#im in sketchbook hell ughhh

[rapidhighway]

i actually wanted to buy a new sketchbook today but they didn't have the only brand I like using at empik

[arieava]

me, banging pots and pans together: I!! LOVE!!!! MY!!! OCS!!!!!!

[nogitsvlinski]

autistic q&a

1. When did you discover that you are Autistic? about 15 or 16, I believe. didn't understand what it meant til I was a bit older than that, tho 2. What are your favorite stim toy(s)? clicking pens and fiddling with the fidget cube my mom gave me this past christmas~ 3. What are your favorite stims? I tap- my fingers, feet, knee... anything really 4. How do you calm down after a meltdown? I hide out in my room and sit in the quiet for a bit. no music, no one talking to me- just the solitude. 5. What method(s) of communication do you prefer? texting/IMs over chat. I am not fond of speaking and I especially hate phone calls because if I'm speaking to someone, I prefer to see the other person's face. 6. What are your special interest(s)? music, writing, singing, anything artsy and creative really! 7. What kind of sensory inputs do you find very unpleasant? the feel of velvet is the biggest one I can think of. it literally makes my skin crawl. also not a fan of super bright lights, my room tends to stay pretty dim. or chalk. can't stand that powdery shit all over my hands 8. What kind of sensory inputs do you like the most? the feeling of being in water, the warmth of sunshine, being wrapped up in a bundle of blankets while it's cold, music 9. What are your thoughts on self-diagnosis? considering how expensive it can be to get diagnosed, it can be alright. people tend to know themselves pretty well and with the right research can find names for what they think they have/are. 10. What is one thing that you wished everyone knew about Autism? that it's not something I can change and that I'm not trying to be difficult or high maintenence with my needs/quirks. 11. If you could repel one myth about Autism, which one would it be? THAT AUTISM ISN'T CAUSED BY FUCKING VACCINES. seriously. hurts every time to hear that it is. also that autism speaks is a good organization. it's not. it's fucking awful. 12. What are some of the things that allistic people often expect you to do that make no sense to you? honestly have no idea 13. How do you feel about being Autistic? it's difficult as hell but has made me the person I am today and wouldn't change it for the world. it gives me my creativity~ 14. Describe a place/room/situation that would be sensory heaven to you. prolly floating in the dead sea. I love swimming and water and would LOVE to try that sometime. 15. Describe a place/room/situation that would be sensory hell to you. a room covered in velvet and chalkboards, ughhh 16. Do you have any mental illnesses/other kinds of neurodivergence? How do they interact with/affect your Autism? I have oppositional defiant disorder, depression, and anxiety. 17. Do you prefer person-first or identity-first language? I 100% prefer identity first. please do not tell me I 'have autism.' makes it sound like a disease when it's not :c 18. What are your Autistic headcanons? uhhhhhhh no clue? 19. Are there any books/shows/movies that you would recommend to other Autistic people? none come to mind at the moment, might change this tho 20. What are some of the Autism-related problems you often have in your everyday life? anything involving socialization with people I don't know/are only barely acquainted with, fidgeting 21. What are your favorite Autism-related blogs/websites? I'm not honestly sure I follow any autistic blogs on here. if I do, they're all inactive now~ 22. What do you like about being Autistic? I love how passionate I feel about my interests, and the creativity and drive it's given me. maybe I'm not one of those math/science savant autistics, but give me a camera or a sketchbook or photoshop and I'm set. (I AM a savant when it comes to spelling, tho!) 23. What do you dislike about being Autistic? my meltdowns. my inability to look people in the eye unless I'm good friends with them. the fact that it's hard to hear when there's a ton of background noise going on- not because there's something wrong with my ears, but because the part of my brain that controls my hearing gets overwhelmed and everything sorta blends together into mush. 24. If there was a cure for Autism, would you want to take it? nope! I am the way I am for a reason, why should I change just to fit in? 25. What topics are you most likely to infodump about? the story I've been creating over the past couple years. music. makeup. animals. I have a few things I'm super interested in xD 26. Are there any stereotypes about autistic people that you fit? that we're socially awkward. so true for me. it's like I completely derp in social situations- at least around people I don't know. 27. Which ‘social rules’ do you often have trouble with? I hate eye contact. with a fiery fucking passion. my first therapist back when I first starting going to one (at 9/10 years old) used to try and not let me leave til I looked her in the eye. it was a battle she never won. ever. also probably being too blunt and honest. I have no issues speaking my mind and that gets me in trouble sometimes XD 28. Can you pass for neurotypical? I've been told I do but I'm biased and don't see how. I DO know I've come a long way, tho. 29. Have you had any previous special interests? What were they? CATS. I was obsessed with anything and everything cat related from the time I was born until around high school age.