#im just trying to think like realistically im not gonna have anyone to do anything with outside of tit

[nebulaedaniel]

ik i keep talking abt going to tit iceland but,,,, tit netherlands,,, i’ve always wanted to go there

[impostorsshow]

I love watching Tears of the Kingdom memories out of order /sarc /lh

It took my around 100 hours to even find out the tears were a thing and wondering wtf my mom was talking about when I kept asking for help on what to do but that aside, I had seen #1 and #2 in order, tried to find Tabatha stable for a good 2 hours and then decided to go take a break and got hit with #8, WHICH WAS LIKE GETTING HIT BY A TRAIN

#1: :0 time travel wow oh wait your my old grandparents

#2: "let's go to the castle dear and get some clean clothes"

#8: SHE'S DEAD AND GANON IS IN POWER AND YOUR FUCKING WIFE IS DEAD AND ITS YOUR FAULT RAARU

Also there's 18 memories?? Damn how the fuck is it gonna sucker punch me more than that fucking 180 in story but aside from that i. I really wish it gave you a little way to back out, like it tells you the memory of what your about to watch and if you wanna do it later, I wanted to watch them in order TT AND I STILL HAVENT FOUND TABANTHA STABLE

[sharpth1ng]

when stu was dating tatum (because billy told him to) did he actually like/“love” her in a romantic way ?(ik love is a strong word) because in debaser/wom he talks about how he actually liked her and all of their friends and kinda how he misses(?) all of them.

is this like strictly platonic and sexual? do you think he liked her sexually(well because they fucked so that might be a stupid question😭) like obviously he loves billy and they have a deeper relationship than anyone with anything and if he did like anyone else it’s definitely not the same as him and billy’s relationship, but is he like billy in the way that he couldn’t have a “meaningful relationship” with someone other than billy?

SORRY FOR RAMBLING ITS LIKE 1:00 AND IM REREADING DEBASER

Stu is really complicated in terms of the way he values other people, but no, he didn't meaningfully love Tatum. If she had lived long enough to threaten his and Billy's plan then he wouldn't be remembering her in a nostalgic way.

Stu is different from Billy in that he's significantly more social, he craves social interaction, so while he doesn't really value people in a normal way he does want and enjoy having friends. I don't think he really considered what the effect of killing all of his friends would be, he was so high on Billy and the idea of being together after that he wasn't really prepared to lose a bunch of social stimulation all at once. In that way he does miss people like Tatum and Randy. They were fun to him, he enjoyed their presence in his life, but he also sees them as disposable in a way that Billy isn't.

I do think that Stu has the capacity for affection and attraction to more people than Billy is, he'd probably be (unethically) non-monogamous in a world where Billy doesn't exist. Realistically I think Stu has done a lot of cheating, like he'd be dating Casey and hooking up with some random other girl at a party when she's not there. The only person he's ever been emotionally faithful to is Billy, so in that way yeah, I don't think he could have a meaningful relationship with someone else, but I do think the relationships he would have would be a little more substantial, and could at least have the potential of being a bit healthier.

In contrast to Billy, I think Stu would have more of an ability to deepen relationships over time and there's people like Leslie he's attached to in a different way. I don't necessarily think that deepening happens a lot of the time though, because he often behaves in ways that make people less willing to let him get closer.

Stu's most well-adjusted non-Billy romantic future would be something like solo-poly where he wouldn't have any primary partners, but that's really hopeful lmao. Even if he got there eventually he would still spend a good chunk of his life just being a serial cheater. He'd be the kind of guy who just wouldn't really take you seriously when you find out he's cheating. He'd be like "Aw shit, sucks you feel that way but this situation is kinda harsh now so I'm gonna dip. No hard feelings!"

I think there's some chance of him meeting people who would have the patience to teach him that there are ways to have less exclusive relationships without being such an asshole about it. But realistically even the version of him sort of trying to do it right is mostly doing that because its annoying when people are always mad at you all the time, and he's still going to be a dick about things. Other people's emotions just don't affect him as much as Billy's do, so he's often pretty emotionally insensitive.

To get back to Tatum, Stu genuinely liked her personality, found it fun to hang out with her, and yeah, was sexually attracted to her. Sex isn't always romantic, some people can genuinely just enjoy having sex as a fun activity with friends. It's fun to do the feel-good activity with people you like and I think that's how it was for Stu, and Tatum as well to an extent. Because I think Tatum was also significantly more attached to Sidney than to Stu.

The thing is that there are parts of Stu that he just wouldn't know how to share with someone other than Billy, and part of the reason he can share them with Billy is because they grew up together. Stu's very aware that he has urges and thoughts that would get him put on an FBI watchlist, things that would alienate most of the people in his life if they knew.

Billy grew up developing the same urges with him. They've been escalating together for years, and if Billy wasn't around Stu likely would have been doing it on his own. If he did have someone else I think that relationship would be a lot more like the 'peer-pressure' relationship that some people think he and Billy had. It would have been someone Stu manipulated into killing with him, because Stu fundamentally doesn't want to be alone.

At the end of the day, the events of Debaser are a learning experience for Stu. No, he doesn't value Tatum the way he does Billy, he wasn't romantically attracted to her, but a non-Billy friendship is something that did bring value to his life.

In a cynical way I think women in his life have been willing to do emotional labor that men haven't because yk, toxic masculinity and gender roles. As a result I think he really does like having a close friendship with women like Tatum and Tammy, and he doesn't need the sexual aspect he had with Tatum for it to be worthwhile for him. While he would trade that friendship for Billy, he would much rather be allowed to have both.

Im also sorry for rambling 😭 but there you go

[dandeland]

TL;DR: i’m going to drop all of the billford reblogs ive been too scared to make over the years, block #triangle divorce if you don’t want to see it, peace and love.

You know, from early days of fandom harassment over billford, i’ve gotten into the habit of, rather then reblogging billford posts to call attention to myself, liking them and then saving them to my drafts so i can enjoy my collection without anyone judging me. This has been going on for a LONG time, and by now i have a MASSIVE hoard of billford art and memes and posts that i’ve just… been holding on to? And i’m starting to feel like i should maybe try catering my blog a little more to myself then to people willing to block me over toxic old man yaoi.

It’s been WILD seeing billford trend number one for MULTIPLE WEEKS IN A ROW, especially when nobody is even acknowledging the whole ‘portrayal is romanticization’ thing that was the common view of top gravity falls artists for…. Years? Even with the revival, i’m STILL just adding things to my hoard rather then reblogging them. It’s hard not to get over the fear of judgement.

But i’ve realized that this is my blog, and i get to choose the post, and maybe being disliked by a couple of strangers on the internet won’t kill me. So, as a birthday gift, i have decided that I will open the billford vault. I am cueing up every post to release at the exact same second. I will not tell you when it will be. Could be tonight, could be next month. I’ll only make sure its when you least expect it.

You can, however, be safe from the Hoard by blocking the #triangle divorce tag, if you don’t like the ship for any reason (all valid!!!) or if you just don’t want to see it for whatever reason its fine!

Im gonna be rbing billford normally after this but ill always use that tag. Also if you are a minor and you follow me and you haven’t already PLEASE block the #18+ tag. And i’ll try to put #cw abuse on anything that portrays the more psychological horror art in case its triggering. Either way i’m totally cool with whatever you do or don’t engage with, i’m doing this for me and to face my own anxieties and i totally get that what i like is not for anyone!

Obligatory no i don’t ship it because i think they could be ‘wholesome’, yes i know its abusive, yes i think its one of the realist portrayals of an abusive relationship in media and that is the appeal. I don’t ‘ship’ things because i think characters should be together, romance doesnt even really appeal to me, mainly for arospec reasons. i like ships for Angst, Horror, and Crack, and billford has all of the above. It’s one of the only ships i care about in any fandom. I don’t think it should be treated any differently then normal horror. And i also love ford’s recovery from bill arc and learning to move on more than anything.

[lotus-sunn]

@katentines this is your fault/pos

So lotus-moonn I have been THINKING ABOUT HER. And I decided since my pfp is sweet mikey I thought maybe if lotus-moonn existed

they would use covert-mike (Mikhali) as their pfp since well if you know anything about covert mikey then its fairly obvious why I choosed him

I thought of her personality and I conclude..Shes a fucking dick. or atleast more blunt and straight forward not caring about someones feelings and wouldnt see the reason to soften the blow. Would say "that looks like shit" to your face and call you out for more of your wrong doings

I love the DRAMATICS but i think too much is wack so maybe she would have a love for all types of dramatics.

I love to make a good first impression and I am pretty sensitive when it comes to being yelled at in a aggressive way. I start to cry as the yelling continues, so she would NEVER (rarely) cry. It would take a lot for her to cry, and first impression? who gives a shit she is gonna do what she wants and not give a shit if you like her or not.

Not a hugger or very touchy its rare for her to even touch anyone (fucking insane i know) Suprisnly less of a realist. (im a realist) More of a lets just do it and find out. Doesnt care for people who overthink she doesnt get it. like cmon your thinking too much LETS GO.

Not much for reading feelings she just freezes if they confide in her. She is pretty serious. If you told her a joke she would take it literally.

social cues??? she doesnt know what that is?? context clues what??

(fucking dumbass)

Doesnt swear. literally man she doesnt. I swear like sailor so she wouldnt. Why use swears when you can insult someone in more creative ways? she doesnt get the appeal.

really really smart in the education level. Works slow and good, doesnt work well under pressure.

opptimistic? no? but also yes.

one thing I wont change. She is stubborn but not me type stubborn. She is fucking STUBBORN once she decides something its set in bedrock she ingraved it into its very core your not changing her mind

(people trying to rehabiltate lotus-moon get meet with her fist)

was a kid who was more reckless and got more injuries (i was the same. but she actually broke a bone.)

faking confidence? she doesnt do that depressing bullshit. her confidence is real but that gets in the way of most of goals she has so much faith in herself she grows arrogant. She thinks that whatever she puts her mind to WILL happen doesnt matter who come in the way

fighting? HELL YEAH. SHE FIGHTS WITH ALL HER MIGHT! exploding PASSION!

I dont get sick easily. She does tho (LOSER COULDNT BE ME) its cold and she doesnt wear a scarf and jacket GET SICK BITCH (and very sensitve when sick. Im not i can function well enough. she is like fucking DEAD like family guy dead pose.)

hopeless romantic? fuck no romance is icky she doesnt like it.

very Social. ikr what the fuck?? if anything she wouldnt be. And you'd be right but Im not very social i have a close friend group of 5 people THATS IT. so she would be very social despite her dumbass not knowing of social cues.

[castlebyersafterdark]

while you guys discuss perceived letterboxed disses, my brain is stuck on the fact that noah and finn had dinner together at a reservation only expensive steakhouse, the kind of place a lot of people use for special events like proposals and anniversaries, with a dress code and how Finn would have probably had to go buy something appropriate to wear for this alone since he owns maybe six casual shirts down there in ATL and im like….. how was that just a bros dinner?!? no wonder why twitter reacted the way we did here too… ITS SUS

anyways noah would never diss a man who went to those lengths hahaha they are both doing things they normally wouldn’t for each other—finn going to pop concerts, noah watching comedies about the history of snl lol

Love all the tiny bits of fuel and how for some it's a never ending need for more more more and other times it's like, this crumb will sustain for months!!!! Hahaha that's how I kinda am with any little info for the show itself - I don't need spoilers and leaks when I'm still kinda reeling from the existing show itself, I have enough to sustain me until season 5 but anything extra is a whole feast. So I enjoy whatever content appears outta nowhere, but I'm already happy 😁 It takes so little to amuse me!

But the restaurant thing is kinda the pinnacle of the concept of FN being real at all and while it's harmless overall to my brain to believe it being real - there's no actual proof of it, to be a realist. It's soooo fun and if true, I think clearly speaks volumes as to the legitimacy of their potential relationship. Because - it's so beyond casual friends if that sort of hang-out is going on. It's so much more. Despite what anyone trying to break it down says, that's not casual behavior. But. Did it happen? It's all words and posts and "secrets" shared but there is no verifiable data. So - tons of fun!! Emotional investment, minimum. Do I believe it? I'm chilling, I'm vibing, yes and no. I can't prove it. Hurts nothing to choose yes, but I'm also not gonna be devastated if no?

What I can prove? Noah specifically logging onto the letterboxd app or website, typing in the SNL movie, clicking the movie log page, clicking on those stars, and telling the world that he only saw that movie for Finn. Whether a close and supportive friend or being cheeky about a secret partner - oh, it's so sweet and really entertaining and lovely to have happened. And we can actually see the context. It's real and indisputable. The meaning is the speculation, where sometimes with other crumbs of content the speculation is the speculation.

I'm just here to have fun!!! Love these guys...

[nishloves]

okay i saw a few accounts doing this so i thought to ask you, would you beat svt in a fight????

omg lmaoo i would love to rate this asfkakakaka, okay so- realistically, any of them could beat me in a fight (except maybe jeonghan) but- BUT i'm delulu so i'd still rate them <3

can seventeen beat me in a fight?

seungcheol - 7/10; would definitely devour me if he ever fights me lol, but i don't think he would uk- like that one fan-meeting where he let a carat win in arm wrestling? he's probably gonna do that until i rile him up or somehow got him to be competitive- then, its not even a fight, i'll be tasting dirt lmao.

jeonghan - 3/10; yeah im winning- now listen, i was an ex athlete and i do go to gym so it's not even a question- that man has a constitution of a cereal box you accidentally kept at the very deep dark end of the cart. i would win unless- he somehow stabs me or gets his boyfriends to fight me.

joshua - 7/10; this gentlemanly man won't lay a finger on me just to keep up with his image, while his eye will be twitching and his lips morphed into a crazed smile as i instigate him lolol it's all fun and games until he punches me, then i'm done.

junhui - 3/10; this man nearly cries- fighting with anyone who is not a member or a friend and is a carat on top of that? would just let me hit him to shut everyone up lmfao until i take his coconut- then he will go cocococo on me <3 [ reference : SVT RECORD JUN MUKBANG BANGKOK ]

soonyoung - 5/10; yes i know about the saesang-car lore, but he is also our squishy pookie adorable hamst- tiger and he absolutely adores carats and anything which isn't a friendly competition- he just won't partake in it, would get pouty if asked to fight a literal carat, until i called him "hamtori", one kick is all it takes i guess? and im still in love with him.

wonwoo - 8/10; best believe that i'm not even willing to participate in this- wouldn't really do anything and would just stand there 🕴️like this. and i try to headbutt him and fall on my butt in response, he is still standing like 🕴️this.

woozi - 100/10; holy shit im running away before you even try get me to do this!!!

minghao - 9/10; you see *nervous chuckle* i will try to keep him calm, i really would but if he gets annoyed of my buffonery i am slashed.

mingyu - 6/10; see, i firmly believe that it wouldn't even faze him if i punch him (although, a lot many have said that my slaps and punches do hurt) that man would just accept his fate and be ready for a beating, but if he even slightly pushes me- let's enjoy the visual of a 6'3 man apologising to a 5'7 girl while there are tears in my eyes and i'm trying to tell him that it's alright.

dk - 1/10; this sweet heart of a boy is NOT fighting me, he would accept his fate and show me his cheek ready to get hit but UNO REVERSE i take his hand and treat him to icecream.

seungkwan - 4/10; this man has a severe syndrome of all talk and no show, the only reasons im losing is 1. he's screaming all around and i've gone deaf because of him or 2. he seriously seriously tries.

vernon - 2/10; he just doesn't care- why is he fighting me? why do we need to fight? why should he fight? can't i just punch him once and get it over with?

dino - 6/10; now normally, normally he is going to accept his fate (like mingyu) and just be ready to get hit. then i say something idiotic and then i eat dirt. hehe.

[mutsky]

4 minutes ep 3 running commentary (my first one)

-one more murder and wed need garcia and the bau on the case

-ok so done (?) is alive and not tonklas brother good

-gonna be real i have no idea whats going on

-ok if i was in school and someone came up to me and asked me "do you know so and sos schedule and whats their favorite drink" id call the cops

-its ok we are in BL World™️

-should i fuck up a thai tea and som tam for lunch tomorrow hmm

-im sorry did he just dap up a guy hes on a date with and has seen visions of them having nasty freaky sex ?

-so shes sleeping with the boss for info we also dont know her name

-i will make a separate post but i dont think tyme is working with the woman or anything he doesnt seem like hed care enough hes focused on passing his exams and making money this is risky

-was that a bong i wasnt paying good attention

-HE JUST SAID HE WAS ON PREP COME ON

-i have mixed feelings on the casual and transactional sex bc its realistic but also this is a bl lets have some romance

-from my time watching 7 seasons of criminal minds the murder is a man from the phrasing of that letter 🤓☝️

-he has a GREAT ass ... ill see myself out

-sex? circled in red

-see how they made him write at weird angles bc hes left handed this is discrimination at its finest (im left handed)

-i feel like when the clock gets to 11:04 we are so fucked

-ok but WHY is mr i dont give a fuck about anything but getting money my grandma and thus cute patient sorta trying to take down a crime ring??? anyone?

-bc that was definitely tyme beating the shit out of korn

-WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON GUYS I DONT UNDERSTAND

[randommothxd]

12, 15, 96 (for the ask game)

12Q: what was your last dream about?

12A: from what I can remember,the last dream I had was this:

I was basically watching a show with talking planets. Kinda like solarballs but they were hyper realistic,had different personalities,different voices,and had no face (no eyes or mouth). And they were smaller and were right next to each other.

Like this but realistic (also they weren't in order in my dream)

I don't remember what they were talking about but I do remember weaking up scared. I have this thing I do,where basically,when i first wake up,I go back to sleep and after I weak up from my 2nd sleep,I go to sleep again. I repeat this until I finally wanna start the day. While I was tryying to sleep again,I remember just thinking about how small we are compared to these giant planets.

15Q: favorite song?

15A: i have many favorite songs. And from many different genres. But just to name a few:

Literally any song by Mommy Long Legs

Most songs by Big Thief

I like the "girl anachronism" more so because I relate to it rather than how it sounds. I'm often scared to say I like this song because I'm scared people will think I'm saying "im a girl". I'm not a girl,the only thing "girl" about me is what I was assigned at birth and that's technically wrong,I'm both physically a girl and a boy. But i digress. Very good song!/srs

I found this song from a kittydog animation,pretty nice song. Honestly,8.9/10

Beautiful song ^_^ /srs

Great song!!!! I can't hear anything anymore!!!!

Like said before, I have many favorite songs,so,I can't say them all or else this post would be to long

96Q: how did you get your name?

96A: depends what you mean

My actual name (moth): I really like moths :3 also,I'm a moth therian and get species euphoria from being called a moth,so, I Made it my name!

My 2nd actual name (maggot): I really like bugs that are seen as gross. Well,not just bugs,any creature that has been demonized from others. E.g. worms,rats,maggots,slugs,spiders,wasps,etc. You know,they have been demonized so much that people see them as less and get freaked out when all they do is just get close. It's disgusting how much people hate these creatures for simply just existing. You know,me and these "disgusting" creatures have alot in common /srs

My 3rd name (wormie): I saw a tiktoker who's name (name,not username) was worm. I really liked that name so i stole it.

Username: idk but I'm glad it wasn't my old username choice. My username was going to be ashestodust. The reason being: I was obsessed with the quote "ashes to ashes,dust to dust". I didn't know it was a quote from the Bible,I only heard it from a song (funny enough,it was a fnaf song i heard it from/srs). I never Said this to anyone but I think I might be changing my username,soon/srs

I'm not 100% sure I'm gonna do it but I really want to.

[gayteddy]

long journal like ramble? where i think out loud about art.

the thing about my art is that i dont really know what i want to do with it -_- i really admire people with highly stylized artstyles and i think that it would be very on brand for me to take my art in that direction. but i also like the idea of people able to draw stuff that looks more. realistic i guess.

hyper realism is boring imo anyone can learn how to draw in hyper realism but developing an artstyle that entirely unique to yourself is a difficult and long process and idk.

i have not gone to Art School i dont know anything about art except that i like to draw sometimes and would like to get better at it. i kinda feel like im Missing Something like theres some "obvious" thing i should be doing to practice that i just. dont know about. i try to "practice" by drawing a lot and trying out new things. i feel like the biggest thing i need is just Time bc although ive drawn for years i have not done it a Lot. and so this is basically the first time ive ever drawn consistently

its also difficult bc i feel like. my art isnt "good enough" to be passionate about yet. which. i dont think art needs to be """""good""""" to be important and more than that i dont think art can really be classified as "good" and "not good" and that all art conveys emotion and thoughts and is important.

but i also feel the need to like. justify or defend myself. "i know my art isnt good but-" type stuff. which is probably part of where typing all this out comes from as well this idea that i need to state that i know my art isnt at the level it """"should"""" be at or whatever.

i want my art to be for Me and that doesnt mean it has to be palatable or conventionally "good" or Realistic. its just for me. i feel embarrassed to be excited about and proud of my art bc im "too old" to be developing these skills as though 24 is old at all, which its not. and bc its "not good enough" to be excited and proud over. which is subjective.

am i afraid of being judged? probably. i worry about the way i appear to people a lot even tho i try not to let it affect the way i behave or the way i think about myself. but i do always have this worry that im doing something "wrong" or "weird" and that its only a matter of time before i become ostracized for it. which has happened before. so i understand the fear.

as always my logical beliefs vs my feelings about my own actions. as though i am somehow outside of my own universal beliefs.

i guess this is kind of culminating in that sharing art is always a vulnerable thing for me no matter how silly the art is. and ive been feeling a lot of. i guess. shame? about it? like im embarrassing myself by sharing it.

but im gonna keep making art bc its fun and thats the most important part. to anyone who actually read all this ur insane and i love you.

[lilislegacy]

Heyyy

I thought those AI pictures you shared of Percy and Annabeth’s son was really cool! Do you have those for all their kids? Do you have them for Percy and Annabeth and other characters?

Have a great day

sooo

the answer is yes. i do. i have realistic AI/hand edited portrayals of percy, his 3 kids, jason, zeus, hades, and poseidon. i’m working on everyone else. it’s hard to get people just right

but when i posted the one of percabeth’s son, no one said anything, (well besides one person who said the older version of him was hot lol) which i take to mean either 1) it was bad 2) no one agreed with the depiction or 3) people in his fandom don’t like AI work. or all of the above. i know in some fandoms, people love making realistic AI images of characters, but in other fandoms people only like/appreciate art. which is fine because i also love art. i would never want people to think im trying to outshine/be like actual artists, who are WAY more talented than me. so i backed off and decided to keep it all to myself. if people WANT to see it, then i will share. but for now, im gonna take the hint and not post it

however if you (and anyone else) would like to see it, DM me and i’d be happy to share with just you!

[thatgirlwbraids]

HI I LOVE YOU BTW. okay so i wish i came across your care for your 3d whilst manifesting posts earlier but at this stage i don’t want to do anything from the old story. i just don’t. like i don’t even know how i’ll react if i were to be assuming my life will change completely to my ideal life and yet go back to the course i hate (thank you anon i am in an identical situation so your ask helped) . i just assumed that since manifestation is INSTANT and the 3d is fake and not real, imagination is the only reality. then it doesn’t matter what i do in the 3d or if i neglect it.

but i understand your pov and how it could affect my mental health if i continue to live in my head and watch the 3d around me fail, denying all of it by claiming 4d is the only reality.

i’m in a similar situation as the hate the course anon and um i guess i should go back to the course because i can’t face my parents after wasting more than a year and now that there are only a few months left i should try my best. but if i step into the 3d now, all of it will crush me. i don’t know what to do. if i step into the 3d i don’t think i’ll be able to step back out. i hope im making a little sense at least. sorry and thank you sm for listening <3

hi angel <3 ~ 😽 i’m glad I could help you with that ask manifestation is instant ( when you change SELF it expresses instantly ) it does matter what you do in the 3D because it is your expression it’s like neglecting your creation . realistically speaking, you can’t become a “ master manifestor “ overnight after finding the law , the law requires understanding once you understand the law aka the power of your imagination & that imagination is the only reality the law becomes gery easy to practice . it’s more about fulfilling your imagination than getting it in the 3D . ofc you got into the law for changing your life in the 3D but it’s important to understand that it’s just an expression of your inner world ( imagination ) . being a student is something that requires alot of your time & energy & ofc satisfying your parents. “ but if I step into the 3D now , all of it will crush me “ you’re always gonna have to face your harvest , and ofc you’re always living in this world of senses so you already have your step in it … try your best angel. I want to quote a few things .

“ The Outer-Man sees the limitations and restrictions in the World of the Senses. The Outer-Man feels he is limited and confined to the ‘facts’ of life. The Outer-Man goes through life fully convinced that this World of the Senses is happening to him not from him. He uses only his five senses to move in this World. So naturally he feels like a victim and desires to control this world through the means of force, manipulation etc. The Outer-Man feels fear that life can throw at him things that he is not prepared for. Situations he does not want to encounter but since he feels powerless, he fears the future. Since he cannot change the past, he guilt himself over it. This is how he is limited. Then there is the Inner-Man who lives in the World of Imagination. In this World, he is unlimited and can create what he wishes. He is free beyond measure and everything that he can be conceive of is his. Everything. Not one thing is not his because he is the Creator of it! If the Inner Man wants to walk into a store and take what he wishes without paying, he can also make the cashier wave and smile at him. EVERYTHING is permissible in the World of Imagination (1 Corin 10:23). Permissible meaning, if you want to change something within it, you can and you do not have to ask anyone's permission. If the Inner Man becomes frightened inside this World, or starts to feel guilty and fears a punishment, he can be rest assured that he is one the Creating ALL of that. There is NO OTHER GOD, CREATOR in the World of Imagination. However, here is where things must be understood. Without understanding this, everything I write or what Neville wrote becomes confusing and meaningless. THERE IS NO OBJECTIVE OUTER-MAN. The Outer-Man is simply an expression of the Inner Man. The only Man that exists is the Inner Man. There is NO OBJECTIVE WORLD OF THE SENSES. The World of the Senses, is but the expression of the World of Imagination. When the Outer-Man starts to fear his world, or he dislikes his world, it is not the Outer-Man who dislikes it. Nor is there something wrong with his Outer-World. There is only One who dislikes it and that is the Inner Man. This is important, please listen carefully: When the Outer-Man dislikes or fears his World of the Senses, it is actually the Inner Man fooling himself into believing he is the Outer-Man who is fearful of the World of the Senses. Meaning you are never NOT the Inner Man. In other words you are ALWAYS the Inner Man. Always. There is no other Man. The Inner Man can convince himself that he is this Outer-Body living in this dangerous world but he is still the Inner Man fooling himself into that! “ ~ edward art series , Part 14: The God Of The World Of Imagination!

it’s not “ living in your head “ and you don’t have to “ live in your head “ imagination is a tool to mold this 3D into absolutely whatever you desire , what you have in imagination expresses in this outer world you don’t have to imagine 24/7 it’s just the knowing and fulfillment that you have it in your imagination & that feeling expresses , feeling is how you change SELF which is what expresses . this expression and this body is something you as GOD chose to be in but we are conditioned to believe that this reality just happens to us & not from us & your really can change that once you put the law to test with you imagination … you want unconditional love from your parents , give it to yourself in imagination FEEL THAT LOVE . you want princess treatment ? imagine that everyone gives you that imagine people treating you like a queen , LEAVE THE WORLD ALONE it’s just an expression . slowly you will notice how people are randomly giving you the best treatment everywhere . just imagine and leave the world alone . when you imagine remove this outer world , the past , the future .. what you should do or have to do .. DO WHAT YOU WANT . it’s your imagination, create your own personal reality .

“ What the Inner Man FEELS himself to BE and FEELS himself to HAVE in the World of Imagination is what will be EXPRESSED in this World of the Senses. You right now are living this outer-world. You are walking around, laying down, doing your daily activities. So you are an individual living in a world where you limited. But you can only experience your own life, self. Likewise, you are an individual, an INNER individual living in the World Of Imagination. In this World, you are God. You can imagine anything. All things are possible here in this world, INCLUDING the FULFILLMENT of your desire. However, you can ONLY experience SELF in this World. But you can change SELF to what you want. And SELF is what you THINK you HAVE and what you THINK you ARE in this World of Imagination. Read that sentence again. And SELF, THAT SELF, is what is EXPRESSED. Pay attention to what I am saying. As you read this, you are living in this 3D world. You own things within it, you HAVE things. Based on what you HAVE in this 3D world, you create identities for yourself. So if you have no money, you claim to be poor. If you have no love, freedom, or punishments, we claim we are unloved, trapped and guilty. Remember, we CLAIM we ARE things BASED on what we THINK WE "HAVE." So please see what I am saying here. If you stop identifying yourself with this 3D world, which is simply an expression of INNER SELF, if you stop identifying yourself with what this 3D person "HAS," and start identifying yourself with the INNER MAN, you will see the freedom I am speaking of. Let's say you in are desire of money or love or peace. It does not matter what it is. You do not HAVE it in this 3D space, and since you do not have it, you claim that you are "broke, unwanted etc." BUT let's instead you identified yourself with the INNER MAN who lives in the World of Imagination. So you close your eyes and enter into the World Within. Bring the desire to your Mind. Understand that you must fulfill it IN THIS WORLD. Let the 3D World remain the same, just leave it entirely alone.” ~ edward art series , part 15: awakening. added this cuz it would look a lil boring w/o LOL studyspoo 📓 ~

I hope this helped you angel < 3 ~ 💌

[brookeginko]

Yukair 2, 7, 21 and 22 for the ask thing >:]

YAYYYYYYYY THANK YOU BAGEL YOU KNOW ME SO WELL

2: What’s your favorite canon thing about this character?

I love a most things about Yukari but if I had to pick just one I’d say it’s how realistically she’s written. In her romance route she admits to being jealous and upset when Fuuka hung around Makoto even though she knew it was an unreasonable thing to be upset over, and she says it makes her feel like a horrible person. Similarly in Yakushima she says something along the lines of “After everything that’s happen why does Mitsuru’s father get to live but not mine?” What I particularly like about this part of her character is that she knows what she’s saying is selfish and expresses it to Makoto with that knowledge in mind. She knows that but she can’t stop herself from feeling that way, and it’s so so natural for a girl her age who’s gone through everything she has that it just makes me ooiiiuuughhjjjggn /pos. I will always be a Yukari defender until I die and one of the main criticisms against her is that she’s ’too mean’ and while I obviously disagree with that one of my favorite parts of her is that she’s can be mean and say mean things but that’s because she’s 16 years old and has the fate of the world on her shoulders. I’d be a bit mean too. Rest in peace rank 5 hug scene i will always be your #1 defender.

#7: What’s something the fandom does with this character that you like?

OOH OKAY. I could go with the copout answer of everyone and their mother hcing her as a lesbian but outside the realm of sexuality hcs I like when people draw/write her as more toned and buff because like. Girl is an archer and running around Tartarus for an hour every night can’t be easy. I also like it when people give her archery more significance in general because canon gives us very very little to work with, especially compared to Akihiko ‘definitely doesn’t have a boxing special interest’ Sanada, so I like when people elaborate further on her time on the archery team since we know almost nothing about it.

21: If you’re a fic writer and have written for this character, what's your favorite thing to do when you're writing for this character? What's something you don't like?

OOH YAYYY okay hm. Admittedly I haven’t written for Yukari as much as I would have liked to but for the 3 or so fics I’ve written about her and the rps I’ve done, I’d say my favorite thing to write is her self-aware jealousy. The line in her romance route about being jealous of Fuuka but it making her feel like a horrible person stuck out to me a lottt so I try to incorporate it in fics as much as I can. Especially in terms of ship fics I think she would be really really jealous of anyone she thinks could be interested in the person she’s interested in but she would feel awful about it and just kinda get caught in a loop of ‘oh no kotone is spending time with akihiko she’s probably crushing on him’ —> ‘oh my god im gonna kill akihiko senpai why is he taking up all of her time does he LIKE her?????? ew’ —> ‘wait no that sounds mean akihiko senpai is fine i guess. it’s not like i own Kotone’s time or anything that was a weird thing to think yukari’ —> ‘oh god im a horrible person Kotone wouldn’t want to spend time with me anyway’ —> gets text from Kotone asking if she wants to come beat up pedestrians with akihiko or something —> back to square one. Unfortunately I don’t think I’ve published any fics with this dynamic but I’ve rped it and have drafts and I just….. I love jealous Yukari so much. Runner up is when she’s protective and somewhat pushy about it. I’ve written this with Shuyuka before because Makoto has the self preservation instincts of a goldfish cracker and I find it very sweet. As for things I don’t like I worry sometimes that I make her a bit too mean to Junpei? Though that’s more of a general Junpei-bullying problem I have rather than a Yukari-specific one LMFAO

22: If you're a fic reader, what's something you like in fics when it comes to ths character? Something you don't like?

Despite what my Bible length fanfics would suggest I actually don’t read a ton of fics so I’ll expand this a bit into the fandom in general. As stated above I really like when people make her more athletic but on the flip side I do enjoy when people make her the femmest lesbian to ever femme. I feel like in some situations people try to make femme characters more girlbossy and end up removing a lot of their femininity so I like fics and fanworks that make her a cool archer that also has seventeen dresses in the exact same color. For things I don’t like though, I don’t really like it when Yukari is made to be helpless? I understand that it’s like that in canon a few times (Awakening, Yakushima, something else im probably forgetting) but I feel like a lot of (cishet) shuyuka fans especially tend to make it into a hot yaoi base ‘gigachad door kun x little soft baby yukari’ and i just. comically large frown.

[notebooks-and-laptops]

No one asked for it, but I'm gonna do a: Notes Plays Bg3 with all my thoughts! I'll be tagging it as Bg3 spoilers, tho I'll try and keep any big ones out and also Notes plays Bg3 so you can blacklist if needed!

Notes plays Bg3: first thoughts:

I'm a TAD disappointed in the CC because I knew it was super realistic so expected to be able to edit more and pick my nose/eyes/mouth/jaw/cheeks/lips shapes etc. And not being able to do that made me a little sad cos it's one of my fav parts of dao dai and da2 to actually customise my character and make them how I want. However, do enjoy all the hair options and being able to give my dwarf girl a beard so ups and downs.

Also speaking of the CC I made my girl before I realised subrace was a thing and then had to remake her and that was deeply deeply annoying

I also sorta wish their was more guidance in the cc about what being a disciple of a particular god might look like/mean

The animation in the cut scenes is INSANE holy fucking SHIT they put their ENTIRE pussy into it and it shows that opening god DAMN

Love those creepy brain guys I want one as a pet I love the way they scuttle and their creepy child voice

Mean lady? She is my WIFE and I LOVE HER and you will NOT be taking her from me

I freaked out for a while not knowing how to get Shadow heart out like I fully was like IM GONNA FUCK IT UP SHES GONNA DIE but thankfully she has not

Vampire Bois entrance didn't really do anything for me tbh altho I do see the Dorian in him that people have been talking about he's even got the same inflections in his voice sometimes

I LOVE gale and his entrance what a charismatic funky dude

Not met anyone else yet but going looking for them now!!

I do not enjoy the mechanics of moving my character and really wish I could just move them rather than clicking. I'll get used to it but I think that'll be the barrier between me and replays.

I do like the combat tho and am excited to get into the swing of that cos it's more technical and limiting than some of the more basic dragon age combat and so there's more skill to it I think

[technicalknockout]

What were some of your favourite pages in the book?

god thats a hard one jsnfjksdk the entire book is so good but i do have my favorites. heres an entire list

silly straws page - i read in 'dipper and mabel's guide to mystery and nonstop fun' that bill likes silly straws and thought it was a silly random tidbit, imagine how surprised i was when i realized there was LORE behind it.. im still figuring out some codes bc i dont wanna look them up and im having so much fun !!

stanford trying to keep me from reading the book page - "you cant hear the disappointed sigh im making rn, but i assure you it's devastating" i mean he failed to stop me from reading the entire thing in one sitting but i was just very happy to see ford's cursive again. It was really funny seeing him trying to guess what the reader would be convinced by (i saw the moth picture and thought 'whats that called, a goth moth?' I laughed out loud when it turned out that was actually its name)

urban legends page - as a long time fan of creepypasta the references in this page absolutely delighted me. Also the art is so realistically horrifying, whoever drew these i love you

the one true intelligence test - idk this page just made me laugh a lot

Entire anti-cipher society part - i love how instead of telling the story in just plain text, they made us follow the story with newspapers and journal pages. What was that called. I swear there was a name for that kind of storytelling if anyone knows pls pls tell me

every page with ford and fiddleford - BEAUTIFUL. SUBLIME. BEST THING TO EVER EXIST IN THE WORLD. I HECKING LOVE FRIENDS BEING WHOLESOME TOGETHER AND I LOVE IT MORE WHEN THEYRE MY FAVORITE CHARACTERS FROM MY FAVORITE SHOW. THEY MAD SNOWMEN OF EACH OTHER THATS SO CUTE

"but my aim is getting better" - do i need to explain this one

whatever this page is called;

I hated reading this (i loved reading this). i kinda got spoiled before i bought the book with an analysis post, had to literally put my phone down and think about what id just read. i think this page really puts bill and ford's relationship into perspective. ford's a person and bill's a multidimensional semi-god creature, bill will do and say anything in his power to get ford to do what he wants. this relationship cannot even begin to resemble normal. and also the forgetting your own name part horrified me, thats some good horror right there.. love it when books make me have a visceral reaction to tiny words on paper

call transcript from the police - OH the LORE and CHARACTER ANALYSIS FOOD RIGHT HERE. i could talk for hours about how bill straight up sucks at relationships and he's SO unwilling to admit he was upset about falling out with ford that he's lying to himself MULTIPLE TIMES OVER AND OVER and how a lack of genuine connection with people is eating him up - but if i talked about all that this post would spiral into insanity real quick. Also drunk bill talking into the phone was very very sad and very very on character and i could hear hirsch's bill voice inside my head it was really good aghjgnkhhh

stan's page - I ALMOST CRIED AND I KNOW THATS KIND OF A WEIRD REACTION BUT I SAW THE STAN PAGE IN THISISNOTAWEBSITEDOTCOM OKAY AND IT WAS MAKING ME VERY UNWELL I WAS EXTREMELY RELIEVED TO JUST HEAR THIS MAN SO HAPPY AGAIN STANLEY PINES I LOVE YOU YOU DESERVE EVERYTHING

yee that turned out longer than id anticipated jdndjs

overall this was amazing. an entire book written in my favorite character's voice is something i've only ever dreamed of and it's genuinely a frickin honour to have a copy in my house. my bookshelf is 2% more cursed now and i would not have it any other way.

one of these days im gonna black out and there will be a twenty-pages long essay on bill's social life on your feed. i advise you to gently scroll past it without looking.

[chloeangelic]

thoughts re: Rendezvous series and forgiveness

ive had some thoughts recently about how people might react to part 5 of rendezvous when it comes out, ie the final part, and i wanted to share for no real reason

discussions about forgiveness, infidelity and such below the cut

firstly, i want to say that zero iteration the word "forgive" appears in part 5. there is no discussion about forgiveness really at all, and i dont think there needs to be. one of the reasons is that i think the concept of forgiveness can oversimplify complex situations, as well as assign unnecessary value judgments to things. i often feel like being forgiven for something means that you have to label that thing as 100% bad and terrible, and theres no space for what sort of positive change it couldve initiated. this is often the case when it comes to infidelity - which is a whole different can of worms.

on the topic of forgiveness, however, whether its mentioned explicitly or not, ive noticed an extreme allergy to joel being forgiven for any indiscretions towards the MC in fics on this website. it seems like the MC herself can do anything and nobody really questions it when joel takes her back, we can cuck tommy into oblivion, joel can cheat on his wife etc, and all of that is cool and hot and encouraged until joel is the one making dumb decisions. people will literally forgive him for being a mass murderer but not for fucking someone else.

the discussions of morality, which are a huge focus in tlou, seem to stop short when it comes to fictional relationships between joel and MCs. we can all discuss why he merked that hospital full of fireflies, and most tlou fans will justify his actions, saying he did it for a good reason, but any relationship related indiscretions do not get the same treatment. i understand that people are sensitive about cheating, being cheated on is awful, but its unproductive to shut down all discussions about it

just to make it clear: i do not consider his actions in rendezvous cheating, not on katy and not on the MC. the MC feels more cheated on because she has an unhealthy attachment to him

am i defending his actions in rendezvous? no. do i think they need to be defended or condemned? also no. i choose not to see things as binary good/bad - even if i thought everything he did was terrible, whats he supposed to do? be alone forever because of indiscretions towards one person? i know this is fic, and i could write him living under a rock for eternity if i wanted, but this is supposed to be a realistic (in my definition) series, and realistically, thats not what happens to people who fuck up in interpersonal relationships. they move on and live their lives. we all hurt people at some point - its juvenile and delusional to think that just because someone hurt another person, theyre bound to suffer for all eternity.

i think there are a lot of nuances when it comes to relationships especially, and trying to label what hes doing in this series as cheating on the MC/katy, and then saying CHEATING BAD is an oversimplification and ignores the scope of emotion im trying to cover here. even calling it cheating ignores the depth of unlabeled relationships. i think the MC deserves more than that, cause if we say hes cheating on katy, were basically calling the MC the other woman, and the other woman is ALWAYS vilified - except in this case where shes the "reader" character. what if i wrote this entire thing in a different perspective, and katy was the reader?

im in the brainstorming stages of my next big series after love me back, and if i go with the idea thats simmering in my head right now, its gonna be a completely infidelity focused series, about when its acceptable to cheat, who is allowed to cheat and why, etc. joel will not be fucking anyone else in that series or cheating on the MC calm down

this might not be very interesting, and its not addressed to any anons in particular at all, ive just been thinking about it as the parts have been posted and thought id share my thoughts in case anyones interested. its hard to give my full thoughts without spoiling ch 5, so after thats posted i might write another reflection on it for anyone whos interested in my thought process behind the decisions ive made.