#im trying not to freak out and mostly i am not
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naamahdarling Ā· 1 year ago
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Asks
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girlthativealwaysbeen Ā· 1 month ago
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mann im going to get my blood reports tomorrow and im lwk scared
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termagax Ā· 3 months ago
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re: "good girl" i think they say it once randomly as a joke and its just one of those things that gets him wayyy more than they expected it would. so now its their secret weapon and they use it very sparingly and every single time he gets super embarrassed about it but it works ill tell you what.
#HES MY PRINCESS IDEK.#i dont think it happens naturally all that much because theyre usually in the business of calling each other names and being mean#so i think this would just be a random night where theyre on top and just think it would be really funny. to yank on his leash and call him#a good girl after bullying him into doing something. and well i just think it would get him is all i dont knowwwwwwwwwwwwww#i havr a lot of thoughts on the matter but i will stop for now#but the tldr is that with each other they tend to switch frequently and are always fighting#so i think itd take someone else being in the picture for hog to even realize how much he likes being a good boy :3#and i also dont think fish would be good at straightforward domming in the way he would want and they both know that#so its something he keeps between him and rat mostly. please dont ask me questions abt jrs sex life i have too many opinions on it#anyways. i think even tho fish knows theyd be bad at that they still feel left out so sometimes they go watch. they dont get anything out of#doing that theyre just sort of taking mental notes#all of this circles back to i think fish has always been the more sexually experienced of the two. and romantically.#i dont rlly think hog is a guy who dates i dont think hes ever been that and i dont think he made much time for hookups#(i think its cute if hes a virgin when they meet but šŸ¤· im not solid on it)#but i think for him hes just only ever fucked this one person and they do a LOT of stuff and it gets the job done so hes just never really#tried anything else. but. and again i have too many opinions on this but i think rat wouldnt be into their usual shteeze#i think hes a bit of a freak in his own way but the blood and weird anger issues is just not doing it for him most of the time#but i do think if given the opportunity he would LOVE to be The Boss for a little bit so i think he and hog can explore that together and it#will work out beautifully for them. this is great because i am not into strict d/s dynamics like that but i know in my heart that hoggy#would be. and i cant do that for him#again i think fish would be butthurt about this. mostly in a 'why didnt u tell me so we could try this :(' and he would go#'because you would suck at it and wouldnt like it' and they go oh. right. well im still mad#ANYWAYS. circling back. i think the good girl thing would be something fish knows that rat doesnt. and idk if theyd tell him or not#because i do think if they tell him he is using that for evil hog is going to be a good girl forever and ever. rat doesnt have the patience#to space it out the way fish does. which idk maybe thatd be good for hog he could work through some stuff...#but on the other hand i think its fun if they DONT tell him and just bust it out sometime when all 3 of them are doing the deed. or whatever#because again they mostly like how embarrassed he gets about it and i think he would be reallyyyy flustered by it#^ this is essentially part of my fantasy about spitroasting my beautiful wife until he cries just so everyone knows#idk i just think when he lets go of himself hed be a very cute and kind of needy subby bottom and i think hed be really easy to fluster#about it and i want it so bad
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cloyingcadaver Ā· 2 months ago
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#ā•³ā”† dayne speaking ā”†ā—œ ooc ā—ž#fuck it. I will be adding t.gcf muses here when I inevitably switch back into rp mode#but probably by request and with plotting only. or maybe just drabbles to start.#Iā€™m leaning towards xl and hc both of course & im currently feeling incredibly protective of them.#but mq is so temptingā€¦#also I drafted the fucking. DMT trip coffin fic but somehow managed to make up a cultivation path to go along with it#mostly because - like everyone else - I am still trying to wrap my brain around the logistics of xl being trapped in a coffin for a century#and Iā€™m fascinated by the theory that the brain releases DMT before death + how that coincides with -#near-death out of body experiences#plus the effects of psychedelics on the brain + spirit#especially in a sandbox where the universal flow of energy is a more tangible concept#itā€™s crack treated seriously#I donā€™t have to do angst all the timeā€¦ā€¦ I do have a sense of whimsy#actually donā€™t look at me#im skulking around in the darkest corners of fandom#also maybe itā€™s just bc I havenā€™t read ff in likeā€¦. 7 fucking years but some of the fics in this fandom have blown my fcking mind wide open#there are things I can never repeat that have been permanently branded into my brain chemistry#and thatā€™s saying a lot considering ā€¦. Iā€™m me#not saying I didnā€™t enjoy it. only saying what the fuck (affectionate)#surprised and delighted to be out freaked#part of me is taking it as a challenge tho. unfortunately for everyone#me seeing the weirdest shit imaginable: I must step up my freak
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beholdthemem Ā· 2 years ago
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The universe saw fit to gift my grandmother with a lovely case of covid for Christmas because of course it fucking did, so the past few days have been, uh...
Busy.
#personal#she's not in the hospital- she did end up going to urgent care on the 25th but they sent her home.#she did not TELL US she was going to urgent care we found out via whatsapp from my aunt#who'd been trying to coordinate a family zoom call and was informed by my granddad 'later. we're#at the hospital now'.#why did they not call and ask us to drive given that we live TEN MINUTES AWAY and granddad shouldn't be driving at the best of times?#that i could not tell you. something about 'not wanting to inconvenience-' which is insane#dad and i have been going up to try and get everything we can done for them since then#nana's been granddad's caretaker since he got diagnosed but anyone who's had covid can tell you it takes fucking EVERYTHING out of you#to just fucking walk around. im off work till the 9th thank god so i can be there as often as required but even so...#I have a sense that i should probably be freaking the fuck out but mostly im just... calm? it's not a happy calm idk what emotion this is#but it definitely isn't positive- but im not panicking. i feel like new bad info does not surprise me anymore it's just kind of a grit-your-#teeth-and-adjust-to-handle-shit deal. like. 'mm. god shits in our collective dinner once again. figures.'#there's no point in flying off the handle just figuring out how to fix things. im not happy but im... steady i guess?#im resigned and bitter and optimistic until im given proof not to be but mostly what i am is tired. not physically just-#my brain feels like a wrung out dishcloth. i keep trying to write because i know it'll make me happy if i can but its not working.#i keep writing paragraphs of shit that aren't matching up with what i want and if somebody gives me some meaningless platitude about#how maybe it's a sign it should be there and to try and incorporate it ill rip their face off. shut. up.
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snapcracklepop-myjoints Ā· 3 months ago
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(I really dont have the energy to address the other incorrect comments made throughout this post; only a very specific part of this last comment -- specifically the misinformation about CAH -- so please nobody try to take me to task for ignoring the other stuff. I know. I am aware. I cannot deal with it right now.)
(I also know this is badly written and confusing and leaves out a lot of important info, the language is not perfect and it may come across as rude and I am sorry but this is the best I can do. There are other people with the same variation and condition as me (and other intersex variations that were misrepresented here) that are more equipped to talk about this in depth within a critical intersex context than I am, however the main point of what I wrote is a very basic correcting of medical misinformation, not providing intersex education. This is a very stressful post for me personally so bear with me.)
I understand that you are trying to speak up for us, and I want you to know that I recognise that and also that I really respect you as a person when i say this: I would really recommend against trying to speak for us in the future.
You said you did extensive research, however even preliminary web search on "congenital adrenal hyperplasia" makes very clear that it is associated with medical conditions that can be life threatening both due to salt wasting and adrenal insufficiency. I don't know what research you did that led you to draw the conclusions you did, but i would highly recommend doing your research with guidance from intersex people with the intersex variations in question in the future.
Dismissing salt wasting as just "needing to eat more salt" is harmful. It kills people. Entirely ignoring adrenal insufficiency is harmful. It kills people.
Furthermore, it is exceedingly common for people with adrenal insufficiency to not receive life saving medical care, or to receive very delayed care, because of lack of awareness and understanding of it. Going into adrenal crisis increases your risk of having a repeat incident in the future, and increases your likelihood of death in the event of a repeat incident. Even within circles of other people who have adrenal insufficiency (and doctors who treat it) awareness of AI linked to CAH (and other causes for that matter) is dogshit, even on the most basic of topics (such as the tendency towards using "Addison's" as a catchall term for AI despite the fact that Addison's refers only to the primary autoimmune version of AI).
Yes the medicalisation of intersex conditions is a problem but the solution is not to deny the existence of serious medical conditions linked to intersex variations --- accidentally or otherwise. My CAH is an intersex variation, not a deadly condition. My adrenal insufficiency is a deadly condition, not an intersex variation. And, at the same time, the fact that my CAH and AI are linked has in fact impacted how I am treated with regards to both, by medical professionals, societally, and otherwise. When you have adrenal insufficiency due to CAH you are at a crossroads of marginalisation because you being impacted simultaneously by intersexism and ableism.
I originally was going to respond to the reblog you responded to, and explain why they were wrong as someone with one of the intersex variations linked to life threatening conditions that they are weaponising. Instead I am now having to spend my time correcting serious misinformation.
I am not trying to be a bitch or rip you a new one I am just trying to help you and everyone else understand why this is really dangerous information and that this is why you really really need to let us speak for ourselves, even if you think you are defending us, even if you think you have done lots of research.
since people are talking about Imane Khelif, some reminders for discussing intersex issues: "Disorders of sex development" or "DSD" is an intersexist term that contributes to medical violence and social alienation. The correct word is "intersex," a neutral term for the characteristics that the term "DSD" others and pathologizes.
You can be intersex and cis. You can be intersex and trans. A lot of intersex people have more complicated relationships to those concepts/terms. Being cis or trans doesn't make someone more or less intersex.
Gender testing in women's sports is both transmisogynistic and intersexist. In practice it usually impacts intersex cis women because trans women are already disqualified by their social histories. Intersex cis athletes subjected to abuse and discrimination due to gender testing results are victims of intersexism, not "misdirected" or "mistaken" transmisogyny. Intersexism, transmisogyny, and misogynoir all overlap in many ways due to the intertwined histories of sex, gender, and race categories.
"Proof" that an intersex cis woman is not a trans woman (i.e. that she was AFAB'd) will not stop TERFs from attacking her, because TERFs also do not view intersex cis women as real women (case in point).
No one's private medical info should be reported on the news, but when an athlete is outed as intersex in this way, trying to defend their honor by claiming they're not really intersex only reinforces intersexism. Arguing over what kind of intersex variation someone has (e.g. hormonal vs. chromosomal) and whether it "counts" is intersexist and also weird. Leave us alone!
anyway, congrats to Imane on her win, it's not her fault Angela Carini is a bigoted crybaby coward
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grapecaseschoices Ā· 2 months ago
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#dai: jolie richard trevelyan#oc: richard joly#grapecase plays dai#they are a rendition of a disenchanted if pc with a dash of sable one of my sherlocks [who need to get back to]#i am still on the fence if i wanna do bi cullen and just do a male pc [even if that means maybe missing out scenes] or do a femme form/afab#pc who is trans#actually i think they go with they now [mostly bc the mods]. MAYBE she/they [so i dont twitch whenever they call them 'my lady' .... i thou#ht i could do it soundless but im a coward]#[though it was fun trying to imagine their voices lol]#but when they meet krem it's all over!#i think their time as an apostate has given them a lot of 'youre too pretty for a man' which has put the seed in there#hence the face tattoo serving double as a distraction from beauty and that tehy are a woman*#sadly dai thinks women's shit sould be tight forming and they should have their nails done. but i have hc for that too#[they prefer bulky arrmor bc it hurts to bind. curse of the big tits.]#*but nothing distracts ffrom their eyes unfortunately#i wanted to give them merlin eyes. for a few different reasons. but i like the idea that their family is well known for their beauties wit#their gorgeous hazel-brown and dark chocolate eyes so dark it looks like youre looking at a clear night#but then THIS FREAK. further showing they are different#as much as - what i know of him - cullen doesnt deserve to be the romantic hero for this type of storyline#i refuse to put him with a woman bc im petty#and if must endure t-rex then it must be no half assing#tho im sorta feeling dorian would be good given the bg and expectations [but honestly bruh they took me out with that slavery talk!]#kendis is - probably - still my main#but the ideas were itching#gonna REALLY wait til i start bull's romance#werweewe REALLY. i promise this to myself#*sitting on hands*#shuffle your unwanted mage child into the circle and they come back the inquisitor and man and queer
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catalinaromanoff Ā· 3 months ago
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natasha romanoff x pyrokinetic reader
summary: reader accidentally burns natasha, which causes her to rethink their relationship and their life in general.
(there may be female pronouns scattered in here, but i am not 100% sure.)
warnings: insecurity, mentions of very very slight burn (just redness)
i rest my head on the cold kitchen countertop for a few moments, attempting to get just an ounce of relief from the heat surrounding me.
if you asked me in casual conversation i would say i donā€™t mind summer. itā€™s okay; i dont hate it. however, if you asked me on a personal level, i would say i absolutely despise summer. i hate the thought of wearing bikinis, all the bug bites i receive, but i hate the heat most of all. pyrokinetics and heat simply do not mix. ironic, isnā€™t it?
and so, i press my face harder into the kitchen countertop in the compound for just a bit of relief.
i was currently sitting at the kitchen island. the coolness of the marble surface did provide me with a bit of contrast to my heated skin, but it just wasnā€™t enough. on top of that it was agonizing listening to my teammates having the time of their lives outside in the compoundā€™s backyard.
some were in the crystal clear water of the immensely big in-ground pool tony had installed while others played a casual game of volleyball.
how i envy them.
however, the people whom i envied the most were the couples outside able to cuddle and kiss each other. my heart breaks a little for my girlfriend when i see laura sitting on clintā€™s lap on one of the poolside tables knowing we could never do the same.
technically we could, but unfortunately this wasnā€™t the season to do so. during the winter season me and natasha could cuddle at any time and i would serve as her personal heater. the heat that would emanate from my body would be a nice contrast to the painful coldness of a new york winter.
however, when itā€™s already around 100 degrees and i am a pyrokinetic that sometimes freaks out and cannot control herself, that leads to accidents.
like this one.
i had banished myself to the kitchen countertop because me and natasha had tried to see if maybe my body temperature wouldnā€™t flare up like it always did. spoiler alert; it did. natasha had been sitting on my lap with her head in my neck. she began kissing my neck and thatā€™s where i think things began to go downhill.
much of my pyrokinesis revolves around what iā€™m feeling at the current moment. once i felt natashaā€™s featherlight kisses on my neck i began to feel things. mostly shy. and so, i slowly began to heat up. eventually things escalated too quickly when natasha bit me. immediately my body became the temperature of the sun and natasha jumped up and away from me.
ā€œouch!ā€
i observed as she lightly rubbed her thighs trying to get at least a but of relief. just like i am now. anyway, i could do nothing but watch her knowing i caused this but couldnā€™t fix it.
ā€œim-im so sorry baby. iā€™ll go inside. im sorry.ā€
i quickly get up from my place on the poolside chair, not without noticing the chair had begin to melt a little because of me. it made me feel that much worse.
natasha tried to stop me, but obviously she couldnā€™t do that much when i couldnā€™t be touched.
ā€œy/n itā€™s okay, baby. iā€™m fine. please donā€™t go.ā€
i ignore the concerned expression in my beautiful girlfriendā€™s face and instead rush to the sliding door separating the big backyard from the avengerā€™s compound. i thank whoever left the door open in my head as i rush through and close the door behind me.
that brings me to where i am now. a tiny portion of white plastic on my hand from closing the sliding door and a big portion of embarrassment.
i continue to observe the other avengers outside and let out a deep breath.
do i really belong here?
i mean, most of the avengers out there avoid touching me. no handshakes, no hugs, no anything. i understand their fear and apprehension but that doesnā€™t make it hurt any less. a great deal of them were scared of me and that honestly made my heart break; i didnā€™t ask to be made this way, so why do i have to suffer the consequences?
the only people who really bothered in trying to get to know me and know when itā€™s okay to touch me are natasha, wanda, and bucky. they try to understand how my pyrokinesis works and how to prevent meltdowns (haha get it?) like this.
theyā€™ll never truly understand though.
i see wanda talking to natasha and looking back inside at me. i realize almost immediately that she heard my thoughts. dang you, my sexy witch best friend. i see my girlfriend approach the door i had melted not more than 20 minutes ago and slide it open. she makes sure to close it behind her before she sits next to me at the kitchen island.
she looks stunning.
natasha was wearing a simple black bikini, but yet it complimented her so well. it complimented her beautifully sculpted body, her stunning scars scattered around her body, and it just looked right against her sun-kissed skin.
i wish i looked like her.
ā€œhey, how are you feeling?ā€
i shrug my shoulders.
natashaā€™s lips form into a straight line on her face as she looks down at her hands. i take this moment to admire her gorgeous face. her cute freckles scattered across nearly every part of her face. thatā€™s one of the things i didnā€™t mind about summer. natā€™s freckles showed up and showed out during the summer.
i decide to speak up. ā€œim sorry.ā€
natā€™s head snaps up at the words of my timid apology.
ā€œhoney you have nothing to apologize for. i know that was an accident and i shouldnā€™t have pushed you that far.ā€
ā€œno, about everything.ā€
natasha furrows her brows and her confusion slowly grows. she timidly inches her fingers toward my thigh. she checks my temperature to make sure she can touch me. im lukewarm. she puts her hand on my right thigh with her left hand. that gives me the courage i need to say the next words.
ā€œim sorry for being such a bad girlfriend. i see how you look at other couples and their pda and stuff. you should just break up with me. i mean we canā€™t even have.. um.. sex without me freaking out and burning you. i just donā€™t think im lovable and im definitely holding you back from having your dream relationship. maybe you should try dating banner. i hate his guts but youā€™ll probably be happier with him than youā€™ll ever be with me.ā€
an uncomfortable silence fills the room. i bring my arms up on the countertop and stuff my face into them.
we both breathe in the silence for a while. i know natasha doesnā€™t know what say; i mean what can she say? that everything will be alright? that weā€™ll be able to do normal couple things one day? she would be lying to my face.
ā€œy/n, look at me.ā€
i sink deeper into my seat. i feel hot tears begin to pour out of my eyes. i can no longer feel natashaā€™s touch on my thigh.
i let out a sob. im pathetic.
ā€œbaby, please look at me.ā€
i shake my head.
ā€œfine. y/n, i love you so much. your pyrokinesis will never change that because i didnā€™t fall in love with your body temperature, but with your personality. you didnā€™t deserve what those cruel people did to you but unfortunately you cannot change your story. and sure maybe i get a twinge of sadness watching other couples, but i love our connection more than any pda or hugs or touches. i love the way you assure i feel loved without having to touch me all the time. you are more than your pyrokinesis. i will keep saying that until you get it. because itā€™s true; nothing will ever change that. you are worth the moon and stars to me.ā€
i feel tears begin to flow down my cheeks. i sit up and look at natasha. i gaze into her eyes for a few seconds but immediately look away. playing with my hands, i utter something under my breath in hopes she wonā€™t hear me.
natasha inches her face closer to mind and kisses my tears away. she pulls back smiling and stares at me knowingly when she feels me heat up a bit.
ā€œwhat was that honey? i canā€™t hear you.ā€
this time i make tiny flames from my fingertips and decide to speak up a little more.
ā€œi said, i love you too.ā€
natasha smiles at me knowing i do appreciate what she has said, but iā€™m just too shy.
ā€œnatasha, i love you so much you donā€™t even know. and if i could control myself i would tell you more, but i think if i do iā€™ll start crying and melt this chair.ā€
at that natasha giggles and grabs my chin to kiss all over my face.
ā€œheyy! youā€™re gonna get me riled up!ā€
i swat her face away. she begins to laugh and i stare at her, confused.
ā€œbabe, your face is literally as red as my hair!ā€
ā€œokay, thatā€™s not fair. youā€™re such a bad girlfriend.ā€
i roll my eyes and jump off of my chair, heading towards the sliding door to go back outside.
ā€œyou sure you wanna go back outside? if you want to we can stay inside and cool you down. i can ask tony to order us some ice-cream. fuck, we can even get you an ice bath.ā€
i look back at natasha and shake my head while giggling.
ā€œthatā€™s fine, i want you to enjoy yourself. cmon.ā€
i wait for my girlfriend to join me and we make our way back outside.
everything turned out fine, for today. there were still a few accidents. unfortunately thatā€™s the reality behind being an enhanced human. we will always make mistakes and have accidents, but thatā€™s what reminds us we are still human.
i am still human, and still lovable.
a/n: this is my first work so be kind lol!! but let me know if you guys have any requests or want me to continue this series (?). honestly this isnā€™t proofread, the ending was lowkey rushed, and itā€™s nearly 3am so if itā€™s dookie thatā€™s why lol. but yea, thank you for reading if you made it this far!
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imustbenuts Ā· 2 months ago
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nuts reading trigun in japanese 3 - "weirdo" and vash's pronoun switching
disclaimer: my jp reading posts are all for triangulation purposes and nothing else. scanlating mangas is tough work. @-@ i know this.
"Weirdo"
the word 'weirdo' in 2024 english carries connotations of neutral-bad or positive depending on the context of the speaker. depending on how one curates their internet space, weirdo often leans more positively with the same meaning as eccentric, but not always.
however, but in JP, "weird" is more specific and often negative. there's the well known, hentai å¤‰ę…‹ (ie. deviant, pervert, freak, extremely negative in tone), and in this case, kimochi warui ę°—ęŒć”ę‚Ŗ恄 (gross, off-putting, bad vibes). eccentrics are more as 変äŗŗ henjin and carries a more neutral tone.
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in this panel here papa nebreska uses ę°—ęŒć”ę‚Ŗ恄 in katakana ć‚­ćƒ¢ćƒćƒÆćƒ«ć‚¤ in reaction to vash busting his ass saving people and putting out of harms' way. vash's vibes are so off putting to this wanted man he's actually creeped out.
this is particularly interesting to me bc the english translation didn't end up portraying how utterly weird vash's mindset is fully. it wasnt until wolfwood points out how flawed vash's pacifist mindset do i get a proper frame of reference of norms in this world, but i might be having skill issues in english comprehension. ;w;
Pronoun switching
quick. äæŗ Ore! 僕 Boku! ē§ Watashi! they all mean "I", and there's 2 spectrum of expressions going on here thats commonly believed. 1st being Masculinity to Femininity. what's the 2nd?
the answer is... Rudeness/Assertiveness to Politeness. and gosh does vash switch a lot between Boku and Ore in the first 4 chapters of this manga lmao.
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(to be clear, while i am aware of trans hc thats very popular in the fandom, im not at all diminishing or talking about gender expression specifically. im talking about what vash is presenting himself as in context.)
so to perhaps oversimplify this, in JP the idea of politeness and hierarchy is so super duper important, its very built into the language itself. and Japanese is a very high context language. if someone of a higher or equal standing uses "Ore", its totally fine. but if someone of a lower standing uses "Ore", they've committed a social faux pas.
as an obvious example, if a fresh new employee approaches his Boss with "Ore", he's potentially getting dressing down in the company. maybe in front of his coworkers. if this employee forgoes polite speech (keigo) and uses a too Assertive and Casual speech, they've Really Fucked Up and are one foot out the door.
this is also tied up in gender to some extent, hence why girls using Ore is incredibly uncommon, but guys would use Watashi in certain contexts such as talking to their Boss. (woo woo the forces of hierarchy/patriarchy... or something.)
so. vash switches his pronouns for the same effect. when he uses Ore, he's making himself sound more assertive and confident. when he uses Boku, he's often making himself sound less threatening, smaller, open, and trying to avoid conflict.
sound familiar?
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bc if you translated all of that into a character design instead of relying on just jp pronouns, we'd get TriStamp Vash.
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slight spoilers, but this is even true in one of the tensest moments between vash and wolfwood, where the latter provokes vash and tears into his pacifism ideology. vash sticks with boku in this scene as he says his piece.
if he ever uses watashi, it's bc he wants to be polite straight out of the gate with an air of formality. (this is japanese manners and the proper approach to talking to strangers. mainly to get a feel for each others standing without offense until context changes.)
i also wanna point out maybe something obvious here but.
real life pronoun switching in japanese is a COMMON thing. no one ever really sticks to 1 pronoun bc of Good Manners and the aforementioned hierarchical systems in place. it is only mostly in anime/manga and video games where characters overly prefer 1 due to this being a good shorthand for characterization. this being how rude or polite they are, and in some cases, Gender.
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justtwotired Ā· 1 year ago
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Hi! Could u do Sam and Colby x reader where they're exploring a haunted area and the reader has a panic attack due to a scare so they comfort
Ofc! Thank you for the request!
I did make the reader female because of some extra details, if you donā€™t like that please let me know Iā€™ll change that for you<3
We just had a tour and our guide left afterwards. I would lie if I said I wasnā€™t nervous, Iā€™ve never done this before.
ā€œAlright, so our tour guide just left so weā€™re all alone, are you two ready?ā€ Colby pointed the camera at Sam and me.
ā€œHell yeah!ā€ Sam grinned and I just chuckled nervously. ā€œI am rather nervous if Iā€™m honest.ā€ I said.
ā€œAnd thatā€™s totally fine, I mean, this is your first time, right?ā€ Sam asked and I nodded. ā€œItā€™s completely fine to be nervous or scared, I mean I canā€™t say Iā€™m never scared in our own videos.ā€ Colby said and I couldnā€™t help let out a small laugh.
ā€œAlright then, where do we start?ā€ I asked, putting my hands together.
ā€œWell Iā€™d say the childrenā€™s room, our guide said it was pretty active there and I mean, their children, itā€™s a good start,ā€ Sam suggest and then looked at me.
ā€œYouā€™re a skeptic right?ā€ He asked and I nodded. ā€œYes, I am a sceptic, but you know, maybe thatā€™ll change today,ā€ I grinned at the camera before Colby shut it off.
When we where in the childrenā€™s room he started it again and pointed it at Sam who would explain a bit.
ā€œAlright so as the guide mentioned, there is quite a lot of activity here, mostly like toys moving, equipment going off and he mentioned knocks when you are in another room.ā€ He summed up before Colby pointed the camera at me.
ā€œHe also said, they did really like females especially with long hair.ā€ He said and Sam walked the frame taking some of my long locks of h/c hair in his hands and pointing at it. ā€œLong hair.ā€ He said and I chuckled.
ā€œLetā€™s just hope they wonā€™t cut it.ā€ I said making them also laugh.
After the investigation in the room, weā€™re about to leave when I feel a strong tuck on my hair. I suck im a sharp breath and my hand shoots towards my head.
ā€œHey, hey whatā€™s wrong?ā€ Sam immediately notices something wrong. ā€œSomething just pulled my hair Iā€™m not kidding,ā€ I say and tears fill my eyes.
ā€œLike an actual pull or just movement?ā€ Sam asked curiously, not noticing my distress yet.
ā€œNo like someone actually grabbed it and pulled,ā€ I said and my voice broke, making them realise something was wrong. ā€œHey, hey itā€™s alright.ā€ Colby quickly walked over putting and arm around me.
ā€œNo, no Iā€™m fine, Iā€™m sorry,ā€ I apologise. ā€œHey, no need to say sorry, itā€™s all fine.ā€ Colby reassured. My sight was blurred and I could feel my hands shaking.
ā€œCome, you should sit down for a moment.ā€ Sam urges and I just sit down right on the ground, leaning against the wall.
ā€œIā€™m sorry,ā€ I said again, wiping my tears out of my eyes. ā€œNo, no itā€™s fine, itā€™s fine. Come breath, in and out alright.ā€ Iā€™m not sure whoā€™s speaking to me but i try my best to listen, trying to take longer breaths.
ā€œSee, thatā€™s better,ā€ Colby says, rubbing my back. ā€œI feel like Iā€™m going to pass out.ā€ I admit as I lean my head against the wall behind me.
ā€œYouā€™re not going to pass out, just keep talking to me, youā€™re going to be alright.ā€ Sam reassures, sitting in front of me while holding my hands to stop them from shaking.
I take deep breaths in an out, trying to calm down while they keep reassuring me everything is going to be fine.
ā€œI- I think Iā€™m fine, we can continue.ā€ I said after calming down a bit, I try to sit up but Sam stops me. ā€œWow, letā€™s get you some water first and then sit for a moment longer, weā€™re in no rush.ā€ He tells me before standing up and walking towards the bags to get some water.
When he returns he hands me the bottle and I take a few sips.
ā€œIā€™m sorry, I just- I already was overwhelmed and then that happened, it just freaked me out.ā€ I said. ā€œNo itā€™s fine, really, you donā€™t have to apologise, its really fine.ā€ Colby said, sitting next to me.
ā€œDo you still want to continue? We can cut it short and get you back,ā€ Sam asked but I shook my head. ā€œNo, we can continue, Iā€™m fine.ā€ I smiled.
ā€œAlright, but if you want to leave just say so,ā€ he tells me and I nod. ā€œCan we cut me freaking out from the video, though? You can add the part where I just say what happened, justā€¦ not what happened after.ā€ I say.
ā€œYes, of course, I think we actually immediately cut the cameraā€™s.ā€ Colby says and I breath out in relief.
ā€œAlright then, letā€™s continue.ā€
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egotisticaleverything Ā· 9 months ago
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YOUR NSFW HCS FOR MATTHEW PATEL IS SO DELICIOUS AND YUMMY!!!!!!!!!!!! Can you do NSFW alphabet of him please
MATTHEW PATEL
NSFW ALPHABET
ā€”ā€”ā€”ā€”ā€”ā€”ā€”ā€”ā€”ā€”ā€”ā€”ā€”ā€”ā€”
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NOTE: sorry for dying again lmao im BACK and with MULTIPLE requests for Mattyā€™s NSFW alphabet here I AM!!
WARNING/CONTAINS: face sitting, degrading, praise, mentions of public sex, bondage and mostly DOM! Reader
NSFW UNDER THE CUT
A = Aftercare (what theyā€™re like after sex)
Heā€™s so huffy and puffy. Completely worn out- but heā€™ll try his best to take care of you and clean up, make sure youā€™re okay and comfortable and definitely cuddle with you. (Slightly awkwardly but thatā€™s just Matty for you)
B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partnerā€™s)
Partners: definitely a thigh guy, like he loves them. Like youā€™re lying on the couch and he just comes up and places his head between your thighs. Heā€™s. Obsessed.
His: probably his hands, heā€™s really awkward but super handsy and touchy. At first not really but after a while he just needs to touch you constantly. All the time.
C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)
Heā€™s super awkward so the first time you guys had sex and he came IN YOU he freaked out because he didnā€™t know if you wanted that or not. You assured you that was fine and that is probably his FAVOURITE place to cum. No debates.
D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)
Heā€™s a little into degradingā€¦ like if you walk in on him jerking off and start teasing him calling him ā€œpatheticā€ and stuff heā€™ll literally die.
E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what theyā€™re doing?)
He was 100% a virgin when you met. Look at him. Hes felt the touch of only one woman ever. That woman being his middle school girlfriend. But he tries his best! He wants to make you feel good and heā€™s willing to put his all into it.
F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)
Cowgirl. COWGIRL. He loves when youā€™re on top, maybe itā€™s just because he likes you being in charge and thatā€™s the best position for you to do so inā€¦ but 100% will actually melt if you ride him.
G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)
He thought the clitoris was alien propaganda. Enough said.ļæ¼
H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)
He doesnā€™t grow that much hair except in his pubic area. Heā€™s very well groomed but has a nice little happy trail leading up his lower torso.
I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)
Heā€™s so lovey dovey, blubbering almost incoherent praise and whines. Just constant- ā€œI love youā€s and ā€œso good- just like thatā€ or ā€œpleasepleasepleaseā€ even if heā€™s not begging for anything
J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)
Super loud. Constantly whining and whimpering while he does it even if he tries to be quiet heā€™s horrible at it. He can not keep his mouth shut for more than 30 seconds without letting out a pornographic moan or whine.
K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)
Smell. He LOVES your smell. Heā€™s definitely jacked off while sniffing your underwear before just craves anything that has your sent lingering on it. Especially if youā€™re away.
L = Location (favorite places to do the do)
Bed, he wants you to feel comfortable and safe and whatā€™s more comfortable and safe than your own bedroom? Also because heā€™s too embarrassed for public/semi public sex or even doing it on the couch most of the time.
M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)
Call him a good boy. I dare you. Run your fingers through this manā€™s hair and call him a good boy and tell him how handsome he looks and how amazing he is. Heā€™ll literally fall to his knees and worship you.
N = No (something they wouldnā€™t do, turn offs)
Piss. Shit. Heā€™s scared. Youā€™re scared. Youā€™re both scared. Everyone is scared.
O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)
He loves giving it to you, he probably asked you to sit on his face atleast one time- really shyly obviously. He came up to you all quiet and stuttering while he asked. RECEIVING THO? heā€™ll praise you like youā€™re the second coming of Jesus Christ. ā€œJust like that- so goodā€ literally in love with the sight of you in your knees for him, his cock engulfed in your mouth.
P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)
You usually take charge but when he does heā€™s kind of in the middle. Heā€™s probably scared to go fast and rough- heā€™d be scared of hurting you or breaking something. He prefers slower or more paced sex. Very sensual and loving.
Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)
He doesnā€™t hate them but doesnā€™t love them. He much rather have you all to himself for an extended period of time, he just wants you for ever and ever!
R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)
Heā€™d be so shy that heā€™d probably stay very vanilla until you pushed him out of his comfort zone. Heā€™s so scared to ask for things heā€™s just a nervous wreck 99% of the time.
S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)
You can and will overstimulate him. He can and will cry. Not in a bad way out of pleasure of course! He loves it though, he has good stamina you just live to see him whine and whimper under you sometimesā€¦ donā€™t we all?
T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)
Heā€™s not opposed. Definitely teased him with a vibrator before, tying his hands to the bed and resting it on the tip of his cock, watching him whine and beg for too to stop teasing him.
U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)
He doesnā€™t like to tease BUT he loves to BE teased. Always resting your hand on his upper thigh dangerously close to his crotch, subtly calling him the nicknames you call him in bed in public, ect ect. He pretends to be annoyed but LOVES IT.
V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)
Loud. LOUD. LOUD MAN. Whines, moans, grunts, whimpers, begging, dirty talk. Heā€™s constantly blubbering incoherently he cannot and WILL NOT shut up. In a good way OFC!!
W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)
Probably wears a headband to keep his hair out of his face while eating you out or sucking you off- ONE OF THESE:
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X = X-ray (letā€™s see whatā€™s going on under those clothes)
Heā€™s not very muscular, slightly scrawny but not completely. Iā€™d say heā€™s an in between, like half scrawny nerd half toned gym bro.
Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)
Heā€™s got a relatively normal sex drive, nothing crazy but he will complain if you guys are alone when heā€™s horny. 100%.
Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)
Almost instantly tbh. Right after clean up heā€™s OUT. Capoot. Gone.
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bitterbutblue Ā· 2 months ago
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COUGH COUGH NEEDING IDEAS??
AM I SUMMONED???
anonymous letters from Robin. she never goes out of anonymous since she doesnā€™t do this often and doesnā€™t know how you would think.
then the next day she approaches you, asking about what secret letter you have in hand like she didnā€™t sneak those into your bag herself :3
Bonus if you tell her anonymous letters arenā€™t really your thing then just never read it LMFAO
Anyways just need to go back to doing work šŸ¤§
~ šŸ·
~ omg we're going back to the LOSER ROBIN AGENDA guys .. in my head the most loser coded IN SECRET is robin (mostly because i love her and im very much attracted to loser coded women even though i am one myself)
making this a high school/college au :] ~
ā”€ā”€ ā‹†ā‹…ā˜†ā‹…ā‹† ā”€ā”€ā”€ā”€ ā‹†ā‹…ā˜†ā‹…ā‹† ā”€ā”€ā”€ā”€ ā‹†ā‹…ā˜†ā‹…ā‹† ā”€ā”€ā”€ā”€ ā‹†ā‹…ā˜†ā‹…ā‹† ā”€ā”€ā”€ā”€
ā¤· she thinks she's being soooo slick
ā¤· robin is your typical popular girl- gorgeous looks and incredible smile and the kindest soul you've ever met. every guy thinks they have a chance with her, and she just laughs at them because we all know what she is
ā¤· one day, she sits down next to you in the lecture hall for some fucking reason and you're just like. Okay? Um. Wow.
ā¤· You did not focus that entire lecture btw u were focusing on trying to act normal and okay and totally not freaking out that your long term crush was sitting next to you in all her glory
ā¤· that evening back at your dorm, you found an odd letter in your bag. no sender name, nothing. just a blank envelope.
ā¤· lowkey creeped out so you threw it out
ā¤·the next day however...
You really didn't expect her to sit next to you again- you spent all of last night rationalising to yourself WHY she would choose to sit next to you of all people. The lecture hall had been quite full at that point, maybe that's why she sat next to you? Maybe her friends just didn't want to go to the 9am lecture, that also made sense. Yeah. That's probably why.
Throwing your bag down on the ground as you collapse into the uncomfortable lecture hall chairs, you sigh in exhaustion. These 9am lectures were really starting to get to you and you're struggling to keep your eyes open as you take a drink of your coffee.
"Hey."
You look up tiredly, only to widen your eyes in shock when you see Robin, once again, standing next to you.
"Can I sit here?"
She sounds awfully nervous, barely looking at you and you just nod in confusion and she smiles at you and you want to squeal. She sits down, body tense as she awkwardly pulls out her iPad and whatever else she needs for the lecture. You wonder why she's acting so off.
"Everything okay?"
Robin freezes, a light pink dusting her cheek as she nods awkwardly.
"Splendid. I mean- I meant great, who says splendid anymore... Jesus..."
You just eye her oddly as she turns redder, mumbling awkwardly to herself.
The entire lecture was the most awkward experience of your life. Robin would not stop side eyeing you and a part of you began to panic- did she find out about your crush on her? Is that why she's acting so weird around you? But why the fuck is she still sitting next to you then? Oh god, you need to avoid her forever from now on. The second the lecture ended, you ran out of that damned hall before Robin even had a chance to open her mouth, your bag already packed 5 minutes before the professor even ended. You missed the way she stares dejectedly at you, a crushed look in her eyes.
She thought you read her letter and hated her.
You thought she found out you were in love with her.
Robin refused for you to end things like that though. In the middle of the goddamn fucking night, as you were studying, a knock on your door.
"What the fuck..." You mumble tiredly, throwing down your pen and walking over to the door to check through the peephole whoever the fuck it would be bothering you at night "March, if it's you I-"
The rest of the sentence dies in your throat, throwing open the door frantically.
"Robin!?"
There she stood, eyes red from tears, sniffling as she hugs her jacket close to her body.
"What the fuck- it's almost 12am! What are you doing?"
"If you don't feel the same way, why don't you just tell me!"
"What??"
You take her hand, pulling you into her room and you miss the way her cheeks flush at the contact and her wings flutter slightly as you slam the door shut.
"What are you talking about?"
"If you don't like me that way, you should just tell me instead of hiding like a coward!" She sniffles
What.
You stare at her, eyes wide and mouth agape and in other circumstances, Robin would've probably laughed.
"What?"
"Don't act dense!"
"What are you talking about??"
Robin groans in frustration, angrily wiping her tears away.
"The letter!"
"Huh?"
"The- what? Did you not read it?" Robin's angry gaze falters when she takes in the full extent of your confusion, and you tilt your head to the side like a lost puppy.
"Wh- that was you??"
"You didn't READ IT?"
"Why would I read a letter addressed to no one."
You two just kind of stare at each other, uncomfortable silence filling the room as Robin begins to flush from embarrassment.
"Wait, so why were you acting weird when the lecture ended?"
Now it was your turn to flush from embarrassment.
"Don't change the subject! What was so important about that letter?"
"You're literally changing the subject as we speak- why were you acting so fucking weird?"
You cleared your throat, crossing your arms in frustration as you awkwardly stared to the side.
Fuck it.
"I thought you found out I had a crush on you and that's why you were acting so weird and awkward around me this morning I'm really sorry we never have to talk about this ever again." You say in one breath as you stare down at your shoes, mumbling quietly.
Silence. She's probably going to storm off any minute now, she'll tell everyone you're a weird lesbian freak, and-
You gasp when you feel a tug down on your collar, and before you know it she has her lips on yours and her hand on your cheek. You sort of just stand there at first, frozen and not knowing what to do.
"Oh no, was that too much? I'm sorry-"
"Huh..."
You just stare at her, dazed as you move your hand up to gently touch your lips and Robin practically melts on the spot.
"I like you too, you dumbass. You would've known if you didn't throw the letter away! Why would you throw a letter away, what if it was something important like-"
"Can you kiss me again?"
That managed to shut Robin up as she turns red again, a shy look forming on her face before stepping close to you, tiptoeing slightly as she places a hand on the back of your neck before kissing you softly and in that moment you really regretted throwing the stupid letter away- but hey, she's kissing you and you're smiling like a kid in a candy store. Can't complain.
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harufluff Ā· 11 months ago
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'not like you don't want one!!' nishimura riki
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warnings - minor cursing, falling lol
genre - fluff, nishimura riki x fem!reader, established relationship au
wc - 0.7k
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'oh my gosh-' 'what...' you had stopped in your tracks as a park ice skating rink came into view. you had walked from your hotel down to a little burger place that an employee where you were staying recommended.
you had known the weather was going to be chilly, so you dressed in simple grey sweatpants, a long sleeved t-shirt with one of your boyfriends sweaters to stay warm. riki wore a typical riki outfit, consisting of mostly black and oversized clothing.
but while walking to the restaurant, the bright string lights illuminating the rink had taken your attention away from the food. you pointed your hand towards the group of people skating around in a circle.
riki chuckled at your cute gesture. 'do you wanna go ice skating after we eat?' he asks, looking down at you. 'can we go now...?' 'no?? im so fucking hungry right now, are you crazy?'
you tried fighting him, but hungry riki was not an easy opponent. the two of you ended up eating at the restaurant and then you dragging him out of the door to make your way to the ice skating rink.
'c'mon!! lets go skate, ki!' he just giggled and let you take his hand to lead him to the check in stand. you payed for the tickets and a locker where you put your bags and shoes inside, then you made your way to the benches to tie your skates up.
'do you know how to tie ice skates?' you had nodded at first, but you had ended up getting confused with the way the laces went through the hook thingys.
riki helped you lace them up when he was done with his, being the kind hearted boyfriend he is. 'all set. why don't you try standing up-.' you stood up with a slight wobble, but you ended up getting the hang of picking your feet up further in order to not fall of your face.
your ankle leaned slightly and you grabbed onto your boyfriends jacket to stable yourself. 'ah- careful...jeez were not even on the ice yet-' you chuckled quietly and continued to hold on to him as you made your way to the entrance of the rink.
at first it was still wobbly, but as you continued to gain speed, it got slightly easier! riki made sure to keep an eye on you while you stuck your tongue out in deep focus.
as the time went on and continued to grab onto your boyfriend, but he grew fond of it. the two of you stayed on the ice for a few more minutes until the person in front of you kicked up a large piece of ice from the rink, causing you to freak out a bit and trip over your own feet.
'b-babe-!' you once again, grabbed your boyfriends arm and dragged him down with you. he, being the good boyfriend he is, made sure his back was hitting the ground rather than yours.
a quiet scream came out of your mouth as your head hit riki's chest. he gestured you to get up so there was no more traffic jams in the ice rink.
'are you ok?' he asked, gently cupping your cheeks to make sure nothing was broken. you simply giggled at his worriedness and grabbed his hand to lead him on in another circle.
riki always thought you looked best from the back. he always pointed out the members how happy you look while going somewhere with him when he zoned out.
truthfully, you did the same with your friends. you fell the the ice for the nth time and riki made you get off the ice before you would break your leg.
'c'mon lets go back to the hotel...' he said, sitting you down on the small bench while crouching down to untie your skates. 'but its so boring there-' 'i wouldn't call sleep boring, babe.'
'yea maybe for you...you dont get kicked constantly.' you retort back at him. he giggled at your response, which made you smile in reaction. 'at least i dont get woken up at 1 am for a hug.' 'HEY ITS NOT LIKE YOU DONT WANT ONE-' your sentence is cut off by your boyfriends lips against yours. he pulls away, quite to early for your liking.
you feel his warm breath against your mouth. 'you're right...i do want them.' a chuckle escapes your smile. 'c'mon let's go back now, ok?'
'ok, but be prepared to get the biggest hug of your life!'
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Ā©harufluff 2023
a/n - happy birthday ki!! ilysm youve made my life so happy, so i really hope you're doing ok. you seem sad lately so im hoping you will feel better soon. i love youuu!! (ik hes not seeing it lol not bug me about it again this year)
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scp230kinnie Ā· 9 months ago
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Hi im so glad I found someone still writes for hunteršŸ˜­Could you do a hunter x goth reader or if you donā€™t feel like writing that I will take any hunter content literallyšŸ˜­ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹
JSJSHSJS YES OKAY IM GONNA DO HEADCANONS JUST CUZ I DONT FEEL LIKE WRITING A LONG THING
Hunter Sylvester x Goth reader Headcanons
No warnings aside from being cringe and not proofreadšŸ™ mostly gn!
āš ļø I AM NOT A GOTH PERSON so please feel free to let me know if I get anything wrongšŸ˜­
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Have fun reading
At first he really doesnā€™t like goth music šŸ˜­
He says itā€™s not metal enough for him or something
He learns to accept your music taste, knowing heā€™s not gonna change anything
He does try to get you to expand your music taste a bit
(By giving you metal recommendations)
IMAGINE GOING OUT IN FULL TRAD GOTH WHILE HE DOES CORPSE PAINT AWW
Lowkey he would to do corpse paint on you, and he would maybe be willing to let you do trad goth on him in return
Heā€™s not a fan of the style himself, but he thinks you look absolutely freaking majestic
You always catch him staring at you or watching you do makeup
He shows you off to all his (3) friends for sure
ā€œThis is my amazing gf/bf šŸ’Ŗā€
He will learn about the subcultures and stuff just for you
On the days you donā€™t do full read goth and just do like regular eyeliner or something, heā€™ll be all goofy like ā€œwho the fuck is this chickšŸ˜¦ā€
Shit bro he will buy you whatever clothes and accessories you want (with his dads card duh)
He will also (try to) help you do your hair
He doesnā€™t have any ā€œgothā€ clothes, seeing as heā€™s a metalhead, but same goes for my last set of Hunter hcs, he will give you his hoodies and maybe his band shirts if you wanted
Painting each others nailsšŸ«¶
Heā€™s not good at it but damn right heā€™s gonna try
I just KNOW if you painted his nails heā€™d fuck it up instantly. Like itā€™ll still be drying and heā€™ll already smudge it in like 5 minutes
If you dye your hair, (light haired alternative people knowšŸ˜”) he will probably try to help
He has really low patience with it tho
If you have really thick or long hair he will straight up just give up
Idk how many times Iā€™ve said it but he WILL try to learn your favourite songs on guitar
Back at it with the ā€œserenadingā€ thing but itā€™s just him flexing his skills
When ur not around he will try on your jewelry just to see how it looks
Will steal your rings if they fit him
Same thing with earrings
Iā€™m like 90% sure he canonically has his ears pierced so if you have nice earrings he will take them and wear them with pride
I am not goth, once again. But I am some kind of alternative, and I know that a lot of these people have like spikes that they put on clothes and stuff
So he would definitely want you to do that with some of his stuff
Thatā€™s all I can think of for now šŸ˜‡ keep them coming guys
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crushedsweets Ā· 1 year ago
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i am so so sorry for the sheer amount of headcanons i'm making you crank out, HOWEVER... i am so curious as to if you have any headcanons for nina and natalie as a duo. i love the way you perceive them and write them it genuinely makes me so happy
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i had to doodle them . ok. lets go..
nat was one of the first people nina met from jeff, since she and jeff lived in the barn together.
nina thought nat was a lesbian when they first met . that is literally the only reason why she wasnt mad jeff was living with a woman.
although nina was like, one of the ONLY people to notice toby/nat tension and was sooo heartbroken when she realized they were never getting together..... but then was relieved they didnt get together when she got over jeff because 'well i can't be the only single one!'
again, natalie grew up with 0 girl friends, only hung out with her brother and boys. even after meeting the creeps, theyre still mostly guys. so she's just kinda really awkward and weird around girls. not in a like, 'oh girls r so annoying' way but like... she just doesnt know how to fit in. she just feels so different in the worst possible way and always has.
and nina is very girly, outgoing, touchy, friendly, cute, etc. so it was very like UMMM?!? idk. natalie kept snapping at her, assuming she was fake and weird and just trying to get something from nat, but nina was so persistent and just. friendly. it started making natalie feel warm.
nina's presence started to heal natalies inner little girl. she had it stolen from her time and time again, from her dad, her brother, her peers - the operator, too.
so the two are eventually actual friends. they'll text and play mobile phone games together. sometimes they'll just sit on call and nina will be talking her head off while nat does her own thing at home. one time nat was at tobys cabin and nina was talking about toby on speaker and toby walked in and was like 'hey nina' .... nina almost threw up she was so embarrassed.
nina loves visiting nats bar because everyone is always talking to nina and giving her attention and buying her drinks, and at first nat was irritated but it kinda got nat some better tips since the customers started realizing ninas her friend. so nat was pleased. LOL
nat was never the type to go shopping, but she'll follow nina around and sit while nina tries on clothes and carry around all her bags that she buys LOL... ninas made jokes about nat being boyfriend material and nat just flatout says smth about how nina should get over jeff cuz he would never.
nat is friends with jeff but she's oddly comfortable just telling nina that he's a piece of shit. and ninas always like NOOO U DONT GET IT U DONT SEE WHAT I DO and nats always just .. not... impressed..
nina's always inviting nat out to try new foods. nat grew up just eating bread and noodles with butter half the time so it's fun. nina always tries to pay bc 'well i invited you!!!'. sometimes toby tags along but he feels a way abt going in public places..
nina rarely visits jack cuz she has no reason to, but nat is friends with him so sometimes nina pops in and she's always like ^_^ HELLO TALL MYSTERIOUS SLIGHTLY MONSTEROUS MAN... <3... nat smacks the back of her head cuz she's being dumb and drooling over a bunch of rando freaks. ... . ok i love nina and she owes jeff nothing but she is def not loyal LOLLLL AND SHE HAS THE RIGHT TO FAWN OVER EVERYONE she's a fangirl at heart.
they watch a ton of shows together. nina got nat into horror kdrama stuff, but they have to watch in dub cuz nat cant read the subtitles fast enough . . . at first nina cringed but now she doesnt care.
nat's painted/drawn nina several times, and nina almost cries everytime. she's put the drawings up on her wall before but anytime nat's at her apartment, she takes it down bc 'i dont want my art on ur wall stop it' LOL... kinda rude but whatevs.
ugh theyre just so fucking cute guys im sorry i love them . holds them. brushes their hair.
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jwirecs Ā· 11 months ago
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RECOMMENDED BTS FICS OF NOVEMBER 2023šŸ’–
hello, hello! here are my bts recs of november! hopefully these beautiful stories get more recognition as well as the writers šŸ’
** anything in parentheses and bolded are my thoughts that can be disregarded if needed **
šŸ”žsmut || šŸ’”angst || šŸ’•fluff || āœ…completed || šŸ”„ongoing || šŸ’Æfavorite
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Bad BoyĀ ||Ā @i-am-baechušŸ”žšŸ’•šŸ’”āœ…šŸ’ÆšŸ’ÆšŸ’Æ
ā†³Ā Yoongi has been best friends with Namjoon since he was seven. He knew his little sister was always off limits but Yoongi never followed the rules. (we love it when siblings are supportive of them crushes. we gotta give respect to yoongi for not pursuing his crush to not risk his friendship with namjoon. but also props to namjoon for not getting pissed off when they finally got together though.)
Partner PrivilegesĀ ||Ā @7ndipityšŸ’•āœ…šŸ’Æ
ā†³Ā (imma need me a man to give me partner privileges like this yoongi right here. like my man yoongi is a whole ass softie. i love it.)
Sharp TeethĀ ||Ā @dearly-somberšŸ’•šŸ’”šŸ”„šŸ’ÆšŸ’ÆšŸ’Æ
ā†³Ā Jungkookā€”a love struck puppy pining for Y/Nā€™s affection. Y/Nā€”an obvious, hard-headed tsundere too thick to realize a shifter likes her. What could go wrong? (i have a HUUUUUUUUGE soft spot for fantasy fics (mainly werewolf fics and stuff, and i solely blame my 13 year old self watching twilight LOL). like if you are writing a werewofl/hybrid/shifter fic just know that is going to be automatically be in my reading list. when i came across this one, oh lord have mercy. read all of them in one sitting PLUS its still ongoing to. imma have a field day with this one i know it.)
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Finding Your Boyfriend Sleeping In Your Hyperfeminine Pink RoomĀ ||Ā @rrjkivešŸ’•āœ…
ā†³ (theres no summary, but we just gotta love soft jungkook you know. like with the live of him just sleeping on live is freaking adorable and you can literally picture this big ass man with THAT HELLO KITTY THATS IN HIS LIVING ROOM and the man is just hugging that sht to death while sleeping.)
Five More MinutesĀ ||Ā @7ndipityšŸ’•āœ…
ā†³ Anon Req: "Having to stand up in the morning with yoongi but not wanting to. cuddling and trying to stay in bed as long as possible instead" (i love soft yoongi, in this world, alternative world, ANY WORLD LIKE SOFT YOONGI IS SUPERIOR.)
Was It Better?Ā ||Ā @gyukookswhorešŸ”žāœ…
ā†³ Jungkook has been acting weird lately in bed, but your not complaining about it or are you ? (you know how it was literally no nut november for fics, well, lets just say that half of these fics on this list is literally smut. that says a lot. aka i clearly did not get the memo since i read mostly smut LOL. but this fic, is so detailed that i could read it again ngl.)
WonderstruckĀ ||Ā @jinkookspencilšŸ’•āœ…
ā†³Ā jungkook convinced his fearful girlfriend to try out a rollercoaster at the funfairā€¦ (honestly the ask that was sent to op was perfect. like stop this sht is fcking cute. got me giggling in bed kicking my feet and sht.)
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Animal FarmĀ ||Ā @joonberriessšŸ”žāœ…
ā†³Ā (there was no summary, but holy jesus, this was literally a wild ride. like without reading the tags and tw, but the title alone, i thought this was going to be a lil cute fic about farming you know. BUT NO THIS WAS NOT ABOUT FARMING WHAT SO EVER BUT THIS WAS A WILD WILD RIDE. i say give it a read if you are like me who forgets to read the tags and tw (which is prob not a good thing) but its a suprise everytime i read something.)
Biker!KookĀ ||Ā @lustfuldevilsšŸ’•āœ…šŸ’Æ
ā†³Ā (there was no summary exactly, but lets just say that im a sucker for biker!kook + reader. whether the reader is like innocent type or just a regular...person??? like personality wise you know. i dont know if that made any sense, but you know what im talking about..hopefully)
Every Little ThingĀ ||Ā @7ndipityšŸ’”āœ…šŸ’Æ
ā†³Ā When you overhear Yoongi talking about how clingy youā€™ve been lately, you decide to take a step back from your friendship to give him space. But your sudden absence goes far from unnoticed by him. (i like to torture myself by reading angst that makes me feel sad and sht. honeslty love this one + im pretty sure theres like 3-4 fics from this op on this list. hi just wanted to say that i love your writing.)
Forest BrideĀ ||Ā @flowerwrites06šŸ”žšŸ’•šŸ’”āœ…šŸ’ÆšŸ’ÆšŸ’Æ
ā†³Ā The business transaction of a marriage between two previous warring clans takes an unexpected turn. (i love how yoongi automatically became protective over oc while she was slightly closed off due to their past experience. like all hail yoongi.)
Lost & FoundĀ ||Ā @theharrowingšŸ’•šŸ’”āœ…
ā†³Ā Taehyung just wants to be left alone. Too bad you need a place to stay. (i honestly love fics where its told from the members pov. like it gives us a chance to read about what they would do and say (even if its fiction you know) like it gives us a different pov then other fics where its mainly through a third-person pov or like the readers pov. love this)
My AlphaĀ ||Ā @btsbratšŸ”žāœ…šŸ’Æ
ā†³Ā you discover that the soon to be alpha, Jungkook, is your destined mate. However, your story takes an unexpected turn when Jungkook rejects the mate bond. (i honestly thought that this fic wouldve been longer, you know just to prolong the rejection and what jk would do, but this pace is also good too. i hope that op makes a longer version where it involves like the in between you know! not that op has to make a longer ver, i also love this ver too!)
Of Storms and Vampires ||Ā @wishesunderthestarsšŸ’•šŸ’”šŸ”„šŸ’Æ
ā†³ During the worst storm you have witnessed in your life, a bat crashes on your window. When you bring it inside your cottage to take care of it, you realize it isn't simply a bat but a baby vampire. Your past has come back to haunt you because Jungkook's sire is no one else but Min Yoongi, who you had left behind when you disappeared five years ago.Ā (this is still currently ongoing but i havent read many vampire!bts fics BUT lets just say, bats be cute and sht but deadly. cant wait to read the future chapters. also this is first chapter isnt rushed or anything so it def caught my reading eye for sure. went at a nice pace, not too fast, not too slow which i love)
Do check out all of the other BTS Fics that i have reblogged as well!!
** if there is any fics that you guys would like to recommend, please do! i am slowly running out of fics to read **
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