove his shoes. He let Per’a’ah’s arms wrap around him, and pull him back against his chest.

Atem moaned as a muscle spasmed in his back. He buried his face in Yugi's hair, surrounding himself with his scent.

“Per’a’ah, let me take care of that. I have talented hands, remember?” Yugi wiggled his way out of Per’a’ah’s hold. He made him lay on his belly, and straddled Per’a’ah’s waist. Yugi dug his hands into his shoulders, massaging the tense muscle, “Such stress you must have!”

Atem groaned deeply, the tension fleeing his body at Yugi's hands, “Such are the burdens I carry, my Small Tailor. The weight of Khemet is on these shoulders.”

“Is there someone you share the burden with?” Yugi frowned when Per’a’ah shook his head. He leaned forward to press his head between Per’a’ah’s shoulders, “You can share them with me.”

“Thank you, Jewel,” Atem mumbled, his eyes closing, “Please stay,” He managed to say before falling asleep.

Yugi paused, smiling, as he pulled Per’a’ah’s hair from his face, “Sleep well, Imi-ib,” He pressed a butterfly kiss to Per’a’ah’s cheek.

Atem woke up tucked under the thin blanket, a soft pillow under his head. Yugi slept soundly beside him, a few bolts of silk scattered in his lap. Atem snuggled closer to him as he buried his face into his neck.

“Good morn, Per’a’ah,” Yugi said groggily. He moved the bolts of silk aside, shifting to lay against Per’a’ah better.

“Hush,” Atem replied, “Tis the rest day, and you will lay here with me.”

“How will I make you another cloak, if I am to lay here?” Yugi asked, a teasing tone in his voice.

“Stay in the bed while you work.”

“Alright. Do you have a color here you like?”

“The red,” Atem said, tightening his arms around Yugi, “Will you embroider the symbols of Set on it?”

“Yes, Per'a'ah,” Yugi unrolled the bolt, the silk flying out over his legs.

Atem rose slightly, pulling the cloth from Yugi's hands, “Wait a little longer before starting,” He kissed his little tailor, pulling him close, “Come closer.”

Yugi laughed, curling as close as he dared, “Per’a’ah, how am I to finish the next cloak in time?” He asked, as Per’a’ah grasped his hands.

“I shall set every woman in the Ipet free, if you stay.”

“I will stay, Per’a’ah.”

“My Small Concubine, my jewel,” Atem said, shifting to lay across Yugi, “Forevermore.”

[arikaflanel99]

THE RAMPAGE from EXILE TRIBE - Fandango (Romaji)

We can get down oh baby we can get down… Shake it now! Shake it now! Shake it!

Sunabokori makiage fuminarasu Footwork Tamashii to tamashii ga deai tsudou basho Katagoshi temaneku imi-shin na nesshisen ga Kawaita kokoro ni hi o tsuketanara Hajimeyou

Jiyuu ni odore jiyuu ni utae Rock-shina utage o (The Fandango) Jounetsu no akai juutan no ue hajikeru Blood & wine (The Fandango)

Jiyuu ni odore jiyuu ni utae Rock-shina utage o (The Fandango) Moeagare hai ni naru made Shake it now! Shake it now! Shake it!

Azayaka ni Do the Fandango (The Fandango) Juuou mujin ni Do the Fandango (The Fandango) Misetsukero Do the Fandango (The Fandango) Furoa-goto Shake it now! Shake it now! Shake it!

INCREDIBLE Yosou ijou no soudou Asa ga kite mo Still hot THE RAMPAGE PHENOMENON Unou sanou ni honnou Zenshin ga sawagi Jump around

Shimmy shimmy ya Shimmy shimmy yeah Day & Night Tomo ni torikorouru no sora o FLY (FLY) Get ready (Ha!) Go get it (Yeah!) Narase rum pum pum pum Party up! (turn it up) The time is now

Jiyuu ni odore jiyuu ni utae Rock-shina utage o (The Fandango) Jounetsu no akai juutan no ue hajikeru Blood & wine (The Fandango)

Jiyuu ni odore jiyuu ni utae Rock-shina utage o (The Fandango) Moeagare hai ni naru made Shake it now! Shake it now! Shake it!

Azayaka ni Do the Fandango (The Fandango) Juuou mujin ni Do the Fandango (The Fandango) misetsukero Do the Fandango (The Fandango) Furoa-goto Shake it now! Shake it now! Shake it!

Azayaka ni Do the Fandango (The Fandango) Juuou mujin ni Do the Fandango (The Fandango) Misetsukero Do the Fandango (The Fandango) Furoa-goto Shake it now! Shake it now! Shake it!

Hi o tsukete Fandango 6pack ga doresu koodo Shizen to Sweat sukeru Skinny line Blue moon no Light terasu VVIP

Jiyuu ni odore jiyuu ni utae Rock-shina utage o (The Fandango) Moeagare hai ni naru made Shake it now! Shake it now! Shake it!

Azayaka ni Do the Fandango (The Fandango) Juuou mujin ni Do the Fandango (The Fandango) Misetsukero Do the Fandango (The Fandango) Furoa-goto Shake it now! Shake it now!

Azayaka ni Do the Fandango (The Fandango) Juuou mujin ni Do the Fandango (The Fandango) Misetsukero Do the Fandango (The Fandango) Furoa-goto Shake it now! Shake it now! Shake it!

[the-firebird69]

and trump got it no...and never gets it. is an ass and has hope is too old has been around for too long and this boy is bothering him. and no you wont say this either or die. and he chooses to and we hit. he dies tonight was so rotten you would scream at him he said “no i wont give his room a bad grade wont especially the boxes wont” and no i dont see that who cares and other parafanalia “on the wall directly nope”  and so and more and then jaosn and he says so what so hwat we hit you puke. and i said it too...he was confused you will no shit dummy years no no not that or that and pow you get hit and another adn you dubm fucking chmps cant keept track of simple math..so mac has you  you die mac knows they killya and oh..nad imi out and thn this you die now ok bye  bey we kill you too..and them.  faggot.he died... and looked horrible no.  was bill lund..and he said this is horrible i cant move and now am and im gign the wrong way im in a box no...im in the matrix.  no.  oh boy. wrong gate no no not there...and there he is..faking it..fake death..lol needed this ok. we hit shortly.  he wil be up in the am. though as they attack now he is groudned and  a war zone is htere.  adn tonight he will try to come back like bja all night. for your role and said this fu my role i had you hit and takendown to get at your bufu buddy too.  he smiels and says ok and ok loser you dont believe it  you sahll shortly and blaa attack...and yeh you think they are aliens lol. he smiles again got me yeh.  higher ups and then the real thing polish off armies.   and pokes someone he is talking so are you ahole  you say it all the time an your don  you said it to us. yoru done..and smiles ia m and outside they hit him just now... and then again..and pitiful. and fell wow this isi hell you rin on it with them and oh yeh sure yup tell im macno way ok dork you idiot. yeh spaz...and the three way cork setup and cork is ther egging mac on got hit and down...and spaz ok...and hit again and garth hits.  and felt good...feels good but mac is angry so i hit them for him. and now ia m aagain but ok..you out. now. gartj figths john c riell they need to konw he is rifht there and says no no we wont adn does no. and then this you take us there now and they go soon not now though he wont he laughs knows it and up first adn they run to it. to see if the emerald is there yeh skipped it for the show tons of music wine beer and more to celebrate trump retiring. Thor Freya

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bPLWBhNW3FM

[neighbourart]

FORK IMRE - street art művész/street artist

A legkedvesebb gyerekkori emléke, amikor megismerte a barátait, kedvenc tárgyai a papír és a ceruza, egy-egy külföldi graffiti turné tölti fel a leginkább, vonzódik az utópisztikus-apokaliptikus világok iránt, szereti a gulyáslevest.

His favorite childhood memory is when he met his friends, his favorite objects are paper and pencil, he is recharged the most by graffiti tours abroad, he is drawn by utopistic-apocalyptic worlds, he likes Gulyás soup.

Imi asztala/Imi’s table.

Milyen típusú emlékek inspirálnak jobban: a jók vagy a rosszak?/What kind of memories inspire you the most: good or bad ones? A rosszak. A rossz dolgokból tanulok és inspirálnak, hogy jobb legyen legközelebb. A jó dolgok inkább feltöltenek, kikapcsolnak.

The bad ones. I can learn and be inspired by the bad things, so they can be better the next time. Good things rather recharge and relax me.

Ha újjászülethetnél egy ma élő vagy már halott művész személyében, kit választanál?/If you could reincarnate as a living or dead artist, who would you choose to be? Senki más bőrébe nem bújnék. Nem voltak példaképeim, kényszerűségből tanultam művtörit is :D Ez a legszebb ebben az egészben, meg kell magunkat ismerni és ebből kihozni valami újat, végigjárni a lépcsőfokokat.

I wouldn’t want to be anyone else. I had no icons, I learned art history as a must as well. :D This is the beauty of it, we have to get to know ourselves and t make something new out of it, going through all the different phases.

Hogyan lendülsz túl az időszakos alkotói válságon?/How do you overcome a temporary artistic crisis? Mindig vannak raktáron félkész munkáim, digitális és vászonfestmények egyaránt. Mivel megvan már az alap és a vezérszál, mindig tudom folytatni, így könnyen átlendítenek a nehezebb időszakokon.

I always have half done works in stock both digital and canvas paintings as well. Since the base and the direction is there I can always go back and continue which makes it easier to get through tough times.

Kinek mutatod meg először az új alkotásodat?/Who sees your work first? A feleségemnek, ő a legnagyobb és legjobb kritikusom. Ha nála átmegy elsőre, még van pár jó barátom, akiken “tesztelem” :)

My wife, she is my biggest critic. If she approves it at first then there are a few good friends of mine who are part of the “testing”. :)

Mi a legkedvesebb gyerekkori emléked?/What is your favorite childhood memory? Amikor megismertem a barátaimat.

When I met my friends.

Mit érzel, amikor egy másik művész a tiédhez hasonló munkát készít?/What do you feel when a fellow artist creates something similar to your work? Jól esik, hogy inspirálok más alkotót.

It feels good to inspire other artists.

Mit szeretnél, hogy miről emlékezzenek majd rád?/What would you like to be remembered by? A gondolkodásomról, a szorgalmamról és kitartásomról.

My thinking, diligence, and endurance.

Gyűjtesz valamit?/Are you collecting something? Tapasztalatokat :P

Experiences :P

Kedvenc budapesti pillanat?/Favorite Budapest moment? Reggelente átvillamosozni a Margit hídon.

To cross Margit bridge on a tram in the morning.

Van olyan gyerekes szokásod, amit akkor csinálsz, amikor senki nem figyel?/Do you have any childish habits that you do when no one is watching? Nincs, nyenyenyeee :D

No, mehmehmehmeh :D

Mi volt a legnagyobb őrültség, amit eddig csináltál?/What was the craziest thing you have ever done? Négy szóban mondanám csak el: graffitihez kapcsolható éjszakai hadművelet… :D

I would describe it in 4 words: Night operation regarding graffiti… :D

Van-e napi rutinod?/Do you have a daily routine?  Igen:) Reggel közös kávé a feleségemmel, napi to do list megalkotása, összepakolok vagy nekiülök rögtön csinálni valamit. Ezután már haladok, ahogy kell egész estig, akkor állok meg, ha nagyon muszáj.

Yes :) In the morning I have coffee together with my wife, creating my daily to-do list, I tidy up or I start to work on something right away. After this I am already progressing until the night if I have to, I only stop when it’s absolutely necessary.

Kedvenc tárgyad?/Favorite object? Papír és ceruza.

Paper and pencil.

Hogyan fogsz neki egy új munkának?/How do you get started on a new project? Igyekszem az ügyféllel megbeszélni, mit szeretne, jegyzetelek, otthon friss fejjel átnézem  a jegyzeteket és felmérem az impulzusokat. Csinálok pár skiccet, vagy elkezdek dolgozni kicsit, kidolgozom a projekt főbb vonalait. Pihenek rá pár napot, van amikor többet is, ha megengedi a határidő, hogy minél frissebben és függetlenebb nézőpontból tudjak bele visszatérni. Ez ad egy új csavart a folyamatnak. Ezért is dolgozom egyszerre több projekten, ha lehet, mert elvonja a figyelmem, ha nagyon beleforognék feleslegesen 1-1 melóba.

I try to discuss with my customer their needs, I take notes, I go throw my notes at home with a clear mind, and I size up the impulses. I do a few sketches, or I start to work on it a little bit, I work out the main paths of the project. I take a rest for a few days, sometimes more than just a few if the deadline allows it, so I can get back to it with a fresh mind and to look at it from the most objective point of view as possible. This gives a new turn to the process. This is why I work on more projects simultaneously if I can because it gets my mind off of things if I get involved with a 1-1 project at a time.

Van egy jól körülhatárolható hangulat, amikor könnyebb számodra az alkotás?/Is there a particular mood that makes creating and working easier for you? Nincs:) Ügynökségi hátterem miatt meg kellett tanulnom mindig dolgozni, ha esik, ha fúj, mindig meg kellett csinálni a munkát. Ebből tanulva, elég hamar rá tudom magam venni. Bár nem tagadom, az a legjobb, amikor reggel úgy kelek, hogy érzem, aznap jó kedvvel és frissen ülök neki az éppen aktuális feladatnak.

No :) I have a background in working at an Agency, so I had to learn to work no matter what, the work had to be done. Learning from this I am capable of getting myself into business quite easily. However, I wouldn’t deny that the best is when I wake up in the morning in a good mood and I start to get work in that state of mind. :)

Sör vagy bor?/Beer or wine? Télen sör, nyáron Bor, illetve fröccs.

Beer in winter and wine summer, sorry fröccs.

Kutya vagy macska?/Dog or cat? Kutya. Szerencsére vidéken nőttem fel és volt pár jó barát kutyám - sokkal odaadóbb és barátságosabb lények. A macskák olyan önző és makacs állatoknak tűnnek :D

Dog. Fortunately I grew up on the countryside and I had several dog friends – they are friendlier and more devoted creatures. Cats seem so selfish and stubborn. :D

Mit szeretnél kifejezni az alkotásaidon keresztül?/What would you like to express through your artwork? A gondolkodásom folyamatát, a logikát, amivel átfordítok dolgokat és új környezetbe helyezem őket. Szeretem a képeimet telerakni utalásokkal, és apró részletekkel, amiken el lehet gondolkodni.

The path of my thoughts, the logic that I use to twist things and put them into new environments. I love to stuff my pictures with references and tiny details which can make someone think.

Milyen a stílusod?/What is your style like? Mechanikus és organikus ötvözet. Imádom keresztezni a minket körülvevő világot, reprodukálni élő dolgokat és összekeverni digitális formában.

The alloy of mechanic and organic. I love to hybridize the world around us, reproducing things that are alive, and mix it in a digital form.

Mi az, ami a leginkább feltölt?/What can recharge you the most? Egy külföldi graffiti turné.

A graffiti tour abroad.

Kedvenc város?/Favorite city? Berlin. Sok helyen jártam már, de ilyen benyomást egy sem tett rám. Otthon éreztem magam, a szabadság és a rengeteg lehetőség az önkifejezésre elképesztő hatással van. Alig várom, hogy visszatérjek és minél több időt eltöltsek ott.

Berlin. I’ve been to many places, but no other place has ever had such an impact on me. I feel at home, the freedom and the opportunities have an unbelievable effect on self-expression- I can’t wait to go back and to spend as much time there as I can.

Hol leszel 10 év múlva?/Where will you be in 10 years? Remélem, itthon, egy jobb és élhetőbb országban, ahol támogatják a feltörekvő nemzedéket.

I hope here at home, in a better country, where the upcoming generations are supported.

Kedvenc étel?/Favorite food? Gulyásleves. Imádom a leveseket, és a húst ez pedig mindezek remek ötvözete.

Gulyás soup. I love soups in general and meat as well and this dish is a great combination of the two.

Kedvenc évszak?/Favorite season? Tavasz. Ahogy a természet újraéled bámulatos, ilyenkor rendszeresen sétálok az erdőben, hogy lássam a folyamatot.

Spring. It’s breathtaking how nature is reborn, I regularly walk in the forest this time of the year so I can witness the process.

Mi a legrosszabb tulajdonságod?/What is your worst characteristic? Maximalista vagyok.

I am a maximalist.

Melyik korban élnél szívesen?/In which era would you prefer to live in? Hidegháború. Van egy fura perverz vonzalmam az utópisztikus/apokaliptikus világok iránt. Gyerekkoromban a Majmok bolygója 2 atombombát imádó, metró alagútban lakó, telepatikus népe megbabonázott teljesen:)

Cold war. For some weird reason, I am attracted by utopistic/apocalyptical worlds. As a child, I was mesmerized by the nation form Planet of the Apes 2 who loved the atomic bomb, lived in the subway tunnels, and communicated through telepathy. :)

Van visszatérő álmod? Miről szól? Esetleg megjelenítetted már valamelyik alkotásodban?/Do you have a reoccurring dream? What is it about? Have you ever visualized it in your art-work? Van. Visszatérő álmom, hogy lekésem a gépem Barcelonából hazafele… A vicces az, hogy sosem voltam ott, de idén remélem, összejön :)

I do. It’s about that I miss my flight from Barcelona back home…. The funny thing is that I have never been to Barcelona a before, but I hope I will go this year :)

Mi az az alkotás, amit mindenképpen meg kell csinálnod, mielőtt meghalsz?/What is that specific artwork you have to accomplish before you die? Nagyon szeretnék nagyméretű installációt/szobrot készíteni, ami egy használható szabadtéri pihenőhely, de egy hatalmas optikai illúzió is egyben és persze graffitin alapul vagy annak az eszközeivel játszik.

I would love to make a huge installation/statue which can be used as an outdoor relax place but it is an optical illusion at the same time. It would be graffiti based or it would play with its’ tools.

Ha egyetlen tanácsot kellene adni más, esetleg még kezdő tehetségeknek, mi lenne az?/If you could give one piece of advice to someone else, maybe to a beginner talent, what would it be? Gondolkozzanak logikusan, legyenek szorgalmasak és szánjanak több időt arra, hogy elérjék a kitűzött célt.

Think logically, be diligent and make time for yourselves to reach your goal.

-------------------------------- NÉVJEGY - Fork Imre:

"Fork Imre vagyok, 32 éves, Budapesten élő Urban Designer. Tizenhat éve foglalkozom a graffitizéssel, részben ez indított el a grafikusi pályán tíz éve. Egy éve tetoválóként dolgozom a Frogbite Tattooban."

"My name is Fork Imre, I am 32 years old and I am an Urban Designer living in Budapest. I have been doing graffiti for the past sixteen years and this led to the start of my path as a graphic designer. For the past year, I have been working as a tattoo artist at Frogbite Tattoo."

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[tripstations]

Here’s All the Best Stuff to Do in Mykonos and Santorini

Very lame, but I’ve always been kinda afraid of traveling. It’s not a fear of flying, but more that I was born in another country and, as such, overseas travel means a dramatic family visit weighed down with stress, guilt, and 20+ hours on a plane to Asia (where even as a 9-year-old, I was already on some shit about compression socks).

All this to say I don’t feel anything when people quit their jobs to travel the world, and follow zero travel Instagrammers. I’ve gone my entire life without ~seeing the world~ (couldn’t afford to study abroad so my personality doesn’t hinge on four months I spent in Paris, sorry!) and honestly, I would’ve been fine with that forever.

But when I got an invite to tour Mykonos and Santorini on a hotel-hopping trip with Katikies Resorts and Clubs, even *I* was like, HOLYSHITYES. After all, Santorini has been called the “Instagram Island” and when one of the top ten most Instagrammable hotels in Greece (where even Justin Bieber has stayed) invites you on a dream summer vacay, you don’t ask how they got your e-mail—you just GO before they change their minds. Anyway, here are all the fun things that impressed me the most.

First up, don’t even think about leaving without the following:

Butterfly Dress

Reformation thereformation.com

$278.00

Wide Brim Straw Hat

Sensi Studio modaoperandi.com

$295.00

Ultra Jungle Cat-Eye Sunglasses

Crap Eyewear crapeyewear.com

$79.00

Face Crème Night Time/Anytime

Cece Top

Sommer Swim sommerswim.com

$69.00

Jane Bottom

Sommer Swim sommerswim.com

$69.00

Rosemead Dress

Reformation thereformation.com

$198.00

The Bigger Carry-On

Away awaytravel.com

$245.00

Alegra Slip

Sommer Swim sommerswim.com

$219.00

Biore UV Aqua Rich Sunscreen SPF 50+

Mavic 2 Pro

DJI Mavic 2 dji.com

$1,499.00

1. Party it up at all the Mykonos clubs before going to Santorini.

If you are like me two weeks ago and have no idea how to distinguish between different Greek islands, trust when I say you’re gonna wanna do Mykonos first and then Santorini. Why? Totally different vibes. Mykonos is club central—the energy there is extremely horny, and you’ll want to get hedonistic and loose there first before calming down and sightseeing in Santorini, where everyone is coupled up. Everyone is also super hot (still thinking about you, hot passport control guy, imy), friendly, and funny.

Book Now Katikies Mykonos

In the wedding party of my dreams, we rent a bunch of private villas in Mykonos, go to Elia beach, and lounge around our private pool (IDK what’s up with the pool industry in Greece, but it seems like even two-bedroom vacay villas have ones the size of McMansions) before hitting up the two main hot spots: Scorpios and Nammos. If you’re a night owl, you will THRIVE in Mykonos: Parties usually don’t “start” until 2 a.m., and they easily last until 6. Lindsay Lohan may or may not be there.

2. Go shopping in Mykonos town.

The long, winding streets of Mykonos town are filled with little shops and scenic nooks and crannies perfect for ’gramming. Take a day to explore by foot, and add in time for a leisurely lunch and dinner.

During lunch at Kazarma, our waiter mentioned that the historic building used to be owned by Mantos Mavrogenous, a bad bitch who kept a cache of weapons and cash in the building during the Greek War of Independence. Yes, she wound up dying alone, broke from spending all her money on the war effort (for which she was never repaid), and yes, we stan.

3. Take the ferry and bop over to Santorini.

The ferry takes around four hours (compared to the one-hour flight) but offers a much more scenic route. They usually stop to pick up passengers in Naxos, Paros, and Ios, and you can go on the deck to scope out the different cities. Didn’t have time to see any ruins on your trip? The Portara is easily visible from the ferry deck and dates back to 530 BC.

When it’s time to dock in Santorini, you’ll go down into the bowels of the ferry to collect your luggage before disembarking. It’s very much like you’re in Star Wars shipping off in the belly of a giant spacecraft before the gates open and SUN! SANTORINI! JK, you can’t see anything yet because you gotta go up the cliff and settle into a hotel for that Insta-famous Santorini view.

4. Stay in a traditional cave house and appreciate the architecture.

Fun fact: All those cave-like homes you see on Insta (hyposkapha, if you want to be legit about it) are because the islanders kept getting their shit rocked by pirates in the 16th century. As a result, they had to build upward on the most precipitous cliffs they could find.

Carina Hsieh

Book Now Kirini Santorini

This is why Santorini looks and feels so different from other warm would-be-beach towns. There’s no way of just walking from your hotel to the shore—all the resorts are on top of literal cliffs. I stayed in the Kirini Santorini (Carina at Kirini! LOL invite me back pls) and it was *chef’s kiss* in terms of views.

This drone video I bribed Konstantinos Sigalas, Katikies’ social media executive, to take will help you see what I mean.

5. Go on a caldera cruise.

I’m sorry to report that my stupid ass saw a bunch of photos of the ocean in Santorini and was like, “Oh, it’s definitely like a beach town.” Folks, it ain’t!

Few beaches are accessible by foot in Santorini, so the best way to take advantage of that crystal blue Aegean is by boat. We chartered a Riva yacht (v bougie) to take us around the island and stopped where the water looked the dreamiest to pop in for a swim.

On the boat, Sigalas shared this hot blogger tip for getting the best Insta eye-candy shot: Shoot video on your phone, scroll through the video to find the perfect still, and use a screenshot of THAT to get the perfect photo. Very important: you’ll need to go into “Settings —> Camera —>” and adjust “Record Video” to “4K at 60 FPS” for the most high-res stills.

Book Now Caldera Cruise, starting at $1,600/for two passengers

6. Go swimming in the hot springs.

During your caldera cruise you should also ask the captain to make a detour to the hot springs. You’ll know you’re there because the water goes from deep blue to turquoisey-green with orange sulfur on the rocks of the inlet.

Do: Bring a pool noodle. Sorry to everyone who got tired swimming into the inlet, but our captain immediately sized up our wine-drunk asses and was like, “You probs want these.” And we did!Don’t: Wear white in the hot springs. The sulfur will fuck this up. Don’t: Wear any jewelry in the hot springs. Again, sulfur.

A fact I tried very hard to contain during my trip is that I’m the world’s pickiest eater. My definition of seafood means fish sticks from those microwave meals with the penguin, and avoiding vegetables is a firm 1/16th of my personality. But Greece, where the produce and fish are so fresh, suddenly made me the biggest tomato stan on earth, and I would step into the ring for second helpings of whatever sea creature is placed in front of me.

It also helps when everything is deliciously cooked. The restaurants are so exclusive that you usually have to be a member of the Katikies Club to dine there—although this year they opened Mikrasia (with locations in Santorini and Mykonos) and DePaul Restaurant to the public. Santorini Mikrasia has only six tables and it’s generally recommended you book a spot a few weeks in advance. The Mykonos version has more tables but is also v fancy — resident chef Angelos Bakopoulos was on Greek Master Chef. Both restos also won the FNL awards in 2018 (the Greek equivalent to the Michelin Guide).

While a lot of Santorini is Greek Orthodox, Fira town (the capital) has a Catholic church and a monastery where the Vatican would store Greek wines to be shipped to the Pope. Recently, the monastery was bought and turned into Katikies Garden. It’s the most family-friendly of the Katikies clique because there aren’t as many steep stairs. (Seriously! That’s why Santorini doesn’t have a ton of kids running around! What if they fall!)

While everything else in Santorini feels exactly like you’d picture it from postcards and Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants (sun-drenched, everything bright white), the streets of Fira have a Venetian feel. Even the building’s colors reflect this: There’s a lot of beige and pink as well as rounded archways and courtyards that feel hella Italianate.

It’s all very subtle, but the best way I can describe it is like you suddenly look up and gaslight yourself into wondering if you’re still in Greece. You are!

I’m a pretty tough spa critic (I like my massages how I like my breakups: rough, hard, and with me begging for five more minutes). Yet no treatment has ever compared to the one I got from Nicole at A.Spa. No joke, I physically felt her clear my sinuses through my back at one point. Magic.

Stop by Venetsanos Winery for a tour of the first industrial winery on Santorini. If you’re the opposite of claustrophobic, you can squeeze your bod through one of the old underground wine storage tanks and finish off your day with a breathtaking view of the caldera as you sample a bunch of delicious wines.

Contemplate the meaning of life as you stare off into the Aegean and wonder when your husband will return from Greco-Persian war.

Then, consider taking a second mortgage on the house you do not own in order to stay in Greece forever. Or at least come back next year.

If you can’t make it to Greece just yet, here’s what to buy instead:

Three Cents Pink Grapefruit Soda

Three Cents thewhiskyexchange.com

£1.25

This is the status soda of Greece. Every bar/restaurant worth visiting is stocked up on this pink stuff, and it’s in all the delicious cocktails. I may not know food, but I know my carbonated bevs, and this is GOOD. 

Oia in Santorini by Kadio Kolymva

Armos amazon.com

Super thin and stocked with tons of fascinating tidbits about Oia and Santorini. If you don’t wanna bug the hotel staff with hundreds of iterations of, “Wait, explain how they carved out all these rooms out of rock without power tools again?” like I did, this book will sate you in the best way. 

Donkey Milk Face Serum

Body Farm Greece hercules-shop.com

€32.00

Thank me later when Donkey Milk becomes a Thing in the U.S. One of the women I traveled with picked up this serum on a whim, and for the rest of the trip everyone was fascinated by how great it was. Also, Cleopatra is said to have bathed in donkey milk, so there you go. 

Korres Pure Greek Olive Body Set

You may have heard of Korres here, but I’ve got news for you. There are secret Greece-exclusive products that are WAY better. One of the women on our trip was on a mission to restock her daughter’s collection of the Olive body lotion she’d picked up the previous year, and after trying it, MAN DO I UNDERSTAND THE URGENCY. 

Carina Hsieh Sex & Relationships Editor Carina Hsieh lives in NYC with her French Bulldog Bao Bao — follow her on Instagram and Twitter • Candace Bushnell once called her the Samantha Jones of Tinder • She enjoys hanging out in the candle aisle of TJ Maxx and getting lost in Amazon spirals. 

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[pepperful-qt]

Yo~ are there any side/minor characters that you wish got more development/that you’ve got particular headcanons for?

KOMORI!! SEMI!!! KITA!!!!!! KONOHA!!!!!!! and so many more furudate why do you have so many good characters who don't get attention

I have a lot of feelings :)

Komori:

he's such a sweetie but I bet he's sassy. look who he's gotta deal with as a relative

boy can cook I bet. and/or bake. could win GBBO if he tried

loves Muji pens (the superior pen) and has a whole collection of them

guilty fashion pleasure is bucket hats and fanny packs. he's a fun vacation partner

really good with directions

stays up all night binging kdramas when he gets the chance

he's a romantic~~

Semi:

if I start on him I will never stop fr but here we go

probably the only one on the shiratorizawa team w music taste he's a bit of a snob about it

has a license but doesn't like driving that much. he'd rather sit shotgun and look out the window

he's super competitive so game nights are always intense. if you use a draw +4 on him he will never forget

sometimes laughs at really stupid jokes but is good at hiding it

writes quotes/advice/lyrics he hears or comes up with in his phone notes

if he was real id crush on him hard

Kita:

ive got feelings with this boy and ive talked about him at length and yes I get it there were a good few chapters of backstory but,, come on. we need more inarizaki content in general we were deprived

Konoha:

so underrated!! all the members of fukurodani are tbh

he's the type to have really nice shoes, like designer sneakers etc

played fortnite when it was hyped but will kill anyone who knows

puts hot sauce and mustard in macaroni. weirdo

really good at flirting but if he's even a little inebriated he's a hot mess

if you're about to do something he'll call you stupid then pull out his phone and egg you on

thinks he's good at accents, but he is not. at all.

probably knows a martial art

ahhh I have more but this is off the top of my head

[itshazelnut]

Thanksgiving

Last night, we had our thanksgiving dinner minus the turkey cause we chose roast beef and sushi made from home and some nice sweet wine. It was great seeing family and talking to some old friends.

But the questions imI have is, what am I grateful for this year?

1. Being able to progress from work trauma

2. Feeling more confident in general

3. Having a great paying job - not gonna lie about this one

4. Having a family

5. Having my own house that is so warm and cozy

6. Having friends

7. Going on vacation this November - this is long overdue!

8. Having Deeren who always supports me

9. Having faith in God

Last year was hard. This year is better and I'm hoping to only get better from here. Thank you Jesus.

[sheilacwall]

Velvet Negroni is Trying to Make Music That’s Built to Last in an Ethereal Digital Age

When we chat his most recent record, NEON BROWN (via 4AD), has been out for less than a full week. But it’s already beginning to add layers to an increasingly mythological narrative. It’s not just Nutzman’s background being gradually woven together with each new review and published blurb, but it’s also the behind-the-scenes contributions that penetrate larger swaths of popular culture. The track “Waves” from Velvet Negroni’s previous release T.C.O.D. was played by Justin Vernon at Kanye West’s famously rural writing camp in Wyoming, resulting in a contribution to opening track “Feel the Love” on Kanye and Kid Cudi’s collaboration album, Kids See Ghosts. More recently, he’s lent vocals on both “iMi” and “Sh’Diah” from Bon Iver’s new album, i,i.

READ: First Look Friday: Meet Donavon — the Soul of the Algorithm & Disciple of D’Angelo

These high-profile contributions aren’t just Wiki-friendly Easter eggs and fine print liner notes; they’re a clear indicator that both Nutzman’s voice and creative direction possess a unique resonance that is parting the seas of an oft-impenetrable musical kingdom.

NEON BROWN offers an accessible entry-point to hear Jeremy Nutzman’s evolving artistry at work. Album highlight “Wine Green” is an instantly recitable, dancehall-esque anthem awash in peppy adlibs and ascending jabs of bass. “Poster Child” showcases a catchy, iridescent love-song-hook that glows vividly while the downtempo “Feel Let” spins out soft, palatable utterances that feel as if they’re being belted from a woozy, late-night cab ride home.

We talked with Velvet Negroni to explore the album, his creative inspiration, and a rapidly changing music landscape.

Title: Girboix Carmelo Artist: Velvet Negroni

Can you walk me through your contributions on Bon Iver’s album and Kids See Ghosts?

Justin Vernon played [Kanye West and Kid Cudi] “Waves” and it was the first thing that perked their ears that day so they got into it a little bit. There’s a part of the song that goes, “I can feel it in my bones!” I think it was basically just that little snippet that they just took that energy and vibe into “Feel the Love.”

So the inspiration was more cadence than lyrics or production? 

Yeah, there wasn’t a sample. While Justin was in Wyoming, I was at his crib working, I was there rehearsing to perform a couple of dates with him. He had helped to work on the record a little bit previously.

How did you two originally link?

I play in a band with a couple of cats that he grew up with essentially and so that’s how that intro went long ago. It was kind of fun. We were just around sometimes, and we got to know each other a little bit. And then my friend Ryan Olsen had played what I had so far of the record for him, he was really excited by it and the next time he saw me he kind of just opened up his place as a base, like “If you need somewhere to finish this or work on it you should come out.”

Source: Artist

Can you tell me about the recording process and what went into your new album, NEON BROWN? 

A lot of different things but mostly just good vibes, a good schedule and good hours. We would at least kind of sketch out one or two tracks, at least two things every day. Then after a little bit of that, circle back to one that we had worked on previously. The ones with real potential kind of just flowed out of the fucking mess and felt kind of obvious-ish, I guess. It’s like sifting for gold, eventually you keep whittling it down into a body of work that’s ready.

How do you feel now that it’s out? 

It’s just exciting that people are listening to it. The album has been done for a pretty sizable chunk of time, that happened long ago it feels like, but now it’s just, knowing that people can listen to it…that’s exciting.

There’s a wide range of sounds on the album, some heady and stirring but also lighter notes. It’s interesting to see you do both.

It’s a natural thing in the songwriting process. Especially when I’m working with Elliott (Tickle Torture) and Simon (Psymun), there’s no off-limits. There’s that many more influences, like each person has a toolbox. Then there’s that added onto the writing process. So, we’re taking from a pretty wide range of shit just in everybody’s own mind and then putting them together. I don’t think any of us think about the style of the song as it relates to the album until after the fact.

What new artists inspire you right now?

I’ve been excited about Yves Tumor on Warp and listening to this cat Mk.Gee. I can’t think of anything else off the top of my head that I’ve really been jacked on. I’m kind of just stepping back into remembering that I can listen to other people’s music you know, like on my own, really just listen to music. Usually, I’m just in such a creative mode in my headspace, or I’m not listening to anything, or I’m working on my shit.

When you were first discovering music at an early age, finding discarded records on a neighbor’s lawn, which albums were especially formative for you?

In that pack of CDs that I found, I remember some 311, Soundgarden, some Metallica, Lords of Acid. I think there was a Crime Mob CD, some Tupac and even Marilyn Manson. Those were my youngest memories of having music that wasn’t church music. 

That was huge for me. But I was so young that when I was playing music, I wasn’t coming at it from a composing aspect at all. It was beyond me how you could even make something like that. I didn’t have any of the experiences that I have now to desensitize me to the wonderment of music in general.

Photo Credit: Rachel Kauffman for Okayplayer

What was the original intention of keeping you from being exposed to that music?

I mean those were just my parents’ rules. They were religious and didn’t think that anything else was worthwhile except for Christian music. I was practicing playing piano for at least one hour every single day and my mom would sit on the bench next to me, there was no getting out of it really.

We’re now living in a totally digital age. How do you feel the streaming era is changing music?

Oversaturation is a real thing, but there’s also so much more of a platform. I think that, eventually, for the most part, good stuff will be discovered. Like there’s too many people listening, seeing and talking amongst themselves deep in the Internet at all times that I think that the good stuff, the truth will prevail. It’s just a different style with music in general, because it used to be the furthest thing away to just go to a bedroom somewhere and record. Most people couldn’t afford to even rent studio time, let alone rent a studio and then then take their time writing songs in the studio as they go. People used to write a song, arrange a song, figure it out, get really good at it and then go record it. Now, it’s pretty much the norm to write a song as you’re playing and then you have the ability to manipulate audio. It changed the format.

When I first got into recording on my own, an amazing feature of it was that it moved so fast and I found myself making a couple of happy accidents. It was really exciting. Like, wow, what happened there? It went from writing songs and then finding happy accidents to just showing up and relying on happy accidents, rather than really spending time with the chord progression of the arrangement ahead of time.

I think from the critic or audience’s perspective, you also have less time to win over an audience with a shrinking attention span. Not everyone is even really around for a full album to listen from front to back.

That’s huge, yes. You can grab your albums out of thin air. There was no way to pirate an album unless you stole it from a store. So, it was physical, and I think it meant more just inherently then. It meant more on a tangible level. Like, I paid eleven bucks for this album, I’m not sure if I like it yet, but I’m gonna listen to it and keep listening.

The attention span is so fast that I think there’s more people trying to just jump on a wave or catch a wave and make stuff that’s relevant right then, instead of thinking like a whole album. Instead of maybe making a piece of work that is supposed to stand the test of time.

What’s it like to be a musician in 2019? Especially considering it’s increasingly rare to make a living off your art.

You’re correct with that being a rarity, it also depends on what one person’s definition of living and what you’re satisfied with. I’ve been making music for a real long time, but only recently have I even taken into consideration, oh yeah, I guess there’s a chance I could make some money from this. Really. I can only try and imagine what it was like doing what I’m trying to do right now when the Internet wasn’t the Supreme Being.

Photo Credit: Tim Saccenti

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[i-am-han]

26 aug 2017

Torrie and i planned on hanging out tonight

I shaved my legs

I packed my bag and my wine

She stopped responding to my texts

I called her twice

Voicemail

I put my phone on my knee to feel a vibration

Throughout the entire Rob Bell event

I was thinking about her and whether or not she was going to reply

If that hadn’t been happening afterward, I think I would have had a far better time

Great atmosphere

Free wine

People to talk to

Ruth Kelly Trish Megan Robertson Laney Mom Dad

Why the FUCK does she keep bailing and being flaky??

What is her deal !!!!

I got on the freeway and someone stuck their middle finger at me

I played “f33l”

Is it me? Is it her? Am I giving too much power to her?

No? I think that of course I would be excited, of course I would look forward to it. And her not responding is not cool!

She texted me last night

“Hi bb miss you just wanted to say hello

Finally got home for the night after work and thinking about you

Hopefully ill see you tomorrow”

And a picture of her snuggling a stuffed animal

“SNUGGLING WITH SCRATCH BUT WISH YOU TOO”

Right as i said “im snugglin u virtually rn !!!”

I said

“Ummm idk if i can survive another day not seeing u hehehe”

Response “SAME BB”

I said

“2moroororororo

Ur done at 6 yeah?”

“Yes mam :)”

“Ok well i have that think with my parents at 630 i think it will go until 9ish. Would u still be up for hangin round then??” “I think so!! I may just nap for a bit after so i can hang hehe gma problems”

Me

“Okay :--) we dont gotta do anything crazy if ur tired

Im a very chill gal :-)”

Her “oh of course hehe im down to snugs or whateva”

“Yes pllllzzz”

Her “have a mellow night with my bb”

“Yes yes yes yes

That is my happiest possible night ever

“Omg cant wait”

“Me too bababababy

Sweet dreams :---) ILY BBBBBB”

“ILY IMY NIGHT BB”

“Just picture me kissing u and holding u very tight right now

Cuz thats what i would do if i was with u

NIGHT NIGHT:

Her “omg cant wait ugh

….

How does that happen and then tonight I text her

“Ill text u when its over :---)”

(no response)

“Its wrapping up!! Is it still cool if i come over in a little?”

(no response)

2 phone calls…

Straight to voicemail

Maybe this is a stupid question… But like if she liked me,..,,, wouldn’t she actually make time to see me? And not “fall asleep”? If she was really really excited about me, i think i would know it by her actions.

She just says all this generous shit about how amazing I am, how much she “loves me”, and wants to be with me, but then is TOTALLY flaky ???

I dont wanna mess around with that

I want my head to be filled with someone else who actually comes thru

I feel like I have so much to offer and give someone and both lennox and torrie aren’t wanting it, or aren’t in a place to want it or W/E ???

It feels like “NO ONE LOVES ME LIKE I LOVE THEM”

And that might b true

But its just 2 “flops” in unrequited desire

Sometimes people don’t come through

Sometimes people are mean or annoying or not cool or are flaky or lie or make up shit … It sucks!

But if they aren’t willing to make time to see you — they are not worth it

Don’t keep waiting around, waiting for them to come through

When they have shown you multiple times that they aren’t gonna

How can I dream and hope, but not be dissapointed? That’s impossible.

Choosing to love, involves risk of heartbreak.

Stepping outside, stepping into something, getting off the couch means youre going to fail and lose and be rejected and be hurt

But at least you did it

I dont want to sit on the couch all day waiting for something to happen to me

I want to go out and try and be dissapointed and angry when people dont come through or they make up shit “Youre the best thing thats ever happened to me” instead of staying inside on the couch doing shit nothing

[pepperful-qt]

opinions on kenma as your boyfriend?

like if he'd be a good boyfriend? depends entirely on the person ofc, but for me I don't think we'd work too well. we're too similar and we'd probably struggle with communication even if we enjoy each other's company. we'd just get on each other's nerves :P though I do love a fellow gamer. I do think we'd be good friends and could have a lot of interesting conversations though

in general he'd be a good partner though. very perceptive and affectionate even if he's hesitant to show it all the time. i also hc him as a big cuddle bug if that wasn't obvious from my stuff for him😅