#im just not *quite* ready yet

[gomzdrawfr]

OC doodle with the 141 - tw: alcohol, small mention of death

Honest Feelings

[ohwormwood]

random thoughts i have while playing isat pt. 6

[woe, spoilers be upon ye!]

[tw: bad touch event (if that counts???)]

so i booted up the game and immediately went to go meet god

i hate them!!! wow!!!

this one made me laugh though FHDJSHK

then i decided to play the Forbidden Note. it did not end well

listen. im not a sifloop shipper by any means but this. this sent me into orbit JHFDHJSJK

why are they so funny like that

made even more bad decisions!!! sorry siffrin!!!

then i made the even more worse decision. im sorry bonnie i really am. no i will not talk further about that loop im gonna keep all that down here in my chest until i die

when i looped back and the town theme slowed down, i literally had to step back from the computer and sit for a moment to process my Crimes

THEY JUST WANT TO LOOK AT THE STARS SOBS---

fought the king again and experienced PTSDfrin. i will be redrawing these soon. prepare for pain :)))))

i know. i know this line is supposed to be upset and serious frin but. i cant read it normally it makes me LAUGH SO HARD---

OOOOH YOU WANNA SCREAM SO BAAAAAD

i. was not mentally prepared for this frame though. forgot this happened and i gasped out loud and had to pause the game

then! i made the Worst Decision! you know the one.

i am not proud of my choices today ;w; im so sorry siffrin/hj

[dreadfuldevotee]

i’ve had a sinking suspicion since the season 2 finale that the show might end Armand’s storyline with him just straight up killing himself but planning to end the series around Memnoch the Devil has really impacted my doomerism oh nooo they might actually really do it

Eyeeeeee don't even wanna consider that a possibility because like. Look. At this point all we have to work with are these two seasons of television and what cast & crew have said. First of all, I think ending on Memnoch is just a bad idea in the first place. I can only infer based on where The Vampire Armand begins and peer reviews, but it does not seem in the slightest like that would be a satifying ending for literally any character without doing a good chunk of rewriting. Which seems to be Thee Memnoch issue anyway since it is a book centered around Lestat's bootleg Divine Comedy experience and thus alienates the whole rest of the cast (which I think is going to be the issue in finding a satisfying book compliant ending beyond Qotd and before Prince Lestat Trilogy)

I also have hope for this not being the case because I do believe Rolin and Assad when they talk about not wanting Armand to be this mustache twirling villian. I think if Armand can be as fucked up as he is in the books and still get a happy ending- to give this more sympathetic approach to the same character, a deeply depressing ending would just be a smack in the face.

This doesn't even cover the kind of logistics of Armand not being Orthodox Christian anymore and therefor having no actual tie to the Veil of Veronica and seeing Jesus in it. We already know from Benji and Maharet who are neither Christian, saw Jesus's face but didn't crash out about it because he's not their savior so. Idk. I don't even think they'd even want to do a full season of just Memnoch in the first place

[persephoneflouwers]

It’s a bad day.

[daily-crabbys]

mmg,, i might hiatus again,,,

I'd hate to do it, but there's no joy in crab posts as of right now, and also as of a long while ago.

Managing messages and responding to people in replies and being tagged and all the stuff in inbox is. a lot.

I never intended or expected crab blog to get this big, and it feels like such a chore to do at this point. Not that I dont like it, and not that I dont enjoy the fellow crab lovers, but it's certainly overwhelming.

That plus other socials and such that I manage and real life stuff is just. IDK, it's a lot. Usually, if I get to this point, I just drop off, maybe delete the account if I really can't stand it, but I'm definitely not going to do that here.

At the very least, I'm going to empty out the submissions that have been piling up, but after that, I'm not sure. I may not even get through all of those, I've already been relying on those for a long time at this point, and I think that's pretty obvious.

It feels like a hassle to deal with those anyways since most people don't even identify what type of crab it is that they submit, so I have to take the time to find it, which is usually not at all easy. There are so many posts that I've just had to guess what to tag it as because I just don't know, and there's no solid answer that I can find, at least not usually.

Which is also partially my fault, I've never said anything about it before, and I never specified it at an earlier time to make incoming ones less stressful to deal with, but even so I just. I don't know, I don't.

I don't know exactly when it'll happen, but it's the most likely thing to happen from here. I think I'll modify some stuff about how I handle the daily-crabbys blog to make it easier on me when I come back, but I'm not entirely sure what that'll be. I've never managed a successful daily posting account before, I haven't the slightest clue how to make it all easier on me.

Sorry that this has gotten so long, I didn't mean to rant. There's just so much that I feel like I need to say.

This isn't something coming out of nowhere, and it isn't going to be immediate. I've thought about wanting to do this for a while, and I know I did this already not too long ago, but I didn't really change anything for myself, so I'm just burnt out a lot faster.

Sorry again, both for the length of this and the fact that it's going to happen, but I've just got to make things better for myself before I carry on long term. I really just fucked myself over by not doing this the first time, but if I don't do something about it eventually then I'll just end up hating this blog too much to continue.

🦀💜

[stupidrant]

I just randomly thought of atreus playing with angrboda’s hair and he decided to kind of dye it with her paints and she kept it as a reminder for when he’s away on one of his missions; then she washes the dye out and she makes him dye it when he has to go, like a little tradition 😭💞 (also hi I recently followed you but I’m very shy so I’m on anon for now, but I love your blog 💞)

wait this is so cuteeee 🥺 one time it’d be purple, the next blue and a special time it’d be rainbow colored 💔💔💔

[whatimdoing-here]

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[krii-bolts]

This Rat bastard I swear to the Shade-

[lollytea]

What would be your headcanon for how jealous would play out in a huntlow relationship cause they seem to healthy to do the whole make jealous thing, also I love your blog it’s a god send.

Neither Hunter nor Willow are especially prone to jealousy. Everybody gets jealous now and again so they both probably experience it occasionally but not to the extent that it affects their relationship.

Gotta remember that when Hunter first met Willow, she was very popular and well liked at Hexside, something he must have noticed before he even started developing a crush on her. His initial impression of her was a cool powerful witch that tons of people admired. So he's certainly not thrown off when that admiration from others starts making an appearance in a romantic sense.

It does not bother him. Not one bit. Because in his opinion, it's perfectly understandable. Like. What's he supposed to do? Confront them and demand they not have a big stupid crush on her? She's Willow fucking Park. It's a no-brainer. If somebody asked that of him a few months ago, he would be at a complete loss on how to go about it. He'd probably be more offended if somebody their age mentioned that they didn't have any interest in her whatsoever.

I like to believe that, while Hunter will probably still grapple with a lot of self-doubt post-series, his relationships are what he's most emotionally certain about. He doesn't question if the people who love him actually love him and that includes Willow. Huge growth from him. He's very secure in the fact that she's not going to suddenly meet somebody else and lose all interest in him. He knows he gets more love and attention from Willow than anyone else who's into her. So he's chill with half of Hexside fawning over her to their collective heart's content.

It's shit like

"I saw you flirting with Willow Park in the hallway. Aren't you worried her boyfriend is gonna get mad?"

"Dude I was talking to her boyfriend at lunch and he was giving me advice on how to impress her."

Willow on the other hand, is not an extremely jealous person but I like to believe that something about another person expressing an interest in Hunter tugs out a slightly petty and immature side of her. Emphasis on slightly.

It's the same side of her that was eager to crash the Owl House into Blight Manor just to show Amity that their moonlight conjuring was better than hers. It's the same side of her that used to just sit there and silently seethe at her desk when Boscha and her friends would snatch her pens and hairclips and snacks without any consideration for the fact that they were hers and you can't just take her stuff.

Of course, Willow has matured a lot since then. She's in a better place mentally. She's tons more confident and understands that, as Captain of the Flyer Derby team, its almost impossible to bully her anymore.

She's not threatened when people flirt with Hunter. She trusts him. She's just astounded at the audacity. Because surely, you are not trying to snatch Captain Willow Park's boyfriend right from under her nose, right? You can't be that dumb, right?

Willow is excellent at hiding it. Her actions are subtle. But if this is ever happening, she just wanders over, friendly as ever, though suddenly a lot more affectionate with Hunter than she tends to publicly be. Getting a little clingier is all she does to establish that flirting with him just simply isn't going to fly. And it usually stops after that.

So yeah. It definitely irks her a bit. But she never really lets jealousy consume her.

[nixknacks0-0]

would loooove to hear about the tina / jimmy jr. jealousy fic and also the chloise meetcute!

Haha of course, both great options

The Tina/Jimmy Jr Jealousy is on the spicier side, pretty short but still good practice for that sort of thing.

I remember wanting to explore a slightly older them, as well as digging into Jimmy's obvious jealousy. It's a really fun dynamic to write, and I'll post a snippet below for you (⁠｡⁠•̀⁠ᴗ⁠-⁠)⁠✧

He didn't look at her, but his hand was tightly gripping hers.

"Oh. Oh, are you jealous?"

"Tsk, of course I am Tina. I can't help it, I just want you all to myself. You mean so much to me, but you seem interested in every other guy you see."

He pulled her closer.

"What do I have to do to get your attention?" He asked softly.

Tina blushed, her heartbeat racing as a comfortable heat settled in her stomach. He was only a few inches taller than her, but as he pulled her tight against him and leaned over, it was the perfect height to look up at him.

There was friction in the air as their eyes met, and Tina smirked as she glanced at his lips.

I don't think anyone will be surprised at what happens next

I think I've actually spoken on the Chlouise meetcute file before, but it's always so fun.

The tl;dr is that Zeke drags Louise to the gym, she ends up seeing Chloe from across the room and not recognizing her. Of course she thinks that she's really attractive, convinces Zeke to help find out if she's straight, Zeke recognizes her and hold it over Louise's head for a while. Louise eventually talks with Chloe and figures it out, but is still way too attracted to her. Cue cute little gym rivalry between them which eventually escalates and there is tension and someone inevitably asks someone out

Tragically, I've only really gotten around to writing bits of the first act, but even still I think it is such and interesting way to bring up some rivalry action for adults who used to know each other but not really. There are a few fun surprising character moments planned for both of them (⁠ ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴗ⁠ꈍ⁠)

[kyojuuros]

Trying to seek long term companionship and commitment as a sex repulsed aroace fucking sucks.

[dailydegurechaff]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY I HOPE ITS GOOD

thank uuuu!! <33 it has been very good :DD

[pepprs]

took today as a sick day (due to period cramps lol) and spent the afternoon writing and recording a song about recent horrors. i don’t know whether it made me feel better or not in part because i still have to [redacted] but i definitely think it helped to take a day to try to recover and process

[fearnotthedemons]

hey so like. coming back to publicly assault and maim your inbox. your music taste is so fucking good (based off the ghoststory and hellhound playlists) like erm. red desert got me howling at the moon i will NOT lie to you

me and you rn 🤝

[tony-andonuts]

Okay Ive been setting this thought aside for months but I just need to go off (not a vent but personal stuff below)

Okay at this point Im fucking convinced i have OSDD. Like,,,,,,,,

Idk so first off I fit the most important criteria which is early childhood trauma. The first memory I have is screaming followed by watching a laundry basket get thrown and shattered, and uhhhhhhhhhh. CSA from 4-8. Also the way i experience amnesia is weird and I don't always experience it when I "switch" (in quotations bc im still unsure) butlike. There are lots of times where It'll feel like I'm playing someone else's save file in a game and I have no fucking clue what the other person was up to but Here I Fucking Am!!

Andlike. I've been under the assumption that the reason why I switch is just out of being manic and autistic and compartmentalising certain qualities/interests/emotions into different "modes" but. Idk it very well could be and im just overthinking it but ever since my dad died I have been feeling almost purely like Lloyd or Pete. And I thought they were just names but like. Lloyd and Pete and Tony are different people. Theyre all totally different but we're operating this power rangers mechazord that is our corporeal body!!

Or at least it feels that way

[its--ali]

Hm. HM.