#im tired stressed and dyslexic

[lucky-lucky-duck]

Forget You, Forget-Me-Not

A continuation based on a reply to my Vaga Snapshot post that i'm writing between cram sessions. The semester ends in 2 days and I'm dying, but it's fine. c: Everything is fine. c: I'm gonna start on the matchup in a couple days when my load lightens, this is just a late night creative outlet for stress c':

Leo Kurosagi x Vagastrom Ghoul Reader (2nd person pov and gender neutral)

Leo goes too far in an argument, and I'll fill this out tomorrow. For now, it's sad. Reader nearly gives up on braking the curse causing the people around them to slowly forget they exist. Fuck I'm tired

Morning edit - I fixed a couple of spelling mistakes, but the description made me laugh so it stays. I'm still fucking tired.

"I'm passing the phone to a No-Name NPC who is so unremarkable that the faculty evaluators actually forgot they existed."

You're ignoring him. It's been four days, and you've barely said a word to anyone, but everyone knows that Leo is somehow the culprit.

It doesn't really matter, you think with dull amusement. Sho and Alan had both been out at the time; the only witnesses to your humiliation were you, Leo, and the general students. Leo's too busy trying to bait you into argument to gloat about his win to the others, and you aren't about to tell them yourself.

The general students are a non-issue, too. Most of them struggle to remember your name most days, they're not about to suddenly start remembering gossip about you.

The thing is, you've had fights with Leo before. Hell, fighting with Leo has something of a hobby to you once you started sharing a living space with him. There's just something about him that brings out the worst in you. The vicious snake-like part, that coils up with anticipation and prepares to strike when you see Leo enter the room. You used to think of it as something that you both secretly look forward to, once the vitriol died down and your metaphorical fight-to-the-death turned into elementary-school bullying.

He's never brought up your curse like that before. It's been tit-for-tat, both of you giving just as good as you get. It's supposed to be fun.

You squash the pang of longing in your chest with snarled anger, only to be drenched in an icy kind of apathy. There are lines both of you choose not to cross these days (you were under that impression at the time, at least.), and the waning acknowledgment of your existence had definitely been one of them. Christ, you didn't exactly pour salt onto Leo's obvious abandonment wounds during these fights, did you?

"What did Leo do to you?" Sho's voice snaps you out of your thoughts.

"Nothing, why do you ask?" Your voice scrapes lifelessly as you meet his eyes with a small, strained grin.

"Really? Then what, you've been moping around the dorms the past few days because you enjoy the smell of sweat and motor oil?"

"You know me, can't get enough of the ol' sugar and spice." The attempted banner falls flat as you make to slip around him and head for your dorm at the end of the hall, only to be held in place with a single strong hand on your wrist. "You ever tried shake weights?"

"Stop," he shuts down your distraction. "You know he's a rat bastard, right? You can't take what he says personally. We're going to find a way to break the curse."

So, Leo told Sho what happened after all, has he?

Sho's words slow to a stop when he notices the dead-eyes and scowl that have overtaken your forceful nonchalance from earlier.

"I wasn't lying, I'm not angry at Leo for what he said to me," Apart from the fact that you kind of are. "He wasn't exactly wrong."

"Shut up already!" You don't turn your head to look at Leo as he appears in the corridor. Figures he would listen in on a private conversation. It's probably him who sent Sho to find you in the first place. Bastards.

In the end, the choice is made for you, and a new set of hands grip your shoulders, yanking you face-to-face with the person you wanted to see least.

"Are you telling me I've been wasting my time on someone this fucking pathetic?" The words would hurt more if the expression on Leo's face were less desperate. If anyone looks pathetic here, it's him. "Of course. You would be willing to sit back and watch as you sink into irrelevance, wouldn't you? If that's what you want, fine." It's funny how adept you've become at interpreting Leo's mannerisms after all of the fighting.

For all of the accusations and insults, the only thing you see in front of you is a hissing kitty cat desperately trying to make amends in the only way it knows how. It's a shit apology, but... Leo isn't the type to put on this type of fit unless he feels threatened and cornered, and, as far as you are aware, the only threat being posed at the moment is you walking away from him.

Your bar sure has sunk low these days, yikes.

"That would probably hurt more if you weren't still gripping my shoulders like we're in a steamy novel. Do you have fantasies of pinning me down often?" You're promptly shoved away and insulted once more, free to turn back and walk back toward your dorm without sparing either boy behind you a glance.

As you prepare yourself for bed, you notice the ache in your chest loosening just enough to let you breath deeply. If just for tonight, you'll fall asleep free from the fear that tomorrow will be the day you finally wake up as a stranger.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[liliemay4]

'You Shouldn't Be Here'

In which Harry finds his lover in his place of work. Please don't judge spelling errors too hard, I'm dyslexic and trying my best, I'm also not british or from europe, please correct or give tips for anything grammar related to it a bit more accurate! this isn't based on Atyd, the books, or any other fics just something of my own, if it does remind you of a fic or something please lmk I'd love to read it!

TW: Cuts, injuries, hospital, stitches, blood (I suck at dialogue so let's ignore that) this is not proofread!!

The fluorescent lights above me flicker ever so slightly, machines beeping all around me, the cloth pressed firmly against my wrist collecting the drops of seemingly endless blood flowing out of it, turning the previously white washcloth and maroon red. The clock hits 11 at night, feet patter against the floor of the room surrounding me, my eyes fluttering around desperately hoping to find someone who can help, anyone but him, anyone but Harry. Finally, i connect eyes with someone who then makes their way over to my side...

"What happened here?" They lead me to a bed, white sheets tucked tightly against it.

"Slipped and cut myself, pretty deep too" I slowly remove the damp cloth, revealing the glittering red that drenches my arm. "Got it cleaned up as much as i could before i came here, thought it woulda stopped by now, seems to be deeper than i orignally thought."

"I'll get everything i need to get you cleaned and stitched up, I'll be right back!" She leaves.

Alone. Yet again, eyes now frantically searching this time in hopes of seeing harry, not him seeing me. After a few minutes i give up my searching, not noticing his gaze staring me down from outside the door, eyes filled with fear, unsure of who hes staring at. He practically races in as the previous nurse sits down beside me again.

"Joans..." He breathes out "You're needed in the ICU..." He lies "I'll take over here for ya" He stares me down throughout all of his words.

My previous nurse, joans, assures me im in good hands and leaves. Harry yanks the curtain closed behind her and drops to the stool she left behind.

"You aren't supposed to be here, you should never be here, not like this" He examines the cut, "Why didn't you call me, love? What happened?"

"I fell, didn't want to stress you out over a small cut..."

"Oh y/n darling..." He looks up at me with soft eyes "I think you stressed me out more when i saw you sitting here covered in blood without a clue of what was wrong" He preps the wound for stitches

"Can you hold my hand and do the stitches at the same time?" I laugh out.

He smiles, "I wish i could baby, but if i'm gonna do it right i need both hands" He rubs my arm gently before numbing my arm, "This shouldn't hurt, ok? Let me know if you can feel it, alright?"

I nod, closing my eyes tightly, tears already forming glossing them over. A few minutes pass before i finally feel harrys calloused hands agaisnt my face.

"Look at me love, you're all done, you did wonderful" My eyes flutter open meeting his green ones, i glance down at my arm to see it already wrapped and bandaged.

"i didn't feel a thing"

"I could tell, thought ya fell asleep or passed out on me for a minute there..."

I smile up at him, my eyes drowsy, "Is your shift over yet?"

"It's been over for about thrity minutes now, sweetheart" I glance at the clock, showing 11:30.

"Can we go home then? I'm quite tired and dinner is probably cold by now..."

"Whatever you want, love...Whatever you want"

He helps me out of the white clothed bed, the sheets now crinkled and loose. the sounds having overwhelmed my mind before no longer seem as prominent, all that matters is he's with me and we're going home. To our home.

[l3viat8an]

Alright then first of all I THOUGHT YOU WERE DEAD WHEN I SAW YOUR BLOG DEACTIVATED I ALMOST CRIED

Second of all THE NIGHTBRINGER??? THEY YEETED ME INTO THE PAST AND I CAN'T EVEN KISS MY BABES GOODNIGHT??? WHAT IS THIS

And on a more personal matter I'm really stressed, cuz my kitty's very pregnant and she's tiny and young and she'll probably go into labour in a week or two and I'm very worried about her and her kittens life :((

AND HOW HAVE YOU BEEN? IM SO EXCITED ABOUT YOUR BEING BACK I CAN'T EVEN WRITE GOOD YOU WON'T SEE ALL THOSE MISTAKES I'VE MADE HERE

🐈‍⬛~

First; IM SO SORRY AGAIN 😭 IM JUST DUMB AS SHIT-

Secondly; ITS SO WEIRD DUDE!! LIKE ITS THEM BUT NOT THEM AND THE PAST???- (I love it so far, but not being able to kiss and flirt with them as much is so weird 😔)

And as someone who has fostered a TON of mama cats ‘n kittens and currently has a foster mama cat and her kittens (side note I named one Satan and he’s adorable!!!)  never underestimate them!! The tiniest, frail lookin’ street cat can have kittens, and they’ll be perfectly fine and healthy. (Mama too with some good food and care) so I’d say your cat will be fine! As long as you keep an eye on her!

Besides being work tired™ I’m good!! And Believe me my first drafts are always full of typos and mistakes 😭 my dyslexic ass really shouldn’t have a writing blog hskaja 

[daceydeath]

Gentle Saviour

pairing: bang chan x reader word count: 3k genre: angst and fluff with the barest speck of suggestiveness at the end

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you have always dealt with insecurities and having a family life where your sense of worth is questioned leaves you with issues, good thing you have bang chan and his selfless support of you.

----- a/n: written entirely in lower case. also not totally edited so there may be some grammatical errors but i'm dyslexic so i mess spelling and grammar up sorry.

insecurity was something you had always dealt with. being run into the ground because of what you wanted, asked for or often even how you were made you constantly hyper aware of your flaws. the fact that it was usually at the hands of people you loved, trusted and adored made it all the worse, conditioning you into someone who could rarely ever trust that the people around you or whatever praise they may send your way. it made your relationship with yourself and others more difficult than it ever needed to be often leading to fights, tears and breakdowns. you felt isolated from the happiness you saw around you. resenting those who managed to feel happy with their lives.

meeting chan had only made it harder for you in some ways. He was so kind, so sweet and far too good a person to be wasting his time on you but he did and he always insisted he had no place he would rather be than with you. you had met by accident when he ducked into a small cafe to avoid photographers who were tailing him. looking for a place to sit that was out of the way he plopped himself down into the last table in the back corner half covered by the indoor plants that made the decor seem more homely. not noticing a bag already sitting on one of the chairs that you had left when you went to order your iced honey latte. when you approached the table it had surprised you to find him there but he had quickly apologised a look of guilt crossing his face as he planned where he could next hide. in an unexpected move on your behalf you had invited him to stay where he was you were only going to be reading anyway it didn't matter if there was another person with you. he had thanked you repeatedly his adorable dimples and smile lighting up his face. he seemed nice you had thought before retreating back into your head. when he felt it was safe to leave he did but not without thanking you again and sliding a note into your belongings with his name, a number and an email hopeful you would contact him.

that day had been a little over a year ago and although it had taken you a day to pluck up the courage to text him it had been a fateful decision that had turned your life around. at first it had just been texts back and forth then after a week or so he started calling you which was pleasant, his voice seemed to always melt away the stress you felt in your everyday life. after a month though he finally had some free time to actually catch up with you so you had leapt at the chance to actually see him, even if it was a little strange since all of your contact had been via your phone, he made you feel like you had been friends for years. made you feel safe and cared for and very quickly you had fallen for him.

"what are you thinking about" his voice bringing you back to the present to the quiet park you sat in together "you have been spacing out for a while now are you feeling alright?" he waited for your eyes to meet his before placing the back of his hand on your forehead to check your temperature

"im alright chan i'm just tired" you explained slowly smiling at him and he took his hand back and ran it through his blue hair "mum has just been really hard on me lately and my brother is alway on her side. it gets exhausting to be honest with you" chan furrowed his eyebrows are he frowned he knew you had a hard home life but it was increasingly oblivious that you were struggling more than you ever had

"what is it about this time? if you don't mind me asking that is" chan had always tried to get the details from you without pushing too hard he knew that would make it worse for you and he would never want that besides you were one of the the only people he knew that wasn't in the industry or family he wanted to keep you as close as he could. you gave him perspective, kept him grounded in a way that no one else did you were very special to him.

"just my life decisions nothing i do is ever good enough, my job doesn't pay enough, my education isn't good enough, i'm not smart enough and that i will never be pretty enough to marry well. just the usual really" you explained glumly "it's getting harder for me to ignore it nowadays it's just all the time i can't take much more of it"

"then don't" the blue haired boy exclaimed "come back to the dorm with me. just for the night the boys love you and i can totally stay on the couch or the floor" his quick verbal deluge surprised you. you had never stayed the night with chan you had fallen asleep on his shoulder watching movies before but he always woke you up and made sure you got home safe "on top of that your job isn't permanent you can get another one if you like and you are gorgeous so dating son't be hard for you"

"i can't do that what if someone at the company found out or worse one of those psycho fans of yours" your head was almost spinning at the suggestion you would love to stay at chan's for the night if you were honest you would love to stay with chan forever. he unwittingly had made you fall in love with him so soon after you met that you could never bring yourself to even imagine being with someone else preferring to be alone than with a guy who wasn't him. you were so caught up in the possibility of what could go wrong you had totally missed him calling you beautiful.

"yes you can and you will im not giving you the option tonight. you will come for dinner and a movie and then it will be too late and dangerous for you to go home so you will have to stay. the guys will back me up on this so don't make me call them" he was already texting the group chat to let them know what was happening. you sighed you knew that determined look chan was wearing on his face and it was pretty much impossible for anyone to change his mind once he decided that strongly something.

'ok chan if you're sure it will be ok" you agreed tentatively watching as his phone lit up with endless comments from the boys. felix was already starting on chocolate chip cookies for you all, lee know was asking about your food preferences and jeongin wanted to know what kind of movies you liked. they were darlings all of them and it almost hurt how grateful you were for them. getting to your feet you followed chan back towards the dorm being careful to keep enough space between you that no one could get the wrong idea.

you arrived at the dorm with chan after stopping to pick up a few ingredients that lee know needed for the dinner he had planned it was almost coming together so smoothly that you would have thought they had pre-planned this whole getting you to the dorm thing between them earlier. walking in you were quickly swamped by felix and changbin for cuddles as chan disappeared and while hyunjin made some tea for everyone.

"hyung said that you were having a bad day" seungmin stated quietly handing you a mug of the fesh hot tea

"thank you minnie i am not the best right now" you smiled up at him taking the warm mug in your hands

"do you want to talk about it?" felix whispered cuddling up to your left side

"it's just family stuff lixie i don't want to bore you all" you explained gently as each of the guys sat down around you with cups of tea "this i delicious tea jinnie" you murmured as you savour the flavour of the tea mixed with honey and warm milk

"it's not boring if its upset you" jeongin said as comforting as possible his voice soft and warm as he pouted at you. you thought about it for a moment as you felt several pairs of eyes on you as chan returned from his room and plopped himself down on your right side his arm instantly falling onto the back of the arm behind your head as he placed a black hoodie on your lap

"you said you were cold when we were getting here but since you haven't got anything with you just wear mine" he explained to answer the unsaid question on your lips smiling you detaingled yourself from felix and slipped it over your head. it was easily a few sizes too big for you since chan wore his hoodies on the oversized and baggy side anyway and it made you feel almost shy to be so small in his clothes.

"thanks channie" you whispered almost too quietly to hear feeling quite overwhelmed by the kindness they were all showing you. tears pricked your eyes and you blinked quickly trying to fend them off before any of them noticed even though you knew it was foolish they always noticed.

"nope no tears baby" Han announced as he launched across the coffee table to grab as many skzoos as he could before throwing them at you comedically. you giggled as you were battered around the head by a wolf chan and puppym while a bbokari sailed passed you and his chan in the face "sorry hyung but this is an emergency" he ducked but then continued to thow the plushies until all of them were around you or on you.

"my mother and my brother spend all their time trying to run me down. its getting harder to ignore that's all" you explained looking and the jiniret in your hands "my job isn't good enough, i'm not smart enough, i'm not educated enough and i'm not pretty enough to get a rich husband. which by the way is the stupidest thing i have ever heard i don't want a rich husband, if i ever got married i would want a nice husband not a rich one who even cares that much about money" your frown deepened as you started to vent to the boys around you "besides i don't even date so there isn't going to be a husband" you finished grumbling picking up leebit from the floor and smoothing out the fur. the boys all looked at you with shock then each other and finally chan before all talking over each other

"who cares what job you have you are still young"

"you are way pretty who even says that to their own daughter? you are the prettiest noona"

"your brother is a jerk if he thinks you are stupid, you are super smart"

"your mum really only worries about money?"

"i need to figure out how long to set the air fryer to cook them both!"

"you don't need a rich husband you have us to look after you"

"what do you mean you don't date why not you're so beautiful?

you teared up again but this time out of happiness they all looked so offended on your behalf and you couldn't help but feel loved and cared for by them. it warmed you knowing that these were the type of guys you had befriended these sweet boys who would always try to lift you up and look to help you with anything.

"why don't you date?" chan repeated slowly glossing over the fact that it was the second time today he had called you attractive to your face. you blushed the dark pink quickly racing across your cheeks and down onto your neck.

"there is no one i like" you replied softly hiding your face behind the sweater paws you had from the hoodie he had lent you

"Oh really? i would say that there is from that reaction" felix teased bumping your shoulder with his which in turn caused you to bump against chan's warm chest

"hey, hey, hey, hey less teasing more being nice you lot" chan playfully admonished enjoying the feeling of you leaning against his chest. you had yet to re-adjust yourself and he would take any moment of you being this close to him.

"ok if you are feeling better maybe you could help chan and i in the kitchen with dinner?" lee know asked trying to further distract the conversation away from your embarrassment as he and chan both stood up

"of course i'll help i don't like to freeload of you" you missed chan's warmth against your side but easily accepted his hand to help you stand leading you back through the room passed the dining table to the kitchen he didn't let your hand go. which also didn't go unnoticed by the others, each smirking at each other as they all realised that you wanted chan probably as much as they knew he wanted you. after chopping vegetables, making rice and helping lee know grill meat you all sat down together for your meal. the boys complimenting you and lee know on the food while chan just let the acknowledgement of his efforts slide knowing the praise would help you feel happy. after helping clear the table changbin organised han, seungmin and jeongin to wash the dishes while felix got out the cookies he made earlier in the afternoon and helped make hot chocolate with hyunjin while chan took you back through to the lounge to pick a movie. you settled on a marvel film to hopefully appease all of them.

"thanks for thinking of us but squirrel and i were going to go for a run after dinner" changbin apologised after to you looked up at him with worried eyes

"that's true i lost a bet and this is my stupid punishment" han whinged playing up the whole situation as changbin dragged him up the hallway to change into workout gear

"lix, jinnie and i are going to work on some choreography at the studio tonight so that we have something to show our manager for the comeback in a few months" lee know explained which you nodded to instantly

"oh of course if you need to work i don't want to hinder you but please don't overwork yourselves" you replied guiltily not wanting to hold up their schedules more than you probably already had. they each grabbed a bag and made there way out of the dorm followed not long after by changbin and han. finally jeongin and seungmin left to their own dorm to do a vocalracha vlive leaving you alone with chan.

"i guess it's not a movie night then" you muttered reaching for a cookie that had been put on the coffee table along with the hot chocolates that were left for you. chan sighed he realised that the boys had made these excuses to give you some privacy without wanting to let you know that they were giving you privacy so chan knew he had to make the best of it.

"we can still watch a movie or we could play a video go or just talk whatever you like" chan started softly "or we can just go up to my room to hangout" he trailed off looking at you warmly.

"chan can i ask you something and you won't think less of me?" the apprehension in you voice obvious to chan

"of course you can i will always support you, you're one of my closest friends" he answered immediately trying to calm himself for the possibility that this question could cause him or you pain. he watched you take a deep breath letting it out slowly as if to steel yourself for his answer

"did you mean it when you said i was beautiful earlier?"

"yes" chan breathed out instantly "i meant it when i said you are gorgeous earlier today too" he watched as your eyes widened in shock meeting his and you gasped sharply. in the few second he gave you to comprehend what he said he realised you were not unhappy with his compliment you were in fact very pleased with it. making up his mind he quickly cupped your cheek in his warm hands before leaning in to place his lips tentatively on yours this kiss soft and short but still incredibly sweet. your eyes had still been open he was sure of it but when your fingers slowly rose to your face to touch your lips you smiled brightly

"chan" you sighed softly feeling as though you must be dreaming silly grin on your lips as you blushed all the way to your ears "i have wanted to kiss you for so long would you kiss me again?" chan's heart soared as he realised what you were saying nodding emphatically he connected his lips to yours once more this time letting you kiss him back before deepening it until you were both out of breath. coming up for air he watched the dreamy expression on your face and knew there was only one more thing he had to say before this night lead you both to whatever destination fate had for you.

"please stay here with me and be mine, dont go back to your family stay here with this family stay here with me" he knew he sounded as though he was pleading even begging but he didnt care he wanted you only you. "i love you baby and i swear i'll take care of you forever" you felt as though your heart would burst from his confession knowing that he was putting on the line right here and now for you. you pulled him back to you to place a searing kiss on his lips.

"i love you too chan and i'll stay for as long as you want me" your words coming straight from your heart amazing you how right they felt to say

"always then" chan whispered taking you hand and leading you to his room.

[another-mrfluffball]

lol homie it’s me ausie dyslexic anon (lol im cringe) anyway how do they react to an s/o who is swamped with work

(i have two things due tomorrow and a test then i’ve gotta do my english thing thats due on Monday so my plan is to eat junk food and make my english thing fan fiction)

Oh hello! I am literally so sorry for responding late!!!!! I was so busy with work and Halloween :(( I hope this writing cheers you up! Again, I'm sorry for responding late!!

This is kinda more of an how they support you when you are tired kinda writing! Hope that is okay!!

Lupin

Y/n~~~~~~ How about we take a break?

He will try his best to cheer you up!!!

He will get you all of your fav snacks and treats to cheer you up!

If you wanna get snacks and treats but feel bad for him getting them, he will give a whole speech about how wonderful and hard-working you are, and say you deserve a reward/break snack :))

Y/n!!!! You absolutely and totally deserve a nice little snack! No need to feel bad, for me getting them!!! Lupin at your service :DD

He will have a cheerful smile after getting those snacks!

Y/n~~~~~!!!!! Lupin the delivery service is here :))

You giggle at this goofy cheerful man :)))

Thanks you so much Lupin :)

No problem y/n :D

Jigen

Y/n is there anything I can help with?

He is very much supportive of you :)

He will try to help as much as he can. Of course, he will respect you boundaries and try to push himself to help to the point of disturbing you!

If you wanna go into focus mode, he will subtly and secretly protect you from any disturbance.

If anybody tries to disturb and annoy you, he will block and protect you from them >:)

If you fall asleep on your chair, he will pat your head and place a nice warm blanket for you :)

If you have any errands or mini-tasks for him, he is happy to help!

Whenever you are not in your room or sleeping, he will place a little flower next to you ♡

Goemon

Is worried that you will push your limit!

Y/n please remember not to push yourself, it is important to take a rest from time to time

He will make warm tea for you!

If Lupin is being an ass to you prepare to run-

Likes to gift you, some Japanese snacks :)

If he sees you, getting tired to the point of becoming dizzy, he will pull you for a mini break!

Will give you one of the best breaks ever omg

Will check up on you from time to time!

He will give you comforting words when you take a break :)

Fujiko

Y/n you ok?

She is such a dramatic and over the top with the break holy shi-

From flower perfumes, and expensive and elegant snacks, to a comfortable cuddle :D

If you dare apologize, she will put a finger on your soft lips and go

No, no, no! Y/n you really need to take breaks from time to time honestly! Just relax ok :)

If somebody is being a little shit and giving you more work, she will personally go to their home and meet them and kick their ass :)

Honestly, they should understand how much pressure and ass they are to my dear lover ):<

Zenigata

Y/n I must order you to take a break!

Oh hi, zenigata...I'm okay I can finish I- *clumsily drops something* Oh no I- *Tired sigh*

Then out of your big surprise!

Wha- *bridal carrying style* Y/n do not worry! You will not need to move!

*y/n blushes instantly* !!!!

Zenigata carried you to the couch and plopped you there.

Don't move y/n! I will get some food!

He then ran to get some snacks for you!!!

For the next few minutes, you two took a delightful break :D Having nice and funny conversations, talking about how much a stress work has been, etc.

It was honestly nice just releasing all those stressful thoughts :)

When you both were cleaning up the snacks, you gave him a kiss on the cheek and gave a bright smile, softly said thank you, his face exploded and blushed madly.

It was nothing y-y/n Hope you do well on the rest of your work ///

Message for everybody! Hope this cheered you up!!! Good luck with your work!!!!! Lupin gang is very proud of you and is cheering you on \(*´▽｀*)/

[aropride]

not a question, but rather a command.

Hand over the goddamn c!Ranboo and c!Beeduo headcanons.

OHHHH IM SO GOOD AT THIS ONE

ok . ok. ok. *cracks my knuckles* *stretching like im abt to play a Sport Game*

c!ranboo . he/they or no pronouns depending on the Vibes. doesnt label his sexuality. not a fan of using words to describe himself at all actually and uses pronouns just bc he knows it makes things easier for other ppl

c!tubbo he/they exact opposite LOVES labels. demiromantic + gay. (fuck u *arospecs ur characters*)

both of them r neurodivergent bc i say so (im writing (/thinking really hard about writing) a fic rn abt them being nd and learning 2 accept themselves n each other Btw im so excited) here r my ideas for their nd traits

ranboo is autistic. tubbo is also autistic. i think we should have more autistic rep in media

ranboo ocd. u will know about this head canon if u followed me last week bc my url was ocdranboo, which is a banger.

tubbo adhd. tubbo SO adhd. someone help him

tubbo also dyslexic. cc!tubbo is so it would feel wrong for c!tubbo not to be fhsjhdf

c!ranboo repeats words a lot to try to say them "right," can get stuck saying certain words / sentences again and again until it's perfect. he hates eye contact.

hes very texture sensitive n only likes certain foods for that reason, altho he cant always remember which foods he likes n which ones he doesnt. hes also very sensitive to bright light, both due to sensory issues + from being from the end which is darker than the overworld.

he also sees person to person interaction sort of like a video game and relies on trial and error to figure out how to do conversations "right" (right by nt standards).

in terms of ocd he has more intrusive thoughts n repetition n checking compulsions than anything else, no cleanliness ocd im tired of that being the only symptom thats talked abt. he always goes back n checks things n u can often find him doing things in 3s or 7s.

hes very prone to overworking himself and trying too hard to do things the way he sees as correct which exhausts him and he often works far too long at things like mining because he wants to do them right and he wants to get as many resources as possible (to prove himself to be a worthy partner :') )

c!tubbo is about the exact opposite in terms of getting things done in that he Doesnt. he gets overwhelmed very easily n it's only gotten worse as he's gotten older. he frequently has complete shutdowns bc of executive functioning issues n will just Do Nothing and hate himself about it.

however hes also very hyperactive and hyper focuses easily. any topic that is even slightly enjoyable he will spend hours researching, leading to headaches from sitting in the library trying to read and inhaling dust all day.

he masks a lot due to anxiety n tries to appear as "normal" as possible which is often a train right straight to dissociation.

he scripts out conversations with everyone but close friends and will go blank when someone goes off script- like if he goes to buy two lemonades and they say theyre out of lemonade it takes him quite a few seconds to process it, and longer to try to create a new script with the new decision, which leads to very stressful situations when talking to new ppl

he doesnt understand sarcasm at all, but ranboo, who uses sarcasm a lot as a way to blend in more with neurotypicals, is almost always able to explain what's meant when tubbo misses sarcasm

he also hates bright lights. he and ranboo have dim torches in their mansion with the only exception being the library, where there's much more light to make reading easier

he hates asking for help. hates it, he thinks it makes him weak, but it doesn't, and thats something he's still trying to internalize. he sometimes watches tommy for an example of a friend he looks up to ( :') anon u did not say "sprinkle in c!clingyduo" but I Am Anyway) who is trying to get help for his mental health to prove to himself its ok to do so as well

thinking about ranboo crying and tubbo trying to wipe his tears away so they dont burn him. also thinking about tubbo crying and ranboo wiping his tears and not flinching even though it stings.

ranboo listens to lemon demon constantly because he's cool. tubbo grows to love it even tho normally hearing the same few songs on repeat for ages would drive him mad

tubbo n ranboo keep michael inside to keep him safe but sometimes on snowy nights when theres nobody in sight and hasn't been in days theyll go outside and make snow angels and ranboo always makes sure to wear extra layers so he doesn't get hurt by the snow so he can spend as much time as possible with his son and husband

ranboos special interest was boats for YEARS and then it was mining and the probability of getting different types of materials while mining. tubbos special interest is nukes.

michael autistic + nonverbal. not technically a c!beeduo head canon but he is their son so close enough

ranboo favourite food apple pie. this is very important

ok ive been at it for like half an hour i could keep going but i Wont because this is already quite a bit fjhfks

[jk1t]

may 11 2022

studying for chem and arabic tests, started with making a chemistry study guide, i LOVE making study guides pretty makes me wanna study more!!

its been a really long while since i genuinely studied, after covid i have just been in this slump of not knowing how to study, i mean transition from middle school to highschool didnt even exist for me so i have gone through many nee things this school year that are all so new to me and i am NOT prepared for any of what i have gone thro but oh well..

tips that have helped me study without procrastinating areeeee……..

batching!

collect all similar tasks and do them together u DO NOT want to multitask and do all kinda of work

like do not study then do assignments then do a project then go back to studying and just do everything at the same time.. thats very stressful and will leave you tired and not finish ANY work!!

eliminate distractions..

put ur phone AWAY from sight and reach, a thing id do is use the ios feature to put only certain apps accessible and to not allow any notifications to come through when im studying

i lack self control when it comes to not being on my phone so i do ask someone to keep my phone with them

study guides!

they can seem ineffective but from someone who has anxiety n is dyslexic these are actual magic, having to understand stuff instead of just memorisation is what i do, i just have weak memory and for information to stick i have to understand it and just interpret through my own thoughts and words, study guides are also good to draw infographics/mindmaps which are SOO helpful for memorisation!!!

it all depends on how you use the study guides, do u just write and call it a day or actually revise with them!?!

mental wellness > education

your mental well being should ALWAYS be your priority, you cannot push yourself to ur limits and thats ok, you dont have to excel in everything and you should always choose the easiest path and then gradually go for harder u cannot change in one day, cut yourself some slack and give yourself time ♡

[apep40]

@dyslexic-fool​ @portiaadams  since the series of let the right one in is going to be terrible can i share some of my ideas of what a series would look like?

-I think i said before but give owen/oskar some kind of immigrant background as a reason for his ostracization from other children. I prefer russian, since its one of the countries america has the worst relationship with. His name would alexei, but anglicized to alex around most people.

-Set it somewhere with a lot snow and darkness, like new england, Makethe town its set in have a dark yet colourful history, like out a horror story.

-Abbys caretaker is almost totally inconsequential. She does the killing herself, she only needs a familiar because a small child traveling on her own would alert suspicion.

- Keep the boys interest in serial killers from the book but also include other interests. Hes a little historian of the town, his fascinated with torture, marabe folklore etc.

-Things that were implied in the american version ( or i thought so) are more explicit. Since owen was so skeletal and his mom had to plead with him to eat he has some kind of eating disorder. Likewise since he was so pale and tired most of the time i assumed the stress of his bullying made him have problems with sleeping, or he would intentionally try to keep himself awake for as long as possible to avoid having to go to school. He would figure out someone was wrong with abby right away, he simply doesnt care as long as shes kind to him.

-the vampire would have a morality utterly different to most people due to centuries of nomadic travel and death. She would genuinely see murdering people as no different to humans eating livestock, she would see no problem with manipulating alex to get him to live with her. Since his life was so miserable.

-Give the boy slightly more agency...slightly. His father realizing since his son was shy,quiet, skinny and pretty was a bully magnet taught him some ways to defend himself. Im going with BJJ, since thats about using your opponents strength against him. The reason Kenny in this version hates him so much is because he embarrassed him by putting him in a choke, or arm lock despite almost literally being half his size and from that point on would always attack him with his friends to help him.

-His parents would still be divorced, his father would alternate between desperately wanting to have alex all to himself, to wanting to be left alone to drink in peace. His mother, like in the book, would fuss and baby him, to creepy extremes like playing with his hair or feet like a toddler. Both would be slightly religious, making things for alex even more awkward and uncomfortable.

-I just watched Hannibal and i would like it to have that same sort of gothic, dream like quality to it. The boy would hallucinate, fantasize and dream a lot, because of  his macabre interests, stress from his abuse and proximity to the vampire (have her glamour or hypnotize him a couple of times).

-My preference would be for a scene that depicted his fantasy of brutally stabbing kenny to death.

[lingual-exploits]

As someone who has studied (studies?) Japanese a lot and is dyslexic and is learning Russian— I've come to realize how amazing a syllabary is.

Like こち = ko chi, it will always equal ko chi

わたしのなまえ = wa ta shi no na ma e

Each little character is an entire syllable except perhaps double consonants e.g いっぽん = ippon instead of いぽん = ipon; they do sound different.

I am learning the Russian alphabet and actually doing pretty good especially with Duolingo adding an entire section dedicated to it. But the fact that multiple characters need to be used to make 1 syllable is stressful AF. Because it means it can sound somewhat different depending on the syllable its forming.

So sounding out in Japanese is hella easy, you do things slowly but once you recognize the Kana all you have to do is speed up your speech (and well learn where words end and pitch and blah). With Russian I have to sound out every single letter individually, then figure out how it works into a syllable, then finally figure out how each syllable makes the sound of the word. And sometimes despite knowing all the letters perfectly I still get the sound wrong. Not because its spelled weird but because oh my fucking gods is sounding shit out DIFFICULT ....yet it never was in Japanese once I knew the Kana by heart.

This difficulty doesn't happen with a syllabary but it does with an alphabet. I'll admit at least Russian spelling is decent *glares at french intensely*

I love studying scripts, Arabic, Greek, Kana, Kanji before I quit, Korean, and I have a mighty desire for Georgian. But when actually studying the language not just the script this type of shit comes out of no where. My brain is all: "oh remember how difficult it was to sound out extremely simple english words in school? ..... welp that issue hasn't even slightly improved since childhood good luck lmmmaaaooo"

ignore any english mistakes im to tired to proof read

Own the upside I can officially read my own blog's title (former title was не понимаю)

[bxstiae]

HOW I RUN MY BLOG

SPEED: fluctuates on my mood. I’m relatively fast? like usually same day reply fast. sometimes it takes me a few days. know that the long it stays in my drafts, the longer i will take on it. my all time record is about 3 years. while granted it doesn’t take that long, don’t be surprised about it. best case scenario, it takes me a couple of weeks, i dont like having things fester. i also sometimes forget too! you are more than welcome to remind me if it seems like i have but please don’t make it a habit. in regards to response time on pms/discord -- short turnover rate. I usually respond to it within the hour. usually within seconds/minutes actually. if i am awake that is. unless im offline and in my happy place, i tend to log out of discord to get away from people when im overwhelmed. blog wise, i dont have him on my app. so messages are only when im on my laptop or have time to check on chrome mobile.  

REPLIES: i dont like drafting them. my dash is slow enough that i can scroll down to it. i will draft it though if i need to. length wise, im an avid writer. i write A LOT. they can get very lengthy at times. i write with a bit of prose -- that prose can get very HEAVY depending on my partners as well. i also format as well. i like heavier formatting without losing the quality of the writing. i dont like one-liners. you will see me with at least two paras or more. please know that i am dyslexic though when it comes to writing, and i have a bad habit of rereading my stuff after i post. so mistakes && errors are a thing for me. i try to catch it when i am rereading as im going through to format the posts. but sometimes things get missed. you are more than welcome to fix some if it is a bad spelling mistake ( better to ask first tho cause i spell with a brit keyboard -- and i specifically choose certain words to be spelt a specific way. )

STARTERS: when i post the starter call, any mutual ( && i really mean ANY of you ) can like it. this goes for if you follow me on multiple blogs. we interact already on one blog? by all means we can interact with one another on your other blog. but if you do, it gives me free reign to do whatever i want. look for my tags to see what i say too. they usually are a key factor in regards to my thought process. i try to get everybody done within reasonable time. dont worry i will never not make a mutual a starter if they like the call. i usually go for the first interaction/meeting with the muse though. if that doesn’t float your boat then you can message me about it. i normally don’t message people in regards to starters because A) im tired, B) i expect you to come to me.

INBOX: inbox is absolutely open to anybody! in fact, if i post a prompt, i ask that you send something in. even if we never interacted! im more versed into throwing the muse into a pre-established relationship. with the inbox, i will sometimes go to you because of that. i really do love to write, && the inbox is a perfect way to send something in without having any strings attached in regards to replies. like i said im an avid writer. i always want to write. sometimes people are slow and i get that. since im faster, i have no problem in doing inbox stuff for you to develop interaction ( aside from plotting ). best way to actually enjoy character interaction for me tbh. cause sometimes threading be hard okay?

SELECTIVITY: i am biased, i will say it now. i have preference over people i talk to ( who i consider my friends ), or people that i like. but that doesnt mean i will blatantly ignore you. people should know that if you talk to me, then the chances are i will give you more attention. sometimes i just click or vibe with people okay? in regards to following. i am on the heavy side of mutuals only and i prefer a slower dash. i give about a week for people to follow back, or ample enough time for them to follow. there will be some people that i will be fine if they arent mutuals though as i like their content. that being said, i try to be super fair to everybody. i give people an equal chance. if i follow you it means i want to interact with you ( there are super rare exceptions ). but go too long without interacting, then i will unfollow/softblock. im not a number for you. i have feelings. and, yes, i will, at random, unfollow those who either dont make me comfortable anymore, or i need time away from them. or im just not getting that vibe anymore. 

WISHLIST: see here && here for some stuff i want. i love his pokemon verse i have. i also love his FE verse i have as well. i have a FE3H AU as well but i will naturally throw him into FEH or FE3H for that verse. i have plotted with a friend in regards to an echoes verse as well. honestly. i just want a lot of stuff for him. i want more wolf interactions. i kinda favour his beast forme anyway. but i also want interactions with the language differences. there is a language barrier with him! but i want those interactions cause he understands you! i have that hc somewhere dug in my blog. gotta find it. other interactions? i want a midna to interact with. link && the links AU?? also what does a man gotta do around here to get people to discuss plots.

HONEST NOTE: if you think im an elitist, then find your way out of the door -- youre probably right and i dont want you here. ive been here for a really long time && i know what i want. all jokes aside though, im tired of people being intimidated by me for different reasons. some people think its my aesthetic ( when really im not that bad ). others are intimidated by the sheer amount of writing i do? like okay?? kindly fuck off please. i write for stress relief. i write to have fun. my idea of fun is writing a lot. if you have a problem with that then sorry but i dont want you here. i have a passion for my muses and if you dont want to hear it, then i dont have time for your complaining. theres an unfollow button. i have a journalism degree so... yea. but really. im just really tired okay. im actually a very sweet person and i wear my heart on my sleeve. anybody who knows me well enough can tell you that. i hate being ignored tbh, so if i find energy && time to like talk to you, at least acknowledge me by saying thank you. btw im not really that much of an an elitist -- i just LOOK like i have a hard shell, but im actually super soft and squishy.

Tagged by: nobody I stole from @pristinette​ Tagging: you do you fam. just @ me as per usual cause pretend i tagged you.

[navigating-rainbows-fanartfunart]

Wait- did that precious bab say Danks? Does fear have a mini lisp??

He did say “Danks!” He’s a bit more prone to “Th” sound mistakes more than anything, and also occasionally flat-out ignores non-stressed syllables.

((that said, Curiosity also tends to skip letters/merge sounds when he’s talking fast, and he stumbles a bit with bigger words....he also botches words he’s only ever read, but, he doesn’t care, he just wants to use words. He tends to skip hard ‘d’ (ex: predictive) sounds and sometimes stumbles with ‘l’ (sometimes replacing it w/ ‘y’ sounds if he’s that “Im not Tiredddd” tired) and hard ‘c’..... soft ‘e’ ‘a’ and ‘o’ tend to get merged w/ other sounds. ...and I have a lot more on Curiosity’s language habits than I do Fear’s, but, he also talks more S O.))

That noted, I probably won’t always indicate it w/ the dialogue, cause, dyslexic me already relies waaaay too much on auto-correct and... sometimes it just ain’t worth it to have that squiggly line... glaring at me.

[morpekoed]

HOW I RUN MY BLOG

SPEED: fluctuates on my mood. I’m relatively fast? like usually same day reply fast. sometimes it takes me a few days. Given with how Marn is not gonna be relatively active, it’ll probably be on the slow side -- or when i find the mood for her. She was made for a friend! Response time for DMs? Depends on if I’m online. As said in my rules, I am more active on link. You need to contact me and need a response? Find me there. I try to get to OOC responses in a timely matter though. Just know though that I am a tired bean -- so speed here is ????  

REPLIES: uhhhh. I’ll draft them here. and then... probably forget about them. Asks are better than replies. ut I can’t promise anything. I tend to push them out as soon as possible. Oh, I also need to find time to sit and write a response. I do it all in one sitting. I do not let things fester. Quality wise though? I am dyslexic. I mispell stuff. I am sorry, i try to catch it but i am not perfect. Also, as said in rules, my prose is... constantly changing... I also format too! It helps out with my mistakes. I have a brit keyboard though so my spelling may seem weird to ya! Please though if you cannot understand something, let me know. Writing is a hobby. it is not a chore or a job for me. if it was, i would have been a journalist or gone to be a lawyer with my degrees! but i don’t so this is fun for me.

STARTERS: go ahead, like any calls i make. even if you liked one one the past. i can keep multiple threads/interactions going. you don’t like what i made for you? DM me. i do not bite for my size. i am literally a squishy pillow. normally though i do not message people though to ask for starters or how to start them unless i dont know how to start them. mainly because i am not going to go to people. i expect you to come to me. i STRONGLY reccomend you do so because i have left my do wide open.

INBOX: inbox is absolutely open to anybody! you want to send an ask about Marnie? I love those HC asks. please. I don’t care about them. IC asks though? those are for mutuals unfortunately. But that doesn’t mean that you aren’t allowed to talk to me about stuff. I love any ask that comes my way. too scared? I have anon on for a reason. by all means you do you though.

SELECTIVITY: i say it to y’all straight. im EXTREMELY private && selective. i am not about to get screwed over again. I like my slow dash. Also if we don’t talk for the first time in a few months, then im softblocking/unfollowing. i am not a number for you && this blog is for freinds only. Sorry but i don’t have time to make everybody happy this blog is a safe place for me -- by the gods i will make this a safe place for me. i dont need stress. 

WISHLIST: for marnie? Oh I have so many!! I would love interactions with her brother! she loves her brother! I spoke with a couple of friends and well... Marn calls Bede pixie boy. And yes, she will punch him for Hop. ( im still laughing so hard from the fact that hop would be there cheering for her ) No really, she gets a Bisharp to deal with Bede’s team. Speaking of Hop though. I would love some interactions with him. The good, wholesome interactions. Marnie && protags?? give me. Really though. my all time thing though is Marnie’s relationship with Piers. I have such wonderful HCs with these siblings. It will always be spikemuth sibling loving hours every hour. 

HONEST NOTE: I’m honestly leaving what i wrote on my original post because it’s honestly a mood for me. and i don’t care. 

if you think im an elitist, then find your way out of the door – youre probably right and i dont want you here. ive been here for a really long time && i know what i want. all jokes aside though, im tired of people being intimidated by me for different reasons. some people think its my aesthetic ( when really im not that bad ). others are intimidated by the sheer amount of writing i do? like okay?? kindly fuck off please. i write for stress relief. i write to have fun. my idea of fun is writing a lot. if you have a problem with that then sorry but i dont want you here. i have a passion for my muses and if you dont want to hear it, then i dont have time for your complaining. theres an unfollow button. i have a journalism degree so… yea. but really. im just really tired okay. im actually a very sweet person and i wear my heart on my sleeve. anybody who knows me well enough can tell you that. i hate being ignored tbh, so if i find energy && time to like talk to you, at least acknowledge me by saying thank you. btw im not really that much of an an elitist – i just LOOK like i have a hard shell, but im actually super soft and squishy.

Tagged by: nobody I took it from my link blog to help y’all out. See my original post. Tagging: nobody because I am a heathen && a fool.

BONUS: adding my tags from my other post cause they pertain to this blog.

This has been a PSA. Hope this helps you.

[fanartfunart]

Hey, could you give me a few tips on writing dyslexic characters? Sorry if I’m being rude…

Oh no problem!

First things first: not everybody experiences things (like dyslexia) the same, so, there’s things about the individual that will shift how they react and adjust to their dyslexia and just how the dyslexia is itself.

I personally found a lot of ways to make my dyslexia work for me. (And mine tends to get noticeably worse when I’m stressed and/or have been doing a lot of talking.)

A: do some research about the definition of it, just, know the science of it a bit. (you don’t have to be an expert, I mean, I certainly am not, but it does help to have an idea of the various symptoms and how things are treated… and, it’s not a childhood thing, it’s a life-long thing. There’s just ways it gets better/worse in certain times) AND, it’s not always recognized/diagnosed.

B: explore many ways people react to it. I personally tend to laugh about it, but someone else could very possibly just avoid reading/writing, and another person could get frustrated every time they need to read/write/talk and it’s not working.

That said, here’s some general things I experience and others probably do too: (under the cut because I began to ramble.)

Id say the most frustrating things are writing something down, and then feeling like its wrong, but knowing it is right? I cant stop the feeling that it looks wrong. It just does. (the opposite occurs sometimes, but, usually it’s ‘that’s wrong. why is that wrong, it’s not actually wrong??’ (howeVer, usually, you just. can’t tell. it’s ‘…maybe that’s right…. ?’)

Dyslexia effects your ability to differentiate words that sound the same but look different (effect and affect being a very annoying example…. I’ve looked up the differences so often…. it’s also for things that look similar but sound different…. but that’s less common in my experience)

They’ll say words like its read pretty commonly (notably if they learned the word from reading it…which is half my vocab). …and usually not notice unless someone corrects them (which never stops getting embarrassing because “that’s the tenth time i’ve said it like that and been corrected why the frick cant I say it right, how do I keep forgetting?”)

Reading and re-reading and re-reading again. Oh my god it takes me forever to read a paragraph of any book if there’s things that my brain skips, flips or entirely jumbles. It has caused me much test anxiety. (Especially with timed tests…..god I can complain about testing and how terrible it is as a dyslexic individual for a long time)

Left or right? No clue. And the “Make an L shape with your hands and whichever looks like like an L is left” does not work because my brain doesn’t know what a L is supposed to look like. (Ive heard that so often you have no idea.)  HOWEVER the thing I found does work is raising your dominant hand (mine is the right) and going “oh! This must be the right because my dominant hand is on this side!” Is so much easier. (And I almost always say the wrong direction. “I’m gonna go left” “no you need to go right” *points to the right* “yeah exactly.” “You said left!” “Oh….” Is a common conversation)

(on that note I personally feel like im always facing north??? Idk if this is a dyslexia thing or im just weird)

Google and dictionaries are both the enemy and friends when trying to spell words right. (“How am I supposed to find this word when all I know is that it either starts with either a or maybe it was e??”)

Vowels are the worst…they always switch up. (a and e are evil in particular.)

b and d being next. and s and c …and p and q (How I remember is “bed” looks like a bed….. your character may have similar processes to make sure they’re doing it right)

(idk, anywhere you can flip or duplicate or misplace letters when writing, I’ve probably done it.)

Honestly, learning any and all languages is hard. Especially things like accents and spelling.

“I said that backwards” is a pretty common statement (in my vocabulary at least). Just…accidentally switch the subjects or verbs of a sentence and just- wait what. (I’ve also HEAR things all odd sometimes… like, It takes me a second to process some sentences because they sound backward and weird to me. sometimes I just wait to answer a question as my brain catches up, but sometimes I just go ‘did you just say ‘nonsense that kinda follows the same length/key sounds as what you actually said but is still nonsense, but I didn’t catch that’)

I ended up in those remedial classes in elementary? where they pull you out of class and give you minute-tests and feed you sweets because you’re a stressed out child because you feel dumb in comparison to your peers. and that’s all I remember about it.

IDK man, elementary was pretty much a series of me taking longer than everyone else on literally everything and then worrying about it. (then I went to online school and my life was improved by 100%) ((this might just be me but I was kinda always split between trying to focus on reading and listening to people and I never actually was able to focus on either properly and so I never properly absorbed the information?…feels like a dyslexia thing now that I think about it))

Cursive and calligraphy is actually…really nice? ….Yea idk. I was obsessed with cursive when I started to learn it.

Vague directions/questions are TERRIBLE. Like, its 10 times worse when I’m nervous or embarrassed or tired, but I’ve stumbled trying to properly figure out the thing I’m missing from people’s statements that they’ve assumed was clear. (like, “Look at the red dot” “I don’t see a dot?” “uh, right there?? right in front of you?” “I wasn’t LOoooking there. I thought this was a ‘find the red dot’ thing not a ‘just look straight ahead’ thing.”)

Oh and I like puns because it’s like being dyslexic on purpose! >w

OK wow…. I hope that….kinda helped? IDK? (I probably haven’t even touched on everything, but that’s all I can think of right now.)

TDLR:

I’d say just be aware of where it COULD be a problem, but, overall, your character won’t be stumbling over words ALL DAY.  They’ll have developed ways around it, even if they haven’t been diagnosed or if they never got help.

AND, there’s different forms and degrees of dyslexia…. mines pretty mild honestly, again, most of my issues are exasperated when I’m tired/nervous (and noticeable dyslexia habits kinda makes me embarrassed and nervous which kinda feeds into itself.) Some people’s dyslexia is most noticeable w/ written word, others are more auditory/vocal. It all depends. ^w^

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oops nik odds 🤷‍♀️

UR VALID ANON

1. What’s their full name? Why was that chosen? Does it mean anything?

Nik’s full name is Nikolas Isaac Arwaine

Nikolas means ‘victory of the people’ Isaac means ‘laughter’ and Arwaine, I took the Celtic god of the dead Arwan and added a few letters :)

It was chosen bec when i orginally was writing him, he was inspired by Nikolai Lant/sov in Grisha.

3. Did they have a good childhood? What are fond memories they have of it? What’s a bad memory? 

Nik had,,, an interesting childhood. HIs father wasn’t,,, outwardly abusive, perse. But he did lock his kids in places to get out (he broke nates hand bec nate wouldnt stop drawing). His mom taught him how to lie and his parents gave him whatever he wanted besides the one thing he Really wanted

He has fond memories of Adrien and his ohter brothers taking him to the ocean. He had fond memories of hanging out with Nate in Nates studio. One of his fave memories is Nate putting face paint on his face when he was a lil birb

A bad memory he has is getting so afraid of not being able to get out of a room, he threw himself into a panic attack and he was shaking and crying so hard that his dad was so damn disappointed in him that he didnt talk to Nik for a Long Time

5. Do they have any siblings? What’s their names? What is their relationship with them? Has their relationship changed since they were kids to adults?

he had Three (3) sibs. Blake, Adrien and Nate. 

He has a fairly easy going relationship with Blake and Nate. Tho he butts heads with Adrien a Lot. Blake and Nate’s relationship with Nik is kinda the same growing up, tho his and Adrien’s change. Nik used to idolize Adrien, now they just fight all the time

7. Did they have lots of friends as a child? Did they keep any of their childhood friends into adulthood? 

Nik,,, had more superficial friends than Friend Friends. People liked his money and his influence more than they liked him. Tho he is a very infectious person, so he probably does have friends, theyre just awful people who are flighty when things go Wrong

9. Do animals like them? Do they get on well with animals? 

y’know I think Nik does like animals!! he likes all kinds of animals and would like a pet snake or spider but IM NOT GIVING HIM EITHER. He tries to pet Bay’s pet kitten but she claws the hell out of him :(

11. Do they have any special diet requirements? Are they a vegetarian? Vegan? Have any allergies?the main requirement that Nik has is that he doesn’t like his food touching. He doesnt mind mixing his foods, like hot dogs and mac and cheese, but he doesn’t like them touching. He is also allergic to strawberries ;-;

13. What is their least favourite food?

peanut butter

15. Are they good at cooking? Do they enjoy it? What do others think of their cooking?

Nik is actually very good at cooking!! Most of the time he hates it unless hes making something Big or baking something with Cameron, who stress bakes. Cameron secretly likes his cooking but he wont admit it

17. Do they like to take photos? What do they like to take photos of? Selfies? What do they do with their photos?

oh hell yeah!! Nik loves taking nudes pictures and sending them to cameron. His cell phone (if he had one) would be full of random pics of people and of places. MUCH PICTURES OF THE OCEAN. He has a bunch saved on his phone and he has some in photo albums and such

19. What’s their least favourite genres?

mmmm i think nonfiction would bore him, especially for industrial revolution area. I think he would actually really like scyfi and action. Absolutely would love anything that was just fast and action packed. he would fucking LOVE deadpool

Nik: if he backtalks he gets his head cut off but he comes back from the dead. if i backtalk im just DEAD. not fair :(

21. Do they have a temper? Are they patient? What are they like when they do lose their temper?

Nik absolUTELY has a temper. Its quick, its hot and he often makes an ass of himself. He’s not patient. He has,,, some patience, I guess. Where it counts. But it’s nowhere near as long as Nate’s.

When he loses his temper people get wounded or just DEAD. or he just makes an ass out of himself and has to apologize

23. Do they have a good memory? Short term or long term? Are they good with names? Or faces?

Nik has a somewhat good memory. HIs long term memory is much better tho. He’s much more visual and is better with faces.

25. What do they find funny? Do they have a good sense of humour? Are they funny themselves?

NIk has the most juvinle sense of humor lol. But he also has a really fucking dark sense of humor when it calls for it. If someone is bleeding out, and they deserved it, hed laugh

well. he certainly thinks hes funny

27. What makes them sad? Do they cry regularly? Do they cry openly or hide it? What are they like they are sad?

Nik,,, doesn’t really get sad. He gets pissed. He tries hiding his tears, and he tries to not cry. He shoves negative emotions down so much (which is actually why hes such an angry dude :/)

WHen he does break down and cry Cam,,, tries to be comforting with him. They can get surprisingly soft

29. What do they do when they find out someone else’s fear? Do they tease them? Or get very over protective? 

mmmm it would depend on the fear. Like if it was as Genuine fear (like his is) he wouldn’t tease them. But like,,, if it was something stupid hed absoluTELY tease them for it. He would get kinda protective about it, and would tell whoever it was bothering them to fuck off and leave them alone

31. Do they drink? What are they like drunk? What are they like hungover? How do they act when other people are drunk or hungover? Kind or teasing?

DOES NIK DRINK LMAOOO YES YES HE DOES

Nik is mostly a cheerful drunk and hes a fucking idiot while hes drunk. Also is very slutty when hes drunk (tho when isnt he???)

Nik: hungover? I don’t know her. i just start drinking againMe: Nik pls

When ohter people are drunk hes,,, pretty relaxed about it and help them from making an ass out of themselves (tho tbh he would absolutely record them being an idiot). He would try to pry someone off him if they tried to undress him

Nik: yes yes i know i am hot. But unfortunately my conscious would not sit well if i took advantage of the situation :(

33. What underwear do they wear? Boxers or briefs? Lacey? Comfy granny panties?

Nik doesn’t wear underwear. 

Tho he has been known to try on lacy panties ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

Nik: don’t judge they’re surprisingly comfy and make my ass look GREAT

35. What’s their guilty pleasure? What is their totally unguilty pleasure? 

ok Nik doesn’t have guilty pleasures. hes not going to feel guilty for likeing the things he does. His total unguilty pleausres is trashy television shows. He lovesss binge watching say yes to the dress for fucking hours while sprawled out on the couch eating oreos and stoned

37. Do they like to read? Are they a fast or slow reader? Do they like poetry? Fictional or non fiction?

Nik,,,, is not fond of reading. He is Dyslexic and he doesn’t like sitting still or being forced to focus. Tho,,, i think he might read, depending on what he was reading. 

fiction, absolutely fiction

39. Do they like letters? Or prefer emails/messaging? 

mmmmmmmmmm messaging and emails. Much better bec he can read them better. Tho, he does like letters every now and then. Especially if theyre like,,, looove letters 

41. What’s their sexuality? What do they find attractive? Physically and mentally? What do they like/need in a relationship?

He is a slutty, slutty bisexual, my dude. Nik has a hand kink. he finds slender hands attractive. he likes,,,, cool eyes?? if that makes sense?? He finds people who are kinda,,, not,,, cold cold but cool and calmness attractive. That cool confidence, like a sheet of almost frozen water.

He finds delicate features attractive. Like fine bones, not brashness. Sharp as glass cheekbones, slender hands. Tall, not,,, too much muscle. (am i describing Cameron? MAYBE SO) NIk, upon meeting Cameron: oh no hes not

mentally, he finds confidence attractive. he finds assertiveness and dominance attractive. He likes someone who can command a fucking presence. He finds passion attractive. Someone that is so passionate and so devoted to something/one attractive

What does he like? he likes someone that will meet him halfway, who will want him, and that he will be enough for them. He has a bit of an inferiority complex  and he thinks that people will just get tired of him and he wants- he NEEDS- someone that he will be enough for, that they arent going to just bolt when things get rough. Which,,, is interesting bec Cameron,,, is Cameron and hes going to want to control the situation who is afraid fo feeling anything for anyone

43. Are they religious? What do they think of religion? What do they think of religious people? What do they think of non religious people?

Nik,,,, acknowledges that there are gods. But i would not call him religious. If he were in modern day, he might MIGHT be spiritual but he will joke and be like dude, im going to hell.

He thinks of religious people, and nonreligious people the same way. Believe what you want to believe, but don’t shove it down my throat

45. How do other people see them? Is it similar to how they see themselves? 

A lot of people see him as a lost cause, as some druggie who is going nowhere other than down. Some think that he’s just,,, lost. HIs dad sees him as his Son who just needs tough love and the right pressure to Honor His Family

Nik,,, sees himself as a hot guy, whos shallow and with money. People dont like him, they like his money and what he can do for them. 

47. How do they act in a formal occasion? What do they think of black tie wear? Do they enjoy fancy parties and love to chit chat or loathe the whole event?

mmmmmm Nik doesn’t like many formal occassions. He thinks theyre boring and people are fake as fuck. He Hates black tie wear and he only agrees to wear a tie if Cam uses it on him later ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

he hates chit chat but he does fucking love gossip. He’ll find a couple of people to hang out with and get the Dish

49. What is their most valued object? Are they sentimental? Is there something they have to take everywhere with them?

his lighter. Its a flip lighter with engravings on it, that Nate got him. He uses it when he gets anxious. That,,, is actually the reason Nate got it for him, tho Nate did not say that.

If nate said anything about Nik having any kind of disorder, Nik would shut him down instantly.

Tho, Nik does take it everywhere with him