#im just. so tired of it why arent i cool enough

[phagodyke]

well I didn't talk abt what I specifically wanted to talk abt bc I could tell I was starting to get upset just being very vague and general and I mentally started doubting myself n defending against it n chickened out. but I'm grateful she listened to me vent a little anyway I do appreciate it ik she has plenty of better things to do w her time 🥹

[moonbiscuitsims]

Cyberpunk mods blablabla

Dear me I sold my soul to the devil and downloaded a bunch of mods for cp2077 (before i only had CET and skip radio song mod)

Down side: part of me is regretting it instantly because if there's a patch surely they'll all break and they were a bit of a nightmare to install compared to sims im ngl but finally figured out that some "required mods" are actually just tools, like xml injector or whatever... and a lot of these tools mods are for many others so once you've installed the main ones you don't need to worry so much, but at first this wasn't clear to me at all...you have to install mods in like five billion different paths for them to work properly and if you dont have those tool mods installed the path isn't there, so it seems like you're installing the same mod 5 times but its just the path, anyway, finally i get it

I made myself a little document to log all the mods i have to make things easier cause there's no way ill remember everything i did, plus backed up my folders first in case. Good side: another part of me is super chuffed and happy with them, I installed photomode unlocked, custom pose packs and facial expressions, unlock all outfits, equipment ex (more slots for outfits, didn't really want this but it was required to unlock outfits and it is kind of cool) which took me a while to figure out too (my clothing was clipping until i realised you set your own layers) and finally seeing v pose differently, or be able to change the outfit right in photomode, or be able to have infinite outfit slots, being able to layer the outfits more than usual, etc... it is pretty cool, this part of me kind of regrets not being brave enough to try it before i started my cosplay project or any of my other screenshots now with a bunch of my pics having the same poses and expressions, but i think its also cool i did it with a vanilla game to show that you can be creative without mods all the time. Mods are good when you grow tired of vanilla game i guess. But honestly some of the features i just think why arent they already in the game? There were some other cool photomode mods that I might try later on but for now they intimidate me a bit, i want to get used to what i've installed so far.

[ratatatastic]

I followed you not that long ago and I’m curious about who are your teams, who are the eh I don’t really like them but if my teams don’t win I want them to win, and who are the absolutely no I would rather burn every thing than see them have one good game?

And do you have players who you like to watch outside of your teams?

i basically hate every team except the cats and wish every other team a "go to hell!!!" hope this helps!

okay but the real answer is its all very complicated for me there are different levels of hate and theyre all very contrarian so like

heres a handy dandy venn diagram of hate for all of us who need visuals (me i need visuals) to understand what type of hate we are dealing with here

"geographical based" hate can range from "my sportscity has a rivarly with yours"/"my sportscity is ritually beaten by yours in a big public humiliation spectacle and im tired of it" to "i hate that city/state i think they should be blown off this earth and we would be better off for it"

"media coverage based" hate can range from "i think your social media presence is annoying"/"i roll my eyes when panels bring up these teams in discussions" to "the people you employ/give access to cover your team are awful it pisses me off and its a waste of journalism"

"i just hate you go die" hate is as the tin says i hate you (many reasons that can fill out a laundry list)! go die!

there are naturally also special categories in here too such as

"i dont hate YOU i hate going AGAINST you" is self explanatory or "i temporarily hate you for a small timeframe but once this game is over i will go back to being fond of you but holy shit IT SUCKS PLAYING AGAINST YOU WHY ARE YOU THE WAY THAT YOU ARE"

"hating you feels like kicking a toddler" hate isnt hate at all it's "theres not much reason to maybe if you were better i might find it"/"maybe there was a reason back then but its been so long that the cushion of time softened it and now you just suck so it doesnt particularly matter anymore" or "you are so pathetic i did find a way to be charmed about it and im a little confused on how i got here myself"

if you notice team-in-laws (teams that my bestie like/we BOTH like but AREN'T our teams/is her government assigned sportscity so we are legally required to watch games as she is with mine lest we get taken out by a sniper etc etc) slot into those 2 special categories: ducks, wild, sabres. and i like/enjoy most players on those teams. pens wouldn't be a team-in-law for me but it would be for her since theyre my second favourite team but the way i like them is very different from the way i like the cats. i am completely insane about my kitties (gestures towards the blog) as you can see. the pens is like... 50% of that actually maybe even a little less?

anyways thats for general team hate, for player hate, which you didnt particulary ask but i do have to establish hate philosophy to set up which players i like enough to go out of my way to watch a game theyre in because its hard to differentiate them from their team identity since theyre so intrinsically intertwined at the root of it and usually just scrolling on twt i will consume some sort of content from every player whether highlights or charming clips and go "hmm cool" but not feel much other than that about it.

like do i like jarvy? yeah i think hes fucking hysterical! the gee snsd edit lives in my head rent free its a masterpiece that single handely worked than any other propaganda. do i go "wow the canes are playing rn my parasocial best friend i should go drop everything and go watch that" absolutely tf not id rather shoot my foot than watch a canes game if one of my teams arent playing are you insane

like do i like a good finn? of course! better if they have a relationship with my finns!! but also jfc i am not gonna turn on an avs game and enjoy it just because i giggle at mikko when hes not on the ice you know?

so players i really like outside the conditional clauses in above mentioned blocks of texts there are few and far in between... but as of late zetterlund has charmed me and while i turned on sharks games to watch shaken macaroni martini and the kid named dogfood like everyone else is when i had nothing else to do because theyre fun! its fun hockey!! (when theyre not going through the horrors of sharks hockey) i think my twt algorithm kept putting zetterlund in front of me and eventually i imprinted like a little duck on him so now i just find myself turning on games and focusing on him. and thats the best example i can really think of as of now.

(↑ this is excluding ex-pantrs i was very fond of when they played with us because if i notice i dont have a cats game to watch i go "hey [ex-cat]'s team is playing rn sure why not lets put it on kinda miss him :(")

tldr; cats are my faves, i would consider pens my second fave but even that is a little wonky because i think wild might start becoming my second faves at this point, i enjoy the ducks and sabres. sharks and nucks are cool and i always root for them when theyre not facing my team. and preds have juice! i like juicy couture he gives me special feelings! and i hope that answers that clear enough someones gotta be a "mary mary quite contrary how does your hatred grow" around here

[alienrambelz]

sigh. litc [lost in the cloud] spoilers tw for mention of sa, manipulation

are we actually so fr. why are we arguing if Skylar n Cirrus are good together FOR ALL THE WRONG REASONS 😭

genuinely “ummmm yeah but omg we dont see them PDA like at all!!!! they should actually be separated!!!!” is a horrible take like what! you dont have to PDA every five seconds to be in a relationship and like love each other!

there are so many better arguments that arent “[insert normalized relationship thing]” like PLEASE. PLEASE! anyone who actually took a look at the series would say, “yo isnt Cirrus committing sa there???? [chpt 82]” or “yo isnt Skylar being manipulated a lil” LIKE GENUINELY THERES SO MANY BETTER ARGUMENTS THAN “THEY FIDNT KISS IN PUBLIC!!!!!!!”

and i wanna say im not saying theyre bad for each other and should cut contact and never ever speak again, i actually think if they do get back together on a later note that would be awesome because it is clear they have lasting feelings for one another! But Skylar was 100% in the right to break up with Cirrus because wouldn’t that make you feel like shit as well? “Cirrus apologized! It was in the past! He doesn’t mean it anymore!” that isnt how it works dog 😭

AND ACTUALLY. I realize im making Skylar seem like a saint here, he is totally not! Their both bad people, both super super mentally unwell, but making Skylar look like an Angel who’s been manipulated by Cirrus isn’t cool either ❌❌❌ because are we going to forget the only reason Skylar is[/was] with Cirrus was because he had no chance with Chan-il???? Making him like… a replacement of some sort???? which isn’t cool either ❌ I’m pretty certain he still canonically longs to be with Chan-il even when within his relationship with Cirrus which again! Is not cool! Not hot!

little ramble im just so tired of people hating on one or the other of them and treating the other like a darling angel who was unfortunate enough to encounter the other 🙁

also i want to L on this person because what the actual fuck

[moonsidesong]

ok ive finished puyo chronicle. dont play puyo chronicle. if you want to see puyo chronicle just watch the precise museum video uploads of it and ignore the fact they dont have eyebrows because its in citra. im gonna talk about puyo chronicle now.

absolutely miserable slog of a video game. every single open area is nearly completely empty and full of dead ends. every chest is full of lame rewards that i almost never got use out of and i eventually just stopped opening them so i wouldnt have to fight mimics anymore. you dont want to explore anything because there's hardly any reward for it and your movement speed is so slow there's even less of an incentive to go out of your way to trek to a random corner of the map for 200 coins that you wont use.

the final gauntlet, which is a 15-story tower, comprises of like, three stories where something happens and the rest are completely empty and only occupied by common enemies, which by then you will be tired of fighting and actively be avoiding encountering. the devs made a bunch of maps and said thats enough game design for today<3

and then, at the end of it, you fight a final boss that had literally nothing to do with anything else up until that point. rafisol really had the potential to be an extremely cool antagonist if she had been involved in the plot from the getgo but instead she shows up having not at all been foreshadowed prior, you do the same lame fighting style youve been doing for almost every encounter up until that point, and the only saving grace of it is a really cool battle theme. its pretty bad presentation to just watch this supposedly UBER powerful absorption themed final boss just float there menacingly and occasionally throw a line of nuisance puyo at you. rafisol has a lot of cool animations, i dont know why you'd rob her of the chance to show them off in a dramatic way!!!! aaah!!!! its all really disappointing because she's the only female final boss character besides doppelganger arle and shes stuck attached to this soggy sad nothing burger of a video game. i want my evil women INVOLVED sega

puyo characters have never been the most complicated to figure out but they are NOTICEABLY flatter and more annoying. you can see it the most on sig and ragnus who refuse to talk about literally anything other than "bug!" or "im the hero from videogame world!" respectively. the plot spends all its time being completely aimless other than the vague idea of "if we find these stone pedestals, something will happen questionmark???" up until ally randomly starts getting sick when rafisol starts ready to hatch from her evil egg or whatever. the plot's idea is that satan modified this story because he wanted to go on an adventure with arle. and well chroni writers i have to say you guys arent really doing a good job of conveying that when the only places you see satan are at the very beginning and very end of the game.

hey speaking of characters hanging out with arle. theres. too many. of them. i think they were just trying to make the whole skill battle team thing make sense in universe but i think itd be a lot easier to just focus on like. the A trio and Ally and you only hang out with the other characters in the areas they're actually relevant. and they just go "well arle ill be there to help you if you need me!" but they dont physically come with you and then we just pretend that makes sense.

anyway despite it all i still like ally and i still like rafisol despite both of them having terrible haircuts god bless but i wish they were in a video game that didnt suck absolute egg!!!!!!! like i said earlier rafisol couldve been extremely cool if she was involved early on and wasnt just some unrelated problem girl. ive been playing around with a few re-write(ish??) ideas that ive been sharing with my friends to keep my sanity while trudging through this videogame and i might share some of those some other time.

until then please look at this picture again. my favorite part about this game is when accord holds popoi like this. every time popoi was on screen i briefly forgot how much not fun i was having

[rizzyluke]

18, 25 and 6 for that fandom ask meme 👀

6. which ship fans are the most annoying?

18. it's absolutely criminal that the fandom has been sleeping on...

25. common fandom complaint that you're sick of hearing

i have a lot of tss tags blocked so im not really sure about no. 25 fjejdbjf anyway heres my answers

6. which ship fans are the most annoying?

it was a beautiful day of wallowing in No Content Hell about a certain fandom of mine. at that point, sanders sides is like some sort of limbo to me, consisting of mostly things i used to like and very little of things i truly, genuinely still like and care about. the lack of episodes also made this feeling worse.

suddenly u got a new episode! or short, or whatever. and it has janus, my fave side, singing a lovely song. and i was stoked! but after watching the video, can u imagine-- can u imagine feeling like gaining more faith in the series only for that to taste bitter by moceit shippers going crazy??? shippers who solely focus on moceit and shoved it on everyones face???? at that time, it felt bad and bitter and i had enough and went on a tag blocking rampage :p thank god for other, more active fandom for sweeping me off my feet and took me away from the place that is the tss fandom. i still carry this bad memory to this day

tldr the answer is moceit fans

18. it's absolutely criminal that the fandom has been sleeping on...

loceit

i would really like to see more focus roman-patton dynamic. doesnt have to be romantic. maybe there are more of those but i just dont know them. i havent been in the tss ao3 for quite sometime.

i think we're really sleeping on just how the two trust each other. and like, they've probably known each other their entire existence. i see too many """hot takes""" and fics of patton manipulating roman's trust for his own benefit, but honestly the way i see it, roman puts a lot of trust on patton because he knows him, and he knows just how big his heart is. and patton tries his best and i think he genuinely trusts roman the same amount! they love each other, man. thats why svsr hurts so much to me. its not about the two extroverts and happy, sun-coded guys getting in a fight. its about a well loved and well maintained friendship on the brink of collapse and i hope they can solve it. i hope they get the closure they deserve.

25. common fandom complaint that you're sick of hearing

i immediately thought of stuff in the ts criticism tag and honestly go off kings and queens, spill the fucking TEA. i have no problem with ts criticism.

hmmm does being tired of people bashing patton counts??? im so tired of patton bashers. u guys arent cool and nuanced. kindly shut up with ur insane patton takes, i dont need to hear them.

[thegeminisage]

ive done a terrible thing and accidentally turned on gloom hands for the map. i was only doing korok seeds/wells/caves/other bosses - i wanted shrines and hands to be a surprise, so i was just turning shrines on and off now and then to make sure i wasnt walking past any. but then i turned on hads to see how many there were and there's two in the next place im going for my korok seeds (crenel region). i would have rather not known :(

ugh man my compendium is SOOO empty...i miss the camera being on the first-person view. having it as an ability is so clunky! if i wanna 100% this i really gotta get on that bc no way do i or will i ever have the rupees to buy my way to victory

i looove btw, if i havent said. that if you kill an enemy while gliding/skydiving, you get the drops anyway. like they just appear in your inventory. VERY good

five bomb flowers in this chest! i appreciate it, but i almost have more bombs than arrows. (80-something arrows, 60-something bombs.) i got used to living without them. im a muddlebud girl now

ah i see. mining.

a well with nothing in it...there's gotta be more to it. haha it's the moor garrison ruins well so. that's a little joke. anyway im googling

okay, apparently google doesn't know shit either? surely there is something else here........

i guess not :/ bet i'll have to come back later...

WAIT I FOUND. STEPS THAT GO UNDERGROUND BUT THERE'S BARS HERE AAAA LET ME INNNNN

lmao the wall in the well is cracked can i actually bomb it?

answer: no

OH....................................

i thought ascending thru the ceiling would just take me back topside, but the well room was under this underground room! so i got in! ooough that dopamine. puzzle SOLVED all on my own!!!!

theres a treasure chest in one of these rooms, but the map tells me it's another fucking shield so im giving it a pass. i got the trick, thats what matters

shrine BELOW me? girl wtf

if i have to go back in that mining cave i just went thru.

ugh i checked and i DOOOO how did i miss it!!!

i DIED getting over there >:(

UGH and the enemies are back cuz of a blood moon :( i wasted 2 muddlebuds to NOT fight these guys...

i wish the totk fight music was better. i mean don't get me wrong, it's fine, but because of the way the soundtrack works the 3 songs i hear most often are the fight music, the shrine music, and the ambient bg music, which sometimes changes when in a snowy/high/watery area. i hear the fight music more than any other song and it gets stuck in my head CONSTANTLY and while much of this game's soundtrack is mindblowing and incredible, the fight music Is Not. it's simply not good enough for the song i'm listening to the fucking most. i'm already tired of hearing it and i'm only (checks) 95 hours into this game. ugh

>:( i'm mad that i probably won't be able to 100% it before i hit 100 hours...i wanted my whole hero's path on record...

anyway i found the shrine. finally.

NOT MORE OF THIS EVENTIDE SHIT

ugh i'm just gonna do it. honestly why couldn't they have just refined it to one island instead of microdosing us.......

COOL...there's a battle talus just patrolling back and forth along the road here!!

oh, a big tower fell over here...idr that from botw but i think it was in the trailers! neat

ok, i'm getting close to the area where the hands spawn :( i turned them back on on my map cuz im scared :(

oh man. so they spawn in these stumps full of water right...i can literally see those. they are so close to me. if i didn't Know i'd wander right in, unsuspecting...this is why i had that turned off. it's better not to know!!! than this anxiety!!!!!

what if i just...make them pop and then despawn them...

i can't do it. i can't. that is a TRAP i can see it's a trap those are high sides there's water like no fucking way. no way

GOD fuck a like like made a noise and i jumped out of my skin. the way the hands can scare you when you arent around AAAAAAAAAAAA

rauru settlement ruins...an innocuous reference to the ocarina of time sage in botw, but now...

i still have a few seeds left to get there and i know what i said about not doing shit today but i do actually have to do shit today. rip!

[jomnki]

i really like iruma-kun the series and how it values all types of relationships. the only arc i have some problem with is the harvest festival arc, which is great too but also it really delved into shounen territory. everything i have irks about the series is majorly due to mha trauma im just, reaally tired of the "unique power training is odd but actually its helpful because the students don't get it and when they do we show a montage of them getting it and also entire segments to show that they are using it." and the midoriya eyes. and the protagonist has potential to grow STRONG because HE ISN'T LIKE THE OTHER GUYS. oh my god I'm just frustrated at myself at this point because i keep spotting similarities to the mha when there isn't really that many and it's not so egregious it takes away from the show. i mean i really like the series but also the entirety of the harvest arc i just couldn't take it seriously? like, in comparison i liked the theme park arc because they didn't take themselves to seriously and made it really goofy. i was dreading it when the monsters came in threes and was like "oh god they're gonna spend an entire episode focused on one group cooly showing off their powers and explaining them and have them anime grunt and stuff". but they didn't. they made the boys run around screaming like a slapstick cartoon which is really fucking refreshing. it was the first time we got to see opera and amelie fight. saburo and alice used their fight to have character development and there was no 60 minute long monologue about how they need to believe in themselves. that was all good! fine! a perfect mix of what the series is! relationships and bonds! and then the harvest arc came and everyone is being taken super seriously like this isn't a goofy ass drama comedy anime about a cartoonishly neglected 14 year old who can inhumanly dodge anything because he's so neglected. Whhhy did it turn almost into a dick.measuring contest on "look at how cool my powers are look at the narrator going "bloodline magic:...he can (five minute rambling) his way out of anything!!!!" i mean, to be fair it eased off on that really quickly after the initial intros to everyone's progress. but really like. why are you mhaing this. i dont want to watch fight sequences because everyone at this point is fucking exhausted of shounen anime. oh a new enemy is underestimating us? new blast attack. new arrow attack. new sexy attack. new big brain attack. surprise! reveal! arent we so cool!! arent we so awesome!!!!! was it fun?? something that has been repeated 5 million times in other shows you'll definitely rewatch this arc right?? why the hell are these guys in the misfit class when one of them is literally the most academic student in the entire school?? they literally All have bloodline magic which is apparently really rare? why do they get put in the bad stinky classroom? the wind blade guy isn't even that problematic compared to the other students?? it feels like they all have way more potential than others do in a demon world so why are they in the basement??? if iruma wasn't here would they all have flunked because the guy who cam make giant earthquakes isn't Powerful enough to be a rank 5 demon??? hello?? do other students not get their own special tutors?? why shoehorn an exact cope of what the mha tutor arc was into what has really never been a shounen like series??? why have an arc dedicated to what their powers can do when it just really shows how odd it is that the misfit class exists when it seems they are MILES ahead of every other first year??

its not like i know how to fix this either, or if it even needs fixing in the first place. im just complaining because it reminds me of the mha anime and i see everything as a parody of itself like "no. this is OUR hero academia." or something. brainrot. braindead. death.

[scraplet]

dawntrail spoilers

THIS SHIT WOULD BE MORE COOL IF WE DIDNT LITERALLY JUST FUCKING FINISH THE RESULT OF THE SAME FUCKING STORY BEAT LAST EXPAN

"oooooh whoa is me i have to kill you world so i can save mine arent i so sad" dollar store ass girl emet selch this thing fucking sucks what the fuck

the beginning was so fucking good why couldnt have stayed like that. why did we HAVE to have a fucking world ending event. enough dude im tired

this shit should have ended with us killing zoraal ja

[tupelooosstuff]

Ramblings no one will give a damn about

To the people in their late 20s and up;

I dont think its cool when you make fun of someone , for things they do or say. Or how they are. If you dont like someone, why are you soending your precious time on them? Why would you make plans with someone you dont like? Everyday i push bedtime off longer thsn i should going “fuck! There arent enough hours in the damn dat!” And the last thing i think i would do, is go for a walk in tbe park with someone who i find makes me lose brain cells. It just shows that you dont do anything of worth, because you can throw your time and attention away in the trash and waste it. You have notbing better to do than go somewhere just to collect gossip material

You could probably say im doing just that, but this is a little sifferent than gossiping about sally sue and why does she use a roller backpack!?? (Cause theyre fuckin cool and save my back from aching)

I like writing and i like doing jt often, it keeps my wit sharp and keeps me creative. It is where my level of creativity is greatest. The more practice i get the better i get at writing. Also, i find when im bitching i write so beautifully. It all just flows and comes so naturally. While i wish that wasnt the case, it is. And, im gonna rock it. We all have our niche right?

This is my first actual blog post, but i olan to post more from here on out, been goin through a rough patch, probably the worst one ive faced in my life. This time it wasnt w my head held high i stomped through the flames. I succumbed to it. Pretty good. And for some time. Kinda pulling myself through just now, it’s been some months. But writing my thoughts and feelings is a good outlet fir me so i told myself where can i write because i xant jusr write in a journal, the narcissistic traits in me make me want to screme my pain for the world to heae. I dont want anyone ti suffer alongside me i just feel like im always silenced and no one cares about what i have to say ir what j do. Just plaster their lavel on me without knowing a thing about me and walk on. Im tired if it. I dont even know exactly yet if im the good or if im the bad. Im so confused in life now i got shook uo so bad. I cant even tell just yet if im the same or if what i went through shook me up so bad im a while different being. In a way it gave me confidence to speak up and just stop giving a fuck and stop letting the side eyes and gossipers shut me up and put me down. I donno. Now idk where im going so thats it. I dont proof read i just post. Maybe ill stop that, just not tonight

[mithliya]

I could definitely be wrong, but as an autistic person I honestly read the 'different language' thing as just an expression of how it feels to be autistic, not insulting your English. The way my thoughts connect to each other in my head and come out of my mouth is so different from the way they do for people who aren't autistic, and it really does feel like speaking a whole different language. Trying to get people to understand what I'm saying is very difficult and I do have to apologize and clarify a lot, and honestly, it does get exhausting, because a lot of people will refuse to believe what I actually meant because the words I said didn't translate into that for them the way it did for me and it's hard for them to understand that what obviously means one thing to them obviously means another thing to me.

Not saying macro is in the right here, but I also read you saying the part about things 'leading to the conclusion that' as you stating the conclusion as something that you believed to be true--in hindsight and after your explanation, I realize that was a silly way to read it, but it happens so often that I'm more wary of it. I don't think anyone here is intentionally misinterpreting words; this kind of misunderstanding isn't uncommon for autistic people. It's just a pile of misunderstandings.

I started talking way too much, but my point is, I think that was what the 'different language' thing meant--the child comment was uncalled for, but I don't think it was about your English at all. Again, though, I could be wrong.

Hopefully I worded all of this in a way that 'translates' properly. I'm a little tired so stringing words together is harder than it is normally, so if any of this came off wrong, I'm very sorry. I'm honestly not trying to take sides here, I don't feel like I know enough about the whole situation to make any solid judgments on it, I'm just trying to help clear up the misunderstandings because I'm very familiar with how easy it is for these things to happen. Also, I always enjoy seeing you on my timeline, you seem like a cool person and I don't want you to maybe feel hurt over something that came off wrong. (Though in this context, it really should have been worded differently.) Obviously I don't know how you're actually feeling about it, but, well, insults are hurtful. Sorry for stating the incredibly obvious there, like I said my words are not forming well.

Sorry for the very long ask. Hope you're doing well!

but afaik butch-reid'd is not autistic as well is she? i can understand though bc very often im saying things and it feels like people are somehow reading entirely different (which is what they just did to me, funnily enough) but i wish theyd perhaps avoid such comments with me bc seriously the amount of times this week alone that people have made weird comments to me about my english or language abilities is .. too much. i ignored it bc of that bc i was like what is up with this comment why do peopl keep saying things about my language abilities to me -_-

anyways im mostly frustrated now that even after explaining at least twice that i am simply saying that people reading ur words literally does not mean theyre out to get u and trying to misconstrue u and whatever else, & its ok to simply correct them and move on, theyre now intentionally misconstruing me to call me ableist lol. like im supposed to give everything they say the most generous interpretation ever, but even when im clarifying my words repeatedly i dont deserve the same.. its odd. especially when i dont think im saying anything unreasonable when i say "people arent intentionally misconstruing you by reading ur words as they are literally written, youre simply wording them unclearly & can clarify it and then move on. if it requires knowing u personally and already having positive feelings towards u to understand what ur saying as u intend it then it is simply unclear"

anyways thank u anon and i appreciate hearing ur input <3 im just baffled by how i was trying to politely explain sth to them and i got repeated insults in return

[donotopendeadinside]

Thats right boys. Im back! And ive hopped onto the O5 Council Hype Train, so here I have for you today a Story about my O5-Councilmen: O5-3 "Athena". This story is about the first time she met a much younger O5-6 "Kick", who happens to belong to my friend. O5-3 was just a little girl when she met him, so here you go!

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- - - O5-3's Misadventures in Childhood - - -

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A young girl wandered the halls of the Foundation, smiling to herself as she attempted to stay out of sight, hiding away from the adults that roamed the halls looking for her.

Kimiko was always an explorer, an adventurous little girl... of course, this caused more problems then it should have. No one on the Mobile Task Force knew how she did it, but every time they looked away from her, Kimiko would be gone, giving them all a heart attack until they found her again.

Of course, a child inside of such a dangerous place was absurd, no one would ever allow such a thing. That is... unless you were Task Force Leiutenent James Calvin. He knew of the stakes bringing his little girl to the job he worked... but he had no choice, nobody could watch her, he didn't trust anyone around him, and so he turned to his brothers in arms.

Whenever James was too busy to take care of her, Kimiko would be watched by his fellow soldiers, this happened so often that she had begun to call them all her "Aunties" and "Uncles".

James never told them where he had gotten his daughter from, whenever he was asked he'd simply avoid the subject... of course, due to his position, Kimiko would not remain a secret forever.

Kimiko dodged and weaved through the boxes and crates, making her way into the research sector of Site-124. She had never been outside of the MTF's sector, so it was only natural that she was elated as her uncles usually caught her. But not this time.

This time, she had made her grand escape... she was having so much fun in her little game, that she hadn't even realized she had already been spotted.

Kimiko grinned and began to sprint through the halls of the reaserch department, not even caring if she was spotted anymore. 'This is so cool!' She thought to herself. 'Why hasn't papa let me see this place yet?'

She was so lost in her own world that she didn't even notice someone standing infront of her. Her small body hit them, of course not enough to knock the man down, but with enough force to make him notice the small child now sitting flat on the ground in desperate confusion.

The blue eyed girl blinked a bit, looking up at the adult who was now staring back at her with equal confusion. "How did you get here, little girl."

The man sounded important, his nametag read 'O5-6'.

Kimiko didn't know what an 'O5-6' was, but she awnsered him anyways, not spotting the white lab coat he had been wearing yet. "I was playing a game, Mister!" Kimiko chirped with a precious smile.

O5-6 seemed less then amused, looking down at the 12 year old before him. "Child, this is not a place to play. It is far too dangerous for you to be wandering about unsupervised."

Kimiko looked at the man, studying his appearance before she noticed the lab coat... she immediately became weary of this man, not wanting to go back to the white room. "I-i uhm.."

"Is there anyone watching you? I do not see anyone around." He looked over the small 12 year old, not even bothering to kneel down to her height. "I uhm... no sir... I..."

The little girl fidgeted a bit, playing with her long black hair. O5-6's mouth drew into a thin line of disapproval as he let an annoyed sigh escape him. "Of course you arent. What is your name." He asked curtly. He knew he'd need to detain the girl for questioning.

Kimiko's posture straightened slightly, her blue eye looking up to meet his tired black ones... part of her found comfort in them, another part desperatly wanting to run and hide.

"M-My name is—"

A voice interrupted her. The deep familier voice that belonged to none other then Lieutenant Calvin. "Kimiko Kamakura. What are you doing out here."

Kimiko was relieved, though another part of her knew she was in trouble for wandering off again. O5-6 and her turned to face the disgruntled A-1 Lieutenant, who seemed less then pleased with the young child's presence. "Excuse my daughter, O5-6. She doesn't know better then to wander around."

James picked Kimiko up, holding her in his arms while O5-6 eyed James suspiciously. "I was unaware you had a family, Leiutenent."

James stared at O5-6, his face showing no emotion aside from slight annoyance. "I like to keep my private life separate from work. Unfortunately Kimiko needs to be taken care of often... I will make sure my squad doesn't loose sight of her again."

"That would be... preferable. Now if you'll excuse me, I need to return to work."

"Yes sir."

And with those words exchanged, her father and O5-6 parted ways. Kimiko doesnt remember much of what her father spoke to her about, she was far to busy thinking about the man in the lab coat... part of her hoped to see him again, maybe he could be her first friend. Another part of her... wanted to keep far away.

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idk man maybe its just me but when i hear people say “humans are horrible” usually its in frustration about their trauma or about human injustice on a wide scale... against other humans. so probably....... they’re just being hyperbolic, bud.

why would someone say “humans are horrible” in reference to humans abusing other humans and then think “all humans are horrible”. clearly they care enough about the human being abused to even feel that way in defense of them. like idk maybe stop taking shit so literally online all the time. fuck.

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original bad kids gender hcs

- kristin: i think sometime along the line of high school she gets into the part of lesbianism where oftentimes you really feel this Disconnect from femininity. and this makes her a little confused. but she loves doing research on queer labels and such so i think she eventually settles on nonbinary or maybe demigirl ! i think once she had figured that out she’d use she/they pronouns :]

- adaine: idk i think adaine is definitely queer but she comes off as more cis to me. she likes learning about that stuff tho so she can be a better ally to her friends :] i think maybe at some point in her life she might experiment a little with gender expression. get some botched femininity going. idk. 

- gorgug: i think gorgug is simply existing. i don’t think he’s ever given any deep thought into gender and is just kind of like :] yeah whatever works sure. his parents probably taught him about some of that stuff bc they seem like the types to do that . i think gorgug just went oh thats nice okay and kept going. i think he primarily uses he/him bc it’s what he’s most used to but also i think he’d be cool with any pronouns !

- fabian: look. i don’t have much reasoning for this one. i really want to say he’s cis bc that makes the most sense story wise but also this boy just SCREAMS trans for some reason???? so yeah. he’s trans. its why he kind of cared so much about seeming impressive and masculine, and a small part of why he tries to follow in his dads footsteps as much as he can. i think his dad was very supportive in a really weird way where he was like “AYE I KNEW A BABY WITH GRIP THAT STRONG HAD TO BE A STRAPPING LITTLE LAD. AW YER TAKIN AFTER YER OLD DAD ARENT YA IM SO PROUD OF YOU” or something akin to that. i think he has also probably already had top surgery which. would be VERY young in our world but i dont think bill gives a shit and could totally pay someone enough to do that. also surgery is probably safer and maybe even reversible in their magic world so ! 

- riz: honestly i think he’s pretty similar to gorgug except the first time he actually tried to think about it he got super worked up over it and ended up making a whole board trying to connect things together to make sense of his own identity and then after like. hours of hyperfixating on it he was just like “im so tired. i need to not do this anymore.” and went to sleep and never tried touching the subject again. pronoun wise i think he’d be cool with primarily he prounouns but also like? a they every once and a while to spice things up. maybe some neopronouns that just sound nice to him? (i can’t think of any specifically rn if anyone else has opinions on this i’d love to hear your thoughts :])

- fig: she doesnt give a fuck babeyyy. one of those “genders not real so i get to do whatever the fuck i want with it” people. i think that comes out a lot mostly via gender expression more than actual labels? fig is just vibing. i think pronouns would probably be something along the lines of she/he/hy/ze. maybe sometimes fig just wants to go by no pronouns and just goes by her name. it depends !