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"You're more than what you're going through. And you wear it well."
#dragon age: the veilguard#lucanis dellamorte#datv rook#rookcanis#gamingedit#datvedit#uservorgoth#userstar#usertogepies#usermoxie#usermojaves#.gfx#🫣#c: lleyth de riva#🖤: a murder of crows#i've died 50000 bajillion deaths. i think i was born under an evil star#and i spent like 3 hours in photoshop on this and i think it sucks. it is what it is#watching lucanis go thru the full spectrum of human emotion kills me. i need to kiss whoever animated his expressions#the way he grimaces and then smiles 😭😭😭 and looks so in love. bashing my head against a concrete wall so hard it leaves a crater#and then they KISSED and everything was fine and they DIDNT get scared 1 inch apart and spook each other like wild horses#and then run off to go shiver and scamper about it in their rooms.#🧍<- in denial#a heem heem. whimper#also im obsessed with their height difference (aka the lack thereof)#lleyth is literally the shortest person in the group aside from harding. so the shortest non-dwarf#and lucanis is BARELY taller than them ASHGSDJHHFJDJKD the second he leans it's so over. we need to get him a box to stand on#ok im sorry ill shut up 🧍 flinging this at the dash and running away#datv spoilers#sorry im insane about a fictional man from my video game do u guys still like me
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It's kinda crazy how so many crimes go unsolved at first because people are like "no way this guy could have done it, he looks so NORMAL, so PUT TOGETHER, so HUMAN, if he could do it, ANYONE could do it."
And their definition of that is a semi-average looking white guy with like, slight above average use of vocabulary. Like yeah you're gonna let a whole lot of people go if you think that's not "what the face of crime" looks like lmao.
#im sorry but the way people obsessed over ted bundy is crazy#he was not that much smarter or charming as they made him sound#dude just happened to look like an average white guy and could talk#they act like the man was a criminal genius#he just lived in the 70s with a lack of technology
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Just so u know i got ungodly attached BEFORE that short appeared (ask any one of my mutuals fr) I NEED HELP.
#animator vs animation#ava#alan becker#anim vs#animation vs minecraft#avm#doobles#ava corn dog guy#maroon#ochre#ginger#THEYRE MY BLORBOS IM SO SORRY#GOD DOESNT KNOW HOW MUCH I OBSESSED OVER HIM ON SKIB#also he is in bug au i am not sorry
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redrawing my favorite gba chain of memories scenes with my own interpretations part 1(?):
“You’re thinking about me… You’re afraid of the darkness I command.”
#beep boop you want fries with that#kingdom hearts#riku#ansem#GBA CHAIN OF MEMORIES IS SO GOOD. please play it over the remake im begging. it also plays a lot better too.#every ansem scene is better in gba com because i dont have to listen to richard epcar attempt to be intimidating#they altered so many scenes in the remake and a lot of the changes suck !! just straight up !! i will never forgive them for changing#this scene and the previous lexaeus scenes. like why did they have riku get possessed for a second only for the next cutscene to#literally be about riku trying not to get possessed. like that makes no sense. its just cheap shock value and just treating lexaeus#like shit. at least he mentioned zexion. ok if i knew how to do rom hacks i could literally change the dialogue myself to mention zexion.#ok sorry for complaining. uhhh#the composition is clearly ripped off from the owl house. sorry. season 1 belos scene.#and the background is just the original gba bg of the scene but blurred to look less pixelated#sorry the anatomy sucks. i know rikus arms shouldnt be that long but too late. kms.#this scene is so good because augh. this is the first time in this game we come face to face with the real ansem. not just diz pretending#to be him to just shove down ‘darkness bad’ down his throat. this is why mickey comes to save him in this scene. because riku is in#real danger here. thats also the reason why mickey sends his power again when riku is being dangled like a puppet BECAUSE ANSEM WAS THERE#FOR REAL THIS TIME. anyway yeah i know ansem’s sprite doesn’t appear when he says that but the portrait is a silhouette so i went#weh. why not !!#anyway im obsessed w/ cryptid ansem. ghost inhabitanting a fallen kingdom. continuing the fucked up experiments like if they never stopped#OK IVE ALREADY RAMBLED ENOUGH AND THIS SHIT IS GOING INTO RE:KH TERRITORY. (hunter voice) BYEEEEEEE
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Fernando 2012 Chair Lore (source: me)
So I've been thinking a lot about Fernando sitting in this particular chair in the Ferrari garage in 2012 for [redacted] reasons:
Originally I just wanted to find more pictures of it for reference, and then went down a rabbit hole of 2012 pictures, trying to figure out when exactly the chair came to be. There's so many pictures of him in it, and it's so funny to me to imagine them hauling this super villain chair all around the world for him. And so now I'm obsessed with the evolution of it:
Pre-Chair - Australia to Bahrain:
He just had this little stool, well I should say big because it somehow still manages makes him look small. Clearly not comfortable; to paraphrase @sweatyflytrap, it's not conducive to his inner Shakespeare villain monologues
The Chair Appears - Spain
He suddenly now has this, aforementioned, super villain chair. Several things, why is it like this. It looks like a sim chair almost ngl. And then the weird plexiglass support is confusing me, like where did they get that. It furthers my narrative they just had this chair that they couldn't put in a car so they put that clear bottom on it. Anyways yes good, now he has somewhere to brood
The Chair Evolves - Silverstone
Look!! They gave him a booster seat!!!
The Chair is Now Here to Stay :)
I downloaded a truly horrible amount of pics him in this chair, so now you all must also look at them >:)
*he still had the chair in 2013, but I think they took it away from him in 2014 :( Is nothing sacred in this world??? I hope he got to take it home hahaha
#i now have a psychosexual relationship with this chair#and im also just obsessed with the range of it???#theres an equal amnt of pics where he looks like a hot evil villain and then also ones where hes all curled up on it cutely#the co-stars to this post are really all his different sunglasses and the sexy button up fireproofs#this was actually like a true derangment post#irdk what came over me and caused me to make this but it is very important lore actually and i care a lot about it#im just curious about the origins still#like theyre suddenly like in spain 'here is a present for your home race'#the upgrade in silverstone is still killing me. ik its to make it more comfy but like...its literally a booster seat im sorry#but yeah fernando is so real in these. i too would sit in this chair all the time#okay now stay with me bcs this is just vettonso pilled BUT#the difference btwn him and seb in their garages is so funny to me#seb was always sitting on the cabinets like curled up on them lounging on them kicking his legs over them like a kid on a counter etc etc#and then fernando just has a fucking bond villain chair#and you wonder why i ship them so heavily. scoff scoff#this is just a ref post to draw him and seb together on the cha- huh what wait who said that? what was that huh that was weird#fernando alonso#f1#formula 1#formula one#*would be so fucking funny to tag this as lore#fa14#we do a little bit of f1#catie.rambling.txt#normal posts that catie normally makes in a normal fashion
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i know that atsv and spiderverse in general is probably not including Gabe for various reasons and therefore when Mig took his alt selfs place he wasnt actually leaving anyone behind. he said something along the lines of “i found a universe where i was happy” which kinda screams that something was fucked up with his home one, i’d like to think more than usual because the other explanation is that he just left like all his family behind. Which is extremely messed up but also on the other hand a little funny
like imagine being gabe here. Imagine your older brother fucks off to another universe because of his depression and comes back with even worse depression ranting some shit about canon events. You have to be told where he went by his AI because god knows your brother has all the communication skills of a rusty spoon. Have to be told he fucking left with no intention of coming back
#spiderman#sm2099#miguel o'hara#gabriel o’ hara#miguel#like i never expect gabe to be in anything honestly hes my little guy but sm2099 adaptations hate him sometimes#not even going to start talking about the other sm2099 supporting characters but#the idea of gabe just. having his brother fuck off but then also come back with more issues. drives me insane#and you fuckin KNOW this guy would barely communicate a thing gabe would have to bully half of it out of mig and get the other half from lyl#but also. since i mentioned supporting cast. if kasey and hobie ever met its fuckin over for everyone#sm2099 brainworms hitting me so bad since atsv#in atsv they would be even more dysfunctional than their worst comic moments#atsv#silly little textposts#please feel free to ignore this im just obsessed with messed up sibling relationships#Mig comes back to “welcome home cheater” on every wall of his apartment#atsv spoilers#<- SORRY I FORGOR
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i really enjoyed kirimi hot dog (og twt from axez)
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#kirimi#mo4#i had a moral obligation since ive made baseball game hotdogs my personality#for like the last 3 months#also sorry fir being quiet im getting into like 3 things rn#house corru.observer and sgt frog... sighs#that and ime obsessing over beetles atm smiles#twitter compressed the shit out of him and it pissed me off so bad#so if tumblr is doing the same thing im going to delete tumblr. Forever.
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I'm seeing a lot of people with neurodivergency, specially under the autism spectrum say that "Laios is annoying, never shuts up, is insensitive, and I can't stand him"; and the irony is not lost on me lmao.
#like im sorry dude did you think all autism is “anime obsessed dude”?#how did you think neurodivergent people behaved on old times?#also like#being unintentionally insensitive is almost a telltale sign of autism cause you struggle with social cues#if anything i think a lot of you are finally habing to face your own internalized predjudices#“he is annoying” yes that's how ableist neurotypical people talk about us all the time tell me something i haven't heard already#like how do i explain to you that a lot of neurotypical people tal the exact same eay youre talkbing about laios#and is annoying when they go “but im neurodivergent! i can be biased agaisnt neurodivergent people”#yes you can because being neurodivergent is not a monolith and you are mistifying being neurodivergent#by implying theres some sort of virtue in being under the spectrum when youre as capable of being a dick just as everyone else#like you think you have autism but suddenly wanting to taste things youre not supposed to eat and not remembering peoples names is too much?#some of yall never experienced beinf a “weird kid” at a young age and it shows#and im not talking the “geek bullied” weird kid kinda way#im talking “the adults think I'm weird amd don't know how to deal with me”#WHICH FITS LAIOS PERFECTLY BECAUSE WE ACTUALLY HAVE A SCENE OF HIS DAD SHOWING HIM FALLIN AS A BABY#AND NOT UNDERSTANDING WHY IS THERE NO EXPECTED REACTION FROM LAIOS#anyways im making this rant because is unreal how many posts of this exist#you think Laios is annoying cause he wont shut up?#congratulations thats how most people see us#now get over it or watch other series if you hate it that much#dunmeshi hell thoughts#weird rant i suppose#dungeon meshi#laios touden
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i have come here to personally thank you for giving me more than i asked for 🙏🏻 i am utterly grateful like IDJFKDKKFODOD 🧎♀️🧎♀️🧎♀️ it made me so happy the last doodle has my heart he is so cute i will eat him
also there is a DROUGHT out there for us noritoshi fans like im living on CRUMBS its insane and omg dont even talk to me abt how it feels like to be a kashimo and ino lover (altho they are getting a bit more love now) my nori is still underrated :/ sooo hence im asking ur hand in friendship and in exchange i promise to share my hcs with you abt nori my sweet lil meow meow we're in this together 💪🏻💪🏻
also since its October, do you think he likes horror movies? i feel like he can withstand gory movies but its the jumpscares that get him and he wont tell u he's scared when u watch one with jumpscares owkfkdkd imagine him hiding his face against ur shoulder or something 😭😭😭 (i used to do that with my dad when we watched horror movies and i used to be like im not scared😤😤 when he asked if i was lmfao thats where this hc stemmed from)
N. NORITOSHI HIDING IN YOUR SHOULDER OR SUPPRESSING HIS REACTIONS TO THE JUMPSCARES....... WAS IT AN INVOLUNTARY REACTION TO USE YOU TO HIDE??????? WAS IT BUILT UP TRUST????? DID HE GROW USED TO HOLDING ONTO YOU WHEN HE GETS SURPRISED BECAUSE HE WANTS TO MAKE SURE HE HAS HIS VALUABLES SAFE????????? WAS IT A MOMENT WHERE HIS MIND JUST INSTINCTIVELY GRABBED THE FIRST THING HE WANTED TO PROTECT/BE PROTECTED BY???????? OH MY FUCK.
he's probably used to gore and gritty stuff like that since he sees it often being a jujutsu sorcerer and all. not to mention his technique is literally blood. maybe he's desensitized to gore films, the most you'll get from him is a disgusted scowl.
BUT DID YOU SEE HOW QUICK HIS EYE OPENED WHEN HANAMI SHOWED UP BEHIND HIM. YOURE SO FUCKING FR ABT JUMPSCARES. Noritoshi is that guy who wouldn't scream or yelp but gasp really loudly and jump out of his skin.
i feel like they get him most in horror because of the music building up anticipation. if its one of those fake outs where the jumpscare comes a bit after, he's fucked UP. It makes him instantly miffed, as he tries to regain his composure. He swears he's not usually like this, it got him by surprise is all..!
Noritoshi is the type that'd only watch a horror movie if the story is rich and complex. He's the type of guy to like open endings that make you think.. if it's a guilty pleasure movie where all the protags make stupid decisions, he gets annoyed right off the bat.
He's groaning and complaining about how imbecile the characters are, but would still watch it with you because you personally invited him. If he's lucky you could fall asleep on his shoulder or [insert movie cliche here] how could he pass that up? But Noritoshi wouldn't be able to focus on you if he gets twice as annoyed because its a bad movie + jumpscares. it still startles him, but the movie is so terrible, he's embarrassed it got him, especially in front of you!!!
if you get involved and you tell him to quiet down, Noritoshi would shift his focus towards you. like that awkward guy who thinks he's being smooth and lowkey about how he cuddles up next to you. He wants to be the tough guy who's shoulder you can hide in, and he is!! just not.. with jumpscares.......
#noritoshi#noritoshi x reader#kamo noritoshi#kamo noritoshi x reader#noritoshi kamo#noritoshi kamo x reader#merry october#sO SORRY THIS WAS SO LATE AGAIN WDYM OCTOBERS ALMOST OVER FUKC SO THESE OCTOBER POSTS WILL LEAK INTO NOVEMBER. AHA.#FAM I WAS SPITBALLIN SO HARD W THE WRITING BUT FUCK IT OH MY GOD I LOVED THAT#ty back for the cat noritoshi idea btw. ill love you forever#the way i fell off my chair and scrambled to read the rest of this ask was insane. friendship.? im so awkward but i'll be here for u homie#i love noritoshi headcanons..#i eat them up like candy...#.... my cult member is moving up the unspoken ranks i made up while making this cult.....#as for ino and kashimo. i dont know much about them.#but i like the bits i do know! i like ino's energy.... he reminds me of an excitable puppy from what ive seen..#i may draw more characters if i grow obsessed. i mean infatuated. or if they make noritoshi look good.#or if you do a damn good job at convincing me#but unfortunately. i was persuaded into a blood pact with my second in command to wait for the anime to finish then watch it with him then.#back to nori though. we are definitely together in this. i fucking understand the drought. pinterest keeps giving me geto#and yes. hes good too. BUT NOT THE MEOW MEOW I'M SCAVANGING FOR#THATS NOT MY STUCK UP BABYGIRL WHO'D SCOWL AT ME FOR PRONOUNCING WORCESTERSHIRE SAUCE WRONG....#btw peep the orange for pumpkins or something#happy halloween my awesome cult#null rot
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hello everybody, I love Jorge so much, thanks for listening
#everytime someone mentions jorge i just have a sudden cycle of only thinking about him.#madness combat#my favorite guy#madness project nexus#i just saw two post talking about him and I was happy#madcom#madness combat fanart#madcom fanart#mc fanart#madness combat jorge#madness Project Nexus jorge#madcom jorge#mc jorge#jorge is named literally jorge how are u not gonna like him#love my man jorge#(everytime a character shows a light sign of being hispanic im gonna obsess over them for 2 weeks at least and/or just be my fav)#hes just like me fr#sorry for rambling#the silliness
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Sometimes I think about the MP100 S3 finale and Reigen saying "You don't need me anymore" but never saying anything about him not needing Mob anymore, how it was basically a goodbye and that's why he started to cry, because he wanted it to last forever, because he's going to miss him more than anything, and the fact that afterwards we skip six months into the future where the city is fixed, where Tome works at Spirits & Such alongside Serizawa, but there are no new desks so it implies that Mob no longer works there, that he's moved on with his life and is only visiting a fond memory by attending Reigen's birthday, making up for the last one he missed, throwing cake in Reigen's face because the reverence is gone they're no longer Master and Disciple but they're still old friends even if they've grown rapidly apart, and how Reigen was holding back tears seeing everyone there but in particular facing Mob's direction, and in the spinoff Reigen looks up at the fake Mob who's still in his school uniform and he doesn't even fight back against it even though he has to know it's not real because he misses those days even though he knows he shouldn't—and then I just
#ITS ABOUT REIGEN LETTING GO OF SOMETHING THAT WAS NEVER SUPPOSED TO BE HIS BUT IT TEARING AWAY PART OF HIS SOUL TO DO SO DO YOU GET IT#DO YOU UNDERSTAND#HE GREW HE LEARNED HE'S A BETTER PERSON NOW BUT IT'S KILLING HIM#MAYBE LITERALLY#mobrei#reimob#mob psycho 100#kageyama shigeo#mob#reigen arataka#AND MOB DESERVES HIS OWN LIFE HIS OWN HAPPINESS HE DESERVES TO MOVE ON#AND REIGEN KNOWS THIS HE KNOWS IT SO HE TRIES TO DO THE SAME#but the fact is that he wouldnt be where he is surrounded by the people he is without mob and everything around him only serves to remind#him of mob and the fact that these reminders are in place bc mob no longer is#sorry im obsessing over reigens suicidal tendencies when it comes to the thought of losing mob again do you still think im hot#unrequited love my beloved 💔❤️🔥
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Star faerie (bisexual panic alien edition) au johnshi that broke sai every time I saved so I had to call it good here
Bonus: there's not a single brain cell behind those eyes and Johnny is failing upwards with high ranking aliens (he has priorities)
#my art#starborn#star faerie au kenshi#star changeling au johnny#star chosen johnny#johnshi#star faeries#good luck figuring out the lore i cant be coherent and concise i could ramble about the vampire faeries forever#star kissed skin my one weakness#i say as if im not obsessed with starry eyes#total eclipse eyes#are you ever blind to everything but starlight and suddenly after ur bf gets turned into your kind you can see him#sorry kenshi youre from a bard species youre going to charm other bards regardless of being a rogue or not#hes useless if youre going to say something that romantic to him after he just had a crisis over losing his humanity#johnny x kenshi
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thinking about how dongsik and joowon are the inverse of each other. thinking about joowon's journey realizing that blood is not thicker than water, ties can be severed from abusive family members (no matter how painful that is) and that among many things, his father's cruelty is what took away and destroyed dongsik's family who actually were a positive force in his life. many things about beyond evil appeal to me, but i mainly want to put a pin on the central themes of the show, particularly the failures of adults and parental figures, how that ripples through the lives of their successors in an especially vicious and self-destructive manner. this is a commonality found between multiple characters in the show (minjeong, joowon and jeongje) - but i want to put emphasis on joowon's struggle with this because his path to freedom was walked to completion, in comparison to minjeong whose life was cut short and jeongje who we part with carrying the painful knowledge that he may never achieve absolution, as his journey has only begun.
the show, technically starts at the beginning of joowon's journey/arc. unfamiliarity and discomfort force him to adapt and self-reflect, because the only way joowon was able to free himself was by breaking every rule his father set for him, going beyond his selfish confines and breaking down the walls he built. joowon is unable to get his physical body dirty, he is emotionally closed-off and is incapable of understanding why the people in manyang, particularly dongsik, would look out for anyone other than themselves. he is selfish, rigid, guilt-ridden and bashful; but it is exposure to dongsik's unwavering faith in and patience for others (for jeongje, for sangbae, for the people of manyang that have wronged him for years) that erode his harsh edges. dongsik, although not without flaws and contrary to what his outer appearance and manner of speech radiate, is kind and forgiving. that kindess, that forgiveness, as well as joowon's own guilt and shame is essential to getting him to a point where he is comfortable bloodying his hands, his clothes, and his face to protect dongsik (+ jihwa and her partner. to protect his friends).
dongsik recognizes joowon's pain too ("i know what it's like to be blamed for something you didn't do"). he sees his guilt, it's not inordinate to what joowon's done per se but a large portion of it brings so much shame to joowon ("please, stop doing unnecessary things out of guilt.") how could i have been so self-righteous when the man who bore me is responsible for so much misery? how do i rectify this, how do i absolve myself from the guilt? all dilemmas joowon grapples with, and dongsik, knowing pain and shame all too well does not grant joowon mercy when he is bowed down, forehead to cuffed hands while joowon's own are also cupping dongsik's, begging for it. mercy is letting joowon go, it's lifting the burden of responsibility off his shoulders - but instead, dongsik’s final request ensures that joowon truly atones ("i ask you to arrest me" - "no, how could i do that? i have no right") by informing him that the only way to live with guilt is to try and do right by the people who expect something from him. "joowon-ah", dongsik says as he softly picks up joowon's clenched fist, the look they share informs joowon that going through with the arrest is how he'll do dongsik right. it's what dongsik, his now friend, expects from him. that's what their final scene as partners is all about, in my opinion.
and something good does come out of dongsik's firm but tender confrontation. joowon gradually becomes a better person who seeks community and whose life, in return, is enriched by the friends that forming community gave him. dongsik and joowon's parting is bittersweet, but in letting joowon know that his actions matter to others and that he is wanted and expected by others - (jihwa, as part of the larger collective whose feelings towards joowon are influenced by dongsik's, texts him and checks in - that expectation to show up and empathy for when he does not respond is an invitation letting him know that there is a place for him if he chooses to occupy any) - dongsik sets him free.
#god im sorry i dont meta on here often but i physically needed to let all of this out.#user aboutmercy is obsessed with the thematic idea of granting and denying mercy? oh im SURE#also. joowon was such an ass in the beginning lmao i love him so much......#if dongsik was any less crazy and any less generally patient and kind as a character trait then it would've been so over for joowon#the contrasts i've noted between jwds are abusive home/loving family - kind/really mean - confident/insecure..#i'll perhaps find more on a rewatch. but it's so interesting how different they are yet so fundamentally broken#that they couldnt have resisted being drawn to each other.#ds to jw: 'the depressed and obsessive man in me sees the depressed and obsessive man in you'#beyond evil#lee dongsik#han joowon#jwds#also. sorry if this is bullshit i’m just……. filled with agonies. bc i love han joowon#jtbc beyond evil
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will make pretty later, but tribbie graphic/widget (there's a transparent one and one with a backing depending on what your using it for lol)
#tribbie#lowkey she's really cute omg#her colour scheme is so pretty imo#hsr#amphoreus obsession did not go away#may edit phainon after i get over how hot he is AHEM i didn't say that#might not pull for him bc the amount of time i'll spend just yapping about him might hinder me from actually playing 😔#guys if he's a kevin expy maybe i should play hi3 for kevin-#just jk lol i don't have the time management for that#piano exam countdown we're at 2 days to go discounting today since it's 10pm and friday <3#we're lowkey kinda fucked i don't think i'm ready for my exam#did i cook or did i cook myself with my piano as firewood IM JOKING SORRY LOL#okay i really need to shut up now#guys i really like amphor-
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it’s time to overanalyze the impala destruction scene <3 with actual screencaps this time. my analysis of the shot will be Above the screencap. hopefully that makes sense
so sam tries once again to talk to dean about dad. dean yells at him again for suddenly wanting to do what dad would’ve wanted and sam opens up to him about feeling guilty. then sam says he’s dealing with dads death, but dean isn’t. dean doesn’t say anything, just looks at him like This.
we don’t know yet, what john said to dean before he died. but it’s hanging over dean. i think sam’s reaction to dad’s death makes dean want to keep johns words a secret even more. if he tells sam that’s what dad wanted, sam might go along with it.
every time someone brings up john, dean hears his words again, and he feels even worse. he can’t deal with dads death because that means acknowledging what he said, and it’s just too much. he already lost dad, he can’t lose sam too.
sam says “i’ll leave you alone.” and walks away. we only hear a few steps, but that might just be for clarity. who knows. or he just. took a few steps then stopped.
either way, dean turns around and calmly picks up a crowbar. he smashes the window of a random car. takes a few breaths.
as he turns around, he looks up from the ground. looks at something in front of him. it seems for a second like he’s going to stop.
then he looks down at the impala. he glances back up, just for a second. right where sam was standing before. it looks like he’s making sure sam is watching him. you want me to deal with it? fine.
“next time someone asks me if i’m okay, i’m gonna start throwing punches.”
so he goes crazy on the impala. we all know that part.
he destroys the car right after he fixes it. specifically the trunk of the car, where they keep their hunting arsenal. maybe that was just the closest part, or maybe he’s had enough of his family dying because of hunting. he didn’t want to find the demon if it meant sam would die, but now sam might die anyway. no matter what he does, the car/his family will be destroyed. he can’t fix it, and it’s futile to even try. all his work, all the time and love he put into sam might have been worthless.
when he finally stops, he looks wrecked. this is the most emotion he’s allowed himself since dad died.
this is the last shot of the episode. him staring for a good 10 seconds, still on that same eyeline. he seems like he’s looking at something.
he lets himself look sad for a second, but he doesn’t turn away like he normally would. he wants sam to see. this was all for him. it’s like… there. i’m upset. was that enough? can you stop asking now?
then his expression hardens, shutting down and covering his emotions again. it’s like he’s warning sam. dean can’t be sad, only angry. only destructive. this time, it’s the car. next time, it might be sam. the two things he’s supposed to look after, both ruined. and dad isn’t here to fix it. dean has to figure it out on his own.
it looks like he’s asking sam to just leave it alone. don’t ask me about this. i can’t talk about it. and for now, sam believes it’s just about dad dying.
and then the episode ends. i genuinely cannot tell if im supposed to think sam is there or not. but like its the same eyeline!!! and the shot is pushed in and to the right!! sam could be standing in the same spot for all we know !! also what else would he be having a silent convo with in bobby’s junkyard? the dog? his own reflection? the only thing that makes sense to me is that sam is there. that he’s doing this For sam. maybe this is something everyone noticed but me until rn but. im going insane
#im so obsessed with him#he belongs under a microscope.#also he looks so pwetty in this scene GOD#the car is Thee metaphor for their family js#also this goes with my post about dead man’s blood sorry if it doesn’t make sense#sorry just. can’t get over dean performing his emotions for sams benefit#everything he does. everything he shows or doesn’t show is for sam#and it only gets worse when john dies#there’s nothing else. no secondary loyalty#only sam#he’s crazy <333#2.02#everybody loves a clown#spn studies#spn#daddy’s blunt little instrument#samdean#dean#mars.txt#s2
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child!luca who comes from the greatly respected kaneshiro family, one filled with generation after generation of loyal knights. luca, who grew up alongside the reader, the eldest child and heir to the crown. luca, who trained tirelessly day in and day out to feel worthy of the title of imperial knight. luca, who watches the reader from afar and blushes when they compliment his form.
luca, who gets knighted at only 15—the youngest to ever do so—and joins the imperial guard. his father praises his skill and celebrates his newfound knighthood and achievement with a party, but halfway through luca slips away from the crowd and ends up on a balcony. he admires the moon and prays that you remember him
knight!luca who watches with concealed worry at your coronation after the sudden death of your parents, who clutches the sword at his side tightly after hearing thinly veiled insults thrown at you from unimpressed nobles
knight!luca who serves his beloved emperor, who becomes the captain of the imperial knights and trains his subordinates to become the best they can be to protect you.
knight!luca who is assigned to guard you as you sleep, who averts his eyes when you begin to undress before him after dismissing the aids
knight!luca who stays oh so impossibly still when you brush a hand across his armored chest, heat radiating from his cheeks as he clenches his fists in an effort not to touch you. you, who is so radiant and beautiful, who is beyond his status as a knight and shouldn't, cannot be sullied by his callused hands and scarred fingers. you, who tucks a stray strand of blonde hair that escaped his ponytail behind his ear and strokes his cheek with clear fondness.
you, who knows your most loyal knight by name, who knows his favorite food and his drink of choice on his rare days off. you, who has watched him just as much as he's watched you, who has prayed for his safe return after a hard fought battle against invading forces. you, who tenderly removes every armor piece, every weapon from his body and drags him to your bed.
knight!luca who falls harder every day, who leaves sweet kisses against your hair and writes unspoken confessions into your skin. who lays beside you every night holding you tightly to his chest and thanking the gods every day for having the honor of loving you.
#im so mentally ill rn#god i need him so bad#this is mildly different from my othe luca royalty au i've been thinking abt#that one is an arranged marriage 😏#this one tho. reader and luca r equally obsessed with each other#sorry if this doesn't make sense btw it's 2:30 in the morning and i didn't read over this LAWLLLLL#luvxiem.writing#luca.txt#luca kaneshiro x reader#knight x ruler is one of my fave dynamics#this is why zelink is superior#a loyal knight and his beloved princess#gnawing on the bars of my enclosure
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