#im not a deep analytical person but even i can see that their relationship is deep and intimate in ways unlike the others ive seen

[atlasofthestaars]

hii! this is my first time requesting ever, but I just love your writing so much that I just have to ask:

can i request general headcannons with mk1 Bi-Han and female reader? if you’re comfortable with writing nsfw, can i also ask for some of those? I dont have anything specific in mind but im just dying for you to write more for Bi-Han, i think you write him soo well.

if you can’t/don’t want to do those, its totally ok! i just had to request from my favorite mk writer. thank you soo much!! 🫶🏽

ps. I LOVE NEW ERA SO MUCHHH UGHH

notes: oops i should have done these. a LOT sooner LMAO. idk if my headcanons are gonna be unpopular or not but this is how I see the bastard (only semi affectionately) most of these don’t really apply to female reader until the NSFW tbh, but even then I’m not too descriptive? I kinda wrote these informally but at the same time, very analytical?? You’ll see HAHA these are more like my rambles than shorter hcs. I probably should have made the NSFW parts sexier sounding LMAO they’re very like, analytical.

I also can probably do more of these if you guys want?? I just kinda wrote whatever but I’m certain I could write tons more  HAHA

Btw ty for liking New Era and being so patient for your wait ! <3

SFW

Bi-Han would only be with a partner, imo, if he truly loves them. Loyalty, trust, etc. are all important to him. To be with a person for the sake of being in a relationship imo is not his style. Especially if his father wanted an arranged marriage? He would not be happy with it. He can rule by himself, thank you very much. 

When Bi-Han loves you, he loves you. He may not say it much, but he does. It is not as if he thinks saying “i love you” is stupid. No, he understands it is important, he just knows that you know already. In rare moments where he is nearly overwhelmed with affection for you, he’ll say it first. But I think it is more likely he would only say a simple “i love you too” after you say it.

I can’t imagine Bi-Han to be the type of person to fall for someone at first sight or jump into dating someone quickly. I think the only way he’d fall for someone is to be friends with them first and slowly he’d fall, then the feelings would hit him all at once.

Bi-Han finds it hard to deny you. Even when he says no, he is probably thinking of other alternatives for you. Idk! I think this man would be kind of a simp deep down if he truly found someone he loves. But not like overboard, it’d be very subtle. Which is a lot for a frosty man like him.

Bi-Han’s love language imo, is acts of service. Probably small things like making you breakfast, helping you do your hair if you have longer hair, maybe even showing you how to properly stretch if you often feel sore. Little things that add up.

Bi-Han would allow you to be in his office just to enjoy your company. He probably wouldn’t talk much, mostly just listen in those moments when he’s concentrating. Your presence alone is enough for him when he’s working.

If he’s giving gifts, I imagine he’d probably be the type of person to place it in a place you’d see it, but no one else would. He’d leave a simple note like, “thought of you”. I don’t think he’d give it in person because he’s far too stiff to make it feel romantic enough,

I don’t think dates come often. but when they do Bi-Han would do something probably quiet and with just you. He’d rather spend the precious time he has not doing his duty with just the person he adores, no one else.

Probably not at first, but after you’ve been together for a while I think he’d allow you to brush and comb his hair. It’s not that he is particularly touch adverse with his hair, I just think he’s really fussy with it.

Not a fan of PDA. He doesn’t like the looks others give him and how he can tell that they’re thinking how did he get someone to defrost him? Far too nosey for his tastes. But if you want it, he’d probably indulge you in maybe a bit of hand holding. Maybe a peck on the cheek or on the lips once in a while, but he’s generally a private person.

Bi-Han has cold hands. Nothing he can do about it. Even with his fine control of cryomancy, there’s the lingering chill that is stuck to his skin.

I’d like to imagine that he would give very soft kisses in private. A kiss on the hand, a kiss on the forehead, etc. Small moments. 

Probably has given you one accessory the same shade of blue as his uniform. It pleases him just to see the subtle way you match.

NSFW

Ok. Listen. He’s a virgin. It’s not that I think he’s a “saving myself for marriage” type of man, I just think that he would not really be attracted to people enough to want a fling or something unserious. 

He probably is very hard to arouse unless he knows he won’t be interrupted or if it is work time. He’s just very regimented like that. Still, if you were to try and tease him by a little touches or with some particularly revealing clothing, then he supposed it would be a little harder to keep his mind off of the way your body feels under his hands.

Anyways, he probably will want to take the dominant role. I mean, it’s Bi-Han. But he won’t deny you if you ask for something, at least, until he learns that teasing you works very, very well. Then you’ll probably have to learn some more patience.

I think he knows for the most part what to do, but he just doesn’t have any hands-on experience for him. He’s a visual learner, want to teach him?

I think Bi-Han would at first think he would prefer receiving than giving, then after realizing how wonderful you look when you fall apart at his touch, he would think he very much prefers giving. It gives him almost a sense of power to see it, it makes him want more.

Still, he wouldn’t deny you if you were to give him a blowjob. It is undeniable how lovely you look on your knees, sucking his cock just to please him. 

If you give him a blowjob, look up at him. It drives him wild and he will probably entangle his hands in your hair if he hasn’t already.

Bi-Han would probably take sex as seriously as training. He’s here to please you after all.

With that being said, I think he’d be probably full of vigor doing anything you wanted. For example, you’d probably feel it the next day with how hard he’d thrust. Or you’d be guaranteed at least one orgasm with him eating you out, because he is a very stubborn man and he won’t stop until he sees you unravel upon his mouth.

I don’t think he’s very vocal. Probably grunts and muffling his noises in your skin.

Back to the teasing idea, I think he would develop a liking to teasing you, edging you if you will. The moans you make, the way you tremble under his touch…it is very appealing to him. Plus, he has a sharp eye, he’d notice how it seems to make the pleasure in the end so much more than if he gave you it right away.

I think he wouldn’t notice it, but if you pull his hair it would ignite some sort of fire within him. 

I like to imagine he would want to kiss during sex here and there. Your lips just look even more lovely in those moments.

He’d probably love to cum inside of you. It’s a little fantasy of his. He wouldn’t though, if there’s a chance for a child. It’s not that he doesn’t want children, he does, he just wants to wait until things are just…right.

[mordeiswrld]

HELLO!! how are you? i wanted to send in a request if that’s alright! since I wanted to take my chance to request this ^^ so anyways

may I request crismon, stolas and octavia with a Male! Reader who has a Karkat Vanitas Personality from Homestuck?

Thanks!

Hey im doing alright! thank you for requesting sorry this took so long 😅

STOLAS, CRIMSON, & OCTAVIA WITH A M!S/O WHO ACTS LIKE KARKAT VANITAS

CRIMSON👹🖤

1. Y/n and Crimson have a fiery and passionate relationship, filled with constant banter and playful arguments. Their conversations are often filled with sarcastic remarks and snarky comebacks, but deep down, they both know that they truly care for each other.

2. Despite their strong personalities, y/n and Crimson are fiercely loyal to each other. They always have each other's backs, no matter the situation. Their shared determination and unwavering support create an unbreakable bond between them.

3. Y/n's Karkat-like traits often clash with Crimson's assertiveness, leading to humorous and intense debates. However, they find that their opposing personalities complement each other perfectly, creating a balance that strengthens their relationship.

4. Both y/n and Crimson are ambitious and driven individuals. They constantly push each other to strive for greatness and achieve their goals, serving as each other's motivation and inspiration.

5. Y/n’s analytical and strategic thinking, reminiscent of Karkat Vanitas, adds a unique dynamic to their partnership. He often comes up with clever plans to tackle the challenges he faces, impressing Crimson with his intelligence and resourcefulness.

6. In their downtime, y/n and Crimson enjoy engaging in friendly competitions and games. Whether it's testing their skills in combat or challenging each other in intellectual debates, their competitive nature keeps their relationship exciting and filled with energy.

7. Despite their tough exteriors, both y/n and Crimson have their vulnerable moments. They confide in each other, sharing their fears, insecurities, and past traumas. Their ability to understand and support one another during these vulnerable moments strengthens their connection.

8. Y/n's Karkat-like outbursts of frustration and anger are often met with Crimson's fiery personality. However, over time, they learn to find solace in each other's presence and help each other manage their emotions, creating a space where they can be vulnerable without judgment.

9. Together, y/n and Crimson become a formidable force, taking on the challenges of their respective worlds side by side. Even when Crimson is doing his unnecessary evil bidding

10. Crimson may not like it at first only because you’re a guy and he dislikes gay people and couldn't ever see himself liking a guy but since you're not too much to handle maybe he could get used to this

STOLAS💙👑

1. Y/N and Stolas have an interesting dynamic, as their personalities clash in both chaotic and intriguing ways. Y/N’s Karkat-like personality brings forth a mix of frustration and curiosity from Stolas, who finds his fiery nature both amusing and challenging.

2. Despite their initial differences, y/n and Stolas find common ground in their shared intelligence and wit. They engage in intellectual debates and discussions, often challenging each other's ideas and pushing the boundaries of their knowledge.

3. Y/n’s Karkat-like outbursts of frustration and anger can often catch Stolas off guard, but he's intrigued by his passionate nature. Over time, Stolas learns to appreciate Y/n’s emotions as an honest expression of his thoughts and feelings.

4. Stolas is drawn to the y/n's sharp mind and strategic thinking, recognizing his potential as an ally. They often collaborate on complex plans and schemes, utilizing their combined intellect to overcome challenges and achieve their goals.

5. While Stolas may initially struggle with y/n's blunt and confrontational approach, he comes to value his honesty and directness. Y/N straightforward nature creates a refreshing contrast to Stolas' more manipulative tendencies, leading to a unique and balanced partnership.

6. Y/N and Stolas share a love for knowledge and exploration. They spend hours discussing various topics, from arcane magic to the mysteries of the multiverse. Their intellectual connection deepens their bond, as they constantly challenge and inspire each other to seek greater understanding.

7. Despite their intellectual connection, Y/N and Stolas also find comfort in each other's vulnerability. They confide in one another, sharing their fears, regrets, and past traumas. Through these moments of vulnerability, they develop a profound understanding and empathy for each other.

8. Y/N's protective nature, reminiscent of Karkat Vanitas, surprises Stolas at first. However, he comes to appreciate his unwavering loyalty and willingness to fight for what he believes in. Y/N becomes Stolas' confidant and steadfast companion, offering support and guidance during his moments of doubt.

9. Together, y/n and Stolas embark on daring adventures and quests, exploring the realms of magic and chaos. Their combined talents and abilities make them a formidable duo, capable of overcoming even the most daunting obstacles.

10. He misses Blitzø sometimes but he knows that if he stayed in that situation that it wouldn't have ended well so he just hopes that it doesn't happen with you since you and Blitzø act almost alike

OCTAVIA💜💎

1. Y/n and Octavia have an interesting dynamic, as their personalities are both intense and passionate. Y/n's Karkat-like personality matches Octavia's fiery nature, creating a connection based on shared emotions and a deep understanding of each other's frustrations.

2. Despite their initially abrasive interactions, y/n and Octavia find solace in each other's company. They share a mutual appreciation for music and often engage in jam sessions, finding comfort and expression through their shared love for melody and rhythm.

3. Y/n's Karkat-like outbursts of frustration and Octavia's fiery temper can create volatile moments, where their emotions clash and intensify. However, they also find a strange sense of camaraderie in these moments, as they understand the need to let their emotions out and find release.

4. Octavia is intrigued by y/n’s intensity and sees it as a reflection of her own passionate nature. They engage in deep conversations about life, art, and the pursuit of individuality, often challenging each other's perspectives and pushing the boundaries of their creativity.

5. Y/n's protective instincts, reminiscent of Karkat Vanitas, manifest in his desire to shield Octavia from harm and support her artistic endeavors. He becomes her loyal confidant and pillar of support, offering guidance and encouragement during her moments of self-doubt.

6. Together, y/n and Octavia create a unique blend of music and chaos. They collaborate on projects, combining their talents to produce captivating performances that leave audiences in awe. Their shared love for music becomes a driving force in their relationship, allowing them to connect on a deeper level.

7. Despite their fiery personalities, y/n and Octavia also have moments of vulnerability and introspection. They confide in each other, sharing their fears, dreams, and past traumas. Through these moments of vulnerability, they develop a profound understanding and empathy for each other.

8. Y/n's Karkat-like determination and Octavia's relentless pursuit of individuality create a powerful synergy. They encourage each other to embrace their true selves, unapologetically expressing their emotions and desires, even in a world that may not fully understand or accept them.

9. Together, y/n and Octavia embark on a journey of self-discovery and artistic growth. They push each other to explore new boundaries, experiment with their art, and break free from societal expectations. Their relationship becomes a catalyst for personal and creative transformation.

10. She confides in him about her worries and struggles and about her family life, she finally feels like she has a voice and that she's important and is worthy of someone's love even when her family is falling apart

[pixlpxie]

But you have good placements omg, pisces are my fave water signs 😭 I love and admire your way of thinking, for me it’s like an opposites attract thing and I think Mingi may think the same way, prob not only based on his placements but also on the way he expressed his views you both would have great convos about certain topics and even get along with the sense of humor . And your combo with Sag moon and rising gives me that you’re idealistic af like him, and even more direct than him which he may like, adding to that you having water placements may encourage him to feel comfortable with emotional conversations. However yeah there’s challenging aspects, but mostly from his side 😅 as I said he has a complex combo and is very moody, and with that virgo venus is difficult to deal with, even for virgo venuses themselves, who find hardships to express love😣 This is why he may need a more dominating partner but complex like him to give him the feeling of dominance at times *cough* *cough* a power bottom *cough* *cough*. So based on his venus you may want to k_ll him from time to time and may think of his thoughts of love are too analytical for your liking and have some clashes but I don’t know if you Taurus influences can help a bit to it? 🤔 and the fact that his cancer moon and scorpio mars makes him so lovable and hot to hate his ass. This is from what I got now tho I may do a deep research about this soon 😅 i may be wrong in some things but personally i think he’ll had interesting conversations with u and he’ll probably admire how you view certain things, even maybe have a lil attraction at the beginning? 🤭 and as you’d said, I also think he’ll make a nice dom, probably a soft service dom would fit him.

for example, about the poly relationships, based on the infamous Scorpio mars and Sagittarius rising he may have deep reallyyy deep attraction about trying multiple partners at the same time because of its taboo nature but probably won’t like to try it romantically due to possessiveness, insecurity and jealousy from his part, we can see how possessive he his with Yunho, so he’ll probably find the topic interesting but is a big no no for him to try, my himbo baby would cry.

These are my two cents about it lol, as I said I may probably be wrong, but this is more personal than anything so I’ll like to know your opinion about it <3

and yeaaah, about the 3D thing, it was in a video where they’re where playing questions game kind of thing? He got asked about his favorite songs of the moment and mentioned 3D XD which same

Idk who you are but im in love with you now come out of the anon babe🙂‍↕️💕

I just know I can handle mingi and his emotional whiny ass he just has to give me a chance i could make him fall in love with me at first sight whatever he needs and wants i can give him 😋if im being honest he’d probably be almost horrified with my conversations lmao but its ok i could still challenge him a lot🥴honestly it would be somewhat a dependent and obsessive relationship? Like with all his placements yeah he is already, but we have 8th and 1st house moon synastry so :D but i need further opinion on 12th house mars (Scorpio) synastry bc i have this with most of the members (my bois are almost all mars influenced that’s so sexy of them honestly)

For poly part honestly same i feel like he’d be into it but if he ever did try it he would feel extremely possessive of his lovers and would have to trust them to the fullest to be able to commit to such a relationship and so even if he had a poly relationship, it’d be with just 2 ppl at max i don’t think he could handle more than 2 due to his need for absolute loyalty so yeah

Now ill always imagine dancing with mingi to 3d whenever i listen to it 🙂‍↕️

[gen4grl]

Wheeze, here we are at long last before I have to go into College/Life lockdown again. You won't believe how much can happen in a month and the huge projects that lie ahead, but anyways! - It's cool how you have a PHD in Silver Handling. The closest acronym I could get for that was calling it a Psy.D (precarious Silver yeeting doctorate LOL) anyways you're so right, good analytic potential AND its interesting that it's him being Giovanni's son that you point out. I like that bit too, and I'd love to hear what about it makes it so dope to you :D - Twitter is the trenches </3 glad you like it here more :3 tumblr is THE place for neurodivergent folks like us and HARD AGREE on reading game dialogue. its my favorite lore hunting technique. I cannot fight Gyms until every inch of that city has been explored. - Literally bouncing up at down at the mental imagery of Leaf sitting at a blocky computer with Bill. I can just vaguellyyyy reach out to that era through memory, of idk, images, did I ever see them in person? in dreams? all I know is that even in the early 20s the age of dial-up phones wasn't instantly forgotten. maybe at someone's house. but there is SO much 90s to project there and it can be so enjoyable. nostalgia + growing up + that one era that is more romanticized in retro aesthetic and the social culture bc that's how the neighbors eldest daughters grew up and how do we, in modern times, achieve that? - if it's controversial, nobody's yapping about it when it comes to other characters lol. Leaf is pretty consistent if you keep an open mind so taking from other media 100% makes sense. I do it too :P oooh Silver and Leaf meeting on 5 island I love that!! aw man, with the Rocket base and that Scientist I'm just full of giggling here. Pff, Archer is going to get his butt kicked by the boss's son's friend HA tfw the same kids you see running around take down TR - oh I like how you bring the environment and economy into it, solid reasoning for moving + Pallet connects to the ocean that leads to Cinnabar, no? but yeah :D great customer base, little homey place but close to Viridian and the Indigo Plateau as well, plenty of people stopping by! omg Leaf coming from the hair sprouts 😭 oh that's clever I like it! - really enamored with the Bill + Leaf aspects of your story, it's just really speaking to some deep corner of my soul's memory. im so stoked somebody else likes this haha my Leaf is a bit more politically motivated (at least in one universe lol, bc it's the anime which is an utter disaster and she wants to be Champion to clean house and heal the economy) but also someone oughta do something bc Lance is working like 5 different jobs 😭 also, I can imagine with most of your HCs centered around character relationships they might feel like a hard sell compared to cold facts and I 100% feel you. so much of my fic is just character dynamics nobody else would get it LOL. but I'm honored you have so much you'd want to yap about it. fully encourage and love yapisodes - I looked at your Silver post and you said it's only if you're playing as Red but good news, Scientist Gideon STILL asks that if you play as Leaf. He says "Giovanni's kid" not his son :D - at the time you asked that, I was writing 6.1k of a chapter for another fandom, but lately I've had Leaf on the brain again and rlly want to get a solid outline for that series going. <-- the kind of yapping better suited for DMs lol. yess, love seeing how the Pokemon world is connected in media. utterly obsessed with Gen/Evo Specials, you can imagine the cheering when Silver's episode dropped 7 years ago he's so <3 <3 <3 if you like Silver + Leaf sibs then you feel like someone I can smuggle into Dad Lance city that doesn't leave her out, but hey. oldest daughter problems maybe if we incorporate the tendency to focus on Kris/Lyra/Ethan and thanks to Masters, LILLIE?!?!? <-- understand Johto kids but LILLIE???? and every time I see Lance with Red/Blue I'm like "aight, so I gotta fill this vacancy myself"

helllloooo first of all i want to say sorry for taking so long to get to this😭 my last couple months have been a mess and i’ve been dealing with annoying health issues (in every way). i apologise if this reply isn’t as long or thorough as usual🤧

i think what i like about the silver giovanni connection so much is how well it connects johto + kanto story wise. johto to me is still a very undeveloped and lowkey forgotten region unfortunately but silvers character is easily the shining part of the region. i also think it’s cool how he’s also connected to red (or leaf) due to the whole reason giovanni abandoning him being because of red/leaf’s defeat of team rocket, ultimately crushing his ego lol - just one big butterfly effect that i thoroughly enjoy :p and as stated in my post, i like despite how hard he tried not to be, silver was quite similar to his dad until the events of the the johto story. seeing his growth makes me so happy 🤧🤧🤧✨

lmao talking of reading game dialogue … the offical pokemon twitter account made this post for fathers day (i think…? my fathers day isn’t till september 🤷🏻‍♀️)

and the amount of people in the comments literally suprised gave me a stroke like??? lacey being clays daughter is explicitly stated LOL pokemon fans never cease to amaze me 😭😭😭

you’ve really got me thinking about kantrio in the 90s now LOL. i can see them all tryna message eachother on some aol type site and someone’s dial up cutting totally ruining their convos - most likely blue cause daisy wants to talk on the phone to bill or something … hmmm… ideas are brewing!!!! actually to sound old my family had dial up till 2009… insane😭😭 i used to get so mad at my mumma using the phone cause i just wanted to play club penguin LOL - oh and thx u for the compliment on the leaf + bill dynamic <3 bill is one of those random ass side characters that still is so iconic … i have so many hc’s for him too LOL no character can escape my headcanons

oh and i am the minister at the dad lance church!!! i’ve always seen him as not just a mentor to silver but the other johto kids and definitely the kanto trio before they grew up - that saying i still think as adults they turn to him alot since … half of them don’t have dads (both in canon and my hc LOL). i think as adults, the kantrio definitely have a more friend based relationship with him but as kids he definitely helped them through the spotlight that was put on them at such a young age.

ehghhh i very much apologise for this reply, my brain feels very disconnected from my body today and i feel like this hot mess of a reply shows LOL. again, i really apologise for the late reply. i wish you the best of luck with ur studies and writing ✨✨✨🩷🩷🩷

[xxskycrystalxx]

#silent communication goals 

[savi-our]

(Hello there! As a fellow new UT imagines blog [sorta], I want to help kick start your blog!) What relationship headcanons do you have for UF and UT Grillby?

Hey hey hey! So this is an old ask but i really liked it so i wanted to go ahead and do it anyway.

I didn't manage to include all the Hc's i have for them bc im an avid Grillby lover but i might make a post later on if you guys enjoy them. Hope you guys enjoy!

UT Grillby

Grillby is a quiet monster that's fairly hard to read seeing as he doesn't speak much, however he shows his affections quite clearly whenever someone catches his fancy.

He's a gentleman and a sweetheart, so when you first started courting he made sure to pamper you in many different ways - treating you to meals, giving you magical flaming flowers, warming up your hands in the deep cold winters.

As stoic as he might seem, once you get used to his mannerisms - its pretty easy to tell apart his emotions, like the way his flames brighten when he lays his eyes on you, the way he crackles nervously whenever you return his affections, the way he gently smiles down at you, always happy to be in your company.

Grillby has a daughter, and as a parent he is used to taking care of people. He likes to make sure you are safe and comfortable at all times, shooting you texts thorough the day whenever he's not busy to ask how your day was progressing.

He has a lot of ideas for cute dates, some of which he nervously brings up to you once you notice him fidgeting - a telltale sign he had something to say but struggled to find the words.

He wants to go to cooking classes together, he also wants to watch that one show with you that's been sparking his curiosity, oh and that pastry shop next door has wonderful desserts he thinks you'd enjoy!

Grillby is a wonderful listener and is always ready to lend you his ear, he gradually develops the habit of rubbing your back as you rant about your day - his focus fully on you.

Grillby is not one for PDA, and he is also quite anxious about physical touch in general, seeing as he didn't want to scare you with his flames.

That changes quickly after your first shared kiss, you tasted so sweet and his flames crackled so brightly at the special moment - he couldn't bare to tear himself away from you.

After that he enjoys bundling you up into his arms whenever you both are permitted privacy, his gentle flames warming your soul as they hypnotically swirl around your form.

Once you both start living together it becomes a habit, cuddling in bed after long days of work, enjoying each others company as you both drift off to sleep.

UF Grillby

Now, unlike his counterpart UF Grillby is vocal in his approaches, he's a sly and analytical person who prides himself on his ability to observe people.

He lathers you in sly compliments, wanting to fluster you at every opportunity just to see you squirm in embarrassment.

When you first start courting he becomes rather protective of you, almost overbearingly so - asking you where you were every few hours or so, shooting anyone that even glances your way a warning in the form of a glare.

He has a major issue about laying his claims on you, mentioning how nobody had right to touch what was his.

It gets a bit suffocating at times but you have to understand that he does it due to his anxiety of protecting things he cares about - almost like a dragon fiercely protecting his horde of treasures.

Speaking of dragons and hordes, he can get rather stingy about his money whenever you first start dating, he rarely takes you out - mentioning how sharing a home made meal at the comfort of his own establishment or home is much more convenient.

That changes once you both get closer, he finds himself wanting to spoil you - a foreign prospect given his love of money.

He starts buying you things, takes you shopping, pays for your bills and starts taking you out to places you want to go to.

One day as you were both walking down the street from a wonderful evening well spent at a restaurant, his hand laying protectively around your lower back you notice his flames shifting, his gaze landing to you in deep thought.

He brings up the idea of you moving in, excusing the idea as a way to save money considering your rent/bills, his gaze is cast to the side in what looks like embarrassment and his words lack their usual flamboyancy.

If you agree, he'd be overjoyed, his flames crackling in delight as he leans in and places a deep kiss upon your lips, a smirk pulling on his features.

Life together would quickly turn into a rather interesting experience, he couldnt keep himself from laying his hands on you, mentioning how you were his and he wanted all of you all to himself.

[capricores]

hey, love 💓 hope you’re having a good day. I just discovered I have an Aquarius stellium and I don’t really know what it means 🙃

thank you so much angel! aquarius stellium:

“extrovert-passing introverts” // aquarius stelliums are great at being social, and they like connecting with people, but they tend to hate being social at the exact same time, they like isolation/alone time and can have a pretty short fuse for dealing with people (it’s pretty conflicting! they have a love-hate relationship with being social lol, it highly depends on the house of the aquarius stellium in this case)

they tend to have that “social battery”, but it works both ways. they need social interaction for happiness (esp aquarius moon/venus), but they also usually need a day or three to recharge after social interactions/gatherings

despite their very chill, calm exterior i do find they get irritated and frustrated pretty easily, they have a very low tolerance for people’s bs and they aren’t usually great at hiding their annoyance (mostly because they simply don’t care to; in an aquarian’s mind they don’t generally see why they would hide their emotions for your sake)

surprisingly very stubborn! people expect them to be open since they’re an air sign; and mind you, they are very good at listening and understanding new ideas, concepts, ways of thinking/doing things, etc., but it’s pretty rare for aqua dominant people to change their ways/mind; and if they do it has to be on their own terms & feel like it was their own choice/idea

they can have issues when it comes to embracing & accepting their emotions; they tend to intellectualize and try to rationalize everything they feel (this will depend heavily on the individual’s moon though)

tend to be musically and/or artistically inclined, usually the most talented and creative people you’ll ever meet (i find most aquarians use art/music as an outlet; and a huge chunk of aquarius stelliums i’ve “studied” or read for have made their careers in the art fields)

i’ve noticed they tend to stutter a lot when speaking! aquarian dominant people (esp aquarius moons, mercurys) have this habit of speaking before they’ve actually formed the thought/planned out what they were gonna say: so they kinda of just “sjlkfdjdlkf” irl sometimes or take a while to finish their sentence (scattered speaking style)

they don’t like talking about their emotions/feelings unless they can be self-deprecating about it or make a relatable meme/joke out of it

very analytical people and they overthink anything and everything that people say and do (especially with aquarius moon and/or mercury)

they’re quite blunt, they don’t generally sugarcoat things and can be as cutthroat as aries/capricorn are stereotyped to be

on that note, they often just say what’s on their mind at the time and they don’t intend to hurt people, they just don’t often realize the things they’re saying are hurtful/too blunt

aquarians are very, ‘why would i filter myself for someone? i don’t want people to filter to me’, and it can be hard for them to understand some people’s sensitivities in conversation

they really despise copycat or reflector-type individuals; their biggest turn-offs tend to be those who follow the crowd, don’t think for themselves, mold themselves for others, etc

aquarians can take a really, really long time to fall in love i find, as they tend to not care for it and usually just view people in a “friend way”, but once they find “their person” they are 100000% committed and will probably make big steps (from saying “i love you” to straight up moving in together, marriage, etc) very fast

undeveloped they do run a habit of having “hot and cold” relationships; a tendency to become super attached very fast only to flip the switch and detach shortly after, usually after they lose interest or become too comfortable

on the topic of romance again, aquarians also (or at least as i’ve noticed) do not use “i love you” very easily or lightly, even if they DO love you and you’re best friends/in a committed long-term relationship/etc, they don’t use the phrase very often and tend to save it for very select times

again can have a lot of trouble expressing their feelings and emotions so they can be a bit awkward at first and for a while in relationships

again they’re VERY independent and they need alone/recharging time or they’ll get very frustrated and anxious

they get very protective of their creations, ideas and style; so when they feel they’re being imitated; or when their ideas are criticized; they get extremely upset and defensive 

also very humanitarian!! i’ve noticed despite most aquarians being like “oh i hate the world/society/people/etc” they have this constant, inner need to help people/the environment/the world and tend to be really passionate about it (aquarius energy is very “fuck the world!! im gonna still save it tho”)

aquarian stelliums probably had an emo phase and if they managed to escape it they probably still dress like they’re in their emo phase lol

depending on their ascendant/midheaven they likely have a pretty unique sense of style as well; i find those with strong aquarian influence often wear very “stand out”, “in your face” and original outfits; very much the type to constantly be changing their hair colour & makeup styles as well (they like wearing things or having aesthetics that tend to shock others; they secretly enjoy getting reactions out of people)

these individuals are very committed to their work and hobbies, they tend to put those above everything else in their life. a lot of people forget the aquarian connection to saturn; aquarians are usually very committed to their jobs and work very hard when they’re in the work-zone

their friends tend to be a hugely significant part of their life too; aquarius moons/venuses especially tend to talk about their close friends ALL the time and they’re very, very protective of them (so loyal)

aquarius stelliums tend to have lots of acquaintances but only a few select close friends (and even most of those close friends they don’t fully open up to)

usually struggles with intimacy and vulnerability 

they tend to radiate a lot of natural confidence and security in themselves, despite how insecure they may feel inwardly 

not to stereotype, but they do usually tend to be drawn to obscure, occult or controversial things. often the types to have “weird” hobbies, interests or habits

often very into, or open to, things like astrology, conspiracy theories, spirituality, etc! but they do think very rationally and logically, so they like to analyze and pick apart these things at the same time, they don’t just accept and follow these things (they have no issue with picking apart their own passions and interests either, so if you debate an aquarius they probably already know what you’re gonna say lol)

usually have the nagging desire to be known (whether it be famous, or just accepted/loved by many/friends/family/etc); they likely felt misunderstood and abandoned their entire life (namely in childhood) so now they have a huge craving to be in the spotlight; although they hate admitting this

aquarians have the ability to fit in well with many types of people, yet often in childhood they were excluded and/or subjects of bullying i’ve noticed (oftentimes from their own family), which is part of the reason why they frequently grow up lacking a feeling of “belonging” or feel like “outsiders”; they deep down crave to be accepted and embraced/have fans/supporters

aquarius stelliums often struggle with fears of abandonment which contributes more to their isolation habits and independent “i dont need anyone but me and my spotify playlists” nature

they despise being controlled, tied down or told what to do; often if you tell an aquarius not to do something they’ll go out of their way to do it, even if they initially didn’t want to do said thing lol (the house that’s in aquarius will show the area of life in which they “rebel” the most; or are the most uncontrollable/free/independent) 

random note: i also find aquarius stelliums are frequently very awkward around children/don’t usually desire nor want any at all

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Hi, im just finishing vol 1of hamefura LN and... am I reading wrong or Katarina has considerably internalized homophobia? She describes keith falling for Nicol as a tragedy and going astray, and her view of girlfriendship.... does this continues in future novels?

Uggh that's kinda hard to say, and I feel like I might not be the right person to ask about something like that hgjsdf

I don't remember Katarina saying that Keith hypothetically falling in love with be a "tragedy", did she use that word? The only thing I remember is that she said that although she'd prefer it if it Keith didn't fall for Maria, falling for Nicol might be dangerous for him. When I read it, I guess I kinda did get the idea of Katarina thinking that marriage between two men must be taboo, but not necessarily that she disapproves of it. Since she knows she's in Fortune Lover, she's assuming that same sex is the norm given the game, setting and time period. I feel like she meant it with good intent, for all she knows maybe Keith would get kicked out of the family is he pursued the son of the prime minister instead of focusing on becoming the next duke qwq.

Also, Katarina mentioned that it'd be bad for Keith to fall for a handsome boy, but when she assumed that Nicol might be in love with a married woman or man during her birthday party, she didn't seem to reject the idea (I guess because it's Nicol, charmer of both genders lmao), moreso just worried if her friend's feelings will ever bear fruit if its someone he felt like he couldn't attain. Maybe she was only open to the idea because it's Nicol, or maybe she's actually okay with it in general, who knows?

I think Katarina just has a heteronormative way of thinking rather than her having internalized homophobia (unless the two of those are the same?? I don't know I'm not socially aware enough for this qwq).

I've heard things about Japan is a country that's still sort of behind the times, still using old technology and is still pretty heteronormative to some extent. I doubt she had any opportunities to identify her sexuality or the kind of partner she wants when she's just living her life to the fullest and having fun. She didn't even get into anime and manga until middle school, only thanks to Aachan's influence.

From Volume 2, we find out that Aachan's taste in light novels and manga is the kind where she can project herself onto the protagonist in order to imagine herself having fun adventures with friends of her own, so probably a lot of shoujo or shounen series. Plus by high school, Aachan was really into otome games. I'm basically saying that not even media could have influenced Katarina's way of thinking, considering that Aachan (who is the one to provide and suggest the series they get into) seems to just only read NL content. Katarina knows Sophia reads BL novels when they both got older, but mentioned while she isn't completely disinterested in them, she feels like it's a dangerous rabbit hole to fall into. She was even a little bit transphobic to her co-worker in the magic ministry Laura (who is a transwoman) but not because she didn't approve of it, it was just kinda new to her because she didn't encounter things and people like that in her previous life.

We can only really grow to accept and understand feelings and perspectives like that by getting exposed to it, so you can't blame Katarina for being mostly heteronormative when she's never encountered stuff like that before.

I don't know, I feel like a lot of people in their youth these days are really able to identify or have courage to bring themselves out there thanks to the encouragement of the people around us and the influence of the media we consume. If Katarina doesn't have those media to help her, then she'll have to rely on her own self-discovery and the encouragement of her peers.

When it comes to her views on girlfriend-ship, we already know that Katarina adores and loves her friends regardless of gender (Maria being the biggest example), and whether or not she's just extreme in her appreciation of others or if it's a sign of her attraction to girls depends on the reader. Her worldview probably won't change unless her female friends finally become forward about their feelings instead of waiting for Katarina to figure it out on her own, if we get a clear stance on Sorcier's view of same sex marriage and relationships, or if we see a same sex couple in the story through Katarina's eyes. As the reader, we know/can speculate that Katarina likes both men and women, but she herself doesn't know that yet.

Since she's someone living in a Fantastical Middle Ages where the country is lead by a monarch, you gotta give her some slack for not assuming everything gets an OK in this new life & setting of hers.

Whether or not this is something that continues in future novels is something I can't really say. She maintains the same way of thinking that she does right now in the manga and anime as she does in the novels, nothing really changed aside from the fact that maybe she had picked up one or two tame BL novels due to being forced to by Sophia.

Again, I'm probably not the right person to ask when it comes to something like this. If I said anything wrong or insensitive, feel free to correct me! I'm not socially competent nor analytical enough to dig deep into Katarina's psyche qwq

Thank you for the ask! qwq

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nct mbti types redo!

the old one can be found here! but i definitely recommend this one more tehe!

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hi hi! so i know most of you know about mbti or myers briggs personality, if you don’t well. . here’s a little summary! if you already do know go ahead and scroll down past the keep reading to find ncts types! now for those that don’t and want to know it’s basically when you take this quiz and you get four/five letters, each giving you a detailed description of your personality! it helps you find other people with the same personality and people you are compatible or not compatible with! of course it is all just for fun! but i know some people take it seriously! do whatever feels right to you! so moving on to the different letters; there are 4 different letters you can get! which leads to about 16 different outcomes! (there are also 2 extra letters! A & T which are basically the outlook on yourself! but not that many people actually go by those!)

- first there’s E & I (extrovert & introvert) this is basically what your energy level is. E- you get energized by people and are more social. I- you get drained by people and are more homebodies.

- second there’s N & S (intuitive & sensing) this is basically how you understand or learn about other people! N- you base off of your gut feeling or instincts when you first meet someone! more observant! S- you are more logical, analytical, you get to know people a little first before you decide!

- third there’s F & T (feeling & thinking) this is basically what it says! how do you respond to problems! F- you think with your heart! more empathetic and emotional! T- you think with your head! more logical and emotionally intelligent!

- fourth and last one there’s P & J (perceiving & judging) and this is basically on how you prefer to live your everyday life! P- more spontaneous go with the flow! you don’t like schedules very much and tend to go with your gut on things! J- more neat, more punctual! you like routine and for things to go as planned!

also! you can be a mix of these! (for example i am an enfp/infp! so am an mix of extroverted & introverted!) you can pick one that resonates with you most or if they both do go by both!

well that should be all of it! if you want to take the quiz then you can find it right here! now that you know a little bit about what it is! let’s get into what ncts types are! i split them up between the two biggest differences which are introverts vs extroverts! :))

— introverts

confirmed types: infj . isfj . isfp . infp

other introverted types: intj . istj . istp . intp

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- infj

members that are confirmed infjs:

ten . jungwoo . mark . hendery . winwin . half jisung

members i also think are infjs:

no one else

common traits include: creative . empathetic . friendly . intelligent . private . overthinkers . artistic!

most compatible with: enfp!!!! . infp . enfj . other infj

our most popular type! (which is great bc it’s my natural partner ;)) infjs or also know as the advocates are highly artistic and creative people! they appear at first to be very quiet and sensitive! but when actually they’re quite intelligent and are observant, peaceful, friendly people!

“With their strong sense of intuition and emotional understanding, INFJs can be soft-spoken and empathetic. This does not mean that they are push-over's, however. They have deeply held beliefs and an ability to act decisively in order to get what they want. While they are introverted by nature, people with this personality type are able to form strong, meaningful connections with other people. They enjoy helping others, but they also need time and space to recharge. While this personality type may be characterized by idealism, this does not mean that INFJs see the world through rose-colored glasses. They understand the world, both the good and the bad, and hope to be able to make it better.”

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- isfj

members that are confirmed isfjs:

doyoung . jaemin

members i think that are also isfjs:

yuta . half johnny

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common traits include: protective . compassionate . sees the good in others . sensitives with others emotions . warm hearted

most compatible with: esfp!!!! . estp . istj . & other isfj

this type is one of my personal favorites! the defenders! they are the type of people who will have you walk on the inner side of the sidewalk! they may seem a little cold at first but once they trust and open up to you they are so warm! and loyal! very puppy like!

“They typically want to work hard, get along with others, and make sure they do what is expected of them. ISFJs value relationships highly and strive to cooperate and maintain harmony with others. They want stability and longevity in their relationships, and tend to maintain a deep devotion to family. They feel most connected with people they know they can rely upon over the long term. ISFJs appreciate tradition and like knowing how things were done in the past. They are loyal to established methods and values, and want to observe the proper, accepted way of doing things. They place great importance on fitting in with established institutions and contributing what they can to maintain strong, stable social structures. In groups, they often take on the role of historian, ensuring that new members respect and value the established customs.”

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- isfp

members that are confirmed isfps:

taeil . jeno

members i think that are also isfps:

shotaro

common traits include: independent . imaginative . creative . passionate

most compatible with: esfj!!!! . esfp . isfj . other isfp

the next type is the adventurers! they are curious and passionate people that are very drawn to the outside world and helping others! they are gentle and sweet :)

“ISFPs are gentle caretakers who live in the present moment and enjoy their surroundings with cheerful, low-key enthusiasm. They are flexible and spontaneous, and like to go with the flow to enjoy what life has to offer. ISFPs are quiet and unassuming, and may be hard to get to know. However, to those who know them well, the ISFP is warm and friendly, eager to share in life's many experiences. ISFPs have a strong aesthetic sense and seek out beauty in their surroundings. They are attuned to sensory experience, and often have a natural talent for the arts. ISFPs especially excel at manipulating objects, and may wield creative tools like paintbrushes and sculptor's knives with great mastery.”

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- infp

members that are confirmed infps:

chenle . half jisung

members i think that are also infps:

taeyong

common traits include: peaceful . idealistic . open minded . seek harmony

most compatible with: enfj!!!! . enfp . infj . other infp

the next type are the mediators! i love this type (not only bc im half this type) but bc this type is really the most pure and deserves the entire world. they are curious and flexible people!

“Mediator personalities are true idealists, always looking for the hint of good in even the worst of people and events, searching for ways to make things better. While they may be perceived as calm, reserved, or even shy, Mediators have an inner flame and passion that can truly shine. Comprising just 4% of the population, the risk of feeling misunderstood is unfortunately high for the Mediator personality type – but when they find like-minded people to spend their time with, the harmony they feel will be a fountain of joy and inspiration.”

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- istp

members who are confirmed istps:

none of them

members who i think are istps:

renjun

common traits include: practical . creative . rational . spontaneous

most compatible with: entp!!!! . estj . intp . other istp

these are the virtuosos! this type are relaxed! very down to the grown, they are the type of people you want to have during an crisis, they are good at calling the shots and keeping everyone calm!

“Virtuosos love to explore with their hands and their eyes, touching and examining the world around them with cool rationalism and spirited curiosity. People with this personality type are natural Makers, moving from project to project, building the useful and the superfluous for the fun of it, and learning from their environment as they go. Often mechanics and engineers, Virtuosos find no greater joy than in getting their hands dirty pulling things apart and putting them back together, just a little bit better than they were before.”

— extroverts

confirmed types: enfp . esfj . esfp . estp

other extroverted types: entp . enfj . estj . entj

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- enfp

members who are confirmed enfps:

xiaojun . haechan

members who i think are also enfps:

no one else

common traits: energetic . fun . kind . very popular & friendly

most compatible with: infj!!!! . infp . enfj . other enfp

these are the campaigners! (my other personality type) these types are the kind of people you want to be friends with, they keep the energy happy and fun, but also know how to listen and relax

“Campaigners will bring an energy that oftentimes thrusts them into the spotlight, held up by their peers as a leader and a guru – but this isn’t always where independence-loving Campaigners want to be. Worse still if they find themselves beset by the administrative tasks and routine maintenance that can accompany a leadership position. Campaigners’ self-esteem is dependent on their ability to come up with original solutions, and they need to know that they have the freedom to be innovative – they can quickly lose patience or become dejected if they get trapped in a boring role.”

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- esfp

members that are confirmed esfp:

half jaehyun

members who i think are also esfp:

lucas

common traits include: bold . aesthetic . confident . inclusive

most compatible with: isfp!!!! . isfj . esfj . other esfp

this type are known as the entertainers! the whole world is their stage! these people are not only eye catching and well entertaining, they are sweet and have good sportsmanship!

“Entertainers love the spotlight, and all the world’s a stage. Many famous people with the Entertainer personality type are indeed actors, but they love putting on a show for their friends too, chatting with a unique and earthy wit, soaking up attention and making every outing feel a bit like a party. Utterly social, Entertainers enjoy the simplest things, and there’s no greater joy for them than just having fun with a good group of friends. Though it may not always seem like it, Entertainers know that it’s not all about them – they are observant, and very sensitive to others’ emotions. People with this personality type are often the first to help someone talk out a challenging problem, happily providing emotional support and practical advice.”

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- esfj

members that are confirmed esfj:

kun

members who i think are also esfj:

half johnny

common traits include: supportive . encouraging . caring . positive

most compatible with: isfj!!!! . isfp . esfp . other esfj

this next type are called the consuls! known for their very parent like demeanors, these are what you call your “mom/dad friends” the ones that will give you the best advice and always be a shoulder to lay on and always cheer you on at your worst!

“People who share the Consul personality type are, for lack of a better word, popular – which makes sense, given that it is also a very common personality type, making up twelve percent of the population. In high school, Consuls are the cheerleaders and the quarterbacks, setting the tone, taking the spotlight and leading their teams forward to victory and fame. Later in life, Consuls continue to enjoy supporting their friends and loved ones, organizing social gatherings and doing their best to make sure everyone is happy.”

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- estp

members that are confirmed estp:

half jaehyun . sungchan

members who i think are also estp:

no one else

common traits include: social . perceptive . original . direct

most compatible with: intp!!!! . istp . entp . other estp

these are the entrepreneurs! the people that know what they want in life and will and have the stamina to do so, they are natural born leaders and enjoy calling the shots! and expressing their big ideas!

“Entrepreneurs always have an impact on their immediate surroundings – the best way to spot them at a party is to look for the whirling eddy of people flitting about them as they move from group to group. Laughing and entertaining with a blunt and earthy humor, Entrepreneur personalities love to be the center of attention. If an audience member is asked to come on stage, Entrepreneurs volunteer – or volunteer a shy friend.”

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- entp

members that are confirmed entp:

none

members who i think are entp:

yangyang

common traits include: quick thinkers . knowledgeable . charismatic . energetic

most compatible with: isfp!!!! . intp . esfj . other entps

the last type we will be talking about are known as the debaters! this type are the kind that could go for hours discussing important topics to them! they are quick witted, and are good at coming up with things on their feet. intelligent and resourceful, these types make excellent lawyers

“No one loves the process of mental sparring more than the Debater personality type, as it gives them a chance to exercise their effortlessly quick wit, broad accumulated knowledge base, and capacity for connecting disparate ideas to prove their points. Debaters are the ultimate devil’s advocate, thriving on the process of shredding arguments and beliefs and letting the ribbons drift in the wind for all to see. They don’t always do this because they are trying to achieve some deeper purpose or strategic goal, though. Sometimes it’s for the simple reason that it’s fun.”

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- wowowowubsy, this was a really long post! thanks for making it to the end! what do you think about their types and do you have any other ideas what types the remaining mystery members are? thank you so much for reading! :)

- my thoughts are that there is not a single introverted thinker on this whole team! (renjun i have hope in you!)

- and the fact there are only 1.5 confirmed thinkers in an group of 23- how do they manage ???

- sorry sungchan & jae

- they really are a bunch of introverted feelers goodness gracious

- also literally my pictures ran out half way through it and it won’t let me delete them lmao so sorry about that

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Heyyy!

Here fr d game!

Umm im guessing ur an pisces mercury*hehe jst types wht comes to mind at 1st

Also i wont mind if u post it publicly or send me privately

Here is my birthchart(tropical)

Lawl SUSPENSE..Hehe

Anw Have a great day/night ahead🤍🥂

Guessing was fun tho..evn if i guessed wrng one💀🤣

Hey!! You did guess wrong, sorry about that xd but it's oki, don't worry about it! Have a good day too ^^

Welcome to your reading. Please remember to send feedback.

First impressions when looking at your chart: you don't have a lot of aspects, but a lot of them are exact: that wedge patter between Saturn, Venus and Mercury is very exact; you have an even distribution of planets among the signs and the houses; also, the angles (except IC) all conjunct planets or points

SUN IN AQUARIUS

As an Aquarius, you are quirky, aloof, dreamy and humanist. People may think you're awkward and detached, which is probably true for you since your Sun is at 0º of Aquarius. Your originality and uniqueness are probably the things you love about yourself the most. Your mind is also quite agile, which allows you to fulfil your dreams. Nevertheless, we cannot ignore the fact that the Sun is in Detriment in the sign of Aquarius. This means that the Sun can struggle here, making you feel confused as to who you are and how you can express yourself. You very much value your independence and your rebelliousness. However, you can be stubborn to a fault when it comes to your thoughts and opinions.

SUN IN THE 7TH HOUSE

The Sun in the house of Libra shows that you really enjoy socializing and that's also where you shine the most brightly. The Venusian influence gives you charm and elegance, which cause people to flock to you. Also, you may show your true colours in relationships, particularly romantic ones. Having someone close to you will allow you to achieve a better understanding of yourself. You do well when it comes to working with others; this placement helps the detached, independent Aquarius Sun to be more sociable and better appreciate others. Also, the Venus influence can make people look up to you and see themselves in you, something that doesn't really happen with Aquarius Suns in generally. You may do well in associations or organizations because you have a need to be in society.

MOON IN CAPRICORN

Once again, you have a planet in Detriment. Capricorn, the sign of Saturn, struggles to feel and voice the emotions they experience. Therefore, it is natural that the Moon finds this sign difficult. You think too much. Perhaps you had a complicated relationship with your mother, which may have caused you to repress your emotions. Capricorn placements, in general, tend to grow up and mature quite early, which leads to unhealthy coping mechanisms; you had to raise your walls up high, so you struggle to let anyone in. You may also be socially awkward. At the same time, you may seek validation from society, which is one of the things that may give you that emotional security that you deeply seek. You should work on letting your guard down; emotions are not the enemy, it's okay to feel what you feel. Let out your inner child once in a while.

MOON IN THE 6TH HOUSE

Here, the Moon is in the house of Virgo (but lying almost on top of the Descendant). There is a strong connection between body and mind. You seek emotional safety through your work and other acts of service; you want to be useful to people and to spend your time wisely. You may be a workaholic. Your routines are very important to you; you can get distraught if someone messes with your daily habits. Your health may be a concern to you, but since your Moon is harmoniously aspected, I'd say you're generally healthy. Nevertheless, watch for any hereditary diseases or problems with food or alcohol. The square with Mars suggests to me that you can quickly let out your anxieties. You like discipline, organization and cleanness; you are determined in the pursuit of your goals. You may have a vocation to work directly with people. Your moods may change quickly.

MERCURY IN CAPRICORN

With Mercury in Capricorn, you speak in a very structured, pondered way. You are very analytical and it shows in the way you communicate. You're a realist, but people may think you're more pessimistic. You definitely tend to be pessimistic at times, as well as distrustful and sceptical. You like to research, to gather information before speaking. You're concrete in your thinking, logical and organized. You take your time to make decisions; you weigh all the pros and cons carefully. Probably not the one to daydream or have many fantasies; you prefer the realistic and achievable. Although you're mostly serious, you can be playful sometimes.

MERCURY IN THE 6TH HOUSE

Capricorn Mercury is similar to Mercury in the house of Virgo. You are probably a perfectionist person, determined and organized. You analyse everything, yourself and your emotions included. You're very critical, especially of yourself. You hold everyone to high standards; once again, yourself the most. Like Capricorn Mercury, you can have pessimistic tendencies. You probably repress your feelings and rationalize them instead. Additionally, your knowledge can progress through daily life experiences and through your body. You should practice meditation and mindfulness because your anxiety and stress may have a direct effect on your bodily health.

VENUS IN PISCES

Venus is exalted in Pisces. This sign is intuitive, empathetic and emotional, which are traits that Venus likes. You feel everything and negative energies really get to you, so it's important that you find a partner that gives you emotional stability. You make a good lover, for you are caring and sensitive to people's needs, especially your partner's. Venus here gives you ethereal, alluring vibes. You can seem almost magical to people. You can be very protective of those you love, selfless; you can even sacrifice yourself for them. You're a daydreamer, you live in your own fantasy world. You have great aesthetic taste and you're quite romantic. However, be careful not to be taken advantage of; your too-good nature can land you someone whose intentions are far from the best.

VENUS IN THE 8TH HOUSE

Venus here acquires some Scorpio traits, namely the need to get a deep connection with someone. You are a person of extremes, not of middle-terms. In this sense, you can get effortlessly get people to open up to you, to tell you their deepest, darkest secrets. Since the (H also rules other people's money, you may get rich through an inheritance or a good marriage. Also, people may trust you with their money. In love, too, they aspire to learn everything about their partner. You seek transformative relationships, ones that will allow you to experience a different range of emotions, another dimension, even. Casual relationships are probably not your thing. You can get too controlling and dominating, so beware of that. Also, financial security is important to you; you may even have a job that has directly to do with money.

ARIES MARS

Here, Mars is in its rulership. You are quite reckless and impulsive in your actions. You like to be the first, to be the pioneer (much like Aries is the first sign of the Zodiac). You have a knack for leadership and people tend to be happy to follow your lead. You are quite competitive in just about everything; you can have a sour loser. You are quick to get mad, but after you explode, your anger will be gone in an instant. You are great at achieving goals because Mars helps you to stay motivated and determined; you are quite persistent and usually get what you want. You can also work well under pressure. Laziness is not in your blood. Your independence is quite important to you, as are your opinions. You can be quite stubborn and difficult to argue with, simply due to your relentlessness.

MARS IN THE 9TH HOUSE

Your Mars is in the house of Sagittarius. This placement allows you to acquire the necessary willpower for the journey to the expansion of knowledge and discovery. Your actions should help you with the acquisition of further knowledge, as well as ideas and strengthening your freedom. This placement goes against the need of routine imposed by your 6th house placements; Mars here wants you to get out there, be free, have fun, think about life, yourself and the universe. You have strong morals and philosophical ways. This placement may make you strongly seek, hunt, even, the truth of the fundamental questions. On another note, you can develop an attraction to foreign people and may wish to move away from home swiftly and without hesitation. This can be abroad too.

JUPITER IN VIRGO

Jupiter is in Detriment in Virgo. Whilst Jupiter is all about philosophy, the higher mysteries and expansion, Virgo seeks for the concrete, for what it knows, for the logical and rational. Therefore, this placement requires work. You are sceptical, you need to think and analyse everything before you come to a conclusion. Growth is achieved through responsibilities and being useful to others. A bit of idealism would be good, Jupiter struggles in Earth signs. You may think that you know more than you actually do, that you see the bigger picture when that is not true. Be careful not to grow an ego. Your beliefs will be challenged in this lifetime. You have a desire to help people, and in relationships too you want to do everything in your power to aid your partner.

JUPITER IN THE 2ND HOUSE

This placement generally brings good luck when it comes to money and other worldly possessions. You may also like to spend money, more on your loved ones than on yourself. You may be big into giving gifts. In order to reach that emotional security, you may wish to surround yourself with material items that, to you, hold great value and importance. Once you understand how better to acquire that stability, you may become rather generous with your money. You want a comfortable lifestyle. Like Venus in the 8th house, you may be good at managing your possessions, thus causing others to go to you for financial advice. You may not show it, but you have strong philosophical convictions, which may prove to be impossible to change.

SATURN IN CANCER

Saturn is in Detriment here, which makes it four planets in Detriment in your chart. You may feel a strong need for emotional safety, which could manifest as a fear of abandonment. There may also be some emotional blockages present that you struggle to overcome. Saturn retrograde, being the planet of Karma, may difficult your mission in life. You could be stuck on an unresolved trauma from a past life. This may be represented by a figure of authority in this life, perhaps your father. Instead of attempting to reconcile your past, try to accept the world changing around you. You may be too afraid to venture into the world and to open your heart; accept that it is part of life. Find people that give you that security, but don’t pour out your entire soul to them; find a balance. Not everything can be kept in our hearts, but not everything should be shared, either.

SATURN IN THE 12TH HOUSE

This is quite a strong and powerful placement: you have the planet of karma in the most karmic house. Also, according to Hellenistic Astrology, Saturn has its joy in the 12th house. You may be afraid to mess with the subconscious because your emotions may overtake you. Saturn is related to blockages and yours may be due to paranoia, which is characteristic of Neptune and Pisces. You may repress parts of yourself that you are not happy about, which makes you feel better, but, at the same time, paranoia can set in and make you wonder if that is the right thing to do. That aside, you may also struggle with poor self-esteem and doubts about yourself and life. There can be problems of guilt of some sort, perhaps even related to your life itself. It is very vague, but my thoughts about this placement are, in short, that, from birth, there have been deep traumas within you that have blocked your inner peace. What does are, I do not know. ⬛️

[rcmos]

hello !! im june && im so excited to be here. i’m here to hoard all the plots like a goblin with my trashy son so please like this post if you’d like to plot && i’ll hit you up asap !! coolcoolcoolcool

( henry zaga / male ) LEONARDO RAMOS is 25 years old and is a SENIOR at thales university. he is majoring in BUSSINESS and is known for being THE STEPFORD SMILER as he can be CHARASMATIC and AFFABLE as well as DISINGENUOUS and DECEPTIVE. every time i see him, he reminds me of a CHARMING SMILE, SCATTERED POLAROIDS, AND A CALCULATED DEMEANOR. ( june / 24 / she&her / gmt+2)

BASICS.

✘ leonardo ramos was originally born in brazil and later moved to the states when he was 10 years of age

✘ 25 years of age, born 13th of june

✘ member of the ghoul gang, close friend to steven.

✘ has a somewhat secret passion for photography

✘ somewhat recently discovered bisexual, exploring and figuring out his sexuality

✘ social smoker who has tried to quit many times 

✘ grandfather is a cop and leo would often sneak into his office to poke and pry into files. he especially fell in love with crime scene photos and developed a bizarre obsession with crime and the macabre.

ABOUT.

✘  leonardo ramos was born into the ‘picture perfect’ family. perfect home, perfect marriage, perfect children. his father an incredibly successful business owner while his mother is a hot shot lawyer. appearances are everything to the ramos and this extends to the ramos children as well. his eldest brother followed in his mother’s footsteps and pursued law, leaving the expectation of taking over the family bussiness in the hands of leonardo. his life was planned from the moment he was born, and he’s never known anything else.

✘  despite what image may appear on the outside, the ramos family in highly dysfunctional. there is no love, there is no affection, there is only appearances. the american dream on the outside, numbess on the inside. they do what they must, not what they desire. everything is neatly placed on the shelf for all to see, but no one seems to notice the cracks that linger.

✘  leo does not have a genuine personality. it is incredibly rehearsed and planned. every word, action and emotion is carefully calculated. everything must be in life with the image of perfection in mind. he was taught how to behave and anything less would not be tolerated. his facade comes across as exceptionally sweet and kind, a man who always knows what to say. some say his kindness and easy-going nature is his best virtue, a golden boy. he is not kind because he wants to be, or because he cares, it’s what is expected of him. 

✘  leo is the kind of person you want to bring home to your parents, someone to polite and affectionate. he always knows what to say, his gestures always endearing. his charm gets him where he needs to be, a perfect smile that never cracks. a heart of gold some may say. however, it’s all an act. leo very rarely acts on emotion, if anything emotions are a foreign concept to him. no, leonardo has learned to mimic those around him. every response, every feeling, every situation has a formulated response. nothing is natural, nothing comes from the heart, it is very analytical and precise.

✘ not many people are aware of how deceptive leo is, he plays it off very well. it’s the entire point, to pretend and fool those around him. to carefully create a pristine image of himself. the perfect son, the perfect student -- whoever he was expected to be he plays it off well. most people are under the notion that he is perfectly kind and sweet, a genuine soul who truly cares. hell, at time leo even falls for his own act. he forgets it’s not who he is. he forgets how robotic and calculated he is. he forgets how empty and hollow his heart truly is.

✘  the only genuine aspect about leo is his passion, perhaps obsession, with true crime and mystery. as a child he snuck into his grandfather’s office and peeked through his files, especially the photographs. such graphic and gruesome photos seemed to have scarred him, but not in a way one might except. it began an obsession. poking his nose into places he shouldn’t. if his life was his own, he would have pursued criminology. that was not apart of the ramos’ family plan, however. so he keeps it to himself, and a few select friends. 

✘  leo’s second passion in life would be photography. however, not really for the art of it all. no, he likes to document things. locations, details, mysteries....however, people are his favourite subject. he snaps these photographs without their knowledge, or permission rather, as he likes to keep track of those around them. analyze them on a much more personal level. he likes to watch and take notice mimic behaviours so he can better perfect himself. he likes to think of himself as some detective uncovering the truth, when in reality he’s simply allowing obsession to take control of him.

✘  leo tends to keep to himself, closed off when it comes to anything personal involving him. there are few who know him past the image he has created for himself, particularly the ghoul gang, the ones he indulges with and shows a different side of him. however, despite allowing others to be closer to him, everything is still calculated. he picks and chooses what he allows others to see. it’s the only way he knows how to function. raw emotions cause him to irrational and at times manics,

✘  the death of steven was a situation he never quite expected, nor planned for. the emotions that came with it were unfamiliar and terrified him. so he shut them all off. his response has been robotic, static, empty. he did not cry, he did not mourn, he simply remained blank. he cannot calculate the situation,  he cannot plan or mimic. he has no idea what to do, and it has left his deceptive nature open to the world to see. how can someone to be analytical of a close friend’s death. how is he supposed to keep his pristine image in tact once his friends finally see the emptiness behind his eyes. 

WANTED CONNECTIONS.:

✘  first relationship -- he’s dated many people in his life, but there was one person that came into his life that he, somehow, developed very deep and true feelings for. it scared him, he couldn’t quite plan past his nerves, and often fumbled and messed up quite often. the relationship inevitably failed and leo found it near impossible to open himself up completely.  

✘  exes -- he’s had various relationships here and there ( a man has needs ykno ), some ended on good terms while others were bad. some were superficial, some were something more. 

✘  best friend -- someone who he lets in, just a little. they know him more than most, and they can see past his act and choose to stick along anyways. they try their best to find the real leo, but it’s proven to be difficult. there’s glimpses of him, however. somewhere deep down a genuine soul lurks. 

✘  ghoul gang -- they perhaps know him better than anyone else. the people he geeks out with about mystery and crime. the ones he most likely spends time with the most. 

✘  experimenting -- someone he’s figuring out his sexuality with, someone to explore new things with. he doesn’t quite understand himself nor how he feels. he’s not hiding it, but he’s not open about it either. those who know, simply know, and he doesn’t quite divulge much with anyone else besides the person he’s with.   

✘  enemies -- people he just seems to clash with. he’ll remain sweet and kind as ever, but there’s a certain bite to it all. besides, it’s something fun to analyze. 

✘  study buddies, same majors, party friends, etc. -- anything and everything honestly. 

IM DOWN FOR ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING PLS HIT ME UP 

[edengarden]

oh ofc, here’s my stuff again (all in one ask cause tumblr lets me now thank god (but it’s still really long mb 😅))

i’m a 16YO bisexual mixed cis girl with tan skin, a little under 5’4, i have shoulder-length deep brown/black hair in little ringlets (3C type), my eyes are the same color, i have semi-thick black glasses, rosy round cheeks, and i’m overweight with a sort of thick hourglass figure going on. i don’t usually wear makeup or indulge in a bunch of skin care, but i still take pride in my appearance which shows more through my outfits! i feel best wearing feminine but simplistic stuff; graphic tops, boots, leggings, things with skirts, etc, and swap between light and dark colors depending on whether i’m feeling more cutesy or elegant. personality wise i’m an infj-t, gemini sun + rising and virgo moon, and a ravenclaw with some hufflepuff aspects. some of my best qualities are being analytical, as i notice details and make connections in my environment or media i consume that others may pass over, my kindness, as i always strive to aid and uplift others i care about and who i think need it, and my equity, because i can easily understand different perspectives and come to fair and just solutions that benefit as many people as possible. some of my flaws include being blunt and sarcastic when i speak, since i see things simply and sometimes forget to be mindful that others don’t, being anxious, due to my constant overthinking of situations and possibilities, and a tendency to be lazy and unmotivated, since i more care about others and their goals than myself. though im an introvert and use a lot of energy with social interactions, i treasure all my relationships and romanticize the time i spend with those close to me. i can get along with pretty much anyone, and though i’m not popular i’ve noticed i often become the center or connecting piece in nearly all my friend groups without meaning to, and tend to attract those who’re disheartened or otherwise outcasts. i do have a tendency to be rough and poke fun with people as soon as i get comfortable, though, but if i ever strike a nerve i’m quick to apologize and make it up to them, it’s just a weird way of showing my love and i always hate seeing people upset, and feel astronomically worse if it was because of me. i can’t stand people who are overly arrogant entitled and/or don’t think or worry about the consequences of their actions though, they get on my last nerve and i do my best to stay away from them. i appreciate when people are genuine with their feelings and understand the value of communication like i do, it’s the most important part of any relationship, platonic or romantic, but you can’t easily find that nowadays. it’s also a plus if they can be mature when need be but are still silly and light-hearted and make me laugh (which isn’t that hard i react to pretty much anything) otherwise i enjoy artsy things like drawing, writing, baking, and just creating in general! plus listening to music, watching youtube, plus comedy shows and horror movies, and sleeping :P i can like any individual song regardless of genre, i more so pay attention to how the lyrics are crafted and certain instrumental motifs i enjoy, so it leaves my music taste pretty all over the place and i end up crafting playlists for ‘vibes’ rather than adhering to genres; however i do end up enjoying alternative rock and pop the most often. some other facts about me are i’m good at color theory, my cheeks flare really easily, i love rhythm games, i have a relatively nice singing voice, laughter is my ABSOLUTE weakness and i can even end up cackling and falling over, i don’t have any social media and i’m really bad at keeping up with trends (i’m always either early or late to the party)

again, take your time since ik youre super busy! and reminder to take care of yourself too! 💖💖

Oh, you’re DEFINITELY a third year.

Now, I can’t exactly remember who I matched you up with, but from the way you are as a person, you 100% get along with Mirio and Nejire. Since day one the three of you were the Sunshine Gang. Honestly, sharing that trait together makes you all very approachable people and I think even Tamaki would end up befriending you because he sees that you’re a good person at heart (plus Mirio seemed to really like you, which was definitely a good addition). People always seem to underestimate you, especially when you’re so close (and often compared) to the big three, but holy crap, your sense of observation is out of this world and you know how to use it in battles. It always got you very far in school training and, well, some underclassmen really admire you for it.

Through the years at UA, though (especially being close with Mirio and Nejire), you learned to value yourself and your own goals. After all, you’re at a hero school. Everyone is here to become the best version of themselves. I can assure you that the first year you would be astonished to see how far you’ve come as a third year. I’d also like to add that together, you and Nejire tend to be almost ruthless with curiosity. While she asks the invasive questions and does her thing, you’re picking apart EVERYTHING about the subject and yes, it tends to make people uneasy, but it’s also HILARIOUS.

[ranposlittle]

hi! I love your blog, it’s so much fun and safe :))) i was wonderin if i could get a matchup, if that’s okay!! I’m a demisexual female, Slytherin, ENTP and type 8, the challenger. i’m also 170cm and chunky!! I have long black curly hair, squinty hazel eyes and lots of freckles, have a heart shaped freckle too. i’ve been described as apathetic yet i really do enjoy certain things even if my demeanor isn’t exuberant. im always drinking americanos, reading/playing video games too. buh-bye, thx baby

I ship you with...

🍓 Higuchi Ichiyo 🍓

Higuchi is an attractive woman, that is for certain, but that's not really what enticed you towards her.

ENTPs are known for being the debater. Pair that up with your Type 8 personality and you'll get a person with a real knack for honest discussions. You have a strong personality that you can easily expressed because of your extroverted nature, and other people find your enthusiasm quite attractive. Higuchi, at first glance, have a softer aura around her; perhaps you can even call it innocent or naive. However, if you try and pick on the inner workings of her mind, you'll find an inner strength within her that only comes out when she's fighting for the things that she deems of value. Whether it be her morals, beliefs or loved ones: she will not back down and would fearlessly stands her ground.

This could piqued the interest of an ENTP like you as you could appreciate the depth of her character and also, just the joy that this little surprise has brought to you. It got you guessing as to what else could she be hiding beneath her classy exterior and excited to uncover it all. Higuchi is always up for whatever topic you want to discuss next and although she didn't quite realized that you're testing her limits, she enjoys having not a single boring conversation with you. However, ENTPs are also known for playing the devil's advocate for fun and there might come a time where you'd push the boundaries a little bit too much. Higuchi's view on a certain topics might be rooted more on her emotions than on her logic and you might not easily notice that you hit a nerve. Nothing to worry though, because she's not going to hold it against you. She is smart enough to understand if you tell her that you're just trying to see things from all angles and you arguing against her point wasn't a personal attack. She's pretty used in dealing with analytical people from her own workplace anyway and learns how to properly react without being too much emotional.

Since ENTPs also have a burning desire for constant self-improvement, Higuchi could also help you with your personal growth. Despite having such a strong mind and reasoning, one weakness that ENTPs might have is their emotional sensitivity. Upon interacting with Higuchi more and more, you'll start learning how to be more caring towards others’ feelings. You might see this as another opportunity to challenge yourself for personality development and something that the two of you could work together as your relationship progress.

Overall, I think that Higuchi will be a good fit for you because although you share an amount of similarities with your cool exterior and strong intellectual talent enables the two of you to get along well, the differences in your personalities will instill some balance in your relationship. Even though you’re apathetic in most cases, by experience she knows that there’s more deep inside you. You may not express it openly but she know that you feel emotions just like anyone else. She would be her naturally sweet and understanding self that could provide you with some sense of safety that you could freely be yourself with her and she would just know your unsaid feelings. She would see the subtle way that the tone of your voice changes when you see the video game that you waited for months to be released, the sparkle in your eyes as you have your nose against a good book or your contented sigh whenever you sip on another cup of Americano. Once you’re comfortable enough for any acts of affection, Higuchi would love to trace your freckles and she would be really happy to see the heart-shaped one that you have. It would immediately be her favorite and maybe even see it as a symbolic meaning that beneath your seemingly hard external surface, you still have beautiful feeling heart that is capable of loving and is worthy of being loved in return.

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Hello, anon! (｡･ω･)ﾉﾞThank you for your kind words! It’s very comforting to know that you find my blog as a safe space as it should be. I hope you enjoyed this matchup I made for you~ take care! ʚꏂ❀｡ᴖᴗᴖ｡꒱

[dreamy-stars]

7/30/20

i’ve never felt this low in a long time, not even in sophomore year of college?? it’s like rly concentrated sadness and rly hit hard within the last month?

- i went through my first breakup, which affected me a lot more than i thought it would. it was so short lived i don’t even want to call it a relationship. i hate to admit it but it hurt so much bc it seemed like he wanted to be with me for a while. he has his reasons and he should take care of himself but i can’t help but feel thrown away without care? i wanted closure and he couldn’t even give me that. my self confidence went down the drain, and i kept questioning if there was something i could have done differently. i even contemplated if i was pretty enough XD can you believe i let a 5’6 man make me feel like this...pathetic...but yeah he rly has no emotional intelligence or something man cmon i wanna talk it out.. - it took me a while to get over him and now i dont miss him specifically, i just miss being wanted and having that connection? anyway my confidence was bad at this point and was feeling insecure in so many ways. maybe 3-4 weeks ago i started going down this dark hole, just questioning my purpose here. i’m not smart, pretty, or talented in any field. i felt kind of useless? just there... (even typing this im like tearing up hehe) comparing myself to ppl again..how i’m not good enough (in eng) just kinda wasting my parents money? and i think about if i were prettier i’d prob be treated better and those around me would pay nore attention to me? brings me to my next point :p - i feel SO lonely. it doesnt help that i went through a break up and the person i was talking to all day every day is suddenly cut from my life. my friends can contact me and stuff but i feel so left out sometimes. it’s not their fault, it’s just how my brain is ig lol. it felt like i was back in high school. i had acquaintances and was surrounded by friends but couldnt rly connect and be close to ppl. what i remeber most was being at the booth and being surrounded by girl friends and not adding to the convo at all. i felt so lonely and insecure i never want to feel that again. recently i felt it with my cousins who i have always felt close to. can u believe? i can’t rly explain it. but when sp brought her friends to the lake i felt ostracized. its so stupid for ne to feel that way, they’re literally strangers and i wish we could be like white folks that introduce each other right at the start of meeting new ppl U KNOW?? idk i’m so fucking sensitive LOL. like at least mai did it with her bf. I Am Nothing. like sp didnt introduce tp so why am i feeling like this. i guess its just me and my deep rooted trauma of being overlooked and forgotten! even when we went to the lake with just our cousins i felt SOOO SOOOOOOOO down and lonely, even more than before. i was sticking near ap bc it was kinda awkward still and i didnt want her to be lonely. i was just floating around and they played games and talked together and stuff and i felt invisible i felt so lonely even with so many ppl i love there. it didn’t help that they had sleepovers and hung out together so ich and never asked me. they even planned to sleepover later that night and didnt ask me. i wonder if it was bc i was neutral and stuck with ap? oh yeah i forgot that i couldnt go eat with them bc there was no room for me which is understandable but i still felt shitty and i think i cried that night :p it’s small insignificant things that build up for me and make me feel like an afterthought. it rly fueled my self confidence issue. AGAIN no one did anything wrong i’ve just been very sensitive and analytical of everything lately. it’s kind of led me to being distant with sp kinda like im testing her and seeing if she would reach out to me at all? its petty but i feel like she hates me fr 😂 might just be me. I Am Nothing...

ANYWAY ive been crying like pretty often just having these thoughts eat me up. it’s better now i think? it’s scary to admit but i’ve thought about dying so many times recently and i hate it. almost like it’s normalized to me now. it’s not that i would ever attempt but i understand what ppl mean when they want to disappear? i’m very blessed with loving parents and a healthy able body and a good living situation. i never want to put my parents and family through something that traumatizing. i haven’t properly expressed these feelings to anyone besides one watered down text to darwin. it was hard to even type the text, i ended up crying in the bathroom. i’ll have bad days and the thoughts creep up on me and i try to distract myself by watching stuff and it helps. i’ve been working out and dieting and i feel a lot better about myself and more positive. i’ve thought about therapy seriously but im hesitant still. if i still have issues i will, but talking through a screen and the risk of others hearing kinda turns me off. just processing my feelings and thinking about them extensively has helped me a bit but i think having a professional tell me about my feelings will make me feel better. idk how to bring it up at all, and i feel like my issues arent serious enough? but my brain been going cwazy :3

 i’ve been having a rough time at home just doing a lot of nothing but being sad and working out.. i hope with school starting soon i can get out the house and be productive again! recently ive been dealing with the problem of “living for others” i notice that i care about the comfort of others and how i can satisfy them and appeal to others at my expense.. i’ve been thinking about how im not good enough for this type of guy to like me LIKE WHO AMMM IIII WHY DO I CARE...WEIRDO..... maybe im dragging myself too hard i dont think i do this much but i do be a nice comfy doormat for others :)

but overall i feel better than a few weeks ago i think! idk what that was about why is my brain like this....making irrational thoughts and hurting my own feelings...idk but it will be okay :)

[talk-geek-to-me]

All the ones you didn't do in the last ask!

So I’m finally getting around to doing this. and you fUCKING HATE ME. This is gonna be hella long.  (she asked for all of them)

This is for the WaterColor asks that I posted last night

Zinc White: how are you really feeling today? I’m very tired tbh like all i wanna do today is sleep rn. very tired

Cadmium Yellow: When you think of the word “happy” what's the first thing that comes to mind? ummmmm probably my boyfriend and the very funny moments you and i share

Lemon: What’s your comfort food? Ben and Jerry’s Brownie Batter Core Ice cream. that shit makes me feel better immediately

Hansa Yellow: What’s your guilty pleasure song? honestly idk, but i will tell you the song that I cant get enough of and its All Time Low by Jon Bellion. like i honestly cant get enough of it rn

Yellow Ochre: Name an artist/band whom you just discovered and cant get enough of. right now its the song that I just said in the last ask. but the band? shit ummmmmm, idk but i’ve been listening to anything in my liked playlist from spotify. so it varies

Naples Yellow: where do you feel most at home? uh, i dont really know. I moved to Idaho so i haven’t figured that most yet

Raw Sienna: with whom do you feel most at home? my boyfriend. I miss him so much and I honestly cant wait till i see him next

Golden Ochre: describe the relationship with your closest friend. JESS *insert random thing that im currently screaming about*

Golden Deep: what’s your favorite season? fall, i can wear converse and hoodies and be comfortable

Cadmiun orange: What do you like to do on your days off? i love to do things that have to get done. like today, i did more homework than i thought i was gonna do and cleaned my bathroom. it’s been a good day.

Orange lake: do you have anyone you can turn to when you’re sad? I listen to music and not do my homework, just focus on me

Titans: do you prefer slow mornings or relaxing evenings? tbh i think i prefer slow mornings cause im not a morning person so that gives me time to sleep in

Shaknazaryan Red: are you currently binge watching anything? CRIMINAL MINDS

red ochre; are you more right-brained (creative) or left-brained (analytical)? i think i’m a bit of both

burnt sienna; is there a painting that brings you peace when you look at it? not really theres a picture i really like tho. here’s the link! https://www.pinterest.com/pin/46865652355803785/

english red; what animal do you relate to most? honestly, a raven

vermilion; what’s your favorite accent? british, like tom holland and tom hiddleston british

cadmium red; do you have a “type” when it comes to a significant other? ....jess you know. but for those of you who don’t know, its the bad boy type... seriously, bucky barnes, loki, and according to jess its the dark-haired, chiseled features, built af, don’t worry, she made a point, like all the famous people im attracted to... all contain the same things that my boyfriend contains. my boyfriend is dark haired, chiseled features, thicc 

scarlet; describe your current crush/es. DARK HAIR, CHISELED FEATURES, BAD BOY TYPE BOYFRIEND

ruby; what does your ideal first date look like? honestly, i dont have one

carmine; what does your ideal second date look like? dont have one

madder lake red; would you ever kiss someone (or accept a kiss) on a first date? considering i kissed my boyfriend within the first hour of meeting him, sure

rose; what’s something really positive going on in your life right now? im actually keeping up with school rn and im fairly proud of myself

quinacridone rose; what’s something you’re really looking forward to? sleep

violet rose; what does your dream house look like? windows. so many windows big kitchen, comfortable

violet; is there any place in particular you’d like to settle down? not really, i’d settle down anywhere as long as im with the man i love

blue lake; what would you like to do/accomplish before you settle down? traveling

cobalt blue spectral; what is the most beautiful place you have ever been to? honestly, i havent been there yet

ultramarine; when was the last time you were in a good mood? do you know/remember what sparked it? ummmm, im kinda always in a good mood?

blue; what’s the most recent dream you remember? [redacted] [redacted] [redeacted] [redacted] [redacted]

bright blue; what does your dream family look like? any kids or pets? how many of each? 2 or 3 kids, 2 dogs and hopefully a cat. married to my boyfriend

blue cobalt; do you like your name? would you give yourself a different name if you could? NO it’s too common, its why i prefer people call me meg or megs. i hate my name.

prussian azure; what’s your favorite scent? vanilla

azure blue; what’s your favorite type of tea, if any? lipton pure leaf raspberry tea, and it has to be cold

turquoise blue; if you could start a garden, what would you plant? literally anything that i could water every once in a while and it still be alive

cerulean blue; if you were guaranteed to have a viewership, would you start a youtube vlog? no, my life is really boring

glauconite; describe your body without using any negative adjectives. curves, well built, purple red hair. honestly, im super comfortable with my body

yellow green; picture yourself walking in a field. what do you see & hear in this scenario? ya know that scene in vampire dairies when Damon is comforting Rose as she’s dying? yea it looks like that

green light; are you in a comfortable place in life? if not, what do you think might make it better? im pretty comfortable with it, just wish my boyfriend was with me

green; name three countries you want to visit; do you have any actual plans in place to visit any of them? ready? you’re gonna laugh jess, Romania, Ireland, England

emerald green; do you speak any languages besides english? are there any additional languages you want to learn? so my mom is from Chile, and she’s native in spanish, but im native in english and cant speak a lick of spanish, but i have been doing the duolingo spanish lessons and its like my latina side has woken up, but i cant speak spanish, i can read it and hear it and probably translate it for you

oxide of chromium; what’s your favorite book? Stalking Jack The Ripper by Kerri Maniscalco

olive green; are you currently reading anything? how do you like it so far? no, im too busy with school and work that i dont have time to read anything and its making me sad. but i always have a book in my backpack just incase

mars brown; what’s a movie that always puts a smile on your face/makes you laugh? the first Avengers

burnt umber; what’s something you plan to do before the day is over to take care of yourself? clean my fucking greasy ass face

umber; have you drank enough water today? nope, thank you for reminding me tho

voronezhskaya black; what or who is your go-to outlet for when you need to vent? you, cause you always provide the best advice and make me feel like my emotions matter to you too

sepia; name five things that always make you happy. Superheroes, music, my boyfriend, my friends, and books, etc

indigo; what’s the best/sweetest compliment you have ever received? today, i was sitting in my car ordering my drink from dutch bros and someone told me that they liked my hair even tho he couldnt really see the color of it. But i get a lot of compliments from my boyfriend about my eyes

payne’s gray; describe your aesthetic? shit, uhhhh, superhero murderer? 

black; post a selfie because you are so beautiful! I’m gonna share with you the one that has my boyfriend going crazy 

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how do you not take radfem rhetoric to heart? i can't stop going through GC blogs, & it's becoming psychological self-harm for me. i like my transition, but when i read their posts, i feel like i should be ashamed & then i feel disgusted w/ myself. it got so bad i tried to detransition, but i just couldn't. it hurt too much. i've been on hormones for a year & im just deeply embarrassed that i still do this. does confidence come with time? does shame leave in time?

i’ll try my best to give you some supplemental advice here, but my main point with this is that this needs to be discussed in depth with a psychologist, preferably one with experience treating trans patients. i know that that’s difficult in some areas and healthcare is expensive (at least in the US), but there seems to be some deep rooted issues that you should really talk about with someone who knows how to give advice/coping mechanisms/discuss self worth.

that being said, the short answer is that you need to stop immersing yourself in that kind of rhetoric. stay with me because i know it’s not as simple as that, but constantly being exposed to discussions that are meant to be degrading and harmful is ultimately going to be detrimental. if that means finding another social media outlet or just cutting yourself off from that entirely by deleting the app whenever you feel tempted, whenever you feel the urge to look at it, i suggest taking a moment to just take stock of your body. think about your feet and how they feel. think about your legs and how they feel. think about your torso and how it’s feeling. work your way up to your head. take a moment to breathe in for 8 seconds and out for 10 and do this for a few minutes. distract yourself with things grounded in reality.

it’s relatively easy to trick your brain into sending out endorphins to try and ‘heal’ what’s hurting, even if what’s hurting is mental and not physical. by giving yourself a hook back into reality and breaking the pattern of self loathe>immersion into bad spaces>more self loathing, you can calm it down for a minute until you’re in a more reasonable state of mind.

the long answer is that your self worth and image is going to be an ever-changing relationship you’ll need to cultivate with yourself. you will always have to live with yourself, but that doesn’t have to be a life sentence. this is going to sound weird, believe me, because when i started going to therapy, i was really apprehensive about any sort of cbt techniques since they just felt like those ‘✨drink more water !✨’ posts. choosing to deliberately and actively see the positive side of situations will (over time) improve your confidence so much. talking out feelings with people instead of internalizing things and bottling it up. start thinking about (objectively) what is making these thoughts happen most frequently and avoiding that behavior. breaking the cycle of destructive patterns, being mindful and actively thinking about why or what made you feel compelled to seek the comfort of that destructive behavior, and redirecting that energy into a less destructive coping mechanism are the most important things i can recommend to you. choosing to see the good in life, choosing to acknowledge the bad, but analytically recognize that it’s not this all consuming monster your brain will tell you it is, and choosing to act on only the healthy compulsions is the key.

hormones and transitioning will absolutely help you if your main issue is being dysphoric about your appearance, but if there’s other issues here like i suspect there is, shame and confidence issues will still be waiting there for you until you address them.

there’s very little practical advice i can give you from my own experience, because i was fortunate that i could see a therapist weekly when i needed it, and when i saw that it hadn’t substantially helped in the way i needed, i was able to get a prescription for anti-depressant medication (which rocks comparatively, don’t let anyone tell you otherwise) and that was when i saw a huge difference in my moods. i really suggest you find someone to talk to, even if it’s not a therapist, just so that you aren’t suffering in silence.

you asked how i don’t take them to heart, and it’s because i’m very secure in who i am, and for the most part, always have been. i have a constant internal monologue so my brain is my best friend (who i hate sometimes, but that’s another thing). i keep myself company because i’ve worked for years to create a good relationship with myself. i know who i am, i know who i want to be, and i make my decisions based off of that image. if someone who doesn’t know me, doesn’t know my past or my struggles tries to tell me they know better? i block them and move on because i know who i am. i’ve worked too hard, been through too much, and only gotten to be where i am now because i made damn sure that i was doing what was best for myself. radfems and terfs are sad little cretins on the internet, insecure about themselves who buy into fearmongering bullshit. i don’t take the opinions of anyone like that seriously, especially ones i don’t know personally, because i have too much respect for the person i want to be to let myself get dragged down by their pathetic shit.