#im normal abt her

[rexlottie]

i support women in stem

[iridescentscarecrow]

there's something so human and compelling to asa's wants. a grappling with her fear of being perceived in her clumsiness but then that raw sense of being acknowledged, her little grin. she's so real it hurts.

[pikopikoheartz]

that one side stories episode

[heavenlyantennas]

I need to eat lasso tool I think ????

[shellibisshe]

I'm still a believer but I don't know why / I've never been a natural / All I do is try, try, try

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[m1thrun]

my gf is so wonderful and smart and pretty i just needed to say that

[genesisxj]

[stealingpotatoes]

i love my cat but he is very fond of trickery

[hinamie]

post-graduation trip airport looks

[koipepo]

That omake of little Kabru not being able to show off his howetown sweets because of Misril gets to me a lot so...

Here's a happier Kabru (and Lairu)

[officialdaydreamer00]

A few things i found about our Scarabia MC! (In a mainly JP server players group so im writing as how i see it)

Spoilers ahead!!

Her name is Oujou Yuuna (or Yuuna Oujou if you're not asian), she's 16

Refer to herself as aashi (あーし), possibly a cuter way to say atashi (あたし)

Her family are rice farmers

Her dream is to become a gyaru model for magazines

[EDITED] Got isekai-ed while preparing her trip to Tokyo for the gyaru model audition

Selfies for life (cater's potential bestie :0??)

Also the way she call the Heartslabyul gang (in JP pronunciation lol):

Grim: Guririn

Ace: Essun

Deuce: Deussun

Trey: Torepai

Cater: Keiti

LIKE THAT'S SO CUTE I LOVE HER??? 😭😭

[nonbinoclard]

a conversation on the coast (original fanfic + inspiration)

[peacockrulz]

Comic I made earlier this month. Based on a convo w/ a friend :]

bonus:

Can you tell,,,shes my favorite,,,,

[alicentsgf]

shauna is a bad person because she was a good one and its fucking fascinating. "I didnt start out a bad person" is one of the Best lines in the show because it sums her up so succinctly and melanie lynskeys delivery is a gut punch

she naturally cares so much about people thats literally why shes like this. she was always flawed (impulsive, self-destructive, etc) but there were so many moments in season 1 where she went out of her way to be kind. its why she cant ever accept anythings her fault because deep down she feels so much of it is and if she ever acknowledges that even slightly its over. too much has happened and she cares too deeply for it to not totally fucking destroy her. she had to lie to herself to survive. its why her subconcious regularly revives the person she loved most just to say mean things to her. it is the worst punishment shauna can imagine and so thats exactly what her imagination delivers. at least then its someone else saying it. it means she can still hide from herself. pretend the punishment isnt self-inflicted. as an adult she creates her own demons. no one damaged the breaks or locked the fridge, it was always only her. she even kills the one person who helped her feel happy and free for the first time in 25 yrs just because he seemed too good to be true. ghost jackie warning her on the bridge that someone was going to get hurt was shaunas own mind creating a self-fufilling prophecy. it couldnt end well, shes not allowed to be happy (she had to make sure)

even the awful things we see shauna doing this season as a teenager, the person she's become, came about because of how much she cared. in keeping them all alive, she destroyed her entire sense of self. she emerges from it all convinced she's a terrible person now so she should just accept it. embody it. and shes so full of pain and rage that its so easy. someone needed to be okay with the worst parts of it, otherwise they didnt eat. otherwise they were vulnerable. she just cares too much. its the root of it all. it would be so easy to take extra rations (she doesn't). shes lost her child, imagined him ripped apart and eaten. (she'll cut into someone elses. rip him apart. they’re depending on her.) there's a purpose and fulfilment in the act. (she hates herself for feeling it but she needs to). shes lost everything and maybe she'd rather curl up in the snow by her babys grave and sleep. (they have to eat, she has to feed them.) they don't even thank her. she'll resent them for it later. (she still cares.) she hates them.

shauna may be be paranoid and vengeful but shes not a narcissist and shes not righteous. there's no wilderness god, no greater good, just reality. the place where they grew hungry enough to hunt each other. she wonders aloud why the hell melissa likes her, because shes aware shes unlikeable. it might not be a conscious choice but its deliberate. its a form of self-harm and its self-preservation. better to be feared and hated than pitied, at least then theres some power in what shes lost. (shes so desperate to feel powerful. she's earned it hasn't she?)

even when shes older and she tries to move on, always quick to blame others for her problems, deep down she will always feel responsible. its her fault jackie died so it has to mean something, her relationship with jeff has to be real. so she marries him out of guilt and has a child so she can continue to punish herself indefinitely. ofc it makes sense she can hug a confused old man because hes seeing his daughter instead, but she cant hold her own daughter the same way. cant love the way she wants to. (she could never let her go. she’d leave claw marks in her skin) she doesnt deserve her. cant let herself love callie like that. (she loves her anyway). because shes no good. because she knows what she could become (again) if she lost callie. she hurts people. shes a bad person and she deserves to be feel like this, to be blamed for everything, to freeze to death (because karma).

so yes shaunas a bad person. but shes not very good at it. and it wasn't pre-destined. she took on too big a burden, lost too much, and it broke her. that's what makes her tragic. most innately bad people dont spend their entire adult lives self-inflicting emotional torture.

[starlit-miasmas]

her

[fungerisms]

unrelated funger doodles 🥳