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Inspired by prompts by corvase
(TW: mentions of Hiromiâs child abuse, canon-type injuries/violence (kinda) (no big deep details, itâs a ramble after all), Karmaâs arc is also mentioned (cliff thingy) and although its not a big big spotlight on it ig its a trigger???)
Theyâre in high school but it's not like they (class 3E) never talk to each other - none of them would dare not to. Not after everything they went through together. But things are getting busy, university entrance exams are approaching and theyâre throwing their everything into this cause the whole point of a second knife (and a third, a fourth, a fifthâŚ) is not to use it - itâs to push forwards with your absolute best until you break every single barrier in your way and you succeed. Itâs to keep going forwards, keep striving up what seems like an endless uphill path cause you are the only one who can keep his memory and life for him.
Some of them are dating, the obvious couples got together at the beginning - some splitting because although the initial spark was there, they quickly realised it was built on the painfully sharp memory of their sensei and not any substantial feelings. Kanzaki actually asked Sugino out first, but unlike Chiba and Hayami nothing tangible actually came out of it. There was definitely something between Isogai and Maehara but neither of them had officially announced it however others could speculate whatever closer relationship they had needed to be shoved between the cracks of time between work, school and family.
Nagisa and Karma⌠well the less said about those two the better. In the beginning, there was the whole mess with Nagisa and Kayano - as much as Kayano wanted Nagisa, no one could tell if he was too dense, not interested or busy mooning over Karma. And then there was another entire thing going on between Gakushuu and Karma. People swore up and down the walls that they were dating: âNothing going between the two- pshh, I swear they were practically sitting on top of each other- I donât care that they were having a go at each other you canât deny that thereâs something!â And there were always rumours going about over the friendly âchatâ the boys had during their Kyoto trip and if Karma was really pulling one over them or not.
One could argue that, unlike Isogai and Maehara, neither of them had a part-time job, nor the pressures of their family disapproving of any single relationship they had. They just had university to worry about and although many couples had agreed to take a break or give each other more space during this time, with the foundation Koro-Sensei had given them and their previous experiences with working to the point of exhaustion despite their results, they werenât as stressed nor lagging behind in their work. Nagisaâs mother⌠well their father had caught wind of the whole situation and in a surprising ownership of backbone, had driven from Nagoya back to Tokyo. The anime can say all they want but drugging your son because he wonât listen is not alright and the unnamed father at least can recognise this is blatant child abuse (even looking past the obvious physical, emotional and psychological abuse towards Nagisa).
Hiromi dodged a mental facility but is mandated with a restraining order and obligatory therapy sessions and Nagisa lives with his father now. And although it was a result of some incredibly stressful and terrifying events, Nagisa canât deny that he does like the freedom his fatherâs guilt gives him.
Does he care about his appearance? Yes, he cut his hair the moment he got out of his mother's clutches and despite the crawling feeling over his skin every time he feels the ghostly swish of airy fabric over his thighs, he does appreciate the confidence and power a pair of well-fitted jeans, blouse and wig give him when he can turn around and talk back to whatever stuck-up egoistical person decided to hit on him for the night and not worry about the learnt fear a woman has or the fact that they would recognise him next time he walks by with his school friends.
Karmaâs parents just donât turn up ever. Thereâs the occasional postcard and good job sent via email in response to his latest report card but those are rarer than a successful purchase during the Sunday markets or a cool day during the hot humid days in August.
But there was a wedge driven between the two. Nagisa attends the Keisetsu Daigaku Fuzoku High School whilst Karma returns to his stomping ground at Kunugigaoka High School, having fun antagonising Gakushuu and the school staff because, honestly, who didnât know about the massive highlighter-yellow sentient octopus up the hill.
But that doesnât matter right now. All that matters is Nagisa was walking back at 3 am to Karmaâs and not his dadâs place. He had been drinking with friends cause who doesnât try it at high school - especially with his friend group at the high school with his newfound confidence in both his own skills (academically and physically - come on they all must excel at gym class now) and his appearance. Heâs dressed in a pair of black jeans, the straight leg hanging over a pair of well-worn boots and a graphic t-shirt tucked into the waistband. It would be a well-put-together look for a casual get-together with friends to destress before the final month in the run-up to their exams but a bruise was starting to bloom on his upper shoulder and the back of his jeans was sticking to the back of his calf. His dad would freak at the sight of his injuries and thatâs why he was walking the slightly longer trek to Karmaâs despite the fact that the only form of communication theyâd had in three weeks was over text.
He finally walks up the apartment stairs, sweat beading on his forehead at the exertion and pain heâs in. He considered calling the other boy at some point but âwhy make him wake up just to help him up a couple stepsâ he thinks. He stands outside the door, the white paint matching every other apartment along the block debating his options before he lets his head fall forward, a loud and long triiiiiiiiing ring out from the doorbell.
He stays like that for a moment, having managed to shift away from the doorbell and onto the spyhole by the door - unconsciously hoping his blue hair gave him away.
On Karmaâs side of things, heâs awake but close to drifting off to sleep. As much as their time in 3E had given them good study habits and he was confident enough in his own abilities to pass the upcoming exams, the amount of revision material his teacher provided that he had to slog through, otherwise prompting an unnecessary video call between his parents and teachers, was a stupidly large amount. And so he was here, a Saturday night, hoping to work early into the morning before passing out for 6 hours, waking for a quick dinner and then sleeping straight to a Monday morning he knew there was a high likelihood heâd skip anyway.
Well, he had let his eyes shut for another moment, enjoying the rocking motion and sweet bliss of nothingness sleep deprivation gave him before his incredibly unexpected doorbell went off.
Now Karma could be your average Joe and go âNow who could that be?â but this is Karma weâre talking about and he goes something more along the lines of âUghhhsahdhsaarghhhhâ cause not only does he have to actually stand up but he has to walk to the door, open it and engage in some random socialisation atâŚ. 3 am????
Now does he spot Nagisaâs strikingly bright hair colour in the spy hole? No. Cause who goes and checks that first before actually opening the door? Instead, he opens the door and gets a tumbling Nagisa tripping over the doorframe into his hallway and himself too.
At first, heâs really really confused cause why is Nagisa here, why at this time, why did he not make the excellent decision to sleep earlier and why- Why Is There Blood Soaking His Jeans.
âWhy is there blood soaking your jeans?â He says, admittedly softer (no less concerned) than his inside thoughts. He doesn't receive the answer he really wants but he does get a frustrated huff against his neck (âSo fucking warm- omg Akabane Karma no you should not be thinking about thisâ) and a âMy jeans?â from the smaller boy now in his arms.
They somehow make it to his living space, Nagisa on his sofa (wow itâs used for more than the gaming nights he has with his friends) now half jean-less and Karma inspecting the wound. They havenât talked yet, just the sound of clothes rustling and the occasional huff of pain as the disinfectant is applied and the injury dressed filling the empty presence of the early morning silence as the sky starts to shift in preparation for the 4 am dawn.
In the end, itâs one of Karmaâs intrusive thoughts that managed to make its way to his voicebox and into the living room audio. He doesnât realise it at first, but he does find out pretty quick that it probably wasnât something for this moment and time when Nagisa looks up with a quick âWhat.â
Itâs cold, and exactly like the jagged edge of a serrated knife and Karma starts to backpedal (which is pretty hard when you donât actually know what youâve said)
âI uh- take that back? Just an intrusive thought, didnât mean to say it out loud-â And he realises he sounds absolutely delirious but that doesnât matter all too much to Nagisa right now and here.
âYou think⌠You think I canât handle myself? Karma you know-â
âAh fuckâ Is all Karma could think. And yet, his mouth kept on running stupid stupid words.
âNo you canât! You canât say that not when youâre on my couch with bloody tissues over in a pile and a bruise over your arm and shoulder.â
âAnd what gives you the right to lecture me about my choices and my skills and my abilitiesâ cause damn Nagisa spent so long shackled to his own worries and anxieties eating away at him over Was He Good Enough, Would She Be Mad, What Do I Do, to stand being accused of this. âWhat about you, and how you came in with bruises and cuts, how you got sent down the ladder because you-â and now heâs pouring salt into old wounds and attacking it with a scrubbing brush now, â-because you basically Fucking Asked For It!â And heâs sitting up, one leg still in his jeans, the other heâs trying to keep still and relaxed âless the dressing loses its hold and his wound reopens.
âAnd if Iâm a hypocrite, then what about you?â The logical side of Karmaâs brain starts to just Go and the more emotional side (maybe its cause wow the guy Iâve been pining over for years is injured and I donât like that, or maybe it's just canât he just know that Iâm concerned - but thereâs zero worry for his own choices Nagisa is accusing him of (heâs accepted his own consequences a long time ago)) takes over.
âYou just keep coming back to these things, youâre worse- itâs been going on for Years.â The azure-headed gestures to his own injuries, âItâs not just that- itâsâŚâ
âItâs what?â
âThe cliff.â
And the two words start Karma spiralling. But he doesnât spiral in silence, Karma just keeps talking and talking and the emotions keep building up underneath the rushing memories of falling and darkness and the crashing relief of Alive.
âNo fuck you, I know about the bomb - you stupid martyr - I know you are capable; I saw you take down Takaoka fucking twice now but it doesnât take away from the fact that you were ready to fight the Reaper just for an opening for us to attackâ His voice just kept getting louder and louder- he hopes the neighbours arenât awake.
âWhy do you care about me? Why not care about yourself just a bit more?â
âBecause I doâ and thatâs true, he just does. Itâs a fact of life - he doesn't know why-
âBut why?!â
âBecause I love you!â Oh.
Oh.
They return to the silence they had held before sans the sounds of movement. The words registered in Nagisaâs brain before they did in Karmaâs but both of them left the confession hanging in the air.
â...you should probably change into something else.â Karma got out, mind making the decision to escape this instead of confronting the words.
âI- yes. Iâll take a shower first.â Nagisa leaves the room, knowing his way around Karmaâs apartment, one leg still in his jeans.
Unbeknownst to Karma, currently still standing in his living room, Nagisa practically crumbles; clinging to the wall as he makes his way towards Karmaâs bathroom. His mind is reeling, thoughts going absolutely crazy as he peels off his other jeans leg and t-shirt and starts up the shower. The water jets out cold, the hum of the generator leading into a warm spray as he lathers up soap - avoiding his calf as much as he can - before rinsing off and stealing a towel from Karmaâs cupboard.
He wanders into Karmaâs room, holding his towel up in some form of privacy despite their many onsen trips, and raids his closet and drawers; pulling on a soft pair of joggers that he either has to roll up or risk looking like a penguin and a well-worn t-shirt. Despite the warm summer weather, the apartment is cold and looking at Karmaâs study materials on his desk tells Nagisa that he wasnât asleep when he came ringing his doorbell.
Before he steps into the living room, Karmaâs words finally hit him. He stands in front of the bedroom door, contemplating if heâs willing to bypass the etiquette drilled into his very nature and simply just fall asleep in Karmaâs bed and deal with everything tomorrow. But no, itâs Nagisa weâre talking about and so he steps into the living room and tentatively asks:
âDo you⌠do you want to talk about it? Or should I just take the sofa and we can talk in the morning?â
And Karma is just standing there, in the same position as Nagisa left him in and now heâs worried â...Karma?â
The single word tinged with enough concern worry, sadness??? To get his attention and Karma just sits on the couch and Nagisa pads over to sit next to him.
âI just- If you just want to forget everything and stay friends then we can just sleep and wake up in the morning and continue and ignore this-â
Nagisa just nudges Karma and it shuts up his ramble. The boys just sit there for a bit longer, before Nagisa continues, âI donât know if itâs love for me. But it does feel very natural for me just to flow into⌠Something closerâ
And it isnât love yet for Nagisa, and maybe not for Karma either because Nagisa still carries the hurt when Karma drifted that one school year and Karma carries the guilt of being scared. And yes, theyâve talked about this but it's still a significant part of their lives. Theyâll work things out, theyâve already talked about it once and now the topic is less hard to breach but right now Karma will let Nagisa have the option of the sofa and the bed and Nagisa will shoot a âWell the bedâs big enough for two enough, might as well make the most of your parentâs moneyâ and they do sleep in the same bed, backs together but hearts going slightly faster before their breathing evens out.
They donât sleep long enough to complete Karmaâs plans to wake up just for dinner but Nagisa does start lunch which in turn wakes Karma. And they eat a simple lunch of rice, veg and meat then spend time looking over Karmaâs revision sheets cause even though Nagisa plans to go into education in university, heâll never turn down free knowledge cause thatâs not what Koro-Sensei would have done nor wanted.
And maybe Karma struggles writing a text a few weeks later with the simple âCafe for Lunch - Sun?â On a Saturday evening but Nagisa beats him to it with a ��Sunday - Lunch/dinner???â And it's a horrid affair cause both of them are menaces to society when paired together but they leave the premise laughing and go back to Karmaâs for dinner and when Nagisa leaves to head back home Karma leans against the doorway and asks âAfter exams, wanna go camping?â
And Nagisa knows deep down that this will all work out.
2023/10/27
#ansatsu kyoushitsu#assassination classroom#akabane karma#shioita nagisa#Karma x Nagisa#drabble#prompt#romance#odl writes#tenses? whats that???#im meant to be writing anything else but this#my october pieces are Not Done and i did this in less than 3 hours please save me#i have stories to write and this is where my muse went#all i did was browse pinterest for fit ideas for tmmrw and this happen#Not me making dialogue very very vague cause i like cannot think of anything in character for either of them to say#Did i mean to make it this long? No.#do i regret it? My sleep schedule does and also my plans to go out tonight does (plus flu jab) but I donât :)#I dont want to write dialogue iâm sick and tired of it but thats like the whole point of this piece whyyyyyyy#writblr#writing on tumblr
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its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously
#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to#im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i canât do literally anything else until thats done. but#because I donât want to do it Iâm just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of#exec dysfunction.. Iâll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something#and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh#and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing#because BOY id love to know too. Iâd love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant#even my period canât decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still#its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damnâŚ.#if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally wonât die. itâll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about#I know this but Iâm still stressing myself about it so my thoughts arenât really connecting to my body. weird#maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I donât really feel#a strong attachment to it I guess? itâs been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just donât#I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but itâs not very fun when it feels like Iâm going to#be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol#idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week#had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting#yapping#does this count as vent#vent#Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly
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hey so I uhhhhhhh am working on a Kieran/Juliana wedding/baby fic right now so if you wanna read it...here you go lol bye
*Furret fled using RUN AWAY*
#dipplinshipping#pokemon#marriage#pregnancy#i tagged it pregnancy for you anon so i hope thats what u meant lol#umm idk how else to tag this but yeah#also pls dont judge if the writing is awkward...i havent written anything since 10th grade and im just now gettin back into it#kieran x juliana
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Just a reminder with asks to not send me any if it's for another person. I'll delete it if you do. I'm not your messenger, even if my blog theme (right now) is one.
Thanks.
#đ ;; messenger writes#đ ;; to: my patrons#;; im not in a good mood after getting asks that mistake me for someone else's blog and in a rude tone#;; so im making this now after deleting them yesterday.#;; and as a heads up as well.#;; this isnt to vague/call out anyone but please please please send your messages to the right blog/person.#;; i dont want to reply to asks not meant for me; my content; or anything of the sort.#;; i hope you guys understand how annoying it could be.#;; ive replied to one once during olc. i dont think i need to reply to another explaining you got the wrong blog.#;; thats all i have to say on this matter.#;; thanks for reading
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OK I've got one for Huntsman.
You're able to track through scent and a keen eye for tracks in various terrains. Have you ever tracked big game, like say...a moose? And if you did, have you kept anything as souvenir like the horns?
~ Princess Anon (đ¸)
I always say "Morning" because if it was a good morning I would be Hunting
#lego monkie kid#lmk#lmk huntsman#lmk syntax#dear beloved followers.... pls forgive me 4 taking a while to do these i have school and such :(#also writing is really needlessly difficult for me. ah#sorry if this is..... not that good. this ask did give me the vivid image of#a deer into the caves at like 4 in the morning awakening syntax from their precious beauty sleep#goliath is also tagging along with him not to stop him or anything but to make sure he didnt hurt himself (and also cuz hes. an enabler/j)#and syntax just being sooo salty about that particular incident forever<3#speaking of#animal death#tw animal death#<- thats there for good measure#i do think Huntsman kills things. (reasonably. mostly.) bc i think it would be funny.#i meant to write something in there about him always searching for something bigger. like to hunt. ah!! i forgot#oh well ive already drawn everything im too sillg#enjoy. i may draw something else to go along with this one... stay tuned#UGH CORRECTION#*IT GAVE ME A VIVID IMAGE OF HUNTSMAN DRAGGING A DEER INTO THE CAVES
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a preview of the fic i wrote for @nanamikentozine !! featuring spot art by the wonderful jasper
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#nanami kento#tsumiki fushiguro#jjk#jujustu kaisen#very nearly forgot i was meant to post this today whoops#i dont have anything else to say im exhausted#grace's writing tag
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I just finished your New Wave fic. Iâm convinced everything your write is gold. I loved your TMA fics, with the most heartbreaking demon AU imaginable and the hilarity of Fahrenheit ďżź101. I loved your moon knight fics, starting with Steven talking to animals on the reg at work to the system growing closer with a focus on Jake, i- thereâs- itâs sooo much packed into it. When Iâm on burnout, of art or writing (maybe life in general at times) I revisit your work and am thrown back into a creative headspace.
You are my favorite writer, you cram so much meaning and thought into your work and it shows. The characters are dumbasses and say the most ridiculous ďżźshit and turn around the next chapter and say the most thought provoking thing, and I donât get whiplash from it because these characters just work! They just do, and I⌠am very much off track!
Anyways I just got into Batman and reading your fic is fueling that flame! I canât wait to see what you have in store next, and I shall now stalk your blog for writing tips! I hope you have a nice day broski đ
Thank you!! This is so sweet thank you so much! This ask is so nice!
Trust me, if there's meaning then it's because I get obsessive over these fics and I massively overthink them. I honestly wish I was better at making simpler, more elegant stories. I feel like nothing I do is truly going to be good until I can find that simplicity.
"Dipshit who says stupid stuff and then turns around and spouts ridiculous philosophy" is just how I talk. But I habitually approach my life from a standpoint of finding humor in everything, if only to soften the blow. I was once told that it's really hard to tell when I'm joking, because everything I say is always half-joking and always half-serious. I feel like that's pretty evident from my narration too...
As for writing advice...um, I was just speaking about this with somebody. When you're plotting a story, the first thing I like to figure out is what I'm trying to say. Everything else should be built around that. The joy of writing is that I think we all have something we want to say, or something we want people to know, or that we have an aspect of ourselves and our lives that we want to express. Most of the time, trying to convey those things verbally just results in a frustrating approximation of your true feelings. I find that when I manage a successful story, the depth and scale of what I'm trying to impart is fully understood and felt. It's rewarding. I think if people aren't understood on some level, by somebody, they kind of die.
Thanks for the sweet ask!!
#dungeon meshi is the peak of storytelling and im not joking#my asks#my writing#(my writing tag is a good place to find my dumb essays!)#i dont consider myself a creative and i barely consider myself a writer#so i professionally have no fucking opinions on art or whatever#also im not sure you can call what i do art in like any meaningful way#but i know a lot of musicians and everything#and so much art is just a person trying to convey something that can't be conveyed through words alone#so much stuff is lost in translation between our brains and our mouths - its like translating english to a foreign language#the meaning can be conveyed but inherently it'll never capture the original meaning exactly in every way#i think art can help you achieve a more perfect translation more than anything else can#you just have to feel like that poor schmuck in j alfred prufrock all the time#'that's not what i meant at all; that is not it - not at all'#JASLKDF sorry for the pretentious tags and also pretentious essay#all i do is write fanfic i dont know shit about this tbh#i just think that idk. there's things in this world that only we know#things that only we can say or understand#and sometimes we have to say them ourselves in our own words#sometimes ppl focus too hard on making their writing sound pretty or correct or 'good'#and they dont focus as much on how pretty writing is a tool to say what youre trying to say more effectively#idk! im sorry for quoting ts eliot some things can't be forgiven etc
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tosses chapter 3 of my kitty/min ho fic into the wild. this is the first chapter fic Iâve ever tried to keep up with and so far Iâm having a lot of fun. I have absolutely no idea where Iâm going with it, so I guess just have fun while I figure it out, yeah?
#xo kitty#kitty x min ho#mintty#the contents of ch4 where meant to be in ch3#but then the date ended up being just a nice insular moment#that i didnt want to add anything else#beside the next bit was possibly my favorite thing to write for this fic so far#so im glad it'll get its own chapter
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my very strong philosophy that i need to perceive my characters as real people in order to feel like i can write them at the depth a novel needs + i try to see expand my view of them as far as possible so they have a life an existence that a novel only snapshots a part of + this being a big part of my writers identity bc my relationship with my characters is very important to me is still very real but also very funny now because i've realised when it comes to short fiction i do not give a fuck like that. like i put everything into my characters bc i think making complex characters/relationships is my best skill but they are nothing but names to me (and i barely name my protagonists cause i just dont give a fuck if its not needed) and shadows reflecting an idea i thought was cool. like the way with novels i'll say felix and beau and dorothy are my best friends and they've just granted me access to their stories and i can't imagine how i'd go through life without thinking about them and their lives...then with short fiction the characters are just dolls that i throw out once i'm done with them
#like i feel for them but with my novel characters i can envision them and their life expanded beyond the story#whereas with short fiction characters i feel like im only meant to know them for this moment. like i dont want to go further#meanwhile in novel land i was daydreaming earlier about what felix and dorothy would look like at 60 with grey hair and boring lives LOL#ghost of a 1970s leather daddy was fun because the ghost was like. the only character#the pov was more of a disembodied collective voice that represents a group of people living together but also can be applied#to the wider community#omg when i write an essay on a 300 word piece#between us girls is fun because the pov is also collective but fragmented in a way to give each character their moment#and i feel for them in the sense that i feel like i could write more and get to know them like novel characters but im not going to LOL#i feel like we know just enough about them for the fleeting vibe of the piece to work BUT I WONT SAY ANYTHING ELSE#and the way i dont name so many protagonists....like i just dont give a fuck like that#the way i see flash majority of the time is i'm so tunnel visioned on less of the character and more what they experience#their name doesnt matter unless it's important to the experience of the story
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you know how in new girl it was a thing that winston couldnt do pranks because heâd either go too small or go way overboard to the point of causing physical harm or something lmao but like thats exactly how i feel about writing conflict or people being mean like idk where the middle ground is like i just need for a character to be an annoying asshole but all that ever comes to my brain is âgo for the jugular. bring up a dead mom or some shitâ like idk how to casually be a dick lmfao
#like i have this scene i wanna write for a fic where some rando at a party (probably gonna make it jason) says some offhand shit to billy#and steve but like its not meant to be personal you know just some douchey comment#but all i can come up with is going straight for a hate crime lmfao and like surely there must be a step below that surely there must be#something else he could say to piss billy off but i cannot find it its not coming to me babes im sorry#in fairness to me it does gotta make billy want to fight#but again... that also doesnt take a lot so ....#i dont know these are the problems i face when writing anything ever
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bleh
#vent thing so if you dont wanna see scroll away#i dont. feel good#not in a sick way nessecarily but#its weird seeing my writing perform so much better than my art#often times its like i put more effort into my art and my writing is just spur of the moment. ive been doing art for even longer than ive#written i dont even try to consistently write. i want to see people articulate their praises for me or at least acknowledge my work. for#some reason seeing it done privately isnt enough. i think i just want to be enough for me but i think that requires the applause. maybe its#just me chasing trends on the writing side but i think more people have seen anything i wrote compared to any work i drew and i dont know h#how to feel about that. i get hundreds of hits for some damn reason but as of late i dont get more than thirty notes. this is all so selfis#im questioning if ive even made it anywhere. if all my work meant nothing. if im even worthy of what attention i have. i know when you thin#of it ten people can be a lot of people but just comparing the numbers leaves a foul taste in my mouth. i dont like this. i dont like being#so insecure and jealous. i see my friends getting so much more than i do and instead of being happy for them i just feel worse about myself#and then feel even worse because im supposed to be their friend. im supposed to care for them. i think i do but something in me wants to#steal their place for the sake of the recognition. i keep on reminding myself this isnt a competition but something doesnt quite click. wha#a friend i am. ive thought about just posting it on here or self reblogging but its what little ego i have left telling me not to. i can#understand and i think if i wasnt feeling like shit rn id actually agree that its valid to want my art to stand for itself and not just#try to get notes for the sake of it. i mean anyway it just gets lost among everything else here so what even is the point. im sorry for#being jealous. its okay if you dont forgive me#arte screams into the void
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-> JEALOUSY
âsynopsis : genshin men when theyâre jealous.
âcharacters : diluc, kaeya, albedo, zhongli, childe, baizhu, xiao, thoma, ayato, heizou, wanderer, kazuha, tighnari, cyno, alhaitham, kaveh, neuvillette, lyney, dainsleif, dottore, pantalone, capitano, pierro.
âcw : gn!reader, not proofread, lowercase intended, probably ooc.
heâs a gentleman, he doesnât get jealous often because he knows for a fact that he has nothing to worry about. youâve never done anything that made him feel as if he had to watch out and heâs certain that you never will. although he can still get annoyed at the sight of another man flirting with you. it was his insisting even after you turned him down that angered him the most. nonetheless, he doesnât let such people interfere with his composure. heâll act mature and take you somewhere else once he sees that the man has no intentions of leaving you alone. as soon as you both get a moment alone together, however, he wonât hesitate to plant a few more kisses than usual. just in case, yâknow?
diluc, zhongli, alhaitham, neuvillette, dainsleif, capitano.
he wonât admit it, but he gets jealous often. he doesnât want to confront you about it because he believes itâs embarrassing and silly to feel that way. i mean, youâre his and heâs yours. you love him so much, thereâs no need to worry, right? yet, he still canât help but fume at the sight of strangers complimenting you. he canât blame them, but he still would rather for people to be blind if that meant that theyâd leave you alone. heâs aware of how unfair that would be, so he just stays quiet, either sulking or glaring at those people as you offer them a kind smile until youâre both alone where heâll be needing your utmost attention.
xiao, albedo, thoma, kazuha, kaveh, baizhu.
heâs jealous and heâll show it. hit on his partner? right in front of him? absolutely not. he might try to keep his calm at first, but as time passes and this scumbag is still around, he wonât hold back. not to worry, he wonât do anything extreme (unless heâs forced to do so), he just wants to make things clear to this guy. heâll keep it simple at first, simply making subtle comments until he actually starts going straight to the point. after a while, heâll take your arm and walk away with you, now being angrier than before. the way that guy was talking to him, but especially you, has him furious. be prepared to listen to his angry rant about that random dude. be also prepared to shut him up, you know how.
kaeya, childe, heizou, tighnari, cyno, wanderer, lyney.
this guy almost sees you as his property, his jealousy is unmatched. he wonât take anything lightly. if youâre trying to make advantages on his partner, then youâre asking for it. simple as that! he wonât let anyone think they might have a chance with you because youâre destined to be with him and only him. so obviously, he must make it clear to everybody to not even try. if someone is bold enough though, heâll just stand beside you, piercing through this manâs soul with his icy gaze. thankfully, nothing ever escalated from that. not that he wouldnât be capable of doing that, these poor souls simply knew better than to get against someone of that status and reputation.
ayato, dottore, pantalone, pierro.
âa/n : im not really proud of this, i might edit it once i have time. itâs 4am and i was supposed to be studying, but i ended up writing this instead. talk about procrastination đŞ let me know if i made any mistakes pls
want to read more? take a look at my masterlist!
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#genshin impact#genshin x reader#albedo x reader#diluc x reader#zhongli x reader#childe x reader#baizhu x reader#xiao x reader#thoma x reader#heizou x reader#kaeya x reader#ayato x reader#wanderer x reader#tighnari x reader#cyno x reader#al haitham x reader#alhaitham x reader#kaveh x reader#neuvillette x reader#lyney x reader#dainsleif x reader#pierro x reader#capitano x reader#dottore x reader#pantalone x reader
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canon is dead I rule the world. dsmp you are MINE
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dsmpblrs ocs shared between the 5 (five) singular people that inhabit this fandom
I'm taking the chance to just talk about my personal dsmp au that is basically canon if you don't think about it
I don't think we as a community wrote enough about demon ctommy. he was always my favorite it just gives him this evil vibe that I think is sooo funny and I always see it in ctommy art but never in literally any fic. and that's fine but imp or whatever-he-is-Tommy will always be real in my heart. in my head he used to be a bird hybrid, but when he died for what was supposed to be the final time they took his fucking wings and gave him cunty demon horns and tail. Death made him emo. for the sake of this narrative his wings used to be white too. Pair this with religious ctommy and you get peak
ctubbo. I think about him a lot. I think personally he wears armor under his coat. You'd think it start to get hot under there, and it does. his solution is to just Never leave the Arctic.
At some point he started developing resting bitch face, because it used to just be resting (autistic face of neutrality) but now he kind of just looks tired all the time. Not like Tommy's rbf where he looks like he's kinda pissed and has a headache 24/7. but at least they're semi matching now. bff's!!! (?) I can't write too much about ctubbo because my cutbbo is like 20 billion contradictions stacked on itself. he's not as simple as my ctommy.
He doesn't wear the red bandana anymore but he can't tell you why and he's not insecure about the scar on his face but he's not proud of it either. I FORGOT TO DRAW CRANBOO AND HIS WEDDING RINGS IM AN ANTI WHAT THE HELLL okay ignoring that blunder, their wedding rings are meant to be on their horns đ you can't fucking see cranboos singular (1) horn because it's out of frame, they're too tall.
SPEAKONG OF CRANBOO!!!! snakes in his hair because Hahhaa hattte eye contact????? Medusa???? get it guys get it do you guys get jut
The snakes talk to him. Take that as you will. He's a chronic suit wearer and will literally not wear anything else unless it's under or over the suit. he would like to never try anything new ever he needs this constant in his life or everything will fall apart and the world will end. He knows how to kit up and wear armor but just as a joke he wears random bits of armor in places he literally needs it least. as a fashion statement. Tommy doesn't wear any armor usually bcz who gaf he's not doing that shit
in my perfect world the egg plot in dsmp actually got used better and becsme more than a background plot. it could've been everything. anyway my dsmp au is egg war las Nevadas craziness and I'm right goodnight
#dsmp#dsmp fanart#art#tommyinnt fanart#tubbo fanart#ranboo fanart#c!ranboo#c!tommy#c!tubbo#c!benchtrio#plugging my ears at canon#scratch that I'm beating canon to death with a bat#these are my ocs.#cranboo never died#amen!#i don't think I can handle it#peep the blue stitches on Tommy's coat hahaha it's friends wool#rip friend I remember updating that on the update account#ignore cbbh and csam in the back#theyre playing#guys is mental illness real#guys#hell on art
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Having an autism right now (actually constantly but this time it's in a bad way).
U know when you only want to do one thing but you can't do that thing
Yeah I'm dealing with that rn when it comes to actually working on reticent (I'm 700 words into the first chapter and I'm not even done with the first sentence of the plan. There is 450 words in the plan and it's only a somewhat brief summary of the chapters contents. So yeah as a person who isn't very good at writing i am literally dying)
I'm gonna try draw more silly crossovers with aus I like if my brain lets me cause its fun but yeah chapter 1 of Reticent will probably be a while (especially cause I want to write at least 4 chapters before I start posting them)
Obviously the other chapters will be easier because I don't have to introduce as many characters or do as much world building but chapter 1 is still a massive hurdle.
I have a few tricks that I used in 2021 to help with writing (aka having a writing bot on discord that told me how many words I wrote in a certain time frame cause it made me feel accomplished) but if yall have any tips for getting motivation to write it would be greatly appreciated cause I genuinely DO want to do it, my brain just won't let me
#rai rambles#this probably isnt exclusive to autism or anything else i deal with#but i like using the phrase having an autism#idk why#tho tbh ive never been anything but neurodivergant#so how am i meant to know if this is a thing neurotypicals deal with or not#i dont think i actually know any neurotypicals#is it obvious its 2am at night#its 2am at night#i wish spain had a different time to bst#okay im gonna try writing again
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You often leave tags worrying about your English spelling and typos, which is ridiculous because you have better English grammar and correct spelling more than most first language English speakers
ahdjdk i know but ty, i appreciate hearing it!
#ask#anonymous#to be real for a sec i know my level is pretty good but for a long time being good at learning languages was the only thing i was good at#so since there are a lot of words i dont know the meaning of or cant use and other ppl who dont speak english as their native language do#i feel like im not allowed to not know those things bc whats my excuse. would i know what those words meant in my native language if i was#given the translation? definitely not!#and i know i make an equal amount of weird grammatical errors and typos in both english and finnish#but i feel like i will b judged harshly for making those mistakes in a 2nd language and people will look at me and think damn#at least im better than him lol cant believe he actually writes like that yikes#which isnt true but idk i just feel like it's socially more acceptable to make mistakes in your native language than a language that youve#been learning since you were a child. its ridicilous to strive for perfection especially bc im not a writer or getting a degree in english#or anything like that#idk man#and the stress i have about speaking in a perfect manner has made it so that idk how to pronounce a lot of words and sometimes#find it hard to get even a single word out bc i know im going to sound dumb bc i have a strong accent and forget words#but not only that its bc i have nearly no practice in actually speaking english bc im terrified of it bc i have no practiced bc im terrifi#you get the point#anyways saying/writing things weird on purpose helps in a weird way?? everyone else with this problem should also try it#but yea idk something about being judged in a complete different way as soon as someone finds out english isn't your native language#like i know i got all a's in english all thorough school and stuff but agh idk#i hold myself to higher standards than i hold native speakers lmaoo#im trying to learn out of it tho#ive literally done some translation jobs and notice nuances some non native speakers miss bc some things you just have to feel no matter ho#w good your knowledge is#yet im still here like sigh if someone knows one more thing than i do its over for me#which is not good lmaoooo#leevi talks
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good girl, gone bad
oneshot
word count: 6k
genre: established (secret) relationship
pairing: good girl y/n x bad boy jk
summary:
âI canât believe anyone actually likes those stupid fucks. I mean, the hickeys, itâs like he wants everyone to know he actually fucks.â You stay staring just a tad longer at the buff (sexy) jock, short enough so that Karina wonât notice. This time the boy proudly parading the trail of hickeys down his neck smiles at you and parts with a quick wave, some blonde hair boy from the group laughs at him and shakes his arm teasingly. You canât help but to smile too, itâs barely there, but heâll know. You decide to turn around and follow her steps. âYeah totally, me either.â What your best friend doesnât know wonât kill her⌠right?
warnings: basically just pwp but plot went missing (oops!), swearing, smoker jk (i swear if anyone complains in my inbox i'll haunt you), explicit sexual content; jk has a huge dick ok, consensual recording/pictures, car sex (don't fuck in a car), hickeys, unprotected vaginal sex, dirty talk, spanking, squirting, breast play, blowjob, fingering, cunnilingus, come shot (on face), slut shaming (again lol), come tasting/swallowing, stomach bulge (my fault i love this one), choking, multiple orgasms, overstimulation, creampie
a.n: sorry for a late update hope yall dont mind, but i just wanna get rid of all my drafts they are PILING. lol forgive me for only always writing about jungkook, but he's so easy to write about. he breathes, and i instantly open my notes app (im not even joking). this has been sitting in my drafts since his LA trip (iykyk) it sparked a conversation and i wrote it. i want that man bad... and im lesbian :D
ANYWAYS enjoy and STREAM GOLDEN for our golden bunny <3
p.s: i'll probably come back to this couple but its a oneshot for now... but wouldn't no nut nov be fun with this jk?? everyone say yesss. ok bye.
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âUgh, what a piece of shit.â
Before you even get to ask who, the motorcycle roars back to life across the parking structure belonging to the very one and only, Jeon Jungkook. A group of college jocks crowd around the man. Thereâs a cigarette between his fingers, heâs not paying it much attention though. He's deep in conversation, laughing at something one of them said, clearly more invested in the joke than anything else around him.Â
As the laughter dies down, he looks over, eyes connecting while he brings the cigarette to his pierced lip, slowly inhaling the toxic fume. The terribly annoying (yet somehow sexy) tattooed jock on his loud motorcycle winks towards your direction, before selfishly exhaling that poisonous smoke into the air. Fuck, you really, really wanted to hate him too.Â
âYuck.â Karina gags with a scrunch to her nose, turning a cold back to them and youâre grateful to her because you almost get stuck in his lustful gaze.Â
âYeah⌠yuck.â You reply with no real meaning somehow managing to convince her you meant it.
âI hate him and his stupid friends. They are killing the Earth slowly and they donât even give a fuck!â Karina argues in all her given glory and in her environmental science major mindset. âPlus those cancer sticks reek, why must the general public suffer because they canât last thirty without them.â
Jungkook could last thirty without them. Way more than thirty when you were around him, especially when he was given something (or someone) to entertain himself with, but you couldn't say that aloud so the sudden thoughts stayed safe and sound in your head.Â
âNo, no they donât. But what can we do?â Thereâs a sigh and then you clear your throat. âShould we get going now?â
Your arm wraps around hers, gesturing the way back to campus with a swift wave where you both had been meaning to study given that classes finally started cramping in heavy assignments.
âYes, please.â Karina is quick to sharply turn her heel and walk back towards the building. âI canât believe anyone actually likes those stupid fucks. I mean, the hickeys, itâs like he wants everyone to know he actually fucks.â
You stay staring just a tad longer at the buff (sexy) jock, short enough so that Karina wonât notice. This time the boy proudly parading the trail of hickeys down his neck smiles at you and parts with a quick wave, some blonde hair boy from the group laughs at him and shakes his arm teasingly. You canât help but to smile too, itâs barely there, but heâll know. You decide to turn around and follow her steps. âYeah totally, me either.â
What your best friend doesnât know wonât kill her⌠right?
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âYou taste disgusting.â Thereâs a muffled laugh pressed into your lips, as your tongues meet halfway, meeting each otherâs lips in a bruising wet kiss. Your ass grinds roughly against his lap, groaning into your mouth while you bring your ass flush down, feeling his soft cock harden below you. His right hand grips your right ass cheek, jiggling it in his hand, before smacking it (with love, of course!).Â
âYeah?â Jungkook smirks, bringing his mouth against your throat, sucking and licking everywhere there was space. He sneakily leaves little love bites behind even though he knows youâll kill him for this later because you have somewhere to be after this. He even bites your ear lobe gently between his teeth, before he cockily whispers. âYou love it though.â
The whimper that leaves your mouth should be illegal. It only drives Jungkook crazier.Â
Both hands find purchase on your ass now, spanking you once again in each cheek. Though Jungkook was a bit disappointed he wasnât seeing your flushed bare cheeks on top of him, but he guesses he can settle for now. âYou gonna let me fuck you now baby?â
He gropes your asscheeks without any hesitation, still leaving wet kisses buzzing onto your skin, stealing a quick kiss from your raw-bitten lips.Â
âMm, only if you ask nicely.â You tease, dragging a finger along his jawline.
With this, Jungkook laughs, throwing his head back. Your hand comes to fist his hair, while he drops another wet smooch onto your lips. âYou know Iâd do anything for a piece of this ass angel.â
You smile into the kiss, grinding harder against his nowâ hard cock. You felt your folds leak of your own arousal. It was so undeniable. The attraction between you two, the desire to take each other apart, to be within each otherâs arms. There was no place like Jungkookâs lap. Here you could stay forever.
âImagine what people would say if they saw you like this baby.â Jungkook starts teasing, tugging your shirt off with no trouble. Your breasts catch his attention, noticing that you are wearing that black lingerie set he had bought for you last Valentineâs Day. âFuck. Look at you baby.â
He squishes your breasts together, leaning up to kiss the uncovered tender flesh on both sides. You donât even attempt to hold your moans back. âIâ nghhh.â
âDid you expect to get fucked today princess? Hmm? Is this all for me?â Jungkookâs words work like magic, they drip off his sinful tongue like honey. You bring your body flush against his, burying your blushing face against his neck. âDonât get shy on me baby, tell me. Did you wear this all for me?â
He purrs sweetly and you only nod, cheeks burning red.Â
It's not like you were embarrassed of him, no in fact, you were happy to announce that the college campusâ certified bad boy is all yours and has been for the past two years.Â
There was no exact moment to this, the attraction had always been there.Â
You had first officially met Jungkook in one of your general ed classes. Statistics, to be exact, which he would have one-hundred percent failed had it not been for you passing him the answers mid exams. It wasnât like that to begin with of course, it took you some convincing. To be fair and to your excuse, it was so hard to say no to those beautiful big brown eyes.
At first, you assumed he was doing this all, acting lost and playing dumb, to get into your pants which he succeeded. However you had enough dignity left to make him work for it. Until you realized those secret smiles, stolen glances, and subtle hand holds were much more than just a silly game. You had fallen for his charm, and against everyoneâs advice to stay far away from him, you fell in love with the (not so terrible) bad boy and let him take over your heart completely. It happened so randomly and so all at once. It was confusing, new, but most of all, liberating.Â
Being with Jungkook was so freeing and the thrill of being caught with him was so worth it. It didnât matter what people thought of you or him, you both were willing to die on this hill of love.Â
Jungkook, too, had fallen quickly. How could he not? There was nothing to dislike and everything to love. Your pouty scolds, he looked forward to. The stolen glances across campus were his favorite, a secret only you and him held close to heart. There were times where your cheeks would flush pink, because he would steal kisses from you behind the campus library. You were seriously his favorite person ever.Â
âJungkook stop! What if someone sees us?â You would whisper-shout, a pout would form against your will.Â
Jungkook would just kiss your worries away again and again and then say. âYouâre the cutest little thing alive baby.âÂ
âAre you trying to change the subject?â It was hard to speak between kisses, that and the fact that he would squish your cheeks together like the adorable boyfriend he was.Â
âI donât know. Is it working?â His reply was cheeky and lips would start trailing down your neck and then you determined, yes. Yes, it is working. Fuck it all.Â
Itâs safe to say, he was yours since the start of it all, as you were his. Wrapped in each otherâs fingers before anyone had realized it, now you were inseparable.Â
âAnswer me princess.â Jungkook pulls you back gently, observing your flushed face. âGod, youâre so beautiful.â
Of course, this only makes you blush harder, but you do manage to admit. âY-Yes⌠I wore this only for you. Always for you.â
Jungkook smiles, pecking your cheek. âThen Iâm the luckiest man alive angel.â
He cradles your face, before leaning in to kiss you. This time, you guys take your time. Your mouths stay closed, taking the time to really feel the plushy feeling against your own and enjoy each otherâs presence. You felt as if you were floating in clouds.Â
âJungkook.â You mumble onto his lips and he hums, but thatâs not enough so you call his name once more with intent. âJungkook.â
He pulls back with a questioning look. âYes, my love?â
âCan you please just fuck me already?â The words come out barely above a whisper, even after fucking you so many times, you could be so shy at times.
Jungkook breaks out into a bunny-like grin, holding back a stifled laugh. âSo much for wanting to make me say please, look at whoâs pleading now.âÂ
âJ-JungkookâŚâ Your face goes hot again and he laughs once more, patting your ass softly.
âOkay. Okay, my love. Enough teasing, Iâll fuck you since you asked so nicely baby.â Jungkook takes his sweet time taking off his own shirt, and pulling your skirt off. It was a bit tricker, given you were both in your car which was not fit for two people even in the backseat, but you guys always made it work.Â
You were still scared to ride to campus with him as much as he begged you to because it would blow your secret relationship, but fucking on campus has yet to be off-limits. Mainly because Jungkook fucks you all too well, and you arenât one to say no to good dick (oops).
He attaches his mouth right above the bare skin of your left breast. He holds your tits in his hands, pushing them together, stuffing his face right between them. Jungkook makes sure to pay attention to both breasts (itâs only fair), rubbing your hard buds through the black lace which hardly covers them. You bite back a moan, feeling him rut up against your heat, his hard length pressing stiffly against you, your walls already clenching, desperate to feel him inside you.
His tattooed hand slips below, releasing the nipple he had been tugging on earlier. You feel the tip of his fingertips brush against your panties. âFuck, youâre so wet baby. I canât wait to be inside you.â
Surely by now, you were dripping onto the lace. His erection is still pressing against your inner thigh. âD-Donât wait then.â
Your boyfriend smiles, bringing his lips to yours. âBehave. Youâll get some dick inside you soon.â
Like the brat you were, your eyes rolled back so used to being spoiled. He pays it no mind though because his tongue comes out again, licking your lips apart. Your tongues meet once more, this time you suck his tongue into your mouth, brushing it against the roof of your mouth. He taste quite bitter, itâs the cigarette from earlier, yet somehow and against all judgement, he tastes fucking delicious. Especially when a grunt slips from his throat, feeling you roll your barely covered folds against his fingers.
He allows this, putting more pressure with two fingers, feeling you drench his fingertips even through your panties. Jungkook pushes his tongue deeper into your mouth, spit mixing as he reciprocates the favor, sucking gently on your tongue. You tasted like the strawberries you had earlier for lunch and Jungkook groans, greedily swallowing the taste in your mouth.Â
What an innocent sweet little thing you were and he was about to ruin you all.Â
Cigarettes and strawberries.Â
Quite the pair.Â
You whine into his mouth, unable to hold back much longer. âPlease, JungkookâŚâ
He smirks against your mouth. How much he loved the way you fell apart on his cock. Especially more, when he had barely had his hands on you and you were already begging for more. Jungkook pulls back, but not before you whine a soft âno.â He holds your cheeks in his palms, forcing you to look directly into his hazy eyes.Â
âImagine if people knew baby.â His voice comes out more sultry, rough around the edges. His thumb carrasses your cheek, patting your mouth open. âHow much of a slut you were for this dick.â
His words make you mewl (he knows how much you get off to this thought), he slowly eases two fingers into your mouth, holding your chin in place. You made sure to suck on them as he liked, your tongue coming flat against them.Â
Jungkook bucks his hips into yours, chest rising while he watches you suck, like the good girl you were. âImagine if they really knew, baby? Such a sweet girl like you, with someone so dangerous and reckless like me. What would they say? Hmm?â
He pulls out his fingers, seeing them barely glisten under the light.
âI- I donât know.â Your voice is dry and soft yet, you are incredibly horny.
âYou donât know? I have a few ideas.â Jungkook chuckles, hands brushing along your back. âCan this come off?âÂ
He tugs your bra from behind and you hesitate to nod permission. âGood, I wanna watch them bounce when I finally fuck you.â
By now, you have given up resisting him, so you moan pathetically as he shreds your bra with ease and takes a nipple into his mouth, sucking the tender bud into his tongue, flicking it and placing it between his teeth. He tugs and licks the sting away, watching with hooded eyes as you squirm against him. Your face burns imagining the idea.Â
What if people knew? How would your friends react? They would surely be disappointed, Jungkook was good for nothing but trouble. Yet, he was perfect to you. You were willing to defend him from hell and back. Whatever it took for them to believe you.Â
Jungkook moves to the other bud, placing it into his mouth, cupping and gripping your breasts. His mouth was hot and heavy against your nipple, his tongue caressing the hard bud. He squeezes them one last time before letting them drop, watching them bounce gently against your chest. Yup, Jungkook was the luckiest man alive. There was nothing better than this moment right here.
Heat travels your body quickly, feeling your own chest rise, struggling to breathe in the steamy car. Your boyfriend looks down, communicating with his eyes instead of actually saying anything, your hands quickly move to his belt, tugging them off and throwing it anywhere else. Desperately, you unbuckle his jeans, harshly pulling his boxer down, just enough to watch his dick spring out. The flushed, wet length smacks against his stomach, watching as his abs clench at the sensation. If you stare any longer, youâll start drooling. âSo good for me angel.âÂ
Thereâs no time to waste.Â
âWanna suck you off.â You breathe out, voice filled with desire and lust, clearly it takes over because usually his girlfriend was much shyer and timid, but that all disappeared when Jungkookâs cock was present.Â
âYeah?â Jungkook watches you drop on your knees, your pretty knees will for sure suffer the consequences of your horny choice, but there was no stopping this. He pats his thighs as he leans back to give you enough space. âIâm all yours, baby girl.â
Jungkook bites the inside of his cheek when he feels your warm mouth wrap around his dick. Your tongue comes out messily, practically salivating and dripping all over him. Thereâs probably not a single day that goes by that you arenât sucking his dick, but it was quite the experience every damn time.Â
âF-Fuck, I wish you could see yourself.â He struggles a bit because the sight is fucking sinful and if people knew you like he did, they wouldnât believe the person in front of him.Â
His personal little cockslut.Â
You pop off for a second, hand still wrapped around his length covered in your spit. âYeah? Then take a picture for me, Kook.â
Double fuck.
When you first started dating Jungkook, you were against any pictures at all. After time passed and to his luck, you came around and you would let him take pictures, but only if he promised your face wasnât in the frame. Now, his camera roll is covered with images of you and your blooming relationship. You didnât care anymore about covering or blurring your face out. His camera roll consisted of just about everything, pictures of you sleeping peacefully against his chest as you would nap, videos of you laughing on the random adventures he would take you on, but never images of you nude. Never ever was he allowed anything that could probably incriminate you both, even if he would beg, ever-so sweetly. It seems like you came around after all. Bless you.
âFuck, donât talk to me like that princess, you have no idea what that does to me.â Heâs never heard you sound so fucking sexy. Jungkook bites his lip, recovering his phone that had dropped earlier on the carpet. âYou sure about this baby?â
âYes.â Then you are back on his cock and he shudders, already snapping a few pictures. Your eyes looked up at the camera, making a show out of it all.
Jungkook tries controlling his heavy breathing but with a sinful tongue like yours, itâs impossible. âCan I record this princess, only if youâll let me, of course.â
You take him deeper into your throat and nod furiously on his cock. You trusted him enough, you knew Jungkook could never hurt a single soul, unless they tried him. Point is, he would never do anything to break that trust so hell yeah, why not add more to his long collection.
âGod, you are so perfect baby. Made for me and only me.â Jungkookâs voice is nothing short of possessiveness. He presses record, caressing your hair softly, almost petting you for your work like the good girl you were for him. âImagine if they knew how well you take cock baby. How perfect those plump lips look around my dick. Youâre like a dream come true princess, my personal cockslut.âÂ
You moan around his length, loving the bitter taste on your tongue and Jungkook has to hold back from fucking your throat, though he thinks youâll love it anyways.Â
âCan I fuck your throat?â His voice is raspy and you open your mouth wider, nodding so prettily with dick stuffed in your mouth. Jungkook is careful when placing your hair in a little makeshift ponytail for the meantime and as best as he can with one hand as he starts to thrust into your warm mouth. âSo beautiful and all mine. Isnât that right princess?â
You donât get to reply, but the vibrations of your moans that manage to run through his cock answer for you and it almost makes him smile. What a good girl you were. Pretty things like you deserved to be spoiled and he couldnât wait to give you the fucking world.Â
And was he fucking loving the show you were putting on for him becoming more needy and desperate on camera, your eyes rolled as he brutally used your throat for his liking.Â
Jungkook bites at his bottom lip as he begins to roll his hips with much more force, feeling your throat take him down with greed. âFuck baby, your throat feels amazing. Taking me so good.âÂ
He lets you go when he feels you tap his thigh and you gasp for air, tears threatening to leak down your face. âW-Want you to come on my face.â
Your voice is hoarse and his eyes widen at your sweet request.Â
âArenât you just perfect for me today baby. Just you wait, youâll get the best dick of your entire lifetime.â Not that you would know since he was your first and he knows that, proudly carries that in his cocky ego, but you always believed him. No one could fuck you better than this, you were sure. You bat your eyes at his promise and he comes down to kiss you messily, the camera records jackshit, but it captures your whiny moans and the sound of your lips smacking against one another. He pulls off with one last kiss and adjusts the camera frame back towards you as he takes his hard length and slaps his swollen, wet dick along your cheek. âOpen up princess, Iâm really fucking close.âÂ
You take him in with no hesitation and go to fucking work. Slurping and licking all over his length, your chin dripping with saliva, but you donât even care anymore because his grunts and whines keep you going.Â
Every now and then you look up at the camera making sure you do your best to keep him coming back. You know he will probably rewatch this every night that you arenât there with him. And your predictions are correct because Jungkookâs already planning on watching this tonight and jacking off to it while you are out with Karina doing God knows what. All he knows is his sweet girl will be doing something productive while heâll be coming undone in your gracious honor.
âIâm close baby.â He groans sexily, and his breathing starts to become sharp. âLook up baby, right into the camera, gonna come all over that perfect fucking face.â
Doing as he says, you look up sucking him dry, your hands come to relieve what you canât cover with your tongue. His hand pushes you off for a second. âTongue out baby.â
He fucks his fist and it doesnât take long before he squirts his load all over your face, grateful that most of it lands on your tongue, you swallow it all immediately, humming gracefully at the salty taste.Â
Jungkookâs eyes are blown out as he catches his breath and lets his dick flop back down against his thigh, you look like a fucking sin and he must be the Devil because heâs about to commit about thirty tonight. âGive me a second princess.â
He says between breaths as he stops recording with one last picture of your come-soiled face, still breathing heavily as he throws his phone on the floor again, thankful that he has something for later. You giggle against him and he almost awes as you throw your head against his bare thighs into a laughing fit. âOkay.âÂ
He huffs a dry laugh and pulls you up. âTimes up. Come here.âÂ
Jungkook is quick to capture you in a sloppy kiss, not minding the leftover mess of come on your face, he doesnât wanna mess up his masterpiece just yet. You soon grow desperate in his arms, but this time he doesnât mess around.Â
âLay down.â Your bare back lands on the seats and he shoves himself between your thighs. Again, itâs steamy and fucking cramped in your car, but you both couldnât care any less right now.Â
His tongue hits your slit not bothering to move your matching panties, but the effect is almost the same. He licks a long strip watching you soil the silky lace mixing his spit with your own arousal.Â
You moan sweetly as your legs come apart letting him completely devour your heat. Jungkook pulls off, tugging your spoiled little black panties to the side and continues on with his mission. His tongue finds your clit and you swear you could come like this.Â
âR-Right there. Please.â Your boyfriend doesnât let up either, eating your sweet pussy like it deserves. His tongue flicks your bud, building the sensation in your tummy. Jungkook sucks on your clit selfishly.
His chin is covered in your arousal. Heâs humming and moaning deep inside your pussy, your juices stick onto his tongue like candy and he greedily swallows the treat whole.Â
âB-Baby.â Your voice is struggling like his was earlier, but itâs there. He lifts his face from your heat, eyes in a lust-filled trance. Jungkook knows heâs pussy-whipped, but at least he admits his problems!
âYes, my baby.â Jungkookâs eyes are blown out and he looks just as wrecked as you are.Â
âC-Can I take a picture?â He almost gapes at your request, the amount of times you took him by surprise today. At this point, he would let you do anything, fuck his morality! Â
âDo whatever you want princess. Pictures, videos. Iâm all yours.â He gives you his full consent and permission to do anything so you are quick to grab his phone (youâll send them over to yourself later) and start snapping pictures while he dives back in for seconds.Â
Jungkook keeps your legs open while you are a whimpering mess above him, struggling to get the best picture. You have no idea how he was doing this himself, the pictures come out blurry as he continues to devour you as if it was his last meal.
He also puts on a show for the camera like you did so nicely earlier for him. Jungkoookâs eyes hood as he stares up, he even winks for the shot. If college didnât ever work out for either of you, this would be something to look into. Good thing that was not the case, at least for you, his little straight A student.Â
âIâm g-gonna come.â This only makes your boyfriend go crazier between your folds. He drops eye-contact with the camera and instead solely focuses on that pretty pussy presented for him. Jungkookâs tongue is sin itself, not letting up once as more arousal drips out of you. He slowly teases a finger inside, building your orgasm quickly as he fucks you open with his middle finger. âIâmâ nghh. Fuh-fuck!â
The sentence is never finished as you start to squirt onto his tongue, creating your own little masterpiece on his face. Jungkook has never swallowed anything down faster than right now and heâs loving every second of it. Completely pussy-whipped and all, but at least heâs happy!
Your boyfriend finally detaches himself from your heat and the sight is nearly adorable. His hair is now all fucked up and heâs a sticky mess everywhere (you are sure you look no better).Â
âYum, I could do that all day.â Jungkook shamelessly says.Â
âMm, Iâm sure.â You say coming down from your own orgasm, he gives you a few seconds to breathe as you set his phone down again. Jungkook takes his shirt from the floor and wipes himself clean. He does the same but itâs no use, the come that landed on your face has dried up and he doesnât wanna scrub it off and end up hurting your precious face.Â
Jungkook kisses your cheek affectionately as an apology.Â
âThereâs dry come on my face right?â You start to scold him, but he smiles with all his teeth apologetically and you forgive him at that moment.Â
âGuilty.â He smirks, proud of his work, he thinks you truly haven't looked better.Â
Wrapping arms and legs around your boyfriend you whisper innocently. âI was promised dick of a lifetime, unless⌠unless you lied to me?â
Jungkook scrunches his nose cutely while he looks at your perfect pouty face, doe-eyes begging to be fucked. âI never lie, not to you at least.â
He makes you laugh and he detangles your legs from his waist. âNow let me focus, I have a reputation to uphold.â
Thereâs no laughing once two fingers press into you and you gasp at the invading feeling, but the stretch only burns for a while before it turns into pleasure and you are whimpering at his touch. âFingers so deep.â
He smiles and you throw your head back. âYeah? My dick goes even deeper baby, Iâm just making sure you can take it.â
âI can take it.â You breathe out against his pink lips. âI was made for you.â
The tallerâs eyes nearly eat you alive, fuck you were so sexy. âThat you were baby. My perfect little cockslut.âÂ
His fingers pull out of you brutally and you whine, but he kisses you roughly making you forget the loss. A hand wraps around your throat, squeezing it with purpose. You squirm in his hands and he pops off your lips.Â
Fingers coated with your arousal trace your lips and you take them in greedily, sucking your own juices off the tattooed fingers, moaning at the delicate taste, his other hand still locked around your throat.Â
âThatâs my girl. All fucking mine.â You nod around his fingers and he finally lets go, gasping for fresh air. ââM gonna fuck you now baby.âÂ
Your legs fly open in response, letting him have his way with you.Â
âDo me a favor?â He asks while taking his hard length in his hand, jerking himself off while he awaits your response.Â
âWhat?â You hum, confusion written all over your face.Â
âRecord this for me. I want you to see how I break you apart. How this pretty pussy makes a mess all over my dick. I want you to remember this fuck for the rest of your life.â His voice drops a few octaves and you canât help but gasp and moan at his vulgar use of words.Â
You used to be innocent, at least, thatâs what Jungkook used to think. In a way, he thinks you still are. Untouched and pure, only for his eyes and his hands to touch. Jungkook is honored that he was your first, and you wouldnât have it any other way. He was gentle and took care of you every step of the way. It was like that until you were begging and pleading for more. Sweet then, and sweet now.
Heâs created a little monster, but he knows that your heart is pure and thatâs what he loves most about you.Â
âOkay, yes.â His phone is back in your hands and you click record, watching him line-up his cock. Jungkook groans as he disappears snuggly inside you. âMmm.â
He lets you get used to the feeling and once he feels your breathing stabilize he starts to thrust himself with strong strokes inside you.Â
Like the first time, you are struggling with the phone because you canât stop shivering and shaking, you feel him in your guts and recording is much harder than pictures because it lasts longer and you can't stay still for that long. Not with dick inside you.
âK-Kook. Iâ oh.â You stop to moan when he hits your g-spot and he continues ramming that same spot over and over. âI- I canât. Handâs shaking.â
Your sweet boyfriend grabs the phone and lets you settle yourself. âThatâs okay princess, I got you. Just lay there, Iâll take care of you.âÂ
He records himself ramming into you for a few minutes, watching himself disappear into you on camera. The taller one can't even believe this is his reality. How did this even happen and most of all with him of all people? He truly was the luckiest man alive!Â
ââS deep, Kook.â He fondles one of your breasts as he keeps a harsh pace, rubbing the hard nub with his thumb.Â
âYeah baby? Tell me where you feel it.â He whispers loving the way you tremble, your gaze struggling to keep up with his.Â
âRight here.â You touch right below your belly, palm flat against the feeling of his cock inside you. âSo so deep.âÂ
You mumble something else, but he doesnât get to hear it because your high pitched moans drown everything out. He lets go of your breast watching them bounce as he continues to pound straight into your sweet spot.Â
The camera catches it all though. The mess between your thighs look just as delicious on film as they do in real time. The sounds you make, the squelching noise that is being created by his cock going deep inside you, and most of all, it captures your beautiful face as it comes apart.Â
He presses on your stomach right where your own palm rests and you strangle out a whine. âI- I canât. T-Too much.âÂ
âYou can take it. Remember?â His dick tears through you from the inside and you start yelling when he increases his pace. Heâs fucking you mercilessly now and you canât control the sounds that escape. âYou were made for me, princess.â
âYes, yes, I am.â You sound beautiful, but you would kill him if you guys got caught now especially in the position you guys are in.Â
His firm hand finally comes off your stomach and instead two fingers go inside your mouth, muffling your screams and whines.Â
The car rocks back and forth. Heâs sure people know what the fuck is going on, the windows are foggy as fuck, for fuckâs sake, but you would hate him much worse for not finishing you off.
âMmff, donâ stopff.â He nearly giggles as you struggle to speak, but he keeps his promise quite well. He fucks you ever harder and deeper, his cock will surely fall off after this, but itâs all worth it. He slams inside, bottoming out fully before pulling out and repeating the same steps. âFuhh-uk.â
âYou like that baby?â Jungkook rasps feeling you squeeze tightly around him, which only means one thing, you are really fucking close. âGonna come all over my cock princess?âÂ
âMmff.â You are quick to nod and hum sweetly. He decides to pull his fingers out, spit dripping all over. âYes, yes. Please, donât stop. Harder Kook- ah!â
Jungkook almost forgets heâs recording and he centers the camera again, wanting to capture every last second of this. You are glistening all over, heâs made a complete mess of you, but he is no better. Jungkook is dripping sweat and yet, that doesnât stop his mean and precise strokes against your velvet walls, stretching you in ways you didnât even know were possible.Â
The final straw is when you feel his messy fingers start toying with your clit and you are coming once again all over your back seats and wetting his cock just how he likes it. Being a squirter had its own perks with a boyfriend like Jungkook because that meant he never stopped fucking you until you completely had nothing more to give.Â
Jungkook curses when he starts to see your orgasm trinkle out, he fucks you all through it though, feeling the water-like pressure against his slit. And it doesnât take long before an orgasm catches up to him.Â
âInside.â You plead with a pout, eyes completely blown out.Â
With one last curse Jungkook comes deep inside your walls. He catches his breath for a few moments before pulling out slowly, making sure to capture the dribble of his come which sadly hangs onto your hole. âPush it out for me princess.âÂ
âNooo, weâre gonna make a mess Kook.â Jungkook shakes his head, a smile on his face because a mess has already been made.Â
âIâll clean it. Now, push it out baby.â You almost cover your face because you are sure you turned red, but you start to push his seed out of your hole and heâs tempted to fuck it back inside.Â
âFuck. Thatâs it baby. Perfect comeslut. Isnât that right?â He stops recording once heâs gotten the shot he wanted and he starts to wipe you down with his shirt, lucky enough that he has a back-up hoodie to cover him after heâs done.Â
âYes, all yours.âÂ
You both smile against each otherâs lips before he whispers. âI love you princess.âÂ
âI love you more.âÂ
âImpossible baby.â
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JKâ¤ď¸: hiiii đ
me: hi baby :) everything okay?
JKâ¤ď¸: marvelous đ i just came watching that video we took earlier ;))
me: baby! đ Â i'm out with karina! can you not talk about sex for two seconds while im out
JKâ¤ď¸: sure! just came all over myself totally wasn't watching our sextape back ;)))
me: nice talk jungkook.
JKâ¤ď¸: come home soon~~ i miss you :((((
me: love you too lol
JKâ¤ď¸: not more than me. come home soon im serious!!!
me: i'll see you later jungkook. â¤ď¸
JKâ¤ď¸: đ đ đ Â
me: â¤ď¸â¤ď¸â¤ď¸
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