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#a doodley#i had to make this blue so tumblr would stop hiding it from the dash#anyway no caption this happened 2 hrs ago#im happy abt my surgery but it and other things this year keep beinging conversations like these up#and i cant handle it at all.#everything my dad tells me just makes me feel worse and not bc its anything bad but bc I Feel Bad#like the conversation then continued to him being like no dont cry im just saying i wpuld have wanted to#quit my job decades ago and set aside money so I wouldnt be struggling as much now but that didnt happen#and i just dont want that to happen to you guys :)#so we have to support u so that your life is what u want it to be#and i cried even more bc what do u mean. thats so sad. ur a person and u were a child and baby once and ur gonna die#and you always almost cry when u talk about your mom who passed away decades ago#and your brothers that passed away#recently and im going to be your age and still sobbing bc i miss my dad. just like i have been prematurely crying about since i was 7#the other day my dad asked my mom if i cried a lot when i was a baby/kid and my mom said no and then my dad#said that when i Did cry it was so severe he thought i would ''drown in my own tears''#bc i could never stop. like. thats still true today. ive been crying on and off since then#i think i mentioned he's just been telling me stories about his life lately and it further fuels this. i get so sad. im sorry your life was#like this. i dont want to die i dont want you to die im sad im sorry im sorry#im scared. im never going to see you again. how horrible. how horrible#i cant enjoy my day today bc every day is a day closer and i get sad
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Gabriel: we both look very handsome tonight
Sam: you know, if you'd just said that I looked handsome, I would have said, "So do you."
Gabriel: I couldn't take that chance
#sorry that the last ones so late lmao#im in france and have horrible internet here#but it’s nice#source: modern family#spn#supernatural#sam winchester#gabriel spn#spn gabriel#incorrect spn quotes#incorrect supernatural quotes#sabriel#sam x gabriel#incorrect sabriel
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just thought of a jegulus they both die at the end au and suddenly I'm thirteen again
#that fucking book was my everything at thirteen im sorry#but also i thought of james climbing into regulus' grave with him#because reg was terrified of dying and doing anything to make it happen faster than it was already happening#and then#AND THEN#it would be sad james too#and he'd spend the whole day being okay with it you know#but then by the end of the night when he knows his death is coming he realizing how badly he wants to live#but it's too late by then#like MAN#i love that shit#like it's absolutely horrible and awful#it's a tragedy but something about james finding a reason to Want to live is everything to me#anyway#i cant have a new wip#but i could write a tbdate au that's so fucking good#i dont even like the book anymore#but damn#anyways#i shouldn't have put this all in the tags#jegulus
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watanabe indulges in your singing. he doesn’t try to play the guitar in front of everyone but when it’s just the two of you, he’d do anything to hear your voice.
his fingers strumming the guitar and humming along to you. he’s fixated with the way you look when you sing, your little hand movements and habits that make it easier for you to sing.
he turns red when you suddenly prompt him to sing, he doesn’t want to look like a fool in front of you. but he gives in and sings one of the few love songs he knows, hoping it conveys his feelings for you.
#watanabe punishing gray raven#pgr watanabe#watanabe pgr#punishing gray raven#pgr#i’ve been feeling a bit horrible about myself lately#did some karaoke today and recorded it but immediately deleted it from how horrible i sounded#i’ve been so behind on pgr and hope im not mischaracterizing watanabe here#i just needed a little bit of comfort#sorry i got a little tmi but mentally have just been in the dumps about myself and my own image#missing my fav 2d men too lol#luminotes ˚✧₊⁎☆#watanabe x you#watanabe x reader
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playing around with brushes idk
#horribly off topic but whoever came up with fucking wingless pads i hope they suffer eternally they suck so bad it actually pisses me off#okay back to normal stuff i only ever use that fake ms paint brush which means im used to basically just pixel art but big all the time..#which. is basically what the one i used for bill ended up looking like cause when i resized it the lineart fucked up but the brush i was#using had a. chisel? is that the word idk#but idk ive been feeling more sketchy with shit lately so this was fun#also the shading brush i used for normal ted is really nice.#most of them are brushes i found on ibispaints featured list but uhh the evil ted ones just the default stylish brush#i need to go back to painting i love doing that….#doodles#bill and ted#bill s preston esquire#ted theodore logan#evil ted#sorry for flooding the bnt tag. again.#christ thats a lot of words. sorry also for talking too much in the tags
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Starter | @arobinwithoutbatman
"So you're the third Robin right?" A jet black haired young adult questions while looking at Tim. He defiantly resembled a young Bruce Wayne. As Terry should, being the eldest blood born son, even if he hated admitting it. He had a rough patch with his father going on.
"Probably should have started with 'hey you're Tim right?' Sorry. Never been great with chit chat.... I'm Terry."
#[ hiiiii I'm so sorry Im late with this I feel horrible ]#[ I'll try to send some memes in too so we can do more interacting ]#••••» тєяяу м¢gιηηιѕ [ ¢увєявαт ] | ¢увєяηєтι¢ νιgιℓαηтє «••••#••••» тιм ∂яαкє [ яє∂ яσвιη ] | ρнσтσgяαρнι¢ вιя∂ «••••#arobinwithoutbatman
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not-yet-dead-person
silly comic of a conversation in-game i thought was too funny not to make something proper for instead of a doodle ww
(timelapse + wip images (thus silly process commentary in read more if you like artist commentary :3)
i think the sketch looks silly and goofy and funny so i find it important to share with you the mere presence of the faces i drew on it. i drew it on top of the boxes without staying inside its borders because i find my proportions can get wonky if i draw them cropped in a restricted space. and I feel trapped otherwise and i will draw BAD!!! give me spaceeeee to go wild!!!!
the head circles are there for emotional support
very low res speedpaint because truth is the canvas was much bigger than the space where my comic was placed. i didnt account when exporting my timelapse in 720px that that tiny space would look so pixelated ... but it's able to be percieved, so its okay.
(i will now comment on my process and it is not brief sorry)
usually i would try to clean up my sketches and figure out what goes on top before jumping into linework, but since there are multiple panels and drawings i chose to jump into inking right away for the sake of brevity. i just went in with a brush that uses pen pressure and drew what was needed. i added extra line thickness and contrast in areas around the face because it helps direct your eyes there more easily that way.
according to her equipment rei has a chain belt but i only remembered it existed once I was going to color, and i did not like that discovery... I chose to ignore it to maintain my peace. i already have the color palettes for these characters figured out, and i didnt really want to think about a new element at the moment www I tend to overthink those things a lot so i skipped it
the rest is rather straightforward! not that anything else wasn't, but in here i could turn my brain off and sing. linework and sketching require mumbling so i cannot turn my brain off. just block in the characters with a solid color so i can have a mask (something along those lines,) where the color can stay inside. then just color in !!!
Base colors just had slight cell shading on the skin, and for the hair i airbrush a bit of the skincolor in low opacity near the forehead... I'm not sure what it means, but i can look at the faces easier with it somehow. i like the gentle subtlety it adds even if you cant really tell. it makes things look nice.
background was just me blocking in the color of the wall and floor, shade the wall a bit, then slap a noise and free use wood texture on top. work smarter not harder ! yet it took a bit to make it look stylistically fitting with the characters, and even now i think bottom middle panel looks odd. whatever!!!
for the middle panel i thought itd be funny if the background was a solid silly and colorful one to contrast the next panel's sketchy black one. a contrast to how the word widow is seen. on that note my handwritting is not pointy. i gaslighted my hand into thinking that it was indeed pointy in that moment so i could write "not-yet dead person" in letters that didn't seem cute. my hand did not fall for it but it complied anyway
that's basically it! I'm not sure what else i could say that doesn't feel barebones because it really is that straightforward. if you're curious I used clip studio paint for this. only special brush used was for linework (a brush named Lemon Brush), the rest used were just the default. my computer gets the least credit. it was trying to convince me a 20mb file was going to nuke it all the time and hardly let me save multiple times so i do not appreciate it
#re:kinder#fanart#sayaka re:kinder#rei re:kinder#OH I ALREADY RAMBLED IN MY POST WHATEVER SHOULD I TALK ABOUT NOW IN MY TAGS UEEEEEEE😭😭😭#oh yeah do you want to know a fun fact about this drawing#i started it yesterday. i wasnt meant to I DID NOT HAVE PERMISSION...FROM MYSELF... i was meant to be on break#i self imposed a one week break from doing any rekinder related project after the transcript to avoid accidental burn out#NOT THAT I GOT TIRED OF IT AFTER THAT TRANSCRIPT NOT AT ALL#but jumping straight into more hours of creativr work after over 30 hours of it is asking for disaster. it is asking for burn out#yesterday was the last day . 12 hours were left but i was going to die if i didnt draw anything it would have been OVER#(aka my period started recently so i got very gloomy and depressed so i needed to run to my favorite stress relief...drawing rekinder☺️)#(on that note seriously what the fuck please explain the evolutionary advantage to getting horribly depressed every month)#(like hello?!?! rant real quick— i get enough flashbacks everyday i DONT need them to last longer and have me more msierable ?!?!?)#(periods are so dangerous to my mental health for no reason can i get a restriction order on them or some shit what the fuck)#(anyway thats enough of that break of character DONEEEE :3333)#SO YEAH I DIDNT EVEN LAST 7 WHOLE DAYS i even played a new game in between those 6 days youd think itd het my mind of rekinder. WRONNNNGGG#not even another devastating rpg horror gamr could divert my attention for long i hsd to draw rekinder😊#using the newfound power of mt transcript i was decided on drawing rei because i dont draw her enough for how high she is on my fvaorites#i was initially doodling random lines but then i stumbled upon this interactkon and it doesnt really fit into my usual expression sheets#so i thought hey lets do it asife#i thumbnailrd it and from there i was like hey lets do it in comic format isntead of separated messy doodles in tint canvas#and the rest is hisotry .... aka i spent the last two days doing this instead of doing MY HOMEWORK!!!!!#on my defense when i wasnt drawing i was horribly depressed i had no other choice#(seriously fuck off periods WHAT what do you mean i need to be distracted 24/7 to not be struck by crippling meltdowns LEAVE ME ALONE?!?!?)#(they should be banned we as a society should find like a . cure to them it dont do me good to have a whole week where i cant function)#these tags have been more of a weird rant im sorry IVE BEEN FEELING PEEEVEDDD LATELY SO YOU GET. STRANGE DROTTER LORE ????
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ok so i dont see enough people talking about it so i will; did anyone else see how often Ellen is referred to as a fairy? between knock calling her a sylph, friedrich telling anna to "not get caught up in her fairy ways" and even herself saying that her father called her his "changeling girl", which THAT ONE is so important to me bc back in those days and beforehand, autistic people were speculated to be a changeling that took and replaced their child, thus leading to horrible abuse and even death upon these children.
AND LET'S NOT FORGET HOW COUNT ORLOK'S SIGIL HAS A FAE STAR??¿¿¿¿¿????
idk call me crazy but i think Ellen really isn't a human and is a reincarnated fae, that's why she's "not of the human world".
#nosferatu#nosferaturambles#shroomrambles#nosferatu movie#nosferatu 2024#sorry ellen is so me irl#i feel so seen with her character i cry#me too girl. i too yearn for death as an eternal lover as his polar opposite#life and death incarnate. theyre legit life and death guys#theyre soulmates#if you tell me otherwise im beating you with rocks#i have a LOT to say about this movie so i might flood the tag#lots of horrible stanky ass takes in there lately
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jay, would you be interested in drawing 03 giving 01 drum lessons?
(humbly offers you in exchange: 0103 fuel; they both feature strong drumlines in their songs (though mikoto does too)- however, in android girl- haruka stumbles during a rhythm change!)
Hi creature!! I am always interested in drawing 01 & 03, thank you for this idea :D :D
This is like my 3rd time drawing someone playing the drums (the 2nd time having been in 2021) so I'm really sorry if there's anything that's wrong
and thank you for the 0103 fuel!!! The mikoto inclusion made me imagine him third-wheeling them lol
#sorry I was late to do this!!! i didnt have the spoons to draw any suggestion lately c':#milgram#haruka sakurai#fuuta kajiyama#sakurai haruka#kajiyama fuuta#my art#ALSO THANK U FOR SHOWING UP IN MY INBOX CREATURE!!! IT WAS A PLEASANT SURPRISE im always happy to interact w u!#i hope the quality isnt so horrible i drew these on desktop and had to take screenshots instead of saving the picture as png#because i dont have a license for sai2 yet😭
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i do believe you all followed me because of writing sorry you have to deal with the deeply mentally ill girl that comes with it.. slight rant in tags ? i guess ? ily all anyhow
#this year has been so horrible LMAO#every other week something new is popping up#like i thought it couldn’t get worse and then it does#idk how i’m coping (im not)!!#but i really wanna be here and be able to post and write and give you all the good content you followed for but i do genuinely feel like#i’ve been lacking a lot lately and i’m sorry for that#i’m talking to my doctor about upping my meds and going back to therapy#and just trying to do things to make me feel better rather than offing myself#melo will be okay i’m sure of it but im trying my hardest i promise#✧ melody posts
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#the depression is kicking in again (it never left) its so over for me AGAIN#oh my god#i am so tired i can't get anything done and my moods have been horribly unstable lately#i just wanna be normal and happy??#anyways... i'll get the reqs done soon i swear :(#i am just going to assume that this is happening because my period is soon...#i really do use this place as some venting diary sometimes IM SORRY :(#i'm just gonna sleep#ruru rambles
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small update
ok so um I got my number theory paper today, and the TA had cut marks for me because i left the answer at 66^2 and not 4356 (fermat's little theorem) 😔 I even wrote the full proof
my friend told me I should mail the TA about this, I got 14/20 and should be getting 17or18/20 😔
scores aside, number theory is so much fun, so much fun. the only good thing here is that I know the concepts well, and I fully knew the paper (still fucked it up, because I'm so frickin slow while writing and time). and it hurts worse because there's not enough proof that validates my knowledge. which in turn makes me question if i actually do have any.
I am, in general, a person who does well in concepts but screws up the exams (70% of the time) and I'm trying, I'm trying to get myself out of this "exam paniK" that I often spiral into, just minutes before the exam. I hope I change and grow; I hope, I hope.
#im so sorry for this meltdown once again#so sorry#and for the paper - many people got 20#it was actually a very easy paper and yes 20 was doable#even i could've gotten a 20 had i not screwed up the way i did#and i feel so bad to even say “had i not screwed up...” the excuse sounds horrible to my ears#well what is done is done#i can only try better next time#this course might just end up being the easiest to get an A#let's hope that I don't fuck up this one too#after seeing my paper i just returned it and came back#and my friend was like “ok. why did u not ask them why you've lost so much when the concepts are all right there on your paper?”#and i was like “um so should i ask them?” she went “YES.”#but by the time i went back to the hall the TAs had left so i have to mail mine now#and im very worried that she wouldn't change the current grading#last time i missed an A in math by 1/2 marks and i don't want the same thing to happen this time 😔😔#oh god ONE good thing can help me right now please#ru's trying#JUST 1 good thing#just give me ONE#i was so out of sorts today i slept for ~5 hours during the day and missed my calc class#i deliberately missed it though bc i wasn't feeling up to mark#i regret not going but my brain simply said no we're not there atm so maybe it was for the better#once again im so so SO sorry for the meltdowns lately#it's been bad rains and cloudy days in my head for a while now#i hope for the sun soon
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*slaps the roof of my ask box*
im bored and i got an itch to draw some cats rn SO TO ALL OF MY MUTUALS!!!! send me one of your ocs (with a ref sheet ofc) + little bit of their info and ill turn them into a warrior cats character!! hehe ;3c
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#PSPSPSPSPPSPSPSPSPSPSPSSSSS 🤌🤌#im toootaallyyy not trying to distract myself from my impending doom(horribly overdue schoolwork) so like dont even worry abt that haha#ONCE AGAIN sorry if your request happens to be finished late!!! i have this thing called 'impromptu art block' and 'procrastinating' 💔💔💔#<- also school's been kicking my ass rn so theres that as well 🤕
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its frank thigh thursdayyyy
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every day is frank thigh appreciation day let’s be real here~🎃
#also anon i’m so sorry im so horribly late getting to this#it’s a goddamn shame bc i’ll always fuckin scream about franks thighs#christ i’m so weak for him#where’s my goddamn kerosene#brb gotta go slink off to my dumpster fire#frnkiebby#anon#frank iero#mcr#my chemical romance#mcrmy#frnkiero#my chem#frnkie#ilhsm
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my therapist and i were talking about spacing out our sessions more since i'm generally doing okay and then i accidentally forgot to schedule more sessions so i'm going through like one of the worst things i've gone through in a while and like desperately want to talk to my therapist but her earliest appointment is december 5th (it is currently september 18th)
#i'm alright i think im just. having a time#my dad said some real asshole shit and i told him i dont want a relationship with him right now and maybe not ever again#and he keeps texting me and im trying so hard to just ignore him but i keep having thoughts about like#what if he tries to kill himself (again) and i'm not there to stop him#like yeah hes an asshole hes been horrible to me lately and we havent been close since i was a kid but i dont want him dead yknow#anyway i just. have no idea how to tallk about this or where to turn about it#and i'm just. struggling with future guilt over something that probably wont even happen#im just having a time#i should go to bed to be entirely honest but i want to stay up and hang out with someone because im off tomorrow#and getting to sleep has been so hard the last couple days anyway#anyway. sorry#suicide meantion /#suicidal mention /
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🐑 body swap, magical realism/curses, pining
had 2 do some research on this one 🫡🫡
So called “Luka Magic” has Jaylen and Jayson waking up in the wrong places. The wrong bodies. They figure out they have to finish the job and win the championship, in each other’s bodies, to be able to switch back. It’s a monumental task, but together they can face anything.
post championship after most of the celebrations have died down, they’re sitting in their lockers (next to each other) relieved to be back in their own bodies and to have won the championship. Obviously. Jaylen knocks his knee on Jayson’s to get his attention and they stay looking at each other for a beat too long. being in each other’s bodies gave them a little insight to what the other was thinking, so they both figure out that their own feelings are reciprocated. romance ensues
this is a little shorter than the other one i did and ik ik doesn’t Really have the pining included, but when its the jays it’s just. Implied tbh. they are always wanting each other.
also i think i am so funny making Luka Magic into Real magic. Teehee
#sorry for this being so late anon im horrible#but thank u so much for the ask!!!!#i had the general idea but i . Brain can’t write sometimes i guess#the jays#nba rpf
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