#we allll talk about how we are all spread too thin and there are these unrealistic expectations

[imstunning]

I’ve had a bad week mentally like having breakdowns and being in the absolute worst mood and tbh I’m so close to ruining my own life from like displaced anger

[yukiwrites]

Henry, Sharing Experiences

Thank you so much for the patience and constant support, @xpegasusuniverse! I hope you like it!

Summary: Interestingly enough, there was no known School of Magic at the Altean continent -- apart from a very specific one only known to Plegians. Henry was pleasantly surprised when he found out that there were people who went to a magical school just like him when he overheard them talking in Askr...

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Askr, home to the one and only Summoner who’s rumored to be able to lead the Order of Heroes to victory against any foe. In such a place where many people from differing backgrounds joined hands to work together side by side, a wide variety of groups were formed.

What started as a simple meeting between fellow practitioners of their preferred art of war turned into complex classes with a rich curriculum during the time the Heroes had between battles. One of the most prominent of those were the magic classes: they varied from beginner to intermediate to the Mastery class, which only consisted of the teachers of the previous two courses.

There were mages from all walks of life within this niche, which in turn only enriched the students’ experiences. As a matter of fact, some of them had met one another back in their home world, as it was the case with the four mages who attend to the School of Sorcery in Fhirdiad: Annette, Constance, Lorenz and Mercedes were all attending to the lectures in Askr just as they had done so in Faerghus.

Though, this time, they were all classmates.

“As riveted as I am to be able to attend magical classes with you, Mercedes, the mere thought of not being able to do so back at the School of Sorcery is enough to make me want to reverse the hands of time myself!” Constance shook her shoulders after a sigh, walking close enough to Mercedes to hold her arm.

“Oh, yeah, Mercie mentioned you two just missed each other, right? Wah, I’m so sorry, Constance… But hey, at least now you’re together! And we’re all together!” Annette hyped up beside Mercedes, puffing her cheeks and chest up.

“I suppose, yes,” Constance lifted her chin, “still, to think that we could have been reunited much sooner…”

Mercedes smiled softly, basically sandwiched between her friends. “What matters is that we’re all here now, right? And learning so much, too!”

“Aptly put, Mercedes!” Lorenz intervened from the side as they were all leaving the library that had been hijacked by the mages to be used as a classroom. “To think that all of us attended the Royal School of Sorcery but only ended up as classmates in another world! The goddess truly plays her cards well, do you not think?”

Hearing Lorenz’s words, a white-haired head popped up from behind him, as someone who had also just come out of the library. “Ohhh, so there are magical schools in other worlds, too! I wonder how different they were from the one in Plegia, though.”

“What manner of-” Lorenz jumped out of his skin, almost letting out a disgraceful yelp. “Good lad, I would ask that you do not sneak up on your peers! A word of caution.”

“Oh, whoops, sorry about that. Robin sometimes scolds me about that, too -- guess I’ve been hanging out with Kellam too much, nyaha!”

“Whyever are you speaking to us, good sir? We’ve places to be, so if your business is over…” Constance lifted her chin condescendingly, ready to wrap her arm around Mercedes’ to lead the way back to where they were going.

“No, no, wait! I got curious about this sorcery school in your world. You see,” Henry matched the pace, inserting himself between Constance and Lorenz, “the one back in my world -- heck, back in my country -- taught a veeeery specific kinda magic. Eeevery mage born there only does dark magic!”

“My word, dark magic?!” Lorenz let out an exclamation of surprise. “Back in our world, I’ve known only a few who are capable of wielding such dangerous yet powerful magic…”

“See?” Henry pointed to Lorenz. “I was actually surprised when I got here and found out that there were so few dark mages! I mean, back home they were made in the HEAPS, nyaha!”

Annette’s eyes shone. “How different was your school life, uh-”

“The name’s Henry! I’ve been here for a while so I know allll about you guys!” His smile grew pointedly as a shadow covered his thin eyes. He then giggled, shaking off the cold that had crept in their spines. “But I asked first! How’s the School of Sorcery back in your world?”

“Um, being asked like that at point blank, it’s kinda hard to even remember what to say, you know? Um, umm…” Annette widened her eyes, then scrunched her face in deep thought. “We had… different classes? Ahah, wait, that’s obvious-”

“If you are asking about how the classes were divided, Henry, then the curriculum here in Askr wildly differs from the Royal School of Sorcery in Fhirdiad.” Constance stepped in as Annette mumbled and Mercedes patted her head. “There were classes focused on potion-making, illusory magic, red and white magic, summoning circles-”

“Whoa, whoaaa! Potion? Summoning? Illusory? That’s the same thing back home! How come you’re not a dark mage, then?” Henry tilted his head to the side in wonder.

After all, to him, making potions, illusions and summoning ghastly beings were simply different kinds of hexes. One would collect materials, which could serve as the sacrifice needed for the hex to work depending on the complexity of it; dissect the magical property of each piece of each ingredient (because bat wings were a common material for memory-related hexes, but bat eyes were great for indigestion) and how they interacted with one another so they could be mixed into a magical instrument.

Yet, what Constance meant by those were pouring magical power into concoctions and culinary as a means of enhancing them as well as summoning stronger red magic. The four classmates exchanged curious glances, indeed confused by Henry’s, well, confusion.

If their classes were the same, why, indeed, weren’t they versed in the same kinds of magic?

Noticing the silent conversation going on between them, Henry widened his smile. “Hey, hey, what else? Did you have long-range concentration? Magical energy expansion? I can throw a curse from wayyyyy into Embla from this spot, nyaha!”

All four gasped in unison. “E-Embla?! Surely you jest! No matter how much it borders Askr, it is still another country entirely!” Constance was the one who spoke first, followed by Annette’s vigorous nodding and Mercedes’ sigh of wonder.

“Huhh, so no magical energy expansion? I mean, I heard that a guy managed to curse one of Ylisse’s princes from the Plegian Castle, so doing it from here to Embla is a piece of cake!” He threw his head back in laughter, remembering how excited his teacher was to talk about the ‘glory of the past’ of a guy that died hundreds of years ago. “So how does your magic work, then? Only short range? Ohh, wait, but dark magic in combat is more limited, so maybe I mixed the horses there, nyaha!”

Lorenz awkwardly cleared his throat. “I-indeed, it would be unthinkable to send a highly concentrated mass of magic across countries so easily. I am, however, intrigued by these so-called ‘hexes’ -- as I have only heard worrisome words about them…”

“They’re the most fun things to do! We had a whole term on ‘how to spread a curse from someone’s little finger until their heart without anyone noticing’ and boy was it a BLAST to do all those experiments -- literally! We exploded so many things...” A shade covered Henry’s thin eyes once again as he giggled happily, which made Lorenz gulp instinctively.

“That was rather specific!” Mercedes mentioned. “I don’t recall the Royal School of Sorcery to have anything like that…”

“Perhaps the seminar ‘the art of levitating oneself as a second-nature’ that had been part of the curriculum since the foundation? It IS completely different from the ‘Levitating’ class…” Constance twisted her lips.

Annette, who had her head down the whole time, suddenly jumped from Mercedes’ side to Henry’s. “OH! You know what I just remembered?” 

Henry smiled widely. “Eh? What?” 

“The way you’re talking about these awesome stuff like they’re normal-- we gotta take you to Lysithea! She didn’t go to the same School of Sorcery we did, but she’s AMAZING with magic, like you! I saw her snap a lightning bolt from the other side of the battlefield like it was nothing!” Annette went from admiring to bragging about her classmate, listing the many occasions that Lysithea managed to impress her -- and how she considered the other as a rival of sorts.

“Woow! I don’t really think I’m that amazing with magic, but I can crack a few skulls more than other people, nyahaha…!” He chuckled darkly before taking Annette’s hand. “Let’s go back to the library! She’s that girl with white hair, right? She stayed behind!”

“Ohh, ohh! She did? I gotta try harder to catch up to her, then! C’mon, Mercie, let’s go!” Full on her try-hard mode, Annette’s eyes shone with the prospect of being among two magical prodigies and the amount of knowledge she could acquire from them.

“Heehee, don’t pull, Annie, I’m coming!” Mercedes dangled behind her over-excited best friend. “Constance, sweetie, you too!”

“Very well! Surely my vast knowledge will be needed!”

Lorenz watched the scene unfold with wide eyes, suddenly finding himself alone. “Why- how dare you abandon your peer in such a manner!” He ran after the group with an offended tone.

Little did they know about the barrage of questions Lysithea would ask Henry after hearing about his magical prowess, wondering if they, perhaps, shared a circumstance…

[rileyomalley]

Rootin’, Tootin’, and a Cowboy Goofin’

From a silly headcanon came a one shot. Not my best but I hope ya’ll enjoy!

Pairing: McCree/Non-Binary Reader

Word Count: 1543

Rating: SFW, Fluff, goofing all around

With a click the door swung open, the rumbling sound of the storming rain to follow as you stepped in your small home soaking wet. Your only saving grace was the large coat that kept you dry, despite your feet feeling soaked. Kicking off your boots, shrugging your coat, you made way to the kitchen to get a few things before settling down in the living room.

You didn't want to move. After the past couple days (especially today) you wanted nothing to do with the outside world. When you weren't running off on missions, you had side jobs to take care of for part time work, which was perfectly fine by you. You'd slept in a little longer than needed, transportation was against you, the weather ESPECIALLY seemed rampant against you, and above all else- you felt like the work was only piling up no matter how much you got done.

Were you just going to give it all up? Was it really the sort of thing for you? These questions always riddled your mind when life was getting heavy, but further contemplation seemed to set in. You couldn't shake it and you felt like it was finally getting to you. That you were going to break and feel you weren't right for Overwatch. Perhaps you just spread yourself too thin throughout everything you did. Whatever it was made it difficult not to feel the tears well up in your eyes, stuffing some ice cream in your face as you zoned out on the TV. Moments later a figure moved through your periphery, and though you didn't look up you knew it was your boyfriend. Either he'd been back to the apartment before you, or he just stepped in.

"Hey there, pumpkin. How was your da-" Cutting his question short when his eyes flit up to look at you, seeing how tightly curled and utterly exhausted his partner looked. He moved into the room keeping an eye on you before speaking once more. "Something wrong hun?"

You almost hadn't registered that McCree was talking to you until those few words brought you back to reality. Everything felt like noise to you at this moment. Rubbing at your eyes you glanced up at him, smiling weakly in an attempt to deter any concern.

"It's nothing I just...I've had a really long day...days, I don't know anymore." A quick ruffle of your hair followed by a groan, you stared down at your ice cream in defeat. You wanted to stuff this entire container in your face, but no matter how much defeat you felt, you knew that gaining a brain freeze would be the last straw.

You were tempted.

McCree on the other hand held a concerned expression, hands resting on his hips in thought. Usually when you weren't feeling all that great he'd take to settling in for the night with you, forgetting what they day had brought and look forward to the next day. But as of late though he may not have said much, he could tell how much it had been weighing you down. The nights you weren't in bed and desperately trying to focus on your various jobs. Designing, paperwork, scheduling, hearing the faint whines you made and hoped to stifle so you didn't wake him up.

It was a pained noise he was all too familiar with. He admired your determination, but at the same time he worried over your well being. He shifted his weight from side to side.

"Well, how 'bout I get myself settled and we'll watch a movie together hm? I'll get some extra blankets so we can be allll cozy." He gave you a smile, to which you tried to return and gave a nod.

McCree was the sweetest damn man you were fortunate to know, and even more so to love. His personality at first was something that threw you for a loop, and at times his flirtatious nature left your eyes rolling. But...he was fun. He was lively, but most of all he expressed it all from the heart, even in his most stubborn moments. You loved every bit of that man. 

Assumedly your boyfriend was off getting blankets to which you went back to zoning out on the TV, but found your attention was being pulled away by the sound of...jingling? Where was it coming from, and more importantly...what was McCree getting into?

Your questions would be answered in no time flat. Foot step by footstep, leg by leg and a swagger that would make a drunken man jealous out came Jesse McCree, dressed in a casual t-shirt, cactus pattern  pajama pants with a belt haphazardly tightened around it leaving the top to hang on him like some goddamn clown. He went as far as wearing his boots with this ridiculous look, toting in his hands NERF guns designed to look like his own. Your eyes could not be squinting harder at this man.

"Jesse...are those my gu-

"Reach for the skyyyyyy..." He says in a quick flurry, having spun those guns and pointing them straight at you. You huffed a soft laugh, your face straining hard in trying to comprehend all this.

"Hun are you seriously wearing those joke pajama pants I got you last year?" You managed to ask, granted it was hard to get the words out with the noises you were making watching as he moved closer to you. Still pointing those guns. Still slouching in the weirdest fucking way ever.

"Now now, we ain't here to discuss attire, sugar. This cowboy has come for a very, very nasty bugger who's been causing a lot of ruckus these past few days." He gave a curt nod, looking to you with a raised brow and motioning for your hands to rise. As silly as it was, you obliged raising them above your head. "Okay cowboy, what trouble has this person caused then? Surely you don't mean me."

McCree chuckled, spinning one gun after the other before returning to their position. "Not at all. But I have a sneaking suspicion that this bothersome sort has been plaguing you with the blues. We can't have that now." You bit your lip in an attempt to stifle your laughter, lowering your arms a bit. Jesus he was the biggest dork ever, it was very, very difficult not to snicker with how he danced about even with how 'serious' he was in playing the part. "What exactly...are you gonna do, oh savior of mine?" Might as well play along. Better than being distracted by all that was stressing you out as of late.

He stood tall, showing off as much flare as he could with those guns before placing them in the holsters, then slowly crouching to meet your eyes. That classic quirky grin of his, a tilt of his head and reaching up to gently take your chin in his hand.

"I'm gonna give 'em a warning. I'm nice enough to do that. But I want them to know this- they keep telling you ya can't do what you're up to, well that’s not their decision. That's your own. They outta be shuttin' their mouth whether or not you can take a lot on, or when you need a break. And honey...it's about time you needed a break."

You chuckled softly, reaching up to brush your fingers over his own. His smile grew warmer, his dark eyes staring back into yours with that all familiar love you both had for each other.

"I don't want anything to overwork you. You're stubborn, and I love ya for it. But no matter what - don't forget to do for yourself. If I could I'd drag you away from it all to make sure you did."

Gently you nuzzled his hand, closing your eyes for a moment. He was silly as an be, but once again proved how deeply he affected you. He grounded you as much as you would do for him. Perhaps you were taking on too much than you were truly able. A time for re-evaluation was definitely in order - perhaps planning for a vacation as well.

"Oh ah...just one more thing..." He placed a kiss to your forehead before standing up again, fiddling a bit with one of the NERF guns. "If that bugger ever comes around again, I won't let 'im off so easily."

You laughed softly, ready to reach out to pull him back down when you suddenly felt a -PLUNK- to your forehead. Eyes widened, looking up to the dart that stuck so prominently on your forehead like a unicorn horn, the goddamn man snickered like a mischievous child tossing the gun near you before darting off.

THAT MOTHERFUCKER.

As though you weren't in a slump at all, with a newfound vigor you dashed after him screaming in fake rage, shooting after him back and forth throughout your apartment. It turned into an all out showdown, from shouts to laughter to shooting an eye...and McCree accidentally kicking his own ass with a spur. Still though, it made the heavy weight of the day almost nonexistent. You loved him and his spur poked butt for it.

[survivormyanmar-blog]

Ep. #5 - “You Should Be Fucking Festive!” - Amanda

A tribe swap occurred based on a number between 1-1000 that the players chose when they applied to the game.  Everyone who picked on odd number was put on Togye and everyone who picked an even number was put on Mata. On the new tribes, Steffen found the Legacy Advantage that was hidden on the blog.  The tribes were given their next Immunity challenge which was the Lip Sync music video challenge.  While both tribes got bad reviews from the judges, Mata pulled off the victory with their take on “Best of Both Worlds”, even with Amanda using her challenge advantage for Togye.  With everyone but Ashley getting to visit The Cave, it was completely ransacked.  Amanda found an extra vote and both Keegan and Linus found a Hidden Immunity Idol.  Heading into Tribal Council, Togye was split on the vote with the 4 Fans and 4 Favs going against each other.  10 minutes before Tribal, Amanda decided she would use her extra vote and which broke the tie sending Adrian Home.  Keegan also ended up playing his Hidden Immunity Idol to ensure his safety but it was not needed.

I’d totally film a vid confessional, but my hair is in a towel right now.  So I just got thrown onto a new Mata tribe… in the minority of old Mata members.  Allll the other Official Fives got swapped over to Togye, leaving me with just Linus and Leah.  Good thing I was still trying to make connections with them, but not as crazy as the alliance.  I like both of them a lot and genuinely want to stick with them in a vote on this tribe.  Hope to win immunity, I may need it here.

Tribe swap came. Not the three tribe swap I was anticipating but into two tribes with uneven numbers. Fortunately, four of the Official Five are on the new Togye, with four faves. There’s no majority which is good and bad. Unfortunately, the new Mata has a faves majority and our alliance member Krysten is over there. I’m confused about how to proceed. We very well may be picked off one by one.

So this swap is…. Interesting. I am just glad that I am in the situation of having a completely split tribe rather than being in the minority. I really hope Steffen stays safe. He is like my #1. I also hope that our tribe just wind the immunity challenges up until merge. Idk where everyone’s loyalties lay and Idk if I can even trust some of my old tribe mates. I hope having won last immunity does not make me a target. Brett also won and is on my tribe so maybe it wont make us targets then.

Another blindside went well. Maybe it wasn’t truly a blindside but he did think people were doing Leah. I am shocked that we tribe swapped into just 2 tribes. Especially at final 15. That left tribes 8-7 and in a sense the tribes were split kinda fairly. 4 Faves went to Togye and 4 went to Mata. While 4 Fans went to Togye and 3 went to Mata. That is the sad part. Mata Is Faves majority and Fans not so much. Now I truly think The Original Five alliance is golden and would work very well but Krysten is the only one stuck on Mata. She is going to need to find some type of way to get herself out of this mess. I can’t believe it though that the swap did work well. I want Linus out and I hope 4 faves go for him. Leah has ammunition to flip as well. I gave Leah as much info as she needs and she can easily through both Linus and Krysten under the bus with what the info I gave her. Hopefully that just doesn’t bite me in the butt come due time. My alliance as of now is The Original 4 Mata’s and I think all will stay true. I think we all are aiming to getting Ashley on our side. Ashley seems like a doll and I would love to work with her and if we are able to convince any favorite to flip to our side its her. Amanda is another try I can go for while Sam and Tommy I think would be instant targets of ours. I will push Sam to go first just as Tommy may be someone I could use in the future. If we go to tribal I thin my alliance is willing to go to rocks. I am for sure. But right now I need to one keep myself in good graces with the favorites and not only that but my tribe. If the 4 faves vote me on the revote I have to trust my alliance wont flip to me. Also bonding with the faves would keep the vote off me. Now I don’t see the problem of them targeting me because if my alliance stays true i’ll be immuned and then the rest draws. The only person I would consider flipping on from my tribe is Brett but I’m handing away a numbers advantage just yet.

That moment you want to try and lie to one of the faves in order to vote with you. I mean, I hope I have placed my eggs in the correct basket, otherwise I’m fucked. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BymxmTDsefA

I don’t know if i said this already but I FUCKIN MISS STEFFEN! can we pls merge thx

So for this upcoming immunity challenge we have to lip sync to a song and our tribe iconically choose a song I don’t think anyone would have assumed. We choose Stick to the status quo by High School musical. I think the song is very good, upbeat, energetic and just fun. I know I will do an amazing job as I have a vision in my head of how I want this video to be just dont know how to edit. Yet doesn’t matter everyone else needs to give it there all.

Yooooo, I’m trapped in a co workers car an hour away from civilization and I have to pee really freaking bad, so now seems like a good time to make a confessional XD. So a tribe swap!! Woo! The new tribe has only like 3 fans, and like, I wasn’t planning to stick to the fans anyways, but with a fan minority there is no reason for the favs to try and pull me into their side so I will have to play my cards right. As soo as the swap hit Krysten and Leah all of a sudden are adding me to an alliance chat and acting like the 3 of us have to stick together… Where the hell was that eagerness to get me in while we were on our starting tribe. They’re faaaaaaaake as fuck I tellz ya. With fans like these who needs enemies. Assessment of people. Ting Ting: Trying to talk to ting ting is painful. Like, I’ve heard a bunch of people just love her, but she is so freaking unresponsive… Christian: I absolutely love Christian. If there is one person who I want to work with really badly it’s her. She seems very genuine. Krysten: I don’t mind krysten other than the sudden caring about having me as a vote now that she could be in danger. I got the feeling she was Brett’s number 2 on the starting tribe so she could be dangerous at a merge. Leah: who? We were on a starting tribe but I still feel like I know more about the history of Lithuania than I do about her. (Hint, I know virtually nothing about Lithuanian history) Steffen: I like Steffen obviously, I think everyone does. At first I thought he was someone I really wanted to work with, but after talking to others I’m realizing everyone thinks that, which means he has enough options that he may not pick me. hes the lease of this new tribe for sure. Jay: Jay and I can’t seem to hold a conversation to save our lives. She seems cool enough and we’ve both even made jokes about it, but like, I just wish we were both on at the same time more since my number one goal right now is to impress the favourites. Linus: What an icon, clearly the biggest threat to win :P . Jk, I’m a mess this game haha.

If we lose this immunity challenge i’m gonna die. I froze my ass off and murdered my phone for this shit!!!! Also OF FUCKING COURSE we get given a music video challenge right after we have a swap and Steffens not on my tribe anymore. He literally always wins music videos so of course i wanna be a bitch and kick his ass at his favorite thing SO I DECIDED TO USE MY ADVANTAGE. I’m such a good friend. lmfaoooo anyways I really hope we win this challenge and if we do I really hope Leah and Steffen make it through tribal alright. I really wanna get to merge so so bad so we need to win this shit.

why the FUCK did they not include my wig snatching scene?! anyway i knew that was a losing video but like… did adrian throw it? like i can probably get my dog to edit better but hey that’s all fine. we’re just split right down the middle with tribal lines right now and i don’t really know if i’d wanna defect yet or not. who knows.

I want Tommy to like be an evil genius with me but he doesn’t want to! like someone said that they heard his name but he “promised to keep them anonymous” LIKE THAT’S NOT SOMETHING YOU NEED TO KEEP YOUR WORD ON THAT’S CALLED #DIRT and we can use that to spread paranoia between the fans!!!! god. I guess it’s just not time to be evil yet but I can feel it almost surfacing.

although i am a little happy that the game is getting more #crackedt like we need more paranoia

Wow what an eventful day. We lost the challenge, which is whatever. The vote is likely going to rocks and nothing has really changed on that front. Tommy is acting incredibly weird about this whole thing though and I’m not really sure how to respond to that. On a major plus side, I found a hidden immunity idol in the cave!! It didn’t come at an opportune moment, I could be knocked out via rocks or by someone flipping in the next tribal. It’s tempting to play the idol to make sure I’m safe, no matter what. On the other hand, if I play the idol and didn’t need to, it’s kind of a waste. I’m so conflicted.

So much can change when you go for a 7-mile run. A 60-minute workout and a shower later, and it’s time for a tribal swap from 15 players into two tribes. But first, I think it’s funny that the Favorites voted off GASTON and RICHIE as their two first boots. If memory serves, I cited the two of them as my favorite Favorites from the beginning! Apparently they were so charming, they were tossed out as threats immediately! I have to hand it to the Favorites–they’re not too dumb for a collection of students. In the swap, I finally shake LEAH loose, but I also lose dear friend and partner KRYSTEN in the process and friend/pawn LINUS as well. Fortunately, I get to keep my closest ally KEEGAN, loyal soldier ADRIAN, and loose cannon NEHE. From the favorites, we gain Disney freak AMANDA, scavenger champion ASHLEY, and two of their men–SAM and TOMMY. With 4 Favorites and 3 Fans on New Mata, I would be inclined to throw the challenges to keep KRYSTEN and LINUS safe. However, it’s not so easy. New Togye has 4 from each tribe, so there’s no guarantee Old Mata will be the victorious side if we do indeed throw. Say we go 4 vs. 4, tie, and go to rocks. That might not necessarily go in our favor. With that said, I’d much rather go to rocks and gamble for the chance of putting the Fans in the majority instead of being expendable like Fans are in most Fans vs. Favorites seasons. We get the challenge and it’s my personal nightmare–a lip sync off. And what’s more, the majority of my tribe has AWFUL taste in music. At one point, NEHE and allegedly straight TOMMY were hell bent on doing High School Musical’s “Stick to the Status Quo.” IN WHAT WORLD IS THAT A VIABLE CHOICE IN 2016?! I think I had a perfectly sellable idea of doing the Cups song from Pitch Perfect so one person could lip sync the whole thing while everyone else did the cup motion–it would look really cool on camera! But alas, we have an irritant in the form of TOMMY. He is a grown adult in the United States of America with no access to cups. I asked him straight up: “What street corner is the cardboard box in which you live?” This guy is obnoxious. He has terrible taste and is just a turd of a person to talk to 80% of the time. Oh not to mention that he kept saying he should sit out for some moronic reason and then kept trying to lead the tribe. “I think I should sit out. But first, let me dictate what we do for this challenge. But I shouldn’t be involved. No you shouldn’t do this song. You should do one I choose. Well it seems like everyone wants to participate, so I’ll sit out.” Just STOP, dude. You’re embarrassing all of us, yourself especially. NEHE is not helping either. He is so far up TOMMY’s ass and I have no idea why. Part of me wants to possibly acknowledge that NEHE is being smart in befriending TOMMY so that he’s not at the top of the Favorites’ hit list. Part of me thinks he just relates to TOMMY’s idiotic and childish behavior. Since the challenge began, NEHE and TOMMY have been annoying just about everyone while the rest of us have tried to be helpful. They’re both being massive morons and I don’t appreciate it at all. The challenge ruling came down and we didn’t even have to throw it. Our video was so terrible (I truly gave it my best) that the new Mata destroyed us even with the help of a 10-point advantage from AMANDA. I really want to give a reassuring look to KRYSTEN and LINUS. I’m very proud of both of them. But now it’s time to sack up and prepare for war. NEHE is already spinning out. ADRIAN told him he’s their target which I don’t think is even a little bit true, but of course NEHE is eating it up. When you’re 15 and home schooled, your world is VERY small. This is all he thinks about, surely. We discussed as a team and the plan is to attempt to divide the favorites, using ASHLEY to vote against her former tribemates while we take the opportunity to eliminate someone else: 4-3-1. I doubt it will work. I think our best case scenario is to go to rocks and hopefully be on the winning side. I think the worst case scenario is getting idol-ed out of the game because Tommy allegedly has an idol. I’d rather not. I’d rather pick the wrong rock. Hopefully I can trust my side and we pick the right person to vote for. Otherwise we are looking at a loss and to begin being steamrolled by the Favorites. And I refuse to just let that happen. I know what I signed up for. I’m going to do everything in my power to defy that. I’ve talked to AMANDA about the vote and I’ve leveled with her 100%.  She understands the dynamic the most because her last season was Fans vs. Favorites and she was in my shoes! I told her that if she’s working with her former tribemates that I wouldn’t try to dissuade her, but my door is always open if she wants to reject them. I was very open and respectful with her and I’m trying to make this as classy as possible when it comes to her because I feel like she might gravitate toward that attitude. I have definitely come around on her. I said some things about her bio video that I completely take back. She’s a great person with a huge heart. We’ll see how this whole thing shakes out. I don’t trust NEHE. I feel like the Favorites have the upper hand. I really just hope that ADRIAN, KEEGAN, and I are still standing when the dust settles on this vote. That’s all I want.

anyway I MISS STEFFEN AND JAY AND ALL I HAVE OVER HERE IS A FLASHLIGHT TO KEEP ME COMPANY I only plan on using the flashlight PLATONICALLY, THANK YOU.

So, after careful consideration of everything, IM FREAKING THE FUCK OUT. Unless by some miracle we can convince Amanda or Ashley to flip to the fans, it’s to the rocks we go. I have an idol, I can play it and guarantee I’m staying but that really doesn’t help me if one of the fans goes home anyways. And then we have to consider one of the faves having an idol. This is all one big messy situation that I don’t want to be part of. 

That challenge was fun!  Just filmed a few minutes on a Saturday afternoon.  So glad we don’t have to go to tribal.  Just have to keep building my connections in case we do have to go soon.

We lost the immunity challenge. My alliance kinda wanted this to happen so we can go to rocks and get the numbers advantage as also in hopes of flipping into voting with us. After we lost though Brett came up with the plan to get the flipper to vote the wrong way or flush an idol. The person I wanted out was Sam as I had no connection him but news came back to me that it’s Tommy who is targeting for the vote to be me. That kinda surprises me. I had good talks with tommy I truly hope its a bluff. I have to rely on bonds with Ashley and Amanda in hopes that they don’t try and vote me. At this point in time I am a paranoid mess. My alliance is messy and isn’t thinking straight of who we target. Keegan scares me of maybe flipping. I don’t like Brett at this moment because of his personality but he’s the only one i’m 100% will go to rocks. I just have to keep drilling in my head if I go only 6 fans remain and 8 Favorites. With them in minority too. This is the chance to not be in minority. I am not going this round I will not have it. I haven’t gotten to show my full potential yet and I will not let this messed up scum of a person named Tommy fuck this up for me. I will not go home this tribal council that’s for sure. If they do vote me I need my boys to not flip. I truly do. If we go to rocks I am safe. The also best thing about it is if we tie we can easily use that to get Ashley and Amanda. Tell them that our side isn’t flipping so unless they want to go to rocks they need to save me and vote Sam. This can possibly be the first big vote this season. The past votes I was in was blindsides in themselves but it was more so a group leading the tribe. Now the game has officially begun. I won’t be the one to be taken out though. I won’t stand for that. This is my first Tumblr Survivor game. I done nothing like this I will not let it be taken away from me. Sam played before and he made it far before. It’s time for Nehe to shine.

who the fuck tries to keep their word on survivor better yet who the fuck tries to keep their word on ONLINE SURVIVOR also trevor what does my flashlight do i’m getting really bored of it

When you try to spice up your game by playing a little villain here and there and you get away with it. People are so fucking gullible, it makes me laugh.

OKAY HERE COMES MY RANT So everyone finally agrees on All I Want for Christmas is You after being pains in the ass and then Adrians like “well the mariah carey one is copyrighted on youtube” or something which is understandable so hes gonna use the Fifth Harmony one. Okay cool whatever. Well maybe im a dumbass for assuming but chances are if you agree to doing a holiday song, YOU SHOULD BE FUCKING FESTIVE. LIKE DRAW A FUCKING CHRISTMAS TREE DO SOMETHING LIKE COME THE FUCK ON PEOPLE. I FROZE MY ASS OFF TO BE BY BALLS THAT LOOKED LIKE ORNAMENTS. MY PHONE LITERALLY SHUT OFF BECAUSE IT WAS SO COLD. WHICH ALSO HERE’S A BIG FUCK YOU TO ADRIAN, IM THE ONLY FESTIVE ONE AND IM USED THE LEAST IN THE VIDEO? HOW THE HELL DOES THAT MAKE ANY SENSE????? LITERALLY the entire tribe was saying how great my video was and then its used literally once AND ITS THE PART WHERE I MESS UP AND SPECIFICALLY TOLD ADRIAN NOT TO USE THAT PART. Like was Adrian TRYING to make us lose? wtf man. My one shot video of me alone without any editing probably would have gotten a better score than the shit this tribe put together. I even used my advantage and we still fucking lost. Thats how much they suck. Anyways I’m gonna put my video alone linked here because that way people know how much my tribe flopped :) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ovZLwir-QLw OH also here’s some bloopers, my friend recording it fell lmfao https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KhflLf8AjLE Anyways now that my rant about the challenge is done, time to rant about tribal. So the most likely scenario is that the vote will be 4-4 because we have four fans and four faves. So we’ve been trying to see if any of the fans will crack. Brett doesnt seem to wanna budge hes just trying to get us to flip to them. Nehe didnt answer my message and i havent gotten to talk to Adrian but I was talking to Keegan and he seems to be crackinng a bit. He mentioned something about wishing there was an easier option than rocks and i was like well there is…. vote with us lmfao well i said it better than that but im summing it up here. He was saying that hes thinking about flipping but hes scared and that he’s worried if he votes with us that we’ll just vote him out next week so i gave him my word that i wouldnt vote him out next week and Ashley was gonna reassure him. I used the fact that the last time i played i was a fan and that i actually understand how scary it is as opposed to tommy/ashley/sam and i think that was a bit of comfort to him. I really hope it works and keegan flips and votes with us. I dont wanna go to fucking rocks. I also hope no one from our side chickens out and votes me out or something. If i went home when i was the only one who gave a fuck about this challenge im gonna be so pissed. Also i miss Gaston and i hate so much that he left last week. And i need merge to happen right now because i hate being on calls with Leah and Steffen and not being able to talk about shit I WANNA TELL THEM SO MUCH AND I CANT ITS KILLING ME

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RY2K0tM6IUE

yeah adrian is kinda dumb for trying to tell me he hasn’t heard anything about the vote yet RIGHT AS WE’RE ALL TALKING ABOUT HOW THE VOTE MIGHT GO TO ROCKS IN THE FAVES CHAT honestly just like other people have said things that make me believe you are lying. not only that but he TOLD TOMMY “hey it’s either you or nehe going” BEFORE HE APPROACHED ME like actually please try to do a good job at lying also tommy’s lowkey a puss but I need him for my game until merge

I have like no clue on what the outcome of tonight will bring. I did my best to negotiate myself out of the mess i was in last night. I still could very well be the vote. My alliance decided that the smart choice tonight was to vote Ashley. In hopes if we draw rocks we get her safety and get tommy or sam out. I really hope this doesn’t bite us in the butt. More so me.

So losing the challenge really sucks… But I sat out so hopefully no one sees it as my fault that we lost or anything. Honestly going to tribal is really scary. We are even. And if someone does not flip we will go to rocks and that will not be good for any of us. I am considering flipping and voting alongside Keegan, who I am starting to like a bit. Leegan seems to be willing to flip of necessary. So I am hoping to be able to work that out maybe. An alliance chat of just the faves has been made and even though I like them all, I can’t jist stick to tribal lines like this.

I have a bad feeling about this. I don’t want to get 15th though, so I’m fighting as hard as I can to stay, there’s just not much I can do with the tribal lines the way they are. This might be my last confessional, I really don’t want my game to end. So this is pretty saddening but I played as well as I could with the dynamic given to me. I really wish the tribal lines weren’t so strong this season and people were more willing to the idea of playing the game of survivor instead of FvF. I’m praying it’s not me tonight, or another one of the favorites.

Just remembered I haven’t submitted a confession this round, so I figured I’d give my loyal fanbase a little update. The swap seems to be going pretty well so far since we won immunity. This gives me some extra time to bond with the new members, which isn’t a huge priority since the former faves have a majority on our tribe. Regardless, it’s always good to meet everyone and know who’s trustworthy.