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I'm rusty when it comes to drawing realism, but I gave it a shot. Why not?
Miss talking to you, Grandma.
#watercolour#watercolour painting#my art#portrait#uhh in case anyone gets the wrong idea no she hasn't passed#its complicated#she hasnt been mentally able to hold conversation for a few years now basically#nor can she comprehend anything anymore#im handling it as best as I can#just hoping she passes peacefully at this point#vent#i guess?
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drank too much
[ID: Digital Art of Vash and Wolfwood from Trigun Maximum. Vash’s body is turned slightly away from the viewer as he holds a staggering Wolfwood by his shoulder. He has one foot ahead of the other, the foot in the back used to stabilize himself from tipping over. Wolfwood is tethering into Vash, his weight pressed into him with his arms wrapped around Vash’s waist and his face is hidden away as he leans against Vash’s shoulder. Vash’s expression can be seen, his eyes wide and mouth tight-lipped, and his face is flushed red. A speech bubble comes out from Wolfwood, saying a drawled “Spikeyyy...”. The background are desaturated pastels of blue and green, showing night time, as they stand in the middle of an empty street that is also lit by the moon not depicted. Yellow light is seen coming from the inside of a saloon. End ID]
#vashwood#Vash the Stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#trigun#trigun maximum#when i think of who handles their alcohol best -- it's going to be vash naturally. considering his age but also his plant biology?#idk how his plant biology comes into things but it feels like it makes sense... and helps build his tolerance... also he's canonically#a bit of an alcoholic i think... one of his vices. and im sure ww drinks but his go-to comfort is through smoking not drinking#slight detour but the barkeeper was also like i'm the angel that provides drinks for these troubled souls. all i could think of is#a parallel from ww to vash... vash going thru this hell on his own during that point in the chapter and ww is the angel who will give him#his space and then also save him later. But anyway. that's a completely different topic. as a result of ww Not being much of a drinker#i feel like he'd be clingy... a LOT less verbal but more physically affectionate#i feel like he'd be able to speak as he normally does but when he wants to ask for something he'd just reduce it down to names#spikey needle noggin while tugging on vash's arm. vash explodes immediately#this is also very self indulgent if u cant tell.#i was just thinking that ww while sober is a hard cage to crack through no matter how close vw gets to one another.#while ww can end up being emotionally vulnerable -- has to at some point within their relationship -- he still just has tons of trouble#navigating his own personal wants.#ruporas art
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firefight animatic for my lovely friend @remedyturtles [Spoilers up until Chapter 9]
unfortunately the last chunk of frames are incomplete and will likely remain that way as i have hit a massive mental brick wall -- probably an ugly mix of depression and burnout -- but I wanted to share my vision, so I edited what I had
Song Used: Dancing After Death by Matt Maeson
wish I had more to say but im dead on the floor,, sorry
#sad•leonart#rise of the tmnt#rottmnt#firefight au#animatic#rise leo#rottmnt leo#rise donnie#rottmnt donnie#disaster twins#rise disaster twins#rottmnt disaster twins#really wish i coulda finished it but im on the urge of deleteing everything i've made ever so.. yeah#if you havent read firefight and can handle heavy whump and cliffhangers please read it#its amazing and rem is still like the best author ever#this song fucking kills me everytime i listen to it#especially that last part#... anyways#o7
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Logan has always tried to do good, especially by those who he loves. And let's be real, in every universe he loves the x-men more than anything. They're his family for crying out loud. He might be an asshole with anger issues but he's not a bad guy, even the worst of his versions.
And Wade sees that, sees underneath all that anger and grief and tough guy exterior. He gets ran through by Logan's claws, being subjected to some very harsh words and is insulted every step of the way throughout most of the film. But his singular belief in Logan, that only he can save his universe, that never wavers.
"I know how to kill people for money but you...you know how to save them." Wade says. But it is him who saves Logan in the end.
#shut the fuck up im so not okay good god they make ke clinically INSANE#wade called him the best wolverine and then held his hand (both figuratively AND literally) and brought him to his little home#you cannot make this shit up oh my god#this post was in response to that one in X2 where Jean tells Logan he's the “dangerous guy” who is not brought home by girls#wade really said fuck that so what if he's dangerous I can handle his ass#they really fit like puzzle pieces together ugh#wade wilson#logan howlett#jean grey#deadpool and wolverine#poolverine#deadpool#wolverine
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I asked for a trim and my hair dresser gave me a FUCKING PIXIE CUT I'm so genuinley distraught I ended up crying on the train home
Canceling all of my plans next month I can't let anyone I care about see me like this
#IMMEDIATLEY scheduling an appointment to get lashes I cant physically handle looking this boyish its giving me hives#im currently desperatley trying to see if my hair still curls but I dont. think its long enough for it.#it just does this stupid fucking flippy thing that makes it stick out more#I look like a lesbian but not the kind of lesbian I WANT to look like#all of my favorite outfits are ruined they would not look the same with this cut#the vibes would be undeniably different#i cant be a cottagecore princess anymore the best I can now do is cottagecore maid my power has been stripped from me#this is devistating I will never be happy again#for a few months at least#fuck this better grow back fast I actually dont know what Ill do if every time I look in a mirror I look like That#birds rambles
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I think one thing saki is super thankful of wxs for is occupying tsukasa’s time so he spends less time working himself up & having neurotic little fits thinking she’s in trouble. like make no mistake she loves her brother & finds his bizarre behavior endearing rather than embarrassing (for the most part) (& he’s not grossly overprotective in a way that limits what she wants to do. Thank god.) but also this is the man who charged into a haunted house bc he heard her scream and ran home in a panic because he found out she lied about her plans for the day. Now he has other outlets for his insanity besides worrying about her. Like worrying about being exploded into orbit.
#tsukasa#saki#tenmas#mine#& I think this is also a result of saki doing better and being more independent now so he’s willing to chill out#& go from worrying way too much to worrying a little too much.#at some point I need to talk about his whole complex about being responsible & mature and how that started/is reflected in his relationships#(primarily w saki). & also his boring room and fashion choices.#tenma parents going ohh we can leave you home alone at the age of ~7 we’re sorry but you’re so responsible and mature u can handle it right#& 7yr old tsukasa is like yes that’s me don’t worry about it (he is developing a complex bc of this)#sorry tenma parents u did ur best im not blaming u but also cmon. no babysitter?
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I'm not allowed to be on social media for more than two seconds today but I just wanted to say that Laios will absolutely have his own reaction to all this as someone who would die for Falin but has also imprinted on Marcille as his Emotional Support Comphet White Girl Not-Girlfriend along the way
#a little creature#sometimes i look at the way i want marcille to be the closest thing hes ever had to a girlfriend but in a 100% platonic way and im like#is this what they mean by queerplatonic or have i just never had a dude best friend who wasnt like. a super fruity gay twink#anyway its gonna be as hard on him as it is for us bc he loves them both so much#the most important women in his life bar none#marcille probably slapped him when she got back tho. like she just saw his face and all the misdirected anger at him 'taking falin' just#rose up and burst again#its ok tho. you know she immediately broke down crying in his arms again blubbering incoherently bc she felt bad but also shes still mad#and she just doesnt know what to do with herself#the hardest part about this fic is that like. there are SO many juicy things going on offscreen#but. i have to breathe deep and keep calm and let them happen out of falin's POV#the ryoko kui method. what happens in the story happens and what happens outside can be explored in extras if need be#edit: also just figured out why ive been chafing a *little* bit against ppl assuming that it's the fear of falin dying that motivated#marcille's denial of her feelings so far#bc it's technically true but something just didn't sit right and i didn't wanna say anything until i figured it out#in little creature she has in part already realized that falin's passing is going to hurt no matter what she does right now#bc she's already passed the threshold of preemptive grief and sealed her own fate by how much she cares about falin#so it's not really... about that as much as it would have been during the canon story#it's just that. to acknowledge that she has romantic feelings for falin means recontextualizing their relationship in a way where#she has been the one hopelessly chasing while falin didn't realize/ignored her for the most part#and she couldnt allow that to be true both bc she couldnt bear to make falin the 'villain' in her love story#and bc she subconsciously knew the scope of pain would be too much for her to handle#so now my problem is. how do i make that clear in the fic from falin's POV without getting too heavy handed about it
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stuck thinking about when day gets crowded and overwhelmed on his birthday he calls out to gee of all people there to remove him from the situation; and how when day tells her he wants to be alone she makes sure he knows she wants to understand him and he can talk to her (not to help him or to fix things for him; simply to understand him) and when day reaffirms a boundary she accepts this and doesn't press further. he's her friend and she cares for him but he's still an adult and she has no problem treating him as such and i think that at the moment she is the only one from day's past who is actively able to do so
#last twilight#gee best girl#i know disability is difficult on loved ones as well and it is very easy for those closest to you to fall into pitying and babying you#but gee has been working very hard to not let that happen to her friendship with day#she is immediately ready to keep teasing and playing with day whilst also quick to adjust to the new aspects of their relationship#she wants to learn how to guide day through the badminton court to take over from 'his mhok' and is more than willing to take day#to the bathroom in the bar but when day assures her he can handle it she doesn't infantalize him#she immediately invites day to the bar without any hesitation and then continues to invite him to her game because that's#an important aspect of their friendship#and when he shows up she isn't afraid to joke around and tease him#she's extremely good at not treating him like a broken piece of porcelain whilst also quickly taking cues in how to adjust where it is#necessary#im glad day gets someone from his past who doesnt need as much time as his family to readjust to his new normal#and it is also an incredibly good parallel to how bad augustus' assessment of the situation is#last twilight the series
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In light of fine's event announcement, I would like to formally welcome Eichi to the "Event 5-Stars Going Through The Horrors™️ (2024)" squad.
#i wouldve put nagisa's absolute card here but he is smiling Despite the horrors lol#enstars#ensemble stars#enstars cards#im pretty scared for this story actually bc so far the “es idol colonization” plot has not been handled very well imo#(akatsuki kinda fucked over the local idols on accident in submarine ryuseitai could only do so much in stella maris... matrix😔...)#esp when you take into account that the ryukyuans are like. an actual marginalized group of people that have been colonized before#and project atlantis absolutely is an exploitation of them for es's (eichis) own gain. which is the point yes! but can they handle it well?#i do hope akiras (assuming he'll be writing) critical side comes through here and we get to see some backlash and tori + eichi growth#but yeah we'll see ig!#on a more positive note though this mv is fucking gorgeous. everything i imagined shukufuku no library couldve been and more#ponytail eichi is also one of the best design decisions ever made god hes so pretty
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I know in your Red Knight AU, Jason when on the rampage in another realm, after finding out that Batman replace him with another Robin.
Did Danny manage to be there for him during that time?
He did! Danny was always there for Jason. He actually wanted to chase after Jason immediately, but luckily, the first thing he did was panic call Jazz, absolutely out of his mind. Jazz promptly told Danny to let Jason have some space for a little bit to process.
Which was for the best, really. Jason needed to not feel like he was trapped and that he could be angry. He never really got that before. But the most important thing is Danny came after him and brought him home. Jason needed to feel like he could be angry, but also, like his anger wouldn't mean he'd be punished or abandoned. It was a very delicate time for him, but Danny, Jazz, Sam, Tucker, and all our favorite ghosts made sure Jason knew he was very much wanted still. And that he was utterly irreplaceable.
Skulker handled this by breaking all of his weapons and suits overnight and saying he didn't know how to fix them. (Jason very much knew what he was doing, but the time spent on fixing things helped ground him)
Ember handled this by announcing that she couldn't possibly ever sing ever again unless her only other band member was there (Still very obvious, but music time with Ember usually devolved into very necessary crying time. A lot of ice cream was consumed)
Johnny and Kitty handled this by getting into a MASSIVE fight and refusing to speak to each other unless Jason mediated. (This actually was far less obvious, as the two tend to get into fights often. No one is actually certain if the fight was fake or not to this day, but they also haven't broken up once since and Jason is incredibly proud of that)
Fright Knight handled this by.... well, actually, he took the blunt approach and told Jason there was no one in any realm dead or alive he'd ever consider worthy to be his apprentice besides Jason. (This was highly effective as Frighty has always been bluntly honest with Jason. He didn't wholly believe it but it was a comfort. Frighty then beat his ass in a spar and he didn't think of much else)
Basically, everyone was there for Jason. Not just Danny. Jason was made to feel like his anger and hurt were valid, because they were. But he was also not just told, but shown how precious he was to every life he touched. He didn't get it, not at first and he struggled to really believe it.
It wasn't until later, after Danny opened up more about his own trauma and the effects it had on him that Jason actually began to somewhat understand more of what Jazz meant when she said Danny was getting better. He pieced more of the story together from the others to paint a better picture, and that's when it clicked for him. As much as he needed Danny, Danny had needed him just as much. (Clockwork may have had a hand in this as well, but whatever those two talked about, no one will ever know)
Also, as an aside, once everything calmed down, Danny was very pleased to learn the rebelling realm was now back under control and quite terrified of the Ghost King and his Knight. It saved him so much paperwork.
So yeah, this was a bit all over the place, but hopefully, it answers your question. Team Phantom and the ghosts are basically a very large family, and they might fight and bicker, but they seriously pull through and muster together if anyone is hurting. They're a bit clumsy sometimes with it, but the love they all feel is very obvious. I really, really wanted to give Jason a much more healthy origin story into becoming Red Hood than he got in canon. The poor boy went through enough. It was past time for him to get to heal.
Jason still has some hangups. His abandonment issues are still there, and his fear of rejection. But it's not as bad as it was, and because he'd been allowed to express his anger without being punished(or enabled, anger is a fine emotion to feel. But you should never let it consume you) for it, he figured out how to manage it.
He might still slip now, and then, he has trauma, and that won't go away. But Danny will never, ever let him fall. Neither will the rest of the weird little eclectic family they've built.
#zee answers#this is barely coherent because im at *checks watch* 25~27 hours no sleep? maybe? im loopy#sorry if this was insanity#just wanted to make it clear that Jason was never left to deal with anything alone#he always ALWAYS had support#a massive support system actually like you cannot possibly stay feeling bad when you have like 20 people determined to make you feel better#and i want to make it clear that Jason's anger was never seen as a bad thing to the group because its NOT#and how can you learn to manage an emotion youve never been allowed to properly express before? you cant#so Jason got to learn that too. and he learned the best ways for HIM to handle his anger between all the ghosts trying to help#this fic began because i just wanted fluff and nice things for Jason because I love him and he deserved so much better than canon ever gave#so of course Jason got support and love and everything he needed to feel secure and safe#this is at its bones a fluffy AU#dp x dc#danny phantom#dc x dp#dpxdc#dp x dc crossover#the king and his red knight#the king and his red knight au#tkahrk#tkahrk au#danny phantom crossover#halfa jason todd#Jason Todd#jason todd/danny phantom#jason todd x danny fenton#jason todd/danny fenton
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Ame is a wonderful person but a terrible politician. She brings up these protests that hold no form of charm or hook behind them to appeal to the actual witches she's arguing against. She interrupts votes to make speeches but she hasn't thought through what to actually say. Breaking down the actual intentions and ramifications of the decision is a good start, but she puts emphasis on bad sounding things that no one cares about, most of the time not even her if we're being actually honest with ourselves!
Around these witches where honesty wields great power her protests never actually present the core of the true reasons why she's opposing the ideas in the first place either because she herself is so conflicted by them to present it as a concrete stance. If she constantly finds herself admitting truth in the opposing side, then the solution here is negotiation and compromise where she presents the bits she actually finds untenable, holds firm to those, then lets these very wise and old and powerful people help you come up with situations where everyone can be satisfied, that's what a council is FOR.
Like, I had issues with how Ame handled her defence of her station but I held my tongue. But voting against unanimity for the coven's stance was FOOLISH (indry aside that frigid bitch). She tried to protest that the "machines of war" are so horrible and that to break peace is the abomination here. But if you take the time to consider the situation further, her real issues are twofold: the hundreds of thousands of innocent collateral, and Citadel leadership's capacity to change their ways.
Marara literally came to you extending as much of an olive branch as her pride would allow, offering alliance to push forward any terms that would help Ame feel more comfortable about voting yes! Take these conditions for example:
An ultimatum presented towards the citadel. A peace treaty (some form of contract binded in magic ideally) on the table if they can agree to transparency with the Coven about all matters regarding their pursuits into Spirits and respect regarding counsel on what should not be done.
A promise from the witches to avoid the loss of human life during the conflict unless where absolutely necessary. Foot soldiers to be incapacitated where possible, surrender always being offered as an option, military outposts rather than civilian locations as targets.
Amnesty offered to any wizard who can swear under Zone of Truth to not hold malicious intent or support those who do against Spirits. With the official public stance of the Coven being that their conflict is with those damaging the balance of our worlds, not any and all associated with merely with the Citadel.
I mean, if Stone's values truly lie where she's lead the group to believe they are, then aside from overcoming a great deal of Empire pride those conditions should be reasonable enough. Knowing wizards, probably with a lot of lawyering and negotiating the fine print of the actual phrasing of them.
What the Citadel has done needs punishment. A show of force is justified. It's total destruction without the option for negotiated surrender, communication and change for the better that is unreasonable. Wizards aren't raised to understand or respect the spirit world and so they need a reality check and an authority explaining why doing XYZ is fucked up.
The world isn't that perfect I know even if agreed to, bad things would still be done, by both witches and wizards. But it's the intent behind the thing that I feel really matters. The chance offered for everyone to maybe make a good choice, even if they end up rejecting it and proving the fears right.
#wbn#rant#im sorry this is just my kneejerk reaction to the new episide because i felt things were handled badly and i couldnt sit still while watchin#my ideas probably wouldnt make good story anyway and rping in the moment is a lot harder than criticising from a comfy chair in my own time#erica's doing the best they can and i still loved the ep#just#i have a lot of thoughts and restless energy
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Dawg i hate mouthwashinhg fandom so much now, the analysis now is just so reductive ☹️☹️☹️☹️
#ignorelist#stop reccomending me analysis that doesnt want to acknowledge the grey part of the story#yes curly fucked up in handling his rapist friend#but that doesn’t erase the fact that he’s a captain literally trying his best#curly posisition were in so much pressure he has to deal with becoming the best captain he can ever be#when anya told him jimmy sa’d her#of course he would handle it bad#he constantly ‘tries’ to help anya by trying to fix jimmie or some sort#but of course keep in mind the way he ‘helped’ anya literally sucks ass#he shouldve confronted and punished jimmy heads on#but he didnt because thats his best friend#and to add to the stress factor they are in a literal space#what am trying to say is the way curly handled anya is less than good and he fucked up#but when you look at the bigger picture he isnt some cunniving asshole that purposely enable his friend#and im not saying hes not responsible for how bad the situation with jimmy became#as a captain he poorly handled his employees and as a friend he failed to help anya#likeeee please 😭😭😭😭 i just do not want the complexity of cptn curly to be reduced#thats what made me love mthwashing in the first place#every each of the character is so layer of goodness like please dont take that away#curly is such a tragic character
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I don't ever wanna look at the hotd subreddit again, sorry that you people can not appreciate doomed yuri
#all their whining makes me sick#like im sorry but i got into this show and kept w it bcs of rhaenicent#its some of the best mainstream f/f ever :(#and i like that the show revolves around them#its my favorite part of the show#so i cannot handle these people mocking it constantly#and saying it makes the show stupid#sorry that you cant appreciate what its like to have a homoerotic girl best friend break up#ik its a bad choice but i usually love to read reddit discussion threads#but i just cannot anymore for hotd :/#i realize that i am apparently in an entirely different fandom#like i can understand like 'ugh its not like the books!!!' book purist thinfs#but man. idc at a certain point. im happy they made it the way it is :)
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the way i see team urameshi after meeting shiori is like
#shiori just adopts all of kuramas friends and boyfriend (hiei)#she especially loves hiei. yusuke and kuwabara are shocked about this esp bc hiei is clearly trying to be on his best behavior around her#and shiori can see how hiei has clearly been denied love and care in his life and wants to take care of him so bad#and kuramas just like 🥺🥺🥺🥺 about seeing hiei and shiori getting along. even if hiei can be very awkward and uncertain about it#he doesnt know how to handle a mothers love. but hell learn some day#anyways. shiori just gets so happy once kurama starts bringing his bf n friends around. happy to see him having fun with his peers finally!#and quickly all of them are like. ohh i see now why kurama ended up changing is ways for this woman#and shiori makes all of them matching family sweaters and takes a big family photo 🥺🥺🥺🥺#AUGHHHHH#is it obvious im a kurama kin in my family feels rn#team urameshi#shiori minamino#shiori hatanaka#yusuke urameshi#kazuma kuwabara#kurama#youko kurama#hiei#botan#I WANT BOTAN AND SHIORI TO GO SHOPPING TOGETHER#yu yu hakusho#yyh
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i dont think i will ever be over nandor tying guillermos cape with such care and focus. that moment its possibly my favourite from the finale NANDOR ACTS OF SERVICE GUY MAKES ME WANNA CLIMB A WALL and the way hes putting guillermo on equal ground now makes my heart grow 3 sizes
and to be honest i dont think they can go back to where they were before. for anyone whos worried. like yeah he told him “now clean up the body” after he reverted back to human but to me that was more like nandors brain going like. “i cooked now you clean”. he went through such a tremendous amount of work to help guillermo. he had the empathy to recognise the problem. he thought it through concocted a plan. he got the robes and the candles and he painted and hung those banners. he held a fakeass ceremony with all their friends and elders so it looked official. he then also comforted guillermo when he couldnt do it and staked derek himself without a second thought. so maybe its was more of a. i pulled you out of a very hairy situation. can you take care of the body now? (also it IS gonna be hard to let go of certain habits so maybe some comments like this are gonna slip out next season, but that is just because they are useless and in guillermos absence the house fucking imploded in one year lmao… maybe guillermo is gonna teach them how to take care of it themselves next season so they can split the workload and cute shenanigans will ensue)
i just dont think it was mean spirited on nandors part tbh. LAZLO even offered to help. i dont think that was just to have him in the next scene i dont think an unusual detail like that could be just for convenience. i do FULLY believe they are gonna all be on equal grounds next season. and thats gonna be so fucking delicious to me specifically
#to see a nandor and guillermo dynamic where nandor has freed himself from the inibitions of a master familiar dynamic? sign me up#he was so fucking warm and caring after he forgave him and idk if i can handle it GOD I LOVE IT#nandermo#what we do in the shadows#wwdits#wwdits spoilers#comment#im making a post out of some of my tags in one of my queued posts bc i#want to put this thought out in the world#i saw a lot of people going now that guillermos human everythings back to the status quo!!! and im like#no the fuck i hope not!! their relationship has consistently moved in a new direction each season#familiar. bodyguard. best man. best friend. now they went through allllll the trouble of showing them having an equals relationship#they made nandor utter the words he will be living in this house as an equal from now on#and next season everythings gonna revert back?? i surely hope not#there is also to be considered from nandors standpoint that now guillermo truly has no more reason to stay. he really isnt a#familiar anymore because he presumably doesnt want to be a vampire anymore (?) so he has to consider#if he wants guillermo to stick around. its gonna have to be out of the love he has for them. and nandor needs to give him an incentive#which would be equal grounds with the vampires even though he isnt one#and guillermo is probably gonna be in such an existential crisis mode that hes not even gonna notice all the cute things nandor is doing#for him now for a WHILE. until he does and thats gonna be delicious#anyway. why do i keep making excellent points in the tags this could have been a post
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hello jade nation i just woke up with one sock on, my hair messy like a bird nest, my eyeliner smudged to my jawline, my dress is half on half off, and im also in my girlfriends bed 🤷♀️ what a night ! i wish i could remember it - oh wait ! i have 40 videos on my phone !!!!!!!! thank you drunk jade!!!!!
#its 10:30 am and i dont know where my gf went#im so tired#i woke up at like 9 and i was so confused i had to stare at my hands for about half an hour#thankfully i didnt drunk too much im not that hungover#i had so much fun last night if anyone cares#dare i say best birthday ever question mark#♡ . jade rambles#but like really rambles this time#they were onto something when they named it a headache#like yeah my head IS aching actually#noise complaint im coming for you talk it out im coming for you#eggy i read the first paragraph of ur angstober kiyoko fic and teared up immediately#idk if i can handle that it hits a little too close to home#will try to read it later.. maybe
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