#im happy about it tho

[femmecwn]

every now and them my notifications humbles me pretty good (people rt my old zukka memes)

[castironnbitch]

not me painstakingly watching the belly dancing video and thinking how the fuck am i going to describe this kind of movement in writing

[fragilecqpricorn]

This girlfriend bracket is gonna have the jrwi community up in arms all week, isn't it?

[rapidhighway]

(late)Happy holidays to all who celebrate! This was my contribution to a secret santa event, made for @the-chozo-lord

[hinamie]

domain expansion

[spikeybonesandwich]

hrrrhg ur so real for that oh my god my friend and i did a thing and their oc put mine through The Horrors and AUGHUIEAGDHIUGJDFXBHSFKHBSHGB JRAEHTGERGHIUHGIDFXJKBGHRSFJHSIJ RAHHHHAHTAHTAHTAHAETHATIHERDGJFGBHAKRTGJHIUhrgiuURHTGKJD (/vpos)

uh tws for extreme violence/murder (It is BAD. I'm serious.) and death

they went in with seven members to their group. they left with just two.

they watched a man disintegrate and another turn to a puddle of acid.

they had to look their comrade in the face and tell them they were dying from radiation poisoning, then they just had to keep going.

they looked down the barrel of a gun and the person behind it was their future self. they convinced both versions of themself not to kill them both. they looked through the sights of their gun--their gun that they will use against their own fallen comrades--at the spot between their own eyes, and they pulled the trigger. it's the best outcome for their future self, even though their boss, the spectre, won't let them stay dead. (UAGHGHHAEJH!!!!!!)

they got chased down by the galaxy-eradicating monster which is surrounded by a dark, abyssal aura that sapped the life from all it touched. it gained on them, slowly but surely, but their magic kept them going... until their body stopped working, a mere 30 feet from their ship, their way home. they tried teleportation, and they were torn in half. their top half made it to the entrance of the ship, tried to crawl in while haphazardly using healing magic on themself, and felt a foot with immense weight resting on it on their back. the monster demands to know who they are, they tell him, and their parts are fused back together (as they feel it happening). with magic, they're lifted into the air, turned around, and they see the same one who sent them in, their boss. he is PISSED. he berates them for not following orders, and eternal realizes this one sent in their future self, the one they shot between the eyes earlier. they try to explain what's going on, but their boss is enraged. he won't listen. he steps closer to where he's holding them in midair, and he winds back his fist. eternal is ready for the blow, but it never comes. he drops them and goes into their head. (my friend told me she totally intended him to whale on eternal, muramura style, but it copied wrong. honestly, a little disappointing, but i feel like the lack of a proper release of tension combined with the confusion is pretty friggin good. now they're even more tense, they're paranoid, they're scared. oougiuardfkHGKA)

ok and then a comrade they thought died, the irradiated one, came to the ship alive, and then he DIED ANYWAY. and they totally blame themself too because their boss, the murderous one in their head, got out and stabbed their comrade to death. brutalized them. they were unrecognizeable and flung over two seats at the end. (hhHRHERUEGSHKJG)

eternal has to bury a body as the sun rises, the mangled corpse of T, the irradiated one. and it's so horribly beautifully sad. "It's morning... the sun is slowly rising over a glossy horizon... and you've a body to bury." the world is still turning. after that haunting night, the sun still rises in the morning. T is dead, riddled with holes and ripped apart, but the morning dew is still hanging on the grass. (TGHETIHAUAURHIU IM SO NORMAL IM SOOOO NORMAL)

at the end, as eternal is trying to get home, the spectre, their boss, tries to trick them. they have to go through the door they came in through to get home. they do so, but from the wrong side. the one who's been trying to get the idol appears in front of them and demands the idol, but they refuse. it's clearly not right, even in their exhaustion. he lunges, eternal teleports. he shoves the idol from their hands before they can. they have one last scramble for the idol, and then they get through the door, back to whence they came.

oooo and then a good old classic whump right at the very end of the mission: they were exhausted, so much so that they were flip-flopping between their first and second language. they were talking to their boss.. quite unwisely (they called him/his past self an asshole), but thankfully he was just amused. then, they sway and do their best to stay awake, to no avail, and as they pass out, their boss, the spectre, walks up and simply takes the objective from their hands, despite their final weak struggle to keep it close to their chest. because they just lost the idol to the one they've been trying to keep it from for the last several hours (which felt like days, weeks)

they're so tired and so afraid and so upset, and they're going to appear back at home and fall on the couch and wake up and be so panicked because they won't know what's going on, but they'll know that they don't have the idol and that something just hit them. then they'll realize they're home. their family is there.

also also they're going to stop sleeping for a while because they're so upset by this mission

aaaugHGeugjgharshgHUGRDFGHGHEGUHDSUKJ it makes me ill it makes me so ill im going to eat bricks /vvvvvpos i LOVE putting them through the horrors they make me SICK they make me ILL they make me writhe on the floor like a dying cockroach and claw at the walls

Have been obsessed with a new OC since my surgery…I want to draw and write so much

[radioroxx]

its funny. to me. and thats what matters

[chatlote]

If you wish to go, Do I have the right to ask you to stay? Guess not.

[dkettchen]

she would've told them unlike her canon! version who decided not to be an ally smh

[divineandmajesticinone]

4 MINUTES (2024) I EP 5 "How about this. How much do you want? Give me a number."

[wasyago]

the brainrot won

[inkskinned]

you're grabbing lunch with a nice man and he gives you that strange grimace-smile that's popular right now; an almost sardonic "twist" of his mouth while he looks literally down on you. it looks like he practiced the move as he leans back, arms folded. he just finished reciting the details of NFTs to you and explaining Oppenheimer even though he only watched a youtube about it and hasn't actually seen it. you are at the bottom of your wine glass.

you ask the man across from you if he has siblings, desperately looking for a topic. literally anything else.

he says i don't like small talk. and then he smiles again, watching you.

a few years ago, you probably would have said you're above celebrity gossip, but honestly, you've been kind of enjoying the dumb shit of it these days. with the rest of the earth burning, there's something familiar and banal about dragging ariana grande through the mud. you think about jeanette mccurdy, who has often times gently warned the world she's not as nice as she appears. you liked i'm glad my mom died but it made you cry a lot.

he doesn't like small talk, figure out something to say.

you want to talk about responsibility, and how ariana grande is only like 6 days older than you are - which means she just turned 30 and still dresses and acts like a 13 year old, but like sexy. there's something in there about the whole thing - about insecurity, and never growing up, and being sexualized from a young age.

people have been saying that gay people are groomers. like, that's something that's come back into the public. you have even said yourself that it's just ... easier to date men sometimes. you would identify as whatever the opposite of "heteroflexible" is, but here you are again, across from a man. you like every woman, and 3 people on tv. and not this guy. but you're trying. your mother is worried about you. she thinks it's not okay you're single. and honestly this guy was better before you met, back when you were just texting.

wait, shit. are you doing the same thing as ariana grande? are you looking for male validation in order to appease some internalized promise of heteronormativity? do you conform to the idea that your happiness must result in heterosexuality? do you believe that you can resolve your internal loneliness by being accepted into the patriarchy? is there a reason dating men is easier? why are you so scared of fucking it up with women? why don't you reach out to more of them? you have a good sense of humor and a big ol' brain, you could have done a better job at online dating.

also. jesus christ. why can't you just get a drink with somebody without your internal feminism meter pinging. although - in your favor (and judgement aside) in the case of your ariana grande deposition: you have been in enough therapy you probably wouldn't date anyone who had just broken up with their wife of many years (and who has a young child). you'd be like - maybe take some personal time before you begin this journey. like, grande has been on broadway, you'd think she would have heard of the plot of hamlet.

he leans forward and taps two fingers to the table. "i'm not, like an andrew tate guy," he's saying, "but i do think partnership is about two people knowing their place. i like order."

you knew it was going to be hard. being non-straight in any particular way is like, always hard. these days you kind of like answering the question what's your sexuality? with a shrug and a smile - it's fine - is your most common response. like they asked you how your life is going and not to reveal your identity. you like not being straight. you like kissing girls. some days you know you're into men, and sometimes you're sitting across from a man, and you're thinking about the power of compulsory heterosexuality. are you into men, or are you just into the safety that comes from being seen with them? after all, everyone knows you're failing in life unless you have a husband. it almost feels like a gradebook - people see "straight married" as being "all A's", and anything else even vaguely noncompliant as being ... like you dropped out of the school system. you cannot just ignore years of that kind of conditioning, of course you like attention from men.

"so let's talk boundaries." he orders more wine for you, gesturing with one hand like he's rousing an orchestra. sir, this is a fucking chain restaurant. "I am not gonna date someone who still has male friends. also, i don't care about your little friends, i care about me. whatever stupid girls night things - those are lower priority. if i want you there, you're there."

he wasn't like this over text, right? you wouldn't have been even in the building if he was like this. you squint at him. in another version of yourself, you'd be running. you'd just get up and go. that's what happens on the internet - people get annoyed, and they just leave. you are locked in place, almost frozen. you need to go to the bathroom and text someone to call you so you have an excuse, like it's rude to just-leave. like he already kind of owns you. rudeness implies a power paradigm, though. see, even your social anxiety allows the patriarchy to get to you.

you take a sip of the new glass of wine. maybe this will be a funny story. maybe you can write about it on your blog. maybe you can meet ariana grande and ask her if she just maybe needs to take some time to sit and think about her happiness and how she measures her own success.

is this settling down? is this all that's left in your dating pool? just accepting that someone will eventually love you, and you have to stop being picky about who "makes" you a wife?

you look down to your hand, clutching the knife.

[avoidghost]

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Finally can open my merch store! Not much on there yet, but I have plans for the coming months for stickers and prints and more stuff :3

[obsob]

making and weaving and loving! like we have done for millennia!!

[hinamie]

theyre soft your honour

[prommytheus]

saw a screencap from an old 30s movie and it invoked them. full color version ⬇️