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It’s a bad day.
#it’s— idk even if it is it really#but ive been thinking about it#and like im sort of realising that#liam is gone#he would have dressed up for halloween#would have posted his outfit at least#and I feel like we’re starting that slow process of#moving on day by day#without him. it’s the first halloween without him#itll be the first November and then the first Christmas#and so on and im devastated about this#because I want the time to stop and the world to freeze#until im ready to do all the little things in this new dangerous reality without him#and i dont think im quite there yet#thinking of selling zayn tickets too#i just don’t want any if this#im simply scared of moving on#scared everyone will but me
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Silly guys goin' on silly adventures:]
@rorydrawsandwrites's puppeteer au but the only difference is that jax gives consent
My contribution to this wonderful au has been long overdue:')
Rambling in tags ehe (cw: ribbun:p)
Well maybe it's not the only difference
#I think in this version of the au possesion puts you into an almost dream-like state#Slipping into a sort of weird trance#Like physically you still have control of your body#But mentally you're mindlessly following orders from a disembodied voice#Kinda works like that imperius curse in harry potter (yes ik rowling sucks)#And jax soon figured out it was great for dissasociating😀#Escapism and heavily dependant on those possesion sessions to preserve his own mental stability:')#But *cue dramatic music🥁*#He eventually realises that it was not the possesion that brings him comfort and peace no more#But the presence and embrace of gangle that did<3💖💗💞#Jskhsskhj sorry that was so cheesy🧀#Well more or less its because he hadnt have human interaction in AWHILE it seems#Goose did confirm that it has been a long time since he last got a hug:(#*almost* made me feel bad there#Mkay enough rambling about this slight very minor variation of the story#I hope this whole thing was coherent to even be readable=]#Maybe ill even add emojis✨#tadc gangle#tadc jax#ribbun#the amazing digital circus#Tadc au#tadc fanart#tadc fandom#gangle x jax#jax x gangle#Let me have this guys#Let me indulge-#Her head is a tad bit too small yes IM AWARE#This is actually probably my fastest post to reach 100 notes wth (in like 7-8 hours)
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// on alex and resistance
#she’s here she’s finally here#i realised that the fact ive been compiling for like. years. was a huge hindrance so maybe at some stage i’ll do some more but#she’s here!#and im so relieved im sort of happy with it that im just hitting post at 7pm on a sunday in the middle of winter break#alex albon#webweaving
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thoroughly enjoying @infamous-if so here's sketchdump of my post-read doodles before i run through it once again!!!!!!!!!
#p2 seven and aki are singing simple season h/ippo campus :)#slash is only in there so i dont clog the main band tag up !! i love them dearly i listened to lp3 drawing these#esp bc boys. is such a song for him .#infamous#infamous if#akihiro yasumi#seven lawless#there are more people here but i am not strong enough to tag everyone. sorry#also please don't be fooled by what looks like me leaning towards seven. aki is about to pipebomb all his relationships#mostly by flirting w anything that moves and being the most sagittarius man of ALL TIME!!!!!#also im enjoying his stage name w regards to his backstory#akihiro wanting to keep his private life as private as possible bc he believes there is like#a persona that he has to project as a singer. and it should be his love for the craft that his fans see#also akihiro: and i will make my stage name quite literally mean empty house in japanese#'somebody FOLLOW ME i'm DISTRAUGHT' sort of energy#my art#edit: adjusted the picture just slightly cause i realised exported it odd...
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What led to this (orufrey comic, cw an uncomfortable/creepy scene)
#witch hat tag#orufrey#er.... i'm too tired to have anything to say..i worked several days on this.#wait.. didn't i say just recently here that i probably wouldn't ever depict 'what if alaira is qifrey's sort-of ex'. What's going on#i don't even remember deciding to draw this..it's all a blur..i'm not sure why i WOULD decide to draw delicate scenes in my head#that i wouldn't really want to share with anyone/discuss so why did i draw it...#some part of me really really wants to draw things that are more and more true to myself...#maybe because of my alienation with most romance/shipping/dynamics the rest of the world depicts.#orufrey really is perfectly suited to me - what i read in the text and what is in my head. well anyway#i am TIRED of drawing poses and angles and..maybe now i will actually take a break from drawing bc of the tediousness of Angles#btw it really is a 'stretch of time' . . . assuming witches graduate age 18-20#well orufrey are canonically 30-ish. they've only had agott around for presumably about TWO years (?) bc she took the test age 10#and it feels like oru moving in/unknown atelier acquisition/building (?) .. i guess that could be a year or so before agott at most#(she was the first disciple) so... ????????? What about the other 7 or so years ?!?!?!!?!?! Unemployed Brimhat Hatred era#that time is very nebulous. after qifrey went to the tower i feel like it's been implied he and oru drifted apart a little.#certainly they didn't live together at first... no way. that doesn't feel like how it is based on things oru has said about becoming Eye#idk. I'm tired now. i don't usually think of alaira as necessarily qifrey's ex and this being how things went in that 'sliver of time'.#i usually prefer the idea that they have their first kiss with each other in their 30s cause That's Just The Orufrey Lifestyle#just felt like making a more relatable alternative view of my own Cai Orufrey Canon one time. btw im a big monoshipper and it hurt a bit#let's leave it there. this is surely the most i've worked on a 'single' art - though now i realise just how much longer the fic took :')
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"they're not talking" right so for the first one or two eps, there's the possibility that even though they might be compelled to work as a team, they will still likely be really angry with each other, and act like strangers, or just simply like they cant stand each other. like yeah the unconditional love is unassailable and all, but the tragedy is that at the start of s3 they might actually end up treating each other - projecting that anger and guilt and longing - exactly as they were meant to since the beginning. we've never truly seen them be adversaries in anything but name, and the prospect that s3 might pose what would have happened if they'd never shared all those experiences - and fallen in love along the way - is utterly horrific
#good omens#idk if this makes sense but it's like. yeah they'll sort it out ofc they will. but for like the first couple of eps?#they might treat the other like they would have done if they'd never realised they have common ground and liked each other#im all for a 'what if/alt reality' scenario but this makes me feel ill#s3 narrative spec#bc if i manifest this im going to be so upset
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little while ago i drew unvoided hollow for funsies and ppl asked for unvoided ghost. here they are!!!
#they look like a little rabbit of some sort#im literally shaking buy her brown contacts#realising idk where they got the freckles from#whatever#theyre cute im keeping them#ive been sleeping so bad on ghost im sorry little guy#my art#hollow knight gijinka#hollow knight ghost#little ghost
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i love love loove the godlike imagery projmoon and the fandom uses for carmen but please dont let that make u forget how silly she was. her work desk was always messy and she liked laying in the sun and her writing was chicken scratch and despite everyone seeing her as a confident leader she was never completely sure of herself. she was a human and what happened to her was a damn tragedy
#lobotomy corporation#project moon#carmen lobcorp#ppl treating carmen like a godlike figure is understandable i get why. like trust me i saw ruina first b4 lcorp i /get/ it#but theres not enough exploration on how she was when she was alive i think (or maybe im not looking hard enough). that is all#sometimes i think abt tht one cutscene in the outskirts where theyre all faceless as everyone talks abt relying on carmen#something abt it was a little haunting the first time i saw it. like imagine everyone relying on u like that. it mustve weighed on her#it never clicked w me until i was writing this but keters floor realisation in ruina also sort of doubles as one for carmen#interesting to think abt considering what keter was in lcorp...#text#carmen
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questioning sexuality is so exhausting
#(edit: sorry for the rant in the tags and i just. i want someone to talk to me)#i keep on doing it for no apparent reason#someone was talking about lust yesterday and i realised today that.#even tho id thought i don't experience it. i possibly do. but exclusively towards women.#i hate it here!#for a multitude of reasons i will never have a relationship with a woman but! i may be incapable of having a relationship with a man!#at some point in the last few months i have abruptly pivoted from definitely wanting marriage and kids to being ambivalent on marriage#and not wanting kids. that's such an outlier in my life that it might just be a mental health thing tho idk#but at the same time i. want to be loved.#i don't know what i want anymore and im tired of questioning myself#i definitely overthink it but idk how to stop it#and i hate hate hate how the moral obsessions have bee lately#this isn't entirely related but it kind of is#like Am i a terrible morally bankrupt person for having certain thoughts or is it just religious ocd go brrrr?? am i overthinking it?#i don't know. i don't know!#for a while labelling myself as arospec ace kinda calmed that down but. i don't know#i do't want to be attracted to women. i don't want to have to look away so often. i don't want any of that.#but i don't know how to stop it.#i don't even know if i'm attracted to men at all.#this is a cry for help and encouragement and prayers no matter what your views on these matters are#queer stuff tag#i nearly fessed up to my friend yesterday about same sex attraction and i might've except that it would have probably outed me as#the person who anonymously sent in a question several months ago about the side b movement to a church thing#ive only told one person at church about any of that sort of stuff and it was very vaguely worded#also see: this friend is the mother of the boy i?? i don't even know how i feel about him#i increasingly think it wasn't romantic at all. but i don't know#i would love any encouragement you got. anything at all.#i don't know how much this stuff is affected by the fact that i consider myself unloveable and think it highly unlikely any boy will ever#care for me#now im rambling. sorry
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i don’t talk about bridgerton on here but just to clarify. i will not be having ANY eloise hate on this account. i will bite.
#eloise bridgerton they could never make me hate you!!#addressing the normal talking points one by one to get them sorted:#- no i don’t care that eloise called pen some names after the discovery. she was devastated and furious.#she can apologise in the future but in the moment of course she said it#- yes pen did write about eloise as a way to save her but that doesn’t mean it hasn’t possibly ruined eloise’s life#- similarly: eloise isn’t (just) angry that she was written about. daphne also went through whistledown and it very much terrified her#so have many other women including marina#- eloise is betrayed because she told pen everything and is realising pen told her nothing#(and she’s probably thinking about any secrets she might have said to her best friend that could now be used against the ton and her family)#- as claudio said: being regency gossip girl isnt a moral girlboss thing its deeply harmful tbh#- pen did have reasons to become whistledown! that doesn’t mean that she’s innocent or right!#- eloise isnt now friends with cressida to spite pen lmao she’s alone and scared and cressida was the last person who offered her friendship#she has no idea how to manage society by herself#(and she needs someone to improve the reputation of her and her family)#- im also convinced she has other ulterior motives for befriending cressida. like she’s keeping an eye on her or smth#- eloise didn’t just ignore anything pen said and that’s why she only just figured it out. pen deliberately didn’t speak like lw to hide it#the moment she did eloise was like huh that’s weird she doesn’t normally talk like that. and THATS when she figured it out#- eloise just found out her best friend has betrayed her and been hiding this massive secret#but she hasn’t told anyone. not even her own family. im not hearing out any accusations of HER of being disloyal#- also pen clearly wasn’t that upset at writing about eloise bc the moment eloise and colin upset her she went straight back to it lmao#side note but no i don’t think the queen is going to name her the ‘emerald’ or anything because she’s suddenly in the spotlight#eloise is tbh the only debutante she actually consistently recognised (for good or bad)#a new dress is not going to be interesting for charlotte to change her whole tradition#tl;dr i love eloise and i will die on this hill#eloise bridgerton#bridgerton
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Genuinely curious, what’s up with Noir’s age? And what does it have to do with his 08/09 run? ((You may ignore if you wish :D))
i no longer have to do an extremely long explaination about comics noir because it has already been done here, by foolsocracy!!!!!!! really great breakdown of his very vague age, which is never said outright in the 08-09 run, only implied!! my own personal take on this is that he's 17-turning-18 in the first one, just about graduated high school but not able to afford college (see the panel below LOL)
this also got a little longer than i thought it would, so under the cut for the rest of it! the tl:dr is "itsv!noir is not the same as comics!noir, and people saying that he's 19 isn't strictly true. to me, he's around 30!"
eyes without a face (the 09 run!!) only takes place 8 months after, in september 1933, which makes peter 18-turning-19. this is more of a headcanon though!! (see the noir birthday poll, which made me a noir-is-a-december-baby truther)
(peter being a libra is mentioned once in the first issue of amazing spider-man (2015), mostly as a punchline, and a specific date of october 10th was given in another issue that i have lost. other media, like with the mcu, has his birthday on august 10th. but to me noir is a sagittarius and you cannot pry that from me)
the 2020 run of noir begins establishing the year as 1939, making peter around his mid-20s, and 25 if you believe me on the 'peter was 17 in noir 2008' LOL.... i won't lie though i haven't read this one properly i very quickly skimmed so pinch of salt regarding my takes on the 2020 run
noir being in his teens during the first original runs is why "itsv!noir is 17-19" goes around so often! i've seen that on tumblr, twitter AND on tiktok and i don't mind what people hc, but it has become a pet peeve when people say it like its canon even though it's never been mentioned by the writers or the art book. itsv!noir is similar to his comic counterpart, but his differences in his origin story make me interpret him as a different noir (like how peter b.'s dimension is 616B, making him... 90214B?)
again, we are straying from itsv canon/etc here because i'm deranged, but i personally hc noir as being 32! some of my friends think he's in his mid-20s, others think he's older, but really the only reason is that 32 is the midpoint between the other two peter parkers: ripeter was 26 and peter b is 38. he's also voiced by nic cage, which makes me think older in the first place!
i just like the idea that he's more experienced that ripeter, but hasn't gone through as much as peter b. he spends most of the movie being broody ("moral ambiguity of your actions!", "matches burn down to my fingertips", etc etc), or snarkier than you'd expect ("it's that easy" "who are you again?" "you gonna fight or are you just bumping gums" etc etc). he also very sweetly tells everyone that he loves them before he leaves !!! i feel like it can in fact be in character for a peter parker in his late 20-early 30s, distanced from his tragedies in his own world by time (he doesn't forget them, that's different !) being able to look out for the spiders around him.
okay now we are VERY deep into hc territory, but it makes him able to balance out the rest of the itsv spider-gang as an older-brother figure who's able to guide peni, miles and gwen but also be able to act as a voice of reason for peter b. and ham if the sitauation calls for it. that being said noir is still peter parker and is therefore capable of spider-esque tomfoolery, which can lead to him misjudging the need for a snarky one liner ("this is a pretty hard core origin story"). my characterisation of him is also very inspired by heyitsspiderman, the itsv fic that changed me for the better, and noir isn't even in it that much LOL
veering back into itsv!noir's age and your actual question though: he's always read older in the movies, and not at all 17-19. noir is always going to be around 30 (32 if i have to give a number) to me!! if anything, he did go through the same kind of 'canon events' as comics noir did, but is an older and more experienced version of him, with tweaks to the backstory (like a radioactive spider instead of a spider-god, and webshooters instead of organic webbing). there are reasons ofc to see him being younger (egg creams are non-alcoholic, and that if it's 1933, his comicsverse self would be 18-19 too) . however you must consider that sony didn't expand on this and therefore it's up to fan interpretation and also that
#this kind of turns into meta . sort of . sorry about that#and i know some people take those jokes noir makes as like. just very blunt observations of what is happening#i personally believe they are jokes that aren't landing. or just him being a bit annoying <3 i love him for this#i can talk forever and forever about movie noir. its how i got into him in the first place . picked me up and swept me away#and now i overthink and read too much into his like. 6 mins of screentime#also the rich beautiful itsv noir backstory that exists only in my mind..... which is mostly the same#just with small tweaks and adjustments. its MY SIDE CHARACTER and I GET TO CHOOSE THE HCS#eg. the insane 'peter quits working at the bugle very annoyingly for everyone involved before becoming a PI' like this shit just#swirls in my brain. forever and ever.#noir#answered#edit: sorry im just realising this is boiling down to itsv noir is freshly out of his 20s#therefore experiencing post 20s clarity and is not yet going through a peter b-like midlife crisis#and is not a teenager anymore and doesn't have to battle puberty as well as supervillians#so he's somehow doing a little better than the rest of them and able to pass on funny little tips and lifehacks
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oughh i wanted to do a cute laishuro take on the blu ray extras (what if laios had been eaten instead) but lets be honest. they absolutely would not have made it as far without laios
#they wouldve died. badly.#unfortunately ive lost the link saw it on twitter but i think laios gets knocked unconscious and imagines that it had been him that got ate#and not falin. and falin is the only one to advocate for them going back#but no one wants to go along with her presumably because they dont care for laios that much#(or at least this is laios' perception as this is just his imagination)#but also because she doesnt know as much about monsters and couldnt come up with a good argument for going back in#<- didnt know about prolonged digestion in red dragons and marcille assumed the interval was the same as in humans (1-3 days)#BUT...................... when everyone leaves falin turns back and goes in herself. and laios realises that shes always been that sort#of person and theres no point in ruminating over what could have been.#now. i want to believe that had they known falin would turn back without them. that at the very least shuro would have gone in with her.#theres no way he would have let her go on her own. and frankly i dont think he would have assembled his retainers#to go save laios rip...#marcille would have gone if she had known falin would turn back. and honestly i think she mightve known her well enough to guess this irl#anyways what i was GOING to say was maybe as they venture thru the dungeon shuro gets to learn more about laios thru falins view#maybe they get to know each other more and he opens up more about how he thinks of laios and like. falin is able to explain more about him#diffuse tension and give him a better understanding. like yeah hes still annoyed at him but he has a better view of how laios is#they get close and become better friends but maybe it also helps falin make up her mind and let him down gently............................#and maybe they go and save laios but the dragon thing still happens to him#and its again a 'you felt like that all along??' situation irt him wanting to be a monster but it turns out ok and they (laishuro)#open up to one another in the end.........................#but. again im gonna be real. they would not have made it that far LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO laios the goat for real
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*not sure if he's actually a companion but he is in the promo poster and seemingly part of the cast so...
#just realised hes in the promo poster. girl go retire omg. or maybe he's some sort of advisor and he'll leave#not that i dislike him bc i do love him. but bioware cannot dangle him in front of me . and also i dont think he needs to be here#VARRIC IN THE CAST WILL NOT SOLVE YOUR PROBLEMS (IF. THERE ARE ANY)#if anybody should be a returning companion its like. dorian . or something. honestly i think harding covers that base even tho she wasnt#like. an actual companion#anyway whatever.#and if there is NUANCE i want you to TELL ME. anon reply or whatever i want to know im nosy#varric tethras#dragon age 4#da4#dragon age veilguard#da4 spoilers
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(click for full images) ... back when i started this blog and the first year ive had it, i referred to my muses temporarily as being part of a red flag system, based around how open i was to them interacting with mutuals who didn't specify a muse or wanted to be introduced to a game they may have never played.
now, three(!) years later, i've created a visual (affectionate) red flag list so you can all see how things were monitored in my head.
i forgive him - basically, every li in an oto.me game has something red flaggish about them, whether that is comments, behaviours or actions. there is something either immorally correct or rude in what they do, characters in this isle are ones i consider their good to out weigh this bad, and any interactions / dynamics they develop are going to be more fundamentally healthy on their end bc that's just the type of person they are, even if the other muse ... may not be.
i can make him worse - this is ... an interesting section. basically muses on this line could even be on the ' i can fix him ' but are primarily in the line above because technically ... any amount of 'red flag' behaviour wouldn't be something that comes up without reason, primarily the characters in this route only become very red flag-like when certain conditions are met. basically, they don't meet you and become their bad endings, its the choices and actions of a route that turns them a little stir crazy about you. im more willing to write them with people who don't request muses than the ' i can fix him ' muses because, in general to strangers they have (somewhat) good intentions and don't really have certain thoughts swirling around in their heads tbqh.
i can fix him - they're red flags but honestly, they're not the worst (in my opinion) that oto.me can bring interactions wise. the majority of them are pretty good with strangers, theyre upstanding and right, but every single blonde in that isle is infamous in their game for being the lock up / kidn.ap / trapped route of their game. in regards to obe.y me / touchstar.ved - tbh its too early to tell but i feel ai.s falls very similarly to muses like nicola who care about their own first. hes got a bird theme going on. luci.fer, solo.mon and barba.tos are more hc than anything, barb.atos usually goes through a period of hating the ppl he loves canonly, luc.ifer really would have killed you if you posed a thread to his brothers, and solo.mon ... idk something about him strikes that chord with me.
the flag is so red this is a judgement of your muses morals - this ones kinda self explanatory, if you don't know the game / fandom / character or are a new mutual, i wouldnt give this muse to you on a whim, they're insane your honour but lord do i love them <3
#❛ 𝐒𝐈𝐃𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒 ⧽ — ooc.#i feel like i should move solo.mon but smth just screams right. maybe its just barba.tos musings ... who knows. i think his comes more in a#deliberate naivety sort of thing.#realised im missing two things: katsu.ro - who would fit into the i can make him worse genre <3 and oli.ver who would be in the i forgive#him in a heartbeat ....#this was a funny what if in my head#didnt explain belph.ie bc nightbringe.r confirmed this man is that possessive good for him u know
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Peak character description: narrator gushing about how pretty the person literally trying to kill them is
No joke:
#shitpost#this is what people want when they say they want enemies to lovers#if your ship hasnt tried to kill each other at least once do they even love each other#im not joking she literally just stomped on the mcs head and is absolutely prepared to blow the mcs head off#“i love it when women steal from iron man and use his tech to try to melt me” - this idiot probably#“i love it when women glare at me like they hate me (because they do)” - this idiot probably#“i love it when women want me [SIX FEET UNDER IN THE COLD COLD GROUND]” - this idiot probably#“i love it when women relentlessly pursue me (so they can cut off my head and display it like a hunting trophy)” - this idiot probabl#just realised i made the “i love a woman who will actually just kill me” meme into a person#well not really but like the intention was there sort of#the character is not the meme but the memey version of the character is if you catch my drift
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You know about like 2 years ago now I'd wonder why so many people would get mad everytime someone brought up Omori.
Now everytime I hear a person mention Omori I mentally project them blowing up.
#my relationship with omori is like an ex lover#part of me still really loves it. another part of me wants it dead in the dirt#well dead in the dirt is a bit extreme but you get the point#i dont say i like it anymore because frankly it makes me feel weird. alot of bad parts of the community and omocat is. certainly a person#i mean i still have one if the anniversary prints for it so i dont hate it#idk it just sort of leaves a bad taste in my mouth now#but its also a really big part of my life as it was what helped me coped during a really transitional part of my life and me as a person#its also the game that made me realise i should stop wearing only black for the sake of consistency and actually wear something i like#mostly from fanart cause the outfits are dope#maybe thats why I feel sort if butter about it. it relates back to an older part of my life#idk im rambling
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