#im sick af irl

[grunge-sol]

To my princess

Once again I woke up next to my princess.

My princess is the reason why another day comes. For those beautiful brown eyes light up the world I live in.

Once again I started asking myself if I was still in a dream.

You are too perfect to be real, my dear.

What have I done do deserve the blessing that is your very own existence?

I still have no answer.

My princess deserves the world.

My princess is my world.

Mine and only mine.

And I belong to my princess.

Love chained me, but these chains set me free. Because just by looking at you, my eyes are free to roam the night skies.

I adore you, my princess.

Let my soul be your home, and let my body be your sanctuary, forever.

You have spent your entire life suffering. So now that you are mine and only mine, dry your tears. For your sweet smile is the reason I live.

You are my princess. You needn't worry anymore.

You know that I will only look at you until my last breath.

[phoenix-before-the-flame]

youve been kinda wuiet lately, what are you cooking >_>

Damn i cant take a break from this place lol

[gentlebeardsbarngrill]

02/12/2024 Daily OFMD Recap

TLDR; Parrot Analytics; Cast & Crew; Kristian Nairn; Nathan Foad; Erroll Shand; Trends and Stats; V-Day Video for Prime; In person events and Watch Party reminders; People of Earth; WooAsACrew; Kudoboard for Cast & Crew Update; Love Notes; Daily Darby; Tonight's Taika; Well folks, it was another busy busy day. I apologize, I'm a bit exhausted today so I'll be making this quicker than normal.

== Parrot Analytics ==

Some Q4 data was released by Parrot Analytics for HBO and Max and as you can probably imagine, this made most of the internet explode. Referencing @adoptourcrew here since they did a great bit of research.

SRC: HBO's Most Popular Shows - hidden behind Paywall

== UK How You Can Help==

Below are actions to do every day to capitalise on #OurFlagBBC! More info below on how to use YouGov. Tumblr

=Cast & Crew Sightings=

= Wee John Wondays ==

I think everyone's favorite part of the day was when Nathan Foad appeared on Wee John Wonday's. He is by far one of the best guests ever.

Please go watch the whole damn live, but if you don't have time right now. Here's a clip from our fabulous friend @edscuntyeyeshadow who recorded it for us, I have just left it on repeat so I can continue to laugh.

A few quotes/highlights in case you can't watch anything right now:

Highlights:

Kristian's Garage Fire

Nathan's Writing

Nathan was VERY sick at the beginning of filming S2, Sick AF and had to learn how to roll and smoke cigarettes.

Nathan was not aware he was on camera when the sandwich hit him in the face.

Gypsy made him a jacket to wear IRL that matched his gorgeous one in the show (Gypsy is the best)

Nathan's favorite scene was the one with Matt Maher with the Art on the Wall.

Kristian's favorite scene was the one with Con O'Neill and asking to put on make up

Quotes:

"NOT TO BE A BIG THING RIGHT NOW BUT I AM" - Nathan

"Sniffed the air like a fox in heat" - Kristian

"You little gay bitch" - Nathan

"Mid town special" - Nathan, as Kristian

"Im a horrible un wanted nipple twister" - Kristian

"Needy puffs" - Nathan

== Erroll Shand ==

As usual our dear friend Erroll is out here really pushing the SaveOFMD material/data.

== Trends and Stats ==

== Valentine's Day Video For Prime ==

It’s Monday, which means it’s time to send Prime Video all our love ! Let’s #WooAsACrew 🐙💜 Vocals: ferventrabbit on Twitter Video: Giulianaazr on Twitter

== Event and Watch Party Reminders! ==

= OFMD Matelotage Processional =

Tues Feb 13: 8-11 am at: Kismet Salon 4111 W Olive Ave. Burbank CA 91505

If you show up-- you get free stickers!

= People of Earth Watch Party =

People of Earth Season 1: Episodes 3 and 4 tomorrow! If you don't have access reachout to @iamadequate1!

10 PM GMT / 5 PM EST / 4 PM CST / 2 PM PST

#PiratesOfEarth

#SaveOFMD

#AdoptOurCrew

= WooAsACrew =

Tue 13: Send @netflix some love!

== Cast & Crew Kudoboard ==

Hey all, I already made a short post about it but the Kudoboard was overrun by some absolute twats today so I had to lock it down with a password. If you'd like to still submit something to the cast and crew that's still doable, you'll just need the pw. Please just DM me here or twitter, or Instagram, or wherever you can find me or the @saveofmdcrewmates folks also have it. We will be sending it off / locking it on Valentine's day early morning so please reach out prior!

== Love Notes ==

Hey lovelies, I am really low on spoons tonight so I'm gonna let some other folks send you love on my behalf. See you tomorrow, all the love. <3

== Daily Darby / Tonight's Taika ==

Tonight's gifs are courtesy of:

Taika: @chrysalis-writes and Rhys: @thunderwingdoomslayer

Happy Murray Monday and Enjoy tomorrow's Taika Tuesday!

[piillow]

xdinary heroes as your younger sibling

(7-8 year age gap)

wc : ??? | genre : short imagines, silly stuff really | a/n : NO i did NOT take things me and my very much older sibling do irl and assigned them to xdh members NOOOO...

(∩^o^)⊃━☆

GUNIL 건일

he'll pretend to not care about you when you're both at home

but will praise you like his life depended on it if he was talking to his friends or at school

SO SWEETTTT i could cry

gives you silly gifts for your birthday so he can see you smile :')

especially if you've been out of it for a while

moving out for college.......

he's definitely gonna shed a few tears on the car ride home

i can picture it tbh

LOVES when you play videogames with him too

and if he sleeps in your room overnight he'll call them "sleepovers" LMAOO

he'd be so cute omfg

JUNGSU 정수

will cling to you 24/7. oh my goodness he's like the most adorable leech you've ever seen

at home? probably sitting next to you. in public? holding your hand and swinging your arms.

so cute tho like cmon 😭

he would also defo ask you to help him with his homework

"you're gonna teach it to me better :(" WHAT IF I CRIED

omg GRADUATIONS?

he's gonna scream his whole lungs out when your name is called, and will not gaf if anyone stares at him

AND WILL SPRINT TO YOU WHEN YOU LEAVE THE CEREMONY (and cling to you while probably crying LMAO)

oh he'd also pretend to out you to your parents but... your parents aren't actually gonna yell at you

they're gonna pretend to, but they don't mean anything lol

GAON 가온

LMAOO he's gonna take one look at your [whatever highschool level subject] homework and say

"oh! let me help you!" in the CUTEST voice ever 😭

but then he'll actually look at it and say "ummm this is too hard... nevermind... sorry.. :(" queue my sobs

BUT he will beg you to help him with his homework LMAOO

... then you end up doing all of it for him (。_。)

anyways, you got a school event? sports game/competition? musical performance?

he'll be there! every single one.

and will also cheer for you the loudest :)

ohhh and also if your parents aren't home and it's almost your dinner time he will set the table and wait for you to come eat with him

what if i cry in a hole 😭

ODE 오드

the most adorable leech you've ever seen number two

also yaps about you to his friends a lot LMAOO

literally about almost anything you do

"omg guys guess what y/n got a 100 on their test!" "... okay?"

will lowkey (high key) get defensive if someone starts saying something barely negative about you

he can also not talk to you at home

like... he can't go a few hours without doing it

he'll talk to you about his day at school, practices, etc. and give you every little detail he remembers

and when he gets a phone, he'll spam you texts when he's free and hope you reply

but like... who wouldn't tho?

he also buys lots of things that remind him of you, and eventually a tattoo when he's older (like how he did with his family <3)

JUNHAN 준한

likes spending time with you a lot, even if you two aren't talking to each other

just working on your homework with him there is nice for the both of you

a very comforting silence :)

LMAO he also will sometimes hide from you when you come home so you have to play hide and seek with him

... and then you two will end up playing it outside for like two hours

omg NOOO if you get sick he will be so sad :(

"y/n... who will i play hide and seek with now?" OHHH MY GOD 😭

and if you're crying for whatever reason...

he'll feel his heart break a little too :(

(why did i end this one so sadly im so sorry??)

JOOYEON 주연

teasing MACHINE 9000 oh my god

will tease you for everything you do

you dropped your hairbrush?

"HAHAHAAA y/n remember that one time you dropped your hairbrush"

yeah... that.

he'll also bang on the bathroom door if you take too long

"Y/NNNN HURRY UPPP I NEED TO BRUSH MY TEETH" 😭

spam texter number two, except his goal is to piss you off

if you send him a dry af response he will know because he'll hear your attitude through the screen

but if he's out with friends he'll send you random pictures of things that remind him of you

(and he'll keep them in a folder in his camera roll <3)

send requests........ please....... rules are here!

[unknownteapot]

This ask might be kind of long heads up in advance!

For starters, Hi! I hope you're doing good! And happy late birthday btw + happy pride month 🗣

I've read 'a future with us' like 3 times now and I dont think I can get sick of it omg. The references to you're other fics/on camera Amangela moments are just too good and when I saw you upload i was practically bouncing off the walls, and I was not disappointed one bit.

ALSO THE SEALS UGH OMG

I feel like there's nothing better than the 'do you think we're together in every universe' thing, especially with Amangela. I think it's the whole irl platonic soulmates thing they got going on that makes the rpfs 10× better.

The way you write them though especially just makes me so damn happy when I read your stories 🫶 Definitely gonna need to go in a reread binge of your fics here soon :)

Anyways, done with my fan girling ramble, thank you for your time lmao and for the fics!

hiii <3

i will not lie, this made me tear up.

just the fact that you took time out of your day to type this out and like. just sometimes im in disbelief things i write actually like resonate with people? or are interesting? i dont know. it's so hard to comprehend but also i'm so glad i'm here in this fandom where we all share this love for talented women who are honestly feeding us like crazy recently. thank you so so much for reading and for sending in this ask!!!

and about the 'in every universe' part- you're so so right, it's so amangela, i think that's why i love writing it so much. like that one moment where angela turns to amanda with "a soulmate can be a friend" and they just immediately hug is so pure and fuels me with undying inspiration to write those two. (in addition to all the other crazy shit they pull. like amanda reposting the tincoffee artwork to her story with 'it begins' like it begins??? honey it began with 'we could kiss and go missing'. it began with you wanting more amangela edits. it began with sword af. it's been happening. it never ends. and i hope it stays that way 😌😌)

anyway, thanks for reading my fics and being an awesome moot <3 have a great day!!! HAPPY PRIDE Y'ALL 🌈🌈

[knightcoree]

Vent rn while I'm unable to sleep from sickness

W digital art I feel like I could do so much more and feel way more confident in my art skills. But like. Affording the software is..hard..for a person who's not already rich...heck..I can't even afford to get a upgraded phone. This phone is running on fumes at this point lol...money issues are hard...and it's harder to make money to fix them in the first place. The system truly is broke. Just saying. Especially w mental issues up the wazoo like I got going on. To the point working like in public is hard a huge struggle. Which is why I have not worked in months. There's a huge issue w the system rn. And soc security is given to those who don't even need it and denied to those who do. It's so dumb tbh. Living is so hard. Money is so hard. Everything is so hard. Ugh. Life's not very simple. And unless your gifted w money , people skills, or talent. Your just going to stay at rock bottom forever like me. It's sucks man. Adulting sucks. Everything sucks. I wish things were easier. I can't even drive because of my crippling anxiety yet the gov says I'm apparently not disabled enough which my old neighbors had parties every day and were living the dream on soc security I feel they could've went without. Yah. It's hard. I just want to live but even that's a struggle in this world. Getting my meds is hard even. I'm barely hanging in there w my bipolar shit and Sui thoughts from depression and constant anxiety. And the gov won't let me get my meds because I'm still searching for a psychologist who takes my shit insurance they could provide me. It's..not good ..I'm losing it here...and my stomach issues which I need meds for too..and my thyroid issues which I can't easily get meds for either. This all sucks. I just. ..I am not sleeping well lately either. This isn't good . Why is my autism not severe enough why is my mental state which is falling apart not disabled enough why. I'm even more upset I can't afford schooling to get my voice acting classes so I can do shit w my life already. I'm 27 come on. And I can't get to any theater groups to launch my career cuz none take adults in my area. You gotta do it at a young age and i was stupid in hs and didn't...ugh...if I had anyone who could help me even a friend. But I dont even got friends anymore since years ago when I broke up w a toxic one I had since middle school ...I need irl ones for sure one day tho..I'm so alone...and I'm passionate for theatre which...I can't even start into ..cuz of my age...again..life's stupid..and the place I'm stuck living in...my parents house....is hard to live in cuz my dad's bipolar af like me and we fight constantly. .and my mom just ignores me when I'm breaking down...and my bro....just ...acts like he's my boss or something... I'm surprised I've lasted this long tbh...w how toxic my house is....rn..we go to therapy...it'll be a slow process tho w how much we have to fix...and I'm like hanging by a thread here...my mom already told me a lot she notices how much im struggling mentally at times and tries to step away when I'm moody af from bipolar...it's hard to stay in control...and it's a miracle I havent...gave up...on myself and gave into the thoughts...I'm staying strong tho...let's hope I can continue til ..I figure shit out ig...

And before you say anything I've tried working on art from my tiny ass phone. It's not good I need to get a bigger device or something. A laptop even would do better. I can't rn tho..

[acceptingmyowncompany]

Because Who Can I Talk To...

This post has so much potential to be cringe a year from now. Shit even months from now. I need it out of my head though

A friend of mine joked about setting me up with her friend. We met but I didnt really make a move. Too shy. She's cute though. Nice, smart, witty. It became a bit that I thought was still funny despite nothing really coming of it.

We eventually followed each other on instagram, which is good but my friend isn't riffing the bit anymore. A mutual of ours is communicating with me more often than before. Energy is weird but I'm not trying to look into it. Come to find out she likes me and I can't help but feel like thats why my friend stopped riffing the bit and advocating for me/us.

Despite that, the girl and I are kind of... idk playing tennis. Maybe fishing?! Idk the proper analogy. We are posting things kind of trying to bait the other person into interacting with it. I shouldn't say we... EYE, 100% am and she did at least once. Eventually a real conversation starts between us and it's like... legit awesome. Like she's so cool, and we've been thru some similar shit and look at the world in a similar way. I make points and she responds basically finishing my thoughts. Im like wooow we have so much in common. It excites me in a way that I haven't been excited in a LONG time. I think I'm crushing on her now... I can't wait for her to come into town.

She comes into town and I get no sleep the night before. I'm running on fumes. I have no energy to talk to her, to be charming or funny. I'm just listening and yawning a lot. I got her cookies... didnt even present them forreal. She was here for a week and that was the only day I saw her. At this point I'm FUCKING SICK. It's another display of how my friend is no longer trying to help out because she didnt try to set me up with some hangouts. Doubts about her interest because if she was hoping to see me, again you'd think the friend would hit me about plans or invite me over. I dont take initiative. Don't want to be too thirsty. I hold my L and get kinda sad because I like the feeling. I like talking to her, but it's over...

Until... the day after she gets back home, she messages me randomly about One Piece. I'm hype af. She thanks me for cookies, I apologize for zombie. We're talking again. And talking a lot. We are in constant communication. We message everyday. It's not a constant flow but it's fairly steady. We go like this for like a month and some. She's my favorite notification. I look forward to her responses and suddenly they stop. Not all together. The frequency though. A few messages a day to one a day. Now the response coming a full day or two later. Which would be completely fine if like... I didnt see she's been active mad times or when I see her message elsewhere. I'm not mad, but it makes me think.

We aren't anything. She owes me nothing. I like talking to her. Do I like her? I don't have an answer. The level of bothered I am, would imply I do, but it could just be the engagement. The attention. The fact that she activates something in my brain that hasn't been safely activated in over a decade. I don't say this to minimize her impact. I genuinely think she's special. She told me some of her story and I just wanna protect her at all costs even though we're probably not that close. I think she's great but I also still don't know her. We have yet to find a comfortable real life flow. We have yet to establish any sort of chemistry. So it's like cool, yeah we can text and send paragraphs to each other, but can we hold a conversation. Can we go back and forth without prep time?! Until we can properly test those waters, on the phone or IRL then I can't fully say I like her. Just that I like messaging her.

The problem is... does she like me?! Does she like messaging me?! Did her life get busier?! Am I boring?! I don't know how she feels about it. I try to sneak in things in the convo to like indicate I think highly of her, but I get no read on that the other way around. My friend no longer asks about it, or riffs the bit. No convo about us. Its triggering. I was often left on unopened while my friend was texting the girl I liked right in front of me. Her excuse was "oh me and him aren't having deep convo so it's easy to message back. me and you are having more in-depth convo so it requires more thought out answers." The truth was, she was fucking him and they were both hiding it from me and thus TRAUMATIZED. She can do what she wants. She can have a guy in MD, or a guy in her DMs. Again, we aren't anything, but I'd hate to get my hopes up again, just to be being placed on the back burner while she's got other stuff going on. Shits embarrassing. It's easy to feel like a loser and shit.

And so I am at an impasse. I can't be emotional about this. I can't ask for more messages, but I do want more. I want to explore what we could be, even if it's just friends. Just so I can like know its just friends. I want to talk on the phone or play a game where we can use out voices to connect instead of seining one big message a day. How can I do that?! I want to let her know I think she's dope, and I have but she's just kinda been whatever about it. Maybe thats my answer I should probably take that as an answer. I'M JUST TIRED OF HAVING TO PLAY IT COOL. I want to talk about it with somebody that can help me. I wanna be excited about the potential. I wanna laugh with her and learn more about her. I want her to know I think she's cool and I wanna talk about the future together. I wanna do things to connect with her and show her I think she's cool. But then im overbearing. I'm thirsty. I'm doing too much. Scare her away. if she's got another dude she's talking to, im humiliating myself.

I basically wanna embrace that side of life. Intimacy and romance. Connection. I wanna show her my interest and feel her interest. The push and pull. It was cool when we were playing tennis. It was amazing to go back and forth. Idk what to do. I kinda wanna end the convo and she what'll happen. But what if I just hurt my own feelings. How do I pivot the convo we have right now?! I don't know. I've gone crazy and I hate it here lmao.

Anyways, this girls cool and pretty and I wanna get to known her better like talk more intimately and frequently but I don't know if I will or if she even cares to... but I just wish I could be blunt about this thought/feeling. Who know's what'll happen next.

[the5thcellar]

i cant be the only one who thinks m is like....deeply sick (im saying this affectionately) for doing things like.....

1) deliberately picking a dress and hairstyle similar to her wedding day to walk the red carpet / celebrate her anniversary with chris, i.e. someone who is not her husband

2) basically admitting that karl used to be jealous of chris (AND STILL MIGHT BE), and agreeing that chris knows her better - all in the same breath - on national tv

3) repeatedly saying she feels safe with chris and he'd beat up (and kill) anyone who dares to hurt her (it's insane the number of times she's said this??? and also interesting she never says this about her own husband despite having talked about him many times as well)

4) saying there are things she ONLY wants to talk to chris about and that they have their own secret language their spouses will never get (??? Huhhh ???)

5) the fact she owns a secret apartment with him in nyc ??? and possibly other shared properties ???

6) ditching her own charity event to surprise him at the premiere of his show. what.

7) all the kisses. so many. just so many. do real spouses even kiss that much. i doubt it.

8) all the eyewitness accounts over the years of people who have worked with them saying how they're unbearably touchy and there's so much tension it's difficult to be in the same space? and how when chris is on the same set as m everyone knows not to take up her time because it belongs to him ?

9) loudly championing EO and calling her son on the show 'noah benson-stabler' is extra sick considering the thing about parallel universes. it's almost like EO to her is self-insert fanfic. if she can't have him loud & proud (and legally) irl and she can't be his babymama she can sure af do it on her own goddamn show, right?

10) and so many more.

look. im not the crazy one here. im just picking up what she's putting down. there is no way her marriage isn't open in some way.

i would feel sorry for karl but if he bore witness to how m was like around c and still pursued the r/s then he walked into this willingly.

[thetoaddaddy]

🖥 — favorite platform besides tumblr?🎄 — favorite holiday(s)? 🎶 — favorite song at the moment? 📕 — favorite book/series? 🎁 — what have you accomplished in the rpc that you’re proud of? 🎉 — what are some of your favorite things to do with your irl friends?

🖥️: I guess youtube? I’m the type that likes to have some kind of talking in the background when in general (I dislike complete silence) so i like really long form deep dives or gaming videos to watch, draw or fall asleep to. I don’t spend a lot of time on other social platforms. Mostly cuz they all blow ass now.

🎄: Christmas. Mostly because I like drinking with my friends and family, watching the cheesy movies as we wrap gifts, baking yummy treats, eating my mother’s good af spinach dip and seeing people’s reactions when they open the silly gifts I get them. I like Halloween too. Im def the has decorations up in September type, I have some gothic things that live permanently in my room, and the sick candy deals the day after halloween is just mwah. Last year i pulled out the speaker to tempt kids to my house cuz they kept walking by mine despite the fact i had decorations galore in the windows and the lights were on. I look forward to doing it again and dressing up my kitties!

🎶: it boy by bbno$.

📕: The House of Leaves. You gotta have a really good attention span and pay attention to the tine details at first. But after that its a neat experience that really plays with the format of what a book is and what goes on a page.

🎁: i guess i have some renown now? Like people reach out to me to rp in the same sorta shy tone i take when i talk to these titans of the community and its like… y’all know im a nobody right? Im just some freak with an old man obsession willing to do pretty much anything.

🎉 : Going into the city to the mega mall we got. Or just sitting on the couch and playing games or mocking a movie.

[minevn]

first ramble of many: im feeling insane but hear me out. i’d just read this reddit story, in which OP’s bf would bully them online, anonymously, with different accounts and platforms, resulting in OP turning to the bf for comfort.

in irl circumstances, this is gross af, obviously, but i genuinely feel like kei is the type to do this same thing if he’s dating mc. you know, with his hackerman abilities and whatnot…..

he does hate seeing mc hurt in any capacity; mental, emotional, physical, etc. but he also takes a sick pleasure in being the cause of a certain pain that’ll make mc see him as a safe/comfort object, even tho he’s so deeply ashamed of his actions.

the less rational part of his mind tells him that he only wants to show you that he’s safe! that at the end of the day, he’s in control of all of this, so he can get as personal or distant with the insults coming from “pinkluvr26” or “madrabb1t” as he wants. these people can’t be kei, your wonderful, caring boyfriend who’s been nothing but supportive this whole ordeal. he’s there for you no matter what; even if your enemy is actually him.

even if you do find out, it’s not like he meant any of that stuff! he loves you! he loves you so much that he’d give or do anything to get you to love him back 💕

Your brain is absolutely massive, just huge. Mega mind literally cannot compete with you. Honestly, rn I'm not going to write a drabble for this cause my brain is fried and for some reason I just don't have any ideas, but I would eventually LOVE to write something with this concept. (I'm also sadly not the best story writer. Scripts I think I write fine, but I hate my writing whenever I write a drabble/story. Anyways I'll be working on this juicy story slowly in the background<3) For now lemme gush and brainstorm some ideas for this because I'm losing my MIND over this.

At first I really struggled to see it because it is a really shitty thing to do and I just couldn't imagine sweet baby Kei doing something like that. But the more I read this and thought about this, he ABSOLUTELY WOULD! (Bro manipulated ME even though he's my character?? like what?) Even better, he'd pin it on one of the other Li's since he knows you're already being stalked. Haruto would even be an easy target to blame for saying really personal thing, since he's known you since you were babies. And Yani and Kage are not THAT subtle with their stalking, he could easily pin it on them. Maybe even a Kage and Haruto two for one special, where Kei pins Kage saying the information, but Haruto was the one that gave it to them(He could do this with Jun and Aki as well). And the twins, the twins would be so easy to frame, they're already jerks to you anyways. Kei could say some of the most hate-filled and hurtful things to you and frame them for it. Minato might be a bit more tricky but maybe if you and Minato were friends, he could blame Haruto telling Minato your secrets or making up lies about you, after all, Haruto has been known to do that stuff in the past. He's great at mimicking their texting styles as well so it's just even more believable.

This is so devious and awful but I can really see Kei doing this, like I can't get this out of my head. Like I know I just read this, but like I'm gonna be thinking about this for the rest of my life. I'm feeling insane now too/pos. Dude, you're brain is literally on another level, this is like, one of the best things I've heard. I'm literally so in love with this concept. I do think Kei would be one of the most dangerous Li's, like mentally and emotionally, Yani is def the most dangerous when it come to physical strength(and using it. Hoshi and Minato would probably be able to beat them, but also if Yani is fighting for you then nothing can stop her)

Like especially if you have a pretty big following, I think he'd put out more personal information or spread lies that way you lose your following and get more hate that doesn't even come from him, and he'd try to use that to feel better about himself as well. Like "I may have started this, but I stopped a while ago and only said one thing." or "I didn't even say anything rude."(Because he wouldn't have to, he would just have to get the info out with proof)

He would 10000000% feel guilty, I think it would eat away at him and maybe even make him more sick and twisted. Like you said, he feels guilty, but he does get pleasure from it as well. It would just further his beliefs that you NEED him. Even if you found out it was him, who else would you turn to if he ruined your social status, no one else would want to talk to you. But it's okay, he'll ALWAYS love you. Even if he didn't mean any of that stuff, other people definitely think that stuff about you now, but he doesn't. And if you think he DOES feel that way, well, he'll work on making sure you know he loves you eventually, but for now, he uses it to his advantage a bit. You can think he feels that way about you, and he'll say things like "But I'm staying by your side, no matter what." or "I won't let you go through this alone." just to make you feel even more grateful towards him. Because everyone else has left you. Everyone but your sweet, caring boyfriend Kei.

Idk if anyone here knows what smau's are, but I would love to try a topic like this with smau. Just in case you don't know what smau's are, they're "a type of fanwork where fans create graphics that look like social media accounts for fictional or RPF characters" I've been really wanting to work with that but I wasn't sure with what, but I might have an idea relating to this concept if anyone is interested.

[imstupidcheesecat]

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web of hearts : ♡ interesting. cute. expected. lively. domestic. had a great time reading it. would hold irl for spider woman karina. kiss scene was worthwhile.

sleeping on the couch after a fight : ♥︎ mark - :( but :), renjun - hehe, jeno - EMO, haechan - accurate, jaemin - wholesome, chenle - real, jisung - lol.

8:45 : ♥︎ cute but like two words threw me off (ykw). breakfast w jaemin is always good.

nct dream as ur college boyfriend : ♥︎ cute. love college au. fav: mark, jaemin & haechan :)

[5:34pm] : ♡ actually adore teasing relationships. described so cutely and playfully i caught myself judging myself. SO SWEEt

fangirling over other groups : ♥︎ omg jisung’s is really stinking cute and jaemin’s :( chenle ofc would be like “you can meet them rn”

taking of promise ring : ♥︎ bro why is it so emo. haechans hurt, jisung’s hurt a lot and jaemin’s bro… 🥲

[6:07] : ♥︎ it was over really quick and not too much detail (it’s implied you have a crush on jaemin but im confused why she’s huffing the sweater.) simple christmas blurb. ♫

seatmate!anton : ♥︎ so simple and cozy. ditto school in the clouds (yk) the dinosaur bit made me want anton as my seat mate. fluff at its peak.. also suggested swimmer anton //// ♫

death wish : ♡ if continued i will definitely read. for me it was hard to visualize for a second but i liked it. (kinda reminding me of something i wrote with cupid.)

historicalvampire!karina : ♥︎ i’m so curious - sherlock by shinee. i really like this idea but it leaves a lot to assuming (short) but i like it anyways. ♫

[9:16pm] : ♥︎ as this is probably my first renjun fic i’ve read (or can remember reading) this was delightfully good. never felt so cozy and immersed in a library study session with renjun in my head. ♫

nct dream wedding tropes : ♥︎ i really liked chenle’s 🤩 and all them are really cute. love wedding tropes <3

texts w bf intak : ♥︎ actually hurling and sick with boyfriend intak. you can’t tell me he’s not my bf rn #crying

monday miscommunication : ♥︎ tasteful nsfw but at the same time i was itching my head. (language, urgency, use of princess to just name a few) i’d be amazed at how nicely it’s written and then get a cringy odd sentence after.

hate you (love you) : ♥︎ it’s short and sweet and i’m always a sucker for holding hands under the table and it makes me sad that yn never gets to do that. :( (also reminded me of my own thing)

stress reliever : ♥︎ it’s okay + very short. i love domestic jungwoo but i caught dialogue being oddly stated. but none the less it was cute :)

holding hands : ♥︎ never knew how badly i love hand holding. JENOS. chenles 😑😭. jaemin’s is super sweet and HYUCKS. i literally adore how on brand they are with the members. so good pls.

[8:34 PM] : ♥︎ really stinking cute. so simply explained and written. love me a motorcycle jungwoo 🔛🔝 loved this.

work wife : ♥︎ wife karina 🫡 i liked it (even if i’d never be caught as the tiny girlfriend if anything roles would be changed.) not a simp, just a simp.

fairy of shampoo (holding hands) : ♥︎ MAD CUTE. i liked seunghans the best and wonbins :( anton’s was good too but i feel like my wrist would die from being pulled constantly.

tell me you love me : ♥︎ BRO EMO AF. i’ve haven’t read such a heart hurting fic like that. its not like a cried (i did inside) but it was still sad. so good why *fixed

21:23pm : ♥︎ it’s so short but SO GOOD???? like i’m such a sucker for wooyoung and like it was so naturally playful and cute. pls i want him to be my tattoo artist. OMG

sweet relief : ♥︎ tasteful. clingy hyuck >

livin in my system baby : ♥︎ cute. uni roommates with sungchan is a dream come true. but you would never catch me doing anything that dumb for mint ice cream (i hate it)

native language : ♥︎ chenle’s was really good and all of them (but i found myself not as into it as other reactions.)

snow candles : ♥︎ can’t go wrong with vampire sunghoon. very wholesome and “His cold nose brushed against your skin,” for the kiss was just ugh so good.

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favorite: web of hearts (long + first i read, it was such a well built fic with a GOOD kiss scene. honestly still have chills)

least favorite: native languages (i forced myself to read and it wasn’t as good of a reactions idea as others i’ve read.

[elliewiltarwyn]

Top 5 Mounts! I love seeing which mounts people are drawn too!

ohhh, that's not something I think about often, and I'm lucky enough to have acquired a hefty number of rare ones, so this is going to be fun and sentimental! and maybe a little humblebraggy im sorry im not trying to be! :D

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Eden

like many players I'm sure, Shadowbringers was when the game really for good hooked me for life, and Ryne is a significant part of that. I loved her character so much that I was overjoyed when I realized the raid series was not only going to expand on her as a character, but give her a girlfriend.

But that's not the only reason; Eden's Promise is also the tier my static formed and we began to take on savage raids, and one of my greatest memories of this game is defeating the final E12S boss alongside them like 0.7 seconds before she enraged. The Oracle of Darkness is still one of my favorite fights in the whole game, and between that, the fact that the whole raid storyline is a handwrapped gift for lesbians who have Ryne as their favorite character, and a personal fondness for FF8 YEAH THAT'S RIGHT I SAID IT SUCK IT GAMEFAQS BOARDS FROM 1998...well, getting to ride Actually Eden in this game kind of rules.

I do wish it played The Extreme though. :V

2. Sunforged

Meanwhile, Abyssos was extremely memorable for, unfortunately, much different reasons. A lot of our group started facing a lot of personal problems IRL, and we had to say goodbye to some very good friends we had made and then bring new ones up to speed on the tier, so it took us an immensely long time to make it all the way to P8S, prog both phases of the fight, and get eight clears for all of us; we were struggling so much that even when the tier unlocked, we weren't able to clear him more than once a week. I still think P8S is too rough around the edges and I like the fight a lot less than the other Pandaemonium finales - not necessarily poorly designed, but extremely demanding to the point it was actually taking a toll on us.

...So basically, to me the Sunforged represents us dragging our broken, battered bodies over the finish line of the raid tier, succeeding despite all the shit both it and real life threw at us. We fought really fuckin' hard for this fucker, and as difficult as it was I'm really, immensely proud of us for managing it.

Also the mount itself is just sick af. Big fire snek!

and it turns into a godsdamned phoenix for flight, come on!!

3. Garlond GL-II

i mean come on this thing was built for biker girl femroes!!

4. Megaloambystoma

I am BEYOND LIVID that the Axolotl mount is locked behind Savage. Savage is for neckbeard no-lifers who play this game 24/7. Give them a crappy Magitek mount or something but cute mounts do NOT belong to raiders!!!

okay but seriously look at this dope. what a good boy. and in addition to being cute AF he ALSO has a sentimental story about my static's experiences with the relevant raid tier: for some strange reason, for the last bits of phase 1 and all of phase 2 of P12S in particular, I was the one who ended up studying the fight, writing down explanations, walking the group through the mechanics, and making callouts. it'd be a little aggrandizing to claim that Pallas Athena is my victory because obviously it's the whole group's... but it is the fight that somehow made me the one confident enough to lead my friends through it.

So in a weird way, this little dope is like, a representation of my self-esteem. I love him.

5. Fat Cat

I'm a cat person. I was morally obligated to buy this. Pay no attention to the mount description that posits that it is either a VOIDSENT using a BLOATED CAT'S CORPSE AS ITS CORPOREAL VESSEL, or a DECEASED PET REANIMATED by one well versed in the NECROMANTIC ARTS. these are lies and slander. look at this :3 face. is this the face of someone who would hide their true insidious voidtinged nature? clearly not. stop worrying about it. you don't need to sleep with a knife under your pillow with this baby around. >:3

this was really fun to reminisce and write about, thank you @disciple-of-frost for the ask!!

[leofwines]

im depressed af already and i turn 19 very soon and i dont drive yet ive never had a job never dated and I currently have Zero friends IRL (and havent for like a whole year) im not excited about this whatsoever. i feel sick

[angelic-jeonghan1004]

yeah i get that lol, irl friend gets like 3k notifs a week (damn imagine having a social life)

those 2 have been bias wrecking me lately. someone said "imagine if daigo took center in the nmx dance break instead of chan" aND I IMAGINED IT AND IT WAS SO EPIC OMG? WOW

my intrusive thoughts are high af today, i cried bc theyre so fucked up

and yes im kinda obsessed with kyunghos ass rn. like its so beautiful. the kardashians are blowing half their fuckin money on ass surgery but he has all natural ass and i love him for that thats such a power move. i could go on forever about that thing like its so perfectly shaped and everything-

okay sry i sound like a pervert

I totally get that haha 😌

Daigo is so iconic I love him and that would be so sick!!

Kyungho does truly got a nice ass! I don’t tend to focus but then there are times where I’m like GOD DAMN—

No need to be sorry ! I don’t mind I go on the same rambles but usually about big ears I love big ear idols I find them so cute and can talk for hours how much I love their big ears sksjsj 💕💕

[olivieraa]

Ive been called unique quite a lot in my life but its not a compliment.

bc I know why they find me unique. I'm like an alien. if you take out ocd and my confusing af sexuality, my relationship with food is always a conversation topic.

like Im sitting here post workout feeling a little weak prob cause I didnt eat what I'm supposed to after a workout but that's bc I dont know how and everyone and anyone will tell me its simple.

until I respond with "I dont eat that", "I dont eat those", "I dont like that"

honestly, I just dont like food.

Ive been saying it even on here for years. people used to reblog sooooo many pics and gifs with #food porn and I'd feel sick looking at it

I have a friend Ive known for 20 years, and the most recent thing she found out about me was that Id never even seen a hotdog irl. I legit thought they were exclusively American. its not like people are constantly buying them around me in places as they would a burger or chicken. and so she looked at me like "c'mon, its one thing you haven't eaten one, I get you dont eat most things, but you've never seen one?" and I was like "no, unless it was on Friends or the Simpsons or something..."

so after a workout I'm like "ok... banana. that's about all I can figure out." aaaaaand I dont think its enough.

if I could I'd just consume liquid for the rest of my life. I'm a fan of drinking