#im paid more to talk about basically my everyday work

[ley-med]

When I volunteered to teach med students who have a rotation in our hospital, I was really scared I wouldn't be able to talk consequently for 1,5 hours, and I would be left there with the students in an uncomfortable hour of silence before I could let them go home... Now that I had my first practical, I can safely say my worries in this regard were unwarranted.

Apparently, it's really, really hard to speak only for 1,5 hours about a topic I'm really passionate about

[ssahotchnerr]

do you do headcanons? if so, I’d love to know what you think Aaron is like at home with reader. how do they split chores, who pays the bills, goes to pta meetings and after school activities? Random stuff like that. I imagine because he’s so busy that when he is home and not on a case, he tries to do everything. What are some things they try to do alone and/or as a family weekly/monthly?

yes i love love love headcanons! :D i could literally write essay after essay about life with aaron hehe <3

when it comes to chores, i think it's safe to say it falls more onto reader because aaron simply isn't there. like laundry, dishes, keeping the house tidy, your basic everyday things. but aaron will always express how sorry he is that he's not around to help more :( like he's away on a case and the two of you are having your nightly call - sharing things about your day before going to bed- neither of you can can sleep without talking to the other first. so when you mention how you did this and that around the house, he gets a tad quiet :( and you know exactly what he's about to say. you stop him before he has the chance to open his mouth - "aaron baby, i don't mind. if you're out there keeping the world safe, the least i can do is a load of laundry." hehe your words make him chuckle a bit, which was your goal, but he's the sweetest man so he still apologizes. (okay but also who wouldn't wanna play housewife for him im just saying<3) and when he is home!!!!! he's helping out as much as he can. and the more heavy duty chores, you save for the weekend so he's home to help out.

who pays the bills? both of you! i've always just seen aaron being the type to have a joint bank account with his partner, so bills and whatnot are paid through that. but when the two of you start having more kids, hehe i love the idea of reader staying home to take care of them <3 so until the kiddos are old enough for you to go back to work, aaron's income mainly supports you all <3

pta meetings, aaron isn't too fond of them, especially since all the other moms were just busy ogling him the whole time 🙄 so if your fam were to be involved in the pta, mom would be going <3 and aaron!!!!!! loves going to all the school activities he possibly can, he loves seeing what the kiddos are up to 🥹 i can also see him on pick up duty- if one of the kids had a doctor's appointment after school, he's taking them to it. if someone had to be picked up from rehearsal, practice, a club - he's stopping by to get them after he leaves work before going home <3 and he still coaches soccer on the weekends of course. he's just a huge softie for all the babies and is the most loving, fair, concerned parent ever <333

and one of my favorite hotchner family hc- everyone loves going to the smithsonian museums on the weekend. hehe it's a fun, yet educational way to spend time together, and no trip is ever the same. everyone's favorite is the american history one, because there's so much!!!!! to look at. and it's either followed by going out to dinner afterwards, maybe some ice cream at the park, and it's always finished up with a movie night before bed <3 hehe all the baby hotchners cuddled up under blankets with you and aaron, begging for one of you to go grab more popcorn from the kitchen, and ultimately falling asleep before the movie ends. just leaving you and aaron, wrapped in each other's arms, looking at your sleeping babies with so much love in your hearts <333

[princesseusminki]

Homeless | Park Seonghwa

Chapter 2.

Disclaimer ! Sexual harassment and disturbing scene! Reader discretion's are advised

He was hanging the clothes outside the house while I was sitting on the table figuring out his issues. He looks happy somehow this morning, I can see the smile on his face. Far from last night pleading expression. What was I thinking right of the bat? Accepting him to stay here, well the pitiful looks definitely works.

"Do you need anything to sort out more?" Huh. I didn't realise he was done with the chores until he caught me off guard. " Ah not yet...Seonghwa let's eat and...talk" Suddenly I can see the sadness washed over his face again. I didn't have anything except ramen, forgot to restock my groceries. "Sorry, ramen is the only foods I have right now". Looking sheepishly. "Don't worry...it's better than nothing". Right. He slurped the ramen so was I. " What actually happened?".

"Fucking twat look ahead would you" he looks like he about to throw punch at me, I put my arms front, defending myself before it's getting worse. "Dude cmon leave him alone". A spit spewed right onto my head. I didn't meant to hit him. My vision was blurry right after I went out from the room. Cold water hitting my face, as I looking myself onto the mirror, a tear of cries sliding my face. "I was looking for you, you know, cmon along now, entertain me". "Apology, madam I'm preoccupied now". I just want to run away and end everything now. "What is that mean?, I fucking paid you". "Go find another whore for you to pay around". I walked away from the bathroom before I felt sting behind my back and my visions turning void.

I woke up surrounded by a white senile wallpaper with a hint disgusting drought medicine smell. "You're lucky we found you". So I did faint. " We're just gonna keep it simple, nothing happened and you're gonna come back, all compensated through the medical bills". I preferably look distant. " hey, did you get it". "Im quitting" . I can feel the palpitations session inside my heartbeat as I spewing it.

A smudge reaction thrown, " Is it a fucking joke? Didn't know you can make one, always looks serious". " You're not quitting, you know why?". As he gripping harshly on my ward coat. "You're fucking pathetic, whilst no one helps you except us, taking you on the street looking rugs". " I still see that 9 years old scared child staring at me".

They said life always has options regardless, but I wish i did back when i was a child. Mom and dad died when i was 9, sending into orphanage care centre was the last choices since no ones want me. So I ran away. Tried to make the end-meets each everyday from scrap, either ways it didn't work out well until I met Kim Myeong-Gil. He was everything to me, my saviour, my guardians angel; who helped me while no one else did. That's until my chastity was imposed.

He said the job is basically to assist people. It was handful work at first that's until, I got forced and raped. Sometimes it was men and women. I didn't know what it was at first. All I know I want to die; it was such dark and trapped, I had nowhere to go. That until i managed to run away from the torture endangerment of the place and met the most profound souls girl.

Kim Iseul.

[mean-queens]

"Mine is in my 11th house in Ardra nakshatra but the lord of my seventh house is Saturn in the tenth house so you might just be right. Either we get a successful spouse or a spouse who helps us with our careers. Which is so funny to say because I’m currently in my unemployed era so I’m curious how this will pan out for us. 😭"

HELPPPP my 7th lord is in my 11th house (ashlesha nak jup),,, BABES WE UPPP, also theres no way bc im also unemployed rn vbjdfbvjbf, begging we get the best of both worlds 😭😭 i've heard that with this dk, if u don't listen to your spouse shit will always fly the other way when it comes to ur career 😭😭 we won but at what cost?? so curious how this will go, smo gotta tell us when we meet this person so i can anticipate being employed (need that husband nepotism)

Husband nepotism😭

Ashlesha nakshatra is associated with intuition and with a Saturn darakaraka you are basically getting life mentor as a spouse. Also Ashlesha is represented by the serpent so their eyes might be prominent in some way I.e light colored, narrow/sharp, maybe they wear contacts, etc.

It’s also ruled by Mercury so they could work in fields were communication is important. 11th house associated with groups and associations so you or your spouse might be in fields related to medicine, mechanics, home improvement, vehicles, maintaining animals, teaching, etc. One or both of you may be deeply associated with people who work in these specific fields. Considering how your darakaraka is in Gemini they might be someone who works with their hands or in professions that require a more hands on approach.

They might either be a smooth talker or someone who lies a lot. They may also struggle with appearing more empathetic to the people around them because their mind pushes them towards more calculated, logical and analytical thinking. That being said with Ashlesha being a Cancer nakshatra the spouse will be caring and nurturing but may show it in more practical ways. Maybe they drive you to work everyday or they make sure to show up on time for dates/events you might go to together. Definitely the type of person who finds out about the sidewalk rule and then makes sure to implement it every chance they get.

I know @bouquetface does paid readings for relationship timing and other stuff so if you’re interested I would recommend their content. Thank you for sending these asks it has been so much fun talking with you. <3

[koqabear]

i finished it a while ago and was excited about talking abt it with u but my wifi went out all of a sudden LMAO buttttttt anyways, it came back like super late and now im writing this at like midnight. i have so much to say but so little at the same time bcs im literally just shocked. like pure shock. that was SUCH a rollercoaster??? and since you're tagging these asks as spoilers,, im gonna say it. i did NOT expect oc to kill yeonjun. like it was in the back of my head like "maybe..." bcs it kept on being mentioned about how the jacket was heavy but i dismissed it UGH i should've seen that coming.

and beomgyu literally abt to kill oc, with no sign of hesitation (chills)? APPLAUSE. i've read so many yandere fics and so much romanticize that sickness .. then characterize it as dark romance. ofcourse i get that has its own fans but i do appreciate ones that are more on the realistic side with these psychos (ik this more of a psychological thriller too so ig it was a given for that to be the direction, but still THANK YOU). like hes insane enough and therefore hes capable of killing oc bcs he doesnt see her as a human being at all. so again, I really appreciate that aspect </3

then yeonjun. yeonjun and his fake moral compass. he was trying so hard to hold onto that humanity that he thought he had, and he kept on believing he was superior to others (especially beomgyu in the fic) and it was just...conveyed so well? that final breakthrough at the end when oc tells him hes no better than gyu, and he just...breaks? like he's telling himself hes not, while also trying to kill oc...just like gyu. The ascends to madness was so properly conveyed in that last scene, even though its been implied throughout the whole story that he basically has some sort of inner conflict and lost his moral compass wayyyy earlier. the last part really hit it in the nail, which is just so right for an ending scene.

the last part i want to touch on was the way you utilized oc's pov in the stalker part of the story. its the way i knew beomgyu and yeonjun were the ones literally hiding cameras in her room and have sick fantasies of wanting to own her, yet even with that background knowledge i still suspected soobin. and i still trusted beomjun. MAYBE IT WAS JUST ME??? but idk bro, i was so mad at myself when i pieced everything together the same time oc did. i seriously need to watch out, being gullible will be the death of me T-T but even me being super gullible aside, i think your writing is what really made me doubt soobin the way oc did.. i for sure thought we had another yandere on the loose LMAO.

okay now last last part I PROMISSEEE. i just really like the way you wrote how yeonjun/beomgyu broke her down then used her vulnerability to their advantage. its so sick but its such an easy trap to fall into. like obviously this is fiction and therefore it might be more on the extreme side but the tactics they used are just found literally in everyday abusive relationships and i especially liked how you touched upon the fact that extreme dependency can truly be the downfall of someone. and vulnerability, vulnerability was such a big part of the story!!

so, just last comment towards you. i know you worked hard on it and i wrote this entire essay basically to just emphasize that it paid off. i'm 100% sure you're proud of the work and i truly want you to be PROUDER. this was really, really, really good. i sat down, and read through the entire thing without feeling bored, always on the edge of my seat, enjoying your professional but almost casual way of using words (its literally genius the way you write), and truly this was such a perfect halloween post. thank you for writing, seriously. i honestly wish youd get a few bucks out of this (and im more than willing to give a couple IM BEING FRL) </3

one question since this is basically not an actual ask and me just ranting about how much i love your work: do you think you'll pursue writing professionally? have you thought about it? have you taken classes ? i wanna knowwwww

I’ll address a lot of specific points below, thank you so much! <3

(killing off Yeonjun) -It’s sick, but killing yj off was my favorite part! I knew immediately that this story would be dark, and what better way to end off such an intense scene than giving yj what he deserves? I really hope I was able to catch you guys off guard with that, but I made sure to subtly lead up to it with the jacket thing!!  (Beomgyu + thoughts on the term “yandere”)

-THANK YOU! Lemme just say, thriller holds such a special place in my heart, and making Beomgyu a fucked up character just allowed me to sneak in that action packed scene at the end haha

I was afraid of writing this story initially— the term “yandere” has taken on many different connotations and meanings, some more romanticized than others. My intent was never to paint such a relationship in a happy or cute light— even if they did have their little honeymoon stage where all was “right”, it’s still a toxic and horrible relationship; it’s always bound to fall apart in the end. Plus, Beomgyu and Yeonjun just became so insatiable that simply having her there was never enough— they needed to control her too. 

(Yeonjun + what if mc didn’t put on bg’s jacket?)

-Yeonjun was able to get away with being the better of the two throughout the whole story— so to hear that he wasn’t above everyone else like he so desperately believed, and from the mc no less— it felt like all his efforts were tumbling down, that no matter how hard he tried, it would never be good enough— which was a struggle he had to deal with all his life— it just completely broke the last bit of rationality that he had within him. 

Had the mc not put on bg’s jacket, Yeonjun would’ve killed her, then killed himself shortly after—they would only be discovered weeks later after their families reported them missing, a gruesome scene that would’ve destroyed all their relatives; Soobin’s body would’ve been found soon after, judging by the fact that the evidence is still in the cabin and intact. 

(Soobin the decoy lmao)

-God I feel so proud that I was able to fool some people at least! Soobin’s persisting affection was a key to making it all convincing— those passing comments, all the coddling and endless attempts to woo her, beomjun saw that and used it to their benefit. 

(Use of vulnerability)

-From the start, the mc was already a pretty vulnerable character; she was already away from home with no one else but Yeonjun— which only made her lean into him more and trust him. And because Beomgyu was quick to pick up on that, he knew that the only way to get her more dependent on them was to make her more vulnerable, with her last resort being them; of course, it’s a very drastic depiction, but thank you for noticing <333

(Plans for the future!)

-Thank you so so much :(((( this really means a lot to me, you have no idea. 

I have indeed decided to pursue writing professionally! It’s kind of scary to say, (write) but I hope to be able to succeed and publish books one day <3 it’s ambitious, but you never know!

Thank you sooo so much for this review, thank you for taking your time to write this, you have no idea how much this means to me— seriously, I couldn’t stop rereading all of the reviews i received <3

[theuniverseawakens347]

“ she cost me $25,000 for hair school and didn’t finish “

YOU THREW ME IN THE PAYCHWARD OCT 9 th I DID 6 months AND SHOWED UP EVERYDAY AFTER A YR AND CHANGE OF UNNECESSARY REHAB ( NO EMOTIONAL BREAK)

- 2 weeks home working in Torrance ca and driving to Calabasas to be with Tristan AND GOING TO WORK FIRAT THING IN THE MORNING FROM THERE OR HOME TO YOU THE NIGHT BEFORE

- SAME GET DOWN WHEN SCHOOL STARTED FROM MOD CITY LA TO SHERMAN OAKS SCHOOL TO CALABASSES MAYBE LATE 3 times WHEN I HELPED TRISTAN MOVE TO RANCHO … SCHOOL EVERY FUCKING DAY

- YOU GOT LIA AND DAE POSING AS ME AND OTHER MEXICAN KIDS WHO ARE MY COUSINS DOING TERRORIST THREATS BASICALLY AND MAKING ME LOOK RACIAT TO THE WHITE KIDS YOU LEE HATE FOR FAMILIES SUING YOU.

- YOU YOURSELF POSING AS A TEACHER W MY STUDENT ID TO HARASS OTHER TEACHERS AND PAY FOR STUDENTS TUITION OR EARLY GRAD LICENSE .. speed up their grad date BY THEM SACRIFICING ME AGAIN. SEP .. when did YOU LEAVE FOR UR VACAY TO THE EAST COAST BEFORE ME GOING IN OCT 9th - INDIA LOVE BUT ITS ME ANS ZJ AND EMAN “clarity besties” PARTAKING W LAINEY AND LINDSAY AND EMMA. in the house YOU STARTED ON EMAN THEN TURNED to KILLING ME.

- UR OWN FUCKING DAUGHTER! - THANKS BAYLEE FOR KILLING ME ON THE HIKE - DRUGS IN MY FOOD “Baylee did her own thing w penny” YOU FUCKING DICK WADS.

And Yal just watched “she’s telepathic she just knows things” NO IM NUMB LIKE LEE WANTED TIMOTHY PELYKO SO GARRAT CUD KILL ME FOR GOOD HOMELESS - NIPSEY SHOOTING GRANNY FLORANCE AND LAWANDA HOSPITALS - ALEXIS DRUGGING BEFORE SHOOTING .. 🫤🖕

ANYWAYS SINCE IM A BAD DEGREELESS STUDENT BITCH I GOT 9-13 HAIR CERTIFICATE WHILE BEING HOMELESS .. TRIED GETTING A SALON JOB AT BASIC LEVEL TO MAKE MONEY WHILE HOMELESS AND YO BITCH ASS REALLY THREATENED TO KILL THE SALONS BUSINESS IF THEY HIRED ME .. and paid em extra to report me crazy for even going on a interview… BEFORE I GOT THERE BUT YAL TOLD ME TO GO THERE

🫤🙂🖕

- YOU DONT WANT TO ACTUALLY HELP ME YOU JUST SAYING NICE THINGS TO MY FACE AND IN FRONT OF HOWARD LEE BUT MOSTLY THE OTHER FAMILY MEMBERS “ my friend in New York makes hair wigs for cancer patients call him” - NO I DONT WANT TO MAKE WIGS FOR CANCWR PATIENTS RIGHT NOW AND I HAVE A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT ROUTE IM GOING W WIG MAKING … ALSO ITS UR RECOMMENDATION THEY NEVER WORKED FOR ME

- “you should volunteer FREE hair cuts at ARC I’m on the board there I’ll talk to pat casino night is soon we’re planning it “ - OKAY COOL I CAN GET MY SCISSOR OVER COMB PRACTICE IN MEN CUTS - LEE NEVER PUT IN A WORD FOR ME .. JAN 2024. U care more about Ronnie n Nateana than me and Francis - WHY!? And Rachel GARLINGTON but it’s marry posing as Rachel. JOHN EVERYDAY I SEE WHY YOU HATE LIVING W LEE AS A KID // HER VISITING. - JULAN. MURDER.

“Cashay and Howard tell my mom we’ll take Amy just so she had a peaceful passing * fake cries* “ me and Howard “nigga what!?” - “it’s not real I just want gammy to pass peacefully without worry about Amy” Howard “Lee that doesn’t sound right” - Lee “Howard I just want my mom comfortable when dying and NOT stressed about Amy it’s not going to happen” - weird bc family dinner 3 days - week later “okay guys Amy’s moving in with us” - me and Howard “U SAID WE WERE JUST SAYING IT TO MAKE GAMMY COMFY” - Lee afraid to see her family she kilt and look John in the eyes - WHYD I SEE A WHITE HAIR SHORT BOB JANE WHEN I WAS WALKING W GARRET AND HE GOES “she looks familiar” HOW AND WHY TF HE KNOW JANE!? - fancy apartments by Ralph’s … 🙂🫤🖕

- Howard “try the pantages” - NO ITS A 9-5 COSTUME N HAIR YES ME LOVE BUT NOT IN A WORK AESTHETIC I WANT TO WORK FROM HOME WHERE IM COMFORTABLE TO DO MY FUCKING BEST - PAUL MITCHELL 4 IN ONE MENS CUT “cashay why are you always the first one done” - idk bro i found a short cut - I KNOW HOW TO CHALLENGE MYSELF WITHOUT GETTING IN TROUBLE - QUICK LEARNER.

OOOOH MISSS LEE.. why IS GARRET NOT HIS REAL NAME … UR FUCKING COUSIN!? - JANE LIVES IN LA NOW BETWEEN THE LIB N RALPHS N HE ATAYS W HER!?? That’s weird .. what’s the ocean blue n white apartments ( Avalon Ava fancy BIG LOUNGE LOBBY) .. north side going east .. hay ralphs … she didn’t say hi to me but he did try n fuck you to confuse me “she look familiar “ .. really ass hore WHY WUD YOU KNOW LEE SISTER BUT I AINT NEVER SEEN YOU - KNOCK OFF BEN AND I KNOW THIS CUNT NEXT TO ME BOTHERING ME EVERY DAY IS NOT BEN BUT SSI WHOS THAT GARRET - BEN!?

🙂🫤🖕

Jane nice wallet going to Ralph’s you cud have offered me food cunt as bitch - SHUT UP FOR NO REASON WHEN I WAS 11 “Lee control ur daughter she has a loose mouth” - AWKWARD JOHNS THOTS BOUT YOU COMING OUT MY MOUTH AND I ONLY MET YOU ONCE - GOOD LUCK IN HELLS PRISON DICK WDS.

LEE WHY YOU GOT ME ON PAPER AT THESE APARTMENTS AND MY CAR REGISTERED TO IT - JANE GOT BLUE PRIUS TOO NEWER COLOR OLDER TR LIES ON PAPER - “cashay let’s do insurance fraud on the porch ON CAMERA N HOWARDS CREDIT CARD NAME OFF THE WHITE HOUSE .. so I can steal UR REGISTRATION AND PUT JANES ON FILE” - OOPS I DIS CRIMINAL ACTIVITY WRONG HOPEFULLY THEY WONT CATCH ME THE WHITE LADY BUT INSTEAD YOU LR JANE FOR MAKING TAKING AMY FROM THE EAST COAST HARDER THAN IT NEEDED TO BE - CAITLIN NUGENT PAY OFF SHHH MONEY FOR WALKING IN WHILE PULLING THE PLUG 🙂🖕

[growingsproutlet]

Who Are You 5 Years From Now? 🎀🕯🦢

I am the star in any room that I stand in.

first thing’s first, you need to know where you want to go in life and what is your “aesthetic”? do you want to be giving “classy, businesswoman”? what about “nyc socialite”? of course these are just examples, but you should know what type of girl you want to embody. remember, you don’t have to fit a narrative, but you should have a general “aesthetic” that you want to be associated with. even if it’s 50 million different aesthetics, it’s whatever makes you, you.

I am model material.

please refer to my “starting your leveling up journey” post, but basically— you should create 1-3 habits for each of your goals and work on them until they become second nature. then when you’re ready, start implementing more habits that are aligned with your goals.

I have super-natural, jaw dropping beauty.

get inspired by making a vision board (physical or digital) and add to your board (if digital) daily. i find that this helps you stay in alignment with where you want to be in the future. you have to stay in that frequency and remind yourself of what’s next to come… because this new life is what’s next to come.

I have pretty privilege and I’m so glad to be apart of it.

can you incorporate some of these new habits into a morning or evening routine? we all know that routines are important— they almost become our personalities and they set the tone for the day and night, and even the next day. for me, i know i’m only inspired to exercise in the morning around 10am, so exercise is part of my morning routine.

I smell so good that when I pass, people turn to look at me.

let’s say part of your journey is learning a new language. a daily goal could be learning one new vocabulary word in that language. your weekly goal could be knowing the alphabet in that language. use this method for all of your goals.

Clothes look good when I wear them.

start slow; don’t overwhelm yourself. if you want to work on one goal at a time, then work on that one goal. burnout is real and it’s very hard to get back into the swing of things afterwards. i understand most of us are impatient when we just want to be a different version of ourselves, but it’s going to take some adjusting. i suggest not working on more than 3 things at once, but if you can work on more, go ahead

I am successful rich and living my dream life.

tumblr and facebook groups in my opinion are the best ways you can connect with other women who are working on the same thing. you can inspire one another, bounce ideas off of one another, and it’s super fun. you might want to even document your journey online.

I get paid to exist.

let’s say you would like to lose or gain weight, no matter the number, focus on 5-10 pound increments. when each milestone is successfully completed, reward yourself with something nice. maybe it’s getting your nails done, or splurging on a product that everyone on tiktok keeps talking about. apply this to any of your goals where there are milestones to get to.

9. I get princess treatment from everyone around me because that’s the only treatment I accept.

10. Every time someone mentions the word “cute” my face pops up in their mind.

11. im gorgeous and have everything every girl wants.

12. I radiate confidence.

I am living proof that being both smart and hot can co-exist at the same time.

you should not have any “zero days” meaning… you should be doing at least one thing everyday to reach a goal(s) you have. it doesn’t matter if one goal was to maintain a more organized, clean environment— do your dishes, set the trash out, clean up the hair from the bathroom sink, etc.

[imstunning]

I’ve had a bad week mentally like having breakdowns and being in the absolute worst mood and tbh I’m so close to ruining my own life from like displaced anger

[sangorous]

cinderella

word count: 1.06k

genre/warnings: fluff? angst/none.

nozel silva x black!fem!reader

a disney princess series part 1: cinderella

it's been five years since your mother has passed away and your father remarried someone new.

the move from your small town to the clover kingdom was something that you weren't expecting at all. you were so used to being in a small own where everyone knew each other, but when you moved to the clover kingdom, you felt like an outsider.

but now, you had a new life with your father, stepmother and two stepsisters.

your stepmother and stepsisters seemed nice when you first met them, but as soon as your father left the house; they became new people.

kicking you out of your own room, and moving you to the attic, where it was dusty and dirty. they turned you into a housemaid, carrying out their duty and doing their chores.

everyday you barley ate and drink, and it was a pattern you were use to. you became a slave in your own home as your father was away for work.

listening to your stepsisters nonsense, listening to your stepmother bicker and nag about situations that weren't a big deal, you couldn't take it anymore.

everyday, you'd go to your room in the attic and pray to the man upstairs that one day, you'd be free from their hell.

↳ ❝ [𝐂𝐈𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐋𝐋𝐀] ¡! ❞

you were downstairs sweeping the floor when a knock was heard from the door, "well don't just stand there stupid, open the door," akane scoffed, looking at you.

you sighed and walked to the door and there stood an unfamiliar man, "hello madam, the king and queen are hosting a ball today to help their son, prince nozel, find his bride," the man bowed.

"here is an invitation, we hope to see you there," he handed you an invitation.

"thank you kind sir," you smiled at him as you waved him off.

"what's in your hand ugly?" aiyo spoke as she walked up behind you.

"the king and queen are holding a ball," you softly spoke, handing her the invitation but she snatched it from you.

"you certainly don't need that," your stepmom chuckled, walking into the living room.

"now let's see what we have here?" she spoke, looking at the invitation.

"this is tonight?" she shouted.

"what are we still doing here? we have to find the finest dresses out there for you two," she clapped her hands and grabbed her purse, you sighed as they cheered and grabbed their handbags and followed their mother.

"mother perhaps i may tag along with you guys tonight if i finish my chores early?" you gave her a weak smile.

"of course dear," she gave you a fake smile.

"that's if you can finish them in time,"she whispered, laughing to herself as she closed the door.

you smiled to yourself as you watched them slam the door shut, and began to clean away.

↳ ❝ [𝐂𝐈𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐋𝐋𝐀] ¡! ❞

after three hours of cleaning the house, you rushed upstairs and decided to take a nice warm shower in the guest bathroom before your stepfamily came back from their shopping spree.

once you were finished, you walked out of the bathroom and cleaned it the way it was before and walked upstairs to your bedroom.

meanwhile downstairs, akane and aiyo and nancy made their way to their bedroom where they had their new dress in hand.

"so one of us has to get the prince so we can get out of here," aiyo scoffed, looking around the room.

"who are you telling? this house isn't big enough for us," akane gave a pout to the body mirror that stood in front of her.

"and that disease of a 'sister' thinks that mommy is going to let her out," akane snickered fixing her dress.

"i think it's time to go show mommy how beautiful we look don't you think?" aiyo looked at her sister with a big smile.

"let us go,"akane replied, lifting her dress up and walking out of their room and downstairs.

[akane's dress below: ]

[aiyo's dress below:]

"wow look at my stunning daughters," your stepmother spoke in awe as mina and nancy walked downstairs. you stared in awe as you watched your stepsisters make their way downstairs, looking like royalty while you looked down at your dress and saw that it was basic.

[ your dress below:]

"you tried stepsis, but you've got to try harder," aiyo snickered, patting your back as she walked away from you.

you sighed as they gathered by the door, taking pictures and smiling at the camera.

"is everyone ready?" your stepmother spoke and they nodded their heads.

"well let's go," she clapped her hands as they opened the door.

"oh dear," your mother turned around.

"can you get my purse down the hall please?" she gave you fake smile, and you nodded your head.

she saw this as an opportunity to quickly place a small nail on the end of your dress, and when you began to walk towards the hall, you heard a ripping noise. you turned around and your dress was ripped from top to bottom.

"oh no," you cried, dropping down to your knees.

"your dress is ruined," your stepmother gasped.

"which means you can't go to the ball," she gave you a fake pout.

"don't worry, we'll have fun for you, aiyo snickered, walking out of the house and to the carriage.

"don't stay up to late sweetheart," your stepmother shouted, slamming the front door.

you ran upstairs to the attic and dropped yourself on your bed, 'how could she do such a malicious thing?' you thought to yourself as the waterworks came down.

you just wanted a night out of the house. a night to have fun. a night to meet new people. and lastly, a night to find true love, but that was taken away from you.

you looked at your dress and cried once more as you changed back into your pajamas and stared at the hole that ruined your chance at love.

"what's the matter darling?" a soft voice spoke, causing you to slowly turn around.

"who are you?" you asked, observing the petite woman.

"i'm your fairy godmother," she gave you a smile, walking towards you.

"fairy godmother?" you questioned and she nodded her head.

"yes whenever you're having difficulties, i am summoned here to help you. now what troubles you dear?" she spoke, looking at you.

"i wanted to go to the ball, but my stepmother took a small nail and placed it at the end of my dress, causing it to rip," your eyes began to water as you looked at the dress.

"all i wanted was to go to the ball. i'm always locked up in the attic and sent off to do chores and it's not fair!" you shouted, slamming your hand on the bed.

"don't you worry about that sweetheart, we'll make it happen," she smiled, waving her wand around you.

you felt yourself lifting up and saw glitter and sparkles being thrown around you as you twirled around and felt something covering you. once everything was done, you were back on your feet and stood in front of the mirror in awe.

[ your new dress: ]

"well don't just stand here, go to the ball sweetheart," she smiled at you, and you carefully jogged down the stairs and out of the front door.

a beautiful white carriage waited outside for you, and your jaw dropped, "now listen to me. this is only temporary, you have until the clock strikes midnight. once midnight is here, everything will go back to normal. the carriage, your dress, the makeup, and everything else," she gave you a stern look.

"thank you so much, how can i repay you?" you looked at her.

"your hard work already paid off honey," she winked at you as the carriage drove off.

↳ ❝ [𝐂𝐈𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐋𝐋𝐀] ¡! ❞

you stood outside the mansion and everyone was either walking inside the ballroom or talking outside.

you slowly walked up the stairs and made your way inside the ballroom. people were dancing with each other, sitting down eating, or making conversation.

as you walked around, you felt your shoulder collide with someone else's.

"oh im so sorry," you softly spoke, looking at him.

"it was my mistake," he chuckled softly.

"i'm prince nozel," he added, sticking his hand out.

"i'm cinderella," you shook his hand with a small smile.

"would you like to dance?" he asked, looking at you and you shook your head.

nozel grabbed your hand, and the two of you headed to the dance floor where the two of you danced. as the two of you were dancing and making conversation, you lost track of time.

you looked around for a clock and when you found one, it was already 11:50.

"oh no," you gasped, letting go from him embrace.

"where are you going?" he asked, following behind you.

"i must return before curfew," you shouted, running down the steps.

"wait will i ever see you again?" he shouted, behind you.

"i hope so," you shouted, turning around.

you stared at him and gave him a one more smile before you turned around and ran to the carriage, hoping you'd make it home in time before the carriage turned back into the pumpkin.

nozel sighed as he shook his head. the one opportunity he had to find his princess, failed. he was really intrigued by cinderella and wanted to see her again. he slowly walked down the steps and when he walked down the last steps, he saw something: a blue glass heel.

"this might be hers, which means i can see her again," he smiled to himself, walking back to the ball.

this was pure shit, but anything for nozel. ~tori 😗

[nikrangdan]

cafeworker!ni-ki

pairing: cafeworker!ni-ki x female reader

genre: fluff, comedy

description: the cashier at the new coffee shop was so adorable you just couldn’t resist visiting just for him

**did not proofread

————

contrary to popular belief, you were NOT a social person

whenever you were around friends and family, you were always the loudest person there

like SHUT UP Y/N!!!!!!

anyways although you were loud, people still enjoyed being around you because you had such a sweet soul and interesting humor

everyone close to you knew that you hated talking to people you didnt know

but to all the strangers? no

they would think you were an outgoing ready-to-meet-new-people extrovert

which was so, so wrong

but ALAS, you had to talk strangers almost everyday living in 2020

(well lets pretend we arent in the middle of a pandemic right now)

moving on......

so you were in high school at the downfall of your existence

you used to have so many friends when you were younger ..now you only have like 3

and those three were always busy (busy making up excuses thats for sure) so you never really hung out with them outside of school

and on one fine evening after school you decided to visit the new cafe 5 minutes from your house

u were really excited because all the cafes were 15 minutes from your house so now u could just walk to this one if u wanted to !!!

but yeah it was in the middle of a small plaza that had cute buildings

you pulled up to the parking lot and was just about to get out the car when u remembered..

u have to talk to the cashier :/

who’s a stranger! even more ://

it was always so weird to you.. whenever you went out you always had someone else order for you because you just hated talking to strangers

you just felt uncomfortable and you couldnt help it

its not like you have never ordered for yourself but you would always prefer not to

and now that you think about it

this is the first time you have gone out by yourself

you did text one of your friends beforehand but they said they “had homework to do”

LIES!!!!

but you really wanted to try the coffee so you just ran with it

time to face your fears!

you opened the glass door to reveal a cute looking cafe, like the ones you’d see in movies

you loved it already

glancing to the cashier you’d have to be talking to—

hold on

you had to do a double take because WOAH.....

the cashier...

he....

wow..

you have never seen a boy like that in your life

you stood there for like 3 seconds before coming to your senses and standing infront of the menu

that was infrONT OF HIM

“hi, what can i get for you?”

HIS VOICE OH MY GOD..!?!?!

“oh um.. can i get a second to .. look..?”

“yeah of course,” he gestured to the menu on the wall above him

hes so nice u almost cried

your eyes shakily traveled up to the chalkboard menu and u began to ‘read’ the options

its like u could feel his eyes on u WTF!!!!

um um um *internally keyboard smashes*

you couldnt even think

the words on the menu were like gibberish

the ONE time u go out by yourself

this had to happen.. of course! someone had it out for you, you were sure of it >:(

picking a random drink you gave him your order

“uh can i have an iced caramel macchiato?”

ITS LIKE YOU CANT SAY A SENTENCE WITHOUT UH OR UM

u cant help but think hes judging you

he looks like that while u are standing there in old sweatpants your dads tshirt

“sure, what size?” he looks into your eyes after putting your order into the machine

god you felt your heart stop

his Eyes..... theyre so beautiful

“oh um regular” you attempted to give a small smile

hopefully it looked like one

“okay that’ll be $5.12.”

you dug out some cash from your bag and handed it to him

he gave u your change and gave u a small smile

“your drink will be out in a minute”

AAAAA

he went :)

he is so CUTE.....?!?!

he looked around your age too

sigh... you knew he was way out of your league though

you were gushing over him but he probably thought you were just another boring customer

while waiting u sat at one of the 2 person tables on your phone

and u IMMEDIATELY went to text your groupchat

‘GUYS’

‘AT THE CAFE NEAR MY HOUSE’

‘CUTEST BOY IVE EVER SEEN EVER IN MY ENTIRE LIFE’

‘WTF IM GONNA CRY HOW DOES HE EXIST’

‘WAIT BRB HE S COMIBBG’

you tried to quickly put your phone down without looking suspicious when you saw him walking towards you with a drink in his hand

“here you go, enjoy” he said before swiftly making his way back to the counter and talking to the other worker there

wow... hes so mesmerizing

you’d steal glances at him every now and then while taking sips of your drink

you were sitting there for like 20 minutes before you noticed you finished your drink

you totally forgot you came here to see how good their coffee was

it was good by the way

sadly it was your time to leave

taking one last glance at him, you threw away your empty cup and walked out the door

wow

u cant believe you got to witness the most beautiful human being ever

in your small town?? crazy

you were sitting in your car just thinking

WAIT

U DIDNT EVEN KNOW HIS NAME!

you mentally punched yourself but then you started laughing

what does knowing his name even matter, its not like u were ever going to talk to him anyway

LOL

*sad emoji*

but the coffee was good so you definitely planned to go back

and not just because of the cute boy

...unless....

*time skip*

the next day you went there was a week later at the same time in hopes that he was working the same shift

AND HE WAS!!!!

score! 1 for y/n, 0 for umm... any other person who had a crush on him too i guess

the cafe didnt have too many people since it was fairly new and also in a small part of the city

so when you went in, you were the only one there along with the two workers

“welcome, what would you like to order?”

NOT THIS AGAIN

he looked even cuter today

his messy blond hair almost covered his eyes

you shouldve forced your friend to come with you this time

you ordered the same thing as last time but this time he asked for your name

hmmm

“um y/n” you answered

your heart was always beating 2 times as fast whenever you had to talk to him

he wrote it down on the cup and after you paid, you went to sit down at the same spot as last time

looking at him is literally the highlight of your day

the same thing happened as last time, he came over and gave you your drink without giving u a second glance

>:((((

boooo look at me cute boy

nonetheless u continued going to the cafe at the same time as much as u could which was like three times a week

literally over a month later and u dont think anythings going to happen

u punch yourself for thinking the boy would somehow find interest in you

hes still indifferent to you which isn’t surprising since you’ve never made any kind of move

ever

but

he should know u by now

hopefully..

*time skip again*

it was a saturday

at this point you’ve basically given up on having a crush on him and now since its become a routine u just say you go for the coffee

not really paying attention to your surroundings you dont notice that the boy at the cash register isnt the normal one you see almost everyday

“hey, what would you like to order?”

woah WHAT

you look up from your bag to notice a boy that was definitely not the one that normally stood infront of it at this time

and you also noticed something on this new cashier

a name tag

how come your old little crush didnt have one????

this new boys name was ‘jay’ and he was fairly cute too

looking around the corner at the other worker u noticed he has a name tag too

you recognized him because he was always working when the cute boy was at the cash register

his name was ‘heeseung’

after taking in these new additions you answered to jay

“oh um.. can i ge-,”

“she gets an iced caramel macchiato. her name is y/n”

??!<_|#%[>~€\£~

you whipped your head around so fast to see who said that behind you

was it who you thought it was ??!??!

YES IT WAS!!!!

OH MYGOD

ITS HIM

you widened your eyes at the boy who wasnt wearing his normal black and white uniform

instead he was wearing black ripped jeans and a gray hoodie

wow....... and u thought he couldnt look any better

BUT OMG?? HE REMEMBERS U

“oh wow ni-ki, you know her?” the boy named jay asked him

“uh yeah.. shes a regular” he said before walking to stand next to you

NI-KI

HIS NAME IS NI-KI OHMHGOD

u thought his name fit him perfectly its so CUTE

“are you gonna get something too?”

this whole time you were silent because.. what is going on

your heart was being SO fast you thought that everyone could hear it

“yup, can i get the same thing? also im paying for both of us”

WHAT??/):)/$;##\%|

ur eyes widened even more it looked like they were gonna pop out of its sockets

u unconsciously leaned towards the boy next you and kind of put your hands up

“w-what?? oh um no, you dont have to do that” you nervously said to him as he looked down at you

he kind of had a smile on his face

“i want to.”

there is no way this is happening

“oiiii ni-ki” jay chuckled while punching in numbers on the cash register

“ill have both of your drinks out soon, you two kids have fun!” jay said before turning around to face heeseung

WHAT??!!??!

your jaw almost dropped from shock

millions of thoughts ran through your brain and you couldnt even process anything

u cant believe this was happening

it was like a wattpad story or something.. is this how u meet ur soulmate

your thoughts were interrupted by a hand on your back momentarily and u look to see ni-ki shyly grinning and gesturing u towards a table

no way...

you awkwardly follow him to a 2 person table next to wall and sit down

you literally could not hear anything except for the pounding of your heart

“uh sorry about that...” he rubbed his neck and sheepishly smiled

“im ni-ki by the way”

“y/n...” u felt so awkward u wanted to cry

“agh, im really sorry if that was weird.. i just didnt know how to ask you out.....” he trailed off

*passes out*

IM JOKING

Ok but u felt ur heart stop bc NO WAY

“wait what??” u ask, ur eyes bigger than the moon

“um yeah... haha i took the day off today to try to talk to you.. sorry if that was weird..”

HE WAS SO AWKWARD JUST LIKE YOU IT WAS THE CUTEST THING EVER

“no its okay!! im glad actually...”

“really? so is it okay if we hang out?” he asked excitedly

u did not think u could handle HOW CUTE THIS BOY WAS O M G...

“of course! sorry if im kind of awkward though” you gave a small smile

“its okay, i think i am too”

you two began talking about the cafe and where you went to school

turns out even though you two lived in the same town (literally 5 minutes away from eachother) u went to different schools for some reason

u talked for like 2 minutes before jay walked up with your drinks

“hows it going guys?”

“its doing good bro, now go away..” ni-ki lightly shoved jay and laughed

you giggled at the sight

jay looked offended and came right back

“that is not how you talk to your elders ni-ki! y/n do you see this?!” he scoffed

ni-ki just rolled his eyes and turned back to you

“do not ignore me young man!” jay joked

“oh y/n, ive heard all about you from ni-ki over here by the way.”

ni-ki’s eyes got so big you almost got worried

he turned around so fast and gave jay one of those ‘i swear if you say anything ur dead meat’ looks

jay obviously did not care

“hes always like ‘y/n this y/n that’ blah blah im glad he finally got the balls to ask you out because im honestly sick of hearing it!” jay laughed

u were blushing so hard

NI-KI LIKED U????

this felt like a dream

ni-ki pushed jay away so hard and turned back with red cheeks

awe

but yeah that was the beginning of the cutest relationship ever

u and ni-ki were so cute together <333

you’d always visit him during ur free time

it took like 2 months before u two made it official tho

and he was the sweetest boyfriend ever

[azucanela]

7. SNEAKING SOMEONE OUT | SHINSOU HITOSHI

1K CELEBRATION MASTERLIST

SUMMARY: Shinsou finds himself craving chicken nuggets, and Y/N’s presence, at 2AM. So naturally, he comes over and helps her sneak out so that they can get food and hang out, much to Y/N’s dismay. 

WORD COUNT: 2K

WARNINGS: crackfic turned sad boy hours but also fluff

A/N: this got deep and is basically pure self indulgence of my emotions 

Y/N really should’ve expected this. She really should have.

Shinsou had a tendency to simply, not sleep, he was a certified insomniac. No matter how many solutions Y/N had offered him, none of them worked. Which is why Y/N tended to wake up to about 75 messages from Shinsou each morning, varying from memes, to tik toks, to philisophical rambles, to the stupidest questions he’d ever asked her.

He’d never texted her this much though, her phone nearly falling off the nightstand because of how much it was vibrating whilst on silent, rousing her from sleep. Y/N groaned into her pillow, hand extending to her right in search of her phone as she patted around the nightstand with no success. Inhaling deeply, Y/N rolled onto her back, bring her hands up to rub her eyes before stretching her arms upward as she sat up in bed and turned to her side. Y/N picked up her phone, squinting at the ridiculously bright light that met her eyes as she read the time.

2:03AM

Y/N couldn’t help but smile at the sight of her lock screen, a picture of her and Shinsou, taken at a school festival they’d had. It had taken a lot of convincing to get him to agree to a photo, much to Y/N’s dismay, but he relented eventually. The memory only served as a reminded of the messages displayed on her screen, a lot of messages, most of which were from Shinsou. But Y/N only found herself looking at the most recent ones. 

shinsou <3 y/n wake up

y/n

y/n get up 

im coming over now, and no you don’t have a choice in this matter

you better be awake by the time i get there or i will egg your window

we are going to get food by the way [1:34AM]

shinsou <3 hey loser im here

climb out your window

are you even awake

y/n i swear [2:01AM]

In a perfect world, Shinsou would’ve been joking, and Y/N would’ve been able to go back to bed and text him again in the morning about a weird video she saw online. However this was Shinsou and the world was far from perfect. Meaning the boy was definitely parked outside her house. Y/N moved to slip out of bed and peer outside her window, only to see Shinsou was already standing on the grass of her front yard, fingers typing furiously against his phone as Y/N felt her phone vibrate in her hand once more. 

She found herself glaring as she threw the phone onto the bed to free both her hands and open the window. Pushing the window up, Y/N bent down slightly to put the upper half of her body outside as she called out to Shinsou, “what the hell?”

The boy looks up almost instantly, and Y/N can practically see the panic in his eyes, though it fades when he realizes it was her who spoke, shoving his phone back into his pocket. “Are you ready?” He calls back in a hushed whisper, eyes narrowing as he scans the surrounding area.

“Shinsou—” Y/N brings a hand to her temple as she exhales deeply, “we are not going out to eat, it two in the morning!” She cried out, one hand making vivid gestures in an attempt to get her point across, while the other supported her weight on her slanted roof.

He rolled his eyes in response, “there’s a reason that some fast food restaurants are open all day long. This is the reason, now let’s go.” Shinsou has that same apathetic tone he uses everyday, as though this is something completely normal that they do everyday.

“I am not sneaking out of my house so that you can get some— some chicken nuggets!” 

Shinsou falters, face falling temporarily as he presses his lips together, “if you really don’t want to Y/N, you don’t have to.” His voice is soft enough that she can barely hear him because of the distance between them, but she does. Y/N can tell he means it, this isn’t an attempt to guilt her into going with him, and yet she can’t help but feel horrible for not going along with it. 

Which is why Y/N was now dressed in sweatpants and a tank top, trying her hardest not to fall off her roof as Shinsou called out to her, “Y/N. Don’t make me use my quirk—”

“You wouldn’t dare.” They both knew he’d never use his quirk on her, he had far too much respect for her. And he’d explicitly told her, more accurately, promised her during one of their rare late night talks, that he’d never try. 

He doesn’t reply, simply glaring at her as he comes up from under the edge of the roof, where Y/N had been sitting for the past few minutes, in fear of jumping off. “Just jump.”

“No.” She practically hissed, scowling as she peered over the side of the roof once more, viewing the drop, which wasn’t that far. Shinsou also stood below, meeting her glare with his own annoyed stare. 

“Y/N, come on.”

“You should be grateful I am even accompanying you, i could easily just go back to the safety of my room and have a simple and quiet night but you insisted—”

“I’ll buy you whatever you want, just come on.”

Looking back on it, Y/N really didn’t think this was worth it. Her parents would very likely end her life should they discover her... late night escapades alongside Shinsou, but at the same time, this was odd behavior for him. Texts in the middle of the night were normal, yes, but randomly deciding to come over because he wants food at 2AM? Weird. 

But Y/N couldn’t deny the that this was fun. Driving down practically empty roads, phone plugged into the aux so she could play whatever music she wanted— though Shinsou judged every song she played rather brutally. The windows were rolled down all the way and Y/N had never felt more refreshed as she sat beside Shinsou in the passenger seat of his car, watching as he ordered their food through the drive through.

A comfortable silence fell between them as he paid and thanked the cashier at the window, retrieving their food and wordlessly handing it to Y/N before driving to the parking lot of the establishment. She found herself taking sips of her milkshake and absentmindedly eating fries.

Yet Y/N couldn’t help but feel concerned as she looked over at the boy, hand on the wheel as he quietly hummed along to the playlist they shared. Drives with Shinsou weren’t rare, seeing as he drove Y/N to school practically daily, especially since he didn’t trust her driving skills.

Her brows furrow as she leans back in her seat, folding her arms before speaking, “are you okay, Hitoshi?” Y/N looks away from him, “answer honestly.”

She can feel his eyes land on her when she finished speaking, Y/N can’t help that she floods with anxiety as she awaits his answer, only to look to Shinsou to see a small smile on his face as he parks in the parking lot of the brightly lit restaurant. “Yeah. I’m good actually.” Y/N tilts her head at his words, awaiting for him to continue, he seems to consider what he says next carefully, “are you glad you came here, with me?”

Though Y/N feared the repercussions should they get caught, she already knew her answer, “yes. I’m happy to be here.” Y/N fidgets with her fingers as she inhales deeply, eyes drifting to her window, “I think— I think I would’ve regretted it more, if I hadn’t come with you actually. And I don’t want to regret anything.” She bites her lip anxiously, picking at her fingernails, “I wish I was more adventurous sometimes, I guess?” 

Y/N couldn’t explain the feeling well, the one that made her wonder if she was missing out on certain parts of life, parts that she might’ve experienced if she had been just a bit more bold. In the moment, yeah, it seemed horrifying, but Y/N couldn’t help but wonder afterwards if she should’ve said yes. She couldn’t help but feel regretful as she wondered what could’ve been. 

Sitting there with Shinsou made her feel like a hypocrite though, seeing as she’d had feeling for the boy for longer than she cared to admit, and would likely regret never telling him. Though Y/N was fairly sure she would regret it more if she did tell him and he rejected her, so hiding her feelings was far more ideal. But the small part of her that wanted to tell him, to just come forward with her feelings, regardless of the outcome. 

Y/N tries to push away these thoughts, bringing her attention back to the moment at hand as Shinsou rests his head against the seat, fingers tapping at the wheel of the parked vehicle, “I get it.” Comes his reply, and he seems to be rather deep in thought as he sits there, hand reaching into his bag for some fries.

Y/N feels compelled to speak, to tell him that he does make her happy, because she can tell that a small part of him doesn’t believe her, so when she opens her mouth the words just begin to fall out. “You make me happy, you know.” Y/N doesn’t know how else to explain it, and she doesn’t see his eyes widen a fraction as he shifts in his seat to look at her, “I never would’ve done something like this before I met you. But...” Y/N turns to meet his eyes, offering him a smile, “well, I’m really glad I met you Hitoshi. You make me feel like I’m living—”

“And there’s a difference between living and just being alive, you know?”

Y/N can’t help the way her cheeks warm, feeling as though she overshared as she watches Shinsou nod slowly, “I get it.” He repeats, brows drawing together, he opens his mouth just to close it immediately after.

“What?” 

Shinsou straightens at her words, clearing his throat as he brings a hand to the back of his neck, “I don’t... I don’t want to regret anything either.” His lips press together in a tight lipped smile as he looks up at the roof of the car for a moment, cursing quietly before returning his gaze to Y/N. 

Their third year would be starting soon, and Shinsou had considered this for a while. No matter how close he and Y/N were now, he couldn’t help but wonder where they’d be after graduating from UA. Both of them would be heading out in the world to become heroes, something that would likely take them in two very different directions. Maybe they’d never speak again after graduation, or maybe their friendship would fade, but Shinsou had a feeling his feelings never would. Y/N’s words just served as a reminder of just how finite their time together was.

Shinsou didn’t know when he fell for her, maybe it was right now, watching her take a sip of her milkshake as she watched him curiously, flustered under his piercing gaze. Maybe it was that time in class when she’d let him fall asleep just to wake him at the end and hand him notes she’d taken just for him, or maybe it was when she hugged him for the first time because he’d gotten in the hero course. He decided that didn’t matter, because he did know that Y/N L/N wasn’t going to be one of his regrets.

"I’m in love with you.”

A/N: this is unedited and the product of my brain at 1AM so i sincerely hope its not bad jkashdjkashdkjh

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[royriza]

Royai Horoscope

A Roy and Riza Character and Relationship Analysis based on their Zodiac signs

Image Source: Fullmetal Alchemist Playing Cards

Disclaimer: I am not suggesting horoscopes are scientific means of analyzing personality nor that it is accurate. This is just for fun!

Roy Mustang

Birthday: 06/01/1885 (on basis of Roy’s Day and his actual birthyear)

Zodiac Sign: Gemini - the Twins

Element Sign: Air

We may think he’s more suited in being a Fire sign, but if you take a closer look with how Roy creates fire, it all makes sense. Hiromu Arakawa shares in one omake that Roy creates fire by controlling the amount of oxygen in the air. I believe Flame Alchemy is based on the concept of control. We only notice the times Roy has lost control, but we fail to appreciate all the times he maintainted it. He’s not what he seems from the surface, and this is why we think he’s always not what he appears on the surface. Which leads us too conclude that he may appear two-faced.

Traits:

two-faced - like most Geminis, Roy tends to have a reputation of being two-faced. His personality depends on how others treat him, and how he views them. He loves to stir rumors and gossips, creating an impression that is completely different from who he actually is (E14, FMAB) (I’m making a more in-depth character analysis about this, but one that is based on psychology)

(this is a long post, so if you want to keep reading, be my guest!)

social chameleon - being the life of the party, Roy knows how to socialize with different types of people. He can easily read the room and know exactly what other people want to hear from him, as with most Geminis. This makes him extremely popular among townsfolk and political leaders.

social chameleon - being the life of the party, Roy knows how to socialize with different types of people. He can easily read the room and know exactly what other people want to hear from him, as with most Geminis. This makes him extremely popular among townsfolk and political leaders.

flirtatious - and of course, Roy is popular with women, as stated by Team Mustang (FMA 03, E37). He’s naturally flirtatious, whether he does it on purpose or not. Like most Geminis, Roy jumps from one date to another. But we see him go to dates to collect information before tackling a conflict, another trait of Geminis. He asks Olivier for dinner as a disguise to relay information and planning (FMAB, E42-46 im not sure which one). Again, every action he does isn’t what it appears on the surface. And of course, he deliberately makes people believe he’s a womanizer. He shares his reason for being Führer was to let female officers wear miniskirts (FMA 03, E13), but later on we see it’s because he wanted to protect people (FMAB, E10). This leads us too concluding that he’s...

intelligent - most Geminis don’t appear to be smart at first, but when taken a closer look, they’re rather cunning and have remarkable wit. As seen with how he strategizes plans, Roy’s intellect is unquestionable. He even competes with Maes Hughes during their military academy days (FMAB Special E04). Aside from that, he is also emotionally intelligent, as in most Geminis. In another iconic scene, Roy immediately knows something is wrong upon talking to Riza on the phone (FMAB, E38)

optimistic - in general, Geminis are the kind of people who look forward to the future rather than attempting to change the past. Roy is actually optimistic. We never see him falter or mope around, he’s always the one who says “we can do better next time.” He tells Ed to stand up and have a chance on getting their bodies back rather than sulk about what had happened (FMAB, E2).

impulsive - due to Gemini’s adaptability and versatility, they never stay in one place. We see Roy move from one date to another and procrastinate on paperwork (FMA 03, E37). Riza frequently tells him not to be reckless, (FMAB E01, E05 - encounter with Scar, E19 - coming to the scene). When Roy had offered her flowers, he reasoned that he got “too drunk” and ended up buying a carload of flowers (FMAB, E38). Another one of his two-facedness. Although it was an excuse, Riza paid no attention to it. Maybe because she was that used to his impulsiveness lololololol. But we see this trait heighten when he was consumed with anger and vengeance on Envy (E53-54).

Riza Hawkeye

Birthday: 09/01/ 1887-1889 (based on Riza’s day and age range)

Zodiac Sign: Virgo - The Virgin

Element Sign: Earth

Earth signs are always grounded. We see how Riza always keeps her calm in situations (except when she thought Roy died lol). It’s no wonder how she holds Team Mustang together and keeps their sanity. Sometimes I wonder how she puts up with them lol.

Traits:

perfectionist - like in most Virgos, we see Riza always striving for the best. This is most evident in her specialty: accurate gunshots. When a military officer complimented her for striking the bull’s eye in the firing range, she told him “I still have a long way to go.” (FMA manga, Volume 6). Kimblee even taunts her, “Doesn’t it make you feel satisfied when you hit the target on one shot?”, whose words hit Riza like her own on-point bullets (FMAB, E30). In FMA 03, we see her blame herself for not being there on time. Roy replies by saying the world isn’t perfect, but that makes it beautiful (FMA 03, E51).

hardworking and organized - she gets things done stat. She does Roy’s paperwork and always reminds him to do them. Aside from that, she is very dedicated on work, she even delivers paperwork to the Führer’s residence late at night (FMAB, E37). Her dedication for work is most evident when she stood up all night while Roy was in a meeting in Central HQ (FMAB, E25). Other than that, she is obedient, she never fails to comply any order as long as it is within her morale. Even on the verge of death, she told the gold-toothed doctor she won’t die since she is “under strict orders not to die.” (FMAB, E58)

stubborn and uptight - in line with the previous trait, most Virgos are stubborn and uptight. Once they set their mind on a plan, they want it followed pronto! Roy even comments that Riza is stubborn (FMAB, E24) when she insists she will wait until Roy’s meeting is finished. Because of this, Riza may appear uptight. She bosses around Team Mustang, basically. For this reason, co-workers regard her as Roy’s babysitter (FMAB, E17). She tends to follow an everyday routine, as seen on how she and Black Hayate spends their mornings (FMA 03, E37).

reserved and untrusting - for some reason, we see Riza as reserved. I can’t pinpoint an exact moment where she’s shy, but I guess we assume she is because she rarely speaks. Riza isn’t an open book, and Virgos tend to have trouble trusting other people. This is evident since Riza holds the secrets of Flame Alchemy on her back. As an independent person, she may find it hard to rely on someone. It might have been hard for Riza to choose to trust Roy, and doing so might have caused a whole lot of consideration. That is, until she finally asks Roy, “Can I entrust you my father’s research?” Well, we see how much trust she gives to him since we never once saw her complain about anything— except with Roy.

honest - Riza is known to have a dry humor, and she never holds back on any comment she has. It’s seen on how she makes jokes with Rebecca Catalina (FMAB, E46). She’s blunt with her words— even calling Roy, her superior, an idiot or is useless (FMA 03 E15; FMAB E01, E05, E19, E53). She even asks Fuhrer Bradley a personal question, “Is that even called a family?” (FMAB, E42). Riza also declined Pride’s offer to join their forces, even in the face of threat (FMAB, E37).

patient and observant - aside from dealing with Team Mustang on a daily basis, her patience is very apparent on her character. In order to take a shot, she waits for the perfect timing. She’s also very observant, especially on the things Roy fail to communicate verbally. Whenever they visited Hughes’ grave, it was shown that Riza can sense Roy’s grief, and knows something is up (FMAB E10, E50)

intelligent - other than all the aforementioned reasons, we see Riza’s intelligence as she was able to count and remember the steps from Laboratory 5 to the door. And they figured out it was between the Fuhrer’s residence and Central HQ. (FMAB, E21). A more iconic scene was when she was able to figure out who Pride is (FMAB, E37).

kind - We see Riza as empathetic, especially to the young. She is in good terms with Winry (FMAB, E02; FMA Star of Milos) and Ed and Al (FMAB, E30). We see her voluntarily adopt Black Hayate (FMA 03, E13). Roy even admits it, “She may appear like that, but the Lieutenant is really kind.” (FMA manga, somewhere sksjskdjsks idk what volume)

Roy and Riza Compatibility

(based on their signs)

Both of them are polar opposites, like Roy is outgoing and Riza is shy. These might create conflict or it might also complement their flaws. Roy’s spontaneity helps with Riza’s rigidity. Just as Riza helps him stay on track with his work, Roy lets her lossen up a bit (FMAB E17-E19, where Riza is disguised as Elizabeth).

Riza’s critical untrusting judgement and Roy’s two-facedness may create conflict between them. Plus, Roy being easily bored might not work well with what Riza wants, which is routine and constancy. There might also be a problem with Roy’s flirtiness, which might ignite Riza’s doubtfulness.

Fortunately, they have both lessened these problems since they have laid their relationship on trust. Riza has entrused her back to Roy, along with the secrets of Flame Alchemy. Roy, on the other hand, has also entrusted his back to her (and his life, as she is free to take it if he will stray away from the right path). We see this on FMAB E54, when Riza stopped Roy from being consumed by revenge. In that scene, we also saw how Roy’s impulsiveness was balanced out by Riza’s strict compliance to rules and routine.

Aside from their differences, they also share many similarities. With their high emotional and intellectual compatibility, they entertain themselves in witty banters (well we often observe that). They share the same realistic attitude, and goals towards life (creating a better world even through a muddy path, FMAB E30).

They also share a negative trait of not being able to express their feelings easily. They may have trouble putting their feelings into words. Good thing they both learned to communicate nonverbally— and this is seen on another iconic moment when Riza’s glance saved them both from threat (FMAB, E54). After all, they’ve “known each other for quite some time.”

Again, this is all for fun! It’s fun to read horoscopes and get writing prompts from there wahaha here are some of my references: Gemini, Virgo, Gemini and Virgo compatibility

I’ll be making a proper character analysis soon right on my fma analysis blog @fullmetalanalyst !

[evilscheme]

hi! what are you using to study japanese? im interested in learning it too but i have no idea what the best way to go about it is

hi there! in short, i use a wide variety of resources for different aspects of the language. i'll go more in depth about what i use under the cut. it's going to be long.

for kanji, i use wanikani. it is a paid service that uses spaced repetition and mnemonics to teach you kanji, and various vocabulary words utilizing those kanji. like i said, it's a paid service, but they let you go through about 4 out of 60 levels for free. it doesn't sound like much, but i THINK it took me at least a few weeks if not a month to get through all that. i think that's plenty of time for you to decide if that method works for you before you ever have to think about paying. i'm currently on level 29 out of 60 and that's after a whole entire year of studying on there practically every day! it's a lot of kanji. there's also tons of userscripts and companion apps for your phone that other users have made to provide more quality of life features. you can find them on the forums. i feel i shouldn't need to say this, but i strongly recommend knowing hiragana and katakana before using this tool.

as for learning hiragana and katakana, i'm going to be honest with you. i learned hiragana when i was around 9 or 10 years old through a ds game called "my japanese coach" ... i didn't learn katakana until i was much older though, and i did that through duolingo. i don't recommend duolingo as your primary japanese learning tool, but it's helpful for learning hiragana, katakana, and picking up some basic vocabulary.

speaking of picking up vocabulary, i've used pretty much every free language app out there. duolingo and memrise were the ones that i personally liked the most. lingodeer also seems pretty good. however, i don't recommend any of them as being your primary learning resource. just use them in conjunction with other things whenever you feel like it. when i was starting out, i also read a lot of very simple japanese books i found online. my favorite site for this was here, but you can find plenty of different places that have free books like this if you search around. now that i'm more at a pre-intermediate level of proficiency, i've begun picking up more words by playing (simple) games like animal crossing in japanese, and watching a lot of japanese comedy shows. (the latter is also fantastic for listening practice, which is so important!)

listening practice is so important in fact, that i'm going to specifically say that you really really need to do that. even if you can't understand anything that's being said yet. it's essential to becoming familiar with the sounds of the language, and the varying ways in which real people speak. there are tons of japanese language podcasts for learners that lean towards beginners. you can find a lot of them on spotify. seriously, you need to do this.

there's a japanese man named Yuta Aoki who will email you free mini lessons on various aspects of the language. he also has paid lessons, but they're pretty expensive (because they're thorough and focused on real everyday japanese, rather than textbook japanese), so i haven't signed up for the premium lessons myself. but i find his free lessons quite helpful for things i don't already know, and i think it would be great for a beginner. you can find his youtube channel here, where he links the signup for his free lessons in the descriptions of pretty much every video he posts.

in regards to grammar, that is admittedly my weakest point of study. textbooks can be nice, but they're exhausting to read through on your own outside of a classroom, and they're often ordered in very bizarre and inefficient ways. many of them put complex ideas near the front, and too many basic essentials deep into the chapters. i'm still trying to find a way to study grammar that works for me, but so far i'm enjoying a program called human japanese. it is a bit structured like a textbook, but it's far more interactive and has quizzes, bookmarks, and other tools built in. it also has lessons about the culture, which is an often overlooked portion of study. it isn't free, but like wanikani, it lets you go through a nice chunk of the curriculum before it ever asks you to pay. no harm in trying it out to see if you like it!

and one last thing, once you get a basic grasp of things such as kana and a few beginner words, i would definitely recommend checking out an app called HelloTalk. it lets you talk directly with native japanese speakers who want to learn your native language! it can be very helpful and who knows, you might make some new friends through it too :)

i hope at least some of this was helpful, and gave you an idea of what kinds of options you have for learning the language. if you ever have any more questions just feel free to ask and i'll do my best to help you out ! i know it seems intimidating at the start, but i know you can do it!! 頑張れ！

[m0onbean]

tutoring & loving

genre: enemies to lovers!AU, tutor!reader, popular boy!eunwoo, high school!AU, JEALOUSYYYYYYYY, flooooooof!!! angst but it’s okay because angst is wonderful, basically most of my favorite AU’s combined in one

warnings: jealous eunwoo and this AU is much more in depth than the others ones

words: 2.8k 

note: this is an old draft that has been sitting in my notes so i thought i would post!! enjoy and I HOPE  EUNWOO IS CASTED FOR TRUE BEAUTY!!!

as one of the top students in class, all of your teachers absolutely ADORE YOU

school is pretty smooth for you: you study well, pass tests, socialize with friends....... except for one little threat that makes your life so much more difficult... 

Cha Eunwoo.

not only is he one of the most popular boys in your grade, but unfortunately he’s also your seat partner for English and he’s the most annoying person you have ever met

you haven’t given him a reason to disrespect you!! ... okay maybe sometimes when you see him and his group of friends being loud in the hallways you shoot an icy glare....... ok and MAYBE you roll your eyes everytime he says smth dumb in the middle of class

but other than that??? completely innocent you are. but this man doesn’t seem to agree, as he seems to have made his life goal to ANNOY THE SHIT OUT OF YOU. 

foe ex. you would be peacefully paying attention in class when suddenly you feel something kick your foot 

and when you look up, you see eunwoo “paying attention” to the board and feigning innocence

but you immediately know that he’s just trying to aggravate you because when has this man ever actually paid attention in class??

so you go back to listening when you feel ANOTHER kick and you’re like BITCHoh hell no so you kick him back bc we’re not all perfect human beings let’s be honest

and now y’all are kicking each other back and forth, and everyone can hear the desks shuffling underneath them

he also makes snarky marks constantly when you literally just breathed???

like you would sit down at your seat and he’d be like “Congrats, you’ve somehow managed to choose the ugliest outfit in the world to wear today”

and you respond, “It’s about time i have a turn, you’re wearing the ugliest outfit everyday” and then you just glare at each other until the teacher tells you two to snap out of it

on some days eunwoo will just flat out point out one of your flaws like if your hair is messy or if there’s a stain on your shirt

so one day your English teacher asks to see you after class and you’re like Oh he’s just gonna offer me extra credit ... but instead of doing that he asks right off the bat, “i have another student that needs tutoring, are you willing to take one more?”

for the past month, you’ve already been tutoring a few students your teacher recommends to you. it’s easy money, especially since you’re saving up for college 

only this time, you can tell he’s desperate because he’s like “Please (y/n) he’s failing in English and misbehaving in class you’re my only hope!!”

and now you’re like Hawld on..... Why Is He Being So Desperate About This.... like you’re cool with tutoring..... what makes this-

the realization strikes across your face. 

who in this school would you would hate teaching??? who is failing in English??? WHO IS THE BANE OF YOUR EXISTENCE. look to: c. e. w.

 “ofdjoaaja i’ll give you gummy bears or something” he pleads. and honestly, if you were not so broke, you would’ve spat on his feet and walked out the door. but you need the cash, and you sure do like gummy bears.......

you gracefully relinquish, and your teacher gives you a proud smile. he then goes on to tell you that his mom requested extra help smh why couldn’t she have just hired a tutor i hate rich people.. anyways so yeah pls Help me

so the next day @ school you approach your seat and you see eunwoo sitting on his desk, talking to his friends until he notices you.. and he’s about to open his mouth to probs criticize your untied shoelaces but you interrupt him and are like:

“eunwoo i’m privately tutoring you starting today. Meet at the library after school.”

and he’s just sitting there, jaw dropping to the floor and you’re like :) He’s finally quiet for once... 

but little did you know that during class he’d be pestering you with complaints like:“why you??? is there anyone else that can do it???” “i don’t need tutoring.. i’m getting consistent D’s... not a singular F and it ain’t much but it’s honest work” 

at a certain point, you get so sick of his complaints and go like “your mom asked for you to be tutored!!! OK i didn’t just ask to tutor you, you dumbfuck.”

and once you mention his mom he just kinda shuts up... and stares at his desk for the rest of the period

ou notice this and recall the teacher telling you that eunwoo’s mom is a tiger mom... you keep this in mind because now you know that making his mom proud might be his motivation

after school, you wait at the library for him inside.. but a couple minutes pass and you’re like ? did he forget ? .  

and eventually an hour passes and you’re like nope he’s definitely ditching

and honestly,,, you feel a little betrayed and a little hurt ... but just when you’re about to leave you see him panting and making his way to your table nd you’re like ???????and eunwoo’s like “im so sorry i forgot...”

and you’re like oh? so you didn’t ditch? 

and he’s like No!! i just ... forgot. 

and you’re like well you little shit don’t forget next time i’ve been sitting here for an hour..but then he reaches something from his pocket and hands it to you and it’s a triangle sushi (it’s super crumbled too...) 

and he’s like “i got this to make it up” and you’re like flustered and just weirdly but pleasantly surprised he feels this bad about almost flaking

but you catch yourself slipping and go back to your annoyed tone: “uh-What the fuck are you on?? I-Wh-I’m not hungry. T-thanks tho.”

the first tutoring session is... awful to say the least. 

he couldn’t pay attention well and continuously complained and even tried to go off topic

like you’d be asking him what foreshadowing meant and then he’d be like “so.. where’s your family from (y/n)?” 33r*#$&(@$

after an hour of no progress you get frustrated and shut the textbook, about to call it a day

but just when you stand up eunwoo grabs your wrist 

and he’s like “where do you think you’re going?” you scoff and reply with “why do you care? it’s not like you want to be tutored right? well i don’t want to tutor anymore”

when you try to budge, you feel his hand still firmly gripping onto your wrist and you’re like “let go of me” until you realize he’s staring at you dead in the eyes

and in a quiet voice he sadly says “please don’t give up on me... i’m trying my best.” 

it looks like he’s about to tear up and that’s when you realize that you need to be patient for him... and need to help him because he’s trying to make his mom proud. 

when you sit down again, he gets a bit startled that you gave in so easily but regardless, a relieved smile spreads across his face. 

instead of going back to teaching, you conclude that you two should “break the ice” first so tutoring wouldn’t be you two just glaring at eachother

“breaking the ice” turns into a two hour conversation about random things or anything that comes into mind. 

eunwoo is really good at conversing and he’s good at filling in the awkward pauses and bringing up new topics!!

next thing you know the librarian is trying to shoo you guys outside since the library already closed fodjsoakal

when you get back home, there’s a stupid smile on your face and you’re like SHIT why am i smiling? why can’t i stop smiling???? get yourself together youRe just helping him you still think he’s annoying!!! ..but he has a breathtaking laugh... NO he’s still that annoying guy i hate

the rest of the tutoring sessions aren’t as bad at you thought.. eunwoo is actually pretty smart he just has the attention span of a toddler honestly.

you could be trying to read him an excerpt from The Great Gatsby and when it’s his turn to read.. it’s absolutely silent and when you look up like ??? 

you see him staring at you and you’re like “eunwoo.. it’s ur turn” and he’d be snapped out of his trance and be like OH! and ask you where you left off

and inside you’d be like.. was he.. staring at me?? (he actually was. you just looked so pretty reading out loud with such emotion)

after a couple of more classes with him, he starts immensely improving in class. he doesn’t really bother you anymore, but he stills throws some playful remarks at times. 

tutoring sessions seem to be effective, and you learn that he actually has a really.. really great personality

one day, you’re approaching your seat in English and are about to roast eunwoo as your daily routine when you almost bump into somebody

but thank god you have great reflexes so you managed to stop yourself... and when you look up you see a handsome face and you’re like. Oh.and he’s like smiling sheepishly and is like “sorry! i’m clumsy hehe” and you’re like Oh.. he’s cute

you smile back and insist it’s fine.. and now you’re both still standing there smiling at eachother because he’s like eye candy

he manages to introduce himself as Moonbin and you’re like I’m (y/n)!! and then his face transforms into recognition and he’s like “oh! you’re eunwoo’s tutor aren’t you?” 

and you’re like “Oh?? yeah how’d you know?”and he’s like “Ah.. i’m good friends with him. i heard your tutoring sessions are really helpful though. you’re super smart”

and on the outside you’re like :3 m-Me????!??! <3

what you actually say: ah, thank you. 

then he’s like “do you mind if you tutor me too?? i’m kind of struggling in English as well” and you’re like “oh sure!” it’s raining money girl

the bell starts ringing and he waves goodbye 

 you go to your seat with a wide smile, and when you sit down, you don’t notice that eunwoo is glaring at you 

so when you look at him with a smile on your face, he gets even more glary. 

you quickly wipe the smile off and are like “oh it’s you.”

but instead of insulting you back he’s like “why were you talking to Moobin?” and youre ???? “why CAN’T i talk to Moonbin? he was asking me to tutor him.”

when he hears that, he clenches his fists under the desk and is like.. “did you accept his offer?”

and you’re confusedly like “yes.. why would i reject him?”

not one to handle complicated feelings well, eunwoo just stands up, his chair loudly screeching against the floor. 

he wants to tell you that he doesn’t want Moonbin to watch you read lines from poetry so dramatically, smile whenever he makes a joke, text him reminders to study before he goes to sleep. 

but when you’re looking at him with such bewilderment in your beautiful eyes, your facial features frozen as you wait for his next move, he feels disgusting for having these feelings towards you. you’d probably be happier with Moonbin, who doesn’t have these nasty problems you’d be burdened with.

but before you can even properly react, he’s leaving the classroom and you look around, grateful that nobody was watching. 

and you don’t know how it happens.. but your feet control themselves and now you’re running after him, not caring about class starting already

and as you’re sprinting, so many scattered thoughts run through your mind. eunwoo.. jealous? does he like you? and even though you thought you were interested in eunwoo... there’s something about eunwoo you can’t let go about.and there’s no way you’re going to lose him.

so when you finally catch up to him you grab him by the arm and turn him around so he’s facing you... you hug him tightly.

and the crawling feeling that’s been stirring in eunwoo’s stomach suddenly dissipates

and bc you know that nothing will be the same after this, why don’t you just end it off strong? so you confess

you quietly tell him that you’re new to this... relationships have always been a new territory for you. liking somebody is new for you. “please don’t run off and let go of me either... i’m trying my best, too”

and he wants to push you off of him, tell you what’s best for you, and go back to being the annoying shit he once was. but your hug feels so nice and.. well.. maybe eunwoo can be selfish once in a while.  

falling in love with eunwoo is a gradual but addictive progress. when people describe falling in love, they would describe it as fireworks... exciting but risky. you would pretty much say the same but.. it’s so much more than just that.

it’s feeling tingly and funny when he randomly holds your hand or shows affection. it’s feeling enormously upset when you’re not around him or when you see him talking to somebody attractive. it’s feeling empty when he cuddles you because you want this to last forever, but you’re scared because you know it won’t.

you tell him this as you two are nestled on his couch, blankets jumbled across and TV playing some cooking show neither of you care about

he laughs and kisses your forehead which makes you feel that stupid tingly feeling again. 

“are you confessing that you’re in love with me (y/n)?” before you can try to smack him, he says “i love you too.”and with that.. you quietly respond “i love you...” 

and it feels so refreshing voicing that out loud.

eunwoo as a boyfriend would be the most blood rushing and adrenaline pumping feeling there is. he’s filled with so much energy that it’s never not fun around him

he would sneak you into carnivals, and take you on the ferris wheel where you two would probably makeout in the passenger car scksksoao

he’d also try to win you prizes at the arcade but.. he’s just so bad at playing it and either A) you end up playing and winning him a prize or B) he bribes the arcade owner to give him the prize

lots of PDA. lotssss of them. 

sitting next to eunwoo in English is a struggle now.. he’s always distracting you from the teacher. 

like you’d be taking notes but then you’d feel his head on your shoulder and now he’s straight up cuddling you in class

eunwoo always encourages you to have more fun 

“you’re always locked up in your room, studying.”

thus, he likes to knock on your door and enter the house with your parents’ delightful approval (because your parents love him. so much.) and go in your room and shower you with kisses while telling you that it’s time to stop studying because you’ve been reading the same chapter over and over again

your texts to each other would be littered with emojis that don’t even relate to the message. like you’d text “i stopped studying. are you proud of me 💃👒🐟🥐”and he’d reply with “of course my sunshine 🍣🎧🔑”

you still tutor him but your tutor sessions are a lot more longer now since they take place at either of your houses instead of the library LMAO. 

+ after tutoring him, you two would just cuddle and raid your fridges

when you meet moonbin again, eunwoo gets a little jealous again since he thinks that moonbin has a chance of snatching you 

but after kissing him and assuring him that you’ll never be “snatched”, he feels so relieved

eunwoo relishes all of the affection you give him. and he always gives you twice as much :’)

one day the same English teacher asks to see you after class and you’re like “is there something you need?”and he’s like “.... ok so tell me how y’all went from kicking eachother to cuddling together in class 🤔🤔”

and you’re like “.. BYE I THINK I HEARD SOMEBODY CALLING ME”

the doors were closed... nobody heard anything... 

when you ask eunwoo why he hated you so much in the beginning, he tells you that he was just jealous of you. jealous of how flawless you did in academics and how you’re such a bright student + your glares were “extremely unnecessary” 

he also tells you that his older brother is already a doctor and has been so successful in everything so his mom always pressures him and compares them

and you’re like weaving your fingers together while telling him “don’t compare yourself. he is him and you are you.” 

and you pause.. and say “and i love you this way. i’m proud of you”

and eunwoo just immediately breaks down right there because nobody ever tells him that.. nobody is ever proud of him

falling in love with one of your enemies was definitely one of the best things that’s ever happened to you :)

[sastrugie]

john entwistle biography review

ok so first: I didnt really like the biography because I thought it would focus on totally different aspects. John was a musical virtuoso and that hardly ever gets mentioned in the book. But we get exact axccounts on how much money he spent on what day and in which pub he bought which champagne. like wow thanks. The other personal stuff is basic who knowledge you can read in any other Who biography. His autobiographical bits were joy and fun! Maybe the only reason to buy the book in my opinion. He writes totally different than the author...

ANYWAYS: here my fav facts from the book that you probably didnt know before

this is the face of a man who -when his father gave him driving lessons for his 21st birthday as a present- decided driving wasnt really his thing and he spent the money on clothes and parties instead. He never had a drivers license ever and also never desired to have one 

the hospital he was born in, was bombarded and destructed one day after his birth

as a child he was really weak and thin and had basically every disease that existed

his family was poor af

his father left the family early and held contact with his son, but soon disappeared with a new family

his stepdad, Gordon, disliked John alot and would ignore him, hated everything John did or said and he let his bad moods out on Johns mother, which caused John to be very silent and observative around the house so that there wouldnt be any trouble

he did everything to please Queenie (his mom) so that there was no fighting, according to Alison

loved drawing and playing but usually alone since he had no friends apart from their dog

he heard a trumpet solo once from a trad jazz band when he was 6 or so and decided he wanted to learn the trumpet

my fav line of the book probably: “despite his own expectations, he passed the exams to go to grammar school” like same

at school he was bullied from the older boys but soon left alone by them because he would fight back with badass comments 

he applied for the school band for the trumpet but the tallest guy in the year was chosen (he was the 2nd tallest)  which made John mad, but he discovered the french horn

soon he found a friend, mickey brown, at last and he gave him the nickname “ent”

he was so terrible in P.E that he was dismissed with other pupils to play somehwere else, they were called “the hockey misfits” and guess who was among them: Pete Townshend.

yeah as you might know they became besties because they loved music and black humour.

he found himself a gf (alison) and Pete & a school gang (like 4 ppl) and his life seemed to finally get where it should.

his worst subjects were geography and german like wow (im a german geography student lmao)

once they played in a pub and johns stepdad was there and was super angry and gave john a list with his fav pubs and told him “these are the places I never want to hear your fucking music playing”.

after walking home pete decided to switch the guitar and john wanted to become a musician more than ever

Roger found him and John kind of convinced him (it took months apparently) to get Pete into the band and then it all started

he judged the beatles because John Lennons harmonica was “out of tune” in love me do, wow ok you nerd

john started smoking with 20 and was the last one to quit his job for the band and he was against drugs at first (bc he had a “civilized” job) but then decided to give a shit, dyed his hair black, bought cigarettes, smoked dope with pete and did speed too

he wanted to step out of himself and feel good about himself and he was always a fashionnerd so he started buying and trading and selling clothes (he once was dismissed from school bc he wore the school uniform incorrectly)

with 18 or so he was still living at home, had a toy soldier collection and a pet budgie

pete and his college friends made fun of john bc he wasnt a student and still lived at home, although john could have gone to college too and he wanted to, but his stepdad again said no and he had no choice.

he was very awkward and introverted but could open up with his music 

he was really into pop art (esp pop art clothes)

was a pseudo mod bc he only liked the fancy clothes and motown music

with the who he found a purpose in his life and finally could be different than ordinary ppl

hated when people touched his hair, he literally hated it

would fuss much about his hair in general

once after a concert they were starving and the room service was alreday home so they had to look on used plates and food wagons and John found a shrimp and said: “who wants to dine with me tonight?” (idk that really made me laugh)

keith moon was john entwistles soulmate and they were the cutest, most iconic and funniest duo ever end of discussion

his amps would soon be called little manhatten bc he had so many bc he wanted to be loud

he actually went to sing at church once when he was like 24 and the band made fun of him then he stopped

in the late 60s he bought a house with alison in a normal neighbourhood and went walking the dogs on sundays and stuff

but he was a party animal and always the last to go

he was really sensitive and cried often according to Alison but only in front of certain people

he would totally step out of his way to please people

when they played at the monterey pop festival they didnt bring their own amps along and john was furious bc he said the american amps are shit and kit was like “no” and john didnt talk to him for the whole festival until their perfomance was over and they had sounded like shit to tell kit “I TOLD YOU SO” thats how extra he was

when he got money he would spend it bc he was so used to being poor that he thought it wouldnt last long and he had to enjoy it NOW

he was always calm and everyone respected him and kit told a story where he entered the room and roger was at keiths throat and and pete was screaming something and john was sitting in the corner cleaning his nails. thats who energy

liked to dance at parties

his fav drink was rémy cognac with 40% and he would drink like 1 bottle alone everyday in his later years...wow dude

he was also gentlemanTM and once paid taxis for girls from london to brighton after a party

once at a wedding the free drinks were out and John just gave the barkeeper his creditcard and said he will pay for all the drinks of the night for everyone (it wasnt his wedding)

Roger once said: “John made smartass comments that deserved a punch in the face” sounds like him yes

he didnt really care about money and always wanted to pay and never told anyone how much things had cost and brought gifts for everyone

soon that ended in a shopping addiction tho and he bought ridiculous things for ridiculous amounts of money

when the who was inactive he sank into depression :(

held the band together during who by numbers & who are you

wrote and played all the quadrophenia horn parts himself

never lost his passion for art and always drawed alot, said Alison

cried when Christopher was born aww

once he saw their manager in an art museum and how he wanted to buy a painting but couldnt afford it, so John bought it secretly and shipped it to said managers home as a gift

We all know John was a huge collector. His most treasured collection was .. wait for it: teapots.

he tried to save Keith from being arrested once and ended up being arrested too lol

wanted to write a scifi concept album but desorted the idea and gave some songs to the who (905) or Pete

was a good cook apparently

When he gave a hug HE was the one who decided when to let go sdfghjk

hated confrontation and would hire other people to tell someone bad news

he spent so much money on dumb shit like wtf

but didnt really care either

probably the master in picking up and seducing girls

he let his stepdad live in the quarwood mansion when he wasnt there but Gordon was still an asshole wtf

the contact to his real dad was really sporadic

when the who ended, it hit him really hard and he didnt know what to do besides partying and buying stuff/hording stuff

was very insecure and selfconscious in the 80s according to Maxene :(

he actually took pete breaking up the who really personal and was sad 24/7

was that kind of guy that said bad stuff about the who but when you said bad stuff he would try to kill you on spot

with cocaine he felt really confident and still like the 60s/70s rockstar he once was but he didnt understand that these times were over and he needed to move on

sometimes went into random pubs with friends and made jam sessions for the guests

he still was generous and loving until he died and tried to play with other bands but it was not the same

he really liked Kenney and hung out with him more than with his wife at some point lmao

was a total giver and people who worked at quarwood would steal money from him but when someone pointed that out he got angry with that person for even suggesting that

was a real softieee (and a huge nerd)

all his friends said that he was shy at first but once you got to know him he would come totally out of himself, was very funny, loved to tell stories, was very very loyal and would try evertyhing to make you laugh aww

all in all a glorious story with a sad ending and he did destroy himself completely, but lets remember that Pete Townshend described old John still as "wonderful, mature and elegant” so lets cling on to that :)

[faemen]

oooh you want to tell me about your characters so bad oo

i thought i would have to be hypnotizing the rest of you thank you demonymous,, lets get off teenagers. meet roi hayashi, possibly the most feral oc i have ever made

basically i made him for this yttd server in alliance with my bestie bepis (WHO SHOULD GET TUMBLR BTW I MISS YOU <///3 when will bepis return from the war youre more ia than *i* am)

anyways. he's just some 11 year old, with his other 11 year old friend mauricio, they troll on roblox for youtube views together. and since im LAZY as HECK have this copy pasted stuff from the oc applications :D

piss baby. Roi acts like a typical spoiled brat, always putting himself first. Due to this, he usually doesn't get along very well with other children his age. He can act rather sarcastic and has exactly zero manners, always talking back and arguing.

Roi is a coward and will willingly sacrifice others safety for his own survival. Despite this fact, he despises being seen as weak and will do almost anything to disprove those who say such things.

However few, he does have some redeeming qualities. Roi is a natural born leader when he wants to be, and can be very convincing. He's always confident and sure of himself and can be extremely supportive if he feels like being so.

Backstory or Background: Roi was born into a highly well off and wealthy family. He was an only child. His parents were extremely kind and overprotective, most days. Occasionally they would forget they have a son, but...the good days were good enough to make up for that. Roi was constantly showered with gifts and toys. Of course, his parents weren’t the best at understanding basic childish needs like having someone there to cheer him on at soccer, and the like, but they did care. However, due to him being an only child and his parents having no shortage of income, he became rather spoiled.

His parents were truly great people. They always had good intentions and were always available to offer a helping hand. Unfortunately, others were not nearly as goodhearted, and took advantage of these traits. Roi’s parents continued giving and giving, seemingly no end to their generosity, until the family eventually lost an extremely large portion of the family’s inheritance. His parents got into a squabble over that, each blaming the other for the loss, until they went their separate ways and divorced. Giving up on their son, both collectively believing him to be the main cause of the loss, they dropped him off at his grandma’s and never looked back.

The last thing Roi wants is to end up like his parents. At school, he’s constantly searching for new ways to prove he’s better, if not the best. He isn’t weak nor kindhearted like his parents and it’s his utmost goal to make sure people know that. Eventually his reputation evolved into something so fearsome, everyone avoids him in and out of school. Due to him not having any close companions, the entire student population still believes he’s rich. To avoid people finding out, Roi still wears items from his old, more designer closet, despite him having a growth spurt.

But even though he is now known as the bully nobody would ever ask for favours from, he surprisingly still felt lonely. Hypocrite did this to himself. He was filled with unpenting rage at his parents for just abandoning him like that. Unfortunately, the tutions for the next few years of semesters at his private school were already paid, and Roi now understands the value of money, more than before anyway. And he’s too much of a coward to run away to start a new life.

One thing he does know, is that there is no way he’ll fulfill his parents wishes and become a doctor. So he used his education and resources to study something far less prideful. A hacker. He became very skilled at it too, having no friends to waste his time. Looking at his grades, he doesn’t appear to be very smart, yet computer code has always been like a second language to him.

He didn’t have many large goals yet, opting to use his newfound knowledge to hack kids on roblox, primarily his own classmates but other children work too. His usual method was threatening the victim, and waiting for a satisfying response of fear before actually going through with the scam. This is how he met his singular friend, surprisingly. The conversation went something like this:

itsamemario_YT: i will hack ur roblox

marsbars_officialYT: not if i hack urs first

And...there isn’t much of note after that. The friendship grew steadily. They troll together after school everyday.