#im gonna lose my marbles

[stupid-nerd]

hello to the 2 people who see my posts. big things happening today.

I think my crush likes me back 😛😛

[anachronistic-falsehood]

Hold up I am also going to speak in English so there's no miscommunication here- What do you mean the admins are not getting paid? Is this something on twt?? I am hella confused right now

one of the former (?) qsmp admins is talking about her experience as an admin, and others are pitching in with the abysmal pay they received, work they were made to do for free, etc etc. here's a link to the person who first came out, her tweets are in french but twt does have a translate function if you don't speak french. here's her profile, you can just scroll through her recent tweets and look for yourself

if you just look up "qsmp" on twt and scroll for a bit you'll see plenty of artists posting artwork that they made for lore purposes on the server and were not paid for it. roleplayers aren't paid, translators aren't paid, artists aren't paid, etc. some of them do clarify they were told this was volunteer work, but they were reprimanded if they were absent for a week for any reason and unable to do this "volunteer" work that they weren't getting paid for

[dipperscavern]

i need more storage omfg. WHAT DO U MEAN I CANT ADD MY DIVIDER AND UPLOAD MY DRAFT??? STOP THIS MADNESS AT ONCE IVE GOT NOTHING LEFT TO DELETE

[dirtytransmasc]

(mild vent)

when your autistic and someone gets mad at you for not doing a thing, because you've been paralyzed all day (and for the last month tbh) and yell at you, partially justifiably, because you were asked multiple times over the span of days to do it, but you couldn't get your brain to work, so while yelling isn't the best solution, you understand their anger, while doing the thing they wanted you to do, and not letting you do it or them, so now you feel stuck, because you can't move on without "making it up to them", so know your crying like a little kid in the bathroom, over something you know for a fact they aren't even mad about anymore, and would probably apologize for yelling at you for if they noticed you were still upset, but your brain is literally fixated on the event, and your to afraid to start a conversation, because you know you'll probably only make them mad again, cause as much as you love and trust the person involved, they aren't perfect, and are neurotypical and will only see your explanations as excuses.....

not me, no, not at all.

(I'm fine don't worry, just having a funky little moment where my brains trying to implode over a little more than nothing and I'm trying to logic it back into staying vaguely calm)

[bcneheaded]

tumblr... explain to me a thing. explain to me why every so often..... just occasionally on a whim, you decide to give me the legacy editor and ONLY the legacy editor BUT ONLY after a post has been made and I go to edit it. explain.... please. go on, I'm listening

[souplix]

in 5 days ill be in liv's arms

[spicyraeman]

I wake up, I draw Lae'zel

[toruland]

i dunno if i want baizhu or alhaitham, cause i know for damn sure i won’t get both :(

[starry-bi-sky]

mmmmmm read a disciple shen yuan/shizun luo binghe fanfic about two days ago where the first chapter was the Immortal Conference arc, and SQQ was the one who had to be pushed into the abyss (he was still the villain) except Luo Binghe was refusing and was like, lowkey losing his mind about SQQ being so close to the edge. SQQ ended up having to be the one to fall in himself because of the system's punishment system. The rest of the fic is leading up to that moment. But like, MMM i've been obsessively thinking about that first chapter for DAYS ever since.

now i've been in svsss for a grand total of *checks watch* a week. but god obsessed with that. I want to write/read a fic where disciple SQQ goes a little nuts down there. Like keep all of the things that make SQQ, SQQ, but just. Throw in a little bit more trauma in there. A little bit of a mental break. Let him go a little nuts as a treat. Just a tad unhinged. I wanna see him go, just a little, "god fuck it, i've tried so hard to change this shitty story's outcome and it feels like everything i've done has been for nothing. I'm going to die in this world no matter what I do, I've been doomed from the start, so might as well die the way I want to." and he just, breaks a little! Under all the stress.

He still retains the traits that makes shen yuan, shen yuan, like his overwhelming kindness. But he's just! yk. A little less patient. Paranoid. Jumpy. Colder. A little more aloof and closed off. A little more Shen Jiu. He's no asshole child abuser, but he was a Number One Hater in his past life and he's leaning into that old habit a little more now.

(On a totally coincidental not-at-all related note, there's not enough SJ-and-SY-are-the-same-people fics out there that i've found. This is totally unrelated...)

The Endless Abyss turns the mind into an over-sharpened blade, and SQQ is both fascinated and perhaps a little excited to explore a place that doesn't have a lot of info on it in the mortal realm, but still terrified out of his mind. And he's no Luo Binghe, he doesn't have the sheer brute strength and power to just bulldoze his way through, so he has to be a lot more sneaky and cunning if he wants to survive.

The fic itself role-swapped LBH and SQQ so that SQQ was the half-demon (which lowkey fucks) and LBH the human, but I'm equally-if-not-more obsessed with the idea that LBH remains the half-heavenly demon and SQQ the human. If only because I keep thinking about SQQ befriending some demons (particularly and specifically a group of succubi) and they grow very attached to this Human Cultivator so through magic plot stuff they create some kind of seal/illusion/talisman that makes SQQ appear as a demon because a human cultivator in the endless abyss may as well be the equivalent of putting a giant neon target on your back.

And iirc Shen Jiu was taught demonic cultivation by that one guy(?? i've only been here a week so im not caught up in ALL of the lore yet) so that could totally happen here.

(On the other end of the realms, poor Shizun Luo Binghe is just. losing his fucking mind over losing his most precious and beloved disciple. About .5 seconds from burning down the peaks himself. somebody sedate him.)

The Endless Abyss sucks and SQQ is having a really terrible time and can feel himself going lowkey mad, but also holy shit look at all this WORLD-BUILDING. look at all this flora and fauna, and oh if he had the equipment for it he'd be writing all of this down. ALL OF IT. He was kinda-sorta-already planning on never leaving the Abyss as some sort of fucked up self-exile and self-preservation thing, but now he might? actually just?? never leave if he can help it, like he lowkey likes it down here.

anyways the next time anyone ever sees SQQ again he's got hair so long its almost touching the ground and he's either in rags and half-feral or he's been completely dolled up by his adoptive succubi sisters and still about three seconds from biting anyone who tries to touch him. (he's also lowkey trying to book it back down to the abyss even if he has desperately missed all of his friends and shizun)

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

still unwell over the prospect of Howdy slowly putting the pieces together and having a complete mental breakdown over it. Laughingstock edition!

[morporkian-cryptid]

@ Sherlock & Co fandom am I going fucking insane??? Did anyone else hear Soames say "Thank you for that James" in The Three Students part 1???

I know I did not imagine it, I went back to listen to that bit and it is definitely in the episode but it is not in the transcript. At 22:35 in the episode on Spotify (time code including the ads in the middle), Soames says the following:

"but if we may have a brief chit chat down this way... let me just grab- ah, thank you for that James."

But in the transcript there's only this:

The building is empty, all the students have been sent home after the burglary. Even the cleaning staff is being kept out (as noted by Sherlock's remark on the absence of trace of recent cleaning). Which means the only people still in the building are the professors.

Professors.

Professor. James.

WHY IS IT NOT IN THE FUCKING TRANSCRIPT???????????????

[sig-got-a-gun]

AGG

I CRAVE PHYSICAL AFFECTION

[th3idi0tsquad]

just some cover pieces i made for my fan thingies, might change or make better in future. (especially the emh one, THAT THING IS KINDA FUCK ASS)

anyways feel free to yell at me.

[motherismotheringggg]

not arguing with a man with big beautiful doe eyes, whatever you say my gorgeous, handsome, stunning, sweet prince <3

[alunsinas]

reunion—

[neodiekido]

kaede constantly dragging shuichi around in the prologue and chapter 1 is so funny i love them. her emotional support depressed guy