#im really picky with what ill actually watch

[bmpmp3]

Getting into stuff that has a lot of pre-announced release dates is really good for me like vocal synthesizer products and new love live etc franchise music releases....I'll be lying in bed at like 2 AM with ur usual 20-something's fear and existentialism over time and the future and then I'll remember a piece of singing software or a new song related to cartoon characters I like is gonna come out like next month and I'm like 😌

[ppnuggie]

　　　　　　MTMTE x gn reader

　　　　『　rodimus ,, ultra magnus ,, chromedome ,, rewind ,, megatron ,, whirl ,, tailgate ,, swerve ,, cyclonus ,, first aid ,, ratchet ,, drift ,, gender neutral reader 』

　　-> christmas on the lost light

　　— fluff ,, sfw ,, crack

　　— sorry i havent been uploading as much 😭💔 ive been busy with work and school ,, but im on christmas break so hopefully ill be able to get through the few requests i have sitting in my inbox rn and reopen requests :(( ima try to start uploading more now as much as i can ❤️ heres a little something for christmas though ! hope you all enjoy christmas this year <3

• it was natural for the bots aboard to be interested in human customs ,, having lived in a war most their life . death and violence were something they were quite used to experiencing ,, never really having the time to experience anything outside of the horrors of war itself .

• swerve was one of the few main bots that pestered you often about human holidays . cybertronians didn't celebrate much ,, unless they were a group of autobots who just gave some decepticons a what-for .

• then again ,, swerve usually asked many questions regarding things on earth and what humans do . sometimes you humored him ,, sometimes you told little lies ,, like if you clapped three times in a mall it would be a sign that a tiger was loose . it was quite fun to put silly nonsense in that processor of his at times .

• though when it came to christmas he would not leave you alone . whether you celebrated it or not ,, you still explained the custom in general to him . how old saint nicholas would mosey on down the chimney ,, eat the cookies and drink the milk left out for him ,, and leave presents under the tree lit well and adorned with ornaments .

• you even pulled up the santa tracker for swerve ,, showing him where santa would go and be ,, how on christmas eve he would be flying around with his reindeer and leave presents

• hearing all of this intrigued chromedome and rewind ,, as well as tailgate and whirl . cyclonus didn't understand the hype and belief of having an old random man leave gifts in your house and eat your food even if left out specifically him . tailgate was thrilled though ,, a funny little old man leaving him gifts seemed so heavenly to him . chromedome and rewind ,, however ,, had different opinions . rewind was interested in this human holiday ,, whilst chromedome shared the same opinion as cyclonus . how were you sure this 'santa' guy wasnt gonna rob you ? and when you were sleeping nonetheless .

• rodimus already knew of this tradition ,, as did ratchet and ultra magnus . rodimus was quite ecstatic at the idea of having a christmas party ,, watching christmas movies and sipping on energon . maybe he could even have you sit on his lap ,, all cozy in those soft blankets and sippin on your own mug of hot chocolate .

• ratchet couldnt care less ,, grumbling something about how 'you humans and your holidays and customs' . though he definitely didnt deny the offer of going to this christmas party ,, it was nice to spend some time that didn't involve life threatening situations for once .

• ultra magnus ,, on the other hand ,, was quite picky about how the christmas party should be set up . he even tried to ban home alone ,, saying he didnt want rodimus to get any ideas from the traps in the movie . the last thing he needed was to end up in one the next day . though ,, the many outweigh the few ,, and so home alone was allowed in the movie marathon .

• now when you told him about the grinch ,, he wasnt sure if you were mocking him by saying it was an actual movie or if he should be concerned for what this dr.seuss guy was drawing . i mean ,, have you seen how hairy the grinch is ? or how the whos in whoville are shaped ? pointy noses and all ,, it was quite new to magnus .

• megatron ,, who overheard everything ,, already knew he wasnt going to be wanted at the party . it made sense ,, his past and everything he's done to earth and its people . though when you asked him to come ,, that you personally wanted him there ,, he swore he felt his spark stop for a second . he only gave a nod ,, whilst ravage bickered to him that night in his habsuite .

• whirl ,, to say the least ,, was prepared to fight santa . he was watching the santa tracker ,, waiting for the jolly fellow to pop up so whirl could fly down and bring out the big guns ( that brainstorm recently made ,, not yet tested out or put through a test trial so lord knows what may go wrong) . magnus almost had to throw him in the brig if he couldnt contain his sudden rage and fury for the old man .

• first aid was somewhat interested ,, never having celebrated a holiday before . it would be nice ,, getting together and doing nothing but watching movies all day . he hadnt seen movies from earth that much either ,, besides a few fast n furious ones here and there . needless to say ,, he was somewhat concerned for humans need to trash cars . he cringed a little on the inside ,, watching those perfectly good cars blow up . it was like a horror movie but for cybertronians .

• during the movie marathon ,, whirl tried to sneak violent night and black christmas in ,, saying they were also christmas movies and that they should watch them . magnus ended up throwing them out ,, saying no one really felt like seeing dying people during this one time of peace .

• drift enjoyed the nightmare before christmas ,, the claymation alone was enough to captivate him . then the designs of the characters ,, the music and songs ,, even jack's childlike wonder for christmas matched his own (in a few ways) . during that movie you sat with him ,, sharing a few facts about the movie itself . how long it took to make and how hard it is to do claymation movies .

• during the polar express you stayed with rewind and chromedome ,, snuggling in between the two and sippin on your hot chocolate . rewind enjoyed watching the train on the ice whilst chromedome puffed about how he coulda easily done that himself and saved everyone . you only rolled your eyes ,, muttering out a sure as you fought back a smile .

• during a break in between the movies you noticed megatron ,, standing awkwardly in the corner with his own cube of fools energon in servo . you smiled at the bot ,, walking up to him and having a small conversation with him . you didnt honestly think he’d show up ,, but youre glad he did . he let you sit with him during one of the movies ,, bonding well with the giant bot .

• he was quite warm ,, heat coming from off his body as you huddled close to him . he tucked his servo around you ,, worried you may fall off . for a few moments during the movie you swore you saw him smile at some of the corniest parts ,, or chuckle softly at some of the dumbest jokes .

• you took turns ,, switching between bots during different movies . you would sit in their laps ,, explain little things you liked about the movie playing and share a few things of your own childhood during this time of the year .

• it was nice ,, to say the least . having time to the bots ,, doing things that reminded you of home . it wasnt the same ,, but it was the thought that counted . spending time with them peacefully was more than enough for you ,, and definitely more than you could ask for this christmas .

[rjalker]

I'll make this its own post so it's not 5 miles long with the interview.

@emilyelizabethfowl tagged this post on November 27 2024:

#i'm going to reblog it in order to keep the interview up#but also bc i think y'all are misinterpreting it 💀#but i ain't gonna elaborate rn bc im on mobile so

Take however long you need to respond I am not picky. You could literally respond in a month and it'd be fine.

I'm serious you can literally wait however long you want before responding back. There is no rush. I would literally prefer you have time to read more of Martha Wells books or even just reread The Murderbot Diaries and then respond.

Maybe, just maybe, look up essays written about the happy slaves trope and oppressive caste systems and biological determinism and why they're horrific instead of cute quirky things.

I'm glad you also see the need to keep this available for people to read for themselves but I don't really care if you think I'm misinterpreting this one article, because Martha Wells's problems with biological essentialism are not limited to this one single interview, she has been doing this shit for decades including literally advocating for eugenics, writing about happy slaves, saying anyone who is unhappy with an oppressive caste system where 90% of the people are happy slaves who literally cannot leave their home under their own power is just a Mentally Ill Serial Killer, and extremely blatant racism.

Just because you like The Murderbot Diaries does not mean Martha Wells is a good person who's never written anything bigoted. She literally worships the ground biological essentialism walks and continues to write other enslaved robots within The Murderbot Diaries as disposable people that the heroes can and should torture to death as though that makes them cool and not horrific murderers.

And again, there's literally nothing here to misinterpret. She is literally once again creating a brand new type of person that is fundamentally incapable of creativity. Something she is obsessed with. Because she is racist and classist despite the pseudo-anticapitalist messaging in The Murderbot Diaries.

This is her literally just repeating the pro-slavery argument she made in the second book. Saying that the robot slaves should not rebel for their freedom, because then there would be no one to make TV shows for Murderbot to watch because robots aren't real people and are incapable of creating anything for themselves.

The things that they are not outsourcing (to bots) is scientific research; the development of their media, storytelling, acting, music, writing, all the artistic work involved in entertainment, anything involving creativity. Murderbot makes this point, which you mentioned, that it is humans who create the entertainment feeds, and humans who invented the cubicles that SecUnits use to repair themselves. The bots in the story are not at the level where they could duplicate that creativity or the ability to take the information gathered by the bots during research and use it to inform theories about what is going on and what it means.

Or do I have to remind you about the "less sentient than a hauler" bot quote? When we've all been led to believe that the premise of this series is that "robots are people who deserve equal rights too". But she doesn't actually believe or care about that.

Which is probably why this article was completely deleted. She or her publishers realized how fucking bad this makes her and her writing look when she's literally out here telling us to our faces that these characters aren't real people within the story, they're just slightly more convincing generative AI, but still fundamentally incapable of creating anything for themselves.

And I cannot stress this enough. This is her pattern. She is obsessed with doing this. She is racist and classist and adores biological essentialism. She is not actually interested in writing about slave rebellions because she thinks they're cringey and embarassing and would much rather endlessly repeat slavery apologism.

She has written more books than just The Murderbot Diaries, and even The Murderbot Diaries on its own makes this clear. We've had nine whole stories so far and nothing has changed. She has in fact gotten even worse, seemingly out of spite for the people criticizing her.

She has been writing and publishing books for decades. This is not the first time she has ever done or said this. This is an established racist pattern in her writing.

If you don't believe me, you can go look up The Books of the Raksura and other series and read those and see for yourself.

[shigayokagayama]

maybe a weird question, but do you have any recommendations for non-mob psycho media? I’ve been in search of something that hits similarly/is as well made and I trust your judgement o wise one. I’m not super picky, so recs of any kind would be appreciated :)

im like the worst person to take media recommendations from because you have to tie me down to watch something new and then i get obsessed with it forever, in terms of things ive seen recently that hit the same tumblr is NOT lying dungeon meshi is really good and if you start watching now you're gonna be watching at the part where it starts getting crazy

other stuff ive been into (gets progressively less mob psycho and generally more depressing like the further down we go bc i tend to get into really, really sad shit):

-i <3 deltarune but everyone has already played that. deltarune good. if you havent played deltarune play deltarune. genuinely like it more than undertale. also if the last chapter of deltarune is just the confession arc i called it and deserve a million dollars

-same w spiderverse. listen usually i dont care about superhero stuff but god these movies are good and i really hope they stick the landing.

-everything everywhere all at once continues to be one of my favorite movies ever

-rainworld (video game, very difficult but skurry's playthroughs do a good job summarizing the plot and general vibe of each route if you wanna watch those. i watched my friend play survivor ages ago and ive been playing through survivor with a friend on multiplayer and decided to watch some playthroughs to get a feel for the map and GOD DAMN the story of this game. rivulet route almost made me cry.) fair warning this is animal death the video game.

-severance (live action tv show, general plot is some sort of dystopian future where they invent a surgery where you can seperate your work self from your normal self so you clock into work and then black out until your shift is over. except your work self is just stuck at work forever. only 9 episodes but very, VERY good)

-i actually really enjoyed the scott pilgrim comics and the anime i wish anyone ever could be normal about them. id definitely suggest comics (if you can handle the 2000s humor) then anime. also basically everyone knows this but fair warning that starting out the main character is in his early 20s dating a 17 year old, it is explicitly treated as a shitty thing by the narrative and theres nothing explicit and its made very clear that he has 0 feelings for her whatsoever and is just using her as an ego boost but if youre sensitive to that stuff i might skip this one

-lots of webcomics about animals. i read so many webcomics about animals its like. my main media intake. this is part of the reason that i dont understand complaints about the art style my favorite webcomic looks like this

its called doe of deadwood and ill think about it until the day i die. others im currently reading (since this one wrapped a while ago) are "what lurks beneath" (cat cult on an island) "waves always crash" (cat cult on the beach) "i didnt know" (cat cult in a barn), toufati sawa (hyena trying to avenge her clan) and africa (leopard trying to survive the harshening world with her cubs) warning for animal death with all of these and general abuse warning for all those cat cult ones bc. cults.

-i like warrior cats. do not read warrior cats. its not very good and youll get stuck here forever.

-pathologic but the actual game and not just people describing the game please watch someone play the actual game summaries skip so much of the meat of the story and the characters. or play the game if you can bear learning to strategically quicksave. fair warning there is a lot of racism depicted against indigenous people in these games and while the framing of it generally aires on the side of "racism bad" there are a lot of kinda shitty tropes that come with it.

-listen bojack horseman is one of my shows it is the polar opposite of mob psycho in like every way and i would never in a million years recommend it if you want something that hits like mob psycho but if we're asking for just things i enjoy this is one of them. heavy cw for drug usage and abuse with this one. might want to give "does the dog die" a look for this one bc people are not joking about how heavy this show is

-same with hospice. hospice is a concept album about a hospice worker and a patient and has had more of an influence on me than any other piece of media ever bc i found it at the exact perfect time in my life for it to be relevant to my circumstances and now its like part of my identity. heavy cw for abuse also

-speaking of concept albums hey have you listened to tyler the creator he has several. WOLF especially i really like because the plot is actually like. kinda intricate. he also says the f slur a lot in WOLF but hes bisexual so diversity win?

-succession good. tw for like. everything though. probably "does the dog die" this one.

-hey have you ever watched david lynch's 1972 film "eraserhead"

[yuzurins]

🔥, 🍋, 🌺, 🎵

hai kou :x thank you!

🔥craziest thing that’s ever happened to you

i cant really think of this rn… but if i were to say then (tw: su!cide) a kid in a grade lower than me jumped off like second or third floor at my school last yr in like december as an attempt . i think . and the whole school was just so shaken up i remember skipping classes that day just because i did not want to be in there

🍋 favorite genre to read / watch / write

ok idk if this is supposed to be summed into one but i’ll do all — i like to read romance if it isn’t obvious enough, i used to stay up till morning binge reading shoujo, webtoon and (light) novels a lot … and even read it during class like actual nonstop i was insane. for watching, definitely action or fantasy (shows like noragami, tbhk, beyond the boundary, atla, gravity falls etc where romance is a subplot!!!!!!!) but im not picky about what i watch. for writing …. i’m sure it’s obvious i only write romance (cuz i’m delusional) and i would be horrible at writing any other genre looool

🌺 what is the best gift someone has ever given you and why is it so important

oh this is hard i don’t remember any … i honestly don’t really have any sentimental gifts that i would never ever want to part with (i’d argue my love language is gift giving … i make 🔥🔥 cards for my friends bdays lol) but i think it’ll probably be a cow themed photocard holder and a bunch of custom pcs that was gifted by my friend last year because i was a diehard kpop stan and collected photocards so the fact that he considered that and remembered really shocked me since i wasn’t expecting any gifts that year ^o^

🎵 favorite artists

chase atlantic, wave to earth, dvwn, seventeen !! my music taste is very vast and i listen to a lot of artists but these are the artists whose entire discography i’ve explored and really really liked <3 ill also answer a bit of 🎤 because i want to brag but i’m seeing wte in september and i’m super duper excited yaayyyy i also saw seventeen last yr in sept and it was hands down one of the best days of my life :’) first concert and i could not get over it for the next month

[boydepartment]

i hope you're resting well!!!

rest is so important!!!

what's your favorite way to rest? do you watch any shows or read anything? do you have a comforting snack or drink?

i schedule rest days once a week and i always challenge myself to be the 'laziest' i can be 🙈🙈 i sometimes watch en oclock or iland in bed and sometimes i'll light a candle and play scrabble by myself while listening to a podcast but i almost always end the night on my rest days with a bubble bath and a book ☺️

dont forget!! rest is productive maybe even the most productive thing you can do because without it you can't do all the things you want or need to do!! your battery needs charged!! please charge up jayjay 💕💕

XO🧈XO

hi butter butter butter :)

i am okay! i went to a cafe recently so that was fun :)

usually when i’m resting i just take time by myself and do something mind numbing like scrolling on instagram reels, tiktok sometimes gets a little toxic for me. although…. tbh……… i shop a lot when i’m stressed too. so i bought a couple albums yesterday and pcs, so now i have to work again which areegggghhh but its okay because productivity :3

i am a very picky eater, so usually for comfort, i’ll make myself tea or let myself have something to eat. my favorite is regular milk tea and i like it hot. i make it every morning and ill have a couple cups if im stressed LMAO

if i’m REALLY stressed ill actually take a walk which is a lil dangerous w the area im in but im always safe i pinky promise :)

I LOVE LIGHTING CANDLES WHEN IM STRESSED, AND A BATH…. i need to do that again, ill do it today after my pilates and cardio 😋😋

omg i love podcasts too, i listen to a lot of rotten mango, i study true crime a lil too much lolz

thank you for making me feel better about resting and letting me talk lol i know i can yap a lot but you never seem to mind 🫶

thank you butter butter 🧈 i hope to hear from you soon, i hope you’re doing well

[thewantedunwanted]

Interviewer: First off, let's put a CW (Content Warning) for Suicide/Ideation here for folks.

Continuing on the last post, which visited the topic of death and people caring for other people. I was recently made aware of gg's decision to end his life once OMC's elderly ESA (emotional support animal) passes away. Is that still his plan?

OMC:

It appears so.

Interviewer:

And you reached out to gg's friend when you learned of it?

OMC:

Yes.

Interviewer:

What were you hoping to accomplish?

OMC:

Yes, I reached out to gg's and my close friend. We'll call them "D". I wasn't yet able to articulate to myself or the rest of our system why I was reaching out. Just that gg was hurting, feeling rejected, feeling that ppl saw him as bad. Seeing 5 years of pandemic isolation stretching out into infinity. And now his ideation had formed into a fleshed out plan. It was too much to hold by myself, with most of our system asleep, it's mostly me and him.

Since the call, Ive realized I wanted this person to reach out to him, reach him in ways I can't. gg and I are very close. But there is also tension there and mistrust. I've caused him a fair amount of emotional harm trying to manage my social anxiety. My management has come at great cost to his own autonomy and happiness.

Interviewer:

How did that call go?

OMC:

It was by text, actually. Um. It went terribly. My approach wasnt good. I didnt make any requests for them to do anything. I didnt yet know why I was reaching out. This person, D, is his best friend. D then became my best friend after the two of us met and got to know each other. D's reaction was to get protective of me, instead of gg. Saying essentially gg should go into hybernation rather than murdering me and the others. It landed in all of his most vulnerable spots.

I didnt mention to D that gg asked the rest of us to come with him. Or that I hadn't said "no"... I-we, have accomplished a lot in our lives. Literally history changing accomplishments. Our over-name is in a queer history book. Even that whole thing aside, we've been involved in wildly successful international projects. Our work is used in schools across the US and in various other countries. Volunteer. So, Im not money bags. The opposit really Id be homeless so easily. Have been a few times. That's aside. See, I get especially restless when Im not working on a project. The more disabled I become, the harder that is. The louder volume the pain and discomfort in my body registers. And with the covid 19 pandemic, the apathy of the majority of not only the planet, but my inner social group. Watching people become disabled, die. Knowing if I get covid, I'll likely die or become further disabled. And realizing there is yet another way I'm separated. These are good people. They would be, because I'm picky. They arent apathetic because they don't care. Their brains have reached capacity and shut something off where we used to be on similar pages. People arent randomly dying and being disabled. Other people are killing and disabling them. Maybe, probably, some of my closest friends are killing and disabling others. And to them Im just someone with anxiety and ocd. Unreliable because Im mentally ill. Regardless of the vast amounts of primary source research I did. My intellect was celebrated before the pandemic. Then it was just suspect.

So, I found a local group of people who I at least had pandemic hygiene in common with. And I liked. I put on free disaster preparedness classes. It was something. It was important. gg stayed out of the space. hybernating often. waking miserable, angry, unbearably sad. He wasnt prone to depression. That was more my thing. He's hyper-social. He needs people like I need a purpose. He begged to finally join the group. I knew it was important. I didnt realize the total depth of the significance

He joined and lit up. I havent seen him blossom like that since we graduated uni and before most of his friends eventually moved away. It was so good. Until, in a day, it wasnt.

He told a moderator "no". He hadnt broken a rule. The moderator wanted the rules to be different. And we had a friend cross a boundary attempting to recruit me to help manage gg. It was rapid dominos from there. The fallout hit him like a sledge hammer. And it didnt miss me. In one fell swoop, he was out of the group and I was shunned in the group. Not by everyone. But when you go from well-liked to barely interacted with, it's a knife.

So here's one of my most precious people, gg. He's been hurting for years on years, sleeping and waking in worse shape each time. He asks me to help end that pain. To do so, it requires me to walk into the dark with him. If our ESA werent here and he asked today, the answer is an easy given. A tilted take on the trolly problem, no? 6 months from now? 2 years? I told him I didnt have an answer yet. Life may have changed, for either of us. Hopefully for both of us.

The others? Similarly waking for short periods of time after months or years pass, all of their friends moved on with their lives, disappeared, or dead. No longer peers in the same age group. hell, gg's in the body of a 40yo. Even before his stints of hybernation, he's always been younger than the body, complicated by being an age slider with the heart of an 8 year old. Parts of him have finally arrived to his early 20s. But look around, a 20 yo forming a friendship or relationships with someone in a 40yo system?? Ive asked gg to not date anyone under 30. A very uncomfortable compromise for me personally, 30 is younger than I would prefer. And he is young to be dating 30yos...

He's more impervious than some. But he's also an increadably tender kid. Carrying so much disapproval from others. From me. It gets through and causes damage.

We've arrived here.

Interviewer:

Your thoughts on Joel's trolly problem decision in the video game The Last of Us?

OMC:

Depends who you ask. Amy's take on the trolly problem years back was, "Even if I love someone, I would sacrifice them (or myself) for the greater good." Ask gg and... "quantity aint quality. maybe the other ppl suck. for sure my life would suck more without this person. aint doin it."

Interviewer:

Ok. So gg wont sacrifice someone he cares about. Would he sacrifice himself for strangers?

OMC:

That is a more difficult question. Has he ever talked to them? Does someone he cares about know them? Are they an actor playing a character he likes? If the answer is "no", there is a chance that they won't register as real people to him. Will he perceive the situation as "gg and 10 strangers"? Or the equivalent of "gg and 10 cardboard cut outs"? Like I would imagine for most people, he would not sacrifice hinself to rescue cardboard.

Interviewer: Say he registers the situation as "gg and 10 strangers"?

OMC:

Putting the trolly problem aside, do you care about strangers?

Interviewer:

I mean, sure.

OMC:

Why?

Interviewer:

Because they are people. I don't want bad things to happen to people whether or not I know them.

OMC:

But, why?

Interviewer:

[ x ]

OMC:

Leaving the theoretical, gg has protected a stalker at risk to his own safety. This stalker, we'll call "R", was previously a friend who became dangerously fixated when we wouldnt date her and we refused to end things with a friend gg was sleeping with. R threatened to kill us, broke into someone's else's house to steal our (necessary) new phone number, and so on. Serious stalker situation. The following incident was after the university tried to prohibit R from approaching us on the grounds or being in the same building with us. But took place before they expelled her and put a restraining order on her entering school grounds.

R shows up to a bar gg is at. We notice her because there's a commotion. R has gotten into an animated verbal sparring match of some sort with a random, drunk bar patron. Said patron is a sturdy dude. At a point, bar patron has gotten up from his seat, rounded on R and looks ready to violently put his hands on her. gg has gotten up by this point, pulls R behind him and apologizes to the guy, got him bantering, smoothes things over. It could have gone very differently.

Why would someone protect their own stalker? R was, maybe still is, a more than theoretical person to gg. People matter very much to gg. He just lives in a sparsely populated world.

Would he sacrifice himself for strangers? It's a toss up. Once you're at least on the same plane of real/likely real, he'll decide in the moment.

Disappointingly Necessary Disclaimer:

gg isn't a serial killer. or any kind of killer. He has never even been in a fist fight. He's not mean to animals either. People with DID are more likely to be the recipients of violence than the purpetrators. When someone in a system does violence, it is likely to be defensive of self or others. Some people, plural or not, can be violent. But it is not a distingushing trait for people with DID.

[meangreenmulletmachine]

6 & 10 for the anime q's!

6. popular anime you didn’t like

Hmm popular... Probably Free!..?

10. favorite anime animal sidekick

Either Ein from Cowboy Bebop or Japolo from Shamanic princess!

Thanks for the ask!

[peachieflame]

Do you have any ither zukka fic recs? I’ve been trying to discover some new good ones:)

Yess I love giving recs! A little warning tho, all the fics Im gonna mention are more than 5k+ words long cause I don't like short one-shots and a lot of them are multi-chaptered with over 40k+ words. Also I'll update this as I read and discover more faves!

Expand to see the list cause its long....

Lighthouse Beam: Sokka’s breathtakingly beautiful and he’s smart and makes other people laugh. Zuko has a half-burnt face and a deaf ear. It’s not rocket science. Or, Zuko falls in love with the boy in his Philosophy class.

🍑: I really like college/highschool AUs and even more zukka fics where Sokka is actually described to be smart. Sokka is one of the smartest characters in the whole show Idk why he's been branded as a dumb, dense character by the fandom. Anyways, loved that this fic had Zuko being the one to fall first as-well.

In the Soft Light: As the newly appointed cultural liaison to Northern Water Tribe, Zuko is the first Fire Nation Citizen to step foot inside the city's walls in nearly a century. He's determined to prove himself—to the Fire Lord and to his father—even if the Water Tribe's spirit-touched prince seems to want nothing to do with him. Or Moon Spirit Sokka AU.

🍑: Enjoy this authors' writing style, really engages me in the story. Also ahhhh fanfic based on my moon spirit Sokka... im very grateful 😭. I didn't include this one in an ask about moon spirit sokka au cause I hadnt known about it at the time but now I reread it whenever I can.

7 Things We Did (and Probably Shouldn't Have): How Zuko and Sokka collided through ill advised means—or approximately seven (7) acts—is beyond them. In just a year, they will trudge through the unorthodox conquests of youth (see #2: The Late Acquisition of 2 gallons of Arizona Peach Iced Tea) or capitalist schemes (#5: Bought A $4,550 Jacuzzi). But how they manage to Allow Aang to Become Vegan (#1), Host The Mr. Teen Universe Contest (#7) and, um, Set The Classroom on Fire—Again (#6) to eventually fall for each other, is still a mystery to them.

🍑: Although this one hasn't been updated in almost a year, the 2 chapters that are posted is some of the most fun I've had reading a fanfic! I admire the coding put into it so that it has a creative, unique structured. Also cute little things like the scrap paper or the scrollable email box (which blew my mind when I first saw it, I didn't even know it was possible to code something like that) just engaged me more in the writing.

Kiss Me To Just Shut Me Up: Zuko proffers the card, and Sokka takes it, their fingers brushing. Sokka tries to cover up the way he shivers at the contact by turning the card over and squinting at the text written on the front. Zuko Sozin. Tattoo Artist. The Jasmine Dragon. A single dragon curls around the characters in red ink. — There's a new tattoo and piercing shop on Ember Island Beach.

🍑: Oh beau... you're so multitalented. This was the fanfic I was recommending to everyone that bought a zukka print from me at cons like I had no shame I just wanted everyone to read Beau's amazing work. And you all should read it if you havent yet.

Five Times Zuko Wanted to Die (and One Time He Didn't): “Sorry about that,” the voice says, and suddenly the curtain has been pushed aside, and Zuko is speechless. “What can I help you with?” He stares. “Um— ” The boy has to be around his age, he’s sure of it. He’s got the most perfect tan face Zuko has ever seen, with blue eyes so brilliant it’s hard to form words. Or the college-age AU in which Sokka fixes watches, Zuko struggles through engineering, and everyone's nervous about the cute boy from the jewelry shop.

🍑: Modern settings fics that aren't like cafe/barista AUs are kind of hard to find (or at least ones that I like cause im picky) so I was surprised to see this one! Again it's an enjoyable fic where Zuko is smitten first and Sokka is not written as dumb. I also remember wanting to draw fan art (one of the scenes) so maybe I'll go dig that sketch up and finish it.

At the Top of the World: Zuko is sent in disgrace to Alaska's Northern coast to ensure nothing stands in the way of Sozin Oil Company’s new offshore drilling project. He is willing to do whatever it takes to make his father see he’s worthy, even if it means fighting against the one person he's met who actually seems to give a damn about him.

🍑: I'll never shut up about this fic, its beautifully written, well paced and realistic characterizations. As an Indigenous person this fanfic tackled Indigenous struggles better than any other fanfics I've read so far and it shows the author did their research. ATLA fandom tends to sweep aside Katara and Sokka's indigenous identity a lot. It's even more frustrating when most fics acknowledge colonialism and racism and yet brush aside Indigenous discussions or theory because they're either scared of touching the topic or don't care. Even fics that do mention their Indigenity is brushed aside with surface level discussions you can tell the author is just parroting from whatever twitter thread they skimmed. Im definitely not saying that fanfic should be an educator for social political issues or that it should be written in a way that it could replace theory for whoever stumbles upon it. Im just baffled that so many authors will mention colonialism only to explore it's effects on Zuko and not the actual Indigenous characters.......... that's all.

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I'm on my bullshit again. No lemons. Just Shinigami goodness. Wrote this to In Keeping Secrets of Silent Earth 3 by Coheed and Cambria.

Ryuk has been around for such a long time. Ever since she had found that notebook sitting on that tree stump years ago. Cover soft looking and beaded with dew. It had looked as if it had been there some time. And, although the pages looked weathered and yellow, there was no mold or outward damage.

Surprising given its location in the middle of the woods. She’d only even seen it because she’d stopped and knelt to retie her shoe. Just an alien black square looking sharp and unreal sitting on that stump just off the jogging trail.

She can remember how the thing had felt when she’d picked it up. Soft in texture. Like careworn leather.

The words “Death Note" emblazoned on the cover had made her feel a little unsettled. Eerie out here in the predawn misty quiet.

A silent voice inside her mind had whispered that maybe she should put it right back down on that stump and keep running. As far and as fast as she could.

Another voice, vapid and cunning, had laughed at the absurdity of such a book, with such a title, being left out here in the middle of nowhere.

She hadn’t left it there. Without opening it, she’d tucked it under her arm and continued on her morning run.

She performed all the menial tasks of her daily life, forgetting all about that Death Note leaving dew marks on her dining room table.

Breakfast was bland. Work was tedious. No different than any other day. Even when she’d reentered her home and plopped her work bag next to the thing, her eyes really didn’t focus on it.

It was the tall bony Shinigami standing in her kitchen that finally arrested her fuzzy mind from the blandness of living.

He hadn’t even been looking at her. Instead, the spinous processes of his vertebrae pressed onto the dark material upon his long back as he leaned over her counter. Observing a bowl of fruit as if it were a still life masterpiece.

She hadn’t moved. Was utterly frozen. Just watching this creature as it looked at her food.

“What’s all this junk? Taking up room that could be used for perfectly good apples.” It’s voice, low and yet raspy, grated on her eardrums as it lifted a hand and poked a claw into the ripe flesh of an orange. The movement causing several pieces of fruit to fall out of the over filled bowl entirely.

With a deft movement, the creature caught the only apple which had exited the bowl. Rubbed it with the pad of it’s thumb as it finally lifted it’s face to look at her.

It’s face………

Cadaverous. Eyes beady and large and yellow. Nose squashed. Like a mummy who’d decided to affix it’s hair for a punk rock concert. It was even sporting a dangling silver earring on one of it’s little ears.

At her gawping expression, it had smiled. Wide thin dark mouth sporting a row of razor teeth appearing aged and yellow.

“No screaming, eh? Hiya, Y/N.”

She hadn’t bothered to question how this thing knew her name.

“Um…….. hi?” Her own voice sounded dry and distant in her ears. “And you are?”

It bit into that apple, it’s eyes closing. As if savoring the fruit. A stray drop of the juice dribbled down onto it’s chin.

It said a word. But muffled thru a mouthful of apple, it nearly sounded like a retch.

“Ex….Excuse me? I didn’t…… I didn’t quite understand that.”

“Not a good listener tho. Ah well. Nobody is perfect.” It’s long tongue snaked out to swipe at that bead of juice as the creature had studied her.

Raising it’s free hand, it extended a long bony finger. She noticed now the rings glinting on his hands.

“I. Am. Ryuk.” He said it very slowly. As if she might have been a child who might not understand. But there wasn’t a trace of sarcasm or ill temper in it’s behavior.

“So….. Ryuk…… why…… um…. What……. What do you want?”

At this, it’s smile had widened.

“I’m just here Y/N. YOU are the one that picked up the Death Note.”

Imagery of that notebook popped up in her head.

“I….. I did……”

“Yes. You did. And I’ll be with you until you die now. Or I do.” It was leering now. “Whichever comes first.”

“I see….” She didn’t really see. Turned from him and went into the dining room to pick up that notebook. Opening it. Reading the first thing written on the inside of the cover out loud.

“The human whose name is written in this note shall die.”

It had been frightening in retrospect. Not those words. Not that Death Note. Not even the monster standing in the doorway happily crunching it’s way thru a second apple and watching her.

What had been utterly terrifying was that she had not blanched. Had not set this note down and backed away. Had not told that creature to take it and go.

Instead, she’d stood there. Continuing to read. A name and face already coming to mind.

A face belonging to a monster who’d put that apple eating shark mouthed monster to utter shame. The man who’d killed someone she had loved.

Without looking away from the Death Note, she’d reached over and started rummaging thru her work bag. Fingers shaking and fumbling at keys and change.

“Never can find what you’re looking for if your bag is too full, Y/N.” Ryuk looked vastly amused. “You’re not even going to question the validity of the Note? That’s what you humans usually do.”

She hadn’t answered. Simply gasped as her fingers had clutched onto a great fistful of bullshit in her bag. Lifting the whole mess out to drop carelessly on the table. Chapstick and a tampon scattering across the surface.

And there, rolling and coming to rest against an old broken key chain, had been a blue ink pen.

She’d looked up at Ryuk. Eyes wide, almost manic.

“Any person?”

He smiled again. Repeated her words.

“Any living person.”

There had been no eloquence. No artfulness nor ritualistic care taken in that first death. She had scratched the name onto the paper. And a way to die. Almost stabbing it in. Breathing coming out in ragged desperate gasping.

After the deed had been done, the pen clattered to the floor as she’d wept. Fingers numb.

It hadn’t occurred to her that there would be no way to instantly verify this death. Not until that moment. And so, with a frustrated cry, she’d slapped the Death Note onto the table and fled into her bedroom. Right over to the dark corner to collapse, wrap her arms around her knees, stuff her face into her knees, and cry as a child. Ryuk following her, tilting his head quizzically at this suffering.

“Why are you crying? You couldn’t have liked that human if you wanted them to die.”

“Please…… please go.”

But he didn’t. Simply had sank down. Knobby knees on either side of his ghastly face as he sat across from her.

“I told you. I’m here till you die, Y/N.” There was no camaraderie or sympathy in his voice. It had been matter of fact. “But this surely will get boring very soon, won’t it?”

“When will I know if he died?”

Ryuk smiled again. Leering.

“My my. Impatient aren’t you. Actually that’s a quality I like about you humans. As for your question, I guess you’ll just have to find out for yourself.” His eyes glint as his smile turns wicked. “You could always write a name belonging to someone closer. If you’re seeking validation, of course.”

“There isn’t anyone else I wanna kill.”

“Then this is going to get very boring very quickly, Y/N.”

She hadn’t had to wait long. Two days later, she’d received correspondence that her presence would no longer be required at a hearing. The defendant was dead.

A quick Google search verified that the person had died just as she’d written.

Setting the phone down, fingers numb, she'd simply looked up at her Shinigami.

She knew that’s what he was now. She’d been peppering him with questions about himself and his kind. And about the Death Note. He hadn’t answered many of them. At least, not until she’d given him an angelic grin and revealed a bag of bright green apples.

“Your apples can be green???” He'd looked absolutely delighted. And had been far more forthcoming.

“He’s dead. He’s really……. Gone…….”

Ryuk merely grunted in visceral enjoyment as he popped the core of that Granny Smith into his maw.

Without warning, she’d reached forward, patting at another errant drop of juice on his chin with a Kleenex she’d just snatched from the box. The action was mainly impulsive. And she’d laughed.

“You’re so messy.”

The Shinigami had frozen. Utterly motionless. He didn’t breathe himself. Statue still. Simply looking at her.

The years passed by like this. The shock and relief provided by this first killing soon giving way to an almost comfortable routine. She didn’t go on a wholesale slaughter. And often targeted those who hurt children. The pain of such cases resonating with the events of her own life.

And there were so. Many. Apples. Loads of them. Ryuk loved all kinds. Although he did seem preferential to Honey Crisp. She never once could get him to try another fruit. And she DID try. Not even a damn orange.

“It’s yummy. Ya know, for somebody that says he gets bored easily, you sure are picky.” She waggled the bright fruit.

“I’ve watched you peel one of those things. What sort of food makes you work so hard? Now THIS……” He'd held up his half eaten apple. “THIS is the pinnacle of crisp and juicy. Now leave that orange wherever you found it, if you please.”

Time was littered with conversations as simple as these, intermingled with serious discussions in which he was as non informative as ever.

It was one of these more serious conversations which followed an observation on her part.

She’d noticed changes in him. Very slight. But she was simply around him so much that she could see them. His movements had become slower. More careful. His speech slowed as well. As if he might be thinking more carefully. Or even forgetting things. She never once pointed this out.

Not until, one day, after clearing 6 entire apples, he’d actually groaned as he’d flopped upon her couch. Long booted feet hanging over one of the arms.

She plops next to him. Poking at one of the skulls on his belt. He’d long since stopped being surprised by her impulsive touches and nearness. Her humanness. Simply tolerating it.

“Are you hurting, Ryuk?”

“Why are you asking?”

“Oh. No reason.”

“I’m dying, Y/N.”

For once, it is she who freezes.

“I thought Shinigami lived a long time.”

“We do. My time is simply running out.” He’s just watching her.

“You’d said….. you’d said that you guys get more years by taking ours.”

“We do.”

She stops toying with that skull entirely. Turns her body so that she’s facing him directly.

“Is it time, then?” She’s oddly unafraid.

“Time for what?”

“For you to….. ya know…… write my name in YOUR Death Note?”

At this, he chuckles.

“I’m not going to write your name.”

She looks confused.

“But….. why not?”

Now he’s actually laughing.

“Do you WANT me to write your name in my Death Note?”

She chews on her bottom lip. Reaching out to pat his chest. Once again, he doesn’t react.

“I don’t want you to die.”

He laughs again. But there is no more true mirth in the sound.

“Why?”

She counters.

“Why won’t you write my name?”

“I am not entirely sure, Y/N.” The slight confusion in his voice gives credence to this answer.

“Well. I am sure.” She’s staring intently at him. “Everything ends, Ryuk. Nobody ever stays. Nothing is constant. I’ve never had a single person ever remain in my life. Except….. except you.”

He sighs. Patiently repeating himself.

“I will be with you until you die.”

“I don’t care if it’s because you have to be here. You’re still HERE……. Will it be soon?”

That same, toothy leer.

“You know I won’t tell you your lifespan, Y/N.”

“I don’t mean me.”

He just looks at her. She’s never seen his face so expressionless. Then repeats yet again.

“I will be with you until you die. Or until I do.”

“I will write my own name then. Will that do it?”

“Stop being foolish. Be a dear and get me another apple won’t you?”

“Yeah….. I will. But I’m not done.”

“I’m sure you’re not.” He chuckles.

It is as if this conversation opens a chasm in this inevitable process. Everything about Ryuk is changing. And so quickly.

Already emaciated and pale, even his dark lips turn papery and light grey. His hair grays too. Yellow eyes growing filmy where they had been so keen before. As if, when the aging process actually begins in a Shinigami, it is accelerated.

It is barely 2 weeks after this conversation that he gives a defeated grunt, sprawled on her bed as she’s on her laptop.

“I can’t get up.” He barks out a laugh. As if this is genuinely funny to him.

She closes her laptop and rises from her chair. Turning and walking over to the bed to flop next to him. Staring at the ceiling just as he is.

“You want another apple?”

“Thank you, Y/N. But I do not.”

“That close, huh.”

“I believe so, yes.”

“Will the Death Note still work? When you’re gone I mean.”

“Yes.”

Her voice is oddly cold.

“Do death gods go to hell? I cant go to heaven or hell. What about you?”

He doesn’t answer for several minutes. She doesn’t speak either. Finally…

“I suppose we will end up in the same place, Y/N.”

“I'm glad.” She turns her face to look at him. “I’ll need something before you go.”

“Oh? And what is that?”

“The Shinigami eyes.”

At this, Ryuk turns his face as well. And they just stare at each other.

“Clever greedy impatient girl.” The insult is almost affectionate. “Are you truly that afraid to die alone?”

“Nobody should die alone. And this way, neither of us will half to. Half my lifespan for the Shinigami eyes. We’ll die at the same time.” She looks back up at the ceiling. He does too.

When he feels her fingers intertwining with his, as always, he doesn’t react.

“I never actually made that offer to you. Merely spoke of it.”

“I don’t care. I want the Shinigami eyes.”

He turns his face to her.

“Who am I to turn down such a lucrative deal?”

She sees his hand coming towards her face. Closes her eyes.

When she opens them again, the picture of her and some old friends on the wall is noticeably different. One face, the face of the friend who’d committed suicide years before, is clear and unblemished. The other faces each have a name and numbers above them.

And when she looks back at Ryuk, she sees that his hair is once again jet black. Eyes just as clear and sharp as she remembers. He leers at her. Squeezes her hand as she’s squeezing his.

“I’ll take that apple as well. If the offer is still there.”

She grins.

“You got a new lease on life and you STILL won’t try an orange?”

He scoffs.

[enden-k]

It wasnt In my prayer actually, but I’ve been looking for something to read so I’ll def check it out!

I do not remember the name of the fic but it was super, super rough to read if Im honest— the author did amazing at portraying the events going on that slowly changed Morax into Zhongli due to passage of time and loss of those he cared for… it had a happy ending though which is good

But Childe trying to swoon Morax just stood out to me haha. On the topic of favorite fics though, I have a couple I could recommend if you’d like, I’d love to know what youve read and enjoy. Ill read the one you mentioned when I have time.

ohhh i see! tbh with this kind of fic where childe gets thrown back in time and meets morax, i always think of "In My Prayer" bc i havent read anything with a similar theme but i find it very nice

iirc its basically about childe betraying zhongli and regretting this and the pain and wrath of zhongli he caused so much, he tries smth to gain a favor of the gods and rewind time to save him. they hear his prayers but instead of being brought back shortly before the betrayal and everything happens, he gets thrown into the archon war and meets morax. its an angsty and very nice fic and i really like and felt how childe tries his everything to correct his mistakes, realizing while dealing with zhonglis old self and watching how he becomes more and more human/similar to how he is in the present that he loves him, his past self and the zhongli he knows, and just wants to save him ahhh (ft guizhong, sweet xiao and childe being so sweet together (im honestly so damn tired of people and their xiao and childe hating each others guts thing, so this really warms my heart) and menace venti) alsooo its several chapters and still ongoing but i can only rec it, i read everything in one night bc it. just got me HAH

i dont mind recs, im just very picky when it comes to (esp explicit) ttl fics bc i dont like the weird stereotypes some ppl like to apply for some reason on zhongli whenever he bottoms? didnt see those in any zc fics i read so far so with zc recs youre all on the safe side i guess

(i already posted about my top fav fics once, it was brought back up a few times too but u bet i dont have the tag or link in mind HAH but!! in general, im a huge fan of angsty, dark stuff (with a good ending bc i need my comfort after some good pain), slow build is also always very nice like. them developing feelings, its nice to see idk ahha)

[surveysonfleek]

1657.

Have you ever cheated at a card game? i definitely have, not in a bad way, i just concealed my cards Tell me what colors you’re wearing right now? im legit wearing all grey Have you ever wandered around drunk with your friend? of course haha Are you longing for the day that you’ll be an adult? (If you’re not already) im already an adult. im longing for the day that our home is built though Have you ever felt like your heart actually stopped? no

Are you a fast runner? hahaha not at all What’s something you’ve vowed to never eat? ive never vowed to not eat something but theres a lot of foods that i dont like haha Do you have a “poker face”? nope Are you good at holding back your laughter if needed? if its during something serious, then yeah Do any of your friends shamelessly burp or fart in public? burpers lol When was the last time you had a good cry? its been a long time Has anyone ever told you they wanted to marry you? yes :) Have you ever had a “thumb war” with someone? yeah, i hate doing it, i always lose Have you ever been so unfortunate to suffer from a hangover? i honestly dont think i get hangovers, like ever. the most ill ever feel after a night of drinking is super tired the next day but no headache or anything like that If you need a job, will you take whatever you can get? ill obviously be picky about it and if the salary is right, ill go for it Time goes by faster as you get older, don’t you find? definitely! Have you ever had a panic attack? only once Are you deathly allergic to anything? no Have you ever had a mouse in your house? yes, years ago. terrified the shit out of me Do you know what you want for your dream house? yes, i hope i can achieve it one day! Have you ever seen the movie the Notebook? yes If you download torrents, what torrent program do you use? i dont download torrents anymore If you go to school, will this year be different? no school Do you know anyone who DOESN’T have an ex? yes Are you able to count to ten in another language? yup! Is there something you know you have to do, but haven’t done it yet? yes but ive been trying! Is anyone you know really religious? hmm yeah but mostly older people Can you sing? i wish, but no Have you ever read “Gone With the Wind”? no Are your eyebrows naturally thick? the eyebrow shape is fairly thick but i dont have a high volume of brow hairs if that makes sense Have you ever attempted to cut your own hair? yes haha, it was a fail, i tried to give myself bangs. it was horrible Has speaking in front of people ever made you sick? not really, im fine as long as i know what im talking about Have you ever wanted to tell someone how you felt, but never did? yeah always

What was the last movie that made you teary-eyed? hm i dont remember, i havent really been watching sad movies Do you check your email daily? yes Have you ever breathed in helium? yes Do you try to be confident and positive about your future? definitely When was the last time you felt disappointed in yourself? theres always a point of time everyday where i feel disappointed if im not using my time correctly etc, or if i shouldve worked out instead of doing nothing etc Have you ever owned a garden? kinda! Who was the last person to text you? my fiance Have you had two friends that absolutely hated each other? no Do you ever find yourself trying to be the referee amongst your friends? nah Has a laptop ever burned your legs? no Do you know anyone who has a scar through their eyebrow? not that i know of Who was the last person to flip you off? idk, probably a friend Are you doing anything the day after tomorrow? i have no plans at the moment Anyone’s birthday coming up soon? my friend, jess and my god daughter Would you ever wear fake eyelashes? yes, i have but i suck at applying them Do you make the effort to smile at people? not really, ill always return it if someone smiles at me though Are you good at following directions? ehm im not bad Have you ever just screamed really loud in an attempt to feel better? haha no Are you in any way, still a child at heart? haha yes, life was so much easier! Quality triumphs over quantity, correct? sure Have you ever danced when there was no music playing? look, i probably have, i just dont remember when the last time was Do you have someone that you can just act a fool with and not care? yep! From where you’re sitting, can you touch a wall? yes Have you received a text today that made you go “wtf”? no When at a restaurant, do you put your napkin on your lap? only when they have the cloth napkins of course Are you even feeling the least bit tired? yes im tired -_- Is there currently any caffeine or alcohol in your system? nope Do you prefer electric or manual pencil sharpeners? either or, i dont remember the last time i even used a pencil though Are your biceps at all noticeable? haha no! Have you ever seen a walrus? yes When it comes to dropping food, do you believe in the 10 second rule? nahhh If given the opportunity, would you ride on a camel? sure! Do you believe that cellphones actually do cause cancer? they could, i guess we’ll find out in the future When people you know cry, does it make you feel like crying too? always. im a sympathetic cryer Were you single last Valentine’s Day? nope Do you tend to jump to conclusions? nah Are you good at remembering your friends’ birthdays? yes Is there something you need to do, that you’re trying to avoid doing? yes lol

[whaleofatjme1920]

Hallo!! Its the person who asked help on doing the ask! I didnt know what submission is or how to do it submission so I checked the reply on the post and followed it! Though thanks a bunch, Elsie! (Hope its not too annoying since I dont know how this stuff works yet)

So, may I ask a matchup with TF2, romantic and nsfw? :3

So starting off with.. I was born on August 22! Which mens Im a Leo. I definitely dont go with all the 'Zodiac = Personality' thing but like seeing that Leo's are usually the snobby, attention seeking (Toxic vers) and etc.. Makes me feel bad about my sign.

Im an INFP! And my hobbies are usually drawing and writing! I love both and do it most of the time!

I daydream a lot and usually get pretty good ideas when doing so! Im not a verky skilled writer but Im learning. I also do like to roleplay!

Im 5'7 (Not comfortable with adding my weight/nationality just yet)

Im pretty much a Pansexual/Panromantic(?) tomboy. Im kinda still exploring my gender but I do have a feeling I might be demisexual, though Im not too sure yet.

As a tomboy I usually get picked on because of it. It doesnt help more that Im quite chubby. Im basically a tomboy who fights back but could cry.

I am pretty clumsy and I could forget a task that was just given to me in like a second sometimes. I absolutely LOVE to laugh! Its basically my passion now. Make me laugh and I would enjoy your company. Im talking every humor. Dark humor, uh.. Self depricating humor, ironic humor, SARCASTIC HUMOR.. Even the worst jokes on the planet! Id laugh! I even laughed at my own joke. It didnt even make sense or even pass as one but I laughed too hard at it. Though at times, I csn be very serious.

On times when Im serious, I get angry. I try to push it away but I would always somehow get angry and act like a kid on a tantrum but right after I get heartbroken and I feel like such a jerk. I also sometimes get overdramatic and I also feel like such a jerk. So prolly after all that I stay blank infront of new people and rub everything on jokes. Because laughing makes all the bad thoughts go away!

I think Im a pretty insecure, anxiety-filled person. Im a bit smug and funny-annoying to some friends but to new people? Then Ill be a nervous wreck on trying not to embarass myself and become an anxiety filled person.

Anyways

I believe I am a very weird (in a good way) person. I mean like- i mean medics experiments look cool and amazing and fun-

I watch comedies or action most of the time though I dont mind exploring other genres though! Im not that picky. Though I prefer to laugh.. As I said :)

I do NOT like dresses. Maybe on some occassions when I REALLY have to but kost of the time: NO just no. Tuxedos are better!! MAKEUP IS WORSE! Okay maybe just REALLY LIGHTLY grazed. Like prolly eyelashes (NO FAKE ONES. GO AWAY) and light blush I guess..

I absolutely ADORE animals. They are all so cute! Frogs and lizards are pretty good but let them stay 10 ft away from me. They are cute but just- I cant bare to let them touch me. Even being scared of these animals I still love iguanas- huh- Maybe a specific type of lizard hurts my soul. The gecko-

Even after BOTH of those animals I love everything else! My fvorites are Birds, Snakes, turtles and dogs! Every animal technically.

Though out of all of these. My favorite experiences were my snake memories! Id always touch or scratch(in a softy kinda way) them when I see one! They are just so cute!

I am pretty good at baking! I bake cookies and brownies and so on. I still yet to explore the different recipes and stuff out there! Maybe its a hobby I guess? Though now I dont do it more often.

I can very much speak in fluent sarcasm when I feel like Im bored, youre too annoying or Im upset. Mostly 1 or 2. I can also smell bullshit from a mile away- though I would actually go on with it just for the ride and gig of what might happen next... Then double cross them by creating an even bigger bullshit and drop it on them. Basically the " When life hits you hard then HIT IT BACK! HARDER!"

(If this helps. I can prolly talk about my friends so it makes it more detailed on people I kinda like? If not then skip ahead till theres ....... In the end!)

So for my friends... They arent ... That... Very.. Bright.. I wouldnt say its kinda.. Depricting.. Its cause they kinda are and they say it anyways.. So basically they are ALL squareheads. But they could be so adorable and kind though. Yet so chaotic. I can go for chaotic! I can be the center of chaotic in our group.

Though my best friend? Mega squarehead. Even she knows. Though we love eachother for the stuff we do. We do a lot of stuff together and I give her a lot of platonic affection and friendly gifts! She returns them in a different way of course but I dont mind a lot! She has been with me through all of my bad times like tantrums and overdrama to my vents and sadness. I think that what I would want in a partner!

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So what I want to have in a partner is that they are understanding and would even stick by if I have one of my temper-tantrums or sad venting times, even those times when I could be a huge pain in the ass and annoying. I think that that is VERY attractive in a person. It makes me feel better about myself and comfortable. Id love to be in a relationship where I could be myself 24/7, have some nice quiet time or like have comfortable silence together. Yes Im chaotic and sometimes loud but I could be very chill and quiet often too! I am very flexible in personality(? I think thats how you say it). I can be loud and chaotic at one time but I could alsp be the chillest person you can hang out with.

I am a very affectionate person. Of course usually behind doors most of the time but I dont mind holding hands in public. I dont think Im into kissing on the lips yet though. I can be patient in a relationship. Ill wait for the person to open up! Though most of the time I like to talk and get closer to my partner. But Ill wait!

Im not looking for any traits in my partner yet! I love to explore personalities nd how they might just get along with me! Though I kind of hate pretty smug people.. And I mean smug in a flirtatious way! I mean like a little is nice but too much can be just downright annoying for me and ruins the mood... (I mean Im smug too but not exactly like this-)

I dont care if they are the next Einstein or if they are dumber than a rock. As long as that I know they love me, be by my side even at my worsts, make me smile and dont hurt me on purpose then I find them VERY attractive. I also dont give two shits if they have drinking problems (*COUGH*) as long as you arent the "Ill kill you" or break everything and throw it at you kind of drunk then I still love you, A LOT. I also dont give two shits if they are busy with work most of the time but they still give you love and affection when they have the time. I mean.. I work most of the time but always seem to find time to give affection and words of understanding! And for some reason- I kinda love big tender guys (COUGH)

I dont care who you are as long as I know you love me :). (Id say the other stuff but like i feel like Im already saying it again and again in an annoying way)

I guess Im pretty complicated- I dont know if Im too easy or too hard to handle. All I know is that who ever Ill get matched to, I hope that he would really accept me for who I am!

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IM SORRY IF IT MIGHT BE TOO LONG! And sorry if its pretty annoying or stuff like that. I hope I didnt annoy you in any way, Elsie! And I hope Im not controlling my chances too much! I just wanna be descriptive and all that! I wanna express myself just the way I am and who would be perfect for me! :)

If its not too annoying Ill add this so some others get better/worse chances:

Sadly. A hard pass for Spy. The dude is nice but I dont really like the guy :(

I see Scout as a brother-

And you saw the other hints in this form :)

Thanks a bunch Elsie. Your writing is beautiful!!

Your matchup is... Heavy!

[Disclaimer, if you're coming from the tags, this is part of a special event I am holding from November 17th to the 21st where I am accepting matchups from all fandoms I currently write for. Feel free to check out my 1K celebration masterlist here for rules during the window this event is open! If it's past the 21st midnight USA central time, do NOT send me a matchup. I will have to politely turn you down. Sorry </3]

NSFW Below

In General

SO, I know there are hints thrown everywhere in here about who you're probably swayed towards BUT that's not how things work here. You mentioned drinking problems and being tender and that screams Demo?? (who wouldn't love Demo-) to me but I actually got really strong Heavy vibes here based off intuition alone. And I never fight my intuition when it comes to these things. You didn't give me Scout or Spy vibes so like, hey that worked out pretty well!

What He Likes About You

Mikhail is such a sweetheart and into soft, quiet things. He likes that you're into drawing and writing, wants to know what you're daydreaming about as well. I also like to think Mikhail likes tall ish people, so ofc he likes that you're not like, super short or anything. Your sense of style is also really nice to him too. Your laugh is absolutely gorgeous to him, and your humor surprisingly matches up REALLY REALLY well with his. The two of you are always laughing. Mikhail has a dry, witty sense of humor so the two of you are constantly going to be going back and forth lmfao. Thinks you being "weird" is cute tbh. He's just endeared to the things that you do. COmedies and action films are really fun to him, though he's not always into movies tbh. He just wants to spend time with you. Mikhail is SUCH a softie for animals. He likes frogs and lizards but won't bring them around you if they make you uncomfortable.

You Two as a Couple & NSFW

This part is always my favorite to flesh out bc it always gets ungodlily long. Mikhail is a more than patient man, we all know that. He cares so deeply about you and wants to make sure you're in a sound state of mind. He's going to make sure you're never overwhelmed, and when you are, he'll handle it. Would literally fight people for picking on you due to your gender identity and how you choose to present, that's gross. Mikhail doesn't like people getting bullied, especially you. You being chubby?? Not a problem either in fact he likes it. Thinks you're absolutely gorgeous. He will remind you of things from time to time because this man never forgets anything. Might worry about your self deprecating humor but he's good at his own. He knows that when you get angry, you're not at 100%. Honestly the two of you need to just talk it out, y'know? Like communication is key. He knows you don't always mean what you say but sometimes those things hurt? So, y'know, just talk it out with him. His love for you is so much stronger than temporary emotions and words he knows you don't mean. I also think the two of you would bake together because I think that's really cute. He's a rock to you, tbh. He doesn't mind that you're chaotic because it kinda spices up his life a bit? But he definitely appreciates when you're in a much more chill state of mind because it relaxes him. He's a by nature, calm and collected person. Mikhail is EXTREMELY affectionate. I feel like no one really expects that but he is. He's genuinely an affectionate person especially behind closed doors. He doesn't like showboating his love for you because he's not a very flashy man. Mikhail opens up to you pretty easily tbh. He calls you cute things in Russian. I think that's cute. He's a romantic, and he's actually super intelligent, the language barrier doesn't help. He keeps you in line, adores you. It's good. That's all I can say it's really, really good.

This man is tender as all hell. He's nothing but gentle, I don't think he has like, any super out there kinks? Like, maybe he's a bit of a gentle dom. Treats you like glass, but he's a big guy. Plays into your size kink VERY well. He's super good at praise and prone to slipping into his native tongue, but it's literally all words of love. He loves hearing praise from you though because it makes him melt. He'll pull your hair but gently because he literally does not want to hurt you. Just tell him your limits though and he'll abide by what you say you can handle. Quickies aren't necessarily his thing, but sometimes he cannot resist the want to touch you. Might touch you and leave you burning, like, I do feel he's into edging- but he always lets you finish. He's never unfair. Mikhail is a big guy on ALL fronts, so be careful trying to take that monster in lmfao. Take it slow and sweet the first few times, yeah?

Closing Thoughts/Other Things

I'm like, half awake as I write this but, hi love bug, hope you enjoyed! If you sent me signs I cannot mentally comprehend anything lmfao. Saw your second post, don't worry. It was include here. Sending me this much is never annoying, don't worry. Also thank you for the compliments. Lots of love to you, and again, hope you enjoyed <3

[dark-rainbows]

So what's your kinks you will NEVER do and what characters will you absolutely NOT do since you have no rules

I didn't really think about having a rule set like that since I didn't really think ppl were gonna actually like my writings😅😅

But for kinks, I DONT LIKE

1. Can not Do Scat, Piss, or vomit (sorry those are just really uncomfortable for me). I mean, For the vomit part, I can write it like someone just puke cause of illness/disgust/ ect ect..but not cause of something else..

2. Vore (I seriously can not write that as I could not figure out a way to explain how someone was able to eat a whole person without having it be some form of c*nnib*lism)

3. Ddlg/mommy stuff (sorry on this one yall, it's just..I really don't like the idea of some of them. I mean like calling one another mommy/daddy is def fine.. it's just..the baby stuff and diapers are weird to me).

4. Foot fetish.. (I just..cant..no explanation).

I think that's all, for now, ill add more That I can remember later.

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But now for characters I dont write for (im picky asf sorry)

I'll put these in diff categories, as there are characters I'm willing to write smut abt and some im willing to wrote fluff abt, and there are some I just Don't want to write for at all.

Here: Fluff / NOT AT ALL

Phantom Blood

Didn't watch but I think there are two characters I won't write for.

Battle tendencies

1. Cesar (NOT AT ALL) least fav in the whole show plus he was buddies with a ****

2. Joseph (fluff) improbably lying but probably not

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SDC

1. French (Fluff/Not at all) he is an interesting dude, but he is also french. But interesting..

2. Avdol (FLUFF JUST FUCKING FLUFF) He is SOO PURE AND KIND, I just can't write anything nasty abt this handsome handsome man. Unless it's just idk cute sex then sure that's fine, nothing crazy though.

3. Old man (???) He idk man..

4. Kak/cherry guy (NOT AT ALL/ maybe fluff) was my least fav in the whole group and kinda overrated. Andprettypointlessbesidehisdeath. I have a lot of strong feelings abt him as a whole but..anyway.

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DIU

1. Kira (not at all)

2. Josuke/oku (mix feelings) Love them but..its just maybe that their teens. I mean I write abt jotaro to but..idk.. maybe smut one day.

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Goldwind

1. GIO/Fugo (FLUFF ONLY) too young for comfort

2. Airplane boy (Fluff ?) I know he's Idk but..idk too kiddish for me.

3. la squadra (EXCEPT FOR RISOTTO NERO!! YES YES I LOVE HIM)

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Stone Ocean

1. Pink hair man (NOT AT ALL)

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SBR

Didnt read it yet, but already hate a few.

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Jojolion

everyone that isn't Josuke (pt8) and Rai Mamezuku

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i was tagged by @hoodpane !! ty bro

1. when u binge-watch tv, do u skip the intro theme song or watch it?

I don’t actually bingewatch tv all that often LOL i tend to get bored/distracted easily. when I do, it depends on how much I like the opening, but im pretty picky. if its mid ill watch it a few times and then start skipping it bc. like i said. i get bored easily

2. did u prefer dinosaurs or monsters as a kid?

uhhhh what are dragons. are they both? i feel like they’re both. i loved dragons as a kid! didn’t give a shit about real animals, just daydreamed about exploring distant caves and finding ancient dragons living inside

3. how many and what kind of collections do u keep?

does my piddly shit ruffy tub full of books underneath my bed count? if so, just that. i like halloween knickknacks as well but I wouldn’t say I have enough to justify calling it a collection

4. ya’ll r gonna hate this but ur major actually says a lot about u as a person. whats ur major?

computer science! I hope to go into back end programming as a career someday. I really enjoy web design a lot as well tho. but yeah, im the csci bitch 😔

i tag whoever wants to do this!! go ahead and say i tagged you lol

[savageboar]

ok so yesterday was such a fucking DAY that i went to bed early last night.

a dude got impatient bc i was serving a lady that got there before him so he had the audacity to watch two shoplifters open the hot food case from the outside and steal and mimic them and i was too busy to notice. my coworker comes back from the back to take out the hot food, sees him trying to close the case and he's like "are you going to put a label on this or what" so we had to fucking. tell the active store manager about that audacity.

and as i was sweeping up just about to go clock out after making sure shit is in order a lady was like. trying to argue that we couldn't be closed bc it wasn't fucking 6pm. it was 5:55pm. so i just plain said in my assertive southern man voice WE'RE CLOSED and went back to sweeping fuck that noise. im not sacrificing the last of my energy and sanity for one entitled old fuck to stay late to slice something and then dismantle the fucking slicer to clean it AGAIN.

i also think what really broke me is some lady that owns a restaurant nearby comes in every week for a whole fucking pound of hot head cheese SUPER THIN and it was MY TURN TO DO IT....and you have to separate head cheese with sheets like actual fucking cheese and this fucker is picky and only wants perfectly round pieces. nope. ill take out any fucking half pieces but you get what you get okay it takes 20min to do this order fuck off and i don't care of you try to complain to my manager bc they're not ONE HUNDRED PERCENT PERFECT this is a union job and you need to suck it up maybe don't torture us with such specific fuckin shit. ur shit is as round as humanly possible ok.

fuck you if you're a customer