#im spiralling again

[rookinthecrownest]

no im not thinking about a non-Mercar Altus class shadow dragon rook who's used a persona of 'dumb, vain, pretty, spoiled princess' to get her own family (venatori) to intentionally underestimate her so she can pass information off to the SD's and the interesting dynamic that might have with a certain Dellamorte who's also used his looks to get what he wants and idk where I'm going with this the Illario brainrot is getting real bad someone come help me

[worm-filled-carcass]

My new alternative school? (I think that's what it's called??) is great and all but everyone is so nice and kind and understanding (because they're trained to deal with autistic students) and im sad and depressed and mental unwell and I feel so out of place and like I don't deserve it.

Like my old school was shit n all and I didn't fit in but at least I didn't feel like anyone was being too nice to me

[mohntilyet]

my initial knee jerk reaction to lucanis/spite saying "family, enemies, contracts" was bad because it felt like an oversimplification but actually thinking on it i really love that lucanis forces himself into this box to make things make sense in his life. family is unconditional, enemies are to be killed, but contracts is so. interesting... man who promises mila that he will find her father because he does not fail contracts. the same man who tells effe that he will kill her slaver because he needs to turn her from a poor young woman that he sympathises with, into someone he can make a deal with. it's not kindness, it's not weakness, he's just fulfilling a contract, and crows don't break contracts. if he kills a bunch of racist blood mages during that process, then he's not breaking the rules, just bending them. a very convenient excuse to be a good man while still being a crow and assassin. and of course when spite is forced into him, he gets out of it with something familiar! by making another deal! something he could work with, something he HAS to work with, because being just an abomination is unthinkable. if he can work himself out of this problem like he's done with every other contract in his life, in his mind maybe there's some tiny chance that this becomes another job that he can claw his life back from.

[tojisun]

i genuinely cant develop this further but simon fucks you so good and so hard and so much (it lasts for many hours) before every mission because hes scared that this is his last time he’ll get to fuck you. it’s all inadvertent when he got you addicted to his cock and his love-making because, to be honest, these sessions are more for him than for you. his grunts and his pleasured rumbles and his dirty talk? theyre not to make you dizzy with pleasure, theyre to make him cum. he gets so lost in his own euphoria that its truly but an added bonus that you cum with him.

he doesn’t tell you this though

[daredevil-vagabond]

(32:11) Say, "The angel of death who has been assigned for you will take you in full." ۞ قُلْ يَتَوَفَّىٰكُم مَّلَكُ ٱلْمَوْتِ ٱلَّذِى وُكِّلَ بِكُمْ ثُمَّ إِلَىٰ رَبِّكُمْ تُرْجَعُونَ

Altaïr Ibn-La'Ahad

[sangrefae]

does anyone else spend a concerning about of time thinking abt laios being the one to kill chimera falin or am i just unwell

[ganondoodle]

since tumblr always has to suffer my personal vents and breakdowns and rants and annoyances you get the most wips and pics of unfinished stuff, im sure that makes up for it

the (unfinished) shiekah arm concepts that made me want to explode and i dont think im gonna work on again

[always-a-joyful-note]

Enstars sure is an experience. Did I miss anything?

[wandermit]

[usertoxicyaoi]

"What do you want?"

KISS x KISS x KISS. ATELIER KISS (2023).

[souporsaladnatural]

I think that in the revival dean and cas should lean their foreheads together and also maybe close their eyes and cry a little but also I'd probably flatline if this came to pass so. Yk

[blossoms-phan]

thinking about this photo

[malk-with-tea]

Some magma doodles I did last night :)

[definitely-jax]

[nenoname]

I'm a broken record about this but after so many years of being left with the Axolotl poem about Bill, it'd be so lame if Bill never did reincarnate, and it'd be just as disappointing if it ended up being something minor like a cicada (although it'd be hilarious if he reincarnated, immediately died and then reincarnated into something else).

And to me, the wording of the original Axolotl poem really does make it seem like the reincarnation itself is the 'redemption' and the deal is that Bill is basically passing responsibility to someone else, after he's done with therapy and like.... doesn't pass down all of his many issues.

(Plus I dunno if it's my understanding of reincarnation that's wrong but it feels that when Bill is like 'yeah let me use the reset button!!!', he's forgetting that its way different from using a continue and he's just gonna end up with the equivalent of a shoddy new game plus made for a wrong character/setting at best)

Meanwhile, we're left with Bill poem about Stan that's the same in execution (a cryptic message between space and time and by that I mean hidden on the internet lol), with the same purpose (an opening/lingering mystery for Alex to use when he wants to return to the series) with the same elements (fire, lies, redemption, home) and numerous comparisons to Bill's own philosophy on lies that's repeated again in the same website.

(Also been thinking about how amnesiac!Stan could sorta be thought of as a reincarnation of himself in terms of mind only. The same soul being hit with that reset gun button, a chance of a new self unburdened by the past, but via the power of love and family they went nope!!! we want you back!!!)

Either way, with the poem and the book's ending there's the obvious Bill+Stan connection that we're supposed to acknowledge!!!

[accala]

"I'm happy to be your servant till the day I die." - Merlin

JAW IS ON THE FLOOR. I'm new to Merlin. In fact, I've only watched a few episodes so far and only heard this line through a clip. But even THIS is a huge blaring sign. A full on tornado siren. At this point, if I were Arthur, I'd be asking what we were because WOW.

I can't believe I am getting sucked into a ship that includes King Arthur and Merlin the magician from ARTHURIAN LEGENDS. 2000s shows stop making queer-but-not-queer relationships challenge. I AM TIRED