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feel like i didn’t appreciate valkyrie cain enough when i was 10. she deserves so much better ouagg
#shes a sopping wet cat shes 15 years old shes a weird little girl shes wanted potentially internationally OHHHHHGgggg#bless her little heart im Very excited to get to the books i havent read yet#i stopped reading at the dying of the light#also tanithhhhhhh <33333#i love her and i can’t remember what happens to her other than the remnant oh my god#also fletch. i definitely remember him being alive but again !!#TGERES MORE BOOKS !! THERES STUFF I HAVENT READ !! auuuuuuugh#AUGH#skulduggery pleasant
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Ohiwe (lady) and Ohime (man) aka the fire deity after they get punished.
Originally just "Oh", the fire deity had a bit too much fun with punishing humans and so in a means to stop them, the elder gods split them into two. So now they have to be together in order to have their "full" power but as before the split, they get restless and like to wander. So while one stays in their city, the other gets to go out and travel and see the world and check on the other deities.
Also, as a whole/singular being Oh would use they/them. After the split however, it's definitely not the same and so Ohiwe likes using female pronouns and Ohime uses male pronouns. That way when discussed as one, it's back to they. That feels best for them.
#my characters#i posted the unified base version to my side blog but they arent very exciting it was just a lil doodle#however as i sit here waiting for my throbbing headache to go away im dying squirtle i figured id try to doodle#before i work on the comm and unfortunately my head still hurts so back to medicine i go#also also ohime is much more mild in his commentary where ohiwe is sharp and harsh#and ohiwe is definitely more fond of running the city than ohime but that also means she gets more restless quicker#so he unfortunately is stuck in the city more than she is because she needs to wander#she still does most of the planning as she wanders and then talks it over with ohime when she returns#i wanna make a funny joke about how they are indeed the last two brain cells type of thing#but also they are on the same wavelength almost all the time cause they started as the same person#but its always a bit of a jump in their logic to other people while they remain on the same page#like ohiwe says something and YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS#and everyone else is like no ??? but ohime is like WE HAVE TO TAKE A NAP#or something and ohiwe is like exactly ! glad one of you in the room knows whats up
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And to think, I was berating myself for letting crane keep some of his hair and skin a couple years ago. You will forever be a little volatile freak in my eyes <3 congrats on the transition king!!
#Kyle crane#Ashe Collins#my art#dying light#dying light oc#Dying light the beast#im still soooo mad at the decisions they made for this nest expac but its ok#dying light ttrpg soon and I’m in charge of the lore now#im also excited as shit to play crane again tho i cant lie im a very simple man techland makes little white man run and i cheer and clap
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pros of doing Physical Labor: i feel like a real person! i accomplished something!! it was rewarding work!
cons: Ow Ow Owie Ow Ouch Ow Ow Ow
#also cons: im a fucking dumbass and did not eat like. Anything#before doing uhhhh 6-7 straight hours of intense box-throwin' dolly-totin' heavy-liftin'#but hey! we stayed hydrated!#and we got a nice dinner to reward ourselves#also because we were both lowkey dying but yk yk#nah im kidding it wasnt that bad#we were both just exhausted overworked and nauseous#AND WE GET TO DO MORE TOMORROW!!!!#though this time we Know Better. we will Consume Energy before Spending It.#im very not excited#i want to lay on the floor and dissolve#absolutely unprompted#BUT!!! aha!!!! another pro!!!#despite my arms feeling like theyre about to pop right off at the socket#i got Art Motivation#i Scribbled! the ideas Flowed!#i only did like two things tho#one of which i will finish coloring tomorrow#the other will be queued#yall are getting some laughingstock in the morn'#a crumb.... i hope its tasty#the Spiteful Motivation after a full day of not being able to scribble is unparalleled#like HA! HAHA! YOU COULDN'T KEEP ME AWAY FOREVER!!#now if yall will excuse me im gonna answer One ask. go eat some leftovers. and pass out#i have so many bruises... so many.... everything Aches <3#wish i had some Special Gummies rn smh
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thinking abt the ggy easter eggs rn
#im so ready for whateber theyre cooking#this is like the only era rn where the sw games arent interesting me rn im so ready to want to engage again#plz focus on ggy vanny gregory vanessa cassie and not cassie dad mapbot dying absent father doing nothintnfor the story#and a game based totally off of books instead of the other way around#i really hope SW games dont become super tftp oriented#as in they make games based off of books instead of the other way around#that would suck majorly#a ggy game would be new content based off of game lore that does exist for ggy and not the book#like patient 46 and his canonical mysterious past#plus everything the tapes said he did#it could be so good#i really want to just see like. any progression of the story#outside of very basic ideas like 'vanny cassie' that are probably going to happen but are so bare bones#theres not much you can think about#insyead of useless plots like cassies dad. sorry but its true if hes the hw2 story he does nothing#nothing that cassie couldnt have also done if shes the protag#i know that sotm has to happen before they can progress so im being patient#but man#i hope we get more stuff like ruin that has good linear on screen storytelling and is more character oriented#everybody liked ruin but not everyone likes sotm#when hw2 came out i saw soo many opinions not just by me and the moots or something but just#fans on twitter diehard or casual#that hated how hw2s story was handled#people actually want storytelling now at sb and ruins scale instead of old school barely comprehensible frustrating lore#thats what sotm feels like its leaning into and im not excited#i hope its a one time thing since its a good chance to do that#a game that already takes place in the og fnaf days#before it even#of course its a good idea to put old school easter eggs and characters and story and stuff of the og days#i just miss my guys :(
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sweet sweet re:kinder community... I would like to ask y'all how you came upon the game and your experiences with it because i wanna know. im genuinely so curious to hear about other people's experiences and little opinions about this game because of how wild the game is (/pos) I'd love to hear it. do ramble to me about it
#re:kinder#not art#so in my case i once saw someone talk about it in a video and some scenes with the very vague context really struck with me#i was like wow...that is so sad... i wonder what goes on#but the thing is i watch videos talking about games like that ALLL THE TIME while im multi-tasking so i FORGOT FOR A YEAR?!?!?#until one day i was sick in pain on my bed could not move. and then it came to me. yes. “RE:KINDER. I SHOULD PLAY IT.” LIKE OUT OF NOWHERE#i will never understand how i dying of pain remembered a game i saw once BY NAME AT LEAST A YEAR LATER when jve heard of so many games#and you wanna know why it stuck with me. i saw in the video an image of the “as if id be reborn as a princess” line#i did not know the context but it was devastating#AND WHEN I PLAYED THE GAME when that scene game i was shocked to silence😭😭 BECAUSE I BASICALLY WENT COMPLETELY BLIND??#I DID NOT KNOW THE LITTLE KID WOULD BE THE ANTAGONIST???? AND THAT HE WOULD HAVE SUCH A SAD STORY??#like. i saw the sad coming i knew it was bound to happen yet i could have never been prepared for how hard it would hit me#I HAD TONS OF FUN but at first when i finished it i was so confused and so lost i was like welll.....what a game... TOO STUNNED FOR WORDS#then i thoughr of it for 20 minutes and bawled my eyes out and realized it was art#so when i got to my second playthrough i CRIED LIKE CRAZYYY😭😭 I WAS BLOWN AWAY IT REALLY HITS YOU#personally it admittedly hit close to home and while it made me bawl my eyes out it was also very comforting i felt very understood#AND IT WAS CRAZY FUN TOO i was not bored once the first time i played through it i was sleepy but i was so excited to keep playing😭😭#its funnt becayse i was initially apprehensive about playing cuz im sensitive to stories where sad things happen to kids#but i played it regardless because i was like “but what if its one of those scary media that hit close to home and i enjoy”#AND I WAS RIGHT. BUT NOT ENTIRELY BECAUSE I DID NOT THINK IT WOULD HIT AS INTENSELY AS IT DID😭😭 IT WAS MYCH MORE THAN EXPEVTED#many ways in which it impacted me but if i started listing them i would not shut up . so for now it is enough#IN SUMMARY WOW.. WHAY A GOOD GAME!! PLAY RE:KINDER!!!#i rambled more than i intended to i do apologize
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pics? pics of poetry for the soul?
Here she is, in all her glory: Bhaal's pinkest disappointment
and a bonus: The original doodle I did on a sticky tab before I decided to make the character
#simon says#bg3#bg3 screenshots#art#my art#doodle#still on the hunt for pink dye#also when we reach the city I am going to go CRAZY in those clothes shops#none of the screenshots show the nightmare dye jobs of everyone else's armor though#okay well the only nightmare one is Astarion because I have yet to find a good color for him so he's constantly wearing ugly colors#another reason he dislikes Poetry added to the list: dyed his armor yellow multiple times#also she plays the lyre because the item description says worshipers of the goddess of love associate it with her#and her name was SO close to being a love related name#also she totally smooched Wyll :3#she is head over heels for the blade of frontiers and gets lots of fun dialog because she's also a warlock#im VERY excited to get to the circus bc apparently fae patrons REALLY wanna go in the circus and will let you use their voice to get in#also yes I did the volo eye thing and shockingly enough it was the first time I ever did it#most of my characters are not dumb enough to let him do that but I needed the benefit for honor mode#honestly I've been wanting to make a pink tiefling for a bit because like... look at her#she's just a regular Asmodeus tiefling too. they come in pink! i didn't even have to use the 'use all skin tones' box it's just available!#honestly making a fun colored tiefling is grand#I think her and Fizzlewood Fleetfoot (my halfling wild sorcerer) are my favorites at the moment#Poetry is just so adorable and I'm absolutely using her to get that achievement for getting lots of gold by playing music in a single game#and Fizzlewood is so silly he's just a nice lil guy wanting to find fun ways out of combat#it's even funnier because Fizzlewood is my Karlak romance and that was by accident but I totally went with it because like...#6 foot something hot hot barbarian and her 3 foot something combat avoidant boyfriend is so fun#anyways highly suggest making a fun colored tiefling or a halfling they're so fun to play#and use the dyes!!! i love using dyes so much!! everyone gets dyed clothes in all my playthroughs!! dye it up!!!#edit: I mispelled Karlach im so sorry baby girl
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"oh shit! That new animation gooseworx had teased some time ago is finally out now!! Digital circus was it? I was actually super excited for that, should probably take some time to watch it one of these days"
*time passed cause i forgor*
sweet baby jesus it has a fandom now
#digital circus#gooseworx#this caught me entirely off guard i swear#i remember being so hyped when i watched the introduction of the funky teeth eyes man and ohh jester#and theyre famous now!! ohmyjod!!! thats epic!!#gooseworx's animations have been on my brain since little runmo i think that green lad is still lurking in my head somewhere#likely behind my eyeballs. oh wait lol lmao lmoa#this is fun this is very fun#that said im still working up the courage to watch. tadt was it? The Amazing Digital Circus yea#cause i just know any other hyperfixations will be immediatly put on hold and i will be dying for them#nevertheless i am just very very happy these works are getting recognized and extremely excited for the fandom#also omj look im gonna be joining a fandom NOT 3 years later#tadt#the amazing digital circus
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tw ed in the tags !!
#im feeling sooo awful abt my body today its crazy#i dont wanna relapse but also i have prom and grad coming up so its very very tempting#silly side note but ive been friends w some moots on edtwt longer than I've known some of my irls and that's crazy to me#anyway i was looking at tweets of me being so majorly uber excited abt final hitting 45 kg T-T like man omfg#feb 23 me was the skinniest id ever been and i was thriving !!#and i highkey wanna be that again#was my hair thinning and did my face look so gaunt it scared me at times? yes#did i also feel my prettiest + have the most external validation from strangers etc ever? also yes !!#i feel fat and ugly rn but I'm also just very averagely weighted#but i have a naturally broader built but i feel like i look bigger even if I'm not ?? 9ufdkjhjs#anyway its scary looking through old tweets bc I'm talking abt skipping lunch like everyday and stuff like that's scary !! don't do that#but also it makes me wanna do it again like if i could look like that again... id genuinely kill myself for it#i was kinda also p healthy back then LOL only ate god food#cardio every evening + muscle training every morning#anyway teehee thats all i very much dislike my body rn and i hope i can lose a bit so i don't feel like dying <3#i have hope bc im only 5kg off what i used to be so !! shouldn't be too hard yaaya if i can just get back in the 40s ill be happy like a 47#i got this !! hopefully will not destroy myself in the process yay#tw ed
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falling asleep tucked up against Guz's chest while he plays some video game or other,,, and he's so happy that he gets to have me in his lap while he games, and he feels so content with the world in that moment,,,
#it is a very low energy/high fatigue day today SIGH !!!#i think partially bc i didnt sleep enough but fjfkdl alas and alack that was my fault for staying up too late working on a sketch WIP#I'll post that tonight hopefully if i finish it :3#if i can get a few dishes done today and also crochet the last 2 pieces of my is.opod amig.urumi then I'll be pretty plum pleased w myself#and then i can start putting all the pieces of the isoboy together :] !! very excited for that fjflsl this has been a year-long WIP i think#also its funny but i genuinely enjoy watching other ppl play video games fjfkdl#i think bc i grew up w two older brothers and i wasnt allowed to play video games as much as they were#so i ended up just. watching them play fairly often#also im not v good at video games in general so fjkdl i enjoy seeing other ppl play them !! plus im like. not competitive as a general rule#and then w this scenario... keyboard sounds and game controller sounds often make me sleepy and calm for some reason#so fhfkdl ... this would be a great way to lull me into a doze heehoo fjkflf and ough... laying against him... OUGGHHH exploding and dying#dandy.cmd#💜so good at being in trouble#💜a boy and his bug🪲
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it’s wild thinking about how close to the concept of death ive been since a kid, literally walking past funerals after coming home from school made it seem like more of a party (black tie!) than something pertaining to loss… but now that im older it’s cultivated my view on life and death in general; life is something to celebrate while we have it, death is something to celebrate the love and life we’ve made (with our bonds and etc).
#to think: besides going through trauma that made me want to off myself for so long… maybe i wanted to be seen and celebrated once i was gone#but im very much loving life now. and im excited for everything to come#and making a life worth dying for! so let’s indulge in the beauty of life despite it all#spice life#me™️#also that’s me on my first day of elementary school#and another thing! since growing up there i now want a pink hearse. they’re great for storage.#got up to chapter 8 in infinite wealth and watching kiryu reminisce got me thinking… thanks old man
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i have really embraced the act of posting recently... i think i forgot this is the website best made for rambling...
#i used to be a 24/7 tumblr poster . ten years agoOUGH and then i went to twt when i was like 15OUGH and it poisoned my brain#so im not used to this site anymore...#maybe when i eventually pick up DD again ill lb here instead of my priv twitter. would this be annoying#i can talk about anything i want. I re-dyed my hair today :)#its very pink and very blue#i also ******* ** ***** ****** but im waiting until im ready to make an announcement post to talk abt that#but its exciting!
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anyways i wanna say that ive decided im actually gonna start with JIMMY'S pov today. so thats fun :D
#bcuz he and martyn are red and im really invested in them this season. if they end up dying in this session or something#then i want my first experience of that to be SEEING IT HAPPEN. not just seeing the message in the chat#first time i think i'll have ever watched a pov other than grian's first for a session. so thats cool :]#im very excited but also nervous. as is usual in this series once things start picking up#serena.txt
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so during the leaders cross talk with hayama-san and hirono-san, they played a jeopardy-esque game where they answered various trivia for points, and whoever got the most points won
at some point, they had to answer ‘what are kuukou’s robes called??’ and by circumstance, hirono-san happened to know the answer actually lol. hayama-san didn’t tho lol and after eking out a hint from hirono-san (‘we’re family right??? 🥺🥺🥺’) hayama-san guessed it was a tank top and hirono-san answered it’s called a samue. turns out they were both wrong LOL and hirono-san got humbled so quick esp when hayama-san roasted him for making him answer wrong on top of being loudly incorrect lol so hayama-san can be a bit of a sore loser lmao
if you can, pls tune into abema’s round one collab where hayama-san might be competing against fellow hypmic friends and root for him he doesn’t like to lose lmao
#this is vee speaking#i am once again pissed we aren’t getting another cross talk with the 2/3gumi because i think of hirono/hayama’s cross talk so fondly 😭😭😭😭#like they happened to have dyed their hair the same colour and the pr vid for their show was them gushing over it 😭😭😭😭#lol the way hayama-san kept hirono-san humble was so funny like hirono-san wound up getting another question right#but hayama-san while clapping for him courteously started chanting ‘samue’ at him LOL#and hirono-san’s absolutely delighted ‘btch????’ in response makes me weep man i miss them 😭😭😭😭😭😭#(the best part was that the showrunners came back and said hirono-san actually was right about the samue lol)#(hayama-san’s betrayed ‘NO WAY?????’ lives rent free in my head lmao)#hayama-san was feeling a bit shy around hirono-san (he hid it very well) and had been trying to hide how entertaining he found hirono-san#but at some point hirono-san’s hirononess got to him and he couldn’t hold it in anymore#and started giggling so hard he was kicking his feet and it was so cute he’s sO CUTE IM— *exhales*#i have a bunch of little anecdotes about hayama-san’s competitive nature lol i’m excited about the possibility of getting more lol#and if the anniversary is also a big competition too i will be getting fed lmao
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no bc seriouslt also like following up from the last post. i did not move out this year and that was my biggest goal and i didn’t do it and that fucking sucks. ive made some progress but i don’t know what im doing or if im actually ready. but the fact that this new room is going to be created downstairs… like every day i think of it. a brand new bedroom that’s never existed and it will have a door directly to the outside which is scary. but it can be MY BEDROOM and i can decorate it however i like without adhering to campus rules and it can be a temporary transitional space and then i can move out in like the summer or something when i have more time and im normaler. and seeing the room get built is insane and im so nervous and distressed abt the renovation even happening but i am also so hopeful and excited about this room and finally having enough space to like figure myself out and then go get more space for myself
#purrs#like this is going to be a HUGE quality of life improvement for me. to be in my own bedroom and to have enough storage space and a desk and#somewhere to sit on the floor. and to not have it be the room i have slept in and shared all my life that has not been redecorated since i#was born. im insecure abt it bc i really did want to move iut and ik i should be focusing on that so much more than i am but this has also b#been a very hard year and i have not had what i needed to do it and this will help so much. i will miss how the house used to be but maybe#this is good. and also there’s a fucked upness to it bc literally none of this would’ve happened w/o my grandma dying last yr like when you#think abt it that literally set off SO much change in my life. but for all the spaces i have lost that i treasured so much there is one new#one being created and it can be mine and it’s so comforting and exciting to me. and it will have such a good view into the trees 🥹
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forgot to respond to this but: zozi by tagging me in an evocative hole post you reblogged from my mutual who posts a lot of evocative hole posts you risk creating a recursive Evocative Hole Post Ouroboros
Natalia Rybka - Jest więcej/There's more (oil on canvas), 2020
#btw .. the reason i find The Hole inside of The Hole Show im obsessed with to be so neat#and the reason i like hole metaphors in vent art and quasi body horror concepts sometimes#are both obnoxiously metaphorical ‘Ooh Isnt It Evocative’ shit but with completely different meanings#two very different category of Holes#the Abyss has the allure of the black pit inside the whirlpool or the light after dying: an unknowable thing except at the ultimate price#(also why it so powerfully evokes the general idea of ‘things that can’t be taken back or reversed’.)#(knowledge which you can't unlearn - experiences which you can't unhave - a hole of one way descent. look in and you can't ever un-look.)#anyway the second one is about the feeling something missing inside of oneself and the fear nothing you put in will fill it#(which is a fear I’ve had for ten years or so. that what if all i do that is ' 'fulfilling' is just actually distraction from a hollowness)#(what if it’s just throwing things into a void inside that won’t ever be filled)#doing art with that idea is extra neat bc then the piece itself might be something i am stuffing into the hole. ... ...#anyway I think I might have reblogged this same post in the past#with a funny comment evoking vueko and belaf watching wazukyan get really excited about this literally two foot deep hole and jump into it#'our homeland.. ((crying tears of joy))' 'will you get OUT of there'
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