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quasieli · 2 years ago

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So I had A Moment yesterday re: Maddie. I have another cat, Myka, but she's very timid and doesn't come out from hiding often. Since we lost Maddie, I've noticed she's been hiding more. Well yesterday I saw her chilling by the couch and thought I'd try to coax her over to me to comfort her, if she wanted it. I'm still wearing Maddie's collar as a bracelet and whenever it shook, she reacted. So I figured, she recognizes it and maybe it'll comfort her. So I inched closer to her so as not to frighten her and took the collar off and put it on the floor between us. I sat there for a moment, looking at the collar on the floor, and I just lost it. I sat there crying for a few minutes, it hit me hard. The feeling was something like, looking at this item, just sitting there on the ground, it feels like that's all that's left of her. A collar. Even writing this now I'm getting teary.

It's all these weird little things that I wasn't expecting to hit me that are hurting the most. It make sense, I wasn't prepared for them. I mean, even the stuff I was more prepared for still hurts. It's just part of the process of grief. It feels like it's been forever since I've seen my girl. It's been two weeks as of today. I just miss her a lot. I just wanna be able to give her a kiss on the head again and give her scritches and tell her I love her. She knows I love her, I told her that so many times. That's a bit of a comfort, I think. It's really all I can hold onto cause she's not coming back.

#Animal Death #Eli Speaks #part of me feels like im being dramatic #that voice in my head that pipes up every once in a while and says #its just a cat why are you getting so upset why are you so worked up #im choosing not to engage with that voice #she was my best friend for 13 years and im grieving her and thats ok #im gonna talk about that grief cause it helps me get it out #keeping it all in is just gonna hurt me more #but yeah #im just kinda sad now #ill be okay #i just miss her

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lucabyte · 7 months ago

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Taking pride in One's own appearance.

#you people are becoming my guinea pigs for my finally learning how to communicate information via comics. a thing ive needed to practice at #also BLEGH. YUCK. andrew hussie was right candy makes you sick. this is a little too saccharine for me. yeesh. let me get back to the meat.#isat #isat spoilers #in stars and time #in stars and time spoilers #isat fanart #in stars and time fanart #isat siffrin #isat loop #sifloop #doodlebyte #'let me get back to the meat' i say eyeing something similarly sickly in my sketches. at least it's mildly tormented as a counterbalance...#you people have no idea how much im having to stay my own hand. oh i can draw miserable nudity but the most basic of fluff? visceral #anyway i dont know the logistics of picking up a glass eye or where loop got money (besides pilfering from siffrin) & ive previously drawn #sif with a vague blank middle-grey eye as either being scarred over or a blank occular prosthesis put in quickly at the nearest town #i dont know that they'd have a glass eye during the game but considering prosthesis are reccomended to keep the skull etc from deforming #id imagine it would probably come up postgame as something to do now theyre not on a time limit trying to save the country #plus i assume that having it gouged at by a sadness wasnt exactly a clean wound by any measure #all this to say. idk i just wanted to get some information across in comic form to Test my Abilities #and we're far enough down now to say my absolute most wretchingly sweet fluff headcanon that actually inspired this #which is that i think siffrin gets into the habit of not wearing the eyepatch around loop so they kinda match.#and as a signifier to the other that they're letting their guard down around them. vulnerability etc.#just kinda wearing it around their neck so they don't lose it

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evelynpr · 2 months ago

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Progenitor AU suddenly getting more fanart thanks to Terrarium Kaveh. Truly, no one does it like him.

#Progenitor giving me so much content n fuel yall #genuinely invested in this au omg #kinda sad KIERU isnt here this hoyofair tho...#where did they go :((#I think theyre busy doing other life things right now which. im proud of them just. I just rlly like their work man #ANYWAYS GO WATCH THIS SHOW!!! How often does an au get fully animated like this with several eps #for albedo raiden mona kokomi n scara fans #yae miko n kaveh are the new additions yippeee #Subject 2 my beloved as well #evelynpr genshin #genshin #genshin impact #kaveh

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mercurymacaroons · 2 months ago

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arrives 15 min late with a latte

......sup

#yosuke hanamura #persona 4 #cool now that its done i can ramble in the tags #fellas im surprised hes here and done #did not think that was gonna happen #fuck i forgot smth #eh ill fix it before i make my print #anywho i might make more i might not who knows not i #yukiko is the next one i have half an idea on but also i have some shining nikki designs rattling around with my sole braincell #i also made a shadow alt for the back but idk if i like the mouth so yall arent gonna see him #also i need to find a gold foil guy that does odd sizes and like moq of 1 #bc i wanna do this in gold foil #and its tarot card size bc im dumb as hell #but i want a print for my wall and i know sure as shit no one else will want one hence the moq of 1 #my heart wants to make the whole major arcana for p4 but my past completed works says °❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ 𝑛𝑜 °❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:･#so whatever gets done will get done #also im gonna reblog this a lot bc i put in too many hours to get a singular note by me so like if you dont wanna see it block me lmfao #if you have any hot takes for future cards please share with the class bc i only have ideas for yukiko and a full cast she does not make fr #so uh yeah yeehaw #idk what else to ramble about but like cannot believe yosuke fucking hanamura is the first chara to get a completed piece in 5 years #im not fucking kidding #the rest were all quick graphite or abandoned #hes not even my fave in p4- thats naoto protag chan kou and nanako #boys lucky to hit top 5 #he just kinda crawled into my affection like some kind of sad pathetic creature idk how it happened either #maybe hes overprocessed now that im looking at it #nope i looked too long this is it this is how he is #ill do better by the women i promise

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deoidesign · 2 months ago

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My comic is so pretty...

The hiatus is letting me take a little extra time on these episodes, and I'm definitely putting it to good use!!!

#almost done with my 8th episode... which will give me. two weeks. of buffer...#id really like at LEAST a month... but to be more comfortable id like two #which means 2-6 more episodes before I come back!#I've got about 7 weeks so its possible. but i do still have to finish book 4 #so much to do ..........#I decided for my next comic im doing 3 updates a month.#having 10 days instead of 7 to make an episode is such a huge huge huge difference...#difference in quality and in my health!#anyways the comic is really pretty im really happy with the work im doing rn #the environments especially. im getting to spend a nice amount of time on them and theyre turning out so nicely #its nice to be able to write with a lot of different environments and not have to redo panels when I get to them cause of time #cause every time theres a wild angle? you need a new background...#so sometimes. often actually. there just isnt the time to make the backgrounds for those and i have to make them more flat...#which is fine. it doesnt really affect anything narratively. but. idk. it's kinda sad right?#anyways yeah! 10 days will be much better.#36 episodes a year is about what ive been uploading with my hiatuses on the weekly schedule anyways!#so might as well cut out that super stressful middleman and just commit to that #52 a year is just such a huge difference and i have to accept its not possible to me #i will hurt myself trying to do that. and i want to make comics my whole life!#so i cant push myself that hard now and sacrifice my future. we're gonna go slower after this...#anyways yeah cant wait to come back but also time. if I could get an extra week like a secret one just for me #where theres no chores no nothin just me and my work #thatd be great! so go ahead and do what you gotta do to give me a little pocket dimension #me: ugh i want to return right now...#the more logical me: NO we need the time to finish everything!!!!!! NOT right now!!!!#time and time again #ttawebcomic #comic panels #hiatus stuff #adam and steve

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drawnfamiliarfaces · 10 months ago

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;3

#ninja showdown #my immortal soul #first ninja x chase young #rc9gn first ninja #first ninja #chase young #rc9gn #xiaolin showdown #randy cunningham 9th grade ninja #me @ me; how many art tropes we gotta draw for those two? also me: yes ;)#listen. LISTEN. the world is kinda shit right now and im sad and so im drawing a lot of these two rn to comfort me #but instead of drawing all those great angsty soul-tearing ideas i had. do you know what my brain decided?? DO YOU???#it saw a picture of Chase with wet hair and went: you know what would be very cool idea??? ;))) and i promptly sketched almost 20 pgs #comic where absolutely nothing actually happens but 14 of the pages contain half-naked wet men!!!!!! AND YOU KNOW WHAT #somehow its not even the worst thing i drew because right after that???#my brain was like heehoo what about some love spell/pollen trope?? ;3 & i kid you not i doodled some of it and now im just sitting here #with my head in my hands wondering wtf am i doing as i stare at a doodle of love spelled first #so ye guess what im gonna be working on this month lol

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barghest-land · 1 year ago

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RRRRAAAAAAAAAAAA I LOVE HIM SO......!!!!!!!!

#art #rdr2 #rdr2 fanart #rdr1 #john marston #barghestland #i just realised that his relationships with jack are basically.. me and my dad LMAO #my dad is a bit late being a real dad tho im 27 :/#but it's nice it kinda feels like i actually have one! wow!#jack. my poor guy. i understand.#oooooh it hurts actually #but i love john anyway. listen he's doing a good job ok #im proud of him #ok im sad now just look at pretty (i guess) art alr<3 #artists on tumblr

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ganondoodle · 2 months ago

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(zelda comic rough draft)

im still unable to draw anything ... except for really slowly getting the chapter 2 rough draft further for some reason, another screenshot from page 59

#ganondoodles #zelda #art #tloz #loz #demise #hylia #wip #now its almost the entire page i posted #but i dont think i need to keep any secrets ...#until this scene is painted i might have gone through 3 style changes again anyway lol #none of my test readers have been responding for a while #i worry not only about them but also about the comic ;O;#but i dont want to seem pushy or pressuring so im just kinda waiting nervously but patient bc they probably have better things to do #when im running low on motivation i tend to screenshot wips in hopes of getting a little bit of it back #and i havent been able to do anything else really #so ........................ q-q #even those wonky centaur sketches havent really done anything for me which is sad bc the idea itself is pretty cool #anyway i really like that first demise panel there #perhaps hes having a little too much fun fighting hylia considering shes still very much intending to seal him at some point #idk if its even clear whats happening .. much less without context xD

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whollyjoly · 4 months ago

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@luztoyeweek 2024 day 1 - i'll be seeing you by billie holliday

#luztoyeweek2024 #...yeah i made myself REAL SAD WITH THIS ONE #the seeing you in all the familiar places and the always thinking of you that way....#the lyrics talking about the “day” imagery with them young and happy during currahee #followed with the “looking at the moon” imagery and them during breaking point #...i feel like i should apologize #FUCK i didnt even have this on my luztoye playlist before the week prompts came out but boy howdy has it consumed my soul for luztoye now #but yeah i was super inspired to do the spotify lyrics-esque edit and im kinda obsessed with it!!#(also yes i know this is a day late from the prompt shhhhhhhhhh)#happy luztoye week i guess 😭#luztoye #otp: hell of an idea #george luz #joe toye #band of brothers #bofb #hbowar #em's edits #mine #also just a HUGE shoutout to rie for putting this week together!!! seriously the prompts are SO cool and i am so in love with it!!!

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rowanisawriter · 2 months ago

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iliad corporate lawyer AU next

#im going to just go insane fully and combine my ace attorney obsession with my iliad obsession #strap in because i am actually fully insane now #block me #im kinda sad im almost done with my very last ace attorney game #i played all 10 in a row this whole summer ace attorney summer #now im like ok what now #have to wait for dragon age I guess #maybe ill read a book

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kimio7 · 1 year ago

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— you've always been my favourite.

#this is an idea behind this but once again half of the reason is just bc i wanted to draw girls #is this pre breakdown or during it? idk u decide #this and the other girl lewis art is set in the same universe btw #also im only genderbending them (for now anyways) everyone else is the same #kinda sad i didnt this to flip this and draw her tattoos but also thankful i dont have to draw her tattoos #lewis hamilton #nico rosberg #brocedes #genderbend #f1 fanart #my art #girlcedes

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galacticghoste · 2 months ago

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Another Sona for the small collection XD

She's a Goat bc why not

Also if I had a Chao I want them to look like this lil guy hehehe

Then again I guess the chao could be it's own sona since my sona on this account is a lil ghost maybe I'm thinking too much

Sorry for not being too active artwise

I been so overwhelmed by the thought of school starting that my mental state kinda was everywhere wasn't fun. I didn't even have the desire to draw as usual I was kinda stuck worrying too much about school.

#So I just cleaned my room to clear my head it worked im not too overwhelmed or sad now :)#kinda rant #Made sure to make her as purple as possible XD #This is actually a old drawing I just added some lighting so yeah didnt draw much but Good thing I have a bunch of unfinished ideas hehe #artists on tumblr #digital art #GGhosteArt #small artist #art #digital drawing #sonic oc #sonic sona #sonic art #sth #gghosteoc #chao sonic

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indigopoptart · 6 months ago

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gonna get back into the swing of things with!! some faces I did a bit ago!!!