#im so fucking lonely man
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#didnt think seeing my best friend from childhood get married wld fuck me up so bad but it rly has#mostly bc im no longer part of her life and wasnt invited to her wedding#and ik it's my fault bc ive never been good at staying in touch#but it still rly hurts somehow#she's the best friend i've ever had and i just am rly having to come to terms with the fact that#we are no longer part of each other's lives#im so fucking lonely man#im going to die alone and friendless i just know it#what even is the point
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911 lone star -> tk & jonah in 5.08
#911 lone star#911lsedit#tk strand#911 lone star spoilers#jonah morgan de la costa strand reyes#tk is so good with him i cant#this man WOULD figure it out 100%#and im sorry but he would do it better than most people#curse this show for making me like a child honestly lmao this is against my nature but hes too fucking cute#my gifs
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Initial drawings of that old man… I literally, I haven’t finished reading the book of bill yet!!! I had to stop and take a break for a week to feverishly draw fanart of myself petting fords floofy hair and giving him attention and shit…!!!! The urge was too great….!! I’ve literally. I had a crush on this guy the instant he was first REVEALED in the show, but I did not have the artistic prowess to draw good looking old men back then… but I do now… thank god… thank fucking god
#gravity falls#ford pines#stanford pines#self ship#self insert#si x canon#it me#doodles#I got a haircut! so my hair looks different now.. as haircuts tend to do lol#anyway… yeah… I LOVE HIM… GRAHHFJH#the confirmation that he rlly is just sad and lonely and insecure and craving attention and validation#OHH FORD BBY.. WE R THE SAME#like… ghghg i loved him already just w his prickly nerdy outer shell but knowing more about the vulnerable center is GREAT. ITS AWESOME#also hes a smart nerdy guy who can do science and expirements and shit which is ONE OF MY FAVORITE THINGS FOR A CHARACTER TO DO#u kno im all about scientists….#I couldn’t draw ship art back then 1 cuz I didn’t kno how to draw old men and 2 cuz I was like 13 lol… which would have been wierd#but I’m an ADULT NOW. GET OVER HERE FORD#also it didn’t even rlly cross my mind TO draw that stuff cuz even tho I did love ford#self ship and x reader sorta stuff was not NEARLY as popular back then.. like I specifically remember it like. booming in popularity#at some point. but being pretty rare before that. anyway. thank u passage of time and trends and new gravity falls book for introducing#me back to fictional man I love. so I can now draw myself smooching him and shit#hell yeah.#13 is probably not actually correct I do not remember exactly which year fords reveal was in…#but I was probably older then 13.. but still#the point remains lol.#also omg. the bit in the book w the goth moth. ‘ur probably into this sorta thing right?’#I AM INTO THAT SORTA THING FORD. thank u book of bill for being written specifically @ me. the immersion it’s great.#like ur so right ford I AM edgy and goth how’d u guess that tee hee. eyelash flutter#aLSO PLS IGNORE MY FINGER BEING IN FRAME IN THE LAST PIC. I was drawing in a tiny bound sketchbook#so I had to hold the paper down to keep it flat. and. I didn’t feel like censoring my fucking. pinkie finger out of the image
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Drunk raph drops the corniest, cheesiest pick up lines and when he wakes up, Trax teases him about it
he's such a nerd
#nickkk.jpg#lone man au#thanks pookie for coming up with the fucking pick up line i hate it so much#i dropped everythin to do this im sorry this suck aksdjkasd
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Been watching adventure time for realzies instead of through osmosis and man. Ice king. MAN.
Literally every time Simon is referenced after the initial reveal has me bawling my eyes out. what do you MEAN he saved the farm world universe from the mushroom war. And he asked for help as he died. What do you MEAN Finn wrote mean letters to ice king and flame princess to make them fight and called ice king "simple Simon". I thought it was just the specifically Simon focused episodes that'd be fucked up but once you know he's Simon, literally every appearance of him or ice king is so tragic.
#going post#at#simon petrikov#the single frame of simons remains crushed under the frozen bomb killed me instantly#and then fucking simple simon. finn what the fuck. he doesnt even KNOW how evil that was finn why would yiu DO THAT TO HIMMM#also fp didnt deserve that either but im more focused on simon rn#and the fact that i the christmas special revealing his past pretty much ALL of the lead up is just recordings of ice king being profoundly#lonely or like.#SOBBING.#FOR HOURS ON END.#AND HES RECORDING THESE VIDEO DIARIES BC LITERALLY NO ONE ELSE WILL LISTEN TO HIM#AND PEOPLE FIRST WATCHING THOSE EPISODES WERE PROLLY LIKE OHHH SILLY ICE KING. WHAT A SAD OLD MAN. hey why are we focusing on him so much.#like i get it hes sad the joke kind of wore off. woah whos this nerd on this last tape#godd. GOD#i cant wait to get to fiona and cake the show i need some fucking resolution STAT
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thought slightly too hard about hajime hinata
#dr#im going to die. hes so everything tonme Oh my god#like actually i will be ill. the things that man has been through. not even just the lobotomy and the tragedy and the killing game but his#life preceding that LEAD him to that point��…he was so lonely and obsessed with talent and desperate to be worthy he took any chance to be#Someone. he went to hopes peak and he was still lonely and unhappy and obsessive because ALL HE WANTED WAS TO BE TALENTED……AND HIS DREAM#SCHOOL THAT HE SACRIFICED SO MUCH TO ATTEND CHEWED HIM UP AND SPIT HIM OUT AND TREAT HIM LIKE GARBAGE AT EVERY TURN#dangling talent and ultimates in front of his face but segregating him and the reserve course from them. treating them as second class AND#YET HE STAYED. AND GAVE HIS BODY AND MIND TO THE SCHOOL . im going to be fucking SICK!!!!!!!!#HAJIME HINATA IM CRYING MY EYES OUT I LOVE YOU . LET ME HOLD YOUR HEAD IN MY HANDS
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Being bisexual is really funny- Cause most of the time I have a preference for men and then I remember that girls are super cute and wanna kiss one.
The cute girl trigger is always something weird too- Like my most recent one was fucking Class of 09, I dunno bro I got 2 whole options and I’m still single.
Also Femboys are possibly the perfect thing for Bisexuals. Well- it depends on the person, but Femboys need love too.
#bisexual#lgbtq community#i’m bi actually#im lonely#i need a man#i need a girlfriend#i need a boyfriend#i need affection#i want a boyfriend#i want a gf#i want to be fucked#girls are just so pretty#i don’t make the rules#arospec#aromantic#aroace#asexual spectrum#aromantic spectrum#she/they#love yourself#i love twinks#i love men#i love women#fem bottom#i’m desperate#im only half joking#im so bisexual#i love both#i love tiddies#somebody gonna match my freak
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Someone should sexually use me to fill the aching hole
#i feel kinda on the outs at gay group#part of it is because im a christain#like....i dunno im tired of people shitting on my spirituality#if it was any other realigion it would be treated with respect#i dunno man i just.#im tired of hateful things being the norm#also back at my dads house after spending thw weekend with my sister#the filth always throws me off even when i try to prepare myself#also i am just feeling so fucking lonely#i just feel so isolated and i dunno how to reach out to people cus i have nothing interesting to say#everything i do i feel like im reminded of the romantic hole in my heart#im going to die alone.....#i fucking hate my life i cant wait to end it.
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im so fucking not okay
#okay to reblog#idk im just#lonely man#i really dont wanna say im suicidal#but#i might be#i really might be#and its so fucking stupid i dont wanna die#but but but haha#im sorry.
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so like as a stand alone thing with no prior knowledge of it, netflix's 3 body problem is pretty good! HOWEVER, having read the books it is based on i am INCREDIBLY disappointed. first of all, they anglicized the FUCK out of it. like. the books are written by a chinese author and they are ABOUT chinese characters in chinese society. so the fact that the netflix show took those book characters' stories and created a bunch of brand new non-chinese characters to give those stories to... don't like that. rancid vibes. (and sure, the new characters are somewhat diversified, as in there's a black guy and a pakistani guy, but there are also 4 new white characters too so like.) but yeah they did that which isn't great but they ALSO are like. taking bits and pieces from all three of the books and mushing them into one show? and iiiiiiii gotta say im not a big fan of that either? like. i feel like these books are split up SO distinctly in their time lines — like they literally span a 400 year period — so to smush them all together does it a great disservice? and like the technology and futuristic developments and the space travel and the details of the space societies in the book were SO cool and those are either erased in the show or just aren't able to be portrayed because of they're squishing it all together. ALSO they changed the name of the aliens and i hate it??? like WHY?? the name they have in the book is cool and the one they gave them in the show... sucks. like what.
anyways. it's good if i ignore the books, but if i don't then im super disappointed :/
#3 body problem#mack reacts#ALSO I HATE WHAT THEY DID WITH LUO JI!!!!!#his storyline in the books was SO fascinating#and they ruined it in the show!!!#luo ji did not have friends!!! he was always on the outskirts in college!!#he was a lonely man!!! and he continued to be lonely!!!! and even isolated himself further after becoming a wallfacer#he literally dreamed up a girlfriend#but in the show they made him (a white dude first of all which fuck off) part of the group and made him actively friends with them#which aLSO TOTALLY fucks up his decision to agree to be the one to be sent to the trisolarans#im so mad about this actually
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they need to make a killing myself I can do every weekend but only on the weekends so I can get up fine on monday and go to work again
#.vent#maybe i should start drinking so i can get blackout drunk every weekend. or fuck around w sedatives or pay someone to just whack me round#the head with a sledgehammer on friday evenings and hopefully ill recover from the concussion by mondays#its not even funny what the fuck is wrong with me that i have to spend all my free time trying not to kill myself i feel so sick#im literally fine at work i guess i just dont know how to have fun or be happy or feel wanted or cared for or loved by other people#but dont have to think about that when im working so its fine 5/7 days which is pretty good. im so lonely i want to throw up#tried to leave the house got ready and everything and then burst into tears for no reason ive spent the past hour trying to talk myself#down from hurting myself and i probably wont in the next few hours but i almost certainly will before the day is up. oh well#man who fucking cares. typing this isnt making me feel any better i dont really know what to do anymore#i have a drs appt in 2 weeks for smth unrelated but maybe ill ask abt antidepressants. theres nothing specific causing this#my brain just doesnt work right.i dont even feel like a person most of the time#well nothing else to say 👍
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i genuinely need to be put down like a dog i cant do this anymore man holy shit
#yall dont know the meaning of terminally online til u meet me#i hate myself so much its not even funny i am the most miserable worthless scum#my sleep schedule is 7am to 3pm all i do all day is rot on the couch and sometimes draw if i have a drop of motivation#depression is completely kicking my ass and im not even fighting back i give up what the fuck man#theres not even a point for me to keep trying i just want to stop feeling such deep despair 24/7 please#i dont want to die i just want the pain to stop so i can peacefullylive out the rest of this year before i turn 18 and its all over for good#but i cant even have that! im just gonna suffer the whole time thanks great#i wish i could just get better and fix all of this but i cant its not working we dont have the money to#actually get me the help i need to make it work. i just have to figure it out or die#i just wanna go back to ***** ** *** i just want to stop being lonely and useless#i dont know why im posting this shit to tumblr. its so stupid i should just be journaling or something#probably because im worthless selfish scum. idfk.#the last 6 months have been a complete blur. just rotting on the couch or in bed occasionally seeing friends once every other month or so#ive already wasted half of being 17 abd im probably gonna waste the rest too. ill do nothing of worth before i die.#even my art is ugly and horrible and not worth leaving behind. people tell me to work to improve it but i dont have the time left#ill never create any of the things i wanted to create ill never be a good artist im just going to die exactly like this#an absolutely terrible person.#the only people i can talk about the things that make me a terrible person with are people who are terrible in even worse ways#no one can comfort me except them because theyre the only people who know what ive done and actually do see it as less than absolute evil#because they know absolute evil because it is them. but i actually don’t believe that i think theyre bad but could be good#idk what im saying anymore#someone shoot me#please im not kidding#just make it stop#tw vent#tw sui#delete later
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Nothing is worse than when your crush snaps you but you look like this and there's no helping it so you've gotta leave them on delivered
#coquette#aesthetic#i give the fuck up#lana del slay#fuck it we ball#girlblogging#i wanna go home#im so fucking lonely#lana del rey#crush#crushing#i want a military man#military#marines#usmc#send help#im so crusty
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Castlevania is interesting but tell my why we get three episodes of internal conflict in the dracula castle (good) while the main characters are on a library and do fuck all. Well they have three scenes of relationship building that are supposed to mean something when they come out but they are so little and superficial imo
#and why the hell was season 1 four episodes#alucard and trevor hating each other is understandable but the resolution is fuck all and do not get me started on sypha and trevor#or sypha and alcuard. also sypha talks like she is supposed to reveal their inner workings and thats so bad.....#trevor and alucard are teens stuck in men bodies so they dont get along ok. can i know why....#also they were laughing and joking in gresit so what happened all of the sudden. the library is no excuse bc alucard knew who trevor was#idk man. its such a nothing burger. sypha and trevor relationship comes out of thin air wdym youre the best. since when are you being honest#am i going to blame this on a short episode count and also short episodes. yeah maybe. plague upon the earth#but them stuck in the library for three episodes and doing fuck all is just.... why#also dracula your war council is WHACK#get better fighters what is thus#also why is alucard a wolf. and hus flying sword. i an sure it is explained in the games but hello can i know why#why are we fighting in the study....#you know maybe i dont care bc alucard killing his father was very good. wish it made me care about trevor or sypha#and the dialogue wasnt so cringe sometimes#i respect sypha's two boyfriends grind i do. by god she will make them get along#wished i cared more.....#sypha telling them how they have grown as characters.... stop.....#hector has been kept as a pet noooo.....#not his face carmilla.... thats his biggest asset....#girl are you making marriage bows on the wagon after a week??? girl..... did he suddenly stop smelling like piss bc he sure didnt bathe#dont you worry ablut feeling lonely alucard im on my way.... if you will have me bc i am not sure about that yet but i will try alas#that last cry was just a little treat bc damn#you know alucard and dracula are the thing here and they dont even talk until the end.... travis and sypha on the other hand....#talking tag#watching castlevania
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i don’t particularly like man u either but the fact that they managed to win against city with two goals in the last few minutes and city has now only won one game in their last eleven is so funny to me karma is real and pep is paying the price
#also im so serious he needs to stop playing ilkay as a 6 that man is a 10 you could maybe get away with an 8 but a *lone* 6 like jesus#like yeah rodri is missing i know but that still doesn’t excuse playing ilkay as a lone fucking six#why is pep doing this to him#like thats my boy there’s no reason to do this#football
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I will never get over the fact how incredibly isolated Dirk was. Literally the only living thing for MILES was fish & sea gulls. Half of the kids grew up without a guardian, but Jade had Bec, Roxy had the carapacians, Jake had the tinkerbulls (possibly other lusii?) and spoke fondly of his grandma before batterwitch killed her.
But Dirk had nothing. Dirk was so sick of being alone that he cloned himself, and then realised he STILL only had himself for company.
And let's not forget the fact he was attacked by drones regularly. That he was literally fighting for his life. That people talk about & draw Dave's scars. But dirk would be covered in them too. Both for them were forced to fight for their life on that damm roof top.
Dirk is so deeply unstable. To act calm and collected about killing yourself, then kissing your dead friends. That's not someone with a normal sense of self, a normal sense of life. After the game it would take Dirk decades to deal with everything wrong with him.
Bitter isolation and the constant looming threat of death does not make for one healthy man.
#im sorry i am always just so unwell about the fact dirk had nothing but the robots he built#dirk strider#if u disagr33 i kind do wanna hear ur thoughts#i fucking love meta#cw sui mention#from and outside perspective i f33l incredible sadness about dirk and how lonely he would of b33n#then the part of my brain that kins dirk turns on; then its just bitter self loathing#i think dirk is a tragic character but i could never love him; because i dont love myself; and dirk could never love himself; and im dirk#i could never explain how much i HATE that dirk is one of my major kins#there is something deeply with him(me)/me(him)#bwah bwah bwah heart players man -holds up meulin- i am so normal#homestuck#talking lollie
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