#im just kind of. i really dont wanna do any of it anymore like whatever that means idk but im sticking around anyway bc i know i have to

[shurisneakers]

Hiii, first of all I read your works like twice now and you're aMAZEing🩷 I don't want to sound demanding, you do what you do, but can I ask when will be another chapter of Unsolved? I binge read it in like one night and I need to know what happens between the two of them🥹

hello my love! thank you so much, im so happy you enjoy them <3

tbh with just starting a full job and still having post-chemotherapy side effects and being like. depressed, i haven't had the energy to really write or even reply to comments, which sucks because people are so kind about unsolved.

ive gotten 2 chapters written. im just not very convinced they're any good, which is why i haven't posted them. also making memes takes more brain power than writing, i am simply not that kind of funny 😭

im trying though, so hopefully this weekend something will happen 🤞

[drifloonz]

one day ill be annoying ab my selfship again . although i enjoy that ppl enjoy my writing most of this is entirely self indulgent, projection, and for me . being so real .

[whytheballs-mars]

Date Night pt. 2

Minors DNI, or you're going to be blocked

Jasonxfem!reader

tw: smut, oral(f!receiving), fem!reader, overstimulation,

Part 1:

After the waiter had dropped off the bowl of chocolate, Jason was soon shooting daggers at the man. 'The absolute gall of this man. first, he can't keep his eyes off my girl, we gave him and everyone here a free show, and now he wants more?!' Jason thinks. He gets up and leaves enough cash to cover the bill (literally just enough, this man brought out coins, making sure to only pay the exact about and not a penny over. why would he tip? didn't everyone just see something better than a tip??) on the table, grabs your arm, and drags you out of the restaurant, into your car.

You don't really put up much of a fight. You can't tell if Jason is angry about the scene that just happened or not. You can't seem to find any anger in his eyes... or anything for that matter.

The drive was silent besides the rev of the engine every once in a while. You couldn't stop thinking about what had happened. Were you in trouble for sucking him off? Did he not want to and just got carried away?

As soon as the two of you got home, he picked you up bridal style. He couldn't help but suck and bite on the bit of your exposed shoulder as he carried the two of you to your bedroom, his neck bowing down so his lips could meet your shoulder. He sets you on the bed so gently, which is a stark contrast to the way his now nipping and sucking along your shoulder, to your collarbone, and up your neck until he reaches your jaw. Jason presses a few antagonizingly slow kisses to your cheek.

"Don't wanna mess up anymore of that pretty makeup you spent so long applying," he mumbles before his lips find yours, kissing you softly. His hands roam all over your body, groping at your breasts before sliding them around your ribcage, to the back of your dress. He unzips your dress and gently tugs it down so the top scrunches together around your hips. He places his hands on the small of your back as he kisses you.

(side note: he definitely wants to fuck up your makeup. If he had it his way, he'd reaply your lipstick, just so he could have it all smudge off when his cock in your mouth.)

He pulls away from your lips to take your nipple in his mouth, causing you to let out a soft moan.

"you just had to act like a little slut tonight, huh?" He mumbles before letting his teeth sink into the skin around your nipple. it was hard but not hard enough to break skin. "Couldn't keep my cock outta your mouth for an hour."

"Jay, im sorry" You whine, and try to speak up in protest before he reaches up just slightly so he can put his thumb over your lips in a rushing motion before parting your lips and resting his thumb in between your lips, not daring to go any further. Jason begins to leave sloppy, wet kisses down your stomach, and he pulls the rest of the dress off your body, throwing it somewhere, with no need to take off your panties.

"on your stomach, baby" Jason says, and you comply, turning onto your stomach, putting your ass in the air on full display for him, your back arching as you lay your chest down the silk sheets. Soon after you've situated yourself two sharp slaps land on both your ass cheeks. "dont be sorry, that was such a good show. So fucking gorgeous"

Jason honestly didn't know what to do. He was so upset, and so jealous at the thought that that damned waiter brought that bowl out. thinking you're some kind of slut, and even the audacity of thinking he could get more. Could see more of you. No, what you did was enough. Jason didn't know if he should punish you for that little stunt, or praise you for some of the best head he's gotten... and how turned on he was in that restaurant.

Whatever he was thinking, you couldn't tell. But you were, ohhh, so grateful when you felt Jason's hands on your ass, soon followed by his tongue licking a stripe up your slit. He licks a few mote times, teasingly slow before getting to work on your clit. His tounge working kitten licks on your bud, then sucking it harshly into his mouth. It's obvious he just wants you to cum.

He laps at your cunt until you cum, moaning his name as your face burries itself into a pillow (ruining the makeup he feigned concern about ruining). While you're still recovering from your orgasm, he flips you onto to your back once more, and goes right back to his favorite place in the world.

As he continues his assault on your poor, slightly overestimated clit, his hands are finding their way to under your knee, and pulling your legs over his shoulder. Occasionally, he'll mutter something about how pretty or how good you taste or how youre all his. All his, not that damn waiter, not anyone at that restaurant, and how absolutely no one else could make you feel so good. But most of all, what falls from his lips are moans. He's so fucking loud, he's almost louder than you... which- well he's making you loose your fucking mind. You're a moaning mess for him as he pulls another orgasm out of you, just with his tounge. and another. And another.

You don't know when he added his fingers to the mix, but he did. His middle two fingers are inside of you curling up to meet that one spot inside of you, that makes your hips buck up into Jason's mouth. With his free hand, he wraps it over your waist, caging you down.

You end up placing your hands in his hair, tugging at it harshly because he's not giving you a break. He moans in return, obviously not letting up.

Normally, he'd make some snarky comment, but he's all too focused on you. The way your head tilts back, exposing your neck. The way your chest rises and falls as you breathe, trying to catch your breath, but Jason is set on pulling orgasm after orgasm out of you. The way your hair was so neat at the beginning of the night, and now it's spread over the pillow cases in a messy way. He's so enraptured by this sight of you. It's been 4 orgams for you... well, 5 if you count the one at dinner, and he thinks you get more and more impossibly beautiful after each one. He doesn't know how to explain it, and he doesn't need to explain it. All he cares about is seeing you layed out like this all fucked out for him.

Once he's finished, having deemed youve had enough, he pulls away and says,

"That's so much better than that damn bowl of chocolate, don't ya think?" He asks. You can't help but nod as he comes up and kisses you lovingly.

Jason runs you a hot bath and puts bubbles in it. He lays lays you in the bathtub so gently, pressing kisses to every part of you that isn't under the water. He helps you take off whatever is left of your makeup, and then he insists on doing your skincare routine for you, telling you sweet nothings. He carried you back into bed, and you guys say nighty night !

(help i didn't know how to end this💀💀😭)

[enden-k]

btw sry to the ppl who came for fanart and get blasted w all the oc stuff LMAOOO

its nothing new but i fell out of a few fandoms, gnshn mainly. due to all the ongoing drama w hoyogames caused by the fandom over the stupidest things (im not involved or get involved in any of that but it always happened i saw stuff here and there on my tl and its just wow), then all the stupid shit hyv pulled in the past months and get away with constantly, then how extremely time consuming and demanding and repetitive everything became etcetcetc i kinda have issues with playing their games. theres jsut no energy or interest left bc all this above is kinda outweighing anything that made me enjoy it before?

(i still adore a bunch of characters and might draw some again but i really am not sure if i will get into the game itself again. im just tired and nothing keeps me there anymore tbh)

zzz is enjoyable as its v chill on time and the team behind it is a new one so the game is sm more different it rlly doesnt feel like a hoyo game anymore. hsr is also ok tho i dont always keep track w it lately, sometimes i just get a bit bored of it when theres nothing interesting baiting me into finishing story stuff lol

whaaat i mean to say is thats kinda why im not rlly doing much fanart lately??? since there was no major thing that had my constant attention and kept me drawing 1000 things at a time lately. i jump from interest to interest rn when it comes to fandom stuff and draw whenever inspo strikes i guess

rn im going back to old fandoms again and rewatching/rereading/replaying all my most favorite things for some happiness. im currently hyperfixating real bad on my fav animanga once again so i might post some doodles of that or other shows i rlly enjoyed and rewatched, maybe even fate or FF stuff again

i rlly have to say since i stopped actively playing gnshn/spending so much time with keeping up with hoyogames and do all my stuff there every single day, i feel mentally SO MUCH better and suddenly have sm good time to use for other things (also ngl i feel like having to keep up daily w those type of games/playing sm gacha turned me really stupid and impatient over the years)

i even got back to draw OCs and create a new comic again after almost 6 YEARSSSSS of not working on my own stories. im feeling really happy rn, drawing stuff that is not gnshn/hyv related be it my OCs or other things i rlly enjoy like alnst etc (its prolly also another reason why im going back to old, favorite things rn bc i wanna create for everything that is dear to me and i didnt do before bc i didnt have my artblog back then yet)

anw sorry for rambling sm LMAO i guess you can consider this some kind of an update/explanation!! OC art and mixture of hyperfixations, favorite things and whatever im into atm, NOT a gnshn only artist

[cxndiedvi0lets]

Looking for help

TW: Verbal and Physical Abuse, Suicide, Self-Harm, Eating Disorder, Sexual Harrassment, Mental Health, Animal Abuse

For anyone who's reading this, I just want to say thank you, and even if I'm desperately seeking for help. I'm not tagging anyone. You may know me as Violet or CxndiedVi0lets on Tumblr, and I've been blogging a lot in a while.

I've had severe episodes in the past where I may have been acting too extremely or even at this rate suicide. I've already had the mindset at the age of 5, and honestly, I'm really tired of pulling this act.

I honestly just don't want to be in this household anymore.

Over the years, my mental health has become progressively worse, and I've tried to seek help from a psychiatrist and a psychologist and have been diagnosed with severe depression along with psychotic episodes which well knownly for my anxiety and impulsive nature of BPD which of course, my impulse is no excuse but I'm not saying its not hard to control.

I stopped seeing a clinic because of my brilliant and intelligent father, who simply seemed to know everything. Then, continues to mock me for my condition.

So, I stopped on medications and everything else even if I was progressively getting worse, not only mentally but as well as physically.

I begin to fail a lot of my subjects and further have been neglecting my health but, Its not what im going through details.

The part where I've really finally snapped is when he threatened to kill my cats, and I've stopped telling them everything because they always use my past against me or remind it as a "safety precaution." I was sexually assaulted at the age of 7, which lasted until I was 12 before my grandfather was kicked out. To say the least things weren't going smoothly, I thought to myself it never affected me but didn't realized it had affected me in ways of self-destruction thinking it was just a normal cycle of a hormonal teenager which I won't elaborate my acts on which you can decide on.

I've had a lot going on in school. I've been sexually assaulted by a classmate recently, but I never elaborated on it, and his acts on me because I didn't wanna make a biggee deal of what I'm going through, even if it is over. I still see his face every day in school, passing by, he was just changed courses and I tried my best to make myself unrecognisable by changing how I dress and my looks which also kind of resulted me getting bullied lol and having my name written on those ridiculous smash or pass books degrading me and objectifying me. It didn't bother me... or at least I think it didn't. I've had a lot of rumours spread around me, and I have been oversexualising myself and making up stories to sound like im a whore. Stereotypical american netflix high school stuff huh?

And yet, I go back home to be used as my father's punching bag (literally) even when it's my mom's fault. It's always the case, and he always justifies it that me being beaten up despised getting bruised was for lecturing me or whatever, lol.

I also hate the fact that they'd even keep more pets like dogs just to have as a toy then neglect them once they begin to have health conditions and continue to get more than complain about them. They don't even have any remorse if they're dying or sick.

Same way of how my father used to lock me up and forced me not to eat cause I dropped a plate accidentally once lol.

I rarely eat, especially when they're around, and they like to complain about why I don't eat with them. I just like to say im not hungry, and now I dont actually feel any hunger at all, and some point that stress led me to gaining weight and overeating which of course led into other health complications. Like bleeding. Anyways skipping on that.

I honestly don't know what to do trying to hide a façade like this anymore, I just want to die or run away im never happy with literally anything. I can't feel anything, I've gotten used to so much pain, I just don't even react to it even when they start swearing at me or calling me names or anything. I don't feel human at all.

I just wish someone could help me maybe leave me advise or maybe send me something on my paypal just so I can earn to get out of this place. I honestly don't care if they think im selfish, I've had enough of this life.

[reallemonmeat]

wanna make a post abt this too real quick:

i already dont post much! but i kind of dont like interacting w the postal fandom,,,

dont worry if you arent like. a weirdo school shooter liker or whatever ur fine . it's just. that on top of that it's just generally kind of been influencing(?) my delusion shit or whatever,, like i love postal and im makes me go crazy in a good way but like. i miss never being into a fandom!! i wasnt into the fandom when i was 10-16 (for obvious reason when it comes to the under 13 stuff but yk 😭) and i Kind Of Miss That (nostalgia!!! + previous reasons stated)

erm yeah.

also wanna state i dont always really fully check the people i follow sometimes, and i especially dont when i reblog honestly. but gonna have to start doing that if i wanna reblog postal stuff. bc it turns out a lot of people end up being. fans of tcc/school shooters n shit. and i can be completely unaware of that. people shouldnt have to skim every single blog just to reblog one little image!!!!!!!!

i might still post art for like... ocs (ive started making my own characters!) or horror movies i like or whatever. i just dont really like the postal fandom.. but thid post probably doesnt matter since ive been kind of lacking in posting art here generally since i havent drawn any postal art im proud of.

oh yeah forgot to add that weird. explosion of proshippers that tried to.. turn postal dude into an offending pedo??? whaht

tldr; me like postal. me no like postal fandom. me still post stuff but might not be postal related as much anymore. womp womp?

[goodbomb]

corny rant lol

ok so extreme paranoia & psychosis? content

I'm so scared of losing him .. i dont wanna get obsessed with him again. i js dont want to feel like a bother anymore 😕 I don't think any words coming from him -or anyone- would help, I'm just always so paranoid about that stuff .

for some reason, my paranoia (other kind of paranoia, the one of me feeling watched by something internal?) gets better when I'm around him, perhaps i just need a distraction from the world, which only he could give (as in right now, though i really want us to last) . I don't want us to be another corny fucking discord e-relationship. i dont want shallow texts of love or how-much-you-mean-to-me stuff• . •••... what i need is something i may not know what it is yet, or just. physical attention. I want a hug from him 😞

i really like speaking of the feeling watched by my own mind topic;;; my friend says it could be some form of DID? though I don't think it would go that far, maybe its another BPD symptom, no more than that. Basically, the feeling is: first of all, it starts with me really liking a real life person, or even character. Then I'll start feeling like they're watching my every move, then my thoughts and the last stage is feeling them judging me (could be just related to some societal unspoken norm-? not the right word- of judging people you dont know, in my case of BEING judged, but idk) AAAND! consequently altering my thoughts. sometimes I'm in a deep state of .. daydreaming? and my senses start to be really really alert, it's like I'm feeling that i could hallucinate at any moment, but it ends up not being anything. (deep state of paranoia?

i believe it could be me trying to fit in somewhere - fit into the 'mental illness' norm. like, every disordered person i see has hallucinated at least once in their life, but I haven't. and no, i dont mean it in the "oh, i want people to feel pity, to feel bad for me because I'm in a and mental condition", so that i would hallucinate and they would feel bad for me.. fuck, that kind of makes sense if im being honest LMAO im a manipulating piece of shit.

maybe i could be lying to you, or to myself. Maybe I just need a job 🌻 anyway please don't take this in the wrong way, do NOT hate on me or misinterpret whatever i said because not even I know what's going on or what i feel. i do not know what's real

[pantamonte]

Do you have any advice for beginner artists/ how to make a persona

Also, i love ur art your persona gives off major Mettaton vibes/pos :D

Very flattering thank you :] means a lot hearing the mettaton comparisons

Idk how good my advice will be, honestly. Im not really a CEO on designing one. I just kind of try to find what works for me so PLEASE do not take the things i will say after this as gospel.

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The thing is that ive had a good few sona designs growing up over the years and each one of them are kinda different depending on how I was at the time.

Though what I did was keep the traits i liked or consistently wanted and worked from there. Like the emo hair bangs or whatever. Thats something i kept around. I also took inspo off of the things that gave me a sort of gender envy. Mettaton funnily enough really is one of those things.

You might not always want to keep your sona the same over a while and thats okay. People are constantly changing creatures that are influenced by their environments. So don't feel stressed if your sona doesn't feel like you after a while. You can have it grow /with/ you. Or you can also just do the thing where you write off your sona as a shapeshifter like i do if you absolutely need a reason LOL

Something i also /personally/ learned is that the more I kinda added story and depth to a sona like I would an oc, the less i felt like it was me. My oc Dante was a sona for me at some point (if the purple shirt and emo hair wasn't a sign enough), but after a while of making him story-relevent and having his own actions and feelings i stopped identifying with him nearly as much and hes not a sona anymore. Hes still got a lot of traits from me but i see him as his own thing. He grew off of me.

So I dont give my sona any insane plot relevence or backstory anymore (at least at this point in time). Its just me with some added quirks and abilities. Representing my thoughts and feelings and artwork and how I wanna present sometimes. So far, that seems to work for me.

Sorry if this answer wasnt satisfying. But at least it gives a bit of insight in my thought process.

[graveantics]

Letter Conundrum

President of the student council Diluc who finds a letter written by you, his vice president. Then panics.

NOTE: this is UNFINISHED. im just uploading this bc i dont really wanna bother w this anymore, maybe i'll rewrite in the future

You like someone.

That is Diluc's biggest concern right now. When he intended to rearrange your stacks of papers, one slipped from his grasp. A little envelope, scented with your signature perfume (not that Diluc would know, I mean, it's not like he's memorized it or something). The addressed? "My darling snookums <3." He frowns upon reading it, it's so corny, it's so you.

(He pushes away the small voice in his head that wishes he was "your darling snookums")

The letter is a private matter to you, he shouldn't read it. He has no right to be reading, nor ask you about it. So he puts it back in between the paper stack and returns to his work.

Yet the letter beckons for him, minutes feel like hours as the letter continue to break his train of thought. He's walked around the room, fidget with his unsteady chair, rearranged his—already neat—desk, yet no matter what he does, the letter comes crawling back behind him, stopping him from doing any of the work in front of him.

It shouldn't bother him, Diluc had already resolved to bury whatever romantic feelings he had for you and move on.

He walks back to your stack of paper, pulls out the egregious letter that's given him no peace. He glares at it, as if it has done an unspeakable crime against him. His mind wanders, it gathers the clues inside his mind, names of anyone who the letter could have possibly been intended for. Every name leaves him more and more antsy, the visual image of you by the side any of these people is absurd to him. How could you possibly settle for someone like- Okay. Maybe he hasn't actually succeeded in moving on.

"Diluc? You're still here?" Upon hearing your voice, Diluc widens his eyes. You've caught him glower at a piece of paper, one you've basically poured your heart into. How the hell is he gonna get out of this.

"You...found my letter." Fuck. You look mortified.

"I haven't read it! I swear." Diluc sputters. Can you tell he's sweating bullets? He can feel the knot in his stomach double in size, he also has a weird urge to eat the letter he's holding.

"I, um, I only happened to stumble upon it. While I was cleaning your desk- it slipped out of the stacks of-" he's rambling. He's aware of it. But right now his panic takes priority over everything else, His mind is scrambling to say anything to escape this awkward situation he's put himself in. "I wasn't even planning on opening it!" he did have the thought in his head though.

"Diluc, it's okay. I wanted you to read it."

"...Pardon?" you shouldn't say that. you're getting his hopes up. Diluc can feel his heart rate escalating.

"Um... yeah." You're looking everywhere but him, actively avoiding eye contact. Usually, he'd scold anyone who fails to manage eye contact during conversations. But Diluc's not sure if he can look at yours either. "I kind of, left it there in the hopes that you would read it..."

Diluc stares. slowly computing what you had just said, meanwhile his ears get hotter and hotter. He stares, then immediately his knees go weak.

Thunk

"Diluc!?"

"M-my apologies" He shouldn't avoid looking at you. Don't get him wrong, he's ELATED that you reciprocate his feelings. The feelings he has been trying to block suddenly flows and flows through him. And now to suddenly have to confront it in its entirety!? It's too much for him.

[octoariadneeeeexoxo]

[redoing my intro post!!]

౨ৎ⋆ ˚｡⋆[ 𝐰𝐞𝐥𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐲 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠! ] ౨ৎ⋆ ˚｡⋆

“ heyo! its me, ariadne! im sooo glad you guys came to check on my page! now, lets start by getting to know me ! “

basic info;

- my pronouns are she/her (mainly), but you can call me whatever you like! you can even call me dookie!! .. NEVER CALL ME DOOKIE!/ref

- im a minor!! so if your being creepy im gonna block you<33

- im a filipino:0

- im a hellenic polytheist (hail hestia and aphrodite<3)

“ now that you know all of that, its time for me to tell you the fandoms im currently in! “

- LMK (lego monkie kid)

- murder drones

- kids show fandoms! (disney jr, nick jr, etc!! oh and i also do korean kids shows)

“ fandoms are not your thing? dont worry!! thats not just all i focus on! here are some of my favourite music artist, and my fav songs from them! “

(psst! i may or may not post about them:0

“ getting bored? well, here are more facts about me!” (thatll probably convice you that i am a cool person and that u shld follow me/j)

- im an artist!

- i also write, just not so often;))

(wattpad is; Liii_Cheryll

(ao3 is; ririadnee_xoxo

- im working on my own oc story!! (itll be called the guardian of constellations!! ill be linking the side blog here once im done with the first pages .. which will never be done btw)

[both my ao3 and wattpad are inactive atm]

- im a HUUGE [not]mayor fan, and i will never shut up about him if you bring him up

- the ceo of making nextgen ocs

- im also on tiktok! (@meiandmayorkisser) <- inactive ;(

- and ive got an art insta!! (@/ririadnee_xoxo, yes its the same as my ao3 user but we dont talk about that)

“ i feel like ive said too much … anyway! before you move on, here are some things i highly encourage you to do while on here! “

- honestly i dont really care if im being made fun of anymore, but it is a lot more nicer to be kind

- no being creepy! pls! especially if your over the age of 18!

- personally, i have no age limit on my blog:) anyone can interact!

- no venting/ranting about serious stuff on my page, my dms and my discord (mademoiselle.ariadnee) is always free if you wanna talk!

- read the room people, dont talk about serious things on a lighthearted post, youre free to discuss any politic/serious topic on a post related to that:)

- absolutely NO discrimination on my blog, please! this is a positive space!!

“ and thats all guys! i hope that you guys enjoy my content!” (i only post once in a blue moon, or when i remember that i have tumblr downloaded on my phone..)

(tags below are unrelated, just used to find my audience<3)

[halfusek]

Irt you post about the archives- Have you read any of the novels? I feel like some of them, like Joey's autobiography, help give a bit more insight to these characters, at least a little.

As for Nathan, I think it's supposed to represent that, unlike Joey, he really was a self made man with good intentions, and that highlights that Wilson was trying to live up to the shadow of his father and instead of being the kind of man his father would have raised, Wilson chose to be as vile as he is.

Memory Joey on the other hand, really is just a representation of this flawed idea people had of the man, only the good parts of Joey that he chose to show. The idealized version of himself that he saw, rather than who he really is. It makes sense to have that contrast there, but he really is just a plot device rather than his own character and it's a shame.

I can't say much for the others, because they feel very lacking. They have a lot of good moments, like the "I'm beautiful." "Always were." scene for example, but outside these moments they feel somewhat empty.

It's unfortunate, because if they had the time, team, and resources, they could have had an incredible story to tell, but limitations with money and staff because of the irl studios layoffs and TheMeatly & Mike Mood making really, really bad choices with their business caused the game to fall short of what it could have been.

we must have read different books because it felt to me like batdr completely ignores book lore

honestly i just feel like the books have been made irrelevant and theyre just kind of telling us stories about these random characters? like adrienne is doing her best to describe these characters but im not gonna lie, as there was some potential to them batdr has been a huge turn off for me for reading anymore (plus that upcoming book is gonna have a yet another completely new character as the main protagonist and im just... bruh how about yall expand upon the characters you already have because this universe is just becoming very messy and full of shallow characters instead of having fewer but interesting ones?? im not against new characters being introduced but they just keep on adding then and then it feels like what we're reading doesn't even matter in the grand scheme of things, that sucks)

sure we get an insight to joey... the only character that actually HAS a lot of complexity and screentime in the games so like yea i like joey and i enjoyed his book but again it felt more like an extra rather than anything that helped expanding the story or the world, i dont really understand their strategy for these...

nathan's and wilson's relation is just uninteresting and shallows wilson's character in my opinion, like what he says to you in game makes out nathan to have been some sort of a horrible father and that'd be kinda interesting and would make wilson a morally grey character

but no he's just a spoiled brat or whatever his archetype is supposed to be and we can throw away the entire symbolism about nathan and bockswell lotsabucks (that cartoon cat from the comics) and the fact that there is supposed to be nathan arch junior and senior making it clear that they changed their minds about the plot just to surprise people (even worse, they ADMIT to doing that in the interview that recently came out... as if it was a good thing ToT) but by doing so they just contradicted clues that existed there before that we could have gotten away from the damn books! like this just makes me not wanna buy any other books anymore because its a clear message that it doesnt fucking matter if we read them, theyre just there to tell us stories about random characters that also wont even appear in the games anyways but we will get 200 more audiologs from other randos we wont care for

again i gotta be sorry for being so negative but im just SO disappointed with batdr and with what the archives had to say

like whatever they are telling their story, its not a sin to be bad and scummy at writing (scummy as in not understanding that youre baiting people into buying extra things for understanding the lore and then making sure you surprise people anyway)

so basically

there is no use for theorising because the message is that they just want to surprise us so if we guess where theyre going they will just change the story no matter how much its gonna suck and contradict what happened before

i cannot comprehend how meatly sees that as a good thing but i guess thats how he wants to tell his stories and whatever makes them happy man

but i find it incredibly shady when you advertise your game as a mystery to be solved and personally this kills my enjoyment of the franchise

[ink-sans-kinner-losseerrr]

*My intro whoa???

*more stuff under cut, if you dont wanna read it, keep scrolling .

*other socials cuz im barely here actually

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*beginning of my story on scratch

*ao3 story

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*strawpage wowie

*sorry carrd is still a WIP guhh its gonna look sick soon though

*pronouns page!!

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*ok first things first, my flags .

*(thats still a wip, icant really find my flags rn GRR)

*hello, im Ink (Or Slyvan, whatever you prefer)

*my pronouns are preferably he/him, pup/pupself, and blood/bloodself, but in all honesty, who ccaarreess….call me a she if you want, idgaf.

*MY!!!!! INTERESTS;;;

*: UNDERTALE!!!!!!!!!! UTMV!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAHH I LOVE UTMV

*: My Little Pony (childhood show right there chat, IM A OG. i hate the new generation grrr)

*: Gravity Falls!!! I have the books Journal 3 and Book Of Bill!!!!!!!!!! :333

*: Psychology, mental disabilities/disorders/illnesses or whatever you wanna call them, I LOVE how the brain works

*: writing little silly stories….i really like to do that!!!!!!!!!! i actually do have a story in progress right now ^_^

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*fyis PLUS boundaries

*i have no dnis, ill just block you if i dont like you.

*chances are, i have autism. Many of those around me have agreed so, except for my family. so if i act strange, thats probably why LMSO

*NO REPOSTING MY ART. I WILL REPORT AND MAKE FUN OF YOU. here's a free one: LOSERRR. YOU CANT DRAW !!!!!!!!! LEARN HOW TO DRAW INSTEAD OF USING AI/REPOSTING W/O CREDIT ….. LOSER.

*feel free to ask me any questions ab my art/ocs, my dms are also open!!!!!!!! just … no unsolicited advice please. .. that might actually get you blocked.

*15 i am 15 years old and i am not comfortable with ANYONE below 13 or above 17 talking to me. Under 13s are for my own safety. over 17s…..well. yours and my own safety. You can still follow if under 14 or over 17, but i likely wont interact with you outside of responding to asks and questions in dms/comments. (Exceptions are possible though, like if i knew you before you became 18, etc etc)

*i may spam like or reblog, this is due to me getting excited ab something. (especially utmv blogs…..keep your eye out for me …..)

*while i MAY make suggestive jokes, i occasionally get triggered by those kinds of jokes, so i only make them with CLOSE friends. KEYWORD: CLOSE.

*if you find my old ahh yt channel (which i doubt you will, its OLD, like…2019 old), dont post it, thats not who i am anymore, and besides the name has my MOTHERS real name in it, so thatd be DOXXING. only very few people know the channel n thats cus i told them.

*(edit: Ink!Sans belongs to @comyet , my apologies for not crediting them at the time of this post)

[cherrylight]

hi im rambling. also hello ashley nation i guess ...

(this is a long post)

i have no idea what to post on here anymore tbch...... im also a nervous wreck talking about any of my f/os without them being the two notorious ones i used to talk about a lot ...... wahh ..... im just nervous being myself on here ..... whys that so DIFFICULT i think its this blog in particular idk ... selfshipping i love you but why do you make me feel really awful about my f/os that i genuinely would give the world to ..... cant i gush about them happily

i wanna be silly and goofy but then I DONT AND IT MAKES ME REALLY UPSET cause im really silly and goofy and i talk a lot then i get anxious and i flop and die its a recurring cycle .......... i should probably use that new blog i made so its easier to post silly things... and just be me but it also has like f/o(s) that i dont really post on here at all out of immense fear so maybe i shouldnt share it to the world.....

idk guys. lately ive just been very terrified and i guess extremely nervous & anxious posting on this blog in particular ..... im really grateful for the people who stuck around and send me asks and just are genuinely really sweet! im sorry for not being able to answer them or anything because i fear i talk too much ALL THE TIME...... like now does that even MAKE SENSE ?! probably not ....

whats kind of saddening is the fact i miss posting about my selfship(s) on here and having others be so supportive of it .... sending silly asks that make me get super happy >_< its like the best thing ever in the entire world wahhh miss it ..... maybe in due time when im not scared .....

tbh my main kind of helps with me on gushing about certain f/os because like no one would say anything..... im just gushing about silly guys and its really fun.......... but then i tear up because he makes me so emotional and UGDFHJGDFHFDH ......anyway. i gush privately and it should just be something im doing for me and that is something i KNOW and do on my own and its very fun and lovely

its just .... ive always been really terrified admitting things... like i have so many thoughts but i dont say them at all.... im also having a lot of trouble articulating my thoughts rn sorry for the jumble mess but its just a lot i guess

i used to be able to say WHATEVER i want and now i just CANT and its actually really upsetting. i just have a genuine weird way on expressing and saying things and i dont want to make people uncomfortable ...

i sometimes think its this blog that makes me so anxious. like more so than usual. but then i think its just Me that makes Me anxious? idk. hard to tell. i just dunno if its the blog or if its me thats making me scared and upset ....

arghh i dont know. this post is already so long >_< idk how to even CONCLUDE THIS ITS SO UPSETTING

i guess the best way is: im anxious all the time on this blog in particular, im way comfortable on my main blog more than this one; maybe the other blog if im brave enough to tag it at some point.... im scared to be fully myself on here so i just stay heavily inactive on here.... but i do love the selfship community...... i dont know if i want to be a part of it ... i just want to reblog cute posts of it and gush about my f/os that make me so happy ....

i want to get out of my comfort zone again. but im scared. so ill die. <- see thats what im talking about i say a lot of out of pocket stuff like that

[enden-k]

hey I think your art is awesome!

I do have a question, how do you keep it consistent when you draw so often? for me it feels like if I don’t spend a long time on one art it doesn’t fit with the rest TT and your art is very precise and all colored— it’s really cool to me! (Like I absolutely don’t mean it in a dang you don’t put work in way but in a wow that’s really precise for not a lot of time. Way)

it may be just like. A different art brain kinda thing but I was interested if you had any tips or like general idea? Orr maybe it’s just a lot of practice also lol. and u know you can always delete the ask if you don’t wanna answer, especially if you’ve already answered it somewhere I couldn’t find it, I will just say hi !:) I really think your art is very cool! sorry for the anon I am the Shy

im not rlly sure i understand the question, sorry im stupid.......i keep it consistent because i draw so often. when i dont draw for a longer period of time, i get out of shape easily and tend to hate whatever i draw bc it doesnt look "right" (= how it usually looks) to me. thats why i try to draw every day, depending on my time its just sketches up to the doodles i post here. and bc i draw so often, i got faster over time so thats why i can pump out lots of doodles a day sometimes (tho hyperfixations/brainrot also plays a huge part in that, like with exorcist au comics recently)

also bc i stopped trying to achieve perfection long ago, i used to do that, spent hours drawing and often overdid a piece and then ended up not liking it anymore lmao. i kinda prefer the sketchy look in my art

when i do pieces like that tho i take more time ofc. unfortunately, im a very lazy person by nature so i draw such pieces once in a blue moon

anw idk what kind of tips to give. this is just lots of practice and hyperfixations/obsessions as fuel kjbjk sorry if im no help

[virgilmyboy]

Hater me activated rn just a silly rant.

BEFORE YOU READ:

I USED TEXT TO SPEACH SOME OF THIS MADE NO SENSE

I WAS RAMBLING/RANTING ABOUT THIS TO MY PARTNER AFTER GETTING LIKE 10 TIKTOKS IN A ROW LOL

I DONT HATE THE 2020 JUST ANNOYED THAT PEOPLE R FORCING IT AND PARTICIPATING IN AN INSANELY QUICK TREND CYCLE

IM HAVING INSANELY EMBARRASSING FLASHBACKS TO MY CRINGE SELF IN 2020

PLEASE DO NOT JOIN RANDOM DISCORD SERVERS IN TIKTOK COMMENT SECTIONS

Ok so I’ve recently gotten back on TikTok after a like hiatus bc it made me so fucking mad and genuinely so I took a break anyway.

I’m seeing a bunch of people be like omg let’s bring 2020 back!!! 2020core! Anime pfp and petite coats!!!!!! And kandi XD 7yp1ng Qu1rk5!!! Triggers!!!!! Freedom progress! Mha!

And like honestly like honestly, it’s so fucking annoying because most people are doing this I was like a fucking trend like I don’t know. It’s just so fucking infuriating because I’m reading comment of these videos and they’re like oh my God like I threw away all my 2020 all my old stuff oh damn, I need to get more you fucking stupid bitch it was five years ago are you that fucking wasteful with your money and your possessions? And do you like seriously like you were doing it because it was a trend not because you liked any of it like like it’s been five years like why would you have thrown away all of your old like 2020 like they’re gonna be wrong a lot of the stuff 2020 I was into I was I was I was mega cringe. I was a mega loser. And im at homestuck I was a fan you know of and fucking hyper pop and kandi and that shit I still listen to it I still indulge it I still do it. I still even dress like 2020 but people doing it I don’t know it feels so force just because it’s a trend and then like in two weeks time the same people who were like kind of like begging up this trend are gonna be like oh that’s cringe. That’s not cool anymore. that’s so lame and dumb like why would you listen to this? It’s now about infinity scarfs and shit speaking about infinity scarfs and like yeah I saw the comment. Someone was like oh it’s only 2020 we are being oppressed because these people don’t like us being who we are in 2020. No one says don’t bring back 2015 or 2014 yes they fucking did I did I’m not bringing back fucking infinity scar so fucking galaxy lagging when people tried to make that thing I put that shit in the ground I was like fuck no other people were like fuck no it’s like it’s so dumb also I don’t wanna bring back a culture where people felt free and open to the fucking point where people put fucking period blood on their fucking wigs and fucking tampons like everywhere it was cringe as fucking hell and it was gross and disturbing and just horrible and something else but I kind of forget kind of running out of steam, yeah yeah 

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Okay, I got things to say like one that’s kind of like super annoying is like I don’t know like the coreification of like interest in the other people like oh like let’s bring back 2020 wearing like whatever or doing like whatever but I’m like like was it bad to do that? Like like a genuine interest in things? I like just things to be like oh make a trend again like I feel like shit like I’m like obnoxiously cringe to everyone like people now like trying to make a trend like was either in like 2021 to 3 and four it’s so annoying I don’t know. 

I don’t know I I think my main thing is like I’m not against like the whole 2020 quote aesthetic“ it’s just mainly like hyper short trend cycle like previously what would maybe take? I don’t know like I can’t remember but I think the trend cycle took like 3020 years for like things to come back in a trend but like now it’s like five years and that’s crazy to me and like it’s not the 2020 thing thing it’s also like the whole like oh now we’re doing the clean aesthetic or like oh we’re wearing baggy pants, bringing back skinny jeans or like oh we’re doing like seaside granddaughter chic it’s just like really scary well maybe not like scary just like stressful cause now I’m like oh God am I out of like trend again or like people being like annoying about it I don’t know.

I get people being like oh 2020 is about like being free to express like who you are but like that’s not the case at least based on what I’ve been seeing cause if anyone says anything to oppose it or even like some like not negative things like I saw one comment and like someone was like oh you know I am happy but like I just kinda wanna make 2025 like my own thing like something new and then people will be like okay? Go back to being plain and boring boring I don’t know like shitting on someone or will be like okay you’re boring on me like boring go like like okay? Ok miss plain jane but like I know so it feels like they just want people I guess currently dressed silly is fine at the end of the day I guess but I just think like understand not everyone’s gonna wanna do that not everyone’s gonna want shit on the face be mindful that you’re being cringe and people can call you cringe just like you can call people like boring, no means or whatever you just gotta accept it and try not to be like so high and mighty about being like I don’t know like about freedom I’m like do what you want cause like I’m kind of being like pretentious like writing this cause like I am I’m cringe as fuck. I dress eccentric. not maybe in like the E I guess at least anymore in the 2020 anyway I think I have my own style. I mean I’m I have my influences obviously but like I just wear whatever I want but I also don’t like try not to push it people unless they ask for it we’re friends or I hate you. I’m a mean bitch I’m now rumble. I don’t know. It’s honestly I’m mainly annoyed that being like shoved in my fucking face every time I go on the Internet like I don’t wanna participate in the new trend leave me alone like I even when I press not interested. I just get like 10 million more.

And like one last thing I think I was like 15 the amount of people I knew that where being groomed because of these like discord servers they’d join bc someone was like “omg join this discord server if you like strawberry cow uwu” not said exactly like that obviously I’m just being dramatic but what I’m getting at is that I’m seeing people do that more again especially under them posts I think I said this like somewhere at the beginning of my purse I can’t remember because I forget I have bad brain and I can’t be bothered to check but like under one of the posts I saw someone like oh join the server if you want like anime profile pics like why do you need a discord that for that? like like in my brain it’s even like an adult being creepy because if they’re posting it and the reminiscing on their teenage years during 2020 then like that’s I don’t know creepy because I am I’m seeing like a lot of like young people expressed interest in like the “2020 aesthetic” and what are you gonna give them that they can’t find unlike Pinterest or like Tumblr or whatever like what it just feels like a slippery slope to me and similar pain I’ve previously seen and experienced myself or like happening to these like kids. and on the other hands it’s like a teenager kid whatever making these posts like to join discord service I feel like and I’m not blaming them because they don’t know any better perhaps anyway that they are inviting a lot of bad adults and young adults because they’re still adults and still dangerous to them essentially and it worries me.

Anyway, I took this too seriously xD (so 2020core)

I’m just yapping

It’s really funny re reading this seeing how fucked the text to speech was and I’m not comma correct it bc honestly it’s funny

I already forgot why I was annoyed for the most part I’m so silly

[dandorishipping]

tell the class all your favorite parts about sova maybe? like what made you really fall for him and all of that!

ok this also might get long i am sorry. thank u for the ask tho its nice to hvae smth to do. either way uhh lets get started

ok so i might have mentioned this but i had a small crush on him a few years ago? i think since like 2022. back then i shipped with cypher and was super fixated on him but i think sova was always in the back of my brain as a crush, although at the time i only had him as a platonic. also cuz one of my good friends who doesnt anymore used to ship with him so i didnt wanna overstep or anything.

anyways im not even sure how i suddenly decided to latch onto him, i think my fixation on yone at the time was starting to fade and my brain just randomly chose to fixate on him even tho he was still a crush at the back of my brain lol. and look where we are now/lh

as for what i like abt him, i think one of the biggest things i like is how polite he is/kind to others. i think thats like a rlly important trait in someone for me if i were like to date someone else and hes just rlly nice in general and very lovely, hes such a big sweetheart :)

also ok im gonna sound crazy here but my friends keep saying im a circle bcuz he rlly fits one of my types which is like the holy trinity of yone vergil and wyll. who are all like, responsible, serious, yet like kind and deeply caring. and sova definitely fits into that archetype haha even though hes not exactly the same?? most of those guys arent exactly the same but theres a huge overlap of similarity with them.

i do also think he is very pretty even tho he is unfortunately white/lh :') (or at least i smacked this guy with the asian beam. get wasian'd) idk i suck at explaining exactly why i like this guy, again i think a big part of it is how kind he is to others!! its again just smth i rlly value in a partner, he genuinely cares about others/esp people hes close to like his grandma. and is very thoughtful. also i like that hes super down to earth and humble like this guy is incredibly talented yet never brags about it at all hes just very modest. smug people drive me nuts so im glad hes not like that lol. he also is very passionate abt his interests like archery and also he does photography! i like to think he also does things like hiking, birdwatching and maybe some gardening in his spare time. idk its a shame we dont get too too much info about val characters although the lore is always constantly growing. i do think he does like lots of outdoorsy hobbies hes very respectful to and attuned with nature i think.

sorry this is getting so long omg. im trying to think of any last things to throw in... i think another thing i rlly love abt him is how calm he is. it kinda balances me out bcuz i tend to be a really hotheaded person but it takes a LOT for him to get bothered by something, or at least lose his temper. in the lore we've never really seen him lose his temper or anything like that? the closest it's gotten is that one image when they were releasing fade where it was like a flashback to him losing his eye and he looked super animalistic. actually i think that in general for him to get that mad or whatever it would probably have to involve one of his loved ones being in danger. which is nice bcuz it shows that he rlly cares.

anyways this is getting so long so i will cut it short but i love my wife <3