#im just numb lol
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all the energy he put in for that consistency off the top of my head for a chance at a top team
making sure ricky and the pitwall don't fuck him up (this is an every race weekend affair Abu Dhabi 23 trauma me thinks)
missing a race (I have so much to say about this week aka al ula is actually a cursed place)
gaining a weight advantage for a win (winning after appendicitis +10000 aura pts cojones de toro! el matador😭)
i was writing my thesis during Japan-China so idk😶
making miami interesting
tire explosion before the race but the monaco podium loves him for some reason
canada dnf(Imagine if that didn't happen and the car was good enough for a p3-5)
trying to be positive after a shit race in Canada only to nagged at after your home race in front of everyone 😭
getting and unexpected podium
creating his own colour code for proper track advantage in the rain
deciding your tire strategy for a race which sort of ended up winning the race but your team didn't trust the strategy(can't decide if it was a good or bad decision till now not to do H-H in spa instead of H-M-H)
well at least he has a seat now at the end of the day he's a thinking driver but i as a fan wanted more for him🥲 all hope isn't lost but I've still not come to terms with the news but I know he'll always do his best cause that's just what he does can't want to see what he does the rest of the season hopefully he gets to sing smooth operator with Ricky 1 last time!
#i cried while writing this#i still dont know how to feel about the seat news#im just numb lol#carlos sainz#carlos sainz jr#jas' first half of 2024 f1 season debrief#so i don't forget#but i doubt it
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I love 2p japan
CHINA: 日本さえ恋がしたいということ、考えられないことではないねぇ。(It’s not unthinkable that even Japan would want love, right?)
JAPAN: 闭嘴。(Shut up.)
#hetalia#hws china#hws japan#aph china#aph japan#2ptalia#2p hetalia#china speaking in japanese just to make japan mad so japan responds in chinese just to retaliate LOL#as always please let me know if theres any errors with the translations! with regards to japanese esp since i always want to improve it.#i am totally lost with chinese however so i am forced to rely on short simple phrases that are easily verified... such as shut up.#and its always so fun to read about other languages. like apparently italians dont use many acronyms#and korean has a tendency to just drop pronouns and make you infer the subject... according to my bro who is studying it currently.#ENOUGH ABOUT REAL COUNTRIES LETS TALK ABOUT HETALIA !!!#with regards to china... i really want to make him kind of floaty strange offputting... hes so old and hes seen so much...#a mix between 'ive seen so much it doesnt matter' and 'you never really go numb'...#but hes also silly and a little volatile...#yeah hes smiling but inside hes [GLASS SHATTERING SFX] What was that..#china isnt well elaborated upon even in canon so im excited to put him thru the wringer here...#he should constantly have a smile and dead eyes. ouo <-- like this#hes so old you guys hes so tired.#anonymous#2p china#2p japan#ask
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We're so close
#I'm so excited that i just feel numb to it now#like i physically cannot feel anymore excitment#im just gonna explode once the game is in my hands#ive said it a million times but im still not convinced it is real lol#i genuinely can not believe it is really happening#i can afford to preorder it soon and even that wont feel real
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i hope u guys know it is truly the very kind things you say to me that keep me going here a lot of the time. ive been in the worst fucking writing slump to the point ive really been barely writing at all and i finally felt like,, the same spark i had been missing this whole time after going through my hall of fame tag. thank you for everything so sincerely
#aristotle.txt#i write for myself a lot like i really do#but ive just been so like . stuck in everything its rlly been making me suffer#i wanted to talk about it but it was also like too much it felt genuinely crushing#WHICH SOUNDS SILLY but writing is like the loml and i feel rather numb without it#i felt a lot of relief feeling that same love for it just now even if it was very brief and temporary#so im gonna try to write something today . lol
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(i'm the same anon that just sent an ask abt tides of regret hehe) i needed to send this in a second one cause i felt like it was too long lol. your sense of empathy is SEEPING through the words. i get the feeling that you have just have a good heart, idk :) your characters are so mature and thoughtful and also empathetic and it's so refreshing. i suppose i envy them a bit :')
this is singlehandedly the kindest thing a stranger has ever said to me…i’ve been reflecting a lot about the friendships i maintain and these past few weeks felt like a test, of sorts. reading this restored a lot of confidence i had in myself and i’m incredibly humbled and thankful that you think this of me.
there’s always a part of me in every story and every character i write. i’m so happy to know the enha i wrote resonated with you. empathy is such a fickle thing and i’m under the impression that i’ll always try to be the best person i can be by doing what’s right and good. i believe you can be that way too, if you wish.
you are so beautiful. know that.
#ask#no when i tell you i cried for maybe ten minutes i mean that literally#i don’t know a few of my friends were disrespectful towards me#and made me feel a little upset for standing up for myself#and in my personal life it felt like there were seldom people who stood up for me other than myself#i say that to illustrate just how impactful this message is#because i felt so numb for a few weeks and reading this brought me to tears because it reminded me that i am indeed a good friend#and i need to embrace all the good inside of me u know#NOT TO BE CHEESY BUT LIKE U DONT UNDERSTAND IM SO HUMBLED WND TOUCHED#me when im blushing#ok now im ranting at this rate but anyway i am so thankful that our paths crossed#sorry 4 any typos lol#tides of regret asks#anonymous#nice things
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was sobbing unceasingly (as one does) but then remembered I have mister uplifting as my mac's screensaver
#he rly is my comfort character rn huh#hes literally talking to a kid here and I'm like uwehuehuehue uwu#i swear i dont have parent issues I'm just rlu emotional fr#regardless tho#how could anyone stay upset with this face#okay maybe me bc im still sad but at least i finally stopped crying lol#also ik the screenshot is from like days ago but i never got around to posting abt it til now okay#love me that post-cry feeling#actually no i hate it#bc now tht there no tears i just feel numb??? which is both good and bad#regardless tho pls dw abt it moots bc im very dramatic and probably will be over my sadge by tmmrw#so heres some tags and good night <3#psycho pass#psycho pass sinners of the system 1#ginoza nobuchika#nobuchika ginoza#psycho pass ginoza#long hair men#long hair ginoza#long hair ginoza nobuchika#growing up chronicles
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Drew a thing on how it felt on chapter 4 (some pics are taken from the BDP site)
#i post too much oc things lol#gpizza au#sovenist#gpgp#got a few thoughts#sadly they are incoherent#ik this isn't how chapter 4 exactly went down#just thought of how Sovenist would react or at least do in that#while under the influence of my emotions throughout chapter 4#siiiigh#digital art#oc art#my hamd got numb at the end so i just typed it instead of writing it#me to myself rn: im having fun with it im having fUN WITH IT IM HAVING FUN#to trick my mimd ofc
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I’m not main tagging this bc I don’t want to yuck anyone’s yum but I’m really confused by the pacing of S3 and I’m just kind of… lost? Like everything is both a lot and also not at all? I already knew things were happening bc of the trailer so it’s not really surprising? And I’m also confused about how in 4 episodes it’ll all wrap up in a satisfying way?
I’m just sitting here like this:
#tbb spoilers#this isn’t really a spoiler either tbh#but I’d rather be on the safe side tbh#I’m just confused#I might just be numb? but nothing is really emotionally hitting either#idk idk#again not trying to yuck anyone’s yum im just confused#this isn’t even really a full thought I’m just so lost lol#like what is happening why is it both so damn slow and also really rushed#is it me? am I the villain? I don’t think I’m the villain.#trying to have faith but it’s crunch time and things are looking ✨weird✨#loving the Crossy content tho that’s been great
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The SCREAM i let out when i saw you posted another chapter for tormented spirit!!! and then going through all emotions while reading it omg it was perfect!!
RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH YOURE SO ME WHENEVER I GET COMMENTS/REBLOGS/ASKS/ETC FOR IT GOING THROUGH ALL THE EMOTIONS SLAY although, the update wasn't very sad wasn't it? HAHAHHA lol idk i cant tell honestly
#ask#anon ask#i've become so numb i think alsgalkjsgflkas lol#or i think im just numb to the angst of my work cos i know whats gonna happen lmao#tormented spirit#my beloved anons
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dr: yeah these meds shld actually make you dream less/make your dreams less vivid
me: has one of the longest, most vivid dreams of my life
#straight up i just dont think psych meds work on me ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#at least not the way theyre supposed to#im on FOUR now and genuinely i dont think theyve done anything but make me feel vaguely numb lol#but yeah that dream was wild bro#it was one of the rare ones that have absolutely nothing to do w me/my life#(love those ones)#it was absolutely enthralling tho#im so invested in these characters my subconscious made up now lol#unfortunately my third party dreams are almost never reoccuring#too bad
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okay. going to eat food. either itll make me feel better or itll make me feel much, much worse. we'll see ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
#feeling potsy so i ordered mcdonalds fries lol#the saltiest things in existence#normally eating makes me feel better but im still rly numb/dissociated rn#so im worried the extra energy will just make me Feel the Bad that my brain's trying to dissociate to avoid :/#hopefully not tho
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#txt#have this problem when im unmedicated that i truly havent felt in a longass time#and how do i say this. its like my brain shuts off for a while and i feel so completely numb n apathetic and its just. So bad#and then when i dont feel that way i start feeling like. Aggressive almost idk like I just truly think i should just burn every bridge ever.#and its so? like ???????? WHY WHY WHY WHY why why why why why why. and ik why .#i just need to . Not be here right now i need to skip forward i need to do Something else i just wanna Not exist im so tired 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹#sorry i keep venting im such a bummer lately but everythings so Bad right now#and september is on the way . and september marks a year since everything went down w my uncle. and im just UGJHHHH#please please please let me medicated by then#bc then i truly dk whats gonna be of me otherwise lol
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hey same anon from yesterday!
first off, good luck with your assignments, Killin myself out here too.
And thanks for the advice! I’m trying to make it canonical while in a modern au, so since this was a mainly S1 part of the series, Clem’s parents + Lee’s wife nonsense still happens, just navigated differently. Different dates obviously happen, some characters are less prominent and others are more (i.e St. John’s useless, or Larry + Lee’s family roles/created)
For the personalities, some characters are just easier to write I think. I’ll never understand the Violet southerner thing, a telltale sight for me is if someone messes that up. (Also basically every story has Minerva as a total asshole so that’s funny)
I tried to implement game lines too, while putting it in modern context! And the end of the day you’re right, it is MY choice, just want to have it look nice. Again, thanks and good luck!
using lines ripped from the game can definitely be helpful, especially if it feels natural in the scene, i would just be careful in not leaning on it too much. adding a twist to it definitely helps. but really try to pay attention to the cadence with which characters speak. theres a rhythm to Everything. do they stutter when theyre nervous? do they use a lot of filler words? do they hesitate at all or do they speak confidently? do they enunciate? stuff like that. if you can figure that out it makes it easier to write dialogue that really feels like its coming from that character. think about the different ways multiple characters may express the same idea. how does it get filtered through their heads and mouths. its less about What the character is saying and more How theyre saying it. believability and all that. to me it feels like pulling off a magic trick
it really is just a delicate balance of behavior and vocabulary. its why i try to cut a lot of slack to writers when it comes to fic. i know its a hard line to walk, and i'll give points for getting Enough right. especially for characters we dont see much of. thats why even tho it annoys me a bit i understand why so many people write minnie as being a possessive asshole and not much else. its why i end up going down the rabbit hole trying to figure out who she was before the delta. like we Know she was a different person, we just dont know much about that person, and the experience/thought process that she had that turned her from the "didnt even like killing walkers" never mind the darkness minnie into the minnie that killed her sister. i find her to be a really interesting character because its obvious she still cares about the ericson group in some fucked up way (sans clem she just sees her as an obstacle to getting them back) and i Do wish that depth was examined more in fics. but maybe im just not reading the right ones
ANYWAY i hope this has all been helpful and good luck with your writing 💕
#when it comes to southern vi i just kinda 🙄 my eyes now and look past it#ive seen it so much at this point im becoming numb to it lol (still dont understand why it happens tho)#i had to stop reading clemvi fic for a while because the way people were writing them#i felt like i was teleported back to 2014 reading johndave fic 💀 i wish i was kidding it was giving me psychic damage. like where am i#incognito#replies with lexi#twdg
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my roman empire is a comment on a reddit post i once read where someone was talking about how their alcoholic uncle explained his reasons for drinking as the world being too 'sharp' and needing something to 'soften the edges' and this commenter surmised that their uncle was most likely neurodivergent
#i honwstly think abt this like. daily#ive only just started to br able to identify somr of my feelings as overstimulation#which makrs sense why my first response to being upset is to smoke myself numb#its bc im trying to create like a bubble of comfort around myself lol
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