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kedreeva · 2 days ago

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i have an odd animal husbandry question you seem like you might know the answer to, your comment about stan reminded me - ive been thinking about getting into backyard chickens for a couple years and the thing that makes me hesitate most is hard culling. im confident in my ability to put down an animal thats sick, or infirm, or for food, but for like, temperament? or for poor egg layers? just sticks on me for some reason. i think it would feel like telling them theyre not a good enough chicken for me. how to you process this part of animal husbandry?

This will be a little long, so bear with me.

If you want to keep use animals (animals bred for a purpose, to be used for a purpose instead of kept as a companion), you gotta get good with the idea that they are here for you under the agreement that you will only keep them as long as you need to. When you take them on, you are agreeing that you will release them to whatever their next life holds for them as soon as you do not need (or they've completed) their service. Maybe for some people that's just release to the biological cycle of life, for others maybe there's an eternal rest, for others maybe it's reincarnation. For soft culling that's just moving to the next household. Whatever it is, you are allowing them to pass to it in as humane a way as you can, and ultimately it is the single greatest kindness and gratitude you can show to them, to give them proper care while they are here and allow them to end with little to no pain- something animals outside of our care rarely get. You are thanking them for their service, and letting them go. Worth does not even begin to factor into it.

It is not easy to take a life. It is NEVER easy, regardless of reason, regardless of excuse, regardless of anything. It is ALWAYS heavy, and it will always hurt you. And it should. I am grateful for the weight of taking a life, because it reminds me that it is serious, and reminds me to take the production of life seriously, because at some point any life I cause to come into existence via breeding animals will have to end.

On top of that, some things ARE heath related that do not seem health related. Aggression in domestic animals IS A HEALTH ISSUE. A cock is aggressive because he is stressed about intruders, containment, mating threats, resource guarding, etc. Even with the best of care this can be true, and unfortunately for you both, this means the animal is not suited for domestic keeping. The same goes for animals (in any stripe of use, but particularly private care) that display repetitive stress behaviors from normal, proper captive care (for example, mice that are food chewing are stressed and should be culled from lines where possible because they are not having a good time). You are doing them a disservice to keep them in a stressful situation you cannot change because of their biology. It has nothing to do with not being good enough for you, and everything to do with producing/keeping animals that do not experience that stress in captive care and releasing the rest from duty because they will not be okay in any captive care.

For some issues (poor egg laying, for example) you CAN pet-home culls instead of hard culling. It's harder to do, you will spend time finding people who just want pets that don't intend to breed or don't care, but it can be done. However!! Is the bird just slow at producing eggs because her genetics say that's how fast eggs get produced, or is she producing slowly because there's a health problem that isn't immediately evident? Is her ovary damaged, is her reproductive tract infected, does she have a disorder that prevents her from processing food correctly so she can't get what she needs to produce eggs as fast as normal? Are you setting the bird up for failure (and someone else for heartbreak/money troubles) sending them to a pet home? Is it something which could lead to pain/suffering down the road if she's allowed to continue? Hard to say without spending a lot of money. Are you willing to risk your reputation, if someone takes a surprise illness/genetic issue down the road badly ("Oh THAT breeder sold me a sick/unhealthy bird/bird with bad genetics"), and compromise your ability to find homes for healthy birds down the road?

You are okay with culling a bird for food- there's nothing that says you cannot eat the bad temperaments, the poor egg layers, the one with genetic issues, and so on. And if you can tell early enough that you, personally, can't make use of the meat, there are plenty of folks with other animals that would LOVE feed for those animals. Take yourself down to a local reptile expo, grab the business cards for a few people who have big snake babies (retics, burmese, anaconda, redtail boa, even BP) that say they'd be interested in taking culls, OR look up local bird of prey rescues in your area (or reptile rescues or big cat rescues if there are any) and ask if they'd be interested in culls. There is ALWAYS someone that can use what you can't/won't. You may have to jump through some hoops to donate to some kinds of rescues (health testing for example), but it's an option you can look into if you want to combat the feelings you're talking about.

As a last note- and I am saying this gently and holding your face in both hands: do not anthropomorphize animals in reality.

In YOUR eyes, you are culling them an illness or an injury or for food or for temperament or for poor quality or or or---- it does not matter to the animal why you are culling them. A death is a death, to them. They are here, and then a thing happens, and they are no longer. They do not understand life or death or afterlife or reincarnation or that they are here for a purpose or not a purpose or literally anything you as a human might impose upon them in your head. They live while they are alive, and then they are not. They do not "want to live" in the "avoid death" sense because they do not necessarily understand "death" as a future concept. Instincts that have worked well to preserve life have been encoded in their DNA to one degree or another, they can and do respond to avoid pain, but with little exception (like... maybe elephants and dolphins and a crows and a few others), it's unlikely that they understand the connection between doing those things and being alive/avoiding death.

So while TO YOU it may feel like telling the bird they are not good enough, and TO ME it feels like allowing the bird to move on in peace... the bird doesn't know either way, and honestly the reason hardly matters. It is alive in the present, and one way or another it will not be alive someday, and you are responsible for making sure that the one way under your control is so peaceful or quick that the bird hardly knows it is no longer alive. The bird doesn't care about (and cannot understand) the why of their death, any more than they understand their pain/stress and how it relates medical assistance; it's why animals often freak out, refuse meds, etc. They don't hate the vet or the car or the carrier or anything- they just simply don't understand human stuff and react according to instincts/what they do understand. If you treat an animal like the animal it IS rather than the person you imagine it to be, you will find yourself with a lot better relationship with them during life, and be able to frame their passing a bit better later on.

#it's not an odd question actually #it's not even the first time I've been asked questions like this #It's a topic a LOT of people will not face head on #or talk about in louder than a whisper #but death is arguably the most important part of animal husbandry to talk frankly and openly about #asks #animal death for ts #culling #hard culling #chickens

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bembely · 1 year ago

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Can someone please explain to me WHY no one can accept that I knit for pleasure?? Every time someone compliments me on my knitting they ask me if I've thought about selling it. NO GOD DAMMIIT NOT EVERYTHING HAS TO BE A SIDE HUSTLE

It would take all the pleasure out of it.

Bring back people doing things for fun. Jesus.

#knitting #hobbies #crafting #for the love of god kill the grind #no im not making an etsy shop #im here to SPEND my money and time doing something i like

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rapidhighway · 8 months ago

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i actually wanted to buy a new sketchbook today but they didn't have the only brand I like using at empik

#idk why #where is ittt #i thought there was a ton of them and then i looked and it was those oxford sketchbooks woth disgustingly smooth paper #all sketchbooks out there are either too textured or too smooth #i like canson pls canson come back #i would like a different brand preferably with colored covers cause im tired of the black i want a pink sketchbook or something #but everything is blackkkk #and the covers are thick as fuck too #i tried a different brand two times now and every time i just wasted my money i cant do that shit it was awful #i want to buy online but i like to touch the paper before buying ugh #that's why i can't buy those sketchbooks that are wrapped in foil at stores #who even came up with that that's an awful idea #i bought one of those art creation sketchbooks that have their own stand at the art store here they look like fancy premium sketchbooks #literally the worst paper ive had the displeasure of drawing on #lined school notebooks i drew in in primary school are better than that #im in sketchbook hell ughhh #I've had moleskin when it was hyped a lot too and its mid too nothing worth spending this much money on

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girlivealwaysbean · 2 months ago

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so tired of being a shitty bandaid for my parents' loneliness. like have u ever considered you passed your curse to me and some days i feel so lonely it's like i can't breathe around the emptiness in my chest????

#my dad is like #you can't just be in your room all the time then what's the point of you living here if ill be sitting here all alone then #and im like bhai what #mom also says this to me she always wanted to sit and rant and she used to say you never talk to me #both of these people don't even fucking get it that they're not even interested in me listening to me #mom just wants a sounding board for her venting and dad just wants someone to pretend everything is okay and happy all the time and #the only important things in life is the immediate present and food and making money and stuff #i swear this is why i feel so ????? about myself my identity like no i can't describe myself #because there is no myself there is just a white sheet of paper where people can write whatever they want #im so tired man #why can't they just go and live with each other and leave us kids out of it 😭🙏#like i genuinely am getting teary eyed about such a small thing but god. i want to have my own life so bad. im sick of feeling all these #complicated emotions guilt and anger and pity and obligation and duty like just god pls fuck off #people my age are so fucking mature and put together than me so confident so clear about their path #have friends partners breakups parties just so many new memories #and im just stuck.#and im fine with it now because i get it studying is really important and this is quite basic requirement to be perfect at #atleast my syllabus to survive in this industry #but then. let me do that only. please don't make me pretend to like you like spending time with you and everything #ive hated you for like. idk 14 whole years. since the first time you hit mom in front of me #i remember it so well like my childhood broke that day you slammed her into a wall for some stupid fight and her hair was all messy and #untied and you shouted so loud i thought surely everyone can hear. and then you left to roam around the city at night with your friends #i remember this because my mom and my sister sent me to check up on you with the excuse of a painting of a parrot that i had made #i didn't understand anything back then #but yeah fuck you fuck you fuck you for being so fucking delusional thinking i love you or something #ive prayed to god that you die and i still do #it would directly mean 4 people being happy #anyway #dni #this was meant to be fun and short lol fuck

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the-brainrot-central · 3 months ago

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Writing over 30,000 words worth of content for a fic only to realize it’s all pointless because you have no interest in it anymore and you were never gonna finish it anyway….

What even is The Point anymore

#current mood #it’s so joever #this isn’t even the worst part honestly #what really sucks is that this project was the last thing in my life I had any sustainable interest in and now that’s gone too.#now I have nothing. like #the fuck am I supposed to do??? get a new interest??? that’s fucking impossible #nothing hits like it used to and everything is just….bland….and SO MUCH EFFORT to get into #like hobbies are so difficult? and my old hobbies (ex writing) are becoming more and more toxic and like a chore rather than something fun #like writing at this point has become a battle of perfectionism and I’m fucking losing #what am I supposed to do. nothing inspires me. I have no interests. no hobbies. not many friends irl #and it’s not like we ever hang out because people are a fucking piece of work #either they cling to you like dog shit or they never respond to your texts no in between #im just so tired of existing??? and also college??? is fine but like #what the fuck am I DOING here like #why am I getting an art degree??? is this really how I should be spending my time and my parents money?#what the fuck am I gonna do for a job??? what do I WANT from a job???? I don’t even fucking know #i can’t see myself being happy in life doing anything and that’s such a nonstarter #it makes it impossible to start planning anything because I feel paralyzed with fear #and like I said….i don’t have any interests. I don’t LIKE anything. I am the antithesis of curiosity and interest like. there’s just nothing #i can’t do this anymore #im so done #idk why I made this so long but #I guess I have a lot on my mind I wanted to share #sorry for cringe posting on main it will happen again #im sorry in general actually for everything im sorry for being needy and attention seeking and annoying and flaky and never finishing any of #my fics because I lose interest and for not responding to anyone in my inbox I’m sorry #personal #cringe #cringetober #long tags

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carpisuns · 2 years ago

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theOrEticalLy . if I opened commissions at some point. would there be. a smackerel of interest . ??

#i have never opened them bc it’s intimidating and I don’t know how to price things!!#but mostly bc i work full time w a good salary so I don’t really need side things to make money #like it feels selfish to suggest that people should pay me to make fanart?? When #a) I already do that for free bc i enjoy it lol #and b) there are so many creators out there who are struggling to make ends meet #and I am privileged enough to generally not have to worry about that #this would be just like extra spending money to fund my scented candle habit DHDJDN #and the clothes I just bought while trying to Discover My Vibe and Finally Be Myself (at age 28 lol)#also tbh it would likely be reinvested in other commissions bc I buy commissions fairly often lol #anyway. idk the idea of commissions always sounded cool but also guilt inducing and scary #it feels weird and silly bc it would make me have to take my art seriously if that makes sense??#like me saying ‘I think I’m good enough at art that people would buy it from me.’ that feels so bold and like. arrogant or something dhjsjd #coming from me I mean. just a silly little guy who still struggles to draw human limbs properly #ok I’m thinking about how I’d have to make a commission sheet and put a dollar sign on my art and I’m aaaaaaa #and I’d have to execute exactly what people want and what if I can’t!!!#omg ok maybe noT help lol #well im not committing to anything rn im simply. asking a question while the dash is asleep and then running off to bed seeya #i think part of me always wanted to try commissions to see if I could be a Real Artist about it ??#and potentially end up with like. Portfolio pieces ??#why I would need an art portfolio I don’t know. I am an editor. What do I think I will be doing here #ppl left comments on my animatic that have been giving me crazy what if thoughts. sit down #don’t look at me #ohhh swirly brain thoughts I need to sleep

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krash-8 · 1 year ago

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ok so I get the schools football team is great and you can afford to spend thousands of dollars on signs that glow when they play and shit but can you go back to not charging kids for pads. or at least stocking the dispensers that do

#rant in tags sorry lol i hate it here #anyways #I don't generally take change with me when i go to the bathroom mid class #believe it or not #and half the time the dispensers are empty or broken anyway #“but then kids will just take them all” 1) how would anybody casually walk out of the restroom with 50 tampons #2) i think youd live #use that money you're always bragging on for something thats NOT showy sports gear or a fucking ten thousand dollar chandelier #hate rich schools because they have so much money they dont even bother spend it right #dont even get me started on the band #i like band !!! band is cool !!!! however my former high school had a great band #and they didn't BEG THEIR MEMBERS to sponsor THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS EACH FOR #on top of what they already have #AND THEY HAVE A LOT.#tbh ive never met more spoiled kids than the band ones at my school in my life #“we didn't get to have 5 field trips to amusement parks this year. just four. of COURSE im upset; they dont fund band enough”#that kid got jumped on by three art kids and a teacher when that came out 😭😭😭#they just expect this shit #do they notice what its taking from everyone else #i have a teacher whos worked with this school for like 25 years. which is remarkable as this school isnt very old. or this town #compared to my other schools at least #and every day she goes on about How Much She Hates what theyre doing #but she wont leave because she likes to teach #shes watched the school slowly transfer more and more of its budget to showy extra things #and give less and less to necessities #more money does not help.#not only is there nothing more they can take from some families without driving us out‚ but they'll just keep wasting it.#theyre spoiled fucking rotten and you can't give them anything because itll never go where you want #out of tags but yeah i hate them and something needs to be done about the district #school problems

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year ago

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#ever sit like a corpse in your own body?#im doing a job i wasnt designed for. theres this funny thing we do in academia where we beg for money. write in consise phrasing why we #deserve funding. what it is about our project what it is about our personhood that makes us deserving. what we're doing in our present to #give back and ensure a better future. and i can pull together a description of a nervous kid who couldn't read but loved to learn anyway.#who didnt kno how to hold proper a conversation until college and so tried and got better at ppl. who wouldnt let a language problem get in #the way of information gain. who cares about making complicated info visually digestible. and that's a nice story. but it falls apart when #projected into the future. what r u doing for the future? im just trying to continue existing #dont u want to help other ppl like u? sure but i dont have anything nice to say to them. does it ever get easier? no. it probably never will #ur brain was not built for reading. sometimes things r just terrible and u have to accept that. develop a crippling mental disorder or do #something where u dont have to read. see. not helpful. bad attitude. im just too full of blood and broken glass. all my achievements r #stained red and it hurts to look at them. to get myself to function i have to squeeze so tight i can feel the strain in my head. and even #then its not enough. do u kno what its like to spend ur whole life building something only to watch it burn to ashes in front of u? just a #broken machine rotting away underground where no one will see it. but dont let things fester. speak up if somethings wrong. and say what?#lmao i wrote this last night and then today when my advisor was like: hows it going? do u feel like u have enough time to get everything #done? and i had the gall to be like *voice strained high to prevent crying* its alright i think ive got enough time. bc yea technically i #think there r enough hours in yhr day that if i really tried i could get it all done. but that doesn't count the time i spend laying with #thr absolute desolation of my mind. so no. there isnt enough time bc im not doing well. but there's nothing he can do abt it so ya kno #whats the point in talking abt it except to say ya sorry im such a wretched miserable person. i dont kno how to fix it. my enthusiasm is #hidden under layer upon layer of pain. i burnef out before even getting here and im only making it worse #but whatever ill see my therapist Tuesday #unrelated

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mieczyhale · 1 year ago

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thank you @ alice oseman for including the "explanations for american readers" at the end of the nick & charlie novella. truly a god-send bc it covers a few things / phrases i've been lost on and haven't found a simple answer for anywhere else

like no, i didn't need to know these school terms to understand or enjoy heartstopper, but i wanted to know and understand them and now i do

little joys

#listened to the audiobook #it took a bit to get used to the voices #i'm so used to joe & kit #i still prefer joe & kit and their voices but these guys weren't bad. just different #loved it btw #v glad i spent the money to buy it #yeah i have a physical copy of the book but with my reading struggles and my ocd being as bad as it has been lately i really just did not #feel up to fighting that fight today #spend a day or more trying to read a book that took me two hours to listen to?? i feel like i gave up by doing it this way this time but #i just fucking can't #i cannot deal with that #i cannot deal with the mental battle every goddamn time i want to read something #its bad enough i have to fight through it to read fics or just posts on my dash or shit for work or literally everything everywhere #im taking the mental break where i can get it i guess #anyway #check it out if you haven't #the nick & charlie novella #i really enjoyed it #except for the fucking ******* part #i knew it was coming bc i'd seen stuff about it in fics and on here too in brief mentions but it still made me sad #i'm glad it didn't last long #maison speaks #myhsposts #alice oseman

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ipoddymouth · 2 years ago

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i think the thing that annoys me so much about matty discourse is that its starting to feel like people are pinning the entire concept of race relations on him. as if matty healy watching gross fetish porn is the only thing keeping my black ass from being seen as equal.

like sooooooo much fucking coverage on one (1) man and i kinda get it bc what the fuck else are entertainment companies going to talk about but its also like......he is not even in the top three-digit number list of reasons why black people are down bad in this country. like yes thank you for riding against porn or whatever BUT lets also not forget to redirect our attention and find ways to help all oppressed individuals!!! like its starting to feel like people are only doing this shit so they can a) seem like The Perfect Activist online while doing jack shit irl and b) protect their fave from any criticism by pushing and hoping and praying for a breakup so that they can have a Perfect Activist celeb to stan again and not have to worry about their own controversial, problematic, and potentially offensive beliefs.

tearing someone down isn’t the same as lifting someone up lgrejgaeg like taylor and matty break up but bc y’all hold up a ‘matty’s racist pls dump him :(’ sign at her show and then life goes back to the way it was -- and then people will find a new famous person to blame all of society’s failings on despite not actually making the world a better place

#this is such a fucking rant lol but this is what bothers me with tiktok cancelations of people #bc YES it does feel good to call someone out and make them lose their job #but at the same time its like....is this activism???#is this actually doing anything??#are we making the world a better place by doing this??#idk if its just bc im getting old or bc i spend too much time Not Doing my Actual Job #but modern activism sometimes just feels like....being loud online and then doing nothing else jagjag #and i understand that like we arent the politicians or the people who make laws or run media conglomerates #but its seeing people throw so much effort into.....what? making me not like this man?#and making it seem like they're doing this to protect black people #when its like okay go get the site shut down or something idk #like these two white people breaking up will not change anything #just like them dating hasn't changed anything #except now you feel bad about your fave #i was going to keep ranting down here but alas my actual job awaits #wait one more thin #i do think its hard to find a way to be A Good Activist nowadays #bc so much stuff is the result of money #but we're all broke #so people are trying to help where they cna #but sometimes the help area is like...not needed #like the white people wearing dreads discourse #like yes its a side eye #but also maybe go after the institutions that still allow hair discrimination??#like that would actually change something???

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nomaishuttle · 1 year ago

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i worked onmy ermmm. little good habits reward sheet a lot .. im pretty excited :] i was gonna wait to start it until ive moved home bc a lot of the things r home specific (like spending time with loved ones etc) BUT i think im gonna go ahead n start it tmrw... i think itll be good to go ahead n get started on it b4 i move back that way its not such a big transition bc i think thats why my like. plans t get better when i moved up here. failed. so horrifically lol. bc i didnt give myseld any lead in i just made a huge change and then got upset when i didnt immediately adjust.

#i do eventually wanna move back to wa on my own bc i feel like. i didnt rly get to spend time here due to the everything. i just dont think #i was at all ready. and thats entirely on me i chose this i ignored literally everybody around me telling me it wasnt a good idea #i brought this all on myself. but i wanna try n improve #n im excitedd!! i think next year/whenever im Fr ready. im gonna try n move out to my old hometown #since my family moved away from it #which i think will be rly nice bc ill like. be independeny but in a familiar place and like. still close to home. ill still be able t have #the same insurance etc etc..#itll get rid of a Lot of stressors basically. and ill be able to visit family way easier !!#plus my hometown is way more walkable and since. idk if ill ever be able t drive just bc of like. my general nature #thats something im rly rly looking for...#i think my new goalsheet is rly well balanced as well. its likee #its based on thise little metallic walmart star stickers bc i miss those rly bad #thats the entire inspo. obv rn itll have to be digital bc i cant get my little star stickers #but. its like a points system #red is 5 points yellow is 3 points green is 2 points and blue is 1 point #(might move them around to make green 5 points bc green was my star color when i was little lol)#and each point is worth .50 cents. and so however many points i have at the end of the week thats how much money i get t have in my like #personal acct. and i get to use that however i want #and everything else will go to likee. savings and bills (i wont have bills for a while but yk)#and i even have likee. a streak system #i need to work on that sl its like balanced. bc idk if it is rn #my idea was t just have it be like. bc th way it is like #the tasks r split up by difficulty. more difficult tasks earn different colors #so my most difficult on there rn is to go for a walk #/ go to a public place / spend time outside #rly that goal is rly geared toward my hometown but im still gonna try n do it in my parents town... yk :] like i can ask my mom t take me #to th library and stuff. bc i wanna start going more #we went to th one here a couple times but it kinda got. shelved. yk. and i miss it #the one in ny hometown was rightt by our house and i never went #and im mad abt kt.

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britneyshakespeare · 1 month ago

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Bro did you seriously not show up on time to class on the day we were gonna discuss John Donne's "A Valediction: Forbidding Mourning" and "A Nocturnal Upon St. Lucy's Day, Being the Shortest Day"

#only like six ppl showed up on time and several ppl walked in super late. one guy more than a half hour #that guy i hadn't seen in class for like a month. i dont understand #i have to be honest i am one of those ppl that can't wrap my head around being habitually late or skipping class #i know ppl have situations but like how is it not a priority #you're spending so much money to be here. and you're ok w missing the first 10 minutes of the lecture?#i know im a goody two shoes and a rule follower i know i know #i know ppl have difficult situations and i dont pretend to know who has an obstacle and who is just apathetic #but like u do see apathy all the time in colleges. and it's like. i dont understand #no one is making u go to college or be a fulltime student. or no one SHOULD be making u #u r an adult. commit to something #text post #that sounds very judgmental of me sorry #i suppose i have this perspective as a nontraditional student that if you aren't giving it your all then what's the point #i hold this standard for myself even in classes where i don't discuss metaphysical poetry btw #john donne #how could you not come on time hes so fun 2 talk about #ive been noticing other ppl chipping in to the discussions of his poems and im like 👀👀👀#im like proud. almost. bc he's my boy and he's so interested #i get why ppl act like they don't care about sir walter ralegh or thomas wyatt #i get why if u don't read poetry or understand their time period theyd bore u to death #but donne is just one of the most fascinating minds to ever wield the weapon of language #to paint on the canvas of english poetry #he can spark anyone's inspiration i think

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itsalwaysdark · 2 months ago

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so to do my testing i need a state id but to get my state id i need a social security card bc i lost mine so im waiting up to 15-20 days for social security to send me a verification number in the mail so that i can apply for a new social security card and then ill have to wait for that to get to me and then i can go get my ky id and hopefully not get in trouble for taking so long to get my id changed and THEN i can schedule my ged classes. and by then ill probably have finished my math and science ged readys which is good and ummm i think thats all. itll prolly be a permit rather than a state id so i can work on learning to drive since we have a nice Not horrible car . and then ill know how to drive which will be helpful to me even if it takes me a while to actually own a car... but itd be helpful to Be able to drive yk. even if i am quite late... and once i get all of that done then thats like finally finished and then i can get a job again and start saving up money for when i am ready to move out...