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courtjesterrr · 10 days ago

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i have a lovehate relationship with my irl name

i love it cause it literally means heaven and thats sick af and it opens up such cool concepts like you guys dont understabd the feeling its POWERFUL. BEHOLD!! THE POWER OF AN ANGEL!! yknow?

on the contrary, i hate it, cause like. NO!!! THATS NOT ME!! call me anything other than that please. Also people always spell it wrong and im just like GRRR. Also i feel like my parents have tainted the name especially my mother but like.. yeah. ALSO ITS TOO FEMININE GAH i wish to be devoid of gender and exist as my own construct

but then again i feel that way with any of my names, call me something for too long and i get sick of it lol

#no my name is not heaven itself but that would be sickk #i think this is more of a rant than a vent or smth #LIKE. i like the name. Its a good name. It just doesnt fit me.#i love the meaning. Ill take literally any other name that has the same meaning. Just not the one i have now #and also everyone ive ever met with the same name as me are PICK ME BITCHES who called me mean shit for no reason when i was younger #Like bitch wtf did i do to you!?!?

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