#im sooo tired please

[mellohd]

rant about fandom documentation or something or the other or the something of the other eye roll

no matter how many dead fandoms you join as soon as you interact with a popular one then go to something that's somewhat dead will ALWAYS be jarring. Bonus points if it was super popular but currently isn't as alive.

for example for like two months i was really into arcane and since its so recent and was so popular I was being SPOILED. information on how it was made interviews behind the scenes was so easy to find cuz everybody was finding it at the same time and sharing. New fanart every day, clips of the va's being shared constantly etc. now I'm really into detroit become human and finding the nitty gritty details is so MUCH HARDERRRRR people aren't sharing the clips and such anymore because everybody's already seen it BUT I HAVE NOT I HAVENT!!

(just putting a division line here cuz I don't wanna clog tags with a wall of text lololol)

so im trying to find as much info about gavin(and behind the scenes/cut content stuff how the game was made the og story etc ) as I can cuz I can't find anything ANYWHERE so I'm trying to find interviews of the actors because I saw people quoting them but not linking to the quote etc etc and I stumbled across a live stream by the dude that played connor and the dude that voiced gavin was there but I was like hmm head scratch that doesn't look like gavin and that's how I learned that niel newborn mocapped Mr kamski ANNND gavin but did not face model for gavin which leads me to looking up who gavins appearance was based off of (WHICH AS FAR AS I CAN TELL WAS EITHER A GORDON FREEMAN SITUATION (kinda) OR THEY JUST DIDNT SAY WHO THEY BASED HIM OFF OF) which led me to a reblog of a post about gavins EARS OF ALL THINGS quoting one Mr newborn (WITHOUT A LINK TO THE QUOTE) saying that he saw gavin and kamski as half brothers(and also that gavin is more of a dog person WHICH I KNEW IT ) here's the link to the post btw cuz I dot my i's and cross my t's and in the post they just flippantly bring up everybody knows that gavin and kamski are played by the same guy

...

I DID NOT?

and the thing is it probably was common knowledge!! its just that the fandom is older now and all the fandom content I see today is surface level and nobody is talking about "ohh look at this clip from this live stream!!" or "LOOK AT WHAT THIS ACTOR SAID ABOUT THIS!" (maybe the kamski and gavin being played by the same dude is a bad example but you get the point)

Like for example arcane again. Interacting with that fandom was so rich because all of its fandom culture was going on at once. What I mean is we were getting fanart, people are sharing tidbits of what voice actors said, prominent cosplayers fandom culture at its peak etc but trying to find that in DBH is like digging for gold in a once popular mine where everybody abandoned all of their equipment and loot deep deep deep shaft but people still frequent it they just forgot about that one tunnel with the good stuff

the loots still THERE, there are still the vet miners who KNOW about it and frequent but they already know about it and everybody else knew about it so whats the point in bringing it up again? THE POINT IS ME!!! I WANT THE LOOT!! (genuinely sorry if this is all not making sense I woke up at 4 am and couldn't go to bed and the best way I express myself is metaphors and I'm tired and I'm sleepy and WHATEVER!!! ITS SEVEN AM I CAN BE OBSESSING OVER WHATEVER I WANT GET OFF MY BACK)

I FEEL LIKE IM RESEARCHING A SECRET SOCIETY i have to diiiiiiiggg DEEEEP(that one star butterfly gif), DEEP TO FIND THE FANDOM CONTENT I DESIRE

dont get me wrong i know research is apart of every fandom experience if you want to get into it more its just never been this hard for me to find information. its like its a well known secret but is only a secret to those who weren't there when it happened. Maybe I'm just spoiled by video essays but even just finding content on how the GAME WAS MADE WAS SO HARD the short interviews in the game practically gave us nothing and i could HARDLY find videos about it and i get the sense that QD doesn't wanna let slip of how it was made cuz even their own videos are vague UGH like in HALF LIFE id go to the wiki article and reread it whenever i was bored in school and it told me keynotes of the development that i used to look up more about it and the video essays, the sweet sweet amount of video essays... i mean fuck you could find an article about the state of gabe's balls on the afternoon he added gordon freemans fifth beard hair to his model that's how well documented everything was

THATS IT urethra! thats the word im looking for the older fandom stuff wasn't WELL DOCUMENTED!! its known but not really saved anywhere, anywhere easy to find that is (fandom wiki doesn't count idk if there is any info on there but if there is it doesn't count cus fandom wiki is so ass(YES IM STILL BUT HURT THEY DELETED MY OVERTIME WIKI))

I guess this just turns into a conversation about the importance (or lack there of ) of documenting and preserving fandom stuff,not even just like fandom culture just factoids and information about the media in general for the people that weren't there. I think arcane and DBH are perfect examples of why you should, at least partly. I know in arcane/LOL there's a user (hexhomos I think) that has a site where you can look at a bunch of resources about viktor and jayce like there stories (original and new) cut stuff different skins(which is different versions of them) model references, just general information on them and I remember that really helped me get a deeper understanding of those characters where as in DBH like nothing's documented, nobody did ToT(as for as I know) like apparently there are fandom events people host?? who was gonna tell me that, who was gonna tell me the history of those events??? LIke I know some of this stuff is unnecessary but I just think fandom culture is COOL ok SUE ME in conclusion I am tired heed my warnings keep your fandoms alive and information circulating make those video essays make your fanpages!! ready your pitchforks prepare for preservation!! HUZZAHHH

[frowncake]

call boy

[fuzziemutt]

In love with how we finally have some williams being silly and decided to make some gifs of these scenes from "Stuck Inside" animated by Coda ^^

[princescar]

Matsuda art dump thats mainly shitty jokes

shinisuda.....

happy matsuda GO!

notice how theres barely a difference

OLD but i dont think I've ever posted....

I hope they got to bully him before they died :(((

Incorrect quote dump

ok now i have cleared my storage good night

[one-bunny-a-day]

20/02/2023

a mirmir

[nyxi-pixie]

genuinely going to explode if i see another person say they miss skk

[greenapel]

cringetober day 3: unnecessarily complex (out)fit!

[demonic-shadowlucifer]

"omg [media/celebrity] fans are sooo annoying" "um actually [other media/celebrity] are so much worse" *Ahem*

[kellystar321]

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[downfallofi]

If I had to describe the mood, it really is like when you grow up with an abusive parent; and there are bad days where you're just willing for them to go to work and be gone all day so you don't have to hear them yelling and slamming shit

[the-valiant-valkyrie]

A lone and injured faithful breaches the line between worshiping the divine and tasting it. There's consequences, of course… But between that and death itself, who could possibly refuse?

[maximusboltaqon]

ok picture this. an ahura luna leer petras alecto comic set during/immediately after doti where the kids are like. Huh Haven't Heard From Mom In A While. n they gotta go figure out why gorgon isnt returning their calls and then get swept up into the Holy Shit bc they get to attilan somehow and see how completely destroyed it is. i havent thought of it much past that but cue the looking for dad typical comic. and thats whag i want for the inhumans rn. i crave a 2nd gen (? if the kids can count as that) centric comic so bad :(

[leave-your-body]

gang i dont think im gonna watch the wine stream imma be real

[thoughtfulseason]

i have to comfort myself that after the toughest times comes the best cause these past few days it’s been so awful, it’s like everyone’s out to get me and i’m just so tired of everything

[leatherbookmark]

my dream portrayal of jgy is that he's an independant character with his own strengths (not lxc's sweet little child-birthing wifey) that get recognition and appreciation (and that aren't 'being a good mommy/rabid event planner, haha, such a control freak this a-yao'), who deserves and gets love (but isn't just a tiny lovely thing whose only purpose is-- do you get my point already i wonder), who's allowed to be in a bad mood (but isn't defined by those moments, which is very important to me personally), but who isn't a cruel or bad person (and whose attempts at explaining his situation to others are taken seriously, and not as just him trying to Manipulate Others As Usual because, and i might be controversial but idqc, if i'm to call a character a gaslighting manipulator i'd like to see cases of him a/ doing it b/ succesfully c/ often, and no, "well he conned lxc into thinking he's not an evil murderous twink, SOMEHOW" doesn't count)

and my problem is that it's, well, as dreams usually are, rather unattainable

[oh-gh0st]

stuff is all packed see u guys in 4 days