#im just. UGH. unhinged about this game.

[ashipiko]

“This summer that I spent with you? I’ll never, eeever forget it!”

UGH. KAZBANTEN. MY WEAKNESS IM SO BUMMED THEY DONT HAVE CONTENT WITH ALL THREE OF THEM…… CAN SOMEONE WRITE A FIC OR SMTH WHERE ALL THREE OF EM GO HANG OUT AND HAVE FUN??????? LIKE….. SWEET SWEET POTENTIAL I’m telling y’all my top 3 in games never miss as a dynamic!!!!!! I LOVE THEM SO MUCH THO. SO I HAD TO DRAW SMTH FOR THEM i can’t stop thinking of them!!!!

HEADCANONS FOR THEM UNDER CUT!

—Tenma and Banri once invited Kazunari ONCE to a karaoke outing and now it doesn’t feel the same without him. they sing either the most beautiful song w 10/10 harmonization or bankaz make it unhinged while tenma laughs while trying to join in

—Kazunari and Banri have both starred in Tenma’s MVs or movies 🫶 first time it happened and Tenma told em Banri spat out his drink onto Kazunari and all hell broke loose

—They go on cafe outings to talk about their ✨feelings✨ <3 like “how’s your love life going?” “none of your business” “oh so you’re bitchless” “WHAT” they are each others wingmen!!!!!!!!! MSKZ AND TNYK CONTENT FOR ME (I do not ship banri w anyone in canon 😔)

—they also go on runs!!! Tenma leads and Banri follows easily while Kazunari freaking DIES its so. “CAN YOU GUYS STOP HOLY *WHEEZE* I CANT. I CANT. LET ME PAINT LET ME DRINK PAINT WATER AAAAhgah” “kazunari we’ve barely passed a mile???”

—they bully eachother. they gang up on eachother and also betray eachother CONSTANTLY. banri has thrown hands with tenma and kazunari has it in his favorites folder

—they have a tiktok just to do trends 🙏 tenma only participated in the “non-stupid ones where I can just dance in peace” but like half of the TikTok’s are pranking tenma

[crowleys-hips]

2, 10, 22 and 24 for the ask game! Hope you're having a good day 💙

elloo thank youu i hope you're having a good day too 🐍

2. What was it that drew you to Good Omens, and what was it that sucked you into the fandom?

*breaks down sobbing lungs burning chest contracting heaving shuddering gasping for breath mascara running down my cheeks snot dripping from my nose* ahem sorry needed a little moment of drama it's all cool now dw about me im absolutely hella gucci never been better 😎 anyway where were we oh yea

when i was a teen i used to sort of like this one author but i can't remember the name for some reason, i just kinda remember picking up literally every single thing of his i could get my hands on, i mean, super casually, i wasn't obsessed or anything. and so i saw his name on the title, saw it had a demon and an angel and something about Armageddon and then i blinked and had somehow consumed the whole thing.

then flash forward to 2019, i see ohh they made a series of that one book i kinda sorta very casually liked a normal amount. and then i shrugged and never watched it bc they didn't look the way they had looked in my head and i had a Very Serious Issue w that apparently. then last year i got covid and i was really bored and i didn't know what to watch and i came across that one show tumblr was losing their minds about for some reason, so i went ugh fine i'll watch it. and then i relived the worst heartbreak of my whole life through a much more brutal dramatization and i was left in pieces, clutching my chest, crying on the floor, begging the universe for mercy. so naturally, like a very normal person, i went, "damn i need to watch this whole thing again 10 thousand more times until i memorize the dialogue word for word" and came on tumblr to scream into the void about it. and so here i am, continuing the lovely tradition of breaking hearts with unhinged poems and occasionally making memes friends will later find reposted on pinterest and instagram 🤡

10. What traits do you share with Crowley?

Yes well first the dumbassery and the unfortunate habit of shooting myself in the foot, le dépression, constantly in alert mode, cant for the life of me ever sit like a normal person, sunglasses out in public always bc my vampire ass is allergic to light, clothing only exists in black, antes muerto que sencillo ✨ (sooner dead than a simple hoe) flash bastard, blasting Queen, horrible plant dad, former raging alcoholic, Aziraphalesexual, drama queen, in fucking pieces 🪦

22. Bildad The Shuhite: hot or not?

look i can see the appeal, but personally i wouldn't fuck him

24. Who would you choose to run off to Centauri with?

you guys keep asking me this as if i even know other people lmao anyway. my answer is still: a copy of The Awakening by Kate Chopin. iykyk 🖤 if not and you wish to find out, get tissues

thanks for the asksss! this was fun to write lmao

[koishua]

i most DEFINITELY need hatsune song recs

YOU'VE COME TO THE CORRECT WEEB

fav miku songs:

world is mine: my intro to miku and the world of vocaloids it was... SOMETHING ahahaha i adore it to bits it's so so sassy and unhinged (like all vocaloid song lol)

cendrillon: duet with kaito and it's so pretty and melancholic and dark i am obsessed also there's a miraculous ladybug amv of it it's insanely good with the vocalist covering it oh my GOD

cantarella: also with kaito!! same-ish vibes with cendrillon very royalty but this one is more like passionate romance i also love love love it ugh

popipo: for the most insane hilariously good vibes pls watch the video for it too you'll cry laughing it's so ridiculously adorable and just insane

senbonzakura: so so catchy i also adore the video for it with all of the cameos from the others' they're adorable but also this song has so many political undernotes lmao

look this way, baby: INSANEEEE so sassy so so sassy i know it WORD by WORD i strut and flick my hair to this in the middle of the night on full blast it makes me feel so happy i can't explain it

online game addicts sprechchor: it's so adorable it's about being addicted to gaming 🤭🤭 i adore the graphics too i had screenshots of the video as my laptop screensaver for so long

tell your world: this!! this i cry every time i listen to it it's just so so hopeful and positive and sweet the lyrics make me tear up and the melody is so beautiful and the chorus will always make my heart feel lighter!!

cat food: world is mine was my first intro BUT!! this was the song i heard afterwards and spiraled afterwards oml i had this downloaded on my old tiny laptop and mind you this was 9 years ago i knew the words to this by heart and somehow still do 😭😭don't look at the lyrics. don't look at most of project diva arcade's lyrics lmfaooo

decorator: THIS TOO!! this one came out after i got into vocaloid and it's so festive and the main lot are included and they're all so adorable and the lyrics are so so wholesome and nice and this one fills my heart with so much warmth and joy i also know this one by heart!! i also learned the choreo ahahahah and performed it to the wall of my room ugh it's just so upbeat and happy i have a very special connection to this one

odds&ends: the lyrics for this one kills :( i sometimes feel so overwhelmed with how heartbreaking the lyrics are but miku saying you should my voice and that you can use her if you can't do it yourself gave me so much courage ;-; her saying she'll be the voice you can't let out ;-;

others!:

echo by gumi: this one is devastating and i used to relate to the lyrics so much back when i was dealing with the depths of my confusion and anger and loneliness ugh

copycat by gumi: actually you know what i generally adore vocacircus so you can check out their songs

meltdown by rin: a cult classic you just vibe to this you just have to it's one of the catchiest vocaloid songs imo i also was obsessed with this for a whole three years so the lyrics are in the bag.

electric angel by rin and len: MY GOD THIS ONE IS ONE OF THOSE TOO gets me so happy and just really my heart feels so full the lyrics are so cute and adorable and quirky it just makes me tear up from how much better i feel every time i listen to it

lie by luka: (also made by vocacircus im telling you!!) this one is heartbreak packed into a song. one sided love hurts, breakups hurt (apparently lol and i got to feel the extent of it thru this song) and the lyrics punch you with every word. some of my favourite heartbreak lyrics. ("and maybe one day i'll get to see your smile in the arms of someone who loves you like i do / i'll play along writing our song, we are perfect, i love you / why dont i cry for you? / why aren't you gone? / i know you're not that strong") and maybe they aren't the saddest thing you've heard and i know it isn't mine, but the production is so empty-feeling and you can feel the ache from every single instrument and sound in the track and the visuals tell a story and—

reboot with miku, luka, and zimi: this one wrecked me after my first watch and listen. it's about three friends who drift apart after a tragedy and just. the resentment and guilt shown there. and the ending just. it's such a melancholic song. the video makes me sob every time esp 3:25-3:35 if you decide to watch it!

teddy bear by rin: don't watch or listen to this is you're not okay mentally bc i wasn't when i came across it. many sad and disturbing ideations (like a ton of other vocaloid songs istg ppl create to vent) and trauma dumpings but the song is genuinely so good

[collegetennisoriginstory]

ALLIEEEEEEEE!!!!! Just finished the update HOLY SHIT!!!!!!

[Mandatory spoiler warning here]

OMG SAM!!!!!!! MY LIL BESTIE IS HERE AGAINNNN!!! AND WE MATCHIEESSS <3 SAM MY SCRUNKLYWUNKLY ❤️🩷 YOU BET UR ASS I CHOSE THE "NO THOUGHTS HEAD EMPTY, SOUL CRUSHING HUG" OPTION!!! AHH I AM WHOLE AGAIN, SAMMYWHAMMY, MY SAMWISE, MY LIL GUY!!

I love how sam is immediately adopted as part of the cheering squad 😂 Im just imagining diego and Addie going 'one of us!! One of us!!! One of us!!!' At sam and just merges em into the group like theyve always belonged there 😭 I knew sam and diego would be instant besties!! I love G and Sam too!! Though I guess I didnt flirt enough with G to trigger any sort of jealousy between G and Sam. But its fine, Ive found that G as a platonic friend is also very sweet and I honestly kinda prefer it for my MC!! (Who will cry themself stupid when G has to leave 😔)

Speaking of jealousy, I absolutely LOVE Rayyan being sooo jealous the whole chapter lmaooo like yes bby frown those beautiful eyebrows... oh, MC is wearing someone else's last name to their first season debut???? Ohh u are seething... who is MC seeing so badly that theyre holding up the game?? Who is MC waving at?? I cant wait to introduce Sam to the team 😊 hopefully they would be able to go home unscathed <3

ALSO the tension after the match with Rayyan!!!! UGH I WANNA LIVE IN THAT SCENE FOREVER GOD ITS SO---- The restraint, the longing, the 'i want them so bad but causing a scandal by making out sloppy toppy at ur first match is probably NOT GOOD, but im this 🤏 close to risking it all'...

It's so woefully inadequate, so woefully incongruent with the way he's looking at you, that you're a whisker away from growling in frustration and stepping in to kiss him in front of the entire Cargill crowd.

THIS IS MY FAVORITE LINE OMG!!!! AND THE WAY RAYYAN JUST GRABS UR HAND AND HUGS U INSTEAD!!! I AM FERAL. LIKE ITS SO SO SO SOFT BUT ITS SUCH POOR SUBSTITUTE TO WHAT U ACTUALLY WANTED HUH RAYYAN??? ..... one of these days I might do a slowburn Rayyan route, but sadly Im a board certified thirsty hoe, so...

Btw I also chose the non heart hug option and ITS SO SOFT???? I LOVE THEM BEING SOFT??? LIKE "u only get to hug me once okay? 😤" "once per match?? 😊🥰🥺🤗" MC SO CUTE GOT RAYYAN GIGGLIN AND BEING MAD CUTE AND SHIT

AND OH DONT GET ME STARTED WITH 'THE LOCKER ROOM PART 3: ELECTRIC BOOGALOO' SCENE. I AM DEVOURING RAYYANS SOUL, I AM BITING DOWN, CHOMPING. THOSE LOCKERS HAVE SEEN SO MUCH SHIT I AM SO SORRY LOCKERS I LOVE U. I WILL NEVER GET TIRED OF LOCKER ROOM KISSES I HOPE IT GETS TO LOCKER ROOM PART 587

Anyways sorry about being unhinged at u, it is born out of love for ur incredible work, I hope the surgery goes well <3 rest up, sending u loads of love, Allie ❤️❤️

Hahahaha I LOVE your excitement omg this absolutely made my week!! Definitely read this one more than a couple times :)))

G is not really the jealous type, but there is a difference in their reaction to Sam and MC if MC has been flirting with G... though the more pronounced reaction comes from Sam if MC flirts with G in front of them.

As for Rayyan... yes. They definitely are the competitive type, both when it comes to tennis and. Well. Romance.

Glad you enjoyed some of the interactions between the ROs/characters in the update, it was a lot of fun getting to write some of these dynamics after building up to them in earlier chapters. A personal fave was writing Tobin's locker room scenes, and G/Rayyan being soft, and Sam's reunion :)

Finally, I have lots of Sam/hallmate interactions planned for the weekend, so stay tuned for that!!

Thanks so much again for the message and so glad you enjoyed the update!

[hannahlovesluca]

hey heyyy, if you dont feel like doing matchups atm feel free to ignore this BUT i've been a lil tempted...

(i'd prefer a guy but a lady is fine too!)

my name is basil

my pronouns are she/they :3

sexuality: bisexual w/ a preference for men

i'm a sagittarius!

im an isfp-t (according to the test im 99% introverted-)

my oshis are: luca kaneshiro, kyo kaneko and maria marionette

appearance: VERY PALE...it's kinda concerning. i have like shoulder length messy brown hair, green eyes (with VERY VISIBLE eyebags) and somewhere inbetween thick and thin.

personality: i'm rlly quiet and socially anxious in public but online? i'm probably the most unhinged person you'll ever meet. i have like zero filter and i rarely ever think before i speak. my friends say im super empathetic and nice but im also a tad bit silly... i apologize wayyy too much and i'll admit, i'm a bit of a horndog and i am decently flirty (even tho my rizz game is like -100). i also get distracted veryyy easily and i procrastinate a lot.

i rlly like cats, salty foods, calm video games, art (even tho i suck at it), my friends <3, writing, candles, anime, sleeping and vocaloid songs

i HATE flashing / bright lights, bugs and spiders, loud noises, the dark, super quiet places and social gatherings

love language (giving): PHYSICAL TOUCH 100%. i loove hugging people and just touching people in general! (that sounded rlly weird). runner ups are acts of service and words of affirmation!

love language (receiving): basically the same as giving! i adore physical touch so much, it makes me feel rlly happy :3. runner ups are quality time and words of affirmation.

extra: im EXTREMELY PICKY with food. like i barely eat throughout the day and i assume that if theres a food i havent tried, i won't like it. i also suck at cooking (aka ive never cooked anything so therefore i suck). uhhh i have a russian blue kitten named shio as well as three other cats and two dogs!!

thats it i think!

GET BETTER SOON HANNAH!!!

i pair you with…

Mysta Rias!

hear me out…

• oh my god you are actually the exact same person

• extremely introverted in public and unhinged as hell behind closed doors

• also hes said before he likes short hair on a girl so 🙈🙈

• and again, like a previous mysta matchup; neither of you can cook.

• which leads to a lot of dates whether that be in a restaurant or ordered from door dash (thats the company right? ours in sweden is called Wolt LMAOO)

• also thank you for hoping i get better i am fully recovered

• mysta adores physical touch so knowing thats your love language is amazing for him hes so infatuated jejdksjsowudbdkwo

• and VOCALOID!!! he loves vocaloid and rhythm games

• IF YOU LOVE RHYTHM GAMES HE WILL ACTUALLY DIE OF HAPPINESS

• also isfp and infj (him) go really well together imo and its just so :))

• ugh him, luca, ike, selen and pogmu… i could go on forever about them

• messages you’ll receive:

• “KISS ME BITCH” “why couldnt you just ask in person?”

• “where the fuck did all my socks go”

[rubyreduji]

Talk about your moots; what do you like most about them (could be a paragraph or a single sentence, spread the love!!)

IM FINALLY GETTING AROUDN TO DOING THIS OKAY FDSJAKL

its too long so it's under the cut :') i just have to much love ig

MIKA (@toruro)

my mika...ah...what do i even say about her. tbh i shouldn't say anything because if i talk about why i love mika then you guys will fall in love with her too but she's MINE. jk the real reason is bc if i talked abt how much i love her i will write a whole essay BUT here are few reasons why i love mika: we just click, like i can't even remember how we went from like having one conversation to suddenly talking all the time but i would not have it any other way i love listening to mika's 30 minute voice messages and like she just supports me so much not even in a writing aspect like i can just talk abt my problems and mika will be there for me. she's also SO TALENTED??? like i will always hold her to the highest praise bc she is perfect and amazing in my eyes forever ☆☆ things that remind me of mika: coffee dates, flower fields, pretty trinkets in antique shops

BRIE (@leejihoonownsmyheart)

one of the first moots i ever made and tbh the most important one, she was the only person on this site i talked to for like months and she basically held my hand through the first few months of this blog as i figured out what the fuck i was doing and she has never been anything other than supportive. brie literally is so nice to anyone she interacts with and she just has such a sweet presence, like i love whenever we talk even if it just for a few mintues like brie really is my big sister and i will forever be greatful for her xx ☆☆ things that remind me of brie: friendship bracelets, ice cream on a hot day, blurry candid photos

SAR (@cheolhub)

me and sar's interactions are super sporadic but always so funny and i love how unhinged sar can be like she will be feral over her men and i support that like we don't talk that that much (talk to me more sar djkfsal) but like i know that it will always be such a good time ☆☆ things that remind of me sar: stars (obvi), cool sunglasses, fun wall posters

SAVV (@savventeen)

I LOVE SAVV OH MY GOD i just love talking to him like the vibes are always so chill and like he lets me bounce ideas off of them and it's so nice because i have no clue what i'm doing every and also just his fics are like a giant warm hug and so is his personality ☆☆ things that remind me of savv: pillow forts, running a successful show (theatre kids unite), board game night with your best friends

ELV (@userelv)

I DON'T THINK YOU UNDERSTAND LIKE FDJKLDSLA elv is a caratblr legend in my mind like literally friends with everyone, writes the most insane amazing fics, and super unproblematic like i am blessed to be moots with her. i just love seeing her on my feed or in my activity it makes me all giddy and happy AND she tags me in snoopy content >>> taking her out on so many arbys dates fr ☆☆ things that remind me of elv: sunflowers, honey pots, fun photobooth photos

EM (@gyuswhore)

okay so em's whole energy is just the cutest thing every i can't explain it but like literally just makes me so happy whenever we interact like UGH WE SHOULK TALK MORE but also like i just feel like em is so funny i need more of her in my life and like her writing is just so feel good to me i love it so much (also soooo talented at drawing like wtf dfjklsa im obsessed) ☆☆ things that remind me of em: golden hour, late night baking, homemade jewelry

KAI (@lovelyhan)

you guys kai is just so cute and sweet and like fjdsaklf first off their blog theme is always so cute and well put together i love it and their writing???? HOLY SHIT I ASCEND EVERYTIME I READ SMTH FROM THEM but also just in general kai is so sweet and nice to talk to and like you can see that in the way they interact with people on their blog and just how everyone loves them so much (as they should) like i would love to talk to kai more just bc like i want all the good vibes they bring ☆☆ things that remind me of kai: cute novelty stamps, doodles in the margin of your notes, linking pinkies

SALEM (@hoeforcheol)

RAHHH FDSJKLSA so brie is basically the reason why salem and i are moots and its insane because like SALEM IS SO SWEET AND SUPPORTIVE??? we haven't talked in a hot second tbh but like i fr feel like i could talk to them abt anything whenever and wouldn't feel like a bother like it's just a safe feeling around salem i love being moots with her and talking to her and just everything ☆☆ things that remind me of salem: screaming to ur fav song in the car, silly inside jokes, exploring a new city with your best friend

[ma1dita]

okok catching up on troubleverse WHEWW and i have the perffff song for them, paired with the lyrics verse-for-verse and me screaming shrilly LMAOOO.

but this song is sosososo perf, like everything abt it from the lyrics to the singer's erratically paced singing to the general unhinged vibes and. IT SHARES A NAME WITH THE ENTIRE SERIES TOO OMG-- 'partner in crime' by madilyn mei!! i haven't listened to my folk indie queen for a hot minute but i had to pull it out from the dusty archive of my skull for u 😗😗

When you're gone I feel alone again / The voices cannot hold my hand / They keep me company at very best / Distract me from my loneliness

insanity mention?? dionysus the god of mania?? HELLOOOO CAN THOU HEAR ME [rattling at the bars of containment]

Maybe I'm just an anomaly / Even my demons have their families / Truly something must be wrong with me / To need you as much as I do

smth must be wrong with trouble to need luke as much as she does and vice versa smth smth okay like. i think the whole thing abt him being trouble's ESA from buddy system is saying enough 😭😭

I was never meant to win / [... maniacal laughing] SHUT UP!

THE LAUGHING AND THE MUTED SHUT UP HERE JUST GETS ME. straight chills, ik it didnt happen but during love like a blister if trouble screamed at the other counselors out of rage and the campers heard it the way it sounded in the song UGH. I WAS NEVER MEANT TO WIN. THEY DON'T EVER WIN BC LUKE HAS BEEN DOOMED BY THE NARRATIVE OMFG.

Here's the reigns / Take ahold of me / Please don't let me go / You do the talking / Sew up my mouth if I can't keep it closed

BUDDY SYSTEM CODED when they're on the road trip bc the image just comes to mind instantly, like if they see questioning adults luke has to do the sweet talking bc trouble is lowkey a pro yapper and can't keep her mouth shut at all. AND 'here's the reigns take ahold of me' NO WORDS no words at all just vibes bc wdym. i just think that luke being vulnerable to trouble and talking abt his mom as if he were giving her the reigns to his personal life ermm.

Run for it / I'll keep em occupied for you / Cause I love you, I love you so

SOMEBODYS ANGEL SAVE ME SOMEBODYS ANGEL SAVE ME. trouble stepping into the battle with ladon to save luke, 'run for it i'll keep [LADON] occupied cause i love you i love so' I AM SICK. SOMEONE MAKE ME SOME CONGEE UGHHH.

I'm 'bout to die / Yet the only thing I find i'm worried about is you / Something tells me you aren't coming / Guess that I'm truly doomed

i saw ur synopsis of asking for trouble like. he's dying and the only thing he can think abt. is trouble??? r u kidding me? and then trouble supposedly pleading his case with the olympians in the as above so below synopsis DONT TELL ME that trouble is gonna be too late for luke and so he dies thinking that she still hates him (based off what im assuming from the when the curtains close synopsis, 'all strings r cut' WDYM??)

I overhear your brain when it's close to mine / Oh, I know that we're not the same / My heart's on the line / I'm just a pawn in your game / Not your partner in crime

JO THEY R SUPPOSED TO BE PARTNERS IN CRIME HELLO. solipsism c'mere i just wanna talk bc drunk!trouble seeing luke from a different timeline and KNOWING HE'S REALLY THERE BUT IT ISNT HIM = 'i overhear your brain when it's close to mine / oh, i know that we're not the same' THEY ARE ON DIFFERENT WAVELENGTHS IN THE MOST LITERAL SENSE POSSIBLE WITH TIME in this essay i will--

You're slowly killing me / Taking your- (I was never meant to win)

luke to kronos, the titan is slowing killing him from the inside out the longer he's possessing luke. HE WAS NEVER MEANT TO WIN UGH. i need to put maddie and u in affectionate jail bc ASDFGHJKL goodbye i am finished. troubleverse is sososoo evil, like this is srsly what everyone else feels when they read jubi bc if it is i am so sorry for everything.

to conclude jo, ily but i also am gobsmacked with my mouth hanging wide open and catching flies bc this whole thing is unbe-fucking-lieveable. the way u built their whole ass relationship from the ground up and swung a baseball bat into it like ok i need to take a business month to process this for reasons known and unknown, my bags r packed up at the airport, who cares abt my chem grade, it is sabbatical time WHEWW

THEOOOOO IM SCREAMING UNTIL MY HEAD EXPLODES THE SONG REC IS SO GOOD??? how tf did i miss that

i am so happy that you made the troubleverse part of your day it is an honor to have you connect the dots from your perspective and see how everything is playing out!! you in my brain ill make you congee BAHAH you've been the only one to put some of the dots together for the final arc (or at least voice it, thank you for being brave) and i will neither confirm nor deny but your analysis is pretty spot on for someone who binge read it today thank you so much!!

study for chem no rest for the weak >:( love youu

[lorelune]

im too shy to come off anon atm but tysm for the 2nd part after scrap metal. i quite literally screamed (internally, since i was with someone when i saw it) and after reading it, im well fed but just as starved for more OTL

idek where to begin w my thoughts, ugh, you write blade so well. SO WELL. like maybe ppl can write unhinged characters fine, but you. YOU. are so different with that. ill probably find the words in the future to describe what im feeling about this series(??bc it technically can be standalone) but all i can say is that im with the mind to print your writing out and eat it. like, chew it with my molars and swallow it, and then print another one to eat some more, maybe put some slices on my next meal LOLLL. idk, i want to consume it and have it in my veins.

i for real cannot come up with the words to describe this,,,,but i promise im not crazy !! (debatable tbh) i just really like WORDS and WRITING and this just made me just as insane as blade's probably feeling. it's beyond just being giddy bc one of my fav authors wrote for one of my fav charas and it happened to be a reader insert -- there is a fundamental nutrient being provided by your writing and it could have been for any fandom/show, and i probably wouldve had a similar reaction.

your writing has always been wonderful and captivating, but there is smth about the way you wrote blade's pov (brOTHER there is so much ART in the way consciousness was expressed, im frothing at the mouth--) in this and scrap metal that i think really showcased how well you write. like i said, this piece could have been for any other fandom (and i'd still read it bc you wrote it <3) and i know it wouldve hit me like a truck all the same.

this got super long bc it's late where i am but i really wanted to let you know how much i appreciate your work and the talent you have with writing, and this blade series made it so that i couldnt keep these thoughts to myself !!

ik this is only my 2nd ask but since idk when ill come off anon (bc im shyyy) i hope you dont mind me calling myself "slightly feral anon" LOLL (or if you have a better name it's up to you!!)

anon anon ANON (slightly feral anon = sfa anon FOR SHORT!!) thank you for the ask!!! and for reading and enjoying scrap metal and braised!!! 💕✨!!!! i am glad i could provide some fundamental nutrient rich chewable good brain feeling writing 🫡💓

TRULLLY blades pov is fascinating. it's what inspired me to write scrap metal to begin with!! i was thinking abt blade pov in present day game timeline and was like "damn he'd be fucking crazy :3c". i had such immediate brain worms and had to play around with it!!! the whole idea really grabbed me!! the prose hit too so hard like. this guy is not gonna think or feel in a way that is linear and its been SO indulgent and fun to write!!!

not to mention :3c i am excited to write more of these dynamics :3ccccc miss kafka does thing to me on a soul deep level and the relationship between her and blade and her and reader is so twisted and wretched and its so sexy of her. i'm excited for more of the yan olympics

SFA ANON!! thank you for this ask it has brought me much joy 🙏!! thank you once again for the kindness and for reading and sharing your thoughts, your feedback is very appreciated!!!!

[mewmewkissycutie02]

Mad Mew Mew is an amazing addition to undertale and i'm personally SO glad she's in the game. She's full of life just like every single character Toby Fox writes, personally I love the fact that we have a ghost possessing an anime catgirl animatronic that not only loves ska music but CANONICALLY skanks, loves knives and violence, is a video game streamer, is completely chaotic and unhinged and CUTE and we love her for it <3 not to mention she just. lives in papyrus's and sans' sink??? like she just ..floated in. do u think they know? are they friends?

also im very biased because my personal favorite characters in the pc version of undertale are alphys, mettaton, undyne, and napstablook and she just fits in perfectly like a missing puzzle piece bringing everyone together and UGH . i jst love her me and every other winter alarm clock dialogue enjoyer are waiting Patiently for it to be released. (this will never happen).

She is the only character that you can defeat through fighting in a true pacifist ending of undertale, because you cannot truly kill her, just destroy the vessel she's inhabiting, which is honestly really tragic because you spend the whole battle listening to her talk about how much she loves this body and that she finally for once in her life feels like "herself". she even has a sprite for this* and she promises to get revenge on you . she's easily the most tragic character in the true pacifist ending and i love her so dearly . she struggles with a lot of the same family issues as mettaton, and i absolutely love to hate the dramatic irony of her rivalry with him. the way she thinks about him when she finds that humanoid dog statue??? stop it. im gonna cry. as someone who ADORES mettaton and all four of the ghost cousins honestly she gives their whole family dynamic a lot more depth <3 also here's that sprite :

also??? her dynamic with burgerpants?!? im sorry but im Obsessed. like im praying we get more of them together in deltarune they are so . "The guy working there is SUCH a creep, it's not even funny! He just kept STARING! Like you've never seen a pretty girl… … turn her head around 270 degrees? While, cutting all the pictures of your boss, out of the menu? And replacing them, with pictures, of herself? It's absolutely normal for girls to do that is what I'm saying." they both hate (its Complicated) mettaton and hate each other i think they could create the worst duo in the whole of the underground. not in a ship way to be clear. i dont want to be seen as a dirty shipper (joke)

and the dynamic between her and the Lovers™ (who else but alphys + undyne?) is so good like we all get it every sapphic bitch in the underground wants undyne carnally (nonsexual) "Well, if she's got somebody else… THEN YOU KNOW WHAT I'M GONNA DO TO THEM!?? I'LL RESPECT THEM!!!! I'LL RESPECT THEIR RELATIONSHIP!!! HAHAHA!!! HAPPY FOR HER!! NOTHING BUT THE BEST!!! BEST OF LUCK!!!" in her very short amount of onscreen time she not only establishes that she is Down Bad for her but also extremely respectful of their relationship which isnt something we get in a lot of media!! especially not for lgbt+ relationships lol.

not to MENTIONN. im sorry i know i keep going off on tangents but there is literally so much to love about her. her dynamic with alphys is insane. she stole alphys prized possession and also im going off on a limb here but alphys definitely has ptsd which makes the scene where she pretends the doll is possessed is so much worse (in a good way.) like . with all the true lab shit imagine her FEAR when she goes "That white box? Pretty sure this body interfaces with it somehow! There's some Mew Mew game on there, where if you press the controller… It makes my body's voice box speak in response to what's onscreen! Alphys was using it trying to find this body right when I, er, took it over! I could hear her footsteps approaching as she kept tapping the X button… I crouched in the corner, trying to cover my mouth and voicebox, but… My body kept yelling 'Right here! I'm right here, mew!' Finally, when she was just about to turn the corner and see me… I stood up and shouted with my own voice. 'I'M RIGHT HERE, MEW!' She fainted." like . i jsut want everyone who's reading this to picture this situation with her trauma in mind. its pretty awful and i love it <3 but alphys is still like. totally here to support her and fix up her body if she ever needs it ? another reason alphys is a queen but this post isnt about her sorry

As someone who's played undertale over 100 times on the switch port (#autism) even though she's a skippable character i make sure to visit her every single route because she's so FUN! Her battle mechanic is super enjoyable and her dialogue is really fun too. and yes. shes trans. thats pretty cool too. but personally i feel more seen by the whole. catgirl rude girl? like. ska is so good. i think every character should be more like Her : obsessed with alternative music, combat, bloodlust, and destruction. but just like mettaton she has way more to her character than being trans and i wish everyone could give her credit where credit is due!!!! plus every single toby fox character is written with so much love like i genuinely dont understand how you could think that a toby fox character isnt deserving of its own dedicated fan base. like have you seen sans. papyrus. Mettaton, even?

Okay but do you like Mad Mew Mew for reasons other than the fact she's trans? Or is she only your favorite because she's an easy way to start arguments with transphobes online? Do you only like her because she makes the little wasps in your brain that crave the adrenaline rush of righteous anger feel fed rather than finding a healthier outlet than discoursing shitty people who's minds you're never going to change?

[mushroom-winners-proof]

im always gon be just the smallest bit dodgy about richard epcar as ansem i cant change the fact billy zane graced my eardrums but bro as terranort???? yeah no that’s absolutely perfect i’m glad we got that

[coveredinsweetpea]

My headcanon for Eddie Munson is that he is 1) a virgin (no shame in that!!) or at least inexperienced since everyone considers him a freak and 2) that he would be shy and embarrassed about it but very eager to please his significant other😍 Im so in love with him it’s crazy 🔥

Ugh this is so adorable!!! BUT I THINK IM 50/50 ON THIS!!!

On one hand, I do think he has quite a bit of experience. We know he's older, he looks like that - and fits into the 80s metalhead vibe so he's not that different, and he's unhinged, the man isn't shy (we've all seen him sweep Chrissy off her feet. The man's got game. Not the best game, but he's got it). Maybe he had a girlfriend once, at the beginning of high-school, things didn't work out and ever since then he just had a couple of meaningless hookups, but probably not with girls from the same high-school.

On the other hand, he's super chill about himself, doesn't think twice before saying whatever is on his mind, doesn't give a shit about what other people might think about him and basically just goes with the flow so I wouldn't be surprised if it just hasn't happened for him. But once he gets in a relationship, he'll be the the definition of praise kink. He'll probably be too shy at first to suggest stuff or he might even hold back a bit because he's afraid of doing something wrong, making you uncomfortable or hurting you. But once things get going, he will go crazy. He'll be SO dedicated to making you feel good, always asking you, making sure, wanting to hear you say it. "Is that good? Am I doing that ok?" and whenever he'd be eating you out, except for when his eyes will be rolled back in pleasure because your pussy is the best thing he ever put his mouth on, he'll always have his eyes on you, trying to read your expression and waiting for any kind of feedback (you pulling his hair is one of his favorite ways). And I totally see him stopping right before you finish, because he's clueless like that, just to ask how you're feeling. And he'll beg you to guide him through it!!! Ugh. This man.

Don't even get me started on giving Eddie his first blow job 😩😩

[grimelven]

specifically inquisition leliana for the ask meme!

good, my favorite version of her🙏❤️ is that an unpopular opinion?? maybe, but listen here, i love unhinged inquisition leliana and in this essay I WILL EXPLAIN…okay, it’s really just a personal opinion of mine. i know a lot of fans were really disappointed to see that leliana was still hardened even after softened her in origins, but i mean?? it makes sense. origins was 10 years prior, a lot of things have happened since then and there’s a lot weighing on her conscience and i think she’s dealing with it in the best way she knows how…uh, killing, i guess? now, i do think a lot was retconned, which i’m not a fan of, but besides that, i think it’s interesting that you have an opportunity to soften her in both games. plus, if she’s softened and becomes the divine, her story feels like it comes full circle, y’know? so in that regard, i think her story gets wrapped up pretty nicely. ughhhh but i love her relationship with josie so much, im so glad we got to see it in inquisition. those two make me so happy, lemme tell you. and like, leliana is one of my favorite characters, so the fact that she came back as an advisor in inquisition really means a lot to me, even if she is different, but like i said, she’s been through a lot so i get it. UGH WAIT PRETEND I MARKED THAT THE DEVELOPERS DID HER DIRTY BUT UM WHY WAS THERE LIKE NO INTERACTIONS WITH MORRIGAN AND ALISTAIR- oh don’t even get me started on that, i will never stop taking about how upset about it, like they should have at least had one convo. apparently there was cut dialogue too, wtf bioware you guys really fumbled with that one. anyways, leliana and i go way back cause obviously i know her personally and i’ll defend her🤞🤞

[folktaylor]

didn't realize you watched yellowjackets! it's been a hyperfixation of mine for the past two months lmao. what are your thoughts on it?? how did you feel about the finale??

ugh yes when i was on winter break i binged all the episodes that were available it was SO GOOD

it’s as twisted and messed up and buried and traumatic as anything and i love that you never know if things are supernatural or if it’s the trauma of the situation that’s causing them all to go kind of mad because lbr in the 1996 timeline none of those girls can be considered a reliable narrator bc they’re starving and isolated and traumatized and you can see the remnants of everything leak through their lives in the present and the show shows it as like a dramatic descent in the current timeline esp for tai who has some kind of disassociate identity or fugue state thing happening and im so fascinated by it like her murder altar??? (rip biscuit) did “the bad one” make the sacrifice to win the election?? does she just revert to who she was in the woods because her fugue identity doesn’t realize she ever left?? I’m fascinated. and LOTTIE!!!! i knew there had to be other survivors but i was convinced Lottie was pit girl from the premiere so that shook me. and her emergence as antler queen? so well done because you have a group of girls who mostly have no hope and lottie has visions or is just off her meds and who knows which and her visions offer protection and hope and something that can be clung to esp for people like van who almost died but felt she was saved by the talisman.

and MISTY. listen i know objectively she’s a bad person but as a character i love her she’s unhinged. christina ricci is an icon. misty is def probably playing both sides and probably always has been since the woods because that girl has only ever wanted to feel needed so she’ll do whatever it takes to feel that way. i love her. chaotic. messy. terrible person excellent character.

as for the finale i thought it was great. it was a great set up for s2 because it kinda left you with more questions than answers but still tied up a few plot lines. you had a big death (Jackie) and a huge set up for the cult/clan shit that we got the preview for in the premiere. the murder of adam will probably be a thing in the second season. taissa’s dark side. lottie being alive and probably the leader of the group that just kidnapped nat. also i think it’s safe to assume travis didn’t actually kill himself so that’s tied to the group who took nat so there was A LOT of set up for s2 and i didn’t mind that. the show strikes me as the long game kind of show so i’m okay with not getting that many answers and more set up

ANYWAY long winded rant over thanks for coming to my ted talk

[dragqueenpentheus]

Okay no one has to read this but i DO have to write it:

PYROC VS FATHER PAUL

Ya bitch needs an art break bc im getting angry about voices existing as i try to keep myself entertained. Today is NOT a god one for sinking into repetitive line work and that’s just about all i have on the table atm

SO! Im gunna do a little thinking about my little meow meows all fucked up by religion. Just a comparison for my sanity and interests. Pyroc is my baby i wrote him for the first time years ago. Five?????????? Whadda hell. Going on six.

ANYWAY john joined religion because of his trauma. His sister died and he felt lost. He was unmoored in this fishing village and looking for reason looking for hope. Hed had his heart broken and trying to make sense of tragedy on his own was totally beyond him. Thats why his interactions with riley in AA are SO good like. He knows that confusion and he knows the rhetoric that’s supposed to combat it. Only it dooesnt work for riley.

The same sort of thing happens for pyrc, only inverted. Loss urns him away from god and religion because its SO strong in his family and not only is he loosing trust in god, but his kin as well. He’s suspicious there’s mre they arent telling him, at the point of his fathers death. And he agrees to, on the surface, absolutely wholly throw himself in to being the second the family and the village need. But he’s keeping his treachery under wraps.

That’s one of the coolest things about father paul imo is like. That slow unraveling of what is. Frankly. An awful half assed plan, driven by fear and loneliness and desperation and dementia and love. Even VERY obvious things like. Taking down the newspaper photo of his young self ‘slip’ by him. I think, on some level, its DEEPLY intentional. He wants people to CHOOSE this. He wants people like bev. He wants people who see him and are in aw of him beating god. Of killing death. He wants to be worshiped and adored and for people to come to him willingly, no tragedy driving them to his arms.

Pyroc also wnats to be worshipped, but he ALSO wants to do the worshipping. He really longs for an element of almost????? But not quite??? Subjection?? He wants to be shown something and for a Great Voice to tell him, unquestioningly and unerringly that it is GOOD. Full stop. And then he wants to spend his life worshipping it. But this booko is an exploration of how….. no such thing exists. And more importantly no great voice exists either. There is nothing wholly good, nothing wholy evil. His lack of faith in himself once he becomes god is him starting to understand that as well. Thats on purpose baked into the lore. The starting point was ‘what if god was a position and in order to get promoted you had to be a murderer. No matter what’. He understands things are not wholly good, at that point. I onder how long it will be for him to realize they are not fully evil as well?

Bc pruitt does hm hm hm an interesting move. Where he takes something the narritve is very sure to communicate is EVIL no wiggle room just fact. Even if its driven by animal instinct its. Evil. And he makes it, not just good, but HOLY. And god i LOVEEEE that for him i ADOREEE that what a MOVE. Driven by desperation and dementia and relief and ‘if god saved me than maybe i can be good despite loving and sinning and maybe if i defeat god then i will be Thee Good’. SO sexy of him. Im really fascinated by his morality. He seems to have an understanding of the shades of grey in some respects??? But if he had a BETTER one with more forgiveness in his heart i feel like hed have left the church anyway after sarah was born??? Even if millie didnt ask him??? That might just be my own sensibilities creeping in but ….. like he culd have seen her on the weekends. He can do other jobs. Hes straight (??? Not totally convinced of this) he could have just dated her that makes me crazy. LIKE OBV HE HAD LINES HE THOUGHT THAT WOULD CROSS AND HE HAD INTERNALIZED THE CHURCH AND THE RULES AND SHE WAS MARRIED AND ECT ECT i know he couldnt have really but. Thye were straight. They coulda.

Im not gunna do fantasy homophobia bc i think its …………….. Boring. But i think some element of??? The vindlegaurd line MUST be passed along and for that particular rules must be applied. But thats also boring as hell :/ maybe i can work in my parthenogenesis lore?????????? I bet pyroc would love building that spell in any universe. That’s the sequal when he goes to magic university in helsin. But yeah i do like the concept that. Anyone can have a baby thru magic its just a time and energy commitment. Just a matter of wanting it enough together. Every baby is so deeply wanted and its mere existence is proof. Thats dope i love that. HMMM to be decided at a later date when im deeper into the story i think. I still havent figured out fully how and where and why orion is going to be invovled and if???? Pyroc and orion are even going to be romantic??????? Im torn im TORn…….

Thikns about john bonding w sarah over science and learning and starts wEEPING…. Like theres some surity beloved. Its just a matter of uncovering. I think sarah felt that same thirst for answers and hunted them differently. Her faith is in logic and science. I loveeee her god. Every scene w her and her dad absolutely RUIN me like!!!!!! SHE DOESNT KNOW!!! SHE DOESNT KNOW HOW LOVED SHE IS!!!!!! I hope at hte very end she saw the blood as the gesture of love it SO clearly was and not him trying to poison her. God i love that she spat it out. GOD. Thats about being gay, btw. Spits the religious offering that could save you across the gasoline soaked church floor like BABE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think we as a collective should talk about the possibiites around sarah/erin more. Bc their defiance combined would be. Earth SHATTERING for crockett.

In the future pyroc gets a kid. Ever since that campaign where Enemy ended up playing his daughter im like. How did i NOT know this idiot wanted nothing more in the entire world than to travel it with his daughter. I dont care how or why hes getting a kid. Hed be so doting and awful abut it. He would need orion as a co-parent for the kids self esteem to be normal levels. thINKS ABOUT PAUL GETTING TO RAISE SARAH AND JUST ABSOLUTELY GASSING HER UPPPPPPPP HANGING EVERY DOODLE SHE EVER MADE ON TEH FRIDGE. BOASTING ABOUT HER SCEINECE PROJECT OT ANYONE WITHIN EYESIGHT EVEN THOUGH ‘WE K N O W JOHNWE WERE ALL AT THE SCEINCE FAIR’!!!!!!!!!!! Let these fuck ups be doting fathers im fucking begging. That scene where paul is like. You take ccare of everyone on the island sarah. Its more than being a doctor. You comfort them.

HM HM comfort is such a thing for Miss Bitch like!! He sees it as a Good Thing. He tries to bring it for riley by asking to hold the AA meetings on island ((also manipulation. Obvously also manipulation. I wouldnt have bene shocked if he was slipping the vampire blood into the coffee every meeting either. But thats just a theory. A game theory.)) ANYWAY he sees comfort as hly. The church gave it to him when he needed it. The angel gave it to him in the cave. Feeling safe and warm is HIGH on his list of priorities and what makes him hand over respect.

I think pyroc has lived a very comfortable life in SO many ways, but in none he. Activly recognizes. A key part of his character arc his him…. Opening his eyes to the world around them. Seeing the privilege he has and being like. Wait. This isnt Right. We have to change thi. And when no one agrees ti shifts to I have to change this. With Violence. A little revolutionary <3 it only costs the life of his whole ass family

Thats more fun comparison ground like…… paul is SO much about I know whats right and there is a cost but i AM ignoring it. Like HE KNOOOOWSSSS he knooooows he just doesnt want o See. I’m not sure if im going to surprise yroc with the ……megadeath of. His whole family. Or if it’s a choice he has to activly make. I think a choice makes it more compelling, more layerd. It has to be in the moment though, becaus ei think thats. A key difference between them. Pyroc wouldnt do it.. hed just leave hed peace out and do what he could in small ways. But he wouldnt do his big stand off with god. Hed shrink his goals in order to not hurt his family. Out of love?? Intimidation?? Some instinct wihtin him that balks at the idea of disobedience??? I think even he doesnt know. But i LOVE john becaue he jsut decides to lie. He closes his eyes and says i am being stupid on purpose. I think thats PERHAPS more compelling than good guy coward pyroc BUT!!!!! Thats who he is rip to ths little man. Cant change him now hes a whole ass child in my head. The PLOT i can change. Him….. not without massive character development <3

UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MM set my brain on FIRE!!!! Im so glad nano is coming up. I love sharpening pyroc against the comparison of other AMAZING characters. Father paul hill my beloved millstone <3 anyway sorry to anyone who reads this its literally me unhinging my jaw and emptying my brain out. I had to write stuff that wasn’t novel or fic. A little character time down and dirty. I wil NOT be editing this love and light to future me trying to decode this

[wincore]

AGREEEE, WORKING OVER THE WEEKEND IS THE WORST esp since im in uni full time and i work 9-5 on the weekends which means... no breaks for me ever.. 🥲

MASSIVE CRUSH ON OIKAWA OMGGG I SUPPORT THIS!!!!! but i am unfortunately much older than 15 and still enamored by 2d men 😔 life’s rough like that HDJWKDJ YES ATSUMU CAUSES PROBLEMS ON PURPOSE.. HES THE WORST!! btw.. ive heard that the oikawa to atsumu stan pipeline is very real... so if u get to s4.. u may develop atsumu brain rot like me 👁_👁

OOO alright run on, extracurricular, vincenzo, true beauty, love alarm, & perfect crime. NOTED!! ive actually been meaning to watch extracurricular for a while now, it looks so interesting!! now that it has the wincore seal of approval i must watch 😤 OMGG SAKURADA DORI I SAW HIM IN ALICE IN BORDERLAND!! super good show but really gore heavy at some points 👁

ahh ok thank u for the reccs, ive been thinking about starting demon slayer too!! shoplifters sounds really interesting :oo crime??? i havent watched a full movie in a while so i will def check it out!! THESE R ALL GOING IN MY NOTES APP.

NEXT YEARRR omg it sounds far away but i know time passes so quickly nowadays so I WILL WISH U LUCK ONCE AGAIN 💛 i hope u update us when the time comes!!

UGHWHHD EVEN THIS SYNOPSIS IS MAKING ME MISS UR WRITING?!? I LOVE THE WAY U WORD IT... “given a choice to pretend, you find that jaehyun is the lesser of the two burdens to bear” AHHHHHHH omg “he’s in a relationship and doesn’t rlly care about the soulmate system” THIS IS ALWAYS SUCH A PAINFUL SCENARIO IN SOULMATE AUS PLSS!!! Wait is the soulmate of yn gonna be an oc/vague character or another member :O EITHER WAY... PAIN! THIS IS GETTING ME SO EXCITED AND U HAVENT EVEN MENTIONED ANYTHING ABOUT WHAT JAEHYUN’S LIKE IN THIS FIC YET

RUNWAY CHARACTER CAMEOOOS YESS I LOVE RUNWAY YN!!!! i actually reread it last night and ugh i was reminded how much i love yns personality... just the process of experiencing all tht self doubt with them!!! so real & makes u root for them :’)

“if jeno plays edward i need him to that apple scene like taemin did” WHHHHHWJDJJWJDBW THIS MADE ME CHOKE ON THE WATER I WAS DRINKING LMFAO

GODDDD THESE TROPE/MEMBER PAIRINGS, HARD AGREE HARD AGREE!!! HAECHAN AND RENJUN ARE E2L 100%!!!! i think bc the ppl in the bff2l category cant convincingly hate yn back LOL

“gets complimented on his lyricism often but like every song’s about you” STOPPPPP HES SO PERFDCT FOR THIS TROPE!!!!!

OMG I SEE EXACTLY WHAT U MEAN ABT SICHENG IN ROYALTY/CHAEBOL AUS... i think like u said it’s because of his poise & the way ppl are generally in awe of him but also bc of his reluctance to open up!! more reserved until he trusts u... funny and kind but sometimes perceived as aloof... those r some prince tendencies! “what are corporate businesses but modern day kingdoms” LMFAOOWJDJ SERIOUSLY THO

“mans really said i will not give you any onscreen idol personality to work with” HDJWJDJWJSJ LITERALLYYYY this is why i have trouble reading jaehyun fics sometimes bc sometimes they can feel “inaccurate” but its mostly just bc there’s no Standard Personality Stereotype to go off of. but a random & uncommon trope i think he’d pair well with is exes to lovers!! Yes im basically just a jaehyun + angst advocate.

“i think most of them would pair well with bff2l??” FACTTTTTTT and no im not just saying this bc its one of my favorite tropes.. heh... i think i told u this before?? but ur like the main reason i started enjoying e2l!!! i didnt like it before bc i love the PINING in bff2l but then i started reading ur works n was like OH SHIT! THERES LOADS OF PINING HERE TOO...

i think yangyang is not bff2l or e2l, he is in his own category which is Annoyer2Lover HDJWKDJ ex: troublemaker, wasted nights

OMGGGG I DID NOT EXPECT ROYALTY AU TO HAVE SUCH A LARGE LEAD IN THE SURVEY??? and cryptids is so low 😔😔 cmon guys, vampires r fun!!!

WE R LITERALLY WRITING ESSAYS TO EACH OTHER RN BUT I LOVE IT 🥺🥺 its a such a nice break to read ur response when im burnt out from studying!!

OMG IM GOING THROUGH #moonwrites AND IM LITERALLY AN IDIOTTTT IVE BEEN OFF TUMBLR FOR SO LONG I DIDNT REALIZE THAT ROMEO ROULETTE HAD A PREVIEW OUT????

“And I get what out of this?” “Me?” IM IN LOVE WITH THIS CHARACTERS PERSONALITY ALREADY LMFAOO

“—and when this whole game you’re playing is over, you’re going to say I rejected you.” ?!?!???? THE WAY JAEHYUN IS A LITTLE SHIT! THEIR PERSONALITIES ARE BOTH SO FUN PLSJWJDJEJ IM MORE EXCITED NOW!!

pls disregard the part in my last ask where i asked abt romeo roulette.... i had no idea all of the information i needed was sitting right in front of me 😔😔

- tata

WHAT 9 TO 5 ON EVERY WEEKEND???? the system has failed you this honestly feels like a villain origin story 😭 when does it get better???

ALSO let me answer the other asks separately for better readability lol we really out here writing essays GOOD THING i have practice writing but like. this is infinitely better to write 🥰

PLSSS SOMETIMES I WILL SEE AN EDIT/TIKTOK OF OIKAWA AND BE LIKE DAMN I REALLY NEED TO CATCH UP I MISS THIS MF also are you daring me to ruin my life for 2d men bc i will do it without hesitation. wait till i watch hq again and get that atsumu brainrot with you he seems annoying enough for me to like ^_^

AND YES PLS I WAS SO ABSORBED IN IT!! extracurricular was the most gripping show i’ve watched in a while like yes enough teen romance give me two unhinged teenagers doing crime 🤩 AND OMG??? THAT’S WHERE WE SAW HIM TOO and although niragi was literally vomit-inducing human trash, sakurada dori is like. a good actor. except i hated coffee&vanilla which starred him it was literally so cringe i couldn’t 😭 i blame the writers for that though. IM EXCITED FOR S2 OF ALICE IN BORDERLAND THO i really like horror (and i can tolerate gore if ive been desensitized enough) and like i read the manga too!!! the games were really interesting (although morbid).

😭😭 MY NOTES APP IS FULL OF RECS FROM FRIENDS ALL OF THEM HATE ME FOR NOT WATCHING THE SHOWS BUT LIKE. i binge 3 or 4 at a time and strike them off and then go 6 months without watching a single tv series hhh.

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! I SURE WILL UPDATE !!! it’s so exciting to think about grad school sometimes :33

AHHH IM SO GLAD YOU LIKE IT AND THE PREVIEW TOO SGSDJKDS there’s a few differences in the actual fic i think bc i changed up the language (and i dont remember what else bc i refuse to look at my writing) JAEHYUN RLLY IS A LITTLE SHIT he’ll be like hm yeah im pretty chill :) and then proceed to beat yn at her own game at times. (she wins mostly dw) the fact that i made her soulmate cha eunwoo like girl if i were you i’d crash their relationship 🥱 (jk) but like. jaehyun too is 🤩 despite being dry af

ASDKDSKDS YOU REREAD ALL (ALMOST) 19K WORDS ??? IM SO GLAD YOU LIKE THAT FIC SM AAAAHHH IM FEELING LIKE AN ACTUAL AUTHOR 🥰 i loved runway yn too they were like boss attitude with 20% anxiety.

LOOK JENO BETTER BE PULLING MOVES LIKE THAT TO IMPRESS THE GIRLS 😤 if he hits himself in the forehead with the apple, bonus points bc that was true comedy (as invented by taemin)

AND YES. LIKE I KNOW MARK HATED DONGHYUCK SO MUCH HE WANTED TO LEAVE SM BUT LIKE HE’S TOO NICE WITH EVERYONE ELSE 😭😭😭 i cannot picture him pissed off apart from that summer fight </3

thinking about dejun getting rejected by a girl he wrote a song for. rip brother.

IM GLAD YOU PUT THAT INTO WORDS BC THAT’S EXACTLY WHAT IT IS!!! he’s got all of these regal qualities but he’s still human ykyk so it makes for the most amiable person on earth 😌 i love this characterization of him!!

oof exes to lovers with jaehyun... i had a similar idea a while ago (with theme song sincerity is scary by the 1975) that i discarded bc i don’t think i’m cut out to write that 😭 (YET) so i will keep this is mind. u r so right about jaehyun feeling inaccurate bc it’s like he’s very mild in personality onscreen sometimes?? so him having strong personality traits makes me go 🤔🤔 that man is overreacting. (jkjk but like you get the idea)

WAIT RLLY OMG BC OF ME???? i would never enjoy e2l irl bc irl dudes are 🤢🤢 and if they annoy me i will end them. but in fiction the mutual pining and initial disgust at yourself for liking the other??? helllooo 🤩🤩🤩 especially if it’s in a romcom style <3 bff2l is also better in fiction bc if the relationship doesnt work out irl and the person become uncomfortable with me i will just get annoyed jskshdl

LMAO YOU ARE SO RIGHT ABOUT YANGYANG HE’S JUST THAT™ DUDE skgkhs he feels like someone fun to hang out with but he would annoy you the whole time. also he is cute 🥰

AND EXACTLY!!!! IM HAPPY FOR ROYALTY AUS BUT CMON. LOOK AT THOSE VAMPIRE TEETH. feel like media ruined vampires for people 😔 

THIS IS SUCH A NICE BREAK FROM STUDYING HONESTLY!!!! im like working on two semi-large projects AND studying course and out-of-course material simultaneously so my brain is a little fried. thank u for this 😘

[miksanchismosa]

Okay I say this about all of them but for real this time…buckle up 😳 (as almost always I got my initial read through notes then the rambles of an unhinged mind that has had way too much free time and literally 4 monster energy drinks in less than 24 hours)

The tl;dr of below the cut is:

and I mean it more than ever this time 😂😬 so you’ve been warned.

Yoongi was still there 😳 somehow I didn’t think that would be the actual position. Like I legit thought you wanted us to think that when you dropped the spoiler but that in reality it was something else??? Was he caught on accident??? Like did he think he had more time? No way right? He’s Yoongi, he would such known when bro was due back…so he stayed on purpose? 🤔🤔🤔 I HAVE SO MANY QUESTIONS. He was far too calm to have been caught off guard…did he come up with a plan last night (as he lay awake unable to sleep bc feelings 👀🥴)? To tell bro what happened. What’s up with bro anyways??? Is he pissed about Jimin??? I feel like he doesn’t suspect Yoongi at all. Just based on previous comments, but he def side eyes Jimin with reader…he did it at basketball too. I feel like his attitude might be because of that?? Ugh. Hmm but also bro was quieter than she thought from the get so maybe something happened on his trip instead. (Editor’s note: this mystery solved itself after the reveal…he does still side eye Jimin more but I digress)

I wanna scream JUST TEXT HIM. But no she’s right if he’s with bro and he sees her name pop up?? Ugh maybe he saved it as a nickname??? BUT WHO KNOWS (wait…that’s a good ass question what are their contacts saved as in their respective phones 👀) [editor’s note: we see in her phone his number is saved as just Yoongi BUT I STILL NEED TO KNOW WHAT HE SAVED HER NUMBER AS…he’s a recovering fuckboi so I know he ain’t got a lot of numbers saved that’s for damn sure…I have more thoughts about this one later…]

“But Yoongi said he’d figure something out. Knowing him—because you’d like to think you do now, to some degree—he wouldn’t just say that for nothing. He wouldn’t have said it if he didn’t mean it.” And more ✨growth✨…we love to see it 😭

HELLO MR FRESH JELLY IM READY. Ready for Tae to pay up now too with his own chisme 👀 WHO ARE YOU SNEAKING AROUND WITH TAE?? (Jimin? 👀)

“Wait. Jimin? Why the hell would he do that” hmmmmmmmmmm curious and curiouser. I need more before I conclude anything but thoughts are being THUNK. And of course you bring up the after basketball scene AGAIN. You love this don’t you 😐 LOVE TO TEASE US smh (��just like his little tease before the intramural game.“ that’s what this is referencing right? When he brought up what happened after basketball before the intramural game and was like I’ll tell you later??? But of course didn’t) [Editor’s note: BECAUSE IT WAS ALL RELATED AND YOURE AN EVIL GENIUS I LOVE YOU 😭]

“It’s complicated.” 😏 knew it

Oh so Yuri’s man, Rohan??? A name!!! (“Her laugh always reminds you of bubbles. Pretty bubbles that fill grassy backyards and playgrounds with pops of delicate rainbows.” 🥺 !!! Get out of here with your beautiful imagery 😭😭😭 WHY ARE YOU SO TALENTED I SWEAR I JUST SMELT THIS SCENE IF THAT MAKES SENSE)

“Rainbows? Yeah. But not much sunshine.” Bahahahaha 😂☠️

““I hate him actually,” she whispers, to which you chuckle at while feeling like your chest has suddenly caved in.” damn this even hurt me 😭🥲

“with Yoongi simply throwing a look over his shoulder from his seat on the couch.” This might actually kill me. If this is how it’s gonna be every time they see each other now🧍🏽‍♀️ (editor’s note: I’m assuming I meant the tension of him not speaking??? Like the man didn’t say a word, just those damn unreadable eyes)

“Good sign. That’s a good sign, right?” Wait 🥺 why is she still worried about that??? He’s def only not texting her bc he’s been with the bro/working or busy. I-…no! Bb don’t do that. I bet he’s just as worked up about the whole thing…or waiting for her to do it when she comfortable idk UGH BUT DEF NOT BECAUSE HE DOESNT WANT TO that’s all I know

“Your mind fizzes, bubbling with a million scenarios you hadn’t even thought of yet and all of them are giving you grief.” Literally reader:

“Why is the answer already solidifying in your mind?” 😭😭😭😭😭

“Who’s to say he won’t.” “Probably him.” Fuck

“Are they this obvious to everyone else and you’re simply the only one blocking yourself from what’s really going on?“ YES

“Oh, you get it. You just don’t want to. Cus you’re scared of what it really is.” Damn Dom out here dropping bombs

““Because… Well, what if it doesn’t work out? What if there’s a fallout and my brother gets involved?” Sorrow overpowers hope on your tongue as you avert your gaze.” Hmm interesting how it’s assumed bro wouldn’t have to be involved at all unless things go bad…like would this be in secret first???

“Your eyes once again find the playground floor, drifting over to the untouched seesaw.” 👀👀👀

“Thinking about that same scenario feels like how agony must taste. No matter how many times you swallow, you can’t seem to get the suffering out of your mouth.” (Editor’s note: there was no commentary…that’s just a good ass line 😂)

“And I think that’s cus he makes you happy with yourself.” 😭😭😭 I AM SO SOFT HELP

“You [7:17pm]: hi” 😏 you think you’re clever don’t you…………………….WELL IT’S TRUE YOU ARE 😭😂

“Like an ink stamp of his persona—never fully transferred.” (Editor’s note: I talk about this later…sigh 🤧 but for some reason 😒 all I did was copy and paste this at first so I’m leaving it bc I try not to change my initial read through notes)

“…His phone?” THEY’RE SO SIMILAR, bet he was doing the same damn thing/maybe things progressed at work?? But my bet is he also kept opening and closing their chat, fighting the urge to reach out first.

“But, what I was gonna say was,” he smiles, walking back to the coffee table to grab his phone. “You’ll wanna be here for this one.” Wiggling his device at you, he vaguely responds with a mysterious, “You’ll see.” RYEN SHUT UP HOLD ON I HAVE TO MESSAGE YOU IMMEDIATELY (editor’s note: aaaaaaand I did 😂 I really ran away with this later 😬😳 sorry not sorry)

“A knock on the front door causes you both to flinch. Eyeing your sibling, you watch as he goes to open it after offering, “I’ll tell you later.”” THIS IS KILLING ME BRO WHAT IS ON YOUR MIND

Hmm. Yoongi is over again. He hasn’t said a single word to reader yet…just huffs and small smiles. Does he not trust himself to say anything??? What’s wrong? Is he sad too 🥺

“According to your heart, it’s been weeks.” Damn straight 😭

“giddy that Yoongi’s taking your offer but wait oh fuck did you really just say that out loud goddamn it—“ ugh i love them. Also istg they share one singular braincell: “It’s small. It’s subtle. But it’s there.” HE IS!! (Editor’s note: missing her too, ngl I was even confused when I read that out of context and had to go back 😂) The man sat up so fast when she asked for help, ain’t no way he wasn’t itching for a moment to latch onto 😭😭😭

“It’s your brother’s phone. “Ah, shit. Lemme take this.”” IT’S HAPPENING

“And you feel like he couldn’t be further away.” 😭 they need this moment alone

“Lip bitten, you face your pan, shyness now accompanying your sadness. Of course he would remember. Of course he would point that out. It’s so inherently him that your heart almost slips into the pan in front of you.” The tension is so palpable I’m feeling sick

“A wonderful scenario you can keep imagining at night, or during a confession scene, or simply while driving to a job you aren’t happy with.” 😭😭😭😭

Fuck it, come here.” Agagshdjkfklg “Colors burst as Yoongi lets you go as quickly as he claimed you”

“Stars. Stars. Your eyes are stars.” And “It hurts it hurts it hurts.” There’s those threes again. (Editor’s note: Idk if I’ve told you but I fucking love it when you do that in your writing 😭 I hope I don’t make you hyper aware of it now bc it feels like it’s not intentional and I think that’s why I like it so much. And it happens a lot…in a good way. Tho I guess you are hella intentional…)

““I miss you” eyes welling impossibly fast and lungs on fire.” 😭 (editor’s note: at this point I’m all quotes and emojis 😂 I was in my feels 🥲)

Oh shit…okay I don’t think JK is obvservant enough but imagine he comes to the party and eats the food and connects the dots??? Like wait wasn’t Yoongi eating this that one morning 👀 That would be a WILD fucking way for him to find out (editor’s note: obviously this was a stretch the first time I wrote it but I stand by it…LIKE IMAGINE!!! Throwing Jk into this chapter would have been too much tho…so much was already revealed…can’t add another variable in)

“Anyone else with you?” And by anyone she means Tae 😏

“He could run for council one day with those mannerisms, especially with a force like Taehyung by his side.“ 😏😏😏 I’ll never not be smug about this. They’ve been sus for so long…no matter how flirty they both are with everyone. (Editor’s note: oh shit they flirt with like everyone but each other…maybe that should have been a clue 👀😂 lol jk jk)

“Did anyone take your seat? Is this someone’s food?” huh indeed…yoongi? Maybe he scooped her an extra portion and left it there 👀🥺

“Your brother said he’s been sucked into his phone often, but you haven’t noticed that tonight.” Duh 🙄 bc you’re in the room why would he need his phone??? Like hello??? Someone smack her pls (affectionately 😂)

Wait, didn’t one of y’all tag that abandoned pool before?” How dare you bring up the fire music video. HOW DARE YOU. That Yoongi in the pool dancing 🥴🥴🥴 messes me up fr with his ball cap and ripped jeans

“He’s so handsome when he’s happy.” 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 (Editor's note: we will scream about this more later BUT YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DID 😭😭😭 and I can't pretend I noticed right away, you got a message as soon as I did tho 😂)

“But now, you decide to exude pure joy from your lonely spot on a wall, and you see a brilliant spark take root in his eyes.” How am I completely and utterly soft and just all butterflies whilst simultaneously being completely and utterly devastated and want to cry…EXPLAIN THAT TO ME OKAY

“Yearning took over like a weed, quickly overrunning your chest and making it hard for you to accept being a mere wallflower.” Ask and you shall receive!! Bc this is an amazing explanation to my previous point 😂😭😭😭😭 and I fucking love this sentence. You don’t understand.

“Basketball? Ah, yeah” “You whip your stare to his, which causes his jaw to shut in an instant.” IS THIS IT?? Ryen istg if you set it up again only for them to get interrupted again I will RIOT

“I’ll tell you, but. I feel like either of them should instead.” Oh fuck wait. Wait wait wait wait. Okay before I read what it is…okay wtf I need to calm down 😭😂. Yoongi and bro I’m assuming. Shit wtf happened. (Editor's note: I am so freaking dramatic. I really paused reading just to write that?? 🙄 how do you put up with me 😂)

OH FUCK THE KEY!!! wtf wtf the key makes so much more sense now 😭😭😭😭 ngl I was like that seems…idk drastic??? (I mean don’t get me wrong I was dying at the implications at the time but there was some side eyeing there for sure too) Oh my gawd 😭 he was keeping her safe 🥺🥺🥺🥺

“The way he kept looking over his shoulder while you walked at night. Telling you that Jimin knows.”… “This also explains why Jimin freaked out at Taehyung’s place.” YOU’RE A GENIUS RYEN 😭😭😭 I love you and your bbb and I take back all the loving threats I’ve ever sent to you 😭

“No wonder the fucker looked familiar; no wonder it felt so off; no wonder Jimin’s heart was racing as much as yours was.” We have now reached the part of the chapter where I once again ask for your hand in marriage 😭😭😭😭

“You need something. You don’t know what. Yoongi. Your room. To be alone. His place. Nowhere. Is it stuffy in here? You need space. Space.” It’s the way Yoongi was first for me 😫😫😫😫😖

“And you quickly excuse yourself, almost missing the pair of eyes watching your hasty exit to your bedroom.“ FOLLOW HER YOONGI 😭😭😭 go comfort your girl 😭😭😭😭

“The feelings swirling in your chest have no place to go but out of your ducts, pinging onto your floor and into your clothes.” How is it possible that your writing got even better? Wtf

“Yoongi [10:20pm]: I know” the instantaneous I know 🔪 WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME

“Because now, more than ever, you wanna run right for that godforsaken finish line.” Same. I guess I knew it would be a phone call, and yet here I am grieving the sliver of me that thought maybe just maybe he would sneak up to her room for a hug. Fuck why is that so fucking sad? Probably because they were literally hundred of feets apart at most physically…that’s it. So close and yet so far away

“Jimin knew not to let me get you. You haven’t noticed, but. I still have a big ass bruise from him shoving me into the bar.” Fucking knew it. Yoongi would have ended up in jail

“He had really nice ones on today, so they’re probably going into those neat, clear bins he uses for more coveted pairs.” Why would you do this to me 😭 this is such a small yet intimate thought and I can’t THEYRE PRACTICALLY MARRIED 🔪🔪🔪 and it’s only been days 🧍🏽‍♀️

“There’s a quiet moment. Then a quiet, rueful huff of breath.” Was it the babe 🥺 does it affect him just like his doll does her 🥲

“Just missed you.” 😐😐😐😐 AND RIGHT BEFORE WE GONNA GET TO THE SMUT YOU’RE A DEVIL

“Careful, doll. Neighbors can’t know my name just yet.” JUST YET WHAT DO YOU MEAN JUST YET AGSHDHFJGKGKGLG

“But you don’t need to admit that to him.” No but I think you do…he would lose his shit if she started talking dirty right back 🥴

“throw in a few scenarios that you dare not bring up.” Uhm no wtf share with the class pls 👀 *seconds later* “Maybe you will now” oh thank fuck

“The amount of lust and something scarier you’re carrying for this man is at an all-time peak.”

“My girl’s so dirty.” Damn straight she’s yours and damn straight she is 😈😌👀🥴

“Where’s my kiss?” “Good luck, babe” ☠️

“Bogged down by a past that clings to your feet like quicksand, dragging you away from wonderful, tender things you’ve been told. But it seems like you found a step of solid footing. One sure, stable piece of foundation that has probably been there for longer than you’d known.” (Editor’s note: again I didn’t have a comment…your writing is just stellar 😭)

“Walking to a finish line is just as significant as running. Because if you get there, you get there, and that’s a win.“ I literally cried

(editor’s note: I blame a myriad of things but mostly how talented you are so pls LEAVE ME ALONE I CANT 😭😂)

“that you want occupied for an uncountable amount of nights.” 😭😭😭😭

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Okay so yeah…this is my new favorite chapter I decided and I’ll tell you why. I know you keep saying it’s just so much dialogue but it’s more than that. It’s the really good mashup reprise at the end of the first act. That’s literally the only way I know how describe it. It’s the Non-stop of the series (I really hope you’ve listened to Hamilton or else this metaphor is MOOT)[I couldn't wait and it has been confirmed for just this moment😂]. There’s a lot happening sure, and yeah it’s a lot of dialogue but it brilliantly tied together all the previous parts. That’s my favorite thing about reprises. I just think they're so clever and they make you almost…nostalgic??? Does that make sense? Like the small references and nods and ties to the other parts just makes me appreciate them all the more AND it makes me want to go back to revisit them (which I did and I saw that a lot of people said they felt the same way). It feels like we’ve reached the turning point, the end of the first act. Reader even said so herself…she’s got a good fucking reason not to overthink when it comes to him anymore. At least where feelings are concerned. For Yoongi, I think it was the kiss and the I miss you in the kitchen, he needed to hear it. Even someone as confident as him…he needed that reassurance that she still wanted him. He’s constantly telling her to tell him what she wants and istg every time it’s like he’s begging for it to be him. Like subconsciously he’s compelled to ask until she finally says the thought they’re both refusing to acknowledge (to date, to be together, to be able to show how much they actually care about each other consequences be damned). Cause you know he’s not gonna be the one to say it…I’m not sure he’d let himself be that selfish (bc that’s how I’m sure he see it...the she deserves better than him/he’s not good enough for someone like her crap). For her, it was obviously the huge revelation…knowing the extend that he went to to keep her safe. The burden he kept to himself so that she wouldn’t have to shoulder it. 😭😭😭 I don’t think I even need to say more about that, we’re all soft as hell over here as is.

So yeah…the phone call…them making plans to see each other despite bro being back. This is the turning point…well actually more accurately…the point of no return (lol wait did I just make another musical theater reference without meaning to 😬 WHOOPS 😂😏…Yoongi is much less toxic than the phantom don’t worry 😂). Fuck this got long…this is what happens when I have 12+ hours of driving to just zone out and think. At least 6 of those were spent singing music at the top of my lungs (partially to keep awake…also I’m running off a lot of energy drinks and that always does this to me. I get contemplative) and I did in fact dip into some obc recordings so that explains the reprise connection I hope 😂. (Editor's note: okay so this paragraph was actually written last, when I was actually trying to write coherent paragraphs and not just copy and paste quotes and random thoughts as I thought them. But for the sake of things flowing in some sort of order I am starting with it and now trying to piece all the random thoughts into some sort of point lol. So while this reprise explanation did in fact get away from me... I mostly meant this entire review 😬). With that said, I think it only makes sense now to go through the potential references/callbacks to other parts that I noticed when reading them again (my warning is that while I am 100% certain about the more blatant ones...I do also naturally jump to a lot of conclusions as well 😂). I feel like a lot of them were from the drabbles??? But maybe that's bc I love screaming about how similar they think and we get a lot of Yoongi POV in the drabbles 🤷‍♀️

Gonna start of strong with the callback to countdown. Yoongi thinks “You look so beautiful when you’re happy” when he's watching her across the room at the NYE party and now we get reader thinking “He’s so handsome when he’s happy” watching him across the room...like WTF. You don't understand how SHOOK I was when I read this. I swear I sat there like:

(Then messaged you to be like 🥺🥺🥺🥺 bc I repeat: WTF). Okay everyone say thank you Ryen and go back to read Countdown if you haven’t already 🤧.

I really had to get that first one out there because it's literally gonna haunt me but next I'll do Basketball bc there are a lot from that one (for obvious reasons):

“As soon as he turns, he gives you a once over with furrowed brows. “What the hell are you wearing? You walked all the way here in that?”” !!!!!!!!!!! So obviously it doesn’t matter what she was wearing and it was not cool of bro to even ask when they talk about it in this chapter BUT…now that we know dalo creep = basketball scum 👀. Knowing that bro commented on her clothing choice the first time the creep saw her gives a lot more context as to why he even brought it up in the first place now (and why he immediately took it back after remembering that’s an absurd question 😒)

Next the phone call in basketball too…she missed Yoongi’s call and when she called back he was already on the way to check on her. I assumed he was mad/sounding stressed because of work but…was he worried about her? Bc of the threats? They would have been fresh at this point 😳. So he was really pissed at himself for having to work so late…he couldn’t check on her earlier. And pissed he’ll be busy with the same shit tomorrow. IS THIS WHY YOU COULDNT DO LIKE ANY OF THE DRABBLES I REQUESTED (bc literally never shut up about the doorway scene this missed phone call leads to) 😂 his thoughts would have given it away FOR SURE 😳 (it’s also okay if they just didn’t spark your interest). “That wasn’t what I came for, doll.” NO IT WASN’T HE CAME TO MAKE SURE YOU WERE SAFE BC YOU DIDN’T ANSWER AND THERE’S A STALKER OUT THERE 😭😭😭😭

Lastly let’s talk about Vmin…now that Jimin being Tae’s sneaky link is confirmed I’m also wondering if Jimin’s flirty tactic to get Tae to come pick her up was just so he could see him 👀 (cause he even got some side eye from bro…he is shameless tho so hmmm). BUT reader also comments “there’s no way Jimin would’ve told you to make him come get you if you were in anything casual or modest” so it could have been a little bit of both…wanting to see Tae but also Jimin looking out for reader like the homie he is. Jimin does also seem to genuinely care for reader…presumably in a little sister way but I can’t lie…the vibes feel off. BUT only (I hope) bc the man is an incorrigible flirt and seemingly incapable of talking about feelings like the fuckboi he is 😂. I’m really rooting for Vmin so I hope we get to see some of Tae’s POV from that week 👀 (I’ll take Jimin’s too, I ain’t picky 😌😭)[But also since we’re on Vmin from dalo…the weird tension with Jimin and reader after the confrontation? His heart was racing 100% bc the dude was the same one who made threats but the “not what I was expecting”? Hmm. I know he’s with Tae but unless Jimin already knew about Yoongi being down bad for reader at this point (he already knew about reader and Yoongi being something bc Tae told us he told him the night he covered for her)…idk that comment still has me raising a brow. Earlier when he called too (about dying his hair) Yoongi did an uncomfortable neck rub thing and it must be bc he’s uncomfortable with Jimin knowing right? AND since Jimin is with Tae he hears a lot about her now so maybe just in general he’s learning more about her and has been surprised… 👀🤞🏽] (ugh this one is all over the place and brackets WHO but that’s because I’m all over the place with Jimin still OKAY 🥴)

“And the look on Taehyung’s face is so comical that you have to look away.” Tae being asked if reader is seeing Jimin hits different now too 😂 (and yet still sus WHYYYYY)

Yoongi in stay: “he follows your pointing hand to his table, and that’s when he notices a foiled plate, chest feeling slightly heavier yet lighter at the same time.” Reader in this chapter: “Your chest is both a lot heavier and a lot lighter than it used to be. Like a significant part of you has been replaced with solid stone.” 👀👀👀 I def have made a teasing comment towards Yoongi about that initial line so 😂 I feel vindicated somehow idk why

Okay the last two recalls/references are definitely a product of my overthinking but I wrote it all out anyways so here . First from balcony: “So you like the idea of them but not the real thing?” I don’t think I fully analyzed/understood this moment until reading it again after this part…after when he said/‘joked’ he thought she forgot about him already…like was he worried that now she got the real thing for a whole week that she decided the idea was better? 😭. Has he been worried reader has liked the idea of him more than she would like the real him this entire time??? 😭 While we’re here…I think I could write an entire essay on Fireworks/it’s accompanying drabbles. Like the fireworks = metaphor for how Yoongi sees reader. Beautiful bright…only comfortable watching them from a distance. Scary and unpredictable up close…how he questioned if his feelings would even last…bc fireworks don’t last, they’re fleeting. Also back to what Yoongi has her number saved as…just as a painful fun scenario for everyone involved, hear me out…like a fuckboi he saved it using only emojis…only the emoji is fireworks 🎆 🎇🥺🥺🥺 (Ugh the latest song I’ve been obsessively listening to on repeat, bc that’s something I do, has a line that goes “I always thought I might be bad, now I’m sure that it’s true. ‘Cause I think you’re so good, and I’m nothing like you” and I’ve always liked that line but it’s literally all I’ve been singing in my head lately and I’m not sure if it’s bc subconsciously I thought of 3tan couple the last time it came up again and that’s why it started to tumble around my head again or if this is some really odd coincidence that I’ve been stuck on that line and it just fits Yoongi so well upon further contemplation. Ugh and then Yuri saying her mystery man would do anything for her, the second verse adds “if I could begin to do something that does right by you, I would do about anything” 🤧)[editor’s note: well this turned into an unexpected spiral so…enjoy that 🥴]

Lastly, (for real this time…for this section) from sidewalk talk: “the paint on everything has faded with age, just how you imagine your own self to appear” about the the playground equipment at Yoongi’s apartment complex. Then in this chapter she comments on different playground equipment again thinking: “the metal is warm instead of scorching hot, and you briefly wonder if the paint is new.” I just can’t help but take a large running leap for this one bc 1) I’m soft 🥺 and 2) like she literally compared the equipment to herself the first time…and like why would you add such a small toss away thought like “oh gee I wonder if this paint is new” if it wasn’t some sort of metaphor for how much healing and growth reader has done since sidewalk talk!???? Huh??? TELL ME WHY RYEN?? READER DID GET A NEW COAT OF PAINT ITS CALLED LEARNING HOW TO BE CONFIDENT IN YOURSELF AND TRUST SOMEONE AGAIN OKAY 😭. “As an impossible memory of another playground comes to mind, you sigh, “He does, Dom.”” She even thought about that playground during this scene…coincidence????? I REALLY HOPE NOT (but also even if it is a coincidence IM STICKING TO IT BC ITS CUTE ASL OKAY). Could it be that you just added that to create a fuller and more tangible scene by adding details related to the senses? Sure but…☹️ bc later she does comment about the heat permeating her hands and it’s like I could feel it…

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This fun new section is a section I’m gonna call: random thoughts I forgot to mention bc I was too busy drawing lines/pulling receipts and things that went over my head the first time around 🙃

How I almost forgot bro commentary is beyond me… but a few things:

1) so I saw someone already point out that poking their cheek is a joon trait but I argue it’s also a Jin trait…BUT I AM TEAM HOSEOK BRO SO.

2)“Like an ink stamp of his persona—never fully transferred.” … “You watch as he adjusts the watch on his wrist, admiring its craftsmanship with a determined stare.” SIGH…im team bro Hobi I’m team bro hobi I’m team bro Hobi, sope as bffs, sope as bros YOU’RE REALLY TESTING ME HERE

The texting breaks…so I’ve seen a few people comment on this by now and I agree with everything that’s been said so far. So so so so brilliant of you to use them as a pacing mechanism AND it emphasizes how many times she thought about reaching out without having to state it like a broken record. It shows us that every lull in reader’s day was spent opening their chat and contemplating what to say and how to say it. It’s also the main reason I immediately drew a line from “Yoongi has been on his phone constantly” straight to “bc he’s been contemplating if he should text reader/check if she’s messaged him” as opposed to “he’s seeing someone else” (not that I would ever think that but you know what I mean)…(which is where reader was previously drawing her line…both in basketball after her brother’s comment about his phone lighting up and in stay in the doorway and in friends with the girls at the studio almost forgot about that one). It seemed to me that reader also drew that same line and that’s ✨growth✨ if I ever did see it 😭 it seems she’s finally starting to internalize just how similar they are for real!!!

“If he’s with your brother, that could result in a talk you don’t wanna have yet“ it’s the yet for me 👀 like what do you mean yet 👁👄👁

““Sneaking around… Ah, that’ll break you.” Why does it feel like he’s talking to more than just you?” 🥺🥺🥺 he’s talking about Jimin of course but it wasn’t until the second read that it hit me 🥺🥺🥺

Okay yeah…”Yoongi looks right at you, your sibling replies—” Yoongi really didn’t say anything to her directly until they were cooking 🥺😭 I did catch that right the first time around…thanks for that 🙃🙃🙃🔪🔪🔪 (I don’t count his ‘anytime’ on the way out that morning after)

“Your deprecation is knocked off the climbing gym by a scoff.” Another good ass line…idk how I didn’t point this one out the first time. (Oh wait I know it’s bc I was too busy focusing on playground equipment paint 😐🤦🏽‍♀️😂)

Dipping out early bc he’s working on a song for her 👀…Something he wants to show her right? I think he’s finally ready to let her listen to one of his songs…like his personal ish and so he’s polishing one up for her…or he even wrote a new one for her 😭👀🔪

Bro was 100% about to tell reader about basketball creep and dalo before Yoongi knocked…now that it’s been revealed I just feel like there’s anything else he could have been about to say no??? It sounded too serious for anything else.

“Something is placed in your hand before you fully register what he means, and your jaw drops before he walks away with a goddamn smirk.” I thought I got this the first time around…I thought he was referring to bro saying “coming” but it was to her “finish by myself” 👀😏 RYEN! 😳😂 I can’t take this…we gonna get this and the “spit in my mouth” with them together next time? Or 👀😳

“Because all you’ve been is a younger sister. Not really part of their group or age or whatever else that separates your world from theirs.” Okay so I know this is just another roadblock for them BUT can we talk about how this is actually good??? Hear me out. Before, the biggest and most glaring thing in her mind is that bro is bro…that he could never know and she couldn’t see past that…but now that this potential issue has been brought up doesn’t that mean she has seen past it??? Cause in this scenario bro would have to know about them too and yet…that’s not what she’s worried about rn 👀. So not a great thought but I feel like what it implies is huge. Like before she wouldn’t even let herself think about what it would be like to really date Yoongi bc it was so far out of reach in her mind. Maybe her talk with Yuri got her thinking about this too… 🤔

We didn’t talk about the cat scene really but that’s because I’m too fucking soft. Just know…I want you to know that I know you knew what you were doing adding that scene in after everything 😭😭😭😭🔪 There’s only so many times I can be shocked by your audacity and yet…it seems I have not reached that limit yet 😐😂

“Keep whatever shirt you got on, forget the rest. You’re gonna need it in a sec.” Me only realizing on the second read through that he knew/ planned from the get that she was gonna need a shirt to muffle her moans 😵‍💫 cocky son of a bitch is right 🥴🥴🥴. Also he got what he wanted? So like…did the spitting comment do him in too or does he just mean he wanted to focus on her 👀 cause either option is enough to take me out. Either he only wanted to pleasure her which is 🥴 or he got so worked up he started jerking off too/came in his pants and that’s equally as 🥴🥴🥴🥴 reader was distracted to say the least…how could she have known/paid attention enough for us to know through her POV 👀 I think the only way to settle this is to see Yoongi’s POV of this scene…yeah I think that’s the only way to really know 🤔👀😏😂

Okay lastly for really real this time tho…the last big thing, I said I would be back to talk about this so here, this part: “Your brother just furrows his brows once before continuing his cleaning. “Yeah, he’s working on big shit, that’s for sure.” As he passes to throw his garbage away, you pick your phone up to flip it over. “Speaking of, I’m hosting another party here on Friday.”” It’s the speaking of for me. Party/celebration for Yoongi (and the studio as whole so that means Jk AND POSSIBLY BRO REVEAL BC WHO WORKS WITH THEM AT THE STUDIO HUH??? WHO? 👀) at her house CONFIRMED. Literally can’t change my mind. It’s happening and everyone will get to hear his music (the one he did for the famous artist that could be his big break not his personal music) and he will have already let reader listen to it so they’ll be holding eye contact across the room, eyes brimming with things only they know and he’ll get shy and she’ll get to torture him from across the room for once and he’ll lose his mind BC THEYLL HAVE ALREADY GOTTEN TO TALK AND SEE EACHOTHER AFTER HER INTERVIEW SO ITLL BE SAME PAGES NOT THIS DID THE OTHER FORGET ABOUT ME NONESENSE THEYRE BOTH FEELING AND READER WILL FEEL SECURE AND PROUD AND CONFIDENT sigh 😭 I need this so bad, I feel it viscerally.

In conclusion...the perfect way to sum this entire chapter up: “You don’t think you’ll ever stop thinking about this.” Cause same girl…same.

anytime (3tan) (m) | myg

title: anytime pairing: 3tan!yoongi x reader(f) series: masterlist | three tangerines | fireworks | house party | basketball | stay | sidewalk talk | friends | dalo | like that  rating/genre:m (18+) ; angst , fluff , smut ; brother’s best friend au, implied age gap au summary:your brother is finally back. which makes for a bunch of conflicting worries that you may need to address. warnings: angst, yoongi in general lol, lots of dialogue i’m so sorry, tae being a menace, yoongi on the phone, 3tan sibling scenes!!, thinking thinking, jimin being jimin, masturbation, dirty talk, sl*t mentions, did i say yoongi on the phone?, alcohol, house party, so many interactions, just… yoongi🥺 note: ah.. well. it’s finally here. thank you endlessly to @sugakookitty​​ for being the angel beta you are, and thank you all for being so patient and understanding as i worked on this while still recovering from the writing process of dalo! i know it’s been a minute, so. i worked like hell on this the past week. if you haven’t read any of the three tangerines series yet, i highly recommend reading those first! it will make so much more sense lol note 2: saving the rest of my thoughts for the end bc i have many! just enjoy :D  total word count: 16k+ release date: july 23rd, 2022, 2:17pm est 

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Back to normal.

With the coming of one, singular sunrise, everything has gone back to normal. 

Curling your fingers into worn sheets, you stare unblinking at the space once occupied. At the way the material has bunched in frozen peaks and valleys, previously crinkled by passion and loudly unspoken feelings. 

Whatever transpired just hours ago will be imprinted on your soul forever. You may even wear it on your sleeve, if only to remind yourself that something shifted between the hours of suspense and shelter. 

Because Yoongi didn’t just let you into his place last night. 

He let you into his heart. 

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